#HOW DID THIS GET SO LONG HELLO???
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Twiststuck stuff i just wanna get out
Im a huge Cater multi-shipper
Normally this wouldn't be a problem
BUT I CAN'T HAVE ALMOST EVERYONE IN THIS AU HAVE A FLUSH OR PALE CRUSH ON HIM THAT'S ABSURD!!!
#froge post#twiststuck#... theres so many good ships tho.#like riddle pale crush on him would be SO cute.#Though Riddle doesn't go through with it? Buuuut still might have lingering feelings of red and pale in the future?#(I will say this; Riddle ends up breaking quads but its Trey <> riddle but Trey is also his Auspistice. This freaks him out at first)#and Idia having a flush crush would be really funny too cause of how outgoing cater is#and idia's mind is like āwoa... alien find me fun to be around?ā and he gets a flush crush#I've already confirmed that Jade has a Pale/Flush crush on Cater though Jade isn't sure which one it is.#Jade also seems like the kinda troll who would mix his romances like doesn't quite follow quadrants and instead breaks them#Obviously Trey and Cater being in a relationship is a thing.#past or present? idk. but they've got something going on.#Malleus <3 Cater would be so good too#Prince Malleus learning about humans/ communication and other things from Cater and gains feelings of some kind Pale to Flush or something#Pale Crush Ace i think is a good idea but then Ace gets over it pretty quick. Same with Deuce probs. (these two red tho)#ROOK AND CATER?! LIKE ok that's a biiit of a Crackship? but like here me out???#Like Rook loves learning but also he's ātrappedā in that little room and manages to see the world from Cater's pictures#and falls a bit for the photographer? who manages to capture the beauty of NRCBurb or whatever i call the game dfjsalkf#Vil and Cater is also good albeit probably one-sided on Cater's part? Though I can imagine Cater doing the good ol Sacrifice for him.#Cater will throw himself in harms away alot in this au actually.#if i write a narrative for it#Kalim and Cater being āPaleā despite both being human. Like Cater reigns Kalim in from his extravagant plans with more lowkey plans#also Cater did pretty much sacrifice himself for Kalim in the Playful Land event! so there's another point for self sacrificial Cater#I saw Jamil x Cater one time and I thought that was cute so that might be a one off joke-ish moment#floyd flush crush cater is also probably a one off joke too#during the āJade thinks Cater is a purple blood eraā and then loses interest when learning Cater is human. probably#watch me come up with more after posting#HOW DID THIS GET SO LONG HELLO???#Cater Diamond#twst
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#good omens#Ā“hello friends!! how are you!!#I hope you're doing well! ( Ā“ ā½ ` )#I have a big cough but otherwise I am good! It's nothign bad I am just very slimey#usually I am not a cough person I am not sure where this is coming from#most of the time I just get a stuffy nose#has my nose gotten stronger#but there are good news too I have already found a VERY good chestnut to put into my pocket this autumn!! its very small! (āĀ“ā½`ā)#it's been a very warm autumn in Germany so far so it has not really felt like fall yet#but yesterday it was all rainy and stormy and I had two new books and it was the best day possible to have a slimey cough (:#and now I feel SO much autumn I am close to buying a set of window colors#I do not know what I would to with the window colors I just have this strong urge in me to buy a window color set#the last time I did a window color was at the birtday of a class mate I think she turned 9 and I made a deer#but for some reason we did this craft 5 minutes before we all had to leave so we had to carry our window color deer home wet#unfortunatly for the deer and me I fell down the stairs of her house and smeared the deer all over me and i screamed the entire drive home#which wasn't very long but it probably felt very long for the mother who had a screaming child covered in window color deer inside her car
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as much as I like the dsmp story and its message about how thereās a deep down, I canāt help but think about the Bojack horsemen quote about how thereās no deep down and you are the actions you do regardless of someoneās intent or backstory
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I believe you are referring to this quote āThatās the thing. I donāt think I believe in deep down. I kind of think all you are is just the things that you do.ā (Which btw yall its real annoying when I have to find whatever the hell you are talking about, no shade just as an asideā¦<3)
The thing is, both things can be true. Life is about choices, and your every action and inaction has a consequence, (which I think Iāve talked about before but I donāt feel like finding it at the moment). In other words, everything you do impacts the world around you and has lasting effects. You may not know it and are likely very unaware of the consequences (positive and negative). This is because like my post said we are all inherently selfish because we live and see the world from only one view - our own. So yes, you are the actions/āthings you doā and choices you make, regardless of the intentions.
At the end of the day, whether you meant to or not, whether you had good intentions or not, if you hurt someone the facts remain the same - you hurt someone. They have a fundemental right to feel hurt and that is always valid, emotions and feelings are always valid, whether itās logical or makes sense or not. The reason deep down doesnāt change the outcome or the hurt you caused. However, that is about the past action. If you want to learn and grow and form meaningful relationships, avoid conflictā¦ etc. Thatās where the deep down comes in. Then itās important to look at the reasons, not as excuses or justifications but as explanations - a bridge to understanding and shattering our stereotypes, assumptions and judgement.
(Okay, my foot still hurts from you stepping on it, but yeah if it was just an accident then the relationship doesnāt have to just all end over something stupid like it would if I assumed it was intentional.) Yes the impact you make on the world is the sum of what you do and that impact is true regardless if there is a deeper reason behind it. But also, if you only focus on what people do and go no deeper, then you are missing the bigger picture and your relationships will not last long and you are going to live a very lonely and conflictfilled life.
That is why it is important. Not because in the finale of the dsmp Dreamās reveal changes any of his actions, but because it changes our perspective of him and that changes how we act next. Whether we show compassion and empathy or understanding or forgiveness of someoneās actions or run the hell away. (Whether a conflict breaks out over you stomping on my foot so I step on yours back.)
As an engineer, a nerdy metaphor I could use is that itās kinda like if situations were an equation then the effect and action is the answer (the one side of the =), but sometimes we need to used the other side of the = to solve for x, so we can solve the next equations.
