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wildfoxes-spirit · 2 years ago

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I'm going through some shit and just need to rant

Some history about everything: I have been in three different states and gone through twice as many schools. I started reading in preschool, I was in the younger class so around 3 years old. At first the teachers thought that I had just memorized the book but my mom got me a book from the library and I read it to her. Because of this I got to go and spend time with the 4 year olds for half of the day. I think this was when the troubles really started. I could have skipped kindergarten but that required doing all of the work in half of the year. My parents didn't want me to have to do that so we just kept me we're I was. I'm almost about to finish 8th grade and this is going to be really long. I had a speech delay when I was learning. I knew that my mom knew what I wanted so I didn't even try to learn and had to go to speech therapy for a year or two I think. And then I had a really bad British accent despite being from the United States.

The trouble with school started back in first grade when I was doing hybrid school. 3 days online and 2 days in person. My mom and I would get into fights over one subject in particular. Writing. It would take a good two hours to do 30 minutes of writing. This was when I was still practicing letters. Well we had switched schools so I wasn't in the same school that I was. This was a traditional school five days a week in person. Well this was when I got my first glasses. We had gone to the eye doctor before school started and I had no issues. But one day my teacher had a page up on the screen that we had to copy down and I couldn't read it. She zoomed in quite a bit and I even moved closer but still couldn't see. Yeah, my prescription is pretty thick now. Anyways the lines were redrawn in the middle of the year so I moved schools. The first year wasn't to bad but the third is when things escalated. I HATED school in third grade. Absolutely HATED it. I didn't ride the bus anymore because it was to crowded and I didn't like it. Also this was around the time fortnight came out and little me was very against it because, and I quote, "people are going to try to replicate it in real life and eventually they will use real guns instead" I had a good family, lived in a good area, I don't know where I got the idea. But that's always how I've been, even now I'm critical but I'll get to that later. I had really bad migraines had a child and had to learn how to swallow pills earlier because that was the only form the medication came in. But the migraines were so bad that I missed a lot of school because I would throw up halfway through the day because the lights were making it worse.

I had to get dragged out of my mom's car most of the time and I was left kicking and screaming. It was bad. I was also a biter during this time so my mom would have large bruises on her art from where I bit her. I sat in the principals more then once just so that I was in the building. What's stupid is that I was right by the door. I would reach for it from the chair but I probably could have made it if I just bolted. I knew how to get home to, the school wasn't that far. Eventually we developed a system: if I came in without a fuss I could spend some time building a Lego set, but if I gave mom a hard time I had to go straight to class. I think it was the special ed room and teachers that did that but I don't remember. I could also go there if there was an assembly of any kind in the gym. I was REALLY sensitive to crowds and loud noises back then, still am but way less. So it worked for a while but it ended up a struggle again. I didn't participate in one of the biggest assignments and just kinda... slumped. I'm actually crying as I'm writing this while laying in bed at 10:06 EST.

I got tested at the end of third grade before we left Indiana for Texas. They thought that I might have autism but further testing would be required. I don't remember when I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. So we move to Texas and I start fourth grade. It's a great start. Some days were rougher then others but there was one time when my mom came for lunch and I was begging her to take me home with her. Like lunch ended and I had to be pried off her and was placed in an isolated room with an adult to watch me. My teachers had never seen me like this before so they were shocked and disappointed. Everyone was disappointed. The next year I moved schools again. A school had been built on the hill behind our house. Things were mostly okay. There were two subs that I didn't like tho. It was a married couple and they did jack shit. I'm reading class one day we were supposed to be working on something in groups but the sub was telling a story of his time in the military. I was 10 at this point and I raised my hand and pointed out that we had shit to work on and his story was incredibly distracting and unnecessary. I don't remember what he said but when I got home I was in tears. There was one other time we're his wife was subbing for our math class while our teacher was in a meeting and I straight up left the classroom without notifying anyone. I took my work and I did it out in the common area. When the teacher came back, and only then, did I re-enter the classroom. Oh and before we moved autism was ruled out and I was diagnosed with ADHD instead (I have the mix version)

That brings us up to 6th,7th and 8th. 6th grade was covid, there's not much. I hated the program of the school I was at because I was doing virtual. Did I mention we moved states again? The program was reviewing stuff that I already knew so when I switched schools to be at the one that I'm currently at they were reviewing for the end of the year test. 7th was a rollercoaster but not to important. I dated for the first time (and last), got in official detention... Fun. What I really want to talk about is 8th.

How many of you remember your 8th grade year. Was it as shit as mine currently is? I find myself critical of everything. I hate when there's a sub, not only does it thow me off but it means that I'm most likely to sit out in the hallway to I don't murder someone. A lot of the subs are incompetent. They don't keep the brats in like and have even made it worse. If someone could meet the brats from doing shit they shouldn't be the maybe, MAYBE, my sanity wouldn't buy dropping. I find that I'm a lot more mature then most of the brats. It's like putting an adult with toddlers. I'm also a bit of a control freak sometimes. But more often then not I have wanted to disappear from the face of the earth because I can't put up with the . I would be a horrible parent. Good thing I'm not having kids. And I can't tell what sent me into depressive episode 54, I don't think ADHD, depression, and being on my period was a good combo and yet here I am.

I would roast some of them but apparently arson is illegal

Why am I still here? Is it really worth crying at 10:40EST about life? I mean does anyone truly believe in me? i don't. Why did I have to be such a fuck up. I was a pain in the ass from the moment I was supposed to be born. I didn't want to come into this world and I still don't want to be here. Do my friends ever notice when I'm there? Would they even care if I stopped talking? Why am I always an outsider no matter who I'm with. Am I even going to be able to survive out there? All I can do is draw and hide.

#mental health #personal vent #adhd #depression #period pain #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts

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beauty-in-the-weeds · 8 months ago

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There are no rules to grief when it comes to a pet. I don't like the expression pet honestly, I prefer family.

This is your reminder that it's okay to be sad, and it's okay to let it out. Do what you have to do and make sure you take care of yourself too. You are not alone, so make sure you reach out to somebody if it gets to be too much. I'm sorry for your loss, whether it be recent or past, and I hope you find peace. ♡ Peace and love from me.

Dear Blue,

This pain is a small sacrifice for being able to love you and have you in my life.

Love Mom

#blue #love #death #missingyou

#trauma #pain #greif #love #peace #art #quote #dearevanhansen #try #life #music #okay #believe #help #work #notbroken #depression #anxiety #sick #chronicillness #autism #adhdawareness #cat #family #instagood

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howtowearblackinthesummer · 11 months ago

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I have 3 teeth that need to be pulled and no dental insurance so I can’t afford to fix that

My car is like 2 weeks from breaking down, expired registration, no car insurance and is sitting in an impound lot where they want $550 minimum just to free her. That won’t even fix the registration problem. Also the last time I got an insurance quote they wanted $600 a month. Can’t afford to fix that.

My mortgage (on a house that I don’t even fucking want or know how to take care of fr) has gone up an extra $500 a month. Also I lost some shingles from my roof and my neighbors call HOA if my grass is taller than 1.25 inches. So I’ll need a roofer, landscaper, and a plumber. Can’t afford to fix that.

I have bronchitis and I can’t take the medicine they prescribed bcuz the side effects would make it impossible to work but I need money so I can’t NOT work. I guess I’ll just keep coughing then.

Not to mention I don’t have health insurance and I paid for that visit out of pocket. Did you know it’s $119 just to be seen? $75 for a mandatory COVID test?

I’m 6 credits short of my bachelor’s degree and I really wanna finish school so i can just leave all of this shit behind and teach English or art in a Spanish speaking country.

Or I could just die but EVEN THAT SHIT IS TOO EXPENSIVE HERE. I’m fucking drowning.

You know what I can afford? Weed and alcohol to forget that I feel like shit 92% of the time. I REALLY fucking hate it here. Like on earth in general. I wanted to outlive my parents since no one should have to bury their child but I’m drowning and honestly I’m not sure I even want a life vest.

