#I HAVE. I literally cannot avoid it because anywhere i want to work is doing activism because every day stuff i care about is trashed

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★ !! SAFE & SOUND by @thatfeelinwhenyou Navigating one year post-apocalypse, when the dead began to walk and the living proved to be no better, you decide that trust is a luxury you can no longer afford. But after a run-in with a group of seven peculiar survivors, you learn that there are bigger problems than just the undead roaming the streets. You also start to wonder if there’s more to survival than simply staying alive. ᝰ dystopian, post-apocalyptic survival, horror/thriller, slow burn, ANGST , FUCK THIS IS SO GOOD. EVERY TIME A UPDATE COMES OUT I LITERALLY STOP EVERYTHING I AM DOING.ᐟ₊ ⊹

BLOODSTRUCK by @jjunieworld (deactivated) sugg. 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗅𝖾𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝗏𝖺𝗆𝗉𝗂𝗋𝖾 𝖻𝗈𝗒𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗍𝖺𝗄𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖿𝗂𝗋𝗌𝗍 𝖻𝗂𝗍𝖾. ᝰ vampire au / vampire!enha / established relationship / suggestive / blood / biting / dry humping / kissing / skinship .ᐟ₊ ⊹

WHEN YOU ACCIDENTLY TEXT THEM "WANNA BANG" by @jayparked c. ᝰ best friend enhypen x gender neutral reader / text au .ᐟ₊ ⊹

WITH EASE by @hhmnya f. ᝰ in which hyung line helps you with your kid .ᐟ₊ ⊹

₊˚⊹꒷ LEE HEESEUNG ꒷⊹˚₊

ᝰ.ᐟ DO YOU THINK I AM FRAGILE by @just-nc-tea f, a, sugg. A car accident has turned your life upside down, leaving you with a knee and ankle that ache like they belong to someone three times your age. Navigating college with these setbacks is hard enough, but when your overprotective dad insists you take an internship with the men’s hockey team, you’re thrust back into the world you’ve spent years avoiding. The rink represents everything you’ve lost—and then there’s Heeseung, the captain whom you somehow cannot stop thinking about. ᝰ Hockey team captain! Heeseung x the coaches daughter / Ice hockey au / College sports aus / angst / hurt / comfort / slow burn / fluff, a lot of falling asleep in the same bed / some good old family drama .ᐟ₊ ⊹

SULKING WHEN HE HAS TO LEAVE FOR WORK by @jaysng f. pregnancy aches and morning sulks become part of your routine, but heeseung’s soothing touch and playful efforts to put you back to sleep remind you just how loved you are—even when work calls him away. ᝰ nonidol!heeseung!husband x fem!preg!reader .ᐟ₊ ⊹

I'LL BE HERE WHEN YOU'RE BACK by @honeyedfate f, sugg. ever since his room was revealed to the world on mbc world, heeseung has not known peace—whether it be from engenes or his very own girlfriend ᝰ idol!lee heeseung x gf!reader .ᐟ₊ ⊹

CROSS THE LINE by @heegyukeluv s, f. “How do you know if someone is flirting with you?”  It was Heeseung’s question to you, and you were left with no option other than to show how you do it. ᝰ childhood best friends to lovers / fluff / kinda miscomunication? / smut .ᐟ₊ ⊹

SOMETHING OLD, SOMETHING NEW by @stllmnstr a. MC and Heeseung meet again at Jays wedding years after their break up and they have some unresolved feelings because they still love each other ᝰ angst / Exes to ?? .ᐟ₊ ⊹

₊˚⊹꒷ PARK JAY ꒷⊹˚₊

FAST FORWARD by @asahicore f. After yet another romantic disappointment in the form of one Jake Sim, you go to the well you’ve always believed to grant wishes and ask for your one and true love to appear. That night, you go to sleep in your bed but wake up in a strange house. When you head downstairs, you find a man washing the dishes and telling you your favorite meal is waiting on the table for you. You’ve spent hours glaring at the back of that head, you could recognize it anywhere—it belongs to none other than Park Jongseong, your high school sworn enemy... and future husband, or so it seems. ᝰ high school au / the type of e2l where they never really hated each other to begin with .ᐟ₊ ⊹

MUSIC TO MY EARS by @jayparked s. "Ride me." Jay huffs. It's a command, not a request. He moves back to the head of the bed, adjusting the pillows before leaning back against them. Lifting the covers away from his body, he removes his boxers slowly. looking into your eyes as he does so. ᝰ music producer jay / established relationship / thunder and lightning storms / cigarette smoking / early morning sex .ᐟ₊ ⊹

★ !! THE ART & SCIENCE OF PARENTING 101 by @jakesimfromstatefarm f, c. the art & science of parenting 101 (PSY1009)— in this interactive course, students will explore the psychological, social, and biological foundations of parenthood. through a mix of theory and hands-on practice, you'll master the art of raising a simulated baby—aka the 'robot child'. late-night feedings, tantrum taming, and crisis control are all part of the deal.   what you didn't expect to be part of the deal? getting paired with jay park—the last person you'd trust to raise, well, anything. you’re pretty sure he couldn’t even take care of a pet rock. now, you’re stuck co-parenting this robot baby together for 40% of your final grade.  ᝰ fluff / comedy / e2l!au / college!au /(fake)parenting!au / he fell first, she fell harder type beat/ Such a banger .ᐟ₊ ⊹

★!! SUN KEEPS RISING (LIKE IT TENDS TO DO) by @zreamy f, s, a. being the mum friend is rewarding, if not a little tricky—you would know. it wouldn't hurt to let someone look after you for once, would it? ᝰ summer au / strangers to lovers, / friends-in-law to lovers really / smut / fluff / angst / GUYS THEY WAY ZO PORTRAYS JAY? UGH. PERFECTION .ᐟ₊ ⊹

AS THE EARTH BURNS TO THE GROUND, LAY HERE WITH ME by @fleuryuns a. it takes an asteroid hurdling toward earth for you and jay to be pulled apart, and then brought back together—but it's worth it ᝰ wealthy (ex)bf!jay x scientist!femreader / end of the world au / exes to lovers / arguments / some platonic!jake thrown in there / ambiguous ending / elements from the movie don't look up / inaccurate portrayal of astrophysics and high school debate clubs .ᐟ₊ ⊹

₊˚⊹꒷ SIM JAKE ꒷⊹˚₊

OOPS, JUNO by @moonheecore f, s. Getting accidentally pregnant was the last thing you ever imagined. You were still in school, with so many plans for the future ahead of you. Yet, you felt certain that keeping the baby was the decision you wanted to make. What would your aloof mother think? and, perhaps most importantly, you wonder if Jake would feel the same way? ᝰ college AU / established relationship / baby daddy Jake / toxic mother trope / abortion mentioned / frat parties / body changes during pregnancy mentioned .ᐟ₊ ⊹

KISSES SHARED WITH JAKE by @elikajinnie f, sugg. jake watching you do your makeup and cant ressist kissing you

★!! THE TATTOO ON MY RING FINGER by @thatfeelinwhenyou His neglect wasn’t an accident—it was a choice, one you kept excusing as “busy” while swallowing your hurt and waiting for him to care enough to show up. The harsh truth? He simply didn't care enough to make the effort. Remember this, ladies: if he truly wanted to, he would. "Busy" is just another word for “asshole.” And “asshole” is another word for the man you’re married to. ᝰ marriage of convenience / slow burn romance / enemies to lovers (kinda) / second chance romance / angst .ᐟ₊ ⊹

THE LOVE RIDE by @whjluv SMAU. after your mutual breakup, your ex disappears from the public eye for almost a year, only to comeback with a deeply emotional album entirely about you, sending fans into a frenzy. they analyze every lyric and link it to your past relationship, causing your breakup to become once again the talk of the internet. upset and surprised that the so private Jake preferred to deal with his emotions publicly instead of talking it out with you, you drop a single in response, highlighting the parts of your breakup he left out. ᝰ smau with some writing / singer au / exes to lovers / second chance / miscommunication trope / angst / fluff / humor .ᐟ₊ ⊹

NO DOUBT by @jakesimfromstatefarm f, a. struggling to balance a world tour, endless responsibilities, and...well, the sting of getting dumped by his girlfriend, jake finds peace & comfort confiding in you—one of his closest friends. what begins as lighthearted late-night phone calls while he's away on tour deepens into something more, quickly pulling you both into uncharted emotional territory. as your connection with jake intensifies, so does your inner turmoil—torn between the comfort of your easy relationship with him and the terrifying possibility of falling for someone you're not even sure you can have in the first place. but jake? jake has absolutely no doubt of what he wants—and spoiler alert? it's you. ᝰ idol/jake x f!reader, [ft. childhoodbestfriend!jungwon / bestfriends!enha / friends to lovers!au / angstttt / fluff / crack .ᐟ₊ ⊹

