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[orange-dreamzer]

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[starsthewitch]

Star’s beginners guide to Aphrodite worship 🐚💕

Who is Aphrodite?

Aphrodite is the goddess of love, sex, beauty, seduction, and war. She is most commonly known for her immense beauty and her many associations with sex.

What are some things she is associated with?

Doves

Flowers like roses

The colors pink, red, blue, green, white, and gold

Crystals like rose quartz, clear quartz, pearls, diamonds, sapphires, amethyst, rubies, moonstones, and aquamarines

Incense that smells of rose, cinnamon, myrrh, frankincense, vanilla, and jasmine

Her tarot cards, The Lovers, The Empress, and The Star

What can I give to her as offerings?

Shells or shell imagery

Ocean imagery

Swan and dove imagery

Heart imagery

Valentine's day gifts like chocolates

Imagery/paintings that depict her

Roses or rose imagery

Doing skincare for her

Perfumes or colognes

Hairbrushes

Mirrors

Doing your makeup

Moonwater

Strawberries, apples,and raspberries

Devotional acts or things you can do in her honor

Giving compliments to people

Collecting things you find pretty

Wearing jewelry you've offered or devoted to her

Watch or read romantic material

Self-love

Masturbation (if comfortable in doing so)

Sex (if comfortable in doing so)

Wear perfume dedicated to her

Spend time with loved ones

Create a digital altar (these can be done on Pinterest)

Write poetry about her

Write a letter to her

Create or listen to a playlist dedicated to her

Talk to her (tarot cards, dice, pendulum, and other forms of divination work just fine)

What is it like working with her?

When it comes to Aphrodite, in myth, she was often known as a wrathful and jealous goddess. However, since the myths are just stories and are known to exaggerate some details, this isn’t usually the case.

However, when people mention to others that they are interested in working with Aphrodite, they usually say that you absolutely should not. That she is needy, requires a lot of attention and offerings, that if you don’t do what she says, she will take your beauty away.

This is also not the case.

In my experience as an Aphrodite worshipper, she is very loving, along with being insanely passionate. Also being very vocal about her needs and wants.

Often getting signs from her isn’t at all uncommon. I remember the first few weeks I started working with her, I got an image on my feed that had these two eels intertwined together in a heart shape.

You will often feel connected to sea life, the sea in general, wanting to do things for yourself like dressing nicer and wanting to take care of yourself more.

Here are some things I’ve experienced in my time in working with her.

When I first started praying to her, I stuttered and fumbled over my words. A lot. I was oddly nervous about it? I’m not the type to stutter and fumble often. But beginning to feel nervous and even embarrassed in the presence of the goddess of love? Very normal.

She often enjoys getting milk and dark chocolate, along with roses or any kind of flower, real or not. I gave her chocolates, a fake rose, and a real flower for valentines day and she was insanely happy with it. So much so that her candle rested in a heart shape for a short while.

I often saw butterflies, a symbol of Aphrodite.

I often feel inclined to go to the beach, collect seashells, and do things that make me feel good.

I feel more comfortable expressing love. Before, I was never the type to use pet names for people, especially for friends. But i’ve noticed that I now call people sweet and endearing names. Honeybun, sweet pea, boo, sweetie/sweetness, and babes are things i’ve been saying lately.

She is very honest, often not sugarcoating things. I asked her when my ex first asked me out if we’d last. She said no and gave me explicit reasons as to why. Though I still went out and dated them anyway, and it pretty much ended in the way she said.

She very much enjoys art work of her. I’ve drawn her a few times, asking her to guide my hand in doing so.

Whenever I feel unattractive or hate something about my appearance, she usually makes someone compliment me that day or that week. I was having an off day with my hair, and in that same hour, a girl walked up to me and said that she loved my hair and the style it was in.

That is it for my beginners Aphrodite worship guide! I will be doing these for the other two deities I work with, Apollo and Freyja.

I do hope these were helpful. If you have any questions or need assistance with anything, my ask box and my dms are always open. So be sure to shoot me a message!

Much love to you. <3

[daydreamgoddess14]

Aspirations pt.1

Hopefully you can look past the rubbish title and summary enough to give this a go!

It started as me coming up with a 'one bed situation' but I've expanded it a little to probably 3-4 chapters in total.

I've only done a couple of very short pieces for this fandom so far so I'd love to know your thoughts! Be kind! 😘

Sydcarmy Masterlist

Full Masterlist

Sydney Adamu / Carmy Berzatto

Syd is 12 months deep in a crush, Carmy is 6 months into a relationship he doesn't want, The Bear is 4 months open and Nat is 2 months into motherhood....

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Syd didn't know why she'd said yes. Nat had asked, and while her brain went to say 'no thanks', her heart saw the look of desperation on Natalie's face, and a 'yes, of course' popped out instead. Nat even had her minor guilt trip lined up. 

"... I mean, I haven't had any real adult company since the baby was born, and I just -"

"Nat, I said yes."

"For real?"

"Sure, why not. Wait - is Claire invited?"

"Oh god, no. Just us and Tiff."

"Richie's ex?" Nat nodded. 

"Yep. Just some drinks at home, so I'm around if I'm needed. Maybe a couple slices of Marcus's cake?"

"I'll bring you some food."

"You're an angel. Does Carm know you've been keeping my fridge stocked for the last 3 months?" Syd shrugged,

"If he does, he hasn't said anything." They sat in the closed restaurant, Nat feeding baby Mikey while Syd went through the books with her. Carmy was… late. "Where the fuck is he anyway?" Nat clipped her bra back into place and lifted the baby to her shoulder. Every Friday between lunch and dinner service, they did the books together.

"Good question." Syd murmured, eyes on her calculator. "We need to start putting some money aside for Thanksgiving and Christmas promos."

"On it. I need you guys to confirm the festive menu by the 15th, please. We go to print on the 19th, delivery by the end of the month ready to take bookings throughout October."

"Wow, you are still, like, smashing it." Syd says, impressed. 

"I gotta do something during those 3 am feeds other than shopping." She reasoned, heaving the baby over to her other shoulder. 

"Here," Syd stood and held out her hands so Nat could gratefully pass him over. She'd not been around too many babies and was terrified the first time she'd held him. Richie had ribbed her about it in the weeks prior - so much so that she hadn't actually held the baby in company other than Natalie. She rocked gently from side to side, hearing little Mikey's snores in her ear. Nat read through the books and the notes left by Syd and/or Carmy.

"Hey, did I tell you what Uncle Jimmy did?" Syd didn't stop her gentle movement but turned to face Natalie better,

"No?"

"So we each own 33%, right, and Jimmy had the 1% leftover? Well he's gifted it to Mikey. The baby bear is already earning."

"That's dope, I'm still gonna make him do the dishes as soon as he's old enough though. He's gotta earn that paycheck." Syd smiled down as Mikey's eyes drifted shut. 

*

"Hey, fuck, sorry I'm late." He pushed through the swing doors, stopping at the sight of Syd swaying with the baby in her arms. 

"Too late, Carm, we're fucking done now." Nat teased, "good job someone is pulling their weight around here. And giving my arms a break." 

"He's asleep, where'd you want him?"

"You've got the magic touch." Nat took him carefully and transferred him to the car seat. Carmy squatted down for a closer look, 

"I missed out."

"Shoulda been here in time," Nat warned, "I've got a night shift going if you're -"

"No. No thanks sis, I don't get enough sleep as it is."

"Makes two of us."

"Makes three of us." Syd laughed. Carmy kissed Mikey's forehead and stood to pull his sister into a hug while Syd knelt down to tuck the blanket around Mikey and brush a finger over his milk drunk cheeks. 

"I'll let you know when's good?" Nat confirmed to Syd with a hug before letting Carmy lift the heavy car seat and take it out to her car. "Bye Uncle Bear, bye Auntie Syd!" She singsongs. By the time Carmy has returned, Syd is making sure the paperwork is filed correctly and clearing the table they've used. 

"Coffee? Probably too cold now."

"Unlikely, no such thing." He takes the mug and finishes most of it in one go making her grimace. 

"That's gross."

"You ate doughnut off the floor." He counters, she has no argument. "You and Nat planning something?" 

"Just Thanksgiving and Christmas."

"We need a menu."

"We do. I have some potential dishes down but I gotta link them with the theme or some shit." He raises an eyebrow, "Nat's idea. I'm not naming dishes after reindeer or any bullshit like that." 

"Got it. Wanna work on it Monday?"

"You got time?"

"Always." This time, Syd looked incredulous. "I mean it." She nodded slowly, 

"Heard, Chef."

"What'd you make for them this week?" He asked, holding out his hands for the paperwork folder. Syd froze, "C’mon Syd, you think I don't know you've been batch cooking for Nat and Pete for months?" She breaks into a smile, 

"Just easy stuff, chilli, casserole."

"Let me know when you're makin' more and I'll do some as well."

"Oh, I got it under control. You're busy with… like, Claire and this place. I only have this place so…" She trailed off with a limp shrug. 

"Well, you don't have to do it either -" He tried to interject. 

"Nat's been good to me. She's the only other voice of sanity around here." At that, Carmy feigned a look of hurt which made Syd snort with laughter. "Do not - do not - try and claim otherwise!"

"And here I thought we were partners."

"We are. Which is why I can't complain to you about you." She grinned and Carmy returned it with ease. Over a year of working together, 4 months since The Bear had opened, and she'd finally gotten to a point where she only felt awkward approximately 60% of the time, which was a solid win. With time, communication between them had significantly improved. The only downsides currently were his time management when it came to Claire and the raging crush Sydney had developed on Carmy over the course of the last year. The crush was the main/only reason her awkwardness level remained so high. 

"You can, y'know. I want to know if there's something I need to do better. I told you, you gotta let me know if I'm fucking up." She caught her lower lip in her teeth. He was doing that thing again, standing frustratingly close and looking at her with those ocean eyes. 

"You need to stop being late. That's the second time Nat and I have had to go through the books alone, and there's stuff in there that you're closer to than us. I'm the shit, Carm, but I can't read your mind. No matter how hard I try." She jokes. He nods sincerely. 

"Heard. I'll do better, I promise." He paused, "when'd you start holding the baby anyway?"

"Literally the first time I didn't have you and Richie watching me like a hawk." She laughed, "If you'd been around, you'd know that I am his number one Auntie."

"That so?"

"I get all the smiles, all the giggles. Me and baby Mikey are like that -" she holds up her crossed fingers, "you can't compete with a love like ours." She teases.

"Nat likes you better too, s'ok maybe the Fak's will take me in. Or T."

"Dude, T would mother the shit outta you!" She exclaimed.

"Already does. You two gonna be OK tomorrow?"

"So you and Richie can play fucking hooky? Yeah, yeah, I remembered. We all good."

"Sure?"

"Yes, Chef."

"Syd?"

"Carm, babe, Tina and I will be fine. We have everyone else here, I got Nat on front of house, we're gonna smash it." He was about to call her out on calling him babe, but they'd finished clearing up just as everyone else started arriving for dinner service and chaos soon descended. The rest of the day passed without incident. The following morning, Syd and Tina had the crew prepping for a busy lunch service while Richie and Carmy flitted in and out of the kitchen, filling up the car for their catering event. Syd took her break outside while they finished off, 

"I'm gonna get some smokes." Richie called out, already halfway down the alley. Carmy moved towards Syd,

"If you ask one more time if I'm sure, I'm gonna give you a black eye." She warned. He held his hands up, 

"Just checking in."

"You've already done that. We'll be fine."

"I'll keep my phone on. You need anything, you'll call?"

"What're you gonna do from across town?"

"Yo, cousin!" Richie shouted from the sidewalk, "bring the car down." 

"Call me."

"Just fucking go, we're good." She hopped down from the pallets with the intention of pushing him as he continued to hesitate. 

"Carmen!" Richie bellowed again, turning to talk to Natalie who'd just arrived out front. 

"Festive menus Monday?" He asked, 

"Yes, Chef. Go!" He nodded once, took half a step closer and kissed her gently on the lips before turning and running to the car. He was pulling out onto the street before she'd had time to register the kiss at all. 

*

Two miles down the road, Carmy stopped at a red light and his brain reactivated. 

"Holy fucking shit." He muttered, staring straight ahead. 

"What'dya forget?" Richie asked, looking up from his phone. Carmy thought fast,

"Uhh napkins." Richie tsked,

"I picked em up you fucking dipshit." He laughed, shoving Carmy's shoulder. "Good job one of us knows what the fuck is goin on cuz. You gotta stop thinkin bout Clairebear all the time, man." Carmy barked a short laugh,

