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I recorded a podfic of Gym101 by @lexosaurus for VoiceTeam Mystery Box challenge DO THE WEIRD STUFF. I decided it is perfect to exercise to, so I read it during a workout ^^
Cover Art by @notbatman-52
Link: [Podfic] Gym 101 (by lexosaurus)
Rating: T
Length: ~15min
Summary:
Danny figured that revealing his identity to Valerie would result in her never wanting to speak to him again. Instead, she forces him to go to the gym with her.
#podfic#danny phantom podfic#danny phantom#dp#this was so much fun to record#And much more intensive than I expected#I still feel the workout#when I walk on the stairs#10/10 would recommend#but maybe not the best way to produce quality podfics
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That breakroom gossip comic was so fun! Do the little reapers have any more fun stuff to share? Loved getting to see their “releaxed” escapades during the holiday update 😂
[Holiday Update]
Uses this as an excuse to airdrops a whole legend we didn't have time to dip into last time in here
As usual, many thanks to @alagaesia-overlord for letting me borrow her OC Strix and also for co-writing the script!
#kirby oc#lady helia#phemus#strix#the singularity#breakroom gossip#flip flops last time we were a little silly time to dispense little a lore instead#Bam. Surprise Stell isn't the only one who gets an Origins Lore Post this week#hi hello this has been on my docket of things to share since like.#before June asdlfksdjgn#'oh yeah I'll do this in stained glass style! it's just using the straight and curve line tool it'll be easy peasy!'#friends it was more labour intensive than I expected asldkfjsdgn#But it came out nice so I won't complain too much!#Anyways I've been dropping crumbs here and there all this time Rolling a whole entire breadloaf for u all just for today enjoy<3#long post#woe. cvs receipt.png be upon you
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Mitch Marner Media Availability | 11.27.24
#toronto maple leafs#mitch marner#hockeyedit#egifs#2425#leafs lb#media availability#he sounded so... authoritative and intense and confident even through frustration#you can just tell hes been taking on that role even more w auston out i wannafjk fuckignggg.... god#not even admitting that theyd be expected to lose eveyr now and then with a depleted rosterr like.#no a win is still the expectation but there arre reasons forr some of the numbers. hes sosnj ksjl. EEVYERHRITNG ABT HIM LATELY JUST GODDD#mitch i love u so much.#he was not rlly having it with them and was a bit morre insightful than hes been altely i love it
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The Maskmaker (New Age AU Drabble)
Hiiiii. So, this isn't very long and doesn't do Nightmare or N enough justice, but I wrote this a while ago and my lovely pals looked at me w/ big ol' eyes on my post about posting it, sooooo!!! Here it is!!
This is shortly after Night's coronation and follows Ancha's drabble regarding Ccino + his remaining by Night's side!
These halls. They were cold. Colder than the rest of the castle.
Nightmare only knew, thanks to the gentle puff of steam left by his shallow breaths as he stepped down the corridor. The dark, long, corridor.
He couldn't feel it. No. His sense of warmth and cold had faded almost instantly after eating the apple. The nervous chill in his core had been replaced with a luke-warm air. Like a puddle left after a summer rain. The chill couldn't reach him.
Still, he wore his cloak. One which Ccino had tailored not a week ago because he feared Nightmare would feel bare without it. His old one used to keep him warm. Ccino was right, of course. Purposeless or not, the new heavy fabric kept him centered. Covered the restless twitching of his tendrils as he spoke with the few he could bring himself to communicate with since the incident.
Now, it's bottom hem was suspended away from the old floors, just barely, by his extra limbs.
His steps were silent, he wasn't sure when that had begun, but he imagined in this darkness no one would know he was there at all until the Cyan of his eyelight was turned upon them.
He approached the door. Finally reaching the ornate, carved surface he'd visited only once before. When he and Dream were young. Nim had ordered them to come alone and let the mask-maker measure them. So they'd know when time came for them to commission their own masks. They didn't have to come down, the mask-maker already knew their measurements. They always did.
