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Ok look I know we all love monsterfucker Noel as a way of working through trauma but also a consensual bdsm relationship would probably also do him the world of good. I doubt it would matter what side he was on, subbing would let him work through the torture on his own terms and doming would let him have the control he never got.
#I think he would have a weird relationship with power dynamics#especially with john#there was a fic kinda based like that which was good#Sorry you people are being nice about noel in leather so im letting the internal censorship go a little bit#Spine speaks#masked#noel finley#charlie dowd#detective noel#Like i know the systems we have now were not in place at the time but i trust noel to be a decent guy and paranoid enough to have his own#that man would not sub if he didnt have the option to get out of that situation#Anyway yeah into the world this goes#have i got the masked tag#yes jolly good#Sighs sadly i have friends irl who follow this blog#hoping they dont see it#percy u dont count
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don't you want to be a cult leader? - danyal al ghul au
this is mostly a joke post but i thought it was funny and had to share so--
his first mistake was, obviously, inheriting his father's inability to see an injustice and stand still. -- actually, danyal's first mistake was his lair being so big. a mountainous island with a large temple in the center resembling his old home in Nanda Parbat? With sprawling foliage and rivers and streams and waterfalls galore? What was he going to do with all that space? Let it go to waste? He had plants there! Native trees of the ghost zone growing from the soil! He couldn't let it all be left unchecked!
So naturally after helping a fellow teenage assassin ghost -- who he later learns is named Akihiko, -- from Walker of all people, he sent them over to hang low at his lair until it was safe enough for them to wander around the Zone. Walker couldn't get through Danyal's astrofield if his life depended on it, and trust him -- he's tried. Danny was clearing out debris from his stupid transport vans for weeks.
Honestly it wasn't so bad, he and Aki really quickly became fast friends and Danny loves having a sparring partner close to his level again -- he hasn't had this much fun fighting since he left the League. Aki was very dedicated and levelheaded, the both of them clicked really well because of it.
Nonono, the real trouble began after Danyal met some long-passed League members and allowed them to come join his island as well. Apparently they had made a few enemies of the zone, and maybe Danyal still felt some loyalty to the League. He couldn't just let them be left to rot. Their zealotry could be overlooked so long as they kept it contained and helped him take care of his island.
And it.. snowballs from there? He meets a teen squire aptly calling himself Ambroise -- whether that was his living name or not is yet to be seen -- who died during feudal france, who is just about as dramatic and passionate as every french stereotype makes them out to be. He calls Danyal "my moon and great muse" -- which is both flattering and little uncomfortable, but Danyal's grown up in the League as the Grandson of the Demon Head, he is used to mild worship. he passes it off as nothing more, nothing less. -- and while his energy is overwhelming on the worst of days, he helps Danny draw out of his shell more in ways that Sam and Tucker still struggle with.
Him and Aki butt heads a lot, but the two seem to hold the other in at least some positive regard, so Danny doesn't worry too much about them fighting while he's gone. It only becomes a mild issue when Aki also begins calling Danny "my moon". It's a little sweet, so Danyal brushes it off.
Then he takes in a troupe of ghosts some time after he defeats Pariah Dark and they begin calling him "great one" just as the yetis do in the far frozen. This is where he meets the twins -- a pair of sibling ghosts who call themselves Trixie and Missy (short for Trick and Mislead) -- who aren't quite as passionate as Ambroise but more energetic than Aki. Eventually they also start calling Danyal "my moon" and attach themselves to his hip, even within the living. They like to hide in his shadow and cause trouble for the rest of the students. He makes sure they don't hurt anyone.
He's pretty sure Aki is jealous, same with Ambroise, but he can't be too certain other than the fact that they become much more lingering (re: clingy) whenever he visits the island.. Something he's trying to do much more often these days due to the increasing amount of people living there now. Since when did he become so popular?
Then there's Pēnelópeia from the Greater Athens, who ran away from home and joined his Island after he ran into her while she was being chased by Skulker -- and he's pretty sure the reason was because of her chimeric appearance. Her strange eyes and mismatched wings and lion's tail and talons. She assimilates into his friend group very easily, she gets along well with Ambroise and Trixie and Danny usually finds the three of them climbing the trees to pluck the most fruit from the top. They can fly and he knows it, but they prefer to climb.
