#Anime has so much gross shit with siblings

[askanimperviouspeach]

October 10, 2024

(This one is controversial and is supposed to be. Normalize addressing the weird and even disgusting things in life and how different kinds of people react to it. )

A younger brother and older sister living together with their uncle and their two male cousins in japan. Having moved in a couple years prior after their own familial unit broke apart, things seemed to finally be positively normal in the sibling’s lives. Until one day the younger brother, now a young man, confesses his romantic feelings to his sister through tears.

His sister doesn’t shout at him. Doesn’t look at him with disdain. There is a large sense of disgust, but she is more worried and confused than anything.

All through their lives, the people- mostly the women- in their lives have failed these children in the worst of ways. The sister did all she could to shield her brother from the abuse and neglect, even acting as a parental figure to him to ensure he would grow up happy and smart. He saw her give up everything for him and “fell in love” with the only woman who he believed would ever love him.

the first episode ends with the sister and the uncle’s family bidding him goodbye at the train station, the brother having agreed to stay in a psych facility in order to receive help. The siblings almost hug like they always did, but the sister awkwardly steps back and the brother follows suit. The air weird around them. The brother is deathly afraid he has ruined such a string familial bond with his perverse feelings, but the sister sees his doubt in his eyes.

Just as he has to leave the train, she tells him that yes this is weird. yes this is almost disgusting, but they HAVE been through worse and nothing would severe their bond. She pinkie promises him that no matter what, she will always have his back. He just needs time to clear his head, she is sure. He promises her that he will try to fix himself.

This is a story of extreme awkwardness, self loathing, abuse and the psychological damage different types of abuse can cause. We follow the main protagonist, the brother, as he deals with his trauma and the fear of losing his sister culminating into a twisted romance towards her. He will meet acquaintances along the way, all who will teach him lessons about growing up, life, the affects people can have on each other, and give him the hope he needs to fulfill his end of his promise.

People are affected by trauma in all sorts of ways, and the way those symptoms present can sometimes be seen as so vile it cannot be helped. Sometimes, with the right people who will look to support and help you in the best ways they know how, the most life-changing step in recovery is admitting there is an issue going on.

[princessbrunette]

how would stepbro!rafe react if his friends were ogling you and making gross comments about how badly they want you when they come over to hang out with him 😳 he’d be so angry and torn between telling them they’re not allowed to talk about you like that because he’s your protective older stepbro orrrr taking you upstairs and letting them listen to why he’s actually protective over you

i luv this idea w s1!rafe because he’s got more of a temper n the whole thing just seems more icky <33

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you were used to the stares from rafe’s friends — the ogling that wasn’t much different from the looks you received from your stepbrother himself. that distant look of amusement, the unabashed way they’d drag their eyes all the way down your body and back up as you speak — like you were a zoo animal behind glass. you barely noticed it anymore, the whole concept of ‘boys will be boys’ having been drilled into your head from rafe’s behaviour. after marrying ward, your mother had even noticed the way rafe looked at you, she’d even raised it with ward himself — who simply shut the whole thing down by telling her “hes a guy, honey. and… she’s a young girl walking around in a bikini i mean of course he’s gonna look. he just has to get used to the way things are around here. in no time, he’ll be seeing her as a sibling and treating her as poorly as he does sarah, trust me.”

but the looks didn’t go away, and with time you started to look back. enjoy his attention. to the point where you’d secretly end up on your back, with your big step brother ‘teaching’ you things that no other guy could, or would be allowed to teach you. your dirty little secret.

you knew rafe’s friends didn’t know — which surprised you, considering you thought rafe would jump at the chance to brag on something so pornographic. you figured they had suspected something was amiss with the two of you, from the way he would take any chance to put his hands on you to ‘mess with’ you, or from the way his eyes would drop to your ass when you’d walk away — but he hadn’t said a word, which to his friends meant it was free game.

after you’d walked out the room, having had a brief discussion with rafe about dinner plans — the eyes followed you until you disappeared into the hallway.

“shit, i nearly got up and followed her.” kelce fills the silence with a joke, causing the room of guys to erupt into laughter of agreement, even topper — the boy who prided himself on being the most ‘respectful’ slapping at his arm and nodding, chortling out something along the lines of “hey you said it not me!”

rafe chuckles himself, understanding the hype. you were smoking hot, and knowing he secretly had the girl they all wanted to himself filled him with a sense of sick pride. “yeah, alright.” he drawls, hoping to end the conversation there and then as he walks back around the couch and slumps down, chewing obnoxiously at his gum.

“you see the way that ass moves, man? shit i get hypnotised everytime she’s walking away.” another comments, followed by another chiming in with “hate to see her go, but love to watch her leave!” which of course had the room erupting into more laughter.

rafe got in his head pretty quickly after that. they were laughing, and not at you — at the idea that you were so easily accessible, and yet untouchable. perhaps they were laughing at the fact rafe wouldn’t be brave enough to make a move on you, due to the odds you’d been dealt — which couldn’t be further from the truth, but rafe didn’t enjoy the insinuation of disrespect. his smile slowly slid off his face, staring ahead, continuing to chew to curb that coke craving that his irritation fed him.

he feels a hand on his shoulder, some red faced try hard from the club that had tagged along back to tannyhill with barely an invite. he sucks in a breath of excitement, unable to continue what he was about to say through his laughter and rafe curls his lip up a little bit in disgust.

“bro, if that was my step sister… things would have got real pornhub in this house, i can tell you that for fr—” his words are cut off by rafe violently shoving the boy a little too hard off him, the guy crashing off the couch onto the floor. quiet falls over the group, now noticing rafe’s sudden change in mood. he doesn’t wanna seem too bothered, so he clears his throat and adjusts his polo collar.

“s’my fuckin’ stepsister you’re talkin’ about… alright? watch your mouth.”

the group decided to drop the topic after that.

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[sehtoast]

How are you able to like Homelander and not condone his actions at the same time, without feeling crappy? This sounds accusing but I’m asking bc I’m struggling with it. I know ppl who do the same with characters, but I’ve had an unwelcome fixation on him come out of nowhere and I feel sick and guilty bc I feel like everyone will think I’m some kind of freak or something. I’m very much anti-sa and other gross stuff esp as a victim but I still feel like I’m being hypocritical or something. I’m sorry for the weird message but I feel like I’m losing my mind

The short answer is that he’s fictional.  Think of�� I dunno, an antagonist in media of a different form (let’s go with anime).  I was a naruto kid growing up, so let’s use Orochimaru for an example.  My guy was on some fuck shit through the entire show. Snatching bodies, murkin’ Hokages, wild experiments, all that shit with Sasuke, and so on.  People still liked him regardless because he was a cool character despite the bad things he’s done.  Some people may have even found him relatable in certain ways.  I feel like it’s the same concept here.

You don’t have to feel bad about enjoying fictional characters, no matter how awful they may be.  At the end of the day, they’re fictional and their actions have harmed nobody in real life.  Their actions may mirror that which does harm real people, but they themselves have not dealt real harm to real people.  Enjoying them does not mean you condone their actions.

I’m also extremely anti-SA, and am a victim of it myself, but I still find a lot of love and appreciation for Homelander’s character– but this isn’t hypocritical.  My love for him doesn’t come from the fact he has perpetrated that act, nor should it come from that.  I love him as a character with the bottom line that he is… extremely complex.  

I’ve said it for years now, but I think Homelander is a compelling tale of the dangers of commodifying the human soul.  He is an example of how awful someone can turn out if you deprive them of humanity with the goal of creating a product.  People are not products, we are not a means to an end, and we certainly should never be treated that way. He was, and this is how he turned out.  He’s a take on the cyclical nature of trauma in a lot of really interesting ways as well.

I find him relatable from a standpoint of my own traumas and being transgender.  Episode four of s4 revealed that I have a jarring amount of trauma that mirrors his own to some capacity.  I’ve always suspected these things, and I’ve had headcanons since the first season, and having them confirmed reminded me just how much I’ve latched onto this character because of it.  Homelander experienced some degree of sexual abuse in the labs– and I wager there may have been worse than simply being called ‘squirt.’ Homelander was subjected to physical torture and locked in a room where his mind slowly fractured, all while being conditioned to never seek escape otherwise he’d be too devastated from disappointing the scientists or losing their ‘love.’ 

I have experienced SA, I was locked in my room with nothing as punishment (my 'bad room'), had very little privacy and next to no access to boundaries as a kid, I was put through physical pain very often by a sibling (my furnace), I was reared and conditioned to have a fear of disappointing others so severe it made my blood pressure drop into the danger zone a couple times as a kid– and still has similar effects as an adult.  I’d literally pass out, have panic/anxiety attacks, vomit, etc.  I also know what it’s like, as a trans man, to have been raised and reared for a life that was designed for me, but was not me.  I was lucky enough to find my way to the person I needed to be; Homelander has not and likely will not ever be able to do so.  In all of the aforementioned, I have a lot of empathy and compassion for him that combines with my fascination with his complexity.  There were a lot of things in my life that should have pushed me down the road to be an awful person, much like the things in his life did. But I had a handful of people to guide me toward better things.  He didn’t.

But I see myself in there nonetheless. Homelander was the first time I ever saw so much of my own trauma on display in a single character.  I’d love to hug the man and tell him he’s enough, show him the humanity he was and continues to be denied, and so on.  When I realized that means that I would, in turn, do that for myself if I only viewed myself through a lens that wasn’t my own, my life changed.  This character changed my life.  I know I thirst-post about him a lot, but my love for Homie runs a lot deeper than just finding him attractive, you feel?