My only silver lining has been my job. I love my kiddos. I love teaching them about art. But I’m beginning to despise my coworkers.

I have court next week and my mom has a surgery that I’ll need to be present for so I won’t be at work 2 days before spring break and when I don’t work I don’t get paid so idk how anything is gonna be paid come April.

THEN I feel like who am I to complain when my dad has been wheelchair bound since 17 but is a firm believer in pulling yourself up by the bootstraps bcuz that’s what he did and according to him he shouldn’t be alive. My mom has this mystery surgery coming up while working 3 jobs and moving in my grandmother who has dementia. My brother has HIV and Autism so he’s got his own problems that are obviously bigger than mine.

Everyone in my family is managing to survive but I wanna cease to exist. If I say that to a therapist I’ll get put in a psych ward and miss work which is my main source of happiness and my only source of income.

I had been planning to join the 27 club back when I was 12. Now that I’m 27…that option seems like it’s on the table, waiting for me.

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changeling6 · 1 year ago

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Album/EP/Singles Masterpost

Albums

Purified Tyrannical Destiny - COMPLETE

About masking, unrealistic expectations, and parents projecting their personalities and wishes onto their children. A purified tyrannical destiny is when someone forces their child to adhere to what they perceive as a pure image whether that be their child being straight or christian or becoming a doctor or dentist or having children. Some people feel like this must become their destiny or else they lose their family forever. It's also about society's purified tyrannical destiny where autistic people are forced to mask, queer people are forced into the closet, non christian religious people and atheists are forced to adhere to christian laws, and indigenous people are forced to abandon their culture. This album is about changing your destiny to align with your most authentic self.

Idiolect - Idiolect is a word to describe the speech habits particular to one person. This song refers to neurotypical people expecting neurodivergent people to conform fully to neurotypical standards instead accommodating people and meeting others halfway in interactions.

Changeling - The namesake of my blog. An autistic person love song. Taking the changeling myth that autism moms use where they're like "I need to get my real child back" and then turning it into an autism positivity thing.

The Angel - My experience growing up an evangelical and my dissociative disorder and religious trauma trying to shove down my identity as a nonbinary lesbian. It's also about how the bible is used as a weapon to scare people into christianity instead of letting people find their own path to faith. It's also an allusion to the story of Adam and Eve eating from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil and how my church community had very hypocritical views where I would take the parts of the bible about forgiveness and helping those in need and try to discuss prison reform and helping the homeless but those same community members would ignore Jesus' words about caring for the criminals and the poor and demonize those who have committed crime. Though my experience with religion has been traumatic, I've grown to view Jesus as a spirit guide detached from christianity who helps me with my journey of helping people and advocating for prison reform even while I practice Hellenism.

Remember what they took from you - A song about how I didn't have the opportunity to learn about my Purépecha heritage because my grandfather developed Alzheimers before I could learn about it from him but also because of the discrimination and racism against Indigenous people.

See in Me - A song with a double meaning about expectations that parents/guardians have for their children and how it's not based in reality but also about maladaptive daydreaming into a world where life is more bearable.

Festival of Life - This started as me writing a song in appreciation of a popular art festival in my city and turned into "your silence makes you complacent to the injustice happening around you".

Our Blood - About suffering abuse from family members and being forced to be silent and live with it for the sake of "family". Refers to the phrase "blood is thicker than water" and how people aren't allowed peace and justice from abusive family members because they're "blood". This song is specifically references my abuser who is my "brother" (in quotes because I have disowned him as my brother. My other brothers have protected me from him and deserve the title of brother. He will never get that title back.)

Crescendo - In music, a crescendo is a symbol that looks like this < and it means to gradually get louder. I took this meaning and made it a metaphor of gradually improving. In a choral piece, a crescendo can sound absolutely transcendental. [Examples: Baba Yetu starting at 1:31 or The Seed at 2:46] So, for a transcendental yet slow moving moment (such as the estimated six weeks it takes for my migraine medication to start working), crescendo seemed like an appropriate title. A song about how sometimes the person pushing a purified tyrannical destiny onto me is myself. I had high expectations of what my life would look like at this point and I have not met many of them. I entered a huge depressive state until I saw a neurology physical therapist who revealed that I have migraines. I saw a neurologist who gave me the most helpful medication I've ever had and the migraines that were amplifying my depression slowly healed until it was no longer this big intrusive thing in my life. That prescription was the start of a huge change in my life where life slowly kept getting better (of course there were ups and downs) and I could actually function better and enjoy life more without so much pain and I could focus on my other disabilities such as the one that has caused me the most trauma (celiac disease and its accompanying digestive problems). Life still is an absolute struggle but that medication changed my fucking life and allowed me to let go of this purified tyrannical destiny that was keeping me locked in place. Now, it does come with the downsides of not having much direction to where I'm going but I'm able to cope with that and learn as I go and make plans that would be in my ability to achieve and, of course, life is dynamic and thus good, bad, and neutral things will always occur, hence the repetition of "it's just one of those nights." The brain deformity that is linked to my migraines will always be there and I am still always susceptible to migraine triggers and my abortive medication may or may not help with that. But, compared to how it was before, this is a tremendous improvement. Overall, I want to affirm that this is a disability ACCEPTANCE song. This is not an overcoming disability song. It is acceptance. Say whatever you want about "well it's all up to interpretation", this is objectively a disability acceptance.

I am in control - A song about OCD and my experiences with exposure therapy. I had good experiences with exposure therapy (but not everyone does. OCD is complex and what works for one person might not work for everyone). It's a mantra that bounces around my head while I'm having intrusive thoughts. The phrase is not meant to be perceived as "I am in control of my OCD" but "I am in control of my actions regardless of what my intrusive thoughts will say." Intrusive thoughts happen to everyone and they exist to help our brains solve problems. With OCD, intrusive thoughts pop up when there is no problem. Exposure therapy works by exposing the patient to a trigger and not performing the compulsion. This lets the brain work through the thought and realize there is no problem.

Obey - The conclusion to this album about crossing the threshold into your own destiny, not the ones people carve put for you. An autism appreciation and acceptance song about not obeying pointless and harmful societal norms. An experience of what I endured in ABA therapy and how I will work on breaking the harmful behaviors that forced onto me to hide my autism, leading to me not getting a diagnosis until I was 18.

The Spiraling State Fair

About corporations prioritizing profit over safety, militarization, the prison industrial complex, and other related concepts.

Ferris Wheel - about how corporate greed and lack of safety leads to injury and death using amusement park accidents to represent that.

Violence - about how systemic issues lead to crime.

Radium Girls - About the young girls and women who worked for the United States Radium Corporation and developed severe medical problems due to their unprotected work with radium.

Forgiveness - About the hypocrisy in christianity where people will spout about forgiving people no matter what and then immediately turn around and demand the deaths of Palestinians, incarcerated people, the Sudanese, the Congolese, indigenous people, the Vietnamese, etc. Meanwhile literal actual dangers to society like pedophile priests and rapist family members will get away scot free because uwu you need to forgive people. Also a description of what led to my departure from christianity. [Despite how bitter and traumatized I am with my experience with christianity, I would like to see any christians who are also infuriated by the hypocrisy by other christians to rewrite my song in their own way. I don't think all christians are like this but I absolutely believ there are a lot of hyprocritical ones]

Famine & Frivolity - About the way people look down on the unhoused without realizing that just one bad day could land them in the same situation.

They are not lions - A Virginia school board has declared that they will be outing, misgendering, and discriminating trans students.

Monarch Butterfly

About oppression built into systems of power and the damage of a system built on survival of the fittest and punishment. Also about generational trauma caused by these systemic issues

Prophecies Are Written In Blood - A song that would be sung in a tavern telling the story of the Monarch Butterflies. The story begin's with a princess' death and how that leads her sister to where she is now.

Frankenstein - About the novel by Mary Shelley. The song highlights parental neglect and how it can create monsters. Came to mind after boomers were mad at how students made the realization through their study of the novel that Frankenstein's Monster was actually a victim which I completely agree with that realization. Will be on hold while I read and analyze the novel.

