#FEED 7 EDUCATION
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It's just really not worth it to me to be authentic with religious people about my lack of belief. I am careful to just not get too close to them because with people close to me I do prefer to be authentic. But I can easily mask as vaguely religious with co-workers, acquaintances, in-laws etc. It's not worth the headache because saying you don't "believe" in something to them that is as real as the air we breathe tends to make them at least mildly hostile to your existence. They instantly see you as the Non Believer NPC that religion conveniently warns them about. They see you as a little unwell, a little evil. Because you might as well be telling them you don't believe in mountains, or rain, or the color orange. To them, there really isn't something to BELIEVE in or not. If you're a good and morally upstanding person, you just have faith. Only in a religious context is having faith (carrying a belief without evidence) considered a good thing. In every other, you're a fool lmao.
#and once they start debating me I WILL have them questioning their entire reality in 30 minutes or less#i am formally educated on the topic from several angles#for fuck's sake in KINDERGARTEN i went up to my dad and was like ummm so was the earth created in 7 days or were the dinosaurs here#like the contradictions were immediately obvious to me#and if you are genuinely seeking the TRUTH it becomes very evident quickly that religion is a sham#but most are not seeking the truth i think they subconsciously recognize it and fear its implications#so they slam their hands over their ears and go nananananna I can't hearrrrrr youuuuuuu!!!!#i'm not saying that there is absolutely no higher level to all this I'm just saying the ones we've fabricated aren't true#science is proving all the time that there is a vast universe sized ocean of shit we don't know#stuff that lies beyond our perception#but this convenient story of letting corruption lead us to salvation so we are willing and pliable thought slaves in this life is a hard no#like it's so obvious if you just care to look????#but most want to stay entrenched in many levels of illusion#there are countless more even once you no longer believe in religion#your ego feeds you a thousand delusions as ridiculous as religion per day#i consider myself spiritual in the sense that I want to peel back the layers of how I falsely perceive reality and myself#I've always been curious that way#and naturally religion was one of the very first illusions that never quite had a grasp on me from a young age#personal
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imma keep it real with you chief: there ain't no such thing as a "low maintenance pet" or a "starter pet". either be willing to fully commit to taking care of your animals or don't own any
#wak#spice tag#kinda I guess???#but I've been trying to raise brine shrimp as of late#and I've learned that even though they don't require the same level care as a dog or a cat#you have to do a lot more than just put the eggs in and put a pinch of prepackaged Growth Food in every 7 days and call it a day#if you wanna keep them alive they need heat. and a source of oxygen. and a light source. and purified/distilled water. and sea salt#and eventually that prepackaged food is going to run out so you need a sustainable means of providing food for them#and you need a Lot of knowledge on how they function and survive outside of a tank#like.. animals like fish and hamsters and such aren't toys that you play with for a while and then shelve when you get bored#they're just that. animals#and thus are a commitment no matter how small or quiet or out-of-the-way they are#and I'll be real nobody below the age of at least 11 should be investing in sea monkey kits#unless there's an educated adult supervising them every step of the way (and even 11 year olds should have supervision tbh)#but the point is#if you want something that you don't have to feed or play with or choose specific enclosures for or be committed to at all#get a teddy bear or something
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ways that you can support Palestine, other than donating. (from a high school student!) remember that anything counts.
1.) TALK ABOUT IT!! silence kills. Reblog as many things as you can, share posts with friends, post on your stories and accounts. if you're in a safe enough environment, talk about it with family. do not stop talking about Palestine and the genocide isreal is committing.
2.) educate yourself—read up on what's going on, why it's happening. learn about what israel and the IDF are doing, listen to the stories Palestinians are telling. They're begging to be heard, and you have the power to listen to them.
3.) visit this masterlist about Palestine by @palipunk there are so many sources and ways to support Palestine right now.
4.) DON'T LET THE TAGS STOP TRENDING!! try to keep them up, keep people listening and paying attention to what is happening, do not let these people die because people aren't receiving posts and feed about Palestine.
5.) stop buying from brands that support israel. instead, try buying from brands that don't, or better yet, try buying from Palestinian businesses.
6.) wear the colors of Palestine's flag. buy pins, put them on your clothes, on your bags, in your car. Put stickers in your notebooks, on your waterbottles, in your planner, in your journal.
7.) CREATE ART ABOUT WHAT IS HAPPENING !! make art pieces of people in Palestine, draw a watermelon, create anything with the colors of Palestine. Write poetry or stories about what is happening—there are going to be so many people whos attention you can capture with the smallest artistic detail, with a single line, a single phrase. Use your creativity to tell people about the atrocities that are happening. Support Palestinian artists, as well.
8.) FOLLOW JOURNALISTS WHO ARE IN GAZA AND PALESTINE. read and listen to their stories.
#palestine#free palestine#gaza#free gaza#from river to sea palestine will be free#genocide in gaza#free palestine 🇵🇸#🇵🇸#i stand with palestine
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🍉 🍉 🍉 Hello amazing Tumblr community, 🌹🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸
🚨 Important and urgent
they have been verified on @/el-shab-hussein's and @/nabulsi's list of vetted fundraisers here (#250, line 254)
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I'm so excited to be here with you on Tumblr and I'm hoping you can help me repost the post I've been working on. This post is not just words, it is part of a fundraising campaign aimed at saving my family from death and supporting them in these difficult times. I hope, as I heard about you, that you will extend a helping hand and help spread this message to everyone and reach the largest possible number of people.
Pictures of martyrs click here
Help me by republishing my campaign and donating so that together we can reunite my family and take them out of Gaza so that my children can complete their education and so that we can live in freedom and peace away from killing, destruction, disease and hunger, and so that we can live together in safety and stability, and so that the hearts of my wife and children can be reassured after she lost her family. Her mother, father, brothers, and their children during the occupation bombing of the Tammos family home at dawn on October 29, 2023. She felt sad or overwhelmed. These pictures show some of her family members who were martyred in the bombing.
Other photos document the heinous crime against the family of my wife, Soha Tammos. Yes, it's time to console her and help her escape with her children to safety.
I, Amjad, and the family are still in dire need of your help, even more so than before. Our campaign is continuing, and I hope that you will be able to support us by sharing it and donating even a little, and I know that your small donation saves a person’s life.
We have been displaced repeatedly, and our displacement journey is still continuing amid an ongoing war of extermination in Gaza. I sustained serious injuries to my foot and I am still suffering from my injury. I cannot walk and need medical care and treatment expenses. My young children also fell ill due to the current living conditions in the tents and the lack of potable water and basic, health and educational necessities.
I deeply hope that you can contribute by sharing our campaign and donating, so that we can achieve our goal together and provide some relief to my family.
Supporting my family to survive the war
I am Majd Al-Shaltawi. I live in Gaza. I sent a distress call to evacuate me and my family from Gaza to escape the war. I am a Palestinian from besieged Gaza. I work as a skilled cook in Al-Shaltawi Kitchen and Restaurant, and currently my children are working to feed the displaced with donations from individuals and groups. This is my account on the Meta platform to follow updates
This is my accountx. To get new updates.
We lived through painful events during the October 7 War, and my children suffered panic attacks from the sounds of bombing and the killing of many family, friends, neighbors, and lineages.
Al Shaltawi Restaurant Page
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On the morning of Friday 10/13/2023, we woke up to a call from the Israeli occupation army to evacuate the residents of the Sheikh Radwan neighborhood in Gaza City, which we live in, in preparation for its bombing, and to head to the south of the Gaza Strip, which is considered a safe area. A safe haven, as the occupation claims
As a father, my duty is to protect my children. I had to leave my home, my job, and everything I own to save my children’s lives from this fierce war.
Then my wonderful restaurant was destroyed, as you can see in the pictures.
Restaurant photo click here
I lost my home, my job, and my source of livelihood, and I am the head of a family of 11 members
I lost a lot of weight due to war, hunger, and food shortages, and thinking about the future of my children and protecting them from genocidal war. I developed chronic high blood pressure, for which there is often no cure.
I am writing to you because I do not want to see death approaching my family
The cost of coordinating the exit from Gaza with travel costs per person is 7,000 euros. We also need housing. We need to evacuate my family of 11 people for approximately €97,000 to rebuild our lives and start again in peace and security.
My daughter Fidaa is studying a master’s degree in educational technology at Al-Aqsa University. The Israeli occupation destroyed the university buildings and ended her educational life. My daughter’s dream was to complete her higher education to obtain a master’s degree.
My eldest son, Ahmed, is studying a Bachelor of Business Administration at Al-Quds Open University and aspires to complete his university education. Al-Quds University was completely destroyed, and his dreams, ambitions and dreams were killed.
My daughter Farah is studying communications engineering at Al-Azhar University, and the occupation prevented her from graduating to become an engineer. The enemy stole her dreams and joy, as her wedding was scheduled to take place last November, and the occupation burned her entire house. Her dream now is to leave Gaza, go to her groom, Abd
My son, Hamdi, did not complete his “tawjihi” secondary education, and the occupation destroyed his school and his dreams of success.
And my two young daughters, Malak and Tala, the occupation demolished their school and their hopes for a happy and stable life. Like the children of the world, they were not unhappy with their childhood. They are now terrified and suffering from psychological problems due to repeated bombings by warplanes and seeing corpses and body parts in the streets during the process of displacement from one place to another.
And my two young daughters, Malak and Tala, the occupation demolished their school and their hopes for a happy and stable life. Like the children of the world, they were not unhappy with their childhood. They are now terrified and suffering from psychological problems due to repeated bombings by warplanes and seeing corpses and body parts in the streets during the process of displacement from one place to another.
The Israeli occupation has destroyed educational life in Gaza.