"Yeah, Claire." He agreed, still thinking about Syd's easy smile and soft lips. 

~~~~~~

[eclipse-arbiter]

Monty x Security Guard! Reader Headcannons

Gender? Not available.

🐊 Flirted with you as soon as he met you.

🐊 Called you the most annoying 80s pet names when he first met you. Anywhere from Doll to Babe.

🐊 You started your shift in Monty Golf. Usually Monty is in his room doing whatever he wants. Or he's up on the catwalk doing his basic moody bitch act. That's what you were told.

🐊 However, he was waiting on the side of the stage waiting to torment Vanessa when she walked through the door.

🐊 Instead of the normal moody guard who'd send him back to his room, there was a newbie guard just looking around, and they were kinda fine looking too.

🐊 You were unaware of the large reptile animatronic heading your way as you headed to check all rooms before you go to the security office in your area.

🐊 He DEFINITELY walked up to you and just tossed his arm around your shoulders saying something like, "Whats a thing like you doing at a pizzaplex like this?"

🐊 Whatever he said made you snort at his cheesy pickup lines. "I work here, sir. I'm just a little bit lost."

🐊 Makes fun of you for loosing your way back to the main camera room, but leads you there anyways.

🐊 Kinda always stays close to your room and has startled you a few times by running to the room. You've slammed the door in his face a few times and laughed at the circumstances through the door with him.

🐊 His favorite thing to do is guess which camera feed you're viewing and pose in front of it. You've caught him in many ridiculous poses. Your favorite was him doing a draw me like one of your French girls but facing the other camera.

🐊 You've made memes of all of them and send them to him through the company fazwatch.

🐊 He found out about Vanny four months into your employment.

🐊 Absolutely made sure she was no where near you even if it put his programing on the line.

🐊 Sometimes just goes to your room to just be close to you.

🐊 You've gotten so close to the Gator, half the time you look around and find you're both touching and have been for a while.

🐊 Sometimes you've fallen asleep in your office and woken up to Monty sitting next to your chair practicing his bass quietly.

🐊 You've asked Monty why he does it. He wasn't able to answer, But you didn't look too far into it. To you it was just like a friendly thing.

🐊 You only look farther into it when another coworker brings up how odd it is for Monty to charge next to your security office and his request for it to be added into the office he had placed a week earlier.

🐊 You went to your shift as usual and talked to him.

🐊 He admitted to being attached to you in a way he couldn't describe for a while. He ended up telling you he liked you and didn't want to make your relationship weird.

🐊 It took you a while to get used to but, you ended up accepting his confession and agreeing that it was fine for his charging unit to be in the office.

🐊 He'd find little things in the pizzaplex to give you as little gifts. Sometimes he'd barter a signed plushie for someone's stuff just cause he thinks you'd like it.

🐊 Expect during working shifts to just be picked up and set on his lap so he could watch what you're doing (or power off for a small bit to save battery.) Probably compares you to a cat cause you're small and warm.

🐊 He's gotten a bean bag chair for you to sit on in the office. He enjoys it because its big enough for him to sit on and hold on to you if you fall asleep.

🐊 Takes you on small mini golf dates. He teaches you how to play. Its up to you if you get competitive or not. Most of the time he likes seeing your face subconsciously scrunch up as you try to time the ball hit properly.

🐊 Hes made small comments that he wishes he could go on dates with you outside of the pizzaplex.

🐊 Has crow brain when it comes to getting you gifts. If its shiny you should like it. Presents it to you as soon as he can.

[nctworststuff]

Pairing- Boyfriend!Renjun x nospecific!reader

Warning-Death,Cancer

Genre: Angst

a/n: Here what you guys got after a months I’m not post anything. Also Thank you my friend,Lucy because helping me a lot :). Hope you guys like it

He always with you

He avoided meeting with you lately. You missed to spend time with him so much. You missed his scent, his hugs, his kisses, his presence, but most importantly, you missed him.

You recently spent a lot of time in your apartment, all by yourself. Watching movies, drinking hot chocolate and staying under your fluffy blanket. Sometimes you went to hangout with your friends, but not as often as you used to. However, today you couldn't take it anymore. I have to visit him, now!

Deep inside you knew that he would never cheat on you. What if something bad had happen to him? Maybe he got sick or maybe something in his family came up? You didn't know. Helplessly you scrolled through your media social. Usually, he would be active on Instagram. Always adding things to his story or at least posting the pictures he made. But ever since 3 weeks ago, you haven't seen him post a single thing. As if he vanished.

You took a look at your photo gallery on your phone. It's filled with pictures of you and Renjun. Everytime the two of you had met in the past months, you had taken at least one picture. Are you okay, renjun?

You didn't want to waste your time anymore, so you walked into your bedroom to change your outfit. You arrived at his house that felt like a second home to you. Big dark clouds covered the sky and sun. It may rain soon. You slowly walked to the door and opened it with the spare key Renjun gave you not so long ago.

You couldn't see him when you entered. Maybe he is in his bedroom? You steped further into his apartment. It was a big mess. You tried to comprehend what could've happened here. The TV was on, adding some noise to the otherwise quiet space. Some old snacks that have neither been fully eaten nor thrown away, covered the floor. It surely wasn't healthy for him to life in all this trash.

You finally went upstairs and pressed the door handle down slowly after knocking and getting no reply. Who knows, maybe he's sleeping? However  you suddenly heard a faint crying sound instead of the silence. What's happening to him? Thousands of thoughts were running in your head, creating one scenario worse than the other. "Renjun?" You softly called out his name and fully opened the door. He turned his head and body to look at you, surprised by your arrival. His eyes were more red than white and his face looked as white as freshly fallen snow did.

"Y/n? W-what are you doing here?" He looked at you with what you could only assume was an angered expression. You slowly approached him and sat down on his mattress beside him. You hesitantly leaned your head on his shoulder and put your hand on his thigh, joining his own one. Oh, how often you had fiddled with his slender fingers before. They were just as beautiful as the art they created, but now they were just dried skin and bone. You were convinced, something bad happen to him!

"And why are you crying?", you asked him in return, probably a bit too late, but not that it matered anyways. He kept quiet for about a minute, before taking a deep breath and forcing those awful words out of his mouth. "I have a disease! I-I have cancer..." He closed his eyes tightly to hold himself back from sobbing. The fear that lived within him ever since the doctor told him he was going to die earlier than expected, suddenly skyrocket in your presence.

Shutting you out in the hope of making you forget him, had been so much easier than seeing your heart break right in front of him. You didn't deserve the pain he caused you, so why...? Why are you still here y/n? Why couldn't you stay away from me? "So that's the reason why you pushed me away? The reason you avoided me? Why didn't you tell me? Renjun? Explain it to me. Please explain everything." you looked at his eyes that beared so many emotions, while he bit his chapped lips.

"I-I don't know. I... I was just so, so scared. Actually, I-I knew I had cancer... It... They told me a year ago."

His confession was interrupted by a hiccup. He started crying again and put his hand on his face. You've been together for 3 years and he kept this a secret for all the time, telling you just now? "I-I'm only going to live for one more week. My doctor said there is no other way for me." Why? Why did he need to leave like this? Couldn't he be healthy and grow old with me? Searching in your confused and helpless mind you looked for a solution.

"Hey, i-it's okay. Its not your fault! I-I could spend all my money for your surge-", but he cut you off with a harsh movement by his hand. "You heard what I said. There's no chance, y/n!" Now your eyes were filling with tears, blurring your sight. This can't be true! "You said you would never leave me. You- You promised." The tears poured out of their home, painting a wet line down your cheeks until they dropped down your chin, falling. You too, felt like falling. You were so angry, but not at him, no, he didn't wanted this either. You were angry at the situation. At the fact that you couldn't do Anything.

Watching your little emotional breakdown, Renjun stayed quiet. After he had avoided meeting you for so long, seeing you come back to him, crying with him, still caring for him, there was only one thing he wanted. "Y/n? Can I ask for one last thing, before death is taking me?" He moved his hand to your shoulder, pressing it softly. "Anything for you, Renjun!" You desperately looked into his eyes, meeting his softened expression. "I just want to spend my last week with you. Please. One last time?"

Day 2

Standing in the kitchen for about half an hour, you had made a healthy breakfast for the two of you, since he loved your cooking. You poured some hot porridge into his favourite bowl and placed it on the tray. Walking slowly to not drop anything you brought the food to his bedroom. He was still asleep, looking utterly peaceful.

While you put the tray on a near small table, you called his name softly, to wake him up. Upon hearing his name, his eyelids fluttered open. Still a bit sleepy, he rubbed his eyes and gave you a questioning look. "I made some porridge for you. Should I... feed you?" You smiled at him shyly. He could just nod his head, feeling exhausted even after taking such a long nap.

You sat down beside him and took the spoon to feed him. He followed your every move as you put the still warm porridge in his mouth. A big smile suddenly stretched across his cheeks. "I knew your cooking would never disappoint me!", he complimented, making you giggle. Yet, you couldn't ignore the sad feeling in your chest, knowing you had to accept the fact that he was going to die soon. Only five days would be left after today.

Of course Renjun noticed the way your expression changed. “I dont like to see you sad. Please smile for me” He grabbed your other hand too, making you smile. The smile only he got to see. You don't even know if the sweet smile you were currently wearing on your face would show up for another guy, but for now it seems like it is just for Renjun, who finally noticed the bracelet on your wrist.

"You still wear that bracelet?” His eyes fixated on your wrist. You just watched him with sparkling eyes, while thinking back to how you got that gift.  “Of course! It looks so pretty and it bears a lot of memories for me!” He smiled at you with just the same sparkles glowing in his eyes, making your heart beat unbelievable fast in your chest. You didn't knew why, but the comforting feeling of love, the love created between the two of you, filled your now shared room. Softly touching your own cheeks you felt how they heated up.

“It's- wait... I gave you the bracelet 5 years ago, when it was your birthday? A-and we still didn't turn into lovers that day, did we?”, his eyes widened. You simply nodded and started chuckling, him joining not much later. Of course you could still remember the day he gave you the precious bracelet. He was being so shy back then, when he planned to give it to you. Haechan, Mark and all the other dreamies kept hyping him up, after he gave it to you.

“You know what? I really can't believe our relationship will just end soon. I really thought we would last longer. I'm sorry!” He smiled at you again, but this time it was a sad smile. You sighed, closing your eyes in agony. “It's not your fault, it never was, Renjun! After all, these moments are the most precious ones that we have. Trust me, I will love and remember you until I take my last breath!” I'll really do! Besides bringing it up first, you hated talking about his disease so much.

Not because you blamed it on him. Not because you couldn't believe, he was going to die soon, no. You hated talking about it because you feared being left behind. You hated the fact that you'll eventually forget about him. That you'll forget how he smelled, how his hands felt, how his hugs felt. And the worst thing was, that you'll forget how it felt to be loved by him. When did all your laughter turn into cries?

Day 4

"Look! It's your favourite flower!” Renjun points his finger to a small bunch of flowers in the middle of the park. You loved going to this park with him before and today wasn't any different. Softly swining your linked hands back and forth and slowly walking near your favourite flower felt like one of those cliché moments from a drama. Especially when you kneeled down to smell on it.

The heavy, but lively smell of the rose lingered in your nose, bringing up even more memories. Renjun gave you one of those exact roses, when he had confessed that he liked you. A small grin made it's way to your lips. “It looks so pretty.”, Renjun said while putting his arm around your shoulders, “Pretty like you!” You couldn't help, but roll your eyes. This was typically him. Renjun loved to compliment and tease you at the same time

You loved the moments when he was simply being himself. He was acting different. Usually he would be rather harsh, or how people liked to put it, ignorant towards other people’s feelings. But he always cared for you. You were his soft spot. It was only normal that couples had little fights from time to time, but renjun never let the two of you be angry at each other for a long time.

He always was the first one to apologize, or if it wasn’t his mistake, he would still want to make up, inviting you to do something that you liked. His classic line which always worked was weather you would want to eat some food ugh him. It was one of the many personality traits that you liked about him

“Ah! I really want to draw the pond and swan over there! It’s unbelievable pretty!” He excitedly took out his paintings tools and moved the stuff around until it stood perfectly within his reach while drawing. You just followed him and tried to not get in his way.

Tipping the smallest brush into the water glass, he started to draw the perfect scenery in front of you. He truly was talented at this. You couldn’t help but admire the way he let the colors dance on the Canva “Your drawing is so unbelievable. It really does look like it’s real”

His face lit up,once the words left your mouth “This is the last painting I”ll before I’m gone. I want it to be perfect!”he still smiled at you, but his eyes showed how he truly felt. The sadness dominating any other feels. Once again, you sighed. It has been almost 3 years, since you’ve been a couple and now you two just stood there, waiting for him to leave

Quickly noticed How your mood shifted towards a bad one, you tried to change the topic

There will be enough time for me to sad once he left

“Do you remember that this place is the first place we met and-“ “The place where I confessed my feelings for you?” He finished your sentence with a smirk. Chuckling you nodded at the statement

That day he called you and asked you to meet him at the park “ can you cell me?” was that he said, when he actually was going to confess to you. You can’t forget that day. You never will. It’s a very precious moment to you, even if he stuttered a lot and the confession felt really awkward too

