#I FUCKING HATE MYSELF

[dymitre]

Damn I want to have a date with him 😪

[yourmoodboards-areonfiirree]

Steph moodboard with Makeup inspo!

Self Indulgent! (bc ooh shiny)

(All images found on pinterest)

[elvirassss]

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creds to everyone on pinterest !! If a photo if yours, comment.<33

[mentaly-british-biologist]

I mean...

[girlyteengirl16]

when i remember the way things went and my stomach starts twisting

[wolfjohnwolff]

she moony on my wormtail till i prongs

-sirius black, maybe

[simplystudiiiez]

god dammit african american lit is such a fun class until i have to do identity shit.

posted from a small corner at the edge of the lunchroom, trying to distract myself from my own dysphoria over a FUCKING ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT

[clairesconvolouted]

i fucking hate myself i fucking hate myself i fucking hate myself i fucking hate myself

[a-is-for-arson]

My parents are saying I'm the perfect grandchild because I like theatre and want to sew and I'm like bitch I have four Fs tf are you talking about???

[maniacjohnny]

Wet Bitters Wednesday !! Me-WOW !!

[jeahreading]

btw yk what I HATE. I hate the fucked up timings of Durga Poojoo this year. Last year I couldn't give the pushapanjoli becuase I was on my periods, I was terribly sad and when I found out it started on saptami at 3 in the night, i literally went out into the dining room and started crying, Giving the pushpanaji is the highlight of a Duga Pujo

Guess what's happening this year, becuase of how fucked up the timings of the durga pujo are, the pandal neared to us, and the only one we can go to for some reason isn't even doing Ashtami pushpanjali. It's straight up going to Navami pushpanjali.

We, meaning me and my mom were supposed to go see Maa today, yeah belive it or not, i haven't seen maa this pujo yet, not even once, I was very excited we were going to go at 4pm, then my mom called me into the room and told me about the pushpanajali thing, I said fine, that's ok but we're still going to see maa ONCE, ONCE pbefore we give the pushpanjali right? And she started shouting at me that I keep suffocating her with the requests and that it was not in her power to take us to the pandal because my dad isn't here.

She has been slacking off and saying no to things an moment pe for the entire time my dad hasn't been here, she keeps saying "w e'll do it when your dad comes back, we'll do that when he's here again" I can understand is certain cases, but every time? And always minutes before we go do that thing, she keeps saying "I can't drive properly, let's not take chances" ?? while she boasted to me about how "I used to drive on uphill mountain roads" EVERY.SINGLE.DAMND.TIME someone questioned her driving skills??

NOT EVEN ONCE ARE WE GOING TO SEE MAA, BEFORE GIVING PUSHPANJALI, OH WHAT PUHSPANJALI, NOTT HE ASHTAMI ONE, BECUASE FOR SOME REASON I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO GIVE THE PUSHPANJALI, NOT LAST YEAR AND NOT THIS YEAR. ADN WE AREN'T GOING TO THE MAHASHTAMI PUJO EITHER BECUASE IT'S AT 6 IN THE MORNING AND SHE MADE THE FACE THAT SAYS "I CAN'T BOTHER GETTING UP AT THAT TIME"

I just I CAN'T, she cancelled going to the program, she can't bother to go to the market, she can't take me 5 kms to a pandal, a pandle that is near to a place she has driven to countless times.

I don't even want to go to the pandle this year, it's better my not even going in front of maa when I haven't bothered going to her before going for the pushpanajali.

My mom is all happy and merry, making me clean the house with her, do every thing related to dust even though we both have a severe dust allergy. Beacuase "PUJO CLEANING" , WHAT PUJO?? I HAVEN'T SEEN THE GOD I AM SUPPOSED TO BE DOING THIS FOR? WHAT'S THE POINT

I told my dad to wake up early find a pandal nearby and atleast give th epushpanajali in hope that

1 he's atleast able to give the pushpanjali, even though he won't be able to come ehre in time to do it with us

2 My mom will feel better about the whole, "well if he isn't giving pushpanjali why should I bother"

I don't know I DONT' KNOW, THE ONE GODDAMNG TIME DURING THE WHOLE YEAR WHEN I AM EXCITED AND HAPPY SOMETHING HAS TO HAPPEN TO MAKE IT BAD

Idk maybe I'm overreacting,

[elvirassss]

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[wabatle]

i might have to go on hiatus for a while due to mental health issues... i really want to keep writing but every single day has been horrible lately and i've been having panic attacks more lately.

[screwenjoyer]

made these while crying because I destroyed my favorite combat boots that I got from my dad :'3

[xalatath]

Oh my god when I can FEEL the mental illness activating triggered by litwrally NOTHING I am actually doomed to be like this for the rest of my life it seems. This is it.

[frayedttorn]

Gonna fucking kill myself my brother just said I have fat, chubby fingers

More experienced Ana's, around what time do you start losing finger fat??