#I DIDNT KNOW WE HAD SO MUCH POSTED!!!
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Going over each post I have in Livejournal has me like

Gurl I didn't even KNOW YOU EXISTED. There are fanfics here that have no title even!! What the fuck are you?? Who the fuck are you???
I mean you're not orphaned but damn do I feel like an emotionally unavailable parent who's always absent by being surprised of seeing fics I wrote that I absolutely already forgot lmao
#status post#its like looking at a goldmine!!#GURLLL#I DIDNT KNOW WE HAD SO MUCH POSTED!!!#THIS IS GOING IN THE ARCHIVE#BITCHHHH#YOU ARE GONNA GET PRESERVED BABEY!!!#i mean i do think i vaguely remember writing KaixJin fanfics but damn#i no longer remember where the heck that was supposed to go lol#either i am very interested#starts eating popcorn#when the fuck is this author updating ?#such a fucking bitch
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Happy tdov to fat trans people. 🏳️⚧️ Biggest thing that helped me as a trans kid was seeing older fat trans people. There were a lot of really irritating "advice" posts going around early in my time on the internet with a lot of misinformation in them, but one that I constantly saw (in addition to people claiming you should wear your pants rediculously low or only wear button ups) were posts saying you had to lose weight to transition. Can confidently confirm that is completely untrue. 👍
#seal.txt#tdov#that 'sky and mike' image of the two old trans dudes hugging was one that I had saved to my phone as a trans teen#and i would look at it sometimes and just wonder how they had made it#idk its just nice knowing we live that long and its not a requirement to be skinnyin order to be respected and loved and get old#some of the old 'advice' posts i saw were really completely bizarre and a lot of them stick with me to this day in insecurities#this would have been 2016 ish tumblr so i know not that long ago but i would have been around 13 for reference#weird that i remember so many of the things i read back then. i could probably fill a post with things i was misinformed on due to Tumblr#specifically tumblrs run by people that i didnt really have the knowledge or awareness to understand probably didnt have my best interests#like 'trans rights ' blogs i would follow and not notice until much later were quite the opposite#this is the consequence of viewing social media before i knew all the secret codewords and my brain was much less developed than it is now
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Hey, just wanted to reach out to say that I found you pointing out and calling this person was really great and you shouldn't have apologized. It was incredibly true what you said, and to be honest it seems out of touch with the reality of a great deal of the japanese fandom, the nuances and their culture. Also, it was as you pointed out, extreme and may I say rude. I want to mention too that the way it was written, as if entitled of the knowledge and the 'explanation' made it all worse in context of the 'fucked up'. The original poster always gets away by using the 'well-written academic'' statement of their 'metas' as an excuse to do or say and make everyone else agree and if not, uses victim narrative and discourses exactly selecting wording for people to agree on it or feel bad.
I don't know if they tagging you in the way they did made you reblog and apologizing/backing up, but no one thought bad about you pointing it out. On the contrary, a lot of people had been bullied and discriminated by this person when they called them out/disagreed going onto lenghts of sending their friends to harass people, and the other persons can't even defend themselves because they are effectively blocked. To quite a few people in the fandom has been done, even accusing them as 'acephobes' (when they're not) or even Nazis by spreading lies. So yeah, I just wanted to say that. I think you were right to call them out publicly.
Thank you very much for this ask. To be completely honest I agree with everything you said here and don't actually feel bad about pointing anything out. I mainly apologised because I didn't want any potentially poor phrasing from my side to cause unnecessary hostility and because I myself have gripes with this person's behaviour but didn't want to cause a scene.
My honest opinion is that they have a serious issue with taking accountability for their own mistakes and highly overestimate their own intellect. If you're reading this, @thegirlwhorideslikeasamurai, sorry if I seem harsh, but it's true. I saw your post lamenting how you're the only academic meta writer / fan in the fandom and I didn't interact then because I honestly do not care enough to start that drama but with the information Blonndiec has just given me, I think it's necessary that someone calls you out.
