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formal-frog-shoes · 8 months ago

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Twiststuck stuff i just wanna get out

Im a huge Cater multi-shipper

Normally this wouldn't be a problem

BUT I CAN'T HAVE ALMOST EVERYONE IN THIS AU HAVE A FLUSH OR PALE CRUSH ON HIM THAT'S ABSURD!!!

#froge post #twiststuck #... theres so many good ships tho.#like riddle pale crush on him would be SO cute.#Though Riddle doesn't go through with it? Buuuut still might have lingering feelings of red and pale in the future?#(I will say this; Riddle ends up breaking quads but its Trey <> riddle but Trey is also his Auspistice. This freaks him out at first)#and Idia having a flush crush would be really funny too cause of how outgoing cater is #and idia's mind is like “woa... alien find me fun to be around?” and he gets a flush crush #I've already confirmed that Jade has a Pale/Flush crush on Cater though Jade isn't sure which one it is.#Jade also seems like the kinda troll who would mix his romances like doesn't quite follow quadrants and instead breaks them #Obviously Trey and Cater being in a relationship is a thing.#past or present? idk. but they've got something going on.#Malleus <3 Cater would be so good too #Prince Malleus learning about humans/ communication and other things from Cater and gains feelings of some kind Pale to Flush or something #Pale Crush Ace i think is a good idea but then Ace gets over it pretty quick. Same with Deuce probs. (these two red tho)#ROOK AND CATER?! LIKE ok that's a biiit of a Crackship? but like here me out???#Like Rook loves learning but also he's “trapped” in that little room and manages to see the world from Cater's pictures #and falls a bit for the photographer? who manages to capture the beauty of NRCBurb or whatever i call the game dfjsalkf #Vil and Cater is also good albeit probably one-sided on Cater's part? Though I can imagine Cater doing the good ol Sacrifice for him.#Cater will throw himself in harms away alot in this au actually.#if i write a narrative for it #Kalim and Cater being “Pale” despite both being human. Like Cater reigns Kalim in from his extravagant plans with more lowkey plans #also Cater did pretty much sacrifice himself for Kalim in the Playful Land event! so there's another point for self sacrificial Cater #I saw Jamil x Cater one time and I thought that was cute so that might be a one off joke-ish moment #floyd flush crush cater is also probably a one off joke too #during the ��Jade thinks Cater is a purple blood era” and then loses interest when learning Cater is human. probably #watch me come up with more after posting #HOW DID THIS GET SO LONG HELLO???#Cater Diamond #twst

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floccinaucinihilipilificationa · 2 years ago

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#good omens #´hello friends!! how are you!!#I hope you're doing well! ( ´ ▽ ` )#I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey #usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from #most of the time I just get a stuffy nose #has my nose gotten stronger #but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (❁´▽`❁)#it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet #but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (:#and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors #I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set #the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer #but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet #unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home #which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car

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bleue-flora · 10 months ago

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as much as I like the dsmp story and its message about how there’s a deep down, I can’t help but think about the Bojack horsemen quote about how there’s no deep down and you are the actions you do regardless of someone’s intent or backstory

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I believe you are referring to this quote “That’s the thing. I don’t think I believe in deep down. I kind of think all you are is just the things that you do.” (Which btw yall its real annoying when I have to find whatever the hell you are talking about, no shade just as an aside…<3)

The thing is, both things can be true. Life is about choices, and your every action and inaction has a consequence, (which I think I’ve talked about before but I don’t feel like finding it at the moment). In other words, everything you do impacts the world around you and has lasting effects. You may not know it and are likely very unaware of the consequences (positive and negative). This is because like my post said we are all inherently selfish because we live and see the world from only one view - our own. So yes, you are the actions/“things you do” and choices you make, regardless of the intentions.

At the end of the day, whether you meant to or not, whether you had good intentions or not, if you hurt someone the facts remain the same - you hurt someone. They have a fundemental right to feel hurt and that is always valid, emotions and feelings are always valid, whether it’s logical or makes sense or not. The reason deep down doesn’t change the outcome or the hurt you caused. However, that is about the past action. If you want to learn and grow and form meaningful relationships, avoid conflict… etc. That’s where the deep down comes in. Then it’s important to look at the reasons, not as excuses or justifications but as explanations - a bridge to understanding and shattering our stereotypes, assumptions and judgement.

