#Fat fucking YIKES bro

[reallyunluckyrunaway]

BROOOO—THIS IS SOME NEXT LEVEL LOSER SHIT!!!! 💀💀💀💀💀

Like.... y'all wrote a whole damn "article" just to tear apart some actor whose probably more successful and rich than you'll ever be... it's just...sad. and obviously this kind of shit is total garbage and annoying and blah, blah,blah... but I couldn't help but cry laughing at just how delusional and insane this kind of behavior is. LIKE, I'M CACKLING.

Look, whether you ship any of the characters or not, (and whether I do or not)... I would never spend so much time and ENERGY, harassing and going out of my way to shame an actor/actress "for getting in the way" of said ship.

It's truly the greatest display of loserdom I've seen in awhile...

(and sidenote, are we talking about the same Cas because....????)

[nukyo]

MAKE ME A MATCH

SYNOPSIS: in order to graduate, you actively have to be a member of a society in your university. you weren't part of one, and neither was mark. so, your friends decided to all-so enthusiastically sign you up for a matchmaking society. how bad could it be really?

PAIRING: non!idol mark lee x reader

STATUS: ongoing

WARNINGS: major idiots to lovers, y/n's friend has a fat crush on mark (don't we all but yikes), college au, acquaintances to lovers, profanity, mentions of alcohol, reader is fucking clueless bro, bit of angst if you squint but we won't talk about that bit ... unless you want to, best friend boo seungkwan needs a mention in its own ilove that man w my life, just me basically channeling all my love for mark lee in a book, mark's jokes suck, are these even warnings anymore, it gets messy... lol

WORD COUNT: N/A

PROFILES:

00. BOO'S CLUES

01. SOME1 BUY MARK BISCUITS

CHAPTERS:

THE MATCHMAKER SOCIETY

000. PROLOGUE

001. LEGITIMATELY FUCKED

002. A SAD REALISATION

003. DAMAGE CONTROL

004. DON’T TRUST JOHNNY

005. THE MAKING OF A GRAD STUDENT

006. YOU GET THAT NICE GIRL

007. ROCKING AROUND THE CHRISTMAS TREE (NEW!)

008. coming soon!

apply here to be included in the taglist! (if it doesn't allow access, please send an ask instead!)

note: there will be limited spaces, so personally, i think it's better to apply first thing, than last minute. but still, your choice. it will still be here for you to read - just keep this in mind! thank you!

© nukyo 2022. all copyrights reserved.

[pyro-technically]

When people say r/t/rd

[foreverxdaydreaming]

[randomprose]

Shang Qinghua is, for lack of a better word, a pushover—a pathetic, cowering, pushover.

He doesn’t talk back, mostly because everyone around him is so much more OP than him and he lives in constant fear that any one of them would be the cause of his demise (accidentally and/or otherwise).

So, Shang Qinghua just lets things slide, like, a lot of things. For self-preservation purposes. So he gets taken advantage of for it, so what? As long as he’s useful, he at least doesn’t have to fear being unceremoniously eliminated.

Shang Qinghua lives his life like this—except during the bi-annual Peak Lords’ Conference.

The bi-annual Peak Lords’ Conference is where they discuss the sect’s general administrative matters and most important of all, the sect’s financial records. It’s the time all the peak lords are scrambling to complete their administrative reports and the busiest season for An Ding Peak—especially Shang Qinghua.

It’s also the only time of the year Shang Qinghua doesn’t think about the importance of not crossing anyone in the name of self-preservation.

A couple of years since the end of the original novel officially transpired, and after also officially being saddled with the Northern Desert’s palace account and affairs, Shang Qinghua has decided he has had enough and will no longer be pushed around into doing the other peaks’ paperwork for them!

Shang Qinghua gets mean and snappy at these meetings. He’s so sleep-deprived he doesn’t even have the energy to be guilty about it. That’s how exhausted he is. If someone comes for his throat during this meeting he wouldn’t even flinch. He’d probably be angrier if they somehow don’t finish the job. Put him out of his misery or don’t waste his fucking time.

If this made the other peak lords lowkey scared of him singling them out during these bi-annual meetings, that’s just a bonus.

A hush falls among the peak lords already present in Cang Qiong’s main conference hall when Shang Qinghua enters. His Head Disciple and inner disciples carrying each peak’s individual reports in tow, placing it down on Shang Qinghua’s table while the peak lord himself goes straight to the podium to load today’s presentation in the crystal mirror projector screens.

It’s times like these that Shang Qinghua is so thankful he thought about writing in projection screens in Proud Immortal Demon Way. Imagine having to write and present a whole sect’s financial report in scrolls! He’d sooner throw himself off of the top of Jue Di Gorge.

He sticks a rectangular slab of crystal to a port and activates it with a short burst of his qi. The crystal mirror lights up with the first page of Shang Qinghua’s presentation and he eyes it for a second before walking to his table.

Yes, it functions like a USB, and no he doesn’t care that ‘it goes completely against xianxia logic!’ because contrary to what Cucumber-bro says, this is actually another thing that Shang Qinghua is grateful he wrote in because it’s a fucking stroke of genius.

An An Ding disciple comes in just before the start of the conference, saying a messenger bird of a merchant lord just sent a missive labeled ‘important’.

“This is not important at all,” Shang Qinghua says before sitting down, grabbing a paper, and writing a reply anyway. He hands it to his disciple, “Here send it back. If they reply unfavorably, tell them—"

Just then Shen Qingqiu enters, flanked by Ming Fan and Luo Binghe, which startled the An Ding disciple to drop the note. Luo Binghe picks up the paper to hand it over to the startled disciple, who bowed in thanks before Shen Qingqiu snatches it and opens the note.

“'To Lord Mao," Shen Qingqiu reads. "'Is that a challenge? If so, this peak lord will engage with Lord Mao. This peak lord knows the law of this land and will gladly see Lord Mao in court. Note, this peak lord knows what happened five days after last year’s harvest moon and supposes that, too, is up for discussion. Signed Peak Lord Shang.’” Shen Qingqiu turns to Shang Qinghua as he folds the note again and hands it back to the disciple, who bows to all of them before taking his leave. “Lord Mao? The merchant that supplies some of Wan Jian Peak’s blacksmithing tools? What did this Lord Mao do five days after last year’s harvest moon?”

“Nothing and it’s none of your business,” Shang Qinghua mutters shortly as he re-arranges his scrolls while the rest of the peak lords start to file in.

It’s a testament to how exhausted Shang Qinghua is that he doesn’t even flinch when Luo Binghe levels him with a dark glare and a snarl of, “Don’t speak to Shizun like that.”

“Binghe, stand down. Shang-shidi is just under a lot of pressure. This is a busy time for An Ding Peak after all.”

“No, Luo Binghe is right,” Shang Qinghua sighs. “That was out of line, shixiong, even if what you said was true.” He bows slightly to Shen Qingqiu in apology before smiling tiredly. “Lord Mao did nothing I think. I just—”

“What is this I hear about Shang-shidi being at odds with a merchant?” Qi Qingqi pipes up clearly having heard their conversation. “Really, Shang-shixiong. What are you doing? It better not be something shady again.”

“Rest assured, Qi-shimei, this shixiong knows what he’s doing.”

“This one sure hopes you do,” Qi Qingqi says not without suspicion at the same time Shen Qingqiu asks, “Do you really?”

“It’s fine. It’s fine,” Shang Qinghua says, moving his hand in a dismissive wave. “Don’t worry about it.”

--

Later, while Shang Qinghua is in the middle of speedrunning through the peak’s expense reports, because his martial siblings have very short attention spans for such things and anything else that isn’t gossip or doesn’t directly involve them, the same An Ding disciple comes in. He slinks quietly to An Ding’s Head Disciple, who is taking notes dutifully, to inform her of the missive.

The Head Disciple gives him the go signal to report and raises her hand to get Shang Qinghua’s attention.