ᝰ.ᐟ THE TRUTH UNTOLD & PT. 2 by @just-nc-tea f, a, sugg. Jake’s world takes a nosedive when he gets a wedding invitation from his high school ex—the same ex who cheated on him—with your ex. Desperate to avoid showing up alone Jake ropes you into a fake relationship, just for the evening. Originally. But if you’re going to sell the lie, you have to make it convincing. That means dates, inside jokes, learning the little details about each other that real couples would know. By the time the wedding arrives, neither of you are sure where the act ends and the truth begins. ᝰ Hockeyplayer! Jake / college sports / angst / hurt / comfort / slow burn/ fluff / suggestive / fake dating / he fell first and he fell harder.ᐟ₊

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★!! CAPTAIN'S LOG by @peachenle sugg. "If you’re trying to be subtle about checking me out, it’s really not working.” You were too drunk to care, and met his eyes, “Yeah, yeah you caught me. Life’s more fun without subtlety. ᝰ hockey college!au / fratboy!au / sexual themes .ᐟ₊ ⊹ Guys I am so in love with this story! Defintely check it out!!

★!! DOWN THE HATCH by @peachenle f, sugg. a collection of moments with sunghoon, shared over meals, snacks, and drinks. a riff off of timestamps. not in chronological order. a continuation/epilogue of captain’s log. ᝰ college!au / fratboy!au / fluff / established relationship / some suggestive content .ᐟ₊ ⊹

THE LIGHTHOUSE by @jjunieworld (deactivated) f, a, h, s. the land has always been something you desperately wished you could walk on. be like the humans and walk among them. one dark and stormy night, you are granted your wish—but, it comes with a deadly price. and you only have one month to decide if you’re willing to pay it. ᝰ strangers to lovers / kinda love at first sight /mermaid!reader / lighthouse keeper!sunghoon /fantasy / slow burn / slice of life / forced proximity / classic story of a mermaid washing up on shore with a twist / slight smidge of horror elements .ᐟ₊ ⊹

WE'LL ALWAYS HAVE THIS SUMMER by @asahicore f, s, a. Your mom ruins your summer plans by sending you to the equestrian center your grandmother owns in the south of France, wanting you to spend some time away from the city and take a break from your med studies. Although you’d been determined to spend the worst time ever there, you soon find out that maybe the cold but cute horse nerd next door who doesn’t want to talk to you might actually turn this summer into the best one of your life. ᝰ summer au / strangers to mutual dislike to friends to lovers ig / city girl x country boy type beat .ᐟ₊ ⊹

★!! SPF 23 by @zreamy f, s. for as long as you can remember, your summers have been much the same, largely spent in your hometown, relaxing by the local pool. when you get back home this summer, things seem like they'll go the same way, until you get to the pool that is — when did the lifeguard get so hot? ᝰ smut, fluff, people that kinda know each other to lovers, summer au, lifeguard au, sunghoon is buff and shy and ugh guys its SO good .ᐟ₊ ⊹

★!! THE DOLLMAKER by @jjunbug a,f,h. you were sunghoon’s muse, his flawless, perfect wife that he dresses in frilly dresses and makes sure you always looked like the idealized woman. that much was evident from all the dolls he made of you that sat proudly throughout your home. but, when sunghoon isn’t there, the dolls move and show you things that would otherwise be hidden in the shadows. one day, they show you something so frightening, something completely sinister that you force yourself to believe that it isn’t real. your beloved husband wouldn’t do something like that, would he? you weren’t so sure about your answer anymore. ᝰ established relationship / angsty & mature themes / smut / some fluff / husband & dollmaker!sunghoon / gothic vibes /supernatural elements / THIS WAS SO SCARY BUT SO GOOD OH MY GOD .ᐟ₊ ⊹

WHY by @hoonieyun a. breaking up with your boyfriend means losing a lover but what happens when your boyfriend was also your best friend, meaning you lost both and now have to face him for a popular youtube show ᝰ angst / heartbreak / exes reunited / exes to ..? .ᐟ₊ ⊹

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RUINED MAKE OUT SESSIONS by @rose-petles sugg.

TEXTING BF!NI-KI by @jaeyunluvbot SMAU, c.

YOU'RE NO GOOD FOR ME, BUT BABY I WANT YOU by @purinfelix f. after growing tired of his constant teasing you made up your mind not to give Niki anymore of your attention, but you should've known that he wouldn't let you go that easily - and is willing to go to desperate measures to get you just to look at him ᝰ delinquent Niki x class president reader .ᐟ₊ ⊹

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[anim-ttrpgs]

Y'all state in the Eureka rulebook (at least the version I have) "In our experience, the more preparation,the better, no matter the genre." I was wondering if you've expanded on that anywhere? I've been rambling in my drafts about how different games talk about prep, including PbtA games which often state outright that you should only make limited preparations.

Yeah this is something that it would be a good idea to expand upon, because “GM prep” is word that has been so diluted and corrupted by D&D5e and its toxic critical role play culture, where “GM prep” means “they will do this, and when they do, the music will be timed just right and the battle map will be so impressive, etc.” PBTA is telling you to avoid prep because it doesn’t want you doing that kind of prep (and no good RPG does). This can work for PBTA for a number of reasons that I actually don’t want to get into in the interest of time but it has a lot to do with the pure genre emulation and the limitedness of the playbooks.

Eureka: Investigative Urban Fantasy, however, cannot get away with this because it is both a much more expansive “toolbox” game and because it is explicitly a mystery-investigation game. There are many other games that do also really benefit from the type of prep that Eureka wants from its GMs, such as dungeon crawlers, but Eureka needs it the most.

But the kind of prep Eureka wants isn't “they will do this and when they do it will be perfectly timed and look so impressive,” it is “what if they do this? What if they do that? What if they do some other third thing?”

A Eureka GM needs to have something ready for the shed behind the house, in case a PC decides to go to the shed behind the house, because this is a mystery game. You can’t just improv it, if you make something up on the spot, then and that thing doesn’t perfectly adhere to the facts of the case, the case can be ruined. That’s why we push for using adventure modules so much, because they’re literally designed to do that prep for you.

TL:DR

TTRPGs are games where anything can happen, so instead of being extremely meticulously prepared for one possibility, a good GM is moderately prepared for a wide variety of possibilities. In a game where “the facts” not 100% lining up doesn’t fully matter or isn’t likely to be pried into, you can get away with lower prep in each of your possibilities you’ve prepped for, but in a game where “the facts” and tiny little details are all that matters, you should have a high level of preparedness for each possibility, and the best way to do that is to use an adventure module.

[jeonscatalyst]

I read this from the cult arguments so the reason why they think jikook using Buddy program for enlisting confirms them not being couples is because in south korean military service as you might already know they prohibit the gay sexual intercourse while ON BASE and if you do you face the consequences right? So according to them now that jikook are using the Buddy program by chance IF in future they come out as queer and start dating each other the government is likely to investigate them for using the Buddy program for their advantage, or say they can get investigated for falsification and breaking the law of gay relationship n all during military service and given BTS are Big deal even if jikook come out after many years they will still likely face very serious consequences for breaking the law cause you know how sk is when it comes to BTS like e.g. suga's recent incidents.

So does anyone have a better understanding of this whole act of gay se* + military service and the consequences you face like this law as whole?

Hey anon,

I made this post a while ago about this topic. You can check it out

I’m not sure if you are the same anon who sent this link of this taekooker trying to “prove” why two people in a romantic relationship cannot enlist together but this is the link…….

My thoughts about enlistment and how it works can be found in the post I linked but just to something about what these screenshots say….

This right here is what I like to call manipulation. This person has a very good knowledge of the system and what article 92-6 actually states but they use their own words to completely twist things. I’m not a lawyer but i’ve watched enough shows to know that people have gotten away with murder or heinous crimes because of loopholes in the written law so I’m pretty sure who ever drafted out military laws must know this so they must have EXPLICITLY written down everything that they didn’t want to avoid any loopholes.

Anon, I’d like you to check out what article 92-6 states and show me anywhere that law criminalizes two people being in a relationship. Is there any place the law talks about punishing two people just because they are gay and are in a relationship? I must have missed it so maybe you can show me if you find it.

This is such a simple thing to understand so I truly don’t get why so many people choose to ignore it.

