#Despite them being a hate group
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I’m watching the good doctor and I’m like “hell yeah Bates Motel man, bad that he’s not autistic but good acting and stupid weird doctor show shit,” and then they’ll say something about autism and I’m like “oh no you talked to the wrongggg people.”
#There’s multiple instances of “you can’t control yourself because of your autism” but also “you should be able to control yourself!!”#Like there was an autistic guy who was very high needs and he has light sensitivity#He was inspired by the good doctor™️ and after his surgery his dad was like “let me get the lights”#But then hesitated and asked first and the son was like “it’s okay”#Like idk if you know this but overstimulation from light and sound and other stimulus is suh-uper not a choice#Or something you just character arc out of.#They have the doctor in the middle of a shooting and he melts down and doesn’t cooperate because he’s overwhelmed#And the guy shoots one of the patrons and Shaun gets blamed and the father figure in his life#Is just trying to get him to open up about the trauma but he also says he thinks he should have been able to get control of himself#And I wanted to scream#I’m hoping there’s a change but I gotta look into the behind the scenes#Because i bet my left butt cheek autism speaks probably pops up because Hollywood loves to use them without any background checking#Despite them being a hate group
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negative attention vs positive attention feels the same to looey, but not to shrimpo
#i was talking to my best friend about looey & shrimpo and i was pondering why shrimpo genuinely hates looey out of every other toon#and i came to a realization#Looey despite not really enjoying being a clown does get positive attention the only time other goons are a little negative towards him#is when hes asking them to join the circus troupe#i think looey feels like a freak for being a clown and wants others in there group so he feels more normal about it#i think that he doesn't like the spotlight and seemingly the isolation that he and his circus troupe friends have from the others he just#wants to be like any other toon but hes not thats not apart of who he is#shrimpo hates looey bc of this stage fright and anxiety#he cant see why looey runs from a laughing audience why he dislikes beings a clown#meanwhile shrimpo is the bully and he cant control his anger because he was designed that way#he cant make nice with others even if he WANTED to#sorry for the rant just oahhh these are my favorite guys#beebberb-v2#my art#fanart#dw#dandys world fanart#dandy's world#dw looey#looey the balloon#shrimpo the shrimp#dw shrimpo#shrimpo dandys world#looey dandys world#dw fanart#i also think the dialogue is a little out of character but fuck it we ball
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I fucking hate being traumatized because why am I bawling the hardest I've bawled in god-knows-how-long because someone I didn't even like that much berated Me. gasping wailing trembling and snotting over this for several minutes.
#personal#sanism#abuse mention#child abuse mention#I'm still not entirely done crying really. I'm just trying to stop and calm Myself. not doing well at the moment#because someone on the discord server mentioned trump's inauguration and I basically said 'I don't like trump either#but it's still important to keep pushing for change. who's in office doesn't change that' and he just. immediately escalated the situation#accused Me of not caring about oppression. I explained Myself further but he told Me to go fuck Myself and capped it off with#'you already admitted to being a fucking narcissist so why would i want to be around you' (exact quote BTW)#and I just can't stop sobbing. I don't know if I've cried this much since I was 13. I keep having to pause My typing because I start crying#I didn't hate him but I wasn't attached to him either. it's just that I have so much fucking trauma along these lines#so many instances of My mom putting words in My mouth. getting short-tempered with Me over benign remarks that I didn't understand#because I'm autistic. dismissing My opinions. making Me hide My feelings and issues from her#because she's made it clear that she doesn't trust people like Me#it's made Me have so much trouble handling even friendly social interaction. I've only just learned how to do that#I just can't handle having that same mistreatment forced onto Me by anyone else. especially with so little warning or build-up#and what makes Me break down even worse is the fact that I know I'll have to deal with him again#he wasn't even punished while this was happening. despite the server owner and other mod being online. the owner just said 'stressful day'#and the other mod started talking with a regular user about how it was uncalled for once he had already left the conversation#nobody even checked in on Me. even though I stayed online for a good half-an-hour afterwards. I only just logged off a few minutes ago#because the notifications from unrelated conversations started overstimulating Me#regardless. I don't even want to see him again. I don't want to be in the same server as him I don't want to talk to him I don't want to#but it's not a real formal server. it's a 'friend group.' and they've shown before that they prioritize keeping the peace#over actually punishing hostility. just a week or so ago I told them I wasn't comfortable with them using the R-slur#and someone freaked out over My complaint being 'politically correct' and left. he was brought back just a few days later. and before that#he had already derailed a previous discussion I tried to have about the word by sending gifs featuring it and redirecting the conversation#that sucked but at least it wasn't outright triggering. but I just can't stand the thought of having to be around someone#who treated Me so much like how My abuser has. that's the most I've ever had to relive My trauma because of someone else#that's the most anyone has ever mirrored it to Me. I just can't stand it but I know I'll have to be around him#I don't even know if he's gonna apologize. he's made it clear how little he thinks of Me as a human being. PLUS
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I appreciate your tags on my Hirano headcanons post! I definitely wrote it from a place of heavy projection onto Hirano because I also operated in high school in a very similar way and just generally had Rules for getting through life (still do tbh). Hirano reminds me so much of myself and I'm really glad he has Kagiura (and Sasaki, Miyano, Hanzawa, Ichinose, etc.) to help him grow as a person!
