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just fucking bombed my music final. i’ll never be able to live up to my dads name, the musical talent and what little fame he had. he literally was the band that didn’t make it and he still did better.

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TW FOR SA

i love reading a book and getting flash banged with an sa scene like 40 pages in. anyways i made a couple silly videos so i can laugh instead of cry

YET AGAIN TW FOR SA THIS IS NOT TO MAKE FUN OF IT IM A SURVIVOR OF HARASSMENT AND THIS IS HOW I COPE

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"i may be so fucking stupid that im failing a class but at least im cute!" i say, knowing im the most horrendous looking thing ever

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oh yeah my job shadow was today

LOOK AT THE BINGUSES

even got an exclusive interview with one

they were quite the plus to the already great environment in the salon. the stylists were very friendly and helpful when it came to working with me and my silly questions, it also felt like home. mainly bc my mother is a cosmetologist and i remember her taking me to work as a kid

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the one aesthetic study pic i get this quarter

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i forgot how one of the other reasons i decided to drop music production is bc i feel so inadequate compared to everyone else and my teacher consistently pairs me with the best in the class

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good news. i’m getting all my music prod. assignments in.

bad news. i overslept, sat out in 30 degree weather with uggs (no socks bc rushing) a hoodie and a room temperature coffee.

i can’t fucking win dude

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istg im so close to just throwing these music prod assignments. i’m done. i don’t wanna do this any more.

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i love when there’s like, 2 people who don’t do jack shit until the due date is literally tomorrow ಥ‿ಥ

very demure, very mindful.

even i attempted* to log on over the weekend and im notorious for procrastinating

*got hyperfocused on music prod bc im missing a bunch of stuff and im kinda slow with it

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100 minutes of music prod using pomodoro. actually kinda proud. unfortunately my chromebook needs to charge so i’ll take the opportunity to nap or something.

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bullshitting through my assignments… save me bullshitting though my assignments save me

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work after having fun at frillinois. hoping i get all this done.

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some of you bitches deserve a nap and a milkshake tbh

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it’s the mental breakdoweeeeennn *screaming and crying vocoded to the final countdown*

the missing music assignments will be the end of me.

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the once every random interval update

so

changes: i decided to switch out of my painful music production class and go into ceramics next semester. is this taking care of my mental health? i may be posting more considering that life has calmed down, i cut off some people that weren’t good for me, i’ve been focusing on myself and getting my work done, i’ve been trying to get back into the routine after being sick for weeks.

grades so far:

consumer economics: B, missed an assignment from being sick, completed it tho

AALIT: B

PE: C, missed a couple cardio days from being sick, have to make them up at home

music production: D, obvious reasons

internship: A, it’s pretty laid back,

apparel construction: a, also laid back, i keep getting burnt on the irons tho

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"use chatgpt" that's the devil talking. buy four caffeinated drinks and pull an all nighter. this is the way.

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guess who’s feeling a bit better. still have meds n shit packed just in case.