The Weeping Monk x Reader : Born In The Dawn Chapter 16
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Story Summary: Locked inside a dark room in a dungeon, kept alive only for your power, you believed you’d never see the daylight again. That is until the Weeping Monk finds his way down and steals you from your captors. It is the beginning of a journey that leads you through hardship and newfound hope, but nothing is assured in a world that is changing for the Fey. The magic that runs in your veins is drawing out the worst the world has to offer, does it include the man who pulled you from the dark?
Chapter Title: Chosen
Notes:
Warnings: Grief. Violence. Torture. Sexual Assault. Rape Threat. Gore. Enemies To Lovers. Pining. Trauma. Flagellation. Manipulation. Strong Language. Blood. Gore?. Misogyny. PTSD. Spicy and smut parts. Slight redemption arc.
Other warnings: Jealousy. Forbidden Love. Romance. Slow-burn…
Word count of this fic: +190K
Chapter: 16/ It’s a secret.
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You had spend the day practicing to walk again, Squirrel and Lancelot took turns helping. Your leg felt better, but the fever had taken a toll on your body and you had to stop multiple times.
Lancelot was helping you walk the short distance up and down the hall, not confident enough to let you try the stairwell until you felt a bit physically stronger.
“I need to get better. We shouldn’t be staying here for much longer, there are too many people looking for us.” You said while taking the turn at the end of the hall to walk down it again.
He was using his body to balance you next to him. “I strongly discourage leaving tomorrow. Let us wait until the day after, when we are certain that the medicine has done it’s task.”
You were concerned about the consequences it could bring. “I just don’t want to end up in a dungeon again.”
He wanted to know where the fear truly lies, “Are you worried Soran will find you? Or that the Trinity Guard is on our tail?”
Both were threats, one was worse than the other. “Soran has a worse reputation among the Dawn Folk than the Trinity Guard and Red Paladins ever had. Only one other was claimed to be as bad.”
Lancelot risked asking, “Am I the other?”
You looked at him apologetically. “You were. I’m sorry.”
Past tense?
“I understand.” He could not blame you for it.
You almost tripped over a damaged floorboard and he stopped with you until you were ready to continue.
You started walking again. “Hutch and Ives were part of the Reapers’ Brotherhood. I think they never told him that they had found me, I would not have been there for so long if they had.”
It made him question Soran’s motives, “What does he want with you? He would have traded your family to have you.”
You refused to believe that the Reaper was hunting you for the same reason you had left home. “There is only four of the Dawn Folk left. And Soran has been known to have taken and caused the deaths of many of them. I am just one of the many.”
He could tell that there was a reason you were always vague about your past. There was something you weren’t telling him.
Lancelot stopped with you in the middle of the hallway, “Is there something I should know? Something you are not telling me?”
The intensity in his eyes caused you to reply sharply, “No.”
You were lying. And he greatly disliked it.
You looked away when he kept looking you in the eyes, “How did you afford the medicine? Did you take the coins from my satchel that I got off that lord?”
His voice was monotone. “I killed the merchant and threw his body in the lake.”
Shock washed over your face and you pulled yourself away from him, “YOU WHAT?!”
The slight smirk on his face betrayed him. “I traded a dagger for it.”
You couldn’t believe he had you fooled. “You’re unbelievable!”
The Monk tried to take hold of your arm again but you refused to let him help you after that.
“What if you fall?” He walked behind you.
You used the wall for support as you stumbled through the hallway with only your anger as fuel. “I’d rather have the floor touching me than you.”
Even when you heard him chuckle, you refused to look at him.
Squirrel came up the stairs and saw you walk alone, he hurried over to you and quickly supported your side, then he scolded Lancelot, “Why aren’t you helping her?!”
The smirk was wiped off of Lancelot’s face right away. “She refused my help.”
The snippy boy then said, “I’ll do it then. You go and find us something to eat.”
He looked down at the overprotective young Fey knight. “We have cheese.”
Squirrel was quite blunt about it, “We’ve had cheese for days now. Find something else. Use your nose.”