A fictional character doesn’t have to be one of moral high ground or superiority for it to be okay for you to enjoy them.  You can enjoy characters who commit horrible acts. This does not make you someone who condones horrible acts.  I was initially pretty embarrassed to admit I like Homelander as much as I do, but I slowly realized that it does not make me a bad person and it should never be used as a gauge to find out how ‘moral’ someone is or not.  People like Hannibal Lecter, people like Thomas Hewitt, Joffrey, Albert Wesker, Cletus Kasady– any number of fictional characters who have an ugly record or have done horrific things.  We do not assume someone is evil because they like Hannibal, nor should we do the same for people who like Homelander.

At the end of the day, do what makes you happy. If exploring Homie is something you would have fun with, do it! Engage in media, learn tales of caution and tragedy– stories make us human.  You are not inhuman for enjoying Homelander and his tale.  In fact, I would argue you are very human because of it.

[halevren]

FHJY Spoilers || my live thoughts as I watch episode 11

three hours. three hours along. this might take me a bit to get through 😭😭 I might not note every little thought because that's. A lot. But definitely a good portion of the normal random stuff

THE CONTENT WARNINGS ARE CONCERNING ME.... BODY HORROR??? GORE??? THIS ISN'T A HORROR SEASON. I THOUGHT THIS WAS GOING TO BE A FUN HAHA SEASON???? WHAT??????????

HELLO ONE AND ALL

Ally Brennan Beardsley Mulligan

"What if just shows up for the interview" well I guess that means riz and fig have to create a

PETE WENTZ IS WANDA'S (RECENT) EX BOYFRIEND

"Cause if I say it to Brennan, I'll just be wrong"

CANCELLED 😭

im showing my emo autistic friend this session because they know literally everything about emo bands and apparently Pete Wentz has drank piss multiple times before. Hm.

"Let him sweat"

Mommy/baby time??????

"You are my little baby"

Sklonda embarrassing Riz to Fig is so real and accurate

spys tongue

spy's tongue or spies tongue

Very Humanoid Animals 😭😭😭😭😭😭

AN ORANGUTAN

NAT ONE BECOMES 23 🔥🔥🔥🔥

19 steal orangutan tho

VOMITING

NAT 20 MURPH

BROKEN CRYSTAL??

BLOOD SPLATTER?

oh goodness

Something happened here

CONFUSED?

STABS HER HAND?

Copperkell

Riz asking his mom to see dead bodies

omg did Kalina say Ragh Barkrock because she wanted them to investigate everything that she did back then in reference to him specifically (like the killing clone Lydia / destroying the house, etc.)

Emergency meeting. Even you Fabian.

CARBONIZED BLOOD?

rage kills

CRRRRRRIT it's a 7

IDENTIFY SPELL!!!!!!!

oh no. Brennan why you asking the state of emotions

"Fuck"

TWO IN ONE ONE IN TWO

Identify spell is overwhelmed

ATTACKS ADAINE????

NAT 20 PERCEPTION CHECK

The rot of dead gods??

INTERIOR OF A BODY?

gross gross gross gross

"gorgug..... very good....."

"You have to tip me this time" "nah"

building a God??? oh my...

The daymare queen

Bobby Dawn.

Asking what would make Kristen angry is such a loaded question. So much stuff

"My president!"

gorgug just grabs the angry shard

"I did not tell you I shit." "No, the whole school knows about it"

ADAINE HAS A SCOOTER?

AELWYN ASKED THE SHELTER FOR ALL THE UNWANTED CATS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

AND SHE'S ALLERGIC TO CATS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"I have so much love to give exclusively to cats"

Camaraderie in toxicity

SHE HAS NO FRIENDS 😭😭

omg aelwyn and fabian boned

"Fuck you. Bitch"

Malarkey

"Tell Kristen to not come back."

zac's little shrugs hehehehe

"I drive down to bastion city and do crimes."

"I shall steal everyone's bones"

THE CATS CAN SMELL THE WARD AND THEY WON'T TAKE THE MEDICINE

aelwyn my beloved I love her so much

FIG DISGUISED AS KIPPERLILLY COPPERKETTLE

Ruben is just constantly being terrorized by fig in the dreamscape

devil's nectar Gertie infodump

KRISTEN AND GERTIE KISSED

"Okay, well let's go out sometime. I'm painfully single, uh, and none of my friends wanna see me naked anymore." Kristen Applebees you are so fascinating

LOCAL FOOD TRUCKS? THE FUCKING FOOD TRUCK FEST

KRISTEN MAKING OUT WITH GERTIE TO DISTRACT HER FROM FABIAN

"Kristen, you know that's my nemesis right?"

KRISTEN GOT HER KISSES IN 🎉🎉🎉

RIZ IS ON THE SCHOOL STAFF?????

LET FIG BECOME THE CLERIC TEACHER

LET WANDA CHILDA BECOME THE CLERIC TEACHER

A CV OF WANDA CHILDA

A WICKER PAPER??????

"I pooped right now."

Adaine over break research paper of curses

RUBEN IS HENRY'S NEPHEW

NAT 20 GORGUG PERCEPTION

He leaves the motherboard.... I worry that it might be stolen by someone else

"Seems suspect." "What do you mean suspect?" "Seems Suspect" their sibling dynamic is so real

THEY BROUGHT ZAYN!!!!

how did they get Zayn through TSA

TELEMAINE HAS A LITTLE THING THAT SAYS GORGUG'S NAME 😭😭😭😭😭

YAK BAK

GRAPE NIP

Hillariel is so pretty

GILEAR IS SO STRESSED

GILEAR SAID FUCK

Gilear is the only person who has made the fig curse the main priority

"I want the yogurt back on my shirt"

ALL THE MONEY GILEAR IN THIS SITUATION MAKES GOES STRAIGHT TO ADAINE

"HE GRABS ME?"

RIZBERT

"TELEMAINE STOP BULLYING ME"

(High pitch voice) "how did she bring winter?"

I heavily fw gertie x tracker

THEIR PLAN B IS SHRIMP JUMP

CRAW FATHERS

GORGUG CLEARLY PISSED OFF

oh fig.... I feel so connected to you

"Who's Wanda Childa....?" "She's my alter emo"

Sandra is so true. I often ask my friends how they percieve me so I can understand myself better.

"What if I punished this man to eternal rock"

"I don't want to see that." Sandra grabs fig's cigarette and takes a hit instead.

SPY'S TONGUE LORE

Kalina with the Spy's Tongue........

I love this lore and conspiracy theories talk

they're annoying but have great record keeping

GORGUG PUT HIS HEADPHONES ON THE SECOND THEY ENTERED THE CHURCH

NAT 20 INSIGHT

Narnia burning man

Fig and Fabian are living it UP

tracker............. i can't say I like her very much after that phone call. So I'm not the most thrilled to see her.

GORGUG PUSHING EVERYONE OUT OF THE WAY TO THE HOT CHOCOLATE

WORLD STAR

Half the party is living it up having hot coco while the other half is experiencing / witnessing a very emotional moment

RUNES RELATING TO GIANT DEITIES

GIFT EXCHANGE

PIPES OF THE SEWERS

CHA CHA CHA CHA CHA CHA CHA

THE RATETTES

EAR WORM?

"PUT ME IN YOUR BRAIN"

A PULL UP BAR!!!! IMMOVABLE BAR

BRACERS OF DEFENSE

"Oh shit they're so practical. I have to wear bracers. What can I do? They're so tactic?"

RIDDLER RIZ?

FIRE GIANT JUICE

"Is this legal?" "It's Not."

WOODEN ORANGUTAN MASK

SO MUCH HOLE

HE SENDS A TEXT TO MAZEY THEN PUTS HIS PHONE ON AIRPLANE MODE

KRISTEN NOOOOO

THE BAR

assisted pull ups 🔥🔥🔥

Naradriel is actually so sweet

Hillsong / wolfsong close enough

NAT 20 INVESTIGATION CHECK FOR MURPH

SCORTCH MARK?

LIST OF NAMES??

WEDDING CONTRACT

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

RUVINA MAID OF HONOR

THE MASK

"PUT THE HOLES AWAY AND MAKE THEM"

WHAT'S THE NAME. WHAT'S THE NAME. WHAT'S THE NAME. WHAT IS IT. WHAT IS THE NAME BRENNAN

OH GOD

ANKARNA

GLOWS RED? OH MY GOD FIENDISH ENERGY

ADAINE BROUGHT BACK ARKARNA AND LYDIA'S CHEST CRYSTAL

OH MY GOD IF LYDIA DIES I'M GONNA PUNCH MY WALL /HJ

negative one initiative........

SAVING ROLLS FOR FIG? WHY

PRIDE ARMOR

THE MOON BEGINS TO WHAT?

TEARS HER FLESH? OH GOD

BRIDE ARMOR

CASSANDRA IS PROTECTING THEM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

SEVERAL DIVINE INTERVENTIONS ARE HAPPENING SIMULTANEOUSLY IN CONFLICT??????????

FIG INTO THE BRIEF CASE JUST LIKE GILEAR WAS

SIX LEVEL COUNTERSPELL

COUNTER SPELL CRIT!!!!!!!!!

FIG WAS ALMOST KILLED?????????????

