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cacturne · 8 months ago

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had a good art day today :)

#Finally finished that piece ive been procrastinating on and while it looks bad on any other screen on my main monitor it looks pretty decent #I wouldnt call it great but i havent regularly seriously shaded my art for literal years so im still gonna call myself lacking practice #And i chased it with two smaller drawings :) big win today #Even though my hand really hurts #ghosts howling #IM STRETCHING PROMISE

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lleclerc · 6 months ago

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iceman + his concern for maverick post-hop 31

#icemav #top gun edit #ice is a FASCINATING one to watch post-hop 31 imo because while yes‚ obviously‚ the focus is on maverick and his grief and devastation #ice is there the whole time in the background‚ watching. and he's visibly disturbed by what he's seeing. because yeah -#he and mav had a rivalry going and yeah he called maverick dangerous and reckless to his face and he stands by that - he does.#but the problem is that this time - this one fluke freak accident of a time - it wasn't maverick's fault at all.#an unrecoverable flat spin brought on by a compressor stall from ice's jetwash isn't something that maverick could've outflown #by sticking to textbook maneuvers. it was just shit luck and shitty circumstances aligning to create a tragic mishap.#but now - now ice can see the way maverick is unraveling in the aftermath #and i'd bet that on some level it terrifies him to see that.#he's used to seeing maverick with all that brash cocky confidence with the moves to back it up.#he's maybe even had a bit of fun jockeying against that. not that he'd admit that out loud. (yet)#but maverick's spiraling now - a hollowed out shell of his former self - leaking grief and self-doubt and despair everywhere he goes #and it actually hurts to look at for ice‚ seeing maverick like this. seeing how much maverick really REALLY fucking cared under that facade #and wondering if maverick is finally taking the stuff ice said to him to heart‚ but applying it all wrong.#so he watches maverick and eventually that concern builds to a point where he tries to offer an olive branch in the locker room #you can SEE how carefully he gathers himself - how much he's holding back - he doesn't want to say the wrong thing to maverick NOW #he doesn't want to make this worse than it already is. so it comes out stilted. it's earnest - but restrained. he can't find his footing.#he doesn't know where he and maverick stand now but he's sorry - that goose is gone‚ that maverick's going through this‚#that he doesn't know how to help or what to say‚ and - crucially - for his own part in this.#but he wants mav to stick around and push through this. even though he's dangerous. even though he's reckless. ice wants him to beat this.#so when maverick shows up to graduation‚ ice is encouraged. and he's a little warmer. maverick really might pull through.#but then‚ all too soon‚ it's ice's life on the line in maverick's hands. and it scares the shit out of him because maverick's not ready #and now ice - and slider - are going to have to pay the price for that.#and then‚ against all odds‚ maverick pushes through. he comes back for them. he comes back for ice.#and after that...well.#after that‚ ice does know what to say: a vow.#my amvs #linds original

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ganondoodle · 2 days ago

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so, i usually cant rant about any of my interests at home bc both my parents dont understand or dont care, but today my older sister and her two kids visited and they always have the newest console and games and ... know zelda, even if my sister doesnt play herself she knows stuff and watches others, i dont see her that often and i asked if i could take echoes of wisdom from them when they dont need it just so i can test playing it a little-

anyway, me ranting about totk to them

#ganondoodles talks #personal #when i explained what i dont like about the game they even agreed #can you believe that?? also my sister even said if i made a video i gotta disable comments lol #i almost lost my voice bc i dont talk alot usually so when i talk for a bit i lose it really quickly #felt good though #last day of my vacation time though ...#and of course for the most part of it i felt so shitty i couldnt draw anything #and now that its over i am as motivated as i can be #only stopped by time and my stupid hand hurting so fast (bc of past injury)

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gingermintpepper · 4 months ago

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Hello! I want to know... Besides Hyacinthus, who is your fav Apollo's lover (male or female)? I really love Cyrene 🤭

Oho, thank you so much for the ask!

There are a couple candidates that immediately come to mind tbh. I'm not the sort that has a strict OTP sense when it comes to Apollo because I imagine there's importance in each of the affairs of the gods that are written about - there must be some reason that we remember their names and stories even now, y'know?

Ultimately, I have a brief selection of the lovers of Apollo whose stories I have personal and vested interest in with no particular preference except maybe for Evadne who, if I were forced to give only one additional favourite besides Hyacinthus, I would probably say it's her.

As for why I prefer Evadne over all the great and powerful romances Apollo has had; maybe it's just because I'm a sucker for the ooey-gooey romances but there's something so sweet about Evadne and Apollo's relationship and the consequent relationship Apollo has with Iamus, his and Evadne's son. I also love the subtle politics of such a relationship - from Evadne's side, yes she's a princess but more importantly, she's one of Poseidon's inhuman daughters - a child between Poseidon and a nymph - and the child between her and Apollo - a son of Zeus - goes on to become the father of a long line of famous prophets for the King of the Gods himself. That makes Iamus one of those rare children of a major god who is not divine but certainly not human either, something that is further exacerbated by the fact that for the first five days of his life, Iamus is cared for by his father who ensures that the baby is fed not milk but honey from the fangs of a snake.

