#Ex Girlfriend Back After A Year
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BURKE DEVLIN & ROGER COLLINS. â It isn't really amazing if you know what love is about. â Well, yes, I suppose I don't know anything about love. I guess that's why she married you ten years ago and not me. â I'll go one step further. I think you've gone beyond the point of even knowing what it is.
#guns cw#but they're not actually.. guns. if you know what i mean.#dark shadows#dark shadows 1966#roger collins#burke devlin#how do i even begin to explain them.#diversity loss.#what if you were in an extremely messy polycule in the 1950s;#and in the midst of various & varied violations of maine r.s. 1954 c.134 §1-8 in the backseat of burke's car;#hit and killed a bystander because absolutely no one drives sober in collinsport. and then lied and sent your boyfriend to prison for it.#and then bribed and perjured and also married his girlfriend so she'll help you cover it up. and to get back at him.#and then she has a kid and you're pretty sure it's your ex boyfriend's so you hate him. and beat him.#driving him to â what? vehicular patricide!#and then ur ex comes back 10 years later to get his revenge and drive your family into financial ruin and also possibly fuck you.#and your niece. maybe. and your governess; if she'll have him. and basically anyone else. the invitation is open liz.#and then your wife comes back from the sanitarium and tries to kill your son via fulfilling an ancient fiery ritual#so you decide to coparent with your ex and your governess after she dies. somehow this works and everyone settles down.#there's something very wrong with them <3 affectionate#gifs.#†edits & art. â the evans cottage art gallery.#†roger collins. â I and my ghosts want a drink.#†re: burke devlin. â I am stranded in a hungerland of great prosperity.#†roger collins & burke devlin. â call me a sinnerïŒmock me maliciously; I was your sleeplessnessïŒI was your grief.
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woke up to remembering my nightmare i had where lou got a girlfriend who literally took over his social media and followed me and a few more people back. i got excited about him following me back until i told my friends and they were like âit says his girlfriend is managing it in the bioâ and i was going crazy because everyone else was so happy and i was thinking DOES ANYONE THINK IS INSANE?????
#right after i found out about the follow back i was for some reason with a person i used to be friends with but havenât spoken to in a year#and then i told her about him not posting and then coming back and following a few more people#if he has a girlfriend rn or he gets one sometime i genuinely donât want to ever know about it#i hope heâs as secretive with his love life as he has been until now because he has never once posted#any exes of his
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had quite the night drive earlier this evening.
#just me rambling again#web weaving#(?)#uh. one of my friends who is out of town for college was visiting and i got to see him and our friends and the only core member of that#group of people missing was my ex girlfriend who you may also know of as my wonderful wife#who has I assume been very busy with their own life things but has also barely and very sparsely had any hint of communication with any of#us within the past few months which I've been realizing very recently sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close and#they had been saying that they would be constantly making sure we still were in each other's lives. but then very quickly have#seemingly dropped off the face of the earth#anyways. I was driving aforementioned friend who is in town back home (family home not college obv) and when i was finally going back#towards my house afterwards my Google maps finally lead me to an area that i was more familiar with driving and i got to an#intersection and it was telling me to take a right to go home but i knew that i knew the way perfectly from that intersection to my#ex girlfriend / best friend / wifes familys house from all of the times I've gone that direction through the past years and so#i turned off my directions and i took a left towards their house#not super sure why but my brain and body just knew it was something i needed to do and so i went and drove down their street and cried#a lot the whole time and then drove myself home from their house once again following a super familiar path#and idk im still feeling very emotional about it. the fact that halloween by noah kahan was the first song to play on Spotify#after i made that left turn im sure didnt help (knowing that i miss them so much and am going to be leaving this area myself#soon enough here and there's been an open offer for a while now that they are welcome to follow and live with me once they get their degree#(and also um. halloween is next week lol)#idk i just havent felt the full force of how badly i miss having them in my life until tonight. when i was around this person i could feel#our souls singing in harmony. i genuinely cannot describe the feelings of our relationship in words i feel like only vaguely abstract art#could communicate the connection that was forged between us and the level of understanding and knowing#something not dissimilar to looking into the sun directly or trying to describe a vivid color to someone who is completely blind#something about the way the entire universe breathes in unison and everything around us are all pieces of the same stars#sigh#i miss my wife tails i miss her a lot /ref
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i hate my man roommate and his bitch girlfriend so much
#my gf and i needed a roommate and one of our friends needed a place so it was like omg! perfect#he neglected to tell us until after we signed the lease that he had gotten back together with his ex gf who hates us bc âwe want himâ#(we r lesbians.)#but he fucking tracks dirt all over the house even though weâve told him multiple times to please take his shoes off at the door#he took over what was supposed to be MY office (bc i have a hybrid job)#and now he just plays video games in there all day#but like. i donât even wanna go out there to use MY bathroom#bc this bitch has been nothing but evil and mean to my girlfriend and talked shit abt her#and this stupid motherfucker of a man just lets her and goes along with it#AND THEN HE WANTS TO SAY THAT OUR CAT IS HIS!!#YOU DONT EVEN CLEAN OUT HIS LITTERBOX WHEN WEâRE GONE FOR THE WEEKEND BRUH#YOU NEGLECTED RHAT SHIT#grrrrrrrrrrrr#it just makes me so upset and i hate that this happened in a house that i would otherwise love#anyways sorry rant over#last time i ranted abt this gf on tumblr dot com (years ago) i got called a pick me bitch#so donât call me a pick me bitch this time guys please#i do not want this man i am not attracted to men đđ i just want to feel comfortable in my house#and like i donât have to mother a 20 year old man
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Can influencer / youtuber / celebrities I follow and admire(d) stop turning out to be assholes behind their nice image ?! đđ
This shit happens way too often lately... I think that's already number 5 of my favs in the past years.
Yes yes I know, different world behind the camera. But I already handpick the people I follow and this still happens... Also I am totally aware that everyone has a little dark side somehow and stupid moments. It's just the question what and if it's bearable, forgivable.
At least I am not too attached to that person this time, just watched her occasionally and found her cute & funny, but still sucks losing such a seemingly cool person.... also a loss for the LGBTq yt bubble.
#this is about the german yt annitheduck#was emotionally abusive to her ex girlfriend and best friends who now came forward after years of keeping quiet#wtf man...#the way they talk about it it sounds legit#but the thing is i know anni is a victim of bullying back in school too and also has mental illnesses#so this is probably a case of hurt people hurt people...#which sucks even more
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okay but I am genuinely so unwell about numbers and dates and ages and time and years etc. so I'm blaming all my bad luck on the number 23
#got so paranoid about it that i didn't talk to anyone for the last few weeks and i haven't applied for a job and i'm honestly not doing#anything until i'm safely 24#idk what 24's gonna be like but it's got a 4 in it so that's a good sign#but then again 14 had a 4 in it and that was a terrible age#but tbf it was a 4 + a 10 which is like. my fav number and my least fav number. so the year just malfunctioned#first 6 months good second 6 months bad#so 24 can fit two 10s but they're not as obvious. but it's a multiple of 4 so i trust it a bit more#4 x 6. idk my feelings on 6 but it's never really done anything too bad to me so yeah. 24 is the safe zone#i blame everything on the number 23 and also my friend's awful ex girlfriend#OKAY SO LIKE i was reading coronation street youtube comments the other day#and people were talking about how characters like terry duckworth and mike baldwin were kind of prats before but then they#had some significantly bad experience and after that they became Absolute prats#like basically what caused their villain origin stories#and i was like oh my god am i gonna turn out like them?? is my friend's ex girlfriend responsible for my villain arc??#and i have felt myself becoming more negative and unhappy and cynical and bitter over the past few months#and i was like fuckkkkkk no i can't enter my mike baldwin terry duckworth era#bc before whenever a remotely bad thing happened i would just disappear and go back to telling myself there is nothing good with the world#so like for every job i never got and for every time i put something in the group chat and no one replied and every time i made something#and no one cared about it i would just sink deeper into some hole of hatred at the world#i mean. the rsd. like I'd still react to stuff in that way when i was younger and happier but at least back then I'd also#wave at cool clouds and smile at people in public and be like ''fuck i woke up too early and now i Have to take a photo of the sunrise''#but now i don't do any of that I'm just some bitter cynical bitch who hates everything#so yeah. my 2024 resolution was to reclaim the whimsy i lost at the end of 2022. and so far it's not really going well but at least I'm not#23 anymore#ramble
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this is a really specific vent(?) post. im processing things by putting them in words. its not serious, feel free to ignore me lol
i just want to say that a couple years ago when i was in the beginning stages of researching autism (and would soon realize i am most likely autistic) i was in a relationship. and communication in a relationship is So Very important to me. I would constantly ask how he was (obviously it was more specific to whatever situation was going on) and he would always say he was fine. If I had even the Slightest hint that he wasn't actually Fine (like 19 times out of 20) i would continue asking if he was sure and if he wanted to talk, and he continued to say he was fine. half the time i assumed he meant it and i read the situation wrong, the other half of the time i assumed he didn't want to talk about it.
he ended up breaking up with me because i
"didn't pick up on some things"
"what kind of things?" i asked
"idk, just, things."
and he had been talking to my friend (U) about our relationship, and telling her that i wasn't picking up on things. she got mad at me and we had a "fight" for a short time, she thought i was being a bad partner, and her sister (M) (who is toxic and possessive) felt like i wasn't spending enough time with her, so she complained about it to their mom, who got mad at U for it for some reason? so U also brought all that up, telling me M felt left out. (i wasn't leaving M out of anything, i was sitting with my partner at lunch half of the time, she was welcome to join, but didnt, looking back i think M has RSD and maybe i should have been more direct when moving to a new location to explicitly invite her) (U was also not in school at the time due to covid, so its not like i was spending more time with her over M, which is something M would get so upset about if she perceived it to be that way [she was incredibly possessive of me as a friend and the extent of it made me feel like an object tbh])
U never brought up the issues my partner talked about, because that's how we are, we don't make it known someone was venting to us, to respect their privacy, but it fueled her emotions during our "argument" so i really only heard her being mad at me for not including M, (which i later learned is because M's emotions were made to be her problem when they shouldn't have, this has been a running problem so it wasnt that surprising to learn) so i started spending more time with M, but it was school, and i had work, so schedules only allowed so much time, and any time I was with M (lunch and one class) was when i was also with my partner, but i had other classes with him so i assumed it was fine, but he started drifting away (also around a time i attempted to communicate something important about our relationship, which ended up making him uncomfortable, but he didn't say anything about it until we had a conversation after breaking up)
i was stuck in a place where i felt like no one around me communicated how they felt and still expected me to understand them and do what they wanted me to do
U and i recently reflected on this and realized my ex was a shitty communicator (he and his next partner also broke up because he didn't say how he felt and expected them [also most likely autistic] to... just kinda know ig?) and that she should have gotten my side of the story (she had no idea i was frequently checking on him and trying to get him to talk to me)
and that she wasnt actually upset at me about M, she was upset that people were making it her problem, and she was especially upset during this reflection to learn that M was not being left out at all, she was just doing That Thing again where she wanted me to be Her friend and Only Her friend.
U AND I ARE NOT MAD AT EACH OTHER FOR ANY OF THIS, I WAS NEVER MAD AT U AND U WAS ONLY MAD ABOUT HER PERCEPTION OF THE SITUATION, AND ONLY FOR A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME, EVERYTHING IS FINE
so basically i went like a year and a half thinking that people were rightfully mad at me and i was too self absorbed to pay attention to other peoples' emotions and i started learning how to read people again (clearly my body language research from middle school wasn't cutting it anymore) only for me to realize i just need people to be a little more direct that allistic people typically are, and those specific people were just being dogshit at communicating, (even for allistic people, relative to my needs)
anyways highschool post-covid was Really Fucking Weird and socially stressful for me
TL;DR reflecting on my communication needs not only not being met, but being far undershot for even a "normal" persons needs and how i was convinced I was the problem because of circumstances
#U and i are best friends and have been for 7 years now#U and M are twins#M and i barely talk anymore now that she has Other Friends (grateful tbh)#i know i previously brought up having an ex bf with messy hair and eyeshadow. this ex was Not Him#(my identity as a lesbian was shakey in highschool- i was figuring things out)#(i had several âgirlfriendsâ in middle school (all lasting less than a week after the first because religious guilt))#(but in highschool i had two separate boyfriends and zero girlfriends)#oh god my first ex is such a fucking story but thats for another time#also the ex in this post was like. REALLY fucking obsessed with spiderman#it was great frfr#but it made anything spiderman related super weird for me for a like a year after the breakup#he broke up with me On our 7 month anniversary like right after school got out for summer#the next school year was awkward bc he was in one of my year long classes and we had a LOT of mutual friends#he also started dating his next partner like a week or two after breaking up with me#i was also pushing down ALL my emotions at this time so when i finally Let Myself Feel Things a couple months later i played Good 4 U a LOT#17 was a fucking weird year for me frfr#honestly ALL of my teenage years have been rough and i have never actually let myself acknowledge that before This Moment#and that feels really weird to say because im technically still a teenager#this post ended up way fucking longer than i thought it was gonna be#(also going back to the middle school ârelationshipsâ ive sorta-almost-dated a good handful of people#but i only consider 3 people to actually be âexesâ)
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Why have I been so angry recently. Like violent rage angry. Like scream until I canât talk rage. Like need to punch a window and watch the glass shatter. Like so fucking angry. Iâm not even pmsing. Like what is happening to me????
#looking at rage rooms in Florida and being tempted to go when I get my first pay check#I have so much shit I have to pay for first ugh#I have to pay my mom back for buying funk which is like 600 dollars and I owe her money for a million other things Iâm sure bc I should pay#her for even giving birth to me if Iâm such a fucking interruption to her life#ugh.#anyways. I need to go break shit and scream and punch shit and scream again and again and again#taking my meds and now instead of being sad depressed I am violently angry at everything#ughhhhhhhhhh why canât my brain be normal why am I broken forever what the hell#I would bring up a rage room with my mother but I want to go alone and yell shit about my parents kmao#imagine working at a rage room while Iâm yelling FUCK YOU FOR DYING AND FUCK MOM FOR FUCKING STRANGERS AND NOT CARING#youâd just be like đŹ#I think I need to gif another stuffed animal that will fix me#I had a ponyo stuffed animal that my ex girlfriend gave me and like a year after we broke up I got really mad about it all over again and#cut the stuffed animal open and then cried and threw it away and I felt better#I need to do that with everything in my life
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aww its kinda cute finding me complaining abt my dads whole lisa thing from 2017. honestly so overshadowed by everything else and also i was so annoying when i was 12 aw .
#did not realize how many of my journal posts r just vents and it all looks so silly now RJRBJFBFNG aw hun. its so funny that i was#complaining abt my mom treating me like a therapist in 2017. <- his ass did notttt know. its like watching a guy standing on the train#tracks and complaining about a car driving past.#sry . i ended up on quotev just 2 look. ive never actually looked at my like activity feed very much whenever i go back but its funny bc it#rly is a more accurate glimpse into whateve was going on for miss kami (my quotev nickname).... like yasss. you hate your dads girlfriend#and her kids that is a nice problem to have#its also embarassing bc like my ex gf is just all around in here . i made a vent post like I get it im not enough and i dont matter and im#just a tool for you to use đĄđĄđĄ and she commented âyesss tell the worldâ. SO FUNNY?#and i found her being excited abt our 5 month anniversary#delightfully 12 year old activity. i do not like her very much at all and idt i ever actualy loved her#not in a bitchy way in a like. i literally questioned if i was aroace the entire time we were dating#she asked me out with a little note passed in class like circle y/n and i literally thought to myself Hm well i guess i dont have anything#going on. and circled yes. which is so funny. hun?#anyways. that all imploded bc we were 11 its whatever.#sigh. its just nice to remember the little problems i had. like obviously all this is after my dad choked me out in public and threw my dog#and etc but its still technically the beforetimes. yk. and ik the zoo isnt rly the most pressing of my things that have happened to me#anymore but its still like. Big. yk. even if i mostly just have to Be fine about it now or else everyone will think im being an awful piec#of shit asshole for still being upset. Ok sorry#also when i call my 12 yesr old self snnoying i mean it in an loving way like. its only right to be kind of annoying when youre 12 yk...#and also 12 year old kamille is Not here rn so i can be a little playfully mean to her. bc shes such a 12 year old#idk i just struggle a lot bc i am so like. far removed from everything that happened atp were on like 4th or 5th generation post that#and i struggle to put myself in That kamilles shoes and remember she was a kid yk. like obviously ik i was a kid ik i didnt deserve that#but when i try to like. put myself back in the situation and try to force myself to remember that exact day (dont do this btw . it does not#go well LOL) but i always like. i try to rebuild the events from the ground up but im not Kamille age 12 im me. witnessing everything#i wont ever be able to remember it How it acrually was i couldnt even fully remember it like a week after the fact yk. itis what itis#sorry i should prolly tag this i rambleddddd#a2t#child abuse#implied but we#animal abuse
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Prompt: Fictober Day 1: "That was good work."
Fandom: Lumine
Summary: Camille and Kody have a brief conversation.
Content Warnings: N/A
Words: 1,249
Camille watched a series of bottles shift between Kodyâs hands; once the green liquid from one vial had been drained into another, thicker, clear substance, Kody would reach for another, his expression not changing past the subtle twice of his nose as the scents mingled. The green itself spread and fell slowly, as if he had just dropped liquid food dye into watery corn syrup.
âDonât hesitate,â Camille reminded him, her palm pressed to her cheek. âIf you do, itâs going to end up tasting acidic.â
Kody huffed in response, his hands lingering over another tube held in a small wooden rack. âDonât distract me.â
âYouâre stalling.â
âBecause youâre distracting me.â
A quiet hum of acknowledgment mingled with amusement caught behind Camilleâs now-closed lips as she watched him continue, now more focused than before as he slowly poured half of the liquid in with the mixture.
âWhat, youâre not gonna get onto me for using too much or too little?â As he spoke, Kodyâs bitter gaze flickered up long enough to glance at the other. He slowly reached out for the stirring stick, eyes stuck on Camille as he pulled it closer. âOr youâre not gonna tell me to be careful about how I stir it?â
âNope, not yet. Iâm just waiting and watching now.â Camille smiled a bit, watching as he stirred slowly, almost meticulously. His focus had seemed to double after he grew quiet. âWhat happened to me not distracting you?â
âIf Iâm just complaining about you, then Iâm not getting distracted. But if youâre interrupting me, then Iâm gonna lose focus. How long does this even need to be stirred?â
âDidnât you read the note I left you?â
âI canât read Terranian yet, and you left it in Terranian.â
Camille could feel her smile break as he reminded herâthough, the only actual change on her expression was a subtle twitch of her lips. Her brain went blank, the only word crossing her mind for a moment being âshitâ as she stared at the boy now working silently across from her.
Thatâs right, you and Sera couldnât talk at all when you first met her.
âHow did you follow the instructions up until now?â
âEyeballed it. I made something similar before, so, itâs not like itâs a big deal. Plus, itâs not like I even asked you to actually write instructions down for meâI just asked if you had the ingredients.â
âGiven how Lumine has talked about how you make your potions⊠Thatâs not really reassuring.â
âI knew what I was doing then, too.â
âDid you?â
Kody grew quiet, pulling the stick out as he transferred the syrup-consistency potion into another glass bottle and seal it.
âI didnât know how it was actually going to react with him, but I knew it wouldnât kill him. I knew what I put in it, and that nothing in it would mix badly together to be that bad.â
âM-hm. At least thereâs that, I guess.â
âI know what Iâm doing.â
Feels like there should be a âusuallyâ there, Camille said silently, watching Kody put the vial aside and seal the remaining ingredients. Youâve got a long way to go, but. That doesnât mean you havenât studied hard already.
âIâll clean everything up, too. So. Donât worry about me making things more of a mess than they already are.â
âDonât worry about it, Iâll get it before I go out today.â Camille waved her hand, watching as Kody pushed himself up. He gathered the emptied and now-dirtied dishes and tools and took them towards the small kitchen. âIf youâre going to try and clean up anyway, just drop them off in the sink thatâs not by the fridge. Itâs the one thatâs for anything that isnât a fruit or vegetable. Potions, meat, whatever.â
âAlright.â Kody did as she instructed, now without any complaint or push-back, and then sat back down across from her. He picked the potionâs bottle back up and held it up to the light, his eyes flickering back and forth through the liquid that almost matched his eye color as he inspected it. âIs it really safe to wash potion bottles next to where you prep meat, though?â
âI mean, nothing I work with in here is toxic. And if it is, then the bottle just gets disposed of.â Camille shrugged, watching him closely. He seemed, at the very least, pleased with the mixtureâs consistency and color. âSo, what made you want to make something for pain? Everything okay?â
âYouâve been complaining about headaches a lot lately, and clearly, youâre not going to do anything about it yourself.â
Camille felt her smile shatter once again, her lips now fully turning into a frown. âYou really noticed that, huh?â
âLumine did, too. He actually overheard you mention it first.â
âSera?â
âYou actually donât say anything about it around her, I donât know if youâre just like. Worried about worrying her or something, but. You donât even really say it to us, you just kind of say it to yourself and keep doing whatever it is youâre doing.â
Camille dragged her hand down her face as she leaned harder into the back of her chair. âAghhh. I didnât even notice.â
âYeah, well. Itâs getting on my nerves, so try this. Itâs cool enough now.â He held the bottle out to her, their green eyes meeting as her attention redirected back towards him.
Getting on your nerves? Is that just your way of saying you worry, in this case? Camille hid her smile, eyes meeting his for a brief moment.
She took the bottle from his hands, much smaller than her own, the glass still subtly warmâpartially from the mixture, partially from his own hands. âSo, you actually sat down and made this for me?â
âHopefully itâs not too acidic from you distracting me.â
Judging by his half-smirk, it was less of a concern, and more of a facetious comment. Something to poke and prod at her.
She couldnât help but smile a bit more, seeing how confident he was. How sure he was that, even though she distracted him so much by talking to him, it would still be alright. Even if he silently struggled with it on most days, she always tried to take the moments that he was so sure of himself in good spirits.
âHa. Even if it was, Iâve definitely had worse than something thatâs a little bit acidic. Iâve probably had coffee worse than it, honestly.â She opened it, sniffed, and hen downed it as quickly as possible. If it was actually acidic, she wouldâhopefullyânot even notice. If anything, it would likely feel no worse than mild heartburnâand at worse, severe heartburn.
âWell, was it?â
She waited for a moment, expecting an aftertaste of⊠Something. Bitterness. Something akin to bile. An incorrect texture from overmixing, adding one ingredient too soon, overheating it, letting it get too cool during the cooking process rather than letting it cool after, something.
But it was no different from what she would have made herself for a patient. Slightly sweet, a bit stickyâit would definitely feel better if she had chased it down with warm water or something else. But it was, actually, up to her standards.
âNot at all, actually.â She said, twisting the neck of the bottle in her fingers. âThat was good work, Kody.â
âYeah? Told you I knew what I was doing. Hope it helps, itâll probably take a little bit, but.â
#fictober24#Lumine#Lumine webcomic#Lumine webtoon#Lumine (webcomic)#Lumine (webtoon)#my fanfics#not on ao3#Last year tumblr kept like. Rearranging my paragraphs. If it did it this time I'll just start biting I think?#Well. Not even just last year. Every time past then.#Anyways hiii happy fictober my favorite writing event is back <3#Wow I think tumblr actually kept my formatting. My italics are still here. That's a surprise.#In the past it Never kept my italics.#I don't think that Kody would want to like... Actually go into potion making in the end past learning to make a few things#I think he really would want to like. Go for a bakery or patisserie. You know?#I think he would learn how to make a few things--injuries pain convenience (Kody please don't make a five hour energy potion...)#I do think that Camille would help him learn how to make these things though. And then ''...... So why do you want a five hour energy.''#And he would just shrug ''Long night baking?''#And she would just frown. So hard. And then teach him anyway and tell him not to overdo it/use it often.#I like the idea of Camille and Sera being like. Good 'mom'' figures for him? Or at the least Camille being a good mentor figure for him.#He needs a few Not Fucking Awful adult women in his life after the way his mother treated him. Good grief.#Also I do headcanon Camille and Sera as like. Exes. They're just ex-girlfriends getting back together to me. Probably marriage eventually.#Also I have specific headcanons about Camille and Sera that I'm gonna start nudging into fanfics in small tiny ways.#If you can pinpoint those things. Good job. I'm delighted.#Anyways I'm gonna stop rambling about where I think Kody would end up in like. Ten years.#Idk why I rambled so much in the tags today good grief. I'm just a little chatty.
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ex-boyfriend toji, who's constantly being pestered by megumi about you. you're not his biological mum, but the boy's formed an attachment to you and craves your affection and warmth. you're the closest thing he's ever had to a mother, having been in his life since he was 3, and he loves you like one too. his dad is all hard and muscles and frowny, and you're all soft and sweet and always smiling at him. it's no wonder his dad couldn't keep you, he thinks.
you never raise your voice at him, feed him the best home-cooked meals, and even help him with his homework (he doesn't actually need help, he just likes the way you let him sit on your lap whilst you're on the floor and wrap your arms around him, struggling to figure out what long division is). even after you and his dad break up you never once held it against him (like other exes had) and you never stopped visiting him.
you're hands down the best (ex) girlfriend toji's ever brought home. you actually made an effort to get closer to megumi and get to know him more often. always looking for fun little things to take him to. whether it's a petting zoo, aquarium, or a normal zoo zoo.
you learnt quickly how much he loved animals and never failed to surprise him with a new plushie. one could never have too many plushies, you said to him once, booping his nose and pulling out a cute turtle from behind your back.
(when he finally moved into the dorms in first year, he had about 3 boxes alone, full of stuffed animals. he didn't have it in his heart to pick and choose which ones to take with him, so he brought all of them. you laughed at first when you saw the flood of plushies on his dorm floor when helping him move, but megumi gave you a small smile, repeating your words from almost a decade earlier.)
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â SATORU GOJO HAS LOVED YOU SINCE YOU WERE KIDS - HEâS GONNA MAKE YOU HIS ! â
⧠series: call it what you want (part one)
⧠pairing: younger!satoru gojo x reader
⧠summary: satoru gojo fell in love with you from the moment he met you at eight years old. and now, in his twenties, when he sees you again after you move back to be closer to your aunt and your cousin, suguru, he knows â he has to make you his by the end of the summer.
