#I KNOW THIS ISNT TRC

[squash1]

[eternalchemy]

sometimes i think about when jordan called declan dauntless in the dreamer trilogy and then i think about both aurora and mor calling declan dauntless and i need to lie face down on the floor for five hours until i feel normal again

[tiktaaliker]

i gotta say i think part of why i fell so deep into the raven cycle was the fact that will patton is by far the best audiobook narrator ive listened to. like not only is this guy's inflection and accent PERFECT for this exact story and setting, but theres a distinct and fitting character voice for EVERYONE, and he even has slightly different ways to read the fucking NARRATION based on who the chapter's pov is. it genuinely adds soooo much to the story. ive been getting picky about audiobook narrators lately but will patton is a fucking VISIONARY i swear to god

[2000sflipphone]

Mourning the future when I won't be the same age as the Gangsey

[robobee]

I'd love to hear more about the Kavinsky recovery au if you so wish. Also it might just be me but your link to your ao3 gave me an error 404.

yeee I changed my url but forgot to change the link, it's fixed now BUT if you went there for K I regret i say I haven't actually actually uploaded anything with him I don't think 😔

OKAY OKAY SOO glad you're giving me an opportunity to talk about my ocs Koseph Javinsky and Cenry Hheng, the latter of whom I like an entirely normal amount and am not insane about (lying) . I say this mostly to preface that the kavinsky recovery au is deeply linked to my deranged postcanon postbreakup Henry AU arc, which also goes back and fucks around with a lot of canon so that I can get what I want. my excuse, as always, is that It Happened Off Screen and what does ronan know, anyway.

the general outline is that kavinsky survives the dragon situation at the end of tdt but like, BARELY, covered with second degree burns and basically a limp noodle in the grass until he's nearly stepped on by Henry and whoever else seondeok sent to pick up proko etc to avoid magic being exposed. and he wakes up to Henry being entirely too casual about this, but the conversation ends with K being too beaten down to really protest anything as he's hauled up to be dragged to a private hospital. most of his family and most of Henrietta assumes he's dead, and nobody cares to look further, except some members of the dream pack, but they wouldn't even begin to know where to, so they have to drop it too.

and then we just don't see him. he shows up again in the dreamer trilogy for ONE scene where Declan knocks at the door of a decently nice little house and cleanvinsky opens it, is HORRIFIED, and then slams the door back shut. and then his boyfriend has to come out to not so gently tell Declan that he and ronan can fuck OFF forever thanks

but obviously, yk, he's been very slowly recovering over the course of several months, the burns are so bad he can barely even sit up let alone relapse, the forest has rejected him so he can barely dream anything except slivers of grass, and so he's essentially trapped in a room with the occasional Henry and more often the quote unquote employee Henry hired to keep an eye on him that's accidentally helping just because k's heart rate shoots up when he's around and it's so humiliating that he NEEDS to do the required PT and get this heart rate monitor OFFFF

again, it's literally oc×barelycanondifferentcharacternow so I won't yap too hard, it's also distinctly colored by religion and I don't want to drop THAT nonsense unpromted. but sometimes a beautiful brown man and his equally beautiful overbearing family can show you so much love with so many veiled threats that it . well doesn't fix you but it helps

but anyway, back to td3, this part is a lot more vague because of all the variables (and my preferred path is TOO lore dependent on stuff i made up. yes more than ive already said), but I do like the idea of K being a teacher for dreamers again but a GOOD one this time, because he is smart, he IS good at it, but with age and support he can actually be useful. altho I like him being neutral and out of the main fight, I ALSO like him supporting the moderators in the sense that dreamer children are so often overpowerful and alone, it's good to have a force to control/curb them 🤷‍♂️ him also being distinctly aligned with HENRY of all people is very good to me because it's like, hello, my character foils are UNIONIZING. plus ( being a well rounded grownup vs ronan regressing worse and worse in td3 is satisfying

[aidenwaites]

My one gripe with Raven Boys is that as far as I remember Whelk never saw Noah. I was SO ready for that final confrontation and for the sight of Noah to stump him or drive him a little more crazy

[steelycunt]

i have officially read. 40 books this year!! last year i read uhh?? i want to say like seven. wahoo!! :-)

[koushirouizumi]

"Do you have people who won't let you {W O R R Y}?" {H O L I C} ~ Vol. 12 (Ch. 140) {Compiled by Me} {DO NOT Re-post}

BONUS:

"Your hearts are similar"

"DON'T {D I S A P P E A R}"

[thursdayg1rl]

10 months............. 10 months......

[angabreadz]

Tbh not sure why but following this book is kind of hard so far,, but its kind of cool i like adam and blue the most :)

[wherebeeslive]

So I know it doesn't come up again cause Maggie dropped this particular chekov gun but is the Camaro wheel they found in the lake a dream object Ronan accidentally dumped or???

