#EMO KAZ HOURS

[19burstraat]

unbelievably specific modern things the crows would love. too bad they live in a late-1800s fantasy world

Kaz: screenshotting nfts, those web weaving posts about dog metaphors, leaving people on read, stealing from the self checkout in supermarkets, emo phases, wearing headphones but not actually listening to anything so they're just there just as a conversation deterrent, winding up scam callers, escape rooms, pretending to know nothing about pop culture in order to annoy people, playing solitaire online, Knowing A Guy for everything

Inej: social media sleuthing, posting goodreads quotes, strictly come dancing, snoopy, easily accessible climbing shoes, mr darcy, shouting at the screen when someone's judged incorrectly on a competition show, getting unbelievably competitive about wii sports/duolingo scoreboards/goodreads goals/animal crossing islands/air hockey, texting..... With loads of elipses... Like your parents.... and dropping unprompted wisdom in them.....

Jesper: neon clothes, the 💯 emoji, making everyone as miis on tomodachi life but being so bad at it that kaz and nina's miis end up getting married, lisa frank art, scamming people on depop, cheap jewellery that makes you go green, complaining about how cottagecore videos don't correctly represent the Rural Farm Life, shitty 2000s club bangers, the kitsch movement, giving your car a name, hoiking your novelty socks really high so everyone can see them, shitty christmas films, first person shooters

Wylan: speedpaint videos, joe hisaishi, being judgemental about other people's spotify wrappeds, djungelskog, that gif of the japanese mascot costume running through a bunch of explosions, watching weird low-budget adaptations of shakespeare plays with kaz, those arcade crane games, piercing your own ears with a needle and a lighter then being somehow surprised when it gets infected

Matthias: making an instagram account in-character for your dog, posting low-quality graphics of inspirational or biblical quotes on facebook (yk the ones w the landscape or sunset behind them), taking frowning selfies from below like your granddad does, viking media of any sort, buying dozens of identical t-shirts from big tesco, mixing up celebrities all the time, perpetually caving and giving the scouts/guides/youth groups/football clubs/carollers/etc money for their fundraisers

Nina: making bait posts online in the style of 'why can't we just print more money', period dramas, wearing huge mother of the bride style hats to weddings, saving recipes/crafts/art ideas on tiktok and then never actually doing them, pink gin, tiktok edits of fit celebs/characters, 3 hour video essays abt pop culture, saying 'break up with him' in response to every relationship woe, buying cheerful tat from flying tiger

[jazzkrebber]

found family but it's Kaz, that one weird emo uncle that keeps trying to teach you about stocks; Inej, the caring mother that always says what you need to hear, but hides her own pain behind closed doors; Jesper, the favorite cousin full of energy that drives you to taco bell at 3am; Wylan, the seemingly innocent cousin that "couldn't hurt a fly" but has most definitely committed several crimes; Nina, the fun wine aunt that spills all the family tea and slips you some alcohol when your mom says no; Matthias, the grumpy grandfather that won't stop going on about the old days, but is actually a big softie that you can have late night patio talks with for hours

[loststarphounix]

Soudam Week 2023 - Day 5: Restless

A/N: Talent and Personality Swap AUs

It isn’t stated, but Ultimate Breeder!Kaz is a emo lol

He was infuriating.

Kazuichi felt his eye twitch as the Ultimate Mechanic gave another exaggerated sigh. They were in Hope’s Peak extensive library, seated in the very back corner next to a large bay window. He and Tanaka had been assigned for a project that was, supposedly, to help bring them closer together. 

A fools quest, if you asked him. The Ultimate Breeder couldn’t see himself becoming friends with such a loud, bright and intrusive person.

“What is this time?” He snapped, glaring up at the garishly dressed teen. Honestly, how much neon purple and pink could one stand to wear?

“Just bored.” Broad shoulders rose and fell in a shrug and dammit why did he have to have such a physique. “Don’t know how you can stand just sitting here all day, doing nothing and being happy about it, babe.”

The smirk that stretched across his pale face made his stomach flatten and twist and he ducked his head, cursing the other for making him flustered. Tanaka and is ridiculously inappropriate nicknames.

“For the last time, I am not ‘babe’. If you must refer to me as something, then let me my title, you infuriating cur.”

“I love it when you get frisky.” The taller sighed and that made the twitching in his stomach worse. “But seriously, this shit is boring! I’d rather be working on my projects.”

“Research is the most important step.” And now he sounded like a broken record, because they’ve been at this for a full hour now.

The other had no patience for anything outside his machines. It made Kazuichi lament that he wasn’t partnered with Nagito or Peko; he’d even take the Ultimate obsessed Hinata. They at least were more level headed and understood the importance of research and preparation.

“Doesn’t make it not boring.”  Was his response and the smaller teen glared. “I finally get some one on one time with you and you find a book more interesting than yours truly? I’m hurt.”