Thank you for learning about my story, thank you for your support and help, and thank you for your prayers for the people of Gaza to survive this war. I hope you will share the donation link with those around you and donate even a little to the evacuation of my family, Amjad, from Gaza.
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Donation Matching for Ahmed
I have been in touch with Ahmed and he and his family are in desperate need of our support! His fundraiser has been slow to bring in donations and he is struggling to feed his family (€5/$7 per family member) and pay to continue his online schooling (€400/$420). His total goal is €5000.
To help boost his fundraiser I will be matching ALL donations to his campaign over the next 3 days, starting today December 10th until midnight December 12th EST.
Even a €5 donation will bring much needed hope to Ahmed and his family, and anything you give will go twice as far!
If you aren’t able to donate, please share this post so as many people as possible can see it! 🙏
illustration credit: @rain_upon_glass on Instagram
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YOUR DAILY ROUTINE 5 YEARS FROM NOW
This is a general reading based on a collective of people. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t. If you don’t feel like the pile resonates with you, don’t be scared to pick another, if it still doesn’t feel right, that’s ok! Maybe our energies aren’t as connected and my readings are not for you.
I do these strictly for fun and educational purposes. I do not charge for these readings, and I do not fake readings. I would tell you the cards I get for the readings, but I pull like 15-20 cards each reading and that is just slightly a strenuous task to write them all down lmao.
PICK A CARD READING
I asked my spirit guides what your daily routine looks like in 5 years time, pick a card to find out what they had to say!
Pile 1 ———> Pile 2 ———> Pile 3
DISCLAIMER: the timelines I give are not the period as a whole, they are just an estimate of the time when these events could happen.
PILE 1
7:00-7:30am: Wake up, I got the lyric “7am the usual morning line up” from “When will my life begin?” Rapunzel, so you guys are waking up early. The first thing you do is either feed your pets or children, I’m getting heavy dogs for those of you who don’t have kids by this time, but I am seeing a lot of children vibes.
8:00-900am: Showering and getting ready, if you have kids, your partner will be up and looking after them for you, or this will be the time you take them to school. I feel like you’ll be listening to podcasts or ted talks every morning to get you ready for the day.
9:30-10:00am: Checking emails? You might be working from home and checking your emails or messages from clients or employers. I see you sat at your desk with a warm cup of something, going through things on your computer, your partner walks in and lets you know that they’re leaving for work now.
10:30-11:30am: Work work work, you guys will find yourself dealing with a lot of work during this time, however I do think that you make money by the hour, some of you could have a job that ensures you get paid separately by each client (like Tarot or something)
12:00-1:00pm: Making lunch for your partner, you guys will either go out to buy it and then drop it by their work, or you will make it yourself so that it feels special. Some of you could be seen as the “trophy spouse” when it comes to your partners work, they all think you’re a doll and are probably jealous of the food that you bring for your partner.
1:30-2:00pm: You can do whatever you want, this is your break time to go shopping or chill on the couch and watch your favourite show, I see that this changes often so you may like to do different things during this break, it’s not something that is set in stone forever.
2:00-3:00pm: Back to work, I feel this is when you do your best and most progressive work, some of you may be balancing another online job like authoring or possibly being a ghost writer for someone else. This is the time when you would absolutely hate to be distracted or interrupted.
3:00:3:30pm: Your final time to rest up before having to pick up the kids or take your dogs on a walk. During this time you might make yourself a snack, tidy the house (although I feel like you guys have a cleaner)
3:30-4:00pm: Little bit of a messy thirty minutes, you’re rushing around, which is why I think kids could be involved here, the school pick up is never easy lmao. For those of you who don’t have kids, this may just be you being dragged around the street by your dogs (I think they are large)
4:30-5:00pm: Your partner is home! You are also probably dealing with your children fighting during this time LMAOO, one of them wants the TV remote and the other is pissed. This could also be your time to catch up with your partner and tell each other about your day.
5:00-6:00pm: Dinner time, I do think you’ll be the one making dinner, but you definitely want to, sometimes your partner helps you out, but since you did the school run both ways, they’re looking after the kids for you now. You spend a while on cooking, you may even get it prepared around lunch time, throwing some meat in the slow cooker for later.
6:00-7:00pm: wind down time with family, chilling on the couch with the pets, watching as the kids play on the trampoline outside, relaxing in the arms of your significant other. Very calm energy for this.
7:30pm-9:30pm: The battle of the demons, time to put the kids to bed! The kids don’t like going to bed. “But I went to sleep yesterday!” You’ll have a field trip with these.
10:00pm-12:00am: You wanna get spicy with your partner? You can, here’s your opportunity. I do see you guys trying to make another kid around this time if you already have them, or perhaps this is your first. Relaxing in bed with your significant other, I’m seeing someone counting 100 dollar bills, so take that as you will, you may even take a shower together to end the night, or possibly getting wet in other ways is your way to close the day.
PILE 2
5:00-6:00am: Wake up. You guys may have to commute to work, and need to wake up early, for some of you, your work could be over seas, like if you lived in Paris but commuted to London for work everyday using the tunnel, or if you lived on the Isle Of White in the UK and needed to travel on a ferry to get to your job, either way, you’re waking up before the sun rises.
7:00-9:00am: Work, you’re at work for the majority of the day now, your job itself seems something that you’re used to and like doing, a lot of you may have to coordinate meetings, so you could be a higher up. There does seem to be a tad of stress here and there, for a few this may be caused by need of public speaking, for others there could be workplace drama.
10:00am-4:00pm: The people around you look up to you a lot, you may own a company or share management of it, there is a possibility of you working in something which involves fighting, a few of you may be in the army, and this could be the cause for the early wake up and start to the day. Either way, whatever you’re doing, you are the head of it, people have to work with you in order to climb the ranks and better improve their chance of success. You could honestly be in control of pay upgrades and promotions for your business or workplace. I see you making a lot of money by having a lot of control.
5:00-6:00pm: Home time, I see you making dinner or possibly even ordering out, although I do think that you have a healthy diet and lifestyle. A few of you could have your own cook, or utilise certain artificial intelligence that makes food??? (I don’t know bro, my guides seem to think that could be a thing of the future, you could have an online recipe book that you follow)
7:30-10:00pm: Resting up or doing whatever you want. I can’t get a strong read on this as I think it changes each day, you could sometimes go on a run, other time you’re baking cookies on call with your mother. I do think you have a strict schedule you follow when it becomes time to go to bed, you sleep like a log lmao. Some of you may be looking for a relationship at this time, and this could be the entry period for going on dates, perhaps you go on multiple dates a night lol, you seem to be the life of the party either way. A lot of you don’t drink, I see someone at a bar holding a juice box so take that as you will.
Sorry it was so short pile 2! Your day is much more put together and scheduled.
PILE 3
4:00-9:00am: If you have a young baby at this time, you may immediately go to nursing them as soon as you wake up, it honestly could even be that you’ve woken up early morning, your partner comes over to your side of the bed holding the baby, hands it to you. I do see a lot of stress around this time, so honestly I think the majority, if not all of you will have kids in five years time.
7:00-9:00am: I see you spending this time laying in your bed with your partner, possibly the kids have joined you now and you’re all just relaxing watching some TV for the few hours that you have until the morning begins and you need to get up and ready. For the few of you who may not be in a relationship or have kids, this could be a pet perhaps that you are spending the early morning with.
8:00-10:00am: You’re getting out of bed around this time and heading to the kitchen to get some breakfast started, you may have time to take a quick shower around this time, your partner will be looking after the kids, getting them all ready for the day so they can come and eat breakfast in time when it’s made.
8:30-9:00am: Some big change happens around this time, it may be that the kids are taken to school, or you perhaps take them to school. I’m seeing that this is the moment you begin your work for the day, I’m not too sure if you leave the house for it, I think so, as it does seem that there’s a change of scenery.
10:00am-12:00pm: This time is spent getting everything together for your job, I am seeing someone grabbing some coffee, if you work a corporate job, you’ll be getting yourself and some other people some coffee, collecting papers to make sure all your paperwork is complete. Some of you could be a therapist, psychologist or something to do with examining people, this is when you grab all your stuff to prepare for your clients, possible meetings etc.
12:00-1:00pm: A lot of teamwork around this time, this will be your first meeting of the day, first client, first job that you are supposed to complete. I see a need to write down a lot of stuff, you may even have a meeting presentation during this hour. Your lunch time may appear late, you perhaps have a job that runs over the normal lunch hour, so you go on your break in the next 1-2 hours.
2:00-3:00pm: Lunch time, I feel like you will leave your work building to go and buy lunch elsewhere, or perhaps your partner will bring you lunch themself, you might even order it into your section. You could be getting paid this time everyday, or you may count up your money for the day at this point.
3:30-4:00pm: You get to decide what you do here, I think sometimes you get the opportunity to go home at this time, other days you have to stay a little later, I think it depends on your schedule and the day of the week.
5:00-6:00pm: You get home during this period, I see there possibly being some time for you to relax and so what you want, before your partner and kids come home, some of you may have family around at this time each day? Or perhaps you live with extended family members and they will be making dinner for you, or getting some things done.
7:00pm-12:00am: A lot of you honestly could have family helping around the house, or perhaps you even have personal butlers, I don’t see you having to do much when it comes to making dinner, getting the kids to bed or anything, I see that you’ll be working hard on some paperwork that needs finishing, or getting your schedule ready for tomorrow, you’ll mainly be focusing on your work during this period too, I feel like you like to be prepared. You may get intimate with your partner during this time, I don’t see it lasting for too long as I think they go to bed earlier than you.