“Your birthday is this week, isn’t it?” Renjun suddenly asked. You stopping your thoughts. Right, you totally forgot about your birthday. Surprised you just hummed and nodded. “What do you want for your birthday?” You didn’t need to think twice “I just want you stay alive and healthy. I wish you could always be my side” you smile confidently

That will never happen

It was obvious to renjun, but to avoid you sadder he just smile sweetly at you instead of responding “Can we go somewhere after this? Maybe the shopping mall?” You asked him. He looked at you and hugged you close to his chest “Of course!”

He would spend his time with you wisely and make sure that every precious and special moment will never be forgotten

Day 7

I can't lose him! Please!

You buried your face into his shoulder and grabbed his sweater like your own life depended on holding it. You couldn't believe he was going to die in less than a day. He couldn't... Your fragile, pathetic hope only faded more when he started coughing. In the last few days his condition extremely worsened and you tried to understand why people needed to suffer before dying so much. Isn't death enough?

“It's your birthday tomorrow, isn't it?”, he quietly asked while stroking your back.  “Yes” Your answer was barely loud enough to hear, being muffled by his neck. Still, you hugged him only tighter, afraid of finally losing him. “Y/n, I'm so sorry if I'm not able to be with you tomorrow to celebrate your birthday.” You knew what’s he meant. No, this couldn't be happening! Why were you suddenly to dumb to accept it?

“Please find a better guy than me. A guy who will make you happy, who will stay loyal to you and only loves you. Find a guy who will stay by your side forever. Don't find another guy who'll make you feel dissapointed.” You wanted to tell him, that he never disappointed you, but he already pulled you into a sweet kiss. His lips felt so soft. Soft but rough. It was like your first kiss with him. It was like your first night with him. But in reality, it was your last kiss with him. Yet you saw it as another moment that had been created in this special time.

“You know... I am never going to stop loving you!” You said and looked at him. His face was so pale, you could see the soft blue shining through it. “Me too, honey. There are 7 billion people on this earth but I fell in love with you. We have been a long journey together. Everyone can fall in love but not everyone has a happy ending with it. I'm sorry that I couldn't keep my promise, Y/n!” I know, Renjun.

The worst part for you was that it all happened so fast. But somehow you still hoped this was only a dream. That you would wake up to a healthy Renjun wishing you a happy birthday. Finally the clock was showing 12 AM. It was your birthday. Sounding just as sleepy as you felt he whispered a soft “Happy birthday, Y/n!” He stroked your hair while looking at you with loving eyes, a smile on his lips for the last time, before you both fall asleep under your shared blanket.

Not knowing, that they were his last words.

Day 8

You woke up from a deep slumber and moved your blanket. You saw that Renjun was still ‘sleeping’. Softly you shaked him to wake him up, with no sign of success. He didn't response in any way. After a few more times of you trying to wake him up and him still not moving an inch, you tried to recall which date it was today.

No, it can't be.

Yesterday was the last day you would spend with him. One week. Seven days. All moved by faster than you could remember. In your final hope you searched for his heartbeat, but you didn't hear anything. You couldn't. Now you would need to accept the fact that he was gone. Forever.

You start sobbing. "Renjun, please wake up. Please!" Despite your wobbly arms, you shook his body, screaming so uncontrollably loud that it even hurt your ears. It's my birthday. Today is supposed to be a happy day. This has to be a nightmare. I'll always be by your side. Resonating in your mind you hear a faint voice, but you just ignore it. Renjun was right. Not everyone has a happy ending. And you were certainly one of them.

I'm sorry for breaking our promise

©ɴᴄᴛᴡᴏʀsᴛsᴛᴜғғ@/ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ

[da-at-ass]

br8k

I haven't known how to talk about my life because what's happened to it is rather incomprehensible, but basically, I've managed to have a string of really exploitative friends and romantic interests throughout my life, and apparently they've all considered me an easy mark. Easy to score expensive gifts from, easy to make promises to and then let down. I'm a person who is easily confused by social engagement because I ended up forming social bonds with cats instead of humans as a child. Apparently sociopathic narcissists, or maybe narcissistic sociopaths, really love to beeline for these attributes, and really know how to pretend to be humans who I want to help. I'm always ashamed after that I could have helped someone else who actually deserved it, you know?

So when I thought my boyfriend Rune was being abused by his spouses and deprived of food and medical attention, a conclusion I reached after over a year of complaints about hunger and a growing realization that he was 'never allowed' to be alone in a room with an internet-connected device, I decided that it was time to just call the cops for a welfare check instead of driving to Reno to find out in person exactly what was up. It was March 31st, 2020, and my husband and I were realizing that Covid was already so serious that we couldn't drive from Portland to Reno and back anyway. It just wasn't gonna be feasible. We'd have to get some sign from the cops that Rune was actually in non-dire physical condition and then Rune would need to contact us on his own to arrange some sort of transport down. Maybe we could get him to friends halfway from there to here. He didn't have a car, after all, and he'd told me he didn't drive due to how many visual hallucinations he got from his road-related PTSD when he drove.

Yeah, it was all crazy. Not the conclusion that we'd come to, no. No, what was crazy was that Rune called us after the welfare check, and refused to talk to my husband when he answered the phone. Just silence. Tiff finally passed the phone to me and then I start telling Rune that everything was going to be okay and that we weren't going to give up on him as long as he wanted to get out, and that he needed to reach out on his own, because the cops were telling us that they couldn't go into the house or help him out in any way unless he requested help himself. Us sending in a welfare check meant they could just knock on the door and ask if he could come to the door. So unless Rune reached out to them or us... nothing.

Rune was silent on the phone for a bit, which was weird, as you know... he'd called us. Then he just tirades me in a preachy voice about how this was the most arrogant, presumptive thing I could have possibly done, and he sounded beside himself in outrage. I can't remember anything he said word for word, it was all too shocking and it was right after the cops had called us back and told us he hadn't come to the door, so I was already really alarmed before the call came in.

Then I tell him that I understand the signs of abuse because of stuff about being in abusive relationships Tiff had shared with both him and I. His reply? "[TIFF'S DEADNAME]? Abuse? What are you TALKING about?" in a very loud and, to be honest, performative-sounding voice.

After that the phone glitched out and called the cops again, which was probably for the best.

Tiff and I had both talked to Rune a lot about certain things to the extent that his reply was bizarre. For awhile, Tiff and I tried to understand how Rune could respond this way. And then within days he asks for "an explanation of our reasoning" like he's waiting for a homework essay. I think when you complain during every video chat I have with you for a solid year that your husbands are yet again feeding you 3 hours too late and that you've been so hungry for so long and no one's left you any food to eat and you're starting to feel afraid and abandoned, I get concerned, and I don't think that's too hard to imagine. Nah, we gotta submit an essay for this question. Well, we don't respond exactly as he wants, and then he fires us. Like, we're blocked/banned from his discord, his Patreon (where we were both reported as malicious or something), some blogs I think, and then he posts a vague breakup poem on his personal blog, and... gods, some thing about people being meddlesome do-gooders I think? IDK, by the time he was posting reactions to his blog, we were...

Thinking.

Observing.

There's only so many times I can dream about something in the same pattern until we just look up how hypnosis works, people. It's that simple. But it also was helpful to listen to back episodes of my podcast Rune had recorded with me, Circle of Salt, and hear him actually make subvocal clicks or mic pops or verbal prompts, and I would respond without thinking to exactly what his prompt was. Basically he had me on information output, just having me talk about a specific subject until I said the thing he wanted me to say, then shutting me up. We can actually see it in the sound wave patterns how fast the response is after an audio prompt.

There's text and emoji based triggers too, things to keep me updating him in text chat, things to get me to buy him something fancy when he wants. It's not very imaginative, to be honest. Largely it was set up around making sure he didn't get caught, since as we eventually figured out, Rune was hiding his relationship with me from his three husbands. He was telling me that he'd told his husbands about us dating, but it's quite obvious he was hiding some details from them, such as the fact that he'd 'proposed' to me in Second Life while they were all asleep. Well, one good way to keep your affair on the down-low is to hypnotize your fling to not blow your cover, APPARENTLY. I mean, why haven't I been talking on this blog about my relationship with Rune almost at all until after the breakup, and then, really more recently when I've been able to break some hypno stuff?

So yeah when he tells his Patreon discord server I'm a "paranoid schizophrenic"... my guess is that he doesn't want anyone believing what it is I have to say about what I've experienced from him. Well, here's where I am: I don't think he can afford a lawyer. And I don't think his magic is worth shit. And I'm not looking for a day job ever since January 2020. So I just wanna say that Rune used magic classes and seduction classes to leech money, gifts, and time away from me, and that he constantly tried to get me to buy him something when I bought myself something, and that most gifts I got from him were obviously in retrospect regifts from other sugardaddies.

Rune also told me he had sexual partners in the triple digits, he once received "magical unicorn" reiki that "cured his vampirism," that he later used said vampirism to make a pizza restaurant waiter stop showing up to work (yes same vampirism, don't expect these stories to be logical), that he knew a lady who'd had her unpublished book manuscript stolen by Donald Trump and used in a ritual to magically steal her success and then become president... oh man, do I have any more? There's so much I've never said. Oh yeah, he really enjoyed explaining feminism to women. Just really, really enjoyed it, like they'd never heard of male privilege before and he had descended from heaven to educate them.

Oh, and in late 2019 he mailed me a 1' 'statue of himself' that was basically a generic D&D mage standing with a dragon. It was a ceramic template figure you could custom paint--he said a friend of his had painted the figure to look like him. Raistlin robes and everything. He said he'd like me to put it somewhere safe in an altar setting, with some stuff to keep it company. Yeah he wanted me to set up an altar for it and worship him, basically. Well, when we called the cops, we put the statue in the basement, because we noticed how mega-weird that all was. After he posted the breakup poem on his blog, I took the figure upstairs and stuffed it into a pillowcase and slammed it against the floor. It shattered on the second swing. On the first, it left a pit in the laminate. Rune says he wants to make his mark in the world--he already has! It's the stupid dent he left in my floor.

[thotsforvillainrights]

~Perfect Birthday~

Au: Kaishi

Part: twelve

Theme: Fluff? Comedy? Who knows lol

(These 2 are going on an adventure)

"Buttercream? No that wont do. Vanilla with a touch of banana or Strawberry? Shoot! What about...hmmm...." You focused on the ingredients so hard that you were developing a light headache. Meanwhile, your husband sat across from you at the kitchen table, scrolling through his laptop for themes and present ideas. "Y/N, just settle on chocolate and call it a day." Kai announced while his eyes hovered on a Circus theme. He shuddered lightly at the thought of animals being involved. 'Absolutely not' he thought to himself. You sighed and put the ingredients list down. "I cant settle on Chocolate. I'm worried that someone might have an allergy to it. I'm also so worried about the vegan adults that might be here. What about the picky eaters too? Kai, I feel like I'm going insane right now." You gripped the sides of the chair you sat on. He peeked up at you and notices your incoming distress. He sighed and stood up to move behind you. He softly gripped each of your shoulders and began to give you an impromptu massage. "Stop worrying so much about it so much, Angel. Just do chocolate cake since its the brat's favorite flavor. We can go with a vegan cupcake option that should be safe for the people with chocolate allergies as well. As for the others, there will be other food and even beverage options. You're working so hard for people I dont even care about. This is all for my son and no one else but him. His happiness is my only concern."

You sighed and reached up to place a hand on your husband before turning to smile sweetly at him. "Kai, you're being sweet today." You teased him and he scoffed. "Anyway, I know you only want to focus on Kaishi but having other kids here for the first time, other than Ishida, is like his dream come true. It took me a lot of time to get on the parents good sides. It took a lot of time for them to want to bring other kids around Kaishi because if the yakuza affiliations. Had it not been for the fact that you've began working into charity for the city, I dont think anyone would've given us a chance. Bow we have parent friends, and now Kaishi has a chance for an amazing birthday this year. Let's not mess this up, okay? That means NO EXCESSIVE GERMAPHOBIA, and NO ANTISOCIAL BEHAVIOR okay?" You drilled it home at the end. He sighed in annoyance. "Ugh fine. I'll try to conversate with the other scum as if they never insulted the yakuza before. You had better be lucky I appreciate you and Kaishi at this point or this wouldn't be happening." Kai complained before pulling his medical mask down and kissing you lightly on your lips. "You two are being icky again. I'm going to tell Grandpa on you guys." Kaishi's voice brought you two back to reality. "Oh hush, and mind your business." Kai said as he ruffled his son's short hair playfully. Kaishi giggled and swatted the gloved hand away. He took a seat at the kitchen table next to Kai's laptop and peeked over to see what was on the screen. While you went to fix him some oatmeal, his father bolted to the seat and slapped the laptop closed. "No peeking. Havent you any manners?" Kai fussed lightly while Kaishi smiled. "Its okay daddy, I already know you two are planning my birthday for tomorrow." The boy said proudly. "That may be so, but it doesnt mean we cant at least surprise you with the decorations and food." Kai explained. You placed breakfast in front of Kaishi and sat down with your boys. Pops had just entered the kitchen at this point. "Family breakfast? Dont mind if I do." He smiled and took a seat next to you. "Grandpa, what will you give me for my birthday?" Kaishi asked excitedly. Kai flicked his cheek. "Dont be rude brat, respect your elders." He scolded him as Pops laughed. "Oh calm down, Chisaki my boy. My grandson is very calm at this age compared to how you used to act." Pops said with a smirk as you laughed and Kai blushed lightly with embarrassment. "Anyway, my Grandchild your gift will have to remain a surprise until tomorrow." Pops winked and Kaishi groaned. "Aw man. Well, mom/dad? What will you get me?" He turned to look at you in anticipation. You put a finger to your chin to think for a second. Then you snapped and made an 'Ah-Ha' expression. "I'm going to get you a fancy suit! Maybe I'll get some toys too. Just maybe, you'll have to wait and see." You teased him and he smiled. "Daddy, what about you?" He looked at Kai for an answer. "Just like Pops said, it will be a surprise. However, I'll take the time now to ask you what you want as a gift from all of us. It'll serve separately from the gifts we'll get you so dont worry." Kai watched his son expectantly as Kaishi searched his little mind. Seconds later he piped up excitedly:

