#Anti Ramon Diaz

[cassidyrivers]

The fact that the foster care system in 911 (idk how it is irl) cares more about parental reunification than the Diaz parents is actually my villain origin story...

i don’t care if helena & ramon are the most amazing perfect guardians in the universe to chris, it’s shitty that they're not working toward reunification of their son and grandson like they should be

[canonicallyobserving911]

I need Eddie to get on a plane NOW to go see Chris. He's been patient and kind and I'm glad they're finally talking but it's time for this to end. Eddie needs to go YELL AT HIS PARENTS and tell them what they did was NOT OK. They should have had his back and should have encouraged Chris to talk to his dad. It's been 6 months and it's time for this to end!

TM (showrunner) is dragging this out for his own benefit and I don't like this one bit! This is BS!

#Eddie go to El Paso and get your son!

[porkchop200324]

Billy and Graham Dunne 🤝 Chimney and Albert Han 🤝 The Buckley siblings 🤝 Hen Wilson 🤝 The Diaz Siblings

Having the worst dads.

[annemriex]

I just found a fic in my drafts that I started in the summer before the new season started.

I don’t know if I should continue it or not it definitely won’t be canon compliant but I think if I manage to get it written out it could be so much fun to do.

It’s from Chris’ POV while he’s in Texas getting to know about his parents childhood and his Tia’s.

In this fic Adriana is ten years younger than Eddie and it’s made me realise that although it’s totally different circumstances her and Eddie kind of mirror Chris and Shannon.

Eddie went to war when Adriana was 8/9 was gone for nearly 4 years. Came back for around a year then moved to LA.

Shannon left when Chris was 5/6 was gone for 2 years and then came back for months and then died.

I think it would be neat to have Adriana be like this young woman who just wants her brother to talk to her like he used to because he’s the coolest person she knows. She’ll then realise he’s a massive dork and not actually that cool but you get me.

Sophia I hadn’t got to adding yet but I would have her in the middle of the two age wise so that Eddie still felt the shift from only child to big brother but he and Sophia were a little team and she’s more angry that he left and just cut them off. But she’d be the one to be able to help Chris learn about his parents as kids because she was old enough to remember better than Adriana.

Chris would end up arguing with Helena and Ramon about the way they’ve handled everything.

[cassidyrivers]

I don't know if someone has already spoken this theory in existence (I'm new in the fandom but I'm sure someone's already thought about it at least), but I had a horrible thought that is now basically a headcanon for me.

Say Eddie was openly bi/pan/demi/queer in his teens to his family for one reason or another with their reactions varying. What if when Chris was conceived, one of the reasons the Diaz parents were so insistent that Eddie and Shannon get married was to get their son in a "straight" relationship? I mean, they disliked/hated Shannon and made her life hell, so one more reason for the pressure applied could be that?

I hate my mind for going there, but honestly, I see it from them.

[chronicowboy]

in the shower crafting intricate and extensive rants in defense of eddie diaz like i'll ever actually meet fictional Worst Person Alive helena maidenname (she doesn't deserve diaz)

[makorragal-312]

Since I'm a Demi!Gay!Eddie truther, I have a theory that Eddie was hesitant to be intimate with Shannon when they were together and Ramon would end up constantly getting on Eddie's ass about it and would question his masculinity to his face and ask if up front if he was "a real man." And Eddie, feeling pressured to conform, would end up finally sleeping with her.

So when Chris was inevitably conceived and Eddie and Shannon were forced to get married, Eddie went to his parents and begged them to not have them do it, only for Ramon to tell him to "man up" and go through with it to preserve their family.

And as a result, Eddie has been repressing those memories all this time and they won't end up being reopened until he confronts his queerness and corresponding catholic guilt in his upcoming arc.

[eddiestach87]

The other alternative-and less nefarious means for Helena is having generational trauma. Ryan has said Eddie isn't used to talking about his feelings.

I lowkey think that they aren't getting Chritopher hardly any therapy. They are distracting him with material thing, like lots of friends, and a pool. I don't think Helena and Ramone have ever gone to therapy.

It kind of shows.

[consumedbyfeels]

I just love how i see all this hate towards Tommy Kinard one of the most loyal, kind, genuine, and good people. Instead of towards Gerrard who is playing prejudice bingo and winning. This man is a bigot in all the ways you can be but we don't hate him. No we hate Tommy who is one of the most genuinely good people ever. Please make it make sense. Point your hate is a valid direction please.

