#BP1

[talkingparrotkee]

MCU's Black Panther blessed us with pretty melanated and/or indigenous people. I fell to my knees.

Wakandan

Talokanil

African American

[harknessxo]

Can you do a dark Queen Romanda after the death of t’Chaka she is after she will lose reader who was her best friend since they were infants so she gets one of the Dora milajes to kidnap her and keep her in her corridors were no one is allowed and can you add some smut and thank you.

➺ For Your Own Good

Paring; dark!soft!Queen Ramonda x Reader

Summary: “When she was told of her husband’s death she was devastated of course, but the first thing on her mind was you. She couldn’t let another person she loved to get killed, not under her watch. She thought the best way to keep you safe was to have you with her at all times, whether you liked it or not.”

Warnings: kidnapping, smut, death (T’Chaka) and fluff.

Word Count: 1.2k

A/n: I hope this is what you wanted!

You and Ramonda have always been close since you were kids in the river tribe. At some point during the friendship she had fallen in love with you and you did too but the romance was cut short when Ramonda found out she was being married off to the soon–to–be king, T’Chaka. It was a devastating moment for both of you. Before Ramonda left, she promised you she would never stop loving you and that she would always keep an eye on you and gave you one last kiss before boarding the ship. While her marriage with T’Chaka was arranged, she learned to love him but that love would never exceed her love for you.

♤♧♡♢

Years passed and Ramonda always found a way to see you, even if it was from afar. She always had a Dora watching you at all times to make sure you were safe. No one knew about you, only the Dora Ramonda sent knew about you and she made sure they wouldn’t say anything.

When she was told of her husband’s death she was devastated of course, but the first thing on her mind was you. She couldn’t let another person she loved to get killed, not under her watch. She thought the best way to keep you safe was to have you with her at all times, whether you liked it or not.

♤♧♡♢

Ramonda was in the throne room when she summoned the general of the Dora Milaje, Okoye.

“Kumkanikazi, you summoned me?”

“Yes, I need you to retrieve someone and I want you to be discreet.”

“Who am I retrieving?”

“I need you to bring me Y/n. She is in the river tribe. Do whatever you have to do but make sure no one sees you come in with her. When you do bring her here, take her to my private chambers. Do I make myself clear?”

“Yes, yam Kumkanikazi.” Okoye bowed and left the throne room to retrieve you.

♤♧♡♢

You were in your room when you heard a knock at the door. When you opened the door you were greeted by whom you thought was a Dora Milaje.

“Um hi? How can I help you?”

“I’ve come to take you to the palace.”

“Says who?”

“I was given specific instructions to be discreet about this. So, I cannot say.”

“Well then I am not going anywhere,” you said firmly.

“Don’t make this harder than it has to be.”

“Goodbye,” you tried to close the door but Okoye put her spear in between the door and door frame so you couldn’t close it.

“What is your-” before you could finish your sentence you felt her place something on your temple and you blacked out.

♤♧♡♢

When you woke up, you found yourself laying on a giant bed in a very spacious room. You sat up confused about how you got there until all the memories from yesterday started flowing back. You in your room, the knock at the door, the Dora, and then all black. You started to panic but then the door to the room opened to reveal Ramonda.

“Ramonda? What's going on?” you asked in a panicked voice. She came closer and sat on the bed with her arms open for you to come closer. You, still confused, went to her embrace and felt a bit relieved.

“Calm down, ingelosi. I'm here to protect you.”

“Protect me? From who?”

“You know the people who killed T’Chaka?,” you nodded, “They are trying to take you away from me too,” she finished saying. She knew it was wrong to lie to you but she wouldn’t let you leave, she couldn’t. She pulled you impossibly closer to her and kissed your head.

“Who are those bad people?”

“You don’t have to worry about that anymore because you have me,” she pulled away and cupped your face, “and I have you right? You’re mine?” she asked, looking at you in the most loving way possible and you nodded again.

“Use your words, sithandwa.”

“Yes, I am yours,” you said with no hesitation. She smiled and gave you a long and passionate kiss, “All mine,” she mumbled in the kiss. She slowly started to push you to lay down on the bed while she got on top of you, all without stopping the kiss.