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emily’s song
emily prentiss x reader
prompt: emily has been away on a case and she comes back to her girlfriend in her apartment cleaning early saturday morning to old 90s RnB love songs. and she’s educated and serenaded on the kind of love of her childhood.
a/n: can i interest anyone in a self-indulgent fluff drabble from my notes app? linked all the songs. and a surprise at the end. not edited at all and way longer than i intended.
emily sighed as her to her apartment door came into her vision. she and the team had been off in the texas heat chasing down another serial killer. two week away from home was already taxing enough but it was the first time she’d been gone this long as a girlfriend. emily had been seeing y/n for about six months now and she’d finally worked up the courage to make it official four weeks ago.
y/n was a childhood friend of derek’s who had moved up to DC earlier in the year. derek invited her out to drinks one night to help her get acquainted with the Virginia social scene and it didn’t take long for her to catch emily’s eye. she’d wowed the team with stories of her life in the south, had eased into a casual girls night invite the next time all of their schedules were cleared, and even got a laugh out of hotch. she unknowingly demanded the attention and interest of every room she entered. emily had been sucked in during their first meeting like everyone else, but that paid off in a way no one really saw coming.
y/n had excused herself to get another drink from the bar and as soon as she reached the bar a man twice her size sidled up next to her. derek was focused on a girl and everyone had dissolved into their own conversations in her absence but luckily emily had been keeping her eye on her for the entire night. emily did the whole knight and shining armor bit, rescuing her from unwanted attention and that had really been the start of everything. it started very casual, almost just friendly for the first couple of months. texting during the day, a quick lunch on a weekend, very casual. until emily got hurt on a case and derek let it slip to y/n. after that very minor injury (in comparison to everything emily had experienced in the past) the younger woman made it a point to check in with her everyday. emily had essentially become her best friend in DC— next to derek. and the fact that she found emily extremely attractive did nothing but fuel her actions. and just like that y/n wormed her way into emily’s most used contact and most seen friend. their schedules hardly aligned but when they did, they made it a point to get together. and now almost 7 months later, they were officially dating.
the team had initially hoped to wrap this case up in three days tops but when the killer extended his cooling off period they were forced to extend their time in texas. when she realized she wouldn’t be back she asked y/n to stop in to feed sergio while she was away. they’d both exchanged keys two weeks earlier under the guise of y/n needing emily to water her plants and with the access it just made sense.
it was nearing 10am when emily finally made it to her door and pushed the key in the lock. expecting to meet a dark and silent apartment she was very shocked to hear music flowing through the walls and lights on everywhere. the song playing was unfamiliar to her but she what was familiar was the voice singing along to the song. she quickly disarmed her alarm and slipped out of her shoes. she definitely hadn’t expected her girlfriend but she wasn’t mad about it at all.
“babe?” emily called into the apartment as she shrugged her go-bag off her shoulder as well.
“bathroom!” y/n called, before going back to singing along. emily followed the sound of her voice and grabbed sergio on the way and leaned against the doorframe of her ensuite.
“what are you doing?” emily asked as her eyes swept the room to find y/n on her hands and knees in the bathtub. y/n staying the night was already a surprise, but she really hadn’t been expecting her to be cleaning her apartment.
“it’s saturday baby.” y/n answered matter of factly.
“well yes, that’s true. but why are you scrubbing my bathtub right now?” emily asked in confusion. “is this your way of subtly telling me im a slob?”
y/n chuckled softly and leaned back to meet emily’s eyes, “no. this is just how i start my weekend. and i figured you wouldn’t mind coming home to a clean apartment.”
“huh, you do this every saturday?” emily asked curiously as she moved to perch on the bathroom counter.
“yep, been doing it since i was a child. every saturday my mom would wake us up, turn on her favorite songs and put us to work. we’d get to start the week in a clean house and it was a sort of symbolic cleansing of the week. i guess it kinda stuck with me.”
“so it’s a learned behavior.” emily hummed as she scratched behind sergio’s head.
“okay miss profiler. it’s my routine. i didn’t mean to fall asleep here last night but since i did i figured i’d do a lil cleaning before you got back.” y/n said climbing out of the bathtub to stand between emily’s legs.
emily smiled and released sergio to settle her hands on y/n’s waist, “well how much have you done?”
y/n smiled and pulled the rubber gloves from her hands, “i spent most of the morning in your bedroom, specifically your shoe closet.” she teased as emily rolled her eyes. “since i’m done in here i’ve just gotta finish in the kitchen.”
“how long have you been awake? do you wake up this early every saturday?” emily asked incredulously.
“not always, it’s just how i was raised baby. come on, i’ll make you something to eat while i finish up.” y/n smiled and patted emily’s hip.
“she cooks and she cleans?” emily teases following the younger woman into the kitchen.
“housewife training.” y/n winked, focusing on piecing together something for them both to eat.
as emily watched y/n work, she took the time to listen to the music that had been playing through the apartment. the songs had to be old. they didn’t sound like anything she’d heard on the radio within the last ten years.
“have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? have you ever needed something so bad you can’t sleep at night?” y/n sang softly as she scrambled eggs. her hips swayed softly to the beat. emily watched and listened closely. over the past couple of months emily had grown to love y/n’s singing voice but she’s never heard her sing songs like this.
she plated the food and brought the plates over to the island where emily sat watching. y/n paused her singing to plant a soft kiss on emily’s lips then slid onto the island stool next to her to dive into the food. the song came to an end and faded into another, instrumentally specific and again about love.
“what are you listening to?” emily asked after spending most of their impromptu breakfast staring at y/n’s mouth watching her sing along to love song after love song.
“this song is addicted by sisqo.” y/n answered easily as she washed dishes.
“sisqo? as in thong song sisqo?” emily asked.
“yep! same album, just not on this playlist.”
“and what exactly is this playlist? i haven’t known a single song since i walked through the door.”
“not a single one? now that’s just wrong.”
“i can tell they’re older love songs? RnB? 90s?” emily deduced.
“are you using profiling to figure out what we're listening to? you’re almost as bad as the people who shazam songs in the car instead of just asking.” y/n laughed. “if you must know, this is my emily playlist.”
“i have a playlist?” emily asked cheeks tinting with a blush.
“you do. a playlist full of songs you’ve apparently never heard before.”
“well how do you decide what songs go on this playlist?”
“well if i hear a song and picture you— it gets added. something about the lyrics ‘just take my love baby, because you are so dear to me.’ just scream emily prentiss.”
“you have a playlist of love songs about me?”
“i’ll try not to be offended that you don’t have one for me.” y/n teased but moved to bring her phone over to the profiler. “take a look.”
emily rolled her eyes at the tease but picked up the phone trying to distract from the blush taking over her cheeks. she scrolled studiously. it really was a playlist with her name on it. brandy, monica, aaliyah, mariah carey, jodeci, and more. emily smiled softly at just the titles of the songs and turned her warm eyes on the younger woman wiping the counters down.
“you wake up every saturday and clean while you listen to songs that remind you of me…” emily allowed a smirk to color her words in an attempt to hide just how bashful she was actually feeling. she’d never really experienced this kind of outright proclamation of love.
y/n clocked emily’s blush and deflection almost immediately and made her way over to the older woman with a soft smile. she swiped her phone and put on one of the songs.
“someone’s playing cocky to deflect but i’ll let it slide if you dance with me.” y/n extended her hand to emily and pulled her to her feet easily. the pair slotted together in a familiar dance. y/n’s arms wound around emily’s neck pulling her close and brought her lips to her ear. the song forever my lady swelled through the apartment and the lyrics caught emily’s attention.
“so you’re having my baby, that reminds you of me? you trying to tell me something?” emily snickered squeezing the younger woman’s waist.
“not that part particularly but you never know if that’ll change. just listen to the other words.” y/n prompted placing a kiss to the skin beneath her ear. “forever my lady. it’s like a dream. i’m holding you close , you’re keeping me warm. if this is ecstasy.” y/n sang quietly to emily as they swayed. as the song continued, emily’s heart swelled. she’d really lucked out in the romance department with this one.
“you know you’re quite romantic.” emily whispered as the song came to an end and faded into another.
“only for you baby, only for you.” y/n smiled and pulled back to press a sweet kiss to emily’s lips.
emily made a mental note to start her own playlist.
here’s an edit that basically inspired this whole thing :)
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see more and more “entire life told/thought i high function but actually am just very high support need” (autism context) and get more and more annoy at that
everytime see everytime click into page and everytime realize by “very high support” (yes see multiple include the “very”) they mean comorbid anxiety depression cptsd trouble make friends because people think “weird” bullied lose speech need remind shower need remind things (but able do and if no remind after a while will do) trouble school trouble job etc am forget.
and all that hard struggle yes no deny. deserve all the help and am not say it easy.
but it not “very high support need.” not even “high support need.” have higher need than what nondisabled neurotypical society expect you to is not “high support need.” yes, know many people do this because want validate self and past and trauma. but. not need be high support to be valid or to receive support. not need be high support for past trauma & past neglect & past not get support to be valid.
and. it water down definition of “high support need.” kick actual high support need out. us who extra vulnerable because need physical help most or all bADLs. need constant 24/7 supervision to be alive to not accidental harm self or die. need medical services for stuff people (include these people) take for granted, like just be able communicate, walk (yes many high support need autistic people struggle with that even without specific physical disability dx), feeding, etc. no awareness of self or other people or surroundings or danger. need 24/7 behavioral support. experience explosive emotions that even terrify self self no understand and cannot control behavior so destructive. many very high support, if not get support they literally die. not exaggerate. that how high of support they need.