I've seen people hate more on Tommy than Margaret and Philip Buckley. I know they got a redemption arc but they deserve some hate as well. I would argue they were forgiven to easily but that's me.

Hate Councilwoman Ortiz for taking Mara away from Hen and Karen and revoking there foster licence.

Hate Ramon and Helena Diaz for instead of calling Eddie just jumping on a plane and then proceeding to take his son with them. Granted in was what Chris wanted but I wonder if given time to calm down and without the Diaz's there he would have decided to stay. Maybe Buck could have talked his feeling through with him and he might have changed him mind if he wasn't thinking about thing so emotionally fuelled and impulsively, granted his is a teenager and that's kinda what they do, so maybe not.

Point is hate someone who deserves to be hated not Tommy who does not deserve it.

Most of the hate towards Tommy isn't even about Tommy anyway. It's the toxic Buddie shippers who hate that Buck has a boyfriend who is not Eddie. I'm not saying all Buddie shippers are toxic cuz some of y'all are fine but the ones who are loudest on my dash are fucking toxic.

There is absolutely nothing to hate Tommy Kinard for. And Buck and Eddie are just friends, Eddie is straight. Ryan has said that Eddie is Hetrosexual and there is nothing to indicate otherwise in cannon. Buck is dating Tommy and thriving. Eddie is happy for them. You are seriously going to have a problem with the first relationship Buck has ever had that is genuinely good just because it's a guy who isn't Eddie. Come on people enjoy your ship that's fine. But don't be a dick about ours.

And please remember to tag your anti tommy kinard posts with #antitommykinard. Blocking the tag only helps if people use it.

[userautumn]

oh we're siding with helena diaz now. is that where we are in fandom. we're calling anti helena posting misogynistic. oh no 😭 look maybe it's misogynistic for YOU but for ME she was on my hate list the moment she said "don't drag chris down with you" like my good sis, THAT'S YOUR SON. YOUR SON. YOU ARE SAYING THAT TO YOUR FLESH AND BLOOD CHILD WHO IS STRUGGLING WITH BEING HOME FROM WAR AND JUST GOT DUMPED BY HIS WIFE. "maybe daddy can go be a hero in the kitchen" condescending and demeaning and for WHAT !!!! oh my god i'm gonna barf. anyways, tone is lighthearted/not mad, and honestly probably some of you ARE being misogynistic, like search deep in your soul to find the answer or whatever but for ME........................she's like eddie's #1 opp which means i'm HER #1 opp for real and they need to fight about it, no tea no shade. like. she's never once faced any sort of consequence for the things she's said to him but ramon has, which is why he's beloved to me. the minute she and eddie have a nice little sit down about her hurtful, cruel comments, you can put me down on the list as the PRESIDENT of her fanclub. but until then it's on sight liiiiiiike IDK what else to say 🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️🤷🏾‍♀️

[canonicallyobserving911]

Eddie Diaz - Season 8A

This post is all about my favorite character Eddie Diaz and HE IS THE MAIN AND ONLY FOCUS OF IT. Therefore, if someone doesn't want to read about how I'm pissed off at the lack of character growth for him, keep scrolling. It's just that simple.

I'm NOT HAPPY about the LACK of development in his storylines and I'm tired of him being put on THE WHEEL OF MISFORTUNE.

I've been quiet long enough about this and I'm tired of the way Eddie Diaz is treated on this show. He's always sidelined and his arcs are pushed back in favor of Buck's which is interesting especially since they're both main characters. Don't get this twisted because I like Buck too but Eddie's my favorite and I would like it if he got the ATTENTION HE DESERVES FOR A CHANGE. Also, guest stars have received more character development than him and that's asinine as hell (Brad and Taylor come to mind).

Before I get started, I'll admit it's unlikely that I'll do a review of 8x8 because like 8x7, there was a lot going on but nothing major happened in it for the mains but they sure did a number on Eddie and regressed him. Therefore, this post is about my favorite character Eddie Diaz since the show and a lot of the fandom treat him like he's a side character. He's a main and I'm f~cking sick of the way his story continues to be sidelined so he can orbit around Buck.