“Can I take this off honey?” she asked, referring to the green dress you were wearing. You nodded but she raised her eyebrow and you understood she needed verbal consent.

“Yes,” you said.

She started peeling the dress off of your body, taking her time and putting it aside. She caressed your body with her hands and started kissing each part she could find. She kissed your neck and your chest, before making her way down your body with her tongue. You had your eyes closed, loving every second of it.

When she got to where you needed her the most, she stopped which made you open your eyes. When you made eye contact, she licked a stipe up your pussy which made your release a loud moan. She kept licking your pussy and you threw your head back in pleasure. You felt yourself coming closer to the edge and your breath started to pick up.

“Ramonda- I’m close,” you said in an agitated voice, with your hands gripping the bed sheets.

“Are you going to cum for me, nkosazana?”

“Yes, yes. Please don’t stop.” She kept going and then inserted two fingers thrusting them fast, hitting your g-spot.

“Who do you belong to now, sithandwa? Hm?” you tried to respond but you were caught up in the immense amount of pleasure. When you didn’t respond she slowed down and you whined. She went up your body all the way to your ear.

“Tell me usana or ill stop altogether,” she whispered.

“You! You! I belong to you! Please let me cum, please?”

“Good girl,” she praised and sped up again. She went down again and started to suck on your swollen clit. That got you over the edge. She came up to your ear and whispered sweet nothings while still thrusting her fingers to let you ride your high. You closed your legs around her hand from the overstimulation.

“Is too much-” you whimpered. She pulled her hand away and shushed you with a kiss. You moved closer to her, laying your head on her chest.

“When will I be able to leave, Ramonda?” she tensed at your question.

“You can’t leave, ingelosi. How can I protect you if I don't have you by my side, hm? This is for your own good.”

“But-”

“But nothing. I can't lose you too.” That made you go silent for a second.

“I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked such a dumb question.” you kissed her neck.

“Shh, it's ok nkosazana. Get some rest, you're probably tired,” she said before kissing your forehead. You nodded and cuddled closer to her, hiding your face in her neck. Soon enough, you felt your eyes get heavy, the warmth of her body lulling you to sleep. She heard your soft snoring and she smiled knowing she finally had you all to herself.

[cogshell]

So cute ;)

[evilsystemm]

npd (+ mania) sometimes feels like people you care about are bugs, and you want to hold them and care for them but whenever you touch them you end up crushing them because they're just too small for you to understand/handle

[starrysanity]

a couple of weeks ago (before I started mood stabilizers) I was convinced that I was losing my mind. I would tell this to people around me and they would tell me things like "haha me too".

But I wasn't joking.

I genuinely thought that. and people's nonchalant responses and overall dismissive attitude made it so much harder to ask for help.

asking for help isn't always saying the words "I need help". it can be so much more. please listen to people. please listen to your loved ones. please listen

[jarate-pissman]

Finally left that group! Was never listened to, never cared about, and now I am feeling delightfully depressed and suicidal because it seems the people I thought were my friends don't care either! (Yay). Anyways, fuck those monsters at tf2-ask. And in particular: Fuck Zoey. I'll be sure to carve your disgusting name into my arm.

Anyways, I'm taking a hiatus from Tumblr and all Social Media, as you all continue to disappoint me without end.

It's funny when no one ever realises that the person behind the account is suffering, unless they say something. And even when they do say something, you all think they want attention. Well, I guess the internet does turn you all into soulless monsters. You don't consider how there could possibly be a human being on the other side of the screen. Even if they send a picture; it's just a face. It doesn't mean anything.

It's okay to talk about your feelings, as long as you aren't me. Oh yeah... I'm unemployed again as well. For the seventh time in... 3 years. This time was because I wasn't getting paid enough, but I suppose you don't want to hear about my life. You just want to know about the details of the shitty stuff.

So here it is:

[madsad-but-true]

I’m living in the shadow of the person I used to be…

[silkense]

i dont want this disorder anymore

[littlerayoffuckyou]

Another super fun bipolar fact for you.