RIZ JUMPS AFTER FIG

BARONNNN FROM THE BARONIES

ROËMAENCE PARTNÆR

FABIAN DIDN'T JUMP INTO THE BRIEF CASE. GORGUG, FIG AND RIZ HAVE SO FAR

okay thank god fabian did jump in

DIVINE INTERVENTION ROLL

DEATH WARD ON AELWYN 🔥🔥

BARON IS WARNING KRISTEN?

DID WE JUST WATCH GILEAR FIG DIE?

NAT 20 DEX THROW FOR KRISTEN

what dimension are they in. What is riz's briefcase

ENDING OFF ON A ROLL FOR INITIATIVE??

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL WHAT

[cryptidsurveys]

Thursday, November 7th, 2024.

Have you ever had a sexually gay experience? I have.

Do you find any of your friends hot? Oliver is quite handsome, but I am not romantically attracted to them.

Are your legs freshly shaven? I don't even remember the last time I bothered to shave my legs.

Does your best friend wear glasses? No.

Have you ever woke up crying from a bad dream? I don't think I've ever woken up crying, but I've definitely woken up with a huge pit in my stomach.

Who knows more about you: online friends or offline? I don't really have any offline friends, but between online friends and IRL acquaintances, people online (especially those who read my surveys) know more.

Does your family own any land? No.

Who is the oldest sibling in your family? I am.

Are you close to any of your aunts/uncles? I'm not.

When was the last time you were in a hospital? I'm not entirely sure about the year, but possibly late 2006 through early 2007. I just know I was there over Christmas. I've been to the ER after that but wasn't admitted to the hospital.

Do you plan on losing weight any time soon? No. My eating disorder brain might want to lose a bit of weight, but even slightly reducing my intake makes me feel like shit.

What do you think of people who get drunk every weekend? I don't think about them. It's not really any of my business.

Are you looking forward to anything? Tasting the pie I'm in the midst of making. Hopefully sharing it with staff at the shelter tomorrow. (Evening edit: I was called in today from 2-5, so pie has already been enjoyed by all!)

What was the last bad news you heard? As much as I love snow, the possibility that I might not make it in tomorrow if the roads are too bad.

What was your GPA in high school? It was all over the place.

Do you require a lot of private time? I do need some time to myself to decompress and do my own thing, but not an unusual amount of it.

Do you know how to play any odd instruments most people can’t play? No.

Have you ever had a parasite before? No.

Have you ever been punched in the face before? Maybe as a child while play fighting. Never seriously.

Are there regular trains in and out of your town/city? I'm the wrong person to ask about that sort of thing.

Do you bathe your pets regularly? No. They're cats; they bathe themselves.

What was the last animal you saw, and was it a pet? It was Esther, one of my kitties.

Who was the last person you messaged on Facebook?

When was the last time you saw them?

Where do you see yourself in a year? Hopefully working at the animal shelter at least part time.

[TW: OVERDOSE/SUICIDE] Do you know anyone who has overdosed? I didn't know him well, but Nick's father might have passed away from an intentional overdose.

Where are your siblings as of now? As far as I know, they live in Virginia.

Have you ever lost anyone close to cancer? No.

Do you personally know anyone who is transgender? Yes.

When was the last time you got a shot? Very early 2020.

Have you ever been in a car accident? No.

When was the last time you spent over $100 in one transaction? What did you buy? Groceries, as well as a hand mixer and a glass pie plate.

Are you a breakfast person? I very much am.

What type of books do you like to read?

How do you get rid of hiccups? I just wait for them to pass. If they're really bad and I'm able to do so, then I might lie down for a bit.

Do you have any healthy addictions? Lol does oatmeal count? Or drinking lots of water?

Do you pay much attention to speed limits while driving? I do.

Which parent was more strict when you were growing up? Neither of my parents were especially strict. My dad could be somewhat protective, but not to a stifling degree.

Have you ever watched The Golden Girls? I've seen portions of a few episodes, but it was never something I watched regularly.

Do you like getting dirty? Not really, but when it comes to the animal shelter, I just accept that I'm going to feel gross by the end of the day. I can always take a shower.

Are you a very flirty person? No.

Who was your favorite babysitter?

Do you believe in the death penalty? I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it.

Name a person that you can’t stand and tell us why? Alex. I've explained why many times.

If you could have a video of one event in your life, what would the video be? Backpacking trips. I do have videos, but I'm not sure where all of them are anymore. At least some of them might be on my dad's computer or posted to YouTube.

What is the most illegal thing you have ever done? Hmmm.

Last person you sang happy birthday to? My dad.

What form of government do you like the most? (capitalism, socialism, etc.)

Is there a song you can’t handle listening to, even though you like it? Yeah. A certain song by Pearl Jam.

Last time you saw fireworks? Probably the 4th of July.

Do you have a black dog? I don't.

If you took someone on a tour of your town, what would you show them? I'm not sure. Maybe the riverwalk and downtown area, various restaurants and coffee shops…there's not a whole lot to see here, though. It's not exactly a vacation destination.

Have you been to the capital of your state? Yes.

Would you be more in your element camping in a tent or an RV? A tent. I've actually never slept in an RV before. If I was going to be staying put in the woods for a long time, though (as in, not backpacking), then I think I would prefer an RV.

Kissing someone with facial hair, do you mind? It might be a bit prickly/tickly, but it doesn't bother me all that much.

Would you ever enter any kind of pageant? No.

Do you have sympathy for hobos? Yeah. I can't imagine not having a safe place to live.

When holding hands, do you intertwine fingers? Yes.

What’s your opinion on Johnny Depp? I liked him in a few movies when I was younger, but when it comes to the recent controversy, I didn't pay much attention to it.

If you write, isn’t writer’s block the most horrible thing? I don't write, but I do make art. And yes, being in a creative slump is such a drag.

How old were you when you met your first love? I'm not sure who to consider as my first true love.

Did you get ice cream from the ice cream truck when you were little? Do they still have an ice cream truck where you live? I did. There was one in my neighborhood last summer, but it was hard to catch them because they drove so quickly. :'(

Your last ex finds out you’ve fallen in love with another person? I haven't fallen in love with anyone else since my last relationship, but hypothetically…oh well…?

Who was the last friend you added on Facebook?

Have you ever encountered a black widow? I think three. One dead one on a porch step, one small one in our upstairs bathroom, and one huge fvcker under a log at a ranch.

What letter does your surname begin with?

Have you ever used a muscle stimulator before? Did it hurt? No.

How many times have you dated the person you’re with now?

Do you know anyone who has gotten pregnant despite using contraception? No.

Would your mom care if she found condoms in your room? The real question is why is my mom rummaging around in my room?

Would you ever get band artwork tattooed on you? I have lyrics on my wrists and a song name along my collarbone, but no band art.

Do you think the last person you kissed has ever lied to you? Idk.

Would you ever pick up a hitchhiker? No.

[teeth-cable]

Im the CSA victim from UniformedArtists blog and I agree with you 1000% dropping everything Vivziepop.

Like I only watch Helluva even after the shit she's done to see how far it would sink but jesus christ.

You know her just saying the counselor is 18-19 isn't fucking good enough because the show says a different thing.

Like before people bring up the argument counselors can be adults... Most TV shows in media actually have minor counselors and we know Vivziepop doesn't research shit about hell or actual royalty so why the fuck am I supposed to believe Adam or her researched counselor age ranges.

Also nobody should have a twitter to figure out if you did or didn't make a grooming subplot.

You know in Curse of Strahd there's a controversial character Gertruda who 50 (500) year old Strahd is implied to planning take as another bride because of where you find her and in the book it states she's recently a teenager. However as much as I hate this plot line due to trauma I understand why it was added because WOTC portrays Strahd as a piece of shit. Like his goal is to chase down the reincarnation of his brother's fiance throughout time until he catches her, makes her a vampire and possibly brainwash/assault her to make her love him. Strahd is meant to be a gross creep. I as a DM and many other age Gertruda up to 18 because we don't want a pedo plot line and it keeps the predatory nature of Strahd intact.

Barbie seems to be portrayed in a significantly more positive light and her grooming behavior is never called out as a bad thing. Like Moxxie should say something at god damn least since he has morals.

There are so many things wrong with the EP. What gets me is writing has multiple stages, first the person needs to come up with the EP pitch, get the directer or network's approval, finish the first draft, then revisit it for grammar mistakes and continuity, then revise it a few more times for a stronger script, and send it to the directer or network again to approve of filming the finish script and that's not even counting how long animation takes too. So during the process of writing to animating, did no one at SpindleHorse see how weird and problematic the script was? The camp for pre-teens is called, "IWannaKumMore"(Their logo being a cum splat), Millie and Moxxie's human backstories of being siblings then making out at the end was unnecessary because they could have just been good friends whose mothers sent them to the same camp, Moxxie this grown ass adult who pretending to be a pre-teen is acting sexual and wants the kids attention, Millie who everyone else thinks is a young boy is getting sent nudes from kids and adults, and Barbie saying how easy teenagers are to manipulate then flash her ass to a boy is implying she grooms kids.