Tanaka pouted as he leaned his chair back on its two back legs. A six foot something young man shouldn’t look that pitiful by simply pouting. He managed it somehow, damn his eyes.

They wouldn’t get anything done if this fool continued to disturb his concentration! Maybe it was time to employ some drastic measures.

“How about this?” And Tanaka smirked at the slightly annoyed tone that colored the smaller Emo’s voice. “If you can somehow manage to stay still, I’ll give you a kiss every five minutes.”

That caught his attention, like Kazuichi knew it would. The chair crashed down on the floor and the mechanic ignored his indignant hissing as he looked across the table in surprise.

“No fooling? You’re not gonna back out on your word?”

“As if I, the future ruler of this world and the next, would ever go back on my word,” he scoffed, waving a hand dismissively. “I swear it on my name.”

Grey eyes sparkled mischievously as Tanaka leaned in.  “And you’d really give me free range? Just like that?”

“It is not free range! Only one simple kiss per five minutes -“

“But I still get a kiss right?”

“As long as we can get some work done.”

He wasn’t about to let his GPA fall because of the others inability to stay still. Tanka shrugged, trying to come off as nonchalant, but the eager grin was a dead giveaway and Kazuichi looked away with a scoff.

“Cool. Let me just collect now.”

With more speed and agility than he thought the other possessed, Tanaka leaned over the table and  circled a hand around his wrist. He barely had enough time to process what was happening, before the sealed their lips together.

It surprisingly a gently kiss. For all his rough edges and boisterous displays, he had assumed the other would be like that in all aspects.

But the lips under his was undemanding - just pressed against his in an unhurried motion. Something wet slides against his bottom lip and he whimpers.

The other pulls away, Kazuichi’s yellow and pink eyes flutter open. When had his eyes closed?

As he mentally catalogs the past few seconds, his project partner has already resettled in his seat and is reading on the books they gathered for their research. He looked much more focused now, even grabbing a notebook from his bag to begin taking notes, as though he had not just skewed Kazuichi’s mental palace.

This mortal was more tricky and dangerous than he first perceived, Kazuichi thought, worrying his lower lip.

He would be more weary in the future.

[inouetsubaki]

Short, information only version:

we said goodbye to Chamois on Monday afternoon, August 28th. She was able to rest without pain. We buried her Wednesday morning, August 30th.

If you feel compelled, please share stories and/or pictures you have of her. We will host a virtual memorial, details coming when we have the emotional fortitude.

Long probably rambly could be emo song lyrics version:

I knew Chamois was my whole heart, but it becomes more apparent each day without her the vacuum she leaves. For 18 years she and I spent every day checking in on each other, playing, snuggling, and generally being a pair of ice water guzzling gremlins. She saved me in my darkest moments and loved everyone I loved just as fiercely as I did.

The house is too quiet, even Kaz is less talkative. 3 feet is a lot deeper than you think it is. I’ve had Chamois for so long it’s hard to remember life before her, and now I have to figure out how to live without her

When I adopted Chamois in the fall of 2005 I was 19 and oblivious that I was about to be fired from another job. It feels like several lifetimes ago at this point, filled with car meets in empty parking lots, unironic usage of MySpace, a Razr flip phone, and fan subs of popular anime. My partner at the time and I wanted a cat, and found a Craigslist listing for free kittens in Baytown. With a 1 hour each way, we had intended to get a black cat — but Chamois wasn’t having any of that. The litter of kittens was in the bed of the mother cat’s owner, and Chamois made her way up onto the side of the truck bed and walked her little puffball self right up to me. It was truly love at first sight, a little smudgy cream puff with bright blue eyes that fit in the palm of my hand.

Flea baths and a spay and vaccines later, we begin our nearly 2 decades together. We went through moves across the country and in Texas, settling in Austin for the long haul. She had a few younger siblings over the years, and has left Kaz to take care of us now that she’s resting for good. I like to think that she held out just a little longer for him to recover from a health scare earlier this month. She always tried to make things easier for us, but now her watch has ended.

Rest in Peace, my sweetheart.

[titsthedamnseason]

KANEJ STOP

[pistolslinger]

jesper is so tactile w/ ppl he cares about

[ghafae]

i will never tire of content that involves inej sitting by the window sill and kaz staring at her in awe, or inej laughing and kaz wanting to bottle that sound up, because it’s such music to his ears to hear her like that—to feel the smile in her tone. she allows him, if even for the tiniest of moments, to feel like there is a magic so tangible in the air. that all he has to do is grasp it, and it’s his. and that makes me emo, because kaz is always so overcome with money, pekka rollins, revenge; for him to feel like there is something good out there, all because he sees inej under the sun’s light, wind brushing her hair, or hears that laugh of hers because she’s found something of him amusing again ... yeah that really gets me