(and even debate about whether should write this list. because. unless you high support yourself or experience these same amount yourself or close to someone who is or give care for them, very high chance you not get degree of symptom am talk about. plenty autistic struggle emotional regulation, for example. some struggle with severe intense lose control explosive behavior, include some level 1s. but unless you experience it self or read lot lot lot lot about & by people who do, found that average person include average autism community person not know what am mean by explosive emotion.)
it not “gatekeeping” or “call fake.” it me get frustrate at people misuse medical term that used describe extremely vulnerable population, who rely on other people to keep basic alive, many us have trouble or have limited language communication or have none at all, we need keep medical term describe us because many us cannot explain cannot list you our support need, either because long or private or make us feel awful or literal no communication/intellectual ability.
by validate self you harming us. “well it just one person identify themself not affect you [eye roll].” no, not just one person. but even if just one person, people around them see, and think, oh, that high support need, that very high support need, am educated. and that spread. and actual high support need people like am describe are ignored people don’t think they exist.
please. talk about own experience. no matter “there people more struggle than me.” am not say cannot. am not say “look at these actual struggles yours mild shut up.” it autism spectrum, there spectrum of experience. there more than “no support need” vs “high support need.” there things in middle. even low support need—that just mean low compare to other autistics. not “your support need your trauma not important.”
but please. remember us. leave our terms alone.
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A guide to the creation of a doll
(that’s the name of the story this is not one of my guides)
Introduction
Creating a consciousness from scratch is a complicated procedure, in humans this process takes decades and is arguably never complete. Although we have learnt to reverse engineer this process we still have very little understanding of how it actually works. But we do know this; consciousness has to be built from the ground up.This guide will briefly outline the steps necessary to take a budding mind and walk with it through its journey to full consciousness. This is a process that takes years, each "chapter" in your dolls life will require a new body made for the purpose and will take at least a month as the mind grows to fill its form. This undertaking should be seen as no less serious than having a child. This guide talks about seven chapters which is the minimum required to build a mind capable of independent thought and tasks.
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Overview
This guide will go into finer detail later on but this is a brief explanation of each step.
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Chapter 1
This chapters is about the doll learning the basics of controlling its body and becoming aware of you; its creator. A proper body for this chapter is that of an infant human. This body should have a battery life of only a few hours and should feed directly from your own magics, thus creating dependency. The minimum requirements to move to the next chapter is that the doll cam grasp things on purpose and indicate when its battery is low.
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Chapter 2
Your dolls new body should have enough muscle mass to crawl and eventually stand up but shouldn’t yet have the capacity to walk. Your doll should be improving its spacial reasoning and language skills. It should still require you to help it recharge its battery.
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Chapter 3
Your doll should begin walking, and talking in one word phrases, moving into short sentences. Your doll should be able to begin charging itself as well as doing basic maintenance on itself. Now is a great time to introduce it to what will become its primary function, it need not be able to perform that function but ideas about usefulness and obedience are important.
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Chapter 4
This chapter is about book learning, if you would like your doll to be smart, educated, and well spoken this is the time to start. It should also continue to develop its find motor skills and if you would like, independence.
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Chapter 5
If your doll is going to be sexually mature this is the stage in which it should be given a body with those functions, not for use yet just the outward aesthetics so it can begin to get used to the idea. It would also benefit greatly from introduction to other fully functioning dolls so ideas of obedience and helpfulness can be cemented.
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Chapter 6
This is the second from last chapter and at this point your doll should be almost fully formed in mind and body. This chapter is for fine tuning.
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Chapter 7
The capstone, this final update seals the doll to its body and grants it true sentience. After this point changes to its body and mind will be incredibly difficult so be sure you’re ready. The hour or so after this final update is absolutely crucial, whatever your doll experiences in this time will define it for the rest of its existence.
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You close the book with an audible *thunk* far too much nervous energy is coursing through you to focus. Not that you need to, you have a dozen books on the topic and know almost all of them by heart.
"MOMMOMMOM!" your doll bounds into the room.
"DAUGHTERDAUGHTERDAUGTER!" you call back only slightly mockingly, smiling at it. As you look into its emerald green eyes with its glittering golden flecks you think 'damn i did a good job making those, glass blowing is such a bitch of a craft to learn too'. With a start you realize your doll has been talking and you zone back into the conversation.
"And the biggest frog likes to sit on the big rock and headbutts frogs who are trying to sit there when it goes for a swim but it wont headbutt the lil baby frogs it just walks right over the top of them and the lil baby frogs don’t seem to mind and that much and," it continues on as you falter under this barrage of information on the social lives of the frogs living in your pond. Its such an inquisitive little thing, it knows almost as much as yoh about dollcraft having devoured every book you own in it’s thirst for knowledge. Although, not so little any more. Its in its twelfth body now with only the capstone left to go. You think back over the last ten years fondly, four spent crafting the bodies, six guiding your doll through the chapters of its existence and teaching it important lessons in morality and consent. All leading to tomorrow; the final transferal, the capstone and that all important hour.
"Mom?" Shit, that was a question, you mentally rewind the conversation looking for context...
"Yes my dearest, i promise your froggy friends will recognize you in your next body, just like they recognized you when you swapped to this body and the body before that. Your new body is laying on the bed, you know its only slightly different."
"Yeah mom i know. I’m just worried about the transfer.... Mom, why don’t i have a purpose?"
"As I’ve said every time; your purpose is to be my daughter."
"Because your real kids grew up and had their own kids."
"Yes my dearest, as you well know."
"I love you mom."
"I love you too, can you please make me dinner?"
"Yes mom."
An hour or so later you’re eating the dinner it prepared for you listening to it talk once again about the social lives of various animals in the pond. You’re only halfway paying attention, your mind wandering between preparations for tomorrow and reminiscing on the past. As you watch it chatter you think fondly of its fifth body which didn’t quite reach your waist and was made of much sturdier material than this one. Even back then it was a boisterous excitable little thing, although the voice was much squeakier. You think of the differences between the guided advice and what you've done. You think of the years spent teaching it ethics and morality. Of making sure it had both a guiding hand and the freedom to explore and expand on its own. You stifle a giggle thinking of its budding sexuality, it thinks you don’t know and you’ve been very careful to not interfere with this normal and vital development, but you can read the signs.
"And that’s why i think Mr. Turtle should have a friend!"
"A well argued position dearest, ill see if i can find a Mrs. Turtle for him, then there'll be lots of turtles."
"Muuuuuooooom gross!"
"Ohhh hush" you smile fondly at it "come lets pack this away and watch a movie whilst you recharge."
A little later you’re both on the lounge watching one of your dolls favourites. Your thumbnail is clutched gently between her porcelain teeth, her silk lips resting gently on your thumb. This was one thing you never changed, it still draws its power directly from your lifeforce. You think of its first body, so tiny and wriggly, made of cotton as to be soft and cuddly for you, not much more than a plush toy. You think of its next body, a hundred different materials woven together with circuitry and spellcraft running its many complex functions. The movie has a singular kissing scene and you feel it tense as the protagonists smooch.
"Does this still make you uncomfortable dearest?"
"Its weird watching this with my mom," it squirms a little in emotional discomfort.
You just giggle.
Soon the credits roll.
"Its time for bed dearest, tomorrow you’ll wake in your final body!"
It doesn’t reply.
"I know you’re nervous but everything will be fine i promise."
"Yes mom, I love you."
"I love you too, now into bed lets start the process."
It lays down and you kiss its forehead tenderly before initiating the transfer out of this body. Motes of light drift lazily from its head through the air into a nearby vessel. You hold its hand as its mind leaves its body, and when its body goes limp you place its arms gently by its side and begin your final preparations.
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I remember laying down that night and feeling myself leave the body, just as every time before my senses shut down one by one. First sight, the world loosing colour and going dark. Then taste and quickly after, smell. Then hearing, complete silence for the first time in months. And finally touch, the feeling of my moms hand holding mine is the last thing i remember.
Then I wake up, senses coming online in reverse.
First touch, wait why am I being touched, why am I being touched like this, this hurts, I don’t want this-
Then hearing, I can hear heavy breathing and grunting, ohhh this hurts so bad, where is my mom why isn’t she saving me, is she okay is she hurt whats going on, this hurts-
Then smell, it smells like,,, it smells like mom when shes been working in the garden. This feels bad, this feels wrong, why is this happening to my body, why-
Then taste, its moms fingers,,, mom-
And finally sight, and I see what I’ve been dreading, what I knew but didn’t want to know. I see my mom raping me.A moment later I gain control of my voice and muscles and I start trying to fight her off.
"Mom please why are you doing this to me?" My voice is breaking and I sound pathetic even to my own ears. "Mom stop I don’t want this."
"LIMP," She says, and The word has power, my body betrays me and I stop fighting.
"SILENT," and I can no longer speak.
"PLEASURE," and I orgasm whilst being aplit apart by my mums cock
And in that moment I realize, this was always going to be my purpose. She wanted a doll who knew the ethics of sex and sexuality so it would know why consent is important. She wanted a doll who loved her so deeply and thought she loved it so the betrayal would be real. She made no mistakes in my creation, she wanted this to hurt, she made my cunt too small to fit her. She spent a decade crafting the perfect toy to rape and that toy is me. And I realize this is my all important capstone hour 'whatever your doll experiences in this time will define it for the rest of its existence' as the guide says. And all I can do is cry and take it as the realities of my existence sink in.
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scammer aventurine running into friendless darling and ends up nonconning them into oblivion 😭😭 *gets bonked* urghgh im so sorry it's been stuck in my head for a few days
"ah…aw…" You tugged at the sheets with both hands, curling up your waist as you had a violent orgasm, and your saliva seeped uncontrollably into the fabric and even the mattress. How long has it been…? Your mind went blank already… The blond man you met online coaxed you into your room in a luxury hotel, and without much explanation, he started plowing your wet sweet spot and walls. You were so stimulated by the pleasure that you shed a lot of tears, and you felt aggrieved and confused. Aventurine is not available 24/7 to take care of you. While he's busy observing the market of the universe, you're left blindfolded and strapped to the bed, stuffed with vibrators, and waiting for him. When your mouth is dry, Aventurine kisses you, feeds you some water, feeds you and cooes at you.