His knuckles hovered away from the door. With its carving of that tree, swirling and dancing in the low light his eyelight provided. This space held more lingering emotions than he'd expected. His hand trembled a bit.
No. He couldn't chicken out. He couldn't go crying, this was important to him. It was his right. It was... the least he could do.
His fist connected with the door, twice, steadily. The loud sound echoed into the space behind him, and he stood. Prepared to face heckling and anger abd fear, for he wasn't sure the mask maker even knew of his rise to the throne. He hadn't been there, after all. At the ceremony.
The door swung inward, and... Nightmare found hinself staring down at a monster.
This monster... was not the one whom he remembered.
Before, when he was young, he recalled a large, imposing monster. Heavy clay hands that held the pristine masks so carefully. Kind eyes which skimmed sorrowful past him, and handed him that lovingly carved owl mask. The one made simply out of dark wood.
Now, the monster stood before him, leaning in the doorframe, was not that monster. This one was slightly shorter than him, stocky in the shoulders, and bundled in layers of cloaks and gloves. Their face hid behind the mask of some sort of rabbit, bright, burning lights behind the eye-holes were a soft lavender and blue. Only a lashing tail gave away their species. A skeleton varient.
"Mask-maker." He greeted, composure renewed.
The monster blinked, before they widened the door a bit more. A wave of amusement and excitement washed over Nightmare, and he thought he might be sick from just how potent it was.
"Ah, my King!" They exclaimed, and Nightmare could almost hear the smile in their tone. "I wasn't expecting you so soon after your whole coronation, come in!"
They darted away from the door, allowing Nightmare to see past them. The room beyond was as he remembered. The large sets of work-benches, suspended candles, piles upon piles of wood. Masks lined every inch of the walls, though now he could see newer ones piling up along shelves and along the stations.
The monster seemed to round to a large chair, much too oversized for them, and plop down into it. Nightmare drifted inside, closing the door behind him carefully.
"You royals only come down to see me for masks, that is my job though," They mused. "Or, well, that's what my mentor always said."
Nightmare drew closer to the opposite side of the table which now separated them. He could see the messy, amalgamated surface of a partially-completed work laying between them. The wood mangled and frayed not unlike torn flesh.
"I must ask," He knew he had other business and little time, but, "Who are you, mask maker? My mother never mentioned a change in position."
It would be just his luck that a fraud would be hidden here in the depths. Though, the emotions were simply so delighted. They swirled about, as though every flick of their tail sent another ripple through the air.
A giggle erupted from behind their mask.
"Oh, I think I like you already, my king!" They said happily, "Mask-makers have never been asked such a thing by the royals! We have always been known to retire and pass on the mantel without care from you folks."
They divulged the information so easily, but Nightmare didn't recieve the answer he had asked for. It took a few more breaths before they spoke again.
"My name is N, my King. Call me as you see fit, I change as easily as replacing my mask." They finally admitted. "King Nim visited me once, two years ago, only to inform me her prince may quickly approach after his coronation. Though, I'm sure you're not the one she meant?"
Nightmare withheld the hiss which desperately wanted to bubble up in his throat. His tendrils whipped about in frustration. Guilt. Of course they were expecting Dream. He'd figured as much.
"No matter. I am here to serve my king, and that king is you, my good sir." They dipped their head a bit, "So, what is it you'd like me to carve? A noble wolf? A regal ibis? Something fitting a consort or-"
"None of that." Nightmare cut them off, his good socket narrowing in disgust. The thought made his stomach churn.
He thought he'd have to wait for her to speak up again, but found they had quieted and were seemingly awaiting information.
"My... head of house. Recently promoted as of my ascension." He said, slower. He wouldn't get worked up again, "He deserves only the best, and I know you understand this well."
N seemed to smile beneath the mask again, their eyelights hidden in thin crescent slits.
"Describe away, my king!" They exclaimed, reaching out for a scrap of paper.
Nightmare remembered how he'd been taught. To describe the mask with intention. Feelings and thoughts tucked away into each and every word. Those were supposed to be insightful for the mask-maker. To guide their hand as they carved.