Then finally there's silent poet Akkara who comes from ancient mesopotamia, who gets along most with Aki -- which is no surprise there considering their similar personality dispositions. he watches Aki and Danyal fight each other and leaves comments on this or that that he notices. He writes Danyal poems on clay tablets and leaves them by his room.
They're one big mismatched group of outcasts, and Danny's got the other ghosts on his island to tend to, because they're living on his island and he wants to be hospitable even if he struggles with that. But he spends the most of his time with them.
Sam and Tucker are making fun of him. Tucker jokingly tells him 'careful Danny, at this rate you're gonna start a cult'. Danny really wishes he had taken that joke more seriously.
He just. keeps. collecting people. Wayward souls lost in the zone, looking for shelter or refuge from something or other -- whether that be another hostile ghost, or a past afterlife, or just a purpose. Danyal finds them, he takes them in, offers them a place on his island until they are ready to leave. Many seldom do. He's not complaining -- he has the space, and it feels like it's only ever growing.
His close friends, his "inner circle" as he's heard the others call them, keep insistently calling him "my moon". He starts calling them his stars, because then it only feels fair. They're his stars, this is his constellation. It becomes a thing; little star halos begin forming behind their heads, picking them out from the rest. He loves them so much, it's hard to place. Sam and Tucker are also his stars, but they reside in the living realm, they're his tie to Life. Meanwhile, his friends here know what it's like to be dead, and sometimes its nice to relate.
Those living on his island keep calling him "Great One" and he's beginning to notice zealotry in their care for his island. He really, deeply appreciates it. His close friends gain nicknames -- as his stars, it's only natural for him to pick them out from the cluster in the skies. Akihiko, his Sirius and bright star. Trix and Missy, Castor and Pollux, the twins and troublemakers. Ambroise, his zealous Antares and close friend. Penelopeia, chimeric and loyal Vega. And Akkara, his Arcturus and strength.
It's ridiculous how long it takes for him to notice; he is, of course, a deadly trained assassin. He is meant to be observant -- and normally he is! But somehow this becomes a blind spot. One that becomes too big to be dealt with by the time he realizes it.
He should've noticed when Aki, his Sirius, stood beside him one day while Danyal looked over his island and saw the sprawling spirits carrying on about their afterlife and bowing to him as they saw him, and said: "I looked down into the depths when I met you; I couldn't measure it." They aren't one for flowing prose, it took him so off guard he was silent for over a minute before he finally spoke.
Danyal should've recognized devotion for what it is, and yet he didn't. He should've recognized it when Antares began spouting praises about him, crowing about his radiance and resplendence to the heavens. He just brushed it off as Ambroise being Ambroise. He should've recognized it when Trix and Missy nearly broke Dash's leg after he knocked Danyal's books out of his hands, he excused it as them being protective. Of them coming from times where such violence may have been customary -- after all, that's what he used to be like. What he was still like, sometimes, when his emotions nearly got the better of him.
He should've noticed it when the people living on his island followed his word like gospel, looked at him like he hung the stars in the sky. When his friends gifted him a shawl with the moon phases delicately embroidered into it, with silver, shimmering thread and moving stars lovingly stitched into it. Their constellations seen clear as day in the dark fabric. When he found small shrines dedicated to him -- but they lacked any image of him beyond stones carved to look like moons, so he ignored it. When the religious imagery began popping up.
He really, really should've noticed it when a bunch of cultists accidentally summoned Antares, and Antares had turned to him when he arrived and called them heretics. But he was so centered on the fact that they had kidnapped one of his stars, that he hadn't paid much attention to what Ambroise had said.
Sages say that faith is blind, they should also say faith in you is even blinder.
It really only hits him one afternoon while he's sitting in Sam's room studying with Tucker, Missy and Trixie lounging at his feet, Aki sat on his right, Penelopeia braiding his hair, Ambroise draped against him, and Akkara lurking over him. Its one of the rare few times they're all in one room together.
It hits him like a bolt of lightning. He looks up from his textbook. "Oh Ancients," he says in no amounting shock. Everyone looks up to him.
"I've become my grandfather."