⧠warnings: 18+, nsfw, eventual smut, childhood friends to strangers to lovers, fake dating, gojo is four years younger than you, rich boy!gojo, suguru is your little cousin, very fluffy, slow burn, like they don't even kiss, but they will :), love at first sight for gojo, naoya is your ex,
⧠w/c: 15,285
âNever thought weâd be doing this, did you?â Satoru muttered in your ear, breath fanning hot against your neck, âbe a little quieter, sweetheart, otherwise Suguru might hear us,âÂ
You whine, but his fingers drag against your kiss bitten lips, until the digits slide into your mouth, as his hips rut against yours. And you didnât think youâd ever be in position with your cousinâs best friend â pressed to the doorway of your apartment where Suguru could walk in at anytime.Â
This isn't what you thought would happen when you invited him over to talk. This isn't what you thought would happen when you agreed to pretend to date him. This isn't what you thought about -- but how could you think about anything with the way his breath felt against your skin?
He loved you -- loved you since you were kids, and he couldn't let you go, not like this. Not when he had you.
Not that you even wanted him to.
You didnât think youâd shiver as he pressed open mouthed kisses down your neck, tongue flicking against your burning skin. You never thought youâd want to moan his name, like you had, far too many times.Â
âYou may have never thought about this, Princess, but I sure have,â he presses a kiss to your jaw, the wet sounds your skin slapping together, as he reaches around your body, pinned on your stomach to the mattress, to rub at your swollen clit, drawing a muffled cry from your lips, âfar too many times,âÂ
In fact, Satoru Gojo knew exactly the first time he fell for you. It was the day he first met you.Â
âBe my girlfriend!âÂ
It was less of a question and more of a statement. Â
One declared in the doorway of your room, with flushed cheeks and flowers in hand. And they werenât your cheeks or hands, but your baby cousinâs best friend.Â
The first time Satoru Gojo asked you out was at the ripe old age of eleven, but truth be told he had held this crush since the moment he saw you when he had come over to Suguruâs house for the first time, almost three years ago now.
Your fingers brushed his as you gently took the flowers, âSatoru, you know I care about you, but not like that. Youâre better off seeing other people your own age, ok?â You smiled at him, the same way you always did, a slight pout on his lips as he nodded, saying nothing more.Â
And you knew you were right â there was no fucking question that you were right. He was eleven and you were fifteen â an age gap untenable and unreachable.
But nowâ
âLong time no see,â Satoru said, lips curled in an all too cocky smile that you couldnât believe belonged to the same blushing kid who confessed so earnestly back then, âitâs been too long,â your name rolled off his tongue with a familiarity that was the same but all too different.Â
But he wasnât a kid anymore â far from it. It had been over a decade since you had seen him, as the summer he confessed was the last one you had spent at your aunt and uncleâs home. And you and your family moved overseas shortly after that, and you didnât return until now, four years after you graduated college, for a job offer you couldnât pass up.Â
And you didnât realize that so much time had passed.Â
But he did.Â
âEh? What do you mean you canât help me unpack today, Sugu?â you hold the phone between your ear and shoulder, as you rip open the tape on yet another box you had hauled into the proper room to unpack, âyou told meââÂ
âI told you Iâd help you unpack if I had time. But now, Iâm stuck at work until the evening,â you heard your cousin sigh over the phone, âBut donât worry â youâll have helpââÂ
Youâre too busy trying to rip the tape off as you rip into Suguru to notice the door creaking open behind you, âSuguru, I swear to god if youâre sending a total random stranger to help meââÂ
âNot a total stranger,â a voice says behind you, and your head whips around so quick, you nearly drop your phone, gripping it, âunless not seeing me for years makes me one,âÂ
A mess of white locks and sunglasses tilted downward to reveal a hint of his cerulean eyes that you could never forget â but still, you barely recognize the man that has them. Even if the grin on his lips with the lilting sound of his voice told you that he very much recognized you.Â
âSatoru?â Suguruâs explanation falls on deaf ears, as Satoruâs eyes donât bother to take in your new place, all too focused on you, hands slipping into his pockets, âyouââÂ
He steps forward and plucks the phone from your fingers, âYo Suguru, I told you itâd be better as a surprise,â and you gape at him, as his grin curls wider, âyeah, yeah, I didnât take the phone to have you lecturing me â I get enough of that from my dad,â and Suguru says something that makes Satoruâs cheeks flush, and he hangs up, before his attention returns to you, âso, shall we unpack?âÂ
A few minutes turns into hours of hauling boxes inside and then unpacking them. Itâs relatively silent, surprisingly for Satoru. The silence was a far cry from the boy who couldnât shut up for two seconds, telling you about the test he aced or something stupid that one of his classmates said or asking you about your day.Â
Instead you watch him haul boxes like they were filled with styrofoam and air from the truck outside, and then lift his shirt to wipe the sweat from his face, a flash of his abs shiny with perspiration. Your eyes dart away, suddenly incredibly fascinated with the contents of this box of kitchenware you opened up, cheeks burning, wondering when did the little boy you looked after become a man?Â
âPrincess, where do you want this?â Satoru lifts a box, and you canât see the writing on it from the angle he picks it up.Â
âDo you still have to call me Princess?â The embarrassing nickname your aunt had given you still stuck â the one that Suguru would always tease you with, while Satoruâs decidedly lacked any malice, âmy aunt only called me that because she wanted a girl so bad,âÂ
âIs that why Suguru is growing out his hair now? Trying to fulfill her dreams?â You snort, as you walk over to him, âit still fits you regardless of the reason Princess,âÂ
Youâre close, even with the box providing glancing around the box until you find it scrawled on the box underneath his arm â his veryâŠmuscular arm, veins bulging and muscles tense underneath the weight of the boxâ
âSo this is stuff for my bedroom, you can just leave it on the floor, itâs right over here,â you lead him over and he places down the box, âI think thatâs mostly it, Iâm sorry Suguru made you come down here to help,âÂ
âYou donât need to apologize, I wanted to see you,â and you smile softly, âitâs been too long,âÂ
âIt really has,â and your neck strains a little with how he towered over you, âcan't believe youâre the same little boy I used to babysit,âÂ
And he rolls his eyes, âSuguru would say itâs arguable I could still use a babysitter,â and you chuckle, âIâm not so little anymore, but I wouldnât mind if you were my babysitter,âÂ
Was he? No. No, he wasnât.Â
Right?Â
âStop fucking around,â you shake your head, as you head into the kitchen, âdo you want to wash up, and then maybe Iâll order take out to thank you?â Youâre turning on the faucet.Â
You donât notice the slight pout on his lips, one he schools into a smile as you glance back at him, blinking as you find him shirtless.Â
Fuck. How was it possible for a person to be this gorgeous? Sweat slid down his body, slipping between the dips of his chest and ridges of his abs until disappearing into the fabric of his pants, or somewhere hiddenâÂ
You look away â âIâd rather take a shower. Do you mind?â And you force your voice not to come out a squeak, busying yourself with washing your hands, just so you donât have to look.Â
âYeah, of course, the bathroom is just around the corner. There should already be fresh towels inside,â and yet his steps grow closer, as you glance back, âuhââÂ
Heâs still fucking shirtless.Â
âInstead of take out, can we grab dinner somewhere? You havenât been back to the area recently so itâs a good chance to show you around,âÂ
âYou really donât have toââÂ
âI want to, Princess,â he cuts you off, reaching around you to grab a water bottle off the counter, âget ready while I clean up?âÂ
And you bite your lip, âOkay, okay,â and he grins back, a glimpse of the little boy that beams at you when youâd praise him for a high mark on a test.Â
âItâs a date!â And heâs off, disappearing into the bathroom, and youâre left there, wondering â what had you gotten yourself into?Â
~~~
âSo,â Satoru lifts a spoonful of his dessert â a fruit parfait with a sugar coma inducing amount of whipped cream â and you were almost relieved to see some things about him hadnât changed. How many times had you scolded him as a kid not to eat so much sugar â and he still hasnât kicked the habit. You bit back your chuckle, as he spoke, âdid you get dumped?âÂ
You almost choke on your drink, as you splutter for a moment, before glaring at him.Â
And yet the more they stayed the same.Â
âI see youâre as subtle as you were when you were 11,â you mutter, setting your drink down, as you wipe your mouth with a napkin. Satoru tilts his head, a smirk pulling at the corner of his lips.Â
âSo you dumped him?â He leans back, âI didnât know you had such high standards,â your cheeks burn, distracting yourself with becoming enthralled in the menu â Satoru had dragged you to a hole in the wall barbecue place (after your insistence that you didnât want anything fancy after unpacking for hours).Â
âHow did you know I brokeââ and you cut yourself off at the obviousness of the answer, slapping another piece of meat on the grill, the sizzle punctuated by your words, âIâm going to murder him,âÂ
âWell, youâre in the right place to dispose of his body,â Satoru licks the spoon clean, before sticking it back in the whipped cream, âwhy did you break up with him?âÂ
You shrugged, âI realized he was a narcissistic prick who only wanted me as a trophy,â and Satoru whistled lowly, âIâm done with dating losers. And dating in general,âÂ
âI donât think you should give up on dating just because you had a few bad experiences,â his voice grows soft, âyou deserve to be happy and taken care of, even if you have bad taste,âÂ
And you pout, âI donât have-â and he tilts his head, and you lift a few pieces of meat from the grill onto your plate, tongs clattering slightly as you set it down, âfuck, I do,â you groan, shaking your head, âthatâs why I had to get out of there. Just needed a fresh start you know?âÂ
âSometimes thatâs just what you need,â and your lips curl.Â
âSounds like you speak from experience,â and his eyes flit up to yours, gleaming in the low light of the restaurant, cerulean irises catching the drops of light like comets across his gaze.Â
âDonât know what you mean, Princess,â he busies himself with his parfait, and you scoff.Â
âCome on, half the girls in this place are glaring at me while I sit here, the waitress has been flirting with you, and now they had brought you out the biggest dessert that Iâm starting to wonder if they even serve it here,â he spares a glance around, several gasps from giggling girls who avert their gazes, before his eyes are back on you.Â
âJealous?â You roll your eyes â he wasnât lacking for ego at least.Â
âMore like wondering what a guy like you is still doing single,â and he sighs, leaning back, with a tilt of his head.Â
âYou sure are curious about me,â and his gaze softens for a moment, while he picks at his dessert, scooping the strawberry off the top, âthereâs only really been one person that I really wanted,â his tone grew more serious, lips in a bittersweet smile, âbut sheâs never really looked me like that,âÂ
âDonât tell me itâs one of those things where she rejected you and you have to have her now,â and he chuckles, shaking his head, gaze far too wistful.Â
His words are slow, as slow as the ice melting in your glass, âItâs more of if I donât have her, I donât want anyone else,â and your heart squeezed â would you ever have someone care so deeply for you?Â
âThen why havenât you said anything?â you picked up another piece of meat off the grill, âanyone would be lucky to be with you,â and you meant it â he was blunt, but also kind, sweet, not to mention rich and you flushed as you thought back to his hiked up shirt â good looking.Â
But he only stares back at you, tilting his head â expression unreadable, an emotion you canât grasp before itâs hidden under his gazeâs tempered waters, âAre you included, Princess?âÂ
Thereâs a pause, as you almost chuckle, but your laugh dying in your throat at his expression â that same smirk, but the way he looks at you stops your mind in its tracks â only one word rolling around in your head: what?ïżœïżœ
And your brow furrows, your lips parting in a response you donât have â only questions, ones you donât get to ask as Suguru slides in beside you.Â
âSorry, Iâm late,â Suguru sighs, the moment broken, and you donât catch Satoruâs expression, too distracted by your cousin, âgot stuck in a staff meeting,âÂ
âI told you academia is hell,â you elbow him, and Suguru rolls his eyes, as he shrugs off his suit coat, âwere these meetings the reasons you got held up or are they just an excuse so you didnât have to help me?âÂ
âWho said it canât be both?â And he earns a smack to his shoulder, your attention turning back to Satoru, his gaze fixed outside.Â
âYouâre unusually quiet, Satoruâ Suguru kicks him lightly under the table, ânot like you,âÂ
He looks at you first â and you grasp the emotion he had hid before â what was it? Sadness? Longing? â right before itâs gone again as he slides his mask back on, grinning as he always does.Â
âWhat can I say? The view outside is much better than your ugly mug,â and the two of them begin to bicker, and you lean back in your seat, a smile pulling at your lips, even as you glanced back at Satoru.Â
And now you wondered if you would ever get an answer to your questions. Or maybe, you sipped your drink, it was better not to have it answered at all.Â
~~~
Satoru Gojo was eleven years old when he fell in love with you. It was from the moment he met you.Â
And there hasnât been anyone else since.Â
He supposed it was inevitable in a way â since Suguru was his best friend, and his first, and when his family finally decided to enroll him in school, instead opting for private tutors, for the social aspect of making connections, of course. Because what else was your eleven year old son good for then helping to make future business deals easier?Â
But Satoru made friends with the one person who couldnât help their deals â Suguru Geto, one of the only scholarship students in the entire school. And Satoruâs want to avoid spending his days with servants or on the rare occasion, dealing with his dadâs lecture for getting in another âdisagreementâ with one of his classmates (that ended with that classmate crying after Satoru evaded his punch and kicked him in the shin), ended up with him at Suguruâs place. A lot.Â
Then soon enough, he was spending most of his summers there too. And thatâs when he saw you.Â
âYou said your cousinâs here? Is she nice?â Satoru asked, taking off his shoes, as Suguru shut the door behind them.Â
âShe is, except when sheâs being a pain about homework. And when she gets mad, she reminds me of my mom,â Suguru grimaced, as he walked past him, calling out for you. You rounded the corner, book in hand, and Satoruâs eyes grew wide.Â
âHey Sugu, you brought a friend?â You walked over, still clad in your high school uniform, before introducing yourself, and offering him a warm smile, âitâs nice to meet you. Iâm Suguruâs cousin,âÂ
Satoru didnât know what this feeling was â and he wouldnât until a few more summers passed, and his hormones kicked in â but all he knew was that he would do anything to see you smile like that at him again. And he did â he would spend as much time as he could with you â talking to you about a test he aced, about something funny that happened at school, or even ratting on Suguru about what he was up to (earning him many knocks to the head by his best friend). But every time you smiled or laughed, it was worth it â worth every second he spent counting down the time to summer break so he could see you again.Â
But he didnât know his seconds would run out so soon â and he only learned one random day going home with Suguru, from a snippet of a conversation he had with his mom.Â
âI know, I know sheâs coming next week,â Satoruâs interest hadnât been peaked by Suguruâs conversation until then, because he knew exactly who they were talking about. After all, you always came right at the start of break, and finally he could see you again â and maybe this time, he could tell you how he felt.Â
âI know, I know itâs her last time here so it has to be perfect,â and Satoruâs head snapped back to Suguru, last time? âI will,â and Suguru hangs up, a sigh on his lips, âmy mom is being so annoying about my cousin. So what itâs her last time staying with us? It doesnât mean we have toââÂ
âWhat do you mean itâs her last time?â Satoru kept his tone steady and slow, even as his heart thrummed against his ribs as if it was a xylophone, âshe always comes every summerââÂ
âOf high school,â Suguru corrected him, âshe is applying to university this year â most of them are abroad, and it seems likely she wonât be back in Japan, not for a while,â Suguru continued to complain on their way back to his place, but all Satoru could do was think about you.Â
It was your last summer with him. His last chance to make a move, to be something more than your younger cousinâs friend. His last chance to make you see him as a man, not a kid.Â
He had to confess, his fingers curled into fists, before the end of the summer. He would make you his girlfriend â one way or another.Â
And he did confess back then, Satoru thought, as he picked up a photo, wrinkled and yellowed at the corners, a picture that Suguruâs mom had taken of you and him the summer you had left. A candid of him and you looking at each other â one that Suguruâs mom had slipped to him with a knowing smile and a wink (one that had mortified him as a teenager).Â
He was always looking at you â no matter where he was, his eyes always found your form, a magnet to its opposite pole, and he didnât know how to stop you from drawing him in. It had been over a decade and he still couldnât.Â
He stared at your smiling face, the very same face that had looked at you with a smile fading to confusion this evening. He had gotten so close to asking you â to telling you how he felt â and he flips to the next picture, a scowl on his face as a picture of him and Suguru with his smug smile stared back at him. If only fucking Suguru hadnât interrupted.Â
He shook his head, flipping back to his picture of you. This wasnât the summer and he wasnât a kid anymore. And you werenât out of his reach, bound for another country across the ocean. No, you were here â only a short drive away.Â
And he made a promise to himself â he would get you to fall in love with him, before the end of this summer.Â
~~~
You hate first days.Â
âDid you see the guy waiting outside?â one woman whispered not so softly as you passed by.Â
âYeah looks like heâs waiting for her,â the otherâs lips formed a frown but only to hide her smirk.Â
From the time you were a kid, your first day of school was something you had all the time from your family moving around. You were always the new kid â the one who would be met with wide eyes and curiosity, only to be tossed aside a few days later.Â
But this was a fresh start that you had wanted â a new job far away from where you had started, with new responsibilities â a first day you had looked forward to, until it went so downhill.Â
And it was all your exâs fault.Â
You texted Suguru â is it too early to quit on the first day?Â
He replies, well itâs been four hours, think youâve lasted through one of my dadâs long winded stories longer than that. What happened?Â
You glanced outside towards the front of the building. It was more like âwho happened?âÂ
It was an innocuous enough morning, of introductions, trainings, orientation, and finally computer set up. You were rifling through your paperwork, trying to figure out what sheet looked the least daunting when someone called for you.Â
âThereâs someone looking for you outside the lobby,â you saw a flurry of looks shared and smirks shot in your direction, and when you arrived downstairs you knew why.Â
What. The. Fuck.Â
You couldnât help it. You bursted outside, âwhat are you doing here?â It was your ex â the very same ex who had started at the same overseas company after you both graduated and the one you had. And again, had chosen to follow you here.Â
âWaiting for you to change yer mind,â Naoya tilts his head, hands in his pocket, âand I know you will, because you love me,â he raises his voice to catch the eye of several passerby, and you grab his wrist, dragging him away.Â
âFuck off,â you hiss under your breath, âI told you itâs over, and donât you have a fucking job?âÂ
âDid you forget? Iâm rich, another reason ya canât do better than me,â Naoyaâs lips curl into that same grin, one you knew as charming once, until you saw past his pretty pink lips and glimpsed the sharp fangs behind them, âI took time off. Did ya think it was a coincidence we ended up at the same company?âÂ
You gritted your teeth, âNaoyaââ and he breaks from your grip, instead his fingers dig into your wrist.Â
âAll ya are is me. All that you have is me. And all you will have is me,â he dared closer, breath warming your lips, as he took hold of your other wrist and tugged you close, âthe sooner you accept that, the better, doll,âÂ
âDoll.â The term of endearment you had seen as precious to you. Something you always loved to hear roll off his tongue, the word you had learned to learned to reply to, even more than your own name. The one you regarded with such love had burned, burned until the flames licked your skin and knew what it really meant â a doll with strings, one he was meant to be the master of.Â
âDonât call me that,â you rip your hands away, âleave. Youâre embarrassing yourself,âÂ
âAm I?â He tilts his head, jerking his head in the direction of your building where your offices had a clear view of this, âor am I just embarrassing you?âÂ
You stared out the window for a moment and you knew he was still out there â judging but the way your phone was on the verge of suicide by notification, he was still very much there. And now, all people would know of you is the new worker with a crazy stalker ex.Â
Iâm calling the police, Suguruâs text popped up, whatâs your workplaceâs address?Â
You think I hadnât thought of that, Sugu? You sigh, heâs not doing anything. Heâs on a public sidewalk. They canât do anything to him.Â
Another text: when do you get out? You glance at the time, seeing another two coworkers whisper to each other, stealing looks.Â
An eternity â In another two hours.Â
Iâll handle it. Just wait in the lobby after work. And you frown.Â
Sugu, I can handle it. I donât need you to come down here.Â
You always fought your battles. You didnât need anything else to â or anyone else to pick them for you. Not even your baby cousin â no matter how sweet his intentions were.Â
Donât worry. Iâm not coming down. And you frown, staring at the text, before your phone rings, and you groan as âAssistant Directorâ flashes on the screen. Â
You were so fired.Â
You werenât â as you shut the door of his office behind you. However, he did advise you that this company had a strict no nonsense policy and did want personal drama to be dredged up in the office. And you were given the day to sort out your âmess.âÂ
You scrub a hand down your face, but it wasnât even your mess, and how would you fix it? He wasnât going to listen to you. You sit at your desk, packing up your bag for the day. And your phone vibrates.Â
Come down.Â
You hesitate, But heâs still downstairs.Â
Just go.Â
Fuck. You sling your bag over your shoulder, piercing eyes digging into your back, vultures circling an already dead carcass, whispering still even as the elevators doors shut.Â
And you almost wish they never opened when you see whatâs waiting for you outside.Â
Fuck.Â
You grit your teeth, stomach in absolute knots as if to brace yourself for the complete shitstorm youâre about to deal with.Â
âSatoru?âÂ
Satoru Gojo leaned back against his expensive (likely imported) car, shiny as it was new, sunglasses glinting in the light, but not brighter than the grin he gives you. He holds out your favorite drink, a tilt of his head.Â
âAre you ready to go?âÂ
You glance around, as he places the drink in your hand, âBut what aboutââ
âLet go of me!âÂ
Satoruâs lips curl, sliding his sunglasses down the bridge of his nose, âOh, Iâve gotten him handled,âÂ
Naoya stood between two men restraining him, both in suits, as his face contorted in anger, veins bulging, eyes darting between the two of you, âDo you know who I am? Iâm the heir to the Zenin Corporation â you cannot treat me like this. Iâll have youââÂ
âHeir? Really?â Satoru stepped forward, blocking him from your view, âis that right? I thought the Zenin hadnât decided announced a successor yet,âÂ
You furrow your brow â how does Satoruâ but then youâre being put into a car with Satoruâs arm curled around your waist, as he opens the door and tucks you into the passenger seat.Â
And now you wonât know. At least not now.Â
Naoya scoffed, âAnd who are you to know anything aboutââÂ
âHave you heard of the Six Eyes Corp,â and Naoyaâs eyes narrow, âyou should have because we account for a large chunk of your business. And if that support were to disappear,â he flashes his blue eyes at him over the rim of his sunglasses, âIâd hate to tell them itâs because of this,âÂ
âYou fucking liar, like you could tell anyone anythingââÂ
Satoru chuckles, âYouâre right, I am a liar,â he runs his fingers through his hair, âI donât need to tell anyone. Except my father,âÂ
Naoyaâs sneer fades into confusion, his eyes narrowed, âDonât fucking tell meââÂ
âThen I wonât,â he steps forward, hands slipping into his pockets, âbut if you ever step in her presence again,â he jerks his head towards you in his car, âthen I will, and you donât wanna know what happens if I do,â he steps in front of Naoya, back blocking your view so you donât see him grab Naoyaâs wrist, blue eyes aflame with something far deeper than anger, âbecause it will much worse,â he squeezes Naoyaâs wrist hard making him flinch as he grits his teeth at Satoruâs smiling face, âwho knows? Maybe Iâll break your wrist next time.âÂ
He turns around, waving off the guards, as he makes his way back to his car, sliding into the driverâs seat, smile fading to concern.Â
âAre you alright, Princess?â Youâre watching those people drag Naoya away, his hateful gaze trying and failing to get a last look at you as the guard takes a hand to the back of his head to force his gaze forward.Â
âWhere are they taking him?âÂ
Satoru starts the car, the quiet rumble of the engine filling the silence of his pause, âjust to the proper authorities. He wonât bother you again,âÂ
You bit your bottom lip, eyes burning with tears â and you donât know whether if itâs embarrassment or relief, âIâm sorryââÂ
âDonât finish that sentence,â and your eyes slide to his, a soft smile on his lips, âyou donât have anything to be sorry about. Or to thank me for,â he cuts you off as your lips part, âis your wrist okay?âÂ
You glance down and see the slight redness still lingered, a final parting gift, and your other hand closes over the wrist, âit hurts a little, but Iâll ice it when I get home,âÂ
âWeâll go to a hospital to have it looked at,â and youâre shaking your head.Â
âI donât want to sitââÂ
âThen Iâll hire a doctor to come see you,â and you stare at him, as he rolls to a stop at a red lightâŠis that a pout? âI just want you to be ok, Princess, please,âÂ
You bite back a small smile, and ignore the flutter in your heart, âFine, you win, letâs go to a walk-in clinic,â and you spot his shoulders relax, âbut itâs not really fair when you give me your infamous pout,ïżœïżœÂ
He raises an eyebrow, ââInfamous?ââÂ
âYou used to whip that out all the time on me and on my aunt when you were a kid â it did always work,âÂ
âNot always,â he replies, as he turns into the parking for the walk-in clinic, âin fact, I remember a time that it specifically did not work,âÂ
âAnd when was that?â You tilt your head.Â
And he smiles, âWhen I asked you to be my girlfriend,â and you furrow your brow, nearly forgetting the memory, until it hits you.Â
âOh my god, the last summer I spent here,â you covered your mouth with the tips of your fingers, a chuckle on your lips, âyou were very direct,âÂ
âI could say the same about you,â and you roll your eyes.Â
âYou were a kid. You were way too young for me, you know that,â you unbuckle your seatbelt, âplus now I bet you could get any person you want. Thatâs why I was surprised why you didnât have a girlfriend,â
âLike I said, thereâs only one woman in the world for me,â his eyes find yours, cerulean bathed in sunlight, light catching across his irises, âand only one woman I ever wanted to be with,â
Oh.Â
Oh.Â
No, no, that couldnât be it â you couldnât be her, not after all this timeâ
You blink, âSatoru, you donâtââÂ
âWell our age difference isnât a problem anymore is it?â Your brain is struggling to process, lips parting with no words, âPrincess,â his fingers brush yours, gently grazing your hand, as your gaze finds his again, âwhen are you going to take me seriously?âÂ
âSatoruââÂ
âJust donât say no,â Satoru cuts you off, pulling his hand away, âdonât say no and think about it,â you open your mouth only to waver at the sight of the pout on his lips and you sigh.Â
It was hard to say no, especially right now.Â
âOkay I wonât say no,â you slip from the car, lips breaking into a wide grin, before sticking your head inside, âdonât smile like that. Itâs not a yes,â you huff, cheeks burning and stomach erupting in butterflies.Â
âNot yet,â Satoru says as you shut the door, ânot yet, Princess.âÂ
~~~
âHuh? You did what?âÂ
You loved your aunt. You really did. She and her husband had taken you in when your parents were too busy working to properly take care of you during the summers. But times like this reminded youâ
â-she truly was her motherâs sister.Â
âWell your mother was telling me that you havenât dated anyone since youâve been backââÂ
âIt's only been a month!â You had barely finished getting unpacked, and in fact, you still had at least five boxes still stacked up in the closet, âIâm not interested in dating, Iâm trying to focus on work,â you rubbed the back of your head, ânew topic, please,â as you sip on your drink.Â
And after the debacle Naoya had caused, you needed to â you had put up with the whispers and stares for a few days, but since Naoya had stayed away, the rumors faded with time. Now things had died down for the most part. Except forâ
âHas Satoru still been picking you up?â You nearly do a spit take, but instead you choke down the water, coughing, âeh? Are you okay, honey?âÂ
âIâm fine, Iâm fine,â your cheeks burn at the thought of Satoru â he was always a bold kid, but you didnât think heâd confess to being in love with you all this time. Especially now as a man â and not a kid, âyeah heâs still picking me up,âÂ
When he had confessed to you all those years ago as a young teenager, you had thought nothing of it. Except that it was a crush on his best friendâs older cousin â something that would pass easily with time. You hadnât even thought of it in all these years.Â
But now, you couldnât stop thinking about him.Â
Especially when he kept showing up to pick you up from work. And now you were stirring other sorts of rumors.Â
After he had taken you to the walk-in clinic, he had driven you home, making sure to check if your place was secure enough, and that you werenât too shaken up.Â
âAre you sure you donât want me to drop you off to Suguruâs?â he had asked, crossing his arms, âI could also drag his ass here, he owes me anyway,âÂ
âNo, no Iâm really fine,â you chewed your lip, looking down, âyou sure heâs not going to come back?â and he leans down, forcing you to meet his gaze, as he tilts his head.Â
âSweetheart, you think Iâd even leave your place if I thought there was a chance of him coming back?â he offers you a smile, and you scoff softly, shaking your head, âtrust me, he wonât be bothering you again, not while Iâm around,â and he added, âand Iâm not going anywhere.âÂ
And you didnât know what to do with the promise in his words. Because you knew he meant that â in more than one way.Â
But even so, he hadnât brought up his confession â not once.Â
âHeâs so sweet isnât he? Suguru is always so busy but Satoruâs making time to pick you instead,â your aunt gushes, and you shake your head, your aunt did have a habit of being a little hard on her son, âby the way, would you mind stopping by the house today?âÂ
âWhyâs that?âÂ
And well, how did you end up here?Â
You stood in front of the entrance to a very expensive looking building with a very intimidating doorman, with a large tote bag full of food that your aunt had insisted you drop off. She had given you his address, but by the time you arrived, you realized that you didnât even have his number. And now Suguru or your aunt werenât picking up their phones.Â
Fuck.Â
You were internally debating whether to talk to the doorman or to just go home and deal with this another time, when you heard someone speak behind you.Â
âLooking for someone?â You jump slightly, whirling when you see Satoru, hands in his pockets, a smile on his lips, as he lifts his sunglasses to meet your gaze, âdidnât think Iâd find you hanging outside my apartment building, princess,âÂ
âWell, you show up outside my workplace and Iâll be showing up outside your apartment building,â the words leave your mouth without much thought, as your cheeks burn at the implication, âI meanââÂ
âIs that supposed to discourage me from picking you up?â he grins, âDoesnât sound like a bad deal to me,âÂ
You roll your eyes, before holding up the bag, âMy aunt asked me to drop off some dishes for you. Sheâs worried youâre eating too many sweets,âÂ
He takes the bag from your hand, fingers brushing, as he shakes his head, âI shouldnât have ever told her that I had cake for dinner,â and you snort, unable to hide your giggles, âwhatâs so funny?âÂ
âI can see a lot about you has changed, but your sweet tooth is just as bad as when you were a kid,â and you see him scratch the back of his head, âis your favorite dessert still mochi?âÂ
âYou still remember that about me?â A smile pulling at his lips, and your cheeks burn, but you refuse to waver.Â
âWell, itâs hard to forget you threw up all over the rug when you ate too many,â You bite back a smile when you spot the tips of his ears burn red, as he gapes at you.Â
âDid you have to bring that up?â He mutters, a small pout on his lips, and you snort, as he canât help the curl of his lips, ânow, câmon,â his fingers brush the small of your back.Â
âSatoru, whereââ but his hand is firm as he guides you towards his building.Â
He flashes you a grin as he signs you in with the doorman, âDo you think Iâd let you come all this way without staying for dinner?âÂ
~~~
âDo you want anything to drink?â Satoruâs penthouse was nothing less than immaculate â high ceilings, pristine floors, and an interior designed living space. You swore in some places it was still shiny â and you felt very out of place in your casual wear for the weekend.Â
âJust a water,â you reply, as he opens his refrigerator and you raise an eyebrow at the fully stocked compartments, âwow,â you murmur, and heâs pulling a water and a fancy looking juice out of it.Â
âWhat was that?â He raises a brow, and you stammer a moment, âcâmon princess, share with the class,âÂ
âJust surprised your refrigerator isnât just stuffed with just desserts, sweets, and ice cream,â and he hands you your water, before sitting beside you, spread out on the couch, as he always was.Â
âOh it is, itâs just very well hidden,â and you snort, as he throws his arm over the back of the couch, âI may be an adult but Iâm not going to be a boring old geezer like my father,âÂ
âI donât think I could ever see you becoming boring, Satoru,â you chuckle, and he tilts his head.Â
âIs that a rare compliment from you, princess?â And his grin only makes your cheeks warm, as you roll your eyes.
