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The Trend Of “Travel Light” These Days: What Is The Minimal Way Out Of The 9 That You Prefer?
Travel is a big gift that keeps us on receiving. We are exposed to great scenery, cultures and people. It rewards us with beautiful photographs and memories.
Crazy shopping while travelling can be a kind of “retail therapy”. But, if this is how you fill most of your time and then carry many heavy bags back home for things which you do not really need, such compulsive behaviour can imply that you are emotionally in trouble.
I used to misconceive travelling as an activity of vanity. I tried to impress my friends in other countries that I had taste, got money to spend and could be a well-dressed person. The moment that I stopped caring is when an awakening emerged from myself. The truth is that simplicity is the vainest form of sophistication.
The expressionist painter Hans Hofmann said, “The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak.” The new trend of travelling is “travel light” which means to travel with a minimum load or luggage. People regard backpackers as those who travel light. There are ironically many backpacker shops in Hong Kong which try to induce the wants rather than needs of backpackers. Goods are too abundant.
Thumbs up to the wise people who can “travel light”. I used to carry 3 or more suitcases, backpacks and shopping bags abroad. I even brought towels, hair dryer, hangers, shoetrees and teddy bear with me. I have made a pinky swear that I will not do such a stupid thing again. The recent fad within the travelling culture, out of the blue, is to be minimal. We want a hotel room to look neat and tidy so that we do not have to elbow our way to the bed, especially in a tiny Japanese cubicle. When taking a trip, you should look inward for spiritual happiness and not look outward for shopping jubilation.
How to travel right?
The simple answer to take just a few lightweight, quick-drying and adaptable clothing items. Also, Iimit yourself to one pair of shoes.
A said, “Remember to limit yourself to a small suitcase or backpack, and a sensible packing list! Then, you will not take a lot of things to travel! ”
B said, “I bring old or unwanted clothes with me. After use, I leave them in the hotel room.”
C said, “Why don’t you guys ask the hotel to do laundry for you?” We laughed, “Hotels charge a lot!”
D said, “I choose the hotels which have public washing machines. This is why I usually take only 3 sets of clothes for travel.”
E smiled, “I am hardworking. I hand wash clothes in hotel bathroom sink.” I asked, “Will it take many days for clothes to dry?”
F said, “Come on! You can buy disposable briefs or knickers! Now, shops like MINISO or Mannings sell disposable cotton underwear. They are comfortable and cheap.”
G said, “In many countries like Korea and Japan, you can rent clothes and such clothing rental companies will deliver clothes speedily to your hotel! Renting clothes is greener than buying them and this is a good habit when travelling overseas!”
H said, “Technology made it possible to have ‘quick dry’ clothes which can become dry within a few hours. I always pack clothes for 2 to 3 days and can repeat them!”
Finally, Mr I said, “My way to travel light is simple. I wear a pair of jeans for the whole journey. If the weather is cold, I shall wear one to three windbreakers and they can be as warm as a coat. A windbreaker can also protect you from the wind and rain. Windbreakers can be dried within an hour after hand wash!”
The world is getting smaller but people are richer. Travelling is no longer a big deal. People travel more and more frequently for many reasons, including for vacations, to visit family and friends, for business ,and to be alone for a few days in order to escape the stresses of daily life. There is no need to create “a home away from home”. The hotel room should be like an unadorned room in a monastery!
A journey outside Hong Kong can be very simple, but people like to make it complicated. I heard friends indulgently taking 5 meals a day when travelling. I guess their stomach would be heavier than their luggage. Hunger is a bottomless pit. Life is simple and “travel light” is simply a simple truth.