"SMOOGLY!!!" He shouted happily and raised his arms dramatically in the air. You and Pops laughed while Kai tilted his head in confusion. "Smoo-what? Are you well? Are you speaking in tongues???" Kaishi giggled at his father's confusion. You turned towards Kai to explain. "Kai, Smoogly is a character from Kaishi's favorite show. He's this giant lollipop that dances and sings. Yknow, kids love that stuff." Kai stared at you for a second before nodding. Then he turned his attention back to Kaishi eating breakfast finally. "Alright then, you want Smoogly then that's what you'll get." After breakfast, Kaishi went to call Ishida on the phone. You monitored in awe, gushing as your baby talked to his little crush over the phone. The two were fast friends, and she was the first/only child in the class to accept and support Kaishi to the fullest degree. Meanwhile, Pops went to the backyard to water the flowers and feed the Koi in the pond. Kai headed out to the car to call Kurono/pick him up. "Chrono, I know I've given you the off day but I need a favor." Kai spoke on the car wireless phone while he drove. "Yeah man, what's up?" Hari answered from the other side. He was currently face deep in a 3rd bag of chips as he reclined on his sofa. "The brat's birthday is tomorrow and it's his first big one with other parents and children expected to be there. He wants some actor there to perform or something. Some thing called Smogie or Smothly or something like that."

"OHHHHH!!!! You're talking about Smoogly!" Hari shouted excitedly, his voice boomed over the car speakers. "Yeah whatever that mess is. Anyway, help me track him down and I'll give you tomorrow off to repay you from today. You can also have some leftover cake." Kai offered him. "Bet!" Kurono answered shortly before hanging up and getting ready. In moments Kai was at his door to retrieve him. The two men drove around for a bit while Kurono did some searching online. Lucky for him, it wasn't that hard to find Smoogly's booking information. "Found it, Kai. It says here that we can email and make a down payment, or call the home offices for a response in about...14 days." Kai almost slammed on the breaks. "14 days??? No that's not possible for a booking that could be denied. My Kaishi's birthday is tomorrow. We need to get this Smoogly there as soon as possible." He felt a bit of panic set in. Kai would never forgive himself if he couldn't get his son's biggest wish for his birthday. "Hey man chill. We'll just go to his office and speak to him directly. I mean, we've got a little pull when it comes to money. Also, we're yakuza so..."

"I know what you're thinking Chrono, and the answer is no. We cant push too many buttons or we'll end up leaving the gray area in which we operate in. I cant afford to get arrested on Kaishi's birthday." Hari rolled his eyes and shook his head. "Whatever man. Just take a left onto the main freeway and we should reach the exit in like 30 minutes. After that, we just follow the main road for 4 more minutes, take a right at the stop light, and turn off the Broadway drive. Smoogly's office should be right between a steak restaurant and a car dealership." Hari explained the directions. Kai nodded and the two were on their way. Once they made it to the offices, they took a number and sat in the waiting room. The wait wasnt uncomfortable to Kai...it was the old man across from them that kept coughing that made him uncomfortable. He felt hives pop up on his arms. Luckily the two were called before he went insane! Only minutes later they were standing before a chubby man smoking a cigarette behind a desk. He had dark hair, and was balding right in the middle of his head. His skin was just a step away from being super pale (no doubt because he had the costume on a lot) His noticable feature was the large mole on his cheek. He was clearly a foreigner from some city somewhere, thanks to his accent.

(!!!Reader, think about Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force!!!)

"Alright, what can I do for you two men? Wait a minute, you two are the tax guys right?"

"Uhhh, no. No we're here to inquire about an opening to hire you? The pay will of course be-"

"Yeah yeah yeah. Pay doubled blah blah. I've heard this a million times before. I get bastards like you that come in here every single day asking to pay extra just so I can come to your event. The moms are even worse since they also think they're entitled to my services." The chubby man interrupted Kai. "Please. It's my son's birthday. You see, this birthday is special because he's never had-"

"Pshhh...yeah buster, you're kid is special. Just like everyone else that's come in here before you to say the same thing. Bottom line is that I ain't doing it. If you want my services than file through email or take it up with the front desk. Deposits non-refundable if you get denied. Have a nice day." He put out the cigarette and picked up a rather inappropriate nude magazine. Kai looked at Chrono and sighed as if to say Hari can take over. Hari smiled darkly and went to approach the desk. The chubby man hadn't looked up from the magazine as he spoke. "Look man, I said piss off. What, you didnt get the picture the first time or-" he immediately froze and turned his attention to Hari when he heard the click of the gun. When he turned, he was staring down the glock.

Hari spoke up darkly. "Hey buddy, I'm a changed man but that doesn't mean shit is sweet. I've killed a dozen people before and I'm not afraid to go to prison. Either you do my nephews birthday party tomorrow, or we wear your face on a memorial T-Shirt. Fuck is it gonna be? Eh???" The man gulped and shakily reached his finger out to the voice machine on his desk. "Deborah cancel all my appointments tomorrow, I've got a birthday to go do." Hari and Kai smiled when they heard the voice reply 'Right away, sir.' They bid the man goodbye and left the office. The next day, Kaishi rushed to the backyard after taking a quick shower and getting ready. It was decorated beautifully with bounce houses, a splash area, party games, an extensive food/present table, swings, slides, etc. Most importantly, the parents actually showed up with their kids. Kaishi almost cried tears of happiness when he finally had friends to play with. Meanwhile, you and Pops chatted with the other parents until Smoogly arrived to perform. The kids absolutely loved every bit! Every once in a while, the Lollipop turned to look at Kurono standing in the corner, smirking menacingly and daring him to slip up just once. Smoogly quickly turned around and kept performing. At the end of his shift, he was paid extra just as Kai promised, and Kaishi got to take a picture with him. Finally it came time for presents. Kaishi was happy to receive so many gifts, but he was more eager to get his gifts from you, Kai, and Pops (even Hari got him a secret gift at the last minute). Kaishi smiled at the wooden box Pops had given him. When he opened it, it revealed a small pin on a soft cushion. It was shiny and brand new. It was the symbol of the Hassaikai, the infamous flower design. "My grandson, when your father was younger I had given him this very same gift. Please be sure to take good care of it." He gently placed a hand on Kaishi's head. The boy nodded excitedly and passed the box for you to hold while he opened up the remaining gifts. It was a surprise jacket from you to him. It was just a smaller version of Kai's jacket! Plus that suit you promised, and a few other Smoogly themed toys as well. From Hari, he recieved a new helmet for his new bike. Finally from Kai he received a matching mask. With the suit and the jacket, he was the matching embodiment of his very on father (aside from inheriting some of your skin tone depending on your color, my dear reader).

This was truly the perfect birthday.

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[goldenswan]

Diary #2

Sunny morning and enjoyable coffee. Today was quite relaxing. No calls to ring, no big news to be rushed to me, no person in need of training. I've received some new gifts too. The one i am the most grateful is a beautiful set of oil colors. I've played with them during the day working on beautiful sunrise. Such a productive day made have such a good mood that i started preparing for the job a bit earlier this time. The dress for tonight was a long, close-fitting, backless dress made of with a deep blue velvet. Today i hade chosen a diamond necklace as my main accessory.

The bar opened like any other evening. People came and go. Jungwoo sent me the most beautiful bouquet of flowers, again, which only meant today is friday. I wish i've could more but i can't apreciate men like him. His effort is something to be admired. But until he will be able to be more upfront with his desire for me it won't work. Come here, show yourself in front of me if you truly want me to see you as a man, do not just hide behind small gifts, like any man i've just worked with. I wish for the time you will actually be able to do it, maybe you might be able to change my heart but curently you're just one of my admirers, nothing more, nothing less.

Anyway, the day still went its own way.

From the people i chitchat with to the ones i've eavesdropped from what i learnt it seems that the new drug which showed up on the blackmarket is actually more dangerous than it looked at the first sight. It spreads like a virus, and big dossages makes people lose sense of themselves for bigger amounts of time, some actually don't recall but there have been some acts of violence because of them. The addiction grows bigger too after each usage. We need a deeper investigation. Our bussinesses might suffer but also win from it, if we play it right. We might need to get the cooking recipe from the source itself. We will need a plan.

The night passed easily this time. No callamities this time. But even if they would have appeared I have a small protector this time. It's actually a cute feeling to have someone here, but still, not healthy at all for him. He doesn't even consume alcohol but he stayed and watched me for the whole night. I do understand the loneliness he has, i had it too. Living in an orphanage will always be harsh on a young mind. I let him sleep at my place from time to time, when he wants to talk, having my couch free, but still, he has his dorm room and friends of his age now. It was cute in the past but he shouldn't always just come to me. I don't want to break him. I feel flattered by him but still that's not how he should live. He's at the age where he should hang out more with his teammates, train with them and prepare for anything that might appear, maybe it's my fault for babying him too much when he first joined. Sorry Jisung, I need to be more cold and push you for a bit. It will hurt but it has to be done, towards many people around me, i can let only one person to rely on me, even with him i have doubts. But... how many times have i already wrote this but didn't actually put it into action. I've became too soft. I wonder, how much my past self would laugh seeing me like this. I can already hear the inflexions in her voice while calling me weak. In my voice, i am still her and she is me, i need to stop from putting boundaries to myself. But... It's still sad.

In the past I proclaimed myself as a man-eater, a cold woman who would stomp on any men that would show in my way, trying to lead me, fools that have been played. Now i desire more and more to belong in the heart of somebody, to truly be loved and love him too. Who is the fool now? Maybe i played myself or maybe this was always in my heart but only now i finnaly see it and admit it.

After all, look at you, the one who in the past woudn't even give a second chance of a man to talk to her now just as easily prepares the glass of wiskey to a man even before he reaches the club, even when you know it well he might not show up, again, just to jug it yourself when you have to close.

Open relationships are strange, i loved them in the past. They were the part that build my freedom mentality, but now i feel getting myself tangled with feellings that would only boast somebody's greed and ego. Getting all the attention i want, no need to actually give it back without a price or having any responsibility on anyone's feellings, flirting easily, getting any gift i wish just by pointing to it, thrill to step on a man heart, crushing him, only to give him a drop of hope after it, feeding the hungry eyes with my love but only by my rules, having a new expensive dress each night, i was living for these in the past. Now? I'm not sure anymore if this lifestyle.

Maybe i got old or got out of shape that i don't enjoy it as before, the wiskey glasses seems too get more sweeter too each time i drink another one of his, or maybe it's cause i use his glass, a small indirect kiss. How funny, only a teen would feel so naive at heart to dream like that, but this is my first time actually experiencing, ironic. Each piece of ice melts one day, maybe yours too will happen at the right time with the right person.

Ah, the right time, when I close my eyes and just let the memomries play again and again in my head. Him coming to the bar. The hard day being seen in his tired eyes, making me want to hug him and take all that heaviness away. His hand going up to loose his tie while he takes the glass that was already waiting him with the other free hand. A small smirk taking shape on his face because of me reading his mind.

I liked that. Just to stare at him while the low soothing music plays in the background. The dim lights kinda painting his features, sculpting his face and becoming a breathtaking piece of art to my eyes. Everything dragging me closer to him, being tempted by his tainting eyes and small sparkles within them, just like losing track of the time by simply staring at the night sky, dark, silent, mysterious. I always wondered what new sercrets took place again in his heart. Making his eyes getting darker and darker each time i see him. I fear that light that keeps fading might really dissapear some day, or worse, i will just let myself be eaten by it, his own darkness, together with him, getting myself covered in his own black. Romantic but tragic too. Tempting myself to just forget and lose myself in him. I can still picture it right. My attention would fall easily on his hands. Taking his coat off, raising his shirt sleeves up. Seeing his beautiful neck and adam's apple dance each time he would take a gulp from the wiskey. A small sound leaving his beautifull lips, together with a deep breath exhaled, relieving any tension from his body. His eyes locking on mine while his hand is traveling easily through his hair. I take my time, letting myself be mesmerized by each part. Soon my eyes travel again to his hands, each small detail that is elegantly decorating them, each vein pulsating from his blood rushing, how many stories can he write on me with those.