âMore like an observation,â you reply, as your phone vibrates in your pocket, and you pull it out to check â who would be messaging you now?Â
Oh fuck.Â
âYou ok there?âÂ
No, no you werenât. Because your lovely aunt had given your number to a prospective match, and now he was texting you. A lot.Â
âItâs nothing,â you sigh, shaking your head, putting your phone on âdo not disturb.â You would have dinner first, and then youâd murder your aunt after dessert, âdo you want me to help take out dinner?âÂ
âYou expect me to believe you donât hire a chef to make these sides?â The food was spread out across the table, many of the dishes your aunt had made plated and presented, but along with sides that Satoru had made, âSuguru had made it seem as if the only thing you ever made was microwave ramen,âÂ
âWell jokes on him, I burned it the one time I tried,â he grinned, âbut I did learn to cook, I just never bothered to cook for Suguru,âÂ
âAnd whyâs that?â You take a bite of the pickled radish he had prepared.Â
âBecause Iâm not trying to impress him, am I?â And you nearly choke slightly, as you manage to swallow, âyou should know Iâm so much more than a pretty face, Princess,âÂ
You sigh, âSatoruââ
âHave you thought about what I said at all?âÂ
And you had. A lot more than you cared to admit. Especially after all he had done. Everything he had to Naoya to defend you. And just about him â how sweet heâs been, how protective, how kind, and how youâd like nothing more than to do the same for himâ
ButâŠ
âI have, but Satoru, our agesââÂ
âWeâre both adults. We both graduated. We havenât seen each other in over a decade,â his leg brushes yours as he shifts closer, âare you telling me you donât feel anything?âÂ
You didnât know how to answer that â not when you didnât really know yourself. And you always knew the answer â you knew you wanted to study abroad, you knew you had to leave Naoyaâs company, and you knew you wanted to live here â so why was this the one time you didnât? And why was he the one thing you were unsure of?Â
You bite your bottom lip, âBut, Suguruââ and he scoffs softly.Â
âAre you really thinking about Suguru right now?â he asks, âor would you rather date the guy blowing up your phone earlier?âÂ
Your eyebrows knit together, âHow did you knowââÂ
âWell I know itâs not Naoya, and I heard from Suguru that your aunt wanted to set you up,â fucking Suguruâand your lips twist into a pout, he tilts his head, not bothering to hide his smile, âif you dated me, you could get your aunt off your back,â he muses, leaning against his elbow, âshe always did say I was family, and Iâm not looking to be your brother,âÂ
Your cheeks burn at his words, âSatoru,â
âThink about it, Princess, you donât have to give me an answer now,â but his eyes flicker to your phone, âbut I know youâll find me once you meet any one of these guys your aunt sets you up with,âÂ
You grimace at your phone, picking it up to see the messages from the guy your aunt had given your number to, âfuck,â you murmur, locking your phone before tossing it away, an image of you trapped at a dinner across the most boring man alive. And then you glance up at Satoru, still a smug smile on his lips, and then back to your phone.Â
âWhatâs your plan?âÂ
~~~
âSo, I heard you turned down the boy I gave your number to,âÂ
Your aunt hardly pulled punches.Â
She never did when you and Suguru were growing up â she always knew what the two of you got up to, even if you were both sure she could never find out â she always did. Even the one time that the two of you had snuck out to get ramen on a late night, Suguruâs parents were in a dead sleep â but by the time you both snuck back in, she was waiting for both of you in the hallway. But this time, she wasnât even leading with a wind-up before swinging.Â
And then she adds, eyes narrowing, âHe said you declined because youâre dating someone,âÂ
She was going for the kill.Â
She turns to grab the whistling tea kettle, turning it off, before pouring the hot water into two cups. You force yourself not to bite your bottom lip, the smallest tell was dangerous, even with her back turned, âIs there anything he didnât tell you?â Sheâs placing the tea cups one by one on the tray, as if laying out her pieces on a board only to corner you.Â
Your aunt frowns, âHis mother told me,â great, even better â he was a mommaâs boy, and now you were starting to wonder just how many bullets did you dodge, âare you seeing someone?âÂ
You were beginning to regret this plan â and you donât know why you let Satoru talk you into it.Â
âYou want me to do what?â You stared at Satoru as if he had suggested going diving with sharks, which is not far from what he was suggesting, âtell my aunt that weâre together. No way,âÂ
âAw, am I that embarrassing to date, Princess?â And you roll your eyes.Â
âYes, for me,â and heâs tilting his head, âmy aunt will immediately tell my uncle and Suguru â and I donât know which one of them would kill you first,â your uncle wasnât one for words or conflict, but he had a soft spot for you â and a fist for anyone that tried to come date you without his approval.Â
âEh? Doesnât Uncle like me?â And you snort, the one sided conversations that Satoru had with your uncle that usually ended with your uncle excusing himself to get away from that âannoying moron.âÂ
âHe doesnât hate you but,â you choose your words carefully, âhe doesnât prefer you,âÂ
Satoru scoffs, crossing his arms, âWell Auntie loves me, and I had a plan for this,â and she did, she had quite the soft spot for Satoru, ever since he was a kid. You couldnât exactly blame her â he looked like an angel, even if the words that left his mouth made it seem like the contrary, his fingers brushing against a strand of your hair, âand soon Iâll make you love me too,âÂ
Fucking cocky bastard, you thought to yourself, cheeks burning at the thought of the smirk on his lips, but youâre jarred back to reality as you hear the clattering of cups and spoons. Â
âI am,â you reply, and your auntâs head whips around, the clinking of the glasses cutting through the pause, âitâs new,â you add, as she sets down the tea cups, placing the tea dispensers in each one, âI wasnât sure if I should say anything,âÂ
âWhy wouldnât you? This is wonderful,â she blinked, and her brow wrinkles, âunless itâs that Naoyaââ you flinch at the thought of him.Â
âNo, Iâm done with him,â you wave her off quickly, wrinkling your nose at the thought of that bastard, grabbing the tea cup, the scent of green tea wafting from the steam that warmed your face, as you blew air to cool it off, âitâs someone I reconnected with here,âÂ
Your aunt raises an eyebrow, âSo soon? Is it someone from work?â Again, is the word she implies with the sentence, a sharp tone that nicked your armor.Â
âNo, it isnât,â and sheâs sipping her tea, and you take a sip only to burn your tongue, âbut he is younger,âÂ
âThatâs not a problem if heâs not too much younger â how old is he?â and this was exactly why you hadnât wanted to tell your aunt, it was more of an interrogation than a conversation.Â
âHeâs about Suguruâs age,â and sheâs tilting her head, âSuguru introduced us,â and that wasnât a lie â it was true â both in the past and now.Â
âReally? And Sugu is okay with you dating his friend?â Your aunt may be gossip and a meddler, but she wasnât a fool, your hesitation is your end, âand I assume youâre telling me all this to get me off your case and to ask not to tell Suguru,â she sighs.Â
âAuntieââÂ
âYou know I donât like lying for either of youââÂ
âButââÂ
âNo, I canâtââÂ
âHow about lying for me?â Satoru stands in the doorway, head tilted, a smile on his lips. And your aunt blinks before she slowly puts the puzzle pieces together, a mix of emotions crossing her expression â confusion, disbelief, and maybe a hint of joy, before she settled on a neutralÂ
âSatoruââÂ
He frowns, âAuntie, you know Suguru will kill me for dating his cousin, please,â and then he does what he does best â pouting.Â
And your aunt breaks â with a one hit-KO.Â
âYou must have been blessed by some needlessly annoying god,â you murmur as he walks you back to your place, sun gleaming as it gave off its last rays of light before setting for the night, âbecause I donât know how you still get her to fall for that,âÂ
âI was born blessed,â and you snort, as you catch sight of his smile out of the corner of your eye, âand speaking of which, whenâs our first date?âÂ
âStraight to the point, huh?â You stop walking, hands in your pockets, âSatoruââÂ
âDonât tell me youâre about to launch into another speech about how you canât date me,â he gives an exaggerated sigh, âI could go back to your aunt and tell her how you broke my heart and let her pull out list of aunties who have sons who are excited to meet youââÂ
âAlright, fine, a date, but one thing first,â you step close to him, making his breath catch, pretty blues finding your gaze, the very same he would love to get lost in, before they flicker down to your lips. And he swears you can probably hear his heart beating out of his chest, thumping at the bony bars of his ribcage, and he hates it, hates how you have him twisted around your finger without trying, âPrincessââÂ
You reach for him, fingers nearly about to brush his cheek, his eyes fluttering, before you flick his forehead, âow!âÂ
âI was just going to ask when our first date is going to be, but if you rather I go on a bunch of blind datesââ and heâs shaking his head, rubbing his forehead all the same, âthen do you have any ideas?âÂ
He grins, âPlenty, but thereâs one in particular.âÂ
~~~~
âAn amusement park?âÂ
He sat next to you, driving, hand on the console and you couldnât help but brush your arm against his each time you moved â and you felt as if he did it on purpose.Â
He raises an eyebrow, stealing a glance out of the corner of his eye, âUh-huh, got a problem, Princess?âÂ
âNo Iâm just surprised, we went to plenty of these as kids,â you glanced at him, his eyes concentrated on the road, fingers curling a little tighter around the steering wheel.Â
You had raised an eyebrow at his choice, but now that you were hereâŠit wasnât a bad pick.Â
You hadnât been to one in years â not since your summers with Suguru. The screams in the distance told you there was a rollercoaster not far off, the syrupy sweetness of sugar somehow emanated from every inch of air, and the park was filled to the brim with families and couples.Â
You glance at Satoru, a plain t-shirt and shorts, and somehow he still looked as if he stepped off a page of a menâs style magazine. He looked around, his eyes landing on a vendor selling cotton candy, and you hid your chuckle.Â
âCâmon,â you took his hand, leading him over without a second thought, and youâre grabbing a giant cotton candy for him, made into a flower by the vendor. Satoruâs practically vibrating with excitement, slinking his hand around to sneak the vendor money before you even had a chance, âI wanted to payââÂ
âYou think Iâd make my date pay?â He takes a bite out of his cotton candy, sugar sticking to his lips even as he nearly inhales a petal, âeven the arranged set ups should do that much,â but itâs hard to take him seriously with blue sugar all over his mouth, âwhat?âÂ
You snort, grabbing a wet nap from your purse,âWell, youâd be surprised,â and you wipe his face, fingers cupping his chin, âsome guys are a little immature,â and he stares back, and you swear you see a flush settle over his cheeks, before he turns away to wipe his lips.Â
âNot me,â he mumbles, tips of his ears burning red, and you bite your bottom lip, cute.Â
âShould we find a ride to go on?â he immediately grins at that, offering his arm this time, and you take it, a smile tugging at your lips.Â
Maybe this wasnât so bad after all.Â
~~~
Oh you were wrong.Â
So wrong.Â
âI changed my mind, I donât want to get on,â and before you can leave a hand catches you by the wrist gently, blue eyes judging over his rimless sunglasses, âSatoruââÂ
âItâs just a rollercoaster,â just a rollercoaster? No, it was literally your death. You stared up at the contraption above you, the echoing screams growing louder as the line crept forward â akin to a rickety boat that Charon would wade you across into hell itself.Â
âNo, I canâtââ you shake your head.Â
âCâmon it wonât be that badââÂ
âSo you admit itâs going to be bad,â and heâs biting back a smile, âwhat?âÂ
âI just never really saw you being scared of anything, Princess,â he sighed loudly, âI guess Iâll have to ride it all alone,â but that only serves to make many women (and men) stare at him as if to offer him their company.Â
âYou have options,â and he shakes his head, his hand outstretched as the two of you enter the final stretch of the line.Â
âLike I said, sweetheart, thereâs only ever been one option for me,â and your fingers graze his with several second thoughts, but when his fingers laced with yours, you knew there was no turning back.Â
âI didnât know you could scream that loud,âÂ
You grinned at a shaken up Satoru, throat probably raw and aching as he frowns, face turned away, âIâm not used to the speed, unlike you, from how I heard you drive,â and you bite back a laugh, as he fails to hide his flush from you, his ears burning red.Â
Your chuckle is a badly disguised cough, âAre you pretending to be this way to make me feel better?â You tease, and heâs crossing his arms.Â
âNo way Iâd let myself look so lame in front of you, Iâm no better than Ijichi,â and you raise an eyebrow. Ijichi was a boy in Suguru and Satoruâs class when they were kids â one that Satoru loved to complain about being slow.Â
âYou still think about him?â
âHeâs my assistant,â and you snort at the thought of Satoru still hassling that poor guy.Â
âI hope you pay him well,â heâs officially pouting again.
âI didnât know it would be that intense!â you tilt your head, as the two of you find a corner of the park thatâs not so crowded and riddled with children running amok, and you watch him down a sugary soda drink he had bought from one of the food stalls.Â
âYou act as if youâve never been to an amusement park,â heâs quiet for a second too long, and your eyebrows knit together, âbut SuguruââÂ
âYou guys would go every summer, but it was when I had my prep classes on the weekends,â he runs his fingers through his white locks, âI would have skipped when I was older, but by the time I had stopped caring what my father thought of me, you had already gone to college and Suguruâs family stopped going,âÂ
You frown â you knew Satoru didnât have the best upbringing â yes he had every opportunity at his fingertips, all the money in the world that you couldnât even fathom, but you could count the number of times heâs mentioned his parents on one hand.Â
âI was always so jealous when you guys would go,â he sighed, a small smile pulling at the corner of his lips, âit seems silly nowââÂ
âNo, itâs not,â you cut him off, shaking your head, âyou should have been allowed to be a kid,âÂ
He chuckles, a noise that sticks in your chest, âWell, more than anything, I wanted to go with you,â his cerulean eyes find yours, a soft smile on his lips, âthank you for indulging me, princess,âÂ
âWell, youâre the one doing me a favor, right?â you tease, getting to your feet, âcâmon we have plenty of other things to do â I saw a booth with candy apples not too far over thereââ you point, and his fingers are already finding yours as he nearly drags you along, a laugh caught in your throat as you canât help but smile at his excitement.Â
Itâs infectious, you thought as the two of you got in line, Satoru nearly vibrating with need for his sugar fix, and you shook your head, biting back a laugh, just like him.Â
~~~
âYou donât have to walk me home,â the sun had long sunk by the time you both had left, staying to catch a glimpse of the fireworks before heading back, âitâs not that far from here,âÂ
The two of you had opted to take public transport to the amusement park, knowing there would be next to nowhere to park or rather only the middle of nowhere to park. The cicadas were already beginning their symphony, filling the relative silence of the neighborhood now, except for the chatter heard from inside houses or outside in gardens.Â
âWho would carry your loot home?â and he tilts the giant plushie to show his unimpressed face, âyou barely wanted to carry this at the park, even after you begged me to win it, and I did, in one shot,âÂ
And he did, he had won you a giant polar bear plushie nearly as tall as you were in his hands, along with several bags of sweets he had bought on the way out, just to snack on tonight (and you seriously wondered if he ate anything that was not coated in mochi, chocolate, or sugar).Â
âI donât remember begging you â I asked you,â you cross your arms, and you know heâs smiling behind the bear, using the plushie to hide his goddamn smirk, âi did! I just asked if we could try to win itââÂ
âAnd I remember the phrases âpleaseâ and âi need itâ being involved in the conversation,â you felt your cheeks burn, âyou still like these things, huh?âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â and he moves the polar bear under one arm, the bags in the other so you could actually see his face.Â
âYou always loved plushies, you had that one from your parents that you kept in your room with you all the timeââÂ
âPanda, I was very original with that name,â you shake your head, before your gaze turns to him, his sunglasses gleaming on his head in the low light of the streetlamps, âI canât believe you remembered that,âÂ
âThereâs barely a thing Iâd forget when it comes to you,â and you bite your lip, heart squeezing at his words, âyou look like you wanna say something, princess?âÂ
You reached the outside of your apartment building just as night fell, humidity still clinging to the thick summer air. The light of the lobby spilling out into the sidewalk through the glass doors, just as the streets grew quieter.Â
And you do â youâre not sure if you should ask it â a question posed on a precipice of uncertainty that you didnât know if you wanted to step off of. But you know you had to, at one point or another.Â
You could just go inside, brush off his question, and leave the day at that. But a nagging question had wriggled itâs way to the forefront of your mind, and you knew it wouldnât leave your mind until it left your tongue.Â
You chew on your lip, âYou say these things so easily when it comes to me, but how are you so sure?âÂ
And he shrugs, his eyes not leaving yours for even a second, âI just know,âÂ
âBut how?â Heâs shaking his head, stepping forward, until heâs a breath away, your eyes flickering from his gaze to his lips for a split second, your own air caught in your traitorous throat.Â
âInstead of wondering why I feel why I do, I think you should wonder why youâre so unsure,â and his fingers graze your cheek, tilting your chin upwards, his touch sending heat to the far reaches of your body, and heâs leaning forward. Your eyes nearly flutter shut, as his words nearly warm your lips, but no, instead they brush against your ear, âbecause if I was still just that kid to you that I was all those years ago, then why arenât you pulling away?âÂ
Your eyes blink open, as he pulls away, grin on his lips, as he hands you your polar bear plushie, âSatoruââ and you donât even know what you want to say â you want to argue, you want to say something, anything, but nothing comes out but his name.Â
âYou shouldnât let a guy get that close, Princess, especially not twice,â he sighs, lips still curled, âbecause if you let me that close again, I wonât be leaving without a kiss,âÂ
And you could only stare after him as he left â fingers touching your ear he had whispered against, lips pursing, as you huff, cheeks burning as you step inside your building, burying your face in white fluff of the polar bear that looked a little too much like someoneâs hair.Â
âIdiot.âÂ
~~~~
Youâre avoiding me.Â
Satoru wasnât wrong. You were â but not exactly on purpose. Or at least you didnât think so. It had been the third time you had turned him down in the last week. Although, todayâs wasnât intentionally so. You stewed in a corner of the bar, eyes glancing at your phone â what was really an appropriate time to leave a work-sanctioned event without looking completely anti-social?Â
It was never really fun coming to these events alone â but you knew if Satoru was here, youâd actually have a good time. You were almost surprised he hadnât shown up at your place or your work to see you â all he had done is text you. And why did that almost disappoint you?
