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npd + strict moral compass culture is believing that as pwnpd, we have the responsibility and the moral obligation to mask and be kind to others no matter how much we dont want to.

i dont actually give a shit if your feelings are hurt, i actually want that sometimes. my emotions and my morals are in direct conflict with each other 24/7 and its exhausting. emotionally there is literally no reason for me to be a good person, i dont really feel like anyone deserves my kindness, but looking at everything logically i feel like, for me, the only proper conclusion to come to is that we are to aim for as much harm reduction as possible. because suffering is bad, or so ive decided, and that means that humanity as a whole should try to get rid of it. i could get rid of my suffering by being a bitch to everyone around me, but then everyone around me would suffer at least a little, and thats a net negative. so i am nice and obedient to the fools around me

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npd culture is following less people than you have followers just to feel like some kind of celebrity (it's not like anyone else can see the numbers on tumblr but i do it anyway)

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(Questioning) npd culture is Yk what? People who say that I'm mischaracterizing cheerful/kind/sweet characters by headcanoning them as narcissists are ableist. Nice people can have npd. (And this is specifically about Daisuke from mouthwashing, I've met many ppl who were pissed off at me headcanoning him as a npd haver because it contradicts their own headcanons. I'm sorry but first of all I don't care and secondly if you claim to support people with stigmatized disorders but then refuse to acknowledge the fact that narcissists don't need to be the cold and introverted stereotype to have npd then fuck you) -Eterosis

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narc 4 narc culture is one of you finally admitting something you felt so ashamed about and the other going "oh I do/think that too" but they just never thought it worth mentioning

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how to not feel like I am a horrible terrible person for having symptoms that are out of my control and completely harmless to others because of how I mask/channel them but also can't help but feel really ashamed and sad that I'm like this because I'm supposed to be nice and it's like I have a big secret. :( no glue no borax

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sometimes npd is really really serious and causes strain on relationships because of fear of reputation damage, difficultly empathising etc. and sometimes it's just getting really upset because someone's comment almost – almost, not even does – has more likes than yours on an arbitrary instagram reel.

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NPD culture is only other pwnpd truly understanding you (and they don’t judge you for your symptoms/traits)

- 🦝 (claiming this sign off)

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npd culture is catching yourself being mean to someone in your head without even thinking about it and making yourself apologize to them in your head, because, damn, I am NOT going to become a stereotype!!!

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npd culture is dissociating when your friends talk about their other friends

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NPD + AvPD Culture Is being alterhuman in various ways because you feel both like a superior god amongst humans that should be revered and a monster being shunned and chased away by humans

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npd culture is saying "i feel bad" to mean "i feel ashamed" rather than "i feel guilty," and never making that distinction known

-☁️🐈‍⬛

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npd culture is I'm SOOOO PRETTYYY!!!! but can't talk about it in case my lovely friends get envious

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npd culture is loving attention and clingyness but feeling guilty when you recieve it because I HAVE to have manipulated this person. I'm too amazing and I've accidentally made them obsessed with me and it's going to ruin their life.

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npd4npd culture is your partner admitting that they see you as higher than them and wanting to agree so bad but you dont want to fuel their insecurities

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NPD culture is HATING being a system because I put so so so much effort into my image and status and then someone else fronts and just, ruins it? and it's not their fault but GOD is it stressful I wish I was a singlet. the time loss also sucks I wanna front 24/7 but DID says no.

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Suspected NPD is hiding your true emotions and feelings because a few people will hate you and you can't handle that at all

Let me make everyone happy please if they think bad of me I'll die (and if they incorrectly dislike me I want them to realize how wrong they were for doing so, but that thought gets shoved in the corner and never expressed)

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npd culture is being the fp of someone with bpd and making it your mission to be as healthy as possible and not influence them negatively in any way because if I did I'd be a major loser