BE CLEAR, I FULLY UNDERSTAND THE IMPLICATIONS OF LAST NIGHT'S EPISODE AND WHAT IT MEANS FOR BUDDIE! I ALREADY KNOW BUCK AND EDDIE WILL BE TOGETHER BUT MY ISSUE IS THE LACK OF DEVELOPMENT FOR EDDIE.

No shade to anyone but I'm not looking for clues that point to Buddie anymore because they've ALWAYS been there and doing that doesn't excite me. I WANT TO SEE REAL CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT and I've been wanting that for all the mains for 7 damn seasons. But the issue is every time Eddie's about to experience some growth, he's regressed back to a point of no return. He takes one step forward and 80,000 steps backward and this is exhausting.

Last night's ending was not for Eddie's benefit, it was done for shock value and for Buck's growth even though Eddie's been haunting Buck's love triangle f~ckery since 7x4. Eddie was ALL ALONE and NO ONE was there for him when he needed to talk. Therefore, Eddie choosing to move back to Texas DID NOT HAVE TO HAPPEN and IMO, it was lazy writing. Do the writers from LS have any idea who Eddie is at all? It sure as hell doesn't seem like it. What happened to the Eddie who said, "I'll always fight to come home to my family?" Or the one who said, "After Shannon died, they wanted me to give Christopher to them but that's not what I wanted then and it's not what I want now." He's practically nonexistent anymore and that's just sad.

Since RG's not leaving the show, what was the point of any of this? Oh, that's right to further Buck's arc while Eddie remains stagnate. Furthermore, TM (showrunner) said Eddie was wearing a mustache and when he shaved it off, he would find out who he is outside of being a father but...

NEWSFLASH!

THOSE TWO THINGS ARE NOT MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE.

The fact is Eddie is a father! He has been since he found out Shannon was pregnant, he always will be and it doesn't matter if he wears a mustache or not and/or whether he lives in L.A., El Paso or Antarctica. Therefore, TM saying that was an oxymoronic statement because since Eddie is a father whatever decision he makes will and should be for the benefit of him and his son. That's been one of the main issues for him since he's used Chris as a shield for his own heart while ignoring what he wants. Him deciding to return to Texas IS NOT doing what's best for either of them.

Additionally, for the entirety of 8A, all he was shown doing was being a dad. He spent all that time in 8x4 trying to help Mike reconnect with Weston but NOT ONCE did we see Eddie going above and beyond to visit Chris. It's like the showrunner put more effort into that than Eddie's on storyline and it's ridiculous. So, it doesn't matter if Eddie's married to Shannon (I know she's deceased but I'm making a point) or if he dates Ana, Marisol or Buck, HE WILL ALWAYS BE CHRIS' FATHER! THAT'S NEVER GOING TO CHANGE and whatever decisions he makes, until Chris becomes an adult, it always will be true.

Be clear, Eddie choosing to move back to Texas is NOT HIM CHOOSING JOY, it's him regressing and doing the same things he did in previous seasons. In season 5, instead of talking to Chris about how he was feeling, he up and quit the 118 but HE WAS MISERABLE because he didn't want to leave. Granted he needed the break and he also needed to go to therapy but since that time, it's been nothing but crickets on the therapy front for him. When he finally did talk to his son, Chris SAID HE DIDN'T TELL EDDIE TO QUIT. So, why wasn't he allowed to talk to Chris this time and ask him what he wanted? Or better yet why aren't they doing family therapy or something? Chris is talking to him now but we didn't get to see how they got there from 8x1. It all happened off-screen and the last time Eddie said something about Helena was 8x5 so he's been out of the loop on his own child for weeks.

Chris is a child which means Eddie has the final say. His parents don't have any legal rights to Chris but NOT ONCE has Eddie been allowed to tell them about the legal guardianship. After he told Buck about it, it's never been mentioned again and I don't want Eddie to have an NDE for Chris to come back and I don't want Buck to have that conversation with Helena and Ramon. It's good for fanfic writing (I've written several with the narrative) but in real life it gets messy and it's possible Chris doesn't even know Buck's his guardian.

This situation is a cluster f~ck of epic proportions and it needs to be resolved like NOW. It's been more than 5 years since Eddie changed his will and they haven't talked about it.