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#danyal al ghul au#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc prompt#ive been playing cult of the lamb recently and you can tell#anyways i thought this was funny to think about. its specifically danyal al ghul bc that makes it even funnier#tfw you accidentally become a cult leader. rip to you danny you have a cult following#not at ALL an accurate depiction of a cult but i still think its funny. innaccurate cult depictions. ur in too deep to change it now danno#sam and tucker: hey dude... this is a cult | danny still learning how to People: what. no. these are all my friends and refugees.#his inner circle are all Insane about him they just show it in different ways. Sirius is as equally zealous as the rest they just don't#show it as much. which has mistakenly convinced danyal that they are the more logical one. no danny. they would kill for you#danny: i am being hospitable | sam: you created a cult | danny: i am being hosPITABLE#i dont like ghost king aus but i love danny being in positions of power it just has to feel earned. 'accidental kingdom acquisition' is my#favorite trope it just has to be done correctly. 🫵 build that bitch up with your bare hands and not realize until its too late you fool#'becoming a world power by accident and im in too deep to back out now'#danyal. a raised assassin (has no threshold for normal behavior): *sees utter devotion towards him* yeah this is fine and normal.#danyal: yk i dont see this ending horribly. *goes and collects more followers* yeah this is totally cool. welcome to the constellation#danyal: *saves a few people and houses them in his lair* (everyone liked that [to a worrying degree actually])#his inner circle: my moon! | danny: my stars :]#danny: ive become my grandfather. | danny: ... | danny: idk how to feel about that honestly.#those poor cultists that kidnapped antares were subjected to a 3hr tangent about 'the radiance of the Moon and his resplendent generosity'#before danyal found him and got him home. who were the cultists summoning? who knows! but they got Objectively the Worst out of the#constellation to summon by accident. actually they're all bad there's no picking who. they're all various amounts of Unhinged Danny just#Never Realizes It because he is also Unhinged and thinks some of this shit is normal.#like yeah thats totally normal behavior he has no questions whatsoever. this seems like Typical People Stuff.
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Floating kisses
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#mp100#mob psycho 100#terumob#shigeo kageyama#teruki hanazawa#this has been cooking for months and I am never gonna be super happy with it so off into the world it goes#also posting on a friday evening is a surefire way for this to get as little traction as possible because that is how posting schedules wor#so uh yeah gonna have to taper my expectations with this one#there was supposed to be a whole forest in bloom behind them but I just gave up on that so....#this is what we got!#anyway#have some terumob kisses before bed#kisses#my art#aura#kageyama shigeo#hanazawa teruki#yes shigeo is wearing cute socks with clouds on it#not sure why my close up is so kuch more saturdated#it’s the same file#soooo shrugs
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soliloquy
(edit once again i drew something with my ipad screen brightness too high and now that i've posted it nothing is visible. sad!)
#orv#omniscient reader's viewpoint#kim dokja#art i made#sort of a quick lighting study i suppose??????#can't really explain this one i just keep thinking about#i dont remember if i ever talked about it on here but for my theatre studies performance project last semester i set up the lights so like#for one scene me and my groupmate would have 2 spotlights on us and after his character dies his light goes out and then its just#me with the spotlight and i didnt realise how fucking dark the lecture theatre would be with no lights on and i swear to god#for like those 3 minutes it really felt like nothing else existed in the world except me and that spotlight#genuinely one of the most haunting emotional experiences i ever had. idk i think about it a lot#there was an old post i saw a while back about how theatre is the best medium for portraying loneliness and its like. i watched a recording#of the tempest a few years back and that last scene of prospero alone on stage addressing the audience? yeah#anyway. time for somethig more respectable (mizisua angst) (?????)
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sorry thinking about this because of a reddit post (never a good sign lol) but the fact that da2 and dav actually have really similar approaches to romance but one works well and the other falls completely flat needs to be studied. i think the issue is that even though you could argue they have similar levels of content (no repeatable kisses, only a handful of cutscenes), da2 hides bits and pieces of extra development in its quests that make the chosen romance feel like it has a presence in hawke's life, while dav romances feel almost like they disappear whenever a scene isn't specifically about the companion / romance. tiny moments like aveline judging hawke on their choice of partner or the romanced companion comforting hawke after leandra's death all add up to make it feel more significant and constant throughout the game. if you're lucky with dav's romances you'll get a banter and an extra cutscene but the time between locking in and the cutscenes in act three gets EXTREMELY dry.