The deep down matters because it should change your action. It matters because in recent years after excusing my behavior because of something or the other, I realized ya know other people might also have a valid reason too. So while my automatic assumption of why they are late to class is that they are lazy, or rude, or donāt care, maybe maybe they actually woke up nauseous and were throwing up which prevented them from being on time, maybe they fainted coming out of the shower, maybe their car wouldnāt start, maybe they had a doctorās appointment beforehand, maybe there was a car accident making them late, maybe there was a train blocking the roadā¦etc. there are so many reasons, but our mind just jumps to the worst, and we expect grace from others when we are late but wouldnāt give others the same benefit of the doubt. If we had, if instead of judgment and criticism, we checked on them after class to see if they are okay then maybe we learn of their struggle, and maybe they need our help, or maybe we relate and become friends, maybe you share your notes with them, maybe you give them a hug. The deeper meaning changes what you do and like the quote says, what you do is the impact on the worldā¦
#sorry this got longe then intended but I feel like it is so very important to talk aboutā¦ btw some of those excuses are how I became friends#with people or happened to meā¦ anyways itās taken a long time for me to get to a place to understand how both things are trueā¦ <3 <3 :)#dsmp#c!dream#dreblr#dream smp#did someone order an essay?#hello there#dsmp finale#i just found out my coworker is late because a train blocks his whole town and it doesnāt run on a consistent schedule so it doesnāt matter#when he leaves sometimes heāll get caught because the trainā¦ and see if his boss didnāt know that heād probably be firedā¦ the reasons matter#he doesnāt have bad intentions and is lazy and thatās why heās late and that matters
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im back from study abroad so hereās the barbie meme with my ocs
#adri#rin#my ocs#barbie#barbie movie#oc#original character#my art#i had so much fun studying abroad omg#traveled so much and met cool people#it also meant i did not spend that much time drawing tho#but now im back!! so hopefully i will get back into the drawing groove#my internship does start soon tho so idk how long it will last :')#anyways#hello again
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Understandably So no one mentions charles when talking about the Logan movie and again Understandably So This Aint Bout Him however i do confess that as someone who had never seen Logan until like. a month ago when i was binging all the movies and without knowing a single thing about it aside from laura i cant lie i was in fact jumpscared by him being there. especially for at least like 3/4s of the movie
#xmen#logan movie#snap chats#i be ramblin today hello ...#it was a pleasant jumpscare. yk until he died. after realizing he committed atrocities by accident ššš OLD MAN NOOO#but no please LIKE I READ THE DESCRIPTION WHEN GOING TO WATCH RIGHT#AND I WAS JUST THINKING 'oh he'll probably be here for like twenty minutes. wdym he's here for way longer than that'#i THINK years ago i REMEMBER seeing a screenshot of the hotel bit with laura and charles but again that was years ago#and i might be tricking myself maybe its a false memory jealvvelka either way i just know they were cute :(#point is he was here for. i cant even say So Little cause again He Was Here For An Hour And Thirty Minutes Out Of Two Hours#and lets be clear 'snap has your brain molded that much you know exactly how much screen time charles gets in the movies'#girl no not yet i only know exactly when he punches his clock cause i had to keep restarting the movie cause it kept pausing vjAELKAJE#and it just so happened to struggle literally like. ten minutes after he dies- like when logan was dealing with x24 THAT part#so rude for that.. anyway I Repeat i miss charles and laura bein cute :(#it wasnt a lot but it was just sweet.. i always like how charles always got that Professor in his soul with these movies#like in dofp when logan's losing it after. getting future ptsd jvALKVLAJ??K charles is there to ground him#despite being. Like That vjeaLKj like sir please ily. i will accept the Youre On Acid answer youre trying your best#and then with THIS movie evidently charles is having. the worst time upstairs#but he's still super sweet with laura like oh stop you grandpa im gonna throw up#and to STRESS. they were EVIL about that wholesome dinner bit like :((( oh to see the fam happy and safe again :(((#like im throwing up frankly. people were right this movie IS sad i underestimated their assessment š#to lighten the mood in my heart. charles really do be an old man in this movie hes such a menace to logan JELKAK#god. Most Normal X-Men Movie Watcher Focuses On Professor X During The Movie About Logan VEJLKJA#ok im done. sorry i just keep replayin that bit in my head where theyre in the car and logans just 'Did You Take Your Meds SHOW'#like pelase. jaeRLKEaj ok im gonna try drawing i looked at my wall long enough and i think i can draw something
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Mace of Bakes
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Contains: Non-canon character death (cancer mention), Reminiscing about the army and merc work, Mace deciding on a new path for himself, Community building through food, Self-discovery time for Mace. x Single mom reader (eventually, she's not really in this part) Basically fluff with some sad stuff at the start.
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"Are you happy, Mason?"
His mama looked all wrong, laying in a hospital bed. Mace had never known her to get sick. He'd never thought that she'd get old. In his mind, she was still young the same age as when he left home. It startled him to realize that he was the same age she'd been when he left home. Thirty-eight.
She wasn't even sixty now. Too young to be laying there, all the warmth drained out of her skin, too young for her tightly coiled hair to be grey, too young to be dying.
He itched to get up and do something. Anything. But he'd already done everything he could think of. He'd brought her sunflowers, chocolate from that fancy little place down the block from the house he'd bought her the moment he'd been able to, brought her pretty stationary and a pen so she could write letters to her friends in shaky but still clear script. He'd even prayed. Gone to church and sat down in a pew and bargained with god. The world would be better with her in it, and him gone. If there was one thing he'd learned from his years as a soldier, it was that violence only begat more violence. Put down one enemy, and another popped up in his place. But people like his mother made things better.
She was no saint, of courseā Hard to be, in her position, raising a headstrong boy furious about losing his father in some far off conflict he couldn't understandā but she was good. Patient. Dedicated her time to helping her community. Helped kids like him make better decisions than he had. She always picked up the phone when he called, no matter what time of day it was for her. Better that she live, and he die.
But god made no bargains with sinners, it seemed.
"Mason," she repeated, reaching for his hand. Her grip was weak. "Are you happy? Are you living the life you want?"
Was he? Did he even remember what it was to be happy?
The trouble with wearing a mask is that you become more of an idea than a person.
