#Filled with Anxiety
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*Grabbing David Camp Camp by the throat* You did this to me.
#Proship#Balan made me realize something last night and it's really. Sitting with me#Do I bring this up to my Therapist? Or do we just sit with it and decide Nah it's just for Funsies?#This isn't all the Cradle Ship Adults these are just the ones who feel INCREDIBLY guilty about it#Filled with Anxiety#Because I dunno I think it's funny I guess??
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distressed abt my father’s degrading health
and thus its time to clean the toaster
#health#ohno#filled with anxiety#overthinking#bad vibes#stressed#cleaning#cleaning to deal with my problems???#you know I am stressed when I start aggressively cleaning
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for anyone interested, i am still writing pirate!eddie and i am very excited to do so but also terrified that its been too long since i posted it
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Allow me to experience, to feel, to be.
Allow me to exist, pursue and feel free.
#poetry#quote by me#haha#I like rhyming#reality is weird#and an illusion#filled with anxiety#but whatever#Atleast others can understand too#poets on tumblr#poetic
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i got my isbn today for the book. 8 months to go. my mom and i were talking about what the next steps are. i was eating trail mix, standing on one foot, phone tucked into my ear.
"yeah," i said. "the problem is that tumblr as a market is like, not something that can be studied." there's this weird wave of nostalgia and affection for this place that came up over me: how lovely we avoid consumerism. okay, it sucks as a creator. but also? keep stickin' it to 'em.
my mother made the sound at the back of her throat that i also make, the one that means i've got an idea. "you should figure out some kind of reward for presale amounts. maybe you give out poems or a mug or a signed book or something. would your followers like that?" my mother is sweet, and kind, and i have no idea how to explain on this website you can buy someone crabs.
i put more m&ms down the hatch. i had to speak through peanuts and almonds. "if it passes 25 thousand i will print the book out in its entirety and eat it live on camera."
"oh god. no, you don't have to do that." she was anguished. "just tell them that you'd love them to read it, and that they've inspired you to write. you got started on that site, and they helped you keep going. raquel, you love these people. the community? you talk all the time about the other writers and artists and whatever else. tell them that you're hoping for their support, they'll come through."
"no," i assured her. i discovered i had dropped an m&m, but an ant had already found it, so it belonged to him now. i will let his little life have a surprise blue treasure in it, too. "i'm gonna fuckin' eat the book."
#writeblr#:)#the small secret love i have for y'all. the way i am filled with gratitude.#for the nosebleed club. for stephen particularly.#for every artist i've ever been in contact with and collaborated with.#for every person who has commented on my work and passed it along or fallen in love with it#for every silent 'just hitting like' follower and for every person who sends me dms and for each of you#i know i suck at replying bc i have anxiety. but like. you keep being here. so i keep writing.#i legit wouldn't be here without you.#thank you sophie thank you katie thank you carolyn thank you stephanie thank you jess#thank you if you're reading this#i got too overwhelmed with love and have to stop writing this FAR too early into the thank yous bc im about to cry with love
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I miss the era of the internet where everyone had an evil alter ego/character that would show up on their channel, just to be silly, that eventually got a lot of lore from the fandom for no reason. It was a simpler time.
#it was NOT cringe it was FUN and SILLY#like off the top of my head#markiplier#darkiplier#wilford warfstache#jacksepticeye#antisepticeye#stampylongnose#hit the target#(not an alter ego but still fills the role. I was obsessed with spotting him in lovely world as a child)#uuuh I remember a bunch of the old mlp youtubers I watched as a child did this but I DON'T want to see what they're up to now lmao#does like. early sandersides count for this?#back when anxiety/virgil was a meanie?#xisuma#evil xisuma#evil x#i can't forget him for sure. I may not watch xisuma but i know of evil x#I know there were definitely more and i would love to see what people tag#but it was so fun!#they had fun with it!!#I'm just feeling nostalgic#welsknight#helsknight#ill add ones as people tag em lol
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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))
#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to#sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now#yay? i guess#also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious#also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now#bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree#but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow#now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should#not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually#super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta#just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year#ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr#studyspo#bookblr#booklr#study#november 2024#2024
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physically disabled person: hi
every abled neurodivergent person in the whole world: Hi I know this isn't about autism but I have executive dysfunction and I really think we should talk about that more not to derail or anything I just wanted to share my experience :) don't forget that not all disabilities are visible! I have anxiety and depression and this explains sooo much!
#wrenfea.exe#please just...learn when its not about you#can we have one goddamn conversation without the comments being filled with people like this#was watching a video reviewing an aid for physically disabled people and the comments were 90% about neurodivergence#and if you politely tell people to knock it off they say you're invalidating their struggles and being ableist and gatekeepihn#like i had to dig through all those comments to find some from actually physically disabled people so i could see what they thought#because i was trying to figure out if itd work for me#idc if you dont like it bc it gives you anxiety the product wasn't made for you!!!#chronic disability#chronic pain#disabilities#cpunk#cripplepunk#angry cripple#also before anyone dogpiles me im saying everyone in the world to give a sense of just how many comments theres seems to be#not that i think every neurodivergent person is like this (im neurodivergent)#chronic illness#physically disabled#mobility aids
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Okay hear me out
Nightmare asking Killer if there's anything he wants and Killer says he wants to go see Color in the omega timeline. He hasn't seen him in a while and he misses his friend, but Nightmare takes this to mean he wants to leave and stay with Color permanently.