(Okay, my foot still hurts from you stepping on it, but yeah if it was just an accident then the relationship doesn’t have to just all end over something stupid like it would if I assumed it was intentional.) Yes the impact you make on the world is the sum of what you do and that impact is true regardless if there is a deeper reason behind it. But also, if you only focus on what people do and go no deeper, then you are missing the bigger picture and your relationships will not last long and you are going to live a very lonely and conflictfilled life.

That is why it is important. Not because in the finale of the dsmp Dream’s reveal changes any of his actions, but because it changes our perspective of him and that changes how we act next. Whether we show compassion and empathy or understanding or forgiveness of someone’s actions or run the hell away. (Whether a conflict breaks out over you stomping on my foot so I step on yours back.)

As an engineer, a nerdy metaphor I could use is that it’s kinda like if situations were an equation then the effect and action is the answer (the one side of the =), but sometimes we need to used the other side of the = to solve for x, so we can solve the next equations.

The deep down matters because it should change your action. It matters because in recent years after excusing my behavior because of something or the other, I realized ya know other people might also have a valid reason too. So while my automatic assumption of why they are late to class is that they are lazy, or rude, or don’t care, maybe maybe they actually woke up nauseous and were throwing up which prevented them from being on time, maybe they fainted coming out of the shower, maybe their car wouldn’t start, maybe they had a doctor’s appointment beforehand, maybe there was a car accident making them late, maybe there was a train blocking the road…etc. there are so many reasons, but our mind just jumps to the worst, and we expect grace from others when we are late but wouldn’t give others the same benefit of the doubt. If we had, if instead of judgment and criticism, we checked on them after class to see if they are okay then maybe we learn of their struggle, and maybe they need our help, or maybe we relate and become friends, maybe you share your notes with them, maybe you give them a hug. The deeper meaning changes what you do and like the quote says, what you do is the impact on the world…

#sorry this got longe then intended but I feel like it is so very important to talk about… btw some of those excuses are how I became friends #with people or happened to me… anyways it’s taken a long time for me to get to a place to understand how both things are true… <3 <3 :)#dsmp #c!dream #dreblr #dream smp #did someone order an essay?#hello there #dsmp finale #i just found out my coworker is late because a train blocks his whole town and it doesn’t run on a consistent schedule so it doesn’t matter #when he leaves sometimes he’ll get caught because the train… and see if his boss didn’t know that he’d probably be fired… the reasons matter #he doesn’t have bad intentions and is lazy and that’s why he’s late and that matters

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sodiumfreak · 2 months ago

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it's the hour of the wolf and i don't wanna die! the entirety of death note compressed into 4 minutes and 13 seconds

#i love light yagami a normal amount i swear #the video was taking too long to upload so here u go. youtube. fuck this feels so weird. i do Not like posting my other socials #hello this is my amv that took me 1 month to make but that is fine because this is a hobby.#i am aware of all the mistakes but i quite literally do not have it in me to edit them out so whatever #also. once again. supernatural inspired. not really but i did think of that one amv with this song you KNOW the one.#how many chracters do i tag this with ummm.#light yagami #l lawliet #ryuk death note #near death note #nate river #mello death note #mihael keehl #teru mikami #misa amane #kiyomi takada #idk that's enough i guess #my amvs #death note #i rewatched the entire show for this but that is an excuse i was due for a rewatch anyway.#and i thoroughly enjoyed part 2 which i hadn't 2 years ago because i missed L and was grieving. much like light you could say.#can you tell i had no idea what to do with the yotsuba arc. just absolutely no fucking clue. so i don't really like that part of the amv #well actually my willpower diminished significantly halfway through so i don't really Know if i like the entire second half of this #BUT! my favourite parts to make were where i focused on L because i love him i love him sooo much and i want him to die really horrifically #WE'VE ONLY GOT SO MANY TRICKS NO ONE LIVES FOREVER!!!!#i hope u guys get alllll of the irony of the last verse #i used some scenes from the relight movies because the deaths of the yotsuba ppl was better in that #it's still very fun to me how ignorant light was when ryuk said he would kill him in the end. like yes baby!!!#your delusions of grandeur are so fun and cute <3 #longest amv i've made godbless ! now i have to lock in aand try to be a real person.