“I’m sorry to interrupt, Shifu, but Lord Mao has responded.”

“Oh? And what did he say?”

An Ding’s Head Disciple nudges her martial sibling, who looks unsure and a little unnerved at all the eyes trained on him, to deliver the message.

“Lord Mao said—” he clears his throat. “Lord Mao said there is no need to make a big deal out of nothing and agreed to meet on the twelfth day of next month.”

Shang Qinghua looks to his Head Disciple, rapidly flipping through a small pocket notebook before looking up and shaking her head no to Shang Qinghua.

“This peak lord is not available on that date. Tell Lord Mao to move it on—Xiao Lian?”

“Shifu’s next available date is on the twenty-fifth of the month after next.”

“There. Tell Lord Mao to move the meeting to the twenty-fifth day of the month after next.”

“Hey, now,” Shen Qingqiu says because his husband has gone, Ming Fan is taking notes for him, so now he’s bored and this is the most interesting thing that’s happened since this whole meeting started. “Isn’t Shang-shidi pushing it?”

“It’s fine. This master knows what he’s doing,” Shang Qinghua says as he waves away his disciple and goes right back to drilling Liu Qingge about Bai Zhan Peak’s expense report.

--

Around the concluding hour of the meeting, Shang Qinghua’s messenger disciple returns yet again with a response.

“This disciple apologizes a thousand times for interrupting once again.”

“The meeting is about to end. Wait beside your shijie for a bit, yeah?”

“Yes, Shifu.”

But before the An Ding disciple could do as he’s told, Wei Qingwei speaks up.

“It’s fine. At this point, I think this peak lord speaks for all when he says we all want to know what Lord Mao has said.” Not in the least because they’re all bored out of their wits and this is a very welcome distraction. “He's one of Wan Jian Peak’s suppliers is he not? This peak lord has a vested interest in this exchange.”

“Alright then,” Shang Qinghua says, no longer caring and just wanting this whole meeting to end so he can go back home and catch up on some sleep for a day or three. “Let’s hear it then.”

“Lord Mao agreed to meet Shifu on the twenty-fifth of the month after next and offered to host Shifu on his manor.”

“Fat chance,” Shang Qinghua says. And what? Hand himself over for a potential assassination plot? Shang Qinghua did not last this long and survived everything that’s happened in the original storyline only for some canon fodder merchant lord to get the jump on him. He makes a mental note to look for a new supplier for Wan Jian Peak’s blacksmithing needs if Lord Mao doesn’t agree with the terms he’s laid out—ones that are very much in Cang Qiong’s favor 70-30 now that he’s pissed Shang Qinghua off. “Tell Lord Mao this peak lord will receive him in An Ding Peak at no later than Wu Shi.”

The disciple bows and leaves to send the message and Shang Qinghua turns back to conclude his presentation.

Then later, after the meeting is adjourned, Shen Qingqiu sidles up to him with an amused, “Well, that was something, Peak Lord Shang. The bi-annual Peak Lord’s Conference really brings out your backbone, huh?”

Shang Qinghua just regards his friend with an exhausted flat look at the obvious mocking use of his title before smirking, “I told you I know what I’m doing.”

“So what did Lord Mao do five days after last year’s harvest moon?”

“Honestly, I have no idea,” Shang Qinghua replies in earnest with a shrug and a confused frown. “I just thought of a random date and hoped for the best that it held some importance to him. Guess Lord Mao does shady things on the regular.”

“Yikes.”

“Yeah. Time to find Wei-shixiong a new supplier. I just hope he’s not partial to the ones that shady Lord Mao provides.”

ao3

[adhbabey]

Honestly i want to make a post on adhd vs autism but i need some reliable sources.

Can anyone recommend any good blogs to look at or sites with a lot of information.

Because bro, I'm lookin at google about if autistic ppl experience executive dysfunction, which on the level of ADHD ppl, I don't think so... But do they? N the first two fucking results have keywords n shit that are bad. (Autism Awareness Center n Autism $peaks). Can I just say fat yikes???

So if anyone has reliable blogs that would be great. But I'll start looking in tags for now.

[normal-thoughts-official]

aaaand we are back back again with malec livewatch! you can read the first and second parts before if you wanna, or filter out “malec livewatch” if ur tired of this absolute bullcrap

yes i know it’s been years. not my fault okay i was studying

today: post-wedding 1×12! and finally freedom from the terrors of s1

forever a slut for that scene where Magnus just does that hand movement and a bunch of shit starts showing up in the conveniently empty table ugh we stan. imagine if the special effects had been this good all the time they really used up 10 out of their 15 dollars and all the two favors from cousin Mike for this one. 1×12 was so inspired tbh only valid episode

Alec's clothes look so much better without the stupid ugly blazer? could do without the high waisted pants (why) but he looks so much better and also more comfortable. again i hope the costume department staff got a big, fat paycheck because the difference we see in him during the wedding vs post-wedding alone is just insane. he looks so much better and more comfortable and more himself, the blazer made him look stiff and again DOESNT MATCH THE REST. also nice touch that the blazer is the only part of his clothing with gold, the sh wedding color. he gets that off and everything looks so much better

Magnus looks even better post wedding too. like the clothing is already *chef's kiss* but he looks even prettier afterwards somehow. the hair is a little softer and he's less stiff as a whole (for obvious reasons), and aaaa hes so beautifulllll he's so prettyyyy look at his perfect soft little hair falling softly over his head and the PINK STREAKS possibly the best Magnus look i said what i said. especially with him all soft and smiley like that i big love him

sexiest thing about Magnus is how Jace does anything and hes like NO BITCH

the way he says "warlock tracking is stronger" with that smile......... hes so prety

that's a deep inhale he makes before using the tracking spell lmao u ok buddy?

oof i can only imagine how he felt when he was doing the tracking and he was suddenly hit with an image of Camille screaming and hitting in his direction,,,....,,,,,,, Fuck

love how Raphael just locked her in the basement thats so sexy of him we stan

"i punched her there's no way she'll help me" ugh still salty that clary of all ppl got to punch her but not Raphael or Magnus fuck this tbh

STOP MAKING ME LOOK AT CLACE

they both look so giddy and happy to be talking after the whole wedding thing + camille drama like don’t look at me. alec can barely look at magnus because he’s so agitated but you have the smile on his face and magnus is also smiling disbelievingly and i just doaudjsuoiadsa i love they

seriously tho the way magnus smiles..... so private and disbelieving but also so obvious and he’s even looking down like he never expected stuff to go down this well..... bro i stan

i had forgotten about the specific cadence in which alec talks? lmao. there’s a certain tilt to his voice when he says “it’s so INTENSE” that i really love

also that’s a really funny line like honey who the fuck are you to complain about anything being intense. ur the most dive or die bitch in this entire building. and we stan

alec’s WIDE ASS SMILE when magnus says “you certainly know how to make a statement” I CRY. magnus looks so proud of him and still disbelieving that alec went this hard for him and alec is just still on cloud 9 that he really Did That and came out and magnus is just proud of him and wow he really gets to have this and duahdsudhsadajsas???? i adore everything about them

the way maryse shows up and magnus immediately recoils and alec immediately straightens up like magnus is lowkey expecting rejection and alec is just bracing himself for one of the hardest fights of his life

also their expressions are so funny like maryse is LIVID she’s absolutely losing her mcfucking mind with anger homegirl’s head is about to explode and robert is just looking like he pissed on the carpet or something

the way alec doesn’t back down at all is so admirable too like!!!! it’s one thing to make a big fuck you gesture, it’s another to still hold your ground against your abusers after that fact. but he really stands there and goes “this isn’t about you” “i’m the same person i’ve always been” and doesn’t give her an inch of room for clownery. like again once alexander gideon lightwood makes up his mind there’s no stopping him and there’s no going back and he’s just so fucking strong??? he really said “from now on i’m out and you’re going to absolutely deal with that and i will not compromise a single thing” and the lightwoods just had to deal with that lmaoooo 