[theaceofarrows]

Reasons why I would kill for a Batfamily/Six of Crows crossover⬇

Bruce and Kaz having a glaring contest that last for a whole hour before Alfred and Inej tell them to stop

Dick and Inej trading circus stories and showing and teaching each other different acrobatics moves

Jason and Jesper having a shooting contest where they just keep doing more and more outlandish shots

Tim and Barbara show Wylan all the different bat gadgets and they start nerding out over crazy inventions

Matthias meets Damian's animals and very formally introduces himself to each of them. Damian tells cute stories of Titus and Matthias tells him stories of Treskell (don't think I'm spelling the right-)

Steph and Nina debating what the best toppings are for waffles

Dick, Steph, Nina and Jesper having bisexual solidarity✨

Bruce: "killing is wrong. If you take a life you're no better th-" Kaz: [gags]

Cass and Inej being the most lethal and absolute badass duo in all of Gotham

Alfred and Colm talking over tea about how exhausting it is to deal with children (Bruce included) who are always putting themselves in mortal danger

Damian and Wylan having a violin and flute duo

Everyone keeping a tally of how many times Bruce and Kaz say something emo, and taking bets on who will say more

Steph and Nina having a heated argument about which is better between purple and red

Matthias getting his ass kicked by Damian after asking why a child is here. Nina and Jesper are laughing at him the whole time

Kaz criticizing EVERY. SINGLE. Gotham rogue about how they are all pathetic excuses for criminals, and then whacking them with his cane

Jesper seeing the Discowing suit, followed immediately by himself and Dick talking about their shared (terrible) fashion sense

Damian and Inej bonding over knives. Inej immediately mastering throwing batarangs

Jason and Kaz casually talking about traumatic stories about being child criminals living on the streets

Nina falling in love with Alfred's cookies, followed by her joining in the batfam fights over who gets the last cookie

Steph, Cas and Wylan having the "my father is an evil piece of shit" Club™

The crows stealing the batmobile for a joyride. Jason laughing his ass off

Wylan and Jason exchanging formulas for different kinds of explosives

"Why would you go with go with robins?? Crows are CLEARLY way cooler-" "[unholy screeching]"

Someone brings up Lex Luthor and it just goes "rich blackmailing piece of shit who lies for political gain? Yes, we know the type"

Kaz: "-and so then after I cut his face with an oyster knife, I ripped his eyeball out and then tossed him over the side of the ship" Jason: "Nice, nice. Points for creativity. There was this one time that I cut off the heads of all the major gang lieutenants in Crime Ally, placed them all into an old duffle bag and then tossed them to the bosses while they were all in a meeting I set up" Kaz: "Hmm, I'll have to remember that" Jason: "I got it all done in only 2 hours" Kaz: "Very efficient"

I will probably add to this

[justdaphne]

The Crows at a birthday party 🎂

because its my birthday so let me pretend im the “birthday kid” and the crows came to my birthday party yes ik im stuck in my fantasies shush

Kaz:

“I have better things to do” omg kaz brekker came

He’s just standing there like 🧍‍♂️ and someone even thought he went to the wrong party “sir- excuse me but i think the goth party is down the street.” and he just glares.

I mean if it were a dark emo themed birthday party filled with edgy teens he’d fit right in because he just stands in the corner and watches. BUT IT’S A COLOURFUL FUN HAPPY THEMED FILLED WITH RAINBOWS AND MAGIC SO HE DEFINITELY DOESN’T LOOK LIKE HE B-

“Kaz you look like you’re attending a funeral. This is a birthday party.”

“What, you want me to dress up as a magician and pull a rabbit out of my hat??”

So that’s how Kaz Brekker ends up in a magician’s outfit in front of all the children. Because Inej so ever lovingly asked him to. We all love Inej.

Just imagine a frown on Kaz while he says “abracadabra.” Just imagine the look on the children’s face like :

Inej:

It reminds her of her childhood birthday parties where everyone was invited to her birthday. She’ll admit it causes her to be slightly emotional.

She gives the birthday kid a present with the warmest smile. Which is obviously deceiving because if someone gave me a present with the warmest smile ever causing me to melt, I’d think it would be a cute doll she gave me that she made herself and not a sharp dagger ENCRUSTED WITH RUBIES.

“Make sure to name it” she says as she winks at the kid. FVHDYDYCUBJBUCDFXGXUCU

She spends the rest of the time with all the children, playing with them. She is the reason the party feels so warm and friendly and happy. Ignore Kaz Brekker shhh we don’t talk about the iceberg in the Sahara desert.