Oh, this is all the result of you agreeing to meet him at the hotel even though you knew it was a trap. Aventurine was already annoyed that you were willing to give him credits. Once he assumes that you would still be okay if someone else cheated on you, he feels the need to give you some education…
Don’t worry, this will end. He will take you on a spaceship and take you away from any lonely and sad place.
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Habits & Behaviors We’re Leaving in 2024
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book 7 part 5 thoughts!!
***THIS POST CONTAINS MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR BOOK 7 PART 5 OF THE MAIN STORY!!***
If you’d like to watch a rough part-by-part summarized translation, please check out this archived stream!
Please note: this is NOT meant to be a summary or a translation; these are only my initial thoughts on the events that unfold. There may be details overlooked or misunderstood in this post, so PLEASE do not use this as a translation.
Starting off strong with some lore on magic! Teleportation magic involves breaking oneself down and reconstructing elsewhere. If the distance from point A to point B is too large and/or the caster is in poor health, the magic may fail or be difficult to perform.
Hmmm... Lilia is reacting very emotionally to the situation, but it is Baul that is (mostly) rational and reminding Lilia to keep calm. I'd anticipate it being the other way around, so that's quite interesting.
HUH... Even Sebek is staying calmer here than Lilia is; Sebek recalls training with Lilia and how they were taught that they have to stay calm to think and plan effectively in tough situations. Ironic that the old Lilia was the type to go against the advice he would later give and instill in his pupils. Again, it goes to show how much he has changed since then.
AH, BAUL'S BEING A TSUNDERE AGAIN 🤡 He's telling the kids to stay behind because the situation has changed... "Don't foolishly discard the life Lilia-sama protected", "humans shouldn't be fighting alongside fae anyway", etc. (And, of course, Silver's the one to step up and tell him fae or human, it doesn't matter and he still owes Lilia his life all the time.) NOW'S NOT THE TIME TO TALK, GUYS... MALLEMOM'S GONNA BE GAME ENDED
Weird sounds downstairs? SILBEK KICK DOWN THE DOOR and we find some chefs in hiding. adhbasvfvuvfqeilfe;o THEY MISTAKE SILVER FOR THE DAWN KNIGHT... More sussy behavior implying the Dawn Knight must be his ancestor.
They ask for brooms to transport the injured faster. Silver's negotiation skills come in clutch again, he convinces the chefs to direct them to the brooms even though it would be helping the fae, the humans' enemies.
Not Sebek's stomach growling now of all times... NOT SEBEK DENYING IT SO MUCH (it's okay, they get pity and some food from the chefs!)
Found a room full of birds; they seem to be for transporting messages. Silver feeds them some of the bread they got from the chefs. Wow, Sebek's actually being sneaky/clever (?). He tells Silver he's loved by animals, so time to use that now so they can use the birds.
AKHBBGSKUVYEQFBI NOT GRIM WANTING TO EAT THE BIRDS
Bleh, we have another time-gated, character-limited map segment. Silver and Sebek take up 2 of the 5 slots. Again, the cards' health does not regenerate unless you land on a special square. Luckily for us, there is only a single path forward rather than a larger, sprawling map.
NO KIDDING, THE BIRDS HELP THEM FIGHT THE SILVER OWLS... Literally they're swooping in and tugging on the knights' cape and stuff... the squirrels nibbled away at their catapults' rope too... chucking rocks at them... THE BIRDS POOPED ON THEIR ARMOR TOO???????? Imagine training your whole life to put your life on the line for your home country, only to be literally shat on and defeated by woodland creatures...
Lilia: I hate children. Also Lilia: *rushes into battle to protect the children and gives them head pats for a job well done and asks them to be safe*
Silver continues to be a Disney princess!! They find some horses tied up and he's like "let's free them". Sebek drops some club lore; Silver is one of the better students in Equestrian Club when it comes to soothing the horses. True Horse Girl at heart, huh??
Silver and Sebek are surprised that what they learned in school is actually helping the in a "real world" sense. Man, I wish that was true of irl high school education too...
The Silver Owls recruited mercenaries from other countries to help them seize Briar Country's resources??? The others pitch in because they live in fear of a dragon attacking them.
They're going to teleport into the castle, but they can't teleport out since they can't guarantee the safety of Tamago-sama... They're going to use the underground waterways to escape!
There's a mountain range that protects another castle of the royal family, Black Scale Castle. Malleus's mom is currently in an unprotected castle, Wild Rose.
Wow, what a peaceful vista straight out of Sleeping Beauty. I sure hope it doesn't become tainted by blood being spilt and bodies dropping or anything craaazy like that/j
DAWN KNIGHT INCOMING???? Silver's ring starts??? Going off??? When he sees the Dawn Knight...
Heinrich reveal too! He seems like just as much of a scumbag as all the rumors say he is (he wants a dragon to ride, tells the Dawn Knight he's only good for his swordsmenship, etc). BRO JUST STRAIGHT UP SAYS HE WANTS TO TAKE MALLEMOM'S EGG AND RAISE IT TO BE HIS STEED... 💀 WTF THAT'S SO DARK
This asshole reminds me of Jack Horner from Puss in Boots 2: The Last Wish, who is another irredeemably evil man with a small face and a generally grotesque design.
Heinrich is after the castle and some very powerful magestone called "Princess's Glow"? Not sure, did not hear the second word well.
He's giving them 30 minutes to send the princess out for a one-on-one duel with the Dawn Knight. If she wins, they'll retreat (I DON'T BELIEVE THAT FOR ONE SECOND).
NOT THE CASUAL FAE RACISM... Heinrich calls Mallemom a "witch". If you'll remember!! In book 6, Lilia says that mages were once called witches, but implied that those terms are now outdated and considered derogatory.
The Dawn Knight is like Silver! He tries to tell Heinrich this isn't right, but Heinrich tells him that since his father took the Dawn Knight in as an orphan, the Dawn knight "owes" them. It's a twisted parallel to Silver and Lilia's relationship (because Silver says he feels like he "owes" Lilia and has to repay him).
Okay, so to review the family tree??? The king of the human faction is sick and they want the Princess's Glow to heal him. The king is the dad of Heinrich and Leah; the king would also later take in the Dawn Knight. Leah and the Dawn Knight are in love.
Malleus's mom's official name is "Meleanor" (a location name is written in English with this)i. The castle's halls really resemble those in Diasomnia dorm (I think it's a reused asset). (Now that I think about it??? Didn't they also reuse the VDC backstage background for the eastern fortress?)
SHE'S SINGING???????? A lullaby for her baby, it seems. Bruh... Malleus sang like a line from this lullaby before he game-ended everyone with his UM... HE REMEMBERED HER SONG FROM INSIDE THE EGG SHELL??????????
MALLEMOM REVEAL AW YEAH (she starts zapping Lilia with lightning lol; she's mad at Lilia for showing up late to defend her and her egg) SHE'S THE HOT GOTH GF
OMG EGG REVEAL TOO... UNBORN MALLEUS... (The egg looks like it has blot running down it too, which is insane)
ADBLIsfiablfa IT'S SO WEIRD SEEING HER SIMP ON MAIN, she says he knows her unborn child will grow up to be a beautiful man just like her husband... (Sebek is practically sobbing from happiness that he gets to witness Meleanor name Malleus.)
The ear shape is really coming back to bite them; Mallemom noticed them and now her anger is turning to our group. She forces us to kneel with magic... Jafar energy fr
"Princess Glow" is the green orb in Mallemom's staff!
Lilia tells some embarrassing stories of the princess's tomboyish youth; "And though you always scolded me, you never failed to join me in my mischief" -- Mallemom to Lilia
She agrees to duel the Dawn Knight while the others escape with her child... Now Mallemom and Lilia are fighting because Lilia refuses to follow through with her order.
NOOOOOOO SILVER JUMPED IN TO PROTECT LILIA FROM MALLEMOM'S LIGHTNING 😭 EVEN THOUGH HE KNOWS IT'S A DREAM, HE DOESN'T WANT TO SEE HIS DAD HURT
Lilia trauma time :)) "I can't lose both you (Meleanor) and Raverne (Malleus's dad)".
IT'S LIKE WE THEORIZED, LADS. Mallemom says that if anything happens to her, then it's up to Lilia to help Malleus hatch with the POWER OF TRUE LOVE... BUT LILIA THINKS HE CAN'T HATCH IT BECAUSE HE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND A PARENT'S LOVE
OH MY GOOOOOOD THE PIPING HOT TEA, MELEANOR SAID LILIA PROPOSED TO HER WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG... OVER 200 YEARS AGO
sdhbfbiyoaifofi Mallemom says that Lilia "also loves Raverne" and that those two spent more time together than a "married couple". You could interpret this as Lilia being bisexual or just as them being really good friends, as Meleanor never specifies if Lilia “loves” Raverne romantically.
Suddenly, Lilia's special card name makes sense! Lilia is the "Right General", and Raverne is the "Left General".
The weather shifted according to Meleanor's anger. Like mother, like son... This woman also quotes Maleficent so much...
OOOOH we get to watch a battle between Mallemom (dragon form) vs the Dawn Knight. Mallemom uses all null/cosmic magic, just like Dorm Uniform Malleus. The Dawn Knight uses light type null/cosmic magic just like Silver does too!
Dawn Knight face reveal?! He's basically Silver copy-pasted but long blonde hair. Dude's really out here looking like a Sonic OC recolor/j
The Dawn Knight also has a crown-like ring on a chain. It's an item that was given to him by guardian fairies when he was young; there is no other like it.
YASASHII... The Dawn Knight notices our group has the egg and tells them to run. He doesn't want Heinrich to get his hands on it either... Crowley, takes notes 😭
UHHHHH SILVER'S CRYING AND SHOUTING... I think he realized that he's descended from the Dawn Knight, serving on the faction that's brought so much harm to his loved ones and home country. "Am I family to the enemy?!" His denseness is truly to his detriment here.