Rereading raven boys cause what else am I gonna do and Gansey says that Adam is good at making things quiet after the lynch brawl at ninos I fear the Gansey Blue Adam throuple theory has legs

[plutoslvr]

so i'm rereading trc with my friend and we're currently on bllb and i just read chapter 30 and in it blue's asking malory what gansey used to be like before he moved to henrietta and the gansey that malory describes to blue is so different from the gansey she currently knows and i just cant stop thinking about it.

first off, malory describes gansey as "small" as in not just his height but as in gansey was young and it makes sense because at the time gansey was 15 but it just kind of does something to my heart when i think about young, small gansey trying to figure out why he's still alive.

malory then goes on to say, "He was still trying to prove that he hadn't just hallucinated. He was still quite obsessed with the event [his death] itself." gansey first died when he was 10 and to be obsessing over your death for FIVE years trying to convince others but mostly yourself that you didn't make it up that you actually died and not some part of a childs imagination it must've fucked with him so bad???

then malory tells blue exactly how obsessed gansey was with his death and was to the extent that he was always drawing bees and hornets and "Got screaming nightmares over it- he had to get his own place since I couldn't sleep with it [...] Sometimes these fits would happen in the day, too. We'd just be toddling through some riding path in Leicestershire and next thing I knew he'd be on the ground clawing his face like a mental patient." the gansey that blue currently knows doesnt act like that but this was only two years prior its fucking INSANE and it's here blue starts to think about the facade gansey had learned to throw up since he was a kid.

AND IT GETS WORSE SOMEHOW?? earlier in bllb in chapter 3, gansey talks about how he felt like running and how it had been a long time since he had felt that way. at the time it didn't make sense like wdym by that gansey but then back in chapter 30 malory tells blue how gansey just disappeared one day. left most of his bags and left without a word to anyone not even his family who then called malory to ask for gasneys whereabouts. "He picked himself up and moved on so easily, so quickly. He had done it so many times before England, Jane, and it was old hat to him."

it makes blue rethink every conversation she had with gansey previously, similarly to when adam heard gansey's voice of fear in the cave in chapter one where gansey had the panic attack because its around this book where the gangsey start to figure, as blue puts it, "It was more like the Gansey she'd seen was a partial truth."

it's so very easy to pass off ganseys insecurities and his feelings about how he should comfort other people but they shouldn't do the same for him because he's had it the easiest (his words not mine) because he himself skips over it so fast. like he'll mention something and then act like he's never thought or said it, like its something normal which really isnt and then it slowly makes sense that gansey throughout the series, starts to lose that mask (there's multiple masks but thats a conversation for another time) and the readers and the gangsey get to see what the real gansey is like instead of the bulletproof, untouchable gansey they're used to seeing.

the idea of gansey running is insane in a good way because its nothing like the gansey we know, plus paired with the fact about how young gansey has me clawing at the walls because he's just this kid desperate to prove he wasn't hallucinating, trying to find some purpose to his life before he finds it in henrietta. a kid who was still terrified of his death who relived it, screaming every night who still had panic attacks anywhere and everywhere and would end up clawing at himself because there's hornets everywhere. a kid who doesn't stay in one place too long who learns to put on an easy smile to convince everyone okay and gets so good at it that it works and people think that hes normal and okay when he's anything but.

idk pre canon gansey is something that i need to inject into my bloodstream and analyse in a lab.

[plounce]

as someone whos played ffxiv for almost 8 years now i gotta say its SO exciting to see youve started playing. i really enjoy seeing you talking about trc and kurofai (unfortunately i know absolutely nothing about xmen so it goes right over my head) and so im excited to see any thoughts you have about the ffxiv story and characters!

HEEHEEHEE. most of my ffxivposting has been in a thread on my twt priv, but after the recent botslaughter im gonna try and move it over here.

im at the beginning of stormblood. here are my thoughts:

as i said previously, in ARR i was very meh on alphinaud. i have a grudge against his ARR va (due to critical role), i was like "WHY are we starting a PARAMILITARY ORG", and i was kind of like hey. im playing a 6ft tall elf lady with a huge axe. you fancy little twerp dont boss me around. the end of ARR was soooo crazy and good though, really kicked the plot into gear for me, and those cutscenes were like WHOA!! OMG THE GUY FROM THE BEGINNING CUTSCENE... and in heavensward he became my little boy. because he basically reversed all the things i didnt really like about him. new VA. constant regret and shame about the crystal braves. and everyone was like awww hahaha youre a nice little boy. and he is. he is a boy. and he's polite. and he got a new outfit that covered his midriff, which i appreciated.