I totally get the self imposed mind rules In fact one of my rules is that I cannot project or come up with headcanons unless I have justifications or they really make sense in the context And I think all you said in the post makes lots of sense within context. In fact it reminds me a bit of my own hcs for Hirano growing up.
My vision is that he probably was a lonely kid with solo hobbies. Such as reading. I hc that there's where his weird conception of responsibilities come from. (I'm guessing that when you're a sibling you might get children books about dealing with that but in my memories I got only got exposed to stories about almost perfect siblings)
In my experience as an only child, As a kid I went from wanting an older sibling that could help me out to wishing for a younger sibling whom I could help out. Then I grew up and everyone told me that having siblings wasnt a great of an experience as I thought lol
Anyway, I think that sometimes the people that can expand on a characters' mindset the most are those that've been in their same situations so when it comes to being an only child, having a weird sense of responsability and taking care of people both your age and younger, I like to believe I get Hirano.
#my other credentials are the fact that despite being an only child I was raised along side some younger sibling#And for some reason 7 y/o me felt an agonizingly dooming sense of responsibility towards being the perfect example for them#In order to not skew their lives#Spoiler: I totally failed#(I'm my attempt to be the perfect example I raised my family's expectations about how a little child behaves a tad bit too much)#Anyway#It's my boy#and all the other weird only siblings that somehow also are the friends group's mother#against the world#I actually have a fic on my views about his childhood and upbringing but I hate my ao3 profile so I'm not actually gonna share it lol#it exist tho and I would bet its easy to find#Aster answers 💫
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When other Sims esc life simulators come out and the Sims franchise dies and the community fades onto obscurity
The only thing I'm gonna miss is pasnerv..
#sims 2#sims franchise#the sims#the sims 2 nervous subject#the sims 2 pascal curious#sims pascal curious#nervous Subject#sims nervous subject#sims 2 pascal curious#pascal curious x nervous subject#pascal curious#pasnerv#nervscal#sims 4 nervous subject#nervous subject sims#nervous subject#the only thing im gonna miss is you two baby..#i hope it's a while because my heart still clings to this franchise#and despite constantly being told the sims is a cashgrab now#i still give the sims team the benefit of the doubt#because deep inside of me i feel that at least a group of them care#somebody there cares... somebody has to care#but maybe im naive for giving them the benefit of the doubt#im not dickriding EA#i say ea doesn't give them enough time or money or resources because i know ea is evil but i don't hate the people working for them#but maybe im just being too hopeful since lovestruck life and death was a really good expansion pack to me#but if it ends all i will miss is pasnerv#because i love my old man yaoi
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Just saw a “trans butch dyke, dominant/top”
Okay so a gender conforming straight man who wants to be dominant when having sex. Shocking.
#hate is a strong word but I do actually hate these men#I hate all heterosexual males who call themselves lesbians#but the ones who try to take it a step further and claim that their gender conformity is ‘butch’ are worse#because the fucking audacity to look at a word that holds so much history for lesbians#a group of lesbians that have faced so much hatred#and claim to be part of them despite being part of the group that has always harassed them#fuck off#my ramblings
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ive actually put myself in so many situations and seem to come out doing socially well, youd think at some point i could get it in my head im not irredeemably bad
#that post about dysphoria like ‘u feel like ur covered in slime and people will eventually see the rot’ rly truly hits it#idek if its dysphoria or autism or what at this point#maybe its everything#but shit#ive stayed at hostels and hung out with and chatted w complete strangers#i went back to my hs reunion this week and actually hung out w people i thought didnt fw me anymore#my coworkers generally seem to like me- its felt rare when one didnt which is a shocking percentage#ive maintained friendships with my core group of friends despite living w them for over a year (u know how that can go) and not#being able to participate in like half the activities they do (sex parties i dont wanna attend or im busy at work)#made internet friends. believe it or not there was a time as a teen i thought id never be able to do that!#shit bitch even the guy i like who i constantly worry secretly hates me#and i constantly worry only puts up with me etc#yeah he doesnt always seem to let me in much but he barely lets anyone in?#comparatively he does seem to let me in a lot#i really have to remember to put things in perspective sometimes#just bc im not in my holmes/watson era or facetiming someone all day doesnt mean im a lonely loser……. smh#there was once a time i had no irl friends. I CHANGED THAT. I DID THAT. i can do anything
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when you say you’re happy being by yourself


but maybe that’s just what you’re trying to convince yourself of…?
