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Y'ALL YA GIRL HAS A JOB AND SHE FUCKING HATES IT.
MY FUCKING BACK HURT AGH
#dizzy talks#I HATE ADULTING >:(#But I get money so like it's chill#It's actually my payday today yippee❕️❕️❕️#Can't wait to go home and DOODLE#Or die#which ever comes first :3 /silly#okay bye have a lovely day#mwah mwah
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I’m at my theater job rn and it’s my first shift all by myself. Super nervous!!! But I’m planning to make!!!! hundreds of dollars!!!! so I can!!!! buy myself a cameo for my birthday!!!!! (That’s the hope anyway lol) wish me luck!!!!!
#woof#I’m not having any anxiety attacks in the parking lot so that’s a GREAT improvement LOL#when I met the BrBa actor IRL I'm getting a cameo from (again) he was so excited and even#remembered me by name from cameo requests 😭💖#and held my hands and gave me hugs and said the Salamanca brothers would 100% protect me from ANYONE#he was like ‘ptsd is so fucked up girl :( dw me and my boy gotchu’ the way he phrased that is so funny#every other day I think to myself ‘ptsd is so fucked up girl :(‘ djfjdhdjhfkdh#if I reach out for a birthday cameo I would love to hear Marco say he loves his princesa. again. hehe#he was so so chill with the nickname ooghghghh he was so kind#I paid for one video in person with the twins but they both gave me two videos and wouldn’t let me leave until I got what I wanted#they spent 17 minutes with me the first day and almost 30 the second day 😭💖#I WANT A CAMEO FROM HIM AGAIN!!!! I gotta make money!!!!!#I don’t wanna go inside. I have to go inside now. AAAAAHHHHHH#I HATE THIS JOB I CANT EVEN BEACH HERE#HERE I GO!!! I brought my ken heart shaped pin in my pocket to give me strength#time to make so much money cmon let’s go let’s GO!!!!!!!!!!!!
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so there's a reason my new job got back to me so quickly about my application and that's bc it's an absolute fucking shambles like actually perfect timing for me to decide to rewatch the bear bc i have never more felt like ive been thrown into a broke on-its-knees establishment trying to crawl its way up the ladder where i am somehow a godsend to them. my old job was crazy and shambolic in the sense that the industry is just Like That but this one?????? insanity. every 5 mins i am questioning what im doing with my life. ive already had a walk-in fridge moment
#so i explained before that there's 3 venues and on my very first shift they had me doing the restaurant venue for 2 hours#which was FINE like i was a bit cautious bc my manager is VERY stressed all the time and the place generally feels like it's falling apart#not the building itself just. the way it's run like it's just got new owners and the previous manager apparently#EMPTIED THE TILLS AND TRASHED THE PLACE like cost them THOUSANDS of pounds and on top of that#there was beef with the head chef and the new owners that meant he left and took the ENTIRE BACK OF HOUSE WITH HIM#THERE ARE NO KITCHEN STAFF ATM. I HAVE TO LIE AND TELL CUSTOMERS WE DONT HAVE FOOD ATM BC OF 'REFURBISHMENT'#WHEN IN ACTUALITY THE /RESTAURANT/ DOESNT HAVE CHEFS. DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THAT IS#and then the front of house staff are very lacking aside maybe 2 people we're ALL NEW and all of them EXCEPT ME#LIKE LITERALLY JUST ME IM THE ONLY EXCEPTION. ALL OF THEM ARE UNTRAINED#so when i applied with bar training coffee training and very solid waitressing skills they genuinely treated me like a saviour#like i am FENDING off shifts tbh im in a v good position bc they need me too much to get shitty w me if i refuse hours but i can literally#have as many as i want bc they will just give me them. like they're obsessed w me im rota'd for