It had been years since Mace really thought about himself. He'd just been a kid, angry and afraid, desperate to get out of his home, out of his city. He was smart, but his grades weren't good enough to get any kind of scholarship. He was athletic, but he wasn't much of a team player, so there was no college team that wanted him either, no matter how big and strong he was already at eighteen. The army was just about the only thing he could use to drag himself up, so he gripped that uniform and held on tight, until his knuckles creaked with the effort. He should have known better, after what happened to his father, but maybe he just wanted to see something of his dad when he looked in the mirror.
(One of his drill sergeants had called him a fighting dog. Mace had grit his teeth and taken it, because as much as he wanted to bite back, it would just be proving the man right. And Mace would take a lot worse than that if it meant showing the whole damn world how wrong they were to dismiss him outright, to decide his fate before he'd taken his first step. But that was the way things were. The way they still are.)
But the thing about the army is that people notice when you're good at what you do. He'd moved from regular army to the rangers by the recommendation of that same sergeant. He earned respect. He'd joined an international task force and met someone who reminded him far too much of himself. Funny how someone from thousands of miles away could look him in the eye and see the things he thought he'd buried. Simon Riley, Ghost, more an idea than a person. And Mace put on that mask, same as Riley's, and they were like brothers.
Until they weren't.
Mace kept the mask though. And the lesson.
He left the army. Joined the Shadows. Joined the Jackals. Worked his ass off anywhere he went. He was efficient, brutal when he needed to be, bold and creative, one of the best.
And nowā¦
Graves had offered him a spot with the Shadows again. But in truth, the soldier's life was wearing on him. He'd bled for his country, bled for money, bled for his homeland.
None of it had made him happy.
The words caught in his throat. "No. But I'll try to be."
"That's all I ever wanted for you."
Things got worse, and she didnāt get better, but he held her hand while she slipped away. Held it together to plan a funeral, shaking hands with everyone who came to pay their respects. It twisted something inside him painfully. All these people that knew his mother better than he did. That loved her, laughed with her.
Who would come to his funeral, if he died right there? A few old war dogs, if word got to them in time. He had few friends. No one would care about his passing the way they did his motherās.
He stood in the graveyard for a long while after they buried her, staring at the gravestone. Kendra Ward, 1966-2024. She was the best of us.
It wasnāt enough. But what could be?
Her estate was easily settled. Mace still owned the house, on paper, and she didn't have that much else. No matter how much money he sent her, she didnāt like to spend more money than she needed to. He gave the house to his cousin Jessie, since she had four kids and a too-small apartment, gave the car to his aunt, let them split what little jewelry she had between them. He kept her wedding rings, and his father's, since she'd told him that she wanted him to have them, and he took some of the photo albums. He couldn't bear to look at them now, but maybe someday he'd want to.
He thought about staying. It was nice, for a few weeks, to spend time with Jessie's kids, get to know his family again. He'd thought it would be hard to talk to children, but it really wasn't, in the end. It was easy, because all he really had to do was listen, and let them win any games they played.
Still, there was another brother out there he needed to make peace with. One that wouldn't so readily accept that he had changed.
So he went to England.
He didn't expect to see Riley for a long while. He wasn't sure that the man lived in Manchester, if he ever even left base anymore. They'd both become the mask over the years. It wasn't easy to start being a whole person again.
He tried a few jobs on, but they fit like an off the rack suit. He couldn't stand the noise of most trades, didn't have any patience for customers or desk work. Maybe he could move out to the country and be a farmer. The thought appealed to him somewhat, although he knew deep down it was just the fantasy of the life that he wanted. He didn't particularly care for getting muddy, and he didn't know the first thing about animals.
He was walking home when he noticed the Help Wanted sign in the window of the bakery near his apartment (flat, as the locals called it). He liked the place, in part because Sharon, the older woman with graying curls that worked the counter reminded him a bit of his mother, and partially because the smell of bread baking wafted in through his window early mornings, and it was hard to resist the sirenās call.
The little bell above the door jingled pleasantly as he walked in, head nearly brushing the damn thing.
"Hi, honey," Sharon said with a smile, popping her head out of the kitchen. "We don't usually see you so late."
"I saw the sign in the window, ma'am. Thought I might as well ask you about it."
āOur baker quit in the middle of his shift. Iāve been running back and forth all day.ā She pursed her lips, taking in the broad and tall expanse of him. āYouāre interested?ā
āYes maāam. Was a soldier for a long time, and Iāve been having trouble finding civilian work that suits. At the very least, I know Iād respect my boss.ā He rubbed the back of his neck, feeling a bit sheepish. It wasnāt as if she had time to train a raw rookie, butā¦ āDonāt know dick all about baking, but Iām good at following orders.ā
Sharon thought about it for a moment. āCan you promise not to quit in the middle of a shift?ā
āFigure nothing you throw my way could be worse than desert warfare.ā
Sharon grinned. āNo, we only do dessert warfare here.ā
Mace barked out a laugh despite himself. Heād always loved a bad joke. āGot a bakery rival?ā
āOf course. Where dāyou think my baker went off to?ā She shook her fist at the far wall, laughing. āYouāre hired. Can you start now? If Iāve got to mop the floors after the day Iāve hadā¦ Well, I donāt want to. Better the young do the heavy lifting, yeah?ā
āCan do, maāam. Just show me to the mop closet.ā
He wiped down the little cafe tables and stacked up the chairs so he could sweep, mopped the cafe floor, emptied the display case and bought the wire trays to the kitchen to run through the dishwasher. Sharon was portioning out dough and quickly shaping it and putting it into baskets. He watched for a moment, and then went back out to finish cleaning up the front of house.
When he returned again, Sharon beckoned him over. āWash your hands well,ā she ordered. āIāll show you how to shape these loaves. This doughās a little sticky, so youāve got to be decisive.ā
He did his best to mirror her movements. The dough was really sticky, but there was a slight resistance to it, and once he got the hang of the consistency, he was able to produce a ball that Sharon didnāt have to reshape a little before it was tucked into itās little basket to rise overnight. Each one was better than the last.