You checked the time again, met with the notification of Satoruâs message again before you swiped it away out of sight. But he wasnât out of mind. He hadnât been for days. You rubbed at your temples â you hadnât gotten a good nightâs sleep since your day at the amusement park, thoughts spinning in circles and it was all his fault. You had done everything to get him out of your head â minimize contact, not see him, even drag yourself to an event like this â but still, you stared at your phone screen again, the ghost of his words still warming your ear.Â
You couldnât stop thinking about him.Â
Fuck. What were you doing? You took a long swig of your drink, hoping the alcohol could erase some of that night out of your mind. The last thing you needed to be thinking about was Satoru Gojo.Â
âSo whoâs the guy who has been picking you up after work?âÂ
You nearly choked on your drink. Really? You downed your drink, hoping you can ignore the question if you take long enough downing the searing concoction that the bartender had handed you, maybe they would let you off the hook. But as you finish the drink, you only find your coworkers staring back at you still. The hush that fell over this group of women was far too reverent for a conversation about a man.Â
âHeâs my little cousinâs best friend,â you reply, ordering another drink â you were going to need it, and the women exchange glances, fake smiles plastered on their lips.Â
âHeâs not your boyfriend?â and a strange twinge settles in your chest at the question, poking and prodding your tongue to say no, no he wasnât, but you almost didnât want to.Â
âNo, he isnât,â and the women grin amongst each other, âif you would excuse meââÂ
âWait, wait, we just started talking, come on now,â you sigh internally, as they order another round of drinks as they corral you to their table, maybe after this you could finally leave.Â
~~~
âWhatâs got you so down?â Suguru slides into a seat across from Satoru â Satoru who couldnât stop checking his phone to see if you had replied.Â
âWhat do you mean?â he sighs, he shouldnât have sent that text earlier. He shouldnât push so much, heâs already pushed enough with his comment. God, why the fuck did he say that? What if you thought he was a creepâwhat if you thought he was disgusting? What ifâÂ
âYou look pathetic,â Suguru sips his coffee in his hand, scrolling through his phone, âwho is it?âÂ
Satoru sits up, locking his phone, tucking it away as if it would incriminate him â flashing your name across the screen like it was plastered over his mind, âwhat do you mean?âÂ
âIâve never seen you like this, you keep checking your phone â you barely can keep track of it most of the time,â he shrugs his shoulders, âI figured you must have grew a dick and started liking someone,âÂ
âLook whoâs talking â whenâs the last time you dated someone again?â And Satoru catches the crumpled up paper Suguru tosses, âdonât get on your high horse if you donât want the same thing back,âÂ
âAt least Iâm not waiting like a lovesick puppy over my phone,â Suguru mutters, taking another sip of his drink, and thatâs when a phone ringing cuts through the silence â that was your ringtone, the very one he set to know when youâd call â just so he wouldnât miss it, âlooks like your waiting by the door paid off,âÂ
âFuck off,â Satoru mumbled, walking off with his phone as he picked up, âhello?âÂ
âSuguru!â Satoruâs brow furrowed at the sound of your cousinâs name leaving your lips, âcan you pick me up plzââ your words were slurred, sounds of chatter cutting through the background.Â
âPrincââ you hiccuped, a small groan leaving your lips.Â
âYou canât tell Satoru, heâll come here and my coworkers wonât stop asking me about him,â you sigh again, mumbling, âwhy does he have to be soâugh, itâs not fair for someone to be that prettyââÂ
Pretty?Â
His cheeks burned, as he covered his mouth with his hand, trying and failing to bite back a stupid smile on his lips â itâs not fair for you to be this cute. He would have preferred âhandsomeâ or âperfectâ or âyour boyfriendâ â but he could settle for pretty.Â
âAnyway!â You cut his thoughts off, âcould you come get me?â And Satoru bit his lip, glancing at Suguru â he could tell Suguru to get you, he could, but the odds of you letting something slip to Suguruâ- âremember you canât tell SatoruââÂ
âwas really high.Â
âDonât worry, Iâll be right there, and I wonât tell him,â he adds, because you already had.Â
~~~
âHow did you find out where I work?â Satoru didnât know after so many years that there were still new things to learn about you still â and one thing he had learned tonight was that â- you pouted at him, stumbling slightly as he came to a stop in front of your building â you were really whiny when drunk.Â
âI picked you up there, remember?â he lightly flicked your forehead that only made you huff, ânow do you have your keys?âÂ
âDo you know how annoying you are?â And he has to bite back a laugh at your scrunched up face.Â
âI do, sweetheart, but Iâd love to hear you tell me,â you scoff, crossing your arms only to immediately uncross to dig through your purse for your keys, tossing out several things that Satoru catches or picks up.Â
âYou come to my work and pick me up, and act all swoon worthy, and perfect, and you look like thatââÂ
âLike what?â he canât hide his smile this time, and your brow furrows as you pull out your keys, lips opening and closing, until you purse them.Â
âLike that,â you grumble as you teeter on your feet again, before he supports you, and he swore he heard you mumble, âso disgustingly handsome,âÂ
And heâs glad your eyes are half closed and focused ahead, otherwise he knew youâd smack him for the grin on his face.Â
âOi, donâtââ and you donât listen, nearly falling over as you unlock your door, whole body weight leaned against it, but his arm slips around you, holding you up from face planting into your floor, âyouâre gonna break your neck, Princess,âÂ
âYou wouldnât let that happen,â You break from his grip and lean up close, your breath warming his lips, your gaze half lidded, ânot when you love me,â and his heart thuds against his ribs, rattling his lungs and bones alike, âthatâs what you said, right?âÂ
You werenât making this easy, not with your fingers now sliding up his chest, toying with the top button of his shirt, âI didââÂ
âSo are you going to prove it?â And the floor feels as if it slips out from underneath him, and all he feels is you, only you â the brush of your fingers against his chest, the faint scent of lavender from your perfume that your aunt had gifted you, and the caress of your gaze against his lips, the same eyes he could easily lose himself in â if he wasnât careful.Â
But he had to be careful â because it was you.Â
âButââ
âBut what?â it would be so easy to kiss you, when you were only half a breath away, lips parted and gaze asking him to do so, to just lean inâbut he canât.
Not like this.Â
His thumb runs down your lips, your eyes fluttering shut, fingers sliding to cup your jaw, and he leans in â feeling your breath catchâ
But he only flicks your forehead, drawing a soft yelp from you.Â
âIâd like you to remember our first kiss,â and heâs corralling you into bed after that, your body keeling over into the soft mattress, as heâs able to wriggle you under the comforter. Your body relaxes into the plush bed, eyes shut, as your muscles loosen and unwind, while Satoru stands over you, the exact opposite â muscles taut and mind whirring.Â
Fuck.
âYou never make it easy, do you, Princess?â he mutters under his breath, swallowing thickly as he scrubs a hand down his face, âgood night,â his fingers ghost over the swell of your cheek, before turning to leaveâ
And your fingers caught him around the wrist, eyes half open as you stared up at him, a pout on your lips but now for an entirely different, but somehow the same reasonâ
âStay,â one word nearly had him crumble right there â and how pathetic was that? Maybe Suguru was right â he was no better than a puppy at your beck and call â waiting by the door for his master to return. And he almost didnât mind â if you always came home to him. Â
âPrincess, you have to go to sleepââ he could easily break from your grip, fingers wrapped loosely around his wrist, but your grasp may have been very well made of iron with how you had pinned him into place â an entomologist pinning their butterfly in their display.Â
âDonât wanna sleep alone,â a slight whine in your voice makes him waver again, but he had a problem with sleeping beside youâ
He shifted in place, adjusting himself, a somewhat big problem thst wouldnât go away â no matter how many times he thought about Gakuganji in his underwear â especially when you were looking at him like that, half dressed in bed with a pout on your lips and want in your gazeâwant that he never thought would be for him.Â
âPlease?â And thatâs all it takes, his thumb rubbing against your fingers â because he could never say no to you.Â
~~~~
âAre you okay?âÂ
Satoru was never left alone â not since he had managed to wander off alone when he was five. It took several hours and a dozen security guards to find him at a bakery, having his third piece of cake. And when he was brought home, he was told just how many ways that could have went wrong â what could have happened to him, and most of all â how badly it could have made his parents look.Â
After that, he couldnât remember a time that his hand wasnât clutched by a caretaker or escort â from school to home to anywhere else he wished to go. But he never wished to go anywhere, not with a stranger at his side.Â
It was only when he met Suguru that he was allowed to go out without someone hovering over his shoulder. But without warning â warning that if any incident would mean he would be stuck back in his daily life. But that meant when he got distracted in the pastry section of the supermarket â looking for the exclusive mochi he desperately wanted â he found himself alone, with you and Suguru nowhere in sight.Â
âSuguru?â Satoru called, head whipping around, chest thudding as the white noise of the market grew louder. His gaze falls, ears ringing with all that could go wrong, back to the life with no one at his side, only strangersâÂ
âToru?â Satoruâs gaze snaps up, your hands on your hips, your head tilted, âyou okay?â And heâs quickly wiping away his tears, sniffling softly, your hand finding the top of his head, âi got you something,â and you hold out a mochi in front of him, and he blinks.Â
âYou found it?â Heâs blinking and your lips curve into a pretty smile.Â
âAnything for you, Satoru,â your fingers run through his hair, âSatoru? SatoruââÂ
His eyes flutter open, finding you leaning over him, your tousled hair in messy tangles, âfinally awake?â And a soft chuckle on your lips as you speak, rubbing your eye, flinching as you rub your temples, âwhat exactly happened last night?âÂ
âYou mean besides you calling me pretty?â And your jaw drops, biting your lip, âand begging me to stay? Didnât know you liked my company that much, Princess,âÂ
You glare at him, âwell with charm like thatââ you mutter, when it occurs to you, âwhy did you sleep on the floor? And with that?â You point to the polar bear plushie he used as a pillow last night.Â
Not his most preferred bedfellow.Â
Always full of surprises, his cheeks burn, and he only can hope it doesnât show on his face, hidden behind a cheeky smile, âDidnât know you were so eager to share a bed with me, sweetheart,â and you roll your eyes, âI have to warn you, I have a tendency to cuddleââ and you smack him with a pillow, he sighs, âsomeone wasnât too keen on sharing her pillows with me, so this was the best I could do,â
You snort, as you take the offending plushie from him, âDid you do something to him?â
He tilts his head, âEh?â And you hold up the polar bear plush, âwhat could I do to him?â Â
âSomeone did threaten to toss him out into the ocean so he could join his family,âÂ
âI can do a lot of things, but I canât solve global warming, Princess,â and you bite back a laugh, âI was on my best behavior with him last night, even though heâs a shitty pillow,â and you didnât have to know how he had slapped him a couple times.Â
But even so, you bite your lip, looking down as you toy with your comforter, âwhy did you come?âÂ
He blinks, âwhat do you mean?âÂ
âYou could have sent Suguru, but you came, and you stayed, on the floor,â and he curls his lips.Â
âWell what kind of fake boyfriend would I be?â And you roll your eyes, still waiting for an answer, and his voice grows soft, âyou know why, Princess,âÂ
âI do, but I donât,â you murmur, fidgeting with your blanket as you chewed on your bottom lip, âmy coworkers couldnât stop talking about you last night, they kept saying how handsome you are, how wonderful, how perfectââÂ
âShould I be less handsome or perfect? Because donât know if thatâs possibleââ and it earns him another whack with the pillow, but he only catches it, âyou say that like itâs a bad thing,âÂ
âItâs not, but I donât know why after all these years, you still want me,â you sigh, words pushing past your lips, âyou could have anyone, Satoru,âÂ
âIf I just wanted anyone, I wouldnât have fell in love with you,â and you bury your face in your pillow, gaze peeking down at him.Â
âYou say that with such ease, how do you know what love even is? I donât know if I know what it is,â you add, mumbling under your breath, and his eyes canât help but follow the way your fingers run through your hair.Â
âI donât think I need to know when I feel it,â Satoru sat up, dangerously close to you, within reach yet so far out of it, âdo you need to know to see the sky is blue? Do you need to know to feel pain when you burn yourself?âÂ
âDidnât know you were taking philosophy classes with Suguru,â and he snorts, shaking his head, âSatoruââÂ
âLike I said before, Princess, just give me some time,â his fingers reach for you, and your breath catches, before he slowly smoothed your hair out, âand Iâll win you over,âÂ
Your eyes flicker to his, and god, he wanted nothing more than to lean over and kiss you, but he couldnât. He had to be patient. He couldnât push you â he wanted you to want him just as much. He would make you fall into his arms willingly, and youâd kiss him â not the other way around.Â
âWant some breakfast?â your lips curl into a soft smile, the very same smile that he had fallen for time and time again.Â
âYou offering to cook me breakfast?âÂ
âJust wondering what would shut you up the quickest,â and he has half a mind to reply with âyour lips,â but he decides against it, âpancakes?âÂ
~~~
âI can feel you staring,âÂ
Even with your back turned to the stove, bowl in hand as you whipped the batter with the whisk, hoping your laser focus on the pancakes would help you distract yourself. But it did little when you could feel his gaze sticking in your back, spotlights on every little movement â something that wouldnât have bothered you before â but after last nightâ
This was why you never drank.Â
You covered your face with the back of your hand, cheeks burning, as you placed the bowl down, what had your life become?Â
âCâmon you canât just let a guy like that go,â one of the women from work nudged you â you couldnât remember if her name was Kanae or Kanao â handing you a refill of the drink you had gotten, âhe certainly seems into you from the way he looks at you,âÂ
âIf he isnât, Iâd take him off your hands,â Saki slurred, nearly spilling her drink, âhe seems to like you. Is there really nothing between you two?âÂ
âNot really,â you sipped your drink, if confessing to you after over a decade was nothing, âheâs just a friend,â and he was â a friend who was your fake boyfriend.Â
âYou know with how you started, I thought your love life would be a lot more interesting,â Kanae sighed far too loudly, as she took another long swig of her cocktail.Â
âWell weâve talked a lot about what you guys are but we havenât asked how you feel,â Saki grinned, sloppily drunk yet somehow masterful with her questions, âhow do you feel about him?âÂ
And how did you? If someone asked you a few weeks ago, you would said he was just your little cousinâs best friend, a childhood friend â and you wouldnât have thought twice. But now, he has given you so much to think about. Would you be this hesitant if you two havenât met as kids? If he wasnât Suguruâs best friend? If he didnât seem so far out of your league?Â
Maybe. But you were never good at going for things you wanted â or accepting things as they were. Even with Naoya, you knew you should have broken up with him â you knew he was toxic, and yet you stayed â because it was easier.Â
And maybe it was easier to push Satoru away than to face how you felt.
Fuck, you were too drunk for this â you needed to get out of here, âexcuse me,â you manage to slip away into the bathroom, washing your face, leaning over the sink.Â
You held your forehead, steadying yourself against the cold porcelain, fingers digging into the rim of the sink â eyes burning as your head throbs, a wave of nausea pulsing through your stomach. Fuck, there was no way that you could get home alone.Â
You pulled out your phone and scrolled â who the fuck would you call? The only people you knew were your family andâŠ
Nope. No. Not an option.Â
You found Suguruâs number and tried to text, only to find your eyes blurring, and you knew if you sent a message he would be holding over any typos or fuck ups over your head forever.Â
You found his name, your head spinning as you clicked and called.Â
He didnât pick up.
âFucker,â you mumble, trying to hit his name again, your head spinning, and finally someone picked upâ
And then you woke up in bed. A soft groan fell from your lips, knives prodding at every inch of your brain, memory blended and choppy as you drew into consciousness. You were home, your eyes fluttering open to sunlight illuminating your bedroom, a dull stiffness in your muscles that makes you stretch, turning on your side only to be met with a sight.Â
Satoru Gojo. Asleep on your floor, cuddling the plush polar bear he won for you. You stared, blinking, wondering if blinking away the sleep would somehow blink away Satoru too (it did not unfortunately). So you did the only other thing you could think of â take a picture.Â
As you glanced from the image to him, bits and pieces came back â from your drunken ramblings on the phone to the ones in person, your cheeks burning as you buried your face in your comforter before staring down at him. Was it possible to die of embarrassment? You were really testing those limits.Â
But even so, as you watched him sleep on top of the plushie, the only thing you could wonder was why had he stayed? He could have left after you fell asleep, or even before that, there wasnât much you could have done to stop him. But he stayed, even on the floor, rather than anywhere else.Â
âSo?â you didnât need to turn from the stove to know he was grinning, âcanât I enjoy the show, Princess?âÂ
âIf youâre enjoying it so much, how about you become part of it and help?â you offer him a spatula, as he makes his way over, leaning over you, his body brushing against yours, but you ignore it all the same, eyes focused on the task instead on the warmth blooming from his touch, âIâll spoon and you flip,âÂ
The two of you work in silence, as you spoon batter onto the griddle and he flips the pancakes â and itâs only when youâre both just about done that you glance over, and his lips are curled, âWhat are you smiling about?â and he shakes his head, as he flips the last of the pancakes onto the stack, âSatoruââÂ
âI just never really have made breakfast like this before, or had someone make it for me,â he scratches the back of his head, âmy parents always had chefs or maids or someone make me all my meals, and even when I moved out, I always cooked alone or bought my meals out,â he shrugs, as he turned the stove off, âit reminds me when youâd make me and Suguru instant ramen after we came in from playing outside,âÂ
You snort, âYou remember that?â You would get stuck making ramen for the two of them, tossing some seasoning and sauces into the mixture along with an egg, âI always put too much black pepper. I thought you hated it,âÂ
âBut I always finished,â he added, and he did, even if his cheeks were burning red and eyes watering by the end of the bowl. Your lips curl at the memory of him at the age of twelve downing an entire glass of water and spilling it all over the front of himself.Â
âWell I can make a lot more than instant noodles now,â you have Satoru set the table while you start to clean up, turning on the sink. You hear the clink of plates and utensils behind you, as he sets them down on the table, but you can feel his gaze fall over you even as your back is turned.Â
âIâm going to need some proof â there were a few times you almost burned those noodles,â and you pout, turning with your hands on your hips.Â
âOh you want me to prove it now?â You turn, running your finger discreetly up the side of the used mixing bowl, finger full of batter as you walk up to him, hands behind your back.Â
âAnd howâre you gonna do that, Princess?â the corner of his lip quirks upwards, as you step close up to him, and god, heâs fucking tall â and it kind of pissed you off â all these boys shoot up like fucking weeds, but it didnât mean you couldnât knock him down a bit.Â
âClose your eyes, and find out,â he raises an eyebrow, suspicious, but still he obeys â good boy, the praise runs through your head to the tip of your tongue, but you bite it and the words back alike. And youâre so close, you can see his snow white eyelashes fan out against his cheeks, and heâs so unfairly pretty,Â
For now.Â
Youâre so close, you nearly feel his body warmth radiate your skin â and you swear you hear his breath hitch â and it would be so easy to lean forwardâ âPrincess â whatââÂ
And then he gasps when you smear pancake batter down his cheek, a snort leaving your lips as he gapes at you, mouth ajar. He blinks, his hand reaching for his cheek, before he stops when his eyes flit to your batter caked finger, âYouââÂ
Youâre giggling, trying to stop yourself from doubling over at his expression, âWhat? I just wanted to give you a taste of my cooking before you tried it,â and he frowns at you for a moment, before his lips curl deviously, tilting his head.Â
âIs that right?â and his fingers run through the smeared batter, caking his finger tips before heâs stepping towards you, âthen itâs fair, if I make you taste it tooââ and youâre trying to back up, giggles leaving your lips, but he catches you by the wrist.Â
âSatoruââ you whine as youâre trying to squirm away, âlet go!â but he only pulls you close, your body nearly bumping against his â and it was your turn for your breath to catch, cerulean irises stealing the air from your lungs as you drowned in them, âheyââÂ
âJust how much are you gonna tempt me, Princess?â and you should step away, but his fingers around your wrist send warmth blooming down your arm, straight to your chest, and you canât bring yourself to step away.Â
âAnd how am I doing that?â His fingers tug you closer, thumb brushing against the inside of your wrist, before he leans close.Â
âYou know exactly how,â and your glance flickers from his gaze to his lips, and back again, resisting the urge to shut your eyes â but you donât have to, when he smears the batter all over your cheek.Â
âToru!â You stare at him, and heâs laughing, as you grab at him, only for him to slip away, âIâm gonna kill youââ and you move towards the sink, batter covered bowl still inside, âoh just you waitââÂ
But your beeline is cut short by his grip, arm darting around your middle, as he pulls you back. You gasp, struggling in his arms in vain â fuck his stupidly toned arms, âyou shouldnât start something youâre not ready to finish,â his words are said against your ear, but they rush down your body in almost a shudder.Â
His lips are an inch or two from yours, you would barely need to lean to reach them â the words of your coworkers ring in your earsÂ
âWho said I wasnât?â His eyes find yours, his fingers tilting your chin ever so slightly, when your phone rings.Â
You jerk slightly at the sound, your eyes flickering to the name across the screen and see Suguruâs name flashing on the screen.Â
âItâs Suguru,â and Satoru lets go of you, as you make your way to the phone, and you swear you hear him mutter something under his breath, âwhat did you say?â you donât pick up the phone but a few texts come through anyway.Â
âNothing,â he scratched the back of his head, âwhat did he say?âÂ
âHeâs asking if I wanna come over for dinner tonight, said youâre gonna be there too?â And you raise an eyebrow, as Satoru fishes his phone out of his pocket and glances at it.Â
âApparently I am,â you turn on the faucet, cleaning your face off, offering Satoru a damp tissue. âGuess this wonât be the last meal weâre sharing today,âÂ
âGuess not,â his fingers brush yours when taking the tissue, trying to clean the batter off his cheek but only spreads the mess. You snort, as you take the napkin from him holding his face by the chin, âso howâre we gonna play it?âÂ
âPlay what?â You toss the napkin away, both of you taking a seat at the table.Â
âDid you forget?â He stabs a pancake and places it in his plate, âwe told your aunt weâre dating â and that weâre hiding it from Suguru, and you just agreed to dinner with both of them,âÂ
Fuck.Â
⧠a/n: hi it's been quite a while T_T. sorry work has been so busy. i haven't had a moment to post, and now i had to split this up because it just got too long lmao. part two will come later, i'm going to be prioritizing my kinktober fics. thank you to @coffee-and-geto for betaing :)
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- zayne x reader
he is your husband and you are his wife. but of course you know the bitter truthâyou will never be able to replace her.
genre/warnings: 18+ suggestive contentâminors do not interact!âangst, hurt/comfort, unrequited love, drunken sex, mentions of injury, blood, hunter!reader (not l&ds mc -> l&ds mc is zayne's late ex-girlfriend here), spoilers! from zayneâs bond story nostalgic sweetness
note: wc. 8k ! i've been having these bits and pieces scenarios for zayne in mind and then i thought what if i combined it all into one angst joyride? :)) tagging per request: @kissxcore @rjreins @i2s2m @tom-pls-fuck-me @yueyoonie @sanriosatoru
07.15 p.m
Zayne would be getting off work soon. He had just finished an emergency surgery, and it had been exhausting. Now it was quite late.
âDr. Zayne! Great job today!â Greyson exclaimed, suddenly strolling into his consultation room with a grin. âWant to grab dinner with us?â
Honestly, he was starving too. âWhere?â
âOh, you know, that new place that just opened nearby! They have the tastiest tiramisu, or so Iâve heard. Câmon, weâre inviting the nurses too!â
He knew he needed to head home soon, but fatigue and hunger blurred his thoughts at the mention of dessert.
âAlright.â
. . .
08.25 p.m
Getting together with the hospital staff was always nice. They were rowdy, but it was definitely a great way to unwind after a hard day.
The tiramisu was as great as Greyson said. Speaking of his assistant, he and Yvonne were having a blast. Other doctors were getting drunk. Zayne could only shake his head, and it suddenly dawned on him that he had been here quite a while.
It was only when he turned on his phone and saw the time that he realized, with sinking heart thatâ
He was supposed to meet you at six.
If you were asked how you felt about your life now, youâd be hard-pressed to say you were completely content.
You were a stellar fighter in the Hunter Association, more than content with your job, and you had a good husband. To some, you had what they would call the perfect life.
The wife of the Dr. Zayne. True, it was a flattering title, yet unbeknownst to everyone, also a humbling one.
And the notion struck you once again when your husband of almost two years stood you up on your dinner date without so much as a notice.
âMiss... weâre about to close now...â The waitress approached your table for at least the third time, and you nodded sheepishly, finally finishing your meal.
You paid for it and left the restaurant. The chilly night air hit your skin, giving you goosebumps as you walked home. It wasnât the first time this had happened. Granted, Zayne had a packed schedule, and you figured he might've had an urgent matter to attend to that he forgot to let you know.
Still... it hurts. Knowing you were not a priority in your husbandâs eyes wasnât a fun feeling.
Your phone buzzed in your pocket the moment you arrived at your shared home. Your husbandâs name flashed on your screen. The time now was 08.40 p.m.
âHello, Zayne?â
âY/N?â Your husbandâs voice sounded frantic. âAre you still at the restaurant? Iâm goingââ
âAh, no need to. Iâm going home.â
âIâll pick you up then. Stay thereââ
âIâve already arrived.â
An awkward silence settled between you, and you could clearly hear the noise on the other end. Greysonâs laughter was unmistakable.
You forced a laugh, still trying to sound cheerful for him even when realizing that he had completely forgotten about you. âItâs totally fine, Zayne! Are you heading back?â
âYeah...â
âTake care then. See you at home.â
You ended the call with a sigh, trying to shake off the sting in your heart. As you made your way upstairs to your bedroom, you passed by a large portrait on the wall, and a bittersweet sensation washed over you.
Your wedding photo. Both of you were smiling on what was the most wonderful day of your life. Zayneâs smile was reserved, but yours was radiant.
It is the most wonderful thing that has happened to you... but is it the same for him?
At that time, despite everything, you were convinced a lifetime of happiness awaited you, yet now... it got harder to fool yourself into believing it.
Your marriage has always been lukewarm.
Zayne wasnât an overly excited person, and you were his oppositeâbut try as you might, some things between you just didnât work out. As a result, both of you tended to keep certain things to yourselves.
Most days, this didn't bother him. He valued his privacy, so the way things were suited him just fine. However, several days later, when Greyson approached him with a worried expression and a news, even Zayne had to draw the line.
âDr. Zayne? Uh, how do I say this? I think I saw your wife being wheeled in earlier with the injured from the hunt zones raidâŠâ
. . .
âYour husband is a doctor here. Why arenât you calling him?â
Xavier, your fellow Deepspace Hunter who was partnered with you in this mission, questioned you with a hint of annoyance as he observed your pathetic state on the stretcher and crossed his arms. âWhy do you have to bleed out in ER when you can get him?â
You winced, pressing the bloodied cloth against your stinging abdomen as you felt yourself growing faint. âHeâs... a surgeon,â you panted. âHeâs busy.â
Above all, you didnât want Zayne to see you like this. You could already imagine his angry face, and that mental image alone made you recoil.
âWhat sort of husband is busy when his wife is injured?â Xavier raised an eyebrow. âDid you at least notify him?â
You shut your eyes, feeling a migraine coming.
âI will then.â
âNo.â
âY/N, youââ
âShut up, Xavierââ
The curtain was suddenly pulled back, and you braced yourself for whoever had come to check on you next. To your surprise, the cloth in your hand was snatched away, and you felt your uniform being torn open with urgency.
When you opened your eyes, you barely made out your husbandâs figure through your hazy vision. ââŠZayne?â
His expression was stern, unforgiving even, as he started to disinfect your wound. Despite the tension, you couldn't deny the relief that washed over you. You knew you were in good hands, even if you had to face his fury later on.
Your consciousness slipped away not long after that.
. . .
The next time you woke up, you found yourself in a private room, with a nagging itch where you had been injured.
You groaned, your limbs stiff and heavy, and the room slowly came into focusâalong with your husband's face.
"Zayne?" Your voice came out barely above a whisper. He stood pristine in his white coat and glasses, assessing you with a scrutinizing gaze.
"Your wound is, thankfully, shallow," he said flatly, his tone lacking any real concern. "You'll be discharged tonight. I'll take you home as soon as my shift is over."
"Ah..." You blinked several times to clear your head. "Good then. Sorry for showing up out of nowhere. Xavier and I were on a rescue mission, and I accidentallyâ"
He walked away before you could finish, the abruptness snapping you fully awake. He was furious, that much was clear.
"Ha ha..." You forced a laugh, fiddling with your fingers, trying to ease the awkward tension between you. "It doesn't hurt much, actually. You're rightâI'm fine..."
Zayne shot you a sharp glance. "You passed out due to blood loss."
"This isn't the first time it has happened and nor will it beâ"
"And it didn't even occur to you to inform me at all. I found out that my own wife was wounded because Greyson passed by the ER and saw you."
His words left you silent, caught red-handed, but your annoyance was reaching its limit. You had imagined how nice it would be if he panicked about you, showering you with care when he found out. But instead, Zayne chose to rebuke you the moment you woke up.