The military doesn’t criminalize people being in a relationship (atleast not officially) they only have a problem with people committing indecent sexual activity on base. So why on earth would there be consequences if Jimin and Jungkook leave the military and decide to come out at some point later? As long as they didn’t break the law by having anal sex or engaging in anything the law considers indecent sexual activity, they are good. Is there any law that states that two lovers cannot enlist together as buddies? There is literally NONE! Also, this makes no sense because not everyone who in romantic relationships have sex (surprise surprise) and seeing as the military has only mentioned having an issue with sex while on base, then why would they go after people who didn’t commit a crime?

If the South Korean military didn’t want two lovers enlisting together as buddies, they would have boldly written it down. Yes, queer people face some injustice and discrimination in the military and sometimes are deemed unfit for service because of their sexual orientation which is unfortunate and sad but the truth is, Jimin and Jungkook have never come as as queer have they? So officially they are just two normal bandmates and friends who decided to enlist together and even if they do come out later, the military would have to prove that they were a couple while enlisted if they want to have an issue with it (which I doubt they would) and we all know that they wouldn’t be able to prove that Jikook were a couple at the time of enlistment unless they got caught having sex, because guess what, it is possible that they could have only become a couple after their military service. So you see how the whole thing doesn’t even make sense right. If you want to consider that the military might try to punish people for being a couple while enlisted, then there are just too many loopholes in the law. I am not even a lawyer but I can make a very good defense case for anyone whom the military tries to prosecute for this using their own written laws.

[nalyra-dreaming]

I'm sorry but I can't believe sex in ep6 even topic of discussion.

1)Why would they go to such lengths and spend their time and resources on making floaty sex, if it didn't mean anything and didn't serve any purpose? What purpose did it serve? Well, the first and last time we also saw floaty sex in ep1 and it was clear representation of connection and pleasure that sends you flying to Saturn and back. So, logically, ep6 sex too supposed to show connection and pleasure.

2) Next point (i'm not sure about this one tbh): perhaps there's one more parallel to ep1 scene - Louis "didn't consider himself a homosexual at that time" and we see cut to him having enthusiastic sex. In ep6 he was telling Daniel about being numb and we have cut to him PARTICIPATING in sex and not just lying there like a corpse.

3) They literally included Lestat stopping and checking on Louis and not doing anything before Louis kissed him. He noticed that Louis wasn't mentally there and stopped. Clear indication that Lestat wanted CONSENSUAL sex, if he truly didn't care he would just proceed to fuck Louis because Louis wasn't stopping him.

4) Give Louis a little agency, would you?(general you, not you, Nalyra) As I said, we didn't have any indication that Louis wad pressured into it, that lestat didn't care about Louis' consent and pleasure. Just because you're depressed doesn't mean you're incapable of making decisions. Louis' kiss was him reassuring lestat that he's here with him. He KNEW that lestat needed reassurance to proceed. Lestat can't read Louis' mind, he can't be 100% if Louis wants it or not, so he has to rely on what Louis TELLS him with words and body language. Louis told lestat with his actions that he wants him to proceed. That's Louis' decision, like it or not

5) I know fandom likes to act like Claudia is mentally 14 forever, but for majority of story she's grown woman. I'm actually not sure if she truly thinks Louis wouldn't mind her being in his head while they're having sex or she's actively disregarding his boundaries (that he didn't establish) but there's fact: it's weird. Maybe she thinks she's helping Louis to "cope" with sex because she's projecting her trauma with Bruce on Loustat (which is understandable!) but for me Louis' sounds uncomfortable, and resigned, half-heartedly trying to deflect Claudia. "Anywhere sounds like nowhere" - for me it was clear that he doesn't really want to leave and doesn't want to have this conversation but he fails to say it outright and shut down Claudia. So he just makes up excuses not to leave, avoids telling NO, and blocks his mind when Lestat notices that something is wrong.

So, my point, that cut from Bruce to Lestat was Claudia's mind coming to comparison. She thinks Louis does it to appease lestat, she's probably tries to help telling Louis about her escape plan, she views Louis' reluctants as fear of Lestat and that's it, when probably main reason is Louis simply not wanting to leave.

I'm so sorry for long essay, hope you don't mind! Love your work and blog:)

:) Glad you like.

And yeah... I cannot believe we're at this point again/still either.

Exactly. This is a deliberate thing, a deliberate connection to the best sex Louis had. As said before, it carries meaning.

Well, I mean, there are a lot more instances of Louis saying something and the show showing us something else. Or vice versa. That is... exactly the point. Louis is telling the tale for an effect. And that effect was to lead to the justified "murder night". But the why will be part of season 2.

I know

Louis is (not just) depressed because of Lestat. He is deep in the rite of passage. He addresses that on the bench. And yeah.. for some reason Louis' never gets his agency in these discussions. Because he could have moved away. He could have left. But he did not want to. He stayed right there, in Rue Royale during those 6 years (for example). Where Lestat could find him. But I digress. Louis does have agency, indeed. And it is often dismissed for some reason -.-

Claudia's thinking is very black and white, pun not intended. It's stark contrast. She hates and loves with the full power of puberty, at all times, no matter her mental age. Her hatred for Lestat colors her perception of Louis' love for him - she just cannot imagine Louis loving him. Oh she understands it. But to her Lestat is like Bruce, the worst of the worst, and she cannot fathom that there are actually vampires out there... who are much, much worse. That is part of the horror, that she just cannot... imagine, because ultimately Lestat and Louis raised her as a child and then a loved family member - not as a coven member. She has no point of reference, unfortunately. And no, Louis neither wants to have that conversation (but he is too nice to shut it down), nor does he want to leave. And that just... flies right over her head.

Neither Claudia nor Louis actually fear Lestat, and definitely not even after the fight. The car scene made that quite clear, imho.

Oh, they are angry at him, and justified in that anger. But fear? Nope.

[idyllic-affections]

got a junior herbalist idea for you :3

Baizhu overheats EASILY, aka basically whenever he leaves the pharmacy in hot weather. The longer he spends out there the more he slowly loses energy (Changsheng joked it was like an 'energy broth'. Put him in the sun and it all evaporates. Baizhu sighed heavily.)

the junior herbalist has a similar weak constitution, so same thing. Baizhu & herbalist have to pay the same price for overheating: becoming absolutely exhausted/sleepy.

in the rare cases the whole gang has to go out for something, especially in hot weather, Baizhu and the herbalist immediately crash once getting back to the pharmacy and get herded into the back room with some fans. peek in 5 minutes later and they're both completely out, sleeping the afternoon away. (if both are okay w/ it and not sticky, sometimes they'll cuddle a little.)

heat exhaustion.

summary. the heat drains is very draining for the majority of those who work at bubu pharmacy.

trigger & content warnings. depictions of heat exhaustion and references to heat stroke.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. fluff, comfort. baizhu & reader. 0.9k words. they/them pronouns for reader.

author's thoughts. REAL OMG I GET LIKE THIS, EXTREME HEAT LITERALLY SAPS ALL MY ENERGY WITHIN THE HOUR. I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING CORPSE IN THE HEAT. i relate so bad..... i know EXACTLY what this is like so i RAN to do this request when you sent it HSJSHSKGJG im working on your dain req btw <33

i like to think that summer is every bubu pharmacy employee's least favorite season. gui dislikes it because he knows everyone else finds the heat tough to deal with, whereas baizhu and [name] hate it because it means they'll both be more likely to be out of commission, given how inclined they are to overheating.

qiqi also overheats, so she dislikes the summer for that same reason. she hates the feeling of being hot. she hates overheating. since she's a zombie, it's just... very uncomfortable and, in some cases, even painful for her. it stresses her out.

it stresses everyone out, really.

the pharmacy's atmosphere tends to be a little more frantic and tense during the summer as everyone tries to stay on top of their respective bodily conditions.

due to the collective struggle with heat, it isn't uncommon for trips out of the pharmacy during the day to be reduced to a minimum. qiqi can't handle gathering herbs when the temperature gets a bit too high, even with her cryo vision, so it's typically left to gui to do tasks like that while the sun is up. he doesn't mind it much at all.

he's not quite as sensitive to the heat as everyone else, so it's hardly an issue for him.

sometimes, however, going out during the day can't be helped. even when the weather is poor, leaving most of the pharmacists in equally poor condition, people still get sick and injured. that's the unfortunate truth.

sometimes emergency trips need to be made. high-priority house calls, herb gathering... some situations cannot be avoided, and given that [name] virtually always comes along with baizhu on house calls to gain experience and knowledge...

yeah.

it's not exactly uncommon for one or both of them to come back nearly ridden with heat stroke. heat exhaustion is a common result of such outings, which could become heat stroke if both aren't careful.

baizhu would certainly, 100% give them the option to opt out of house calls during the summer—they may be his apprentice, yes, but he would never force them into situations that would put their health or safety at serious risk, and there's plenty of other things they could do back at the pharmacy that wouldn't put them at such a high risk—but they wouldn't want him to have to go out in the heat alone, so they'd go with him regardless.

he downright refuses take them on house calls too far outside of liyue harbor in extremely hot weather, though.