Another issue is Eddie IS ALWAYS TOLD WHAT TO DO and the one or two times he's made a decision on his own, he was happy about it but it was short lived since the showrunner always regresses him back into the Terror Dome. His dad told him to be the man of the house at 10 years old, they and those busybodies at church told him to marry Shannon because she was pregnant, he went to the Army and all they did was tell him what to do (it's the military so that's what they do) and when he was honorably discharged Shannon tried to tell him to move to California. Then his parents tried to coerce him into leaving Chris with them when he applied to work at the LAFD and Helena told him to move back to El Paso after Shannon died. His parents and Bobby told him it was time to move on from his dead wife in season 4 so he dated Ana. Buck told him to break up with her in season 5 and he did. Pepa told him he needed to put himself back out there in season 6 and she pressured him into going on a blind date with Vanessa. In season 7, Bobby asked him about the time he was married and his commitment issues, Father Brian had to tell him to find joy and Brad had to tell him not to let the gap widen in his relationship with his son. Also, instead of talking to his raggedy parents, he's making another decision that he won't be happy with. He'll be miserable because it's not what he wants. He established a whole life for him and Chris in L.A. and instead of fighting for it and telling his parents to get the hell on, he's surrendering.

That's not the Eddie Diaz from previous seasons. Seasons 2, 3 and 4 Eddie didn't want his parents raising his son. What happened to him? Where is he? He's missing and he has been for a while. I need him to come back and stand up to his parents. I'm sure there won't be a good resolution to this storyline and it's unlikely that Eddie will tell his parents off especially since the show is handing out undeserved and unearned parent redemption arcs like they're lollipops or some shit.

Eddie has A MOUNTAIN of things he needs to work through like his grief over Shannon dying, that whack ass doppelgänger Kim, his inability to tell his parents where to go, addressing the issues that are in front of him and all the pain and grief he's been carrying around for years regarding his failed marriage. He needs to have an open and honest conversation with Chris about Shannon and instead of asking Buck to talk to him in 7x1, he should have done it.

What I want to see is Eddie choose Eddie for a change instead of this hamster wheel of doom he's constantly being put on. Seeing him dance around in his underwear was cute and nice but that's not growth. He did something that brought him joy but the only reason he did it was because the priest told him to. When is he going to do something for himself? When will Eddie Diaz decide that's enough of this shit and tell himself he deserves better? He deserves to be happy just like everyone else and it's time for Eddie's FULL STORY TO BE TOLD.

I'm tired of waiting and I'm sure there will be some who'll read this post and say, "The second half of the season is supposed to be Eddie's." LOL 🤪. Haven't we been here before? Like five times actually and three of them were due to the F*X network's interference. Eddie's arc keeps getting delayed and it's possible there will be something else that causes TM to delay it again.

The fact is there is something else that could hinder Eddie's growth and the path to Buddie CANON but since I don't talk politics on my blog, I'll just say IYKYK and January is only 9 weeks away. This should have happened in season 7 but TM delayed it yet again so he can write it the way he wants to and if he keeps on, he might not get the chance.

Eddie and Buck both need to show growth because there are two people in the Buddie ship. It's unfair for Eddie to be sidelined while Buck gets to date and do whatever the f~ck he wants while Eddie sits at home and blows up his life yet again. I don't want Eddie to have another mental breakdown, an NDE or anything else that will cause him to be in the hospital or have him struggling. I want to see him go back to therapy so he can finally unpack all the shit from his childhood and his young adult life. Change takes work and him dancing around in his "tighty whites" like Tom Cruise is not the same thing.

Where is the consistency and the continuity?

Hopefully, 8B will happen without any hiccups so Eddie can finally be happy.

[dreamcrash]

SOPHIA ISABEL DIAZ

fandom 9-1-1 age: 21+ birthplace: el paso, texas current location: new york city species: human occupation: dance instructor gender/pronouns: cis female, she/her sexual orientation: lesbian canon relations: e.ddie d.iaz ( brother ), adriana diaz ( sister / roseypeached ), helena diaz ( mother / alive ), ramon diaz ( father / alive ) relations: gabrielle scott ( best friend / girlfriend ) pets: 3 cats ( whiskers, dr milkshake, princess diana ) personality & more: when sophia walks into a room everyone looks up. she knows what she wants and she's going to get it. she can be manipulative and sneaky. if she's asking you about something then don't lie because she already knows the answers. she's the youngest so she was ignored a lot by everyone but eddie ( hes her favorite, don't tell him that ) because everyone was so busy by the time she was born. she can come across as a little intense and crazy and that's because she is. she is loud. she is independent even if she can come across as needy. she loves to start a project and never finish it. she feels very lost most of the time and she doesn't feel she has a true identity. fun fact: for some reason sophia knows the lyrics to any song ever and will just start singing no matter where she is with no care in the world for who she's with or who's around her. and she is not very good. at all. open to shipping ! affiliated/exclusives: adriana ( roseypeached), buck ( 118buckleys )

