#if sth posts from my blog there’s a big chance it’s my queue

[menalez]

i’m getting spammed with anon hate and i honestly don’t think this place is redeemable so im probs not going to be posting for idk how long. radblr has given me less than nothing. since joining radblr, people have overwhelmingly been unbelievably cruel to me.

my first year on radblr, women 1-2 decades older than me viciously harassed me for asking questions as someone not familiar with certain beliefs held here. these women harassed me for months non-stop, posted my full legal name, posted homes neighbouring where i lived in bahrain, and essentially released my private information. i had to threaten them back just in hopes they would leave me alone, which they didn’t really do. they simply stopped posting my name bc they wanted to make me look like im bad for finding one of their names simply by googling her url (her full name was her twitter username). one of the people in that circle was radicaldumbass, who then came back as macroclit, and again came back as radicalstoner. i moved on but i haven’t forgotten.

then, black-diaspora repeated the same thing. she posted pictures of my mother and led people to finding my mom's facebook. to this day, i still get anons with my mother’s name and my sister’s name. my sister was about 13 when anons first started sending me her name in threatening anons. somehow, black-diaspora was rewritten as a victim of mine despite her being repeatedly racist & lesbophobic to me & posting my mom’s info.

i was being abused by my ex-gf and women on here literally picked my abuse apart and enabled TRAs like lostelvenqueen to make up lies that i was the one abusing my abuser. that vicious lie was reiterated for 4 years. while being abused, women on radblr were mocking me for needing money when my ex-girlfriend was actively stealing from me at the time. to this day people use against me the fact that i needed help in that time bc some mutuals helped finance 2 dinners & my medication, all of which i either paid them back for or drew art as payment.

then, again, another woman dug through an old blog i ran as a teenager and found some posts here and there to make it seem like i, as a 15 and 16 year old, definitely loved being totally controlled by someone and physically abused whenever i didn’t follow his exact commands. i spoke openly about this trauma years prior to this person “exposing” me & arguing that i actually wanted that abuse by pointing to random innocuous posts and forming a story out of it. i think every abuse victim can imagine how difficult it is to still face trauma from something and instead of being allowed to heal, having it brought up to you several days a week to taunt you and having “feminists” tell you that you actually wanted it and are lying when you say otherwise. to this day, i get daily anons mentioning my name because this woman also put my legal name out there.

women here have put me in physical danger, they have made up the vilest lies about me, they’ve called me racial slurs, they’ve been outright racist to me, they’ve speculated about my rape & abuse, they’ve joked about lynching me, they’ve questioned things as minuscule as what i had for dinner. and despite that, i haven’t returned that same treatment. i remained relatively consistent, i simply criticised what i thought was wrong and provided evidence to my statements.

i made some nice friends on here & i’ll keep talking to them. but i’m going to be reevaluating why i’m wasting my time in a space that has overwhelmingly caused me stress, a space where countless unbelievable lies have been spun about me and a place where people have said & done the vilest things and in the end, i was always framed as a bad person based on half-truths or outright lies. now, people falsely claim that women who unfollow me or block me risk having their private information exposed, when i have met at least a dozen women from radblr and run a server with hundreds of women from radblr, have seen hundreds of faces, and have never exposed such information even if we end up disliking each other. i could tolerate many ridiculous lies, but why should i? i’m pretty fed up of tolerating this.

enjoy spinning this however you want and lying about me further. idk when i’ll be back or if i’ll want to be back. it’s pretty clear to me that this space prioritises lesbophobes & racists (& sometimes even downright misogynists) over people who calmly criticise it. i joined this space initially bc i thought it was somewhere where i could freely be a lesbian without being hassled for it, but radblr doesn’t even offer that anymore.

[infizero]

I posted 14,320 times in 2022

2,072 posts created (14%)

12,248 posts reblogged (86%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@/wiiwarechronicles

@/infizero

@/autisticshadowthehedgehog

@/0xeyedaisy

I tagged 12,655 of my posts in 2022

Only 12% of my posts had no tags

#art - 6,235 posts

#dream smp - 4,671 posts

#serena.txt - 1,852 posts

#🌈queue🌈 - 1,596 posts

#sth - 1,562 posts

#tommyinnit - 1,450 posts

#toh - 878 posts

#tubbo - 817 posts

#wilbur soot - 740 posts

#toh spoilers - 704 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#so many of these are just ‘’something bad happens to ________’’ which honestly means i probably have a high chance of getting a bingo tot

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

i too go into a dissociative state where i imagine violently murdering cdream for what he did to ctommy

733 notes - Posted June 6, 2022

#4

so many dsmp characters have girlswag but like in different ways. c!tommy has horse girl and christian girl swag, c!quackity has final girl swag, and c!bbh has victorian woman diagnosed with hysteria swag

761 notes - Posted April 5, 2022

#3

supporting me isnt directed at maria because he says “i’ll be losing you before long” which wouldn’t make sense since yknow. shadow already lost maria. but do you know who it DOES make sense with?? someone who is associated with goodness/light, someone who shadow needs help from at the time of the song playing, someone who shadow WILL be losing soon?

932 notes - Posted April 13, 2022

#2

i need you all to know that when stone said “take me with you doctor!” and got scooped up by robotnik’s chaos magic shit with a big smile on his face despite literally being dangled upside down i literally whispered under my breath “of course you would like that you little freak” 😭

1,038 notes - Posted April 10, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I really loved how Knuckles changing sides was built up throughout the movie. It didn’t come out of left field at all. Him berading Robotnik for wanting to ditch Agent Stone, the moment between him and Sonic on the mountain about their backstories, the comment about how Sonic chose to save Tails instead of grabbing the compass... the movie repeatedly gives us these moments that show that Knuckles isn’t really a bad guy and actually has a strong sense of morality when it comes to things like trust and honor and all that, which makes it feel extremely natural when he saves Sonic and joins his side even if you didn’t know it was coming.

2,123 notes - Posted April 9, 2022

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