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xxplastic-cubexx · 10 months ago

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Understandably So no one mentions charles when talking about the Logan movie and again Understandably So This Aint Bout Him however i do confess that as someone who had never seen Logan until like. a month ago when i was binging all the movies and without knowing a single thing about it aside from laura i cant lie i was in fact jumpscared by him being there. especially for at least like 3/4s of the movie

#xmen #logan movie #snap chats #i be ramblin today hello ...#it was a pleasant jumpscare. yk until he died. after realizing he committed atrocities by accident 😭😭💀 OLD MAN NOOO #but no please LIKE I READ THE DESCRIPTION WHEN GOING TO WATCH RIGHT #AND I WAS JUST THINKING 'oh he'll probably be here for like twenty minutes. wdym he's here for way longer than that'#i THINK years ago i REMEMBER seeing a screenshot of the hotel bit with laura and charles but again that was years ago #and i might be tricking myself maybe its a false memory jealvvelka either way i just know they were cute :(#point is he was here for. i cant even say So Little cause again He Was Here For An Hour And Thirty Minutes Out Of Two Hours #and lets be clear 'snap has your brain molded that much you know exactly how much screen time charles gets in the movies'#girl no not yet i only know exactly when he punches his clock cause i had to keep restarting the movie cause it kept pausing vjAELKAJE #and it just so happened to struggle literally like. ten minutes after he dies- like when logan was dealing with x24 THAT part #so rude for that.. anyway I Repeat i miss charles and laura bein cute :(#it wasnt a lot but it was just sweet.. i always like how charles always got that Professor in his soul with these movies #like in dofp when logan's losing it after. getting future ptsd jvALKVLAJ??K charles is there to ground him #despite being. Like That vjeaLKj like sir please ily. i will accept the Youre On Acid answer youre trying your best #and then with THIS movie evidently charles is having. the worst time upstairs #but he's still super sweet with laura like oh stop you grandpa im gonna throw up #and to STRESS. they were EVIL about that wholesome dinner bit like :((( oh to see the fam happy and safe again :(((#like im throwing up frankly. people were right this movie IS sad i underestimated their assessment 😭#to lighten the mood in my heart. charles really do be an old man in this movie hes such a menace to logan JELKAK #god. Most Normal X-Men Movie Watcher Focuses On Professor X During The Movie About Logan VEJLKJA #ok im done. sorry i just keep replayin that bit in my head where theyre in the car and logans just 'Did You Take Your Meds SHOW'#like pelase. jaeRLKEaj ok im gonna try drawing i looked at my wall long enough and i think i can draw something

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lesbianlenas · 4 months ago

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can i be honest it’s genuinely crazy as a lesbian to be sitting in a room w like 15 other ppl including ur professor who are all heterosexual women and two men as they discuss “queer women” and u just have to sit there while they say a slur in an academically approved way bc it is apparently progressive to say said slur and what are u going to do abt it? lol. when u think abt it in an objective way tho it is actually insane. like u are all saying a derogatory slur that refers to ppl like me and are congratulating urselves on using the politically correct term as u do so. and i just have to sit there like