To be clear, I don't have a problem when a dark comedy make these types of jokes as all as they portray the topics and groomers as bad and show they understand that. SpindleHorse did not, like you mentioned they portrayed Barbie in the positive light and Moxxie never calls out her behavior despite being the voice of reason. In fact the tone of the Barbie's scene was supposed to funny but not in a dark ironic way. I don't understand why the camp couldn't be for college students and the consolers are stated and look like actual adults. Everything about the canon camp is childish and filled with teenagers, it's very uncomfortable to see them in sexual situations. In America the youngest a camp counselor can be is 15 y/o but that changes from states to states so no body has a clue, also with the camp counselor having a pitch voice, Barbie referring to him as kid and teenager and him, not once trying to correct her about his actual age, I'm convinced he was kid but Viv had to age him up for damage control.

I'm sorry if this response is all over the place because I'm having trouble describing my thoughts but the writers are in their 30s, and they saw nothing wrong? The writing for HB has been going down for a while now and it was fun to see how the writing could get worse but never in my years of watching awful shows did the writing get so bad, the writers had to resort to terrible jokes about sexualizing teenagers, making an incest joke, and a minor getting groomed unironically. I can't support a person or company that are fine making content like that.

"Unhappy Teenagers" was the first time, I have watched a show and felt a sinking feeling in my gut so much so it still lingers even a day later. I never felt so sick from watching a show and I'm sorry writers and companies think making this type of content and jokes of your trauma and abused experience is okay to do.

[cherrypuddinpie]

I wrote more I fear… they are just so much fun to write abt I swear

I haven’t reread anything I don’t think I’m the biggest fan of it but 😞 I’m JSUT keeping it kind

(All of the works I’ve currently posted are set post-hqtas season4, I am waiting for a new season PUHLEASE guys)

writing practice (cats? Question mark?)

Harley had always loved cats, Ivy not so much. It’s not that she didn’t LIKE them, she just didn’t see a purpose in getting one herself (she already had her plant babies, anyway! She was busy enough!) once the pair had moved into Selina’s mansion alongside King Shark and Clayface, it was different. Harley absolutely adored all the cats, Ivy felt as though they were a threat to her lab. She didn’t want anything to get messed up, and she knows how sneaky cats were! But she would be lying if she said she didn’t find them cute. Once the cats had gotten more used to the new people in their home, Ivy had noticed them snuggling in bed with her and Harley more and more. There would always be at least 2 on their bed at some point during the night, whether snuggled up with Harley or sleeping near Ivy closer to the foot of the bed. One had made the mistake of sleeping near Harleys feet once.. and never again. She hadn’t noticed it was there, and with how she’s always tossing and turning, she had managed to kick it. Which resulted in her chasing after the shocked cat, scooping it up and apologizing in a baby voice while smothering it’s face and head with kisses. Ivy laughed, but she found it sweet how much Harley cared for the cats. After a while she had figured out all their names, which was which (Selina has like 30 cats, some being siblings snd looking identical,) and their personalities (in a sense.) Harley claimed to not have any personal favorites, but a certain orange feline called Cheddar would always snuggle with her. Whether she was in bed, on the couch, or even eating, Cheddar would perch himself comfortably in her lap. Ivy couldn’t deny it was absolutely adorable watching Harley shift her full attention to the stubby kitty, he was like Harleys baby almost. ‘Way to go, Pamela. You’re in a stereotypical lesbian relationship.’ Ivy would think to herself, but honestly, she didn’t mind, as long as it was with Harley. After having met Princess Ladyfingers or… eugh… *Neytiri*(‘seriously, who comes up with a name like that?’ Ivy would wonder,) she had been thinking more about their future. In all honesty, she had wanted to start a family with Harley before their journey in the Time Sphere, but Harley being occupied with the kitties for no was no problem with her. They would eventually get their baby, but the timing just isn’t right yet, but it eventually will be, right? Is she fucking up the future by not having a baby now? No, everything works out the way it should. They’d eventually have everything under control.

‘Snap out of it, Pam!’

Months had passed since they had moved in. Clayface was a big star, King Shark was busy with the shark babies, leaving the two girls finally alone in the house. Keeping up with the cats was tricky, especially without the others there, but Selina was letting them live there rent free, it was the least they could do, right? But jeez, 30 cats? Having to clean up like, 10 shit boxes every few days? Eugh! Clayface would deal with it normally, they all played their part in taking care of the cats, but now it was Ivys responsibility. Ivy hated it, but she was way less…grossed out? by it than Harley was. Blood, guts and brains the woman was fine with, but animal feces? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Harley would feed the cats, always slipping them some treats (in a way that selinas security cameras wouldnt catch her, “do NOT feed them any of that processed crap. I have a whole list of brands on the fridge , good and bad.” She had told them when they first moved in. No one was really paying attention, besides Clayface, of course, who was writing everything down. He had caught Harley the first time she had given the cats treats, giving her a whole speech on how “this is CatWoman’s home, and we shall respect her rules!” ‘What a dork..’ Harley thought.)

Eventually, Ivy had warmed up to them all, especially Cheddar. Never really a cat person, she would claim, but whenever Harley was out, you could find her snuggled up with one of the many felines in the house. ♡︎

[lets-get-kraken-boys]

BUCCHIGIRI?! Rant

This show could have been so great. It could have been my everything. It was so cute when I first discovered it. The character designs are PHENOMENAL, the setting in fantastic, the colors are so vibrant and gorgeous—it is a visual masterpiece. Every character is so interesting, the story is actually engaging and cute. IT IS ALSO SO GAY OMG I LOVE IT! The men are all over each other and Ara-chan every episode, I’m not even making this shit up. It could have been so amazing.

But they ruined it.

They failed me and my love because of one character.

Mahoro Jin.

This girl…when you first see her is so adorable, so sweet. It’s unassuming. She’s got the whole heart aesthetic going on, lots of pink—instantly I was thinking about all the cute figures that were going to come out for her and how she was going to become a fav character of mine! She’s a nice soft character who you’re like “Oh! She’s a very cute love interest for this anime. I can’t wait to see where their love goes!” And all is well. For the first half of episode one. Then…all hell breaks loose when we meet Marito, her brother.

Don’t get me wrong, I ADORE Marito!!! Marito is a stunning character and I love him to death, I am obsessed. He’s so handsome and I love his vibes. However…I am not the only one who is obsessed with him.

THIS 👏🏻 CHICK 👏🏻 ROMANTICALLY 👏🏻 LOVES 👏🏻 HER 👏🏻 BROTHER 👏🏻

🥲

I haven’t been this disappointed in such a long time. Why? Why does anime do this to us? Why does it hurt me in such a violent and awful way? Why does it take so much from me? Literally cried after it was revelaved that she wants on her brother to LOVE and fight for her. Nearly threw up.

She was a great character and then we saw the truth, and it’s all inc*st with her now. GROSS. Every sentence that comes out of her goddamn mouth is about this man that I love(d, depending if I can stomach more of this God forsaken relationship) and it’s weirding me tf out. She appears in every other scene and quite literally ONLY talks about him. It’s so fucking disappointing. I think she’s only had one or two sentences that had nothing to do with her brother after we were introduced to him, and that’s fucking sad.

If I were to revamp this series, I would immediately change her character. Don’t get me wrong, I would keep her as a character because she has a great design, but make her want/talk about something ANYTHING else. If she had any other interests to share and, ya know, wasn’t looking to bang her sibling, it would have been fine! It’s vile that the author literally only uses her to remind everyone that she’s obsessed with her brother and wants to ROMANTICALLY be involved with him.

The ONLY redeeming thing is that Marito doesn’t return her feelings AT ALL. But it’s not helping my cringing at all. It makes the experience so fucking awful. Every time I try to enjoy it again, she’s rears her ugly head around and starts yapping.

I wanted to like this show so fucking bad…but her behavior ruins it so much that I can’t watch it.

It breaks my heart to see such promising new animes rely so heavily on these overused DISGUSTING themes when there is LITERALLY NO GODDAMN NEED FOR THEM!!! They weird everyone out, and you shit on a perfectly wonderful story by adding it. I wish they’d stop to let this go.

Sorry that was a long rant, but I had to let the people know my thoughts and violent feelings on this. I want to smack this author so bad, my hand is ITCHING for the opportunity one day.

Rest in piss, Bucchigiri.

[obsessed-tyrant]

BUCCHIGIRI?! Rant

This show could have been so great. It could have been my everything. It was so cute when I first discovered it. The character designs are PHENOMENAL, the setting in fantastic, the colors are so vibrant and gorgeous—it is a visual masterpiece. Every character is so interesting, the story is actually engaging and cute. IT IS ALSO SO GAY OMG I LOVE IT! The men are all over each other and Ara-chan every episode, I’m not even making this shit up. It could have been so amazing.

But they ruined it.

They failed me and my love because of one character.

Mahoro Jin.

This girl…when you first see her is so adorable, so sweet. It’s unassuming. She’s got the whole heart aesthetic going on, lots of pink—instantly I was thinking about all the cute figures that were going to come out for her and how she was going to become a fav character of mine! She’s a nice soft character who you’re like “Oh! She’s a very cute love interest for this anime. I can’t wait to see where their love goes!” And all is well. For the first half of episode one. Then…all hell breaks loose when we meet Marito, her brother.

Don’t get me wrong, I ADORE Marito!!! Marito is a stunning character and I love him to death, I am obsessed. He’s so handsome and I love his vibes. However…I am not the only one who is obsessed with him.

