#Cw body

[paddyfitz]

Regardless of slanderous comments about Adler's appearance, I finally did it!!

[gracieasource]

GRACIE ABRAMS via her insta stories (July 18, 2024)

[deritosmi]

THINGS THAT USED TO FUCK ME UP (SENSORY WISE) BUT THEN I GOT MOSTLY DESENSITIZED TO IT

they still kinda bother me but not so bad as before

Jeans

The sound of pots and pans scraping against each other

bright lights

THINGS THAT STILL FUCK ME UP (SENSORY WISE)

Mochi (texture makes me want to vomit out my insides)

a day that was already bad + bright lights

headache makes everything so loud so smelly help me

THOSE DAMN GIRLS WHO NEVER STOP FUCKING TALKING IN BIOLOGY CLASS

noise so loud

loud loud noise

Noise so loud I have no choice

(but to fucking EXPLOOODDDDDEEEEE)

[woah-hello]

[bamboozledchaos]

This sounds funny but to me people with smaller waists look very carry-able to me. Like ‘mother lioness dangling you as she holds your waist in her mouth so you pass the river without getting wet’ type thing. Also like those gym equipment you’re supposed to hold (gently). Very cool 10/10

[c4mpbutch]

I think one of the reasons I struggle so much with my body post-top surgery, specifially my chest, is because it doesn't look how it did just post op and i was so happy right after surgery. I don't quite understand how it ended up like this. I don't understand why the lengthy revision under general anaesthetic didn't really do anything. I don't understand how it could have been so affirming and wonderful and desirable (to me) and then once healed I sag, have left over tissue, and feel like i should consider wearing a binder again to be flatter under t-shirts. I struggle with the part under my chest and above my belly, which now visibly protrudes because i gained weight and it's no longer hidden under my boobs and binder. I struggle because I spent so many years seeing peoples results and the huge waves of positive comments about how "good" their results look and how much we all wanted our surgery "results" to be like those. I only see results like mine when people are asking for advice to get a revision or sympathy because their surgery went "wrong" or people in the comments express concerns about whether the chest is "supposed" to look like "that". I started running again this month and it's been bringing me some peace at times where I feel like my relationship with my body aesthetically is becoming more ambivalent and more focused on being able to run, fuel and enjoy. Running has been making me feel less detached from my body. I've been running 8 times so far this month, by the end of the month I think I'll be up to 12. Aiming for the same next month, but mostly aiming to just keep going even if i lose motivation or get injured for a bit, just pick it back up when i can. It honestly feels like the first time running has produced endorphins for me everytime i do it. I don't know whats different. But i feel a bit invincible when I'm running and not in the way i've experienced when i've been in a manic episode. Just like, yeah, I can do shit and i'm capable and i'm loving and i'm going to keep going and keep improving my life and my mental health. I'm on the right track. It's so good. i'm not obsessing over food or weight loss at the moment either. it's all on my mind, my internalised fatphobia and self-hate surfaces sometimes, but it disapates, i don't feed that, i move on, i eat ice cream and chocolate and green smoothies and pasta because that's what i like and i'm hungry or just want some. changing my body's aesthetic would be nice to affirm my gender more, fit mens clothing better... but it's not on the list. the list is: take meds, therapy, running, parenting, partner-ing, resting, being ok, seeing what life brings, trying to live with less resistance and frustration. Anyway. Its too hot to run right now really, its midday and the heatwave has been intense this month, but fuck it i'm going to go now anyway so i have time to cool down and shower and then begin my therapy session with that post-run brain. see how that feels.

22/6/23

[curt-mega-saf]

Ooc: a while ago I made a like reference for where Curt’s scars and tattoos and such are. Now there’s the one from before he came to Hatchetfield and then Phase Two and later maybe more phases but I don’t have those drawn. I only have Phase one (pre arriving in Hatchetfield) and Phase two (yet to happen). That being said please take phase one. Cw man in undies, scars.

Cw man in undies (Art Tumblr, it is a drawing) and scars

[itmeblog]

Came back to 38 notes and it's all about the time I went jogging and found a body...

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Y'all know I made a podcast right? That's what this blog is supposed to be for? No? A'ight.

'S cool.

...still getting notes for the Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur post too.

I have no control here.

[teresiel]

Pretty Scenery for Halloween - Phenomena (1985) ~ Dario Argento

PART IX

[pinkiepig]

I wanted to draw a cool tiger from someone’s dream 🐅

(Link to the original poster)

[qyuobii]

When gods weep.

[trustymikh]

there are many benefits to being a ground-type pokemon trainer

[pete-spankoffski]

[ i ready my knife over the rope. sawing through, richie's body falls to the floor. ]

happy?

-🫀

[ Pete trembles, his legs failing him. His knees bend before he falls to the ground, not daring to open his eyes. ]

[starrodent]

just some sillies

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[jaradraws]

DISCLAIMER: the blood is a feature, not a bug 🩸☎️