#Do you guys understand my pain?
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QUEUE CHECKLIST
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... will get updated every once in a while! Also hidden below the cut due to the amount of requests!
In the queue waiting is:
Hollow Knight
House of Leaves (by Mark Z. Danielewski)
Omori
Solar System
17776 / 20020 (by Jon Bois)
Minecraft (Game)
Chicory: A Colorful Tale
Murder Drones
Subnautica (Franchise)
Danganronpa
Jujutsu Kaisen
Dungeon Meshi
Mass Effect (Series)
Danger Days: The True Life Of Fabulous Killjoys
Lord Of The Rings
Fallout 4
QSMP
Transformers
Amphibia
Sk8 The Infinity
Hermitcraft
Owl House
Creepypasta
Life Series
Once Human
Star Trek (Franchise)
Bluey
My Hero Academia
VTubers
Skibidi Toilet
Demon Slayer
Ride The Cyclone
Dandy's World
Robert De Niro
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Poppy Playtime
How To Train Your Dragon
Komi Can't Communicate
Madoka Magica
Deadlock
Full Metal Alchemist (2003)
Mandela Catalogue
Overwatch
Voltron Legendary Defenders
Good Omens
The Walten Files
Chainsaw Man
Outlast
Spookys Jumpscare Mansion
SCP Universe
Class Of 09
Remnant: From The Ashes
Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood
Arcane
Hiveswap
Warcraft Universe (WOW, Warcraft, ...)
Friendsim
Inscryption
Starcraft (Franchise)
Vocaloid
Still Wakes The Deep
Roblox
Riverdale
Hazbin Hotel
Red Dead Redeption 2 (RDR2)
Monster High
Doom 64
Into The Spiderverse
Spider Gang (Music Collective)
Silent Hill (Universe)
Helldivers 2
The Magnus Archives
Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU)
DC Cinematic Universe
My Demon (Kdrama)
Needy Streamer Overload
Stardew Valley
Honkai Star Rail
Hellpoint
Alien vs. Predators
Cookie Run (Franchise)
OneShot
Critical Role
Castlevania
Markiplier Cinematic Universe
Gravity Falls
Palworld
Stray Kids (Kpop)
Soul Eater
Bendy And The Ink Machine (Universe)
Shakespeare
Ace Attorney
Kid Icarus
Slimecicle Cinematic Universe
Signalis
LGBTQ+
Kancolle
Loop SMP
Parkour Civilization
Warframe
Jacksepticeye Cinematic Universe
Sherlock BBC
Dimension 20
Friends (/factives, not the show)
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (2012)
Tiger X Bunny
Just Shapes And Beats
Puyo Puyo
Tale Of The Nine Tailed
Wuthering Waves
Alter Ego (Mobile Game)
Warhammer
What Remains Of Edith Finch
My Little Pony
Rabbit And Steel
GrayStillPlays
Magic The Gathering
Epic The Musical
Azur Lane
Magical Girl Raising Project
Nevermore (Webtoon)
Destiny 2
Numbers
Remnant II
Vermintide I and II
Mr. Robot
Severance
Sailor Moon
Eddsworld
Kingdom Hearts
Dead By Daylight
Arknights
Kamen Rider
Ni No Kuni
Arrow (TV Show)
Nimona
RWBY
I'm The Grim Reaper (Webtoon)
Welcome To Demon School Iruma-kun! (Mairimashita Iruma-kun)
Call Of Duty
Plants Vs Zombies (Original Game)
#Actually Plural (The Tag)
The Concept Of Math
The Evillious Chronicles
Cry Of Fear
Kingdom Hearts
Family Members
Resident Evil (Franchise)
Lego Ninjago
Five Nights At Freddys (Rerun)
Umbrella Academy
Professor Layton
Helluva Boss
I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream
Zenless Zone Zero
JoJos Bizarre Adventure
Steven Universe
Warrior Cats
Fight Club (Rerun)
Bojack Horseman
Battle For Dream Island
Spongebob Squarepants
House MD (Show)
Team Fortress 2
RanFren
Colors
Land Of The Lustrous
NomNomNami Games (Collectively)
Pressure (Roblox)
The Amazing Digital Circus (TADC)
The Coffin Of Andy And Leyley (TCOAAL)
Ic3speak (Band)
Baldurs Gate 3
Ensemble Stars / Enstars
Star Wars (Franchise)
Kirby (Franchise)
The Batfam
Tokyo Mew Mew
The Beatles
Osomatsu-san
Undertale AUs (generally)
Apps (like, on the phone)
Welcome Home
Dead Poets Society
Zero Day
Voices Of The World