When you’re depressive or manic, you lose track of time. I’ve been manic the whole month (it’s my bday month so I’ve been spoiled and getting everything I want, triggering the episode) and I don’t remember most of it. My bday was 9/9, it’s 9/21, and idk what I’ve done for the last almost 2 weeks. Its really cool when people tell me things about those manic times, cause I also don’t remember any of it. Manic me will agree to anything, then promptly forget the agreement. These last 2 weeks are lost to the void.

[livinglifeonpause]

BP Intros

Okay, watching the 90 second intros before watching anything else.

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Grouping these into PASS:

K - HAN SEO BIN (18, 5'8")/P - ? - okay, this one was fine. lets see more of this kid plz. reporter.

K - JANG JI HO (20, 5'8")/P - ? - his cute is cringy. pass. idefk.

K - PARK GWAN YOUNG (23, 5'7")/P - ? - cutie. cutie with cute energy. 4 seasons.

K - OH SUNG MIN (23, 5'11")/P - ? - ohhhhh, I hate it. but he’s really cute. dressed as a damn dog. ((This is another OnePact kid!))

K - KIM MIN HYUK (25, 5'11")/P - ? - good at doing what he’s here to do. karaoke

K - JANG MIN SEO (18, 5'8")/P - ? - weird intro, but good guitar skills ***ohhhh, he left before the show due to an injury

K - HONG KEON HEE (19, 6'2")/P - ? - that was many things. but i wanna see more things.

K - LEE HOE TAEK (31, 5'7")/P - ? - Hui! I never understood why he was on this show. like, this ain’t it for him bro.

K - CHOI WOO JIN (19, 5'7")/P - ? - cutieeeeeee, i hope he makes it. protect him.

K - SUNG HAN BIN (23, 5'10")/P - ? - he seems talented despite the schtick

K - PARK GUN WOOK (19, 6'0")/P - ? - Jellyfish - i think he’s handsome, but?? whys he so dramatic?

K - LEE SEUNG HWAN (24, 5'10")/P - ? - why didnt he just sing normally bro?? he’s got a real nice voice!

K - JEONG I CHAN (23, 5'10")/P - ? - is he a Sim?? That’s creative! and his voice! here for him.

K - KIM MIN SEOUNG (20, 5'8")/P - ? - omfg, i was kinda on board, but him being so awkward at the end sold me

K - KIM JI WOONG (25, 5'10)/P - ? - what a weirdo vampire schtick. but i think he’s handsome.

G - CHEN YU GENG (26, 6'0")/P - ? - i mean, he’s pretty! ***WHY THEY CALL HIM “CRAYON”

G - CHEN JIAN YU (26, 5'10")/P - ? - i’m cackling! do they not explain it for these kids? this one is cute, im here for him.

G - ZHANG SHUAI BO (22, 6'0")/P - ? - i hate it. but he’s cute so meh.

G - CONG (23, 5'8")/P - ? - he’s endearing and I want good things for him

G - KRYSTIAN (24, 5'10")/P - ? - weird, but the awkward ending was endearing

G - YUKI (22, 5'8")/P - ? - he’s v cute but v awkward

G - JAY CHANG (23, 5'9")/P - ? - (i mean he is the whole reason I’m watching this show) - i get why ppl think he’s corny though

G - SEOK MATTHEW (22 5'7")/P - INDEPEN - he brought a picture of his familyyyyyy, you have to support him!

G - MIN (24, 5'9")/P - ? - bitch had a whole ass oxygen mask! hahaha!

G - FENG JUN LAN (25, 5'10")/P - ? - this bitch dgaf. i like that. plus he already said he’s gonna suck, sooooo

G - WUMUTI (25, 5'9")/P - ? - (forgot this bitch was on here…) - oof his makeup. he do have a pretty ass voice though…

........................................................................................................... And FAIL:

K - LIM JUN SEO (19, 5'10")/F - 143 - omfg are they all this chaotic? i caaaaan’t.

K - JUNG MIN GYU (24, 6'1")/F - ? - bitch has a whole ass powerpoint? again, I can’t. he got a square ass jaw.