Maurice Lee
Chinese Version 中文版: https://www.patreon.com/posts/lu-you-xin-wen-115581100?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link
How to choose a good quality luggage https://youtu.be/OcWtfNjvldQ?si=MODSmUsPIaRnBSQG Acknowledgement-RTHK
Luggage packing tips https://youtu.be/BBzLD5lDBvU?si=-hE3KQfiYUUO88k6 Acknowledgement-dontkjoanne
#Retail Therapy#Pinky Swear#Compulsive Behaviour#Japanese Cubicle#Quick-drying#MINISO#Mannings#Disposable Underwear#Hans Hofmann
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god i want to be a better person
#so many of my reactions and interactions are just not healthy nor my behaviours nor my thought processes nor my habits it���s just endless#and it doesn’t LEAD ANYWHERE!!! every year is the same but I feel so stuck in my mental illness and grief for real and also my compulsions#and worry and stress every day is just about surviving I don’t grow
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Part of harm reduction is recognizing that abstinence or sobriety, whenever these terms are applicable, is not the inherent goal for so many people. Forcing complete abstinence or sobriety can absolutely be detrimental, which is why we must not idealize either one or force it on people. It should be an option, yes, but that does not mean it is the only option or the only option worth pursuing.
#harm reduction#mental health#mental health advocacy#ask to tag (genuine)#i practice almost complete abstinence for a particular behaviour but if you forced abstinence onto me i would be livid and scared...#...and i would feel that way because the abstinence is not my choice which means i have no control or agency over if/when i feel safe...#...to engage in 'harmful' behaviour...#...yes i recognize that abstinence is my best option which is why i practice it but i do NOT want my agency over it taken away#while the behaviour i do isn't drugs/drinking which is what people typically mean by harm reduction it counts still#this is related to my 'recovery should be an option not a compulsion' post. they're cousins in fact
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I just know Rafe, as a man with psychosis and so much guilt and regret who was almost definitely forcibly sobering up and going through withdrawals, being in such close vacinity to a giant golden cross that HE STOLE from a church did *something* to fuck with his brain
Like he's not religious, he doesnt believe in god or anything, but I just know that sometimes he compulsively prayed to it about his "sins" and prayed for Barry to forgive him (what did he do wrong? he doesnt know, he just feels bad not being near him), and he absolutely started hearing "angels" and feeling flames lick at his feet and hands after a while as part of his usual rotation of hallucinations
#this boy has psychosis and obsessive compulsive behaviours- who the fuck let him near a cross for that long lol#its fine- he melted it down and it all got a little better cause subconsciously he thought of it as like- a release#🪲#obx#obx fandom#barry obx#jj obx#obx content#rafe obx#outer banks#barry outer banks#outerbanks rafe#rafe cameron#rafe cameron outer banks#rafe outer banks#rafe cameron obx#obx headcanon
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achievement i have made this year: i used to physically shake like a leaf teeth-chattering style when replying to comments/talking to literally most people on here, and now i can just. say things? waow........
#I DID THAT!#don't get me wrong i still get scared and sometimes i will start shaking hahahaha OR my mortal enemy begin to become convinced#that i have done something terrible BUT. the key words there are 'sometimes' and 'begin'.#my friend 'Needing to Know for Sure: A CBT-Based Guide to Overcoming Compulsive Checking and Reassurance Seeking' by#seif and winston. book that helped me recognise and break soooooooo many detrimental compulsive checking and reassurance behaviours
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So funny to me when I'm explaining to my parents the habits I have that are a result of my spiralling anxiety and paranoia and my father goes "yeah I do that too, that's normal" as if we're not literally both diagnosed with OCD and our actions are very much not normal
#He's so fucking stupid#'you're so much like your dad' gee I wonder why???#Surely we don't both have a mental disorder that influences our thoughts and behaviours????#Ocd#cw ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder
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didn’t tell yall i just ordered 250$ worth of non refundable ant products - even contacted the seller for specific parts - joined the ant reddits discord after researching types of ants and vibe i would want. all instead of working on my dissertation
#stream#ALSKALSKALKSALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKSALKSAL#like going off my diary post here but#everytime i want to kill myself i want an animal or a plant that keeps me alive so ive compulsively did the FISH TANK OVER THE PAST FEW DAY#& NOW IVE GOT ANTS COMING IN THE DAMN MAIL#like i literally forgot abt grindr & men entirely like i was on the bus w the guppies & i was like ‘girl … i need a man to do this w’ LIKE#TO DO WHAT W. ? MAKE BAD DECISIONS ????? U NEED SOMEONE THAT WILL NOT ENABLE U#ANTS GIRL#ANTS#& NOW UR PLANNING ON MAKING SEA MONKEYS WITHOUT THE SACHETS#LIKE GIRL#GIRL ……#GIRL ………………#what is WRONG W U#perhaps i’m what they call ‘manic’ idk what that actually means bc im normal#<- normal behaviour#anyway#‘it’s mania or adhd ❤️’
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do wish i didn't have the non-medical emergency form of compartment syndrome. (i mention that so that you know not to worry. i just have sore legs all the time.) but hey, at least i know exactly what caused me to develop it.