THIS 👏🏻 CHICK 👏🏻 ROMANTICALLY 👏🏻 LOVES 👏🏻 HER 👏🏻 BROTHER 👏🏻

🥲

I haven’t been this disappointed in such a long time. Why? Why does anime do this to us? Why does it hurt me in such a violent and awful way? Why does it take so much from me? Literally cried after it was revelaved that she wants on her brother to LOVE and fight for her. Nearly threw up.

She was a great character and then we saw the truth, and it’s all inc*st with her now. GROSS. Every sentence that comes out of her goddamn mouth is about this man that I love(d, depending if I can stomach more of this God forsaken relationship) and it’s weirding me tf out. She appears in every other scene and quite literally ONLY talks about him. It’s so fucking disappointing. I think she’s only had one or two sentences that had nothing to do with her brother after we were introduced to him, and that’s fucking sad.

If I were to revamp this series, I would immediately change her character. Don’t get me wrong, I would keep her as a character because she has a great design, but make her want/talk about something ANYTHING else. If she had any other interests to share and, ya know, wasn’t looking to bang her sibling, it would have been fine! It’s vile that the author literally only uses her to remind everyone that she’s obsessed with her brother and wants to ROMANTICALLY be involved with him.

The ONLY redeeming thing is that Marito doesn’t return her feelings AT ALL. But it’s not helping my cringing at all. It makes the experience so fucking awful. Every time I try to enjoy it again, she’s rears her ugly head around and starts yapping.

I wanted to like this show so fucking bad…but her behavior ruins it so much that I can’t watch it.

It breaks my heart to see such promising new animes rely so heavily on these overused DISGUSTING themes when there is LITERALLY NO GODDAMN NEED FOR THEM!!! They weird everyone out, and you shit on a perfectly wonderful story by adding it. I wish they’d stop to let this go.

Sorry that was a long rant, but I had to let the people know my thoughts and violent feelings on this. I want to smack this author so bad, my hand is ITCHING for the opportunity one day.

Rest in piss, Bucchigiri.

[goldenworldsabound]

💕 durarara?

DURARARA!!! Okay I have three SIs for this but I feel like I gotta give a little Wendy Self Ship History and talk about the OG one. This is the first SI I made after my break from self shipping (the second SI ever from me). And as such! They are the origin of my primary SI powers theme, aka that pretty blue barrier ability (the one I animated not so long ago).

Basically, this SI moves to Japan, near Ikebukuro, and...promptly ends up in shenanigans. Meeting the yakuza (back when I thought Aka was a platonic lol), running into both Izaya and Shizuo (who she later dates uwu), meeting Celty...shit happens fast hfdsahfkjhsakj and naturally being on the radar of such people and Shizuo's partner in particular, danger lurks. So through some dangerous circumstances they discover this barrier power - apparently it's somewhat of a bloodline thing, and Celty could sense that they weren't an average human straight away, though she didn't say anything initially. SI ends up working with Celty on using their powers, because at first they are highly inefficient at it...making shields that are too big, which consumes a lot of stamina (this too improves with practice), or in the wrong places, or just not being able to do it easily.

The shield is strong, but Shizuo would actually be able to break it. Not that he ever would, intentionally. He never aims a punch at them, ever.

So SI ends up befriending Celty and texting with her regular. Much as Celty can sense those who are different, SI can actually sense that Celty doesn't have a head even before they see it for themself. They just didn't really know what to do with that before then. Similar, Anri's Saika is like ewwww gross keep that SHIELD PERSON away from me! The shield/barrier ability is a natural enemy to Saika, as such a person cannot be controlled. Which also leads me to SI becoming somewhat of a mentor/older sibling figure to Anri cause damn that girl fucking needs it and I care her 🥺

and of course...real cute and tender time dating Shizuo who bless him has no idea how to date someone but he's trying his best and he's so sweet 🥺 and really, really apologetic that I'm getting pulled into shit because of him (hint: it's Izaya who's pulling me into shit to fuck with Shizuo because OF COURSE).

This SI also has an entire set of OC friends who I actually wrote a fic about!!! Like, them coming to visit her basically :D it was very zany fdkjsahfkjsa

All this to say this SI and ship are very near and dear to me because it got me back into self ship ❤️

[aspiringsophrosyne]

Episode 8: The Echo Tree.

Do the floors seem stickier than usual? Are the walls dripping with something? Is that the smell of earthen rot in the air? Don't worry about it. You've got a show to catch. And it's probably nothing, anyway.

The Good.

Before anything else, I should point out that Syngorn is ridiculously beautiful. The art team is still hitting it out of the park. And I like how it feels like it's of the Fey Wild but not; you could believe that it's a city that travels between two worlds.

Vex'ahlia

One way that stream!Vex differs from her animated counterpart is that much of her development happens pre-stream. Not all or even most of it, but some. TLOVM is not directly animating any pre-stream content so far, (aside from the Krieg fight, but even that got changed around more than a bit) so my best guess is the choice was made to move Vex's development here, so we could see it. 

Stream!Vex had insecurities about money and being perceived as high-class, but by this point in the campaign, she was already done with Syldor's shit. 

Pulling her back from that here gives her room to grow, and in the meantime, we get beautifully and painfully tense moments between her, Vax, and Syldor that hurt me to watch in all the best ways. I can't give enough praise for just how perfectly uncomfortable that talk in Syldor's office is.

Also, as other watchers have pointed out, he scoffs at the idea that the twins could find Fenthras...while Vax is wearing the Death Walkers' Ward. Unobservant and a bag of cocks. What a combo. Troy Baker plays him dead to rights; every interaction with him is perfectly cold and unpleasant.

Of the covenant and of the womb.

On the topic of blood relatives, I'm not sure how I feel about the change in the twins' relationship with Velora. In the stream, they'd known she'd existed for a while before she was introduced, and all three siblings already had a good relationship. On the one hand, the twins already knowing her gives a sense of history. This world and these characters have more going on than the audience sees. On the other hand, the twins reacting with warm affection even though Velora is such a shock speaks to their characters in a way a lot of dialogue couldn't. I think it's effectively a wash. 

All that said, Toks Olagundoye as Devana and Jayla Lavender Nicholas as Velora do a great job injecting some much-needed sweetness into half of Vox Machina's stay in Syngorn. Both are instantly endearing. 

Similarly, the incomparable Henry Winkler serves as a lovely palette cleanser. How great is the contrast between a loving parent and a shit one? He has such a warmth that gets across so well in just his first short scene. You can really tell why Pike turned out like she did. 

The Echo Tree

I love how they turned up the creepy grossness for this version of this confrontation. Vex is already shown to be in a vulnerable place....and then this comes at her. The area is suitably sick looking and muck-filled, and Vex walking across the water with no trouble while the other three are struggling through it is a nice subtle touch. 

Sendhil Ramamurthy gives a spell-binding performance as the manipulative Archfey Saundor. His words ooze like his sickness, but there's this....understated charm to him that, if he'd been presented slightly differently to the audience, could've gotten us on his side. You could almost see him caring about Vex's problems and genuinely thinking he was doing her a favor. Almost. 

~*~

As a side note, I've noticed some stream fans' reactions to this video (more in terms of commenting on it than live reactions) are comments on how Saundor is significantly different here than in the game.

He's really not, as far as I can tell.

What is different is that he's less subtle here. This is due to several factors, primarily the rearranging of Vex's character development and the amount of time we have in the episode to devote to this confrontation.

Also, in no world could I see Matt Mercer and/or Laura Bailey being comfortable with him yelling "Bitch!" at her at their live-stream table, even in character. I think that was also a factor.

But Saundor was always an incel, exploiting Vex's weak spots to trick her into taking him as her patron. To the point where Taliesin and Marisha were mocking him and making faces during the original episode, like: "Holy shit, this guy is a creep."

And personally, given all the abuse the ladies of Critical Role (including Aimee Carrero and Aabria Iyengar) have gotten over the years, watching Vex beat the shit out of an absolutely unsubtle creep was incredibly satisfying on both a meta and in-story level. 

~*~

And just in the story, it was magnificent to see a pure archer duel. As they say during the watch party, Vex hadn't had a big moment to shine in a fight up to this point. So I loved seeing her get one all to herself and excel at it. The recreation of Keyleth's tree-stride fire elemental move from the stream: the cherry on top. 

Percy would periodically make various arrow types for Vex in the stream, and the arrowhead she kills Saundor with was a nice little nod to that. Laura and Taliesin were in fine form this episode, and there's been something so sweet about seeing these characters fall for each other all over again. 

Of course, Artagan's reveal. It was so fun to see reactions from Critters who knew about him but not from Campaign One. The way they used Boyd as Garmelie was excellent, and seeing his transformation and then hearing Matt's voice…mwah!! There are a couple of characters that I was almost hoping Matt would voice, and Artie was definitely one of them. His design is perfect, and I particularly love his almost galaxy-like eyes. Makes him really seem like something with power. Can't wait to see him again.

The Bad. (Or at least not great.)

Really don't have much more than nitpicks.

Percy and Vex

Percy's words to Vex are, like previous bits of dialogue, too on the nose if you know what's coming. And given the events of season one, I feel it makes more sense that Percy might advocate instead for Vex's nerve, her fearlessness, and her not letting anyone intimidate her into folding or backing down. It's a more subtle setup for Saundor and fits their recent history.

Because I would think that watching Vex quake under her father's dismissal would be especially jarring for Percy after everything he's seen her do. Here's this incredibly brave and resilient woman who's faced down dragons and vampires. Who, with a gun to her head, stood her ground between Percy, his demon, and the target of their vengeance. That feels like a thing that would stick with him. He would want to remind her of that, and this reminder is what allows her to break free from Saundor before it's too late.