All in all, it's not a very remarkable story in the grand scheme of things. There's no big drama like with Admetus and there's no great tragedy like with Coronis or Melia. Apollo doesn't act particularly noteworthy in either Pindar or Hyginus' account of the tale like he does for Cyrene or Branchus and the end result is a line of prophets sacred to Zeus and the Olympia oracle - a classic example of Apollo in his role as father to the great prophets and wisemen and yet something about the gentleness of Apollo in his affair with Evadne has always captivated me.

Evadne, who so feared her father that she would abandon her newborn child just to spare herself his anger, was able to trust and love Apollo. Likewise, Apollo did not once abandon her, sending the most blessed of attendants to help in her birthing and automatically stepping in to make sure Iamus was fed, clothed and warm until his mother returned for him. It's something about a young Iamus going into the River Alpheus - an ancient stream - and calling out for his purpose from his father and grandfather. It's something about Apollo's immediate and calm response and the way he leads the youth to the temple that will be his destiny and personally educates him in the ways of divination.

It's just one of those stories that always sticks out to me for the portrait of a father and lover it sketches of Apollo, even in a seemingly innocuous myth such as this one.

#ginger answers asks #apollo #evadne #iamus #genuinely though I love this story with all my heart and soul #evadne and iamus are one of those myths that always get me really excited and I love love LOVE paternal Apollo #The other big contender for me is probably Coronis #Yes I know that ends with her cheating and then Apollo (or Artemis or Zeus) smiting her and her lover and the town they were shacking up in #but Apollo genuinely did love Coronis and I like imagining that Coronis loved him too #There are versions where Apollo slays Ischys but can't bring himself to kill Coronis or versions where #Apollo is so immediately hurt by the knowledge that Coronis was cheating on him that the grief of that effectively paralyses him #and it's Artemis who must avenge the shame done to her brother #In all cases Apollo IMMEDIATELY regrets the decision to kill Coronis and rushes down to at least save their child #Which again big paternal Apollo moment because Apollo adored Asclepius and you can take that belief out of my cold dead hands #Coronis is one of those big fancy fate stories I like a lot #Where there's no happy ending for her - because of what she did the only thing waiting for her is death and destruction #but Apollo loved her. Even when she was unfaithful while with his child he loved her #And I just love pulling that apart #My favourite of his male lovers aside from Hyacinthus is Cyparissus!#But yeah hope this answers your question adequately! =w=

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago

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It's evil that you can be in pain while doing nothing. What do you mean my body is damaged and shouldn't be used in certain ways, I'm literally doing NOTHING what more can you WANT.

#disability #chronic pain #though i think my gloves are helping my hand pain #you never consider when using an aid the consequences of My Skin Looks Like My Aid Now #i'm glad to actually be over my pill aversion a bit because i kind of need to take pain killers now (even irregularly)#what has this world come to (in pain)#on the bright side: i'm learning more about my pain and how to help it #i have learned that warm water should NOT hurt my hands and that's a sign to start wearing my gloves lmao #did you know how painful even warm water can be? i never really thought about why it always hurt until now lol

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moe-broey · 2 months ago

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Conflict test..? Moe fucks up Badly test.

#feh #i'm ngl there's not a lot that's presentable in here. this sketchbook does feel like a waste tbh #like i just did not do a whole lot w it. lacks substance. i'm itching to just start over tbh.#sad!#anyways something i was trying to test here and that's been in the back of my mind forever #is moe offering a hand. literally. like it just does not know what else to do.#extremely picky about being touched. leads to it being extremely maybe overly cautious of touching others.#in a way remaining distant is its way of showing comfort. but that usually does come off as well. distant.#unreachable even.#and here i think alfonse is so hurt that he won't even accept moe's gesture. ouch! you fucked up big time!!!!!#i def get really in my head about presentation and how good anything is though like #i feel like i could nitpick the HELL out of this. BUT. BUT. IT'S JYST A CONCEPT. JUST A TEST #maybe i'll work on something else today...... idk idk i feel aimless but i wanna raise morale. somehow.#fe alfonse #moe tag #summoner oc #my art

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faaun · 9 months ago

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oh my god u rly are everyone you've ever loved !! for better or worse !! a part of you becomes them!