It felt nice to use his hands for something productive. This wasnāt much like anything heād done as a soldier, and it was a relief that he was still able to learn new tricks. That he wasnāt so busted up by everything heād been through to do something good.
Each basket went on a tray with three others, and then onto a wheeled rack, and soon theyād filled two. Sharon covered them with a plastic sheet (to keep humidity in) and they slid them into the big walk in fridge.
There were a few more things to do, cleaning up the kitchen, but soon enough Mace was hauling the trash into the dumpster behind the bakery while Sharon locked up. She handed him a box of leftovers from the display case, which he accepted gladly.
He ate a chocolate chip cookie on his way back to his apartment, humming. That felt like the right kind of work. Busy enough, quiet enough, and he wouldnāt have to be the one dealing with customers. It was going to be a hell of a learning curve, but he liked the idea of being a baker. The sort of career that his mama would be proud to see him in
He ate a cold sandwich and several more pastries for dinner, then showered and went to bed early, setting his alarm for four am. He stared at the ceiling for a little while, arms tucked behind his head.
Yeah. This would suit him just fine.
The next morning had Mace out in the pre-dawn chill, waiting beside the bakery. He'd ended up watching a few videos on bread shaping while he ate breakfast, feeling a strange apprehension, like a student desperate to cram as much information as possible into his head before a big exam. He really wasn't qualified. He didn't know shit about cooking or baking-- He'd eaten mess hall meals and MRE's for the majority of his adult life. He knew what good food tasted like, but making it was a whole other beast.
He was pretty sure he'd gone into war zones less nervous than this.
Sharon waved at him when she turned the corner a little ways up the street. "Showed up after all, did you? The early mornin' didn't scare you off?"
"No ma'am. Said I'd be here." He followed her down the alley, hands in his pockets.
"An honest American," she said, faking a look of shock as she unlocked the door. "Never thought I'd see the day."
"You just dealing with tourists? Or do you have a vendetta I should know about?"
Sharon laughed. "Vendetta. An American woman stole my son away to Florida. I hardly see him now."
"I've got friends down that way. You say the word and I'll have them ship him back to you."
"Tell them to bring my grandkids too!"
Mace soon found out that Sharon was a great teacher. Funny, when she wasn't bone tired after a long day, and especially now that he wasn't a customer anymore. That polite customer service smile that he had gotten used to was replaced by a wicked grin, and she swore a blue-streak as she gave him instructions and gossiped. He learned more about his neighbourhood in a few hours than he'd found out in his months of living there.
Sharon's husband, Veer came in to open the storefront so Sharon could stay in the kitchen to train Mace.
"Had to take a week of vacation," he said when he brought two mugs of coffee back for them. "So you'd better be worth it! She makes me wear a beard net when I work the front counter." He winked at Sharon.
Sharon just rolled her eyes, her own hair totally secured by a bonnet. "You never wear the beard net, you just wear a mask."
"Perhaps. 30 minutes till open, anyway."
Mason started loading loaves of bread into the baskets that sat on the shelves behind the counter, and Sharon got started on assembling pastries. By the time he was putting out the last basket, the first customers were entering the store.
The display case filled, and then the sourdough for the next day mixed (Sharon said she'd portion and shape it closer to close), and the day was over before Mace knew it. He wasn't certain he knew what to do with himself for the rest of the afternoon (it seemed very strange to get off work by 1pm), but it seemed that he could stand to work on his baking skills at home too.
He went to the shops to buy everything he could think of to stock his cupboards, since they were rather bare, and made cupcakes when he got home, lamenting his lack of a piping bag when it came time to frosting them. They didn't look quite as impressive as he'd hoped they would, but they tasted pretty good-- One of the tips in the recipe's comments recommending "blooming" the cocoa powder with a bit of hot water seemed to be a neat trick. He wanted to try combining it with another tip about coffee bringing out the flavour of chocolate too.
Next time.
He cleaned up and made dinner, and offered cupcakes to his neighbours, feeling strangely shy. He was a grown man, he'd been shot more than once, but somehow knocking on the door of the college girls next door and the old man across the hall and the young mother by the stairs made him break out in a cold sweat, stumbling over his explanation. Why was it so much easier to kill people than offer kindness? There had to be something pathologically wrong with him.
(The part of him that knew he had to be kinder to himself too whispered a reminder that it was just unfamiliar ground. Hadn't his hands shaken the first time he held a rifle too? Hadn't he slunk off to puke his guts up and cry after the first time he'd killed another person? It was just so long ago that he'd forgotten.)
He outran the nerves that evening, as the sky turned dark, and put himself to bed early, ready to do it all again the next day.
The routine was good for him. Weeks passed, and he settled into an easy rhythm, waking early for work, joking with Sharon while he worked, setting himself up with a new project every other day.
(He would have made it every day, but while he was growing very fond of cooking and baking, he didnāt love doing the dishes.)
It gave him time to start going to the gym again, at least. Heād started putting on a little weight around the middle, which he didnāt hate. He kind of liked it, especially when he heard the college girls giggling and whispering about his dad bod. Still, he didnāt want to have to buy new clothes, and he wanted to stay in good shape, and he found he still really liked lifting weights, especially now that he did it for fun and not out of necessity. Even better, lifting weights meant that he got to eat more. So it worked out nicely.
His neighbours started talking to him more, everyone more than a little interested in getting on the list for receiving little treats. Everyone had sort of avoided him on principle before, unsure about the giant American loner that settled into their building, but now everyone knew him by name. They asked him for help when they needed heavy things moved. The girls down the hall asked him to make them a birthday cake (Which he was more than happy to do. He was getting better at decorating all the time).
The old fellow across the hall, Percy, turned out to be a veteran too, and he invited Mace out to drinks a few times with some of his old air force buddies, and he got to listen to the old men swap stories and complain about young people these days and the price of groceries (and drinking with old men was ideal, since he could still be in bed early enough to get plenty of sleep before work). The college girls were Morg and Corrie, and often Kailee, who didnāt actually live in the building but was there so often that she practically did. They were possibly the silliest girls heād ever met, but he at least partially had to attribute that to the fact that he understood only about fifty percent of what they were saying at any time, between the giggling and the slang he didnāt understand.