Kill Your Darlings: About recognizing privilege.

Why did the bear have to die? - The title of this song refers to Victor the bear who was killed after he swiped at someone's leg. He was a beloved bear and it's speculated the people at the campsite did not take proper precautions to reduce the risk of a bear entering the campgrounds. Unlike others, I'm trying not to blame the woman who was swiped at as she was trying to employ techniques that are supposed to scare the bears away so they don't attack and it was just one wrong move that provoked Victor. But my anger is toward the system that allows these things to happen. Victor could still be safe if stricter rules were employed regarding wildlife in order to protect. This is their home too after all. After he was killed, his body was left in a landfill. I understand the intent was to make sure scavenging animals didn't consume the tranquilizer used for Victor but there were better ways to treat his body afterward. The Bishop Paiute tribe later recovered his body for a proper burial. The message of the song applies to how both animals and humans are expected to exist in society a certain way lest they be seen as aggressive or unprofessional. Humans are taught to ignore their emotions even though emotions exist to protect and guide us. They are the most natural part of us. People who forget that we are also animals forget that things like climate change will kill us. We are food to the planet. We are not the kings of nature. We are people and we are fallible and to forget that is to abandon your humanity.

The Whales That Live In Dying Seas - About climate change. When I was a kid, I watched Bindi the Jungle Girl religiously and became hooked on whale conservation. A big inspiration for this was the song accompanying the episode about whales called "Save Me" which still will make me cry to this day.

Where Time Meets Its Trees - About generational trauma and the oppression of children. It is easy to take control of a child and the world will do nothing about it despite the knowledge that everyone was a child once. Children are vulnerable and powerless and instead of protecting them, society views them as property, parents view them as dolls, and when children act like neither, they are punished. This song is about how children need to be the centered in society. They are the future. They are also just children.

Violent Seeds on Peaceful Soil - Violent systems do not respond to peace. Double meaning. The first meaning is about how peaceful non-disruptive protests will not work in a system that is inherently violent and oppressive. The second meaning is about how imperialism fucked up the environment.

Eyes Closed - The unfathomable idea that people can go through life without the trauma of living as yourself.

There are no kings: About rebuilding after oppressive systems are removed

Mother Nature: About climate change

Pocket Apocalypse - COMPLETED

A superhero album that discusses disability and the American Healthcare system

A Calling Part 1 - About being disabled and how people always view you as a burden and would choose you to die should the worst come. About how a lot of people could excel in society if they were given the resources but also that you shouldn't be expected to prove that you're allowed to take up space.

A Calling Part 2 - About the need that people feel to prove they are allowed to stay alive and take up space.

The Light - A song written in the same energy as an anime opening. About being disabled specifically in America and how one bad day could end up bankrupting you. The "Light" refers to disability aids and medication and "I need it to save the world" refers to using an aid so you can serve others instead of using it to protect your health.

Vigilante - About having to be your own advocate when no one believes you.

Hatch - About people who coddle you and won't understand that you know your limitations the best. This kind of thing can hinder disabled people more than help.

Sinsyne - Sinsyne means "from that time" and this song reflects that by referring to the anxiety of regret in multiple circumstances from worrying about how you should have left an abusive situation sooner or even about how you treated someone or an opportunity you never took. It also has the meaning of how you are allowed to be proud about leaving a harmful situation. Even the timez you failed to leave said situation, YOU ARE SO FUCKING STRONG FOR EVEN TRYING. You deserve to feel pride. Leaving that situation was a good idea and you deserveto feel proud about it. My personal favorite line from this is "in the dust, in the love, in the green". Leaving something in the dust means to leave something behind. In the first verse, my existence was left behind in reference to my dissociative disorder. Leaving something in love means that you tried your best to make things work. Leaving something in the green means understanding that the few green flags you had in a relationship won't cover up the hardship you suffered. At the end of the first verse, it says "past that's so persistent" in reference to the scars left by trauma. In the second verse, the line "that hides underneath the snow" in reference to finding yourself again after a toxic or harmful relationship.

Die to yourself - A religious trauma song about how you are forced to hide your emotions for the sake of the church and how you should live for yourself not die for a community that treats you like shit. It's in reference to a phrase in christianity about "dying to yourself" so that you can "be reborn in christ" and how that's kind of just a heartbreaking statement about how this god is supposed to love you as you but wants you to "die to yourself" and shed all the parts thay make you, you.

A Calling Part III - A realization that your destiny isn't always about purpose in society. It's about experiencing the life the Universe divined for you. It's also about people who think it's at all okay to say "you're so strong! If I had your disability, I would kill myself." The Universe created me to be disabled. Disability will always exist. It is a natural part of life and we are allowed to take up space. You can't "save" us. We're not your inspiration.

Save the World - About the pressure put on younger generations to fix the problems created by older generations.

Post-Credits - An allusion to post-credit scenes that hint at a sequel. It's about how you can give your all as a disabled person to try and prove that you deserve space in the world but people just don't give a shit and will take advantage of you for it.

A place where all the doves meet

An Aphrodite tribute album discussing love in all forms.

Disappear - A song about respecting boundaries and affirming that true love is about respecting boundaries and working as partners. If someone is forcing you to do something, that's not love.

Mortalworkers

A Thanatos tribute album. Mortalworkers are a type of magic user in a book I'm currently writing of people who can speak to the dead and help them cross over by bringing them peace and justice. Mortalworkers are a metaphor for those who advocate for justice of victims of murder and trafficking. Mortalworkers are also a representation of my culture as a Mexican who celebrates Día de los Muertos and the idea that there are two deaths: death of the vessel and death of the memory. Just like Día de los Muertos, this album is about people forgotten about the system and making sure their memory is not killed by those who seek to cover up their deaths. Its second purpose is to bring comfort to the families and friends of those whose loved ones have been murdered or forgotten by the justice system.

She'll Never Die - A song in memory of Georgia Leah Moses, a young Black girl who was murdered in Santa Rosa, California in 1997. This song is also a call to action for authorities to properly investigate the case so Georgia's soul can rest. For more information, please see her sister Angel Turner's instagram page.

Dark - This song is about how deadly trying to escape a domestic violence situation is. The abuser in question is referred to as male since my own abuser is male (though he was a relative not a spouse like the person in this song) but abusers can be any gender and they can abuse any gender. The narrator in this song is speaking to police and explaining their situation while pleading for them to press charges. Unfortunately, a lot of cops are corrupt and often domestic abusers themselves so these situations are often just written off as an argument. Oftentimes, abuse is disregarded because no one was injured but abuse is still abuse even when it's not physical. This song is to channel my pain with my domestic abuse situation while also memorializing those who died from domestic violence when they easily could've been saved.

24 Hours - Regards the myth that people have to wait 24 hours to file a missing person's report when the first 24 hours are actually the most crucial time to search for someone. Every hour past 24 hours is less of a chance of finding someone alive. This song is about police corruption in missing person's cases and is for the families whose loved is still missing.

Tales from the Spinning City

This album is primarily a choral album. The Spinning City represents many societal and social failings such as the american dream and imperialism. A choir is important for these songs because choirs represent unity and a good choir can bring you to tears.

Escape Tonight - A song about oppressed groups and abuse survivors helping each other and growing a culture and bonds that can last for a lifetime.

The Olive Tree - A song for Palestine. Each line links a fundraiser to a family trying to escape Gaza.

EPs

The Evers - COMPLETE

Introductory EP about the Arloverse. Album follows Erikson's Stages of Development. The album explores themes of how child exploitation can impact development and the taboo of aging despite it being a natural part of life. It's also about how each stage of development will impact us for our entire lives.

Everbe Version 2 - (Trust vs. Mistrust) About how our bodies are the first thing we have to understand and how children rely on the adults around them to teach them about their bodies. Our souls cannot exist on this plane without their vessels and it's important that children are taught to trust their vessels. This song also discusses medical trauma and body dysmorphia and how an illness can disconnect our brains from our bodies and how we have to relearn how to trust our bodies among the trauma of what we endured. Version 2 is the official version but version 1 also has a meaning that I think is important.