âIâm not a child,â you reasoned, keeping yourself calm. âIâm a hunter. This is nothing new, and you should understand that.â
âThe least you couldâve done is to tell meââ
âDo you know why I didnât? Itâs because I know how youâll react!â
ââand it would do you better to prioritize your safety and not rush headfirst into danger.â
âBelieve me, I do butâ!â
Suddenly, Zayne spun around to face you, his eyes blazing with fury as he raised his voice. âIâve told you so many times already, you have to stay back, or youâll end upâ!â
He stopped abruptly, leaving his sentence hanging in the air, but right at that moment, you knew all too well who he meant, and what the implication was.
His, without a doubt, greatest love. His childhood friend, a hunter like yourself, someone he had vowed to save but succumbed to her illness before he could do so, died on arrival.
The irony was sharp. You had become everything she once was. You knew her well, too. When she passed, the entire Hunter Association mourned her loss. And more than that, on the night she died, you had been with him.
Looking back, you should have seen it coming. Still, it hit you like a splash of cold water. Your husband was still preoccupied with thoughts of his ex-girlfriend, and worse yet, he saw pieces of her in you.
And you suspected he had for a whileâperhaps even, from the very beginning.
For a second there, not for the first time, you felt your heart shatter.
âI donât have Protocore syndrome,â you stated, steeling yourself against the heartbreak. âMy heart won't suddenly fail because I get injured. Iâm not that weak.â
You turned away as Zayne refused to respond, missing his look of disdain as he stormed out of the room.
That was when your first tear fell.
Right from the start, you knew you had to brace yourself for this. You knew that eventually, this tragedy would overshadow your marriage. Because while Zayne might be your husband by law, deep down, his heart still belonged to someone else.
To her.
You two are too much alike.
It wasnât the first time he had noticed it. And it wouldnât be the last.
On bad mornings, when his eyes were bleary and he hadn't had a good sleep, he would see her instead of you in your shared bed. And with that mistaken sight came a fleeting sense of relief... until his vision cleared and he remembered she was truly gone and it was you.
Zayne knew how wrong this was on so many levels. It was terribly unfair to you.
Still, his concern for you was genuine. Seeing you lying still on the stretcher brought back that very same nightmare, and really, he truly never wanted you to be hurt.
After his outburst and your clipped response, the two of you barely exchanged any words for the rest of the week. To make matters worse, he was sent on a business trip the following week, and all in all, you went two weeks hardly speaking to each other.
And before he knew it, her death anniversary was only a couple of days away.
. . .
"How much is this?"
"Ah, the bow is 50,000 Gold, sir!"
Inside the airport's souvenir shop, Zayne examined the intricate light blue and white bow clip. Made of tweed and adorned with small pearls, it looked nice.
He thought it'd suit you well.
"I'll get this then."
"Right away!"
As the clerk went to wrap the trinket, Zayne reflected on these past two weeks. A nagging feeling twisted in his gut as he thought about how curt he had been with you in text messages and how often you had left him on read.
Husband and wife shouldn't be this way. He wanted the unbearable air between you to end. Determined to resolve things, he planned to talk to you when he returned. He was on his way to the airport taxi whenâ
"Zayne!" He stopped in his tracks, recognizing the familiar voice, and turned around.
There you were, waiting by his car with a smile.
It was never in you to stay angry for long. It was a blessing and a curse, really, because while you no longer wished to give your husband silent treatment, a part of you still felt conflicted.
"How was your trip?" you asked as you started the engine, pushing the events of the past two weeks to the back of your mind.
Zayne didn't immediately answer, and you felt his gaze on you as you drove the car. "It was okay."
You hummed in acknowledgement, and he followed up with, "How is your wound? Do you dress it daily?"
"Mm-hm. It's getting better."
"I'll have a look at it later."
"Sure."
Silence. Usually you would ramble to distract him, but now, even you werenât sure if you should.
Then, he said, "You really didnât have to pick me up. I could have made my way home on my own."
To that, you pasted on a smile. âYou always pick me up whenever I have to go on business trips. Itâs only fair I do the same for you, husband.â
Ah. Was it the wrong move? The word had slipped out so easily that you didnât realize it until after you said it.
But to your surprise, Zayne let out a chuckle and played along. "Well, thank you then, wife. It certainly felt quite off without a certain someone the past week."
So, he actually likes having you around...? The thought made you almost giddy. Despite his usual taciturn and sarcastic demeanor, you knew he was genuine in his own way.
"Bet you missed me," you teased, grinning.
He raised an eyebrow. "Oh? Are you sure it's not the other way around?"
"Nope. But I did miss getting new snowmen."
"...why do you like them so much? I've made plenty for you already."
"No particular reason. Snowman just kinda reminds me of you somehow."
The tension between you had melted away, and you felt a sense of relief. Beside you, even Zayne couldnât hide his smile. For the rest of the drive home, you chatted like you used to.
When you arrived back at your shared home, he suddenly stopped and presented you with a little box. "I got you something."
"Huh?" you paused, bewildered, as he took your hand and placed the box in it.
"Open it."
With curiosity, you lifted the lid, and were surprised at the sight of a pretty bow clip inside. "Whoa, how cute..."
Zayne eyed you expectantly. "Do you like it?"
Your eyes lit up with delight, and a smile spread across your lips.
"Yes!" you beamed at him with zero hesitation, and in that moment, something struck a chord within him. Zayne had always thought you were easy on the eyesâ
âbut when you smiled like that, you were truly charming.
"It's healing nicely."
You felt somewhat self-conscious as your husband examined your bare abdomen, where your injury was, as you lied on your bed. His hands, cool and practiced, tenderly removed your stitches.
It wasn't as if Zayne had never touched you. You two had been married for almost two years, and of course you had been intimate several times, but it wasn't as if you were a passionate couple to begin withâso you often found yourself flustered.
"Mm." Despite yourself, you squirmed. Noticing this, he looked up at you, his unfazed eyes meeting yours with a frown.
"Does it still hurt?"
"No, not really... It just feels as if you're tickling me."
He was positively unamused. "I'm not trying to tickle you."
"I know!"
Zayne wrapped your midsection securely with the bandage. When he was done, he let out a sigh and you felt like you had to show him your gratitude somehow.
âThank you, ZayneâŠâ you mumbled, avoiding eye contact. But in the next second, your heart skipped a beat as his hand rested gently on your head.
"You can thank me by being more careful next time." Your husband looked at you with the smallest of smile. "Your safety comes first, always remember that."
Without either of you realizing it, you both had tried to bury that argument from two weeks ago, yet it was still gnawing at you all the same. The thought that he too was bothered with it made you warm.
"Noted," you cheekily grinned. "If I'm not safe and sound, a certain iceman will get angry at me."
Zayne shot you an unimpressed look. âIf you come to me injured again, Iâll start charging you fees.â
You let out a dramatic gasp. "How stingy! I'm your wife, not just some stranger!"
"A very uncooperative wife, you are."
You huffed, and he chuckled. You really thought all was well between you two now, until Zayne suddenly stood up and grabbed the car keys. âWell then, rest. I have to go.â
âWhere are you going?â
âIâm going to stop by the floristââ
And it hit you. In two days. The day everything ended three years ago.
Zayne seemed to realize it too, but you quickly masked your falling smile with a faux one. "O-oh, right..."
No matter how, it's still going to be an important day to him. You had nothing against it, really. Your husband's late girlfriend had once been your colleague too, and you mourned her just like everyone else did.
Still, even with that understanding, in your heart of hearts, it remains just as bitter.
You didn't want to, but you needed to find closure. You hoped that by doing this, it would finally put an end to all your insecurities.
"Let's go together, Zayne. I want to pay her a visit too."
Two days later, you and Zayne, a bouquet of flowers in hand, stood before the grave bearing many colorful flowers and postcards.
You supposed you knew already, but seeing it firsthand, you realized just how deeply she was loved still. The outpouring of respect from the Hunter Association was evident in the tribute left behind.
"It's been a while," Zayne, dressed in his most formal black suit, said solemnly, his gaze fixed on the name etched into the pristine stone.
You watched as he knelt to place his flowers and then brought his hands together in prayer. You followed his lead, placing your own bouquet beside his.
What should you even say to her? Your mind raced with countless thoughts, but none felt right to voice before the woman who had so deeply captured your husband's heart.
In the end, when you sensed that Zayne had finished with his prayer, you decided to remain silent and rose with him.
. . .
âDoes it get easier?â you asked out of curiosity afterwards. âThree years has passed already.â
Although Zayne wasnât one for drinking, even the need won today. He didnât meet your eyes as he sipped his wine, humming thoughtfully. âSomewhat. As they say, time heals.â
You two stopped by a fine restaurant after visiting the grave. The cemetery had been a two-hour drive from Linkon City, and now it was already evening.
âShe loved jasmines,â you remarked, recalling the pot of them you once saw on her desk and the flowers overflowing at the grave earlier.
âShe did.â The alcohol seemed to loosen his tongue as he continued, âShe loved old popsicles and macarons too.â
âAnd you like them as well.â
âTo be honest, I started liking them back when we were kidsâŠâ Zayne had this pained, faraway look in his eyes as he had another sip. âShe cried over her melted popsicle and it got me to wonder if it was really that tasty...â
The idea that you had to compete with a dead woman for your husbandâs affection left a bitter taste in your mouth. You felt like you had failed thoroughly as a woman.
Despite hating yourself for asking, you needed to know. âDo I help you⊠in any way at all?â
Zayne was clearly taken aback by the question. His sharp, gray eyes locked onto you, mind whirred as he tried to grasp your meaning.
âY/N, you...â
It was foolish, you knew. But you waited with bated breath for his response, even when one wrong word could shatter your heart beyond repair. You were ready for any sort of unfavorable answer, but thenâ
âI... am glad it is you.â
His words made you look up, and you found yourself caught in his gaze. Zayneâs ashen eyes were steady, piercing into you.
âYou were there on the hardest days. And ever since, youâve always stayed by my side.â He held your gaze firmly, voice was thick with emotion you couldnât quite name. âIâm grateful for that.â
And then, with a sincerity that pierced through every uncertainty, he added, âWhat I want to say is... Iâm glad I married you, Y/N.â
You have loved him for so long. Since the days when you know he isnât yours to love, until now.
Your heart swelled with so much warmth that tears brimmed in your eyes. His acknowledgment of your presence filled you with a profound sense of belonging you never knew you needed before.
Was it the alcohol?
You suspected it might be, because in nearly two years of marriage, Zayne had never lost his control like this. As soon as the bedroom door was shut, he pushed you against the wall and devoured your lips hungrily.
âMmph!â His hands gripped your arms while his lips and tongue pried yours open. The kiss was searing, almost forceful, with the faint bitterness of wine still lingering.
âZayâŠneâŠâ you gasped between his kissesâteary, breathless, your voice trembling.
But your breathy grunts only seemed to spur him on. His dark eyes, clouded with lust, fixed on you as his hands slipped beneath your blouse, deftly unclasping your bra with a flick.
He is hot. Your husband was everything a woman desired in a man. Cool, handsome, blessed with hands that could do wondersâ
In no time, he had you naked and wet before him, and with alarming speed, he too discarded his own suit and pants, throwing them away in flurry. And you could hardly believe what you were seeing next.
He spitted on his hand, ran it along his memberâstroking himself with a practiced ease, never breaking eye contact with you. The next thing you knew, he yanked you into another burning kiss and made you topple on top of himâ
âAh!â his hands guided your hips with precision, positioning you and entering you. The instant he did, you whimpered at the sudden, sharp sting of pain.
âDoes it hurt?â he asked almost in a growl when you clung to his shoulder with uneven breaths.
It was too sudden, and you hoped the discomfort would pass, so you timidly shook your head.
âIf you donât want this, tell me to stop.â Zayne tangled his fingers in your hair, turning your face to his. âUnderstand?â
There was always a distinct, almost commanding aura about him whenever the two of you were in your marital bed. Perhaps the way his voice sound lower, but it just hit different.
And you are a willing prey... whenever he becomes that beast.
He inched inside you slowly, making you moan with each instance. He was thick, warm, and taking him in was a challenge in itself. And when he finally sheathed himself fully, your nails had made its first scratch on his skin.
You felt full, and the way your womanhood stretched and clenched around him with each breathe you took made you dizzy. Panting, you finally met his gaze. Zayneâs silver eyes were still clouded with desire as he placed his hands firmly on your hips. Unable to resist, you reached out to caress his face.
"Hmm..." he subconsciously leaned into your touch, pressing his eyes shut together. "You smell nice," he huskily muttered.
Right this moment, all negative thoughts eluded you. It felt gratifying that your husband sought your touch like this as you towered over him.
And yet, despite that...
âDo you... finally see me now?â you asked, trailing your other hand down his toned chest and starting to grind against him. Zayne drew in a sharp breath and groaned, his fingers gripping your bum tighter.
Depending on his response, you would either find peace or face another heartbreak. You had placed your happiness on this pedestal more times than you could count, and it was a cross you had to bear.
But you never received your answer.
Your husband merely gazed up at you with a dangerous gleam. And oh, you could've sworn, this sight of Zayne eyeing you as if he were about to ruin you right then and there, would live-free in your mind for many days to come.
He then buried his face in your bosom, sucking on you with such fervor that your hands instinctively reached for his head to massage his scalp. The room was soon filled with your erotic groans and the squelching sounds from where your flesh were joined togetherâ as he thrusted inside you over and over.
Right in this moment, you felt truly desired and wanted.
You are so happy. Incomparably so.
At the crack of dawn, Zayne woke with a start.
The first thing he noticed was how spent he felt, his limbs stiff and a throbbing headache pulsing at the back of his head.
Then he turned to his side, and the sight that met him twisted his gut in such a way that snapped him fully awakeâ
You were beside him, barely dressed and still deeply asleep. Your hair was a mess, and love bites were scattered across your skin, some on your chest looking almost like bruises.
It dawned on him that he, too, wasnât decent. A sudden coldness gripped him, though it wasnât just the morning air.
Him and you... last night...
Yesterday marked the third year. He meant everything he said to you, but the fact that he did this, with you, on the day of her death...
There was... nothing wrong with what he had done. You were his wife, no one could condone him for what he instigated. Yet, it still made him shiver.
And to make it worse, his thoughts from last night echoed back with vengeance, andâ
He suddenly feels so immensely guilty.
. . .
It was the best sleep youâd had all week.
When you woke, sunlight had seeped through the window, and you discovered yourself already in pajamas, tucked snugly under a blanket. Still groggy with a dull ache in your lower belly, you relished the lingering afterglow, sighing in pure contentment, until you noticed Zayne wasnât beside you.
Where did he go? You wondered amidst your haze. Sluggish, you stumbled out of the bed, flinching when your foot met the cold floor.
You eventually found him downstairs, sipping coffee at the dining table still with messy hair. "Zayne?"
He glanced up at you and nodded. There was something different about him, a subtle shift you couldnât quite place. As you took a seat across from him, you hesitated, unsure of what to say.
Before you could find the right words though, he spoke first.
"I'm... sorry," he said, his tone laced with regret, causing a sharp pang of unease inside you.
"What?" you stared at him, feeling small and unsettled. "What are you sorry for?" you questioned as you gripped the hem of your shirt.
And then came the killing blowâ
"Last night," Zayne muttered, avoiding your gaze. "I wasnât in the right frame of mind. It was a mistake."
Mistake. The word echoed in your mind, but it was still hard to grasp its full weight.
"How was thatâ" you faltered, trembling, as the realization hit you like a truck and you gasped in disbelief. "Oh..."
Her. Again, and again, and again! Even when he was married to you, even when you were the one next to him each and everydayâ even so!
Your husband considers that a night spent with youâhis wifeâa mistake!
The last of your patience snapped, as you broke down in sobs before him. "You're the worst!" you screamed at him amidst your mournful tears.
Zayne seemed taken aback at your outburst, his eyes wide. "Y/N, wait, you don'tâ"
"Screw you!" But you were beyond explanations at this point. You fled back to your bedroom. Zayne followed you suit, but you slammed the door in his face and locked it. As you collapsed onto the floor, the realization hit you with full force.
No matter what you did, you would always come secondâor not at all.
The fracture in your marriage was undeniable.
Things had changed. Your home felt colder, and the tension was so stifling that you sometimes spent the night at the Hunter Associationâs dorm just to escape it.
Zayne initially tried to reach out, but you were unwilling to listen, and eventually, he gave up. Before long, nearly a month had passed with this strain in the air.
You threw yourself into more rescue operations, using work as a distraction from the turmoil that lingered in your mind. Despite your best efforts to distract yourself, the unresolved thoughts and feelings clung to you.
"Xavier, am I lacking as a woman?"
Your frequent partner these days cracked open an eye despite his attempt to nap before todayâs rescue mission. "What...?"
"No, forget it."
Things couldn't go like this forever. It was obvious by nowâas long as he couldnât let go of his past and you couldnât accept him as he was, this marriage couldn't be saved.
Just as you headed towards the printer in the room, Xavier responded. "You talk a lot, eat a lot, and always bothering me when I'm about to sleep..."
You shot him an irked glance, disbelief evident on your face. "Hey!"
"Butâ" his clear voice cut through the air as he turned to you with half-lidded eyes. "You're exceptionally kind. If anyone can't appreciate that, then it's their loss."
At that moment, the ice inside your chest melted. To know that your own co-worker thought that kindly of you gave you a little boost of confidence.
But then Xavier added, "Sometimes you're stupid too. It's funny to watch."
"â?! You're so mean!"
A subtle smile curved on his lips as he turned to his side, ready to resume his nap. "Anyway, what are you printing?"
You feigned a huff as you gathered the papers and brought them to your desk. "Just something I need to submit when necessary."
A part of you wasnât fully committed to it, of courseâit was just that your emotions had no proper outlet even until now. As you pushed the drawer shut, a wave of bitterness washed over you as you reread the title on the blank form:
Petition for Divorce.
Zayne genuinely wanted to treat you well.
You were a nice girl. Too nice even. From the moment he laid his eyes on you some years ago, as a friend of a friend, he knew you were nothing but kind and cheery.
He still remembered that morning vividly: the hurt on your face, the tears welling up in your eyes, and then you breaking into inconsolable sobs. That sight inflicted something in himâit felt as though his own heart had been split in two.
Believe it or not, he cherished you too.
That night, even though he didnât show it, he was still mourning her. When alcohol took over his mind and he saw you, you seemed like a perfect escape. He thought that even if he forced himself on you, there would be no consequences.
He hated that he had thought that way. He hated that how, in the end, you had become a means of relief for him.
Now you couldn't even look him in the eye, and Zayne didn't want to risk trying to coax you further. You were angry with him and rightly so, but when you ignored him and went home late more often, he was worried.
It was what drove him to volunteer for the rescue mission. When he saw your name on the hunter list, he felt compelled to make sure you were okay.
. . .
It was strange to see you on duty.
With your hunter uniform and your hair tied up, you were the picture of a very capable hunter. Zayne found himself unexpectedly following your movements as you came and went.
"Dr. Zayne, are you checking your wife out?" the EMT next to him teased with a grin. "Well, when you have a pretty wife such as Y/N, of course..."
He cleared his throat and the EMT giggled as he sauntered away.
So, you were also considered attractive here. Of course you were. Zayne knew it, but he just didn't expect that anyone here would blurt it out so openly.
But that wasn't the most surprising of allâ
"Xavier, shush!" you playfully punched the blonde man next to you in the chest, your broad smile lighting up the moment. The two of you whispered closely, and Zayne found himself feeling uncomfortable, like being prickled by several needles.
He has never made you laugh so openly like that. The nagging feeling inside him grew stronger as he watched youâeven if it was just in a platonic senseâwith another man. It stirred something within him, making him want to pull that blonde aside, give him a word or two, and overthrow him altogether.
Amidst the growing storm inside him, you suddenly turned sideways and caught his eye, and Zayne could've sworn... he felt time stopped at that moment.
It was so candid that it took his breath away. The way your earnest, unclouded eyes met his. How natural you were while loading your gun...
Ah, they were right. His wife was exceptionally pretty.
But before he could fully appreciate it, you broke the eye contact and turned away, pretending as if you hadnât seen him at all.
Zayne wondered then, why did he feel so hurt all of a sudden?
Battlefields were always a place of chaos, and Zayne was no stranger to it.
He was on standby at the makeshift hospital as patients surged in, continuously aiding first-aid. Some were hunters on duty, and his heart was in his throat the entire time, anxiously hoping you wouldnât be among them.
"Doc... it still hurts," a little girl sniffled right after Zayne wrapped her injured arm with the gauze. Despite the anxiety, seeing this tearful girl softened his frown.
"It's just going to take a while, hmm?" he patted the kid in the head. "It's going to be better soon enough."
"My mom is still inside..." she said, her eyes welling up with tears. "Doc, will they get her out?"
Zayne hesitated, his thoughts briefly drifting to you. He managed a reassuring smile. "Donât worry, theyâllâ"
Crash! âall of a sudden, a loud explosion shook the hospital, the sound echoing through the chaos. The little girl clung to his coat in fear.
"Call for retreat!" someone suddenly shouted from outside. "Alert all personnel immediately!"
Retreat. The thought that you might be safe soon brought him a sense of relief. He turned to the girl, trying to keep his composure.
"Look, the hunters are retreating, it means most are already evacuated." Zayne managed a reassuring smile. "Stay here. I'll help you find her later, okay?"
He went to the survivors' camp outside, attending to the wounded and keeping a vigilant eye on each returning hunter. Even until 30 minutes later, he still hadn't seen you. Thinking to contact you, he reached out for his phone.
"Who hasn't gotten out?" Jenna, your team leader, demanded the receiver with a stern voice, standing tall several feet away from the camp, and Zayne overheard the snippets of her conversation.
A frantic voice responded, "Xavier is still inside! Y/N too!"
"Those two! They are alwaysâ!"
What?
Zayne almost dropped his phone when he heard your name. Terror gripped him instantly, and then suddenly, again, it was his greatest nightmare realized.
You are still inside. You could be hurt. It was possible you had no means to get out of there.
He didnât register letting go of his coat or crossing the police lineâall that mattered was getting to you. He sprinted away, ignoring the shouts of those trying to stop him.
No. Not again!
Debris flew everywhere, and the roars of Wanderers grew louder as he neared the building wreckage. As a splinter was about to hit him, ice shot through his palms, creating a barrier that shattered it.
"Y/N!" he shouted your name, his voice cracking with panic. "Where are you?!"
All he could think about was the memory of you bleeding out in the ER. Zayne never wanted to see that again. Should anything happen to you now...
He didn't want you to be hurt. He hated seeing you cry. For the past weeks, it had torn him apart to see you so unhappy. He wanted to be the one who made you smile, the one you looked at with love.
The realization washed over him like a tidal wave. Yet it wasnât an epiphany but a simple truth he had always known but never fully grasped until now.
If he lost you now, it'd destroy him.
He continued screaming your name over and over. And then, after turning several turns, he finally saw you, standing alone in the middle of the wreckageâ
You turned to him in surprise when you heard your name in his shout, and were rooted to the spot, in disbelief that your husband was right before you.
Zayne felt a wave of relief wash over him, until a hollow croak from above caught his attention. He squintedâ
A glass panel had crumbled and was falling directly towards you.
A sense of dread so great overwhelmed him, a lump formed in his throat, and the smoke made it hard to breathe. He sprinted forward, and with everything he had, he pushed you out the way.
The next thing he knew, everything went pitch black.
"Zayne? Zayne!"
A memory flashed in his mind's eye. The one memory he wished he didn't have to relive ever again.
Sitting on the deserted hospital bench, his eyes were vacant. Utter hollowness choked him, leaving him motionless. It was over. There was no blood on his hands, yet it felt as if there were.
Your grip on his shoulder was tight, shaking him. "Zayne, snap out of it!" and only then he brought himself to meet your eyes.
"She died." That was the only thing he could mutter, pain woven in each word. "She really died."
Your eyes widened in horror, an inaudible gasp left your lips. "Oh..."
He didn't really know what happened next, but he remembered the warmth from when you pulled him to your arms, when sobs wracked his body as he thought the world was ending.
Since then, you have always been there.
And subconsciously, he may have regarded you as his lifeline.
. . .
Another memory.
"Are you awake...?"
His mind was hazy, but he recognized your voice. He blearily opened his eyes to find you placing a cool compress on his forehead.
"Who would have thought the great Dr. Zayne can get a fever?" you said with a soft laugh, patting his hair. "Donât worry about me. Go back to sleep."
You came to see him. He remembered telling you not to. But you still did, and the fact thawed the ice in his heart.
Just as you were about to leave, his hand reached out and pulled you closer. "Donât go."
"Are you trying to make me catch your cold too?" you teased with a soft laugh.
"Hmph. Who told you to come here...?"
"Ah, so you're whiny when you're not feeling well," you observed with a smile. "Okay, I'll stay! But only if you agree to nurse me if I catch your cold!"
You were noisy, but endearingly so.
. . .
"Don't pay her any mind," you fidgeted on your seat, a frown on your face. "My mom always does that."
There was never any talk about the nature your relationship between the two of you, but it was clear to everyone nevertheless. You were always around him, and he seemed to enjoy your company just as much.
And not for the first time, your mother pushed him towards marriage with you.
"People are always getting the wrong idea," you grumbled. "Sorry, Zayne..." you lowered your head, seemingly in regret.
He was puzzled, because to him, it wasn't necessarily false. All things you did together lead to this.
"What if it isn't a wrong idea at all?"
You looked at him with slight surprise. "Huh...?"
Your presence was a gift. That tragedy was devastating, but having you constantly by his side made it bearable. He was fond of you, and the thought that if it's you, then surely...
In this memory, he was more sure than ever. What he said then, it came from the truest place in his heart.
"What if I told you... as of right now, I can't imagine being with anyone but you?"
The side of his head was throbbing with pain. Everything hurt, the hard asphalt was bruising his face as the headache set in. He could smell the scent of blood and sweat, but more than thatâ
"Zayne! Ah, hahâ Please, please! No!"
Your voice, choked with tears, blared in his ears as you desperately shook him. You sounded so heartbroken, so utterly panicked, and your voice gradually pulled him back to consciousness.
Opening his eyes took tremendous effort. At first, everything was a blur, but then it came into focusâthe sight of you disheveled, smeared with soot, with tears streaming down your face. But still youâ the woman he had married two years ago.
Yet his heart lurched. You're crying again... why is it that whenever with me, you're always crying?
"Are you... alright?" he rasped, lifting his hand to touch your face.
"Why did youâ" You were startled by his question, your gaze fixed on the blood pooling on the side of his face. "Your head is bleeding!"
Ah, so you're fine. The sheer knowledge brought him relief, a faint smile forming at his lips. "I'm glad..."