#my timeline was like kiss davrin + lock into romance (1-2 hours of gameolay) trigger tea scene (20+ hours of gameplay) davrin tells rook#hes afraid of losing him / dying and leaving him behind (2 hours of gameplay) sex scene#like. WHAT ARE WE.#at least in da2 they do a what are we situation on purpose for fenris/isabela. and it's fun#and i know some romances get like. romanced lines in combat. which may make it feel better#idk why they didn't do that for everyone but whatever!#also slightly related but one thing that was missing in dav was the ability to let your companion speak for you#i love letting someone else handle something. especially when i know theyre going to do a bad job#i also love those moments in da2 where hawke asks for opinions and it just goes around the party while they#say their little lines. EXTRA funny in the last straw when hawke is deciding whether anders should live or die and we go#to the worst jury in the world#anyway what was i talking about. oh yeah. companions in dav seem to talk more than in any other game but they somehow just#dont feel grounded or present half the time
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I heard its her birthday and had a sudden urge to draw kirararararararrara
#I LOVE YOU GO PRINCESS PRECURE GRRR ARRHHEGHAHRKJHR#im behind on hirogaru sky rn. im sorry.#i missed most of delicious precure too </3333#rosemary and spicy im so sorry. ill come back to them eventually#rosemarys look slike kanata if he was better. hes so cool#cant he barbecue or smth. fuck yeah.#precure#pretty cure#go princess precure#cure twinkle#amanogawa kirara#i wrote amonogawa at first im sorry. theres an easy joke here. sorry.#can i talk abt how much i love go princess and heartcatchs villains. i love them.#i like how shut gets more pathetic and silly as the show goes on. and i looooove twilight/scarlet/towa love love love you#shes so cool and lame at the same time. girl that acts really cool but her lameness and silliness shines theough in everything she does#opposite of yuri/moonlight who looks lame and silly but is effortlessly cool all the time i adore her#imagine finding out ur nerd senior is the coolest superhero in the world. ehat the hell#anyway. love shut and towa i hate when theyre in the same frame. that was really weird. wish that wasnt a thing#kanata and haruka too i hate that old precures like this#you know what precure series ISNT like this……… heartcatch. watch heartcatch.#thats a lot of ramble tags ok. im done. gootbye#art tag#i forgor…..
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my aunt's being a cunt so now my mum's sobbing in the living room everything is so awesome all of the time
#you ever just have family members who are not only rich as fuck they're also extremely healthy#and entirely unable to fathom that not everyoone else is#because the weather is awful my granddad probably can't get to his friends he celebrates new years with every year#so my aunt messaged my mum telling her to invite him over and my mum did cause like yeah ofc#but then she was like damn i don't think we have enough food#cause my dad (good dad/mum's ex bf/not my actual dad/long story) is also coming#so she very casually just mentioned that and my aunt GOES OFFFF at her like ''he's just as much your dad as mine''#bitch! not our problem that your favourite thing in the world is hosting dinners!#my mum's been on sick leave for a YEAR#and now she has to whip up a wholeass new years celebration?#out of nowhere? because you're going to a massive new years party?#plus my dad has bad anxiety so if my granddad's coming he might not even want to come#like they're both invited and it'll probably be fine but for fucks sake#anyway so now she's sobbing. and everything is really awesome.
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day 226
team charge got me feeling emotions
#day 226#year 4#AradiaAugust#aradia megido#tavros nitram#homestuck#team charge#bro. aradia cares about tavros so damn much#and i think she genuinely thinks he is very cool for being the type of person he is#like. i think ive said this before but#alternia is a place that by design is meant to harden you to the world and make you ruthless and competitive and aggressive#and the fact that tavros has EVERYTHING screaming at him to be literally anything other than the weenie lil softboy he is#and continues to be like. oh yeah i dont play fucked up alien pokemon for the combat im just out here making friends with my little guys :)#i think aradia parses that attitude as a very Cool Act Of Rebellion given the society in which they live#it explains why she goes to the lengths she does to protect/avenge him against vriska who is just.#the absolute antithesis to all that.#i think aradia probably thinks vriska is a fuckin square. shes boring because she does exactly what society tells her to do all the time.#and not only that but shes out here trying to make tavros the same way. aradias not fuckin having it!#anyway. i have thoughts about the flarpers i think about them a lot
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actually i think billys the type that in 20 years he would be found living on a houseboat in the florida keys, a string of men coming in and out but never settling down because billys never found The One (he compares every man to his high school rival and they never quite stack up)
#like everything with the upside down settled and billy got the fuck out of dodge never to be seen again#except years later fuckery starts up again and the gang all reunites#except billy#who no one can seem to find#el uses her powers to find him and max books the first plane ticket she can#steve goes with her for.... moral support. yeah.#hes totally not been wondering for years and years what ever came of billy hargrove after he saved the world no no#anyway when the house boats a rocking dont come a knocking!