He agrees, because even though it makes him deeply sad to lose one of his men, he needs to let Killer go and live with other mortals and be happy. Killer texts Color and goes to pack a bag and Nightmare opens a portal and takes him to the omega timeline. They meet Color and he's looking very suspicious of Nightmare while Killer runs up all excited and off they go.
And Nightmare goes back to the castle. He spends the rest of the day in a weird daze, feeling kind of empty. When the others inevitably ask where Killer is, he hesitates and tells them he's in the omega timeline and doesn't elaborate further.
Eventually he shuts himself in his office for the night and just sits at his desk, staring into space. He's glad Killer's happy, of course, but it still hurts that he's gone. What is he going to tell the others when they start asking again, after it's been too long to be a simple visit? Will they all want to leave? They probably all have places to be, maybe he should let them go, would that be better for everyone? If Killer, who was always so eager and happy to be here, wanted nothing more than to get out, what does that mean for the rest of them?
This is the beginning of the end, isn't it? He'll have to let them all go, and then he'll be alone. Just like when he and Dream were kids and Dream would go off with his own friends. Except he can talk to Dream now, can't he? Maybe he should ask him about this. If nothing else maybe Dream would agree to visit him, once they're all gone.
But before he can pick up his phone and call his brother, it starts buzzing and it's Killer like "Okay I'm ready to come home now c:"
#UTDR#UTMV#Nightmare Sans#Killer Sans#I dunno this has just been in my head for a bit and I wanted to get it out#I might try and write it properly if I ever finish the other thing I started#Just the idea of Nightmare having this awful night filled with anxiety and sadness and staring down the barrel of losing all his boys#And then he picks up the phone and Killer's like ''hey when are you coming to get me? it's like noon here''#Also the idea of him visiting Color when Nightmare's not looking by getting Cross to leave him out#And when Nightmare asks one day Dust is like ''he's off being gay with his boyfriend''#But Nightmare's old-timey language translates it as he's off to be happy with his friend#Like he's not happy here and wants to be with Color instead#I dunno comedic misunderstandings are fun I think
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Sometimes you gotta live, laugh, love
And other times you gotta unalive, slaughter and hit with a club
#good jokes#jokes#but i am a turkey#not made for battle#but wling to fight#will fight a clown#will fight u#fight#filled with anxiety#stressed depressed but well dressed#i am so stressed#hahahaha#my trash#ohno
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POV: It's first godchild is a bit. Hrmn.
Wolf oc by @bunnieswithknives
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#not my oc#WOLF WOLF WOLF WOLF WOLF WOLF#MRNGRHGHGH#i remembered wolf exists and then blacked out and now here he is 🥺🥺🥺🥺#smnth smnth the deep desire to be something ur not and go against what u were made to be and to do#but also the idea of wolf going to fairy academy while his supposedly good counterpart is busy mauling dale is. its so fuckign funny.#does he know. is he aware. or is he living his best anxiety filled life of people pleasing everyone for the sake of community
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My rendition of @tempo-takoyaki's DTIYS!
Congrats on the milestones! And to everyone else, please go check out their 'Drawing TGCF (except I haven't read the books)' series!
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#svsss#tgcf#wei wuxian#shen qingqiu#xie lian#better drawn mdzs#(Vaguely??? I think SQQ came out handsome enough to put him in my special gallery)#Showing up to submit this less than 3 days before the DTIYS ends is filling me with a bit of anxiety but it is done!#Initially I was going to do a descending level of realism/detail but noses make me nervous still. One day I'll get there.#The irony is that I was planning on drawing something to celebrate tempo finishing season 1 of their series only to find this DTIYS!#*and* it was their birthday recently. I am compelled to lift them into the air and shout their praises.#What a genuinely kind person with an art style I want to bite into like a crunchy apple!!! The *range* is incredible!#Also their xie lian is probably one of my favourite interpretations. So done with everything but not misanthropic.#Remembers everything and lets other's spin in circles with their lies for the sheer chaos of it all. Teases relentlessly. Deeply sad.#Give it a read! They are planning on continuing on so now is a great time to catch up!#Thanks for hosting this fun art challenge Tempo! We all appreciate you deeply B*)#I hope you have a better year in 2024 - you truly deserve the best.
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https://x.com/pitstoplando/status/1810031930643259748 just kiss already please <3
THIS. THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF HAVING YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD.
#inchreplies#landoscar#silverstone gp 2024#see I love that fan art#of lando looking at carlos and daniel w hearteyes and then oscar looking at lando the same way#and at the time it was correct#but here#here we have lando not just feeling loved#he feels safe#and what does a nervous creature filled with emotions and anxiety need even more than to be loved#bc so many love him so easily#he needs to feel safe#and then he's yours forever
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"Were you even listening? How many reports, Ikora? How many times did I tell you what I saw?"
#destiny#destiny 2#destiny the game#destiny art#bungie#ikora rey#exo stranger#elsie bray#season of the witch#fanart#i say 'season of the' and you guys complete 'lesbian drama' alright#i already filled my obligatory hive!eris drawing ok check dark future chap 5#in case this isn't obvious this is an elisabeth bray appreciation blog in disguise#and whatever mad decision she makes after this season is valid including idk sHOOTING HER OWN SHIP AT THE HELM TO STOP THIS MADNESS#ok but srsly tho rites of passage page 2 gave me some extra life and anxiety for the plot future xckvnkvn#my favorite part of season of the witch is shutting up everyone who had the audacity to look at me and say 'we already stopped the df'#lbr we will prevent it sure but the key word is //WILL// and im so happy this season proved my point#bungie loves planting plot points through lore text and they didnt write a whole collection of dark future timeloops for nothing
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