you can see it in maryse’s face too, like after the “i’m the same person i’ve always been” she just pauses, realizing that she lost this battle without even knowing, she was on top of it a second ago and now there’s nothing she can do anymore and she’s just shook. and all that’s left for her is to scoff at magnus and leave, because that’s it, she lost every hold she had on him

alec’s little mouthed “what?” at “and all for a downworlder” too. i think part of him was like “wow she’s backing down already?” because you know he expected this to be a lot harder i think lmao. but i also like to think that there’s a side of “mom what the fucking fuck have you seen him he’s gorgeous and kind and smart and amazing and literally the best person i could have fallen in love with but go off i guess”

robert going all “just give her time” like he doesn’t understand what’s happening here at all. he clearly plays the “good cop” in the lightwood’s abusive dynamic tbh, like people often brush him off as being just spineless but i honestly think that he’s just the other side of her manipulative coin. specially with izzy, like, when izzy said fuck it and completely let go of maryse’s hold on her? that’s where robert came in, being the accepting, “nice” parent who listened to her and cared, and making sure she’d keep her loyalties. because he didn’t really stand up for izzy either and in the end he kept her still glued to the lightwood family through that, and kept defending maryse and izzy listened to him because he was robert. and i think that’s what’s happening here too, him trying to frame this as “don’t worry, she’ll come around” because he knows right then that alec is absolutely going to turn their back on them if that’s what it takes for her to be happy so he immediately slides in and reframes this under an affection light where everything will be alright! even if honestly i don’t think that’s what alec is really thinking about at all, i think he was 100% ready for a showdown 

and robert is clearly so disapproving and yikes at the whole thing too but he pretends he isn’t and like lmao

shoutout to their faces when robert asks “are you two in love?” like magnus just turns around like oh hell no we’re not gonna have this conversation and alec lights up for just a second with a small smile before he’s like wait wait no shit shit shit we’ve just met no of course there’s no love (and like... i don’t think there is per se, because i think love is something that takes longer to settle in, specially for alec, but i think the idea that he could talk openly about being in love with a man and even fall fully in love with magnus one day makes him super happy you know?) lmao dorks

tho tbh i think magnus shuts down that conversation immediately to avoid heartbreak. because i think that for this whole thing he was expecting alec to say something he’d hate hearing to get his parents’ approval, you know? like like i said it’s really unexpected and surprising/inspiring that alec didn’t back down an inch there, and i think he was expecting alec to kind of fall back slightly now, like, he played his cards and now he would negotiate with them, you know? find a place to make them comfortable. instead alec gives them a complete fuck you and he’s like... damn obviously super pleased but also waiting for the other shoe to drop

he just steps in like “pls no” and stops that conversation right there 

the way alec takes a deep breath and magnus opens his mouth then closes again quickly not knowing what to say and then changes the subject.... he’s really so scared of this talk and i just aaa

alec literally never fucking stops going from magnus’ eyes and lips in quick succession like alec. alec please. stop being horny for just a second man. please alec i’m begging you

it’s so cute how magnus mentions a date and alec is immediately like “hell YEAH we should do that” no hesitation like he’s 100% ready to leave immediately right now (i see his pause between “wanna... i don’t know, get a drink?” and “....sometime?”, i see it, you can’t fool me alexander) and also the fact that his first suggestion is something that he hates but that he knows for a fact magnus likes is so cute, like he immediately goes for magnus’ interests here and we stan

i also think that he’s come to associate drinking = dates after 1x06 and the way magnus called him specifically for a drink before he showed up too, like... it’s cute how he immediately came to associate those things because of magnus and just jumps into that because that’s what he knows. he’s so eager and like good for him

magnus’ SMILE when he says that like bro he can see how stoked alec is to go on a date with him they are adorable he is so fucking HAPPY i doubt he expected such a great outcome from this and yet here they are

ALEC DOES THE WHOLE LOOKING AT HIS LIPS IN QUICK SUCCESSION THING ONE LAST TIME BEFORE THE SCENE ENDS SHUT UP OH MY GOD HE NEVER STOPS. MATT DADDARIO THANK YOU FOR MY RIGHTS

next part

[frizzyanya]

The Untamed Episode 25, My Commentary!

Spoilers below!

WWX and JYL hanging out with the kids and then secretly that demon JZX is meeting with JC.

I knooooooo wwe aren’t supposed to hate him, just the circumstances. But I just do. I refuse to forgive him for being mean to her.

Lol seems like WWX likes him exactly as much as I do.

That interaction between JZX and WWX was sooooo uncomfortable. WWX refused to acknowledge the question about where the 5th segment of the YI was, which means obviously he has it. And then JZX is also demanding he give up the STA too. Fat chance, bro!

I mean he can’t do good guy magic anymore, no way he gives up the only magic available to him, even if it is demonic and likely to destroy all of society!

Ohhhhh flags for every clan! So we’re already at the party!

WWX standing next to LWJ and they aren’t even hyper aware of each other or talking not-quietly-enough like usual!

I hate MY, that smug bastard. (What a reversal, I know.)

JESUS CHRISTMAS, THEY HAVE TO TARGET INNOCENT WEN CLAN CIVILIANS?!?!?!!?!? Okay not quite…...they have to try to miss them but shoot around them WTAF

WWX’s hand loosened on his demon flute. So, like, that’s good I guess. No all out war…….Yet.

This is so unnecessary and cruel.

“Who else dares to try?!” (after JZX’s bulls eye) I can almost hear WWX in Lindsay Lohan’s voice saying “I’ll take a whack at it….” (from the Parent Trap)

Then he turns to LWJ……….and asks him………..to borrow his headband. WWX, what are you thinking right now…? What tricks do you have up your sleeve…?

HE’S BLINDFOLDING HIMSELF

BEFORE SHOOTING A BOW AND ARROW

THROUGH A LINE OF INNOCENTS

AND SHOOTING FIVE ARROWS AT ONCE, ONE TO EACH BULLSEYE

LMAAAOOOOOOO

THIS BITCH BE LIKE

FUCK ALL OF YYOOOOUUUUUU

GOLDEN CORE OR NOT IM STILL BETTER THAN ALL OF YOU PUT TOGETHER

I want LWJ to be like “........boring.”

Everybody applauding, he’s gonna create trouble once again by showing off.

...but what did he want the headband for?

Everybody’s working really hard at hunting whatever, and then WWX just casually playing flute.

LMAO

“They all just plunged into our nets themselves!” 

TO HELP JC WIN

THIS SHOW IS PURE COMEDY

Okay now I’m at the “what do you take me for” scene and this HURTS

“You used to be my confidante.” “I still am.” Dramatic prolonged eye contact.

Aaaaaaand now we’re watching JZX and JYL walking together on the path. WWX’s eyeroll looked EXACTLY like mine.

“Do you not like watching the hunt…….or do you not like being with me?!” And then he turns away dramatically with “I’m never speaking to you again!” flair.

Poor JYL.

Aaaaaaand WWX being, well, himself, and he just flies out onto the path just as JZX was surely about to get things cleared up.

LWJ coming to his rescue, ohhhh I do like that.

“Who are you?” “How dare you not know who I am!” “But who ARE you?” LMAO, SAME, WWX, SAME.

“JYL, what’s wrong? Did my intractable son bully you again?!” Ohhhhhh yes, JZX’s mother is good.

IS SHE THE FIRST GOOD ALIVE MOTHER IN THIS SHOW!?!??

WWX is handling this……..better than I would have expected? (That’s a pretty low bar, of course.) Like he at least articulated why JZX was being the worst in that interaction.

“WWX has already collected 30% of everything!” LWJ, who has been with him this whole time and knows he’s done absolutely nothing legally allowed: “Say what?!”