ContentSMP (by DoctorR4t)
BigTop Burger (Show)
The Hunger Games
Doors (Roblox)
Percy Jackson
Shin Megami Tensei
Lucifer (Show)
#Do you guys understand my pain?#Do you understand what ita like to sort through 500 asks?#KIDDING#I'm glad people enjoy this blog#The stuff in (brackets) is more for me then it is for you#Stuff gets put randomly sometimes though I try to stick in order unless its BIG asks#or you mention my SPINs#;#this was requested by an anon - i hope this helps you somehow!#a lot of work#;;;;;;#queue checklist
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An evening out.
#darmione#dramione art#dramione fanart#draco/hermione#dhr#hermione x draco#draco x hermione#older dramione#draco in blue#hermione in blue#hi guys!#I finished a drawing!#Instead of crochet!#Every time I opened procreate over the past year I worked on this#I hated it so much#Hermione's hair fought me tooth and nail#if I ever share the progress video you will understand my pain#And my husband said Draco looked like Biden which made me sad#But I was determined to finish it before I worked on anything else because I put so much time into it already#it was a sunk-cost fallacy I am aware#but look! its done!#I don't completely hate this background!#This might be a continuation of the Chief Warlock/Auror drawing from 2022#or it could be something else!#What do you think is happening here? Whose house are they in??#There are more drawings#We'll see if I post them#Now I am going to wander back into my cave of despair where I will ignore everything I am supposed to do#Just kidding. Off I go to mark things#procreate
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i feel like we kinda miss the whole. catalyst for fiona and lips relationship exploding.
here's your older sister, and here's the only person you've ever been able to trust. she tells you to get out again and again and again, even though you're so afraid that the moment you turn around everything is going to fall apart. getting out, and then getting the rest of them out, is your job. that's what your supposed to do.
neither of you have been able to trust your parents and all you have is each other, and she's telling you to get out. and it's either doom everyone around you by staying, or trust her and leave.
and then, right as you're finally starting to find the rhythm of a world you've beed denied access to your whole life, it's because of her, the only person you've ever been able to trust in you entire existence, because of you leaving and trusting, that your five year old brother almost dies. he's comatose. he's covered in tubes. he might never be the same again. the only person you've ever trusted has done the exact same thing your parents did. Put drugs and alcohol and letting loose above the kids their supposed to take care of.
Is it any wonder Lip stops trusting her. That Lip takes the longest to forgive her. "it wasn't her coke she didn't leave it out" she got high around a toddler and left him near the cocaine. left the cocaine where he could get it. the two other adults picked him up and danced with him with coke on the table. Lip walks in on this after spending an entire day trying to rescue their other brother. His little sister is the one who finds their baby brother.
even discounting that in response to this he has to suddenly start stealing food or else all the kids in the house will starve, or that Fiona suddenly jackrabbits into another person he has to care for instead of someone he can trust, or that he now has to care for a 4 year old, while working a job, and being a full time college student on work study, discounting all of that of course Lip looses faith in his sister. Of course he does.