#michelle speaks #yes i know they are all heterosexual bc i have eyes. they are all very clearly straight lol #sometimes it really hits me that straight ppl reclaimed a slur for gay ppl and decided it was the appropriate term to refer to us as…..#like i have always been against using for so long now but when i really think abt it again i get so mad lol. like it is so insane.#NEVER forget being in my feminist theory class in like feb 2020 and we did a reading that had a lesbian woman say why she didn’t like the #use of the word queer and a bunch of straight women in my class were criticizing it & i was like. idk i don’t have words #we were discussing it in a group i think or maybe i raised my hand i don’t remember but i was like a lot of lesbians don’t like the term bc #they feel erased by it. but i will just never forget how uncomfortable it felt & felt again recently in my one class #when i am just surrounded by straight ppl happily using a slur for gay ppl. like HELLO???????????#look if gay ppl want to call themselves queer that is their prerogative i personally don’t like it but they can do what they want #it is the fact that straight ppl use that term to refer to gay ppl as if it is appropriate for them to reclaim a slur on behalf of us #there is never a point where it should become so normal for the oppressor class to refer to the oppressed group by a slur #that they literally invented for them. like straight ppl started calling us queer bc they thought we were freaks. and now they get to go #around calling us freaks all day long bc apparently they decided it’s ok for everyone to say it now #as if not that long ago u wouldn’t all be using it as a pejorative 🙄 hate this shit!

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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bleue-flora · 1 year ago

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Before becoming a ctommy apologist [I'm one of the good ones] I used to depise him specifically because he burned down ctubbos house bcuz I used to be the biggest ctubbo apologist and loved firefly duo. Then when cdream called ctubbo a dumb president 😭 bro did not have to do him like that I didn't enjoy that duo anymore as much although I still find a protege au with ctubbo as enjoyable as one with ctommy or even cpurpled

[are there any good ones? - XD lol just kidding.] I understand feeling less passionate about ctubbo and cdream after that, though I do believe (not 100% sure though) cdream also says later that ctubbo was the best president L’manberg ever had, and in Daedalus he says that ctubbo is one of the only people who hasn’t really done anything wrong. In cdream’s mind I suspect his biggest wrong was siding with ctommy and later letting cquackity push him into targeting ctechno and cdream. I mean that particularly was pretty dumb to be fair.

Honestly, as I rewatch lore I’ve grown rather fond of ctubbo. He seems to really care about people and not want to be involved in conflict but allowing himself to be pushed into it because he can’t say no and he’s above all else loyal to his friends. Though I think many of the dsmp members (csapnap, cdream, cpunz…) felt betrayed with him siding with L’manberg since - weren’t they his friend too?… huh it’s no wonder he and cranboo ended up together. He is definitely a character I would have loved to see in a season two. Because the basic change of who he sticks by could change everything for him…

Anyways, I didn’t mean to get distracted there oops, what I’m really curious of is how you went from hating ctommy to being a ctommy apologist? What changed? Like I honestly don’t get it, he just seems like such an asshole to me. [also I’m not super surprised you are one of the good ones since you knew about ctommy burning down ctubbo’s house, because I suspect that that piece of lore (along with ctommy repeatedly killing cdream when he had nothing) plays a big part in separating the ‘good’ ctommy apologists from the more unreasonable ones.]

#how did that get so long?!? wtf….. ooof I don’t understand how I manage to do this every time #hello there #dsmp #dreblr #c!discduo #c!clingyduo #c!tubbo #dream smp #c!tommyinnit #c!tommy #dsmp analysis #dsmpblr #dsmp tubbo

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m34gs · 2 years ago

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The glass coffin trap bothers me so much. It’s definitely up there on my least favourites. Strahm. STRAHM IF YOU WOULDVE JUST LISTENED TO THE FUCKING TAPE OR LEFT THE ROOM IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE COFFIN CLOSED THERE WAS A FUCKING DELAY. THERE WAS A DELAY BEFORE THE ROOM DOOR CLOSED. YOU COULDVE MADE IT OUT BUT NO YOU HAD TO STAY AND GLOAT AND THIS. THIS IS WHY YOU FUCKING DIED.