#i had a moment of lucidity idk im in this café the person i went on a few dates w is coming to see me i said come study w me #and they said okay immediately even though im a town over and i dont like them i really dont feel even a little attracted to them that way #but i did let them bite my neck a week ago and it still hurts i let them hold my hand i just #i never start anything #i let them kiss me. why do i do that? i dont feel anything towards them #and i told them ill probably never sleep with them and i thought thats enough but it really isnt is it #they write poetry about people they meet even once #theyre coming a whole town over to study w me but its not a date i feel nothing towards them romantically and i dont want to lose them as #a friend. this was her line of thinking wasnt it? i would take the train and meet her near her place in ldn and wed study together and #shed let me hold her and she would never initiate much and we were just studying together and it wasnt a date #like . fuck. i dont want to do what she djd to me to another person ever #their shared location map went offline at london bridge like ok theyre in the underground they are fr coming a whole town over #its a short distance but the point is i think i should have taken what my friend said more seriously . she told me i was kinda leading #them on bc what i thought to be just meetups dates might entail more for them #anyway im gonna be clear w them this time maybe #....IT JUST NEVER COMES UP IS THE THING #do i have to clarify even if it never comes up #i do in fact hear myself #ok #the parallels r lining up #aaa

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peaches2217 · 5 months ago

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I have so many varied and fun WIPs I could work on but my brain continues to scream “BE WEIRD ABOUT CHILDBIRTH! SURELY YOU WON’T WEIRD ANYONE OUT IF YOU KEEP WRITING ABOUT CHILDBIRTH!” and I’d like it to sTOP

#I HAVE TOKOPHOBIA CHILDBIRTH AND PREGNANCY IN GENERAL REPULSE ME #(not to be confused with ‘I find it repulsive’ — its natural and plenty of people find it beautiful and more power to ‘em! me personally…)#BUT I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT MARIO RUSHING TO HIS WIFE’S BEDSIDE AND FRANTICALLY TRYING TO HELP HER RELAX #WHEN IN FACT SHE IS ALREADY RELAXED AND HE NEEDS BREATHING EXERCISES MORE THAN SHE DOES #AND THE MENTAL AND PHYSICAL EXHAUSTION THEY BOTH UNDERGO AS THE HOURS TICK BY AND THE PAIN GETS WORSE #PEACH HURTING AND ANXIOUS AND FRANKLY KINDA TERRIFIED BUT BLINDLY LEANING ON AND TRUSTING HER HUSBAND WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT #AND OF COURSE HE REFUSES TO LET HER DOWN BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH HE’S FRAZZLED HE’S NOT GOING TO LET HER GO THROUGH THIS ALONE #AND AND AND #PEACH TREMBLING AND WEEPING IN RELIEF WHEN SHE’S HANDED HER LITTLE GIRL AND FEELS HER TAKE HER FIRST BREATHS AND HEARS HER FIRST CRIES #MARIO PEPPERING HER FACE IN KISSES AND JUST REPEATING ‘brava! brava! brava!’ BECAUSE HIS WIFE IS SO STRONG AND SO INCREDIBLE #AND IT DOESN’T REALLY HIT HIM UNTIL THEIR BABY’S ALL CLEANED AND SWADDLED AND HE’S HOLDING HER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND HE JUST #STARTS FUCKING BAWLING #AND WHISPERING TO HER IN HIS NATIVE TONGUE ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVES HER AND HOW HE’S SO HAPPY TO MEET HER AND HE’S GONNA PROTECT HER #THE IMMEDIATE AFTERMATH! THE FIRST SLEEPLESS HOURS AND DAYS! NAVIGATING IT ALL TOGETHER AND IT BRINGS THEM EVEN CLOSER #WHY AM I LIKE THIS #I SEE PREGNANT BELLIES OR NEWBORN BABIES IRL AND I’M LIKE ‘🤢’#BUT WHEN IT’S MY OTPS I AM LITERALLY OBSESSED #WHY #MAKE IT MAKE SENSE 😭😭😭

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thedrotter · 6 months ago

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a once in a lifetime miracle: oc art!! this is Shiva.

doodles from a month or so, but i cant really draw properly right now. but i wanted to do something meanwhile so i colored these :33

#oc art #i would explain a bit about Shiva but i think its way funnier if leave these images here without any context #it is up for you to guess what this thing is meant to be and what it's thinking #anyway about my drawing predictment this month #IT IS ART FIGHT MONTH and IM JEALOUS!! IM JEALOUS!!! want to participate SO BAD but i can't so i had to make SOMETHING #even if it was coloring month old doodles because i cant reallt draw properly rigjt now😞#my body knows its art fight month and taunts me by making my hands hurt more than usual😭#and the flood is coming too and its like... you know what?? you can't draw now we say no #the uterus says no the hormones say no #so i cant really draw properly even outside of artfight right now BWUAHHH😭😭😭 please be patient #a bit sad because this is the second year i cant participate over this YET TO BE CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED PERSISTANT PAIN OF 2 YEARS #((glance at medical system i hate the medical system here its so bad might as well have lit money on fire by this point😭))#BUT ANYWAY I AM STILL FULL OF IDEAS THOUGH #SO ONCE THE FLOOD IS OVER I HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT TO DO!!!!! i just cant get my brain to work properly right now WWW #so do not worry... you will all be fed... I'll survive the hand pain of july🩷... HOPEFULLY DUNNO HOW TO TURN IT DOWN A BIT #please pray for the daily body pains to be lowered to their usual level so i can use my hands again once the flood is over thank you😊