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beginning to like brumm has been the mark of a downward spiral in my ability to think because without fail, every single time, forever, until the end of time my speculation and loreposting about the bug game devolves into mentioning him or even talking about him at length. everything becomes a thoughtpiece about nymm because hes like the crab of lore. the ultimate form.
#me talking#this is why i cannot post anything. he Shows Up#perhaps this goes to show how well his story resonates with the game world and big story but mostly it shows my mental illness#say that shit my king! a song that never ends is no song at all... yeahhh! woo!! yeah!!!#though i legally have to acknowledge that not everything ive ever said about him in my 5 years of knowing him has been good or thoughtful#not even remotely. never look at my old posts i was a maggot a worm back then i understood nothing about this world (probably)#(i have not recently looked at whatever i was posting back then. that was 5 years ago. this is a disclaimer)#anyway. to conclude: in a game about letting things die the guy who says 'things should be allowed to die' has an insanely cool voice#edit: also to be clear i know that things turning into crabs is a big oversimplification of the phenomenon i say things for fun sometimes
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I was tagged by @carcarrot to share 9 perfect road trip/travel albums! Yippee thank you ❤️
Tagging @become-a-robot @marrasmoon @find-your-way-from-here @crystalblast @where-did-the-groove-go and anyone else who wants to do this!
#now ofc some words of explanation. john henry is the ultimate road trip album for me so ofc that had to go first#for sparks i had some trouble choosing until i remembered about hippo and yeah. that's the one#with xtc i considered english settlement & drums and wires too but the big express def fits here best#i mean it's in the title and cover and everything else#tonight franz ferdinand is mostly really just. one of my many listens of that was on the train on the way to THEIR concert recently#which was such a great and memorable moment so yeah. can't wait to do the same things with spars & MAD! eventually#other than that. well i guess more than 'perfect' road trip albums i'd say these are just what came to mind first#when i think of something that puts me in that being in a car in summer mood truly so many things could fit just for the driving around only#because one of the important things about the last ~4 years and being a university student is that i drove around a lot#i got kinda sick of it in the last couple months but at least i listened to so much stuff during all those drives#and that's really one of the coolest memories i have all in all. plus i lean towards more upbeat music anyway#so most of it goes very well with moving around. and i'm saying all this as someone who doesn't even have a driver's license#i just love being the passenger or riding a train or anything like that lol#and putting on my headphones and zoning out and observing the world for the whole duration of that#well oops that's a lot of tags. me when there's music and travelling mentioned in the same sentence#tag game
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Hi it's like 11:30pm and I accidentally made myself emotional over the thought of PNF-404 mourning and grieving and missing a time when humans still lived on it, even if not all of those times were amazing. And when Olimar and everyone else starts crashing on it throughout the series (it tries to guide them down but when people resist and fight it then all goes terribly wrong despite it trying to lead them down relatively safely) it's delighted to see people again and while it won't hand them a super easy time, it knows they're capable of overcoming anything and is genuinely proud to see how they've all come along after all this time by the time of Pikmin 4
#Limbo Speaks#Pikmin#Pikmin 4#tag later#unsure if this makes sense I'm very tired and slightly high but yeah#I believe the world has a soul or spirit of its own#but it doesn't act or behave like a regular person. its still a huge collection of energies and emotions over thousands of years#but its lonely and it misses the old days#so it recreates different places and memories#my theory/headcanon is that humans left earth due to various reasons but dwindling resources or even a war torn world being some of em#and they figured out how to shrink themselves down to help make resources last 10x longer like food and such#but of course now its been so long they've long forgotten where they all came from#and so the various planets we see listed in Pikmin 4 are kinda the new stand-in for countries I suppose?#regardless I'm imagining the world of PNF-404 being able to see people again and seeing through one of their eyes what's happened since-#-they all left#and while it doesn't get the full picture it still sees people even after all this time will still band together and help each other out#humanity/starfolk still have flaws but they are still the determined loving resourceful people they've always been#and the world is proud of them#unsure if after Pikmin 4 it is able to be at peace or pass on in a way. or just goes on existing and pulling people down every now and then#just to keep from getting too lonely again#but yes this world is a physical planet but its also its own being#anyways sorry i think im rambling#I should go to bed =w=;;;#crying over a planet man#yes I listened to 'how far we've come' by matchbox twenty and keep replaying from 2:30 onward imagining stuff
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Since we're all gonna die, there's one more secret I have to share with you.