Eversee Version 2 - (Autonomy vs. Shame and Doubt, Initiative vs. Guilt) Version 1 of the song is an unofficial version but one where I think the message is portrayed how I want it (as in, the most blatant form of child exploitation: child stardom) while version 2 covers more forms of child exploitation as well as child stardom. The name eversee refers not only to the way children are learning about the world around them but also to the fact that many parents of child stars or family vlogs are exposing every private moment that their child has for notoriety and thus their most personal moments will forever be seen on the internet.

Everthink - (Industry, vs. Inferiority, Identity vs. Role Confusion) Everthink refers to a personal moment of my life where, when I was first starting to struggle with my mental health, people kept trying to blow those symptoms out of proportion. It's a song to friends and family of people with mental illnesses that their symptoms do not always equate to being an emergency and are natural parts of a mentally ill person's day of life. Treating every symptom as an emergency will just lead to people shoving down their symptoms and lead them to develop more severe symptoms. Not only that but if someone who isn't mentally ill is exhibiting a trait of mental illness, that does not automatically make them mentally ill. Everyone gets anxious, everyone gets depressed, everyone gets self-conscious, everyone dissociates, and everyone has bad moments. It is good to be aware of signs and symptoms so you can support your loved ones but do not automatically label them with a disease they might not even have. Getting frustrated and emotional is a natural part of life and you should support people in their tough moments, not therapize them. Everthink is also about how people, especially those undergoing the identity vs role confusion stage might feel like their identity is not their own and that everyone is trying to apply a label to them that doesn't describe them.

Everknow - (Intimacy vs. Isolation) Everknow is about the overwhelming decisions that come with adult life and how people are expected to be married with five kids by the time they're 25 but also that we have a long life and it is okay to prepare and take things slow so that you can get to know people and the community you live in before making permanent decisions. Your life is not over at thirty and it's okay to take time to learn about and enjoy the world you're living in.

Everchange - (Generativity vs. Stagnation, Integrity vs. Despair) Everchange is building on the topic of enjoying the world you live in — much like Erikson believed each stage of your life builds onto the last one. It also builds on earlier themes of how your age determines your worth especially in terms of child exploitation. As we age, our worth does not decrease. Aging is a natural part of life and these last two stages of development are about how these points in our life is when we can make huge impacts for the people that come after us.

Child of the Universe - COMPLETE

About childhood trauma

Child of the Universe: About wanting to express yourself and devoting time to be yourself but also the lingering thoughts in the back of your mind about how much pain is in the world

Child of the Darkness: About living with a family member who is manipulative and abusive and how they cause you so much pain but it's also painful to try and leave.

Child of Mercy: About parenting your inner child who is suffering from rejection of loved ones.

Safezone - COMPLETE

About domestic and sexual abuse told in the theme of a zombie apocalypse.

Zombie - The perspective of two different people who don't know each other but experienced abuse by the same person. An analysis of different reactions to trauma and abuse.

Fallen Angel - About sexual abuse trauma and not being believed

Save a Life - About one of the struggles of leaving a dangerous relationship where you have this mentality that the person you love will change but realistically they won't so you finally take the steps to leave that relationship.

Last Resort - A song for men who have experienced sexual assault amd how society makes it difficult for them to receive help and understanding. Written in the pov of a female SA survivor talking with a male SA survivor.

Fawn - Refers to the fight, flight, freeze, and fawn response in relation to trauma and anxiety. People who fawn as a trauma response will try to people please and avoid conflict to establish a sense of safety. This response is one of many complications that people face when leaving an abusive situation. People who fawn are not bad nor are they weak. They are people trying to survive and should be given as much love as any other abuse survivor.

Safezone - The conclusion to this EP. It's about how abuse survivors come together to form a community of love and support despite going through the most horrible things. The Safezone is a utopia where people can escape the "apocalypse" and fight against the infection that is abuse.

The Other Side

Started with Death's Face and turned into a lesbian spy romance enemy-to-lovers kinda story about religious trauma and accepting yourself. Follows the story of Holly who is part of the Order of Halo and Thea who is part of the Myrtle Society.

Life & Death - Exposition - Holly knows they like women but know that their organization would find it shameful to their goal. They've met Thea multiple times as a hazard of the job but they shove down feelings they have about her so as not to distract themselves from their mission.

The Other Side - Inciting Incident - the first official meeting between Holly and Thea where they both get into a crisis where they have to work together to get out of that situation alive. They get to know small facts about the other as they go through this mission.

Death's face - Rising actions - Holly is struggling to hide her feelings for Thea and makes every excuse to see her as possible. It's like a deadly dance but Holly seems to enjoy it.

Good & Bad - Climax - Holly is forced to choose between Halo and Thea and she chooses Thea despite no knowledge of whay trusting her entails. Her life is collapsing around her as she begins to lay the foundation for a new one. Deep inside, she knows they made the right choice.

The Backdoor - Falling Actions - In order to truly abandon her old life, Holly has to tie up somd rather large loose ends while processing the trauma she endured at the hands of Halo.

Green - Conclusion - Based on the phrase "the grass is greener on the other side." After successfully breaking away with Halo. Holly and Thea settle into their new life no matter what danger awaits them.

Singles

Dream Demons - About losing a mentor figure. Written about a former faculty member from my high school who died.

Moondog - Idk. It just came out of my brain.

Everything is Fine - Childhood trauma and denial. Emotional suppression for the integrity of a perfect image.

Immortal Meets Mortality - A spin on Rapunzel discussing suffocating family dynamics but also people who believe they are indestructible and also about people trying to act like they know what's best for you.

False Prophet - Another one that idk what I means but it just came out of my brain. It felt important.

Democracy isn't real - A song about hopelessness that your vote actually does something where Americans are drowning in debt while the government funds Israel's genocide against Palestine.

Identity - About the guilt of not achieving expectations that other people set upon you.

Cure Life - About the results of the US election and trying to keep hope.

Original Angel - A song for those who still miss the OA six years later.

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Ok, I need to get a post in...

I apparently have art block. I think some of it is caused by school and people judging me for my art and what I like to draw. I'm not very popular in school. And when I am, it's.... Not in a good way.... I got called a liar a lot because my name and in lie. (Sound is like that, but i after e. I may not be German, but my name is) Students like to make fun of me a lot..... It's because I'm, "different" from them and autism causes the brain to think differently, and to act differently from others. I... Don't get why some students think that being a jerk and being "stronger" than others makes them "cool". I still don't have many friends, but I'm trying my best. The one quote is can relate to the most is from Help Me by or3o, "All that doing here is begging as I'm trying my best. But its becomes a mess, the fire in my head." Does anyone do this; hides there suffering by acting happy..? Heh... I do it everyday of my life... Its even tricks my mom. Making everyone think I'm an enthusiastic person. When in reality, I'm depressed... Well, this is all I have for today's post! Have a good day! (Or night! Or morning!)

(Edit) ya know what? I got caught up in this and forgot to mention, today was a meet and I beat my last PR (personal record) by one minute and 50 seconds!!! From 17:20 to 15:30!!! (Race time for 1.8 miles) That's my personal best record ever!!! I slowest time is 20 minutes. So I beat my slowest time by 5 minutes!!! And I got first place in my team's end. Like tenth on the whole race. XD. And today was the championship race!!! So that was my best race ever!!! Cross county's super fun!!! (If this sounded like bragging, I'm sorry. If it sounded rude because, I can remove it.)