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cowboygideon · 24 days ago

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a Kept Tarantula's Guide - K.P.

tags: @blondeandfivefeeteven @you-know-i-get-itt

#hello is this anything #my poetry #my prose really #i have a very loose definition for what poetry is #my writing #poetry #its just like #a person holding their pet tarantula and it bites them and it hurts but they dont kill it. they dont crush it. even though itd be easy.#they put it back down in its tank and then wash the blood off their fingers #and then with those same fingers they feed it handfuls of crickets. and tomorrow they will pick it up again.#and maybe that is love. who really knows?#not the tarantula

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 months ago

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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!

#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off #site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo #(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god #also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn #the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr #& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing #family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm #also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like #''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways #which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified #so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw #& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best #plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award #adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend #the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested #besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself #again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird #but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass #anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice #remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift #sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end #everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive #now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea #& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure

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packet-of-staples · 7 months ago

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FALLEN IDOL WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! THE BROTHERS ARE FIGHTING!!!

#FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU!!!!#MY HEART #EVIL EVIL EVIL JAIL 100 YEARS #I always love an episode where Hawkeye crumbles under the pressure #me when the jokey coping mechanism facade falls away #me when its easy to be confident in your abilities when you’re operating on people you dont know #but as soon as its someone you love you’re reminded of the gravity of your work and what could happen if it goes wrong #PLUS knowing you’re the reason he was out there to get hurt in the first place #and even though everything goes well the guilt makes you act as badly as you feel you are #leading to my next point. I love when character’s perception of another also crumbles #Ah Radar sweet naïve starry eyes Radar #Hawk always has a joke a comment a remark. he laughs in the face of the war #even if he’s scared he doesn’t let it get to the steadiness of his hands. nothing could rattle him #and that makes it all easier to keep going to not be scared yourself #but thats a lot to put on someone’s shoulders to be fearless at all times #so its a cold shock when he snaps after you try to uphold him to your idealised view of him. showing hes just as scared as you are #maybe even more so #this whole episode was so thich as thieves brother’s first fight #God… GOD!!!!#Fallen idol….. hawkeye…. radar…..#literally head in hands #its all so human…. putting someone on a pedestal helps no one….#all because Radar has no rizz…#the way everyone went to yell at Hawk after he snapped at Radar was classic #Mulcahy really put his whole christussy into kicking that heater #Potter and Margret’s whole how dare you yell at your little brother like that dont you know he looks up to you?!’ shtick was great #urgh…#they’re brothers your honor #theyre so important to me #mash

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izzysillyhandsy · 1 year ago

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It's so weird to me that seemingly a lot of people have blocked me - recently, I was blocked while writing a reply to my earlier comment, I had it all typed out and couldn't send it anymore. That was a bit frustrating to be honest.

To my knowledge, I have never posted anything hateful or negative about any character on OFMD (for the reason that I genuinely love them all). Even my post-finale posts were more confused and hurt than angry.

My blog is very obviously Izzy centric and Izzy positive though (but still based on canon I hope), and that is apparently enough for a lot of people to block me? I mean ok, maybe it's for the better, but I'd never block anyone for liking a character I don't like, or interpreting them differently.

Blocking an account who incessantly and actively hates my fave? Absolutely. But I don't think I've ever hated a character so much that I'd want to block out any positive discussion about them. I just don't get it.

(It's probably about Ed, isn't it.)

#ofmd #izzy hands #I don't even know how to tag this #better keep it in the Izzy tag though #maybe I'm naive but this really surprised me #my takes are so tame I'd have thought #and I really try to stick to canon and be fair and balanced #I guess it did hurt a bit

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sunnyvaiprion · 1 year ago

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As a suggestion, I’d love to see more Vita from you, I adore how you snuck eyes in her hair… spooky! She’s such a menace huhu (Also I’m morally obligated to preach vitaseele, so there)

Really really love your art! whether it’s cute chibis or elaborate it’s very soft and shiny and I’m eating it. Nomnomnom.

— Phoebe

Oooh to be honest I'm so looking forward to everything Vita-related story has to offer in the future because I liked her a lot too! I'd draw her more if I wasnt always so... hyperfocused on one thing, let's put it that way. But today I feel like I cant let the preaching unanswered so