over 60 hours this week#but anyway that very first shift after 2 hours in the restaurant i then walked to the mini golf venue on the OTHER SIDE OF TOWN#and my manager stayed for 30 MINUTES. IF THAT. and showed me around the place + how to close THEN LEFT ME THERE#FIRST DAY HE GAVE ME THE KEYS AND LEFT ME TO RUN AN ENTIRE VENUE. IT'S NOT SMALL EITHER IT'S A WHOLE BAR#AND I HAD TO CLOSE ON MY OWN TOO and ironically the shift itself went rlly well like it was so chill#it was kinda boring but honestly i kinda rated it it's v easy money and the close went perfectly nothing cropped up that i was unsure about#and then. AND THEN. i havent even ranted to my mutuals about this yet bc i was acc so horrified by it but i locked the front doors#and went to lock the gate AND THE KEY GOT STUCK IN THE LOCK. WOULD NOT COME OUT. HELLA VS KEYS ROUND 3927593#my mum even showed up and tried to help me wrestle this thing out i called my manager and he literally told me to just snap it#bc he'd rather a snapped key that NO ONE could get out than just leave it there overnight but bc of my recent house key moment#i was like AM I FUCK SNAPPING THIS KEY. WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING. so i had to just leave it and at the time#i was realllyyyyyyyyyy beating myself up but my manager is actually rlly nice he's just stretched v thin#and ive also had time to be like uhh actually they shouldnt have left a random 21 y/o girl alone with the keys on her first day#omg i havent even talked about what happened on saturday. ACTUAL SHAMBLES#LIKE THIS /\/\ ISNT EVEN CLOSE TO EVERYTHING! IM RUNNING OUT OF TAG ROOM! IM GONNA REBLOG THIS TONIGHT W MORE PROBABLY!#BC GUESS WHO IS WORKING A CLOSE LATER AT THE NIGHTCLUB THEN OPENING THE RESTAURANT AT 8AM. GUESS#hella slaves to capitalism
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Before we call anon rude because let’s see it from their perspective, imagine getting an entire feast to eat. That can be pretty hard to start with so much that’s going on, but if they start with one thing they know they’ll like (aka one character they like) that can be the start for them leaping to other characters to finish the story and the bigger story. I struggle the same way to start book series if I don’t have at least one character that drives me to read it, it’s all about what can be the hook to push them through. Sounds like the anon is neurodivergent (just a guess) so they might genuinely not see it as rude and see it as a solution to even play the game to start with.
Btw absolutely adore the game, the complex and rich characters making them all so unique is amazing. The art is so pleasing to the eyes I love it!! I’m waiting for it all to get out at once so I don’t get too impatient. Shae however interests me the most, which routes will have the most lore for them? Will there be routes that give more lore in general based on decisions you make or do they all share the same amount? (I mean general lore not just Shae lore)
Apologies; we are not trying to accuse any asker of being rude! We are simply explaining our perspective as the developers / are trying to broadly encourage folks to dip their toes into other areas of the story outside of the main route(s) they're interested in, especially considering some routes will be made available sooner than others, and these other routes will likely contain additional scenes/lore of everyone's fave(s) regardless! We want to give each main cast member an equal amount of love (and lore) regardless of their overall popularity, so our goal is not to tut-tut anyone for having strong preferences for one character over the others, but rather to explain that you may be surprised by how much *more* you learn about your preferred characters in the other routes. That's all!