#lip gallagher#fiona gallagher#shameless#:V#season 4 is so interesting.#god how do you forgive that. how do you cross that enormous devide#The way Fiona only can think of yourself in these moments. the way she just constantly tunnel visions on her own grief and her own pain#like what do you do when your entire personhood has been defined by being the perfect caregiver#and then you ruin it in such a catastrophic way#the way Fiona becomes her parents and does her best to never acknowledge it#she's so like her father in ways that just fundamentally prevent her from acknowledging it#like she can't acknowledge it and she can't admit it because admitting shatters the only persona she's ever had#which is that of a good caregiver#if she's not that then what is she#and obviously she does eventually make it through this#and gets out god bless her heart#but when she's in it!! DRIVES ME INSANE#literally becomes a landlord.... her true villain arc#is an alcoholic and a landlord and almost killed her four year old brother with coke#what a woman#you guys just don't understand her frfr#can I speak my truth. she parentalized lip in the way her parents did to her
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[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.
#cw gore#WEEEE WHIPPING OUT ALL MY BELOVED PIXEL HORROR GAME SOUNDTRACKS FOR THIS ONE#STILL A WIP#SORTA. FORKSFORKSFORKS INSPIRED ME TO START WORKIN AT IT AGAIN. AND NOW IT LIVES. IT LIIIVEESS!!!#MOSLT.Y ATLEAST. I MIGHT MESS W IT MORE LATER. WE SHALL SEE. ANYWAY GABRIEL MONTEZ HUH. WOW POOR GUY#THERES A FASCINATING FEELING THAT COMES WITH BEING ON A OPERATING TABLE.AND BEING IN IMMENSE PAIN#ONE OF MY FONDEST MEMORIES IS LAYING ON A DENTIST CHAIR. SHAKING AND INVOLUNTARILY CRYING AFTER MANY MANY#NEEDLES TO MY THE MOUTH. I METABOLIZE THE NUMBING STUFF QUICKLY APPARENTLY. THEY NEEDED ALOT OF NUMBING SHOTS#BUT I WASNT AFRAID OR DISTRESSED. THE DENTIST WAS VERYVERY NICE AND ALSO UH. PRETTY. BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT#THE POINT IS. THAT IT WAS FASCINATING TO REALIZE MY PHYSICAL RESPONSE TO PAIN UNDER A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT#I DIDNT KNOW HOW EASY IT WAS TO SHAKE AND TO CRY PRYVIOUS TO THAT EXPERIENCE.MY DENTAL ADVENTURES CONTINUE#THEY CONTINUE TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE FOR PAIN TO BOIL AWAY THE TIME. TO DISTORT THE PASSING HOURS AND CONSUME EVERY THOUGHT#DO YOU REMEMBER PAIN? THE MOST SEVERE PAIN IN YOUR LIFE? NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE RED LIGHTS? RED LIGHTS AND SHIFTING FIGURES#NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE PAIN UNRELENTING.PAIN WORLD SHATTERING.PAIN IMMORTAL.CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING PULLED APART#THE HUMAN MIND CAN ONLY WITHSTAND SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE IT SHUTS DOWN AND HIDES.IT NEEDS TO PROTECT ITSELF AFTERALL. PAIN CAN ALTER#PAIN SHIFTS THE CHEMISTY OF THE MIND OF THE FLESH OF THE SOUL. FOR HUMANS ATLEAST. BUT YOU ARE NO LONGER HUMAN#YOU CHOSE OTHERWISE DIDNT YOU BOY.BECAUSE YOU WANTED MORE.STATUS.POWER.APPROVAL.SECURITY.SAFET.Y.#OHHH YOU CAN WITHSTAND THE PAIN FOR THAT. FOR ALL THAT. YOU WERENT TOLD THERE WOULD BE PAIN BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PROMISED.#ITS ALL WORTH IT IN THE END. NOW LETS JUST HOPE SOME BLONDE TWERP DOESNT PROVE TO BE STRONGER THAN THE STRONGEST PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE#LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. I LOST MY TRAIN O THOUGHT#anyway dawww poorr gabeee that shit probably huuurrrrtttss but so much time has passed that your body got tired of screaming and squirming#why havnt you passed out yet? maybe you might as well have at this point. like sleeping with your eyes open and your nerves awake#OH HEY FUNFACT ABT THE ART. I FOUGHT W IT ALOT. TOOK A LONG WHILE FOR ME TO BE REMOTELY HAPPY W THIS.#i was thinking abt pixel horror video games when i made it.just as i do with all great things ofc ofc#i love you pixel horror game i love yooouuuuu.i struggled so much w the colors for so LONNGG UHGHGHGH but im finally happy...im finally fre
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i need to clean up the secret project doc before i can start flashback because currently it is the definition of a mess