You're not an academic. You're not beyond the mental capabilities of other fans. You're actually incredibly childish in your metas and analyses and I am not kidding when I say that I was halfheartedly writing essays more academic than every analysis I've seen from you when I was barely a teenager. I don't know how old you are and I frankly don't care. You're not as clever as you think you are.
Also, don't think I didn't notice that you didn't reblog my correction (link here to my correction and here to their "response" for those who didn't see that exchange) of your post so that you could control what your followers saw of the exchange. You're the opposite of an academic. You control information to tailor the narrative, you don't cite your sources properly if at all, you don't format your posts in anything close to how an academic analysis would be, you make unbased claims, you reference posts and canon material without in any way indicating where that information is from, you reference your own (equally unacademic) metas and your conclusions from them without indicating what post it's from or that it's your own theory this new one is based on and instead present it as a common fact, and I could go on and on and on. Your posts are also riddled with logical fallacies and you talk in absolutes and opinions when there's no canon basis to claim such things. I'm sorry, but that's not academic in the slightest.
To be clear, you don't have to be an academic to post on the Internet. You don't have to be anything at all. You could up front be a genuine idiot with no remorse and that's fine. But when you claim to be an academic and also put down the rest of the fandom for not being on your level, you have to be able to back that up. It'd still make you sound like a prick but at least your arrogance would have a basis. It currently does not.
I haven't personally seen the discussions that Blonndiec is referencing and I'm not going to claim anything definitive (because that would be unacademic of me, take notes) but if what they're saying is true and did happen as described, which I have empirical, if anecdotal, evidence to believe could very well be (a friend of mine has personally been blocked by you after they criticised you without actually mentioning your name which I of course can't prove is the reason for the block but the timing is awfully convenient), you should know that you should be ashamed of yourself.
If there's context missing, feel free to enlighten me and call out any incorrect accusations. You have every right to defend yourself. However, I encourage you to cite your sources since you're such an academic. If you don't, then it's just your word against Blonndiec and anyone else who might comment's word and that doesn't prove anything. Don't misunderstand, acephobia and nazi rhetoric should absolutely be called out but only if it's actually happening. False accusations can ruin lives. I hope you know that.
I'm not a fan of calling people out publicly and, again, thank you for this ask, Blonndiec. But considering many of the issues I've personally seen and those I've been informed of by second hand sources were posted publically, I don't really feel bad about calling this out. I could do a full breakdown of just the insulting "academic" comments alone and how there's no academia to be found in said academic metas and, Samurai, if you give me reason to, I will show exactly what I mean point by point (and academically just to give you an example of even low level academia).
If you respond to this, do it in a reblog. That's what a real academic would do. If I'm wrong and you can prove it, you'd have no reason to not show my post in your rebuttal. If I'm right, you'd have every reason to be upfront about your mistakes and how you intend to rectify them. There's nothing wrong with being wrong but there's a lot wrong with refusing to admit to it in a way that lets others peer review you (academic thing, look it up) and come to their own conclusions about the situation. That's what you did when you just @'ed me instead of reblogging my response. A true academic wouldn't hide a peer review. You'd know that if you were one.
I swing in many academic spaces and yet that doesn't make me any kind of expert and I don't claim to be one because I'm not. But since you want to be one so badly, reblog this with a response and show us all how smart you are. I'm dying to know what your academic take on this is.