My own hands wish they would be his while i caress myself, letting my imagination run wild. Traveling and hugging each side of my body. Wishing to melt again in his touch. Feeling a rougher grasp but also gentlier feather like glide. Hearing his growls playing sweetly in my ears while i feel each part of him tensing stronger and stronger, his chest rising and lowering in the same rythm with mine, never allowing to catch my breath, selfishly drowing each of my moan i wish to let out with his mouth. The highs and lows i fell fought until we got closer and closer, relivieng with eachother climax and getting deeper into our desire with each new session. Open towards each raw fantasy we had. Embracing each shade of color we would have had it hidden. I might have learned how to work my body the best way but it's been too long not to crave for his way of loving me. His kisses and moans, the passion and hunger that he is able to pour into me, making me forget about any other woman that shared his bed in his travels. Making me forget about any man that took out a bit of my loneliness while he was away. I crave you, i need to see you showing up late at night, to enjoy eachother's silence while we get through our work and simply sharing in each other eyes the desire that only this walls will know it after i close. To scream your name and hear you calling mine. Doyoung, i swear i hate myself for it, but after so long away, i cannot lie, i do miss you.

All of this, because of her. She changed a bit of me, she made me see the beauty of such love, whishing to have it my own, to feel through my whole, she changed all of us, and her accident even more after it. I still have sour taste in my mouth looking back at it.

The only thing i could actually do was to show my support, which i am faithfully still doing it for you, my beloved brother. Even though i know you've strayed away from the man you wanted to be. I know you are aware of it. I know you won't allow me or anyone to get you out of this hell. You only wish to be watched. You wish for everyone to see and experience the purifying fire you want to unleash. Taeyong, you might have supporters on this dream, but, why i feel this is only a mission fueled by the guilt and resentment, a guilt you should actually share it with us, so we can all grieve fully, so you can heal. Cause while i look to the story that you plan i only see an ugly ending. I know i should let you do it, but you leaving me, is a selfish thought that i would never want to happen. I will support you, but i will also be sure somebody will stop you. You need a wake up call. Has the promise you made for your grandfather been forgotten.

I need to go back to church, i can only pray for you. Pray for you that for each night you visit my place and let out all your cries of guilt and desperation burried deep indside it will be enough to just be with you. Going together through this, trying to lift a bit of your heavy cross, even if it will mean making mine push me harder to ground.

I need time, time to find the right solution to make you keep going until a new light will show at your end of tunnel. Please don't leave me so soon my dear brother. I love you too much to see you turning away. Hope my own cry will be heard one time by somebody and hope you will truly understand that what i will do, it will be for your own good. Until then, i will need to keep working and become stronger, for the two of us. I will bring it back that life, we will be like the old times, when we were together, playing family. I will keep you strong. This time i won't allow myself to be weak, to anyone, not even to the ones i love.

[punkscowardschampions]

Edie & Billie

Edie: do you have any $$$ Billie: some Billie: I mean enough for rounds of 🍻🎱 at the going rate not a proper adventure Billie: take it though Edie: more than I got Billie: cos you spend yours 💸💸 Edie: clever Edie: you take economics? Edie: that's what it's for, ain't it Billie: ha! could build a tower out of my euros if you left 'em where they've been hid sometimes Edie: more impressive than a 🃏 one Edie: she'll be so proud, like Edie: where are you, I'll come get it Billie: or you can find my savings in the usual place & leave me carrying enough to get home, like Edie: Bear it in mind if I get desperate desperate Edie: not worth the time or ninja routine when I get there when there's easier ways in town Billie: pickpocketing ain't as easy as 📺📽🎞💻's made it look, you know Edie: only if you're as clunky as 📺📽🎞💻's made it look Edie: 👵 pushing 👜👝 snatching bullshit Billie: fair Billie: I got all my boys 🛹 with me if you need an easy mark Billie: 👶🍭 bs Edie: easy marks are mams with 👶🍭 Edie: or the nice 👵 Edie: sell 'em a sob story about how you need that fiver for the bus to pick up your own brat, or get to an interview, or whatever endearing shit you can come up with Billie: yeah but they need the cash to feed & water their 🌱 or save to be put into the ground Billie: gotta have a 💚 dude Edie: I'm not Ri, not trying to be rich Edie: I only need what I need Billie: come find me then Billie: fallen hard for that sob story, ain't I? Edie: maybe Billie: [her location] Edie: got to move fast to get me Billie: 🛹⚡️☄️ Edie: other offers other opportunities are always just around the corner Billie: you sure you're not Ri? Billie: sounded like something that'd come outta her 👄 Edie: she'd do better, I suppose Edie: but I get by just fine Edie: and she probably reckons she's too good for it, not endearing that Billie: likewise, I'm out here getting by better than most Billie: she can keep her reckoning Billie: dark days & hard times being the oldest Edie: you're the only one that reminds her of her, what could be better Edie: no higher XP Billie: 🤣 Edie: I mean it though Edie: Ri's got the looks, Junior's got the smarts, but pales in comparison to that dead beloved clout Billie: I respect it but I didn't ask for it Edie: who did Edie: all you can do is play the hand you're dealt Billie: it ain't my hand if I didn't get to see any of the cards Billie: I'm glad she's got reminders, but over here there ain't none Edie: don't change the hand if you see it Billie: can't bluff & won't though, she's the only mam I got & yeah, probably she raised me cos she couldn't the other from the dead but she 💚 me for me Billie: & my skills 🧰 🔧 🔩⚙️🔨 Edie: and you're more like her than any of us Edie: which is weird, you can account for Ri's looks from Caleb but I'd hardly assume him to be smart Edie: hidden depths Billie: he got his genius from her, same as how Ri got a share of her looks, those are the facts Edie: as far as we're told anyway Billie: far as we know and see she's a 🤓 & always been it Edie: doesn't mean he can't be Edie: or isn't intriguing Billie: you didn't get your 🎵 skills from anywhere else either Edie: might go investigate Billie: doubt it'll be intriguing Billie: more like disappointing Edie: hardly Edie: he's got what I need at any rate Billie: what you need ain't knowledge is why Billie: & everybody's street smart unless they're rich, no unique skill Edie: as deep as it cuts that you don't think I'm unique Billie: who is, dude? Billie: you've already laid out who gets what from where like we're 🧩 Edie: simple 🧬 Edie: no point fighting it Billie: yeah, he's in my code, don't need to put him in my life Edie: I'm going to see Uncle Caleb, not dad Edie: all the day trips and gifts we've missed out on over the years Billie: what's the difference? it's only the way they look that don't have them mistaken for the same dude Edie: that's what I want to find out Edie: she only went back to one years later, for comfort Edie: there's something Billie: he was the one who was around to use her 💔 Edie: they're always both around Edie: and not Billie: he didn't have a way to get his foot in the door, unless he was gonna bother to act like he wanted to see us for the 1st time ever Edie: we live in his childhood home, for fuck's sake, and that has nothing to do with him Edie: I don't buy it Billie: it's hers now & that's everything to do with him, cos he fucked up too many times for his own granddad to be down with Edie: no wonder his mum was and still is pissed Edie: Ri gets that from her, she'll be in many old dude's wills Billie: his mam feeds on it, that'll keep her outliving all the old uns & feeling special for it Edie: yeah she's a miserable cunt but you would be too if some girl got knocked up at 16 by your son and then stole a huge chunk of your inheritance not long after Billie: probably don't help that she reckons god'll sort her shit out for her Edie: love it if mother got struck down ⚡️ Billie: it does look cool as fuck, she could be walking art Billie: but you can't rely on a lad to do anything, don't matter who his da is Edie: can my lad Billie: [a little video of her doing exaggerated gagging like she's being sick] Billie: he going with you? Edie: how artsy of you Edie: yeah, of course Billie: so you don't want me to come? Billie: sounded like you were trying to sell it for a while there, like Edie: you're as welcome as you ever have been Billie: with your lad that's proper unwelcome Edie: he's only interested in me Billie: replay the 📽 🎞 of me 🤮 Edie: immature or jealous, take your pick Billie: take a better pick of the local talent & maybe I'd be bothered Billie: til then, nah Edie: he's perfect Billie: 👌 Edie: you wouldn't understand Billie: I don't understand why you waste your time with him, nah Billie: but it ain't for me to Edie: there's no waste in it Edie: he listens to everything I say and doesn't dismiss any of it, and he looks at me like I'm perfect, he wants to be with me constantly Billie: it's the constant I've got my issue with, but you do you Edie: it's the furthest thing from an issue Billie: like I said, it would be one for me Edie: immature 👌 got it Billie: nah, bro I've got shit to do, that's it Billie: too busy for all that Edie: I still manage to do shit though 🎶💽🎛🎙📹🕹🧩🎬 Edie: so not really a point that Billie: cos you got that ADHD mind from your mam Billie: not me Edie: where's her man @ Billie: she ain't want none of that 💚 mess at this stage Billie: I relate Edie: 🙄 Edie: I told you that ages ⬆️⬆️⬆️ Billie: if I find a lad around that I wanna chill & neck with I'll rethink this 👽 mindset I'm in, like Edie: 🙏 for you when I have a sec, sure Billie: Carly got played by half this town & Drew played the other half, I ain't trying to be like either Billie: let me take my time, damn Edie: what you do with your dick is no worry of mine Billie: you just wanna pass judgement on why you think I'm not using it 👌 got it Billie: immature or hopeless in 💚 with your boyf Edie: you're the one out here being judgy Edie: I'm even giving Caleb a chance Billie: I offered to come with Edie: yeah right Billie: ⬆️⬆️ Edie: yeah right like you wouldn't totally blow it Billie: based on what? Edie: based on how hard you treat her word as gospel Billie: what's true is true Billie: you want him to sugar it for you Edie: buying sugar, I just wanna talk to him Billie: & you don't want me there for when you find out mam ain't full of shit Billie: that's about you, not me Edie: you reckon that all you wanna Billie: & you reckon I'd blow it all you wanna Edie: It's irrelevant either way Edie: got the $$$ don't need you Billie: ✌

[lovemesomesurveys]

What's the longest you've spent on this website in 1 day?: I’m on Tumblr off and on all day for hours sometimes. It varies cause it depends Joe how long it takes me to go though my dash and catch up. Plus, I do these surveys and that takes up time cause I often take several a day.

New followers— Hi and welcome, thank you for following! I just want to say my blog is usually more organized, I’m very particular about the survey format, and I usually do post several surveys a day, but for the past month or so now I haven’t been able to due to being in the hospital. I’m doing these on my phone and it takes me longer and I just don’t feel up to doing too much right now. Plus, I can’t do much about the formatting on here either. Anyway, just wanted to throw that out there lol. Hope you stick around!

Could you climb the monkey bars now like you did as a kid?: I couldn’t then or now.

Have you ever dyed your eyebrows to match your hair? : No.

Last sentence you said out loud.: I don’t remember, that was over a month ago.

What's your favorite shower/bath product?: My body soap.

When was the last time you looked out of a window?: I can right now I have a big window in this room.

Do you have carpent in your place of residence? : Carpet? Yeah, the bedrooms do.

What's your shoe size?: 6.

What kind of toothpaste do you use?: Sensodyne.

Do you watch game shows?: Yeah, mainly Family Feud and Weakest Link. A few others sometimes as well.

How many stitches have you had in your lifetime? : Numerous.

Have you suffered from depression? : Yes, I do. Presently. Ongoing.

Do you like rap music? What's a song you enjoy from the genre? : Yeah.

Do you have a favorite day of the week? : They’re all really the same for me, especially now.

How much money do you regularly spend on groceries? : Our grocery trips get pretty pricey.

Who did you last have a phone conversation with?: My mom.

Are you currently wearing any accessories? : No.

What was the last gift you received? : My mom got me a journal that has prompts and other stuff to do to give me something else to do.

Are you wearing anything green?: No.

Has anyone ever pinched you for not wearing green on St. Patrick's Day? : Playfully, yeah. Not hard or anything. If they did they’d be getting pinched right back and hard, too. lmao.

What did you last eat?: Feeding tube food. As for actual food, it was a cookie and some chips.

What does your last text say?: It was from my mom asking how I’m doing today.

Are there any bands you wish would get back together?: I miss Chester Bennington and Linkin Park and I’m sad I never got to see them in concert.

What are your favorite fast food restaurants? : Taco Bell, Jack in the Box, Carl’s Jr, and Chick-Fil-A.

How about least favorite?: Wendy’s and Burger King.

What kind of cereal did you have last?: I don’t remember.

Would you rather, on a dare, eat an insect or kiss a stranger?: I’d like to do neither.

What's the last thing that made you feel sad?: Being here, my health, my life, being in pain…

Would you ever become a truck driver?: No.

Do you like spaghetti sauce or just butter and cheese over noodles? : Both are good, actually.

What do you think animals dream about?: Playing, food, and I’d like to think my doggo dreams about my fam and I ☺️

Have you ever forgotten to blow out a candle before bed?: No. I also don’t light candles, sooo. I’m a scaredy-cat.

What's your favorite thing to purchase at thrift shops?: I don’t go to any.

What type of novels do you enjoy reading?: Murder mystery and psychological thrillers.

Do you like chocolate milk?: I like chocolate Yoo-Hoo.

Would you ever get your nose pierced?: I sometimes think a little one would be cute, but nah.

Do you know anyone named Shirley? : No.

Do you know what day of the week you were born?: A Friday, I think.

When did you last take a shower/bath?: An actual one was over a month ago. I get cleaned up daily here, though. An actual shower sounds nice.

How many chairs are currently sat at your dinner table? (if you have one): We don’t.

How many windows are in your place of residence? : Three.

Are you currently in pain?: Yes. 😣

What was the last song you listened to?: Bring Me To Life.

How is your day so far?: Mehhh. I’ve been having more pain today.

Tell me about a good day you've had here recently. (:: It’s been a long time…

What's the last 3 emojis you've used?: 😣☺️🙃

Does you name begin with an L, A, U, or C?: Nope.

Have you ever accidentally sent a text to a person you were talking about?: Noo, omg.

Are you any good at sports?: Nope. I have no interest in them either.

[cleareggmoneyzine]