#BUT ALSO I WANT TO JUST. READ THE BOOKS INSTEAD OF HAVING TO WRANGLE THIS PROJECT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY PAIN#guys i love this project i really do. it's hella fun. however it is also a pain in my ass. once it's done it'll be my crowning achievement#but right now. i am thrashing and kicking. if it weren't for this project i feel i could've read lodestar through legacy in one weekend#why do i do this to myself <- guy that has been salivating over the chance to do this since 2022#my keefe rant was so much easier and quicker . . .#anyway. as you all were#my secret project#kotlc
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on “two cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get ”cake“”#and we love “cake”#“cake” is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the “utilitarian brain worms” bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the “get a good grade in hobby” wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the “get a good grade in x” wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn “enough value to live”#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a “correct” that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not “the point”#because “the point” is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? “here check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guy”#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid “something not have a purpose”??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fear™!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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Mikhail and Vitali were inseparable; when they weren’t studying or getting into fights, they would hang out at Mikhail’s place to smoke and get drunk on cheap rum and vodka, to then pass out in each other’s arms and sleep most of the next day away. They promised each other— no matter what would happen— they would never leave each other’s side. Yet after starting university and college respectively, they did not see each other for a little over six years, leaving them both heartbroken and wondering what went wrong.
by lucas expedidor // catch me if you can; eden // clementine von radics, from 'courtney love prays to oregon' // sam sax, cruising: a broken tiara // 'ceramic home' by heavensghost; quote from john murillo // 'something's changed' by laiikastears // i don't want to watch the world end with someone else; clinton kane // fortesa latifi, from 'the truth about grief' // audre lorde, the evening news // frank o'hara, biotherm (for bill berkson) // heading home; ruben // 'preface to a dream' by alessandra casini // tokyo; caroline kole // langston hughes, poem // haruki murakami, norwegian wood // julie buntin, marlena // by lute // by aleksandr popov // anyway; noah kahan // christa wolf, cassandra: a novel and four essays
#cp2077#edit:mikhail#edit:vitali#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#happy birthday to my two boys :^) yes they share the same birthday what about it. it's essential to their whole. thing#whatever it is. they're like soulmates but also they are NOT dating. i need you to understand that. because it makes everything funnier#you guys remember when i first introduced them here and people thought they were together. good times honestly#but yeah no vitali is officially dating vincent and mikhail is just their eternal third wheel. their relationship can't be defined#they also reunite of course but i LOVE emphasizing their grief. they didn't know they'd ever see each other again#and they've known each other since around age 12. imagine spending almost every day with someone who CHOSE you#and then suddenly not seeing them or talking to them for YEARS. what do you do with that grief. that pain#sure they've found each other back but what do you do with that. where do you put it. it makes me insane!!!#they both were so lonely in their own way. vitali getting lost in vices and crowds but ending up all by himself at the end of the day#and mikhail drowning himself in studying and pushing himself far over his limits just to distract himself from the hole in his chest#night city in my head is much more massive than what it feels like in game. like yeah it feels big but not. BIG big#and i think mikhail and vitali's story and them losing contact while only a district apart really emphasizes how like#how HUGE this city is not only in terms of actual land it covers but also just. how overwhelming it is. how it can swallow you whole#anyway if you've read all of this hi. wanna make out
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New OCs
(briefly, humans and supernatural beings have to team up for building better relations with each other and all the supernaturals can shapeshift and take on human appearances but also have their 'original form'.)