Jesper:

“DID SOMEONE SAY PARTYYYYYY”

*brings alcohol*

“JESPER THIS IS A CHILD’S BIRTHDAY PARTY”

“oh”

I feel like he’d do random tricks with his gun due to boredom which would then intrigue the guests . Like- he’d get into the whole showman mood and stuff

*dramatic bowing*

Jesper even ends up stealing the spotlight from the birthday kid themselves LMAO. “It’s not my fault I’m good looking, dressed better AND eye-catching”

To be fair he dresses colorfully too. Perhaps it was intentional after all.

Jesper’s gift to the child would be nerf guns no shit

He’d shoot down the piñata too before anyone could hit it lmao-

Nina:

Waffle hoarder istg. Where is Nina? Oh she’ds just been chilling by the waffle stand for the past..2 hours from when the party started.

*Walks pass someone eating waffles* “Are you gonna finish that???”

Before this whole celebration started she already planned her outfit, wanting to be the best dressed. “Nina, this isn’t your party!” “AND???? YOU DON’T KNOW WHO YOU MIGHT MEET THERE!!!!” Nina hun, you look stunning.

In fact, she is dressed so well that someone thought it was a costume and asked her join the other cosplayers. “WH- I’M A GUEST NOT A WORKER”

Wylan:

The second he sees screaming children running around - “Why am I here?”

He’s also just standing there like 🧍‍♂️all confused. Ah like father like son except unlike Kaz just not emo dark intimidating looking

He’s never been to a birthday party so bear with him this is his first invite. I bet he asks a lot of questions - “You get cake for your birthday???” “TOYSSS AS PRESENTS???”

Yea sure he’s slightly jealous about the fact that he never experienced this during his childhood but it’s okay because he’s still having a good time. And also the Crows will throw him a big party for his birthday <3

Matthias:

Matthias would try his best. To not be a jerk. By judging everything. Because Little Red Bird said not to. Although he does at some point.

“In Fjerda….”

“When I was a child….”

Someone even thought Matthias one of the child’s parent. BECAUSE HE’S JUST STANDING THERE BLENDING IN WITH THE PARENTS JUDGING EVERYONE unlike Kaz because Kaz is judging everyone *FROM THE DARK CORNER*

“So which one is your child?” “I’m not a parent-“

Nina brings him cake and he directly questions it lol. “What is this..spongy texture?” “Relax druskelle!! I’m not trying to kill you.”

[shipping-trash-the-musical]

Random headcanon fan fic thing for u Danganronpa fans

So when souda was a kid he really wanted a pet be at a dog a cat a stray cow he wanted an animal to care for yet 2 major problems 1 kaz was a massive magnet for animals hatred fore some weird reason and 2 hes parents were pretty pore so no pet g or him until he once day randomly saw a very pregnant raccoon digging through the garbage kaz being the good kid he was thought well if I can't have a normal pet il just take care of his raccoon who is in need of lots of food and so he started to leave out extra leaftovers and water for is trash dog how soon got the name queen trash demon ( because hes 12 and the wired emo in his math class how's in charge of the class pet suggested it) he calls her queeni for short. Soon the two grow really close to the point its PREETY obvious that queeni has adopted kaz as one of her children and queeni is a good mom how follows souda to school constantly. Once queeni gives birth to here 2 baby's kaz is instly enamored stealing all the extra food and blankets he can get for his 2 extra pets how names ratchet and clank. Hes parents are yet unaware of there sons trash cat but until one day were kaz realised that he hadn't seen all queeni all day and ratchet and clank have clearly not been given atenchen since when he feed them the other night . kaz not knowing what to do hid ratchet and clank in side the garage whith food and blankets and pretended to Locke himself in bed a go to sleep were instead he snuck out a spent a good few hours looking for the mother raccoon until he found her dead at the side of the roud. Kaz being a stupid kid ran home with dead queeni in his arms. Lets just say this parents had a mix of emotions w him there son how should be in bed barge into the living room with a dead raccoon in his arms. That night kaz got grounded for life got told the meaning of death and due to some begging adopted 2 ,4 month old raccoon cubs. As time went on the 2 raccoons became staples of the family's auto shop and Due to living in an auto shop the raccoons over time thought themselves how to help out fetching needed tool and scamatics or making sure there owner remembers to take care of them selves. Obviously whene kaz got into hopes peak he took ratchet and clank with him and its thanks to this 2 raccoons that Gundume and souda became friends

( Note no one but Gundume knows about the raccoons so everyone is very confused about the growing soudam friendship thanks to raccoon shanagins )

[bloodwrittenballad]

Gone | Kaz Brekker

Summary: Your last time in the arms of your first and only love.

Warnings: death, injuries, blood, ANGST, sad!kaz, sad!crows, crying, probably bad writing, EMO HOURS FOR REAL. sorry

I’m super fucking sad tonight! So I wrote this! And I cried the whole time! I hope you all enjoy this angst and pain induced by my breakdown! it’s probably super bad lol i just needed to get my sadness out. - parker

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You always knew you’d die young.