For Shae... Well, they were a foot soldier for one of the worst periods of the War. Lore wise, any other story that touches on the War will likely have content relevant to them and their experiences. ^^
#ask#clotho answers#edit/final note: we got a *few* asks on this subject and will not likely answer all of them for the sake of our followers' dashboards#but we also want to note that part of our encouragements here come from the fact that Flan/Keagan are our most popular characters by a lot#and we want to do what we can to gently nudge folks who may not want to romance the fem / nb characters into checking out their stories#despite not being into them romantically. this is half of why we have platonic routes to begin with#we recognize veterans to the dating sim world may feel less inclined to romance characters that don't align with their irl orientations#this isn't a bad thing. some people steer clear of dating sims altogether because they're aro or just not interested in romance stories etc#but the unintentional side effect of this is it has a chilling effect on developers even in the indie sphere to make less diverse stories#if Flan and Keagan are our most popular characters then they will be our most *profitable* characters in the long run#and as much as we would love to not care about money and just produce the story we want to tell#we live in a society (tm) and need to eat#if at the end of ndm's development we see that 90% of our engagement went toward the boys it is hard to ignore the financial incentive#to redirect our energy toward leaning into the 'tried and true' formula that assures we can buy groceries and make rent#basically what i am candidly saying here is capitalism is pretty bad for creative liberty unless you're already rich / able to self finance#which we are not. and currently none of the core devs make *anything* from ndm#it would be nice if it does turn a profit but that isn't a guarantee - which the team has accepted as a normal risk in game development#anyway this is getting rambly but the Point is that this goes beyond us wanting to make sure all sides of our story are equally appreciated#it is *partly* that - we do want players to experience the entirety of our artwork#but it's not just for our egos - it's so we can keep making art like this#i considered including this in the body of the post but money talk suuucks man#and i don't want anyone to think we're glaring at them in a holier than thou 'ah-ha! you don't want to play maeve's route because she's a#woman!' sort of way because i think that's a reductive way to look at things#people like what they like and there's nothing intrinsically wrong with that#but if you like that we're making a diverse story#with masc routes fem routes and nb routes#even if you don't personally want to romance x or y#it would help us if y'all play the platonic routes#we are trying our very very best to make the fem/nb routes interesting for Everyone so those stories don't get sidelined#and if you don't like them for their own sake - fair enough! can't win em all and we'll deeply appreciate that you tried anyway!
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DILUC AND 8 (their pet peeves) -- @milkstore
[Character Analysis Ask Meme]
What are Diluc’s pet peeves?
Lack of respect for service workers - Some may find it surprising seeing how rude Diluc is to the Knights of Favonius, but it’s true. Growing up on the winery, Diluc has seen firsthand the amount of work that goes into making wine and caring for the mansion. He understands the pride his workers put into their jobs. Not to mention his father raised him, not only to respect those under him, but to protect them as well. Is it really surprising then that he does not stand for those who harass his workers? To him, they’re the scum of the earth.
#genshin impact#genshin x reader#diluc#diluc x reader#my writing#character analysis#i realize now that the question is plural but i only include one whoops#oddly enough although i think we may have talked about this before but i think wanderer shares the same trait#though i think this is a trait most people know it’s still one of my favorite#i think kaeya mentions in his hangout that like…#one time diluc thought that someone was harassing the maids so he ran out with his claymore in hand to beat them up LOL#that being said diluc and pet peeves are hard because imo…… he doesn’t seem like the type that’d get irritated very easily#that is to say….. with very unique things#inefficiency irritates him… injustice frustrates him… but pass that?#*past#i don’t really think a lot of things bother him haha#oh! maybe people trying to flirt with him for his money would… but most would feel that way in his shoes#oh and also people that binge drink on the regular would annoy him too#but other than that imo he’s p chill. just has a mean rbf#it’s hard bc we usually think of diluc in the presence of kaeya but when you separate the two like…#he doesn’t have much to be bothered over imo#maybe i’m wrong but i just see him as an awkward but kind person#thank you for sending in a diluc ask tho like he’s so mid but i still love him <3#but with this i am caught up on all my asks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#now to actually write HAHA
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Your thoughts turn to the pain you've inflicted. You shiver.