#more incoherence coming up bc i still!!!! jk trio!!!!!!!!!!!#from what i can see… chizuchan’s really… something#she seems to really really *really* crave love. but hardly anyone gives her the time of day when she’s chizuru and not chuutan#it’s no wonder that she accepted the shady modelling deal so quickly the moment she received her parents’ support tbh…#like. someone *finally* acknowledged her for herself. even her classmates dgaf about her#with that kinda situation i think it’s really no surprise that she would latch on to the attention she was given from someone else…#it’s also no wonder that she clings so hard to aizo and lxl tbh. she got suckered in by their pretty smiles and fanservice#the ‘you’re my only one my julieta~~~~’ thing they have going on must bring a sense of joy to lonely girls who want to be loved…#she’s clearly *not* ok being alone (despite what she claims while dolled up in her chuutan ‘fit)#i think she’s only able to tell herself that she’s fine by herself when she’s fully locked in as chuutan#bc she genuinely loves herself when she’s dolled up all cute like that; hiding her true self under layers of makeup and whatnot#(see: the way she lights up when she puts on her makeup vs how she sees her plain self in the mirror)#(and also bc she has many people who love her as chuutan. her tt fans. her maid cafe regulars.)#(and i assume she gets at least some positive engagement on her stan twt account. we prolly only see the negative ones bc it’s chizu pov…)#(…and she kinda hates herself and such… but she’s able to put on a brave face bc she’s *the* perfect chuutan and nothing can phase her)#(so. like. she prolly only registers the negative comments bc *that*’s what she’s agreeing with deep down…)#(…even though she acts unbothered bc she’s *the* chuutan: aizo stan extraordinaire)#also. like. look at how many solo songs she has. she sang all of them as chuutan. the only songs she’s singing as herself are group songs#i hope she’ll able to have a song as *herself* one day..#i’m waiting for the day when she finally feels comfortable enough as herself by herself (and not just with her besties)#…idk where im going with any of this tbh. um!!!!! i think renren would like her for who she really is?????#maybe the acceptance from someone else would be the final push for her to love herself?? idk???#anyway gws chizuchan~~~~ aizo’s not good enough for you~~~ raise your standards queen. renren’s right there—
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Quick concept doodle for my worstie To the horizon
#keese draws#rain world#rain world oc#rain world iterator#iterator oc#rw iterator#she’s one of the two rich guy commissioned iterator ocs I have and she’s also the younger of the two#he’s also the one that’s built in the middle of the giant lake that most of his local group is based around#he was commissioned to basically be a glorified vacation center for a bunch of rich ppl and she’s Very aware of that#she’s extremely self conscious abt the entire basis to her existence and is very much a try hard because of that#he’s also very bossy and snappy with his local group as he worries that he’ll be blamed for any incompetence on their part#In general she just cares a Lot abt justifying her existence beyond just being another trophy for some guy#she has a strained relationship to her sibling iterator golden boon as well despite them facing some similar struggles#golden boon was also made for a different purpose than primarily solving the great problem as they are basically a massive productivity#tool built to maximize the work of their inhabitants and they basically hosted a company town#now golden boon absolutely Hated this for a variety of reasons but they had a more defeatist attitude abt the whole thing#leading to a lot of conflict over their lives as horizon saw boon as lazy and whiny and boon saw horizon as an asshole and also as whiny#and they both even more so hated their older two neighbors as they found prosperity to be annoying and stars to be a spoiled brat#they were also not very kind to sliver but they had less active resentment towards her than with everyone else in their local group
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YELLING AT YOU OH SO AFFECTIONATELY i need to scream but I will spare you from the all caps
your fic!!!!! is!!!! beautiful!!!! it reminds me of EVRYRHING GOOD and it reminds me of such happy times in my past and it smells like this bakery but then again to me everything good smells like baked goods but YOUR FIC!!! CRADLES IT. it has become my comfort fic and gaHHkfhsjak. I’m sl normal about it I need to chew your writing. chews it. I’m chewing it.