sophia was always very popular. she was head cheerleader in high school. she dated the football captain when she thought she was straight. she was prom queen twice. she did dance her entire life so she was always very focused on that. she moved to new york shortly after graduating and started doing professional dance. she loved it so much. she was very mad at eddie when he went to war because she's anti war and also she didn't approve of him leaving shannon to take care of a baby. they eventually do make up and she gets over it.

when eddie get's shot in season 4, at that same time sophia is in an accident and loses her leg. she doesn't tell her family when it's happening because she feels like a burden. one day she just shows up with a prosthetic leg like the drama queen she is. because sophia can't dance anymore that causes a lot of depression. eventually after physical therapy she can at least do dance instruction and teach classes. she does that and it's not what she dreamed of doing but she does enjoy it.

her roommate and best friend took care of her while she was healing from getting her leg amputated and she falls really hard in love with her but doesn't think she loves her back. also dealing with the realization she's a lesbian because she had no idea. no one told her.

also the last thing in the world she wants is a baby and she's been that way her entire life. it causes a lot of problems between her and her mother. her relationship isn't very good with either helena or ramon. she's pissed off at ramon for never being around and she's mad at helena for well, everything but mostly the whole no baby situation.

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[stagefoureddiediaz]

I received an ask about if Eddies trip to Texas might be because of a family tragedy situation similar to Bucks rather than a queer awakening story and my response got long so I thought it would be better as an actual post rather than an answer to an ask!

My opinion is that its very unlikely that thats the route they'll take - simply for the reason that I can't see the writers repeating a storyline such as Bucks secret family tragedy - especially so close to Bucks (and Maddie's) own family tragedy which is still very much playing out - we've seen some of how the family secret has weighed on Maddie in 5b - how it impacted on her and her own mental health struggles and we really haven't explored how this new knowledge is affecting Buck. Buck is a master of disguise in many ways in that we actually know very little of what is going on with him - he said it himself in season 4 'I hide my true feelings from others' and Buck is very much doing that in season 5 - Hen is probably the person he's revealed the most to and even that is some what superficial. The fact that Buck has spent the season trying to 'fix' everyone else's problems - Maddie, Chimney, Eddie and Chris (and even Taylor) has allowed him to deflect and avoid dealing with his own mental health - I'm fully expecting season 6 to explore this. Once everyone else finds themselves in better places and therefore Buck can't keep 'fixing' everyone else to avoid fixing himself he's going to have to turn his fixing skills inward and I am of the opinion that talking about the shooting with Eddie is actually the first step on that path.

So that is why I think we have to look elsewhere for Eddies story. Then there is also the fact that the synopsis specified his father - not his family in general, or his parents, but his father. If it was a family tragedy then we would expect them to state it in the synopsis. Instead of ‘Meanwhile, Eddie visits Texas, where he attempts to reconcile with his father’ we would have something like ‘Meanwhile, Eddie visits Texas to deal with a family emergency’ or words to that effect. 

Mexican American families tend to have a fairly defined family dynamic with a set of expectations that everyone is expected to conform to - the patriarch sets the rules and the matriarch enforces - it can be very traditionalist and tends to play to old school gender norms - and Eddie as an only son would definitely be expected to follow his fathers example and not step outside of the narrow lines. He would be expected to ‘be a man’ - not show his emotions and provide for his family. We’ve seen him speak about it - ‘if I hadn’t joined the army I’d still be working with my pop’ and we also know that Ramon was proud of Eddie for serving - in Eddie begins we see him reading the silver star certificate - its implied that this is not for the first time and you can hear the pride in his voice - Eddie is described as a hero - he claims its what anyone would’ve done but Ramon contradicts him saying that ‘if that were true everyone would be walking around with a silver star.’ 