It came with the territory of being an orphan in Ketterdam. Living there was like signing a letter to death itself, and joining the Crows was the wax seal.

You excepted it a long time ago. There was no point in mourning over the loss of one day getting married and growing old with your lover, no point in trying to find an outcome that didn’t end up with your seventeen year old self lying on the floor bleeding out.

You made your peace a long time ago with the fact that you’d die young, and that would be that. There wouldn’t be a spouse to remember you by or any children to carry on your legacy. There’d be nothing, no sign of you, like you never existed...

Death didn’t scare you. Not the way it should’ve, for such a young person. You looked at death as your equal, and now tonight he looked right back at you.

You don’t even remember what happened or how. Everything was moving so fast one minute, you and the crows on your latest mission, in the midst of battle, but then time slowed.

And the pain started.

At first you thought it was just a cracked rib. After all, the man you had been fighting all by yourself had struck a couple hits in at that spot. But this wasn’t any kind of pain you’ve felt before, you have had countless bruised and cracked ribs, even a few broken, this wasn’t it.

It was sharp pain, hot, sticky... and that’s when you realized. You had been shot. Fatally shot.

You stumbled on your feet as you clutched your wound, your opponent clearly amused by your pain, and thrilled to have the upper advantage. He immediately went to jump on you, get you down once and for all.

Before he could however, a knife embedded itself into his skull, and he landed with a thud onto the cobblestone ground.

Even in your hazy mind and blurry sight, you knew it was Inej. From what you could see, her face was painted with utter fear.

“Y/N,” she gasped as you stumble again, immediately rushing to you to help. But she was beat by Kaz, who had seemingly appeared out of thin air, and was now by your side.

“Y/N,” he rasped out. His eyes were wide and worried, totally unlike how cold and glaring they usually looked.

“Kaz,” you cried out, your weak body falling into his chest. He immediately cradled you, his gloved hands wrapping around you as he laid you down in the ground as gently as possible.

Your eyes stung with unshed tears, everything hurt, but you weren’t scared. Kaz knew that.

He was scared though. You could tell.

Kaz wouldn’t hold eye contact with you, his gaze was stuck on the wound, like he wished he could heal it.

“K-Kaz,” you choked out, “l-look at me, p-please.”

Slowly his eyes met yours, and that’s when you saw how glassy they were. “D-don’t cry, please don’t cry.” you begged, Kaz looked at you helplessly. “Then don’t leave me.” He begged. But he knew. They all knew.

This was it.

“Its gonna be okay, K-kaz.” you said. You were shaking, your hand raised to his cheek to stroke, but you stopped yourself. He saw your hesitation, and despite his fear of touch and the pain he felt in this moment, he grabbed your hand and placed it on his cheek, stroking your hand with his gloved thumb.

“I-it’s gonna be o-okay. I-i’m in the arms o-of my f-first and only l-love. It’s g-gonna be fine.” you whispered, your voice was breathy and light and your eyes were starting to close.

“P-promise me y-you’ll be okay.” You spoke to Kaz, your weak hand clutching onto his other gloved hand that wasn’t resting on his cheek.

“I-I’ll try, y/n. F-for you I’ll try.” Kaz croaked out, “I love you.” He said, watching as your eyes grew weak and your breathing slowed. “I love you, y/n. And i’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been better for you. I’m sorry I dragged you into this, i-if it wasn’t for you you wouldn’t be here in my arms, dying at seventeen. I’m so sorry, i’m so sorry...” he cried, the guilt eating away at his heart and soul.

His sobs were so loud he almost didn’t hear the way you forgave him, along with another soft “i love you.” but he heard it. followed by your last breathe.

And then silence.

No one spoke. No one dared say a word. All that could be heard were sniffles from the crows.

You were gone.

You were in his arms and yet... you were gone.

[whowantswaffles]

The Crows as things I’ve done in quarantine

Kaz- that time when i dove headfirst back into my emo phase and listened exclusively to three cheers for sweet revenge

Inej-  getting so bored i started watching gossip girl (i gave up when they tried to make chuck redeemable and i firmly believe inej would have too)

Jesper- shaving my head an hour before seeing other humans for the first time in 5 months

Nina- proceeding to bleach and dye my hair as soon as it grew out

Matthias- going down a rabbit hole that largely consisted of learning about carrier pigeons and ancient greece

Wylan- learning how to play songs on the guitar but they get increasingly aggressive (in april it was easy by troye sivan but by july it was sarcasm by get scared)

[oceanspray5]

Ok but I remembered the song "She is the Sunlight" by The Age of Information and it is SUCH a kanej song?

Like look at the lyrics:

Kaz thinks Inej is too good for him. She makes him believe in real magic when the sunlight hits her. She's his own hope to being a better person, a better man because she makes him want to heal himself.