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Introduction First Name: Leah Last Name: Garcia Nickname: Lele Gender/Pronouns: she/they, female at birth but questioning Age: 15 Species: human Sexual Orientation: pansexual Birthday: November 11 Life Story: idk it’s stll a wip Appearance Eye Color(s): blue Hair Color: originally black but she dyes it constantly Hair Style(s): pretty much any type Skin tone: caramel with white patches ( Body type: skinny but not eerily so Height: 5′3 About him/her Personality: shy, nice, dyslexic (it’s not diagnosed though), compassionate, def has adhd and autism, very sweet, maybe not the smartest, loyal, sarcastic Like(s): her mom and brother, the madrigals, Gerard, music, writing Dislike(s): being put on the spot, social events, being called dumb, somebody insulting her family Hobbies: writing, nature walks, collecting, helping around town Allergies: penicillin

Talents and Dreams Best Class(es): art Worst Class(es): math Family and Friends Parent(s): 1 Sibling(s): 1 Relative(s): 3 Best Friend(s): 1 Friend(s): 4 Crush(es): 1 Pet(s): 1 Rival(s): 0 Enemy: 0 Extra Scent: vanilla + honey Makeup: mostly just eyeliner and some blush Jewelry: a necklace Luisa made for her Piercing(s): ear piercings Favorites Theme Song/Quote: anything girl in red Favorite Food(s): marshmallows Favorite Drink(s): tea Favorite Color(s): purple Favorite Animal(s): frogs Favorite Number: 7 Favorite Season(s): fall Favorite Holiday(s): halloween Favorite Time of Day: evening

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Hey!! I adore this blog so much!! It makes me happy flappy every time I visit it. Can you go over everyone’s special interests and hyperfixations again? I know you have probably gone over them, but I would love to hear more information on them if possible. How long was this their SpIn or hyperfixation?? How often do they infodump (probably heaps like me)? What is their favourite thing relating to their SpIn/hyperfixation?? I love this blog so so much

All of these characters have had a ton of spins/hyperfixations so we definitely aren’t going to be able to cover all of them but here are some main ones

Virgil

spins/hyperfixations: emo bands and fashion

The average length of special interests/hyperfixations is 3-5 years

Virgil infodumps with people they care about a lot. It’s a way they show they’re connected and care about someone.

Fav related thing: Stimming to music

Dee

spins/hyperfixations: philosophy, snakes, theater

The average length of Dee’s special interests have mostly been lifelong and/or from childhood

How often they infodump: not often and usually only around really close friends basically just remy, his moms, and Virgil but it takes a longggg time for him to be comfortable infodumping to anyone

Fav related thing: Defending snakes and philosophical debates

Roman

spins/hyperfixations: Disney and art history

Roman’s Disney special interest has been around for forever, but besides he often flips through special interests really quickly

Roman infodumps all the time and he communicates through infodumping a lot as well

Fav related thing: Watching and quoting disney/using disney to communicate

Patton

spins/hyperfixations: animals and animal care, the science behind light, Winnie the Pooh

Patton’s special interests usually last a year to a few years and he generally always circles back to animals

Patton takes any chance he can get to infodump and he does it allllll the time (including infodumping to his dog)

Fav related thing: Applying their animal knowledge to Rose

Logan

spins/hyperfixations: astronomy, poetry, the ocean, chemistry, environmental science

Lengths average about a month to a couple months

Logan infodumps a fair amount, generally in processing of getting his point across

Fav related thing: Backyard science experiments

Emile

spins/hyperfixations: cartoons and animation, psychology, autism, Pokémon

Emile tends have the same special interests but goes through them in cycles

Emile infodumps to his friends semi-often but avoids infodumping in front of adults, especially his parents

Fav related thing: Emile enjoys consuming knowledge/learning more about his SpIns

Remy

spins/hyperfixations: fashion, queer history, mixology/drink making, sleep, and poetry

Lengths range from a couple months to a couple years

Remy starts to infodump a lot without realizing and then notices he’s “talking too much” and will cut himself off and stop

Fav related thing: The intense happiness and emotions that come with engaging in your hyperfixations

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ADHD, Gifted Programs, and Accidental Accommodations

So one big thing has been on my mind pretty consistently since I got diagnosed last year at the age of 30—why did it take so long to figure this out? At no point in my K-12 education or my 4 year bachelor’s degree schooling did any teacher or counselor question or suggest I may have ADHD, despite the fact that I check nearly every single box on every diagnostic criteria (both inattentive and hyperactive!)

One obvious reason is sexism. Pretty early in my reading on the subject, I learned that ADHD is dramatically under-diagnosed in girls and women. Partly this is because of different presentations, but a lot of it is just that the stereotype people have in their heads of what an ADHD kid looks like is always a boy.

But the other big reason, and the one I want to talk about today, is the fact that one of the few ADHD diagnostic boxes that I didn’t check was “bad grades.” So really, the question is, why weren’t my grades bad?

That’s not to say I was especially good at school work. My backpacks, desks, and binders were always a complete mess, and I NEVER did the homework. I would do the big projects (at the last possible second, of course) but daily homework just straight up didn’t happen. If there was time left at the end of class I would sometimes quickly do the homework for the next day, and occasionally jot down some approximation of it in the minute or two before class started, but when I was actually at home, I never touched it.

But here’s the thing with ADHD brains: We can focus on things with no problem, as long as we find them interesting. And I’ve always read quickly enough that doing the reading for class was usually interesting. And for the most part, the class content itself usually seemed interesting enough. But probably most importantly, I consider tests interesting. There’s always been enough of a challenge racing-the-clock game-like aspect to them to me that I would stay engaged on the tests, and even if didn’t completely know the material, I was good at using logic to get a pretty good guess (like using all those tricks they teach for standardized tests—narrowing down the options on a multiple choice question, looking for answers in the other questions, etc.)

So even in the classes where turning in the daily homework counted for part of the grade (math and language classes mostly) I was usually able to scrape a B with only the occasional C thrown in, and everything else was A’s.

But part of my saving grace was the “gifted” classes. I was very lucky that, despite not knowing about her own (probable) ADHD, my mom knew enough about how she worked as a student to know that me (and my brother) really needed to be engaged and challenged in order to thrive. Because of this, she advocated for us hard—she insisted we be allowed in my elementary school’s “gifted” program in kindergarten (based on our test scores of course) even though the “gifted” program officially wasn’t even available until first grade. And when we moved to a different state, she advocated for us again and got us included even though the “gifted” class was “full.” She knew that nothing would make us fail faster than being bored in class, so she made sure that there was at least one day a week when we would be challenged and actually get to engage with material we found interesting.

Aside, despite how essential they were for me to thrive in school, the entire concept of “gifted” programs and “gifted” kids is problematic as hell. Half of the screening is basically just looking for class signifiers and seeing whose parents had enough free time to give them a head start (or whose parents have the time to advocate for their kids the way my mom did for me). Not to mention there’s likely a massive racial bias. So in all this discussion of why I did ok despite my ADHD, it’s important to note that there’s a lot of privilege at play here determining who gets access to these types of programs.

This is also why I keep putting “gifted” in quotes-- I don’t think there is anything inherent about academic ability. Also, academic ability, reading ability, testing aptitude, etc. are definitely not indicative of intelligence. Plus the entire concept of the measurability of intelligence is based on eugenics ideas, so clearly one should take the whole thing with a huge grain of salt.

Nowadays the term all the parenting blogs like to use for kids like me, with ADHD (or dyslexia, or autism, or whatever else) who also test well enough to be flagged as “gifted,” is “Twice Exceptional” which is a term that makes me immediately want to punch whoever uses it. Seriously, it makes me gag. Like, it doubles down on the “special” euphemism and seems entirely designed to make parents feel better about their kid without any consideration to how the kid feels. No kid wants to be singled out, especially one who’s already probably pretty socially isolated (which I could digress about but that’ll be another essay for another day), and being Twice singled out certainly doesn’t help anything.

But ultimately the teaching in the “gifted” class itself wound up being really good accommodations for ADHD. I wouldn’t have been a bit surprised if they were better than the accommodations in the separate classes actually intended for kids with ADHD and other learning issues, though since I wasn’t diagnosed as I kid I can’t actually speak to that as I don’t have any experience there. But in the gifted classes, firstly, we were given more specific subjects as opposed to the overviews we got in regular classes. And it’s way easier to be engaged on specific subjects like ice age mammals, or the wreck of the Titanic, than it is to be engaged with a broad list of dates or categories. We did logic problems that were presented as games, but that were indirectly teaching us the basics for higher level math. In 6th grade, we did research projects and got to pick our own subjects completely, so we could write about whatever we were hyperfixating on at the moment (mine was on medieval warfare as depicted in the Bayeux tapestry). And if we happened to get excited and blurt out an interesting fact vaguely related to whatever was being discussed, that was likely encouraged instead of reprimanded like it would be in the normal classroom. This continued into high school, as honors and AP level classes tended to be a lot more discussion based rather than the top-down approach at other levels, as well as affording more opportunity to choose one’s own subjects.

