#Bering and Wells love of my life

[lilolilyr]

Dearest Myka,

My love, I have been yours all my life, even when we hadn't yet met.

It is the truth: I have not felt for any other as I do for you. My darling, the one who broke through my shell of grief, and the one I will be forever loyal to. We could be centuries apart and I would still be yours.

Beloved, I write to you this letter knowing I will probaly be by your side before you can hold the pages in your hands... yet, I still feel the need to bring my thoughts to paper, tell you how much I miss you, how dearly I love you and despise being parted from you.

Perhaps it is just that I am more used to paper and ink, but it always feels hollow when I just type it on my phone, and I thought I would have to wait to profess my love again until next we met in person, but no: in this letter, it still rings true.

I love you.

I know I am not always easy to love, and I am grateful that you stand by my side despite all the sorrows, and I promise to always do my best to be worthy of you and your affection.

Forever Yours

Helena

[divorcecourtdad]

imagine you are in your mid twenties. you were always out of place - the eldest, uglier daughter of a bookstore owner that never said he loved you and was always disappointed in the decisions you made. you read science fiction and 40s detective novels and quite literally studied the blade because it was better than being at home or getting rejected by boys.

you've just been reassigned all the way across the country after the married coworker you were sleeping with was shot in the line of duty - on YOUR watch. everyone was looking at you because YOU let him die. so they sent you away. and now that you're here, it almost happens again.

something weird happens and they send you... all the way across the country again, with someone new in some weird location doing god knows what. and you get to do wonderful beautiful amazing scary life altering things. and you build a life there. you adopt a ferret and you move all of your belongings and you make friends and you save lives.

and then. oh, and then.

you grew up reading the novels. you fell in love with the writing and the fantasy of it all - science we could never dream of having and concepts we could never think of exploring. and then you got this job, and it all... it was all possible.

and then you met her. you found out she was actually a woman. and you met her. sure it was at the hot end of a gun, but. she saved your life. she gave you one of her inventions. she took you on wild adventures. you became partners.

you fell in love.

and then you met at the hot end of a gun again. she betrayed you, everyone you worked with, everyone you worked to make trust the both of you. she fell apart. you fell apart.

you gave it all up. they made her disappear.

she comes back one day. it's not really her. they trapped her mind and released her body off into the world. and just as you get her back she's gone again. she's gone and you're gone and she looks at you and says how dare you come back, how dare you interrupt my life, the life i'm building, the life i have away from you what are you doing here myka

"you called us"

myka bering you deserved so much more. you deserved more than bury your gays you deserved more than silent and implied bisexuality you deserved more than longing looks and lingering stares myka bering you deserved to be happy and to be emotional and to love helena wells with every part of your being and i am so sorry you didn't get that babe

[literaryvein-reblogs]

hii I love your stuff can you make writing notes about volcanoes I wanted to write abt them for my writing project and I'm having a hard time on in thx ^^

Writing Notes: Volcanoes

Volcano - vent in the crust of Earth or another planet or satellite, from which issue eruptions of molten rock, hot rock fragments, and hot gases.

Volcanoes are Earth's geologic architects.

They've created more than 80 percent of our planet's surface, laying the foundation that has allowed life to thrive.

Their explosive force crafts mountains as well as craters.

Lava rivers spread into bleak landscapes.

But as time ticks by, the elements break down these volcanic rocks, liberating nutrients from their stony prisons and creating remarkably fertile soils that have allowed civilizations to flourish.

Some 75% of the world's active volcanoes are positioned around the ring of fire.

It is a 25,000-mile long, horseshoe-shaped zone that stretches from the southern tip of South America across the West Coast of North America, through the Bering Sea to Japan, and on to New Zealand.

This region is where the edges of the Pacific and Nazca plates butt up against an array of other tectonic plates.

Importantly, however, the volcanoes of the ring aren't geologically connected.

In other words, a volcanic eruption in Indonesia is not related to one in Alaska, and it could not stir the infamous Yellowstone supervolcano.

Active – volcanoes known to have erupted during historical times. (Total Number = 529)

Dormant – volcanoes that have not erupted during historical times, but will probably erupt again. (Total Number = 1,340)

Extinct – volcanoes that are unlikely to erupt again.

The 3 Classic Types of Volcanoes

TYPE — SIZE — LIFESPAN

Cinder Cone — Small (<1,000 ft; 330 m tall) — Short (single eruption of a few months)

Composite Volcano — Large (usually between 6,500 and 20,000 ft; 2,000-3,000 m tall) — Long (hundreds of thousands of years)

Shield Volcano — Very large (up to a maximum of 33,000 ft; 10,000 m tall) — Very long (up to a million years or longer)

Different shapes of volcanoes have different kinds of eruptions.

The most explosive eruptions come from stratovolcanoes, like the Augustine Volcano in Alaska. When they erupt, stratovolcanoes blow huge columns of gas and ash into the air that can collapse in hot, fast-moving clouds called pyroclastic flows.

A shield volcano, like Mauna Kea in Hawaii, has gentle slopes formed by oozing, runny lava. The magma is low in silica and low in gas, so it doesn’t erupt explosively.

A lava dome, like the one of Chaitén Volcano in Chile, forms when thick lava oozes from a vent, piles up, and cools into a steep mound. The lava is thick because it’s high in silica, and it oozes instead of explodes because it’s low in gas. Sometimes lava domes form after explosive eruptions.

A cinder cone volcano, like Tavurvur in Papua New Guinea, forms when erupted fragments harden and fall to the ground, accumulating around the vent in a cone shape. The lava is low in silica, so the lava is runny. High gas levels make for the explosive eruptions that send it flying. Cinder cones typically form at the beginning of eruptions, and lava flow follows.

Olympus Mons - a giant shield volcano on Mars. It is believed to be the largest volcano in the solar system. The entire island of Hawaii would fit in its caldera.

In more-detailed classification schemes based on character of eruption, volcanic activity and volcanic areas are commonly divided into 6 major types, shown schematically in the diagram. They are listed as follows in order of increasing degree of explosiveness:

Icelandic

Hawaiian

Strombolian

Vulcanian

Pelean

Plinian

There are different types of volcanic eruptive events, including:

pyroclastic explosions, with is fast-moving hot gas and volcanic matter

hot ash releases

lava flows

gas emissions

glowing avalanches, when gas and ashes release.

Volcanic eruptions can also cause secondary events, such as floods, landslides and mudslides, if there are accompanying rain, snow or melting ice.

Hot ashes can also start wildfires.

Volcanic eruptions can impact climate change through emitting volcanic gases like sulfur dioxide, which causes global cooling, and volcanic carbon dioxide, which has the potential to promote global warming.

Features and Erupted Material

Viscosity: The resistance of a material (usually a fluid) to flow. Example of comparison would be the higher resistance to flow of cake batter compared to water.

Lava Flow: Lava flow is thin at the top of the cone, while lava pooled at the base is very thick. When eruptions end, erosion processes start on the cooled lava, including glacier erosion, flowing water, rockfall, and landslides. The volcano will only grow in size if the amount/volume of lava erupted is more than the amount that is lost to erosion.

Volcanic Gases: Most gases originate in the mantle and are transported to the crust and surface by complex interactions with magma and rocks along the way. In general, gases are dissolved in the magma. At shallow depths, as pressure on the magma decreases, gases leave the magma. The gases can interact with surrounding rocks or continue to the surface. The most common volcanic gases are: Water Vapor (H2O), Carbon Dioxide (CO2), and Sulfur Dioxide (SO2). Gases can be both dissolved in the magma chamber and also emitted from volcanoes at the surface. It’s the dissolved gases cause volcanoes to erupt.