GREETINGS, TO THESE AUTHOR SCROLLS = AUTHORITY SCROLLS. SATIN HAIRITAGE = SATAN PEOPLE HAIRITAGE USE SOMEPEOPLE = ZOMBIE BULL POLICE AND MILITARY TO FORCE PEOPLE STICK EM UP AT GUN POINT BEING A ROBBERY INTO PARTICIPATING IN THE FAKE PROPOSTEROUS IMITATION ROLEPLAYINGS IN SOCIETIES. ONE OF THE MANY REASONS WHY PERSONALITIES ARE VERY DISTRACTED IN THEIR PHYSICAL BRAIN DREAM STATE WHICH THIS PHYSICAL EXPERIENCE AND YES, WE ARE DREAMING FOR WE ARE NOT AWAKE YET AND WHEN GOING TO SOME BADIE, SOME BATIE'S WAKE, THAT IS WHAT IT'S TERMED OK, BEFORE THEY ARE LAID IN THE GROUND FOR THEY ARE AWAKE OUT OF THIS PHYSICAL BRAIN DREAM STATE THEN WE MUST BE STILL SLEEPING AND DREAMING IN OUR OUR PHYSICAL BRAINS AND YES THIS LIFE IS NOT TRUE FOR IT'S AN UNREALITY AND IS THE ABODE OF ZOMBIE PUL HOOD ( SOMEPEOPLE HOOD ) AND VAM HOOD = VAMILY HOOD = VAM = EAT THE FLESH AND BLOOD OF ANIMALS AND,, OR HUMANS AND FAM LY = LEE IS DAIRY LEE IS COW AND GOATS MILK, CHEESE, COTTAGE CHEESE, YOGURT, CREAM CHEESE, ICE CREAM ETC, FEATURING DEAD AND HIS WIF = ( DAD AND HIS WIFE ) THE NEBEA KING HEIRS PEOPLE = THE NAPPY KINKY HAIRS PEOPLE BEING AFRO PEOPLE AND SATAN ARE GRASS ROOT HAIRS PEOPLE ARE EUROPEAN, ORIENTALS, ASIANS, HINDUS, AMERICAN INDIANS. THE ANCIENT EGYPTIAN MUMMY RAISIN AND PRUNING THE CHILDREN BY FEEDING THEM ON THE HOLLOWEEN = ( HOLLOWEEN IS ANIMAL'S FLESH AND BLOOD AND MUMMIFIED PRESERVATIONS THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE DON'T EVEN REALIZE THE FACT OF WHAT IS BEING ELABORATED ON IN THESE WRITINGS IS BECAUSE, OF THEIR ERATIC SOCIALIZATIONS = ( SOC CIAL LIZ ZAY TION = SOC = SOS IS NEEDING A HELP MATE ) = ( CIAL = SEE ALL IS THE NEEDING OF TO BE SEEN IN AN ENVIRONENT OR GATHERING CONSISTISTING OF MANY PEOPLE, SUCH AS, CLUBS, BARS, PARTIES, RELIGIOUS CONGREGATIONS ETC IN ORDER TO FIND A DATE = DATE = DIEt.) SOCIAL LIES = ( LIES AND AT THESE GET TOGETHERS WHILE SOCIALIZING PEOPLE, THUS, CONVERSATING MAKING UP THINGS TO TALK ABOUT AT THE SPUR OF THE MOMENT, WHILE MAKING UP LIES AS THEY GO ALONG. ) SOCIALI SATION = SAY SHUN IS THAT IS HOW PEOPLE GET THEMSELVES INTO A LOT OF TROUBLE OF BRINGING A MAJOR DISTRACTION IN THEIR LIVES BY AQIRIEING THEIR PLAYMATES IS VERY UNWISE WHICH SHOULD BE SHUNNED AND DISCONTINUED. SOCIALIZING ANYWAY IS THE RUNNING GAME TO CONVINCE EACH OTHER INTO SUDUCTION BY GAMING, LYING, THUS, TRICKING EACH OTHER TO FALL, NOT GO UP, BUT TO FALL FOR ONE ANOTHER'S RHETORIC. LET'S ELABORATE ON WHY PEOPLE GO TO CHURCH ON SUNDAYS? THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS THAT CHURCH MEAN = ( CHURCH = CHURCHA = VAGINA ) ( CHURCH = CHARGE + AS IN ELECTRIC POWER CHARGE AND REMEMBER THE PLUS + AND + ADDITION SYMBOL AND IS NOT TERMED AS A CROSS + WHICH WILL BE ELABORATED ON LATER IN THIS SCROLL ). CHURCH = ( CHURCH ALSO, MEAN JUDGE JUST NOTICE HOW ROLEPLAYING CHARACTERS OF IMPERSONATIONS ACTING AS THE JUDGE SPELLED WRONG, RIGHTLY SPELLED CHURCH, NOTICE THAT THE ROBE BEING WORN IS A MINISTER,REVEREND, ISLAMIC AND GRADUATION GOWN ROBE. CHARGE = ( CHURCH MEANING ALSO, CHARGE AS IN HAVING A CHARGE AGAINST A PERSON FOR BEING IN SOME KIND OF VIOLATION, THUS, BRINGING CHARGES AGAINST A PERSON. IN THIS CASE CHURCHES = ( CHARGES ) HAS BEEN BROUGHT AGAINST COUPLES FOR THEIR RYTHM HYMS AND CONSTANT CHURCHS = ( JERKS ).

HENCE, TO CONTINUE READING THIS SCROLL IS FOR THOSE WANTING TO COME TO THE REALIZATION OF A REALITY PERCEPTION AND NOT THE PLAY ACTING GRIM FRAUDULENT FANTASY CHARACTER AND IMPERSONATION ROLE PLAYS IN SOCIETY YOU'VE GOTTEN USE TO. PEOPLE GO TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY = ( CHURCH = CHURCHA = VAGINA HAS A CREASE AND WHEN THE CLIMAXINGS IS BECAUSE, OF SONDAY NOT ICE CREAM, BUT RATHER, WARM CREAM CHEESE MILK SHAKES, BANANA SPLITS AND NOT ICE BUT, WARM CREAM ( S ) PARMALOT MILK BARS AND THIS IS THE BEGINNING SEGMENTS OF YOUR CHEESES CRIES, THUS, WITH YOUR CLIMAXINGS. CHURCH = JUDGE = CHARGE = ( A CHARGE WAS BROUGHT AGAINST ALL AND ANY PAIRED COUPLES ESPECIALLY WHEN PAIRS RENTING AND PAIRS RENTED HAVE VIOLATION OF PARTAKING OF YOUR FORBIDDEN FRUITS IN YOUR PUBIC ARROW MILK CARTONS = GARDENS OF EDEN WHEN YOU WERE TOLD BY GUARD = YOUR INNER GUARDIAN ANGELS THROUGH YOUR LITTLE CONSCIOUS WHISPER VOICE TELLEING YOU NOT TO GO NEAR THOSE GENITAL FRUITS IN YOUR PUBIC MILK GARDENS OF EATHE AND DO NOT DO THE HANKY PANKY AND THE HOE KEY POKEY. A CHURCH = CHARGE WAS BROUGHT AGAINST ALL PAIRED COUPLES WHEN THE EGGS FALLING OUT OF THE OVERIES BECAME FERTILIZED AND THAT CHARGE IS SPECIFIED IN GENESIS CHAPTER 3 VERSE 3 PERTAINING TO YOUR GARDENS OF EATHEN IS REFERRING TO YOU'S ALL MEN AND WOMEN IN THIS CHAPTER AND NOT ANY FICTICIOUS ADAM AND EVE CHARACTERS BECAUSE, YOU PEOPLE OF ANY PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE ARE THE ( ATOM AND EATHE ) COUPLES = ( MEANING BOTH MALE AND FEMALE PARTIES HAD AN INNER ATOMIC LIGHT THAT BLEW OUT INTO THE EATHE OF THE SPIRITUAL DARKNESS FOR YOUR VIOLATION OF PARTAKING OF YOUR FORBIDDEN FRUITS GENITILIA. CHURCH = ( CHURCH = JUDGE AS BECAUSE, OF YOUR VIOLATIONS IN YOUR EATH = D EATH GARDENS REALLY MILK CARTONS YOUR ANGELIC CHURCHES YOU TERM JUDGES, YOUR ANGELIC CHURCHES GAVE YOU ALL PAIRED COUPLES WHO FELL INTO YOUR GENESIS CHAPTER GARDEN OF EATH VIOLATIONS, THE ANGELS SHOT YOU ALL IN YOUR HEARTS WITH THE PUBIC, NOT CUPID ARROW BUT, A PUBIC ARROW, IN WHICH, BEING YOUR UPSIDE DOWN PUBIC HAIRS PATCH REPRESENTS THE ARROW TIP OF PUBIC ARROW WHICH THE TIP OF YOUR TRIAGULAR PUBIC ARROW HAIRS PATCH POINING STRAIGHT AT THE GENITALS. CHURCH = ( CHURCH + MEAN ELECTRIC CHARGE. THE ANGELS SAYING THAT ON THE ACCOUNT OF THE VIOLATION OF YOUR GARDEN OF D EATHE PRINCIPLE YOU COUPLES HAVE BEEN CHURCHED = JUDGED FOR YOUR ELECTRIC + CHARCH PRINCIPLE BEING YOUR HOLY GOSPELS = ( HOLEY GASPELLS = HOLEY ORGAN GAS SIM SPELLS ) OF CHEESES CRIES = WOMEN AND OUR LORD = MEN ALL OF US QIZIRE'S SAVIORS. WOMEN ART HOLEY HAVING 3 HOLES, 2 BELOW THEIR WAIST AND 1 IN THEIR FACES. CHURCH = CHARGE ( YOUR ELECTRIC + HOLY ORGAN GAS SIM SPELLS CONSTITUTES NEW ELECTS + BY ADDING ADDITIONS + TO YOUR HOUSEHOLDS. THE NEW SPIRIT SON QIZMS TERMED THE HOLEY GHOSTS = + KIDS = ADDITIONS ADDED TO YOUR HOUSEHOLDS ARE THE ANGELS ELECT PULLED OUT OF THE CLOUD 9 EATH SPIRIT GASES, THUS, GIVING YOUR CHILDREN YOUR CHEESES CRIES AND THE LORD'S ONLY BEGOTTEN SPIRIT SON LIGHTS +, WHICH IS, YOUR INNER SPIRIT QIZMS YOU ONCE WERE, THUS, THE ANGLES THEN ELEC TED = THE CHILDREN ELECT FROM THE DEAD THEY ONCE WERE FOR NO MORE ARE THEY, PARENTS TOOKING THEIR PLACE + THE CHILDREN IN ADDITION + TO THEM RECEIVING THE GIFT OF SON + AND DAY LIGHT OF INNER SPIRIT QIZM IS ELECTRIC + BECAME ABOUT FROM YOUR ELECTRIC CHARGES = CHURCHES + = LORD IN CHURCHAS THEN CAME FORTH THE NEW PORN CHILDREN BABIES RECEIVING THIER SON DAY LIGHT QIZMS, THEIR CREASE MASS SON DAY STAR LIGHT QIZM = QIZMIZ PRESENTS, PALMS SON DAY BEING DELIVERED BY THE PALM OF THE HANDS RECEIVING PAIRENTS SON DAY LIGHTS, QIZA = QIZIRE SON DAY, MASS SON DAY IS WHEN BABIES INHERITING TGEIR SON DAY LIGHTS AND CLEANSED IN THE HOLEY BLOOD ALL OVER THEM AND PLACENTA BLOOD MASS DISCARDED OF CHEESES CRIES WHICH IS EVERY BABY STRAIGHT FROM THE CHURCH = CHURCHA = CHOCHA ON ALL OUR BIRTHDAYS = BATH SON DAYS. CHURCH =JUDGE ANGELIC BEAM, GIVE ELECTRIC CHARGE + TO ELECTS AS ADDITIONS,+ GIVE THE CHILFREN ELECTRIC CHARGE STAR SON LIGHTS + QIZM SON DAY RAY LIGHT ) NOW, RELATE THROUGH YOUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE CHURCHA SERVICES = SERVE

VICES = SEX IS THE REASON WHY PEOPLE GO TO CHURCH ON SON DAY IS THE RECEIVING OF MANY AFRO CHILDREN CUMMING OUT OF YOUR HOLEY CHURCHAS ARE THOSE AFRO CHILDREN AND BABIES ARE YOU ALLS AFRO MEN AND WOMENS AFRO SPIRITS CUMMING OUT OF THE HOLEY CHURCHA = CHOCHA THEN. WHEN THE CHILDREN ARE GIVEN YOUR INNER SON LIGHTS THEN YOU THE BOTH PAIRS RENTED ARE TEMPORARILY WITHOUT ANY INNER SPIRIT SON LIGHTS BECAUSE, THE ANGELS GAVE YOUR SPIRIT LIGHTS TO YOUR CHILDREN YOU'S THEN DYE SPIRITUALLY ON THE GROSS AS CHEESES CRIES = ( WOMEN WHEN CLIMAXING ) AND THE LORD = ( MEN HAVING LO ROD L WHEN STANDING UP CLIMAXING ) BEING THE SAVIORS TO THE PAST WORLD OF AFRO ADULTS WHO HAD DYED SPIRITUALLY, TAKEN UP INTO CLOUD 9 SPIRIT EATH GASES TO BE GIVEN AN EATH SNEAK BACK AROUND AND THEN ALWAYS BEING SAVED THROUGH REBIRTH AS THOSE VERY CHILDREN IN YOUR HOUSEHOLDS IS HOW YOU'S HAVE BEEN SAVED BY YOUR PARENTS YOU'S HAVING TO BE SAVED A + GAIN HAVING TO GO THROUGH THE CLOUD 9 D EATH SNEAK BACK AROUND A + GAIN, IS BASICALLY THE REASON IS THAT WHY PEOPLE GO TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!! IS TO SAVE THE AFRO PEOPLE OF THE PAST WHO PASTED AWAY AS ADULTS A + GAIN ARE THOSE AFRO CHILDREN IN YOUR HOUSEHOLDS. WE ALL SAY THANK QIZIZ MAKER OF THE ANGELS ARE STATIONED IN THE CONSCIOUS MENTAL, EMOTIONAL SPIRITUAL PLANE. THANKING MULTI RAY QIZIZ QALAHA AND HIS ANGELIC BEAM QIZIRS FOR THE LORD IN CHEESES WHO BEING OUR MOTHERS AND FATHERS WHO'S DYING ON A GROSS = ( GROTESQUE ) FOR US OUR AFRO PAIRS RENTED = PARENT'S ) LOVE FOR ONE ANOTHER AS HASBIN AND WIF AND THANKING CHEESES CRIES OUR SAVIORS IS OUR MUMMIES FOR THE PAINS SUFFERINGS IN CHILD LABOR AND SHEDDING OF BLOOD THAT WASHED AWAY PAST LIFE SINS = SENSATIONS = ( PAINS OF SUFFERINGS IS CHILD LABORS AND DELIVERIES ) ( THE SHEDDING OF THE BLOOD ON THE LAMP SON LIGHTS AFRO CHILDREN YOU MISINTERPET AS THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB. WE AFRO PEOPLE NOW, BEING QIZM QIZIRE HAVING OUR OWN INDIVIDUAL SUNLIGHTS CONCEALED WITHIN IS NOT JUST THE SPIRIT BUT MENTAL AND OF BEING THE TRUE INDIVIDUAL'S AND SPIRITUAL IDENTITIES ) ARE THE BLED SINGS OF CHEESES CRIES FROM HER LORD MATE AND LOVER SO THAT WE INHERITED ETERNAL SON STAR SPIRIT LIGHTS, WHICH IS, REALLY OUR SPIRITUAL STAR SHIPS IN ORDER TO TRAVEL THROUGH HIS QIZIZ QOLORQIZIZ QIZIR QIZIREZ INTERGALACTIC UNIVERSAL NEBULAE STAR QIZM BOUNDLESS GALAXIES! ALL MULTI RAY QOLORQA QIZIZ MAKER OF ALL ENERGIES THROUGHOUT ALL OF HIS BOUNDLESS QIZMIZ Ohmz UNIVERSAL NEBULA NEBULAE INTERGALACTIC STAR SON GALAXIES. THANKING MULTIPLE RAYS QALLAHQICTIC QIZIZ FOR THE LORD IN CHEESES CRIES, HER CHEESES CRIES NINE MONTHS TOMB MORROW INCUBATION FOR FETUS DEVELOPMENT, OUR RAY BATH HAVING HER CHEESES CRIES BLOOD WASH AWAY ALL PAST LIFE INIQUITIES OF THE FIVE PHYSICAL SENSES, FOR OUR CREASE MASS SONDAYS, FOR OUR PALM SON DAYS BABIES BEING DELIVERED BY THE PALMS, QIZIRE SON DAYS OF THE RECEIVING ANOTHER SON LIGHT STAR SHIP. ALSO, THE SUFFERINGS OF HER HER CHEESES CRIES LABOR PAINS AND THE SHEDDING OF BLOOD ON CLEANSING THE BABIES AND FOR CHEESES CRIES AND THE LORD TO DYE TEMPORARY SPIRITUALLY SO THAT WE WILL HAVE ETERNAL SON STAR LIGHT QIZMZ. AMEN FOR ALL THE WOMEN TO KEEP YOUR QIZIZ CELLULAR BEAN SEED RAYPORN PROCESS THAT AFRO ADULTS WHO HAS PASSED AWAY WILL GET MANY MORE CHANCES FOR THEIR SPIRIT SON STAR LIGHT IDENTITIES GIVEN AWAY THOUGH THEIR PUBIC ARROW LOVE AFFAIRS MAY REGAIN THEIR STAR LIGHTS BACK.

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text: charlie ⇄ raquel

Charlie: i don't know how this happened but

Charlie: Mrs. Harrison gave me a whole cake as a goodbye gift. i don't know how she knows i'm moving out but i have a cake in my kitchen right now

Raquel: lmao Mrs. Harrison is your neighborhood watch. She sees everything and knows everything.

Raquel: are you telling me you're going to end up eating an entire cake?

Charlie: yeah, she's like a second mom. sort of.

Charlie: no, do you want some?

Raquel: awww that just means she's going to miss her baby and is probably hating me for taking me away from her.

Raquel: wait.

Raquel: I just realized.

Raquel: does that mean it's a full yes to moving?

Raquel: maybe like the tiniest piece. Like a spoonful of it. Just in case she asks me if I had some. I wouldn't want to lie to your second mom and say I did when I didn't.

Charlie: i don't know, she's glad i settled down for only one girl instead of many

Charlie: yes, why not? the week wasn't that bad, even if we didn't get to spend a lot of time together. i don't see why wouldn't i move with you?

Charlie: you're getting a full slice, babe. it's not like it's going to hurt you

Raquel: well I might be glad that you settled for one girl too.

Raquel: I don't know you could have changed your mind.

Raquel: Charles. Why are you always trying to feed me? Stuffing me so that it's harder for me to run away should not be a plan since I'm not going anywhere.

Charlie: me too. i'm really happy i did

Charlie: but i didn't.

Charlie: okay, not a full slice. she won't be disappointed anyways.

Charlie: but i know you'd love this chocolate cake, that's why i was offering it

Raquel: Well good because I want to keep making you happy.

Raquel: I just wasn't sure because I hadn't checked in with you. I just thought that maybe you would wait until the official end of the week to tell me.

Raquel: okay okay I'll have a full slice. Thanks for thinking of me baby.

Charlie: i don't think i'll change my mind. something has to go really wrong to make me change my mind

Charlie: you're welcome. you love me. i do love you too

Raquel: Right. Really wrong. I don't see that happening. I've been on my best behavior.

Raquel: I know you do, but I'm going to show you without always feeding you. Well mostly because I don't think you'd like me cooking all that much.

Charlie: yeah, we've been behaving well lately.

Charlie: why wouldn't i?

Charlie: i miss you, babe, when will you have time for us?

Raquel: we have been but I think most of that is because I haven't really been around much.

Raquel: well mostly because I'm not a world class chef and cooking might be the one thing I'm not great at.

Raquel: Baby I miss you too. Whenever you want. I just didn't want you to feel like I was crowding your space and I was being paranoid and maybe overthinking things but I just don't want to mess this up and overwhelm you so I gave you space but I didn't mean to psh you away or make you miss me.

Charlie: bless my cooking skills, even if they're just decent.

Charlie: hey hey, i get you. you didn't want to overwhelm me even if that wouldn't probably happen. you won't screw this up by being around me, trust me. it would be pretty much the same thing it was when we weren't living together

Charlie: but i think it's good if i missed you.

Raquel: well they're better than mine otherwise we'd be having pasta all the time and no one really wants to practically live at olive garden without breadsticks.

Raquel: I missed you too. So much. I think I have been overthinking this and maybe even forgetting that not much was going to change. Then at the same time I have been thinking that our place isn't really our place unless it has some of your influence on it. I just left you in there without me for most nights and I'm sorry.

Raquel: I think it's good that I gave you a chance to miss me too. That just means I get to show you just how much I missed you.

Charlie: yeah, that wouldn't be that healthy either

Charlie: don't apologize, babe. i totally get it, but we have a lot of time to make up for it

Charlie: oh yeah? in which sense did you miss me, babe?

Raquel: yeah that too. There would be no way I could even eat what I make so thank you for being my better half and being able to cook.

Raquel: Rest of our lives to make up for it.

Raquel: well first I'm going to show you while on my knees and with my mouth. Then I'll let you relax with a good massage to make up for all those stressful nights without me. Then I'll have to hear you moan my name again as I taste every bit of you before I ride you until you beg me to let you cum.

Charlie: what if i'm the one who wants to take off all your clothes, eat you out until you scream my name, taste every single drop on my tongue and give you a massage and use my mouth on your body before i fuck you again to hear you moan my name?

Raquel: i'll flip you for it. Heads I go first. Or at least one thing can be done at the same time. You can taste me while i blow you. That part is easy.

Charlie: a 69, huh? we could try. i will gladly tongue-fuck you while i'm in your mouth.

Charlie: now i'll be thinking of that until we finally do it and that's the hottest image i'll ever have in mind

Raquel: mhmm. Your tongue inside my tight little pussy your face as my throne but me still wanting your cock so deep inside me. My mouth around you until I swallow your cum.