#ollie considers#it was the compulsive overexercising while i was waiting for the nhs to deign to give me top surgery#because you see! when the doctor at the gender clinic weighed me i was one (1) kg above what he would have liked!#this is certainly a healthy way to encourage exercise in a population already inclined to disordered eating behaviour and poor body image.#no notes.#(also the ocd doesn't help. 'compulsive' is in the name!)#(shoutout also to the consultant who - when i mentioned this - said 'maybe you should start having an eating disorder again')#not in so many words admittedly but still#eating disorder mention /#i assume your filter will already have caught this but just on the off-chance that it doesn't
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Welcome to little list of Alastor headcanons that are actually technically projections, in no particular order of importance:
Has the bob because his hair tends to not grow much longer past his shoulders
Triple A battery (Aroace and agender), started as "man by default" but over time presentation slowly leans more and more into something else entirely
Habitually presents himself as having everything under control. He is not. If he wasn't busy convincing himself that he is he would have started asking how in this ever damned hell anyone believes him
Perpetual eyebags (and dark circles around eyes to some extent) that never fully leave and get significantly worse if he does not sleep
Undiagnosed slight astigmatism that causes regular headaches and perpetual squinting
On the topic of headaches, can ignore pain but it will make him easily irritable
He knows really well how easy it is to verbally or physically hurt other people, and irritability lowers his restraint towards not using the most painful insults in his arsenal significantly
Does not handle disrespect towards his work well. Technically it's a form of rejection-sensitive dysphoria but feeling hurt from it just makes him angrier and more likely to fight someone
In some cases the desire to fight people also applies if criticised work wasn't his but his friends'
He also a hypocrite in that regard cause Alastor is (sometimes unintentionally, sometimes intentionally) cruel with his own criticism of others' work
Subconsciously (sometimes consciously) refuses to process a lot of things. Such as actual reasons why he does nice things to people, why he allows certain people to live, certain aspects of his appearance, that somehow to some people every little part of him is possible object of desire
The last one is better not being thought about ever cause if he ever realises it he would disappear for more than 7 years this time
#hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#i would have written more but rn it would have been all mostly about chronic moderate aches that are constant so he thinks it's normal#or how he is both touch averse and touch starved#touch from others makes his skin crawl unless it's in very particular way#so it's just easier to initiate a touch first#yep#giving the deer man sensory processing issues#like certain radio interference frequencies cause him physical pain due to how much unpleasant they are#there are so many things that are therapy worthy with him#but bastard just layers himself in defenses constantly#also compulsive high energy behaviour#how could i forget that#acting energetic even if he has no energy left and keeping up with his own image hurts#and if someone even dares to point out some mistake of his while he is in this state he is going to eviscerate them#or threaten them#because screaming in pain is not what Alastor the Radio Demon is#i am quite sure it's projection btw
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Ok yk what I think I need to run a poll I need to know what the pipeline is for ppl who like went to public school or didn’t have many friends or smth & basically had zero exposure to what is & isn’t socially acceptable until eventually branching out social circles and learning more
SO HERE IS THE QUESTION maybe this is actually a natural human experience maybe im just fucking autistic idfk. All I know is I’m still incredibly fucked up from smth that happened a decade ago and I’ve never bothered asking if anyone else has gone thru smth like it
