#Also I don’t vibe with people on here in general. I don’t get their reactions most of the time.

[persephoneflouwers]

You don’t have to explain to me. Everything you said in your tags resonated so much with me. If there was one thing you could name (besides the recent Niall shit) that pushed you over the edge, what would it be? AOTV? For me - and this isn’t even anything big but it made me say enough is enough - is the coffee/pap walk with S. It was so benign comparatively to other stunts but it was so unnecessary and such a blatant shrug to what his fans were feeling at the time, that it pushed me over the edge. I kind of went numb after that.

Yeah, I guess it’s a lot of things happening at once you know? I used to find comfort in him, but when Granma died at the beginning of the year I couldn’t find a safe space around me here because they kept doing stupid shit and It was (still is somehow) a very dark moment where I don’t have the emotional and mental strength to deal with their things.

I for once didn’t watch the doc. I have nothing against those who did, of course. It just didn’t feel right for me and honestly I don’t feel the pressure to support him against the big cruel blacklisted propaganda or whatever. And to be quite frankly, they have stopped caring of what us fans think very long time lol especially when every dumb thing they do ends up being defended by fans like their life depends on it. I imagine them inside this unbreakable bubble shielded by fans that praise them for the bare minimum (literally the bare minimum kinda makes me wonder what fucking people yall hang out with irl) and this gives them manoeuvre space to make many mistakes without noticing if they’re hurting themself or not. Personally I feel Louis had a career stonk in the pandemic, because 1D became big again (probably thanks to Harry’s promo). They work as a chain if one gets the biggest the other follow in some measure you know what I mean? They are bounded career wise forever lol but since then, Louis hasn’t grown much. But I stopped questioning honestly, he’s still a millionaire and still does what he likes I suppose, so at the end of the day it’s not just about fame or popularity. It’s about doing what you love and I truly hope he enjoys what he’s doing more than how much he hates what it takes to do it, because if not that’s when you know you failed.

[signanothername]

penny for your thoughts on dadmare and more fandom takes??

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Tbh Anon you have to be a bit more specific with what fandom takes you want my opinion on cause I genuinely can’t think of any shshhshshs

But for dadmare… hmmmmmmm

It’s… I have complicated feelings about this trope

Like on one hand, I love the exploration of dadmare as a concept and would genuinely love for it to be explored in a deep meaningful way

On the other hand… the fandom never actually explores it in a deep meaningful way so everytime I come across dadmare a part of me dies inside

Like the fandom immediately settles for “tired generic dad trying to control his rowdy kids” and i’m here like :’)

Like i’d love for dadmare to actually be explored in depth, like the shift for Nightmare from being a bitch to being “dadmare” how does Nightmare deal with MTT in a dadmare way while staying true to his character

How did Nightmare develop and change and how does he feel about being “dadmare”, does he struggle to face the consequences of the abuse he put MTT through and how does he make it up to them? but like also for the love of god you can explore this trope without having MTT act like children, they’re literally +30 old men and you don’t have to infantilize them for the trope to work

Also hot take but everytime MTT call Nightmare “dad” unironically an angel loses its wings, it just ruins the vibes for me, like dadmare is a trope yet people genuinely take it too literally, which again just plays into the infantilization of adult characters

Hell, relationships aren’t one sided, how does MTT feel about Nightmare’s shift, do they trust him or do they take it as an opportunity to escape, do they hate Nightmare but warm up to him or do they not care for his change of heart

Like here’s an example, when people write dadmare, they write his ability to absorb MTT’s negativity to relieve them of their pain right? Ok cool, I LOVE THAT! What I hate tho is the fact every single person in the gang seems to “trust” Nightmare with their life and how all of them react the same way

Basically the MTT are reduced to cardboard cutouts that are literally just duplicates of each other, they all have the exact same reaction to anything Nightmare does, like you’re actually gonna sit here and tell me that Killer trusts Nightmare with his soul????? What did Nightmare do to earn that trust, and Killer isn’t a trusting person to begin with

Hell what did Nightmare do in the first place? Even when the interpretation of Nightmare is that he’s kind from the beginning and that he “saved them”, do you honestly believe that Murder would genuinely feel saved? Are you gonna tell me Horror is gonna stay and live with Nightmare by his own volition and abandon his brother where he only goes back to “visit” him? Since when has Nightmare become more important to Horror than Papyrus?