OK so I was GOING to draw fanart today - I had a fun idea and everything! But health anxiety (and anti-anxiety meds) wore me out so I kinda .... slogged through OCs as a treat to me. I am going to go to the doctor tomorrow so HOPEFULLY it's all okay.
#my characters#also kite is the worst socially and says things he thinks are surely fitting for a human conversation#but ends up insulting grady with 99% of the comments and that makes grady not fond of him#but then grady is like super pleasant to others and doesnt know how to act around kite and flubs a lot too#its a disaster and the twins are like oh no this is painful#mr tengu that was so tacky you cant say that to a human#mr tengu you cant DO that to a human STOP BEING LIKE THIS#while callum is just like wow this is hilarious thanks for bothering my younger brother its adding character to his life#and kite is stressed because thats the least encouraging thing to hear ever thank you v much hes TRYING to adapt#but also kite isnt his real name and he doesnt know squat about humans BUT he knows they have the internet#and so hes like well the problem is i dont want to actually say my name to you all because what if i am Online (TM)#and so he asks for a new name and then is like he should name me - the tiny one who wants to kick my ass should name me#so grady is like ....... nooooo...... dont............ and then suggests kite bc he's done google research#and kite is a type of bird and according to wikipedia has some familiarity to tengu so therefore yeah#and kite is like !!!!!! DOES HE ! KNOW THINGS ! and happily accepts the slightly researched name while the other humans#are like grady stop that is bullying the poor guy leave him alone pick a normal name!#anyway not drawn yet but there is a human guy partner for the twins and he immediately is like perfect#i know which is which lets go out and explore the human world for your research#and they dont understand how he knows them apart so fast and none of the other humans seem to tell em apart#but then none of the humans are shocked at the guy who knows so the girls are like sir howst do you know#and hes just v casual oh right yeah younger identical twin sisters - i have Practice ! and they are endeared to him haha#anyway if you read all those tags ty#and yes in his tengu form he does actually have the long nose please do not be mad#i just dont draw noses normally and im too tired to practice rn so#i only drew the second one today anyway - the first pic was done a couple days ago but i didnt wanna post on main#but then here i am posting on main#im sorry
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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#can I just. scream for a second#so as is news to no one#we need to start over the entire us medical system from scratch#also I would like to be flayed alive and start over from scratch in the skin department as well#anyway for context: I've had some kind of rash/acne/infection/irritation all over my legs for over a year now#have tried various products and changed habits and products to try and get rid of it to no avail#everyone said you should really just go to a dermatologist#(I was not that inclined to do so bc the previous and only time I'd seen a dermatologist it was not a good experience. very condescending#also I don't like making appointments and stuff. girl I don't have time)#but I decided to be an adult and go (my insurance info seemed to imply I could go with zero copay even)#spoilers: that was not the case#anyway so I show up and surprise surprise: it sucked#she was dismissive and condescending imo. was literally like 'well it could be A B or C but I can't tell'#'all of those are basically impossible to get rid of anyway but the things to try are X Y or Z'#I asked to try Z since X and Y are things that I already tried and did nothing (which I had told her!!!)#but she just kept being like 'you just need to stop picking at it. that's the real problem and that's what's exacerbating your scarring'#(wow thanks never thought of that!) (she also insinuated that my scarring was ugly)#girl I'm not 5 years old I understand.#unfortunately for me that is a compulsion so strong it would probably take years of directed therapy to get me to stop doing that#what I'm here to see you about is to figure out what the problem is and how to stop it from happening in the first place#and STOP TRYING TO MAKE IT A COSMETIC ISSUE#it's causing me pain and discomfort that's the main problem! I would like that to stop!! and me not touching it would not solve that proble#also I wanted to ask her about something else but they were too quick about it. felt very Handled if you know what I mean#but anyway#she gave me a prescription for topical antibiotic which was the thing I had not tried#apparently my insurance doesn't cover it and it's also made of gold and plutonium or something#so she gave me a coupon for it#but get this#when I went to pick it up at the pharmacy they didn't take the coupon#the guy said. 'um this only works for the generic brand. and we don't have the generic brand'