The story you’ll hear from (or about) a lot of ADHD kids (especially undiagnosed) flagged as “gifted” is of hitting a wall at some point, academically speaking. That did happen to me briefly, in middle school. We started being assigned a lot more long-term projects, and there was a bit of a learning curve while I figured out how to put things off Until the last minute and not Past the last minute. But thanks to some patient teachers who believed in me (which I might not have had outside of honors classes), I managed to pull out of it and improve my grades (with the exception of the only report-card F of my entire academic career, from a sadistic gym teacher who seemed to think that enough berating would cure asthma).

Even more stories I’ve read and heard from people who were diagnosed with ADHD as an adult say they hit that wall academically when they started college—the first time they were really self-guided in their studies. But again, there, I was saved by an honors program. In this case, it was the Honors Tutorial College, a truly strange program at Ohio University. I was tracked into HTC by one particular professor who very much wanted HTC to expand into the art program and decided that because I had both strong test scores and a strong art portfolio (and probably, lets be real, because I was the daughter of one of the other professors) that I was the perfect person to be the first student in the new program.

OU’s website describes HTC as “flexible curriculum and one-on-one tutorials with renowned faculty that allow your curiosity to take the lead in your education.” It’s rigorous, but comes with a lot of perks, like waiving certain gen-ed classes, being able to take classes without first taking the required prerequisites, and designing one’s own independent study classes individually with instructors. And those perks are (as far as I know entirely accidentally) the perfect accommodations for an ADHD student (and probably pretty good for Autistic ones as well, based on some of my peers in the program).

A lot of the gen-ed classes I waived were ones I probably would have been bored in and thusly not done well. Being able to skip pre-reqs meant that, for instance, for my English requirements I was able to take far more interesting classes like Shakespeare’s Comedies, YA Lit, and Playwriting instead of English 101, 102 etc. If I wanted to learn about something in particular, I had help finding a professor willing to help me in an independent study/tutorial class. Being the pilot of the program meant I was able to shape it so that I could get an art degree without ever having to choose one medium (which as far as I know is still an option for anyone pursuing an HTC Studio Art degree). And at the end of the program, when we were required to complete a massive thesis project and paper (at basically graduate level), not only could I choose my subject to meet my hyperfixations, but I had individual help from a professor keeping me on task on the less-fun parts at every step of the way.

HTC students are required to keep their GPAs above a high threshold. At one point one of my grades (in Latin class) was low enough to hurt my average, and I was called into HTC headquarters for a check-in meeting. I was asked why my grade had fallen, and I explained that the class wasn’t that interesting (at that level it was mostly grammar) but that it was getting better as we were moving up into translating more actual historical material. That explanation was entirely accepted. Imagine if “it’s not interesting enough” was considered a valid excuse for grades slipping for everyone, how much less stressful school would be for ADHD kids!

So ultimately it’s pretty much been having the luck and privilege to get myself flagged for “gifted” classes that kept my grades up throughout my school years. Accidental accommodations have continued into my adult life as well. At my most recent office job, for instance (which I lost due to covid layoffs), I had a pretty hands-off boss who just didn’t care if I doodled, got up to stretch my legs every once in a while, and listened to audiobooks at my desk all day as long as the work got done.

I didn’t need a diagnosis to get these accommodations, because they were given freely, which meant I was able to succeed even without knowing about my own ADHD. If I had been diagnosed, and had had to ask for accommodations, I wonder if I would have done as well as bias against people with ADHD means people wouldn’t have expected as much from me.

So if you’ve made it this far, I’ll ask for the same for others that I got for myself. If you are a teacher (or a manager in an office setting), I strongly encourage you to consider how to make your classroom, office, etc. more accessible in general, without someone having to disclose a diagnosis or be singled out for accommodations. The biggest easiest one you can do is to allow (or even encourage) doodling in lecture settings. Even for neurotypicals, there have been plenty of studies proving people retain information better when doodling, so everyone should know by now that someone doodling doesn’t mean they’re not listening. If at all possible, encourage discussion and contribution. Give everyone breaks to stretch and move around. And give as much freedom as possible on what to learn about. You might be surprised what people are capable of when these reasonable steps are taken to give everyone room to thrive.

That’s all for now, hopefully you got something out of this unwieldy ramble. I’d be curious to hear if you’ve run into any accidental accommodations in your life and how they’ve helped. Until next time!

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TWO / birthday. 13 September

THREE / zodiac sign. Virgo

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EIGHT / last song listened to. Love hangover - Diana Ross on the radio

NINE / last film watched. Dark shadows

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The New Moon in the sign of Pisces will support us also to upgrade the way we think and remove thoughts and behaviors which do not serve us any purpose anymore.

During the last several months, we were rising our vibrations, clearing our and creating some space for new waves of energy. Also, we did the hard work which means that now it will be the right time to start receiving. We should open the arms and hearts wide and embrace everything that our Universe sends on our way. Sometimes, life may be quite exhausting.

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The lunar cycle will be the beginning point to what is left of this year. Our plans and vibrations from now are going to help us and guide us during the following months.

This March New Moon will also remind us to never force changes prior to being prepared to make those changes.

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We will also be motivated to feel profound, and not think profoundly. We will be encouraged to dance, sing, express through some kind of art or music. We will be motivated to release our thoughts, clear our minds and heads, and pay more attention to the beat and also the rhythm of the heart.

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Picture Books

Barnett, Mac. The Wolf, the Duck, and the Mouse. (Grades K-2) This clever picture book begins with a mouse that is quickly gobbled up by a wolf. Fortunately his new accomodations AKA the wolf’s stomach include a duck with kitchenware and jam. The duck states “I may have been swallowed but I have no intention of being eaten.” Award winning illustrator Jon Klassen’s artwork add to the charm of this folkloric tale.

Colleen, Marcie. Love, Triangle. (Grades K-2) Square and Circle have been best friends since they were first created. Triangle arrives on the scene and brings new ideas. Both Square and Circle want to be friends with Triangle which causes a split between the two buddies. This common friendship problem is resolved at the end of this geometric story.

Daywalt, Drew. The Legend of Rock, Paper, Scissors. (Grades K-3) The origins of the classic schoolyard game are explained in hilarious detail. Will Rock, Paper, or Scissors be victorious? Rock is searching for a worthy opponent. Paper leaves the Empire of Mom’s Home Office after conquering the Computer Printer while Scissors defeats Dinosaur-Shaped Chicken Nuggets. Wacky inanimate objects come to life under the expertise of illustrator Adam Rex. Fans of Daywalt’s The Day the Crayons Quit will be equally as charmed by this book.

Denos, Julia. Windows. (PreS-1) In this story, a boy of color dons a read hoodie, leashes his dog and ventures out into the twilight, where the windows are “blinking awake as the lights turn on a neighborhood of paper lanterns”. The reader gets to peer in at the small figures dancing, making dinner or throwing a party and watch as the color of the sky changes. The compositions are rendered in ink, watercolor, letterpress and digital collage. The narrative ends with a story shared and a snuggle. Readers will want to revisit this story over and over. Everyday routine turned to wonder on an evening walk filled with discovery.

Dykman, Ame. Read the Book, Lemmings! (PreS-2) Another delightful collaboration by the team behind Wolfie the Bunny and Horrible Bear! Lemmings don’t jump off cliffs. It says so in the book that Foxy is reading. However, the three lemmings on the boat have not read the book and keep jumping into the water. After trying unsuccessfully to get the lemmings to read the book, Foxy realizes he is going to have to actually teach the lemmings to read before he can stop them. A funny read aloud! Children will love this book at storytime and at home.