"This mask. I would like it to be the Visage of a cat. Well-kept, clean, orderly." He spoke, gently, drawing his eye away from the table and to the plain floor were nothing would influence his thought. "A kind face, soft. Trustworthy and bold. Clever. Warm."
Nightmare wasn't sure what came over him. Descriptions and feelings tumbled from his jaws for what felt like ages. By the time he finished, his throat was raw with emotion. His hands clutched the inside of his cloak like a life-line.
It was the tapping of N's charcoal stick to her desk which alerted Nightmare. Made his eyelight snap back up to her position.
Though, she'd already put her sketch down and was up and across the room. Tugging at her piles and piles of enchanted and imported woods. For being a stationary monster, they had strength to move the wood with ease.
"You've given me the perfect working material, my King! This mask should be done in four-days time." They assured him, not turning around.
Their emotions read as elation now. A pure, unadulterated joy at the... the way Nightmare had described his mask? He could only imagine his magic intent had something to do with it. Ccino would, hopefully, understand.
Oh!
"The mask. You are aware who it is for?" He questioned.
N hummed, before popping away from the stack of wood with a nice chunk of white-ish wood. It reminded Nightmare of cooked fish flesh, a pristine off-white with an intricate pattern.
"I can only imagine it's that guy? Ccino? Good for him with the promotion, by the way. I'm sure he had his fair share of struggles to get there." N replied.
Nightmare gave a minute nod. He hated that he had a heavy suspicion as to why N already knew Ccino by name. Nefarious plans set by his mother yet again. Bastard woman.
He debated staying longer. Watching N strip the bark away or making smalltalk.
In the end, it was better to leave. His hands were still shaking and his gut felt like it'd spill if he felt one more overwhelming emotion from the craftsman he was standing with. So, he bid them a farewell, promised to return in four days time, and exited from that heavy wooden door.
The trip would be worth it so long as N delivered. And she would.
#new age au#N is goofy af#her mentor moved shortly before Dream's coronation to go retire (tbh he didn't want to be around when Night was going to die) and N#has no attachment to either prince so she was an easy fit! she'll be around for#... a while. mainly because she is That morally corrupt and also there's not an ounce of Teaching blood on her bojes#so when she finally gets an apprentice it's because she has to or she was sought out by someone lol#This is pretty much the whole process btw.#Nightmare has to go down there personally#alone#and describe the mask + the traits he most recognizes and appreciates from the reciever#the tree's lingering magic *does* coax out more intense emotions (hense Night's frazzled state + N's intensity) but it just helps the proces#ofc Night does this for every single knight (N seems less than shocked with Killer recieving one and is a bit pleased to fibd Dust abd#Horror next. she *is* surprised by Cross though. not because he was a spy but because she didn't expect Nightmare to host a ball in his#small state!#and ofc she also knows almost instantly when Night is small. they're nosy and Night coming to visit them for Cross' mask gives it away#she doesn't care tho! she's just happy to see her master's work still in order!#this does also imply that Dream has to come down when he gets the 'fancy' mask for Blue#and when the gang decides Nightmare needs a new mask from them Ccino manages to go down alone (claiming Sibling/parent privilege and#N doesn't deny it) and they scheme with her to one-by-one visit and speak their mind on Night and get something new for him#last note: N is everywhere. i mean. usually she's down in the basement#but she goes out to town#visits the servants and guard and council#everyone assumes N belongs to another group living in the castle and she never corrects them lmao-#okay anywqys like I said Short and Old but it's been hoding lore so it shall be released! :D
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Any thoughts about your Hello Es AU?🎤
Thank you ooh -- this was so fun to think about! (I did some art earlier here :)) Spoiler warning for all three episodes of Hello Charlotte 🧸👁️🩸
So, out there in the real world somewhere, there exists “real Es”, (the Charles of the story) who has created Es as his perfect protagonist/ideal identity. Real Es ends up killing someone, and undergoing some kind of psychotic break that creates The House (now known as The Prison). Various people from his life appear there, each with their own murder, reflecting Real Es’ complex feelings about their own crime.