And it makes her immortal line about her heart feel more hers.

Nitpicks:

Let's look at some dialogue that could be improved.

Here's one more example of contradictory writing in this series:

The Twins' Asshole Dad: I will not be amending this for a meaningless title. Really, de Rolo, such a transparent ploy is beneath your dignity.

Vex'ahlia: Don't you dare talk to him like that. We came here seeking aid and you insult my friends?

So...Syldor basically tells Percy "You're better than this." And Vex comes along with a "How dare you say that about him!?"

Which is actually funny, albeit unintentionally.

It would've made more sense if Syldor sass-talked Whitestone or suggested Percy was a poor excuse for a noble indeed if he was pulling stunts like this, and then Vex stepped in to defend her teammate. As it stands, it's more like...Vex and Syldor were having two completely different conversations, but at each other and in the same space.

Moving along, we've got another one of Laura Bailey's immortal Campaign One lines.

Saundor: You've been a good daughter. You've tried. But it will never be enough. You will never be enough.

Vex'ahlia: If I could pull the blood of him from my veins and give it back, I would.

We can set such a stellar line up better than this. Let's just add one little line.

Saundor: You've been a good daughter. You've tried. But it will never be enough. You will never be enough. He will never consider you worthy of his blood.

Vex'ahlia: If I could pull the blood of him from my veins and give it back, I would.

~*~

Garmelie explaining that Saundor is an Archfey doesn't tell anyone who doesn't already know what that is anything. Stream watchers will know. And D&D players will know. Everyone else? Nope. 

Theoretically, this could be a way to indirectly elucidate Garmelie's true level of power. We're told Saundor is an Archfey, so the audience understands from his duel with Vex that those are powerful creatures. Then make it clear that Garmelie himself is an Archfey later, so the audience has a reference for how powerful he actually is. 

I don't have a lot of hope that this is what the writers are doing based on their previous record, though. 

And that's the Echo Tree. Only one more episode until the crazy action sequences start. Be sure to get your tickets. 

[eolewyn1010]

Dragging Frankenstein - Chapter 4

Onward and downward, but before we get down to brass tacks: I know Shelley talks her way around the actual process of making the Creature, but. The Creature needs to sleep, needs to eat, needs to recover from wounds - everything we know about this guy indicates that he's made of organic, "living" matter. So I will go with the traditional reading that all the corpses weren't just delivering reference material, but also building material to Frankenstein. Which means, yeah, I'm gonna mention the rotting issue, and no, I'm not talking of Victor's decaying morals.

“found even in M. Krempe a great deal of sound sense and real information, combined, it is true, with a repulsive physiognomy and manners” – ooookaaay, this is making me mildly sick. Although with the way Mary Shelley writes it, she strongly implies that Victor’s attitude is wrong, so I’ll give her the benefit of the doubt. (And kick the little shit against the shin.) DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR: 3

“two years during which I paid no visit to Geneva” – okay, WHAT. You don’t even go home for Christmas?? Your siblings, your father, your preciousest Elizabeth??? Egotist.

Ok, fine, he makes a lot of progress. Only serves to blow up his ego tho.

Not to be morbid here, but Victor studying the dead and decay is the first point where the story really had me in its grip and I fully bought into his dedication to science itself, not to the glory in it. Good shit.

“like the Arabian who had been buried with the dead and found a passage to light, only aided by one glimmering and seemingly ineffectual light” – ???? Is this something one should know? I’m kind of afraid to research it; I suspect some gross cultural misrep. Or is it Biblical?

How very practical that Victor has a morally sound reason not to share the secret of creating life, so nobody can ever confirm or deny his singular-in-history brilliance. DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR: 4

“how much happier that man is who believes his native town to be the world” – how does Victor manage to criticize himself and his own attitudes and still come across as belittling?

“give life to an animal as complex and wonderful as a man” – sorry, I have to. DAS GAY: 13

Hey, he’s not building a woman there.

Incidentally, a woman would get him to the way more obvious process of creating life; why is he studying corpses but not pregnancies? Is that icky to get his hands on or what?

“I resolved to make the being of a gigantic stature” – not to be gross here, but I think Victor fantasizes about getting absolutely ravished by a tall, strong man.

“having spent some months in successfully collecting and arranging my materials” – aw, what a sweet phrasing for defiling corpses.

“A new species would bless me as its creator and source" – DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR: 5

God-Adam-Lucifer delusion, go!

Also, a man. He’s trying to build a human man. From human materials. This is not a new species. It’s not an act of creating something that wasn’t there before. The original idea is the process of creation, not the resulting creature.

“No father could claim the gratitude of his child so completely as I should deserve theirs” – there’s so many things wrong with that. First of all, manipulative as all shit. Second, do you make a child to have them indebted to you? Third, with the homoerotic undertones of Victor desiring to create a beautiful man, this gets a very unhealthy one on the INCEST VIBES: 4

“renew life where death had apparently devoted the body to corruption” – uhm. Isn’t that what he needs to do now, too? How do the parts for his man-in-the-making not decay further during the process? Especially since it’s in a tower room during the summer. The stench must be hell. How is nobody noticing him sneaking around carrying body parts and his room smelling absolutely horrible? Huh. People get up to some weird shit in college, I guess.

“tortured the living animal to animate the lifeless clay” – aw, he’s such a sweetheart. How comes he’s not missed at university? He’s probably not attending lessons anymore; how can he stay around?

“It was a most beautiful season” etc. – ok, how would he know? He says he’s not paying attention to anything. Shelley, that’s a POV error. And he doesn’t even reply to his father’s concerns. IT’S ALL ABOUT ME: 3

The attitude tho. “I then thought that my father would be unjust if he ascribed my neglect to vice, or faultiness on my part, but I am now convinced that he was justified in conceiving that I should not be altogether free from blame.” – okay, WHAT. 1st, robbing graveyards is very much a vice, Victor. 2nd, you are absolutely to blame entirely. 3rd, he’s right, you are neglecting university. Where does Victor get off painting himself in such a saintly light?

“if no man allowed any pursuit whatsoever to interfere with the tranquility of his domestic affections, Greece had not been enslaved, Caesar would have spared his country, America would have been discovered more gradually, and the empires of Mexico and Peru would not have been destroyed.”

I. WHAT.

…I choose to be a highly offended historian about this, and move on. Also, because he thinks it’s so very simple to just apply his personal faults to all of human history and therefore solve all problems, this gets a glaring IT’S ALL ABOUT ME: 4

“But I forget that I am moralizing” – HA! I’m in incredulous giggles here.

“I shunned my fellow-creatures as if I had been guilty of a crime” …honey, you are. Multiple crimes, actually. And counting. Self-awareness whomst?

Whew, this chapter was dense. And so is Victor.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #236

Do you live somewhere where it’s completely safe to walk alone at night? Okay so our development is pretty safe, I see people walking a lot, including around dusk, but our city itself is deplorable. It's known for crime.

Would you rather be able to talk to animals or be fluent in every language? Talk to animals. I feel like talking to animals (if people believed I could actually do it) could change the world.

Does your kitchen have a pantry? No.

What are some foods you enjoy cooking? I don't enjoy cooking.

Have you ever interviewed a job applicant at your workplace? I've never worked anywhere long enough for this.

Did you ever skip class when you were in school? If so, was there a particular class that you skipped the most? "Yeah. I don't really recall skipping individual classes, though. If I was absent, then it was for the whole day." <<<< Exactly this. I didn't have my own car to drive somewhere and I wasn't just hanging out/hiding somewhere on campus.

Are you high-maintenance? God no.

What was the last non-fiction book you read? I have no idea, non-fiction isn't my thing.

Are you able to crack any of your joints? My big toes crack sometimes, but I don't deliberately try to crack joints, the sound grosses me out.

What’s something that’s been on your mind a lot lately? How the hell to get out of this anhedonia sinkhole.

What was the last thing someone asked you for advice on? Uh... good question.

What’s your opinion on lottery tickets? Waste of money, or no? Waste of money, mostly. I don't really have much of an opinion if you snatch one once in a blue moon, but certainly don't make a habit of gambling.

Do you have any upcoming plans with friends? Not right now.

What was the last picture message you received, and from whom? A picture of my cat from Mom.

Have you ever swam in a saltwater pool? Yes, while in physical therapy.

What kinds of leisure activities did your family do together when you were growing up? Swimming in the pool is all I can think of. It was very rare BOTH my parents were in the pool, though.

Do you know anyone who works at McDonald's? Not that I know of.

Have you ever been to a sports game? I've been to I think three Carolina Hurricanes (hockey) games with my dad. It was a bonding thing for us.

Have you used a sewing machine before? No.

Have you ever gotten in trouble for using a phone in class? No, because I didn't use my phone in class.

Have you met any of your second cousins? I... don't think I have.

Is your computer slow or fast? It's fast.

Have you ever faked sick to get out of something? Yup, I definitely did this for school.

Have you ever been ice skating? No.

When was the last time you wore a skirt? Holy shit, probably not since I was a kid.

Have you seen all the Shrek movies? I've seen the first three. I WANT to see all of them, I just... haven't.

Have you ever fainted? Yes, resulted in a terrible concussion and broken molars.

Do you have a job? I don't. I don't think I can maintain a job, especially lately.