All of this gives us hints at the complexity of that dynamic - Eddie has conformed to family expectation and its made his father proud but it was actually an incredibly  traumatic experience for him - one that continues to be as we’re seeing play out. It goes to suggest that this is something Eddie has been doing repeatedly - conforming but it continuously compounding the trauma and that it is all connected to his father. 

We've also been given enough textual hints this season to be able to figure some things out - the 911 writers are very careful about what words they choose to have their characters say - the scrip has to do a lot of work and so every word is important. Therefore the fact that the word 'repression' was used during Eddies health scare is important, the choice for Eddie to say 'the first woman i've wanted to spend time with' and many other examples are all loaded and designed to give viewers clues if they’re paying attention as to where the story is heading - there is a reason we’ve all been speculating about Eddie queer awaking in fandom for a while - we’ve been reading the clues. 

The whole of Eddies therapy appointment in 5x13 is very loaded - the way the conversation is directed (its exactly how real life therapy works) to push Eddie (and the viewer) in certain directions so that he can begin to connect dots for himself. Now in real world therapy this might happen over several sessions, but 911 doesn’t have the time to do this so they have to ‘speed up the timeline a little’ - so we have Frank choosing to bring up Eddie blowing up at Bobby - Eddies defacto father figure - pushing the idea that in the present we lash out at people who represent an aspect of out past which holds trauma or complexity - the thing which has played a major contributing factor in our present struggles - hence Eddie lashing out at bobby - when he really wanted to lash out at his father.

Franks loaded line ties all of this together - his telling Eddie ’maybe you should talk about your pain with someone who shares it. Think about that first trauma and then talk to someone who can understand what you’ve been through.’ Of course, it plays perfectly into Eddies time in the army - the viewer will naturally go straight there in their mind - because that is where Eddie has gone in his - because he’s still repressing. The thing is the army clearly wasn’t his first trauma - in part Eddies breakdown is as a result of his repression (i’m going to probably explain this very badly, but hopefully it will make sense!). 

Think about it this way - something happened to you in childhood or your teen years - whatever it was lead to big problems - major arguments with you family and possibly the reprobation of the society in which you live, who then started to constantly behave and speak in ways that were unkind, derogatory and made you want to make it stop - so you start repressing that part of you and put huge amounts of energy into trying to fit in. The comments etc never fully go away, but you are able to live more comfortably - as long as you maintain this facade you’ve put up. Then when the first opportunity presents itself you escape (into the army). The thing is your escape route is both freeing and traumatic and so your trauma compounds itself -  the army is a loud kind of trauma - unlike the first trauma it tricks you into thinking that this is actually the first trauma - because that’s what trauma should be right - loud - a big event that has defined perimeters. 

So when you reach the point Eddie is at - where you’ve had several loud traumas, you will trick yourself into thinking the army is the first trauma. So you reach out - as Frank has told you to - only you find you can’t - because they’re all dead - so you can’t do you homework and deal’ with that trauma - so you spiral because that loud trauma is no longer in play - its now a new trauma and therefore more recent. That trauma from further back - the quiet one - that now comes into play - almost as if its taunting you - so you lash out because you know that all your trauma stems from this one trauma that you’ve been attempting to outrun since it happened - it was the reason you joined the army, it was the reason that you ran from you family and the society you knew - to LA (its no coincidence you chose somewhere more accepting and diverse) where you start a job which is similar enough to being in the army - the freedom you enjoyed such as the camaraderie - but without the traumatic bits - the getting shot at etc. 

But then - your new job turns out to not be as trauma free as you thought and eventually you get to where Eddie was in 5x10 - where you get a wake up call. Only Eddie, because he is so repressed and conditioned, didn’t seek help - he changed jobs. Now though, he has lots of time to think and cycle through all that trauma - he thinks going back to what he was doing will solve the problem and when that can’t happen lashes out at the person who represents the cause of his first trauma. So you do get help - thinking that will allow you to keep on repressing that first trauma because if you deal with all the other stuff - you’ll be able to get a better grip on the one thing you’ve been working on repressing for the longest - the first thing. After you lash out you feel guilty (both for the misplaced anger, but also at yourself because you know deep down that you lashed out at the wrong person and you know why) so you do what they suggested - you go to therapy - and your therapist tells you ‘go back to the first trauma and talk to someone about your pain’ - and you are still in denial so you go for the loud trauma - the army - only you can’t talk to someone about your pain and that actual first trauma is their waiting for you to lower you guard and the moment it happens - you lash out and break down because now, now you are going to actually have to face up to the real first trauma.