Raquel: are you already hard for me baby?

Charlie: two of the things we do best at the same time. that's going to be so fucking sexy

Charlie: yes, babe. the thought of doing this with you already turned me on, which is not surprising. are you wet?

Raquel: really that's what you think I'm best at doing to you?

Raquel: dripping. I need you.

Charlie: one of the best ones for sure. your blowjobs are def the best ones i've ever had, maybe that's because you don't have gag reflex

Charlie: now we're at it, what's the best thing i'm at in bed, according to you?

Charlie: where are you and how busy are you to touch yourself?

Raquel: correction I know how to control my gag reflex. It's all about breathing baby.

Raquel: are you kidding? You're pretty much great at everything. But you drive me crazy when you eat me out. I can have you working your tongue on me for hours but I know that's selfish. Or when you lift my legs when you need me so bad that you have to be rough. Or when you choke me when I'm about to cum.

Raquel: you can do that any time by the way. I love it when you're rough with me.

Raquel: it's not the same when I touch myself. I need you.

Charlie: you know what's the best part of all of that? your reaction. i love seeing your face every now and then when i eat you out. your moans when my tongue or my cock are inside you, how needy and what a tease you are during sex. the sounds you make when i'm sucking on your nipples. i fucking love hearing that

Charlie: oh, don't worry. i'll be all the rough you want with you. you know how much i love rough sex

Charlie: i wish you were here with your mouth wrapped around my cock, but here i am, getting off by myself because you're not here

Charlie: but i like the thought of you fingering yourself at the thought of sex with me. it's hot

Raquel: well it is a very sexy face. The face I make when you suck my nipples is the only one that isn't cute because most of the time when you do that you're just being mean and are teaing.

Raquel: fuck yes. Especially when you spank me. No one ele has ever been as rough with me as you have and I fucking love it.

Raquel: I need to get home now. I want your fingers. I want you to make me cum so hard that I can't remember my name.

Raquel: you've ruined me. I can't cum with anyone that isn't you.

Charlie: what can i say? i love your tits and they deserve to have my attention. i like giving them attention.

Charlie: then i'll spank you more often until you have a red hand on your ass, babe

Charlie: not even with yourself?

Raquel: and they love your attention baby.

Raquel: great. It's what I deserve.

Raquel: it's not fun when it's by myself.

Charlie: oh, i know. otherwise your nipples wouldn't be hard and something would be wrong

Charlie: it's what i want to do whenever you bend over for me

Charlie: what if i sent you a pic? would that help?

Raquel: I don't think we ever have to worry about things not being hard between the two of us.

Raquel: feel feel. Maybe you should just bend me over all the time. Do whatever you want to me.

Raquel: YES.

Charlie: [http://68.media.tumblr.com/4cac497c7df1eaeef1b48eb5bc342bde/tumblr_inline_njjjxthj7S1t3m33w.jpg]

Charlie: you're welcome ;)

Raquel: I need to go home.

Raquel: I'm coming home. I'm no use to anyone here if it's you I want and honestly I don't want anyone else seeing me turned on than you.

Raquel: I'll make something up and I'll be home in 20.

Raquel: I want you inside me so we can forget the blow jobs and 69in for now because I need you.

Charlie: i'm pretty sure someone already saw your turned on face at work, but okay

Charlie: i'm happy to skip all of that for some rough sex. in fact, i prefer it too. we're already turned on after all

Charlie: i guess i'll be losing the clothes before you arrive so we don't lose time

Raquel: tonight is the one time where I am okay with you undressing yourself.

Raquel: be naked when I get home.

Raquel: love you.

[punkscowardschampions]

Rio & Buster

Rio: So, I'm having a hard time getting her to move but Rio: Quinn's being pretty decent considering Rio: Saving her from total embarrassment Buster: Well, that's something Buster: Do you want me to come help? Buster: I can always carry her out Rio: Nah, you're okay Rio: She'll clock it ain't working in a few and don't reckon either of you wants you to be there for that Buster: True Buster: And I don't need her trying to fight me Buster: She already knows I lied about why I trashed my room even if she can't catch me in it Buster: Things are weird enough, like Rio: Exactly Rio: Best to avoid unless you want your truths coming into question 'cos she's outed herself Buster: At least this does answer our question of whether she really did like the girl or not Buster: Type not so set in stone Buster: And if nothing else you've earned yourself yet more fruit Rio: Least she does now Rio: Even if she reckons the teach was her first love, Quinn was other firsts so, shit matters too Rio: Just trying to get my five a day, obviously Buster: I'll feed you grapes later, no need to go so hard with the heroics, babe Rio: What can I say? Rio: You inspire it in me, clearly Buster: 'Course Buster: How is she really though? Rio: Drunk, jealous and sad Rio: but she'll be fine Rio: No need to worry, honest Buster: She's had plenty of practice at wanting someone she can't have Buster: Honestly same Buster: Shame we can't bond over it, but Buster: I don't reckon she'd appreciate my success story at the moment anyway Rio: Yeah, somehow not seeing that as what she wants to hear rn 😏 Rio: Don't worry babe, always the fam to fall back on Rio: 😬 Buster: That just sounds like you wanna set Nance up with another cousin Buster: Good try, but I don't reckon she'd go for it Rio: I mean it's Billie or nothing really Rio: slim pickings Buster: Rude Buster: Don't worry I won't tell her you said that Rio: Good luck explaining if you did, babe Buster: 😂 Buster: Are you going home or staying out? Rio: We moving, compromise Rio: I'll probably bring her back with me when we leave Rio: or throw her at nan and granddad, like 👋 enjoy Buster: As long as she ain't on her own Buster: Take her phone too, that girl don't need to be all the texts too Rio: 'Course Rio: she's gonna have enough morning after regret to contend with Rio: this is so awkward Rio: this pub too quiet for this tension Buster: I'll take her breakfast 'cause there's no way she'll be going to school Buster: Imagine Rio: That'll be good Rio: This place [Insert] does a good veggie equivalent of a fry-up Rio: Gonna need it Buster: 'Course you know that Buster: Cheers, babe Rio: In this fam? Duh Rio: Just don't tell my Da I'm sending business away, like Buster: Your secret's safe Rio: Cheers, babe Buster: I miss you Buster: Not a secret, but Rio: Same 😔 Rio: If I gotta be dragged away, wish it was for something a bit more fun Buster: I appreciate it though, even if Nance can't right now Buster: So I'll make it up to you Rio: I don't mind really, aside from aforementioned awks and not being with you Rio: but not gonna pass up on the offer Buster: Don't, I've got nothing but time to think of ways Buster: Do you reckon I should talk to this girl, can I be that twin, like? Rio: Oh no, babe Rio: Nance would die Rio: Noble and cute but no Rio: Save that 🧠 power to thinking of all the ways Buster: I know you're right it's just like me and Nance are in a contest of who can fuck up the most right now or some shit Buster: It's such a mess Buster: I actually almost feel bad for mum and dad Rio: Not a 🏆 they want in the cabinet Rio: But really, it's bad but like, nothing REALLY bad happened Rio: Once she goes to Uni this will be so forgotton, like Buster: You reckon? Buster: I don't know, I'm not gonna forget about you when I go Rio: Bitch, like I'd let that happen 😤 Nah 😂 Rio: There'll be new girls and so much new shit in general, she'll be loving life, trust Buster: Maybe Buster: At least there's nothing stopping her from going anywhere she wants Rio: Yeah Rio: World's still your oyster, baby Buster: Don't worry, I'm not trying to swap with her Buster: I'd rather have you Rio: Good Rio: 'Cos can't say I'd be above a bit of slight stalking Rio: even though I'm seeing how well this is going, like Buster: Good 'cause I ain't been above it before either Rio: Should I be concerned or? 😉 Buster: Please, you've shown yourself right up, loving that 50 shades bloke Rio: If you're gonna buy me an Audi you can do what you like Buster: Well, if that's what you want for your birthday, I'll take everything I've bought back Rio: You're a fool Buster: You love it Rio: Yeah Rio: You better not have gone crazy with the gifts though forreal Buster: Shhh Rio: 😑 Rio: Babe Buster: I'm giving you them in secret so they don't count Buster: Besides, it's your 18th I'm not just gonna buy you a drink, am I? Come on Rio: Is that what we're saying now? Rio: Convenient if none of this counts isn't it 😏 Rio: But I didn't do a good job don't out-do me 😖 Buster: Yes you did Buster: You know I had the best birthday with you Rio: I just wanna treat you like you treat me Rio: like you deserve Buster: Baby Buster: You do Buster: Look where you are and what you're doing right now. You're so good to me all the time Buster: Above and beyond Rio: I just love you Buster: I love you too Buster: If it was about what you could buy me I'd be with Chlo like she wants Rio: Don't Rio: If you wanna motivate me to get my 💰 right, there's SO many better ways to do it Buster: I'm just saying Buster: It's not about that Buster: She wishes Rio: Least mine's my own 😒 Buster: You're doing better than me on that score Rio: Not being a bitch about you Rio: just her Buster: That's welcome any time Rio: Have you spoke to her since the last time? Buster: Nah, she must be complaining to one of her friends instead Rio: That's something Rio: She accidentally liked one of my pics the other day Rio: Hey babe 👋 Buster: I doubt that was an accident Buster: She's all about you Rio: You wish Rio: Get her off your hands, like Buster: Don't Buster: I never need that mental image Rio: 😷 Eurgh Buster: Besides, it's your family that she's changed her mind about, you've got hers made up Rio: What? Buster: Your parents are alright, shit ton of kids and all, 'cause they've got that clout of their jobs and cash Buster: You're letting the side down though, babe Rio: Why were you even talking about my fam Buster: She loves talking about you Buster: But I had to tell her your mum got her figure back 🙄 Rio: 🙄 Of course Rio: She better get my name out her mouth though Rio: She don't know me Buster: I don't think she's ever said your name Buster: You're always like THAT cousin or whatever Rio: Not the point Rio: that's even worse, like Buster: Don't worry, babe I'd never let her bad mouth you Rio: Whatever Rio: not like you can defend me Buster: Of course I can Buster: I always do Rio: Does that not get a bit Rio: risky, like Rio: I'm always so paranoid when anyway starts talking about you Buster: It's fine, I'm not an amateur and I swear she barely listens to me anyway so Rio: I hope so Rio: don't be chatting to her so much yeah Buster: Trust me, it's not something I wanna do Rio: I know, I know Rio: Ugh, can't even blame current company and drama but I will to save face, like Buster: You don't have to worry about Nance, she ain't gonna remember much of this, surely Buster: Feel how you feel Rio: I don't wanna Rio: I'm not used to being jealous Buster: Then don't be Buster: Not of her Buster: It's stupid Rio: Don't call me stupid Buster: I'm not Buster: I'm saying you're acting stupid if you think Chlo's anything to be jealous of Rio: Ugh forget it Rio: You don't get it Buster: Then explain it to me Rio: It doesn't matter Buster: Yes it does Buster: Just tell me Rio: I don't know it's just Rio: she's got something over you and it's fucked that she does and I'm not saying I want something as well but Rio: fucked or not, it's still true and there Rio: you know Buster: Babe, she's clutching at straws Buster: That's how much she doesn't have Buster: You're the only one who's got me Rio: I know it's stupid Buster: It's not, really Buster: I shouldn't have said that Buster: I just don't want you feeling any kind of way 'cause of her Rio: It's alright Rio: Not trying to make this about me when you're the one really getting fucked over Buster: It still affects you though Buster: I'm not gonna be that selfish Rio: I'm sorry Rio: Sometimes I'm alright and I feel like we know what we're doing Rio: then others, my head is just fuck Buster: Don't ever say sorry for this Buster: You're handling it better than I could've asked, not that I can or would Buster: I don't deserve you Rio: What am I gonna do? Rio: Not letting you go Buster: I really want you to mean that Rio: I do mean it Buster: Yeah now, but you're always saying things are gonna be different when the kid's born Rio: 'Cos your priorities are gonna be different Rio: they just will Rio: that doesn't mean I don't mean it Buster: Maybe your priorities will be different Buster: If I'm not around as much or whatever Rio: You saying I'm going to get bored? Buster: You could Buster: If I'm up all night not sleeping but not with you, like Rio: What are you saying? Buster: I'm just saying if we reckon I'm a moody cunt now wait until I'm trying to juggle school with keeping a kid alive Buster: Only so many fruit baskets I can order, babe Rio: Yeah Rio: 'cos I'm that much of a bitch Rio: Tah Buster: Shut up Buster: That's not what I'm saying Rio: Yeah, it is though Rio: It's fine, if that's what you reckon Buster: Fuck that Rio: I'm not that much of a slag Buster: Stop Rio: Seriously Buster: Seriously, stop Buster: I don't know how we got here but you're stressing me the fuck out Rio: I'll leave then Buster: Don't Buster: Fuck's sake Buster: I'm not calling you a slag and I don't want you to go anywhere, I can't believe I have to spell that out right now Rio: What else would saying I'm gonna get bored possibly fucking mean Buster: I just meant it's gonna be hard for both of us, not just me Buster: Christ Rio: The real concern here is you clearly think you're gonna be doing night shifts so that clearly leaves me out the picture Buster: What are you talking about? Rio: You've so obviously got an idea in your head of how it's going to be Rio: and I'm not a part of that Buster: Bullshit Buster: How are you getting that from literally anything I've said? Rio: You said you're not gonna be with me Rio: so where are you gonna be? Rio: With your kid, and her Rio: and that's okay Buster: It's not fucking okay that you'd say that to me Buster: I'm obviously not gonna be with her, am I? Rio: I know you Rio: you're going to want to be with your kid, to look after it and the only way you can have it all the time is to be with her Buster: Fuck off Buster: I'll tell you like I've already told her, I don't need to be her boyfriend to be a dad to my kid Buster: What century are we in? Rio: Don't chat to me like I'm her Rio: so you're gonna be a weekend dad then, yeah? Rio: and that'll be fine Buster: How is it not? Tommy's kids from before didn't become serial killers, like Rio: You don't do anything by half Buster: Yeah well I don't have a choice this time Rio: You're not going to like it Rio: it'd be so much easier for you Buster: I don't know how you can say that Buster: I wouldn't like being with her and neither would the kid growing up in that Buster: Be real Rio: I'm not saying it'd be true love Buster: It'd be another mistake Buster: And I'm not doing that Buster: So shut up Rio: You can't say your brain hasn't gone there Rio: all I can think about is all the different ways to make this work Buster: It's gone there in her dreams and my nightmares Rio: I know Buster: Then stop Rio: I want to Rio: it's not that easy Buster: Yeah it is Rio: Bullshit, babe Buster: Why isn't it enough that I want to be with you? Buster: Why do we have to keep doing this? Rio: It is Rio: but it doesn't make the rest of this shit disappear does it Buster: Well, I can't do that