Es/Charlotte – A puppet at the whims of the audience. They have many forms along with conflicting thoughts and motivations. As lax as they may get about their own safety, they always take their duty to the tenets very seriously. They have a little Magalope pet :3 I know in canon the characters are separate, but I’m still picturing them as some combination of Q84 and Ep1/2 Charlotte.
Fuuta/Felix – The fiery friend who's all bark and no bite. He’s the most openly aggressive out of everyone, but still ends up trying to help people around him. Through his attempts to do something helpful, his recklessness, and need to be treated as an adult, he can find himself in pretty significant danger.
Kazui/Aiden – Calm and quiet, but you get a sense he's very observant to the current situation in his silence. Just because he prefers to do his tailoring/piano hobbies doesn't mean he doesn’t have that underlying demon strength. The most parental over Es, even if they're not always receptive.
Shidou/Huxley – A doctor/scientist with a desire to help save the most (alien) lives that he can, even if it means living on the run as a criminal, as well as an odd coolness when it comes to unethical medical procedures.
Mikoto and John/Bennett – when he’s high on soap, he’s as cheery as always :) Just a normal working guy, you probably won’t even remember his face under the hazmat suit, very normal :) When the effects wear off and the stress gets to him, though, John fronts and isn't afraid to defend himself from any perceived threat.
Yuno/Florence – Puts up a cheery front and is happy to work when she's having fun. After a bit of prodding, she reveals a much more serious and jaded side. She gets along with everyone, but isn't afraid to tell her real feelings to Es when the time is right.
Haruka and Muu /Anri – I’m kind of splitting Anri to make two characters, still capturing her fluctuating status in school and attitude of give-and-receive in friendships. They're caring but clingy, they can be protective but also aggressive. Both of them go back and forth between the personalities we see from her in all three episodes.
Amane/Frei – (I know in canon Frei is another Charlotte, so I think that works well given how close they are in age and stubbornness.) She sees things through a view of gods/religion, even if not everyone sees the situation that way. She's a bit at odds with Es, trying to persuade them to join in her mindset, but genuinely cares for their well-being while doing it.
Mahiru/Vincent – The new friend with some strange delusions of a perfect “heavenly” world, a hobby of literature, and suicidal intentions. Es takes pity on her after she receives serious injuries from people who reject her. Real Es developed some kind of attachment to her real counterpart (like Charles' idolization of Vincent), and this manifests into Mahiru crazy about relationships and love.
Kotoko/Scarlett – Has a close mindset to Es (close enough to stem more directly from them) but her intensity and drive for perfection/justice turn them into enemies in some timelines. She gets the closest look at the “real” situation compared to the others, seeing behind the scenes and criticizing Es and the Prison as a whole. She's determined she could do better herself, and Es takes her up on that…
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I’m not going to make a whole post, but for a reverse au I think it’d be fun to see The House tenants featured in Charles’ milgram mv – as the focal character, the audience/Warden would probably assume Charlotte was his victim. Only later would they realize that Charlotte is the stand-in for himself, and that truly he feels responsible for not stopping Vincent’s suicide.
#milgram#es#haruka sakurai#yuno kashiki#fuuta kajiyama#muu kusunoki#shidou kirisaki#mahiru shiina#kazui mukuhara#amane momose#mikoto kayano#john milgram#kotoko yuzuriha#hello charlotte#i know anri really fits muu but i ran out of characters for haruka 😭 so he gets to be part of anri too lol#i wasnt picturing a separation of agressive anri/sad anri -- both of them are both versions#i really wanted mappi as bennett with her cheeriness but it worked so much better this way#ah... what i would give to be in the secret clone room..... Who Said That#im picturing the hello charlotte soundtrack getting mv songs mixed in (but piano/music box versions)#and im wondering if charles' mv genre would be the sweet piano vibe or the more intense kind from the soundtrack#sorry this is jumping in front of some of the drabbles because theyre taking longer than expected and these were quicker to jot down#thank you for the ask pal!!#i had a lot of fun thinking about these ough#amane frei was a last minute choice but ive been going crazy thinking about her.....#and the thought of lab team 02-03-09 made me so happy asdfsdf
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Fellas can you take this somewhere else. Maybe. Just not in the fucking halls. Thanks 🫡
I couldn't resist drawing out these tags I wrote on a dif post LMFAO
Moe just has...... SO many problems.......