#fyi this goes for ANY inappropriate thing. like it does not just have to be like interrupting ppl or smth#in fact this is ESPECIALLY asking toward ppl who have said things like slurs and very harmful things w/o knowing/understanding the weight—#—those words carry. THATS what im looking for because I NEVER see it talked about#like. whenever I see this discussed the conversation just ends at ‘everyone knows they’re bad’ but CLEARLY not everyone#I need to know how other people cope with the guilt of saying fucked up things and not knowing until the damage had been done#because SURELY I’m not the only one who went through this#SURELY I’m not the only one who struggles with believing I deserve any sort of kindness#Surely I’m not the only one who developed severe morality related obsessions and compulsions over this right???????????#So yea anyway call this my desperate attempt to maybe possibly heal a teensy bit from a decade old wound#Bc it took this long apparently for me to realize I still struggle with the guilt & feel like a fraud knowing the ppl who care for me now#don’t know about my past behaviour and I’m deceiving them each time I laugh with them and smile with them#There has to be SOMEONE out there that understands right#anyway if this ends in ppl confirming that I do in fact not deserve love for this past behaviour like my thoughts tell me then idfk man lol#can’t live with that whatever anyway#personal
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idk why i expected commentary on how we view and treat criminals/incarceration in arkham city thats on me but im a lil :/ anyway. i need to keep reminding myself this was made around 2010 by the most mainstream whiteboy tastes and opinions imaginable
#the idea of a section of a city walled off to let criminals and everyone branded as criminal#fight it out w the opinion strange has regarding it and the obvious kill em all feature is like. interesting#except so far it hasnt really DONE anything interesting or thoughtful w it. i mean its a comicbook game wat was i expecting#anyway between it and asylum seeing all the villain bios in one place really made me look at how often they go#'schizophrenia made them do this lol' its interesting. catch all excuse but given the timeframe most of those villains were made#like. 60s 70s. when schizophrenia was the default slapped on label for every deviation in behaviour people didnt like. foreseeable#i think one of the descriptions that sticks w me given its in all 3 games is riddlers 'obsessive compulsive need for attention'... ummm....#thats not what that does..... thjts not what that means#it makes me think of. well. i shant say i cant be armchair diagnosing fictional characters#not even if i can relate
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I think a lot of people lack the self-knowledge to know whether a random post or opinion or assertion etc. necessarily needs to apply to you and whether you need to be included in that caveat and whether a good faith interpretation here might be helpful. Look mummy I'm a real grown-up
#idk I have seen tons of posts like this#like 'self-care which encourages you to do nothing is harmful' I mean. I just ignore quote self-care posts unquote because#I know myself well enough and I know what makes me slide into depressive behaviours#on some level the medicalisation of suffering is dangerous but the medicalisation/othering of self-knowledge is bad too#so rather than 'and the answer to this is that you need to be doing stuff all the time' the answer is really 'learn your limits'#there might not be a perfect guide to figuring things out but you know. that's one place to start at least#topically to this post I saw a post that was like 'growing up is realising that not everybody dislikes you automatically and it's weird#to assume that'#which is nice and all. for normal people. it's just not a post that includes all experiences#and it's relatable to some people!#I see a lot of posts for depression that are like 'eat well and exercise a lot' which is nice and all. for people without eating disorders#and obsessive exercise compulsions#I just know to ignore it because it won't be helpful to me#because not everything is a strict diagnostic 'good/bad' matter lol#and yeah I get it. it's not always nice to be excluded. but you can empower yourself this way#in the actual sense of empowerment. self-knowledge and self-determination#which means you can better recognise when it is time to speak up!
