#I COULD'VE GONE INSTEAD

[ineedibuprofen]

i might have to tag block spider verse bc if i see one more gifset for the movie i'm flipping my shit

[isjasz]

[Day 155] Sunflowers always face the sun

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So like. If sunflowers always face the sun and the majority of the sunflowers on scar's shawl are on his back and on the side does that mean scar still trusts grian with his back or he turned his back on him rejected him moved on or sometimes they wish they are by each other's sides again or are they allies or enemies this will be the death of m <- epic shower thoughts

[bromcommie]

Are you ready to remember?

Post-CATWS Winter Soldier solo movie poster mockups because I was fucking around with some screencaps again. It's a revenge flick! It's a surreal Cold War political thriller! It's a war/love/horror ghost story spanning several lifetimes! It's about the volatility of identity and memory! About love and devotion! About reclaiming yourself and coming home the long way round! It has actual Russian speakers in it (yes, I recast Karpov, and yes, I'm just imagining half of The Americans cast in there, sue me) and they're not all EvilTM! Brad Pitt makes a cameo as young(ish) Robert Redford! It's at least 50% just flashbacks from ten different decades and also very pointedly queer because fuck it! Who's gonna stop me!

It's very much not real and it was never going to be and yet it still lives in my head rent free down to the last detail all these years later!

[foxstens]

sometimes i think about how tetsuji is actually kevin's godfather

[seaweedstarshine]

Thinking about the convolution of Eleventh Doctor's expressions of love for River Song in Season 7B. He does not trust Clara. He is utterly (wrongly) convinced that he and Clara are playing a grand manipulative game together. “What are you, eh?! A trick? A trap?!!”

So naturally, the last thing he should do in this game is to clue his opponent in on something that could be used to hurt him. Something like River, so painfully near the end of their time together, whose data ghost he can always see, who “it would hurt too much” to acknowledge. He can't let Clara know of the loss which constantly floods his senses; (“You are always here to me. And I always listen, and I can always see you,” he professes, once Clara has vanished into his timestream).

And yet. River fills his every moment (irregardless of any sneaking out for dates with increasingly-young Rivers while Clara is asleep like he did while the Ponds slept, which would explain his absence when the TARDIS is hiding Clara's bedroom). Even though it's not strategic, he can’t help but tell Clara about her. The best defense he can manage is to phrase it as if River isn’t as important to him as she is. Not only is avoiding her first name in his grief; he's also completely avoiding pronouns; which seems extreme given that he's still mentioning her as often as: “Oh yeah, of course he has! Professor Song! Sorry, it's just I never realized you were a woman.”

Leave out the emotion — leave out the details — don't show the cracks in the armor — play the part — win the game.

“Well, there's no point now. We're about to die. JUST TELL ME WHO YOU ARE.”

[sneaky-snake-907]

TBOB spoilers:

[roobylavender]

had talia not been character assassinated do you think she and bruce should have gotten back together?

no. i hate to use the word "phase" bc that would seem to diminish the importance of what's between them, which is something that will always persist esp as their continued dedication to the same causes and their respect for each other remains. but i do think realistically bruce should be a phase in talia's life. at least in terms of consummated romances specifically. i do love the idea of them remaining allies, close friends, and co-parents, but i think allowing talia to walk away from ra's and bruce in the first place has to stand for something in the long term. before talia went her own way i think it was easier to imagine a potential future where she ended up with bruce bc it felt like the desirable option. she was in this very debilitating position where she had little to no freedom to act on her own desires and goals, the embodiment of which was none other than bruce. so when you frame her situation pre-tower of babel, obv wanting to be with bruce was appealing. he was as much the love of her life as he was a means of escape and freedom and talia having the scope to then act on her own desires. i think that's what subsequently makes dc #750 (or is it #570. i never get the numbers straight and i'm too lazy to check) a really clever issue, actually, bc it acknowledges that and the fact that bruce once again setting her free bc of his love for her actually gives her the courage to step out on her own where she never has before. the fact that she has the option to go back to gotham with bruce and presumably have everything she's ever wanted with him, but she leaves it anyway, is a really huge deal. it's a statement. she loves him, but not more than she loves herself. and sure, what talia puts herself through during lex corp era certainly begs the question of whether her version of loving herself is really viable or in any way healthy, and i would love to see bruce help her recognize that she's not alone and that she doesn't have to do it alone to prove that she's capable. all of this i agree with. but i don't think that really means she and bruce have to fall back on their once-imagined dream of playing house. even if talia did find methods of going about her work that were mentally healthier i don't really know what'd be in it for her to play house with bruce in gotham. bc that is what it would have to be, for their relationship to work in any way. bruce will never leave gotham and son of the demon didn't need to explore that issue bc it was never going to get there but trust that corny as the line about naming the baby thomas or martha was it was reflective of a reality: gotham is bruce's entire life. no matter where he goes, no matter what he does, no matter who he works with, in the end he will always belong to gotham. and i simply do not think that would ever work for talia bc there is so much more she is capable of. while her vision is aligned with bruce's her scope of access and ability is entirely distinct of his own and there is so much more that she can do aside from relegate herself to gotham (hence why lex corp as an arc makes so much sense, bc it capitalizes on that scope). and yeah every superhero couple is kinda crazy and they have teleportation and shit but idk i don't think it's really a relationship for each party to go on long missions with ill-defined parameters that give them the worst sleep schedules known to man and occasionally they share a bed. it really isn't. and that's something that bruce and talia have to live with. their duty is always going to come first even though they both have a passion for civilian life. for talia to be in a relationship again she would have to stop having the liberty of being able to go wherever the work carries her and for bruce to be in a relationship again he would have to have the equivalent of a robin-wife. neither of these things is ever going to happen. so