(he also very rarely goes anywhere too far from the city during the summer, and the citizens of liyue are generally very understanding of the reason behind that. if he absolutely has to, however, he literally won't allow [name] to come along because of the serious risk it poses to their wellbeing.)

it's really just a learning process more than anything.

each pharmacist needs to learn where exactly their own limit is. it takes time and practice.

sometimes [name] overestimates their own ability. even so... they're certainly more skilled at working with their body rather than against it compared to how they were before their employment.

nonetheless, heat exhaustion is still a common and expected ailment at bubu pharmacy.

With tired, slightly uncoordinated fingers, they unclipped all of their unnecessary accessories, shedding anything they possibly could. They sat with their legs crossed on the bed often used for both the pharmacists' and patients' recovery needs. Anything that could make their body temperature higher, any unnecessary layers of their clothing, had to go. Given how exhausted they already were from the heat... they were at a considerable risk for heat stroke. There simply wasn't room for the extra cosmetic things when the weather was so unbearably hot.

The backroom of Bubu Pharmacy was thankfully rather cool with consideration for the dreadful heat outside. The air was pleasantly chilling against the festering heat beneath their feverish skin. They sighed, rubbing the inner corner of one of their eyes with their fingertips, as if to rub the tiredness away. It did nothing to help their state.

"It's way too hot this summer..."

"You didn't have to come along, [Name]," Baizhu mused, reassuring as he settled beside them, "I would have understood if you wanted to stay behind. It is rather hot this year."

"No, I know," they replied gently, interrupted halfway through by a yawn, "but I would have felt kind of bad if I didn't. I like helping people."

He softly tapped their shoulder, signalling them to lay down, which they did without any complaint, mindful to leave space for Qiqi in case she decided she wanted to curl up at their side (which she sometimes did if the pharmacy wasn't especially busy). "Remember not to do so at your own expense. You don't need to push yourself so hard. You have to be mindful of your condition, [Name]."

They went quiet, shooting him a critical look.

"I respect you so much Dr. Baizhu, but that is insanely hypocritcal of you to say. You are such a hypocrite. I just know that if Changsheng weren't off hiding somewhere, she'd back me up right now."

The doctor merely chuckled. "You may be right. Nonetheless, my point still stands."

"Yeah, I know, but it's not as if I passed out or anything. I used to faint in the heat all the time, but it happens less now... I've gotten better since working here."

He smiled fondly, gingerly taking off his glasses and setting them to the side. Baizhu shifted a little, getting into a position that was comfortable. "You have, indeed."

Quiet murmurs, discussions of medicinal practice and others of similar content, were eventually lost to the weight of heat exhaustion.

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

[draftyinhere]

Literally nobody asked for this, but here's an expanded list for TCW songs for the Winners.(original post)

Grian: Curses or Tongues and Teeth

1, Curses; I have stated most everything I have wanted to say about this particular song, already.

2, Tongues And Teeth; (Cherrifire's animatic), it's literally angsty Scarian, there is no other song like it, it's so Double Life them, Scar doesn't know what's wrong, Grian does, so he becomes rigid and stiff towards Scar. Grian knows what he did to Scar and avoids him, causing Scar to turn to the Jellie pandas for comfort.

Scott: Queen Of Nothing or Arcturus Beaming

1, Queen of Nothing: He cannot keep up with what the Watchers do (similar to Martyn), the will of the Watchers is keeping him down. And as the song goes on it feels like Scott is accepting that he'll never get anywhere, so he should no longer try. The Watchers will always be after him (Watchers' least favorite).

2, Arcturus Beaming: Like most of the other life members, he is very angsty, which fits well with Arcturus Beaming, in one lyric it says, "My sanctuary, to worship the pain", he really needs that after what the Watchers put him through (Watchers' least favorite).

Pearl: Hollow Moon or The Moon Will Sing

1, Hollow Moon; Pearl is the moon but her heart is hollow, with scars, (from Double Life mostly). She has issues and demons that are scary to face, she avoids them.

2, The Moon Will Sing; Shinyduo is on their divorce arc and this is 100% that. Pearl loses herself to Gem, in their 'relationship', Gem shines like the sun and Pearl wants to drink in the light. (It doesn't end up working in the end.)

Martyn: Mad Dog or Down The River

1, Mad Dog: in addition to what I have said in the previous post, no matter what he does he just keeps on, "run-running, running, running", because no matter what he does, he, a listener, will always try to get away from the Watchers, but in the end it will always be fruitless. And he will never get to rest because he could get pulled into a Game at any point.

2, Down The River: Martyn has frustration about everything the Watchers do, and he tries to do something about it (i.e. listener), but he crumbled in the end and ends up playing their game and claiming victory by backstabbing the other two.

Scar: Allies Or Enemies or Glacier House

1, Allies Or Enemies, Scar does not know who he can trust. But it also fits with Grian and Scar's relationship, they love each other but always end up hurting each other in the end (Scar's Boogey kills and Grian in the Cactus Ring).

2, Glacier House; in my headcanons it is that only Winners remember their Game, so for the longest time Grian was the only one that remembered the Desert, but the second that Scar remembered he was still open to the concept of a relationship, while Grian was more against it, eventually they came together like they always do in the end.

Cleo: Nobody

1, she is not often recognized in their Winner status, which is where the "Nobody" comes in when standing around other 'real' winners.

2, Them and Lizzie when Fairy Fort was getting burned to the ground, the divorce arc is so Nobody.

Joel: Predator or The Hand That Feeds

1, Predator; Like I said previously, Joel is a 'predator' in the Life Series, one of the most deadly people. But also he is the Watchers' pawn, they influence him to kill Scott because Scott is their least favorite. "What would happen if I said, no to you?" Joel is contemplating the pros and cons of just saying no for once. He does that in Wild Life by not going after Scott.

2, The Hand That Feeds; after years of paying into the Watchers' will, he breaks free from the chains, (after Predator), finally deciding (after they make his wife fall eternally) to fight back, not just for himself, but for his family.

[cowpokeomens]

it would be so fun pushing matt’s buttons and riling him up until he wants to spank you and overstimulate you and edge you until you apologize

Finally some good fucking food

I put a read more bc idk how long this is gonna get but yeah I need him to get so fucking annoyed that he will do literally anything to shut my ass up like hmmm maybe a smooch will shut her up!! Hey that’s effective how abt my entire cock down her throat!!! He has Massive Cock Energy i have no evidence for this but I feel like you legally cannot be hired for the BOmens camp unless you’re slangin so there’s that!!! Anyways yeah I need him avoiding me because I’m so goddamn annoying. I need him audibly sighing when I enter the room. I NEED HIM BEGGING TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE BUT AROUND ME!!!!! And then I need him to fuck me until I’m docile and quiet for once so he can get some fucking work done 🙂

[possessionisamyth]

Carlos won’t send nudes, and Leon respects that even if he does pout about it. But occasionally, Carlos will indulge Leon in some phone sex when one of them is away.

Carlos has plenty of toys to use and Leon loves hearing him, always makes him put the phone speaker down by his hole so he can hear how wet Carlos is.

“God, baby, please, wish I could see you, wish I was there, you sound so good, fuck –” Leon’s eyes are squeezed shut, picturing Carlos but it’s never as good as the real thing. He curses this stupid fucking mission for taking him away, all he wants right now is his cock in Carlos and his hands on his skin.

Carlos is a mess, fucking himself on two toys, and even though he himself isn’t very vocal the shlick, shlick, shlick sounds of the toys sliding in an out of him are plenty loud. 

They don’t have long, they never do with this type of thing, so soon enough they’re both spilling, Carlos onto the sheets beneath him and Leon onto his pants, as much as he tries to avoid it. (Carlos tries to keep from coming on his stomach when Leon isn’t there to clean it up, but some still gets on him and Leon has him collect what he can and suck it off his own fingers.)

They say their breathless goodbyes, and Carlos lays for a little bit longer before getting up to clean himself (it’s much less fun without Leon.)

When Leon does get home they’re both fucking insatiable. Once Leon has recovered enough he’s all over Carlos (he insisted on sucking Carlos off before he even rested, but Carlos made him wait to do anything else.) Pushing him against the wall, into the mattress, hands never leaving Carlos’s body. 