You reeled the boy in before it got worse, “Squirrel.”
The boy looked at you, then back at him, “Please?”
Lancelot’s smirk returned. “Very well. I shall see what I can find.”
You watched him walk down the stairs and Squirrel helped you back to the room to rest.
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The Monk had found some edible berries that fit well together with the cheese, and the apples he found were a blessing.
After the three of you had eaten, he had went to the lower floor to see to the horses.
It was already dark and Squirrel had fallen asleep next to you on the bed, you didn’t want the boy to sleep on the ground again.
The Monk had been downstairs for quite a long time and you considered it possible that he might not feel like coming to the room.
You knew that he was aware that you had lied to him about hiding something.
You got out of the bed, careful not to wake Squirrel as you did.
With a fair amount of effort, you got down the stairwell on your own.
Getting through the hall that led to the church-like building was another challenge.
It was there that you found him, he was sitting on one of the pews right before the alter.
He was praying…
You knew he had not seen you yet and you wanted to leave.
Lancelot did not turn around, but stopped praying. “I know you’re there.”
Dammit…
You went into the building and walked over to him, “What are you praying for?”
“That is quite a personal question.” He remarked, then turned his head to face you. “I pray for guidance.”
You went to sit next to him, “Not forgiveness?”
He sat with his elbows on his knees, his hands folded together. “Praying for forgiveness while continuing the sin is futile.”
“Why pray to a god who will not listen?” It was a genuine question.
He asked you a similar one, “Why pray to gods who hurt you when you do not do their bidding?”
“Faith?” You guessed.
He nodded. “Or habit. It is either praying to a divine power, or our minds arguing with ourselves.”
Well… he had a valid point there.
A soft laugh escaped you. “I guess we just all want someone to listen to us sometimes.”
He enjoyed the sound of that and opened up more, “I do not know why I pray to God anymore, I reach out and there was only ever darkness.”
The small smile on your face went away, “You have always struggled with serving the Church, haven’t you?”
There was not a day when he had not questioned his faith, “I have.”
A silence fell between you, and then you placed a hand on his shoulder and gave it a squeeze before letting go again.
“I think you and I need to talk.” You said
Why did hearing that, frighten him?
It was irrational, this could be about anything.
You did not leave him in suspense, “I am not sure what to think of the situation we find ourselves in. Please, do not be upset, it’s just… I never thought I would be out here fleeing those hunting us with the Weeping Monk.”
He was glad to hear that you wanted to explain how you were experiencing this. “I understand your reluctance to trust me. I did not think I would one day be out here with a Fey woman and child either.”
A small smile crept on your face again, “It’s strange, isn’t it?”
It came out like he hoped you agreed with it, “Under the circumstances, I would say we are doing well?”
“We are.��� You agreed on that. “Listen, I know I am not a person who trusts others easily. But I am trying. And considering you could have just left me to die in this place instead of going through all that hassle, I owe it to you to try.”
He shook his head a little. “You owe me nothing.”
You weren’t going to start a debate over this and nudged his shoulder with your own. “Well, then I’ll just do it out of the goodness of my heart.”
He saw a chance to find out more about you now that you were in a good mood, “Can you find it in your heart to tell me the truth?”
You had hoped that he would have forgotten about you lying to him. “I meant what I said, I believe the Reaper just wants me because I am Dawn Folk.”
He was waiting for you to say more and it pushed you over the line to the truth.
“The Hidden chose me as a summoner.” You quietly confessed.
The term was not familiar to him, “Summoner?”
You explained it to him. “A summoner is a Fey chosen by the Hidden. Some Fey are more attuned to the Hidden than others and only a few can hear them. It’s why I was so surprised to learn that you can hear them too.”
“I have always tried to ignore them.” He said.
That couldn’t have been easy with how strong their pull could be.
You envied how he had been more successful. “Once they choose their summoners, they can be very persistent, as you have seen. If I had accepted their offer, I would have been able to call upon them without it draining my energy so much.”