#sorry to any moots and followers reading this for going off like this#this has just been weighing on me for a long time#i have absolutely zero issue with someone just making posts about a thing they like and things they think about#it doesnt have to be any kind of academic in the slightest#citing sources is not necessary to be a part of fandom#but when you make such a bold and demeaning claim that actively puts down the very fandom you claim to be part of#im gonna get pissed#we are not your underlings and you are not better than anyone else#maybe this is my inner jantelov shining bright here but this is exactly what the modern jantelov is for#calling out people who think theyre better than the rest based on nothing but arrogance and ego#trust me this is not how i usually try to sort problems but ive had it and i think everyone should know#ive personally fallen victim to the “explain away with half baked arguments and appeals to emotion” tactic from people#its very easy to want to give people the benefit of the doubt#so as someone who knows and has experienced how easy it is to fall into that trap i want to point this out to those who might not notice#its very easy to miss#but i didnt miss it this time and im not letting anyone else miss it either#when you start forgiving this type of behaviour youre only a step away from letting them walk all over you#suddenly youre wrapped around their pinky and you wont notice until the light from the exit dims so much that you cant see at all#ive been there#im not letting you go there too#to be clear this isnt a this person issue but you have to catch this behaviour the moment you see it otherwise youll catch it too late#im only being this up front about it because i want you to be able to recognise when someone actually dangerous does it#its a kind of pipeline#i want you to notice in time#ask#yuri on ice
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in light of tedtrent becoming so real, im also jumping on the tedtrent epilogue 😊
there's just no way ted wouldn't keep in touch with the others (and have weekly zoom meetings just like in the christmas special) and I just love the thought of the whole team having reunions once in a while.
and going back to trent's arc in s3, the sunflowers conversation, "And your daughter?" "She's never been happier." I think it could go the same for ted.. we've never really properly saw how henry felt about his dad being in london, it's always other people that told ted his son misses him, who's to say henry would rather see his dad happy because that in turn would make him happy too? he was there to win the whole thing, right? I just know ted’s story isn’t done yet when he still hasn’t learned to let others take care of him in return and who else to pair him with than the man who blew up his career because a man was nice to him (and also because they were so. so cruel for the fakeout tedbecca scenes for that finale) 🥺
I'm no writer so just pretend these are snapshots of a slow burn fic where ted visits london for their team reunion and slowly realizes that trent has a crush on him and they kiss about it 💛
#ted lasso#trent crimm#tedependent#ted lasso fanart#tedtrent#ted x trent#I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS BTW its just that its 4am rn and i cannot type down my thoughts for the life of me </3#im just so not over that ending and how weird it felt for ted to end his story like that.. not like he can turn back to michelle since#dr. jacob is right there.. i want this man to feel loved and cared for and actually have a place he knows he can call home and that was#richmond for me.. to the family we were born with. and to the family we make along the way etc etc etc#ted lasso spoilers#<- FORGOT ABOUT THAT.#i can finally say i loved the ending for all the callbacks and stuff but I NEED THIS MAN TO BE HELDDDD!!!!! *everything explodes around me*#he even went back there WITHOUT BEARD :( his bestfriend for sooo long who was there for all their ups and downs. i dont like beard and jane#being together but the fact ted didnt even go to their wedding too like ...??! what is going onnnn#also graying lasso is just something so indulgent for me . hush#pn.art#JUST YKNOW!!! I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING ITS REALLY REALLY LATE I PROBABLY SHOULDVE WAITED TILL LATER TO POST THIS BUT JAHJVAKDG#my memory is really bad too so i could also be misremembering scenes and im too eepy to check the scenes i had in mind so u_u#ALSO apologies that its taking me sooo long to draw things i recently joined a mc server and ive been playing it all day and night HFSJGFSH#im sooo scared of making these type of posts because i dont have the balls to make the wrong choices in other people's eyes but GRAAH!!!!!#<- i love tedtrent bUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK IM CRINGGGEEEE!!!!!#THATS ALL.... i have more drawings in mind that ill get around to later.. for now goodnight <3