"I'll help you get back! Hold onto meâ" you said after brushing away your tears, lifting him up and draping his arm around your shoulder. "Can you walk?"
"I'm... fine..."
"You're not!" you refuted harshly, voice trembling. "You have to go back!"
You made him lean on you as you made your way back to the makeshift hospital, each step accompanied by your sniffles as you supported his waist.
Zayne glanced at you, feeling a warmth in his chest despite the migraine. "D-Don't cry... I'll be fine."
"You're an idiot!" you choked out, struggling to hold back your tears. "Why did you even come out here?"
"I... have to find you. They said you haven't returned."
"There are still civilians inside! I'll return eventually!"
"I canât wait for that. I... have to know you're safe."
His response only fueled your frustration. "You don't have toâ!"
"You are my wifeâ" he snapped, turning to you sharply, his eyes flashing with anger. "How can I not worryâ for you?"
The forceful tone in his voice went straight to the most tender part of your heart. It really struck you at that moment that he had come out here for you, that his concern for you was that profound.
And that after all these weeks, he still keeps you in his thoughts.
He had pushed you out of the way, even at the cost of himself, barely missing the fallen billboard in that violent crash. If he was in the wrong position, he could've lost his life.
You stared at him, tears glossing your eyes.
"That's enough... Don't cry again." Zayne reached out to wipe your cheeks. His hands, however, were smeared with his own blood, leaving streaks on your face. "Ah... I got blood on you..."
But in that moment, you couldnât care less. There was this indescribable sting of grief, but also paired with a sense of relief so great in your chest the very second you realize that now, he sees you.
You threw yourself into his arms, hugging him tightly as you sobbed, calling out to him in broken voice. âZ-Zayne...!â
âWhy are you crying again...?â he let out a resigned sigh, but still embraced you regardless. âWhat a crybaby...â
You buried your face deeper into him, shaking uncontrollably. âYou... saved me...â you managed to say amidst torrent of tears. âY-You... got hurt...â
âIâll be fine,â he retorted in your ear albeit in a hoarse voice, holding you close, even as blood trickled down the side of his face. âAnd Iâd do it again. I refuse to see you hurt.â
You cried harder, and he pulled you tighter, his chest aching at the sight of you so inconsolable. And in that moment, he made the decision right then and there.
He will protect you so long as time will allow him to.
It was as if the invisible wall between you had crumbled to dust after that incident. You stayed by Zayne's side night and day, monitoring his condition.
And one night, several days later...
"Here, don't move..."
You carefully dressed the wound on Zayne's temple, sitting close beside him. He quietly observed your worried eyes and trembling fingers without a word.
"You even need stitches..." you lamented, biting your lip as you wrapped the bandage around his head. Tears pricked your eyes, overwhelmed by the concern you were pouring into the task.
"I'm telling you, I'm fine," he gruffly insisted in an attempt to erase the sadness from your face. He felt the delicate, almost hesitant touch of your fingers on his face. "It'll heal with time."
Even as he said that, a part of you was still troubled at the sight of the wound on his head and cheekbone. No matter what he said, you couldnât shake the feeling that it was somehow your fault.
"I'm done. Now go rest," you said softly, your voice tinged with bitterness after tying the gauze. You rose to put the kit away, but even after you finished, Zayne remained upright on the bed, so you leveled a frown at him.
"What, why aren't youâ Ah!"
Before you knew it, he pulled you by the arm, and you tumbled into his chest in surprise. "What are you doing?!" you yelled at him, clinging to his shoulder and looking up at him with ire. "You could've hit your head!"
He looked down at you with a flat expression, or is that a hint of amusement glinting in his eyes? âCan't a husband cuddle his wife?â
You blinked dumbly, caught off-guard. âYes, you can, but...â
His arms then enveloped you, fitting you on his chest and he sighed against your hair. âThen thereâs nothing wrong with it. Letâs just stay like this for now.â
And so, that was how he decided to sleep throughout the nightâwith you on top of him, held close. You felt self-conscious as Zayne had never initiated this closeness with you since that night.
"Are you sure you want to sleep this way?" you wriggled a bit in his grasp.
He draped an arm around your waist, pressing his eyes shut. "Mm-hm."
"You..." A part of you recoiled at the vulnerability but decided to ask anyway. "Won't this be⊠a mistake...?"
That caught his attention, as Zayne's eyes fluttered open. He looked down at you, who avoided his gaze with a pout and a torn expression, making yourself small in his embrace.
It dawned on him then that this persisting issue in your marriage was thoroughly his fault. His past was something he could neverâand would neverâtrade for anything, but right now, you were that sense of peace that grounded him.
At one point, he has to let it go. These feelings inside him⊠they drive him to.
He softened, his gaze full of understanding as he gently brushed your hair back. "No," he said quietly, his voice tender. "Weâve come too far for it to be one."
Your clear, innocent eyes reluctantly met his, and at that moment something akin to clarity resonated within him.
He once thought nothing could ever mend the hollowness in his heart. And once, he indeed hoped that being with you would provide some form of relief or replace what he had lost.
But right now, feeling how vulnerable you were in his arms like this, he understood that you were not, and could never be, a replacement for anything else. Even before he realized it himself, what he felt for you was something entirely differentâ something dear that had grown and evolved into a genuine affection different from what he had felt for anyone else before.
Those times spent with you, wanting to protect you... Now that he reflected on it, it was never about filling a void, after all.
âI... want to treasure you better.â
Oh. Your heart thumped loudly as those words left his lips, warmth spreading through your entire being. Overwhelmed by the sincerity in his voice, you clung to his chest, feeling a surge of love and a profound sense of being freed from the chains of insecurity that had taken you hostage all these years.
Most precious. Zayne smiled at you, pressing a kiss to the crown of your head.
âThis time for sure... I will.â
And at last... he could say it without any lingering guilt.
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scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna...
warnings!!! dark content, noncon breeding, dubcon, sukuna ties your hands together, baby trapping, toxic, possessive and jealous sukuna, manipulative tendencies and mentions of violence (not towards reader), oral (f!receiving)
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scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna who'd always coax you into fucking him bareback without a condom because he swears it feels better...
being so sweet, seducing you into letting him hit it raw, doing whatever it takes to put you in a good mood, get you hot and bothered so you can't deny him for long, swearing that he'd pull out, and that you'd have nothing to worry about...
but scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna who never kept his word. he'd fuck you silly and cum deep into your womb, even though he promised he wouldn't. you wanted to stop him, but you were feeling too good in the moment to fight him off. when you confront him about it afterwards, he simply tells you "my bad, sweetheart. i didn't mean to, but you just felt too good..."
he gets high off the feeling of cumming inside you.
scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna who secretly wished he could fuck you pregnant with his seed. but you told him you didn't want a baby, which he disappoints him, though he may not show it. he wants to see your belly swell up with his child, and to suck on your sweet milk when your tits start leaking. fuck, just the thought of it had made him get hard.
scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna who didn't take you seriously when you broke it off with him. you could see it in his eyes sometimes, the way he seemed eerily quiet when your pregnancy tests turned out with only one line. you felt glad you'd taken those birth control pills behind his back. but you decided enough was enough. you loved him, but you just didn't want to have a child with him.
scummy ex-boyfriend sukuna who didn't even seem phased by the break up. he believed he could coax you back to him again, given with some time. you are his, and nothing will change that. when he sees you around, he shamelessly flirts with you and tries to convince you to come back to him, telling you that he misses you dearly. there are times when he almost succeeds, only because you do miss him sometimes too.
a few weeks into the break up, you truthfully, begin to feel a little sexually frustrated. you don't recall having such a high sex drive before getting with sukuna, but he seems to have permanently altered your body, the way he used to pleasure you so good...
you gather some friends and head into a club, and try to forget about him.
at the club, you re-familiarise yourself with the smell of alcohol in the air, the music that hurts your eardrums, and the crowd of people all around you, wherever you went. it's been a while since you've been here, because you had been with sukuna for over two years now.
an hour or two passes, and you've gotten yourself fairly tipsy at the bar now.
you sync yourself up with the music, but a familiar figure catches your attention from the second floor of the club, afar. it's sukuna. but he's not looking at you.
he's standing with his ex-girlfriend - the one that had gotten hysterical with you after she'd found out about your relationship with him. your mood plummets, for some reason.
you're the one that broke up with him. it shouldn't matter what he's up to after that. liar. you told me you missed me. you try to ignore him, and continue drinking yourself drunk, the edges of your vision already swimming.
sukuna's at the club, only because a friend of his snitched on you and told him that you were out here somewhere. he didn't think he'd meet yorozu, out of everyone it could've been.
"hi, ryo. i heard you'd finally broken up with that girl?" she asks sweetly, standing as close to him as possible.
sukuna gives her a deadpan stare.
"broken up? says who?"
"well, everyone. don't tell me you're pathetically clinging onto her now? that's not like you."
"i'm not you. now get lost, i'm busy."
yorozu grabs his hand, stopping him from walking away.
"wait! i just wanna tell you..."
she continues talking, but his attention has already drifted elsewhere, as his eyes pan toward the crowd downstairs. now...where are you? when he does manage to find you in the crowd downstairs, he doesn't like what he sees. that's an understatement. he hates it.
you're swaying your hips with some other bastard, making out with him on the dance floor.
"damn- you're so fuckin' hot," the stranger chuckles against the shell of your ear, your arms around his neck.
"am i really?" you respond giggling, clearly intoxicated.
"yeah, you are... why don't you come home with me?"
"hmmm? sure, why not? 'm single now, anyway," you mumble, your feet now beginning to stumble. you're starting to miss him again.
"broke up with your boyfriend, did you? poor thing."
"i'll help you feel better." the man grins and helps you walk outside of the club.
on his way out however, he bumps into someone of a large frame. he's all tatted up, and his gaze is holding a mean glare as he stares down at him. he holds out his hand to him, like he's asking for something.
"hand her over, and i won't beat you to death."
oh. he must be the ex. that was enough for the man to quietly place your body into sukuna's arms and exit the club.
tch, he's as spineless as he looks.
sukuna handles your limp body with care, your breath pungent with the smell of alcohol. he's irritated to no end right now, and a vein is bulging from his forehead, but he safely carries you to his car.
outside, the man thinks he's clear of danger, and decides he's had enough for the night. but, someone's heavy arm comes down around his shoulders suddenly.
"hey. you're the one that played it too close with sukuna's girl? how unlucky of you," a man with a scar on his lip talks nonchalantly.
he gets dragged into a nearby alleyway.
"don't take it personally. i got paid to do this."
the man shrieks as he gets beaten to a pulp, just enough so it hurts like hell, but not enough to kill him. sukuna likes to keep his word.
meanwhile... you're taken to your own home. he found the keys to your house in your purse. sukuna tucks you into your own bed, and even dresses you into your own pajamas. and then...
he just leaves.
-
the next morning - you don't remember a thing. you're left feeling confused, wondering how you managed to get home and how you were even sober enough to get yourself dressed. the only thing you can recall is seeing sukuna with his ex, and then making out with some random guy on the dance floor. everything else is blacked out.
you ask your friends, but they were also too busy getting wasted to know what happened to you. but you feel fine physically, so you brush the incident off.
now the only thing bothering you... sukuna hasn't contacted you again ever since you witnessed him and yorozu talking. so he must've gone back to her. that makes you feel... irritated. upset. sad, even. even though you wanted to break things off first.
you slowly start getting back to your normal daily life again, although with a heavy heart. only change is, that you can't seem to find your birth control pills, wherever you last put them. you contemplate for a moment, wondering whether you should buy a new pack, but you end up shrugging it off, knowing that you won't really need them in the meantime anyway...
you're trying to get back into what life was like before you met sukuna. falling back into bad diet habits, staring at your phone, going back and forth between unblocking and blocking sukuna's number - wondering if he's texted you again in the meantime - but of course, there is nothing new.
he may have had his toxic traits, but you knew he loved you a lot... he cooked you wonderful meals and spoiled you with gifts and knew how to make you orgasm until you couldn't speak. and he was tender with you, even though he teased you a lot.
and now, you're back to using toys to satisfy yourself... it's always like this! you start thinking about him and your hand begins to wander down - you can only hope that you'll eventually lose these feelings soon.
you decide to head out and go on a shopping spree alone, to distract yourself from your thoughts and maybe lift your spirits up.
spending a lot of money for yourself always feels nice. you're buying a lot of cute clothes, accessories and food, jumping between shop to shop. the sun sets rather quickly, and by now, you're at your final stop, mulling over whether this expensive, but beautiful bracelet and necklace set is worth buying. your impulse gets the better of you and you ask for it to be packaged for you.
you reach for your wallet to pay with your card, but someone's familiar voice rings out beside you as he approaches.
"i'll pay for the set." sukuna already has his credit card out, and is handing it to the store clerk, using a tone that makes him difficult to question.
"...sukuna?" you say quizzically, his name slipping from your lips without thinking.
the clerk scans his card, and your items are already paid for.
"what are you doing here..." you ask him, with mixed feelings running around in the pit of your stomach.
"missed me?" he asks with a smirk, very naturally taking your multiple shopping bags from your hand. "i just happened to be in the area."
you're not sure if you believe him. just when you're about to ask him something again, he guides you out of the store with his hand on your shoulder.
"i thought you got back with your ex," you say, taking your bags back from his hand. "i'm sure she'll be upset if she sees you here with me."
"what? where did you get that nonsense from?" he seems genuinely confused.
"i saw you at the club, by coincidence. you were talking with her."
oh... he didn't realise you'd noticed him back there.
"oh, sweetheart... that was a coincidence. i wasn't planning on meeting her. did you really believe that i'd get back with that woman?"
you shouldn't be feeling relieved to such an extent... but your shoulders loosen up after hearing that.
"well... you stopped contacting me after i last saw you with her. of course i'd start believing it."
"oh? i thought you had my number blocked. were you anticipating my texts? you missed me, after all." sukuna leans in closer to you, smiling cockily.
you should have just kept your mouth shut...
"i'll take you home. you have a lot of luggage, no?" sukuna offers, taking your bags back from your hand.
you bite the inside of your cheek. you know you're supposed to decline here. but you let your feelings get the best of you... and end up letting him lead you to his car.
he was supposed to just quickly drop you off home.
"you have a lot of stuff. i'll help you carry it home," sukuna gave his excuse, with something more sly hiding in his eyes. you know exactly what he wants. but when he insists so strongly, you can't deny him. like the fool you are.
you unlock your door and he comes inside to put your bags down on the floor at the entrance. and as you had expected, he doesn't leave right away. instead, he looks down at you with a coy smile, while you return the gaze with a more standoffish one. the tension feels thick and heavy as neither of you speak for a moment.
"well? i'm sure you didn't let me in without knowing my intentions..." sukuna moves forward and closer to you, hands very naturally finding their way to your waist.
he leans down slowly and offers you a brief kiss, a very light and short one, like he's testing the waters. he scans your face for your response. your lips feel all tingly. and all he sees is that you're not pushing him away.
"we shouldn't..." you whisper, but your resolve is too weak. you can't tell him to go away, much less kick him out of your home.
"i know."
in truth, he doesn't really. why should he be separate from you? you belong to him. he pulls you in for a deeper kiss. and you just let it happen.
and, lord, he smells and tastes divine. there's a reason why you always forgave him despite his scummy behaviour when it came to using protection. though you ended up breaking him off, you wonder if it'll be different if you give him another chance.
he wastes no time in lifting you into his arms like you weigh nothing, and heads off to your bedroom, before you can change your mind. you comply, holding onto his strong embrace weakly, having missed this kind of treatment.
when you're laid onto your own bed, sukuna smirks again as he cages you between his arms.
"you're being so obedient. must've regretted breaking up with me-?"
pulling him in with a hand to the back of his neck, you shut him up with another demanding kiss, not letting him speak for long. sukuna groans as you slip your tongue into him, initiating something messier than what the both of you were doing before.
he's quick to unzip your skirt and side it off, along with your panties. in desperation, he doesn't take the time to fully get you naked and instead, pushes your shirt and bra up to fondle your jutting breasts. sukuna then peels his own jacket and shirt off.
"spread your legs for me, sweetheart. i'll spoil you tonight."
you part your legs slowly - and he sees that you're already glistening with slick. bringing his face down, he aims straight for your sensitive clit, wrapping his lips around it entirely. your back arches as you gasp, the warm and wet feeling being so arousing like nothing else in this world.
you feel the tip of his tongue flicker up and down your clitoris in a mesmerising rhythm - knowing exactly what you want, and need to reach your orgasm. and the way he sucks on you with the correct amount of pressure, while making the lewdest noises, forcing your hips to stutter uncontrollably against his mouth, with the way it feels so mind numbing, is just too much in its own way.
you let your erotic moans ring out, because you know he loves it when you show him how good you're feeling - and your hands can't help but hold onto his hair from the intense pleasure, which he never seem to flinch from.
the first orgasm hits you like a truck, with the way you're left breathless and gasping for air as your legs reflexively try to close up - sukuna has to hold them apart with his strong grip as he continues tonguing you even as you're cumming, your cunt thrumming against his lips.
"o-ooh- fuck-! sukuna!" you plead, your blank gaze meeting the ceiling with half-lidded eyes, hips jolting without restraint.
when he does eventually show mercy and remove his mouth from your poor aching clit, you're already on the brink of sobbing, your legs down to your toes feeling all prickly from the overstimulation. your mind is in a haze.
so much so, that you didn't realise that he had bound your wrists to the bed frame until he was already done with it.
"wha- sukuna...? why're you tying me up-?" you question, still a little out of it from your last orgasm.
"shh, love. it's not like this is the first time...relax," sukuna comforts you, caressing your face. you can't help the small uneasiness from growing in your stomach. he suddenly gives your clit a light slap. it startles you a bit, and you gasp.
"you're so pretty. do you know that?"
you see your own reflection in his ringed eyes. your heart races, and you don't know if it's because you're flustered or terrified.
"i just wanna..."
his cock aches in his pants.
he never finishes his sentence. instead, he just offers you a soft, yet sloppy kiss.
sukuna frees his erection, and sighs in relief. it's all messy and leaky with precum. he lines it up against your wet and puckering cunt. you won't deny that you want it...
"sukuna... condom..." you remind him gently, getting slightly nervous from the way he's rubbing his tip up and down your slit.
"... 'm sorry sweetheart. i don't think i can do that."
he pushes his hips in one go, and you're left gasping from the sudden intrusion. you're immediately pushed into a mating press.
sukuna groans from how he immediately feels your wet walls sucking him in, your slick making his cock glisten as he thrusts in and out. he's missed this so, so much.
"fuck- sukuna! you can't- oh my g-god..." your hands tug at your bindings as you try and resist your moans from coming out of your throat, but the way his dick satisfies your cunt is otherworldly, his tip kissing your cervix, over and over again.
"that's it, baby... just enjoy yourself," he urges you on, getting breathless from his own fast pace, cock pulsating inside of you in excitement. god, you always drive him crazy.
still, in the back of your mind you still have a sliver of trust in this man. foolishly so. surely he'll pull out at the last second. surely he won't cum inside you in this situation. it's been a while since you stopped being on the pill.
your bed creaks from how roughly sukuna pounds your pussy, all while groaning with such shamelessness, only caring about the pleasure that is found from the warmth and wetness of your puckering hole.
"fuuck... fuck! to think you were gonna let some other bastard do this to you..." he growls under his breath, brows furrowing. you don't hear him. he remembers his original motive for all of this. to remind you who you truly belonged to.
"ooh-! sukuna! you're being too rough..." you whine, feeling the pressure of an incoming orgasm already building in your abdomen.
he only grips your hips harder, looking down at you with a toothy smile. his dick aches so badly. he's endured through so much patience just for this moment.
your mind goes blank as you forget about the fact that he's not wearing a condom, drool spilling out the side of your mouth from the pleasure you feel as his girthy dick drills in and out of you, a squelching noise happening everytime he sinks himself in. there's the feeling of his heavy balls slapping against your ass. and also the friction from his pants, that he hasn't bothered to fully take off. the juices from your cunt has dampened them, but sukuna couldn't care less right now.
"sweetheart... my love... take- taking me s-so well..." sukuna groans, panting and words slurred. despite the deeply affectionate words, his hips move like an animal. you can't do anything but moan and cry.
sukuna feels himself getting high again. there's just something about you... god, he's so pussydrunk he can't even think properly. only the thought of breeding you is on his mind. make you his, completely. to see your belly get bigger from his seed... a powerful thrum goes to his cock and he shudders again.
he has to make it take, this time.
"i'm gonna cum," he tells you breathlessly, knowing you won't be able to stop him, this time around.
"sukuna!... wait," you protest, weakly tugging at your binds again, but you can't say anything more than that, as his lips come down onto yours, silencing you effectively. he tongue kisses you roughly, desperate and messy as you can feel his laboured breaths on you.
and the final thrust that he gives, where he pushes his dick in so deeply, tip meeting your cervix, sends you into another trembling orgasm. sukuna groans deeply against your mouth as he cums, hips stuttering against yours, eyes shut tightly as he savours you completely. you take your lips off of his, and try to say, "stop...! no- pull out," but he stops you with another kiss.
you sob, because it's over. but you're also sobbing because it feels so good.
sukuna's deep kiss trails down to the crook of your neck.
"you can't tell me to pull out... when your cunt is... seducing my cock like this..." he shivers between phrases, mumbling against your neck, mind all hazy from the way you pulse around him from your orgasm, milking his dick as spurt after spurt of his seed shoots straight into your womb.
you can't even say anything back to him - you're coming off your high as he empties his balls into you, letting out more than usual. you're done for.
"i hate you," you sob.
"i know you don't really mean that. you can't live without me," sukuna tells you, pressing a gentle kiss against your forehead afterwards.
"and the same applies to me. i'll never let anyone else have you."
he begins to litter kisses down again, until he reaches your chest, while his cock is still inside you. his soft lips caress your tits, and then he begins to lather his tongue around your stiffened nipples, making you feel good again, even through the tears.
the night is far from over.
sukuna becomes much more gentle and soft after the first time, opting for slower but deeper thrusts this time around, adding plenty of little kisses in between as well, "loving" you with everything he has. you have no choice but to accept all of him, as he cums inside of you over and over again.
his cock is in its own haven, being trapped in your gummy walls without rest. and at some point, sukuna's even released your wrists, and now you're willingly making love to him with your arms around his neck, coping with the thought that resisting doesn't even matter anymore - it's already too late, and you're tired of trying to fight back.
you can't count how many times he's dumped his load into you, how many times he's said "i can't get enough of you," how many times you've kissed him back when he kisses you.
and when he finally does eventually pull out, his semen oozes out of you in a disgusting amount. you're spent, and completely exhausted. you can't help your heavy eyelids from closing up, and the last thing you hear is his soft voice.
"goodnight, sweetheart. i'll take care of everything, from now on. i promise."
he holds you so closely and lovingly that you believe him.
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#sukuna x reader#ryomen sukuna#ryomen sukuna x reader#sukuna smut#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#sukuna x y/n#sukuna x you#sukuna#and then he becomes the best perfect husband that kisses the ground you walk so you end up forgetting that he literally babytrapped you <3#tw dark content#tw dubcon#tw non con#tw baby trapping
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âHOW CAN I LOVE WHEN IâM AFRAID TO FALL?â
âI fell in love with you as soon as I saw you, as soon as you covered me from my father, as soon as I heard your laugh, saw the amazing mother you are, and realized I never wanted you to leave this house.â
pairing: CEO! satoru gojo x f!reader
summary: to your almost regret, your life as a single mother seems to be weighing more and more heavily on your worn-out shoulders. so what could be better than pretending to be the CEOâs girlfriend of the business you work for, knowing that his father is the general manager?
warnings: +18 only, smut, nsfw, her daughter is called hinata, fake dating/single mom tropes, angst, mother insecurities, fluff, readerâs ex is a jerk, unprotected sex, sex (p in v), overstimulation, pussy drunk (satoru), nipple play, fingering (f!receiving), oral (m), this fic is (really slightly) inspired from the french book âun printemps pour te succomberâ by morgane moncomble, including therefore small similar dialogues, (pls guys learn french only to read this masterpiece!!), fanart by @/ilameys on twt.
wc: 10,154
âCan I taste the frosting?â
Your lips curve into a smile. âOf course, angel.â You crouch down and hand the spatula coated in pastel pink frosting to your five-year-old daughter. Her little fist wraps around the handle, and joy spreads across her angelic face like rays of sunshine. âSo? How is it?â
âItâs so good!â she exclaims, and you chuckle.
âIâm glad you like it.â You glance at the clock in your kitchen. âIâll put the frosting in the fridge. While the cake bakes, go back to playing, and Iâll call you to help decorate the cake as soon as itâs ready, okay?â
Hinata nods, blowing you a kiss that you return after a moment of surprised hesitation, your lips forming an âOâ. Amid delighted laughter, she skips away, and you turn back to face the bowl of cake batter.
Why does it have to be so hard?
Every birthday, you hold back tears because who said âsingle momâ doesnât rhyme with âbaking your own birthday cake so your daughter can sing to youâ? But what hurts more â this, or seeing your flesh and blood envy her female friends who have their dads in their arms and their mothers content with their families?
The silence of loneliness can sometimes be louder than company.
âHappy birthday! Happy birthday, mama!â your daughter sings, clapping her hands as you blow out your candles in the warm, yet dimly lit, living room. âCome on, come on! Letâs eat the cake!â
With a knife, you cut two slices, one for each of you, and it only takes a few more minutes for both your mouths to be covered in pink frosting, with laughter echoing in the room. The heartache, briefly chased away by the short-lived joy, returns later that night when your daughter snuggles up in your arms in your double bed, which seems to be missing something.
Fuck, being a single mom is tough, you think as you wipe away the tears flooding your cheeks with the back of your hand. No one to support you, all the responsibilities fall on your shoulders, and now doubts about your daughter start invading your mind: âWhat if she blames you later for not having a father?â, âWhat if she thinks youâre a bad mom?â, âDo her friends at school say anything about you being the only unmarried woman among all the parents in her class?â
These thoughts have never stopped, not even during your pregnancy, whether about the weight gained or lost, or the changes in your body. Are these regrets? But how could you regret bringing such an angel into the world? Maybe itâs more about the lousy partner who left you the second he found out you were pregnant.
Probably the second option.
°°°
âWHERE IS MY SON?!â
A male voice thunders across the entire floor of the company. You jump, turning to one of your colleagues over the small partition set up for employee privacy. âWhoâs yelling like that?â you whisper, eyebrows raised in surprise.