I KEEP. LIKE. quoting it too!!! like a lot!!! its just too good and is the first fic in a while that has made me smile so many times and audibly giggle. the jokes are very very funny and you capture the turts so wonderfully and I am Going To Go Insane about how you write ninpo.
sorry for yelling jn your ask box I just finished ch30 and I saw the tumblr link and im like Aight. ANYWAY THANK YOU for this fic I am cradling you /pos /pos /pos eueueue
AAAA TY!!
i did my best to make the fic as funny and in character as possible! in make, the only reason i made it aside from wanitng that good ole crossover "hey wtf" was that the rise characters were always boiled down to things that they werent (and i could go onto a whole rant about how fandom characterization is so far removed from their actual characters that it is the sole reason i dont really interact much with the fandom and make my own content but thats not what this is about) so i am VERY glad that you enjoy how i write them!! i really wanted a chatfic that was in character as well as funny and im so glad i pulled it off!
and YES the ninpommmmm i could go Onnn but i already made a post about it so i shall refrain lmfaoo
dont be sorry about yelling in my ask box i loved to see it! thank YOU for sending it! cradles you back
#ask#tired-lamb#ok wait maybe i lied and have more to say about fandom characization#bc fandom twins are my Enemy#and like if i speak i am in trouble but i DO belive that its bc of how popular the hc of leo being gay is and the projection of fans#that his character has in some aspects gotten twisted (this goes also for non aroace ppl hcing donnie as aroace to a certain extent)#which is NOT to say that its a wrong or bad hc at all and i myself am queer and hc all the turtles as queer#but i do think that there are a lot of steryotypes in leo (and donnies) fandom portrayals#and this shows up pretty heavily in chatfics (which is to say almost entirely in them + certain fandom jokes)#wherein they make leo Very fashionista slay queen beyonce#which rise leo is - despite being fairly flamboyant and confident - just Not like At All#and futhermore donnie has MULTIPLE instances of showing care and affecion#and he is SO hyperexpressvie with his facial features#his tone just isnt Always The Best#and when hes concerned you KNOW hes concerned bc his brows scrunch up and his eyes get wide and his voice gets all soft#and he doesnt HATE physicall affectiom#and in fact in one ep he INITIATES a group hug#but he prefers it on his own terms#and its not RARE for him to say i love you or give affection in different ways#and to a lesser extent i see this also with raph and mikey#very heavily with mikey always havign a perfect handle on his emotions#and being this sweet innocent uwu bean#im really just not the biggest fan of how some ppl took the dr feelings bit and RAN with it ykno??#and in gen raph is actually the most on point but there are still instances where some things are meh#and sometimes i fall victim to that too and OOCness isnt a death sentence ofc but it rubs me The Wrong Fucking Way with leo and donnie#they arent snarky sarcastic cool guys theyre Losers. leo is quippy and donnie is a doofus and no one gets them right
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I'm feeling absolutely insane abt the staliens again. There's smth so deeply wrong with all of them <3
#rat rambles#oc posting#eternal gales#I am going to lose my mind I need to get these images out of my head but its 3 am#but like goddddd. theyre all so messy and miserable and their relationships are kept together by ducktape and I adore them all#Ive been mostly trying to rotate butter in my head lately since theyre the most underdeveloped currently#not that they dont have anything they do have stuff Im just fishing for that click that makes me Get them y'know?#Im getting closer but Im not quite there yet#the big thing abt them is that they're the only one who wasnt organically brought into the group like the rest of the staliens#so butter has always had a very. distant and awkward relationship with most of the others.#this is made worse by butter feeling obligated to play therapist friend even though they HATE doing it#this mixed with their anger issues leads to them building a routine out of brief check ins and nothing more#which leaves them incredibly lonely since these guys are the only people they even can talk to#they want to form real connections but they feel like they arent allowed to or would be failing in some way by doing so#they also just generally dont like most of the others much#they can get along with them sometimes but its. hard for them to keep those moments up.#and once they meet in person butter struggles Hard to adapt since they really heavily relied on web communication to filter out most of#their mood swings and such since they got pretty good at just dropping whatever they were typing on and walking away until to scream#but they couldnt rly do that with verbal conversations without saying theyre doing that which is a layer of vulnerability that makes them#wildly uncomfortable and as such they tended to hole themself up at home the best they could#again despite them being desperately lonely and desperate to be seen as they are and not as they present themself#they just happen to be even more desperately clinging onto their script for how they handle social interaction
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LOUD AND CLEAR | LN4



pairing: lando norris x fem!deaf reader
summary: the 4 times that fans noticed the way lando was with you and the 1 time they finally realized why.