#saw #saw franchise #glass coffin #saw trap #personal #this is just my personal beef with it #I get the purpose of the trap and the way it shows his flaws #and I appreciate the storytelling of it #I just get so fucking frustrated #by Strahm’s stupidity #my dude. my man.#how long have you been hearing about Jigsaw #how many files did you read #how many cases did you look at #and you didn’t think about how the man is always ten steps ahead #and seems to literally make a game out of guessing what the cops will do next #hello???#sir #SIR I KNOW YOU GOT SOME SORT OF A BRAINCELL IN THERE CAN YOU PLEASE USE IT

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ssreeder · 1 year ago

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Chapters: 15/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Sokka/Zuko (Avatar), Aang/Katara (Avatar), others to be tagged later - Relationship Characters: Sokka (Avatar), Zuko (Avatar), Aang (Avatar), Katara (Avatar), Toph Beifong, Jet (Avatar), Suki (Avatar), Kyoshi Warriors (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar), Jee (Avatar), Hakoda (Avatar), Bato (Avatar), A bunch of OCs, Long Feng, Joo Dee (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Mai (Avatar), Ty Lee (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), General Fong (Avatar) Additional Tags: Violence, Blood and Injury, War, Minor Character Death, Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Attempted Sexual Assault, Major Character Injury, Amputation, Implied/Referenced Suicide, possible major character death, themes similar to the first two books, Sexism, Racism (like has already been written in first two books), dark themes, Human Trafficking, Slavery, Just a lot of dark war-like themes, there will be a battle, Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Injury Recovery, Healing, Underage Sex, Underage Drinking, Animal Death, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Warnings each chapter, Hopefully some healing for Zuko finally, no promises, but that’s the goal, Reunions, hopefully a happy ending, Sokka gets some healing too, Non-Consensual Drug Use Series: Part 3 of Leaving It All Behind Summary:

-This is the last book of the series LIAB, please go read the other two books before this, or you will be very confused-

Zuko has been taken by the Earth Kingdom army to who-knows-where, and Sokka is determined to get him back.

But he can’t do it alone.

With Suki and the Kyoshi Warriors by his side, Sokka is headed to Ba Sing Se to find Katara and Aang so they can go rescue his fire bender.

Things aren’t as easy as he had hoped. Corruption, lies, and unknown horrors await them inside the city’s walls. None of this is helping Sokka’s mental well-being.

Hakoda and his men face a problem of their own as Azula approaches with the intentions of making it rain fire.

Sokka and Zuko will both find themselves having to reintegrate back into a life they thought they left behind, with people they hardly remember. It isn’t easy for anyone, especially when they don’t recognize the person standing in front of them.

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unnonexistence · 6 months ago

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i started doing climate data transcription on Zooniverse today & it's nice. i feel a certain kinship with these 1950s weather observatory scientists who were trying to use up their stack of preprinted-for-the-1940s observation sheets & had to keep crossing out the "4" in the year field. they were doing it until at least 1952

#personal #putting my years of experience deciphering handwritten numbers to good use lmao #it's also nice because i'm like. oh hello sense of purpose. nice to see you again #i think contributing to climate research in some way is my Thing I'm Supposed to be Doing #like i don't quite. know how to explain that. the subject makes it a little tricky because i don't want people to think i mean #'i think people have some sort of divinely-ordained purpose and this is mine' or #'i feel obligated to do this' or 'i feel everyone has a moral imperative to do this and i'm judging everyone for doing other things'#(selfish: this man found time to build a birdhouse while jonbenet ramsey's murder is still unsolved)#it's more just like. if i go to long without contributing to this or actively working towards that. it feels like it's bad for me #i can Feel the effect on my mental health. like those little arrows in Don't Starve that show you which way your sanity meter is moving #what am i doing!!! i should be doing my thing!!!#Past Me did not make the best university choices for this but that's ok he had a lot of other shit to worry about #& math isn't a bad starting point. i'll find my way over into data science or meteorology or something somehow #anyway. waiting with bated breath to see when the scientists finally get updated forms #the ones to transcribe are assigned randomly so i can't intentionally go looking

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dorkylittleweirdo · 4 months ago

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What if I started writing the Gaius fic again. What then

#iykyk #fuck how long has it been since I've touched that one lmaoooo #some of the parts have been getting notes again tho and I'm like hello #i loved writing that fic but god i know the writing will be so terrible if i look at it now lmaoooo #i wish i could post about my ocs on here but they're already on my side blog #so that's concerning For Me lmao y'all don't need to be able to find that #so that means it's just fictional characters allowed on here lmao #anyway what if i did it lmao

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stars-inthe-sky · 6 months ago

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10. tell me about an insecurity you overcame.