Hell since when can Murder, Killer and Horror communicate well?? Since when were they super close to each other and since when was Murder ok with Killer’s existence considering his very dangerous Determination and Chara-like nature?

Since when was Killer super emotional in stage 2 and since when was his other stages completely forgotten to fit the perfectly happy and healthy family that the fandom is trying to force onto these obviously unhealthy characters with unhealthy relationships and destructive behaviors

Like don’t get me wrong, people are obviously allowed to explore their fave characters however they like, but my point is, I can’t enjoy the trope of Dadmare even tho i want to, cause the fandom just settles for very straight forward answers to every problem, every little problem is immediately resolved with a snap of a finger

Everything is happy and rainbows and roses and any problems the MTT have they just go to dadmare and suddenly they’re no longer self destructive cause dadmare immediately saves them cause he always has the answer!!!

And i’m here still waiting for an interpretation of dadmare that actually pulls me in and actually interests me like

[thesophistiicate]

How do you practice manifesting?

i strongly take into account my human design chart, so i use it more to inform how i manifest. for me it’s ingrained into my lifestyle. what i do currently:

mood boarding and visual inspiration. in human design my strongest sense is “outer vision” which makes visuals THE most important way for me to manifest. i am constantly collecting pictures on tumblr, pinterest, and instagram so i’m doing this all the time.

using the correct manifesting type. i’m a non-specific manifester so i focus on the vibes and feelings i want. i don’t place limits and i remain very open to possibilities. i usually do this when i am writing my morning pages and also sometimes at night before i go to bed so i fall asleep on those feelings.

morning pages. i write morning pages every day which helps clear out all the junk on my mind. the solution to any problem i have usually just occurs to me while i write and it comes on the paper. i always know what i should do which makes it easier to get what i want (less doubt or confusion). it did take a long time for me to trust myself though.

trusting my gut. i’m a generator in human design so i listen to my instinctual yes/no reaction. i don’t need to go out chasing and initiating. the options are always presented to me and IF I’M PAYING ATTENTION and TAKE THE OPPORTUNITY and DON’T OVERTHINK IT WITH LOGIC i can tell what is a yes or no pretty much straight away. feeling frustrated is a sign i’m on the wrong path so i also take that feeling really seriously. again, took me a long time to get here but now it is easy for most things. the more i get on a path where there’s a lot of yes’s means i’m successfully manifesting and going in the right direction.

putting the rest under the cut bc it’s getting long lol.

growth mindset. if an opportunity falls through i trust that it was supposed to happen that way. something better is meant for me. i take what i learned from the experience and trust i was meant to go through it to be better prepared for achieving my goals. i’m so much more calm this way which also allows me to see opportunities better, bc I’m not reacting to everything from a place of fear, stress, and scarcity.

understand manifesting = opportunities to act upon. i think people forget this. it doesn’t land in your lap, manifesting just brings options to me. i still have to take some level of action which is the hard part!! if you don’t have self worth or self trust you won’t be able to do this well or consistently. you have to actively say yes and do whatever action it requires to follow through. it can be tiny, like sending a message or buying something. but correct manifesting (as a generator) will bring options to me. it’s up to me if i accept or not.

orient my life around my profile and gifts. i’m a 2/4 profile and my gift is gift 3 (highly related to storytelling and living by example). the more i lean into what these mean (connection to community, deep connections, pursuit of knowledge, nurturing others through my writing and storytelling etc) the more smoothly my life seems to go.

i’m chill about it. bc my type is non-specific it’s crucial to be chill. no timelines. no desperation or anxiousness. no trying to decide how it should look or unfold, that’s not my place. the universe has it under control and i don’t need to waste my energy on this. when i forget and try to control too much is when life goes to shit. a hard lesson to learn when we are told to plan every detail and obsess and that being stressed means you’re working hard as a good thing… basically had to unlearn that whole mindset and start over.

sorry it’s a long answer but overall rather than manifesting being some separate activity or just one thing i do, i slowly shifted my entire lifestyle so that it’s a natural part of how i live on a daily basis 🤍

[eobe]