âI heard itâs the new general managerâŠâ
Your frown deepens. âIs that why they handed me the summary of our sales figures to drop off at the office upstairs?â To prove your point, you lift the massive stack of documents.
Your colleague presses his lips together, his eyes widening in a way that already gives you the answer. âOh God, youâre the one in charge of that? Good luck. Itâs to be delivered to the new director.â
A sigh escapes your lips.
For a start to the workweek, it seems youâre about to face the stormy mood of the new boss, who apparently brought his kid to the office. What a perfect beginning.
As usual, the upper floor is deserted, as itâs generally reserved for executives with direct ties to the companyâs CEO. Few people take the elevator to reach the top floor of the skyscraper. Arriving in the lonely hallway, it should be a simple task to knock on the bossâs office door, drop off the elephant-weight stack of documents, and leave.
So why does the sound of running footsteps seem to be getting closer and closer behind you?
In a flash, a man dressed in a navy blue suit rushes past you, bumping your shoulder. He nearly topples the threatening stack of papers, but you manage, at the last second, to catch everything before you lose your balance. The young man opens the door to the womenâs restroom, and before entering, he glances over his shoulder.
Never in your life have eyes made such an impression on you.
Two cerulean blue orbs lock onto yours with a mischievous aura. A smirk tugs at the corner of his thin, pink lips. From his pale skin to his albino hair, the man exudes charm and beauty from every pore. The sheer allure of his appearance leaves your brain too stunned to react, numbing it. How can someone be this handsome?
âSATORU!â
His serene and amused expression vanishes instantly, and you jump in response. Replaced by an exaggerated look of fear, he addresses you, âCover for me. If he asks you, you never saw me!â And his tall, slender body disappears into the womenâs restroom.
More footsteps echo down the hallway, this time from a second man, just as tall and physically similar to the young man you just encountered â though slightly older, with wrinkles lining his face and a mix of albino hair and silver from age. You have no time to react except to straighten up against the wall.
His blue eyes, more gray and stern, settle on you as he approaches. âDid you see a man? A tall idiot running around and flirting with any woman he sees,â he grumbles the last part, his eyes thoughtfully fixed on the light carpet.
You shake your head robotically. âNo⊠Iââ
âNever mind,â he cuts you off with a dismissive wave of his hand â as if your answer is irrelevant and heâs heard it at least twenty times before. He sighs and scratches at the stubble on his chin. âWho are you, anyway?â
âAn employee, sir.â You gesture to the stack of documents thatâs beginning to make its weight known in your arms. âI was asked to drop this off in your office.â The tone of your voice almost pleads with him to let you in and relieve you of the annoying burden.
âThe report? Ah yes, of course.â You sigh in relief as he unlocks the door with his keys. âI suppose youâre wondering who I am?â
âThe new general manager, I guess?â you reply, raising an eyebrow. You drop the heavy stack onto the desk and exhale deeply. âWe heard you on every floor.â You canât help but chuckle at your own remark, offering the director an apologetic smile.
He rolls his eyes, but a light chuckle still rumbles in his chest. âYouâre right. Itâs because of my son.â
His son?
You repeat the word aloud, confused, and he clarifies. âMy son is the new CEO of this company, and I almost regret my decision to give him that position.â He shakes his head, his gaze drifting toward the blue sky visible through the large window, then refocuses on you. âI apologize in advance. Heâs going to be a real handful.â
âI understand. I think weâll manage to put up with him,â you add with a smile.
In the end, this new boss doesnât seem as strict as your colleagues have been saying, and his story about his son is more amusing than anything. You cough slightly into your elbow and clear your throat, murmuring an apology.
âAre you sick?â the director inquires.
âA little,â you admit reluctantly, feeling embarrassed as you adjust the mask on your face. âSorry. I couldnât stay home.â
âNo problem.â He crosses his arms over his chest and sighs. âWell, I think I have some work to do. See you later, I suppose.â
You donât hesitate to leave the bossâs office and quietly step into the womenâs restroom. âIs⊠someone here?â you murmur in a hoarse voice.
The creaking of a door answers you, and the general managerâs son emerges from a stall, looking cautious. He looks like a little boy checking to see if his hiding spot in a game of hide-and-seek has been discovered, which makes you stifle a discreet giggle. He turns to you and offers an apologetic smile. âSorry about earlier. I didnât hurt you, did I, sweetheart?â
The nickname catches you off guard, and warmth floods your face. âN-No, Iâm fine. Youâre the new CEO, right?â
âSatoru Gojo, at your service, pretty girl.â He winks, a reminder that heâs quite the flirt.
You introduce yourself in return, running out of things to say, your hands nervously clasped by your sides.
âPretty name,â Satoru murmurs. He closes the stall door behind him and exhales, shaking his head. âPhew! That was a close one! Thanks again!â He strides toward the exit with one last charming smile in your direction, leaving the restroom and a lingering scent of cologne behind him.
°°°°
âWhy arenât you answering?â
âDamn it, youâre so annoying with this!â
âThereâs no point in moving every few months, Iâm going to find you.â
âFor fuckâs sake, answer my messages! I told you I need you! I swear Iâll help you raise Hinata this time.â
âI made a mistake, so let me fix it by answering my fucking messages! I know youâre reading them!â
You swallow hard, your throat tight, and press the âblock this contactâ button on your phone. Itâs the fourth time this month. Heâs been harassing you with messages and finding a way to contact you no matter how many numbers he uses, even when you change yours. The same goes for your address, as apparently changing apartments is no longer enough to escape him.
You know heâs in debt â one of the many consequences of his excessive gambling, even when you were still in a relationship with him. Smoking, drinking, and of course, downing tobacco like it was water, only to charm you while hiding this lifestyle to get you into his bed, then fleeing the moment you were pregnant.
So now that he needs a woman and a child to escape his debts, heâs reaching out to you â the woman he abandoned after promising marriage (without a ring, of course), got pregnant, and deserted, only to come crawling back to you.
âMama? You okay?â
Your daughterâs concerned little voice pulls you out of your daze. The cartoons playing on the TV havenât had the desired effect â theyâre not distracting her from the anxiety thatâs been gnawing at you day by day. Maybe today, itâs showing enough for people to notice?
âIâm fine, angel,â you reassure her with a perfect smile â perfectly fake, because thatâs something youâve learned to anchor over time.
You pat the empty spot on the couch next to you, and she nestles under your arm. âIf you say soâŠâ Hina murmurs, clutching her worn-out bunny plush.
The state of the plush catches your attention, and a pang of guilt stabs at your heart. What kind of mother lets her daughter carry around a stuffed toy in such poor condition? Maybe you are a bad mother? Otherwise, why would Hina deserve such a pitiful situation? She deserves so much better than youâŠ
âLittle angel?â you murmur as she wraps her tiny arms around your waist and nuzzles into your belly. âAre you okay?â
âI love you.â
And the three little words sound⊠unreal.
Hot tears blur your vision, and it takes every bit of strength you have to whisper back, âI love you too, Hina.â
°°°°
3:00 PM.
In less than an hour, youâll need to pick up Hinata from school.
Normally, you avoid lingering at work. You go through your usual routine as an employee, nothing special or fun â a hello, goodbye, see you tomorrow to colleagues without worrying about whatâs happening around you or the gossip, even when it involves coworkers getting together.
The only change: now itâs you who gets stuck with the task of delivering all the documents to the general manager. According to one of your peers, he doesnât seem to be strict or threatening when it comes to you. So this time, youâre tasked with delivering an additional file about the production of a new product on the market to both the CEO and the general manager. For the second time, you head up to the highest floors of the company headquarters to knock on the CEOâs door â itâs the closest. But no one answers.
No surprise, since the directorâs son spends his time running through the hallways to avoid his father and shirk his responsibilities, right?
Youâre about to knock on the Directorâs door, but a familiar gust of wind brushes your face with a soft, fresh breeze. Satoru Gojo appears beside you with a charming smile and glances at what youâre holding.
âH-Hello, sweetheart. How are⊠you?â he greets, slightly out of breath from yet another chase with his father.
âIâm fine. Here.â You hand him one of the folders, and he takes it, pretending to read it. âThe next meetingââ But he grabs the second document and, before you can react, opens the door to his office and casually tosses them inside before shutting the door.
âSATORU GOJO! KEEP IT UP, AND IâLL DISOWN YOU!â The bossâs voice echoes through the entire floor as he appears from behind the emergency exit door. âYOU!â He points a finger at you, standing right next to him. âStill bothering our employees?â He grumbles, his jaw clenched so tightly that you can hear his teeth grinding.
âThatâs not true, father!â Satoru protests, feigning outrage. He wraps an arm around your waist and pulls you closer. âYouâre chasing me while Iâm just saying hello to my girlfriend?â
You freeze, turning your head toward him, as lost as the Director, who squints his eyes. âYour girlfriend? Since whenââ
âI was going to tell you,â Satoru continues, shaking his head, his fingers squeezing your waist while you remain paralyzed. âHereâs my new girlfriend.â
âAre you lying to me and dragging some poor woman into your childish games?â
In the back of your mind, you note that he doesnât seem to recognize you despite the last time you saw each other.
âWhat? Iâm telling the truth! Isnât that right, sweetheart?â And he leans in to plant an affectionate kiss on your cheek.
Your heart almost stops for a second. But you quickly snap back to reality under the insistent embrace of his arm and his hand around you. âY-YesâŠâ
What kind of mess have you gotten yourself into?
âWell, if youâll excuse us, father, my darling and I are in a hurry.â He leads you away before you have time to protest and heads toward the elevator with you.
Once the doors close, Satoru takes your hands in his and leans toward you. âI can explain everything.â
If his cerulean blue eyes hadnât been so persuasive, you would have exploded right there and then to yell at him.
You, the girlfriend of the CEO of the company you work for? Did this really have to happen to you? You can already picture your termination letter under your nose as you exit the back of the building. A glance at your watch tells you that if you donât hurry, youâll be late to pick up your daughter.
âYouâre in a rush?â
âI have to pick up my daughter before Iâm late,â you reply curtly, âand look at the mess Iâm in now!â
âI know, I knowâŠâ Satoru rubs the back of his head, right where his immaculate undercut is. âMaybe I can explain on the way? Whereâs your car?â He looks around the parking lot, his eyes searching.
The question â however mundane â makes you blush with embarrassment. âI⊠take public transportationâŠâ you mumble, pouting.
He furrows his brow, as if you just admitted to showering with maggot-infested soap. âExcuse me? I donât take public transportation.â
âWell, I do.â A hint of defiance returns to protect your pride.
How could he possibly understand when he lives like a rich man, without worrying about grocery shopping, paying bills, and of course, taking public transportation during the week to avoid wasting gas because it costs an arm and a leg! But for him, that must not be part of his daily life, especially since heâs one of societyâs privileged.
âLetâs take my car then.â He says this without waiting for you, as you remain standing there. He pulls out his keys and opens the passenger door. âWhat are you waiting for?â
âButâ Iâ Are you out of your mind?â you burst out. âIâm not getting in that car! Iâm supposed to pick up my daughter, and now Iâm pretending to be your girlfriend! In front of your father!â You emphasize your words with wild, energetic gestures.
He bursts out laughing.
Cute.
âNo chance. Weâre going to pick up your daughter and clear this all up. And please, stop refusing to get into a car thatâs way better than those buses that reek of sweat.â He rolls his eyes, and you note how much he resembles his father when he does that.
âI have an errand to run anyway,â you persist.
âAnd that doesnât change the fact that I want you to get in this car,â Satoru chuckles.
Taking a closer look, the car is as luxurious as the ones you dream about at night â yours, by comparison, looks like a junk heap ready for the scrapyard. Reluctantly, you climb in, Satoruâs chivalrous demeanor not going unnoticed as he snickers at your surrender. He quickly gets in, asks for the address of the school, and sets off after starting his car, which smells just as good as he does. You feel like a piece of trash in the middle of this little universe he inhabits.
âMy father bugs me every day to find a woman,â Satoru murmurs at first, one hand resting on his thigh, clad in business suit trousers, his eyes fixed on the road over his round sunglasses. âThatâs one of the reasons I avoid him.â
âAnd why involve me?â you snap back.
âWell, to be honest, it was partly impulsive. I met you the other day, and then, in the moment, I just wanted my father to leave me alone.â He has a half-smile that makes you swallow hard, and he gives you a knowing look before returning to a serious expression. âIâm sorry for dragging you into all this.â A pause. âI just hope youâre not married, otherwiseââ
âNo, Iâ No.â You close your eyes for a moment, the innocent question burning like a fiery arrow piercing your already aching heart. Did you just hear a sigh of relief? âAnd your father doesnât seem to have recognized me since the other day,â you canât help but point out.
âThe mask.â Satoru grips the steering wheel until his knuckles turn white. âHe didnât recognize you because of that. Heâs always had a bad memory and poor eyesight.â
âBut you recognized me.â You focus on the roadâs scenery to avoid confronting his mesmerizing eyes. âIâm not going to wear my mask forever, you know? And I donât want to keep pretendingââ
âPlease,â Satoru whispers, placing a hand on yours, sending a shiver down your spine. âJust until he and my family get off my back.â
âIâm sorry, butââ
âHow much do you want?â He asks immediately, as if he just remembered something.
âWhat? No! I donât want your money!â you protest as quickly as he did. âNo, IâŠâ And you groan, sinking into your seat.
Holy shit!
âWhat have I gotten myself into, seriouslyâŠâ you moan, crossing your arms over your chest, a grimace distorting your features.
âPlease. I know itâs a lot to ask, but Iâll do everything to make it just a minor detail⊠Iâm only asking you to change your name in front of my father when you pass as my girlfriend, wear a mask, and change your hairstyle at work â if we want to avoid suspicion. He wonât suspect a thing, I swear.â He pulls into the school parking lot and parks quietly.
Thoughts bombard your already exhausted mind, and you massage your temples. Why does this have to happen to you and no one else?
Satoru murmurs your name, making you lift your head. âIt will only be a few family events, just for appearances, nothing more. I wonât bother you any further.â
You sigh, and the sound of the bell signaling the end of classes rings out. âI need to think about it. Thanks for the ride. Have a niceââ
âCome back. Iâll take you home,â Satoru suggests, pressing the button to unlock your door.
Whatâs the point of refusing?
You nod, finally getting out of the car to go pick up your daughter, who runs toward you as soon as you reach the gate.
"Mama!" She jumps into your arms.
You return her embrace, heading towards Satoruâs car. âDid you have a good day?â
âSo much fun! I made you a drawing!â Sheâs practically bouncing as you reach the car.
Noticing your daughterâs confused look, you clear your throat. âUh⊠A-A friend of mine is giving us a ride home, okay?â She blinks innocently and waits for you to open the car door, which is almost as tall as she is. Hinata gets in as you do, and you cough slightly. âThis is Gojo. My friend.â
âHello, princess.â Satoru turns his head over his shoulder with a big smile. âWhatâs your name?â
âHinata,â she replies, her legs gently swinging.
âVery pretty.â
âThank you.â She blushes and tries to hide a smile.
On the way, you try to fill the awkward silences with small talk until you arrive at the supermarket.
You had promised to buy Hinata a new stuffed animal since last night after spending hours worrying that you werenât being a good mother. Again.
âThat one!â Hinata almost runs towards a bunny plushie thatâs twice the size of her head. She grabs it with her little arms and gives it a hug.
Satoru and you reach the aisle, and out of habit, you check the price under the albinoâs watchful eye. Your eyes nearly pop out of their sockets when you see the amount, and you place a trembling hand on Hinaâs shoulder. âAngel, I think itâsââ
ââŠPerfect,â Satoru finishes, his large hands taking the plushie from your daughterâs tight embrace to check the price tag with its shocking number. âDo you like it, little one?â he asks, looking down at her.
Hina nods energetically. âYeah!â
âThen weâll take it.â Satoru hands the plushie back to her and turns towards the checkout lane, already reaching into one of his pockets for what looks like⊠a wallet.
You react immediately, your hands finding their way around his arm. He doesnât push you away at all and even smiles at the contact. âGojo⊠No.â
âItâs Satoru to you, sweetheart,â he whispers gently. âAnd why not? Itâs just a stuffed animal,â he scoffs. He takes Hinataâs hand so she can place the plushie on the conveyor belt.
âNo, itâs not nothing to me,â you persist through clenched teeth, embarrassed that the cashier might be paying attention to your conversation.
Satoru shrugs. The cashier scans the plushie, and he uses contactless payment to pay for it. With your hands still around his arm, he places one of his on top, an intimate closeness.
âI could get used to this,â he murmurs near your ear, making you turn beet red. But he canât continue as your daughter clings to Satoruâs leg like a koala, showering him with a thousand thank-yous for the gift. âYouâre welcome, little one.â His hand gently ruffles her hair. He grins, now turning back to you. âItâs on me. You donât owe me anything.â
Your discreet protests, so Hinata doesnât suspect anything, come to an end when he drops both of you off in front of your home. Hinata commented that Satoruâs car looked like the one from the movie Barbie: Princess Charm School she had seen recently. He unlocks the doors as you get out of the car. Satoruâs hand catches yours, slipping a piece of cardstock into it. His contact details are on it.
âJust in case,â he mouths silently.
Nevertheless, you slip the business card into your pocket and respond just before closing the door, âI accept.â
°°°°
âAnd no funny business, okay? Never run in the hallways, if he tells you to wait, donât move an inch, andââ You stop yourself as you notice your daughter is more interested in admiring the elegant decorations of the office hallways with wide, doe-like eyes and an adorable, slightly open mouth.
To your great misfortune, Hinataâs preschool is on strike for a while â which means almost all the teachers are absent. So how do you take care of your daughter when you canât afford to miss work? By bringing her to your fake boyfriendâs office, of course! You quickly make your way toward Satoruâs office, Hinata following with her hand in yours. But just as you raise your fist to knock on his door, two large hands land on your shoulders, nearly scaring the life out of you.
âHey, hey!â You whip around abruptly, a new mask on your face â just as the plan intended.
âSatoruâŠâ you grit through your teeth. Hinata looks up at him and grins. You sigh.
âWhat do I owe the pleasure of all this lovely company?â Satoru asks, not taking his eyes off yours while giving Hinata a high-five.
As usual, heâs dressed in a luxurious suit â probably worth the rent of the apartment you live in â his slightly tousled albino hair and the familiar scent of cologne filling your nostrils. You catch yourself staring a little too long, and mentally kick yourself when his curious gaze turns mischievous.
He just realized you were checking him out, damn it!
âHinataâs school is on strike. I need you to watch her for the day, if thatâs not a problem, and since you seemed so insistent on returning the favor Iâm doing for youâŠâ you mumble, avoiding his gaze. âI see youâre spending your day roaming the offices rather than staying in yoursâŠâ
âNo problem at all,â Satoru replies automatically, a pleased smile on his lips. âReady to go to the CEOâs office?â He picks up Hina, who giggles and clings to him like a koala.
Itâs your turn to smile in relief. âThank you so much. I have a meeting with your father in an hour, and Iâll come get her at noon and again at the end of the day.â The sight of the two of them close together makes your heart melt â and for once, you donât blame yourself for seeing Hinata happy to be with someone else.
°°°°
5:00 PM.
Youâve sent a message to Satoru asking where he was, since knocking on his perpetually empty office seems to be pointless. The meeting with the other company members about organizing the launch of a new product was particularly painful, but one thing is certain: the general manager didnât recognize you with your more subdued hairstyle and the mask plastered on your face.
âCome to the parking lot like last time.â
And thatâs the last message from Satoru (you gave him your number during lunch).
In the empty parking lot, only Satoruâs car is present, and you cast a curious glance through the windows. The two troublemakers give you a grimace â tongues sticking out and faces scrunched up. You sigh as the passenger door opens automatically.
âSatoru, you donât have toââ
âHina said yes and that she wants to come to my place,â Satoru cuts in with a mocking expression.
Reluctantly, you get in, your heart pounding in your chest with all sorts of panicked thoughts. However, Satoru doesnât seem to share your reservations and starts driving as soon as youâre settled.
âSo, this means youâre coming to my place,â he says, hands on the wheel and a quick glance in the rearview mirror, âand Iâm inviting you to dinner.â
âNoââ
âMom! Please, Satoru is being too nice.â Hinata complains. You glance back, and she looks at you with wounded, pleading puppy eyes, arms crossed over her chest.
You grumble, slumping back against your seat as they both cheer in victory.
âBy the way, Iâm stopping by your place so you can pack. Weâre invited to a family wedding, and my father invited us.â
âWHAT?â
°°°°
You place a box with your gift on the designated table for presents, and an arm wraps around your waist. âYou look stunning,â Satoru murmurs against your neck, his lips brushing against your skin, which breaks out in goosebumps.
With a flushed face, you turn your head. âSatoruâŠâ
âWhat? Just because weâre pretending to be a couple and barely know each other doesnât mean I canât speak the truth.â He pauses. âWell, actually, we do know each other a bit, donât we? Weâve had dinner together.â He chuckles at your half-grimacing, half-deadpan expression, pulling you closer as music fills the wedding reception hall.
You turn your head along with him toward the back of the room, where the brideâs bouquet is about to be thrown. A tight smile curves your lips â this is one thing youâve dreamed of. Dreams have always been just that â dreams in your life, and even when love comes knocking at your door, itâs only passing through, just like your situation with Satoru.
His father didnât notice anything, and since Satoru lives alone in a villa, itâs hard to say no when he offered for you to stay with him until heâs settled, with your own room and a staff available 24/7. He even had a tailor make a custom dress for the wedding you were both invited to. Hinata is looked after by a lovely nurse, and youâre enjoying a life youâve always dreamed of. So why not make the most of it despite your past?
A Satoru whoâs too comfortable with you isnât so bothersome given the time youâve spent together lately â both at the office, acting as a couple in front of certain people, and sometimes showing affection to each other to appear believable, even though they havenât asked for kisses yet, soâ
A fluffy and soft object lands right in the middle of your face and falls into your arms. You search for what seems to be a petal in your mouth and suck in your breath at what you realize it is.
The brideâs bouquet.
A gulp forces its way down your throat as the whole room applauds because⊠youâve been hit in the face with the bouquet? Not to mention the lamentations of other female cousins who had jumped with all their hopes to catch it⊠But why you, who hadnât asked for anything?
âSweetheart?â Satoru mutters, his chest still pressed against your back. His tone is so sweet, nonchalant, as if youâve been a couple for years. âMy father is watching us, and I think heâs expecting me to do something.â
You swallow and nod, dreading what might happen next. Will your heart stop beating when Satoru says:
âMay I kiss you?â
Never, ever, has anyone asked you that question. Not even your ex.
So, with a nervous nod, you allow him to capture your lips in a soft, languid kiss. His tender lips taste like the cotton candy children eat at the fair. They cherish yours with every movement (which you canât help but return in kind). Each press sends butterflies fluttering in your stomach.
When the kiss ends, Satoru places one last kiss on the corner of your lips and clears his throat. âThis is the first time Iâve wanted to marry my girlfriend.â His warm breath ignites your body.
Has your heart exploded?
If not, why canât you breathe?
âAwww⊠How adorable you are with your pretty girlfriend, Satoru!â
An elderly woman approaches you both, supported by her old cane, and you note her albino hair, similar to Satoruâs.
âMy dear auntâŠâ Satoru smiles widely without breaking away from you.
âYou make a lovely couple,â Aunt Gojo continues, giving you a wise look.
âOh, thank you.â You immediately bow and introduce yourself. Satoruâs hands squeeze your waist, and he chuckles at your manners.
âTake good care of her, you idiot,â the aunt finishes before drifting away, a tap of her cane on Satoruâs head making him sigh and rub his sore skull.
âWell, at least we look convincing, right?â he adds.
âYesâŠâ
Of course, he said that because he saw his aunt before you! Donât think he said it because he meant it orâ
âBy the way,â Satoru takes your hand in his and leads you to the center of the dance floor, âI meant what I said before my aunt interrupted us.â
And youâre at a loss on how to interpret his playful wink.
°°°°
âWOW! Hinata, youâre so rich!â
âIs this your dadâs castle?â
Hinata takes Satoruâs hand and faces her friends in his chic living room. âItâs my daddyâs!â She nods proudly and runs off with them toward the games and festivities organized for her birthday. The children run everywhere, scream, and burst into laughter throughout the room. The perfect atmosphere.
Itâs exactly what youâve always dreamed of giving Hina.
âYou didnât have to do this,â you murmur to Satoru, who, despite your comment, shakes his head joyfully.
âIâm glad she likes it,â he replies.
âI wasnât talking about the party.â
He freezes and turns his head toward you. âDidnât you tell me youâd never been married?â he dares to whisper, possibly afraid of hurting you.
âThatâs true. My ex left after learning I was pregnant with Hinata.â You exhale the breath youâve been holding, the weight of the secret finally lifted.
Maybe he wonât want to keep pretending to be your boyfriend after thisâŠ
âYou can still tell me his name, you know, sweetheart?â Satoru moves closer to you, wrapping his arm around your waist, as if itâs completely natural for him, but thereâs a tension in his touch. âI can take care of him andââ
You shake your head to dispel the tiny bit of resentment thatâs urging you to say yes. âItâs okay. Thanks for agreeing to pretend to be her father. I know itâs going to be a bit of a hassle for a while, but she cares a lotââ
âNuh-uh.â He places a kiss on your cheek, then another on the side of your neck, causing you to shiver. âSheâs already talked about it in my office.â
You open your eyes wide. âWhatâŠ?â
âHinata likes you much more than you think⊠Youâve suffered too much,â His other hand glides over your stomach, and his thumb traces affectionate circles on your waist.
âThank you,â you breathe, leaning into his touch. And for a moment, the weight on your shoulders completely lifts. âWe havenât had the best birthdays recently, so Iâm happy to see Hinata get what she wants.â Your eyes rest on your daughter, dressed as a fairy, waving her glittery wand at one of her friends dressed as a witch. âSo, thank you for everything.â
âNo need to thank me, sweetheart. But which birthday are you talking about? Yours? When was it?â
Embarrassed, your mouth feels dry. â...A while ago.â
Satoru pulls you tightly against his chest, wrapping his strong arms around you, his nose buried in your hair. âYouâre such a strong woman⊠I can take care of you if you want. You and Hina will live like princesses, and if you want to sleep with her or have your own room, thatâs no problem for me.â
âWhat? No, Satoru, youâre jokingâŠâ
âIâm not joking,â he insists, his gaze diving into yours â and for a second, sincerity fills his cerulean eyes.