Close-ups of my fave shots!
The elusive Líf...
#fire emblem#feh#i'm like. split between feeling proud of this and feeling So Over It LMFAOOOOOOO#which is why. lighting could be better. but i don't care enough to put in more work than i already have LMFAOO#LIKE... ONE COOL PART is this could be my first fully colored comic piece w completely original dialogue???#where like. i didn't quit at any point of it. EXCEPT. skimping on the backgrounds. but again. more effort than i'm willing to put in#but i think it still counts bc my only real plan was to have the askr pillars/walls as framing/backdrops#ALSO the characterization... in the panel where lif walks into frame. it's SO fun to me#they both look at lif. but moe is Not subtle about it. looking directly at him. while alfonse side-eyes him.#and the most IMPORTANT detail. is that alfonse and lif are making the same kind of face. like 🤨#there is SO MUCH POTENTIAL. in alfonse and lif sharing facial expressions. in having the same knee-jerk reactions to things.#and it's espppp fun to figure out bc you're only working w half of lif's face. it's all in the eyes/brows and SOMETIMES!#SOMETIMES!!!! it's in the nose! in this illust he is more relaxed/resting so you don't see it here#but i'm TELLING you. adding some scrunch to the nose can add soooo much expression-wise#this took longer than i expected it to. also. which is why i'm so over it LMFAOO#but i do think the extra time was worth it... first run of the last panel was too lighthearted/jokey#capturing some conflict between moe/alfonse was the right choice. in how intensely this starts off (tonally)#AND! in showing how they do butt heads at times. in fact sometimes they clash REALLY badly!!!!#which is actually so huge bc i've wanted to capture this since the beginning. how they're so similar but also so opposite#that a lot of times! they understand each other deeply and cover each other's basis. HOWEVER.....#other times. it's just catastrophic. like it isn't That intense here but you can probably see how it goes horribly wrong.#i am... always thinking about it.... and only occasionally stressing myself out about it LMFAOOO#fe alfonse#fe lif#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics
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just read this part of the adventurer's bible and
do you think toshiro was originally attracted to falin (whilst still being irritated by many of her same traits in laios) because he thought his father would find her interesting???
#undescribed#eliot posts#dunme#dungeon meshi#dm spoilers#idk how i feel about him#my first impression was positive bc he had a cool character design (and i found him quite handsome personally lol)#but also he was mean to laios :(#but also laios was asking him intrusive questions and messing up his name#but also he should have just spoken up instead of expecting others to just read his mind#but also dude was a nobleman in what looks like feudal era japan#which to my (albeit limited) historical knowledge had even more intense politeness rules than like. the victorian era#so if the dunmeshi world is like the irl era then it could be a cultural thing that he felt he couldn't vocalize that stuff directly#and also he was in love with falin and seemed to like her weirdgirl tendencies. which i appreciate and respect. like. me too dude.#but also how much was genuine feelings and how much was seeing her as a novelty?#BUT ALSO did his family own fucking SLAVES??? and was he cool with that???#or did i miss something/am i misunderstanding something?#like is the guy having a sixpenceee moment here#or am i just misunderstanding context/history here?