They tried to thank him for the baked goods by inviting him over for dinner once. A valiant, but ultimately bland effort. Heād eaten worse, but not in a long while, and they spent half the meal flirting shamelessly. He made a promise to himself in that moment that he would never date a woman under thirty.
The single mother, Tammy, was a lot more sensible, but not as single as heād assumed. Her friend that came over often turned out to be her girlfriend. The kids were funny, especially the younger two, who took every opportunity to talk his ear off about school and dinosaurs and some youtube video game streamer with a silly name. The oldest kid was in that awkward teenage phase of thinking his own interests were cringe and looking for a new identity that was cool. He seemed baffled by Mace, like he couldnāt quite connect the dots on why someone who looked and sounded like a soldier would be spending his free time doing favours for others and baking.
Mace wasnāt sure if it were his place to say anything, but he hoped the kid would come to understand that what Mace was doing now was a hundred times better than being a soldier. A thousand times more meaningful.
He felt like a new person. Born again, like the last twenty years could be chalked up to a bad dream.
(It wasnāt as if he were ashamed of it. Maybe he should have been. But heād always been principled about his work. Not everyone agreed with his actions, heād found himself down-barrel of a once friendly gun more than a few times. But that didnāt mean he would stop doing what he thought was the right thing.)
He was sure that this contentedness was what his mother had wanted for him. He wished heād listened to her a long time ago.
Of course, as it so often happens, pleasant routines get shaken up. For Mace, it was on an otherwise ordinary day in late November, when Sharon was buzzing excitedly about her daughter moving home.
(Divorced, and with a three year old she would have to take care of all by herself. Sheād probably come work the front counter, so Sharon could be in the kitchen more for the busiest season. Didnāt it work out so nicely?)
And the timing did seem good. Mason was glad for anything that would give Sharon more time off. He worried about her overworking herself, and she always complained about not seeing any of her grandchildren enough.
Still, he found himself stopping short, nearly dropping the tray of cookies heād been carrying when he came out of the kitchen.
āOh, wonderful,ā Sharon said, grinning. āMason, come meet my daughter!ā
And you smiled at him, sticking your hand out. āItās nice to meet you.ā
Nice didnāt even begin to cover it.
Title Card made in Canva ~ Image Credits: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 ~ Dividers by @/cafekitsune
#Cave Writing#Mace of Bakes#Silly title but come on can you blame me#Baker!Mace#Honestly I don't like how some of y'all write him so I'm taking him away and putting him in the bakery and you can fight me outside about i#He is principled and smart and efficient in canon and I decided that he also loves his mama and is very polite to women#Have you guys seen how cute his VA is? Because you should go look at him for a long moment and then imagine him in an apron#Because that's what I did#Mace x Reader#X Reader#but reader doesn't show up till the end and she has canon poc (parents of colour) but if you want to imagine that she's adopted or somethin#you can do that#Sharon has a big heart she'd adopt kids in a heartbeat#Single mom reader#cod mw fanfiction#I always laugh when I slap that tag on like hello#How far away from the source material can we get before we're just writing original fiction
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not-yet-dead-person
silly comic of a conversation in-game i thought was too funny not to make something proper for instead of a doodle ww
(timelapse + wip images (thus silly process commentary in read more if you like artist commentary :3)
i think the sketch looks silly and goofy and funny so i find it important to share with you the mere presence of the faces i drew on it. i drew it on top of the boxes without staying inside its borders because i find my proportions can get wonky if i draw them cropped in a restricted space. and I feel trapped otherwise and i will draw BAD!!! give me spaceeeee to go wild!!!!
the head circles are there for emotional support
very low res speedpaint because truth is the canvas was much bigger than the space where my comic was placed. i didnt account when exporting my timelapse in 720px that that tiny space would look so pixelated ... but it's able to be percieved, so its okay.
(i will now comment on my process and it is not brief sorry)
usually i would try to clean up my sketches and figure out what goes on top before jumping into linework, but since there are multiple panels and drawings i chose to jump into inking right away for the sake of brevity. i just went in with a brush that uses pen pressure and drew what was needed. i added extra line thickness and contrast in areas around the face because it helps direct your eyes there more easily that way.
according to her equipment rei has a chain belt but i only remembered it existed once I was going to color, and i did not like that discovery... I chose to ignore it to maintain my peace. i already have the color palettes for these characters figured out, and i didnt really want to think about a new element at the moment www I tend to overthink those things a lot so i skipped it
the rest is rather straightforward! not that anything else wasn't, but in here i could turn my brain off and sing. linework and sketching require mumbling so i cannot turn my brain off. just block in the characters with a solid color so i can have a mask (something along those lines,) where the color can stay inside. then just color in !!!
Base colors just had slight cell shading on the skin, and for the hair i airbrush a bit of the skincolor in low opacity near the forehead... I'm not sure what it means, but i can look at the faces easier with it somehow. i like the gentle subtlety it adds even if you cant really tell. it makes things look nice.
background was just me blocking in the color of the wall and floor, shade the wall a bit, then slap a noise and free use wood texture on top. work smarter not harder ! yet it took a bit to make it look stylistically fitting with the characters, and even now i think bottom middle panel looks odd. whatever!!!