With your mouth slightly open, you whisper, âWe barely know each other, andââ
âMama! Papa! We need to break the piñata!â Hinata rushes over to you, not paying any attention to how close you are to Satoru, and grabs each of your hands.
âYes, angel, weâre coming,â you respond to your daughter with a weary smile, before glancing at Satoru, who is no longer looking in your direction.
Why are his ears so red?
°°°°
You place the last birthday decoration box in a corner of the living room as Satoru asked and straighten up with a grimace from your aching back. âGeezâŠâ
The upper floor of the huge house is strangely quiet, and you furrow your brows. Could they have gone downstairs?
âHinata? Satoru?â you call out as you walk through the hallways.
The evening darkness makes it hard to see clearly, and only the faint beam of light escaping from the kitchen door guides you.
âAre you there?â you ask, gently pushing the door open, and what you find leaves you stunned.
âHAPPY BIRTHDAY!â the two of them exclaim, holding an enormous cake between them.
A few candles illuminate the underside of their beaming faces, party hats perched on their heads. The kitchen is a huge mess, counters covered in flour and frosting, and dishes overflow from the sink, threatening to topple over.
You stand speechless as they continue to sing your birthday song. Your nostrils and eyes start to itch strangely. Why is your vision suddenly blurring? It looks like transparent waves just above your lower lashes, threatening to overflow if you dare to blink. Yet, you canât escape it.
Not when they set the cake on the table and pull you into a hug while your nose runs, tears roll down your cheeks, and your choked-up throat is on the verge of bursting into sobs. Satoru keeps kissing your hair, never stopping for a second to comfort you with sweet and reassuring words, his hand drawing circles on your back. Hinata wipes your tears while her own roll down her little cheeks.
Seeing you cry has always been contagious for her.
The moment gives you a glimpse of what your life would be like if you had a complete family, and Satoruâs words echo in your mind. How could he be so perfect in just a few weeks of knowing him?
Once the emotion passes, a few minutes later, you eat your birthday cake with laughter and cheer, accompanied not just by the one person who now means everything to you, but by both.
°°°°
âWatch out, Hina. You have applesauce on your chin,â Satoru chuckles, his hand grabbing a napkin to wipe the excess food around the childâs mouth.
The heartwarming scene makes your heart swell. You definitely donât regret going out with Satoru and Hinata to have a meal at a chic terrace in their company. The family atmosphere finally gives you a glimpse of the life youâve always hoped to live. Hinata growing up with a loving father and mother, and you, loved and supported by an ideal partner. Why not reconsider Satoruâs proposal, then? Heâs the first man to think of you, even after your birthday had passed some time ago.
âIâm going to the restroom,â you murmur to Satoru, who nods in response, a wry smile curling his pink lips.
But why did it have to be on this day that a man finally approaches the two people you care about just as you slip away? He clearly waited from afar for you to let your guard down around your daughter so he could show up right in the middle of the table, facing a little girl â his daughter, technically â next to a man who isnât her father.
Satoru slowly raises his head toward him, brows furrowed and wary. âCan I help you?â
Your ex says your name. âWhere is she?â he mimics asking as if he didnât know.
âWhat do you want with her?â
âTo talk to her. I have the right. And youâre with my daughter, just so you know.â He crosses his arms over his chest, trying to appear threatening, but Satoru remains stoic, more contemptuous than anything else in the face of such a scruffy, unshaven nuisance.
âSheâs not here; you can leave,â Satoru responds. And out of protective instinct, he pulls Hinataâs chair closer to him, his eyes narrowed. Satoru understands perfectly that your ex is back to claim his rights over his daughter, just as heâs been harassing you with messages about it.
âExcuse me? When my daughter is in the arms of a stranger? I could call the police immediately and weâll sort this out very quickly,â your ex retorts sharply. He takes a step toward a lost Hinata, her big doe eyes blinking innocently between the two men. Of course, she doesnât recognize him.
An altercation begins between the two, which naturally attracts the attention of other diners around. And you walk into the middle of the scene, frozen in shock at the sight of your ex hurling threats at Satoru.
âSheâs taking my daughter, so Iâm taking her back! And itâs not a bastard like you whoâs going to help her regain my rights!â your ex spits with venom. His icy eyes find yours, terrified, your hands trembling and your complexion as pale as a sheet. Heâs about to address you with the same angry speech, his face flushed with rage and a vein ready to burst at his temple.
Do you get déjà vu?
ââYour daughterâ?â Satoru repeats with a deadly gaze and a jaw quivering with rage. âSheâs been sitting next to me for over an hour, Iâve been feeding her for over an hour, sheâs been calling me by my name for over an hour, and youâre talking about âyour daughterâ? At this point, whose daughter is she... yours or mine?â
Your ex, publicly humiliated, opens his eyes wide with hatred. âYou little son ofââ
âSir, we ask that you leave the terrace; youâre disturbing our customers,â a security guard declares firmly. Heâs accompanied by another colleague, and when your ex protests, they grab him by the arm and escort him away amidst his shouting and the murmurs of other customers who keep staring at the three of you.
You move closer to Satoru, who immediately stands up upon seeing you â having not realized you were there â and can only offer you an apologetic look. âLetâs go,â you silently mouth (your throat too tight to dare let a sound escape, fearing it might break before you say anything), taking the hand of a silent and lost Hinata. âIâll pay the bill andââ
âItâs already taken care of; we can go,â Satoru gently interrupts, following you to his car.
And itâs on the silent drive back that you realize something.
Youâve officially fallen in love with Satoru Gojo.
°°°°
âLook, Mom, Dad and I made a drawing for you!â Hinata proudly holds up a colorful picture with three easily recognizable characters on it.
âDid you brush your teeth?â you ask as you take the drawing to admire it, just as much smiling as your daughter. She nods and then does a little twirl to show off her new pajamas that Satoru gave her earlier in the day. âItâs beautiful. Youâre so talented,â you chuckle, leaning in to plant a kiss on her cheek.
Satoru appears in the doorway of Hinataâs room, leaning against the frame with his arms crossed over his chest, a perpetual playful smile curving his lips. âReady to go to sleep?â
âYes, and I showed our drawing to mama,â Hinata asserts, bouncing on her bed.
âOh yeah? Did mama like it?â Satoru asks softly, his eyes now locked with yours.
âMama loved it and thanks Daddy,â you whisper, your voice quivering with emotion that threatens to spill over.
Half an hour later, Satoru and you find yourselves in the hallway with a sleeping Hinata and her little lullaby snores.
Satoru wraps his arm around your waist as usual and buries his face in your neck. Your heart is already racing, and your breath catches when he says, âIâm sorry.â
âWhy?â The embrace is a simple hug but with unspoken words easily guessed.
âFor everything.â Satoru sighs, and for a split second, you hope heâll let you speak, but no. âI didnât mean to make a scene andââ
âAnd you think Iâm going to blame you for protecting us? That I wasnât touched by what you said about Hina?â you mumble near his ear. The closeness gives you another chance to see his ears turn red. âIs Satoru shy?â you giggle, open to teasing. He hums, hiding his face so you donât see his expression.
âI love you.â
You blink, because you must have heard wrong. âHuh?â
âMarry me.â And heâs already on his knees before you, eyes pleading. That usually confident cerulean blue is now so submissive, so close at hand⊠But the sudden turn of events leaves you stunned. âI want to be your husband, not just have you as my wife. I want to raise Hina with you and give you everything you need.â Not letting himself be distracted by your stunned expression, he continues, âWant my money? Iâll give it to you. My house? It will be in your name. Want my body? It belongs to you. My heart? Itâs already yours.â And he starts kissing the backs of your hands desperately. âI love you, I love you⊠Please, marry meâŠâ
âSatoru⊠Youââ you stammer, backing away, your brow furrowed. Everything is a jumble in your head, both from his touching declaration but also because itâs all moving too fast for you. âYou⊠love me?â you manage to whisper.
He crawls to you and wraps his large arms around your thighs, almost choking with desperation. âI fell in love with you as soon as I saw you, as soon as you covered me from my father, as soon as I heard your laugh, saw the amazing mother you are, and realized I never wanted you to leave this house.â He whispers your name like a divine invocation. âIâve fallen in love with you more than just once.â
You donât immediately respond, and thatâs okay in his eyes. He doesnât want to pressure you, just for you to know the truth and for him to be completely transparent with you.
âItâs okay if you donât share my feelings; I just want you to know thatââ But heâs cut off by your rush toward him on the floor as you press your lips to his, pulling him into the dance of your lips that one gives to the other in a long, passionate kiss. âGod⊠I love you so muchâŠâ
âI love you too, Satoru,â you murmur against his mouth between kisses that turn into moans as he slides his warm, wet tongue between your lips to request access to your mouth.
Both of your breaths become ragged and heavy. Satoru takes the opportunity to lift you by the underside of your thighs and lead you to his bedroom, carefully closing the door behind him without breaking the contact of your swollen, desirous lips. He gently lays you on the king-size bed with silver satin and frost-blue sheets.
With a tenderness of loving slowness, Satoru breaks the kiss. âDo you want to continue?â he asks, his voice husky. You nod timidly, but he shakes his head with his mischievous smile â finally back. âNuh-uh. Your words, sweetheart.â
âI want it, Satoru,â you reply after a sigh of exasperation so adorable in his eyes that it makes him laugh, then he places a light kiss on the corner of your lips.
âAlright⊠Gonna take care of my beautiful girl, the best, the most wonderful mother, and maybe future wifeââ He places a finger on your lips. âOh no, youâll answer that later if you want, when I have something concrete for that occasion.â
You sigh in frustration because the answer is already on the tip of your tongue, but it soon turns into a moan as he kisses the side of your neck with such deliberate slowness that you really wonder if heâs going to tease you to the limit. His hands roam over your clothed chest, exploring your already hardened nipples. His lips find their way to your collarbone, marking it with love bites and hickeys that elicit muffled moans from you.
âIf you knew how long Iâve dreamed of doing thisâŠâ Satoru comments with a touch of affection, his fingers deftly undoing the buttons of your shirt. âExactly how I would act with my wifeââ
âAnd your father?â And he chuckles again.
âWe donât care about him.â He casually tosses your top aside to tease your sensitive, erect nipples through the fabric with his thumbs. âSuch humble underwear⊠Would you like me to buy you something more daring?â he purrs, pulling on a strap to snap it against your gooseflesh-covered skin.
âWould you do that?â You bring your lips to his, and he immediately responds to the kiss. You also remove his black turtleneck sweater to reveal his toned, muscular torso. An adventurous hand glides over his chest, making him groan slightly, and then stops at his lower abdomen where a vein runs lower down. You place a kiss there with a small, sly smile.
For the first time, youâre about to make love with someone.
âHmm? Satoru? Have you ever thought of me in outfits like this?â Your nimble fingers unbutton his pants, revealing a prominent bulge in his fly.
âSweetheart, donâtââ he hisses between his teeth from the sensation of the slight friction between his erection and your eager fingers as they pull down his pants to caress and rub his dick through the thin fabric of his boxer. âYour hands feel so goodâŠâ He breathes softly, his hands stroking your bare arms with a feather-light touch.
âAnswer my questionâŠâ you purr, your nails pulling at the underwear to free his hard, twitching cock. The tip is perfectly reddened, with veins coursing along its pale length of 8 inches. Almost automatically, your mouth waters, and you waste no time kissing the slit of his already glistening tip with pre.
âBabe, donât teaseâŠâ Satoru closes his eyes and lets your hand wrap around his length, begging to be touched. âF-fuckâ Yes, yes, Iâve thought about it, about buying you the most expensive and luxurious lingerieâ ah!â he almost whimpers. You take a little over 2 inches of him into your mouth to stroke the base. âBut also in those maternity clothesâ oh god⊠C-can you really blame me?â He rolls his eyes and canât help but buck his hips toward you, his body pleading for your mouth to take care of him.
You withdraw his cock from your mouth to whisper, âSo youâre a naughty boy, hmm?â
âI wonât last if you keep this upâ hgnnâŠâ he whimpers completely, his dick splitting your mouth in two as you take him all in. Your head starts to bob back and forth, and he is so close that he spills moans of your name. âGânna cum, baby, donâtââ
You hollow your cheeks, and the next moment, he cums in your mouth, long, thick ropes of his release filling your already full mouth with his shaft. You hum under his orgasm and swallow slowly. You slide his dick out of your mouth with the same rhythm to smile at a Satoru with ears as red as his cheeks.
âF-fuck, sweetheart,â he pants, his calloused finger wiping away the mixed cord of your saliva and his cum with a swipe of his thumb.
âM-hmm⊠You taste so sweetâŠâ He doesnât let you continue and crushes his lips against yours, tasting himself on your mouth. âI want you, SatoruâŠâ
âIâm yours, princess.â He helps you quickly remove your remaining underwear so that youâre completely naked in front of him, knees resting on the expensive mattress. He kneels at the foot of the bed, and his fingers explore your sensitive, already dripping cunt.
âSo wet for me⊠Did I do this to you just with my cock?â His fingers spread your swollen folds to gather your fluids and rub your throbbing, needy clit.
Your nails dig into his arm as you lift your hips under the sharp pleasure. âSatoru, it feels goodâŠâ you gasp in a whimper. His forefinger and middle finger spread your wetness all around your intimacy. âPlease donât teaseâŠâ
âNot tease? Werenât you doing it, sweetheart? What a nerve,â Satoru scoffs, tapping his finger at your entrance. âCan I?â
âPleaseâŠâ You wince as you move your hips down for more. And thatâs exactly what he does, immediately inserting his finger into you, cursing.
âYouâre so fucking tight⊠and so wet,â he curses, his finger moving in and out of you with careful softness. âI can already fuck you without making you cum first.â He stops finger-fucking you and looks up at you. âIs that what you want, love?â
You nod before arching your back on the bed. Satoru climbs onto the mattress and helps you wrap your legs around him. âThatâs itâŠâ He takes his length in his hand and teases your responsive cunt with the tip to get it wetter.
âDonât tease, Toru, I swearâŠâ And he smirks.
âToru?â
âSorry, Iââ
His tip presses against your tight, pulsing entrance, and he grins. âI want you to moan that nickname while I fuck you, âkay?â He grips your hips to pull you closer to him, and with one swift movement, he slides into you, a groan escaping from behind his lips as your deliciously tight, warm, gummy walls wrap around him as if you were meant for him.
The stretch causes a slight discomfort at first, and you almost cry in relief when Satoru notices. He patiently waits for you to adjust before starting a slow, deep rhythm inside you.
You widen your lustful eyes, tears forming at their corners. âAh! Toru⊠Jusâ like thatâŠâ Your eyes roll back as the tip of Satoruâs dick hits the back of your cervix, making you shiver and tighten around him. âFuck⊠sâdeepâŠâ
âSo fucking perfect, so fucking mine,â Satoru groans, his hips rocking into you without ceasing to swell between your gummy walls. His chest rises and falls in a breath as ragged as yours, asking for more every time you moan for him to go deeper. (He discreetly rolls his eyes and babbles incomprehensible words â completely pussy drunk.)
And thatâs exactly what he does. He slams back in brutally, making you cry out his name with each thrust. âShhh⊠You donât want Hina to hear us, right? So keep quiet, babyâŠâ He helps stifle your gasps and moans of pleasure by capturing your lips with his, alternating between fast, rough thrusts and slow, gentle ones in your hole that he fucks shamelessly.
Blood rushes to your ears, a rare sensation you havenât truly felt the last time you were with someone. It wasnât just about carnal pleasure between Satoru and you â but about love. The fusion of bodies loving each other and providing mutual pleasure, even as they burn for each otherâ physically and emotionally.
One of Satoruâs hands slowly slides to one of your breasts and teases a sensitive nipple. The arch in your back encourages him to detach his mouth from yours to capture the other nipple with his wet lips. The growl he lets out sends a wave of intense shivers through you, making your eyes roll in overstimulation.
âP-please, Toru, please, Iâm already close,â you whimper against your trembling palm â a feeble attempt to contain your sweet sounds as he speeds up his hip movements in your sloppy cunt â the sound of his balls slapping your skin filling the room. Your words are punctuated by the tightening of your walls around him, swearing he could cum inside you just from hearing you beg.
âCum on my cock, baby, cover it,â he coos, giving another kiss to your abused chest. The clenching of your jaw with your teeth dug into your lower lip forces you to groan. âWant me to fill you up?â And you nod, tears showing your imminent orgasm. âAnything for you, my beautiful girl.â His hips slam against yours, and his fingers continue to tease your breast, rubbing your puffy clit.
Satoruâs own breath becomes heavier, more labored as he keeps singing praises while you gasp, his lips pressed along the line of kisses heâs placing down your jaw. âT-Toru, Toru, cumming!â you cry out as your walls spasm around his cock while he reaches his peak and fills you with his hot, liquid release, warming your lower abdomen. You see blinding stars illuminating your vision.
He hisses almost gutturally, his nails digging into the flesh of your hips. âOh god⊠S-Squeezing me while Iâm cumming tooâŠâ He closes his eyes for a moment, letting his peak subside at the same rhythm as yours, his forehead damp with sweat resting against your chest.Â
Only pants and groans escape your lips, each one accompanied by difficult swallows and the feeling of your sweaty bodies pressed against each other.
âHow was it? Did I make you feel good?â Satoru asks immediately, once his breath has returned.
The concerned questions touch your heart so deeply that you lift tearful eyes to him. âAre you going to leave, after this?â
His expression falters, and he gently withdraws from you to envelop you in his embrace. âNo, baby, of course not⊠I wonât, I swear on my life I wonât leave you⊠Iâm not him. Iâm the one who hopes you wonât leaveâŠâ he whispers hurriedly. âDonât think about that. Iâll always be here, for you and for HinaâŠâ
You sniffle, your eyes red. But Satoru smiles tenderly, wiping away your hot tears. âSave your tears for later, sweetheart.â
âWhy?â You clear your throat.
He sighs, the aftermath of the effort from the activity settling on him, and places a chaste kiss on your sweaty temple. âDid I tell you that my father invited us to dinner tomorrow night?â
âNo,â you shake your head, âbut whatâs the link?â
âDonât you understand?â he murmurs in your ear, butterflies fluttering in your stomach. âIt doesnât matter. Youâll understand in time.â
°°°°
âI see. So it was an unexpected encounter.â Gojoâs father nods, shrugging his shoulders. âBut I wonder how a woman like you can have feelings for such a foolâŠâ
Satoru chokes on a piece of meat heâs chewing and takes a sip of his water. You stifle a giggle, with some steamed vegetables speared on your fork, just waiting for you to devour them. For a man who appears so stern and strict, Mr. Gojo is quite a wealthy man who spends his days reprimanding his son for not doing this or that.
Yet, thereâs a certain paternal camaraderie between them â a father-son relationship, if you will.
âThatâs not true,â Satoru retorts, his voice still gravelly. He has an adorable pout on his lips, like a child wrongly scolded.
âYes, like youâre not a womanizer,â his father retorts, rolling his eyes.
âIt was so youâd leave me alone,â with furrowed brows, he wears a mischievous smile at his fatherâs incredulous expression, âbut sweetheart came into my life,â he continues, looking at you with a tenderness he has rarely shown.
âI hope you manage to put up with him until⊠well, until you decide to marry â if thatâs what you choose,â his father sighs, turning his attention back to the dish in front of him.
âSatoru isnât a bad person, you know,â you start gently. âHe is certainly a thoughtless brat with grotesque immaturity,â Satoru almost spits out his water this time, and you continue with a wry smile, âbut he has a great sense of attention and unmatched generosity. I believe he will be a good husband, I assure you.â
âI must admit,â he says with a wise smile, his wrinkles less pronounced.
Satoru casually says your name, âYeah, yeah⊠By the way, could you pass me the salt, please?â
You freeze, while Satoruâs father suddenly looks up with an incredulous expression. âWho?â
And you smack your forehead with the palm of your hand.
°°°°
The cries of a newborn fill the room as, breathless and on the verge of fainting, the midwives congratulate you, bringing your second child wrapped in clean blankets at your request.
âHeâs beautifulâŠâ Satoru murmurs as he approaches you, leaning down to the tiny baby with his albino hair and blue eyes â his exact likeness. âThank you, my love, thank you, thank you, thank youâŠâ His voice breaks as you raise a weak, exhausted hand toward him, but with a serene smile on your lips as you whisper how much you love each other.
He immediately wraps his fingers around yours, your wedding rings sparkling as they brush together like stars sealed for eternity.
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ââËïœĄâ SHE'S BACK!
GUESS HE COULDN'T KEEP IT IN, SO HE HAD TO KEEP IT INSIDE! âËâč⥠dilf!gojo satoru x teacher!reader
tags: smut, unprotected sex, breeding kink, exhibitionism, getting caught, he fucks you while he's on the phone, overstimulation, dumbfication, fluff, gojo has an ex-wife, yuuji is gojo's son, age-gap.
A/N: well, this was surely and adventure and maybe self-indulgent title because guess what?, i'm back baby.
It was a nice morning, he felt clean. Like his life was finally steadying. Even after some stressful weeks trying to get rid of his now ex-wife, he won the trial and kept Yuuji. Poor little boy, just turning 5 years old and heâs already facing all this type of stress. But thankfully he will not be experiencing enduring his crazy mother behavior. Which basically was a gold digger, and a bitchâ Not that he would ever say that outloud, maybe with other words? Bastard? Witch? Not that it really matters right now.
He could finally take a break now, just focusing on raising his little boy, and being an old boring 31 year old dad. Life doesnât sound that bad.
âDaddy! Daddy!,â His son went running to his arms, almost stumbling by himself- clear happiness shown on his face. Quickly, Gojo opened his arms ready to lift the young kid. âMiss Y/N congratulated me on my homework! She was pretty amazed!â
Your name wasnât unknown to him, Yuuji was very open when talking about his favorite teacher, even though he hasnât seen you yet- from what heâs been told youâre the kidâs favorite, including Yuujiâs. âI had to talk about whoâs my hero, and I chose you!â If this day wasnât going great, it was now. Because his son's comment just made his whole week, life even.
âOh look dad!â The little boy pointed towards your moving frame, each time getting clñoser towards them. âDaddy, this is Miss Y/N!â Yuuji kept presenting the both of you. He was really excited to present his two favorite persons to each other- but all Gojo could think of whatâs how young and beautiful you looked. He expected someone older, maybe even an old lady with wrinkles and that loving grandma vibes, but what he saw made his heart beat in a way he never thought he would feel ever more.
âDaddy? Are you paying attention?â The little boy gained Gojoâs attention back, face now looking at him again. âIâm sorry kiddo, kinda just zoned out there. What did you just say?â
âUhh, what was it? Oh! Did I tell you Miss Y/N told me you were a very handsome man?â
âYuuji!â His gaze moved towards your blushed face, a hand covering part of your face. âIâm so sorry Mr.Gojo, I didnât intend to say-â
Gojo cut you off before you could continue apologizing âItâs okay, I also think Ms.Y/N is a very beautiful woman.âÂ
Uh, well. So this is how kinda you found yourself in this situation right now.
You swear it wasnât your intention! You really tried, you really did, but how could someone say no to Mr.Gojo? And mostly because he really showed his attraction towards you. Sending Yuuji with a rose for you every day, and the little boy was rooting for his dad, because dear god- he did not shut up about him, and how happy he would be with a new girlfriend and maybe one he could call âmommyâ and give him a sister.Â
That made you blush.Â
Not only because the little boy commented on it, and was agreeing- but because it was his dadâs idea.
âYouâre so wet, s-shit.â Loud thrusts filled the room, he was fucking you raw on his sofaâ waiting for Yuujiâs mom to bring him back, the little boy was eager to come back and âsee Ms.Y/N and his daddy finally starting to fall in loveâ
Kids being kids. But, he was right- the both of you were falling in love with eachother.
Gojo throws back his head, immersed in the warmth radiating off your walls and he lets your moans take him to another world. In a haste decision, he slips your dress over your head before tossing it. He mouths at your tits, plump and stiff between his lips, and he hurdles a deeper round of thrusts inside you.Â
When you get a little too loud, his hand comes over to clamp your mouth, wolf like eyes staring back at you, âShut it. You donât deserve to speak.â
His thin white tee that stays a barrier between you and him does not hide the rippling body underneath that seemed to be sculpted by gods. He presses into you, grunting, using you like his personal sex doll and you embrace it, thrive from it, come to it. Your hips contract, slewing in perfect circles, before having your legs fall gradually lifeless as you arousal drip down your thighs.
âFfffucckkk- oh baby, would you like that? Be full of me and my baby? Make me a daddy again?â
âyesyesyesyes, make me yours Mr.Gojo-âÂ
He pays your climax no mind,a smirk clearly showing on his face while he fucks you on his sofa- You could muffle your screams of pleasure easier here. Turning your head back to face him, you notice now heâs shirtlessâtaut and shiny from sweat like a large set of Hawaiian rollsâbefore seeing how quick he is to fit back inside you.
âGood girl.â His husky voice resonates and pushes you back into the sheets. âGood girls get rewards, donât they?â Your poor fucked up mind couldnât think clearly now. The way your abused and overstimulated pussy was still taking his rock hard cock gratefully inside you was making every feel giddy. A sudden noise bringing back a little part of your senses, Gojo clearly grunting grabbed his what you suppose phone, and answered. Not bothering to stop his thrusts.
âYeah?,â His voice sounded almost like a whisper because of how breathy it was. âGojo? Iâm almost at your house- Yuuji wanted some ice-cream and bought some for you and⊠your new girlfriend?â His chuckle interrupted his ex-wifeâs conversation, accompanied with a whimper at the feeling of you clenching on him- overstimulation clearly bringing you back to climax soon again.
A slap was heard from his part of the line, an unbelievable laugh coming from his ex-wife line, clearly noticing what was going on and then she finally heard you moan. You couldnât keep it in anymore, and you were too fucked out to feel embarrased about it right now.
âFinish before I leave Yuuji- Enjoy yourself.â Gojo was so lost in pleasure that he didnât even realize she hung up before he even processed what happened.
His grunts and sounds of skins slapping are all you hear as he pounds you back into the sofa. It feels like heaven beneath his weight. You were feeling flushed to the touch, but making contact with his skin was like an inferno. He was the embodiment of heat and as suffocating as that couldâve been, it melts you like itâs how it always shouldâve been.
His pace eventually falters, followed by a hushed âfuck,â and he empties out into your used hole. The moment he pulled out, a knock was heard.Â
âShit. Can you walk?â
PART 2
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