warnings: none i don't think
1.the garage whispers
fans noticed things, they always did, but sometimes their reasons were a little bit off, like with lando and his girlfriend.
you had been in the mclaren garage one day. while lando's world was loud, yours was quiet. you were completely deaf, you had cochlear implants but sometimes during race weekends they would get overwhelmed with the loud noise making it harder to process what was happening.
one thing that lando never failed to do though was lean closer for you to hear him. his head falling down so his lips were by your ear, making sure your implants could pick up what he was saying.
"you okay?" he asked you, his voice soft and gentle but still loud enough for your implants to pick up easily, his hand gently resting at the small of your back.
you nodded your head with a smile, "just loud" you say softly.
he nodded his head knowing you hated when he fussed over you and that if you got overwhelmed you'd either tell him or you would leave so he knew you were okay.
his hand came up to tap his heart 3 times, not exactly sign language but a sign that you both had started doing, the simple act saying "i love you."
you smiled and tapped your heart back before saying a small goodbye to him as he left to go get ready for qualifying.
the small whispers and acts didn't go unnoticed by fans though, their theories being far from the truth though.
user1: the way lando's so in love with her user2: watching them whisper to each other feels so intimate user3: WHAT DID HE SAY TO HER?
2.his little taps
lando didn't ever call for you, even when you could hear him. every time he wanted your attention he would simply tap you, a small shoulder tap, the squeeze of an arm, tap on the wrist, just something small.
one time that it was noticed by fans was when you were walking into the paddock together. lando had gotten stopped by some fans and as if on instinct his hand had come to tap your shoulder to get your attention
you turned to him with a small smile, watching as he didn't say anything simply gesturing to the group of fans letting you know he had stopped to sign some stuff, standing and waiting for him to finish with the fans before you guys continued. nothing had been said between the two of you, just silent communication which definitely caused an uproar between fans.
user1: why did bro tap her instead of calling for her user2: he's so in love he needs her to feel him before he speaks user3: they're actually so cute, the way he didn't have to say anything and she knew.
3.face offs
even when you were wearing your cochlears sometimes it was hard to hear so lando would always face you when he spoke so you could read his lips easier.
dinner? he was sat in front of you. talking with fans? he made sure you were stood in front of who was talking to you if you were with him. interviews? if you were watching he was always facing you in some way so you could see his lips.
fans picked up on the pattern easily. the way he always stood in front of you before he started speaking, or the way he'd turn your head, it confused them for sure not knowing the reasoning but they still speculated.
user1: lando being a soft boyfriend for the 200th time. user2: the way he always makes sure she can see him, i love them your honor :( user3: they're so in love it's sickening
4. the signs
it was a no brainer that lando would learn sign language when you guys started to date, despite being able to hear him with your implants he still wanted to learn so if you weren't wearing them he could communicate.
the moment the fans started noticing was during a podium. lando had just finished in P2 and while he was up there he had signed "i love you" to you. from there the fans had started noticing the smaller moments.
the small signs in the garage when he was talking to you, the random signs in interviews as if someone was watching that he wanted them to see.
a favorite clip would be during one of lando's twitch streams though. he was playing a game but suddenly had paused it turning to look in the doorway. you were off camera so they couldn't see you as you stood trying to get lando's attention without disturbing him.
what they did see though was the way lando turned to you and instead of saying anything he had signed with his hands, a silent conversation just for the two of you.
"sorry guys, just checking something," lando had said after turning back to the stream when you had left, leaving the fans confused.
user1: WAS HE SIGNING? user2: since when did lando know sign language? user3: was he signing to Y/N?
+1 the time where everything clicked.
you had been with lando in the paddock one day during a race weekend. at this point you were deaf to the world because the batteries for your implants had died. you were stood scourging for your spares in lando's bag when fans came up, getting lando's attention and trying to get yours.
they were confused when they called your name and you didn't answer until lando tapped you making your head look up from where it was buried searching in the bag on his back, a huge smile coming to your face when you notice the fans.
"hi!" you say as you come to stand at lando's side.