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I had to do it... I LOVE THIS SONG AND THIS ARTIST
here's one more byler edit to we hug now to add to your collection :)
#I seriously could not help myself#I HAD to do it#especially when I haven't seen anyone use the literal world ending scene for the lyrics “the world ended”#like ik it's a metaphor but talk about missed opportunity#it's like every time I see a die with a smile byler edit and they DONT use that scene for “if the world was ending I'd wanna be next to you#cmon#it's RIGHT THERE#they're literally at each others side as the worlds ending I cant#rip maybe that's too obvious or basic- idk I don't really edit that much#also this edit was WAYYY too easy to make#like so easy to find scenes that fit#too easy if theyre only best bros just saying#also can we talk about how the singer is a byler shipper#LIKEE#she knows it too#also if you saw this for the like 5 minutes it was posted before no you didnt#I fumbled the timing trying to change the scenes#byler#byler endgame#byler edit#stranger things edit#anti mileven#anti milkvan#will byers#mike wheeler
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god damn i do not post often but can i talk about intentionality for a second?? one second please
i'm gonna be talking about bg3 but this really applies to any fandom space. people will, surface-level, agree that a Black character is not getting enough content compared to their white counterparts because it's. obvious . take wyll, who is several hours behind on voiced lines compared to other origins despite being one of the original five (before they added karlach and whiteified her too but that's another post). it's hard to deny cold hard facts
but then instead of engaging in content that uplifts Black characters and creators, they'll go right back to pumping out more and more content of just their white faves. on its own, it's not actively harmful, but here's what the implication is, whether they acknowledge it or not: yes wyll has less in-game content, yes his writing didn't get the attention it deserved, therefore i don't like him as much. it only perpetuates wyll's lack of content by contributing to his sidelining in fandom spaces
what i would love for fans who claim to be allies to do is to step out of the comfort zone of their initial favorites (which can, in fact, be biased!) and start pursuing content centering Black characters with intentionality. like all things, anti-racism (actively pushing back against racism rather than simply "Not Being Racist") takes practice and effort. you can't really agree with us that wyll needs more content, then in the same breath say that it's because of that that he's not interesting to you . the point was right in front of you doing a jig and you still missed it
#bg3#wyll#wyll ravengard#this isnt even including people who didnt notice that wyll had less content in the first place#which is. a very damning admission. so you werent paying Any attention to him...? at all....? its obvious even on a first playthrough tf#i had to physically stop myself from saying specific white boy names in the main post bc i knew it would just be fanning the flames#and thats not productive. as much as i hate to admit it.#anyway we all know why halsin is so much more popular than wyll. the white man with as much personality as a cardboard cutout#ITS HARD TO APPRECIATE HIM WHEN HES 1) boring and 2) part of the reason wyll got less content bc adding him meant less time for the others#if people start things in the replies im deleting this post if im being honest. this needed to be said but#i am not in the habit of arguing with strangers on the internet and i am not starting now#tyto speaks#man i didnt even mention how white side characters with maybe 5 min total of screentime get so much fan content .#while wyll a whole ORIGIN character gets left out of party art and either infantilized or villianized beyond the point of recognition
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this one's for all the yuri enjoyers out there — nsft under cut

meronia event prompt(s): scar