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ive never talked about their dynamic but this is one of the many thoughts i have about them
#ive been having power outages all day help me#my stuff#lisa rpg#bo wyatt#lisa garth#lisa the painful#i imagine hes saying do you liiiiike it :) with a deep yet nerdy voice#ok deranged thoughts time#yes i in fact like them becuz theyre both artists#but heres the thing#theyre both STRUGGLING artists who have a very deep bond with their art which reflects who they are as people#they both also suck at it lol#yet they continue cuz their art is their life pretty much#and i like to think that having another artist buddy would feel nice for them#especially in garths case it's like dude lives pretty much under a rock feels ignored by everyone cares too much about others reactions etc#either it becomes some sorta onesided artist rivalry or he becomes obssesed with the fact that there is another guy in the team#who knows what it's like#he would be all like YOU. YOU UNDERSTAND!!! and bo is just like lol#becuz while he struggles too he doesnt make a big deal out of it doesnt care about being underappreciated#like garth who is A BIG ATTENTION SEEKER#so imagining them hanging out and having this weird artist bond is cool to me#id also include jack cuz they all make an artist team but yknow SIGHHHHH#also i have different thoughts on what does art mean for jack since hes younger#these are definitely not all of my thoughts i am insane about artist characters#and yeah it could be said gart in this post is trying to get bo's attention#through a mix of what bo likes and what garth likes and it's a funny and cute thought to me#lisa ramblings#still love this post#lisa artist team#bogarth
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oh nooooo not me forgetting to not go on zelda youtube and being forced to reckon with the sheer magnitude of its fanbase's unchecked racism
#thoughts#zelda fandom critical#gerudos#the wildest thing is#I don't think they realize?????#I don't even think they realize#but WOW does this fandom have a fucking Problem with the gerudos#sometimes I go like#"mmm maybe I'm extrapolating a little surely it's not actually that ba--#*gets hit in the face by a dozen lazer beams*#pain is the best teacher#or something#(reminds me of the discourse surrounding batarians in mass effect)#(but even worse here because I Understand why people might not see what batarians are based on/so hateable I sort of get it)#(but like!! gerudos are meant to be partially sympathetic at least!!! and people are just Saying Shit on both ends of the spectrum)#(aka: uwu babies in need to be subbued for their own good AND they are barbarians that assault hylian men for fun)#(and it's like??? do you guys not hear your dumb selves oh my god)#(anywayyyy it's too early for this)
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I have a confession : this is the first time I'm married with Elliot and I have no clue if he's like this in the vanilla game too or is just the mods I have for him BUT damn he's so romantic and such a drama queen and omg I love him so much 😭✋🏻
If you see him tho??? When he rants to me about his busy day (guys he's been going to Robin to talk about idk what trapdoor behind the house three times by now only to walk all over there it takes 1h let alone the talk with Robin and the return walk back he's so silly and for what I HAVE A PHONE FOR A REASON SIR) or when he starts talking about me like he's reciting poetry and and him talking about his writing career which IS SUCH A MOOD like sir I could not relate to him more and and and him going to fishing so he could make dinner guys he makes us dinner too is some fish dish of course because he caught us a fish to make dinner despite my very full fridge with fish because he's that kind of person guys guys and the tulip THE FREAKING TULIP he'll sometimes give me a tulip and is so nice because I KNOW he buys them from somewhere (there's no tulip missing from my farm) but I don't know from where because I'm the only florist in this goddamn town if you don't include Granny and omg he's such a good husband guys he's so so omg HE'S WORSHIPPING ME WITH HIS WORDS GUYS he's so silly and for what???? FOR WHAT????