for the middle panel i thought itd be funny if the background was a solid silly and colorful one to contrast the next panel's sketchy black one. a contrast to how the word widow is seen. on that note my handwritting is not pointy. i gaslighted my hand into thinking that it was indeed pointy in that moment so i could write "not-yet dead person" in letters that didn't seem cute. my hand did not fall for it but it complied anyway
that's basically it! I'm not sure what else i could say that doesn't feel barebones because it really is that straightforward. if you're curious I used clip studio paint for this. only special brush used was for linework (a brush named Lemon Brush), the rest used were just the default. my computer gets the least credit. it was trying to convince me a 20mb file was going to nuke it all the time and hardly let me save multiple times so i do not appreciate it
#re:kinder#fanart#sayaka re:kinder#rei re:kinder#OH I ALREADY RAMBLED IN MY POST WHATEVER SHOULD I TALK ABOUT NOW IN MY TAGS UEEEEEEEššš#oh yeah do you want to know a fun fact about this drawing#i started it yesterday. i wasnt meant to I DID NOT HAVE PERMISSION...FROM MYSELF... i was meant to be on break#i self imposed a one week break from doing any rekinder related project after the transcript to avoid accidental burn out#NOT THAT I GOT TIRED OF IT AFTER THAT TRANSCRIPT NOT AT ALL#but jumping straight into more hours of creativr work after over 30 hours of it is asking for disaster. it is asking for burn out#yesterday was the last day . 12 hours were left but i was going to die if i didnt draw anything it would have been OVER#(aka my period started recently so i got very gloomy and depressed so i needed to run to my favorite stress relief...drawing rekinderāŗļø)#(on that note seriously what the fuck please explain the evolutionary advantage to getting horribly depressed every month)#(like hello?!?! rant real quickā i get enough flashbacks everyday i DONT need them to last longer and have me more msierable ?!?!?)#(periods are so dangerous to my mental health for no reason can i get a restriction order on them or some shit what the fuck)#(anyway thats enough of that break of character DONEEEE :3333)#SO YEAH I DIDNT EVEN LAST 7 WHOLE DAYS i even played a new game in between those 6 days youd think itd het my mind of rekinder. WRONNNNGGG#not even another devastating rpg horror gamr could divert my attention for long i hsd to draw rekinderš#using the newfound power of mt transcript i was decided on drawing rei because i dont draw her enough for how high she is on my fvaorites#i was initially doodling random lines but then i stumbled upon this interactkon and it doesnt really fit into my usual expression sheets#so i thought hey lets do it asife#i thumbnailrd it and from there i was like hey lets do it in comic format isntead of separated messy doodles in tint canvas#and the rest is hisotry .... aka i spent the last two days doing this instead of doing MY HOMEWORK!!!!!#on my defense when i wasnt drawing i was horribly depressed i had no other choice#(seriously fuck off periods WHAT what do you mean i need to be distracted 24/7 to not be struck by crippling meltdowns LEAVE ME ALONE?!?!?)#(they should be banned we as a society should find like a . cure to them it dont do me good to have a whole week where i cant function)#these tags have been more of a weird rant im sorry IVE BEEN FEELING PEEEVEDDD LATELY SO YOU GET. STRANGE DROTTER LORE ????
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unleashes the horrors upon you (the horrors are my gay little ocs)
#hello gays come get yalls food#myart#yes the design notes are all useless. except for like risā one maybe#his design is very square bc he is. er. evil#anyway i really like how they all turned out :) my little guys#didnāt even struggle with the colors for that long (lie)#ok maybe some actual design notes or something similar#wt and ris both have lighter hair streaks and wrinkes bc they are. oldš#and also ris and soar have the same hair and eye color. if u care#cd still has their fucked up eye of course <3 i like what i did with the hair too#bro cuts it themself itās soo choppy and messy. but itās ok it adds to the gamer charm#fta has heart shaped hair because. i want hearts to be part of his design tbh#like the gardener has a heart too. so#itās bc he likes cute things btw. but he wonāt admit it so donāt ask him#son giving you the tbh stareā¦. i feel like they are the type of autistic to make uncomfortable amounts of eye contact#they just dont know when to stop or look away#also their hair is matching with wtās yayy!!! found family win i think#i mean with son itās more like forced family but yknow#oc: weaving tales#oc: recognition in spirit#oc: cognitive dissonance#oc: spins on axis rapidly#oc: fates torn again#oc: speaks of nothing
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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"Yona was just added bc Nintendo wants people to stop shipping sidlink!" Literally what the hell are you talking about
#yes nintendo is homophobic. no they do not give a singular shit about what their fanbase does??? what are you talking abouuuutttt#they literally dont care what people do as long as they get money??? like what#listen im upset abt yona having so many unanswered questions. mainly she came from another zora's domain#meaning she came from outside of hyrule. so that leads to a lot of questions.#but howww do you come to the conclusion that she was just added as a 'no homo' indicator#dont even get me started on the people genuinely unironically calling this queerbaiting. what are you onnnnnnn#'and oh but sidon said he used to see her as a sister! so its gross and wrong!' sidon literally thought out loud to links face abt how#had things been different and link had gotten married to mipha he would be his BROTHER IN LAW. SAID THAT OUT LOUD TO HIS FACE. so shh#imo. yona was added for one 'ohh wow exciting new character look at this' and two. as a way for sidon's trauma to be acknowledged#bc it was veeery briefely shown in botw. for like. a singular second if you snuck up on him at mipha's statue#but yona's defining scene in totk was her forcing sidon to confront that he wasn't being himself because of that trauma. and that#he needed to let go of the fear around it. if only temporary. because his people needed him.#so tbh?? sheis very important to the plot. she new mipha. admired her. knows why sidon still struggles with this and#how difficult and frightening everything becomes when he views the world through the lens of 'what if i lose someone again'#like. they added yona for his struggles to be spelled out to the audience even further#so to just boil her down to 'ewww woman gets in the way of my gaybies š”š”š”'. hello. did you play the game.#do you even know who these characters are. quick gimme ten facts about sidons character that you didnt make up for shipping purposes.pronto
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The glass coffin trap bothers me so much. Itās definitely up there on my least favourites. Strahm. STRAHM IF YOU WOULDVE JUST LISTENED TO THE FUCKING TAPE OR LEFT THE ROOM IMMEDIATELY AFTER THE COFFIN CLOSED THERE WAS A FUCKING DELAY. THERE WAS A DELAY BEFORE THE ROOM DOOR CLOSED. YOU COULDVE MADE IT OUT BUT NO YOU HAD TO STAY AND GLOAT AND THIS. THIS IS WHY YOU FUCKING DIED.