#degrees of lewdity#dol pc#oc#oomf-in-law got me into something I deeply regret#this was too good for me to not post it publicly though#sorry everyone#I saw a yandere and not only the opportunity to match his freak but to surpass it#and apparently I'm more open minded than I thought#anyway#for the hot girls who get it#I'm doing a sadism run somehow#being a general menace to society and Whitney#ngl I turned the difficulty way down I wanted to have a lot of money lol#even without money issues my guy has Severe Hallucinations it's wild#he's so funny like 5k in his pocket and straight A+s and wandering the streets at midnight bc he's receiving visions#very stressful#I gotta chill with the constant OC art I should've drawn literally anyone HSDJFKL#whatever#hwshln#quince
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[guy who's about to suggest the farthest thing from what you actually want voice] ermmm actually if you like that specific interpretation of these characters you're WRONG, here's what you REALLY wanna be reading
#THIS IS NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR#NOR IS IT INTENDED TO BE CALLING OUT OR BULLYING OR A BIG DEAL#just a general thing I keep seeing in the dc fandom#“If you like 'fanon'* jason and tim what you REALLY wanna read is tim and jpv”#“if you want good dad bruce** what you REALLY wanna read is midnighter”#“if you want 'fanon'*** batfamily dynamics what you REALLY wanna read is arrowfam”#it's tiring#like no I know exactly what I wanna read it just isn't what you particularly enjoy or how you particularly interpret the media#*'fanon' in this case meaning not hateful to each other- an interpretation backed up by multiple canon instances in multiple canons#**an interpretation backed up by multiple canon instances in multiple canons#***'fanon' in this case meaning not hateful to each other- an interpretation backed up by multiple canon instances in multiple canons#these characters have been around for so many years and they get handled by so many different writers in so many different stories#there's no One True God Given Correct Answer#just chill man#I'm rewatching btas/tnba and tt03(cartoon) while reading 90s 'tec and tt03 and yj98 and watching through the dcau and playing gotham knight#my personal take on the characters is very patchwork and that's just how I like it#pick and choose baby canon's a buffet and I'm getting my money's worth
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Ok so today i had my dads bday!! wow cool and awesome sauce. So, this was my first time seeing my family after moving in my dorm,5 days. It was really fun at first, we ate nando's, I was being super social blah blah, but yeah it drained me like a bitch. Midway in I just started laughing at the silliest things.
There was this cupcake thing, my older sister ordered it, she will be N, there was only one piece left and she gave it to my other sister, H, I was lowkey joking around saying I wanted it, i did a little. However, I already had a couple of bites before so N was like no im giving it to H. Lowkey was a little bummed but oh well, after this I looked down at my phone for a little bit, and when I looked back up I saw my sister handing my mom a plate with the cake bit cut smaller, while going my way. For some reason I had a face of absolute joy and was actually really fucking happy, turns out fuck me it was for my dad who sat besides my mom. My family saw this exchange right and they all laughed at me, I laughed along too, it was pretty funny. However I was laughing fucking hysterically, like crying, almost throwing up, could barely breath, i do laugh like this occaisonally, it means I'm tired as balls.
H and my dad were talking about how much she's been walking, and since iv also been walking(we go to the same uni) I wanted to brag as well since I'm allowed to do that, I checked my app for my steps, I realised the past two days i havent really been walking so I decided to not show them.(I didnt mention this but i was REALLY bragging like being loud as balls) My brother saw me take out my phone mid conversation being loud as balls, look at it then stop talking and put my phone down, we then locked eyes. Me and him suddenly started bursting out laughing and yet again i could barely breath laughing hysterically. But this time while i was laughing, I was hit with a wave of fucking exhaustion and sleep deprivation(I am sleep deprived AS FUCKING BALLS), but this wasnt all I felt, also I felt like a crazy desire to fucking burst out crying. Crying and laughing is a pretty close action uk, but unfortunately I resisted and just continued laughing. After that I didnt let the wave of cry bother me but im pretty sure i was noticebly less outgoing. My social battery was getting drained like a bitch.
Like 5 minutes after that, I looked behind only to see a little girl crying and that shit sent me into another fit of laughter. Take note, this is while my dad is like giving a speech about his birthday thanking god and blah blah BLAH, meanwhile im hunched over fucking in tears.