Carlos likes to struggle a bit, just to feel that Leon can actually overpower him, that he’s genuinely strong enough to manhandle him to where he wants. But eventually he goes pliant and moves easily, feeling so good he quite literally can’t think about pushing back.

If Leon wants to get fucked it has to be before he fucks Carlos, because once he has access to this mans hole he gets carried away immediately. That being said, Carlos loves fucking him, specifically in mating press so he can watch in awe at how easily Leon’s knees come up to his shoulders (his flexibility never stops making Carlos unreasonably horny.)

One of Leon’s favorite things is to fuck Carlos and come inside him before having Carlos sit on his face and eating him out. Leon eats ass like he’s starved and isn’t shy about how much Carlos’s smell turns him on.

They also have to work out separately if they actually want to get anything done, because the minute Leon smells the sweat and musk coming off of Carlos he cannot help himself. He spends an unreasonable amount of time (to Carlos, not him) just working his way down Carlos’s body, nuzzling his nose into anywhere he can and licking the sweat off his skin. He pays special attention to the hair on Carlos’s belly, rubbing his face into it with no shame.

Though they’re few and far between, sometimes Carlos lets Leon cockwarm him for long enough that they both fall asleep. Every time this happens, Leon wakes up to Carlos rocking his hips subconsciously, unable to resist even as he’s asleep. 

(this was less of a mini fic and more of a collection of thoughts based on yours, but I hope you enjoyed anyways!)

HI HELLO HELLO HI GOOD EVENING HELLO HI, ANON YOU AND I SHALL HAVE AN AUTUMN WEDDING-

Let me just return the favor (cracks my knuckles)

Leon's fingers slid through Carlos' hair moving his messy bangs from his forehead. "You're doing so good."

Carlos had one hand wrapped around the base of Leon's cock, pubic hair brushing into his pinky, with his lips stretched around the rest. The tip of Leon's cock teased the back of his throat testing the limit of his gag reflex. They hadn't started like this. They usually didn't when Carlos made it home after one of his ten hour flights, but he'd caught Leon lazily jerking off on the couch, and...well... The jetlag got him halfway asleep and sucking Leon's dick would definitely get him the rest of the way there.

Drool spilled down his chin as he bobbed his head meeting the closed circle of his fingers each time he went down. Carlos would like to take in more, but he knew his limits. If Leon fucked his throat as he was now things would get the bad kind of messy. A weak whimper left him at the soft caresses to his scalp, and he slipped his other hand under to roll Leon's balls in his hand.

Leon cursed, his fingers tightening in Carlos's hair. It didn't hurt, but it sent a shiver down his spine. He sucked around his mouthful. Precum coated his tongue. He wanted more. He really wanted more, but the risks outweighed the rewards. His own cock remained half hard and neglected in his pants. He'd take care of it later. Probably. It didn't matter. He was currently that special type of cock drunk where all he wanted was to taste the salt on Leon's skin and have cum fill his mouth.

Pulling off Leon's cock, Carlos worked both his hands to get Leon off. His hand worked fast, pressing his thumb under the head. He built up spit in his mouth before licking up the shaft of Leon's cock to use as makeshift lube. The slick sounds could barely be heard over the noise from the TV, but Carlos watched the muscles of Leon's stomach clench with anticipation.

"Fuck, fuck," Leon's hips thrust into Carlos' closed fist.

Aiming the head of Leon's cock towards his open mouth, Carlos stuck his tongue out and rubbed his other thumb into Leon's taint. A long groan left Leon's chewed pink lips. Thick ropes of cum dressed Carlos' tongue. His bottom lip. His chin. All until Leon stopped shaking and his ass fell back onto the couch. With a parting open mouthed kiss to the tip, Carlos tucked Leon back into his sweatpants and wiped his hand on his shirt. A shower sounded nice right now.

He was moving to stand up and get his suitcase when two hands grabbed his arms and pulled him onto the couch. Actually, less onto the couch and more on Leon who planted one hand on the back of Carlos' neck and the other on his ass. Carlos found his bottom lip sucked into Leon's mouth before they were kissing. The kiss didn't last long. A rushed meeting of lips and a moment later, Leon avidly licked his chin clean and was kissing down his jaw.

"Come on, man. I'm tired," Carlos said giving Leon's shoulder a light shove.

"You jumped me." Leon's nose pressed under Carlos' adams apple as his tongue flicked out to lick along the line of his neck.

"Yeah, and now I'm tired."

Leon sighed and pulled away giving Carlos a deadpanned stare. "Surely you know this means war."

"Instead of war, you can wake me up however you want tomorrow."

"However I want."

Carlos got out of Leon's grasp and headed down the hallway to their bedroom. His hand was on the doorknob before what he said registered, and he called out, "Within reason!"

"No, no, no. No takebacks! You said however I want," Leon replied.

Carlos rubbed a hand down his face. He really shouldn't make promises while working with two hours of sleep.

[theoddcatlady]

Pieces and Parts

My ‘father’ calls me Miranda, but I’m not sure if that’s entirely true. But you can just call me that too, I guess.

The only thing I know for sure is that three weeks ago, I died. And two weeks ago, I came back in my father’s basement.

It was dark, I was cold. I couldn’t move my right arm or leg. I tried getting up off the table I was laying on but I ended up just face planting on the floor. Despite the feel of blood trickling from my nose it didn’t hurt.

A gentle hand rested on my back and I looked up to see an old man with thinning white hair and silver glasses. He looked like your typical grandpa.

“It looks like you were a success. I’ll call you Miranda.”

I looked down then to see how my right arm was stitched onto my torso, how the light brown skin of my calf didn’t match my pale white thigh.

I’ve spent a lot of time examining myself. I believe that externally, I’m made of three different people. I believe all of them were women. Internally is an entirely different matter. I cannot confirm either way. I’m an amalgamation of many different people, and it shows.

For example, I’m quite sure I died in a car accident. I was driving home with friends, I made a bad joke, we all laughed, a deer stepped in front of the car and I swerved to avoid it. I remember crunching metal, how my friends screamed… and then nothing.

But I’m also certain I was shot. I get flashes of feeling the muzzle of a gun pressed against my chest, how I sobbed and begged for mercy. I may have also committed suicide by hanging, or the leukemia that plagued me my entire life finally finished me off.

I may have died a virgin or I had a son. Maybe I struggled with school my whole life because of dyslexia and ADHD, or I was about to graduate at the top of my class at an elite college. Maybe I was out hiking every weekend, or I lived for rainy days so I could curl up on my couch with a laptop and a cat. Maybe I was allergic to cats, I don’t know.

Maybe it’s all of the above. All the experiences of the people I was before turning into one singular being.

My father’s name is Albert. I’m not his first experiment, but I’m the most successful. I am still relearning how to talk, but I can type and have average intelligence. That’s more than I can say for Michelle and Nathaniel.

They’re the other two successes of my father, but they’re not nearly as advanced as I am. Nathaniel acts like a little boy despite looking to be in his mid thirties, he loves the color red and he thinks it’s so funny to pop out his brown eye and hide it someplace for me to find. When I do find it I always jump out of my skin, and since my legs are different lengths I tend to tumble to the ground. Then he comes around the corner giggling as he puts his eye back in.

Poor Michelle is constantly afraid. Michelle looks like a seven year old girl and is constantly on high alert. If she doesn’t want anyone to find her, no one will, but she obeys our father and always stays in the house. But given her petite size and the fact she can bend any which way she wants, she can hide quite literally anywhere for hours, even days before she comes out.

I’m not sure if our father loves us or he’s fascinated by us, but he can be very strict. We’re not allowed to leave the house. I tried to go for a walk and ended up getting locked in a closet for three days. Nathaniel was nice enough to bring me a hamburger and fries on my second day in there. We don’t really need to eat, but it feels good to have a full stomach.

We’re also not allowed to ask how father made us. He says he’s still working on perfecting the process, and he’d rather not share until he knows it’s complete. He did tell us that he did bring us back from the dead, and for that we should be eternally grateful for.

I’m not sure if I am, but I’m not sure of anything nowadays.

I want to go home. But I’m not sure where home is. Is it in a big city, where I took the subway every day to work? Or is it this small town where we always get snowed in every winter? I can’t be certain.

There’s also the fact I may just fall apart if I run away. Although father does his best, he’s not very good at sewing. Nathaniel is far better at it than him, but if he catches us he tends to start screaming about ‘messing with his design’.