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i feel like in the last year i'm really, like, meeting myself if that makes sense? which is a really wild experience. like, i'm suddenly realising that perhaps what i thought of as immutable personality-trait Shyness was in fact Severe Clinical Anxiety as the aftermath of/alongside being autistic for nearly two decades without knowing it and Struggling with it, and i'm learning all kinds of things about my me! I've been to two groups for people with some of the health stuff i have over the last year, one a long-term hospital program and the other a fun thing, and i'm suddenly able to not only confidently and competently talk in front of a group but also, like, have a personality??? :P I was at one of the groups earlier today, realising i could straight up talk about my first impressions of an artwork i was seeing in front of everyone (mostly total strangers I'd only met minutes before) and i got home and was suddenly like HELLO?!!?!?!? I can just straight up DO this?! the main two thoughts i've had on realising this are 1. huh that kind of sucks! wild to have lived most of my life unable to kind of, like, develop much identity/self-knowledge of what i *did* like/think because i was So So Afraid In General! 2. if i had physical energy to go along with this i would be *such* a menace >:) which on one hand is kind of sad, but on the other hand it's like *looking at myself with awed wonder* there's things in my me???
NICE!
#i'm like DANG if i was like. physically able to become educated about a topic i could straight up give talks! i could present stuff!!!#i could engage with other people for a whole profession!!!!!#not to say that public speaking is unskilled and that anyone could do it. instead that it could be a viable thing that i COULD have learned#and maybe could have done well!!!!!#NICE!#(i did go to therapy p consistently for like a decade. but tbh i think as important in this progress is Having Friends Now.#like i cannot overstate how different an experience life is now i'm no longer terrified bc everyone felt alien to me :P fwiendship! :') )#(oh also the autism diagnosis. AND also a really good book about compulsive behaviour :P they are my top 4 guys.)#...maybe that's a brag but also it's like. is it bragging to be like 'i have made progress w/ a disabling mental health condition'? :P#feels like that pair of adhd tweets where it's like 'i started my adhd meds and i don't think they're working i wrote a list of why :/'#and the second one is like 'I WROTE A LIST!?!?' :P
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not to be mean, but if you've never had a restrictive ed or bdd then maybe just stop talking about body checking? 90% of the time you lot have no clue what you're talking about, and as someone who's struggled with those issues a majority of my life, the misinformation it spreads can be really damaging to people who are sick regardless of their recovery status.
(please read op tags before you decide to argue, thanks)
#tw ed mention#tw body checking mention#like this isn't a ''thinphobia exists'' post- it doesn't- this is stop treating a symptom of a mental health issue as a gottcha & misrepres#-enting what that behaviour actually is and why people do that.#and i promise you even if someone is body checking like. a) they know nobody needs to be told ''hey op this is body checking''#you can find yourself doing it unintentionally if you're just like existing yeah but like even then when you catch yourself you know that's#what you were doing. and b) any attention beyond ''this is not fair to expose other potentially sick people to'' is just feeding into the#disorder. like attention to the disorder- positive or negative- is seen as validation. it's oh look it's working i'm sick i'm sick*enough*#so like you aren't doing what you think you are doing at all.#idk i feel like a lot of people forget that a) not all eds are restrictive & b) they are a literal mental health condition. they are not a#choice. they often have very little to do with weight at their core. in the case of restrictive eds it is about the fact that you feel#your body is the ONLY thing in your life you can control (with some very dark shit often being the reason for that) and that get's#projected onto control of one's weight. my guess is because that's the most visible display of control. it is a front to mask some sort of#pain that usually ends up being related to trauma. and people of ANY WEIGHT can have a restrictive ed.#and like the same is true of other eds that aren't about restriction- it is rooted in unhealthy emotional coping mechanisms due to HURT#and like. as for bdd which also tends to be misrepresented and have shit slung at it for fuckin whatever reason#please consider a) anyone at any size can have bdd about any feature & b) it's literally and obssesive compulsive disorder (with body check#-ing being the compulsive behaviour for some but not all people) and it has been shown that the way we process our faces & features on a#neurological level is different from those who do not have bdd. and if you listen to any person with bdd they more often than not only have#an issue with their ''problem feature'' ON THEMSELF meaning whatever you want to call it- it's internalized#and even then people don't just wake up and decide every mirror is going to make them feel like they are in a funhouse. though no one#knows what causes it for certain- it is believed to be rooted in genetics comorbid conditions traumatic early life experiences or some#combo thereof. people don't choose it they don't choose which feature it latches onto they don't choose the distress it causes.#set the boundaries you have to set irt your own mental health. that is more than fine. but the moralizing of mental disorders is never#going to help anyone and i have seen a huge uptick of people who do not understand eds not only leaving non restrictive eds out entirley#but acting morally superior on the basis of never having experienced one or never having dealt with bdd or leaving people who don't fit the#prototypical view of what a sufferer of those conditions looks like out without thought.#and again- i want to emphasize- in my experience more often than not it is ppl who admit to having NO EXPERIENCE in that realm.#ableism#mental health
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the odd thing of your brain being better and having desires come back is they feel so strong. it makes one want to devour life.
