#Deep-thoughts

[thepersonalwords]

…the sad part is, that I will probably end up loving you without you for much longer than I loved you when I knew you.Some people might find that strange.But the truth of it is that the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on you as a person, is in no way relative to the amount of time you have known them.

Ranata Suzuki

[sharpen-jadescythe]

Deep thoughts with Sharpen

In a dim-lit Panderen poetry lounge, Sharpen sits on a stool, smoking. The himbo wears a fine suit, looks unusually thoughtful.

"There's a secret about my family name, Jadescythe." He exhales a blue-grey drag from his dark Panderen cigarette, "How can any weapon be made of jade? Let alone a scythe, you dig?

"Jade is precious, yes. Sometimes exquisite and expensive. But it's also brittle. What would you cut with it? More often, when you apply pressure to jade, the thing you're pressing it into breaks the jade.

"So how could a jade scythe ever exist? And then my whole name, Sharpen Jadescythe... what is that, man? What is it?

"Well, it could be a dirty joke in the end. If you really think about it. I'm walking around with this blatantly wrong name, waiting for people to point out that it's impossible, that jade breaks. That I'm asking to get myself broken."

A final drag of his cigarette, a neat snarl, "Then I say, 'Yeah, I like getting broken off. You offering?'"

Sharpen leaves his stool, perches on the bar behind him. Then, he turns and leans all the way back, to lay on the bar and smoke.

"Or maybe that's a fantasy of mine. No one's ever hit on me, using my last name before."

The Pandaren bartender can no longer stand there polishing his drinking glasses, as there's a large Night Elf in a black suit lying on the bar. He puts paws on his hips.

"Sir. You cannot just lie down here, like a hibernating bear!"

Sharpen sighs unhappily, "I'm nothing but a big himbo with a bruised ego. I'd say it's about the same. Wake me in the spring, man."

"Alright look, Mr. Sharpen. I promise you I will break your jade if you would please just get off this bar! Alright?"

Sharpen makes a hopeless shrug, smokes his cigarette. "Sorry, Yoon. I'm so brittle now. In pieces. The moment's past."

Sharpen crosses his ankles. His fine, pointed leather dress shoes catch the candlelight just so.

A lone cellist strums. The Pandaren audience snaps their fingers politely.

[ismaelmansoor]

Why is your hair so long?

Why is your hair so short?

What is it you want from your port,

To curious out of your nose prolong?

Their doing in life is not abort,

But their decision is their song.

[soul-from-another-era]

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

[trainwreckgenerator]

a face you'd find on the side of a milk carton

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

If hurting me does not hurt you, you don’t love me. You’re using me.

k.b // by jerry flowers jr

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I want someone who admires me with the same intensity as they admire the moon and the stars.

[mydeafmind]

Keep Going As Far as I can

Life is challenging,But I hold onto my breath,In the face of obstacles,Refuse to stop breathing. Life is challenging,Hard to get what I dream of,Giving my all, in every single way,Remain to stand tall, come what may. Life is challenging,Though it’s hard, I keep going.©️ Ismael Mansoor

[minimalist-quotes]

You deserve a healthy love with someone who hears you, sees you, understands you, appreciates you, supports you, and loves you. Someone who is patient, communicates clearly, and creates a calm safe space to heal, grow, and bloom together. A love you don't have to heal from.

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[peaceishim]

[thepersonalwords]

I raised you so high that every other man on earth is now doomed to live in your shadow.

Ranata Suzuki

[elodieunderglass]

changes and trends in horror-genre films are linked to the anxieties of the culture in its time and place. Vampires are the manifestation of grappling with sexuality; aliens, of foreign influence. Horror from the Cold War is about apathy and annihilation; classic Japanese horror is characterised by “nature’s revenge”; psychological horror plays with anxieties that absorbed its audience, like pregnancy/abortion, mental illness, femininity. Some horror presses on the bruise of being trapped in a situation with upsetting tasks to complete, especially ones that compromise you as a person - reflecting the horrors and anxieties of capitalism etc etc etc. Cosmic horror is slightly out of fashion because our culture is more comfortable with, even wistful for, “the unknown.” Monster horror now has to be aware of itself, as a contingent of people now live in the freedom and comfort of saying “I would willingly, gladly, even preferentially fuck that monster.” But I don’t know much about films or genres: that ground has been covered by cleverer people.

I don’t actually like horror or movies. What interests me at the moment is how horror of the 2020s has an element of perception and paying attention.

Multiple movies in one year discussed monsters that killed you if you perceived them. There are monsters you can’t look at; monsters that kill you instantly if you get their attention. Monsters where you have to be silent, look down, hold still: pray that they pass over you. M Zombies have changed from a hand-waved virus that covers extras in splashy gore, to insidious spores. A disaster film is called Don’t Look Up, a horror film is called Nope. Even trashy nun horror sets up strange premises of keeping your eyes fixed on something as the devil GETS you.

No idea if this is anything. (I haven’t seen any of these things because, unfortunately, I hate them.) Someone who understands better than me could say something clever here, and I hope they do.

But the thing I’m thinking about is what this will look like to the future, as the Victorian sex vampires and Cold War anxieties look to us. I think they’ll have a little sympathy, but they probably won’t. You poor little prey animals, the kids will say, you were awfully afraid of facing up to things, weren’t you?

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

[soul-from-another-era]

[free-my-mindd]

Asking yourself “would someone who loves and care about me do that to me” and being very honest with yourself will save you from going back into the wrong hands.