Uh-oh, Silver's being pulled into the "darkness" of the dream, thinking it would be better to just stay here than face reality... He's losing hope, DOING THE THING HE FORESHADOWED LAST UPDATE... IF HE EVER FALLS INTO THE DARKNESS, THEN PLEASE PULL HIM OUT... (Another map segment with Silver required; you have to find your way around in the dark.)
NOOOOO NOT SILVER SEEING HIMSELF AS THE DAWN KNIGHT THAT HIS DAD'S STRIKING DOWN IN VENGENCE OTL WHAT IS THIS, IT'S SO SICK AND TWISTED
400 years after conflict, the peace treaty was signed between fae and humans. Wild Rose Castle is now left in ruins; the rumors say it is haunted. The diurnal fae casted a spell on Wild Rose to keep humans away.
HUH???? LILIA FOUND BABY SILVER IN THE ABANDONED WILD ROSE CASTLE?????
Uhhh so apparently after the war we saw, another conflict broke out for territory and the Silver Owls got their asses handed to them.
LILIA UNIQUE MAGIC REVEAL... HE CAN READ THE MEMORIES OF THINGS HE TOUCHES????? (Reminds me of "Dimensional Scream" from Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of TIme/Darkness/Sky!) "Far Cry Cradle" is the name! We also get the chant: "As if it were a day. Everywhere I go, it will be in a blink of an eye."
BABY SILVER?????
Silver was magically put to sleep for hundreds of years by some small (guardian) fairies?!?!?!?!?!?!? Because conflicts were still going on and his parents wished for him to live in a world free of war. When Silver meets someone who "loves" him, he will wake up from his magic-induced slumber. NOW THE BABY IS AWAKE AND CRYING
... Wait. Doesn't that mean. Silver is technically older than Malleus... since Malleus is only 178 years old and Silver's been sleeping for like 400 years????? OTL SILVER OLD MAN ERA??????
NOT (PAST) LILIA BEING TSUNDERE, he says he thinks the guardian fairies' magic is fading with time... he doesn't even consider that he'd ever love the baby...
"I'm not someone who deserves your love" - Silver, casually cuing all of our tears
Silver's hair was originally blonde; It became silver when he received a fairy's blessing (Lilia's). LILIA SAYS "May the Night bless you" and says that the day he found Silver is his new birthday. So the Dawn Knight has gold hair because it's blessed by a diurnal fae, but with silver hair like moonlight, Silver won't stand out in Briar Valley.
I CAN'T WITH LILIA, SILVER SAYS HE WAS NAMED THAT BECAUSE OF HIS HAIR COLOR IN A BIRTHDAY VIGNETTE... Yet here we see Lilia actually named him Silver as in silver moonlight to guide people in the darkness...
"Even if I have to give up my own life, I want to protect my child", that's a sentiment that both Lilia's princess and the Dawn Knight expressed. I think this kind of thinking probably helped Lilia put everything into perspective and better understand that humans and fae are actually very similar.
SILVER/LILIA HOME REVEAL, we're seeing some point later in time but before present day when Lilia is still raising baby Silver.
Lilia is singing the same lullaby as what Meleanor sang for Malleus in the egg!! Malleus pays them a visit and still doesn't really seem to understand humans (HE SAYS SILVER LIKE A MONKEY????) but also helps watch baby Silver... He even hums his mom's lullaby for Silver, but cannot seem to remember where he heard the song before.
It's so weird thinking about how fae take 30 YEARS TO LEARN HOW TO WALK... What do you do for those 30 years, just lie on your back????? OTL
LILIA READS SILVER BEDTIME STORIES
Oh, Lilia's understanding humans and fae a little better (around the time Silver starts to eat pureed foods). Both human and fae babies cry and sleep, etc. BHFABIYFVQIQEFL hE'S FEEDING SILVER RAT MEAT???????? Malleus has to have the castle prepare baby food for them...
WAHHHHH THAT ACRON BRACELET LILIA TREASURES IS SOMETHING KID!SILVER MADE FOR HIM... Squirrels helped him gather the acorns and woodpeckers helped him string the acorns together. The acorn amulet is meant to bring Lilia a long, healthy, and happy life (something Silver was told by forest fae). Even as a kid... Silver was hoping for Lilia's health... and now that I think about it, the acorn amulet is like a representation of Lilia's own deteriorating health over time... OTL
"I feel like I can live a thousand years with this (amulet)..." LILIA EVEN KEPT IT ALL THIS TIME AND CALLS IT HIS MOST PRECIOUS BELONGING... shUT UP, SHUT UP IM CRYING
ASKHBLIDIBIFIA WE'RE SEEING THE RAINING SCENE LILIA TOLD US ABOUT IN ONE OF HIS BIRTHDAY VIGNETTES???!?!?!?!????!? It's the day Silver realized he and Lilia aren't related by blood...
God, there are so many of the map portions... This time, Sebek is the required character!
The rest of the gang are transported to the darkness where Silver is wallowing?? Sebek sees some of his own memories which intertwin with Silver's (since Baul sometimes took bare of Silver or visited Lilia). It's also confirmed that Lilia went to Sebek's dad to ask for advice on how to raise Silver.
Back then, Baul asked Lilia to train Sebek since he's part human (and therefore "weak" in Baul's eyes). However, Baul still values his grandson and wants him to have a good education 🥺 (Sebek's older brother also graduated from NRC??)
Lilia tore up his invitation to NRC???? But it was his friend Raverne who came to him with the invitation pieced back together and kept it safe for the future in case Lilia reconsidered. It seems like Raverne really is a diplomat; he stresses the importance of humans coming to understand fae + vice versa, and how it's things like learning a common language that can help bridge these gaps.
Lilia confirms that Raverne must have "become a star" by now BUT UNTIL I SEE A CORPSE I'M NOT BELIEVING IT
Sebek's trying to get through to Silver, who's slowly being swallowed by the darkness... HE UNVEILS HIS UM, "Living Bolt"!! "Thrust through the clouds, o' lightning!" It seems to summon a powerful strike of lightning, but I'm not entirely sure what it does because the visuals of the game are a little confusing??? (Like it shows a white silhouette of Sebek moving around, so it makes me think he can... control the lightning??? Or he... becomes lightning itself to move around??? DON'T QUOTE ME ON THAT.) Sebek says he hasn't mastered it yet so maybe even he doesn't know what it can do.
With Sebek's UM, he's able to snap Silver out of it!
THE GIRLIES ARE FIGHTING... There's literally a battle between Silver and Sebek, which resolves with Sebek smacking some sense into Silver. Sebek calls him an idiot and tells him to stop saying he isn't loved, because it's rude of Silver to be this weak when Lilia raised him to be strong (ie "IT'S AN INSULT TO LILIA-SAMA", "IF HE SAW YOU BEING THIS PATHETIC HE'D BE SAD", etc). Way to go with your words of encouragement... 100/10 motivational speaker, Sebek.
Silver realizes that he has had Lilia's love and support all this time... "It's true love", Silver says. The true love that his guardian fairies said would wake him from his sleep... 😭I really appreciate how it was Silver who first snapped Sebek out of his dream-induced despair, and now Sebek is doing the same for Silver.
WAIT THAT'S IT?????? THAT'S THE UPDATE???? ?? ??? ? ????????? 🤡 TWST really said, "I'm coming for everyone's throat and I'm taking no prisoners" AND THEN DIPPED ON US AFTER DROPPING SO MANY BOMBSHELLS... This is just the fate of every book 7 main story update now, isn't it???!??????!?
asidoavyfqevofb I know a ton of really exciting and shocking reveals happened this time around, but while my mind is still racing to process everything... the one thing that sticks out to me is "Ace is the only one without a UM now". IT'S SO FUNNY HOW HE THOUGHT HE'D GET HIS UM BEFORE DEUCE BUT HE ACTUALLY ENDS UP BEING THE LAST OF THE ENTIRE MAIN CAST TO GET IT................. .. . . . .. ....... .. .. . .. ... . . . .. THERE IS SOME CRUEL, SICK IRONY HERE.
I pretty much said all my other thoughts as they cropped up along with the corresponding story beats!! But overall, I loved learning more about the characters and their shared history. Part 5 confirmed many theories, such as the Dawn Knight being related to Silver (and not his ancestor, but rather his actual dad), Silver being put under a sleeping curse that requires true love to break, how Lilia came to raise Silver, etc. It also recontexualizes lore we already knew, such as how Silver got his name, the Zigvolt family's involvement with Lilia, and how Lilia changed from his old self to his current self.
khbhasdsbkuavuofafabf I ALSO CAN'T BELIEVE LILIA X MALLEMOM IS A THING, THAT WAS ONE OF THE MOST SHOCKING REVEALS THIS ENTIRE UPDATE😭 All this time we were joking about Lilia x Mrs. Spade... turns out, Lilia was into someone else's mom... HE'S JUST INTO MOMS, I'M CALLING IT NOW/j
I'm surprised that we didn't get to catch up with the Shroud brothers whatsoever this time??? Not a single peep about Ortho (who has 'woken up and is actively working to help everyone) or even Idia (who is still stuck dreaming)... I really hope the next update addresses how Ignihyde is faring, cuz I miss them and want to know how they contribute to saving the day!!
As book 7 progresses, it progressively calls the image of a spinning wheel into my mind... This is the case especially for the flashback segments we see, which shows us how the various members of Diasomnia are related to each other, and, by extension, their other family members. Lilia is raising Silver, the baby of an old foe. Malleus is visiting Lilia, who is implied to have helped hatch him after his parents died and/or went missing. Lilia asks Sebek's dad for help raising Silver. Baul asks Lilia to help mentor his grandson, Sebek. It really harkens back to the "individually, we're threads on a spinning wheel, but we come together to make something far stronger" line that Lilia dropped at the end of book 6, proving that the spinning wheel and the threads of Fate within it are an important motif for book 7 🥺
I'm fine.