The songs lyrics sound so much like his inner monologue before he'd let her go. He's so heartbroken that she has to leave but he frees her of Per Haskell's contract by liquidating his own assets and he gets her the means to go anyway (her ship) cuz it's what she wants and will make her happy even if it's away from him.

And I especially love how the songs lyrics represent Kaz's moral conflict and the main differences between him and Inej too cuz the lyrics: "then you would find me, each hour the same; she is tomorrow, I am today", "if right is leaving, I'd rather be wrong" and "she is the healing, I am the pain"

Cuz Kaz wants to stay in Ketterdam. He plans ahead but only to an extent and he lives in the moment, fighting to survive. Despite the miseries he's seen, Ketterdam is his home so he wants to stay there even if setting roots elsewhere might be healthier. In a way he remains the same traumatized boy he used to be. And Kaz lives with so much pain in him from his past and he inflicts it on others too to become the fearsome Bastard of the Barrel because his life has hardened him but Inej is still his healing.

She's tomorrow. She's willing to live to see her parents again. She fights because she wants to accomplish things beyond herself. She's willing to leave Ketterdam but willing to come back for him too. Always open to new horizons. So it's so fitting that she becomes Kaz's healing too just by existing in his life. He saved her, and she saves him too.

For Kaz, Inej is a daydream of what he could have had if he was less messed up. If Jordie hadn't died. He feels like he doesn't belong in her world but he'd do anything to try to deserve to be there.

Loving her is heartache for him because it's opening him to a vulnerability he previously didn't have and not just vulnerability from others but vulnerability to himself and the demons he's keeping hidden. But Inej is strong enough to handle herself and handle his truths and Kaz is willing to bleed for her because she's willing to wait for him too. He's willing to suffer for her. He's willing to fight his own personal battles, his phobia of touch and his fear of letting down his armor just for her. To hold her. To open up to her. To be the man she deserves and needs. She means that much to him.

When she leaves she takes his sun with her but he has a reason to keep healing because he knows she'll come back eventually. The sun always rises again.

It's just... This song suddenly made me so emo for Kanej from Kaz's POV after Crooked Kingdom when Inej finally sets sail. Kaz is so complex regarding his feelings in general but when Inej its a whole nother minefield but I feel like this song in particular just captures his heartache but his resolve as well.

[au-bound]

Shadow & Bone Thoughts (Ep 1&2)

So I blew through this series in like a day to avoid spoilers, and wanted to rewatch it slower to catch all the little things I may have missed after getting so hear others' thoughts on it. And I thought I'd do one of these types of posts (is there an official term for them? Like live tweeting but not?), since I've never done one before! I'm taking it two episodes at a time so this isn't as overwhelmingly long. And honestly it's mostly about the Crows.

Ep 1.

-Alexei is super sweet and deserved better

-I will never stop being amazed how accurately they designed the Fold and the encampment from the book

-Our first glimpse at Mal, he's a child, running away from confrontation. The next scene is him going to a fight. And as the show progresses, you find his bravery grew from wanting to protect Alina. I'm weak

-It's pronounced 'krug-a'? Not like 'krewj'? Oops

-Even though it's not my first watch, I still squealed when the Ketterdam location tag popped up

-The way they introduced the Crows was *chef's kiss* perfection

-Kaz's bedroom is at The Crow Club, not the Slat. Is this an indicator he hasn't built that up yet, or were they just simplifying locations? Am I overthinking this?

-"But first, I'm going gambling in Ketterdam... I'll write you a letter." In hindsight, oof

-Freaking Pekka.

-The scene going into the Fold is so crazy intense. The way the music builds and builds and then just stops

-I feel like this show has some very sporadic uses of slo-mo

-*raises hand* "I have to be back in an hour."😂

Ep. 2

-"Closer" *one microscopic step forward*

-The Darkling has a vibe. He knows his vibe. He rocks his vibe.

-Once again. Freaking Pekka.

-I'm on the team thinking the only reason Pekka wields so much power in Ketterdam and can even get to Kaz is because Kaz hasn't built up the Dregs yet. I really hope this is the case. I want to see fully formed Dirtyhands next season

-I read someone's post where they said Jesper knows about Jordie, but I don't think so? Correct me if I'm wrong, but with the scene at the bar it seems like Inej is the only one that senses Kaz's background with Pekka is personal. Jesper asked Kaz if Pekka remembered him, so maybe he just knows they had bad blood like a deal that went south?

-Mal running after Alina in the carriage has Once Upon a Time "I will always find you" Charming vibes

-The 1 million weapons to unload trope was invented for Inej

-HA, yes, don't worry Jesper bby, you'll get your demolition expert

-Fedyor!!!!!!!!!!