Are you the type of person who gets injuries often? Proper injuries, no. But I HAVE noticed I stub my toe A LOT. I think I round corners of any kind too tightly or something.

Have you ever finished a whole video game? Oh, plenty. I've been gaming since I was a tiny kid.

If so, which one(s)? Too many to list.

Are your siblings allergic to anything? I know Nicole is allergic to latex.

Do you know anyone with a pet snake? Myself, lol. Mazzy has a snake, too.

What are some of your comfort foods? Ice cream, as well as just fast food, sadly. I hate how much I love fast food.

What’s something that’s very popular, that you have no interest in? Starbucks is one, for sure. Coffee in general. Pumpkin spice is another, since that's coming back up lol.

What’s something that many people would consider to be lame, but you don’t? Even if I don't believe in them, I love learning about conspiracy theories.

How would you describe your clothing style? Lazy. Comfortable.

Do you typically respond to text messages right away? Yes. If I reply to a text late, I was almost certainly asleep.

What has been the highlight of this past month? Honestly, nothing. This has not been a good month.

Has anyone ever assumed you were flirting with them, when you weren’t? I don't know.

Did your parents spoil you when you were a kid? My mom certainly tried to, but we weren't rich by any means.

Would you rather watch a movie in the theater, or at home? At the theater, by far. That's an experience I enjoy.

Did your parents teach you how to make a budget before you moved out on your own? I haven't moved out.

How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing? He's fine.

Do you have anything to pay off? No, it's not like I have money to buy things to begin with.

Would you sacrifice yourself for a friend? It depends on the friend.

Have you ever watched a needle go into your own skin? Yes. This used to totally not bother me, but now I don't really like watching especially long needles go in.

Have you ever seen someone get a piercing/tattoo? Both, yes.

When you're done eating finger foods, do you usually lick your fingers? I do.

[TW: ABUSE] Do you know someone that is/was abused by their parents? Yes.

Would you cuss the person you hate the most out to their face? I wouldn't invest anymore energy into her than I already have, I wouldn't waste my time trying to communicate with her ever again.

Abortion: murder or it's fine? Abortion is completely fine and saves potential children from situations no child should be in.

Do you know someone that is mute, deaf or blind? No.

Have you ever spent more than two weeks in a wheel chair? No.

Do you drink straight from the bottle, instead of getting a cup? No, I live with someone else who might drink that thing, and what if we have guests that also might want something? I find this so gross if there's even a chance someone else might want it.

Have you ever been in a taxi? No.

Does weed smell good? Or no? What I've smelled smells awful.

Are/were you loud in class? Absolutely not.

Last thing you yelled at? Our dog, she's been barking her brains off at everything lately and it's been driving me insane. I yelled because I was all the way in my room TRYING to sleep.

Is your car a piece of crap? It hasn't even run since June, so...

Would you have a long-distance relationship with the person you are with now? Yes, because we've already established a strong relationship. I don't know if I'd START another long-distance relationship, but it's different to me when you've seriously dated three years already, I'm not going to break up with him just because of separation for whatever reason.

Who was the last person to make you really mad? REALLY mad? Hm. I don't know.

Where is the last place you had sex? Sexual stuff, in my bed.

Who is the last person you had sex with? I haven't had actual sex for reasons I can't fairly shame my boyfriend over (even though I do get frustrated, but not really at him), but we still do plenty of sexual things, so basically him.

Do you enjoy watching porn? I've literally never in my life watched porn and have zero interest in doing so.

What’s your favorite drinking game? I've never played a drinking game.

Do you cry often? Dude, I have cried SO EASILY lately, even easier than normal. It's like ANYTHING makes me cry lately, it's been embarrassing, even if it shouldn't be.

Are you a big flirt? No.

What would you do if you became pregnant? Get an abortion immediately.

When did you last make out with someone? Was it good? I don't like getting grossly specific, not long ago, yes.

Do you like your body? Hell fucking no.

Did you get lucky on prom night? I was abstinent at that time, so...

Are you normally a horny person? Not more than what I'd assume is normal for a sexual person.

Do you live with your biological mother? I do.

Have you ever tried peanut butter and bananas together? Yes, in a sandwich. It's okay.

Do you believe in sex before marriage? I think it's fine to do.

Do you know anyone who married their high school sweetheart? Multiple people.

Orange or apple juice? Orange.

Have you ever seen anyone die? Only animals. I've seen a woman hours before she died, but not as she did. That alone made me cry so fucking bad, I could NOT handle it. I very barely even knew this lady, I was just visiting with my mom.

What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own? Meerkats, learning the German language, photography techniques, Rammstein history and stuff.

Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring? No, I'd be too afraid of meeting dangerous people.

Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote? I've done this for multiple people I've dated.

What changes are you afraid of? I am terrified beyond words of my mom dying.

Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress? No.

Where do you want to be in 5 years? I want to have an income, hopefully living with Girt, I want my mental health to be in a good, stable place.

Get anything good in the mail recently? A BOOK, FINALLY!!!! Plus Girt's anniversary present.

When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat? In general, potential threat. You can certainly seem less scary than others, but still.

Who was the last person you cut out of your life intentionally? Probably some old friend on Facebook.

Do you eat live fish? I don't eat fish, period.

Would you get engaged right now? I would if Girt asked, but honestly my preference would be we live together first.

[pr0cyon-lotor]

I'm going to just copy and paste my notes on my headcanons for the Shen siblings here just in case I get too lazy to explain and I can just refer to this post :3

Shen Muchen = SY's da-ge

Naturally very stoic but has a bleeding heart for his family. He completely separates work and family, and he will always prioritize family over anything else.

He's not good with words and actually doesn't speak much if he can help it. He's blunt and to the point, and has the habit of back tracking if something came out too mean.

He's a creature of habit and very easy to predict if you know him.

He isn't very social and didn't make friends with many people when he was in school. Many people thought he was a sort of ice prince, nope he was just socially awkward.

He stepped up to help their parents mostly because his job doesn't require face to face interaction. He is the "heir" to the business, but he really only wants to do the administrative and logistics duties.

He had the tendency to try to bring in strays as a child. He grew out of it mostly, but he does feed strays because he feels bad. The Shen residence is constantly swarmed by cats and dogs because of this.

Shen Huizhen = SY's Er-ge

He's rather playful and cunning at times, but he is also the biggest airhead of all four siblings.

He has a tendency of forgetting about basic things sometimes. He even once asked if airplanes had to make detours when they flew towards clouds, and they had to sit him down and explain that clouds were made of water vapor/ect. (They don't let him live that one down)

He likes animals in theory but would scream if a large dog started running towards him.

He's far from gullible, but he is stupid. He's the type to let himself get kidnapped just to cross it off his bucket list and have no escape plan. Their parents assigned him a bodyguard (babysitter) because of his recklessness.

He learned a lot of instruments for the sake of their parents' approval, but now plays a few string instruments for pleasure.

He's so much more sociable than Muchen and typically takes care of the talking and networking aspect of the business for him.

Shen Yuan (these are just mostly family headcanons since my personality headcanons for SY already show in my writing)

Green eyes (not as sqq. he just has them and one can convince me otherwise.)

Has been, will be, and absolutely is a little shit because he was the baby of the family for a while.

Has the worst temper of all the siblings (which is still really mild. the siblings are just mild tempered in general)

Could probably convince his siblings to get into his hobbies if he wasn't ashamed.

The type of little sibling that would taste something gross, say it tastes good to convince someone else to taste it, and laugh once someone gags.

Shen Ling = SY's meimei

Is the baby of the family, knows it, and absolutely abuses the privileges. She probably learned how to cry on command, but barely has to use it since they just give her what she wants.

She has rather thick skin and barely twitches at insults. She does exaggerate hurt feelings to either tease people or bother those insulting her.

She is outgoing and friendly to everyone she meets but holds a grudge like a motherfucker.

She was in a lot of sports clubs, but her grades were below average. She had a tutor, but it didn't help much.

She likes reading like Shen Yuan but prefers tragic romances or mystery. She does read a lot of danmei and baihe, and has tried to recommend them to Shen Yuan in more than one occasion.

She probably tried to teach Muchen brainrot, but Shen Yuan stopped her.

General sibling knowledge:

Muchen and Huizhen only have two years setting them apart, but they have an age gap of over five years with Shen Yuan and Shen Ling, who have 2-3 years between them.

Huizhen tries to get into reading to bond with his younger siblings better, but he just can't get into it. Muchen likes reading, but he isn't a fan of the same genre and prefers poems or historical fiction.

None of them have a strained relationship with each other, but it isn't the tightest either. All of them are usually too busy (Muchen and Huizhen with the business, SY with bedrotting, and SL with sports)

They're all pretty mild tempered all things considered. But all of them are a level of protective towards each other. (Rankings: Muchen, SL, Huizhen, SY)

If they were given a chance to be closer, they would be chronic shitposters

Extra: They're all a special level of oblivious

[spaceumbredoggos]

Kenz x Bill in So Much for Stardust is part satire against Billdip/Billford shipping and part satisfying my urge to let Bill do things to me that are dangerous to anyone’s mental health. Thats why a lot of his iffy behavior is implied and not outright said in detail. Kenz X Bill by definition is a proship, and it’s more so told as a person escaping lifetimes of abuse rather than the abuse and relationship itself.