My dearest folks and wanderers, who come around…

Currently I’m overwhelmed of how much love and reactions I get in here 🥰 Thank you all so much! I‘m sending big Wrecker hugs to all of you 🤩✨🙏 Before I return full force to drawing Star Wars fanart, have a rare original artwork of mine – my current awake internal processing dragon ✨🐉

Somewhere it is told that those clumsy, precious-hoarding and -staring lizards, feigning intelligence for big effect, should bring luck allegedly 😂🤷🏽‍♀️ I‘m not sure about that, but the scale hatching pattern looks nice and was dopamining for me to draw, so yeah 🤩✨

Announcements and statements

have a caf for those ☺️☕️🫶

Things happened and things may happen and I‘m always open for messages, no matter if request, feedback or deep talk – be sure it’ll be with an open ear, respect and caf vibe 😀☕️ I‘m serious with important things, but I‘m not willing to discuss important things emotionally loaded. Agitated hearts aren‘t wise, only agitated – so I won‘t accept quarrel invitations 😂 This is the way 🤷🏽‍♀️

Holidays were weird 🤯 I got sick, I got unsettled, I did my first fanfiction-y writing (wtf? I write?) and my developing artstyle decided to unsettle me additionally, confusing my WIP and a genuinely asking feeling what for Maker’s sake is actually happening ❤️‍🩹

So with all my current whatevers I got inspired to do some more clarifications 🙏✨

What is that Chaos Squad thing?

For those who don’t know – don’t get confused, the „Chaos Squad“ is working on a definition and is in it’s finding phase 😂 As I see this, we‘re fun chaotic artists / writers / else collab group and want people to enjoy fun and inspiring-each-other-into-creating escalations with us in the Star Wars fandom 🤩🫶✨

I can only speak for myself, but like some others of us, I play with my Star Wars OCs and the art-, reblog- or comment-chaos gets OC „flavoured“. But I’m not a roleplayer 😀 I stay artist Eobe and use for Chaos Squad activities my OCs mainly to give myself an art- and scene-fitting face insert in our together creations! ☺️ Feel yourself always invited to reach out if you want to ask something! ☕️

This is an artblog and it stays an artblog ✍️ my focus is doing art, collabs and interactions mainly in the Star Wars universe, but I love to do art and crossovers with other fandoms if I like 🤩✨… or some more original art, if I manage to get over my actual shyness 😗

Eobe entering AO3

sounds like a threat 😂 I‘m almost sure I would even do threats not without offering a caf ☕️ what am I hihihi

I’m on AO3 now and dragon is my pfp in AO3!

Gorgeous @eclec-tech 🫶 lured me back to AO3 as co-creator for continuing „The Spicy Fox“ story ☕️🦊! Check it out, the new chapter is so much fun to read and I love to have the honor to accompany it with my artworks – a new one freshly added at the end of the chapter, already showing some progress in my artstyle (if my eyes aren’t jinxed like everything else seems to be currently 😱)! The artwork will get its own posting of course, but I wanted to opt in back to you all with dragon 🐉✨

As I also absolutely unforeseen managed to write a „thing“ despite blockades – my unintroduced clone OC took over when I was massively unsettled and started his Matrix / Undercover coded loner mission against the inhibitor chips, knowing way too much… I think I call it „The Source Code“ 👀✨ and I‘m very tempted to deliver you the continuation that already roughs my brain (some were also asking for it 🙈 thank you so much)!

So long story short (what a joke actually!? 😂)

There will be more art again soon hopefully (and maybe even those writings? Whatever maintenance is currently happening in my head 😂)

I‘m absolutely looking forward ☝️🤩✨

Taglist – for information: @lonewolflupe @bixlasagna @returnofthepineapple @sunshinesdaydream @covert1ntrovert @general-ida-raven @vrycurious @dystopicjumpsuit @chaicilatte @groguandthebadbatch @ladylucksrogue @spaceyjessa @morerandombullshit @freesia-writes

[infpravenclaw5w4idkwhatelse]

Apparently its just in my brain rn but I wanted to make this list for me or for anyone out there who gets into editing before I do (pleas please please idk how to edit and unless I hyper fixate hard enough, I probably won’t take the time to learn lmao) but anyway this is a list of the Robins and songs (by Taylor Swift so there’s a theme and the list has a finite end) that I desperately need an edit of them with.