[yenpondering]

On a brighter note I've taken to cleaning and reorganising the kitchen since I'm the one that mainly uses it now and it gives me serotonin to see my baking supply all neat and tidy.

Last week I tried my hand at making a no bake matcha cheesecake and a matcha bread with red bean paste yeee

[helpimstuckinafandom]

JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD

[simmonsized]

Weekend in a hotel for our tenth anniversary!!!! Hell yeah brother!!!!!

[hedgehogcryptid]

Absolutely offended that Paz dies just to check the box of "obligatory death to make this final batle SERIOUS and EMOTIONAL and DRAMATIC" absolute garbage, generic final stand, with the typical sacrificial lamb character that was introduced later and given just enough of a personality for you to be sad when they die.

What should've happened was that he starts to lag behind to make his move and three random warriors we don't know go "the fuck you are, you have a fucking kid" and bodily throw him through the hole in the wall before closing the door themselves. Then we get a cool as fight where they make combo moves, exemplifying the "stronger together" thing we have been told for the last few episodes. Then the three creepy red guards show up and our heroes are fucked up after the heavy fighting but with a concerted effort kill one before dying themselves, making it a more meaningful victory.

We get a properly Mandalorian™ flavored final stand, that showcases care for children, team work, bravery, and badass battle prowess with a cool choreographed fight. And since there's three of them you can have them interacting and talking and caring for each other so that you're still sad when they die even if you literally just met them. With the added punch that since there's three of them you could hope that at least one of them survives, instead of knowing from the start that of course the solitary last defence will fall.

Hell, we could've had the "dramatic sacrifice for serious show purposes" without having anyone die. They just needed to cut one of the Armorer's hands. She loses it, beats the one responsible to death with her hammer, and then you have a whole symbolic loss of the very craft they're here to get back, the central tenet of their whole culture. And then again have the whole message of strength in comunity and survival by having her stubbornly teach an apprentice into mastery despite her disadvantage

[outlying-hyppocrate]

does anyone ever just casually have the most violently disgusting intrusive thoughts that make you absolutely sick to your stomach or (:

[mindflare]

THE [FIRST] DEATH OF JEAN GREY —— UNCANNY X-MEN #137.

[scintillatingshortgirl19]

I have to admit I'm still not very happy with the time jump/story shift as it pertains to Barry (the character). With one episode left I think I need to give up hope on ever getting a satisfying look into his childhood - learning about what happened to his family, the details of what Fuches meant when he referred to "raising [Barry] like a son," and specifically what must be incredibly complex and interesting stuff about his dad considering the somewhat contradictory facts that Barry a) has clear daddy issues and said he "never had a good male role model" and b) decided to name his son after his dad. You're telling me we set all that up and we're not actually going to expand on any of it? cool. cool

And I am just . . . not that interested in his motivations as a religious family man or whatever. There are so many aspects of this character I want to see explored, and I just don't care enough about this new stuff that was introduced for him. Like yeah, I understand the point of it - on the surface he's trying to protect his family but what he really wants is to protect the facade he's built for himself. I get it, I find it vaguely intriguing, and it makes sense for his character, but imo it's not AT ALL the most interesting thing they could be doing with him, and it's worse because it's most likely coming at the cost of not exploring the things I've wanted them to explore since season 1.

[houkagokappa]

Anxiety getting bad againnnn

I was supposed to continue working on my thesis last week, failed to do so on both Monday and Tuesday and when I finally went to check on my samples at the greenhouse on Wednesday, I spotted my supervisor working on her stuff together with some new assistants there and my social anxiety got so bad I left without watering my bryophytes sagdusagjkfs

I came back the next day after office hours when no one else is there to do so, and that's what I've been doing since. Luckily I have my own key so I can come and go as I please, but I'm stuck not being able to take the next steps. I haven't contacted my supervisor bc I basically know what I'd need to do, or I should find answers to my questions from literature, but I'm not able to focus enough to do that!!!!

And now I'm stressing about running out of time. I guess I need to contact her to get things moving again................

[steampoweredace]

Apparently decided that while I was tormenting myself by playing another Pokémon game in a language I barely understand, I would see how many places I could get with just Wyrdeer

The answer continues to be "y'know, I'm not sure I was meant to climb up that slope"

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