A magma chamber contains high pressure and dissolved gases.

The density contrast between the magma and the surrounding rock causes more buoyant magma to rise. As the magma rises, the dissolved gases start to come out of the liquid and form bubbles.

As the bubbles grow and increase in volume, it causes the magma to became more buoyant and ascend closer to the surface, allowing the overlying pressure to decrease and produce magmatic foam.

When the pressure in the bubbles is greater than the pressure of the overlying rock, then the chamber will burst causing a volcanic eruption.

The viscosity, temperature and composition of the magma determine whether the explosion is explosive or effusive.

More Features and Erupted Material

Silica: Influences lava viscosity and overall shape of the volcano. Silica molecules form a strong bond that permits entrapment of volcanic gases and promotes explosive volcanic eruptions. Low-silican magmas allow rapid escape of gases and low-explosivity eruptions. Other factors that control magma viscosity include the temperature, gas, water content and the amount of crystals in the magma.

Color: Color and texture of lava vary considerably depending on cooling conditions. Lava rocks at high temperatures appear red to orange in color but cool quickly to shades of red (due to oxidation) and gray.

Sound: Witnesses of slow-moving, partially cooled lava flows report sounds similar to breaking of glass and pottery, caused by the splintering of the cooled outer skin of the lava flow. In contrast, the passing of a pyroclastic flow is eerily quiet. Some people say this is because its sound energy is absorbed within the billowing ash cloud.

Smell: Observers of lava flows report a slight sulfur smell in the air and the odor of burning vegetation.

Texture: Lava at Mount Rainier is not as fluid as lava at the volcanoes on Hawai'i, where lava flows sometimes resemble hot molasses, nor is it as viscous as lava at Mount St. Helens.

Tephra: Fragmental material produced by a volcanic eruption regardless of composition, fragment size or emplacement mechanism. Also referred to as pyroclasms (airborne), and pyroclastic flows (on ground) and rocks. Tephra can stay in the stratosphere for days to weeks following an eruption. It can also reflect light and heat from the sun back into the atmosphere. Tephra mixed with precipitation can also be acidic and cause acidic rain and snowfall. Tephra is made up of ash (fragments of pulverized rock, minerals and volcanic glass), volcanic blocks (a mass of molten rock), and lapilli (little broken up pieces of molten or semi-molten lava ejected from eruption).

Other Types of Volcanic Rock

If a rhyolite lava flow cools quickly, it can quickly freeze into a black glassy substance called obsidian. When filled with bubbles of gas, and usually with explosive eruptions, the same lava will form pumice. If the same lave is allowed to cool slowly…it will form a light-colored, uniformly solid rock called rhyolite.

Pumice most commonly forms with rhyolite lava flows, though it has formed from dacite and andacite. flows as well. It is so lightweight, it will float on water.

Obsidian has been used for centuries in many countries for things such as weapons and art.

The shape and size of a volcano are controlled by several factors

The volume of volcanic products

The interval length between eruptions

The composition of volcanic products

The variety of volcanic eruption types

The geometry of the vent

The environment into which the volcanic products are erupted

Overall, 44 volcanoes were in continuing eruption status as of 23 December 2024.

An eruption marked as "continuing" does not always mean persistent daily activity, but indicates at least intermittent eruptive events without a break of 3 months or more.

There are typically 40-50 continuing eruptions, and out of those generally around 20 will be actively erupting on any particular day (though detailed statistics on daily activity is not usually kept).

Health concerns after a volcanic eruption include:

Infectious disease

Respiratory illness

Burns

Injuries from falls

Vehicle accidents related to the slippery, hazy conditions caused by ash

When warnings are heeded, the chances of adverse health effects from a volcanic eruption are very low.

Volcanic Ash. Exposure to ash can be harmful. Ash is gritty, abrasive, sometimes corrosive, and always unpleasant. Small ash particles can abrade (scratch) the front of the eye. Ash particles may contain crystalline silica, a material that causes a respiratory disease called silicosis.

Sources: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ⚜ More: References ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs

Thanks so much! Do go through the links above for more details I wasn't able to include here. Hope this helps with your writing :)

[latay7]

hiihii!! could you write either lance/orter/carpaccio/rayne getting slightly jealous because the reader looks like they were bering courted by a guy, but turns out they were asking that guy for advice to help the reader to confess to character,,,thankyou:3

*ੈ✩‧₊˚WHY HELLO HELLOOO!!*ੈ✩‧₊˚

First of all thank you so much for your ask ><♡♡ and i will try my best since this is my first fanfic/headcannon , so i hope you like it ✨️(and i hope i wrote what u wanted bcz i can get a bit dumb)

A misunderstanding..?

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥Char : Lance crown , Orter Madl x fem!reader

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥genre : fluff

Note : reader appearence , prefrence , dorm , is up to ur imagination (wanted to be inclusive TvT) and god is this too long and it took me a while

Note 2 : im sorry this turned out to be bad , it's late at night and idk wtf am i , (english is not my first language btw)

☆ Lance crown

You were an ordinary student at Easton Academy , you had your friends and lived your life , diffrent classes and sessions here and there and tried your best !

Although Easton's Curriculum makes every student busy with a full schedule , you're thankful that you get the time to hang out with your friends...Adler's most famous idiots students!! They were all so nice and fun so you had a lovely time with them.

You enjoy their company to the point where you squeeze your schedule to be with them which had a certain outcome....you developed a big small crush on the blue haired one and only , Lance crown!!(lance stroll lol)

You found his dedication and hard work for the sake of his sister Anna adorable , his love for her might go too much sometimes but- it doesn't matter , it proved how much of a sweetheart he is , which made you live him even more.

And now...you found yourself in a dilemma , how are you gonna confess your feelings to him?? THE Lance crown , who never looks like he seeks love..

You excused yourself with Finn to talk privately

Since he's technically the sanest in the group....

So , here we are in this moment.

You were with Finn outside his dorm behind a close corner ,and Lance noticed your dissappearence for a while so decided to check up on you.

"You see Finn , i've had this thing for a long time now , and it's just unexplainable.."

"Don't worry (Y/N) , I understand , but how can i help you out"

At this moment , you could feel your face heating up a bit , it's natural after all you're talking about a CRUSH.

"So i just wanted to get some advice from you since you guys meet a lot more than i do with him , how should i tell him a-and what if he doesn't like me back ,i mean he doesn't really show any interest in me-" at this point you started to ramble , and to calm you down , Finn held your hands in his as he tries to convince you that it's gonna be alright. Meanwhile...

Lance was watching , but he didn't hear anything...so he just saw how you acted but he didn't want to jump to conclusions.

'Was i too late..?' He can't shake off the stinging feeling in his chest , he was hurt , yet somehow mad or even perhaps...jealous?

After a while

It was after hours so you rushed back to your room after saying goodbye to your friends. And while you try to sneak your way through Easton's halls you see a figure you know , it was....Lance?? What was he doing here?

"Lance...? Why are here?"

"Oh there you are..you see...i wanted to talk.." this was concerning

"Oh...really ?..me too"

"I...."

The next words were DEFENTLY unexpected for you , i mean , sure he was nice towards you but you didn't want to be delusional so this was a shock....

But of course , with the shock comes the joy.