K - CHOI JI HO (20, 6'0")/F - ? - mr dj did not utilize his time well

K - JUNG SE YUN (16, 5'8")/F - oh come on, he’s 12. don’t put him on this show maannnn.

K - KIM TAE RAE (22, 5'8")/F - WakeOne - weird forum for an acoustic bop bro

K - BAK DO HA (21, 5'11")/F - WakeOne - ew. but maybe he’s cute.

K - LEE DONG GUN (19, 5'10")/F - ? - homie wont stop movinggggg

K - JEON HO YOUNG (19, 5'10")/F - ? - he too random????

K - KUM JUN HYEON (22, 5'11")/F - ? - his jaw is octagon. radio dj.

K - JANG YEO JUN (19, 5'10")/F - ? - look at his fucking flair. i dont really want to talk about his flair.

K - JUNG HWAN ROK (22, 5'9")/F - ? - isn’t harry potter dead yet? he didn’t need that schtick **oh this kid ends up leaving before it starts

K - LEE JEONG HYEON (22, 6'1")/F - WakeOne - wouldn’t it be hilarious if he couldn’t do the rubix cube??

K - CHOI SEUNG HUN (16, 5'7")/F - ? - nahhhhh, he too baby.

K - CHA WOONG KI (22, 5'8")/F - ? - what?

K - SEO WON (23 5'7")/F - ? - bruh, just sing. or dance. or something. or keep showing them veeneers.

K - JUNG HO JIN (21, 6'0")/F - ? - eyebrowsssssss. he go by “Dien??”

K - PARK HYUN BEEN (19, 5'10")/F - ? - woah. carrying costume

K - PARK HAN BIN (22, 5'9")/F - WakeOne - do other thiiiiings

K - JEON WOO SEOK (21, 5'8")/F - ? - i don’t understand what this was?

K - LEE DONG YEOL (25, 5'9")/F - ? - naurrrrrrrr

K - HAN YU JIN (17, 5'10")/F - ? - um, he awkward

K - KIM GYU VIN (20, 6'0")/F - ? - Jellyfish - um, he boring

K - HAN YU SEOP (20, 5'8")/F - ? - I’m not sureeeee. like the dumb ending though!

K - PARK MIN SEOK (22, 6'0")/F - WakeOne - meh voice, meh presentation

K - LEE YE DAM (21, 5'5")/F - ? - why he talking like that? I do want to see him dance more though…

K - PARK JI HOO (18, 5'9")/F - ? - naurrrrrr cutie, naurrrrr

K - YOON JONG WOO (24, 5'9")/F - ? - i just. dont have anything to say ((oh, he’s from OnePact))

K - MUN JUNG HYUN (19, 6'0")/F - Wake One - but he didn’t do any facial expressions??

K - JI YUN SEO (19, 6'0")/F - ? - tiny ass head

K - YOO SEUNG EON (20, 5'10")/F - ? - no, he doing too much, pretty pretty princess

K - LEE DA EUL (20 5'7")/F - ? - 143 - he’s wittle!

K - LEE HWAN HEE (26, 5'9")/F - ? - he faked that

G - OSUKE (21, 5'4")/F - ? - oh god, the face paint. brooooo.

G - CHEN REN YOU (20, 6'0")/F - ? - he honest didn’t know why the door was closing! hahaha!

G - TOUI (21, 5'11")/F - ? - oh, he’s even speaking japanese!

G - RICKY (20, 6'0")/F - ? - shrug. pass.

G - CHEN KUAN JUI (23, 5'9")/F - ? - flexible huh?

G - WANG ZI HAO (23, 5'10)/F - ? - he did the whole ass dance, but like meh

G - NA KAMDEN (23, 6'0")/F - ? - that was alot

G - WEN YE CHEN (24, 6'0")/F - ? - that was creative at least

G - NICE (24, 5'11")/F - ? - oh bless his little cookie heart. naur.

G - KEI (18 5'7")/F - ? - kei, i kinda wanna punch you

G - WINNIE (25 5'7")/F - ? - he needs a new hair color and new pants

G - ANTHONNY (20, 5'8")/F - ? - the nasallllly voice

G - DONG DONG (23, 5'9")/F - ? - why he put the bandaid on his nose though??