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This is what my SPG Pinterest board looks like rn if you even care
As of late, this makes me feel very happy
I can’t explain
#spg#steam powered giraffe#rabbit spg#she’s so wonderful#she looks like the cool aunt that would take you to cool places every time you visit and spend way more money than you’d expect#she also (at the same time) looks like she can say some very hurtful things to just about anyone but ESPECIALLY to anyone who talks behind#her or her family’s back#And she kind of scares everyone except her family#whether it be because she’s so beautiful and intense that it’s intimidating#or because she could be really mean if she wanted to#she would fight anyone who is mean to you#Don’t even think about messing up her or anyone that’s associated with her’s order#but this is all in a girlboss way not in a Karen way#oh my god I love her so much#my stuff
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Have been checking out your blog and fuck, now I really wanna pin you down and frot your puppy cock until you're wet enough that I can fit my they/them dick in your tight puppy parts~
reading this made me whimper and rub my thighs together hhhh~~ my cock throbbing just from thinking about being used like this
don’t stop pushing your dick into me if i whine, but push my legs up to fold me in half, fucking my pup cunt as you hold me down in a mating press. don’t stop even after you feel my body spasm as i cum, don’t stop even if i howl and cry from pleasure pain, but start jerking off my tiny pupcock whilst continuing to thrust into me, the overstimulation making my cunt clench around you until you’ve bred me to your satisfaction
#this got so much more intense than i expected#sorry#not sorry#i’m just a#wet and needy#dumb puppy#t4t nsft#nsft puppy#trans nsft#t4t puppy#cnc free use#cnc overstim#mating press makes my pup brain go brrr#pup replies!
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actually first ep of Voyager where Janeway talks to Tuvok about how his family misses him is that when she says they Worry about him Tuvok contradicts her and claims that Vulcans don't do that but when she corrects and says they Miss him he accepts this and admits he misses them too; implying perhaps a pedantic difference between 'Vulcans do not Feel Emotions' (false) and 'Vulcans do not Act Out of Emotion' (accurate) -> 'Miss/Longing' is an emotion, but 'Worry' is an action one does out of emotion -> one Vulcans do; one Vulcans do not.
#N posts stuff#continuation of thoughts from my last post bc i can smell the counterarguments of 'vulcans are not emotional and are#therefore not impulsive and therefore no vulcan child Would run off unattended' which is Wrong#but also a half formulated thought regarding: how often characters will CLAIM that 'vulcans don't do X' and how often#people take that at face value instead of accepting it as like. a character motivated Lie that is being told lol#ie) when Spock claims 'Vulcans don't Have emotions' this is a lie he tells because 1) it's funny to him or 2) this is an Exaggerated#expectation he feels put on him BC other vulcans are more ready to judge his behavior based purely on the knowledge of his#half human genetics -> Spock is forced to hold a Higher standard just to get others to acknowledge they are Minimally equal#ALT: we do Know that Vulcan emotions are deeper/more intense than they visibly show; it doesn't feel Standardized to me that#daily Vulcan culture would DENY the existence of emotions entirely (unless one undergoes Kohlinar which seems to be a Rarer#and more Intense lifestyle Choice SOME vulcans make) bc that Feels like it would be a Lie which wouldn't be Logical to uphold#BUT i Can see conversations About those emotions being one of those things Vulcans keep extraordinarily close to their chest#in Amok Time Spock was ready to Die before he'd tell anyone about a biochemical process his body was experiencing; I can see#emotions as a whole being an almost Equally intimate thing to share w/ outsiders -> hence the 'Vulcans Don't experience emotion'#claim being made in broader Outside society ; you'd talk about it w/ other vulcans but Not with a bunch of humans#(Spock being an arguable Exception to this standard BC of the 'has to uphold a Higher Standard just to be permitted on even ground)#this post is a lot of thinking aloud idk how much coherence there is here but it's fun to think about on many paths
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i'm really struggling.. . i havent washed my hair in a week and my emotions are flip floppity all over the place and i'm so overwhelmed and irritable. i feel gross and i've barely been eating but i can't get up and clean myself or make food i just get confused and tired and cry. i'm so sick of this......... i'm processing so much and ketamine has thrown everything at me at once i feel simultaneously way worse and better
i used to be numb but now i'm feeling everything at once and i knowww that's a sign of healing but i genuinely feel like i'm on a carnival ride that never stops
#the ketamine is working but i feel like shit and i am not happy... yet#it's a process i know this#but this is so much more screwed up and intense than i expected#my suicidal thoughts are gone and i dont wake up feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders anymore#but damn i cannot emotionally regulate i'm just a mess#💭
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I know the last one was very recent but needta take another week off lol, Weekly TV Guide will be back next week ♥
#I hate to do it again so soon but my brain exploded <3#Tried to do too many things all at once and it tired me out lol#My behind-the-scenes project had more steps than I thought :P And I started a drawing with more details than I expected#Who knew drawing flowers was so intensive! Certainly not me lol#Back to updating my YouTube channel so there's a few video edits worked on as well#And I've been writing more lately than probably the last six months combined lol#Still trying to doodle and edit those down in the meanwhile and real life obligations-#I hadn't realized how much it all took out of me until I was already exhausted lol how silly!#I'm good! Excellent rather ♪ Just - fallen behind on other things lol#Gotta figure out how to balance Everything I want to do haha hopefully a week is enough time lol ♫
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as a general rule, on average, if americans consistently complain about a food being conceptually weird, gross, and scary, then it probably tastes amazing. or at least inoffensive.