I settled down after enough time we all finished eating we were just talking, and then we were preparing to leave. I saw my sister say soemthing to my mom and I heard like wanted something, I thought they were talking abt getting food for themselves cuz H and I are gonna go back to our uni's after that. So, I interjected saying wait i want to as well( I thought they said get food) my mom said" Oh? you want to give a couple of words to dad for his birthday?" and my stupid ass said what? no? And then i realised it, my mom mentioned wanting to give a couple words for my dads bday not wanting to get food for later for uni AND THIS SENT ME INTO ANOTHER HYSTERICAL FIT. I could see on my dads face he was over with my ass. I explained my side of the story afterwards and it was all a silly goofy laugh.
When we were going back to the car, my social battery was already dead for awhile. We were at the parking lot we left the mall, and i saw a person behind my, i thought it was my sister, so i looked back TURNS OUT IT WAS SOME RANDOM ASS OLD GUY. AND I BURSTED OUT LAUGHING AGAIN AND MY SISTER GOT MAD AT ME TELLING ME NOT TO LAUGH CUZ YEA I JUST LOOKED AT HIM AND BURSTED OUT LAUGHING NOT NICE AT ALL.
#On the ride home just my sister H and me with my mom and dad#We were talking blah vlah blah we get to our uni's and they sent my sister off first cuz her dorms were closer than mine#when she left she asked my parents no money? and yea my dad says no in a silly goofy mood typa way#So after she left I also asked for some money nope instant shut down yea tehres totally some type of way one can tactfully approach it...#and i did not do it#and so yea my ass was already fucking tired and getting bitchy we arrived to my dorms and since im not used to it yet we werent sure on the#way and my mom says she knows a way for me thatl be the easiest but my dad was adamant on followign the gps#while i was just thinking of getting out#and while they were like arguing? not rly my ass got super bitchy and just said dude just drop me off#And honeslty#I get my sister so fucking much She does this type of thing all the time and before this i thought she was just bitchy and not chill abt it#but now i see THESE GUYS ARE BEING ANNOYING AS BALLS#like this is literally my dorms i fucking now wehre to go dude#BUT NO THEY JUST IGNORE ME UNTIL I LIKE NOTICLBY BITCHY ABT IT#but unforties my mom was right she did have a faster way it was jsut i didnt know of it since it was primarily a shortcut for cars and not#for walekrs and i only walk around campus
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what if i snapped and made an oc carrd
#i mean.... i could#this isnt the first time ive thought of doing it but i drop ocs so easily its not even funny. so idk if itd be worth it#id consider toyhouse or smth but i dont have money lol. right now everythings on artfight but thats more for drawing purposes#what ocs would i even talk abt... i have some standalones like auggie and ocs i think look cool but dont plan on using#but some others have their own stories.. not like a huge thought out plot but something i pick up and twirl around in my head#like luckys whole deal is being a hiking guide who accidentally gets tied up with some werewolves pretending to be a hiking group to eat pp#and then i have the magician rivals. although i kinda wanna tie theirs with the nightguard and thief story ive been cooking. maybe in the#same universe? it would be pretty funny if they lived in the same apartment complex since a couple stories i have in mind revolve around th#its like some sort of omnibus or anthology to me. kicks my feet#and then fan characters like xin ya and sleight who i want to have their own expanded lore and stuff. i think that would be cool#im making crow a powerpoint of xins updated lore but the assignmence are making it hard. hopefully it turns out good though#i have a hard time writing personality and xins is always the hardest bc theyre probably the least like me. i tend to stick to#characters similar to myself to get in their head. but bc their backstory affects their personality so strongly i have to do some thinking#anyway. hopefully i remember this later#yapping#oc#oc talk#ive also been playing neko atsume recently for nostalgia and why did we as a society ever stop playing it. its so chill#you just take pictures of silly little cats and leave them silly little toys and treats. and the music is cute