#death note#mello#near#meronia#meroniaevent#fem mello#fem near#i had fun w this one!! i love drawing yuri even though i dont do it nearly as much as i want lol#also i love drawing bush thumbs up emoji#i let the lines be messier bc my hands have been a little sore and i am not in the mood for linework#and in honor of yuri day i should get to do whatever i want forever peace and love on planet yuri#anyway i didnt know what to do w near's hair but decided to keep it short bc i didnt want to cover her back for composition reasons#sorry for posting so late i woke up at like 10am which is late for me as of late and had school shit to do boooo#also im in the mood to talk so i made a pot pie today (no meat im vegetarian) and i followed no recipes and used my heart to make#it and i did so well it fucks so hard my heart always leads me to greatness and recipes do nothing for me bc im a culinary genius#<-blatantly untrue but we stay silly#oh!!! and also i got a thing in the mail the thing being a weevil plushie i ordered a bit back that i bought on a whim that i should not#have bought bc im saving my money but actually he makes my life a million bajillion times better and i love him dearly#anyway meronia event is making my life so much better i feel 100% better than i did 2 days ago and hopefully the joy this brings#me will stay w me for long enough to get through the rest of my summer classes bc they are killing me lol. my current ones are ending#in like a week or smth but i have 2 more in july *sobs* all this just to graduate a semester early#k anyway enjoy the yuri ...or dont. im not the boss of u. ig
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LEVEL 5 SYNCHRO
#TWO drawings in “one” day!? :explodinghead:#I also had this one lying in my folder since LAST YEAR(!!!)#almost 1 year anniversary since the original sketch that evolved so much. so i decided to post it cause i had it coloured#and the only reason i didnt post it cause i was too unmotivated to shade it#but then i decided it doesnt need it slap some gradient as the bg and go#so here we are#yugioh#yu-gi-oh 5d's#ygo 5ds#yusei fudo#idk if i should tag bruno#bruno borrelli#antinomy#antinomy yugioh#toolshipping#you know i always found it weird yusei x antinomy dont have a shipname and i get that antinomy IS bruno and always bruno for yusei#but for example even during dark signer era yusei had different shipnames with kiryu#and jack w carly etc.#and its super common for dm and gx ship AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON ZEXAL#so you know#just a thought though#sorry ramble in tags#Junk Speeder#T.G. Over Dragonar
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I don't often post my non kink related art but I'm tryna get the attention of someone else in the community and am too shy and cringe to reach out so. Here, have this portrait I did of Hanzo Shimada. With my finger. On ibis paint. This took me four hours. Progress for proof below.
#we have so many similar interests and im trying to not be cringe about that 🧍♂️#hi im autistic and some people are really really hard to reach out to lol#anyways ove/watch fandom please don't look at my fat kink blog i cannot handle normie anon hate rn#plus id. what u think bc u play OVE/WATCH#idc* oops#not retyping all that#and if you have seen this art on animo and noticed i updated my signature no u didnt!!!#i dont want people on amino knowing im a fat guy that thinks it hot to get fatter#let me be kinky in peace#hanzo#hanzo art#hanzo shimada#hanzo fanart#overwatch fanart#watch either get no notes at all like all my other art or spark the first fatphobic harassment campaign against me bc i dared#to post out my uaual tags#anyways#artists on tumblr#trans artist#overwatch#my art ALWAYS gets ignored its such a SHITTY FUCKING FEELING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats WHY I NEVER POST IT !!!!!!!!!!!!#but whatever im not normal and need to make friends somehow#when people learn to give the attention my art is worth ill post more#but yall on this site NEVER. do ( at least on ever blog I had before this one)#i just dobt post much of it here bc whats the point? no one gives a shit about my intrests and skillls#im just. pretty face to look at#and thats all ill ever be or amount to#bi polar ramblings ig ig ig
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Posting this before I can chicken out
What are you supposed to do when your friend dies?
Drugs? No that didn’t work before. And that’s what caused this too that’s off the table. For now.
You can’t run, nowhere to run. And you still remember your home and running didn’t help there either. It’s still there when candles fizzle out in the wax, and the ache in your shoulder gets just annoying enough to notice.
You can’t hurt. Cause it or take it. Not much to hurt either. What there is wouldn’t help much. No point in doing so either it’s not anyone’s fault but yours.
And his. It wasn’t your fault he ran into a monsters mouth but it’s also your point to do something about that. you couldn’t have done nothing.
But you did and now he’s dead.
You swore you saw him smile even though he didn’t have a mouth. Almost heard him laugh through lungs he didn’t have.
You’re at the wheel and he’s dead, his brain in a chip his body’s stored in the back room next to barrels and crates. And your where he stood. And then where he lay.