"...and i don't want to make things awkward because i knew you and F- why are smiling like that..."

A sigh leaves your mouth with a slight chuckle....apparently he was an idiot as well , so you decided to take a brave move.

"What are you-"

*kiss*

His shocked flustered expression is to DIE for.

"Just a misunderstanding ehe...." you smile.

☆Orter ( at this point tf am i doing)

As a devine visionary yourself , you have many responsobilites and missions to take , paperwork to do , and meetings to attend.

Thus , after your were finally chosen as the devine visionary yourself because of your hard work , you had to meet up with the other visionaries and work under them , including Orter Madl.

You've tried your best to leave a good impression on them because you were quite nervous , obviously.

You could say you were able to get close to some of the visionaries by being attentive and a fast learner , you were trying your best !

Seemingly except....Orter.

Despite your big efforts in helping him in paperwork , doing good on most of the missions you were went on , being so nice and respectful to him , he seemed like he didn't care , he declined everything.

And it DEFENETLY didn't help with the crush you developed on him. You found him elegant , hardworking , and most defently handsome (im screaming in the bus rn dude) despite him being emotionally constipated. (wtf am i saying)

So you decided to ask for help.

Here you are , in Ryoh Grantz' office , asking him what you should do considering he is married and all.

"Im sorry if this meeting is a nuisance Mr Ryoh but you were the only one i could ask for help.." a drop of sweat as you speak sheepishly.

" oh don't worry about it , you've been helping me out a lot recently so it's only fair if i return the favour , and besides , it is a good opportunity to .....distress" he says in a cheerful tone , he liked you , otherwise you wouldn't have been drinking tea in his office " and just Ryoh is fine ,now tell me , what's wrong?"

You tell him your issue as your embarrasment grows even further , i mean , that's not just ANY matter to speak about , However , you manage to go through the entire thing.

He hums in understanding "i see i see , well i have to agree with you on his emotional constipation , he doesn't even show his brother any emotions either"

Your chest starts to feel heavier as you sweat comically , "but don't worry about it , i mean , if i was to be really honest with you and if we talk in terms of emotions...."

Righ then and there , a certain someone was passing by as he heard only a part of the conversation , he got curious but he couldn't make out...everything...

Only a few words....

Emotions , confessing , feelingsa and...Kaldo??!

What in the.....he knew Ryoh was married and....does that mean he's helping you confess to Kaldo ??

Orter Madl , despite his stoic face and cold ruthless demeanor , had a soft spot for you , he felt somthing for you , he tried to show it by being less mean to you compared to others, and taking some paperwork of yours to finish himself , as well as doing what he can so you take the easiest missions , but it seems like it wasn't that obvious...

He knew you and Kaldo were on good terms but to the point where his thoughts led to thinking...you ? And-

No , he refused to believe it.

"So yes , Kaldo could be someone good to ask since these two are quite together at a lot of times-"

Knock knock , Orter entered the office in the middle of your talk.

"O-oh hi-"

"If you'll excuse me Ryoh , i need to talk to (Y/N)" And Ryoh accepts nevously -because his appearence was very unexpected- and lets you leave.

You and Orter are now walking through the hall of the building because you're following him to god knows where. Until you reach a private area where you two could talk.

"You didn't tell me why are we-"

"What do you have of feelings for Kaldo?"

"Huh"...was the only word that came out of your mouth , Dumbfounded was the least you could think of to describe yourself right now.

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me , now answer me , what are the feelings you have for him"

"Wait a min-"

Realization never hit you this hard , so you started laughing as he watches confused , why are you laughing.

"Ok here's the whole thing mister eavsdropper..."

.

.

That ended well , for both parties , Ryoh bless your soul.

[amtrak12]

Bering and Wells Fic - Curiously Cozy (11k - Complete)

AAAAHHHHHHHH I finished on time!! Even despite this thing ballooning out to 11k words! 🎉

This fic is a gift for @purlturtle who tossed out the suggestion of Myka and Helena solving a cozy murder or discussing one, and I turned that into Helena discovering the cozy mystery genre because... I had a torrid love affair with cozy mystery books around the same time as my WH13 days LOL

I would describe this fic as a healing journey and features more introspection than external plot, but dear purlturtle, I hope you enjoy it! And a very happy Bering and Wells Holiday Gift Exchange Day to you! 💜 ( @b-and-w-holiday-gift-exchange )

Title: Curiously Cozy Fandom: Warehouse 13 Ship: Bering and Wells Rating: G Word Count: 10,959 (😳) Genre: Introspection, Slice of Life, Mildly angsty with a definitive happy ending Setting: Canon Divergence, Post-S3 Summary:

When given the chance to look through Emily Lake’s belongings, Helena discovers a wide collection of cozy mystery novels. She’s initially skeptical of them — the titles use puns and there are far too many cats featured on the covers — but then the books turn out to be a useful distraction while the Regents debate her fate. They even inspire Helena to explore a new avenue that helps her work through her conflicted emotions.

Read here on AO3

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 4 - Catholic Character Tournament

Propaganda below ⬇️

John

he’s a priest. he can punch your lights out. he would never hurt a fly. he has connections in the black market. he gives everything he can to the local orphans. he will not hesitate to play pranks on you. he wants everyone to be happy. he has daddy issues probably. he wants a promotion sososososoooooo bad.

I accidentally submitted the last 5actors name but it’s the same guy

Hey everyone please vote for this man I love him he truely is what we need more of in this world the kindest most relatable character has flaws etc etc. Deserves the world

Enrico propaganda

He grew up in the church and became a priest. so devoted to his faith he ended the UNIVERSE to achieve the perfect world aka heaven

Hes Catholic but also so gay for this one vampire that he ended the world for him

He is LITERALLY one big metaphor for the catholic church as a villain. He’s a guy who believes himself to be a martyr on a fundamentally altruistic quest that will better humanity and the world, but in truth hes a destructive force blind to his faults and hypocritical of the atrocities he commits. Even his altruisim is just a lie (that he does believe himself though) because it all just stems from a deep rooted desire he has to alliviate the guilt he feels. Also hes obsessed with ”the world to come” to the point that hes downright nihilistic towards the current world he actually lives in, as well as the other people in it. which i mean. lol. Ultimately hes an insane delusional queen and he should win this because he is just That catholic. also he is a catholic priest :)

his names pussy bc he served cunt (in a catholic god honoring way)

I want my bestie’s guy in bere

No one could feel guilt to this level if not catholic

Religious Allegory mostly woth how his power(white snake) is contradictory it has white to make you think of good things but it contrast with snake a creature that tempted adam and eve. Although he is a Man of faith his stand’s design is far from it being incredibly intimidating and lined with the genetic of dna whihc is scientific compared to faith.

Bro tries to kill a child

serial killer priest bro

HE IS INSANE He spent his whole life believing in fate and when his world turned around Shakespeare tragedy style he made it his mission to bring 「HEAVEN TO EARTH」, which means TEARING AWAY THE FABRIC OF REALITY SO THAT EVERYONE IS AWARE OF THEIR OWN FATE. How does he get there? Simple! By using a half-baked horse to SPEED UP TIME UNTIL THE UNIVERSE RESETS AND LAUNCHES EVERYONE INTO A NEW WORLD. How did he GET this horse??? Oh, as one does - his (dead) best friend’s toe bone grew into a baby made of leaves that vored him, but he survived and grew even more eyebrows than he already had. And that’s without getting into the STUFF that makes him a phenomenal, S-tier, fine wine that EXPLODES and causes you to see VISIONS type of character. That’s just the surface. But, ah, that’s Catholics for ya. Vote Enrico Pucci for king of the Catholic tournament. 👍🏻

[pullupinarari]

OH MA GAWD

GIRL PLS

NO I THOUGHT U BLOCKED ME OR U LEFT I WAS ACC LOWKEY FULLY GOING JOE GOLDBERG TRYNA FIND U

LIKE I FOUND SOMEONE REBLOG U BUT I WAS LIKE RARI?