-And it's pronounced 'druskell-ah', not 'druskell'?? I don't accept that

-The Cut is also as dramatic as I hoped it would be, thank you Darkling for your emo flair

-I immediately liked the Conductor because he was talking to his books. What a betrayal

-Blood would not show up that brightly on a handkerchief, come on

-Ben Barnes, I am not a fan of the Darkling (for Alina, I mean, I do like his character), but your smoulders are TESTING ME

-Poppy, sweetheart, you're too innocent for life in Ketterdam. Between the raw deal with Kaz, and the note for Heleen, you just might believe in people too much

-If the Conductor has faith in the Saints, why is he willing to assassinate Alina??? I am BETRATED

-Ok, the Little Palace is not at all how I pictured it. I was expecting a lot more opulence, color, and luscious greenery outside. It was a little bland and disappointing for me :/

-Oh Mal. Off to run away to Alina. Precious himbo

-Kaz giving up the Crow Club deed as collateral 😭😭😭

-I know we weren't introduced to Per Haskell, or even know if he's going to be a character in the show, but I think they can still make it work. Like Kaz is acting like a boss and making choices without consulting Per, but he's just in the background more as a figurehead? Or is Kaz officially the real boss, which gives him more freedom within his gang. Idk, I hope they shed more light on specifics next season...

[absent-o-minded]

SHADOW AND BONE SPOILERS

I binged the show yesterday in two sittings (Eps 1-5 in one, Eps 6-8 in the other) and I thought that I'd make a list of some of my favourite moments/lines throughout the series. (This is going off of memory as I haven't done a rewatch yet, so I'm sorry if some quotes aren't word for word.) Part 1?

- Milo The Goat being the Main Character for 10 minutes straight

- "She's not like you. No one is." I wasn't expecting to get fucking whipped so hard so early by Kanej but ThErE We gO

- The entire scene of Kaz dressing up as a painter just to get a look at the blueprints to the Archive Library because...why not?

- Alina and Mal being cutie patooties in the Camp before shit hit the fan.

- An underappreciated moment: When Mal said that Alina "looked healthy" and him smiling at the fact that she had developed an apetite from using her powers. I thought that it was a very tender moment.

- Ben Barnes as the Darkling having soldiers make room for him to walk because he is THAT BITCH.

- Mikael and Dubrov! It's always a good ol' adrenaline kick when a TV Show takes your love for two minor characters and shoves it in the blender right before your very eyes...Thank-Thanks Shadow and Bone.

- "Your tracker friend liked it when I put him on his back too." Even my face felt the burn of Zoya and I knew that it didn't even happen.

- The Crows in general were immaculate. Everything from the representation of Inej's religious standpoint (which I thought was done incredibly well) to Kaz being an emo boy (...she said see ya' later boy...) to Jesper going "Bang bang bullet bullet gun!"

- Jespers fucking lines, with some special mentions but not limited to: "...He threw a book at me?..." "I'M NOT THROWING OUT THE GOAT...so soft." "(*Insert Screaming*)" "I lost a little bit of money...I lost all of the money." "Of course, love." "I know. I'd miss me too. I'm fantastic."

- Alina's powers were beautiful (Mega props to CGI). Imagine having the power of being a literal ray of sunshine and then playing a character who has the power to summon literal rays of sunshine? That's Jessie Mei Li.

- The wholesomeness of the Inej and Jesper scene where Inej is trying to stitch her self up and there is a mutual understanding of her position of going back and Jesper inadvertently says that he values her.

- "My Crows." UHHHHNNNNNGGGG

- Genya saying that the Queen has saggy tits had me rolling.

- SPeakIng of GeNYA, Genya and David. The small snippets we got of the two are enough to last me lifeti-yeah, no, about two weeks, I love them both so much, please gimme.

- "You don't have to put-" *sigh* "Yes, David?" PFFF.

- Helnik in the Whaler's hut. I cannot pinpoint one particular thing. Wholesome.

- The build up of the Darkling x Kaz confrontation over the few weeks leading up to the Shows Premiere, the plethora of theories that involved Cane Whacking and Shadow Summoning and Insult Throwing and Fashion Copyrighting, and what did we get? The peak humour that was Kaz fucking throwing down a flash bomb and dissapearing like my perception of time and space after sitting in the dark for 5 hours watching the show. I do not know why I expected anything less, that scene was beautiful.

- The bit where Alina directly put her hands over the mans eyes and radiated her light directly onto his eyeballs? It was brief and swift but I found that so cool.

- As a Film Student, I can just really appreciate the overall aestheticism of the series. They managed to encapsulate both the quintessential elements (The setting/locations, The Score, Costume Design etc) and as well as the more meticulous, intricate details (Again with Kefta details, but also with Characterisation, Prop Design of the Crow Club) and so much more. The essence of the world that Leigh Bardugo has built was captured as if it had been plucked straight from my mind and I revelled in it for those 8 hours.