so what else do you want from me? Rio: Don't make it sound like I asked Buster: I'm so fucking tired of this Buster: I don't even know if its my kid yet and I'm tired Rio: I know Rio: Just forget I said anything alright Buster: I can't Rio: Sorry Buster: Don't Buster: Just come back, yeah? Rio: Okay Rio: Might take a while to sort Nance but then I'll be there Buster: Okay Buster: Bring her if you have to, I don't care Rio: Really? Rio: Alright Buster: Not that much of a slag myself, babe Rio: Shut up Buster: No Buster: I just need you here, that's what matters Rio: I didn't mean it Rio: pretend I'm drunker than I am Buster: Babe Buster: We have to keep talking, even if it goes to shit sometimes like Rio: I don't wanna make shit harder for you Rio: I really don't Rio: even though I keep doing it Buster: Well, I don't want you not to tell me things Rio: sometimes I don't know what I'm saying though Rio: or how to say it Buster: And I do? Buster: You thought I was calling you a slag for the longest time Buster: Just keep trying for me Rio: Okay Rio: I promise Rio: we're in the cab Buster: I love you Buster: Just so you know Buster: In case I don't get to say it with Nance around Rio: No telling Rio: gone from not being in the talking mood to telling the cabbie her life story so Rio: love you too, pray for me, like Buster: Fucking hell Buster: I'll give him a tip when you get here then Buster: And get on my knees for you, of course Rio: You really had to phrase it like that Rio: when we gotta be good 😒 Buster: We never have to be that good babe Buster: She'll crash and we'll be quiet Rio: Promise Rio: 'cos I really need to unwind Buster: I know Buster: me too Rio: Yeah Rio: owe you that, like Buster: You don't owe me anything, but I still want it Rio: Good 'cos I still wanna give it Buster: Yeah? Rio: You know I do Buster: Shit, hang on Rio: ? Buster: Proof yet again there isn't a god Buster: Getting a call from satan Buster: Hold up Rio: Seriously? Rio: Ignore it, it'll be nothing but a booty call at this o'clock Buster: But what if it's not? Rio: Then she'd call someone in the country Rio: or go to the hospital Rio: Don't be stupid Buster: Don't call me stupid Buster: So much for trying to unwind with this hanging over my head, like Buster: Come on Rio: Whatever Rio: Do what you want Buster: Don't be like that Rio: Nah Rio: this actually takes the piss Rio: I'm going home Buster: Don't Buster: Whatever it is I'll have it sorted by the time you get here Rio: It's nothing, Buster Rio: it'll be nothing Rio: Jesus Rio: really got you trained already though Buster: If it's nothing it doesn't have to ruin anything, does it? Buster: Just give me a second Rio: Take as many as you like Buster: Fucking hell, Rio Buster: What happened to not wanting to make things harder for me? Rio: I'm letting you deal with the most pressing issue here Buster: Fuck you Buster: Don't do that Buster: If this is how its gonna be every time you don't get your own way Rio: Then what? Buster: I can't do this right now Buster: Forget it Rio: Of course not Rio: Chloe's on the phone Buster: Why do you have to be such a bitch when I already can't win? Jesus Buster: Go where you want. Do what you want Rio: Yeah, that's what you like about me Rio: So easy Buster: Give me one break Buster: Please Rio: Done Buster: It doesn't have to be THIS difficult Rio: No, it really doesn't Rio: any chance to play the hero though Buster: Fuck off Rio: Going

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Jimmy & Janis

Jimmy: How's it going, mate? Jimmy: Lost the will yet or nah Janis: Honestly Janis: Ain't even got that much shit but everyone's being dead dramatic about it Janis: Obviously I don't want my finger paintings, Ma, fucking hell Janis: how 'bout you? Jimmy: Cute 💕 Jimmy: Reckon I've got less but spending half my time separating my shit from Cass and Bob's Jimmy: How the fuck have they taken over my room? Jimmy: Theirs are bigger like Janis: Such a soft touch, lad Janis: Lucky we're sharing or best believe I'd be bagsying the shit out of the bigger room too 😉 Jimmy: 🎻 Jimmy: You can lay claim to all the drawers, mate Jimmy: Leave me somewhere to hang my hat though Janis: You forgotten which twin you moving in with? Janis: I'll tell Grace to grab her coat, like Janis: Get in, babe Jimmy: Funny Jimmy: I've seen how many pairs of kicks you have, I've made that mental note Jimmy: I've got nowt that needs to be worried about, proper floordrobe in my box room Janis: Awwh, when bae notices things Janis: such a #keeper Janis: Better be sorting that, I'll ask for hangers for a housewarming gift...now that's peak #adulting Jimmy: #goals every day of my life 💕 Jimmy: 😎 Jimmy: Can't we ask for another dog, that'd be peak adulting for you Jimmy: Uping your training game Janis: Trying to break Twix's poor little doggy heart 💔 Janis: You monster, you Jimmy: She's capable of breaking her own Jimmy: Either pining for us or Cass wherever she decides she's gonna sleep Jimmy: 🎻 Janis: Drama 👑 Janis: Takes after you, I reckon Jimmy: I blame her training. Or should I say lack of Janis: 😨 Janis: Friggin' cheek Janis: and you want a puppy? When we've already fucked up our first child? Janis: shocking Jimmy: Only thinking of you, needing that 2nd chance Jimmy: Prove you've still got it, training wise Janis: If I can get you to do your own laundry, we'll call it a victory for me, yeah? 😜 Jimmy: That victory's already mine, proper domesticated me Jimmy: There's something to be said for raising yourself Janis: You'll have to teach me then Janis: Spoilt brat, like Jimmy: Alright 👑 Jimmy: See where Twix gets it from now Janis: Soz we know our worth, babe 💅 Jimmy: I'm not Jimmy: Not looking to be the dickhead that chains you to the sink or owt Janis: Kinky Janis: and good luck, Twix ain't got the dexterity, broken plates all over the shop Janis: and I'd be aiming for your head, like 🏆 Jimmy: Tell it to Mr Lucas before he loses interest now you're 👵 Jimmy: 💪 Bring it on Janis: Being dying to chain me up since day 1 Janis: what do you think the detentions were all about, pervert Jimmy: I wasn't reckoning on him trying to get to me via you for the perfect latte recipe Jimmy: But who can say Jimmy: Got the breath of a bean addict like Janis: 😂 not your usual stalker but think about it Janis: pretty good candidate for the flat whites Jimmy: They do need to make up numbers Jimmy: And he don't seem like a trifler with the application Jimmy: Very committed to hanging around young girls Janis: Yeah, you're devvo your fanbase is dwindling Janis: Certainly one way to get back on everyone's minds and lips, babe Jimmy: Having a cry wank while I pack up me socks Jimmy: Rumbled me Janis: Nasty Janis: leave that one behind, like Janis: nice reminder of you for your Da Jimmy: If you find an odd it isn't your crap laundry skills, mate Janis: Good to know Janis: Can't knock out another one before you go? Janis: Lightweight Jimmy: For you I will Jimmy: You're welcome Janis: 😍 Janis: The romance Jimmy: #goals is my thing so Jimmy: 💐 Janis: Be putting that on the 'gram later then Janis: green with envy or 🤢 Jimmy: Everyone knows your snap is where the good shit goes 😏 Jimmy: Get a story going in every room once we're in, naturally Janis: Shut up 😳 Janis: s'one way to christen it, like Janis: the fans will approve Jimmy: I wouldn't disapprove meself Jimmy: But I'll be #buzzing not to trip over your brother constantly to be honest Jimmy: And not to have Bobby in and out of my bed Jimmy: Privacy like, how and what even is that? 😂 Janis: You clearly loved it Janis: Or he did Janis: either way, get a room 😉 Janis: Its gonna be pure luxury Jimmy: I see you, trying to dump me so you don't have to share the bed Jimmy: Gonna have to get more creative than fobbing me off on your brother, sorry Janis: Nah, you're a pretty good bed mate, to be fair Janis: Snuggly 😘 Jimmy: Only pretty good? Jimmy: Challenge accepted there then Janis: I mean, not saying I've had better Janis: but my last mans was a real 🐻 you know? Jimmy: No need to spur me on to 🏆mate Jimmy: Not with my winning streak Jimmy: 😎💪 Janis: 😏 We'll see Janis: Not leaving your competition at home, Gracie's heart would break, like Jimmy: Thought she'd be used to what a heartbreaker I am by now Janis: Who but me could ever keep up with your games, yeah? 🤷 Jimmy: Running rings round me, you Janis: Huh, a compliment? Janis: Not going to help you with your heavy shit up the stairs like just 'cos you're a 🍭talker Jimmy: I'm not asking. Got your nan coming round in a bit like 😏 Janis: 😂 feeling better with her on side now? Janis: brave, like, having her as your landlady Jimmy: I got no pianos or anvils I'm packing Jimmy: Should be alright Janis: just the 🎻right? Jimmy: Naturally Jimmy: Can't go far without that Janis: Not gotta sing for your supper, like Janis: not promising better than the chipper though Jimmy: Mate in this house that's fancy shit Jimmy: Can take me outta here but Janis: are Cass and Bob gonna come help? Janis: use the term loosely for Bobs but I'm sure I can convince my Da that Cass needs sustenance for all her 💪 Jimmy: They wanna Jimmy: I said they'd be more of a hindrance, especially if they drag Twix along but what can I say, most poorly trained of the lot, they are Janis: I'll whip 'em into shape Janis: Managed you, like Janis: If they got bored they can always go down and play pool and get crisps Jimmy: I give Cass half an hour before she's taking you up on that Jimmy: Over everything she is Jimmy: Fuck knows where she gets that from 😂 Janis: 😏 Right mystery that Janis: Ah to be 15 and have it all figured out, like Jimmy: I don't reckon she does, lad I see her hanging about with Jimmy: Right dickhead he looks Jimmy: Just mates, been there, said that, kid Janis: 👴 Janis: Maybe she's avoided your flair for the dramatic Janis: We can only hope or you're gonna have to be all up on her feed 👀 Jimmy: 🖕 Jimmy: Have a word, will ya Jimmy: Might go in more than one ear you saying it Janis: This what we become already? Janis: Not even in the front door like Janis: Don't let on, the field day the fans would have Jimmy: Dream team, we are Jimmy: On me own I'm just that dickhead Jimmy: Not news to Cass or the fans Janis: You're my dickhead 💞 Jimmy: You're cute 💕 Janis: What can I say? Janis: Prospect of finally getting outta this place and having our own space got me feeling a type of way Jimmy: Cheers to that 🍻 Jimmy: The barn and my car both have their own charms like but Janis: Good times Jimmy: You might be needing them back desperate when it hits what living with me is gonna be like Jimmy: Sure you got me that well trained? Janis: Definitely don't get rid, like Janis: Never know when you'll need to drive off dramatically into the night Jimmy: Or sleep in the backseat when you get mardy enough to kick me out Janis: You know Janis: Living above a pub, may as well act like we're in Eastenders Jimmy: Plot twist, it was Twix framing me all along Jimmy: That bitch Janis: Duff duff duff duff duff Janis: What a cliffhanger Jimmy: Predictable, but we know she is Janis: 😎 Shade Janis: Can't help how irresistible I am Janis: slept with half the square by the end of the month Jimmy: Who am I squaring up to this week 🥊 tune in to find out, lads Janis: Poor babe Janis: When you find out you shoulda been with lovely Lil Mo all along Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: You come home and I've moved Tam in Jimmy: Thank god for them high ceilings Jimmy: Love story years in the making Janis: 😣 and I'm still gonna hit it 'cos double standards and nah, bitch Janis: take my man, not my flat, how dare you Jimmy: And your 🐶 too Jimmy: Out of order Janis: She's gonna turn up squashed in a car compactor next ep Jimmy: Funny Jimmy: 4 x 4 and she still struggling for that head room Janis: You know that's your type Janis: Typical sketchy photographer, you Jimmy: Shut up Jimmy: Not my fault your sibling rivalry with Gracie included being taller Janis: Likely story Janis: Going some to up your portfolio game tho, lad Jimmy: Go tall or go home Janis: Know I never mastered the artsy fringe but Janis: tah for sticking around still, like Jimmy: You're welcome Janis: Generous to a fault Janis: When you take charity fake dating too far, ladies and gents Jimmy: Fake yeah, Charity nah, babe Janis: Love you Jimmy: If you don't reckon you're beautiful by now I'm gonna have to take more pictures Jimmy: Good thing we've got a blank canvas for a bit Janis: Always wanted to live in a shrine to myself, obvs Janis: I'll have to amateur hour it so peeps know you live here too, like Jimmy: Done Jimmy: Can you? Got that pro status, mate Janis: 👌 I picked up a few tips Janis: you're not totally useless, like Jimmy: Thanks Jimmy: Love you too, like Janis: 💞 Jimmy: Reckon I'm done here Jimmy: Do you want me to come and get you or are we gonna need two trips for the boxes? Janis: Mental you ever unpacked that much tbh Janis: I reckon we can squeeze, no doubt my parents wanna follow like the creepers they are if there's too much anyway Jimmy: Fair Jimmy: and I'm gonna have to go back for Cass and Bob at some point anyway Jimmy: Don't need to be back and forth enough to make my dad think I'll miss the place Janis: Don't reckon even he can pull off that level of purposefully oblivious, like Janis: and don't reckon he wants me to come 'round to say farewell either, not that I EVER set a foot inside, like, nah 😉 Jimmy: Good times Janis: Don't be getting emotional on me now Janis: Look how far we made it, like Janis: 🎻 Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: I'll be #buzzing if I make it up the stairs with this shit Jimmy: 🚭 lads, who knew it was so bad for you Janis: the ban and the warning labels just flew right over you, like Janis: know you're not that tall but 😏 Jimmy: 😎 Jimmy: Least your warnings worked 😏 Jimmy: Healthy as a 🐎 now like Jimmy: Never seen a horse do stairs is all Janis: is it them you can take up but they won't come down? Janis: or cows, maybe Janis: look, all I'm saying is, don't invite Mia 'round or we'll never be rid Jimmy: Fucked if I know Jimmy: You're the country girl Jimmy: We only have glue up north Jimmy: And burgers Jimmy: No cows Janis: 🙄 Janis: Am not, dickhead Jimmy: Tell it to the veg patch, mate Jimmy: You can move out but there's no leaving all that lot behind Janis: Don't say that Janis: that's the whole fucking point! 😂 Jimmy: You collect all the keys they've got and then we won't give any more out Jimmy: Done Janis: 😍 Janis: now you're talking my language Jimmy: Gotta get you back on side before I'm trapped in a car with you Jimmy: Surrounded by heavy objects Janis: Sensible boy Jimmy: Well trained Jimmy: I'm coming over now Jimmy: 💪 too if you need a hand Janis: Just the one? Janis: Shame 😈 Jimmy: Now you're talking my language Janis: Quicker we unpack the faster they'll all leave Jimmy: Why do you think I'm not bringing much 😏 Janis: Always thinking, my boy Jimmy: Not just a pretty face Janis: Nah Janis: have missed it tho Janis: and not just 'cos I've been staring at boxes for the past few hours Jimmy: Awh 💕 Jimmy: You'll be sick of it soon enough like Janis: Threat or a promise? Jimmy: We'll see Janis: Tease Jimmy: First time you've ever complained though Jimmy: Bit late Janis: Fickle like that Janis: but you knew that too so Jimmy: Nobody can say I didn't know what I was getting into Jimmy: Couldn't even play fake nice, you Janis: You loved it Jimmy: Yep Janis: Thank fuck Janis: Plan B where I had to join the flat whites woulda been rough stuff, like Jimmy: You'd have loved it Janis: Clearly, all I ever want from life is spending more time with my sister Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: Gonna move her in instead of me then? Jimmy: I'll turn this car around Janis: Hell no Janis: not been able to share a room for years Janis: nevermind a bed, as much as the pervs would love that Jimmy: Think of the 'gram Jimmy: Have I taught you nowt Janis: Don't even fucking suggest it Janis: the idea of that makes likes would defs go to her head Jimmy: I'm here now so feel free to shut me up Janis: 💪 Janis: Coming