Lights are off and nobody’s home
He doesn’t get cold no point in giving him a blanket, but the comfort wouldn’t hurt. He’s not there to thank you but you say you’re welcome to the dead eyes and clean off the marker on his face. He never liked it but it’s still his, it should keep his expression, not a smile.
It’s been a few days, And when you pay your respects to your dead your unsure weither to include his name
And you’re not sure what to say when your captains say they’re bringing him back.
And now his voice is there, his body’s gathering dust, it doesn’t sound fully like him.
He is the ground you walk on, he still offers to steer when you get tired, but he’s not there.
He was almost there. Almost.
So what do you do when your friend dies?
Try to keep the echo alive
“We’ll be leaving Alphonze behind”
#no editing we die like alphonze lmaooo#yk I’ve been wondering what did they end up doing with Alphonze’s body after the electrodon ? they didn’t rlly mention it but I think they#forgot him in there and just. kinda went around him#I mean they’re not assholes they did care about him but they had other stuff on they’re mind so I don’t think the crew would do much#maybe he’s at ensas or smth. anyways yeah that’s totally not him in the ship he sounds too mechanical#wrote this while fighting a depressive episode. posting it solely because noc would cyberbully me if i didnt#jrwi riptide#jrwi alphonze#jrwi gryffon#jrwi spoilers#I never know where to put the ‘jrwi’ in the character names so. first. I guess. idk#those spoilers are. spoilering. ig
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WORST part of replaying this game. Is that i actually *have* to progress through (most of) it to see Kerry again... Like having to wade through little chocolate gold colds to get to the real shit that ACTUALLY matters.
It actually sucks you meet him so late in the game and only get so much time with him :( especially because I (personally) find his romance and plotline to be one of the more developed slash more enjoyable ones and I just :( wish they gave us more time with him ugh I jUST MISS HIM OKAY GUYS I MISS THIS OLD MAN!!!
#if i *HAD* to rank the romances the fate of my first born on the line here#I'd have to say Judy then Kerry then Panam and... unsurprisingly... River (they did him the dirtiest yall 😭)#judy because hers is not only so well developed#but also actually extremely extremely vital to the main storyline unlike the others and ties into the plot really well#kerrys is also kinda important to the storyline in the way its legit just kinda a johnny side mission#especially if you want that extra percentage towards yalls relationship to unlock some of the endings slash dialogue#and panams does feel like it kinda strays from the main storyline but you do meet her because of it (going 2 find rogue for the first time)#so it still ties in well enough#but river.... oh my boy how they didn't even give you a chance to run before walking.....#he just feels so disconnected from the rest of the story... which couldve worked!#it wouldve been fun to let V have relationships and interactions that didnt just revolve around the fact they were dying#river couldve been that respite for them that break away from reality that safeplace for V to just.. take a breather from hit after hit#after disastrous blow as gods own personal chew toy that game made them out to be#it couldve worked! so well! but its the fact you can FEEL how underdeveloped he and his plotline (as a character even)#how rushed it is. how they didnt put the same care and love into him as they did for judys and kerrys story#how they gutted HIS ROMANCE FROM THE POTENTIAL ONE THAT WAS PLANNED HAD WITH TAKEMURA#lik he isnt even his own character but this character stitched 2gether frm scraps of others they didnt have time or energy to fully develop#i feel so bad everytime people talk about how much they hate him and his plotline bc its not his fault guys#hes a victim of cdprs poor planning and writing 😭#like im sorry man but it was kinda a stark slap in the fucking face to going from rescuing his nephew from a fucking trafficking ring...#and the next literal mission we're macking up on the tower overlooking the trailer park#like that shit felt so forced 😭😭😭 where was the natural progression????#the chemistry besides a few offhand comments frm fanily shoved in 2 seconds before the tower 2 force it 2 make sense???#WHERE WAS THE FLIRTY DIALOGUE WITH THE OTHERS???#girl if he told me if i wanted to join him in bed like KERRY had the 1st time we met#bitch u know i would've been crawling on my knees like a DOG jumping str8 up onto that bed#LMAO anyway lost the plot this was a post about Kerry and i guess it kinda still is i just 💚 rambling in the safety of tags#cyberpunk 2077#kerry eurodyne#ult speaking
