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Schizoid culture is the loneliness that you can't escape. The loneliness that you don't want to escape. You observe and watch humans and you take care of them, but you know that they'll never be able to help you. Usually, they don't want to help you, either. You're alone and it's great, but sometimes you wish you could experience the community that they have. The care that they receive.

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what the fuck makes phone apps so cocky as to send me notifications telling me to use it. my grocery list app straight up went "you havent made a list in a while! 🙂" are you out of your fucking mind. you are a program. why are you speaking to me like youre my equal. i could replace you with a pen and the back of a receipt. idiot. i kill you now

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Potential NPD + BPD culture is being kind and loving to people because you see them as children and beneath you. I have personally descended from my heavenly throne to teach you morons about the healing power of forgiveness patience and generosity.

And then like killing myself so everyone remembers me as the divine angel I am

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third life was a fantasy epic

last life was a horror film

double life was a soap opera/sitcom

limited life felt like one of those teen dystopian novels

secret life was back in the fantasy realm but now with bonus cults

real life was the "wacky dream sequence" episode

and wild life is "what if you could live inside of Game Changer"

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this applies to any and all personality disorders!! :33

Remember that not everyone with AvPD is conventionally quiet.

We all avoid things differently, and some people may talk a lot in some or all situations because it makes them feel less vulnerable. That doesn’t mean they don’t have AvPD or that their AvPD is less “severe.”

AvPD isn’t social anxiety plus. Because of that, the type of interaction often plays a major role in our fear. For some, the only situations that bring them fear are ones that involve personal connection. For most, all situations are terrifying, but we’ve had to learn to hide it or overcompensate in most. If we can’t hide it, it means we are completely unable to cope.

The impact a disorder has on a person can’t be determined by its visibility.

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NPD culture is... why are some losers putting "iwc/interact with care" or "dni/do not interact" in your discord status? ...there's no purpose to that, you can just ignore people or close discord for the day if they could set you off edge... only thing it makes you seem like is weak.

Not everyone with NPD though <3. you guys deserve to have everyone see how hurt you are, see how they never helped you, see how you're suffering more than them because it's true! You guys can never do wrong and I stand by this fact <3

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Stpd culture is all things being mildly temporally displaced, including those currently happening.

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its also physical abuse

Why do so many people make tiktoks while they're clearly driving. What the fuck. Stop that shit, you're gonna kill someone.

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condescension is SUCH a big thing for me it makes me so so mad

npd culture is getting the slightest hint of someone being (intentionally or not) condescending when trying to be friendly with you and actually getting so pissed. You're not better than me. I'm infinitely cooler than you.

(for context, my friends gf seems chill, but does not talk to me when we hang out together, and when we do interact it has condescending vibes (she's a year older). She literally went, "awww cute" when I came out dressed in my suit today. And I'm kinda livid.)

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i don't care how uncomfortable you are around cis men, queer cis men still need places to go, and sometimes, those spaces will be shared with yours. disabled and neurodivergent queer men and queer men of color especially need a place to go. the queer community isn't the "fuck cis men" community. that is the rad fem community. if you think cis men and people who read as cis men are inherently "too scary" or shouldn't be allowed in queer spaces, you joined the wrong community.

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n/aspd splitting and "special" people is definitely a thing. much to my dismay

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People think I’m a doormat because I let things happen that other people wouldn’t, but the truth is I’m apathetic. I’m not stupid; I just don’t care.

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me with adhd meds

cluster B culture is I've got to stop drinking a minimum of two cups of coffee a day, it just makes me tweak out easier like I get so ANGRY-

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npd culture is getting slightly disheartened when your friend(s) with attachment issues aren't attaching to *you*. I shouldn't and DONT want it in reality but. I wanna be important:(

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bpd culture is having an entire tiktok favorited folder for when you want to send to your friends something but you’re splitting black on them (too specific?)

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worst fear number 1) people being like me

worst fear number 2) people not being like me and thus not understanding me

Npd culture is thinking that if everybody was more like me, there wouldn't so much problems

(but I wouldn't stand people being like me)

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