That’s another thing: he doesn’t want anyone to change what he’s made. Since we are his children, and we should be grateful to him, we are to do exactly what he says and to not change how he made us. Even though Nathaniel struggles to figure out how to tie his shoes, Michelle can’t go a night without having a screaming nightmare and the stitches on my gut are constantly coming undone, he refuses to see how we could be improved. He only prepares for the next experiment, deciding that next time he’ll be the one to get it right.

But I suppose that’s why I’m here. Whether I’m Miranda, or Andrea, or Lucy, or Maria, I’m here. I’m here for a reason. And that reason is to fix his mistakes.

Thankfully he’s one of those old people who believes ‘1234’ is a successful password, allowing me access to his computer to do research. Michelle helps me find his notes and while he sleeps at night I study. Nathaniel makes sure I have plenty of hot drinks to keep my belly warm.

He’s already almost a quarter ways done with his next child, but I’ve been watching. This one will not be any better than us. Once again he’ll bring someone back in this half dead half alive state, caught in miserable paranoia or worse.

But I’ll be fixing him. Once I figure out how father keeps screwing us up, I’ll fix everything.

And if he objects, well… he’s going to learn quite quickly that he’s outnumbered three to one.

[gonegrove]

okay but for another angle on heather/eddie going off of something i mentioned before:

they have this wildly combative, horny thing going on and eddie realizing he’s seeing some parts of her no one else has seen, intentionally or unintentionally, and getting possessive of it and her. like this is what flips it being “messing around” to “she’s MY girl”. he likes the idea of being this person who exists in this special singular spot in her life -- in ANYONE’S life -- and how it marks him out as significant and how it’s something only they share.

eddie standing his ground more as Her Guy in public and being more flip about their relationship even if she’s been trying to keep it on the DL, making it clear other guys can promptly fuck off. also slowly pressuring her to define this shit more thoroughly bc it’s getting more and more intense and not just for funsies for him and he’d like to know NOW before he’s COMPLETELY INSANE if he should try to abandon ship.

heather trying to avoid ALLLLLL of that because it was great when they were just arguing and being horny n shit but the one thing she cannot handle is emotional vulnerability/honesty. literally so scared about Feeling Things outside of the like, 3 allowed things (happiness, anger, pride) that just CONSIDERING she’s physically capable of more is terrifying. so she’s just trying to ghost him now as he’s pressuring her.

eventually turns into a HUGE blowout fight. screaming. shouting. slurs. name calling. the WORKS. like, this is truly vicious vile shit. they’re both being AWFUL.

heather starts crying.

record scratch. world stops turning. the universe is completely on pause, holding it’s breath.

eddie just standing there feeling like he’s elric having just accidentally killed cymoril (or for the peons -- he’s frodo seeing gandalf’s death in fellowship tho it’s not a 100% 1:1). he’s totally frozen for like a solid minute bc Heather Fucking Holloway is crying. he made heather holloway cry. somehow. him.

heather’s MORTIFIED this is the LAST THING SHE EVER WANTED TO HAPPEN and is just trying to MOTOR out of there. but he stops her because he’s terrified of what’ll happen if she goes and they leave things like this. and realistically she doesn’t really have anywhere to go, they’re at his place (he’s not even allowed in her NEIGHBORHOOD) and that’s a huge walk to hers. so she’s stuck there and she cannot. stop. fucking. crying. doesn’t even know WHY she’s crying.

eddie very slowly and hesitantly pulling her into him when she’s not really going for his verbal attempts at comfort/asking what’s wrong/apologizing because he doesn’t know what else to do. so he just stands there feeling awful and insane and so fucking stupid but slowly, slowly she starts to settle down and accept his comfort. it’s like pulling teeth but he finally gets it out of her that she’s terrified. that feelings are Bad. and his pressuring her scared her because All Interpersonal Connection is Evil and only exists to Doom You later (the joys of having like 99% fake friends only lol) and he’s like Oh. 

and he???? loves her even more????? and also know realizing THAT’S what he was getting so weird about???? he was so possessive because he loved her???? and he loves her even more now that she’s saying she actively doesn’t want that because it’s scary and can only lead to disaster????? he very softly tells her tough shit because she’s stuck with him now so she better put on her big girl panties and nut up. she just glares at him with so much anger but her arms around his waist get even tighter, holding him solidly in place flush against her. he grins the most shit eating grin.

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #7

Today, I finally got around to seasoning the broth I made. It turned out really well. Most of it is being used to cook rice as we speak. Some of it is in mason jars, awaiting being gifted to friends who might want some. The rest is in a mug, on its way to being in my belly! It's warm and flavorful and wonderful, and I'm enjoying each and every sip!

I wish I could share it with you; alas, I cannot. But I can show you a picture of one of the filled mason jars.

Truth be told, I've actually been trying to play a video game today, but my brain seems to want to do literally anything else, haha… It's like that for trauma survivors sometimes, though, isn't it? Sometimes it can be hard to simply allow oneself to relax and have fun. Even after all these years, my body is still primed for hypervigilance, looking for metaphorical fires to put out. Nowadays, there are no metaphorical fires to put out though, so on days like today, I end up just spinning my wheels endlessly and tiring myself out in the process, haha…

I wonder if you get days like that sometimes. But then again, first you would need to have peaceful days in which to spin your wheels, right? Hm…

…I wish I could ask you how you're doing and what you're up to. I wish I could ask you if there is some way I might be able to help, even if it's something simple like listening to you talk about something weighing you down, or giving you a delicious cup of nutritious broth to drink, to give you a bit of extra strength while you do all of your unimaginably difficult things. I try to do things like this as often as possible for the people surrounding me, but it doesn't always work out.

Much like how it is in your world, folks in my world get conditioned to avoid help and connection, either because they're suspicious of it, or they don't believe they deserve it. There are probably a lot more reasons, but those seem to be the main ones; everyone here suffers from invisible wounds given to them by the people around them, and sometimes you just can't get through to the other person because of those wounds. Sometimes it's discouraging to think that maybe my voice and my outstretched hand don't actually reach anywhere or count for anything; after all, it seems like there are innumerable starfish stranded on the sand at low tide, and sometimes it seems as though the beach stretches on infinitely in both directions.

Oh; have you heard that story about the starfish on the beach, I wonder? It goes sort of like this:

One day, there was a child walking along the beach. The tide was low, and lots of starfish were stranded, dying on the sand. The child was picking up all the starfish that could be seen, and gently tossing them back into the sea. Then a grumpy adult approached the child. Angry at what the child was trying to do, the adult said: "Why are you wasting your time? There are thousands of starfish, and miles upon miles of beach; what makes you think that you could possibly make a difference?" The child looked at the adult, smiled gently, reached down to pick up another starfish, and tossed it back into the sea. The child then replied, "I made a difference to that one."

Someday I hope to be even half as brave as the child in the story. But as it is now, I tend to crumble easily in response to naysayers and to indifference. But maybe the first steps towards becoming more like the child in the story is refusing to be blind to the starfish we've already tossed back into the sea, even if they end up crawling back to the sand and getting stranded again. And maybe the final steps towards becoming more like the child in the story involve understanding that all humans are starfish with the same powers as the child. We can all toss each other back into the sea if we try really hard.

I hope you'll do your best to toss as many starfish back into the sea as you can. And I hope when someone goes to do the same for you, you'll let them.

Please be safe out there; we need you here.

Your friend, Lumine

[kulemiwrites]

kulemiwrites | rules

I’m not going to mince words simply because I don't want to cause any confusion. I apologize for not doing this the first time. If any of this seems unnecessary or harsh, understand that I've been doing this for a very, very long time and things had to have happened either to me or peers for me to feel the need to establish anything as a rule.

Rules are Subject to Change!

✕ Respect is an absolute MUST! I will always be kind and respectful to everyone that takes the time to engage with me and my work and I need for that to go both ways in order for this relationship to work. Otherwise, I will not enjoy what I do.

✕ I cannot protect a stranger from themselves! Everything I post is carefully labeled with ratings, warnings and I even go a step further by adding an extra safeguard, the 'Read More' to keep the unsuspecting from burning their eyes. If someone bypasses ALL OF THAT, and is still upset, there's nothing more that I can do. However, you can block me or I can block you. Your choice.

✕ It is virtually impossible to be fully inclusive of every single physical nuisance that makes up a single human being. I try my damnedest to avoid physical descriptors and alot of times, flatten personalities for readers even if I personally feel like my work suffers for it because I have seen all of the "I would NOT fucking say that!" takes. But, dear reader, understand that I am not literally writing YOU nor am I writing your proxy OC. None of us are. For example, if I happen to mention the height of a reader against their love interest (which I realize I do often) that's probably just because it's just a dynamic that I fancy. There is nothing more to it. I am not doing it to be malicious or to exclude you specifically. I promise you guys, most fic readers just want to have a fun little ki with their audience. We're not trying to be evil.