JZX’s cousin: “That’s not capability, that’s just playing a flute! It’s too easy!” WWX: “Go ahead, play my flute.”

LOLOLOLOL

“I don’t know what’s called capability, please show me yours. Astonish me, please.”

This is like weirdly homoerotic and I do not like it (a la “my horse is bigger than your horse” (because yes, the princess diaries 2 is the only way I know how to reference that…))

I mean I probably half think that because while JZX’s cousin looks angry and ready for a fight, WWX just looks like he’s taunting/mocking/flirting in his way.

Okay now we’ve crossed a line…….he’s now like vibrating from anger. 

LWJ, DO SOMETHING.

IF YOU DON’T HE’S GOING TO FLIP OUT COMPLETELY.

I’M WORRIED FOR…….LIKE EVERYONE……..

The guy is goading him!! “You’re nothing more than the son of a servant.” SHUT UP, OR YOU MIGHT END UP AN ACTUAL HONEST TO GOD CASUALTY.

FUCKING FINALLY

LWJ TOOK YOU LONG ENOUGH

THIS MAN IS LITERALLY VIBRATING

HE NEEDS HELP

LWJ: “Wei Ying, concentrate!”

JYL: “Wuxian! Wuxian!”

Lord help me, I hope this is enough.

But I mean, is there technically any rule that says “no demon flute magic to help you win?” Because I feel like this is so specific that it might not actually be against the official rules, right? lol

JYL apologizing to the Jins for WWX. YIKES. 

While LWJ holds him back. DOUBLE YIKES.

JZX’s cousin needs to STFU BEFORE HE GETS  HIMSELF KILLED

Hahaha! JYL said that what he did wasn’t against the rules.

“There are so few prey! It’s already a hard competition!” “It’s not his fault you’re bad hunters.” ZIIINNNGGG

JYL IS ON FIYA

NOW SHE’S ASKING JZX’s guy to APOLOGIZE TO WWX. THIS IS BRILLIANT.

I LOVE HER SO MUCH

ALL HAIL QUEEN YANLI

MADAM JIN SAID TO MAKE THE APOLOGY THIS IS TOO DAMN MUCH

ALL HAIL STRONG WOMEN 

Madam Jin being mean to MY. Okay. No good moms here. She’s just good to JYL. But like….I respect that.

JYL is like a tiger momma protecting her cub WWX. You do not disrespect him on her watch!

“Nothing about you is a problem for me. If my son has made you upset, I can give him a beating for you.” YES MADAM JIN IS MY NEW FAVE.

Okay she has JYL’s best interests at heart here, but she’s a bit mistaken on the nature of JYL/WWX’s relationship. 

However now that I think of it………...if I’d only seen what she’d seen, particularly this episode……..I’d likely be inclined to agree that it looked like they were framed as love interests. 

I mean….JYL loves WWX a lot. It’s just not in that way. And if you don’t understand her well enough to know the difference……..I can see the misunderstanding happening easily. 

“WWX is my younger brother. I’ll never leave him.” BRB SOBBING.

“Lady Jiang! It’s not what you think! I wasn’t forced by my mother, it was me, I wanted to invite you!” Awww he’s just bad at talking to girls but he does like her! SYKE NO. You can’t be rude/mildly abusive and then pretend it was you being cute/coy. You made her cry! Grow up and then come back and court her.

(I know they’re going to be on better terms now, I’m just bitter af.)

Aaaaaaand everybody is watching.

SO HE LITERALLY RUNS AWAY

He’s THAT shy and awkward!

JYL like “I’ll go with Madam Jin and JZX. WWX like BRING ON THE ABANDONMENT ISSUES.

JC like “come to the banquet with me later!” WWX like “nah imma go for a walk, goodbye LWJ and literally nobody else.”

JC like WWX wtf did you do.

Ohhhhhh I’M SO DUMB. 

OH MY LORD.

WWX doesn’t have the STA AND the YI. The STA IS the YI!

LADY WEN@@@@@ OMFGGGG!!!!!!!!!

That’s how I typed that in my excitement and I refuse to change it! Lol

They CAN’T miss each other! PLEASE stop each other and interact!

OMG! Someone pushed her to the ground rudely and he saw 

WWX WHAT ARE YOU DOING. GO TO HER.

Lady Wen is the only one on this show prettier than WWX.

The ONLY one.

LXC/LWJ: “What are you thinking?” “I want to bring a man to Cloud Recesses.” “A man…?” WHO DO YOU THINK, LXC?? 

[womenofcolor15]

BEEF REIGNITED: Eminem Responds To Nick Cannon & Mariah Carey + Suge Knight Calls Em A 'B****' & 50 Cent Throws Shots At Nick – HEAR THE DISS TRACKS!

Before 2019 wraps up, a new rap beef has ignited…well re-ignited. Eminem started trash talking Nick Cannon and his ex-wife Mariah Carey on wax. Now, Suge Knight and 50 Cent are all in the mix. Everything inside…

Eminem and Nick Cannon are back at it again!  Yes.  In 2019. Almost 2020.

Last Friday, Fat Joe released his new joint album with superproducer Dre titled Family Ties, which featured a track titled “Lord Above.” Fat Joe & Dre nabbed Eminem for a verse and Mary J. Blige for the hook.

Em didn’t waste any time to pop off on Nick Cannon and his ex-wife Mariah Carey, reigniting their decade-old beef.

“Word to the Terror Squad, Joe, this is all puns aside though / I know me and Mariah didn’t end on a high note/But that other dude’s whipped, that p*ssy got him neutered / Tried to tell him this chick’s a nut job ‘fore he got his jewels clipped,” Em rapped.

“Almost got my caboose kicked, fool, quit, you not gon’ do shit / I let her chop my balls off too ‘fore I lost to you, Nick / I should quit watchin’ news clips, yeah / My balls are too big, I should be talkin’ pool / ‘Cause I got scratches on my pockets, fall when I’m takin’ shots at you.”

Whew. The disrespect.

Take a listen below (at the 2:15 minute mark):

On Monday, Nick Cannon released a diss track aimed at Em in response to his disrespectful bars about him and his ex-wife on a track titled “The Invitation.” The track features former Death Row Records CEO Suge Knight, who’s currently in prison. Nick also tapped battle rappers Hitman Holla, Charlie Clips and Prince Eazy for a few bars. Suge opened up the track by calling Eminem a “b*tch.”

"Call Kim, somebody get Hailey and that other kid you raising that ain't even your baby/Took a page out of Drake book, this might get a Grammy/We going back to back until you respond—on the family/My baby mama killed you off a decade ago/You still crying about it b*tch, now who really the hoe?,” Nick rapped.

On the track, there were claims that there's a video tape of Eminem performing oral sex on another man. Yikes.

"I heard your chauffeur got a video of you sucking a c*ck/You paid him off then laid him off, now who really the opps," one of the artists rapped.

Sheesh.

The “Wild ‘N Out” honcho also invited "old man" Eminem to battle him on his sketch-comedy show while hosting his morning show on Los Angeles radio station Power 106.

Listen below:

Nick posted up on Instagram to call Eminem out:

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                  @FatJoe album is Star studded, he even did some charity work and dug @Eminem out his grave I mean cave!! LOL FLAM FLAM! BLAM BLAM! NICK CANNON!! Bring your Ass to @MTVWILDNOUT to Battle like a real legend Grandpa Marshall!!

A post shared by NICK CANNON (@nickcannon) on Dec 6, 2019 at 11:42am PST

  Nick gave Fat Joe a shoutout for a fire album and then called out Eminem, writing:

"FatJoe album is Star studded, he even did some charity work and dug @Eminem out his grave I mean cave!! LOL FLAM FLAM! BLAM BLAM! NICK CANNON!! Bring your Ass to @MTVWILDNOUT to Battle like a real legend Grandpa Marshall!!"

Nick also hopped on Twitter to respond about the alleged videotape of Em: "FACTS! His lawyers didn’t want that one out! They already on my line," Nick tweeted.