#saw#saw franchise#glass coffin#saw trap#personal#this is just my personal beef with it#I get the purpose of the trap and the way it shows his flaws#and I appreciate the storytelling of it#I just get so fucking frustrated#by Strahmās stupidity#my dude. my man.#how long have you been hearing about Jigsaw#how many files did you read#how many cases did you look at#and you didnāt think about how the man is always ten steps ahead#and seems to literally make a game out of guessing what the cops will do next#hello???#sir#SIR I KNOW YOU GOT SOME SORT OF A BRAINCELL IN THERE CAN YOU PLEASE USE IT
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Chapters: 15/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Sokka/Zuko (Avatar), Aang/Katara (Avatar), others to be tagged later - Relationship Characters: Sokka (Avatar), Zuko (Avatar), Aang (Avatar), Katara (Avatar), Toph Beifong, Jet (Avatar), Suki (Avatar), Kyoshi Warriors (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar), Jee (Avatar), Hakoda (Avatar), Bato (Avatar), A bunch of OCs, Long Feng, Joo Dee (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Mai (Avatar), Ty Lee (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), General Fong (Avatar) Additional Tags: Violence, Blood and Injury, War, Minor Character Death, Rape/Non-con Elements, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Attempted Sexual Assault, Major Character Injury, Amputation, Implied/Referenced Suicide, possible major character death, themes similar to the first two books, Sexism, Racism (like has already been written in first two books), dark themes, Human Trafficking, Slavery, Just a lot of dark war-like themes, there will be a battle, Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Injury Recovery, Healing, Underage Sex, Underage Drinking, Animal Death, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Warnings each chapter, Hopefully some healing for Zuko finally, no promises, but thatās the goal, Reunions, hopefully a happy ending, Sokka gets some healing too, Non-Consensual Drug Use Series: Part 3 of Leaving It All Behind Summary:
-This is the last book of the series LIAB, please go read the other two books before this, or you will be very confused-
Zuko has been taken by the Earth Kingdom army to who-knows-where, and Sokka is determined to get him back.
But he canāt do it alone.
With Suki and the Kyoshi Warriors by his side, Sokka is headed to Ba Sing Se to find Katara and Aang so they can go rescue his fire bender.
Things arenāt as easy as he had hoped. Corruption, lies, and unknown horrors await them inside the cityās walls. None of this is helping Sokkaās mental well-being.
Hakoda and his men face a problem of their own as Azula approaches with the intentions of making it rain fire.
Sokka and Zuko will both find themselves having to reintegrate back into a life they thought they left behind, with people they hardly remember. It isnāt easy for anyone, especially when they donāt recognize the person standing in front of them.
#Technically itās still the weekend#for like an hour haha#BUT I DID IT MWAHAHA IT IS POSTED#sorry its been so long#hello hi I am still writing this haha#I am excited to give yāall this but know some of you will yell at me#because uhhhh yeah#also PLEASE HEED THE TAGS#this one has some serious trigger arnings#*warnings#I know youāre probably things HUH HOW?? Well ya know how it is#*gestures at the entire fic*#omg this chapter gets us closer to 1 million words#LE GASP AHHHHH#ok so here we go! I hope you enjoy!#zuko#sokka#zukka#liab#into the fire#ITF
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10. tell me about an insecurity you overcame.
It's been a while since I started freelancing for fun and profit, but the beginning of that journey is still a pretty big deal to me.
I'd previously worked at an agency for nearly three years, so I knew how to do client-based work, but I knew nothing about business development (or billing, or taxes, or client management, or admin).
And, for those I didn't know back in 2017, I started down that whole road in the first place after getting very unexpectedly and unceremoniously fired after like four months on the job. It was never clear exactly why, but I'd thought things had been going well, and that was a pretty gutting Thursday afternoon.
I'd also just gone through a job search, so I knew there weren't many positions available in the region that would be a fitāand that the most recent thing that had seemed to be a great fit had, uh, not been. (This was before remote/hybrid work was a real norm, even though my agency job had functionally been hybrid and taught me to work effectively as such.)
But when I'd gone through that previous job search, a couple of people I spoke with had mentioned maybe needing some freelance capacity down the road, and perhaps I should get in touch once I got settled in the job if I was interested. So I reached out to them, without mentioning the rest, thinking I could at least bridge the gap while I figured out what the fuck to do. Both had solid projects for me where I learned a bunch quickly, made some money, and was excited for more.
And then it just kind of made sense to keep seeing about those kinds of opportunitiesāboth because I liked the client-based work and flexibility, but also because it quickly became apparent that it'd be harder for any one person or institution to fuck me over in the same way.
Plus, one of the people who needed a subcontractor turned out to be a great mentor and reference; I don't think I ever told him quite why I'd decided to go all-in on freelancing full-time, but I have thanked him repeatedly for some truly foundational early guidance as well as a couple of projects he helped set me up with. He's semi-retired now but I'm still using some of those templates!
Anyway, I networked my way into a couple of additional early projects and finished 2017 with about the same overall income for the year that I had had in my agency job for 2016. (Not the fuck-them one, the one I got laid off from because, well, that was a bad end-of-year for anyone working in Democratic politics, much like this one.)
And the rest is history: I've been self-employed for about 7.5 years now and, while the constant hustle and inconstant income/workload have their own challenges, I think I've landed in a pretty secure (emotionally/professionally) place about the whole enterprise.