NAH MA GIRL PULLED UP IN A BENZ

THINK I FOUND U ON KOFI?

BUT U JUST CHANGED UR USER WHICH I LOVE

LIKE HIS FERRARI MOVE HAS BEEN PERFECT FOR ME CUZ WHEN I SAY DARK DEEP RED HAS BEEN MY COLOUR LIKE MY WHOLE WARDROBE LIKE MY LIFE NOBODY COULD BODY AND OWN RED LIKE ME

NO STOP IM NEVER GETTING OVER THIS PANIC

LIKE I CRIED I LOVE UR ANGST I WAS LIKE OH MY SHAYLAA

CUZ I LOVE ANGST

CUT ME DEEP

neway gonna take a while to mentally recover from this one

idk if u do emojis or smth but u can always remember me as angst sucker panic dark red baddie

Girl the way I was so confused while reading this but I still laughed 😭😭😭 I’m here!! Just changed the name and theme to fit the Ferrari season AND HOLY SHIT DARK RED BLOOD IS MY COLOUR AS WELL I AM LIVIIIING FOR THIS CHANGE 😩😩😩 no need to cry baby, me and my angst are right bere 🙂‍↕️ and yes I do emojis!! It’s actually so much easier for me to know who I’m talking to when yall pick an emoji to identify your asks!! So feel free to pick one if you’d like ❤️

[fuckyeah-beringandwellsfics]

Murmuration

submitted by: anonymous

Link and AO3 details: Murmuration (28090 words) by @roadien60

Chapters: 5/5

Fandom: Warehouse 13

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Relationships: Myka Bering/Helena "H. G." Wells

Characters: Myka Bering, Helena "H. G." Wells, Tracy Bering, Christina Wells, Warren Bering, Jeannie Bering, William Wolcott, Pete Lattimer

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Science Fiction

Series: Part 1 of Seven Worlds

Summary:

Myka Bering has spent her entire life falling in love with Helena Wells. It took Helena much less time than that to fall in love with Myka. It's all relative, you see.

Please tell us why you like this fic so much!

It's an incredibly compelling AU that uses the time dilation of space travel to amazing effect. One of my favorite Bering and Wells AUs!

[joprompts]

sweeney todd: the demon barber of fleet street lyric starters. act two. starters from the musical. adjust as necessary.

over here, boy, how about some ale?

more hot pies!

and what's your pleasure, dearie?

oops! i beg your pardon! just me hands is smeary—!

god, that's good!

what's my secret? frankly, dear — forgive my candor — family secret.

but we have to prepare!

is that a chair fit for a king?

i have a few minor adjustments to make.

you take your time.

me heart's aflutter!

i am in the dark beside you.

i'd want you beautiful and pale, the way i've dreamed you were.

i think we shall not meet again, my little dove. my sweet.

you're gone and yet you're mine.

city on fire!

i still have reason to rejoice. the way ahead to clear.

it's always morning in my mind.

i knew you'd come for me one day.

you stay the way i've dreamed you are.

oh, look! a star! a shooting star!

and though i'll think of you, i guess, until the day i die, i think i miss you less and less as every day goes by.

if only angels could prevail, we'd be the way we were.

wake up! another bright, red day!

we learn to say goodbye.

i'm so happy.

i could eat you up, i really could!

you know what i'd like to do, what i dream?

don't you want to know?

by the sea, that's the life i covet.

oh, i know you'd love it!

wouldn't that be smashing?

with the sea at our gate, we'll have kippered herring wot have swum to us straight from the straits of bering.

unless we've got better to do.

think how snug it'll be underneath our flannel when it's just you and me and the english channel.

we'll have chums over every friday.

don't you love the weather?

we'll grow old together.

oh, i can see us now — in our bathing dresses — you in a nice navy — and me, stripes perhaps. hmm.

but a seaside wedding could be devised.

you know, mum, there's nothing i wouldn't do for you. 

if there was a monster or an ogre or anything bad like that wot was after you, i'd rip it apart with my bare fists, i would. 

what a sweet child it is.

here, what is this? what are you talking about?

nothing's gonna harm you, not while i'm around.

demons are prowling everywhere nowadays. i'll send them howling. i don't care — i got ways.

others can desert you — not to worry, whistle, i'll be there.

demons'll charm you with a smile for a while.

not to worry, i may not be smart, but i ain't dumb!

i can do it. put me to it. show me something i can overcome.

being close and being cleaver ain't like being true.

i would never hide a thing from you like some.

now, let's stop all this foolish chatter and just sit here, nice and quiet. 

i didn't know you was a music lover, too.

when i saw this dear old song book i couldn't resist.

where are you hiding?

but they are after us still. what if they should trace us here? oh, let me come with you!

my darling, there is no safety for you on the street.

the risk is too great.

soon we'll be gone and sailing the seas.

i'll be back before those lips have time to lose that smile. 

oh, she’s the devil’s wife! oh, beware her, sir. beware of her. she, with no pity in her heart. 

hey, don't i know you?

you're in a merry mood today again.

how seldom it is one meets a fellow spirit.

with a fellow taste in women, at least.

have all the demons in hell been sent to torment me?

why did you scream?

no, i never lied!

i've come home again.

you’re a bloody wonder. eminently practical and yet appropriate as always.

as you've said repeatedly, there's little point in dwelling in the past.

come here, my love. not a thing to fear, my love.

what's dead is dead.

everything i did, i swear it was only for the best.

can we still be married?

the history of the world, my pet, is learn forgiveness and try to forget.

and life is for the alive, my dear. so let's keep living it!

to seek revenge may lead to hell.

to seek revenge may lead to hell, but everyone does it and seldom as well.

[inlovewhithafairytale]

I think we lost her part 2

I'll be good

Theo reaken x reader

never meant to start a fire I never meant to make you bleed I'll be a better man today

I'll be good, I'll be good And I'll love the world, like I should Yeah, I'll be good, I'll be good For all of the times that I never could

My past has tasted bitter for years now So I wield an iron fist Grace is just weakness Or so I've been told I've been cold, I've been merciless

But the blood on my hands scares me to death Maybe I'm waking up today

Yn slammed the door of the truck and started walking toward the MCcall household yawning. She walked toward the door and furrowed her eyebrows when she heard some yelling from the inside and someone angrily walking toward the door.

Malia appeared with her face into a decuided frown and stalked past her berely giving yn a hello.

"Well hello to you too bestie" yn muttured and walked into the house closing the door shut behind her. Scott inmidiatly appeared and his eyes widened in shock when he saw her.

"Yn.. uh what are you doing here?!"

"I told her to come" liam answered scott before yn had the chance to. Scott looked as if he would kill is own beta and liam lifted his hands up in defense "Idont think is fair that we lied to her and shes one of my best friends! She was literally going to kill herself!"

Yn raised an eyebrow at the alpha and the beta wondering what had gotten into them"you guys" they both turned around to face her "I am very confundida, and why does this even have to do with me?"