Stephanie brown- the man (literally can’t hear the song without thinking of her), mad woman (I can see this with interspersed scenes of her father, fighting villains specifically black mask, and Bruce)

Jason Todd- my tears ricochet (absolutely devastating w/ under the red hood, specifically comic version iykyk the difference between that and the movie), haunted (I need this with Bruce and dick and Tim’s reaction to his death), bigger than the whole sky (similar to haunted but more resigned? And still more about characters responding to his death but still His Death), who’s afraid of little old me (red hood transitional period. You see the vision? I know you do.) look what you made me do (obviously. I keep imagining him listening to this song while being the red hood and it’s great), the Great War (just. The imagery. There’s so much potential here. “maybe it’s the past that’s talking, screaming from the crypt, telling me to punish you for things you never did” with a cut to Batman and Joker would go so hard)

Dick Grayson (there’s really no order to this list is there? Lol anyway.)- never grow up (focused on his relationships with his siblings and then after the bridge with the “wish I’d never grown up” with flashbacks to him as Robin oh my god I’d cry), 22 (idk it feels very early Nightwing to me. I need a happy one for him bc he deserves it. Just an edit of him winning and being iconic), New Romantics (in that same vein, with the titans because it’d be fun), the story of us and I forgot that you existed (him and B fighting because I feel people ignore that they do fight quite often and IFTYE especially feels the right amount of petty and sincere for him, you know?), last but not least (can you tell I love him) Style (this and any love interest he repeatedly dates, I was thinking specifically Barbara but I could also see kory, I just think this song is fun for any relationship that gets rebooted in multiple formats)

Tim Drake- enchanted (as itty bitty Tim Drake or Robin, meeting them at galas and Knowing or just working with the bats in the beginning when he was star struck), mirrorball (“I can change everything about me to fit in” …yeah. This is more a fanon interpretation but I read a really interesting fic where Jason comes back and meets Tim and all he can see is his and dick’s Robin mannerisms in him, and can’t find anything that’s just Tim’s until he’s too tired to pretend anymore and it’s stuck with me) you’re losing me (this would be a sad one of people generally looking over or hating him, specifically Bruce calling him Jason, finding out dick made Damian Robin, Damian and Jason verbally attacking him, the events that led to Red Robin) Tis the damn season (for when Red Robin arc is over and he’s still angry but doesn’t know what else to do)

Damian Wayne: a place in this world (it’s not his aesthetic, but the themes of the song are very raised-in-the-league-trying-to-be-a-functioning-family-member), the best day (with him and Dick generally him getting to be a kid, I’m not crying you are), mean (I think the “swords and weapons that you use against me”would be funny with him drawing assorted weapons on people), Innocent (“your string of lights is still bright to me oh, who you are is not where you’ve been” oh my god. I just feel like he needs someone to mean this about him) exile (Talia leaving him, even if she meant to do it for his own good, having to recon with not being in the league anymore), this is me trying (I don’t have words for this one, it’s a vibe)

Bonus:

Anti-hero: you can give all of them different verses that fit best, but I think they’d all sing the song and feel like it was them and I’d love to see an edit of them to it.

Epiphany: Alfred. You don’t even have to listen to it, just look at the lyrics and you’ll Get It.

robin: this I see for both Jason and Dick, so probably split between them.

Mastermind: first off, shameless TimSteph shipper, not even necessarily romantically, it’s just that they’re soulmates and I don’t care what canon says; I know that because they told me personally. Anyway the song is from both of their perspectives. They both think they’re the mastermind

State of Grace: also TimSteph. Fight me.