#i am having compulsions#discarding past behaviours because they feel genuinely useless now#it's interesting to experience
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New dream journal.
This one was a very strange one, and pretty disturbing.
I was watching a horror anthology series that had some elements of video games in them, in that you had some amount of choice at certain parts of the story. The thing of it was though, they were all shot through a first person perspective, and every single one ended with your death, often in very upsetting ways.
One of the stories involved being a masterful expert of this scripted on-rails shooter game (think House of the Dead, but a lot more slick and stylish). It then transitioned to living in the real world while still having a gun, and how people were terrified of you because you were open carrying, and how the quick reflexes you exhibit in the game meant that you are a hairs breadth away from shooting random people just because they made an unexpected noise. And because it felt like this was a series I had watched many times before, I remembered that one of the least upsetting ways to die in this particular setting was to just turn the gun on yourself. It wouldn't even be enough to kill you right away, but it meant that your suffering was a lot more brief than it would be otherwise.
Another of the stories involved being in a run down industrial setting, and each variation of the story ended with you being pulled into some machinery, and being slowly ground to death. The real kicker with that one was, no matter how safe and cautious you were, sometimes the opening of an industrial shredder would open up beneath your feet, or a person you were talking to would transform into some gnashing set of pistons or the like.
At some point, it felt as if I had become so familiar with the ways in which you die and the occasional shared elements of these stories that this was a series that I loved, and was part of a community of watchers. In talking it out with other fans, we were re-watching because we were both trying to unravel the mystery of this show, and prep for a forthcoming second season. In the rewatch however, we noticed that the default set of actions (ie where you do nothing and just let the story happen) were a lot less scary overall. It seemed that they had edited the show to be less initially disturbing, but the endings were all every bit as horrific.
But because I eventually started feeling overwhelmed (even in the context of the dream, much less how I felt once I actually woke up) I just started watching with my eyes closed. While I was familiar with how a lot of it ended, removing the visual component softened how distressing the whole affair was. But only barely.
Other stories involved being at a LAN party where a everyone was playing this comic book superhero based tactical game that was somewhere between XCOM and Payday. But after only a few rounds, everyone leaves, and then as you search for them to find out why they left, you find each person has been killed in a horrific way by one of the more ineffectual villains from the game. And then the story always ends with you hearing the villain's distinctive laugh, and then you (as a powerless vanilla human in the real world) are brutalized in a similarly fucked up way as all of the people you found.
Eventually I woke up enough to recognize that as all being a dream, but given the narrative's tendency to repeat ad nauseum, I opted to stay awake rather than try going back to bed.
#subconscious conversation#personal#cw: self harm mention#trust that the examples I gave here were the most mild of the vignettes I got to experience#and even those I still had to leave out details#that there was a baked in reason for these stories to repeat themselves over and over again#speaks to the fact that despite the fact that I have never been given a formal diagnosis#I definitely have a tendency towards obsessive compulsive behaviour#if not necessarily enough for it to be a full-on disorder#This was definitely one of those nightmares that don't seem that scary in the moment#but as soon as you see it outside of dream world logic you realize how fucked up it was to experience#god I wish I could use my extremely detailed and fucked up subconscious for something other than making my limited sleep more hellish#or at least have it make me some goddamn money
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