"she's deaf, she can read lips though so just make sure you're facing her when you speak," lando explained, signing with his hands.
the fans' mouths dropped, everything making so much more sense to them, the whispers, the small taps, the way he was always faced to you, the way he knew sign language.
while you talked with fans, taking a couple times to ask for repeats, lando was searching in his bag for your batteries, changing them out for you before a gentle hand came to your shoulder to not startle you as he put them on for you, the noise of the paddock filling your ears as they connected.
the both of you finished talking with the fans, taking a couple pictures with them before saying goodbye, knowing the announcement was about to break the internet.
user1: omg she's deaf it all makes so much more sense now. user2: STOP HE LEARNED SIGN LANGUAGE FOR HER user3: lando "i'd learn another language for her" norris user4: they are actually so cute
everything clicked for the fans after that day, and suddenly lando's love for you was so much bigger, because he didn't just love you, he understood you, and did everything he could do so you could understand him.
#f1 imagine#lando norris#lando norris fanfic#lando norris fluff#lando norris imagine#lando norris x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 x reader#formula 1#formula one#mclaren f1#ln4#mclaren#lando norris x you#f1 fanifc#f1 x you#ln4 imagine#ln4 x reader#ln4 fic#ln4 mcl#lando norris fic
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Did anyone else feel like Jax was trying to reach out more to the others in this episode?
Before Gangle freaks him out a little with the threat of a punishment he is his usual jerk self
Then he tries to have a very casual and relaxed conversation with Zooble about the situation. No sarcasm and no mean comments.
He tries to downplay the earlier threat, and seems to want them to agree with him that Caine wouldn't actually do anything that bad
Of course Zooble out of everyone in the group has the least patience for Jax so he doesn't get any reassurance from them
Then just before Gangle send him off for his employee training/Clockwork orange torture session, he responds to Gangle's manic behaviour with the comment "I like you better when your sad"
That could just be him being mean and saying that he likes it better when she's like that because its easier to pick on her and stops her standing up to him
But considering he always goes out of his way to break the Comedy Mask at every opportunity, it could be that he simply prefers when she is her authentic self, and not putting on some fake act (a lesson gangle herself seems to learn at the end when she rips off the new mask and smiles despite wearing the Tragedy mask)
Plus look at his face when he's saying it. He isn't grinning or making any other mocking expression, he just looks tired
Then when has encounters drunk Ragatha he asks her if she can move, despite the fact that he could easily walk over her with those long legs, and he does exactly that a moment later. Was he being polite? Or was he asking her literally if she could still move her body in the state she was in?
Either way he get another little blow when the nicest person in the group says outright she hates him
Then he tries to do with Pomni what he attempted with Zooble earlier, have a relaxed casual conversation about things without any signs of sarcasm of mean teasing.
Pomni herself is even taken aback and doesn't know what to make of it, suspecting probably that he is trying to trick her in some way. Again Jax's previous mean behaviour is now a barrier stopping him from connecting with the others even when he actually wants to
He makes one last effort to pretend everything is normal and get back to his usual persona, but the second he is out the door and out of sight of everyone, the frustration and despair are clear
When Gooseworx said that people who want to see Jax "get worse" will "enjoy what they have planned", maybe they didn't mean he would get more evil, maybe they meant his mental health would start sinking as the bully/prankster persona he hides behind starts to break down
Maybe he is starting to realize how isolated he is making himself
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What do you mean by "in-group signalling" in that post?
I'm referring to the way a lot of people seem to treat "unconditional hatred for Generative AI" as a signifier by which someone reaffirms their belonging or allegiance to the category of Artist (imagined as a special category of people wholly separate from the category of Non-Artist) based on the conception that the only reason why someone might not hate GenAI (or might hate it but think some criticisms of it are unprincipled) is because they 1) aren't an Artist themselves, and thus 2) they either don't understand what being an Artist is like or they categorically hate and oppose Artists.
To name a concrete example:
Just a couple weeks ago I got an anon message pretty much along the lines of "I get it, you don't have a creative bone in your body and have to pretend that art theft is fine because you're incapable of creating art yourself" (despite pretty clear evidence of me being an Artist™, such as the fact that at the moment that anon was sent to me, you could scroll down like two posts on my blog and find me showing off how some of my music was featured in a doom metal compilation album).