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"When you guys are playing and, like, we all got podcasts and there are big podcasts out there, you know, are going from series to series, and they're critiquing teams and what not—like, at the end, do you know who's chirping you? Do you pay attention to that shit? Do you know who's on your side? Do you know who's, you know, rooting against you? Do you guys pay attention to that kind-of stuff? I'm just curious." "Yeah, I think this might be the first podcast I've ever done—I'm not the biggest fan of podcasts to be honest. I think—I'm friends with that, you know, [Shane] O'Brien, and [Scottie] Upshall (2 out of the 3 cohosts of the Missin' Curfew podcast), I love those guys... so if they ask I would do it but... again they, I think—I think negativity flows through media so much that it just kind-of disgusts me and I want nothing to do with it to be honest. So I hate the negativity, I think it's crazy, I think negativity in media steers guys away from certain teams... it's like, 'Why do you want that?' right? So I don't know, I'm a huge fan of the positivity, finding the positives in players and not putting guys down especially in podcasts and stuff like that where it should be for the players, right? It should be a positive thing, something that we rally around. Especially as ex-players!" "Yeah! We're gonna pump your tires!" "That's it!" "Well, you still gotta be real though!" "No, I know!" "You know if you have a bad game—" "It's gotta be real! For sure!" "—You gotta be real! You can't fake out your audience either so it's still a business." "One hundred percent! One hundred percent, one hundred percent... and I get that but—Yeah, I mean, I saw all those Spittin' Chiclets guys all over Edmonton's bandwagon so..." "That really bothered you guys, eh? Like, I mean, you guys were paying attention to that. I mean, as evidence as well on what took place on the ice after the game... you guys weren't, like, fucking around, you were being serious, right? You guys—that really bothered you guys?" "Hundred percent." "What was it? Like, the most that bothered you about it? Just the fact that, 'Hey, you guys are rooting for them... why are you trying to celebrate with us?' I mean, was it—is it that simple?" "Exactly. Yeah, get the f—we won, get off... right? Get out of here. That's uh, yeah. I don't know, I don't want to be too controversial or anything like that. I'm a happy guy, I like everybody so... whatever." "They're all good dudes, man. Listen if they're into hockey and they're talking about hockey thats a positive one way or the other!" "Oh, they're growing the game! They're growing the game! Huge! And they're doing a great job and I've spoke with Biz [Paul Bissonnette] a few times and I know Whit [Ryan Whitney] (Cohosts of Spittin' Chiclets) and I've got no issues with any of 'em. Truly."
The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.30.24 (x)
#aaron ekblad#florida panthers#i love when ekky gets petty i think he should be petty more often#“im a chill happy peace loving guy” NO YOU ARE NOT SWEETHEART LMAOOOOOOO#its the way ekky tries to portray himself and the way he actually comes off thats so special to me#matthew “we dont listen to outside noise!” vs ekky “i remember the names of all my detractors and will write them in blood”#“negativity flows through media so much that it just kind-of disgusts me and I want nothing to do with it to be honest”#said like a man who went first overall to a team that was basically seen as a suffering hellhole for years#and has so much negative media focused on him for fucking ages#“wow that really bothered you” “yep (refuses to elaborate)”#“so like what about THAT bothered you? (proceeds to sus out his feelings)” “exactly” ITS LIKE PULLING TEETH WITH THIS GUY#“get off—” you absolutely know he was gonna say “get off our dicks” oh you know he wanted to say it. thought about it.#and went i cant be that crass in public despite the fact im allowed to say fuck multiple times.#i would pay so much money to get a completely unfiltered conversation with ekky SO MUCH MONEY#unfortunately i think you should be more controversial ekky#say what you really feel baby!#i love the podcast that shall not be named slander like yeah ekky im glad we're on the same page about this#the whatever after he goes im a happy guy i love everyone you doing a great job convincing us this didnt affect you at all#i love ekky so much you dont understand
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damn i really didn’t think they’d do it so soon 😭 obviously beyond excited for auston and this isn’t too surprising given he was going to be captain at some point in the near future anyway but it kind of makes zero sense to me that management made this change during the last year of jt’s contract instead of just giving it one more season when it would’ve been a tidier transfer 😭 idk he gets so much flack for his leadership for no real reason that it kind of sucks to see the weirdos who were demanding he be stripped of the c feel like they won
no exactly gklfdsjf. the only reason this is bad to me is all the ammo it gives the most annoying leaf fans alive klfjsdklfs. like i really think people overrate how much a single individual can do for you. auston's been a leader in this locker room for years now, the gap between the c and the leadership core in general isn't that wide at all, so this is just a very surface aesthetic change, lol. i'm happy auston will get to have it in his prime but as always, can't experience a pure positive emotion seeing how half the fans react and are the worst ppl alive abt everything.