this is because in my experience americans for the most part (give or take a few exceptions by region) think eating literally anything other than beef, chicken, bread, eggs, peanut butter jelly sandwitches, ketchup, and disgusting cloyingly artificial brown sludge soda is insurmountably weird, gross, and scary.
#a lot of people literally refuse to even eat ham or pork#not even for like religious or health reasons#just because they think eating anything but beef and chicken is 'weird and scary and gross'#every time i hear people going on en masse about how 'weird and an acquired taste' something foreign is i go and try it and i'm just like#what the fuck were all of you smoking. where is the unbearable weirdness i am supposed to be experiencing#shoutout to that time i kept hearing about how bizarre a flavor milkis soda is and how intimidating and acquired of a taste#then when i actually try the stuff. it's just fucking peach soda. it's peach soda with a faint tangy yogurtish taste. it makes good floats.#how in the absolute fuck is anything even remotely weird much less gross about this?#unless your concept of what a 'soda' should be is poisoned by a lifetime of the entire soda aisle being filled with nothing but brown sludg#from the same 3 brands that all taste like what would happen if they could distill the concept of diabetes and artificial flavoring syrup#i don't know if other countries have this but there's this weird cultural like mandatory rejection of any 'unusual' food here#way more intense than i've seen from anyone from any other country (though that might just be inexperience with other cultures talking)#people react to the mere suggestion of any food outside a very narrow range with outright disgust and genuine fear and horror#and there's a huge amount of unspoken peer pressure on everyone to also do the same#like you're expected to agree with them and you've breeched some sort of silent social contract if you don't#it's seen as *immoral* almost it feels like#it's difficult to describe unless you've noticed it yourself#americans react to the mere suggestion of eating anything outside of the same 2 meats and handful of fillers the same way#that pearl-clutching aristocrat grandmas react to hearing that people in foreign countries do.. basically anything#it doesnt matter if you're suggesting eating ube cake or suggesting eating live bugs because people will react the same way#everything that's not chicken/beef/ect is as good as bugs to people here#hate this stupid blandass country and how impossible it is to afford any food other than burgers if you're not rich#or blessed with relatives that have any idea how to cook and are at all willing to teach you#cause nother weird thing i've noticed about food culture-or at least wasp food culture-that i haven't seen anywhere else quite the same way#is that if you DO have any relatives that know how to cook then nine times out of ten they will jealously guard their recipes like a dragon#and refuse to share them with anyone#thus taking whatever little cooking knowledge was in the family to their grave#so the opportunity other people usually have for family bonding via passing on recipes? pffft no.#for some reason we seem to actively go out of our way to prevent these things from being passed on#i don't know what the fuck is up with that but i suspect it has something to do with 50's dinner party oneupmanship
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Im so sorry i played Our Life: beginnings and always and not only has it sucker punched me with bittersweet feelings of life and change and relationships but its also thrown me into brain rot hell of it. Im sorry if ocean boy cove floods your feed get it? Its a pun
#t-n talks#personal#our life: beginnings & always#olba#i love him so much i love them all so much i need to replay with all the dlcs and get shiloh to come to our wedding#because i named a fosh after him in like step 2 or 3 and i missed him and i dont care if he lied to us im sorry shiloh#come baaack#but also baxter what happened baxter we missed you so much youre important to us youre important to meeeeeee#everyones my friend now how do i have jeremy at my wedding but not shiloh? jeremy you should have made shiloh suffer tooooo#im so glad i got jeremy though god i felt for him so bad like genuinely what was wrong while he was mean to us#i just wanted to be nice and friends but also dont be mean to cove and im so glad hes mellowed out a bit hes really a good kid sometimes#i love them all so much dereeeekkkkk hes such a good friend god hes SUCH A GOOD FRIEND im screaming#and baxter baxter baxter baxter sometimes i dont think hes in love with us but in love with our relationship but also like#i wouldnt mind us three being closer because youre fucking important to me baxter just like jeremy#youre all part of this found family gay as shit now if i can be adopted then that means i can adopt you too!!!