This is fine.
It's not fine
#twst#twisted wonderland#Diasomnia#Malleus Draconia#Lilia Vanrouge#Yuu#Grim#Sebek Zigvolt#Silver#spoilers#disney twisted wonderland#notes from the writing raven#Baul Zigvolt#Baal Zigvolt#Bal Zigvolt#Dawn Knight#Heinrich#Ace Trappola#Meleanor Draconia#Sleeping Beauty#Maleficent#Ortho Shroud#Ignihyde#Idia Shroud#Raverne Draconia#Heinrick#Maleanor Draconia#Baur Draconia
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hehe hi i saw that your requests were open and idk if this is like too much or anything but sobbing head in hands head canons about reader having a dog that just does not get along with their s/o (any character of your choosing), like perhaps not like barking at them, but the dog is definitely playfully biting their toes every time they see them
⦑ 𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐄𝐯𝐢𝐥 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐒/𝐎’𝐬 𝐃𝐨𝐠𝐬 ⦒
characters: chris redfield, leon kennedy, claire redfield, piers nivans & jill valentine. a/n: thank you so much for requesting lovely! i don't have any furbabies myself, but one day!!! once again, i apologise for getting carried away with these headcanons, i just love all characters! content: SFW
CHRIS REDFIELD
He has a German Shepherd at home!! Dog person all his life!
Had considered being a professional dog trainer in his younger years, and did some courses on it, but ultimately did not pursue it.
Gets along with your dog almost instantly - your dog respects Chris.
Would teach your dog all kinds of tricks - honestly helps you out a lot!
Would be annoying and give you unsolicited advice about your dog's diet and training (which you shut him up with a kiss)
Has a YouTube channel about educational dog content with only three videos of him just talking to the camera, that is all posted 7 years ago.
LEON KENNEDY
Leon doesn't mind dogs, but he prefers cats more.
So when Leon visits you, he isn't used to the shower of affection your dog gives.
If your dog were to not get along with him, Leon would put his hands up to show he doesn't mean harm.
Eventually earning your dog's mercy after playing fetch with them!
It's a little tiring for Leon, who is only used to the company of cats.
But he knows your dog is your family and wants to make sure he gets along with them.
Would try to convince you that a cat would be a good addition to your family (so his cat can have a playmate).
CLAIRE REDFIELD
There was only Claire and her brother in the Redfield household, so Chris surprised Claire with a dog for her birthday one time to help with the loneliness. And that cheered Claire up greatly, and made her love dogs!.
No. 1 chihuahua defender - Always trying to break the stereotype that chihuahuas are aggressive, and rants on about how so many people don't know how to respect their boundaries.
Volunteers at a dog shelter!
It is no surprised she would get along with yours, with how big dogs has become in her life.
If she gets bitten playfully, Claire would play dead. And then come back to life when your dog paws at her cheeks. (She can't stop smiling from the cuteness)
Would scream "doggo!" everytime she passed by one.
PIERS NIVANS
He loooves dogs!! And dogs love him!
Piers just radiates 'dog owner energy' - random dogs, including yours, will sniff him and try to be friends if he passes by.
Dogs are just naturally drawn to Piers, and he's not complaining.
Meets your dog once, and your dog already loves him more. You're a little salty about it, but glad that they get along.
Best belly rubs giver!
His dog is friends with Chris' dog, so they go on a walk together every Sunday morning.
JILL VALENTINE
Jill is a dog person, even if I can see her being a cat person too.
I see Jill being super affectionate to her dog, always giving kisses and hugs the moment she returns from an op.
After Arklay Mountains, I can see her dog being concerned at Jill's attitude change. Whining a little to show that they're here for Jill.
When she meets your dog, her expression warms at the sight. I see Jill getting attached to your dog easily, and they get along together well after playing fetch a few times.
thanks for reading! come check out my other works. ––yours truly, rose. tags: @valsthea @custard0nut © roseglazedlens - please do not repost, plagiarise, or feed to ai.
#꒰✏️ rose requests ♡.*꒱#leon s kennedy#claire redfield#jill valentine#piers nivans#chris redfield#leon kennedy x reader#leon s kennedy x reader#resident evil headcanons#resident evil imagines#resident evil imagine#leon kennedy imagines#leon kennedy#chris redfield x reader#piers nivans x reader#jill valentine x reader#claire redfield x reader#꒰💌 letters to rose ♡.꒱#꒰💫 rose headcanons ♡.꒱#꒰ anons.*꒱#resident evil
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Okay but in the picture with his friend where he pretended to be jealous like... does it look like he has a hickey on his neck or could it be something else
So I’ve noticed that too, and I found it in another photo:
Both of these photos were taken in March of 2019 within a span of a few weeks (these were from his Instagram, and there’s a screen recording of his feed on YouTube), so, I doubt that it is a hickey, considering it’s in the same exact spot below that one mole of his. If it actually was one, whoever that was sucking on his neck must be a vampire, sheesh.
It could pass as one though, lol. I’ve said this before in a previous post, but I have a birthmark on the side of my neck that could pass as a hickey—especially if you’ve never seen it before. I understand where that might be a first guess.
So hypothetically speaking, no, I don’t think it is one. I’m gonna be a nerd here with my pre-med education for a moment and say that it is probably was an allergic reaction of some sort on his skin, or, maybe his Lyme disease.
According to Luigi, he was diagnosed with the condition when he was 13. He talked about it in two separate comments under the r/BrainFog thread on Reddit in 2018:
“A lot of similarities here: I contracted Lyme when I was 13 (7 years ago) and started noticing mild cognitive decline when I was 15. (I don't actually remember contracting Lyme or getting treated or anything about it, I just remember that I missed soccer tryouts and didn't make the soccer team that year because of it)
After my symptoms severely worsened last year, I underwent several rounds of blood tests. Two of them included Lyme (I'm not sure which specific tests), but the results were negative. Do you think this definitely rules out Lyme, or is it still possible to have Lyme given negative results?”
Then, another:
“I 100% contracted Lyme (was tested and treated immediately) when I was 13.
“I was then tested again this year given my symptoms. I just looked back at these tests, and the only one for Lyme is called "Lyme AB Screen," which I assume isn't terribly specific. I will definitely look into more comprehensive testing.
What do you mean by ‘after it was too late?’”
To sum it up, Lyme disease is an infection caused by a tick bite. It can cause joint pain, fatigue, and flu-like symptoms. It’s mainly characterized by this red bull’s eye rash, and it can appear anywhere on the body. Antibiotics are given to treat it.
From his comments, given at the time, he seemed like while he was in college, his symptoms were in remission, but who knows if they could ever reappeared after he graduated from UPenn. I haven’t ever noticed clear, evident red patches on his body in photos where he was living in Hawaii, but that’s not to say that he could have (if his condition was in a flare-up) a rash in other places that weren’t readily visible.
I mean, really, I’m just speculating here, based off of information that is clear, I’m not saying this is all true—but yeah! That little thing does look a bit suspicious 🧐
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In human au I wonder how many habits and things like the hyper independence Sera and Carmilla need to work through. We can tell Sera doesn't know how to relax or not work I could also see her almost never eating until Emily has because she needs to make sure Emily has eaten before she can worry about eating.
If Sera isn't working or being productive, she may as well not be breathing. When it was just her and Emily, Sera would be on her feet from dawn until dusk, getting Emily off to school by 7:00, working straight through lunch at her office job so she could leave by 4:00 to take her sister to band practice or other extracurriculars. Sometimes she'd leave even earlier, depending on Emily's schedule. Whether it's playing an instrument, or participating in a sport Emily will tire of in 3 months, Sera doesn't really care. She just wants to be supportive and make sure Emily gets the most out of her education.
When they both moved in with Carmilla, Sera quickly realized that Carmilla has people to help her with those things. While Carmilla does her best to be there to support Odette and Clara in their activities, sometimes it's just easier to have the chauffeur pick them up and take them to after-school clubs. The first time Sera rushed to the school to pick up Emily after joining the Carmine household, she was in a panicked frenzy to discover neither Emily nor the other girls were there. A frantic text to Carmilla left her relieved to know one of Carmilla's staff had already taken them to their lessons. But it left a bad taste in Sera's mouth to be removed from that part of her sister's routine...even worse because Emily had forgotten to tell her that morning.
The same thing starts happening around mealtimes, too. Sera had always cooked her and Emily's meals, and made sure Emily got the bigger portion for her growing body. And most importantly, dinner was always hers and Emily's chance to bond after a long day. Especially since Sera would often skip lunch at her job, so by supper time, she was starving, and very much looking forward to catching up with Emily and hearing what she'd learned. Even if she didn't always get enough to eat, it was all worth it, to see Emily smile.
These days, all three girls eat immediately after they get home, rushing and rarely having time for conversation, and then it's off to clubs and activities. Sera may not even be able to talk to Emily until much later in the evening. Sera will feed them something quick, but usually hold off and wait for Carmilla to get home so they can eat dinner together -- at least so she doesn't have to eat alone.
Carmilla Carmine insists she likes cooking for her girlfriend, because she's fantastic at it. But also, she wants to make sure Sera is getting enough to eat of the foods she likes. Sera was always so skinny when Carmilla first met her. It's amazing what three square meals will do for a person. Sera has never looked more radiant. Even though she complains when Carmilla won't let her skip lunch.
Cooking is technically supposed to be Sera's job, since she gets home earlier than she does and often fixes it for the girls. But Carmilla Carmine is not one to deny herself the simple pleasure of feeding the woman she loves.