Scott started to say something to probably send her home when Yn heard a voice she though she'd never hear in her lifetime, a voice she could only hear in dreams.

"Yn?"

She rushed between liam and scott and into the kitchen and saw theo pushing himself to stand, blood falling from his nose.

His eyes widened when they met hers and yn drew in a sharp breath looking around, but scott liam and hayden were all looking between the both of them.

"Your'e here?"she whispered

"Hey baby" he answered giving her a small smile eyes full of tears.

Yn gave a breathy laugh and ran toward him wrapping her arms around his neck and her legs around his torso.

Theo held her tightly against him chuckling "oh god youre here, youre here, youre not dead"yn repeated aginst his neck as she held tightly onto him.

"Im here princess. And i dont plan on living any time soon" theo murmured aginst her hair and then kissed her cheek. Yn let go and theo set her down on the floor putting a hand aginst her cheek. Both their eyes were full of tears as they both chuckled happily. Then theo bent down and kissed her, putting both his hands against her face, lips fitting perfectly together moving in slow motion.

Yn pulled away after a moment and looked up to him smiling "I thought you were dead"

"Well not exactly "

"But scott said-" yns words hitched and she whipped around to face Scott. "You lied to me?" She demanded.

Scott blinked and nodded"yes, because i knew-"

"Where on earth has he been this past 3 months?"

"On hell with his sister" scott answered

Yn pursed her lips in a tight line and shook her head "how could you?! Scott ive trusted you with my life and you just couldnt keep the only person ive ever loved safe?"

"Yn hes KILLED people, he killed his own sister, he killed ME, he hurt your dad-"

I though you were the true alpha"yn snapped"i though you were the one with the heart of gold, the one who belived in second chances! The one who actually cared!" Yn swallowed down the tears that were threatening to fall" I gess i was wrong"

"I did what I had to do to protect the pack" scott said defended himself.

"Dont you think I know!" Yn screamed her eyes flashing their signature violet " I would do anything for the pack, to keep everyone safe, Im the one who tries to keeps everybody safe. But when it comes down to it YOU couldent keep the Only person I've ever loved safe, ive never asked for anything scott. Not once. Why on earth did you lie to me?"

Scott couldent find the right words he knew yn was angry, and he also knew she would do anything to protect the people she loved "I knew you'd raise hell if necessary to bring him back" he answered

"Yes I would!scott i tried to kill myself because i felt a gaping whole on my chest. I had constant nightmares and you saw me go through all that because you tried to keep the pack safe?because yo knew ill bring him back?!" Yn squintedher eyes dangerously "i genuinely despise you scott MCcall"

"Yn listen im sorry-" scott said trying to apologize

"You could have said that around 3 months ago dont you think?"

Yn turned reached for theo's hand who had been staying silent through all the conversation as well as the others. He took her hand and let himself be gided toward the door.

"Were are you going?" asked scott blocking their way

"Im living and theo is coming with me, try to stop me and I WILL raise hell" yn threatened

Scott moved out of the way and tried to look at his betas for help but hayden only shrugged "shes right" and liam went to follown them, katana in hand.

"Yn!" Liam called before they could exit the house

Yn turned around to face him and liam extended the katana for her to take"you would problay want this" he tould her

Yn gave him a small smile as she reached for the katana" thanks liam"

Liam nodded and looked at theo who gave him a silent thanks by giving him a nod wich he returned.

When they exited the house and theo saw his truck he gave her a small smile " you kept it"

Yn shrigged and gave him a tighed liped smile"its yours, it just felt like the only thing i had left from you." She reached the keys out to him " you drive"

"Nah give me a few days to adjust on being back"

Yn gave him a small nod "ok" she walaked toward the deivers side as theo got into the passangers.

Yn turned on the ignition, and once theo was in started driving home.

"Why did liam let you out?"

"He thought i still had Josh's power" he kept his gaze on the road " but I didnt"

"You dont have it anymore?"

"No, Joshs or tracy's im back to good old me" he answered giving her a sad little smile

"Thats great, I like old you" she spared a glance at him with a smile" its actually my favorite you"

Theo laughed and took her hand giving it a smalla squeez. Then as if he caughed a smell of something he opened small compartment between the seats.

"Uh dodnt open that" yn said trying to stop him but he just gave her a puzzled loom and pulled out a bottle of vodka half empty

"Or do..." yn said pursing her lips on a tight line and kepping her eyes fixed on the road.

Theo looked from the bottle to her eyebrows raised "didnt know you drinked"

" I didnt."

"Does this have to maybe do with the fact that you said earlier you almost killed youself" he asked her quietly. Knowing he was walking on thin ice." Uh.. yeah" she answered her eyes till fixed in the road

"What happened?" His voice full of concern

Yn took a minute to answer "You were gone. You were Dead. And i just wanted to forget everything. Everybody was sympathetic but i knew they didnt even mean it. Everybody hated you" yn looked at theo who nodded at her to continue "so i took the bottke my dad kept hidden and downed it. I felt awful the next day. And thats an understatement, but just for a minute you know. I felt fine. I didnt feel anything anymore. So I took your truck and started driving every night to the look at point and sometimes malia found me there. Completely wasted. And thats how it went for 2 months. I went to school, locke myself in my room and do homework. Hit the shit out of my punch bag. And then drive to the look out point. Till one day i got in a fight with stiles and i decided that i didnt want to live anymore. So i downed a bottle of sleeping pills with vodka"

Theo drew in a sharp breath as he heard how much he actually meant to yn. How much she loved him, and it startled him. Be ause he thought he wasent meant to be loved.

"Dad found me in my room half an hour later and rushed me to the hospital were i spent 1 week in a bed"yn continued "it was awful. Dad made me promise him id never do it again. I actualky felt bad for everyone. They were all so worried. Stiles didnt live me out of hes sight till. Well you know.. got taken."

Once she parked the car in the driveway she spared a glace at theo.

He had tears in his eyes as he looked at her. Her hand securedly in his.

" Im so sorry" he whispered

"No oh god no theo" yns hand quickly went to his face " baby its not your fault, i shoulent have told you now"

"No, im glad you told me" he said swallowing down his tears " do you really love me that much?"

"To the point were i would kill myself to be with you, YeS" yn aswered lokking into his eyes " yes theo I love you, and i would do anything for you. dont. You. Ever. Doubt That.:

"I love you too yn. I love you so much" theo said gently squeezing the hand he held in his." Don't doubt that'

"Trust me. I don't " yn answered with a breathy laugh.

Theo rolled his eyes at her and then gave her a peck in the lips." So what do you plan on doing with this" he asked taking the bottle and lifting it

"Just live it in the car,dad would kill me if he knew I had that"

"Right" then he bent down and slided the bottle under his seat"there you go"

Yn chuckled and opened the door climing out of the car "so dads at work wich means we wont have to undergo akward questioning" she informed theo as they walked toward the doorway. Yn opened it and stepped in theo behind her. "Are you hungry? There's pasta. I can heat it up real quick"

"Uh no thanks, liam bought take out" theo answered smiling down at her.

"Kay" yn grinned back at him and took his hand leading him toward her room.

"Take a bath. You kind of smell" she said as they walked in, scruching her face into a smile

"Geez so hard" answered theo in mock pain. Yn just laughed and walked toward her drawer. Bent down and opened the botton one and pulled out one of theos shirt and pants.

"Here you go" she said straightening up and handing the clothes to him.

"I dont want to know?"