He sat upright more, “You refused the offer?”
You nodded. “With my abilities, I fear what I would become if I was given such power. No one person should have so much power, it poisons the heart and mind.”
He made the observation, “You do not trust the Hidden?”
Trust was not easy for you, but it was not the fault of the old gods that you feared the power they had offered. “I do not trust a power I do not understand. Everything comes at a price.”
He was puzzling it together, “Your family disagreed?”
Your gaze fell to your feet. “I disappointed them. They wanted me to become a summoner, to hide while others were slaughtered. I am Dawn Folk, I won’t hide while I could be saving them.”
Finally he understood. “That was why you left.”
You nodded, feeling yourself grow quiet. “Yes. If I left, I was told not to come back.”
Lancelot and you were quiet for a moment.
He could sense that family was a sensitive subject, and asked about your accomplishments that followed your departure, “Were you able to help many Feys before those Manbloods put you in that dungeon?”
It distracted you and made you try to count them all. “I think I healed almost a hundred before I was taken.”
The praise fell from him, “You followed your conscience and it is admirable.”
Was that a compliment?
“As did you.” You pointed out with a smile.
He wasn’t sure if he deserved the praise for it. “I had no plan.”
You shrugged your shoulders. “Neither did I.”
A smirk grew on his lips. “And now, here we are.”
You looked at the horses. “With somewhat of a plan, so I suppose we are getting better at this.”
He found himself growing more and more interested in your secrets, “Speaking of the plan, this friend we are traveling to, he wouldn’t happen to be named ‘Matthew’?”
You rolled your eyes and warned, “Don’t be nosy. I might put in a good word for you, if you don’t get on my nerves too much.”
His eyes widened slightly, then narrowed as he scoffed.
You got up from the pew. “I’m heading back upstairs. Squirrel is asleep.”
It took you a bit to get to the door that led to the cloister and before you could open the door, Lancelot was at your side.
You looked at him and with a tilt of his head began to support you by the elbow.
Together you walked down the path towards the stairwell.
He was pleased to see you walk again. “You are doing well.”
You were glad too. “That medicine and salve really helped.”
At the stairwell you cast him a glance and got a bit closer, “Gonna help me?”
The question surprised him, “Not going to try on your own?”
Right away, you took a step back again, feeling a bit stupid for asking. “Fine.”
He bit his tongue and put a hand against your back. “I was not serious.”
You send him a glare but held on to his shoulder for support anyway.
Step by step you ascended, finding that it was getting easier, the last few steps you were able to do on your own.
At the door of the room you quietly said, “You can sleep in one of the beds in the other rooms, we’ll be alright over here. You shouldn’t have to sleep on the floor.”
He gave an agreeing nod, and chose the room next to the one you and Squirrel were in. “Knock on the wall if you need me, I will hear it.”
You nodded back, “Thank you. Good night?”
He gave an inclination of the head and you walked into the room where Squirrel was still vast asleep on the bed.
You left the door open a little to show that you trusted Lancelot not to kill you in your sleep.
Squirrel was snoring a little, something you had gotten used to by now.
Quietly and carefully you got back into the bed and let that snoring help you fall asleep as well.
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The screaming rang into his ears like howling wind in ice cold weather.
His body jolted awake, hand reaching for his sword that rested a little further away against the side of the bed.
He was not even sure if it had been his nightmare or real.
The cloak was left behind in the room as he moved to the one you were in with the boy.
Only his sword accompanied him as he quietly moved the door further open than it was. It was a small sign of your trust towards him that the door was not locked.
His movements were calculated and quiet as he moved to the bed.
First he saw Percival, vastly asleep. He had to move around the bed to make sure you were alright as well.
The sight of you confirmed that the scream had only been part of his nightmare, it had been the memory of what he had heard when the wolf had set it’s teeth into your ankle.
It was rare for a dream to leave him as unsettled as he felt now. Your scream haunted him, even in his waking hours.
You were peacefully asleep, it helped him put his mind to ease again.