#easks#and jt and mitch better get extensions done soon so i can just rest lol#idgaf abt these kinds of changes i want the future SECUREEE so i can chill#also ppl who want willy to get an a are sending me like girl#jt's gonna get his a back for sure and we don't need 4 alts#seeing ppl be like haha not mithc cant ask for matthews money like bitch shut the fuck UP
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tag vent
#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas#and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when#we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates#just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night#ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me#ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but#she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening#he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by#people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again#i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends#and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer#than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they#helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that#they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient#im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk#tag vent#vent in tags
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Please, if someone knows a YouTube or anything that posts all of the love and deepspaces complete 5 star cards, I beg you, let me know. In Zayne's last event I only got one card(I got Snowfall Encounter and couldn't get Snowfall Embrace)and while I will try until the very end just like I always do, to get AT LEAST Zayne's Entwined Shadows card(the three of them would be way too unrealistic for my broke ass even though I love Xav and Raf)(Gosh Sylus arrival will make me even more poor than I am today) I still have to prepare myself for the worst case scenario so if anyone can help me I'd be really grateful
#lads zayne#lads xavier#lads rafayel#lads#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace#love and deepspace rafayel#love and deepspace xavier#l&ds#l&ds xavier#l&ds zayne#l&ds rafayel#lnds xavier#lnds zayne#lnds rafayel#lnds sylus#entwined shadows#l&ds sylus#this game is capitalism at its finest#they hate their f2p players so much#like i get that you need to make money#but yall exageratting#putting one event after another like this and giving us little time to collect diamonds#like chill out for a moment please#in asia a lot of girls attend the lads event already#and the game has thousands of players and a heavy advertisement system#im sorry but are yall sure you need more money than you already have lmao
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I'm so excited and so nervous for this job. Mostly excited though
And I'll be getting blocks of days off and get to just hang out and spend time around the area of the southern appalachians. There's so much I wanna do around there and I'm excited to get to do it
And I'll probably be doing a lot of it alone which I'm fine with. I'll get to get more used to just going and doing things by myself and taking my time.