"There are clean towels in the bathroom "yn said ignoring him.

"Thanks mom" he jocked and kissed her cheek as he walked past her.

Yn stood there for a moment till she heard the water running with a big smile on her face.

He was back. Theo was finally back and alive. And soon they would get everyone the ghostriders took and everything would be alright.

Then she took off the taktop she had and her bra and pulled on an oversized shirt. And since she already had her pajama pant on climed to bed. Resting her back against the pillows.

She bent forward and retrieved a book next to her bedside. She was resting back comfortably when a notification rang on her phone. She 5ook it from the night table and ooened it to see it was Liam.

"Hey baby, liam asks where do we need 5o meet to get to the power thing"yn called

"Oh you mean the generator? Tell him its in the reserve" he answere from the bathroom.

"Okay...... uh, he asks 10 or 11 am, 11 right?

"Yeah" theo opened the door pulling on his shirt

Liam

Ok then

Wear protection ;)

Yn

Liam. NO

Yn turned off the phone chuckling at tye antics of the teenage werewolf

Theo sat down in the bed next ro her his back against the headboard.

"You look cute with your hair all wet" yn commented smiling up at him.

"Hmm"hummed theo nodding giving her a small smile"what are you reading?"

"The hunger games" yn answered lifting the book up.

"I saw the movie but never read the book"

"Youre welcome to read them anytime. This is actually the second book but the firt one has to be somewhere in my bookshelf."

"Ill take you up that offer" he muttered.

Then he gently slapped his tights gesturing her to come over" come here" he told her, more like a question that something else.

Yn smiled and sat on his lap. Her legs to one side and her head below the crook of his neck. She took one of his hands in hers and started playing with his fingers, while he ran his fingers through her hair with his other one. He pressed a kiss on the top of her head breathing her in, finally feeling as if he was finally home whit her in his arms.

"I never meant for you to get hurt" he whispered closing his eyes

" what do you mean?"yn softly asked him running her thumb softly on the top of his hand.

"I never meant it to be like this love, i never meant for you to get hurt. Ill be better yn. Ill be good" he muttered resting his chin on top of her head. yn could hear him sniffle as a tear rolled down his cheek "ill be good. I will try to be better. I will try to make things right. I shouldent have done what I did. I shouldent have hurt them. I shouldn't have been what ive been all this years. Ive been so cold. So heartless. So mercyless" he choked out tears falling. Yn held his hand betwee both of hers tightly. Letting him pour his feelings out." but yn. It scares me. All the blood in my hands terrifies me. And maybe. Maybe im waking up. Today. Ill be good. Ill be good" he sobbed. yn lifted her head ane put her arms around his neck letting him cry into her neck " I'll love the world like I should. I promise ill be good, for everyone I've ever hurt. For everything good ive ever doubted. For all the pain ive brought to you. For everything ive done all this years. For all those hipes and dreams ive killed. And for ever doubting you" he sobbed. Yn held him close as a few of her tears fell into his shirt. "Ill be good, I"ll be good" he repeated again

"I know you will theo" yn whispered " and promise ill be here. I promise I will always be here"

Theo snuggled his face into the crook of her neck and rounded his arms around her waist holding her close.

They sat there, holding each other. Till in the end yns eyelids closed without her consent, and she dozed off.

Theo felt her breath deepened and knew she had fallen asleep. He cautiously, trying not to wake her, rearranged the pillows. He leaned over and turned off the lights, and layed her in the mattress, tyen he laid down his front pressed to her back and rounded one of his arms around her waist.

"Mhh?" Yn hummed sleeply"sorry i just didnt sleep last night" she apologized sleeply

"Hey, its all right" theo cooed and yn turned around rounding one arm around his torso, snuggling closer and buring her face into his chest.

And there. They finally felt happy, like some part off them had finally returned. They felt like home

Ill edit this when I can but here it is!!

[lilolilyr]

Another version of this post, more edits below the cut!

Moodboard - Fanfic - Wallpaper - More W13

& in case anyone's curious, some progress pics:

Making just the pics black and white was easy bc of the white polaroid border:

& yeah I could not decide on moodboard arrangements xD i guess once this is up you'll be able to check which one I actually posted!

[seigephoenix]

Happy Friday! Could I suggest ❛  don't you understand yet? i'm only doing this because i love you.  ❜ for Cara/Illario, if you're in the mood for them?

I'm always in the mood to write Cara/Illario these days! Part 4 is being worked on for Darkside, their story. Writing these little drabbles definitely helps me! So thank you for the prompt!!

Content Warning: Veilguard spoilers, implied torture (but nothing graphic), blood magic, arguing

“My lady, are you certain this is wise?” Antes asked quietly following Cara down the hallway.  “You were supposed to meet with Rook, weren’t you?”  He watched the way her crimson hair swayed with each step they took down the hall.  The silence was unnerving.  Cara Valisti was rarely quiet.  She always had a quip or smart remark whenever he suggested something.  Her silence meant something was very, very wrong.

“You’ll meet with Rook and give them all of the information we acquired regarding Ivenci’s activities.  Teia and Viago are waiting for the report as well,” she replied carefully.  Antes recognized when his lady was forcing herself to remain calm.  She was furious and Antes pitied the man on the receiving end of it.  He stopped at the door leading to the rooftop path to the Cantori Diamond.  He bowed and promised he would not fail her.  “I never worry about you failing me Antes.  See to it that Lucanis is none the wiser about my movements.  If you need to, send them off on a wild goose chase, but keep them away from me.”

“As you wish my lady.”  Antes disappeared through the doorway.  Cara waited until the door shut behind him and she stormed towards the interrogation room.  The secret panel that only reacted to blood magic.  Her lip curled in a snarl as she saw the man kneeling on the floor.  His one broken horn decorated with the gold and jewels she’d paid him with.  He flinched when her boots came into view.

“Beres.”  The two guarding him bowed and exited quickly, not wanting to be on the receiving end of Cara’s temper.  “So you thought to betray me to Claudio, did you?”  She lashed out and grabbed his horn, forcing him to look up at her.  “Did you forget what I do to the people that betray me?”

“He would give me all the prisoners and I’d get to torture you,” Beres said with a sadistic sneer on his face.  Cara huffed and pushed his face away from her.  She stepped to the side, pulling off her cloak.  She wore a standard Crow set of armor underneath it, the perfect outfit for torture.

“Torture me?  I’m disappointed Beres.  After serving me for so long and you thought I’d fall into Claudio’s trap?  That sloppy ambush set up on a rooftop?  A rooftop I’d climbed in my youth?”  She saw his shoulders go rigid at her words.  “When will you learn?”  The tip of the dagger pushed against his chin, forcing his head up towards hers.  “I don’t tolerate betrayal,” she whispered.  Beres shuddered at the sadistic gleam in her eyes.

Cara stepped back when the door opened and Illario stepped inside.  “This doesn’t concern you Illario.  Get out.”  Illario simply leaned against the wall ignoring her command.  Cara released an aggravated sigh and shrugged.  “Fine, do as you please.  You aren’t to interrupt.”

“I would never dream of denying you the pleasure.”  She huffed and turned back to Beres.  She got to work.

Illario flinched hearing the screams of the qunari.  He knew Cara was cold, but to see her driving her blade into the qunari…  He shook his head.  Beres deserved his fate.  Turning on his mistress had consequences and he’d backed the wrong party.  Claudio would never stick his neck out for a mere pawn like Beres.  Cara would have.  He’d seen her do it for that templar of hers before.  Too bad Beres did the one thing that would guarantee Cara would kill him.