This anon was sent in response to me saying that, while I have problems with the GenAI industry, I think "it's art theft" is not one of them because (by virtue of being a copyright abolitionist) I think describing any situation where a copy of something is made without affecting the original as "theft" is patently ridiculous. Like, that's a pretty clear example of how performing enough unconditional hatred of AI art is treated as a signifier of belonging to the Artist™ in-group, and failure to perform it is treated as a sign that you can only possibly be a ignorant and/or malicious Non-Artist.
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Hi, I'm genuinely looking for an explanation here and not looking for an argument /srs
Can you explain how calling a transfem a TERF for spreading ideology that I genuinely assumed was included in the definition of TERFism is othering ? Not to be that guy, but I'm autistic and I'm having a very hard time connecting the points you're making, and I genuinely want to learn and understand what you're saying /gen
Again, I do hope this doesn't come off as hostile, I am genuinely trying to learn and understand better, and I want to be able to fix misconceptions about what a TERF is in my own mind, and I haven't seen anyone bring this point up before /gen
You absolutely do not have to answer this, but I hope you have a fabulous rest of your day, and I do apologize for what I said, as it wasn't necessary for me to comment on the situation.
Yeah totally! Okay, I got a lot of this from Ibram X. Kendi's "How to be Antiracist"* where he talks about describing "racist" as an identity means that hardly anyone is going to ever "identify" with it, even if they are a racist. It's much more helpful to talk about actions being racist or anti-racist. Someone committing racist acts speaks far more to the vulnerability of anyone to cause harm, rather than it being something ONLY reserved for someone with the identity of "racist". For example, Clarence Thomas, a black man, has done untold amounts of harm to the black population in the US. If we subscribe to the "oh, (X) can't be racist, they are (a minority)" train of thought, it means people are less likely to understand that Clarence Thomas commits racist acts. In the same way, describing yourself as an anti-racist is not enough, as it can let people be comfortable with racist actions because they think "oh, I'm an anti-racist, I can't commit acts of racial harm." That's why it's more helpful to describe acts as racist and anti-racist rather than framing them as identities.
In a similar way, describing someone as the label of "TERF" can have a similar effect. Because it's specifically a label centered around being anti-trans, transgender people of all kinds will easily assume they cannot be transphobic, because the label of TERF is ideologically opposed to their existence. It invites ridicule rather than introspection. By saying actions can be transphobic, I think it helps a lot more because it's easier to understand that trans people can be transphobic. For example, Blaire White is right there. Despite being a trans woman, she is actively doing transphobic acts. By calling out an action as transphobic rather than describing someone as a "TERF", it helps fight back against the idea that being trans means you cannot be transphobic. For a super duper simple example, I can step on my dogs tail, but it doesn't mean I hate dogs, it means I committed an act of harm against my dog. Describing me as a dog-hater when I LOVE dogs would invite ridicule more than it would a tendency to watch my step when my dog is in the house. I hope this makes sense!
*I'm not trying to say the Black and Trans experience is exactly the same, just that like any oppressed group, there is a lot of overlap in tactics and thinking, especially for people who are Black and Trans. Reading about other groups can really give you a ton of helpful insight on how to work within your own identity!
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so, nerdy loser college boy choso *sighs* *opens legs*
a/n: just so you know, this man is gonna make you do all the hard work for a piece of that loser boy dick 😮💨 so... um so at some point around 2000 words in i realised this is way more than a hc post :3 eat it up if you will!
nerdy!choso who borderline has no friends except his gaming buddies who doesnt meet irl like ever. he doesnt like going to classes, especially this one. he doesnt need it but it's a requirement for all first years. and boy is glad it is when he sees you come in.
nerdy!choso who only listens to discussions when you're talking. suddenly he needs to put down his headphones and nod at every word you're saying. his eyes follow every gesture of your hand, every sway of your ass, every single time you fix your hair.
nerdy!choso who is starting to get a bit enamored with you, your style, your way of speaking. he loses track of time gawking at you in class from the last benches as you prettily do all the work in the class. he hates how beautifully your hair falls on your face, how nicely your clothes fit you despite being pretty modest for college. he hates how he can see the silhouette of your tits when you turn to the side. but he's too much of a gentleman to keep looking.
nerdy!choso who ends a game early when he remembers you, lying and saying that he had promised someone to meet them somewhere. the place is his bathroom and the person was you. god, you really shouldn't wear those tight jeans to class y'know? how will he continue to be a gentleman if you do?
nerdy!choso who despises groupwork but prays to dear god this class has some reason to pair you two together. he's getting so desperate to talk to you knowing damn well he too pussy to do it on his own. and the lord answers his prayers, the teacher assigns groups of three for a presentation. it's you, him and some slacking trust fund baby.