✕ The default reader-insert on this blog is a female who uses she/her pronouns. Every now and then I'll do gender neutral stuff and use they/them pronouns and I may even avoid genitals all together. However, I'm pretty sure that even then it was still done with AFAB people in mind. I want my readers to be very aware of that. I do not and have not written male or AMAB readers-- I do not trust that I can execute it very well and I don't see this changing any time soon. Please do not ask. If I happen to come across writers myself who I share a fandom with that do, I'll be thrilled to give recommendations. I understand that it’s a severely underserved market.

✕ I have known that I wanted to be a slow writer ever since I was a little girl. Please don't crush my lifelong dream by rushing me, especially for a request you sent because then I'll have no choice but to delete it. :(

✕ Feeding my fics to AI for any reason is unacceptable. Do not ask!

✕ I am open to the idea of my fics being translated to other languages, Spanish especially. If anyone is interested in doing that, TALK TO ME FIRST! Do not do it without my expressed consent FIRST! I'll need credits as well as links to where these things are being posted to. (My fics have never been posted anywhere without the kulemiwrites penname. If you've seen them without it, that’s plagiarism. Please do not hesitate to let me know!)

✕ Always be sure that the ask box is OPEN at the time that you submit a request or I will be forced to delete it. Do not try to bait me with requests for my faves to bypass this. That's hella manipulative lol. Closed means closed, guys.

✕ Please reference the masterlist before submitting a request to make sure that I have not already written your request before! If I have, no big, I will just link you to it but I will not write duplicates unless I am just itching to do so.

✕ Understand that a request is just that- a request. I reserve the right to reject any request, either for not following the rules, for being sort of rude in the way it was asked or simply because it wasn't interesting as a concept to me. I am not saying this to apply pressure to you. I just want you to understand that just because something was submitted doesn't automatically equate acceptance.

✕ Clarity is very important when you submit a request! When sending a request, any and all information is helpful! Detailed but not so detailed that it leaves me very little wiggle room to do anything and I'm left wondering why you didn't write it yourself hahaha. At the very least make sure I have the answer to the following questions: What characters? In what style (Headcanons/short scenario/fic, etc)? Sfw or Nsfw? It will waste time and risk your request getting deleted due to insufficient information to work with.

✕ For headcanons there is a 5 character maximum. (I may take it upon myself to add others at my discretion)

✕ Short scenarios have a 2 character maximum. (I may take it upon myself to add others at my discretion)

✕ Full fics have a 1 character limited- other characters may be allowed to feature in them but I am only allowing one (1) main character at this time. Warning: If I don't think I can get a full fic out of a request, I may default to something else unless it is specified not to- In which case, the request will instead be deleted.

✕ I do NOT RP. I'm sure it's fun, but that isn't what my ask box is for. I often see people in fandom tags asking for RP partners! Please, search your fandom tags and find your people. I promise they’re out there!

✕ I do not co-write. Hell, I can barely write single player lol. Please do not practically write an entire fic in my ask box then request for me to finish it for you... I'm going to delete it and if you haven't saved it somewhere, you've just lost all that hard work for nothing. I don't want you to do that to yourself. HOWEVER! I've seen plenty of blogs around that seem to do that! I encourage you to look around for one of them.

✕ If you sent the same request to multiple other writers in the same fandom as me and I somehow happen upon theirs before I can finish mine, I will delete the request. One, maybe two is fine but I’ve seen some real greed in my day lol.

✕ I do not do Match-Ups. I am on the side of whichever feeds your delusion <3 If you're in love with 27 characters, then babe, I've got news for you! All 27 of them are your perfect match! In short: I am not to be trusted.

✕ Request theme/topics that are NOT allowed: CanonxCanon (unless it's my personal biases), drug use, non-canon typical fantasy, A/B/O, mlm, songfics, periods, pregnancy, miscarriage, abuse, suicide, self-harm, sexual assault, many hard kinks- just ask and I'll tell you, death, grief, incest/step-cest, etc (I may write about some of this stuff but it will be on my terms, around my own comfort level).

✕ Majority of my catalog here has been for RGG characters. However, I sorta dropped the series after Y6. I try my best to only write for characters I feel that I have a decent enough grasp on or characters that I feel I can create a believable enough life for based on the material provided. That said, until I play the remaining games to completion, I will not write for characters that are exclusive to them!

✕ I am cool with chatting and getting to know the people who read my stuff but please do not hmu out of the blue with links to your fics and ask me to read them when we've NEVER even talked. That's so awkward. Oh my god. Especially if you have written something that's painfully similar to something I've written and it’s just like, not at all acknowledged. That’s so weird.. Just.. do not do that. Don't. This time, I will block anyone that does this.

✕ If you are intentionally making something that is inspired by/based on something I've written, the sweetest love letter you could ever write me is a message asking permission or at the very least warning me. Do that and I'll almost always be supportive because so rarely do people do that and I'll just be flattered that you did. You don't even have to show me the finished product. You could really have my entire life at that point.

✕ I am just reiterating, do not write fic in my ask box or my dms. You have a blog. Please, use your own platform!

✕ Do not harass me about "Part Two"s on a fic. Nothing makes me not want to update something more than getting bugged about it. I feel like the very least a person could do is say why they enjoyed the first part, instead of demanding the next. (If you have at least told me why you enjoyed it and would like more, this does not apply to you! You're awesome!)

✕ I personally consider this an adult space and I'd prefer that everyone that interacts with this blog is 18 and above with their ages in their bio but I have better things to do than sit around verifying the age of Every. Single. Reader. And I don't intend to. If you know you're not old enough to be here, don't be silly enough to interact with me privately. Instant block.

✕ I don't care about fandom drama and I won't be pressured to give my take on anything going on outside of me. This is non-negotiable.

✕ Do not ask me to follow you, especially if we've hardly interacted. I will follow who I want to follow.

✕ Do not ask me to promote your blog. This account wasn’t even big nor active enough to do that the first time and I’d occasionally get asks like that. That’s weird, yall. Just utilize the tags and put ourselves out there like everyone else.

[syggwolf]

And after doing all of option three, I would often come back, and I would say, "I'm sorry, I have BPD."

Saying 'I'm sorry, I have BPD' with zero further explanation or consideration of how I hurt someone and how I recognize that I hurt them was basically a declaration, a promise, that I was going to do this again, and also that I couldn't do anything about it. I was telling those around me that I could not control myself, that they could not relax around me. When you do that, you are dehumanizing yourself into an emotionally unstable bomb. One of the first clinical descriptions I read for BPD(I was working my way up through the literature, oldest to newest, probably a bad idea with a subject as janky as mental health, but hey I like to be thorough and I went to school for psychology.) was a description in some older literature that literally compared a person suffering from BPD to, wait for it... P L U T O N I U M. Thanks for that, old timey psychiatrist, you ruined my life for six straight months. I internalized that. I believed I was slowly killing everyone I loved, radiating stress and pain out at them and driving them away, that the only safe place for them was ANYWHERE BUT ME. I became deeply clinically depressed and convinced that I should probably just kill myself because I BECAME my diagnosis and that diagnosis was basically, "You're a substance that poisons people by existing.".

Then I discovered DBT. The entire premise of DBT is that with help from others, and learning to reorient your thought process and interrupt it in a healthy way, you can avoid exploding by being able to be honest about how you feel without making other people feel like garbage. Yes, I uncontrollably feel IMMENSE pain over what seems like trivial things to other people, but no, I do not have to turn that pain into incredible displays of outwardly directed violence. I can instead turn that pain into an honest and in depth discussion of the real problem I'm having and try to seek comfort and reinforcement that I am cared about with people who understand my condition. In short, my emotions are intense and unyielding, but I can still get them validated by people who actually care about me and understand that I have this illness. So the trick here is that instead of saying, "I'm sorry, I have(and am) my mental illness and I can't do anything about it.", you instead say, "I'm sorry that I hurt you, your feelings are important and I do not want to hurt you, and I am taking responsibility for my actions. You are coming first in this situation because I trust you to reciprocate. I have a mental illness called BPD, sometimes it overwhelms me, this is what that mental illness does to me and why, now that you understand me better and I've put your feelings first, here's how we can work together to prevent it from happening again."