Eminem then hopped on Twitter to respond.

"U mad bro? Stop lying on my dick. I never even had a chauffeur, you bougie f*ck," Eminem tweeted. "I demand an apology Nicholas, you've made my gardener so jealous!"

  The former "AGT" host didn't stop there, responding to Em and more. Peep more of his tweets below: 

"Fuck Apologies! Pull Up!! Bring your gardener, chauffeur, your male nurse and whoever else you’re f*cking!!," Nick said in a tweet. "eminem I see your handlers let you use the internet today Marshall! We waiting..." Nick said in another tweet.

  Nick also got his Wild 'N Out audience to join him in inviting Em to the show:

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                  @Eminem I see your handlers let you use the internet today Marshall! @mtvwildnout We waiting...

A post shared by NICK CANNON (@nickcannon) on Dec 9, 2019 at 8:03pm PST

  Then, Petty King 50 Cent hopped in the mix, firing shots at Nick, tweeting:

"I don’t understand to save my life why someone would pick a fight with EM. He is a different kinda animal, I haven’t seen a motherfucker come close to beating him man. hey Nick that shit was trash, I oughta kick you in yo ass when I see you PUNK!"

Nick then popped back at 50 Cent, posting a picture of Django's "uncle tom" character Stephen (played by Samuel L. Jackson):

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                  @50Cent

A post shared by NICK CANNON (@nickcannon) on Dec 10, 2019 at 5:27am PST

  Meanwhile, #RIPNICKCANNON has been trending on Twitter.

  Em and Nick's feud dates back to 2009 when Eminem fired shots at Mariah Carey on his track “Bagpipes from Baghdad” on his Relapse album.

“Nick Cannon, I wish you luck with the f*cking whore,” he rapped on the track. MiMi responded to Em on her track "Obsessed." The video to the song featured an Eminem lookalike. Not only that, Nick even threatened to kick Em’s ass for going at his then-wife.

#RIPNickCannon is already trending and Em hasn't even responded.  It may be because of the 30K+ thumbs down Nick received on Youtube.

Whew! Do you think Eminem will accept Nick's "Wild 'N Out" invitation. It'll make for good TV for sure.

  Photos: JStone / lev radin /s_bukley/Shutterstock.com

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[fatphobiabusters]

A friend showed me what kiwifarms is saying about me and I just??? Really? I’ve seen better insults in grade school. 

Let’s see. They think it’s absurd that, on my personal blog, I have a page saying I don’t want to be followed with bullies, don’t want people misgendering me, and don’t want people copy/pasting things I’ve said without asking me first and attributing my words to me.

Apparently, having boundaries is ridiculous, I guess.

They also think it’s contradictory that I identify as nonbinary but don’t want people calling me things like “bro” or “handsome” or any other masculine-coded word. Apparently, nb people don’t care about misgendering or something.

They think the fact I said I don’t mind feminine-coded compliments like “gorgeous” nearly as much as I mind masculine-coded ones is the same as me saying I want everyone to call me gorgeous all the time. 

They think I have too many identities because I’m nb, pansexual, fat, and mentally ill. Do they say the same thing about white, straight, cis, Christian, rich, perisex, able-bodied men? Probably not.

They think it’s funny that I like “edgy bands” like Nine Inch Nails, Five Finger Death Punch, and P!nk. Since when is P!nk edgy, exactly? That’s really fucking mild compared to a lot of what I like.

And they claim I said I’m “not like other girls” by calling myself a LARPer and a gamer. Why would I say I’m “not like other girls” when I am literally not a girl and when most of the people in my LARP group were women? Lol.

So if anyone wanted to know why I am sooooo problematic, that’s why. I have boundaries, don’t like being misgendered, listen to music, and am a nerd. Yikes, someone arrest me now! /sarcasm

- Mod Bella

[karma-was-taken]

MY THOUGHTS ON ENDGAME

 (mostly focused on Steve and Tony) (95% of this post is pure rambling)

THE GOOD THINGS: • Tony and Nebula…….. just,,,,,,, their entire dynamic. Tony offering her food and her gently nudging it towards him. Them working together. Her being so soft and caring when he fell asleep. Just. So soft……. So pure…… when she helped him down the ramp I was already In Love. • Steve CATCHING TONY WHEN HE STEPPED DOWN FROM THE JET!!!! Tony saying in that absolutely broken voice “I lost the kid, I lost the kid” i----- HELLO?????? Literally the best stevetony scene to date I cannot believe that ENDGAME SAID SUPERFAMILY RIGHTS and also my heart was bursting holy fuck • Still can’t get over how fucking good tony’s monologue/speech with the other avengers was. The catharsis. The satisfaction. “Where were you when i needed you?”, the distaste in his voice when he says “we’re the avengers! We avenge, we don’t prevent” and then the “we’ll lose together. You said we’d do that together too, liar!”. Amazing. Powerful. One of the best moments in this movie and in the entire mcu. Rhodey having to physically hold him back. Tony tearing the reactor off his chest. Him pushing everyone away as he collapses. Everything was so painful and yet so healing oh my god- • EVERYTHING ABOUT MY BOYS 5 YEARS LATER!!!!! The parallel between Steve and sam at the support group. Steve still trying to help others through their trauma despite being unable to do the same for himself. Powerful and heartbreaking, especially in his scene with nat. I didn’t love the “this is my family” thing because it was a tad out of the blue but I still enjoyed nat’s character and her relationship with Steve. • TONY AND HIS FAMILY I CAN’T EVEN EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVED THAT. Tony finally getting a quiet life with his wife and kid. Literally everything he deserved and more. TONY WAS SO SOFT WITH MORGAN. THE PHYSICAL AFFECTION. THE CARE. I LOVE YOU 3000. Like holy fuck,,,,,,,, you cannot tell me that tony isn’t the best dad in the whole universe. • Tony’s bitterness when the avengers came to his house. The jarring difference between how warm and open he was with morgan vs the cold sarcasm he gave the avengers. Steve’s evident pain at seeing tony living the life he never got to have. • Tony telling Steve he had a family he couldn’t sacrifice like,,,,,, I fucking teared up. Tony was so emotional, so desperate to keep what he had fought for his entire life. AND YET!!!! He still couldn’t live with himself without trying to save the world. This is why I loved his conversation with pepper. The clear subtext that connected this to her leaving him when he couldn’t quit being iron man. the development for both of them,,,,,,, she went from “it’s either me or ironman” to “will you be able to rest?”, tony asking her permission but really telling her that if he went for it he would have to sacrifice their life and leave them behind. It was so powerful and so well executed. • The photograph. Yes, that one. That’s all. • THAT STEVETONY SCENE WHERE TONY BRINGS THE SHIELD I--!!!!! WAS LITERALLY SCHREECHING. It felt like an acceptable reunion after the events of CA:CW but tbh I would have loved a “you gave me a home” moment for our boys. BUT STILL VVV GOOD • Tony and bruce teaming up and literally creating a time machine we stan two science bros (plus scott bless his soul) • the throwbacks to the old movies were incredible. It felt like a behind the scenes feature AND a fanfiction all at once. The 2012 one especially Fucked me UP!!! The elevator scene,,,,, Steve’s “hail hydra” being a fucking smartass wink to the audience. Steve vs Steve!!!! Tony telling Scott to disconnect the reactor!!!!! America’s ass. Tony finally being a thot on main for Steve rogers. • I----- didn’t love the 70s time jump. I disliked how howard got redeemed for what he did to tony. Not something that I wanted for either of them. The Steve/peggy scene was so painful and yet powerful, specially because Steve left her behind once again (………. More on this later) • TONY BUILDING A FUCKING INFINITY GAUNTLET HELL YEAH BITCH • I didn’t have many feelings about the whole nebula thing but the reactions of the characters there felt rushed (gamora immediately trusting the new nebula. Past nebula being killed and this somehow didn’t affect the “rule of time travel” or whatever the fuck,,,? Sure jan). loved her dynamic with rhodey and quill. Super fun. • The big three facing thanos was everything I’ve ever wanted from this movie and I’m so glad it was SO FUCKING GOOD!!!! • STEVE LIFTING MIJOLNIR!!!! HE FUCKING USED THOR’S LIGHTNING AND!!!! I LOVE HIM HE DESERVES THIS AND MORE!!! • RESCUE MADE ME CUM!!! That scene where they’re back to back?????? Orgasmic. • Just. That entire fight scene was. So good. Perfect. I wouldn’t have changed a single thing. Absolutely incredible. The subtext was everywhere and it was so powerful. The Steve/t’challa nod,,,,, the clear throwback to iw,,,,,,,,,, amazing. • Listen y’all when strange lifted that finger my heart stopped. I Knew what was going to happen immediately. The sheer relief/terror I felt when I saw that fucking finger is indescribable. • Literally the most powerful and iconic line I’ve ever heard: “I am inevitable.” “I am ironman”. I was bawling at this point. • The entire funeral scene. “proof that tony stark has a heart”. Happy and morgan interacting. “I want a cheeseburger”. Sam getting the shield. Tony’s message at the end. I was crying for the entire thing. Literally the most cathartic thing I’ve ever experienced.