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i think my biggest frustration is that we keep being presented with all of these things about the qun that the narrative treats it as 'this is an awful thing that the qun does and you should not like them for it' and they're always presented as truth, since they're being told to us by qunari companions, and never as like. well maybe this is just the chantry telling you lies or something. idk i just aa
#qun posting#it just gets to me bc i find the qun SO fascinating and interesting as a concept#and as an opposition to the chantry#and instead of giving it ACTUAL complexities#the narrative more and more is trying to hammer home the fact that the qun is bad#it doesnt help that sten is essentially the follower-of-the-qun companion we have#(i know tallis is there. but again only played MoTA once and i didnt like it that much so like i cant speak for her)#bc bull begins the game as tal vashoth in all but name#and frankly his companion quest is bonkers and makes no sense#and taash is someone who was born FULLY outside the qun#and while the arishok DOES give us some perspective#its not like he's available to talk at all times#AND. He also then goes on to fucking do All That#so in truth we haven't really had a proper loyal to the qun companion since ducking dao
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#i spent the last two years working on this show and. now we're done#it's over#we've still got like half a season thats still unpublished but. we're done#am i breakind my nda currently? probably. i don't know#im just. absolutely devastated#im gonna miss it so so so much#i might be doxxing myself a little with this post but. i dont care#it was beautiful and i wish it went on for longer#but. id like for yall to see it. because it means a lot to me#if my bitch ass country didnt decide to start a full blown god damned fucking WAR#we couldve had so much more#but. we all know what happened (((((: fucking fuck#anyway. there it is. my job my two years of life my beasties my everything#they were beautiful it was beautiful. and now its over#gonna go cry now. as if i hadnt cried enough today#ughhhhhhhhh.hhhhhhh#i just feel. weird. and empty#i really loved it with my whole heart#i wish it went on for longer i wish we didnt have to go our separate ways#we made not one but two calendars and our art director made prints and gave them away for free and we had parties and stupid inside jokes#and bloopers and all the things were not allowed to show pecause intellectual propery and nda and laws#and im gonna miss all of it#sorry for whining on main its just. its an ending and im not good with endings#Youtube
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I'm actually so obsessed with him it's not even funny if i'm not listening to a TikTok or music directly related to him I can't focus free me free me
This is @/cherubpuppet's OC for a object show [au? pitch? wip show? How do I categorize this] and I've been destroyed by the fact that ruler art is infinitely superior [and 10x longer] and i don't have a good enough grasp on lip gloss's personality to make fanfiction so I am frozen in "want make fanart but fanart takes effort :["
#also object shows are the new mlp community change my mind /ref#from what ive seen a very large part of the community is centered around death/gore or mature topics? it reminds me of the mlp infection au#that and smile hd and everybody keeps saying object shiws are kids shows - if kids are making this stuff then good for them /gen#every fandom has its toxic/proship/18+ side obviously but from my pov gen alpha needed something they coudl handle age appropriate extremes#with - its just alot harder to make compelling emotional angst/gore with newer ultra sanitized shows or w/ mascot horror#and like thats a whole nother tooic but its obvious to me younger kids have flocked to mascot horror so harshly because average kids tv is#much more afraid of tackling any big topics to the point that the ones that DO [bluey] immediately are pushed into front and center#but i mean i also rewatched a few episodes of the