minfillia... im sorry. her VA was so insanely bad. and i never really DID anything with her that made me feel attached to her. she felt very bland and generic. i was like okay cool 👍 see ya. i also think her outfit was so blaaaahhhh like it gave me girl next door final fantasy character, NOT leader of an NGO, which would have been more appealing to me.

y'shtola: one of my mutuals is constantly posting her very cute WoL/yshtola fanart and i thought i would like a bit more than i presently do... i like her! i just feel like she hasnt gotten to do very much that isnt going "hmm.. aether." i think it's delightful that she shares a VA with sera from dragon age. bitches with bangs 4 lesbians

urianger: when i first saw urianger i was aghast. i was like. PEOPLE ARE HORNY FOR THAT THING? but now that ive seen more of his shb/edw outfit im like aha i see. you have gender. you're either like "do not perceiveth me" or "dripping with gold in a lightweight backless gown". i really enjoyed his undercover outfit with the WoD. i don't think he did anything wrong. he was like "yeah i did lie to everyone and help manipulate events to send minfilia to a different data center. i feel absolutely awful about it, i wish my trolley problem principles had not made me deceiveth thou all, i am a horrible villain, pray do not feel compelled to forgive me" and i was like nah youre good 👍 like she isnt DEAD. plus he always tried to help me a little bit when he could. i like his funny voice. i like how in ARR he was voiced by fenris dragonage. take those goggles and hood off again mx tism

tataru: if lalafells didn't look like that. i would be shipping my WoL with her. i think she is so cute and fun and a delight. she is a joy. my girl JUGGLES!!!!! she makes OUTFITS!!!!!!!!! she has A KETTLE WITH A FANCY NAME!!!!!!!!!! and she works so hard. im so glad she got to come with us to ishgard. she is my joy. my light...

thancred: i have heard tell that he really leaves behind his initial lothario characterization, and i really have not seen it in forever, which made ARR thancred perfectly fine to me. i was prepared for him to be much more egregious. i wish i knew him a bit better before he got possessed. i was like oh okay! yeah i guess i havent seen him in a while. which made me sad because i love possession storylines i think they are so juicy. his ponytail and rattee (like a ratstache but a goatee) are funny to me. thancred nakey images were funny. there was a moment towards the end of hvw when he came back and i talked to him in ishgard between convos with nobles and he said stuff that was very commiserating and i was like okay i have decided you and my WoL are complaining friends. sipping the haterade together. i think he's like 5'7". like with alphinaud, the character development in this game has really surprised me with how effective it feels. i look forward to seeing him grimly yet compassionately fail forward even more. and to be a single dad. aforementioned mutual (who i know through klapollo) is into thancred/urianger so im also looking forward to confining them into the yaoi compartment

cid: HE IS MY FRIEND :) i love how he's a short king. i like how he was simply like "fascism and imperialism are bad. i am going to go fight against it by building big airships :)" no qualms no struggle just knew what was right and went and did it. he's like a gay older coworker who you go out for drinks with sometimes and invites you to barbeques. i enjoy him and nero's turbodivorce saga.

alisaie: i completely forgot to do all the bahamut raids in ARR so when she showed up post-hvw i was like oh it's time for the girltwin! and she was like "oh we've worked together already :)" and i was like oh god. we only had one conversation. oops. so far i think she's a delight. i have heard that she's a bit of a lesbo. good for her. love that she gets a sword and she gets to be the mean one of the two twins. i cant wait for her little red jacket. looking forward to more >:)

krile: have not seen much of her so far but i LOVE how she has a cloak with cat ears, so cute. LOVE how she teases alphinaud. im like yes... shared character history... quite fun...

ysayle: I LOVE YOU DRAGON ELSAGARD I LOVE YOUUUUUU BIIIIIIIIITCH... I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. i love her style. i love her political convictions. i love her gap moe with the moogles. i think my WoL had a crush on her. i think it's messed up that during the scene where the WoL and alphinaud are prying the eyes off of estinien, she touches alphinaud's hand. she should be touching MY HAND!!!!!!!!!!!! all love to haurchefaunt but I BONDED WITH HER.

estinien: i know many people like estinien. every time he spoke a word at ysayle i felt like a barking like her guard dog. DONT YOU SPEAK TO MY GIRL IN THAT TONE YOU BROODYBOY SMELLMAN. SHUT UP. i assume he softens up now that he is retired from All That. i thought his relationship with alphinaud was very sweet - i liked when he taught alphinaud how to gather firewood. i think my WoL only tolerates estinien because alphinaud is so attached.