Jory, John and Benji Davies. Come Home Already! (PreS-3) The third hysterical picture book about Duck and Bear, unlikely pals. In this book, an excited Duck wants to hang out with Bear but Bear has left to go fishing for a whole week on his own. Bear is relieved to have some time alone. What will Duck do while Bear is gone? How will he survive without his best friend?

Lamothe, Matt. This is How We Do It: One Day in the Lives of Seven Kids from Around the World. (Grades K-3) Seven children from Italy, Japan, Uganda, Russia, India, Iran, and Peru describe one day in their lives as they eat, play, and learn. An author’s note, a glossary, a map, and photographs of the families are included at the end of the book. This is an informational picture book that could be used in a social studies unit.

Shannon, David. Bizzy Mizz Lizzie. (Grades 1-3) Lizzie is the busiest, buzziest bee in Hivetown. She longs to impress the Queen by winning a spelling bee contest, but she studies to the point of exhaustion on top of trying to juggle all of her other activities. When she dozes off in the middle of the competition, the only solution is rest. Lizzie finally learns to stop and smell the flowers. A book with a good message and wonderful illustrations will appeal to young readers.

Tsurumi, Andrea. Accident! (PreS-2) When a little armadillo named Lola knocks a jug of red juice all over her family’s white sofa, she flees to the library to hide. But as Lola run through town, she is joined by many others who have also made a mess and want to hide at the library too, avoiding conflict. Fun and colorful illustrations are found throughout the book and children will be drawn to the intricate details. This book teaches that a mistake can happen due to thoughtlessness, carelessness or bad luck and that it is ok to call it an accident but also necessary to “make it better” and “own up to it.”

Easy Readers

LaReau, Kara. The Infamous Ratsos are Not Afraid. (Grades 1-2) Brothers Louie and Ralphie Ratso plan to clear out an abandoned lot in their neighborhood and create an arcade. The problem is that the house next to the vacant lot might be haunted. This is the second book in the series that began with the Geisel Honor Book, The Infamous Ratsos.

Shea, Bob. Ballet Cat: What’s Your Favorite Favorite? (Grades 1-3) Ballet Cat and her cousin Goat are preparing a show for grandma and both want to prove that they are the best. Ballet Cat will come up with a fancy dance routine and Goat will perform tricks at his magic show. Which one will be her FAVORITE favorite? Terrifically fun third entry in this series.

Snyder, Laurel. Charlie & Mouse & Grumpy. (Grades K-1) This picture book/easy reader hybrid is the sequel to Charlie and Mouse. Charlie and Mouse are brothers who are spending time with their grandfather AKA Grumpy. In four short chapters, the trio discuss what it means to be “medium”, enjoy a special night while the boys’ parents go out, and choose the proper goodnight song.

Yoon, Salina. That’s My Book! and Other Stories. (Grades K-1) Big Duck, Little Duck, and Porcupine are a sweet trio of friends that find the best use for books, plan a talent show, and dress like a pirate. The latest addition to the Duck, Duck, Porcupine series contains three short chapters with bold text in large speech bubbles.

Juvenile Fiction

Bartok, Mira. The Wonderling. (Grades 4-6) Number 13 is a groundling (half human/half animal) who lives in an orphanage run by Ms. Carbunkle. He is named Arthur by a fellow groundling when he saves her. The pair of new friends escape the “Home” and set off on an adventure full of danger, magic, and mystery. Fans of Erin Hunter’s Warriors series will enjoy this lengthy fantasy novel.

Bradley, Kimberly Brubaker. The War I Finally Won. (Grades 4-6) Picking up right after 2015’s Newbery Honor book The War That Saved My Life, this very worthy sequel continues the story of Ada, her brother Jamie, and their guardian Susan. Set against the backdrop of World War II (which is felt much more immediately in this novel), Ada struggles to deal with the aftermath of years of abuse by her mother. An emotional, yet rewarding book for fans of the first book or for readers who love excellent historical fiction.

Broach, Elise. Trouble at School for Marvin & James. (Grades 1-2) This is the third book in the Masterpiece Adventures series featuring best friends, James and Marvin. James is a human and Marvin is a small black beetle. James decides to bring Marvin to school so he can experience James’ art class taught by beloved teacher, Mr. Chang. Mr. Change has blue hair and often quotes, “There are no mistakes, only happy accidents.” Marvin enjoys school until a sneeze separates him from James. This book is an excellent choice for new chapter-book readers.

Clements, Andrew. The Losers Club. (Grades 3-6) Alec loves to read -- so much so that it gets him in trouble at school and at home. Even the head of the afterschool program at his school says he can’t just sit around by himself and read; he has to join a club. So Alec comes up with a plan to create his own reading club, which he names The Losers Club to deter other kids from joining. His bright idea backfires when it turns out to be the most popular club at school. There are tons of great books referenced throughout, and there’s a helpful list at the back of the book for bookworms who want to read them all!

DeStefano, Lauren. The Girl with the Ghost Machine. (Grades 4-6) Emmaline Beaumont was 10 years old when her mother died; two years later, her father remains so consumed with grief that it’s almost as if Emmaline has lost both parents. In a desperate attempt to bring his wife back, Monsieur Beaumont tinkers with his “ghost machine” night and day. When Emmaline’s attempt to destroy the machine doesn’t go as planned, she and readers are left wondering if precious memories of loved ones are worth trading for the chance to interact with them one more time. Emmaline’s twin best friends, Oliver and Gully, represent the push and pull between hope and logic that plagues Emmaline and offers her new ways of understanding grief. Readers should be prepared for heaviness and sadness throughout. A story of loss, friendship, and resilience.

Farrer, Maria. Me and Mister P. (Grades 2-5) Arthur is tired of his younger brother Liam’s behavior. He can’t even watch television with volume since it upsets his brother. Arthur decides to run away from home but he meets a friendly polar bear named Mister P. who alters his plans. Mister P. helps Arthur accept his brother’s differences. This quirky story is bibliotherapy for siblings of children with autism as well as a good read for children who like fantastical animal stories.

Krishnaswami, Uma. Step Up to the Plate, Maria Singh. (Grades 3-5) Maria Singh lives with her family in Yuba City, California during WWII. Most of the community members are adha-adha (half and half) with fathers from India and mothers from Mexico. Maria’s teacher forms a softball team which Maria wants to join but she is not sure if her father will let her. Maria and her family struggle against discrimination from kids and adults.

Middleton, Dana. Open If You Dare. (Grades 4-6) For Birdie and her best friends, Ally and Rose, the joy of finishing elementary school is overshadowed by their dread of summer’s end. With Rose unwillingly moving back to England, and Ally and Birdie attending different middle schools, their long, close friendship is coming to an end. In the meantime, Ally deals with problems on and off the pitcher’s mound, while Birdie follows the trail of mystery, and Rose rebels against her parents in a creative, yet destructive way. The story is set in Atlanta with well-drawn individuals from different generations. Tween issues are addressed from first crush to first steps toward independence. A rewarding chapter book.

Morris, Chad. Mustaches for Maddie. (Grades 4-6) Maddie is a 12 year old girl who has a big imagination. When she is diagnosed with a brain tumor, she faces surgery and possible negative outcomes from the operation. She also faces middle school friendships and even jealous classmates with humor and bravery. Maddies loves fake mustaches so her supporters wear them. This book is based on the authors’ daughter and will appeal to readers who liked Wonder by R.J. Palacio.

Pennypacker, Sara. Waylon! Even More Awesome. (Grades 2-4) A Clementine series spin off which features another likeable kid. Waylon and Baxter are classmates who have to share a dog who lives in a shelter. The two boys can not be more different. While Waylon loves everything about science and following rules, Baxter is always in trouble and close to being a juvenile delinquent. When their dog, Dumpster Eddy, is going to be thrown out of the shelter he is living in, the boys come up with a plan to save him. A book about friendship, family, perseverance and hard work make this a wonderful book for reluctant readers.