If you’d see him now, sword in hand whilst watching over your sleeping form, he knew you would be alarmed.
That believe was confirmed when your eyes slowly opened and he almost couldn’t stop himself from foolishly running off.
A gasp stumbled out of you while jolting upright in the bed.
“I thought I heard something.” He was quick to explain himself.
“Heard what?” You blurted out.
He sheepishly admitted, “A call for help.”
It was a guess, based on how he looked at you now, “From me?”
The Monk gave a shallow nod.
This man was looking quite pale in the little moonlight the window offered.
You moved the sheets away, carefully climbing out of the bed to make sure Squirrel did not wake.
When Lancelot saw you get up from the bed, he came to your side to support your elbow.
The fact that you didn’t even need to ask just showed how considerate he was becoming.
“Outside.” You whispered and walked out of the room with him.
Once in the corridor, you quietly closed the door behind you so Squirrel would not hear. You leaned against the wall. “You look distressed.”
It was a clear statement.
He grew somewhat uncomfortable, as if he believed you would demand to know why that was.
You let a silence fall, in the hope that his answer would fill it.
He looked off to the side, avoiding eye-contact, and said nothing for a while.
“I know I have been cold to you at times. But that does not mean that I am indifferent when I see that you aren’t doing well.” You admitted quietly, hoping it would help him.
Slowly his attention returned and he began to speak. “I was asleep, when I heard a scream. I had believed it to be real until I came to see that you and Percival were safe.”
It was impossible to miss how uncertain he looked while admitting to this.
His first reaction to a nightmare had been to come and make sure you and the boy were safe?
His subconscious was worried about your well-being…
You were quiet for a while, needing a moment to process the knowledge.
Opening up to someone like this, to admit he was forming an attachment, could not have been easy.
You would not exploit what you had learned tonight. “You’re protecting us…”
He swallowed thickly and send his gaze back to the wall again.
This growing attachment could break him…
Or perhaps he was already broken by the previous one that had ended with Father’s death.
Everything felt so fragile, so close to breaking apart. The more he let you learn of him, the easier it would be to be manipulated. And yet, his trust was growing day by day.
“And I am grateful that you are.” You told him, then patted his shoulder rather awkwardly. “I do hope you get some better sleep tonight.”
He just gave the smallest nod of acknowledgment, and you found yourself under that look he had when he was trying to read your mind. You met that look with a timid smile.
Then slowly, you turned and began to use the wall as support to get back to the room Squirrel was in, hearing a quiet sigh coming from him.
“Come here.” He said while taking hold of your elbow again to help.
He helped you back to the bed, then returned to the other room he had been sleeping in.
And you caught yourself hoping that his dreams would be more kind to him in the future.
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It did not surprise you one bit that Squirrel was no longer sleeping in the bed next to you that morning. Your ankle felt much better and you could walk easier now if you took slow steps.
You didn’t find them in the room next to yours and headed downstairs. The door to the chapter house was open, Lancelot and Squirrel were standing over a table with a map.
You walked into the chapter house room and asked, “Where did the map come from?”
Lancelot gestured to the table. “I found it here.”
You stopped next to Squirrel, “Planning the journey?”
He nodded. “I am. This friend, where will we find him?”
Your eyes squinted a bit and you pointed to an area on the map. “We’ll find them here.”
A quiet sigh escaped the Monk. “Moving past Uther’s castle will be difficult, the land around it is well guarded…” His finger grazed over the map. “If we go along the villages, we will be able to replenish our supplies and we need food. But…”
You guessed what the problem was. “We risk getting caught.”
He gave a nod while studying the map. “Along the river is an option as well, but if the weather is against us then a day of rain can leave us with soaked clothes for days.”
There were valid problems he was addressing.
After some thought, you considered the path along the villages the safest. “By going along the river, we will have no shelter or food. We’ll be easy targets for wolves again.”
Lancelot was looking at you to make the decision.
But you wanted his input on it, “If you were traveling alone, what would you do?”
He would be far more reckless in his decisions.
Now there were people counting on him again.