Kenz won’t end up with someone romantically in the end (maybe with Bee way way way after the events of So Much For Stardust.) All those scenes where Kenz is getting romantically involved with consenting adults is them indulging in an unhealthy coping mechanism or being a slave to their Umbredoggo biology. Which is another plot device I use as satire for omegaverse and the furry community. It’s not being mean making fun of the furry community or omegaverse, it is more so an inside joke made to make fun of the fact that furries are cringe and kinda into anthropomorphic animals, most notably wolves and foxes. A lot of So Much For Stardust’s plot is dramatically written edgy satire poking fun at proships, omegaverse, forced religious plot lines (think all the prophecy shit that happens in warrior cats, which is where a fuck ton of the hellverse shit comes up), and authority figures being major idiots (My interpretation of the Axolotl is that he’s a major Cornelius Fudge level idiot that decays into a state of self preservation.)

The reason why Ford and the Pines are generally friends with IMP and there’s no general hatred for hellborn demons and hellaverse characters is because Gravity Falls is a general place of religious trauma. Also, I like to write Ford and Stolas having some sort of crush on each other but it’s very minor and it’s more an excuse to write two confused owls try to figure out parenting adult children with Blitzø. Kenz fits the role as Ford’s adoptive child, and a lot of Kenz’s angst comes from general hatred for parental figures.

I had a feeling that it would be shitty to remove Kenz from their family, but the reason I did that was because one, I wanted to showcase how powerful Bill had gotten, two, I wanted to use this to poke fun of the forced religious plot, and three, I am processing how close to homelessness I myself have gotten too, and how easily I could end up alone myself. A lot of Kenz’s backstory is based on my own that is dramatized (bill didn’t fuck up my childhood and things happen for a reason) and So Much For Stardust is basically about healing from generations of trauma.

Rabid Dipper is my love letter to whump. I want there to be a shit ton of romantic tension between Kenz and Dipper later on, without it getting gross. I had a crush on Dipper as a kid, and now I see him as something to protect. Like an adorable baby cactus or a baby crocodile with Cheerios balanced on his head. Not in a pedo way, more like a protective older sibling way.

That being said, Kenz (not IRL Kenz, being me) would be a shitty partner but an amazing friend. Kenz often goes through back and forth phases of being super promiscuous to being completely abstinent, mostly due to umbredoggo biology. Kenz tried to basically use sex as a coping mechanism. Kenz has a lot of intimacy issues and trauma, and I write more of those than the sex itself. Kenz is far better at platonic relationships, and loves physical contact. They’re touch starved.

Kenz’s autism isn’t because they’re part Umbredoggo. They’d be autistic without it. A lot of the Umbredoggo stuff is also me trying to figure out my own non-physical identity. As a kid, I would identify as a cat and would hiss at my father from the trees in the yard. I still question if I’m a therian or otherkin a lot of times, and I’m scared to come out. I’m scared to age regress or pet regress or to involve myself in the therian/otherkin community because of my fear of loss of autonomy, something that Kenz deals with all the fucking time.

Anyways, Check out So Much For Stardust. I update it at least once weekly on this blog. Once it’s done, it will be posted on Wattpad, Quotev, and AO3. I work super hard on this fanfic and I would really appreciate if it got the love I feel it deserves. It’s in its initial rough draft phase, and even when all the chapters are written, I still won’t be done with it. I still have to write more drafts of the chapters and eventually make a final draft. There’s a whole multiverse involved with alternate versions of Kenz from alternate universes (A Pokemon version, a warrior cats version, a Pokemon mystery dungeon version. Fuck. They’re even a FNAF animatronic version.) This blog is basically all about the Kenzverse (Yeah, that’s what I’ll call it.)

[cryptidsurveys]

Thursday, October 24th, 2024.

Do you have any siblings you absolutely despise? Why do you despise them? The simplest answer is "yes." But do I spend every waking moment dwelling on it? No. And is the emotion intense? Aside from a recent uptick due to family drama, not typically. In fact, it's dwindled down to something more akin to apathy with an underlying understanding of why I want nothing to do with them. I've tried to practice empathy and understand what makes them tick (and I can get there to a degree, even if it's only speculation), but it doesn't make things right. I'm not their damn therapist. Ain't nobody paying me to figure their shit out.

How many times a week do you shower? Is this a healthy thing for you? I shower twice on animal shelter days and once, maybe twice, on my "weekends."

Do you like taking random surveys like this? Of course.

How many times a day do you eat a full meal? Is this a healthy thing to you? I eat three meals and two snacks, plus some random bits before bed. The spacing and frequency seem fine, but I probably need to up my calories.

What’s your favorite movie? Why do you like this movie so much? Watership Down, Princess Mononoke, Velvet Goldmine, The Doors film…

What’s your favorite genre of movies? Why is this? I don't really have a favorite genre, but I enjoy horror, fantasy, psychological thrillers, and animated films.

Have you ever looked up at the sky, and thought, Why am I down here? I've marveled at the immensity of everything, and I've wondered why and how anything exists at all, but not always/only while looking at the night sky. It is pretty mind blowing just how many stars I can see when I bother to put on my glasses, though. ("Omg, are those the PLEIADES?!?!" ;D)

What is your hair color? Are you satisfied with the color of your hair? It's brown. I'm satisfied with it for the most part.

Do you talk on the phone very often? Who do you talk to the most? No. I rarely talk on the phone.

Do your parents intimidate the people you date? Are they scary people? Past partners have mentioned being intimidated by my dad, but at least from my perspective, he's not an intentionally intimidating person.

Have you ever watched a horror movie and thought, “What would it be like”? Yeah. Like, would I have the fortitude to face such a situation and get out alive, etc.

Do you think Gale Harold is the cutest man alive? I don't even know who that is. Let me look him up…ah, okay. He's not my type.

Do you hate people who ask questions like “Did you like this survey”? I don't hate it, but it does seem kind of pointless now that most surveys are super old and widely dispersed. The person who created the survey is extremely unlikely to ever see the feedback.

How many times a day do you say I love you? Who to usually? A lot. To my dad and my cats. To my mom when I see/speak to her. To the kitties at the animal shelter.

What’s your favorite color? Why is this your favorite color? Autumn hues. They're warm, cozy, nostalgic, inviting, etc.

Have you ever been told you were thought-provoked? By who? Do you mean "thought-provoking"? I don't think anyone has ever said that specifically, but I have been told that I'm insightful, intelligent, etc.

Do you like Drew Barrymore? Do you like her movies and work? Eh.

Does the sight of blood gross you out? Why is this? Blood alone doesn't bother me. Seeing someone in pain, though…that's what tends to get to me.

What is the most common color of clothes in your closet? Black, dark blue, and shades of gray.

Do you text or no? Who do you usually text anyways? Yeah. I mostly text my mom and dad. I'm part of the cattery group chat now too, but I haven't posted anything yet. I just "react" to texts from others.

Do you think sweaters are only for dorks? Give an example of a dork. No…?

Do you prefer hoodies or jackets? Why do you prefer this choice? Jackets are a nice addition when it's cold out, but when it comes to everyday wear, I prefer hoodies.

Is black your second favorite color & does it really go with anything? It's one of my favorite colors, and yeah, it pretty much does go with anything I would be inclined to wear.

Do you cry really easily? Are you depressed? Not super easily, but…idk. It's kind of random. Sometimes little things get to me when bigger things don't. It also depends on how stressed/exhausted I am. I don't think I'm depressed.

Have you ever babysat before? Did you enjoy this job? Not really. Never as a job. Not unless junior volunteers at the shelter count. They come in for about an hour and a half nearly every Friday. It's nice because they'll do our dishes, wipe down and put away kennels, sweep, etc.

Do you like children, or do you hate them? Why do you like or hate them? They're alright. Sometimes they can be sweet or endearing.

Are your parents still divorced or together? They're legally separated, so not quite divorced but definitely not together.

Have you ever busted a window before? Why did you bust it? Yeah. It was an accident. I was playing baseball with some friends in one of their yards, and we were using rocks for bases. I was throwing them back after we were finished, and one of them crashed through a small basement window.

Do you still get scared watching old horror movies? You watch them alone? I might get a little creeped out depending on the film. I basically never watch any movie alone, though.

Is the sound of Halloween exciting to you? Do you enjoy the holiday? I don't care as much about Halloween DAY as I did when I was younger. It's more about the surrounding atmosphere. The changing leaves, the chilly weather, the fun foods, the spooky vibes…

Does anyone ever call you unique? Do you think you’re unique? Not that I'm aware of, but I do feel somewhat different and strange.

Do random people ever call you and make conversations with you? No.

Do you talk a lot when you’re on the phone? Are you annoying? Not really.

Have you ever contemplated suicide before? Ever attempted it before? Yes to both.

When you think of summer, what is the first thing that comes to mind? Intolerable heat, the smell of dust and pine sap, merciful afternoon thunderstorms, chirping crickets, stifling liquid purple nights… Oh, and praying that the swamp cooler doesn't break at an inopportune time.

Do munchkins/midgets scare you? Why do you think they scare you? No.

Do knives scare you? Is it from watching scary movies? No.

Have you ever tried to sing opera? Did it work out for you or no? Uh, not seriously, lmao.

Do you know anyone named Tawny? I don't.

Can you count to 100,000,000? Have you ever tried before? No. According to Google, "It would take approximately 3.17 years to count to 100 million at a rate of one number per second." And some numbers take longer than a second to say, so…anyway…