shows i grew up with and ngl i think we need shit like ren and stimpy and invader zim#i hate ren and stimpy and i didnt grow up with zim but i grew up with pbs kids shit and that shit looking back was hella boring i never#cared for any of the tv shows i saw aside from elmos world and even then i was hoping that something gorey would happen. at like 5 yrs old#im rambling anyway im not sure if im actually going to get into the os communitg but i AM horribly attached to tape to the point that its#maybe possibly becoming harmful to my mental health so im gonna stick around for him for like months#just know that if im not posting anything its because im obsessed with this guy#oh also DID/MALE SA REP LETS FUCKIN GOOO#I LOVE PSYCHOLOGY AND IVE HAD LIKE 4 FRIENDS WITH DID/OSDD I NEED MORE POSITIVE REP OF STIGMATIZED/COMPLEX DISORDERS !!!!!#art#tape dispenser#search for smos#talk talks#EDIT NO. NO DONT SAY IM THE ONLY PERSON ON TUMBLR WHO HAS USED THE SMOS TAG NO. OH MY GOD#PLEASE BEING OBSESSED WITH SOMEONE ELSES OC IS SO GARD DONT LEAVE ME ALONE DO I NEED TO BUILD THIS FANDOM FROM THE GROUND UP??? NOO
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the elderly and their matching gloves
#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#arasawa#jo sawashiro#masumi arakawa#snap sketches#i have one (1) more class today in about an hour and then im freeeeee. until 8am tomrrow 🧍♂️#NO IM MAD LEMME EXPLAIN so the reason why i even drew this was cause i was supposed to meet with my counselor#TO DROP THAT CLASS ACTUALLY cause i very quickly remembered conceptual art was a movement and not. Concept Art#and so here MY DUMBASS sitting in a zoom call for almost three hours waiting for him to get there#and he NEEEVVVER SHOWS UP BRO i have genuine beef with this dude he's SOO bad at responding to emails and showing up for zoom#oh well.... at least i can give everyone old people...#i almost binned this but i liked arakawa's face too much. also i NEVER DRAW THEM OLD I NEED TO POST WHAT I GOT#i actually have more doodles in mind- i had a sawashiro sketch that i didnt like but i really wanna make the concept work#and then i was thinking of a Not Depressing Comic so. yay.#LISTEN we know i love angst and putting everyone through The Horrors but i just wanna see them happy...#ok bye im gonna. Hm.#idk actually i only have an hour and im already dressed for class#i guess ill try sketching out that comic..#BYE
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I miss my old high school friends and classmates o(-(
#i talk#I miss my old dude friends too#I wish they hadn't grown up to be dumbasses#and the ones who were still chill moved away / I lost touch with#I regret not getting closer with one gal in high school who I ADORED#She was so cool and also the first Bi person I ever knew. though at the time that thought didnt cross my mind#I didnt care about labels then or now but back then I also just straight up didnt give them thought lmao#''labels?? sexuality??? who cares I'm cramming for finals''#anyways. she was so cool but I cannot for the life of me find her anywhere online#not even frickin LinkedIn (/neg I hate that place)#Gal straight up vanished after high school and honestly? mad respect but also [redacted] I MISS YOU#YOU WERE SO COOL AND I LOVED YOUR STORIES AND YOUR CONFIDENCE#AND I WISH WE HAD CLASSES TOGETHER SO WE COULDVE HUNG OUT AND BEEN CLOSER#we only had 1 class together in high school and 1 in middle school. I think?#I remember I told my Japanese classmates I would genuinely miss all of them#and a lot of them were startled by how earnest I was about it#because like. we all get alone but the whole class wasnt friends with each other#but I dunno man. maybe it's just a matter of loving what'a familiar#but I do care a lot about people even the ones I dont interact with much#I dunno just feeling a bit sad and nostalgic tonight after seeing that FE post#At least I'm still friends with my best friends#I've known her over half my life and honestly god forbid one of us moves or something#because I think I'd instantly drop dead in genuine despair#aghhh#interacting with people has become so exhausting over the past few years#but I'm trying my best#Trying to let my friends know I love and care about them#instead of dropping off the face of the planet for weeks or months#but it's a major work in progress#Anyways that's enough oversharing for the next year or two
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