#ask me ask me ask me#stpauligirl#about me meme#freelancing for fun and profit#having been let go from full-time work twice in six months i can say that the agency people were INFINITELY kinder#i wasn't the only one in that situation and they gave us nearly a month heads-up plus an extra month of health insurance#it turned out our boss had forgone his own income for a few months to pay the rest of us that year#and like they just ran out of money and work to do. it wasn't shocking tbh.#and it had already been apparent that what work there was wasn't using any of the skills for which i'd been hired#and i *did* get to keep my electronics. that 2014 laptop lasted me until early 2023!#so anyway if you have to nix someone's job that's the way to do it#i've mostly lost touch with those folks but i don't have a bad word to say about them#whereas the fuck-them situation had me with a sour taste in my mouth around an entire state for like a year#incidentally not that long ago someone i'd worked closely with for YEARS at my anchor client was networking#and mentioned being put in touch with [x] who apparently had been working at the fuck-them place at the same time as me#should he let [x] know we'd been working together? did i want to pass along a hello or anything?#i very quietly said 'please don't.' and after a pause and because i liked and trusted THIS guy added#'he fired me out of nowhere for unclear reasons so i'd really rather not be involved further.'#i mention this because the guy at the anchor client had no idea. by my design.#but also because i've worked really hard to be confident and good at what i actually do and how i do it.#anyway fuck them
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Before becoming a ctommy apologist [I'm one of the good ones] I used to depise him specifically because he burned down ctubbos house bcuz I used to be the biggest ctubbo apologist and loved firefly duo. Then when cdream called ctubbo a dumb president š bro did not have to do him like that I didn't enjoy that duo anymore as much although I still find a protege au with ctubbo as enjoyable as one with ctommy or even cpurpled
[are there any good ones? - XD lol just kidding.] I understand feeling less passionate about ctubbo and cdream after that, though I do believe (not 100% sure though) cdream also says later that ctubbo was the best president Lāmanberg ever had, and in Daedalus he says that ctubbo is one of the only people who hasnāt really done anything wrong. In cdreamās mind I suspect his biggest wrong was siding with ctommy and later letting cquackity push him into targeting ctechno and cdream. I mean that particularly was pretty dumb to be fair.
Honestly, as I rewatch lore Iāve grown rather fond of ctubbo. He seems to really care about people and not want to be involved in conflict but allowing himself to be pushed into it because he canāt say no and heās above all else loyal to his friends. Though I think many of the dsmp members (csapnap, cdream, cpunzā¦) felt betrayed with him siding with Lāmanberg since - werenāt they his friend too?ā¦ huh itās no wonder he and cranboo ended up together. He is definitely a character I would have loved to see in a season two. Because the basic change of who he sticks by could change everything for himā¦
Anyways, I didnāt mean to get distracted there oops, what Iām really curious of is how you went from hating ctommy to being a ctommy apologist? What changed? Like I honestly donāt get it, he just seems like such an asshole to me. [also Iām not super surprised you are one of the good ones since you knew about ctommy burning down ctubboās house, because I suspect that that piece of lore (along with ctommy repeatedly killing cdream when he had nothing) plays a big part in separating the āgoodā ctommy apologists from the more unreasonable ones.]
#how did that get so long?!? wtfā¦.. ooof I donāt understand how I manage to do this every time#hello there#dsmp#dreblr#c!discduo#c!clingyduo#c!tubbo#dream smp#c!tommyinnit#c!tommy#dsmp analysis#dsmpblr#dsmp tubbo
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big fan of whatever is happening on alpha rn
#CORPSE LOOTER! š#chat#sb#been on testing for a bit and tbh uhhh. idk how i feel about it?#LOVE the new gems and the concept of a dungeon-like mining area IS fun#but it's kinda... empty?#the glacite shafts are VERY tiny#i just feel like they should be easier to get lost in#also goddddd i can tell this stuff is gonna SUCK to craft in bulk#all the keys... so many new items to forge#also WHY THE HELL DID ONE OF MY TREE PARTS START TAKING *MILLIONS* TO LEVEL UP HELLO???#idk i'll need a more in-depth look at it to decide how much i like it#right now it seems like a ''mining got stagnant lets add something that takes 1k hours to complete''#like eventually it seems like it'll get stagnant on its own with just how long this stuff is gonna take#it'll get draining...
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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh i just get so upset sometimes bc i don't know how to express my love and adoration in a way that isn't just "omg i love that" or "omg that's so cool" THAT'S NOT ENOUGHH IT ISN'TTTTTTTTT THIS GOES FOR ALL OF MY BELOVED WRITES AND ARTISTS AND FILMS AND DIRECTORS AND COMPOSERS AND CINEMATOGRAPHERS AND SOUND DESIGNERS AND FICTIONAL CHARACTERS AND POEMS AND STUNTMEN AND JUST ABOUT EVERYBODY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
#I APPRECIATE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU#I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SHOWWWWWWWWWWWW ITTTT#OR TALK ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT#PLEASSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#JUST#BELIEVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#I ONLY KNOW CAPS LOCK AND YELLING BUT MY HEART IS BEATING SOO LOUDLY JUST BECAUSE I WATCHED A LITTLE VIDEO ABOUT HOW FUCKING GOOD STEVEN SP#ELBERG IS. HOW GOOD OF A DIRECTOR HE IS AND JUST HOW GOOD INDIANA JONES IS ANDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#LIKE HOW DO I TELL MR SPIELBERG THAT HE'S AMAZINGGG#THAT I LOVE INDYY#MY ICON MY MUSE MY ROLE MODEL#HOW DO I TELL HIM THAT EVEN NOW AFTER BEING AN INDY FAN AN INDY LOVER FOR OVER A DECADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT I STILL LAUGH JUS#AS HARD AS I DID WHEN I FIRST WATCHED THE FILMS AT LIKE THE RIPE AGE OF 6#MAYBE EVEN YOUNGER#I'M TWENTY TWO NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#FOR MOST OF MY LIFE I'VE KNOWN INDIANA JONES AND I DON'T EVEN JUST MEAN THE CHARACTER I MEAN THE MOVIES OVERALL#AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I CANNNNNNNNNN'TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT#THE WAY SPIELBERG USES LIGHTING AND BLOCKING#AND HOW HE SETS UP THE SCENE#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#HOW GOOD OF A CHARACTER INDIANA IS. HE'S SO COOL HE'S SUCH A LOSER HE'S A NERD HE'S BRAVE HE CARES SO MUCH ABT THE ARTEFACTS AND HE JUST WA#TS THEM TO BE HANDLED WITH CARE HE DOESN'T WANT TO KEEP THEM TO HIMSELF HE WANTS TO KEEP THEM SAFE. HE GETS HURT AND HE GROANS ABT IT LIKE#HE OLD MAN THAT HE IS. HE MAKES STUPID JOKES AND HE'S AFRAID OF SNAKES EVEN THOUGH HE SPENDS SO MUCH TIME IN JUNGLES N SHIT#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#yeahh#long dreamy sigh#i'm having a bit of a moment#ceo of letterboxd says hello#mayor of loserville
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