G - YUTO (19 5'7")/F - ? - his head wayyyy too big for his body

G - OUJU (20, 5'7")/F - ? - like what?

G - YUTAKA (25 5'7")/F - ? - he does not have a beautiful choice

G - HIROTO (22, 5'9")/F - ? - naur sweetie, naur

G - QIU SHENG YANG (23, 5'10")/F - ? - puppy in a monkey costume, oh sure sure

G - HYO (22, 5'8")/F - ? - noooooo, he’s 12

G - TAKUTO (16, 5'5")/F - ? - oh noooooooo, he’s 11!

G - WANG YAN HONG (25, 5'10")/F - ? - his face was -_- the whole time he was dancing, omfg *WHY HE CALLED DALE

G - OLLIE (18, 6'0")/F - ? - willy wonkNO

G - ICHIKA (31, 6'0")/F - ? - i got nothing

G - LIN SHI YUAN (25, 6'0")/F - ? - he didn’t even move!!

G - ZHANG HAO (24, 5'11")/F - ? - is that a tv screen??

G - CHEN LIANG (24, 6'1")/F - ? - the “singing” while dancing sent me (aka “Felix”)

G - RIKU (19, 5'11")/F - ? - cute concept for a skinny baby

G - ITSUKI (18 5'7")/F - ? - sir, go back to theatre

G - HARUTO (19, 5'7")/F - ? - that was alot. of nothing.

G - DANG HONG HAI (20, 5'11")/F - ? - why his face look like that tho

G - CAI JIN XIN (20, 6'2")/F - ? - okay.

G - YANG JUN (25, 5'9")/F - ? - he should just be an actor…

G - XUAN HAO (28, 5'11")/F - ? - he had a kazooooo

G - KEITA (23, 5'5")/F - ? - what even was that? he has cute eyes though.

G - BRIAN (22, 6'1")/F - ? - he cant really sing tho, can he?

G - HARU (18, 5'6")/F - ? - he got alot of eye makeup on

G - MA JING XIANG (20, 6'2")/F - ? - concept? round face? hair?

………………………………………………………………………………………

okay, there were 95 videos. i’m not trying to search for the other 3. on to episode 1!

Oh, they left before it even started… wait, how many fucking left?

? - JO EUN WOO (19, 5'8")

? - YEOM TAE GYUN (21, 5'9")

? - TAO YAUN (24, 6'0")

[cogshell]

[existhere]

when it comes to recognizing the more obvious hallucinations, i’m pretty quick with it and let it slide off me. they don’t necessarily scare me anymore and im thankful i have the flavor of psychosis that can differentiate real vs fake quickly on my own

so sometimes i have a little fun with it and answer back, just to see what they say. tonight i had a first—i smelled a strong men’s cologne right before the talking

so I told him his cologne smelled like ass, and he was SHOOK 😂

[bizarrestart]

me and my similar female friends: hm, we’re noticing a lot of traits and problems cropping up that align with clinical traits of autism/adhd that is often masked in childhood… perhaps let’s all discus it and think about how to have conversations with our mental health providers

that one fuckass: haha! me too! self diagnosed *insert disorder word salad here* rizz em with the tism! autistic girl pussy! *adopts everyone’s experiences and claims them as their own*

[madsad-but-true]

It’s like my bipolar is just immune to any form of medication.

Seriously I don’t know what more I can do.

[exceptmyserotonin]

i will stand my ground on my love of MANIA forever tbh. it’s the most experimental for sure, but also the most creatively and lyrically focused of all the post hiatus albums (imo). and it pays off! those songs as a collection tell a really emotionally compelling story and it speaks volumes to me. pete’s songwriting quality on MANIA harkens back to folie in some ways. his lyricism comes through so clearly. patrick’s vocals are so spot on. stay frosty as an opener and bishop’s knife trick as a closer opens the album up for so much emotional progression through the tracklist too. leaves lots of room for reflection on the concept of mania (and the experience of bipolar disorder at large). like…i could go on. great cohesive work of art.