One night, though, Sera seems awfully distracted. Sera had been quiet that morning, too, and Carmilla didn't think much of it then. Sometimes Sera gets into her own head and wants to be left alone. But that trend continues well into the evening. Carmilla makes them some seafood for dinner, serving it on a fancy sushi boat and everything. Sera smiles at her softly, obviously flattered with Carmilla's efforts. But all throughout the meal, she just stares off in silence, leaning her cheek on her elbow and picking at the sushi with her chopsticks. The scrunched-up expression on Sera's face is adorable, but it's also driving Carmilla bonkers with concern, because she doesn't know what's gotten Sera's goose.
"Everything okay, mi cielo?" Carmilla asks, surprising Sera out of her silent reverie. "You're awfully quiet today."
"Huh?" Sera seems almost drunk at the question initially. Like she doesn't realize Carmilla has spoken to her. Her reaction is delayed, and she blushes profusely and shakes her head when she realizes she'd been staring off into the distance beyond Carmilla's head.
"Oh! Oh, sorry! My apologies. I was just...thinking, I guess."
"...About?"
"Please don't worry about it!" Sera exclaims. She waves her hand in front of her face frantically. "It's nothing!"
"It doesn't seem like nothing. You've been muerto viviente all day long. What has you troubled, mi amor?"
Sera keeps picking at her food with her chopsticks. The utensils are practically green from being swirled around in the wasabi a few too many times. After a while, the profound silence in the room gets to her. Carmilla has a way of letting a lack of sound be the pressure Sera needs to break it in any way possible. She sees her use that technique on the girls all the time; to break them when they know they've done something wrong.
Even though she knows she's done nothing wrong, it's still extremely effective at breaking her silence.
"I feel like I haven't seen Emily all week. Maybe longer. All she wants to do is spend time with Odette and Clara after school. They are her friends. Her sisters in spirit. I know that. It's good for her to have people her age to rely on. But... I can't help it, but sometimes, I feel like she's growing away from me. She has them now...and you. She doesn't need me like she used to. I'm not the only one anymore."
Sera can do nothing to stop the torrent of tears that suddenly fill her eyes at this admission. Without warning, she is flooded with so many conflicting emotions she hadn't expected. It's so easy to just shove those feelings down when Emily needs her; she's done it for years. That innate ability to toss everything aside for her baby sister has always been her shield.
But she can't hide behind adrenaline, or work, or an excuse to be strong anymore. Her entire sense of self-worth has been wrapped up in Emily for so many years, now that the sole burden of parenthood has been lifted from her shoulders, coming to the realization that she's no longer as important as she once thought, sends a white-hot streak of pain directly through her heart.
"I don't know what to be anymore, without her needing me."
Carmilla gets to her feet, coming around the kitchen island and hugging Sera's neck from behind as the other woman sobs hot tears into her hands. Carmilla twirls her on the barstool to face her. Sera is taller than her, with legs for days, even without the benefit of the barstool. But in moments like these, Carmilla realizes how frail and fragile she can be. Sera falls into her arms, almost out of the chair, and soaks Carmilla's shirt with her tears.
"Oh, cariño, it's all right. No wonder you've been so stressed lately."
"What do I do, Carmilla?" Sera wails, hiding her face in Carmilla's neck as the matriarch pulls her deeper into her arms. "For years, my entire life has revolved around her. I've forgotten how to be me without her."
Sera is leaning forward and hugging Carmilla so tight, Carmilla has to hold her up in the chair to keep from toppling them both over. Leave it to Sera to be stronger than she looks. The woman can be incredibly threatening even when she's sobbing like a baby.
"That's the way it happens with kids, you know? You have them, and for a while, you are their entire world. But then their world gets bigger, and suddenly, you're only a single part of it. But still the most important part."
Carmilla pulls away, just to be able to cup Sera's cheek in her hand. Sera nuzzles into it deeper. Carmilla tries to ignore her snotty nose and the way Sera rubs it directly into Carmilla's open palm like a tissue.
She loves this woman, Carmilla repeats to herself. She does. Snotty nose, phlegm, and all!
"When they don't need you for everything anymore, that's how you know it was all worthwhile. Because they are becoming independent human beings. I've done my fair share of crying about Odette over the years. That girl doesn't want my help with anything. Clara still needs a little encouragement...but she'll get there. Especially with Emily helping her with her homework. No more late-night tutoring sessions for me."
Sera stops crying. She forces a wet laugh into Carmilla's hand.
Sera may be the one feeling sorry for herself, but Carmilla isn't afraid to be real and talk with her about her own girls. She doesn't sugarcoat anything, or pretend like raising children is easier than it is. Carmilla can admit when she's not in control. It's such a stark contrast from the way Sera usually pretends everything is fine, or ignores her struggles, so Emily doesn't have to face a harsh reality.
But maybe part of the problem is her own reluctance; her tendency to keep everything buried deep inside, until it has no choice but to force its way out, usually in the form of her tears or an inconvenient panic attack.
"I know," Sera whines a little petulantly. She steps off the barstool, letting herself be completely engulfed in Carmilla's arms, leaning down a little bit to lay her head on Carmilla's shoulder.
"I am so proud of Emily, I can hardly believe I did that. I just wish I could be proud of myself. It's a little embarassing, but that girl has been my entire personality for--"
Carmilla silences Sera with a kiss. It's a hot, heavy one; deep and comforting. Sera pulls Carmilla in closer when the older woman lays it on particularly thick. It's certainly unfair how thorough and efficient Carmilla is with her kisses. How Sera can go from being self-flagellating and feeling sorry for herself in one moment, and completely bowled over under Carmilla's lips in the next.
Carmilla shoots Sera a wicked, knowing grin, as she leans her girlfriend over the back of the kitchen island. It hurts Sera's back a little bit, but with Carmilla this close to her face, the last thing she would dare do is complain.
"How about this...?" Carmilla asks. "...Every time you are kind to yourself, I'll give you one of those? But every time you insult yourself, or question your own capabilities, I won't kiss you for the entire night. Is that incentive enough for you?"
In a fraction of a second, Sera's face is redder than a sunburn on a tomato. She flails, trying to stand up, but Carmilla keeps her bent backward until she responds.
"Ye-yes! Please! Let's do that!" Sera rasps, blushing profusely. Carmilla gives her one more kiss for good measure, before letting her back up.
Sera is wobbly on her feet for a moment, but gets her bearings pretty quickly. She tries to pull Carmilla back in for another smooch, with herself leading this time, but Carmilla gently shoves her back. That shit-eating grin is even wider now.
"Not so fast. You have to work for it. What do you say?"
Sera's blush can practically be seen from space at this point. She breathes heavily, whining a little in the back of her throat at having to be nice to herself for once. For a reward.
"I'm a good guardian. Emily loves me. I am perfectly capable and worthy of love, no matter what."
Carmilla squeezes her cheeks. Pulls Sera back in for another heavy, drawn-out kiss. By the time she pulls away again, Sera's feet have returned to their jelloed state, and Carmilla has to hold her up to keep from falling.
"Was that so hard?" Carmilla quips. "That's my good girl."
Sera whines. She could get used to this.
#hazbin hotel#carmilla carmine#sera hazbin hotel#emily hazbin hotel#clara hazbin hotel#odette hazbin hotel#ask#anon#seramilla#human au
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Hiiii i love your agere supernatural posts! Ummm I'm sorry if this is a big ask but would you ever think about writing cg!team free will hcs? Like the whole trio(maybe jack if it's not too much) :) feel free to ignore this :3
Hi I can totally do this!! I fear there’s no jack since I’m only on season 7 so i know very little about him but maybe check back up in a few and I can see if I dan write some stuff for jack!!
Cg!Team Free Will Headcanons!
📓🍔🪽Having all three of them watch over you is either the greatest idea of the worst
📓🍔🪽On one hand that’s three sets of eyes to watch you
📓🍔🪽On the other hand it’s Sam, Dean and Cas watching you
📓🍔🪽One of them turns their back they all turn their back to make sure everything is safe
📓🍔🪽They all have very clashing styles of caring for you but at the end of the day they just want to keep you happy
📓🍔🪽Course Sam loves one on one very hands on activities with you
📓🍔🪽Encouraging you to learn and explore
📓🍔🪽That is until you’re outside and he turns to grab something and suddenly Cas has got you splashing in puddles and crouching to watch bees on flowers
📓🍔🪽Course Cas doesn’t particularly understand humans so having you is like getting to learn from both parts of the spectrum
📓🍔🪽He loves taking you outside to look at flowers and feed the ducks
📓🍔🪽Once again until Dean comes and scoops you up
📓🍔🪽He so has a hot wheels track for himself you to play with
📓🍔🪽He’s more relaxed, not bothering with the educational cartoons or books
📓🍔🪽Not that he won’t watch or read them if you want to but if it were up to him he’d be sat cuddled up on the couch watching tmnt and scooby doo with you all day long
📓🍔🪽They’re all amazing in their own separate ways but can also be great when they all come together
📓🍔🪽Playing pretend is one way they all come together, playing restaurants or shopping
📓🍔🪽House is a personal favourite between them
📓🍔🪽You’re always the baby (of course) Sam and Dean are the dad or big brother and Cas is the..dog
📓🍔🪽He doesn’t particularly understand how to ‘pretend to be a mom’ so he’s quite happy to just sit and have you pet him while occasionally going ‘woof’
📓🍔🪽Breakfast time is all out
📓🍔🪽Pancakes galore between the lot of you, Sam making beautiful fluffy pancakes while Cas skips fruit and decorates them for you
📓🍔🪽Course what neither of them know is while they’re not looking Dean is sneaking gummy bears into your pancakes
📓🍔🪽However once he’s caught he’s made to go sit by you on the couch till breakfast is ready
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