She turned away as Beres slumped forward onto the floor, the life rapidly draining from his body.  Illario jumped when her eyes turned to him.  “What’s the matter Illario?  You’re not scared of me, are you?”  She snickered at the very idea.  “When you’ve condoned so much worse than what I just did?”  Illario’s shoulders stiffened.

“I have no idea what you mean.”  Cara threw back her head laughing.  She held her hand out to the side and he stepped back at the red glow there.

“Come off it Illario.  You let your pretty little paramour into the Chantry.  I didn’t need to be a blood mage to smell the stink of it from here.  From what Lucanis said, it was a nightmarish scene.  All those bodies drained of blood and tossed aside carelessly.”  She let the sphere form in her hand, moving it over her fingers and bouncing it in her palm.

“That was Zara.”

“I almost forgot.  Nothing is your fault, is it Illario?  Always hiding in the shadows just enough to claim deniability.”  Cara shook her head and crushed the sphere, letting the thick crimson liquid drip down her skin in thick rivulets.

“Just what are you insinuating Cara?” Illario hissed.  Cara snickered at his outrage.

“While you weren’t the one that washed the Chantry’s walls with blood, it was you that gave Zara the key to the doors.  I heard the Chantry sisters were some of the first victims of hers.  Too bad, I did enjoy Sister Laurent’s singing voice.”  Illario grabbed her wrist in a viselike grip.  She winced before glaring at him.  “Release me now Illario.”

“Make me.”  His other hand came up to the brooch on his lapel.  Cara narrowed her eyes at it before her lips turned up in a smirk.

“You think you can overpower me with that tiny little trinket?  You need your own blood, don’t you Illario?  Does that little pin give you control over the blood of others yet?”  Cara brushed her hand over it to his surprise.  Instead of fear he saw excitement glittering in her eyes.  “Do you want to test it against me?”  She flashed him a predatory smile.

Illario released her wrist, almost shoving her away.  Cara let out a bitter laugh as he turned away from her.  “I didn’t think so.”

[lavendelhummel]

Hi! I'm your Bering and Wells Holiday Gift Exchange gifter! I'm a writer and will be crafting a story for you. I am happy to take any requests you have in terms of vibe, setting, rating, hijinks, etc.

I like AUs and happy to work with canon too. I prefer to write them getting together but will try established relationship on request. Finally, I can do happy or angsty endings but I promise I won't leave Myka and Helena without any hope. So don't ask for that :)

Hi! Ahhh okay, yeah I am here!

Sorry if this wasn’t a very prompt reply, my life is being a bit dramatic at the moment (When is it not. But different now. Anyway.). Okay! I am pretty nervous tbh because I am participating for the first time so I don’t really know what to say plus my tendency to ramble… I’ll just say list things I like?

First off: I do like established relationships, but getting together can be really good too! I think what I like about it is that the affection for each other is more on page when they are together for longer. Which leads me to:

I like sweet things, but not too sweet. Like, yes happy ending and yes fluff but realistic? Earned? I think you know what I mean? Humor is nice too!

I think I like them, particularly Myka, overcoming her insecurities. I have been thinking about what if she actually had finished one of the big uni- degrees she started (but abandoned in canon). What if Helena had been there because AU? A younger and not believing in herself Myka Bering doing big things being stressed out and being confronted with /supported by / annoying the hell out of Helena Wells? But that’s just a very self indulgent little thing, don’t feel obligated to make more out of it! I guess at the heart I am a hurt/comfort girlie…

So, yes I like AUs! But canon is cool too! 

I like every-day-life moments. I guess they feel soothing to me in this shaking sailboat that is life. 

I really like Helena being difficult. Just in general as a person. Myka too. But different, because of who they are. I kind of love them a lot.

You will see in my ao3 that his past year I had a thing for mermaids and for cavorite-exploration (why don’t they talk about that more in the show!!) - all these crazy HG Wells inventions and her writing are interesting! If you want to make something out of that, that could be fun. But no need to (my obsession with those two ideas is over the worst) .I also thing it can be funny and endearing for Helena to discover modern things (vaccines! Especially the polio but that’s my weird pet peeve. Not polio but vaccines but Helena would be fascinated by that one in particular imo) but that’s difficult with the timeline. 

Tropewise I’ve always enjoyed the fake relationship/fake married one for some reason. I don’t know what’s up with that. 

I like literature and history but am not that well versed anymore bc of afore mentioned life not sparing a lot of time the past few years - but since this is global exchange with bridging cultures my own expertise would vary anyways probably. 

I like when Myka and Helena are smart together. But maybe not too much, realistic much. 

Okay I took a moment to think of more I like and came back to this but I am having a very stressful few days and (being with family which blocks my creative thinking as well) so rn I can’t really say more and if I don’t send it now I will only do so out of the deadline. I’m sorry, this is not very concrete or helpful. I think I like a lot of things, so there it’ll be hard to find something I *won’t like*, setting as well as rating - wise. But I really gotta run! If this is too diffuse and you have more questions I can answer again, but it might take me a few days, I am so sorry about that! (and sorry if the english isn’t english-ing, I’d like to read this through but time is up!)

Just in general I am so happy to be participating!!! So getting your ask was a really happy moment as well!!

[palpablenotion]

@berecovered makes a good point but I'd Iike to address something OP seems to state but isn't flat out with (for those of us bad at subtext) though I may be projecting.

If you stop reaching out to your friends, full stop, you need some situational context to expect anyone to keep reaching out to you. The fact of the matter is relationships take effort FROM BOTH SIDES.

This means that if you stop reaching out, you've let go of your end. Think of a relationship as carrying a couch. Sometimes one of you will have a heavier burden, maybe one or both might need a break even, but the burden only moves forward if both parties work. If only one person tries to move the couch, it becomes tiresome, tedious, and potentially damaging to the person and or their surroundings.

If you stop reaching out, you're dropping your end of the couch with the expectation that the other person will have it covered. That's unfair to them.

What is fair, and touches on bere's comment, is determining how to maintain a relationship in ways non damaging to both parties. For them it was video chatting, that's awesome, they found their niche. For others'... well, when I started down my road to understanding my psychological minefield and neurodivergencies, when I was able to confidently say to people, "I'm autistic," without feeling like a fraud because I'm afab and don't meet the checklist designed around white amab heternormative middle class boys in the ... late '80s? early '90s? I also started to see how damaging, how toxic, some of my relationships, past and present (at the time, which was like 2009), were. I had two conversations with a person who has been dear to me since I was an 11 yo, whose family was my second family. I called his mother 'ama and his father 'apa or somethings "secondary father-like figure" because that amused him. I held relationships with all his brothers, some stronger than others, but it was like they belonged equally to me. And the family welcomed me.

I had one conversation in the dreary Michigan autumn of 2009, waiting at the bus/train station i used to commute to university, walking around and not putting near enough care where I put my feet, despite the slippery, wet foliage that used to mark Octobers here. And I told him, "I love you, you will always be special to me, your family will never be strangers, but if you can't help me carry this relationship, I can't bear this burden any longer."

He's one of the best people - nice, genuine kindness, generous - that I've known. But that winter I made another call to tell him I can't hold up my end anymore. Unless he was prepared to hold the burden himself long enough for me to trust he wouldn't drop it on me again and again and again, I was setting my side of the couch down.