It's been a while since I started freelancing for fun and profit, but the beginning of that journey is still a pretty big deal to me.

I'd previously worked at an agency for nearly three years, so I knew how to do client-based work, but I knew nothing about business development (or billing, or taxes, or client management, or admin).

And, for those I didn't know back in 2017, I started down that whole road in the first place after getting very unexpectedly and unceremoniously fired after like four months on the job. It was never clear exactly why, but I'd thought things had been going well, and that was a pretty gutting Thursday afternoon.

I'd also just gone through a job search, so I knew there weren't many positions available in the region that would be a fit—and that the most recent thing that had seemed to be a great fit had, uh, not been. (This was before remote/hybrid work was a real norm, even though my agency job had functionally been hybrid and taught me to work effectively as such.)

But when I'd gone through that previous job search, a couple of people I spoke with had mentioned maybe needing some freelance capacity down the road, and perhaps I should get in touch once I got settled in the job if I was interested. So I reached out to them, without mentioning the rest, thinking I could at least bridge the gap while I figured out what the fuck to do. Both had solid projects for me where I learned a bunch quickly, made some money, and was excited for more.

And then it just kind of made sense to keep seeing about those kinds of opportunities—both because I liked the client-based work and flexibility, but also because it quickly became apparent that it'd be harder for any one person or institution to fuck me over in the same way.

Plus, one of the people who needed a subcontractor turned out to be a great mentor and reference; I don't think I ever told him quite why I'd decided to go all-in on freelancing full-time, but I have thanked him repeatedly for some truly foundational early guidance as well as a couple of projects he helped set me up with. He's semi-retired now but I'm still using some of those templates!

Anyway, I networked my way into a couple of additional early projects and finished 2017 with about the same overall income for the year that I had had in my agency job for 2016. (Not the fuck-them one, the one I got laid off from because, well, that was a bad end-of-year for anyone working in Democratic politics, much like this one.)

And the rest is history: I've been self-employed for about 7.5 years now and, while the constant hustle and inconstant income/workload have their own challenges, I think I've landed in a pretty secure (emotionally/professionally) place about the whole enterprise.

#ask me ask me ask me #stpauligirl #about me meme #freelancing for fun and profit #having been let go from full-time work twice in six months i can say that the agency people were INFINITELY kinder #i wasn't the only one in that situation and they gave us nearly a month heads-up plus an extra month of health insurance #it turned out our boss had forgone his own income for a few months to pay the rest of us that year #and like they just ran out of money and work to do. it wasn't shocking tbh.#and it had already been apparent that what work there was wasn't using any of the skills for which i'd been hired #and i *did* get to keep my electronics. that 2014 laptop lasted me until early 2023!#so anyway if you have to nix someone's job that's the way to do it #i've mostly lost touch with those folks but i don't have a bad word to say about them #whereas the fuck-them situation had me with a sour taste in my mouth around an entire state for like a year #incidentally not that long ago someone i'd worked closely with for YEARS at my anchor client was networking #and mentioned being put in touch with [x] who apparently had been working at the fuck-them place at the same time as me #should he let [x] know we'd been working together? did i want to pass along a hello or anything?#i very quietly said 'please don't.' and after a pause and because i liked and trusted THIS guy added #'he fired me out of nowhere for unclear reasons so i'd really rather not be involved further.'#i mention this because the guy at the anchor client had no idea. by my design.#but also because i've worked really hard to be confident and good at what i actually do and how i do it.#anyway fuck them

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szilverer · 5 months ago

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this last run had some adrenaline bc i was running out of second chances but this was THE perfect team to attempt embalming. seeing the king of motley end a run in like two taps is always extremely satisfying. getting the nod with my 7th trophy? also extremely satisfying. hehehe. now, onto the spoils.....

the ghostie approaches literally like this

like. it surprises me how giddy they were about it, considering what happened in the cottage. you'd think they got a praise kink or smth but nah. honestly am not even sure what it is yet. i guess acknowledgement for your efforts is always nice, kink or not, and they enjoy the thought of a Master doing that? hmm. anyway.