Edit : Fuck the person who said in their diary the only nice thing about Elliot is his nice chin YOU'RE WRONG HE'S FREAKING PERFECT AND WE DO NOT DESERVE HIM. our little french codded guy. so silly and for what man for what
#For anyone wondering I have both 'Even more dialogue Elliot' and 'Elliot Marriage Dialogue Rewritten' so this might be why he's so perfect#But damn I did not expect him to be so so#AFSGHDJFNFJDJWJ#I love him so much guys I'm not even joking#Ofc Alex is the love of my life. But Elliot? I understand Elliot in a spiritual way#When I hear him talk more often than not I'm like 'I know man I know I feel your pain do whatever you gotta do my man I support you'#My silly man#Going fishing to make dinner when the fridge is full of fish. I love him so much#sdv elliott#stardew valley elliott#Sdv#Stardew valley
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I keep thinking of how I want to taxonomize Siffrin and Loop bc it feels significant to me that Loop and Siffrin both have inherently diverged from the same Traveler Mold they came from. But because I am like a 7 year old I keep sagely nodding to myself going "ah yes... just like mega mewtwo"
#do u understand me. do u understand my vision#they're both siffrins they are just two pathways of how the same one guy develops through their experiences in timeloops#that are the same in basic structure but different in how they affected them#so like siffrin and loop are distinct people. but they're also just branches of preloops siffrin. much like mega mewtwo x and y are distinc#but they are also mewtwo#<-(said like this is somehow profound and not stupid)#liek do you guys get me... i think loop and siffrin are very much in sync#to the point where as seen in canon it's pretty easy for loop to divine what siffrin's thinking down to the phrasing#it's really striking how much loop talks and siffrin fullass does not reply but loop keeps on rollin just fine#but fundamentally they don't think the exact same way when it comes to bigger things#like how loop never fully accepts the idea of talking to the king as something reasonable to do#or how act 4 siffrin is in their own damn world while loop is left going. Stardust what the hell are you on (morose edition)#i think it's fun to find the gaps between them#i've always thought it would be fun. in a postcanon timeskip scenario#for loop to be. flatly worse at reading siffrin than they expect to be. because siffrin has been healing and trying to get better#while loop has been becoming steadily bitter as they tried and failed to cut the rope on their own attachments as some kind of last measure#of self defense against the pain of paving over their old relationship with the party with a new name new role new personality new stardust#to exist alongsides#likewise i think it's fun if siffrin overextends his new understanding of loop as being another self and the feeling of recognition for loo#is simultaneously comforting and Tremendously grating coming from Fucking Stardust#especially if siffrin just assumes shit wrong cuz for as much as hes the only guy who can relate 2 being trapped in a timeloop for months i#was not exactly the same now was it.#isat spoilers#Sorry this is a lot of thinking outloud on a post where i call loop and siffrin mega mewtwo x and y
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To anyone in the TUC fandom who has looked at AHS and skipped it because they heard the ending is happy...
... and then assumed that it's just a wish fulfillment "ideal reality" kind of outcome of the TUC story that cuts all of the depth, pain, and realism ... Go back and read it right now.
Because that is not what AHS is. Not even close.
AHS is not "my version" of TUC where I just change whatever I dislike without regard for themes or characters in the original. Far from it. One of the main goals I had was actually to give more of the Underland. More characterization (that aligns with canon, although some characters develop in a different direction because of shifts in circumstances), more worldbuilding (that coincides with canon, adding onto it), ... just more, period.