He answered, “I am not alone now. There is a person with me who is still healing from infection, and Percival. Along the villages it is then?”
You agreed on it and gestured to him. “Along the villages. Keep that cloak close, out of the three of us, you are the easiest to recognize.”
Squirrel came up with an idea, “We can put some mud on his face, so others will think his marks are just that too?”
Was the boy really comparing his markings with mud?
You gave Squirrel’s arm a nudge.
The Monk was trying not to take it personal and remind himself that Squirrel was often blunt but still just a child.
“Your Ash Folk markings do not like mud stains.” You said, then nudged the boy again. “Right, Squirrel?”
The boy looked up at your curiously, like he was baffled that you really thought so.
“Squirrel.” You said a little firmer.
The cheeky boy yielded. “Alright, fine. They don’t.”
Lancelot did not let it get to his heart. “Tomorrow we leave. Today we can prepare ourselves for the journey.”
The Monk rolled up the map and took it with him.
Together you walked to where the horses were and saw him begin to take off all the items Goliath wore that bore the cross symbol.
“Wise choice.” You went over to do the same with your horse.
Squirrel choose to help Lancelot, the boy was getting quite fond of the black steed and it’s rider.
“What?” The boy suddenly said.
You looked over at them and saw that the question was for Lancelot, Squirrel was looking back and forth between you and him.
“Nothing.” The Monk quickly answered.
Squirrel send him a doubtful look, which the Monk ignored.
That was odd…
Once the horses were relieved off their religious symbols, Lancelot suggested that it would be best to collect anything useful you could find.
While he did his best to get anything useful out of the old infirmary, you exchanged the remaining linen from the dungeon for the cleaner ones of the abbey.
They looked eerily similar and you were almost certain that the Brothers had taken them from this abandoned abbey too.
Squirrel was searching the place and returned from the kitchens with something useful. “Look what I found!”
You turned around to see him hold two empty large woven sacks that were almost bigger than him and praised the boy for it. “Goodness. Good find! We’ll use one, can you bring the other to Lancelot?”
Squirrel was already running over to the infirmary.
Those sacks would be far more handy than having to use a linen sheet to store everything inside. You went upstairs with the sack and rummaged through the rooms and every single cabinet or chest that you ran into.
In one of the rooms you found a comb, that was useful. The room next to it, at the end of the hall, contained what you had been wishing for.
A pair of trousers and a clean long sleeved shirt were in a drawer. The shirt was a little too big but your bodice would hide that well enough.
You stuffed them into the sack for later, when there was a moment to change into them.
Once you were done with searching the room, you went back downstairs and ran into Squirrel who had been on his way to you again. “I found a comb, I can help you with your hair now too.”
Squirrel grimaced and scrunched his nose at the idea. “No.”
You were left staring at his back when the boy began to walk away.
Just then, Lancelot came out of the infirmary and must have heard the boy’s answer, he took hold of Squirrel’s shoulder and steered the boy around and back to you.
The Monk told the boy what the result would be of this reluctance, “Would you prefer to cut it off once the knotting becomes too much?”
The boy whipped his head around. “No!”
He pushed the boy in your direction “Well then. Let her help you.”
A grumbling Squirrel went over to you, and you took him with you to the kitchen and had him sit on a chair there.
by giving a little tug at his vest and cloak, you signaled for him to take it off before it would be covered in fallen hair.
Squirrel took them off and let it drop to the floor, the Monk passed by him and picked it up to hold.
The whole room could feel how Percival’s mood had switched now.
When you began, you hadn’t thought it would be so bad as it was.
You tried not to worry about it as you encountered knot after knot and Squirrel barely held back a couple of curses.
It was a continuous change between you apologizing for it and him quietly cursing.
Lancelot had picked his battles, and letting the boy curse quietly was worth it if it meant the hair would be free of knots.
“You could use a comb too.” The boy sneered.
Lancelot arched a brow at the attitude he was faced with.
“We can all use a comb.” You corrected him. “And you could really use a fresh shirt too.”