Schlitz, Laura. Princess Cora and the Crocodile. (Grades 1-3) Princess Cora never has a moment to play or relax as her parents, the King and Queen, are constantly training her to be perfect. She writes a desperate letter to her fairy godmother asking for help. A pet crocodile arrives the next day and he impersonates Cora so she can have a day off. Caldecott Medalist Brian Floca’s illustrations add to the humor of this story.

Swanson, Matthew. The Real McCoys. (Grades 3-5) Moxie McCoy is a fourth grade detective who faces her biggest challenge yet in this fun chapter book. When someone kidnaps beloved school mascot Eddie the Owl, Moxie is on the case-but she is forced to solve this new mystery on her own since her best friend, and fellow detective, has moved away. Moxie finds clues and points fingers but she needs help to find the owl mascot. Enter Milton, Moxie’s smart little brother. Can the real McCoys solve the crime of the century?

Wilson, Amy. The Lost Frost Girl. (Grades 4-6) A modern day fairy tale about a girl who discovers that she is Jack Frost’s daughter. Owl is a twelve year old girl with a quirky mom, a dad she has never met, a cool best friend named Mallory and a boy who gives her weird looks at school. When she finds out that Jack Frost is her father, she is determined to meet him and delves into Jack’s wonderful and wild world of winter. She realizes she is part human/part fay and has special powers of her own. A tale of family, friendship and magic and embracing who you are meant to be.

Zemke, Deborah. The Curse of Einstein’s Pencil. (Grades 2-3) This second story about Bea Garcia will appeal to fans of Judy Moody. Bea is initially excited when the smartest girl in school, Judith Einstein asks her to be a partner in the geography contest. Then Bea wonders if the secret to Judith’s intelligence is her pencil. Bea takes Judith’s pencil when it rolls on the floor but the effect on her life and friendship is not what she expected.

Graphic Novels

Hale, Shannon and Pham, LeUyen. Real Friends. (Grades 3-6) Shannon Hale, author of the bestselling Princess in Black series, debuts her first graphic novel: a memoir of her childhood friendships from kindergarten through sixth grade. Friends, rivals, and frenemies drift in and out of Shannon’s life, but her mean older sister remains a constant menacing presence. Readers will find much to relate to: neighborhood friends who move away; the dread of finding out that all of your friends have been assigned to another teacher. Hale as an adult narrates the story with a welcome perspective, acknowledging when she herself was a bad friend or seeing the dynamics of a situation more clearly in hindsight. Fans of Raina Telgemeier will love this.

Jamieson, Victoria. All’s Faire in Middle School. (Grades 4-8) From Victoria Jamieson, who won a Newbery Honor for Roller Girl, comes another middle grade graphic novel. Imogen has been homeschooled her whole life; her world revolves around the local Renaissance Faire where her parents work. But now she’s ready for her biggest challenge: middle school. Imogen’s unconventional background makes it difficult for her to fit in, but is she willing to do what it takes to conform? Recommend to fans of Raina Telgemeier.

Siegel, Mark. The Sand Warrior. (Grades 3-5) The Five Worlds is a galaxy of five planets filled with different species. Oona Lee teams up with An Tzu, a boy from the poorest slums, and Jax Amboy, a lonely star athlete. They discover that they may be able to light five ancient beacons and save the Five Worlds. Hand this fantasy story to fans of Avatar: The Last Airbender and the Amulet series.

Biography

Guglielmo, Amy and Tourville, Jacqueline. Pocket Full of Colors. (Grades K-4). Mary Blair is remembered today as one of the greatest and most influential Disney animators, but at the time, her use of color was considered “too vivid, too wild.” When her all-male colleagues at Disney reject her ideas, she strikes out on her own, where she finds huge success as an illustrator and set designer following her own vision. Finally, Walt Disney himself asks her to come back; she’s the only one he will trust to design the now-classic ride It’s a Small World. Gorgeous brightly-colored illustrations evoke Blair’s distinctive style. An author’s note is included at the end of the book.

Meltzer, Brad. I am Sacagawea. (Grades 1-3) Sacagawea’s story is the latest addition to the Ordinary People Change the World best-selling biography series. Sacagawea was the only Native American to join Lewis and Clark’s expedition. Children will learn about the traits that made Sacagawea a trailblazer and the significant contributions she made to the world. A timeline and photos are included at the back of the book. Christopher Eliopoulos’ illustrations reflect his origins in the comic industry. He recreates lively scenes from Sacagawea’s life.

Rosenstock, Barb. Vincent Can’t Sleep. (Grades K-2) This picture book biography of Vincent Van Gogh explores his life especially his troubles with insomnia. He had trouble sleeping as a child, an adolescent, and as an adult in the hospital. The text is short but lyrical while the illustrations in acrylic, pen, and watercolor reflect the night sky and his iconic work, The Starry Night. An author’s note and sources are included at the end of the book.

Nonfiction

Burcaw, Shane. Not So Different. (Grades 1-3). Shane was born with a degenerative muscle disease, and he’s never been able to walk. People always seem to ask him the same ten questions, like “How do you eat?” or “Why is your head so big?” Answers to these and more are accompanied by funny photographs. Through Shane’s funny and frank stories--he once broke his expensive motorized wheelchair by using it to lift his brother to dunk a basketball--readers will learn that they’re not so different from him after all. A nice introduction to disability for younger kids.

Burns, Loree Griffin. Life on Surtsey: Iceland’s Upstart Island. (Grades 4-7) In 1963, an underwater volcano off the coast of Iceland erupted, creating a new island formed from rock and ash. Scientists realized they could use this new island to study how life takes hold in a new environment. What are the first plants to grow on the bare rock? When and how do birds, insects, and other animals arrive? The book follows a team of scientists who return to the island every year to study the changes; full-color photographs document their journey and the changing island landscape. It’s a great introduction to how scientists really work, full of details that kids will love. (On a deserted island, how do you go to the bathroom?) A glossary and bibliography are included at the end of the book.

Chin, Jason. Grand Canyon. (Grades 3-5) Some may think of the Grand Canyon as just a “big hole in the ground,” but through gorgeous and detailed illustrations, Chin reveals the complex ecosystem it hosts and what it tells us about our geological past. As a father and daughter hike through the canyon, the reader learns more about what makes each level of the canyon unique. Die-cuts reveal fossils in the modern-day, and when readers turn the page, they are transported back millions of years, to what the landscape looked like when each fossil was formed. Further scientific information, an author’s note, and sources are included at the end of the book.

Eggers, Dave. Her Right Foot. (Grades 3 and up) A beautifully illustrated book about the history of the iconic statue along with humor and interesting trivia during the first part of the book. The second part of the book talks about the statue’s feet and how the back of her right foot is actually lifted as if she is going somewhere. No one ever seems to talk about the fact that the statue of liberty is walking; she is on the move. If the statue of liberty is a symbol of freedom, if the statue of liberty has welcomed millions of immigrants to the United States, then how can she stand still?

Harris, Chris. I’m Just No Good At Rhyming. (Grades 3-8) Fans of Shel Silverstein, Ogden Nash, or Jack Prelutsky will enjoy this volume of humorous poetry for kids. Lane Smith’s hilarious illustrations add to the fun.

Rose, Deborah Lee. Beauty and the Beak. (Grades 3-5) An Alaskan bald eagle lost most of her beak after a poacher shot her. She was unable to eat, drink, or preen without her beak. The eagle later named Beauty was sent to the care of biologist Veltkamp at a raptor center in Idaho. Since Beauty’s beak did not regenerate, Veltkamp enlisted the help of a dentist and an engineer. Together they fashioned a beak for Beauty using a 3-D printer. This nonfiction animal rescue story has similaries to stories by the Hatkoffs including Winter’s Tail.

Roy, Katherine. How To Be An Elephant. (Grades 3-6) A stunning look at how a newborn elephant matures into a capable member of the herd. This book emphasizes how an infant elephant learns through her family herd an array of skills that are necessary to keep up; from learning to walk and swim right away, projecting her voice, using her nose to eat and smell and keeping cool with her large ears. Large illustrations of calves with their herd are interspersed with captivating diagrams and smaller images work well together. A carefully researched book and a must have for all elementary school collections.

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