Gumballs human design is heavily inspired by how I look irl. (Yes even the little notes are from my own experiences.)

Gumballs human design is just me with some changes. (Yes I did dye my hair blue in middle school. No joke.)

as my favorite character and a non human character it's my duty to just make him look like me, especially if I kinned him since I was 9.
He shall have glasses as well (and don't wear them like I do.)

that's my secret.
#wooh face reveal !!#as if i haven't done it on tiktok with a dumbass video#but whatever#anyhow#if you're wondering#gumball being dyslexic and dyscalculic (do you even type it loke that) is ALSO me projecting#also come on this guy can't weite it's an entire running gag in the show#< wlso fant type#anyway yeah#yeah im the bastard who goes as far as projecting zheir own physical look onto their favorite characters#the amazing world of gumball#gumball watterson#tawog gumball#tawog
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In what you based your vision of italy and/or itager?
People like italy does even exist?
I think fundamentally speaking the world of hetalia does not work like ours. this is obvious because of mf countries being humans but i mean also on philosophical level too like i think if ghouls were real then tokyo ghoul could probably happen. if countries cultures were humanized hetalia would still not be able to occur. Unless we completely deconstructed our sensibilities and reshaped them from the ground up, looney tunes would never be real and something around the same can be said for hetalia. Although I think hetalia is slightly more leaning towards being able to be real compared to looney tunes; it's a sliding scale and hetalia is around where the muppets are at in terms of their sensibilities working in real life. Actually the more I think about it the more I do believe that people with hetalia-like sensibilities do exist, but they're incredibly rare and fucking crazy. Since I dont live hetalia life but i have lived always sunny in philadelphia in real life which is arguably even more implausible of happening. Like bro have you ever read the wikipedia page for the guy who holds the guiness world record for being struck my lightning the most times. that shit is fucking crazy i genuinely believe he was being hunted down a malovelent force and i dont believe in god or anything like that tbh but if i had to then i would say that is probably the second biggest red flag i have ever seen of a higher entity being real. So anyways I think if the bullshit he endured happened then someone having the same disposition and sensibilities as hetalia italy isn't that far out there actually. our world is magical and wonderful isnt it!! :D
Taking this into account, my vision of Itager plays by these rules (warped sensibilities). I think that if someone like Italy is real, then he is not going to be meeting anybody who likes Hetalia because Italy would not be into this gay shit. And i don't think italy could be considered himself anymore if we put him in the same mindset as a normal person in our society; he actually has to genuinely be like the person he is in the show. It's a tall order, but i do think that is reasonable and something that could feasibly happen with how many crazy and insane things that can happen on his planet, you just need to seek these things out! I'm sorry if this is hard to understand with my wording because I also started writing this long ago and kept forgetting to finish. BUT THANK YOU FOR SENDING AN ASK LIKE THIS I REALLY LOVE IT. I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY YOU CARE! <3
#ask#i think that also apart of why i believe someone like italy can exist irl is because i myself do not have thought processes that are#relatable to my peers#because ugh very obviously from my blog i have autism and not the cute kind either#but i mean as in you know how autism makes you think and percieve and have different sensibilities fundamentally from other people#and i suppose that is true for everybody to a degree actually becAUse we all percieve differently#I call this difference in our sensibilites the “gap” because it makes it so we will never be able to fully understand eachother#like evangeleon was right about that and im so happy the gap exists because i think that is the only thing that keeps us from being alone#but anyways i think autism is when that gap is SIGNIFICANTLY bigger than usual and uhmm autism is more components than just the gap#but the gap size is definately a big component of the autism spectrum#and i think thats why at least for me i feel kinda like elf when he was a human raised by elves and he loves elves and is one of them#but also hes not an elf so he'll never instinctually understand everything the way other elves do#and i never watched past 30 minutes of elf so i dont know the story much really but i know he goes to human society and stays there#and i think that doesnt work well with my simile though so tbh i should've used the usual “human raised by aliens” one i usually do#but that one makes it sound gay bc elf is a beloved christmas classic by everyone and is more understandable of the vibe im giving here#but uhmm yeah i think that we obviously have humans who have very different sensibilites compared to what we think is normal#and I would know seeing as I'm someone who is touching that line a lot. I HAVE A REALLY BIG GAP O_O#so i think that it isn't impossible for someone to be further out than i am#like hetalia italy!#or any hetalia character whos forced to live in this world LOL
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I have the brain of a fallow deer i think because when i look at my beloved wrestleboys (or really any incredibly huge buff person) i feel the instinctive response in my brain of holy fuck this guy could eat me. Like i am some sort of prey animal. What's wrong with me. It contributes to the sense of awe when watching the sport but it's also another sign to never ever ever go to real life events lest i bolt in panic and dash in front of a passing Subaru.