WHAT I DIDN’T LIKE: • Literally my pettiest beef with this movie: carol danvers. Her screentime was a joke. Literally “oh hello carol” *carol fucks off to god knows where for the entire movie* “oh hey carol nice to see u again just in time for the final fight huh”…….. absolutely disgraceful. She should have been part of the planning. Where’s the team dynamic. Where’s the character building. Literally the only good thing about this was her haircut I’m so upset at how fucking badly she was treated in this movie. • thor and bruce were …….. no. it felt like a bad comedy. What the fuck was this character building I have no idea but I’m so sorry for thor and hulk fans because they were done so dirty I’m actually speechless. Bruce’s actions made no sense (he’s just,,,,,, chilling with his fans while the avengers struggle???? Hello????? Where’s his,,,,,, *barf* “relationship” with nat????) and thor was……. His struggle and clear ptsd were just treated like a joke. They literally put him in a fat suit I was speechless. Disgraceful. • They both deserved better. • I’m a bit meh re: natasha’s death. Like,,,,,,, I get it but also Why • RHODEY DESERVED MORE!!!! I WANTED A RHODEYTONY HUG AND I DIDN’T FUCKING GET IT. NO CAROLRHODEY EITHER HELLO?????? I’M BEING DENIED MY RIGHTS. • And now……. The Big Yike: Steve. The mcu has never treated Steve’s character like he deserved. What I wanted for him was the chance to have a new life, in the present, with his family. His entire character arc seemed to go towards it (e.g. his dialogue with tony when tony was leaving the avengers???) and yet. We got fucking robbed. I wouldn’t have minded Steve going back to have that goddamn dance with peggy, hell, they both fucking deserved it. But leaving for good? Not coming back? Hell no. he gave up his friends. He gave up Bucky (stucky shippers I am so sorry Bucky also deserved better) just for the chance at having a relationship with peggy. What I wanted for Steve rogers was the possibility to make peace with what he’s lost in the past so he can live in the present and fight for the people of the future. Instead all we got was this,,,,,,,, weird character regression where he just. Gave up??? No. I hated that.

THE BIG DEATH: A lot of people were unhappy with tony’s death but honestly? It’s exactly what I wanted for him. He had the best possible ending: dying to save the entire universe with his sacrifice, using the infinity gauntlet he built himself. The mcu and the avengers started and ended with tony stark. This was his final redeeming act: he made the sacrifice play once again, this time once and for all. No one will be able to call him selfish anymore and he’ll be remembered forever (“i hope they remember you”) for dying like he lived: always trying to save the world. Sacrifice has always been the core of the im movies and this ending felt perfect for him. He got the 5 years of bliss with his family, and then he had to give it up to save the world. The final sacrifice.

I can’t elaborate more on why I hoped to see this ending because it’s literally midnight but long story short this movie was amazing, final score 10/10 despite the Steve thing, I left the theater literally crying tears of joy and felt high on happiness for the following 2 hours. This movie means a lot to me and I’m so glad I liked it as much as I did.

[tcorbisiero-blog1]

Me Vs. The World

I will never be an average girl

I cut my diamonds with dominion whirls

And den I run my hands

Through his Dominican curls

All my life they tired ta play me sis

But I beat em since the game boy sis

There ant a game they could win

Only ls on the scoreboard

I’m not looking for battle

But I will step into war whore

All of ya are the same

They try to paint me insane

Cause I got fame on my brain

I see these bitches lookin tense

Hate shade roll over the fence

Bitches love my defense

Belittle ignorant pence

I’m not about to get political

But fuck this individual

Buttfucked and probably miserable

That sucks

Here’s a visual

I’m praying for you in a confessional

Dressed like a professional

The lord hears my prayers for you

Maybe one day you’ll open your eyes too

If not, that’s up to you

Only god can judge

Who are you?

Now enough with the nonsense

Let me tell y’all a story

When I was 9 this guy pulled me under

A story

Almost drowned

Twice in my life

Put I kicked him in the face Thrice

Then I swam up to the surface right?

Oh man did he look nervous yikes

He stayed below the surface like

The second time was at a beach

Covered by sand I was underneath

We even make minimum wage; FAT COW

Because the tide had taken me

Thought I couldn’t break free

First my left arm and then my chest

Then came my head

Then came the rest

I rose from the earth

I must confess

I devalue my worth sometimes

By request

Demons in my head and I fight them BEST

You walking through hell, you wanna walk through it?

Shit..

I’ll be by your side since I been through it

I know how to ride

Wish that bitch knew it

Now I gotta fly

Through the sky

Zoom it

Now I know this is an intro

But there’s something with his lips bro

And how he moves his hips bro

It’s like something cosmic yo

These feelings I’m proud of it; i show

Love is love not negotiable

Sorry not sorry

To ruin republican parties

But it’s 2018 as of now

And being gay is okay somehow

These presents are fucking with the princess her self

Both a prince and a princess

Double my wealth

I know where your hiding

Your bad at stealth

Only thing your good at is leaving me on a shelf.

[estebun]

big fat yikes at that anon lol "why aren't oppressed people just being nice to their oppressors that would certainly yield them more results 😡😡😡😡" bro just shut the fuck up and stand behind the protesters smh

[ziggory]

Riverdale Tie-In #9

I guess this is our Christmas/New Year’s present. 

Ha

I’m already thrown off by Reggie’s dad using “Yowsah” since I’m used to the more in-your-face “YOWZA!” Maybe I should have paid more attention during those Adam West Batman onomatopoeia fight sequences

Hmm, Jughead’s looking better. And hey, I”m actually a real sucker for this cheesy sitcom plot of characters having to keep their hands on a vehicle in order to win it. And Reggie’s running bets on it

And oh my god, Archie actually sort of looks like KJ. Jughead using “Benedict” obviously means him and Kevin should be friends. And fucking YIKES at Cheryl

Apparently in addition to running the town newspaper, Alice Cooper also reports live with a tv camera in order to livestream on a website. I guess she hasn’t figured out what facebook live is. She’s also being strangely neutral and appropriate as she interviews everyone

So Ethel’s competing so that she can sell the truck and go to space camp because she was invited to go, but her parents can’t afford to send her. Archie just wants a new set of wheels to take Veronica on dates. Cheryl wants to literally prove that she’s still the HBIC after how rough post-Jason life has been. Jughead needs it to visit his dad easier as well as gift it to him so that they can drive to Ohio and visit his mom and sister