haurchefant: i was still barely reading dialogue in ARR when he was introduced. so he showed up and was like OMG HI AGAIN BESTIE!!!!!! and i was like oh! that man! one of my friends is gaymarried to him so he's like my gay brother-in-law. i am a lesbian and my WoL is also a lesbian so we were hagging/tyking (dyke tyke) out with each other. the facial animation on the WoL when he croaks was astoundingly good. i call him horsey

aymeric: well he certainly is competent, principled, and nice. one of the more handsome elezen men in the game. i know he's implied playersexual so i really need him to stop inviting me to dinner because i have had conversations with dude friends like that before and it is so painfully awkward. i think it is great that he committed fratricide AND popecide. wahoo!

lyse: i really enjoyed yda. yknow. i thought she was such a fun cockney karate bimbo. i didn't know she was lyse. i've heard about lyse. and how she is conspicuously the only blonde blue-eyed ala mhigan. and how she is a source of some of the collar-tugging politics in stormblood. sigh. so. i am now burdened with her.

raubahn: I LOVE RAUBAHNNNNNNNNNN I LOVE HIMMMM i love how he has a small adult son. i love how he is trying so hard. i love how he is so righteous and hardworking. the misery lolorito and ilberd put him through during hvw made me so mad on his behalf. when lolorito was like "oh, how we laughed at how upset you were!" i was like RAUBAHN. HE IS THE PERFECT HEIGHT FOR YOU TO JUST PUNT ACROSS THE TOWN SQUARE. PUNT HIM RAUBAHN. YOU DESERVE IT. and i love a one-armed king. kurogane swag

lucia: i think she is cool and fun. hahaha dont potentially be in love with aymeric queen youre so hot and cool and butch

matoya: SHE'S SO COOL. I LOVE HER DESIGN. HER VOICE ACTING. AND HER RUDENESS. AND OF COURSE THE FROGS

moenbryda: i thought she was so fun and cool. i was like cool!! new character!! big funny woman i love it!! and then near bluefog she dished about her childhood a little and i was like... is that a deathflag. and it was :(

okay thats all the npcs i can think to have anything to say about.

i was pleasantly surprised by the way that lalafells are not the lolibait/shotabait i had grimly prepared for them to be. they are just short funny guys for the most part. moving past that, i then got slammed into by the giant brick that says "BEAST TRIBES". i heard that the new writer has made their writing a lot better (apparently the alliance leaders acknowledge that they have been basically been doing genocide on these sentient beings, which is helping me push forward through stuff)! i do their quests really regularly because i like helping them out. i would really love to see someone with more expertise on the subject write about the presentation of indigenous peoples in ffxiv, because i think that there is a lot going on that is vital to critically inspect.

i have to go eat dinner now. but i will try to post more thoughts on here as i have them >:)

[robobee]

[gestures vaguely] this man is experiencing the horrors of being 15

post trk deleted scene where gansey finally thinks to ask Henry how old he is and henrys like oh. I just turned 15 last December! and ganseys like sorry wh. were you FOURTEEN during the glendower thing. and henrys like err haha. I had an early growth spurt? um. and ganseys like

[crimeronan]

declan referring to adam as "the person ronan cared about most in the world" is a sentiment that's theoretically sweet and might even be true on a good day but i think it's mainly just the BEST use of dramatic irony in any piece of media ever it is SO FUCKING FUNNY SCREAM . declan out here pacing and clawing at the yellow wallpaper or whatever like "why didn't he call you, his loving boyfriend who he loves so much, something must be REALLY WRONG" adam sitting kubrick stare white knuckle grip in the taco bell drive thru or whatever like "yeahhh haha unfoooooortunately he just accused me of killing him to death and then told me to fuck off and die like the evil sack of backstabbing shit i am. i think.... you might wanna............ try gansey,,"

[lafleshlumpeater]

YES WE DO NEED TO TALK MORE OMG

morrighan is short and sweet but still has a good plot which doesnt move too fast, if i remember correctly it's only around 250 pages

YESS ARAM AND SAMUEL TRIPPING OVER THEMSELVES FOR WREN LIT HAD ME GIGGLING WE LOVEE

also youre so real IMAGINE a book with mason and synove, i think i'd die

if the trc series is even SLIGHTLY like DOT, i know i'll love it <3 and tbh shatter me isnt the BEST, but ive been promised by my neighbour (who's lending them to me) that it gets better so im persevering </3

ARA YOU YOUVE READ DOT???

OH MY GOSH YES I HAVEEE IT'S SO SO SO GOOD I READ BOTH BOOKS WITHIN A FEW DAYS

the beginning had me hooked immediately but i was kinda sceptical abt the whole in the wild thing (why are they moving along so fast?? wheres the slowburn?? angst?? fluff??) but then it made sooo much more sense later + made it even more angsty. what are your thoughts??