#jay talkin#huge doesnt have to mean tall either the guy i am most often thinking abt is nearly 2 inches shorter than me#just buff as shit yknow. but its true u look st ppl like that n yr like holy shit#i rlly havent been around ppl w that kind of physique ever so it kinda awe strikes me n sets off like#the brain firing on so many different weird cylinders#i grew up watching worlds strongest man competitions so its not a NEW sensation i just still think its funny#my little frightened brain goes wow i am looking at an apex predator im gonna get hunted#and i go wow thats so awesome. well anyways i wanna look like him and also fuck him. enjoy that combo of thoughts#i'm like a fallow deer if the deer was fucking faggy as shit and gay for the wolf it glimpsed one time#oh i dont think im making much sense. i feel very woozy the sickness bug got me weird#but yeah yknow sometimes u see giant dudes and u go fucking christ. wow. u are so outside of what everyday ppl around me look like#like i wanna be you i think yr hot i also kind of just wanna compare to u like lemme touch lemme just. see#the difference. yknow. yknow. not even always hornily ok. just curious. but also i feel like u can eat me and thats scary#anyway whatever (runs off embarrased) kyaaaa (trips over own enormous dick and falls into vat of liquid steel)#also no please don't analyse this as 'well its bc yr scared of men' i super am not its not a gender thing#does not apply to my life experiences. i'm scared of deep water and large bouncy castles if theyre enclosed. ok.
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The Snow yearning is so strong tonight
#pan gushes#f/o: ❄️#AUGH...#We've been married for years and yet here I am still getting butterflies and stuff like when I first fell for him#I just...gkdnfkdnfkdj#I'm so bad at putting my feelings for my f/os to words sometimes#But I love and adore Snow so much#He brings me so much comfort and makes me feel so safe which means so much to me#I like feeling safe around someone and being able to just lower my guard around y'know?#Also in true ff13 Panchi fashion- I too am quite a crybaby deep down#←Was getting tearyeyed because of how badly they wanted a Snow kiss and to be in Snow's arms#Speaking of crying. (Wait no that sounds bad but I promise it wont be that bad)#My S/I post-Trilogy often has nightmares about their death in the Old World. The downfall of said Old World. Stuff like that#If left alone they they just start sobbing even even more#But Luckily Snow tends to wake up and comfort them- He's really sweet and patient the whole time#even when Panchi is apologizing about waking him up and the past and how they feel responsible for everything bad that happened and-#But yeah. Snow isn't the best with words but he's good at comforting Panchi and helping them fall asleep again#Snow also has his fair share of nightmares Post-Trilogy. Though not as much as Panchi#His nightmares tend to be about those centuries he spent along in LR and seeing Panchi Die again#And since Panchi is a light sleeper. They wake up quickly and reassure him that he's not alone and that they're alive and well#On those nights it's most comforting for Snow to sleep in Panchi's arms with his head on their chest#He likes listening to their heartbeat since it's a reminder that yes. they are indeed alive and well. and their chest is comfy-#ANYWAYS! afksnfjs Got really sidetracked there my apologies! Could've probably made a whole second post there#Goodnight gamers <3 Hope everyone's night goes well
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