Note what Frank tells Eddie - ‘talk about your pain with someone who shares it’ followed by ‘and then talk to someone who can understand what you’ve been through.’ That is two separate conversations and it doesn’t follow that they have to be had with the same person - in fact its heavily suggesting that they aren’t/shouldn’t the same person - so Eddie going back to Texas is the first conversation - the one to be had with the person who shares the pain - Eddies father. The person who Eddie has ‘disappointed’ because we shouldn’t forget that Ramon will have pain in this as well - the pain of disappointment in having a son who doesn’t conform to his and the family ingrained expectations. You have to look at this from the outside and understand that from his perspective - because he is seeing things very differently - he is right in his thoughts and opinions (his ideology is outdated and wrong, but it is an ideology that unfortunately still exists in the world and the show is telling that story so don’t @me anyone for saying this). 

However that conversation goes, Eddie will then be in a position to have the second conversation - with someone who understands - now we don’t know who that will be but I’m guessing that weight see Hen (and or  Karen) come into play here - because they are the most likely of our cast to understand. Of course it might be Buck, it might be Maddie (although she has her own thing going on so its very unlikely) because they understand about disappointing your parents etc. But we’ve seen the show expanding the Eddie/ Hen dynamic this season and I feel like it’s been done to lead into them having that second conversation and this also slots in nicely with the HenRen vow renewal theory because Hen preparing to celebrate and reaffirm her love for Karen is the perfect premise for Eddie and Hen to have a conversation about being gay and finding love but also acceptance and potentially about learning to live with a family member who doesn’t approve. We don’t know her fathers opinion on Hens sexuality remember - he might’ve been estranged in part because of it and his pride wouldn’t let him accept he was wrong so he followed her life secretly and from afar and there is no reason that Ramon couldn’t be in the same boat - to ingrained in his way of thinking to admit cubically but secretly proud of his son and the life he lives.

[chronicowboy]

season 5 went so unnecessarily hard on all the hearts in eddie's story after carla's "just be sure you're following your heart not christopher's". like seriously. his "heart" attack in 501 and then the heart transplant gone wrong in the very same episode, eddie trying to save it and failing ??? at the same time he's convincing himself to just stick it out with ana like. and then you have mitchell's heart transplant in 506 which. surely that's repetitive no? couldn't the helicopter transplant have been a kidney or a liver or a lung or something? unless, of course, the heart was a vital storytelling tool... hmmm, i wonder. and then mitchell giving his heart to his son. and like. chris already has eddie's heart. but buck AND eddie working together to get the heart to the son. do you think... could that maybe be about eddie giving buck his heart?? pfft, no, what am i even talking about? then you've got eddie leaving the 118, and having his breakdown, and coming home from therapy to two drawings. to christopher's anatomically correct heart and buck's tri-coloured, cartoonish, happy, misunderstood heart. and holding them both there at the table where carla questioned his feelings for ana. AND THEN you have 517 and ramon's heart issues and eddie saying "i don't want to be like you" and "for myself" and its all just so. eddie diaz and HEARTS, everyone.

[ellelans]

I am going to be better. For Christopher? For myself.

[reneesfanworks]

you know guys maybe I'm projecting because I'm a closeted non binary bisexual latin person but I really love eddie, specially his arc this past seasons and it CRAZY how easy is to project these feelings in his character.

ive been heavily empathizing with him since Eddie begins and it's only gotten worse. The thing with his parents? How he loves them but they've hurt him lots without even realizing, his whole thing with ramon apologizing for being distant and them promising to do better? Girl I was crying. This wee woo show had me crying in the club that night

maybe that's why I think about eddieana so much. like, I've been trying to find screencaps from 3x01 just to pinpoint how dull eddie looked around ana because, again, RYAN👏 FUCKING 👏GUZMAN👏ACTS👏WITH👏HIS👏 FUCKING👏FACE NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME THAT WAS THE BEST "BESOTTED" LOOK HE WAS ABLE TO MAKE. YOU CANT TELL ME THAT WAS A STRAIGHT MAN LOOKING AT A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN

i don't really think buddie or even queer eddie will be canon because I don't trust writers by default but if it ever becomes true? I'm going to be insufferable, I'm going to feel madly validated, I'm going to rub it on my whole family's face