Betty and Veronica having a slight tiff over which of their men will win this contest is the definition of RME. I’m not a fan of how the girls are written. Though if Jughead really has marathonned all Friday the 13th movies, I hope he randomly rewound the scene of that one nerd getting thrown into an electric box over and over in Jason Takes Manhattan

Some people have varying decent strategies since they’re not allowed to lean or squat. Though Moose and Archie playing checkers is hilarious

Honestly, FUCK whoever wrote this issue. I love that Ethel burst through a goddamn window after Reggie tried sabotaging her, but it’s undercut by Cheryl. That and fat shaming is just such shitty, lazy humor and not witty at all. I guess it’s a callback to Cheryl giving Betty self-esteem issues concerning her weight but UGH, I hate this shit

But then here’s FP AND THE REST OF THE JONES FAMILY MAKING THEIR FIRST APPEARANCE as Jughead gives his whole spiel about why he’s doing this. He’s very upset with Archie for competing against him

But awww look at that supportive plaid dad. And a deepening of why Archie wants to win. Obviously, he’s also doing it for his dad. Though there was an earlier tie-in comic where Archie was driving a shitty jalopy as an homage to the classics, and you’d think they could sell that and maybe start a gofundme to work towards a better engine for Fred’s truck. But whatever, I know I’m thinking about this more than the writers are

So Cheryl is very impressed with Ethel because she covers for her after Ethel takes a hand off the car. And after Cheryl is eliminated (for not having a pulse???), she tells Ethel to try out for the Vixens

And Ethel wins because in the middle of having a bro moment, Archie and Jughead both take their hands off the car like idiots because they forgot she was still in the game

It actually works out for everyone since Ethel had the worst odds of winning therefore the largest pot so not only is she able to split it with both boys and herself, she also gets to keep the truck. And apparently she’s a Vixen in this continuity

[lysitheaioandeuropa]

All the flowery asks

):

azalea : what’s one word that describes you ?- annoying probably, idk. extra lmao

baby’s breath : what did you want to be when you were a kid ?- a coroner, surgeon, a lawyer. not what i am now, but i am happy with it atm

begonia : are you a messy or clean person ?- rly rly clean

bleeding heart : has your heart ever been broken ?- mhm, it has, sometimes by my own damn self! but it happens you move on you live and you learn

bluebell : do you drink tea or coffee ?i drink both but do prefer coffee most of the time

buttercup : what are five things that make you apologetically happy ?- unapologetically? idk, video games? free times? it’s hard to answer this w depression in mind lol, but any time i spend w my gf rly makes forget that all even if just temporarily, i rly love and appreciate all the time i spend w her and that she’s willing to share w me

calla : what’s your favorite book ?- i have a few, i kinda stan for cassandra clare even though i don’t really like her writing style. i need new books to read asap

carnation : what are your five most played songs ?- rn i’ve had this jojo album playing all day

chrysanthemum : what are you afraid of ?- getting old and not doing shit w my life. coming out to my mom. never getting better

daffodil : what’s your astrological sign ?- gemini :( here goes the hate lmao

dahlia : what’s your favorite band ?- okay i always say arctic monkeys but BOY, do i fucking LOVE ME some fucking chromeo!!!!! LIKE YES FUNK LORDS FOR LIFE BITCH

daisy : which ‘friends’ character do you relate to the most ?- i’m not white (cause you have to be to think friends is even remotely funny)

dandelion : are you an extrovert or an introvert ?- more introvert than extrovert. i be going out and “yikes”-ing my way through the night

geranium : how has your day been ?- odd? it started off pretty okay but i noticed i was in a mood, p clingy and needy and rly manic. and then MOOD DROP and i laid in bed crying for two hours and didn’t eat anything. by 9 i was okay and i ate taco bell of all things so i know i’m boutta hate my whole life (s.n. this was last wednesday)

hydrangea : what’s your dream job ?- something in tech com, a bookstore i own myself, a university position, i still wish i could work at or open up a publishing house.

iris : who’s your celebrity crush ?- used to be james franco. dave 1 is a total stud though like wow thats my husband

lavender : what’s one of the best gifts you’ve ever received ?- my birthday gift this year, i cried opening it, and a couple years ago was rly nice too

lily : what’s something you’ve achieved that you’re really proud of ?- surprisingly, i haven’t died. and i’ve survived the past three months w little to no personal injury (mental or physical)

marigold : what would you like to do more of, but don’t ?- everything? but i all takes too much energy? rn i want to clean and run errands and not cry but i’m doing the exact opposite of that. update: i drew TWO (2) things yesterday!!! i am proud! and i went to the gym for the first time in three weeks

moonflower : who inspires you ?- whatever potential future me has that isn’t me rn.

morning glory : are you an early bird or a night owl ?- a bit of both, i get up early and i stay up late but not like i’m doing anything productive

orchid : what’s the last movie you saw ?- thirteen ghosts, it was still as good as i remember it! update: currently finishing princess mononoke

pansy : do you believe in love at first sight ?- no bro, and if you do you a liar and you tryna fuck

peony : what does your url mean ?- jupiter’s moons!

periwinkle : what are you thankful for ?- not dying i guess

petunia : where were you ten years ago ?- hmm it was my freshman year of high school. i was spending lunch w omar, ashley, and antonio, or just hanging out in the library picking out books to read. that wasn’t rly a good year tbh but yeah funny how people say shit like that does not matter 10yrs down the line

poinsettia : where would you like to be in ten years ?- i’d hopefully be an estimator w my current company, maybe at a different branch in portland or seattle. financially stable, married, and happy puppy owner, maybe even happy parent

poppy : what’s your online persona ?- same as irl, if not slightly cooler actually but just as cynical and depressed

primrose : if you could share one message with the world, what would it be ?- i’m not really sure.. do more of what you love. take care of yourself, physically and mentally. have an open mind.

rose : who’s the last person you spent quality time with ?- probably michelle? we went to panda yesterday.

snapdragon : what are your goals ?- i want!! to get!! better!! also, lose fifty pounds but i mean i’m fat and i like to eat it is what it is

sunflower : what’s your favorite quote ?- “all good things are wild and free,” sidenote, i am happy to be a free happy gay rn like i’m much more comfortable in my skin in that regard i felt like i constantly had to hide that specific part of me and granted i still do to a certain extent but not as much

tulip : if you had three wishes, what would you wish for ?- i don’t want to be rich, but i want 100% certain financial security. i can take care of my wife and kids, we can take trips and vacations whenever we want, and we’re happy and fulfilled. money won’t do that, but it will certainly help. i really wish i wasn’t depressed/didn’t have bpd, that would improve the overall quality of my life immensely. and lastly, i wish i could go back in time and make better choices.

violet : what’s one thing most people don’t know about you ?- outside of the internet no one knows i have bpd

zinnia : do you believe in magic ?- depends on your definition

[emiliaboone]

Sci-Fi Romance Thoughts: Arrival

Here we go again! Here’ are my VERY SPOILER FILLED thoughts on the movie Arrival! Like with my mystery movies, I watched 2 “great” movies, two mediocre/bad movies, and one parody. This is my first great movie, I movie I forgot how much I loved until I watched it again. Seriously, compared to the rest of the movies I’m going to talk about, these are super biased. I love this movie.

Who is in love? Louise and Ian

How much time was spent on the romance? I would say 20 minutes total not including the implications of the flashbacks.

Did they end up together? Yes and no. They get married but they also get divorce, but the movie ends with them getting together in the first place.

Did the plot depend on it? Sort of. Mainly through Hannah.

How much lead up? A pretty good amount. It’s a pretty subtle plot point, really, he looks at her really cute, touches her when he can, and talks about how great he is and how he appreciates her. He’s constantly impressed by her. It seems really natural, since them even getting together is just a long hug, really. The only reason you know it went further than that is the flash forwards, so it’s really a subtle romance but you know it’s going to get bigger.

