#Determined Diagnosis

[areyoudoingthis]

I am SO grateful that ed and stede exist as characters exactly as they are. I'm so grateful for these two men who are traumatized and messed up and struggle to even like themselves, who are terrible at communicating, who make enough mistakes between the two of them to fill an entire ocean. I am so grateful to watch them struggle and be seen and be loved and reach out for the things they want and are maybe starting to believe that they deserve. I'm so grateful that the show lets them fall in love and get together exactly as they are, that it doesn't say they need to wait until they've become some unattainably perfect version of themselves before they have permission to have that. i am so grateful for ofmd

[brucewaynehater101]

In the tim hanahaki disease does tim change? If so how much? I feel like a lot of his morality comes from his emotions. Logically, he could see the reason in killing and see the benefits and cons and how some pros outweight the cons. Does blackmail and manipulation still work? Is he different? How so? Does yg still love him and does he love them back?

Hello ~ I've answered it a wee bit in this post, but let's go more in-depth!

When Tim loses his ability to feel, I initially characterized this as Tim's particular "Pit Madness" being a direct result of Ra's reviving a dead Tim. Important notes with this:

Pit Madness can decrease/dissolve/disappear

Tim could recover emotionally

Tim's hanahaki disease is being tempered by his Pit Madness

Basically, Tim is fighting poison with poison. If he allows the Pit Madness to consume him, he is incapable of feeling love or care for his loved ones. If he completely fights back the Pit Madness (which is exhausting), the hanahaki returns. It's a cruel battle, and the cure to his hanahaki would be feeling loved by his loved ones... Which leaves him vulnerable for either the P.M. or the flowers to act up. It's a vicious cycle.

At the start, Tim doesn't recognize that the Pit Madness is affecting him. He's not flying into fits of rage, he's not irrational, and he's not overtly violent. His ability to compartmentalize seems to have increased (which is wrong), but that's a good thing. He's not allowing his emotions to distract him or get in his way.

Yet, he's also struggling to laugh or bask in his loved ones' attention. He's just numb, and he's not even worried about how empty he feels.

He becomes similar to a machine only focused on its goal. He eats, sleeps, and continues to do vigilante work because he's supposed to. He knows he has to save people, but his perception of how starts to shift. He doesn't quite understand why killing the Joker, Scarecrow, Professor Pyg, etc. is considered a bad thing. From a purely logical standpoint, Arkham does not contain them. They escape and endanger people, which is counter to his goal of protecting them. He's has many many debates about murder while in P.M. state.

Emotional arguments do not work on him while he's P.M. It makes communicating with him infuriating because he seems to not care about other people. The other person would also have to be completely calm during the discussion (which is a shitty standard when discussing highly emotional subjects).

As far as YJ loving Tim, yes. It's hard at the beginning when they don't understand why Tim is acting the way that he is. When they figure it out, they are able to safely lower Tim's P.M. to a more manageable state. It took a ton of trial and error, but Tim will usually call them if he notices he's slipped into it again.

He for sure loves his loved ones when he's not in P.M. While he's in its thralls, however, he doesn't feel love for them. He still looks out and cares for them even if he isn't emotionally feeling it (you could add in a slightly possessive "they are mine" P.M. stuff for qpr if you'd like to bolster why Tim cares about them regardless).

[puppyeared]

who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it

[madefate]

finishing up some grading for the week, so please send things (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ i'm continuing to fight against Life™ but i wanna be heeere

[lokh]

bro why being trans make the idea of moving overseas 100 times more difficult. and if ur nonbinary and on hrt??? Forget About It!!!

[alienaiver]

IM SO ANXIOUS ABOUT TOMORROW IM LOCKED IN PARALYSIS GOING INSANE

[genderfluid-druid]

talked to my therapist about my focus issues at work, and she was shocked to learn that i didn't already have an ADHD diagnosis. I guess it's time for a second evaluation and let's hope this one goes better.

[chaos-in-one]

Slightly related

Fucking hate that whenever I make a lighthearded/nonserious post about being a system I feel the need to add something (usually in the tags) making a disclaimer that I have worse things going on because of the disorder and I'm don't think and am not trying to make it look like I'm just having a fun time with it and am not struggling at all because of this disorder

Just as an attempt to try to dodge at least a little of the accusations of faking and making my own disorder look like a joke. Just so maybe, just MAYBE, I'll get a little less shit for openly existing with this disorder

[agnesandhilda]

so, like, I'm not saying I have [syndromes disorder], but the treatments that were created for [syndromes disorder] are extremely effective on me

[tevintersnakes]

a quick comparison of a comparison I'd done last month (19-Apr-24) while getting back into the knack of drawing my guy

[regalvoid]

Cant wait to see a headache specialist in a couple weeks that Ive been waiting to see since October just for him to go "yeah that aint a headache, you were close the first time, its a sinus issue" and I have to wait another 3 months to see an ENT

Alternatively, I see this guy and get an MRI or w/e. They discover I got a good ol brain tumor which eventually gets removed and fixes a bunch of my issues and I become a Normal Human Person

[shatterthefragments]

Fuck. The biggest highs always have the hardest comedowns. This isn’t fucking worth it. Except it is. It has to be.

[h0neyfreak]

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[nielution]

Thinking about the way that “determination”, “willpower”, “grit”, “stubbornness” and “obstinacy” are differentially applied to people

[raeofgayshine]

Today was a supremely crappy day, so I ordered myself an early birthday present (by like two weeks but still) and it should come right around my actual birthday, and I was going to do it anyways after I got birthday money but you know

Kind of just been a crappy little while, I’ve been working on my gender playlist to help and since I have a feeling I’ll be under my weighted blanket most of tomorrow maybe I’ll post the current version of it. Might even explain some of the songs if I feel up to it.

Anyways doctors fucking suck and I already knew this but being told over and over there’s nothing actually wrong really fucking wears on me. Maybe if we just stopped trying to diagnose me for something I don’t fit and look at the whole picture… but that would make sense wouldn’t it?

[your-reluctant-optimist]

One of my old lecturers said this a lot: patient before diagnosis.

Yeah, she mostly meant not killing a cat with heart failure by sedating it and laying it on its side for an X-ray when you can (and, indeed, really should) just drain the pulmonary oedema instead.

But it applies here too. You can't get a diagnosis for money/family/discrimination reasons? Don't let anyone shame you into believing you're not valid as fuck.

Don't let yourself suffocate on the X-ray table just because. Stick a needle in that fluid. Drain it. Treat your symptoms. Get the intervention you need. Then worry about the bit of paper with the validating words on it later. 'Kay?

Everyone say it with me, the disability comes before the diagnosis ever can/does. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.