The best way I can describe what it actually is is honestly saying that AHS is to TUC like Marvel's "What if ...?" is to the MCU. It is quite literally a "What if Henry had survived his fall at the end of "Gregor the Overlander"?" And I kid you not, 95% of the changes in the story, compared to TUC, are simply a result of exactly this change.
But the entire plot of the final book is different, right? Well, I didn't say that the consequences of that one change weren't substantial. They are. Without spoiling too much I can only say that Henry happens to be an optimist, and it also happens that an optimist was exactly what the TUC story needed to achieve a happier outcome.
Anyone who has actually read my version of the CoC plot will tell you that it is far from ideal, perfect, or pain-free. A lot more happens in the actual plot, but most of those new events are there to serve the dark, violent nature of war. There's so much talk about loss, and sacrifice, exploration of (also the dark side of) heroism, and whether "for the greater good" is worth it. There's corruption and death, injustice, and grappling with unkind fates and alienation/rejection.
Now, I will admit that I did put less emphasis on the societal pressure aspect of CoC, but mainly because that theme is a huge part of AHS 2 already, and it did not really fit this part of the story anymore. Instead, "Gregor against society" becomes "Questers against society" (quite literally, since they are — small spoiler — banding together to actually overthrow Solovet and bring about change.)
BUT ... if there is corruption, death, and the violence of war, how is it happier then? How can it have a happy ending?
Very simply because it is not only corruption but also redemption. Not only death and suffering but also growth and gain. Not only violence and breaking of relationships but also companionship, hope, and mending of relationships.
... The main change that happens to be so powerful it can give this series a happy ending without disrespecting or abandoning its original gritty violent core is ... a shift in mindset toward the positive. For Gregor, but also for everyone else. One of the main themes I added is the exploration of the double-edged nature of things: Everything has good and bad consequences. What we take away from it is what we choose to focus on.
Now you might see better what I meant by "All this series needed was an optimist" earlier. If there were someone to remind people of the bright side, to remind Gregor that his rager power does not make him evil and that he is never alone or choiceless, to embody this hopeful outlook and bring it out in everything ... I promise to you that this is all it would have taken.
And this is what I'm giving you.
#gregor the overlander#the underland chronicles#suzanne collins#tuc#underland chronicles#a henry story#ahs#ahs is actually so far from happy go lucky or lighthearted#like so incredibly far#it has made so many people cry#hope and optimism do NOT mean lighthearted and fun#yes it gives belonging and family#but at what cost#hope means clinging to hope in your darkest hours#when everything seems lost and everyone is against you#when everything wants you to give up#choosing heroism when you have every right to just become a villain is also a huge thing#what it means to have power over your own fate and make your own choices too#tight knit found family against society#fighting and sacrificing your own happiness and yourself to bring about needed changes#to create a better future#you guys literally do not understand how much#gregor and the code of claw#one of my main gripes with coc is its lack of nuance in how it looks at pain and loss#everything has a price#but everything also has a gain#it just depends on learning to look at it the right way
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I have several ideas for HSR fanart but their detailed and complicated designs are making me postpone them, I have no clue how other artists do it I want to oversimplify them or just straight up change their outfits so it doesn't hurt my brain everytime I pull up the refs
#wawoi talks#honkai star rail#hsr#I AM DIRECTLY LOOKING AT YOU ARGENTI#also jin yuang I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIS OUTFIT????#aughrrboothill my bbygirl I want to draw you as well w the others#my other gripe w thegame is the hair for some characters it'ssuch a pain having to find a way to translate their wack ass layers of hair#to something simple but keeping the same form or whatever other word I was looking for#this is me being a bigbaby bout complicated and overdetailed character designs#hoyoverse fanartists you're the strongest warriors#I admire you guys how tf do u do that????#another gripe I have is that PUT PANTS ON THESE WOMEN I WILLBLOW UP I AMONLYSKING FOR 1 (ONE) WOMAN WITH PANTS OR LONG SKIRT PLEPASEPLEASEP#<- Last tag | this is about most gacha games
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