It's about balance, boundaries, and respecting both yourself and those you have relationships with. I had a similar conversation with another friend and he lifted his end and held it strong when shortly thereafter my parents separated, devastating me - I still live in my father's home, but with my mother, they began cohabitation 10 years later until his death 2 years ago, which still has me shattered.

I found out a few years later, when he called that day that that happened and said he was in town for the weekend, did I want to stay with him for the night? ... he hadn't been in town. He had begged his grandmother or mother to come get him and bring him home, a 3hr round trip, so he could be there for me as my sister, in another state, had texted him saying I might need him. After holding up relationships one sided most of my life, which is what the initial suggestion of stop reaching out and see who stays is - it's dumping the full weight of the relationship on the other - , he had lifted his side and I was so relieved I never even realized how special it was. How easy.

I know a lot of NDs struggle with this, especially ADHDrs. I think the statistic is 80% of ADHDrs will have trouble maintaining friendships by 2nd grade. This is what that looks like. Not one person dropping 3-12 couches. But one person holding that many and praying, hoping, maybe even deluding themselves that the other end is held too.

I've let go of a lot of couches only to watch them fall, completely unsupported.

i’ve heard a lot of people say “don’t reach out to your friends first and see how many people will remain in your life. those are your true friends” and i get it. it sucks and it’s tiring constantly being the one to message first, to initiate hang outs but don’t take this so literally. some friendships require initiation. i have lost touch with so many people who genuinely cared about me and wanted me in their life because i stopped reaching out. it’s a hard pill to swallow but honestly some people just suck at it and it doesn’t mean they don’t love and value you. i’ve reconnected with some people over the past few months and it’s crazy how genuinely happy they are to see me and how engaged they are in the conversation. i just think sometimes we’re too harsh on each other & too quick to emphasize other peoples flaws and remove them from our lives but then we’ll all be alone and what’s the point of life then!!!!

[ramonaocathree]

Product Development

In preparation for the market and to expand my portfolio I wanted to create another product to sell other than birds. At the illustration fair I had purchased some concertina zines/books and wanted to explore the possibility of creating my own.

In a previous unit I had created a series of linoprints representing the seasons changing on the street where I lived for for the majority of my life. I wanted to see if this would work as a risograph piece. I thought that the transition between seasons would suit the panoramic layout of the concertina.

Development of the original print series can be accessed here:

Original linoprint series

Digital versions of the carved tiles

Building the riso colour layers digitally

Mock up of the single A3 print

Mock up of the concertina

Experimenting with the folding process

I worked on this concept for a few weeks, working out how it would be printed and folded. I met with the team at Duplicat to discuss printing options, it was a complicated project especially with the number of panels I wanted to create. It was possible but would have been an expensive experiment. Bering this in mind I began to doubt the marketability of the product. Zine, handmade books etc work well in in art specific environments but may not as popular with a wide range of people. For this reason I decided to develop a set of greeting cards from the illustrations rather than the folded book. 

Using the digital concept artwork, I used the intended panels as the image on a set of 8 blank greeting cards that I got printed through the online printing company Moo Print.

Photo of the final cards

This project was challenging for me as I had to balance my creative preference (my love of zines and physical objects) and what I think will ultimately be more profitable. At the moment I am not financially able to create anything and not factor in the cost and potential of breaking even. Although not my first choice I am really pleased with how the cards came out and have been able to sell a number of them!

[amtrak12]

Hi, amtrak12! I'm your Bering & Wells gifter this year, and I'd be happy to provide you with a story of a sort that might make your heart sing. I write AU and canon-compliant stuff, though I do tend to avoid full-on tragedy and anything truly explicit--apologies for that, if it's too limiting, but I bet you'd find any attempts I'd make at those to resemble lumps of coal rather than true gifts. In any case, I'm looking forward to hearing your thoughts!

OMG I totally feel you on the explicit smut. I, too, should not be trusted to write it! LOL And I think the Bering and Wells fandom gave ourselves enough tragic fics during our great Angst War of 2013 😜 So those restrictions are totally fine with me!

Oh, I'm so excited for this! Let's see...

My general likes:

The S3 yearning during Helena's pokeball era XD I will read anything where Myka sneaks Helena's hologram out late at night to talk to her.

Helena mentoring kids. I hate S4 and I hate Instinct, but I do agree with its premise that Helena is fantastic with kids and would love to play a significant role in a child's life again.

Warehouse artifact shenanigans, especially during inventory. Always a classic.

Dislikes:

Character bashing (though feel free to criticize Myka's dad more than the show did)

Season 4 -- everything except Steve's resurrection is just a big no from me. Though if you want to use Abigail in the fic, you can. I did like her.

Season 5 -- I didn't even bother watching this one. I noped out right before the S4 finale and I don't regret that decision at all.

I am more than happy with an AU future where the warehouse and everyone are magically alive (and Leena never died). I don't even need an explanation for it. 💜 Canon S1-3 settings or even pre-series settings are also good with me.

If you'd like some specific prompts to get you started....

Canon Setting Prompts:

Helena has to work with Pete to help Myka -- could be something as big as Myka being in danger. Could be something as simple and domestic as picking out a birthday gift. Myka has two important people in her life and I, at least, am incapable of thinking about her and Helena without also inevitably thinking about Myka's relationship with Pete. (As completely platonic BROTP, of course. No Myka/Pete romance, either past or present :S But that's probably assumed in a B&W gift exchange.)

Helena's past work with WH12 shows up in small ways -- she recognizes an artifact during inventory, she wrote one of the shelving tags, or they find a report she filled out over a hundred years ago when they're refiling in the archives. Could be angsty because it's S3 and Myka misses her. Could be comforting because Helena's back and every reminder helps her feel like she's home. Could be any tone in between.

Myka having to adjust to having Helena living at the B&B, either in S2 when they're still getting to know each other or in a happy, post-S3 world where Helena's working with them again. Or maybe Myka notes that it isn't an adjustment for her at all because it feels so natural to have Helena living with them. Just domestic introspection outside of the chaos of the job.

AU Setting Prompts:

I'm a huge sucker for soulmate AUs. The tattoo style markings are my favorite premise, but if you have another favorite soulmate set-up, feel free to use that instead. I just think it's neat to explore the impact soulmates would have on the world building and relationships. Are soulmates formed or pre-ordained? How do soulmates work when the other person was born in a completely different era than you?

I know we had a firefighter/paramedic AU series way back in the day, but I wouldn't be mad to see it come back. I've been watching a lot of 9-1-1 lately LOL

Lawyer AUs are also always delicious. The tension that comes out in the courtroom -- HNNG!! There's a reason I have sexual headcanons for Alex Cabot (Law & Order SVU) and every single female defense lawyer and judge she came across ROTFL (And no, this doesn't contradict the no smut agreement, you and I have made, anon. One of my most formative ships was Doctor/Rose. They were heavy on the Unresolved Sexual Tension, and I firmly believe UST should make a comeback in media/fic. It's about the denial, it's about the what if's, the almost's, GUH!)

Hopefully, that gave you enough variety to inspire you without overwhelming you. I will be happy with any length of fic. So if you're the type of writer who thrives on deadlines and/or can write plotty fic in a short time, great. If you're a slower or shorter writer, also great! There seems to be a trend where readers only want 10k+ fics (at least in my current fandom), but I love short stories! I think you can do a lot in just a single scene. So write whatever length you're comfortable with, and feel free to use these ideas as just a starting point. I'll be thrilled to read whatever you come up with :) Thank you so much! 💗