nerdy!choso who is about to combust and have a full blown panic attack when he sees you approach him after class with that smile on your face that would make the angels swoon. you're going on about distributing the work equally and what not while he is trying his fucking hardest to not accidently make eye contact with you and piss his pants : (
nerdy!choso who now has your name, your number and your email and he feels like the happiest man on earth. his hands are literally shaking as he responds to your request to call. he's overthinking every word he types.
choso: yeah i can do wednesday. choso: i'll be okay with whatever day you want.
nerdy!choso who hops on video call and short circuits with a view of you in an oversized band tee and a brief view of your room. why did you have to be this pretty? why did you have to video call him when you couldve done the work on text? why did you have to put your hair up like that? why oh why did you have you say "choso? hey, you there?" so seductively to bring him back to the present?
nerdy!choso who gets like no work done in a 30 minute call which felt like three hours. he knew he would hardly be paying attention so decided to record the call with your consent, saying he'd need the notes you were typing out on screen only to play it back and stroke his dick to you for what might've have been the twentieth time this week. his strokes only getting faster as you say his name in that voice he imagines sounds way better moaning and screaming it instead.
nerdy!choso who, after the presentation, is on greeting terms with you when he sees you studying in the library. he sits as far away from you as he can while still being able to see you. occupying the coziest corner of the library to stare at you study right when you come up to him.
"can i join you, choso? i'm all alone and your space seems comfy" you say with a smile, "of course, i dont mean to disturb you, is saw you were on your own too, so..."
uh oh, uh oh, uh oh. god no. please no. please dont say yes. please dont be staring at her like some dumb idiot (too late) please.
"uh... yeah sure why not?" he awkwardly says as he makes room for you to keep your things. he was such an idiot for thinking he could say no to your pretty face in the first place.
nerdy!choso who is absolutely drunk on your scent. it feels way better than any alcohol he's ever had. he feels like an animal in heat when he smells your sugary perfume mixed with the styrofoam-y air conditioned smell of the library. you're gonna kill him, yknow? how is he supposed to respond to this? what is one to do when their stupid college crush sits next to them? he gives you a half smile before furiously typing away on reddit, the only place with answers for losers like him.
nerdy!choso whose hands. oh his hands. (can be i a big whore for a second?) his long hands that feel like they're the size of your face. his kempt, beautiful and trimmed nails. his lengthy fingers that seem to yearn for something more to foddle with than just the keyboard or controller. he typed as such an insane pace it made your pussy ache. he was going so fast, jesus. those hands were meant to do more than just ask "how to talk to girls" on reddit.
nerdy!choso who (on the advice of reddit) asks if you would want him to order something for you. you tell you had a frappuccino not too long ago and that it was quite sweet and filling. and he hates himself for thinking that he could give you something much sweeter and filling than that like a horny fourteen year old.
nerdy!choso who is now determined to not come off as a creep so he does his work with the focus of four adderalls. he is typing as fast as his heartbeat, not realising he got two classes worth of work done in just an hour. he looks over at you, blissfully unaware of the absolute war in his mind.
nerdy!choso who feels as though if he doesn't muster up the courage to ask you out right then and there, he'll probably be the biggest loser on the planet. (as if he wasn't already)
nerdy! pathetic! choso who stutters a million times and barely gets the job done then too. his eyes are scanning your entire being (trying his best to not gawk at your tits) for any sign of discomfort.
"so- uhh so ummm... wo-would you, like, uh... like to do this again? sometime?... i got a.. a lot of work done today, so.."
oh heavens, the sheer nervousness in his tone makes you want to pull his pants down and show him how to really get work done.
you agree with a smile, even suggesting a better, more ambient (more romantic) cafe to study in. choso's heart is about to burst and flood the fucking library with his blood the way it is beating at an alarming rate.
"umm yeah uh 5 sounds... awesome... i hope it isn't a-a bother to you?" "no way, choso. i loved today," you offer him a smile as you gather your things, "i really like your hair, by the way" "i like your hair too, y-y-you smell very nice", he gulps.
fuck. why did he say that? what? you smell nice? who says that? is he like ten? you can't help but giggle at the sheer embarassment on his face.
he feels as though he's gonna melt into a puddle and turn to stone and throw up all at the same time.
nerdy!choso who is the most stupidly hot guy you've ever met, you think as you go giggling back to your dorm. mental note: pick a skimpy outfit for 5pm ;)
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