There are so many moments that I have missed or have not spoken about but I'll end that here as its been quite long, but this series was utterly beautiful, and all of those involved: The incredible Cast, the most talented of Cinematogrophers, Designers, Camera Workers, Writers, Hair and Make-Up Staff, truly to every single person involed - Thank you so much <3

(Also - Please feel free to add anything in the comments, or message me if you want to talk about the show. I'm debating whether to do a more consice review, but we'll see how lazy I'm feeling tbh. Take care everyone <3 )

[nagitoshopejar]

Lmao lemme just try to write a tk fic and see how well it goes.

Gundham x Kazuichi fic

Its currently 12:18 am and I have to get to school tomorrow.

Lmao I have no title for this fic.

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Kazuichi had been sitting on the couch resting his head in his arm, his elbow placed upon the arm rests of the faded green coloured coach. He sat there watching tv. He'd been doing it for the past few hours.

The pink haired boy jumped suddenly when he heard his name being called.

"Kazuichi? Are you ok? You've been sitting there for hours watching the shopping channel." The ultimate emo breeder looked at his boyfriend, clear concern in his eyes.

Kazuichi didnt turn to look at his boyfriend let alone even blink. He just sighed. "I'm bored Gundham. Theres nothing here to do."

"No theres something wrong. You act... Different when you're bored." The hamster man had said, his small patience was running out.

"No I'm fiNE AGH-" the mechanic looked down to see the emo pinching his sides.

"I'll give you one more chance Kaz."

"I'm fihine."

By this point Gundham had enough and started poking his sides.

"Guhunham wahAIT!" Gundham had tackled and pinned him to the coach.

"No can do. I gave you, your chance." And with that he started scribbling his sides. Kazuichi was bucking with laughter.

"GUHUDHAM STAHAHAHAP!"

"Stay still would you? I need to make sure you have the normal amount of ribs." He giggled to himself as he dragged a finger slowly counting and digging in between each rib. "1... 2... 3... Ah, where was I again? I lost count." He started back up again.

"GUHUHUNDHAM!!" Kaz shouted.

"Yes?" Gundham asked as if he werent torturing the poor innocent soul.

"IHIHIT TIHICKLEHES!"

"Its supposed to." He chuckled to himself. "Anyways. 1... 2... 3... 4... 6..." He stopped for a moment. "6? No that cant be right. I need to mark this down. San-D could you get me a pen please?" He placed san-d on the floor and the hamster came back with a small fluffy pen that Sonia had given to Gundham for his birthday. It was decorated with cats and dogs. "Alright."

"Gudham please dont." Kazuichi watched in horror the emo drew the pen closer.

"Dont what?" He asked, knowing damn well what kazuichi meant was going to answer.

"Tickle me." The forbidden words. Kazuichi had realized what he'd done. "WAIT NO!" He thrashed trying to get free grabbing at Gunhams wrists.

"Tickle you? Of course. Why didnt you asl sooner? But first I need to stop you from me dishing out what you want." He tied the scarf around Kazuichis wrist making sure he couldnt do anything. "Now then..." He placed the pen on the pink haired boys ribs and immediately giggles started pouring from his mouth. "1... Look at you Kaz youre so cute. 2... God Kazuichi youre so ticklish. 3... ." As gundham counted he spouted teases at every number.

"GUHUHUNDHAHAM STAHP!!! PLEAHAHHESE!" Kazuichi sputtered now arching his back. Luckily and unluckily for him, Gundham had finished at his ribs.

"Are you ready to talk?"

"I told you, im fine im just bored." Kaz lied through breaths to catch air in his longing lungs.

Gundham sighed. "I wonder if its still your best spot." Kazuichi knew instantly what he meant.

"Please nonononono." Kazuichi pleaded.

"Most certainly yes." Gunhdam said turning the pen around to the feather soft side. "One more chance." He waited but it was silent. Kaz was preparing. "Ok then." He said dancing the feather in one under arm and wiggling his fingers in the other.

"GUHUHUHUNDHAHAHM STAHAHAP!!!"

"Ready to talk?" He didnt stop or slow down.

"WAHAHAIT PLEAHAHAHEHESE!"

"For what? The tickle monsters hungry for giggles." Gundham leaned down not halting his attack on the underarms and blew a huge rapberry on Kaz's navel.

"OHOHOHOK OHOHOK ILL TEHEHELL YOHUHU!!" Kazuichi had tears streaming down his face. His hat was on the floor and his hair was a mess. A light pink had painted his face and he was still giggling from the ghost tickles. Gundham let him catch him breath for a few minutes and untied him.

"I-I miss the others. Sonia went back to Novaselic and I want to see her again. She was a great friend." Gudham hugged Kazuichi giving him a little kiss on the forehead. He let Kaz lean on him.

"I'll buy us tickets to see her again. I promise she wants to see you to."

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Snsnskskskjsjfhf holy I thought it would be worse.