You looked up at the Monk who tilted his head in agreement.
It didn’t feel right to let the boy wear a shirt that had not been washed in quite some time, “We could wash the one you are wearing, if we had a way to dry it quickly.”
Poor Squirrel sounded hopeful, “Really?”
So it had been bothering the boy…
The Monk gestured to the boy. “I’ll take care of it.”
You stopped combing Squirrel’s hair so the boy could take of his shirt and hand it to him. Lancelot proceeded to walk out of the room with it and you continued combing Squirrel’s hair until all the knots were gone.
Two hours. That was how long it took for you to comb Squirrel’s hair, and afterwards the boy could not stop racking his fingers through it and did mention how much lighter it felt. Without having to be encouraged, Squirrel asked you for a bucket of water to wash his hair with. So, you made him put on his vest and then went outside to the cloister, where the well was, with him. Lancelot had not only washed Squirrel’s shirt, but had also put it down on the grass to dry next to a small bonfire.
“Where’s my shirt?…” Squirrel sounded utterly confused.
Lancelot was kneeling on the grass and looked up at him, he pointed to the shirt in front of him. “It is right here.”
“That’s not…” The boy came closer and inspected the shirt that was drying, then blurted out, “It is.”
Well, it must have been quite long since he had seen his shirt in a clean state.
The Monk prevented him from putting it on right away. “Wait a while, it is still drying.”
Seeing Squirrel happy warmed your heart. “You can wash your hair in the meantime. With the sun and the fire, the shirt will be dry soon.”
You turned to the Monk, “Can you fill a bucket for him, or do you want me to do so?”
He was already standing and took one of the empty buckets to fill it at the well.
With a smile, you thanked him for it, “Thank you. I’ll go and grab a towel.”
You went inside to grab a towel that you had seen in the infirmary.
When you returned, you saw Squirrel dunk his head into the bucket of water and splash the water everywhere.
“Feys.” Lancelot jested as he came to stand beside you.
You returned it, “Do you know how many paladins I have wanted to shove into a bucket of water? Is it in the scriptures not to wash oneself?”
The feeling was mutual. Some of the paladins had never bothered to keep themselves clean, not even a little bit.
He played along. “Not in the ones I have read.”
You grinned a bit. “Ah, yes. Yours tells you to pluck every wrong hair off of your face.”
He was looking at you from the corner of his eyes, a grin matching yours, “Are you calling me vain?
By waiting a couple of seconds to answer, you hoped it got on his nerves. “Not at all.”
That had not sounded genuine.
He send you a look, detecting the jest.
The splashing of the water increased to the point where drops were falling on your boots and trousers.
You took a step away from him. “While you’re here keeping an eye out. I think I will take a moment to freshen myself up as well. I found some clothes in the dormitories, so I can finally get rid of these bloodied ones.”
“Where will you be?,” He asked, then clarified why. “So we know what room not to enter.”
You thought about it for a moment, thinking about what would be easiest. “I’ll use the infirmary, there’s enough linen and rags in there to use for it.”
The Monk gave a nod and followed it up with advice. “I brought that small mirror from the dungeon with us, it is in Goliath’s saddle bag.”
Oh? That would come in handy for inspecting your back. “Great, I’ll be needing it.”
Just before you could leave, he asked, “How is your back?”
You shifted your weight to your other leg. “It no longer burns, I think the medicine worked for the wounds there too. Now I’ll just have to hope it doesn’t scar too much.”
His eyes fell to the grass.
You quickly realized why. “I’m sorry..”
He refused to let his scars hold power over him. “It’s alright. I know.”
When you didn’t walk off to do what you had wanted to do, he was aware that you genuinely regretted reminding him of his scars.
The Monk gestured towards the infirmary. “Go on. I will make sure the boy does not drown himself in the bucket.”
A laugh fell out of you and the awkward tension between you washed away. “Alright, Good plan.”
You took one of the full buckets and headed to the horses first to collect the mirror, then the clothes from the sack, and walked to the infirmary.
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