There is never a simple and easy conclusion to the question of whether a mental illness or other illness or disability should be mentioned as a mitigating or explanatory circumstance. There IS a very good chance that it DID and will continue to play a factor. Having said that, there is also no point in turning yourself into your diagnosis or maliciously shifting blame to the diagnosis to avoid apologizing if you've actively done something that harms another person. Apologizing, even with a mental illness, will not kill you and does not undermine the seriousness of your mental illness or the fact that you lost control. Apologizing lets you TAKE control BACK by admitting you're a human being who makes mistakes and can hold the power to rectify them. It's empowering. Obviously, BPD cannot be cured. It's a lifelong disability that has cost me many a potentially good friendship and many good experiences over my lifetime. I cannot exist without saying I have BPD, but I can honestly say that I am not controlled by BPD. I am a sufferer of BPD who wants to fight back. I've found others who are willing to listen to me and respect what BPD is, as long as I understand when I've messed up and genuinely do my best to make them whole about it when I do, and I could never have done that by just saying, "I'm sorry. I have BPD."

Sick list of symptoms bro. Now try humanizing your behavior instead of pathologizing it.

[w1tchsoup]

Tumblr's drafts ate my ask meme reply, so it's going in here instead! @piipaw

🌇 for a headcanon about morning- or evening ritual:

His morning ritual is the one that changes the least between when he lives in a camp or indoors. He rises with the sun, meditating before all else, preferably in the dawn's light. That's easy in a camp. He shuffles outside his tent with his eyes still screwed shut, his voluminous hair a rat's nest, drool caked to his chin, and he kneels, taking in the glorious potential of the day.

The hair is getting addressed as soon as he's out of the zone. I cannot stress how uncomfortable it can get having long hair tangled in horns from restless sleep. Gale's usually kind enough to give him a hand if he's not in a hurry because he overslept. Hoshi resquest no magic be used. If someone's helping, it's now a ritual of sorts. It's social grooming for the sake of establishing bonds now.

If there's anyone else around to be awake at that point, he's going to try to rope them into stretching with him. He doesn't care what their skill level is. In his opinion, loosening up can make a huge difference in people's quality of life and he knows much about how to properly do it. Don't asking him what the names of any of the muscles are anywhere unless it's the glutes and the tongue. He will have no idea. Point to an area that's tight and he'll be able to tell you where you actually need to be stretching.

Next is breakfast. Leave that "monks can go many days without food" stuff on the ground. Litereally, anyone can go days without food. It's not even a flex. Save it for emergencies or when he's on a spiritual journey of some sort, alright? He's a big tiefling who likes big meals with people he loves so he can save cats from trees or whatever heroing needs doing. Now that I've painted him like a brute, he's actually a very neat eater. He takes him time to appreciate the meal that's before him, wherever it came from.

This is where it differs by setting; if Hoshi is living a stationary life, this is when he would go bathe. He prefers to start the day feeling fresh and it gives his hair time to dry. If he is out adventuring, he does it at the end of the day out of necessity. Crawling onto his bedroll covered in Gods knows what filth he has on him must be avoided, if the luxury presents itself. It prevents all sorts of illnesses. Unfortunately, that leaves the task of drying all that hair or going to bed with it wet. I've got a drabble I'm writing on this actually, so stay tuned.

Anyhow, clothing and accessories come next. Adventuring makes things so easy. His outfit is picked out for him. It's done. Otherwise, he basically has to lay his clothing out to stare at it until an outfit idea jumps out at him. Since he can't wear rings thanks to the force of his punches, he goes for necklaces instead. Bonus points if they're long enough to compliment his big honkers.

If he's around anyone else who does makeup, he wants to do it alongside them. Otherwise, he'll just take a looking glass to wherever other people are to do it. He's a flexible morning person. If there's talking, he's talking. If the vibe is 'everyone's groggy everyone shut the fuck up," he's happy to put on his contour in comfortable silence. 

So, basically, everyone else is praying that Gale doesn't decide he wants to be included that morning. He'll show up asking Hoshi to do just a smidge of bottom liner for him and now there are two very loud individuals chattering away.

🧼 for a hygiene-themed headcanon:

Cue tiefling headcanons don't @ me. Listen. Game mechanics and how characters work outside battle are two different things. It happens all the time in character interactions.

Keeping the scalier parts of tiefling anatomy exfoliated is a chore. If they're strictly in the company of their own kind, it's not much of an issue. If they're literally rubbing elbows with softer races, it becomes important if they don't want to cause chafing. He'll rub at his joints with a river stone if he has to to smooth out the abrasive edges when he's bathing out in the wilderness.

The claws are a similar issue. Hoshi had already been clipping the ones on his hands since he was a young child in the interest of punching things without stabbing his own hands. The ones on his toes eventually had to go as well. If he goes a few nights without filing them for whatever reason, Gale is going to wake him in the middle of the night to tell him that he's sleeping in the other room. Gale's not angry. He adores him etc etc. There's only so many scrapes on his legs in one night that he can sleep through.

[melancholysway]

TMNT Headcanons: Toxic Traits

Because they're not all rainbows and butterflies bro and IVE BEEN WAITING TO DO THIS WHY AM I SO EXCITED TO BE WRITING TOXIC TRAITS ABOUT THE GUYS LMAO

Also I'm thinking of 2003/2007/bayverse when I'm typing these LMAO

Leonardo

lowkey a control freak

since he's used to being in charge, he tries that in the relationship. Like, if you both want to hang out in the lair or anywhere in the city together, he makes it to where you sort of don't have a say where you go if that makes sense?

Loves his alone time a little too much

Like he won't answer a text or call because he's doing his own thing

This one is justified since he's always doing something with the team, but he sometimes gets so caught up and a whole day will go by without a word from him

Does not sugarcoat SHIT. He forgets to be gentle in times that you may be weak- he's more of a "well, do it then," kind of guy. If you come upset at him because you lost your job or got yelled at at work, expect him to say "then leave, it's not good for you to stay at a job like that." He'll say this, OFTEN. Especially if you come to him with the same issue, OFTEN.

Also that, don't complain about the same shit to him, he's gonna tell you straight up to do something about it instead of constantly complaining about it (IF it's something you can fix, this doesn't apply to really personal sensitive topics you can't control, i mean things you CAN control, like, your friends, job, clothes, etc,)

Raphael

even though raph is like my favorite attractive wise, I'd rather be friends with him LMFAO, why you may ask?

Raph is the PETTY KING.

Will intentionally ignore you if you do something to annoy him

He's so fucking petty bro, it's painful

holds grudges, it goes hand and hand with the pettiness, because in an argument he'll bring up shit that happened like

weeks ago.

I also hc he's an aries, and as an aries, we take everything to heart. We'll take what you say a bunch of different ways

We're also VERY hard headed, and don't care about anyone's opinions but our own, since we're really independent.

So, avoid giving him advice unless he ASKS.

He's independent, so, he likes his space. not that it's a bad thing, but if you're super clingy, yeah, he's gonna break up with you real fast LMAO

Cannot apologize for shit

Like, don't expect him to flat out say he's sorry? maybe a small "my fault," but really, don't expect him to say those two simple words

Donatello

This mf cannot admit when he's wrong. When you're dealing with someone as smart as Donnie, he often thinks that his answers are always right.

He'd rather die than admit he's wrong lowkey, because his genius and IQ is something that's unmatched, and to actually be wrong for once? yeah, no

sometimes you have to step up and check Donnie, because there will literally be times he's wrong and doesn't see it

Donnie hates hates HATES arguing. Any statement you make about him or the relationship that appears argumentative, he'll turn down immediately just to not argue, even if you weren't trying to and it was a harmless statement.

Don't ask this man to repeat anything for you more than once, he will not do it. He just doesn't have the strength to waste his breath when he was loud enough the first time

Michelangelo

Remember when I was talking about clinginess? Mikey is clingy as fuck

It's because he wants to be around you all the time, wants to be with you 24/7, that stuff.

It's sweet at first, but if you don't ask for space, he's seriously going to be following you like a dog everywhere i swear bro

Jealous of you, like the life you have. He wishes he could be human all the time, I don't know, he's jealous of the opportunities you have

Doesn't know when to be serious

Like yes his jokes are funny, but when you come upset seeking for an understanding boyfriend, he tries to make it funny, it comes from a good place, but it doesn't help

Doesn't know when to be serious but then gets pressed when you seek for advice from his brothers? like bro? just try not to make a joke while Y/n's talking about their problems?

Out of all toxic traits, Mikey's pisses me of the most- I'm kind of like Raph, I hate clingy ass people or guys, it kills the mood and makes me not want them anymore it sounds bad but like

oops? sorrynotsorry?

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