#god but seriously? like i expected to cry because of relationship love drama at first not because i was having#complicated feelings about being adopted and my relatiinship with my sister god ive never had an older sister really#and my siblings and i arent super close but im adopted and i dont think ive ever wanted something more than this family#this game man i just god my fiance was like “i dont think this game was meant to be so deep/intense” but like its a visual novel#novels are meant to invoke feelings and thoughts and discussion and reflection at least thats what i believe every story has a purpose#its up to us to figure out what its purpose is maybe not in general but to us what can we take away from it and god#it makes me want to hold onto my friendships tightly and reach out to everyone i knew/know#i have too many tags on here because of brain rot but i love this game and im so excited for the next one and i would love to download#like my log of the entire game so that i can recap everything at like my leisure#just cause im not gonna remember all my choices and stuff
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Masking and RSD are a brutal combination huh
#Doing it scared when you've got a condition which gives you sudden & violently intense bursts of self loathing without warning is one thing#but combining it with a a system of coping mechanisms that are incredibly energy intensive#and the external expectations that end up policing reactions outside the previously established (masking) norm is the coup de grace#Being allowed to be visibly or tangibly stressed scared or annoyed would make this so much easier#but instead it just makes it worse because those around me either react negatively or hysterically both of which trigger the RSD even more#it ends up costing more emotionally and mentally managing the emotions of those around me so I don't cascade into meltdown#than it does to continue masking#which itself already incredibly draining and disassociative
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You ever write some shit where you're like 'oh yeah I'm totally just describing what this guy is doing in his free time nothing else im just setting the scene it's unnecessarily detailed for no particular reason' and then realize you are in fact just info dumping about some shit you are interested in actually
#writing about ed edgar raising ball pythons in absurd detail in a story that is absolutely not about that bc i personally love snakes <3#down to like the specific morph of the snake and how it stays with it's siblings until after it's first shed#as if that has anything to do with anything else that's about to happen after his snake time gets interrupted by the actual plot lmao#also it is a cut over to Ed's perspective after what is just about the most intense scene in this little oneshot I'm writing#which makes it much funnier bc of the sudden change in tone#i mean that was the point. the tone contrast was very much on purpose. but it ended up a lot more intense than i expected lol#anyways I'm coping with no wifi by spending all my time writing some incredibly specific bs when i should be working on inheritance lmao#look sometimes you're running on nothing but five hours of sleep and blorbo thoughts#and you end up spending a day writing 3000 words of an incredibly specific scenario in which said blorbo gets the shit kicked out of them#and then you end the day writing a bit about his friend peacefully raising snakes and listening to cowboy music in the meantime#atlas speaks#side note. the fact that these stupid little personal posts keep ending up on my main is a testament to the power of this fandom#bc this is the type of thing that absolutely would've been quarentine to my personal blog where no one would've seen it a few months ago#so that's kind of cool
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