Were you feeling it? HELL FUCKING YEAH-That end scene gives me warm fuzzies even though I know it doesn’t work out and when I first watched this movie I had ALL the hope that one day, outside of the film’s timeline, they’d get back together. I don’t know why, since you don’t actually see much of it, just the results, but I was really rooting for them.

How was it integrated? So this was actually really nicely integrated. Because for most of the movie, it’s a crush that Ian has on Louise, and it looks like she might be reciprocating but that she’s getting over her dead daughter. But when you find out that’s not it at all, and that she’s being tormented by visions she can’t understand, it becomes more of a focus only in the last 2 or so minutes when you see a montage of their marriage. The real integration here was the flash forwards, which he wasn’t even a part of, his main role the implication that he’s the girl’s father. So the romance wasn’t a part of the main plot, but it affects it severely. 

How distracting was it? Not at all. I super love this one. It’s subtle enough but still cute.

Kiss? Not in movie...

Sex? No, but the implication is there cos there’s a kid and he asks her to “make a baby” in the montage...god this movie is weird.

Annoyance level: Big Fat Zero

Overall Movie Rating: Legit give this movie a 9.5 out of ten. the only thing is that paradox blurb near the end. But I super love it.

Thoughts! -  I love this movie. I want to get the bias out of the way before I even get started. SPOILERS OH MY GOD SPOILERS but woah. knowing how this movie ended has literally changed the first minute for me. The way she looks at her daughter is actually super sad in hindsight. She’s looking at her like that because she knows exactly what’s going to happen! Okay so I don’t want to take up all of this section with comments about the ending and how great it is but this is romance related I promise. I love that jeremy renner’s not here right now. I super love that they focus on her and not them. I know that showing him would reveal the twist but he’s not even a shadow in the background here. This focus is on her, her character, her story, and the only real mention of him is the closeup shot on her wedding ring for a minute. But then he’s just gone and isn’t in the picture, so you know there was someone, but that doesn’t matter right now cos the story is hers. And I love that. It shows that this is not a romance, regardless of the fact that there is romance in here, but that the story is her journey and where it takes her. It’s my favourite. Oh my god that took up like all my notes. OH MY GOD LOL FOX NEWS DIG! Ok so I know that more cows thing has a context but I can’t remember what it is and not i’m just confused. Ok so they meet when they’re on a helicopter and he reads her book back to her with a stupid smile on his face. It’s very obvious from second one, at least to me, that they’re going to be a thing, but maybe it’s just me seeing this movie before? And then he immediately contradicts her book, like he’s kind of riling her up to introduce himself? Idk it’s a classic greeting. Half arguing, it’s not really banter, and it’s not exactly hostile but it’s…heated. Looking at each other all scared and impressed across the room before he’s sick. He’s the first person she looks to for validation when she “gets” it. Ooh. Yikes. I have a problem with hearing “a more advanced race”…that’s inherently anthropologically incorrect and coming from forrest whitaker it just seems even more problematic? I don’t know it might just be me. Is it me? Maybe it’s just me? (crazy ex reference) I also love how this movie isn’t america centric. Like yeah it’s focused in america but you hear other countries making their own strides, it’s not just one thing. I know my bias is showing but this movie is so great. It’s his name that they introduce, rather than anyone else’s. OH YES THIS IS MY FAVOURITE SCENE GUYS. He looks at her all cute. He always has but that’s kind of the main thing. Okay this exchange is very platonic, this exchange about their names, and their reactions to them. Before I felt this as something obviously romantic, but that one moment felt platonic. Shit, the rewatch bonus on this movie is good. So i’m trying to interpret here what his narration means. He’s speaking for her, here, but it’s still about her. He’s talking about her accomplishments, playing up her strengths. He’s impressed by her. But I’m not quite sure this is all of it. I feel like there was some deliberate choice in Ian narrating this bit rather than Louise, who’s done literally all the narration before this. Is it because she’s working and therefore can’t provide the narration? is it him being impressed with her? There’s a reason, I know it. I just…don’t know what it is yet. So he’s even narrating the linguistics now. What does this mean? I know it means something and I think it has to do with the eventual romance but I just can’t put my finger on why. Ok here we go. First real conversation. “I was thinking about you”—he’s really impressed by her work and who he is. “that’s probably why I’m single” classic line, bro. “you and I are a good thing, right?” ooh, nice save. jeremy renner’s left handed? huh. Here we go, first mention of “dad”. OH SHIT, TALK TO ANIMALS I GET THAT NOW! So they mention they’re divorced, so thats the first clue of what happened to him. He’s worried about her, cute. I love this. What looked like depression is now confusion and it’s fucking brilliant and this movie is so good. He’s the one who checks in on her. FORESHADOWING FOR THE FUCKING WIN. If they know the radiation levels are fine, why is everyone else still wearing hazmat suits? hes the only one that backs her up, oh wait those other scientists! they’re going to fucking bomb them and they’re cool with letting them die??? wtf? I forgot about that. Ok this is great. You only see the “flashbacks” when she’s working on the language!! He’s the first thing she asks about, though that makes sense here, but then she wants to know where he is and he wouldn’t leave without knowing if she’s ok. We have the first hint of who the father is! I wonder what I thought of this the first time? was it that she had a thing for scientists? or that she was pulling back from ian because of a previous failed marriage to a scientist? or that there was no connection? idk. I don’t remember. Oh and then she always wakes up like it’s a dream. This is so not romancy i’m going on about the foreshadowing but I love this movie, so…Oh shit the first clue that this is not a memory I love it! I should shut up about it but ooooh god. He’s the one that notices she’s gone, oh shit I just realised you saw her see the future! like that just happened! I didn’t even notice that! Oh he’s so happy that she figured it out. OH SHIT WHAM LINE that threw me so far off guard the first time I audibly gasped. He immediately comes to her with a coat and catches her when she falls, panicking and holds her until she’s ok, but he responds to her talking about why her husband left her with “you were married” and it’s both nonchalant and out of place and I don’t know what to make of it, really. He keeps his arm around her, his hand on her back. Now truthfully I actually hated this part the first time around. it felt like a copout. The whole stable time loop. I think i’d like it a lot more if present her didn’t count on future her to solve present problem, since her future self only knows it because her past self used the future self to figure it out and ugh. that’s a major paradox, and I don’t do well with paradoxes. Taking excuses to touch her however he can,..that sounds weird but yeah. Ok this part made me mad too, and it still kind of does, paradox aside. because past self needs shang to show future self his number so past self will know it, but wouldn’t past self remember the phone number since she would also remember past self calling it? she seems confused that she even called him but that’s just flat out in the past, why wouldn’t she remember that? “I called you didn’t I?” yes, he just said that you did…That’s why this part of the movie kind of made me mad. it’s the ONLY thing about it with jumps in logic and yes, it’s nitpicky but that’s just a testament to how good the rest of the movie is. This conversation in the future would have been perfect, actually, if future amy adams didn’t look so confused about it. that’s definitely something she would remember, if she literally caused world peace. Cos it makes sense for the conversation to happen if the stable time loop was where they were going with it,he’d have to say it otherwise there’d be no way to remember it. but even if she didn’t remember exactly what the dying words were, I feel like she at least had to have remembered the phone call. Is it just me??? His “buy me 20seconds” is literally throwing himself in front of a bullet for her, so…touching her shoulder, putting his arm around her, she knows that they’re going to get married but she’s choosing to go through with it. She has that “it was you all along” moment “you know what surprised me most? it wasn’t meeting them, it was meeting you”, nice sweet hug with  flash forwards to their marriage, even though she knows he’s going to leave her. I also love that her whole life is HER choice. That’s really cool. FUCK that movie’s good. Really, if it weren’t for that one maybe 10 minute segment near the end with the paradox this movie would be pretty much perfect, honestly. Holy shit I took so many notes and they’re all about how great this movie is…

Those were my...holy shit LOTS of thoughts on arrival! You can find the video I took these notes for here! ...I kind of like this movie. A little.