#gotta look for museums around the area#i have a week long training in the field and then 3 days off that i think ill use to just chill around town#itll be kinda tough cuz ill be really tight on money until i get my first paycheck which wont be for two weeks. but itll be fine#theres an aquarium in town. maybe ill check that out.#and i wanna spend at least one of my times off just going around that area cuz thats where my ancestors are from#visit the site of their town. blythes ferry. gravesites and house sites and pre contact archaeological sites.#also for friends and such ill likely have no service so if i disappear thats why#ill turn my queue up before i go in the field if i remember. whatever haha
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i know that when carlo suddenly decided that he needs to marry guy made a whole list in his head n like had a deadlines n shit. like it was some kind of a task he needed to do
#whole fkin campaign. idk still not sure how it was but man was in his peacock era for sure#n it's like i need to find a wife i need to make it in 2 (or whatever) months etc etc#but its like a bg task n he didn't speak bout it w others. like he just said that he needs to marry#also idk if i mentioned this but i wrote lauretta/carlo first meet long ago n she was w her fiance#i just listened to ��pretty music” again sorry. i like that uh governor or tf this character is#changes his behaviour from one woman to another so real. n that fkin “but im a lucky guy who gets to dance w u”#and “since u know what i need i'll even take your lead” <- fr like im sure lauretta screwed him for several times#just to see if he's really serious good old manipulations w men nothing new nothing superstitious#upd. he probably made a mind budget for this (i mean finding a wife)#n bout lauretta screwing carlo its like in this ukranian song Ти ж мене пiдманула ти ж мене пiдвела#but since he's a strategist he's patient (like i wanted to accent this quality sm i wrote#that carlo started thinkin bout taking moretti's place back in 1932)#anyway. “Challenge accepted” situation and idk fr for some reason when it's carlo eddie lauretta it's always bout playing#so lauretta started playing n he entered this play too. i don't even think he was exactly mad (maybe only for the 1st time)#at this point i have a clear image of how they met n their first dates (cringe word) n how he proposed#ie how it started how it ended. ending was fast i believe (deadline is approaching 🤯)#what was in between i don't exactly know but i wondered just now if he also screwed lauretta (i think yes)#bc i don't knooowwww frrr all this is so bout playing to me#but bout ending its like. boss fight (<- sex) game credits (<- marriage) ((speedrun))#also i was thinkin if he even ever met lauretta's parents (i always thought that no but idk)#can imagine lauretta calling carlo a good friend. i also hm ok#i started to write a comic like a month ago just bout falcone polycule n it starts w#carlo who says that he finally needs to get married n lauretta's mother askin (in a pushing way) why#her n her fiance still aren't married like girl tf. she jinxed it i guess#upd. carlo/lauretta is funny in my head bc right before marriage he did fell in love lauretta didn't but guy's profitable we'll take him👍#she did only after marriage i think bc it was the time when u can finally relief bc it's over#u don't need to think bout no yes no no yes yes will it work or won't etc#woman was able to fucking chill at last. she got the money sorry i mean the man#he's not runnin away let's finally look who the fuck is even this man. why he won't shut up bout astronomy can i get a divorce <- jk#but yeah “я тобi брехала” is so lauretta right after marriage to me (“i dont even know the color of ur hair”)
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i am begging on my hands and knees for jon matteson and bryce charles to sing a song together. since i first watched npmd, every single day without fail i have thought about their harmonies together in hatchet town (“if he gets me next i could be three” and “fits the bill, he fits the bill”) literally the sickest harmonies in the entire show, i turn into a little gremlin every time i hear them. their voices sound SO good together it actually makes me a little ill. my favourite song my favourite line my favourite harmonies, their voices blend perfectly and i am so desperate to hear them sing a duet to hear them singing together again pls pls please pls pls pls. pls.
#the ‘if he gets me next i could be three’ harmony is something else#nobody understand what that line does to me and the indescribable joy i am filled with each and every time i hear it#give me a song where they sing together doesnt even have to be a full duet ill take anything PLEASEEEE#and dont let me be the only one who feels like this i know some of u bitches get the same crazy chills i do on those lines#hatchet town best song and i will die on this hill#only a little bit insane about them like a normal amount i promise#bryce said this was her favourite harmony to sing in the whole show as well and i felt SO validated when i heard that#they are both such incredible performers and have such fantastic vocal abilities it just makes sense to pair them together#please#im asking soooo nicely bestie starkid pls pls pls pls#and they sound so good in every single version both live and studio absolutely unparalleled talent#also i think corey is also singing on the fits the bill line but my point still stands it sounds gorgeous#corey can join them too actually. bryce charles jon matteson duet with a corey dorris feature#i would drop silly amounts of money for it#ok i think im done i can shut up now#sooooo much brainrot from this musical#npmd#nerdy prudes must die#hatchetfield#bryce charles#jon matteson#starkid#tilda rambling
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