[chaaistained]

hi hi darling angel ૮꒰ ྀི◜༝◝꒱ა₊˚⊹ ᰔ 🌼 , 🌻 & 🌷 for the ask game <33

FAWN BABY THANK YOU FOR THE ASK !!! i’ve already answered for 🌼 and 🌷 regarding my kpop dr and the links are here and here !! BUT for you, i will be re-answering those questions for another two dr’s — my better cr and my obx dr ≈

🌼 : BEAUTIFUL BLOSSOM . . . what do you find most beautiful about your significant other(s)? what about that aspect of them is so beautiful to you? and in turn what do they believe the most beautiful thing about you is? why do they think that way?

for my BETTER CR — the most beautiful thing about my bf would have to be how observant he is . it’s actually a bit intimidating how little i manage to slip by him, just bcs he notices things that many people tend to overlook or just straight up don’t notice at all. and the greatest thing about his observational skills is how he doesn’t force assistance upon you? he doesn’t confront you with what you may be feeling or hiding, he just provides help in small silent ways and as someone who’s also very observant, it means more than i could ever describe. there’s so much beauty in his attentiveness to those around him, even those that he doesn’t necessarily know, like . he’ll see someone struggling to reach something in an aisle in the shops and before they can even ask for help, he’s already there helping?? he’s just such a good man and idk it makes him so beautiful in my eyes, because i genuinely feel so proud and so safe all the time

now, onto what my bf thinks is the most beautiful aspect about me .. it would have to be something slightly similar , observation-adjacent. but more with regards to how i give assistance or comfort or just love in general. he finds the way i show love and care and affection for different people very beautiful, because i don’t show love the same way with everyone , the people in my life are all different, bcs people in general are different, and knowing that, and knowing those i surround myself with, i show them love in whatever ways they feel comfortable — i wouldn’t hug a friend who’s averse to physical affection even though i’m not, i would be more loud and excitable with the friends that have the energy to reciprocate, i would comfort a crying friend with a hug and a back rub but if it was different friend who was in tears, it would be a different reaction like a simple hand hold or just sitting by them, letting them know i’m there if necessary, handing them a tissue, or even giving them space and letting them feel their emotions in private before talking to them. i want people to feel comfortable with the love and care that i give so i make sure my form of care is attune to their personal preferences and i think that this would be something that my boyfriend would adore and find very beautiful about me

for my OBX DR — something i find beautiful about rafe would have to be his planning skills bcs i never really need to worry about that stuff when i’ve got him. let me explain, he’s always a good five steps ahead of everyone, he keeps his plans a secret and then when it’s necessary he has the perfect solution and it literally feels like such a weight is immediately lifted off of all of us !! and not just that but the way i never have to tell him something twice ?? it low-key gives husband vibes because i’ll make a simple comment in passing about how i love a certain snack or a certain perfume and the next thing i know, rafe’s consistently restocking my supply every time i run out, i don’t even have to ask him, he just pays attention and does it and it’s so sweet and what makes it beautiful is how this only really applies to me aksjdjskd like i’m special. he’s not heartless he does care about the others (specifically sarah) and he will randomly buy smth if he knows his sister likes that brand or wtv, but yeh . mostly for me hahahahsh

now what rafe finds beautiful about me .. let’s get the inappropriate out of the way : everything about me like . visually .. man is down bad ok Next — it would need to be me when i’m annoyed, stupidly enough, he would be the type that would piss off his gf and then find her reaction beautiful, and that would definitely be smth he would do to me.. like random little jokes and back and forth banter that makes me smile and yet somehow frown at the same time , cheeks flushed, arm crossed, trying not to grin . he’d love that, he’d actually just stand there staring with a dopey smile on his face bcs he managed to make me annoyed and yet he knows the only thought going through my head rn is “fuck my life i’m in love with this dickhead..”

🌷 : TIMELESS TULIP . . . what was your relationship with your significant other(s) like before you started dating? were you friends? enemies? academic rivals? did they know you liked them? did you know they liked you?

for my BETTER CR — we were friends to lovers but that’s a bit of a simplified explanation tbh . in actuality we were family friends when we were little kids, but after i turned 8 i moved suburbs and two years later so did he. we never found out that we’d both moved to the same suburb yet again, so we went ten years without seeing each other, our parents were in very very causal contact and i only ever saw his mum on the super rare occasion. but then , in 2022 , there was a dinner being hosted at a mutual family friends house and he and i met again after ten years. when i tell you it was Immediate i’m being so fr like immediately i just knew that i liked him.. so in that way, we were never really just friends. we always knew we liked each other, we were just slowly getting to know each other at our own pace, testing the waters, slowly shifting from friendly conversation to flirting and checking to see if we’d crossed any boundaries and realising with every interaction we shared, neither one of us wanted to stop? bcs we both equally liked each other

for my OBX DR — this is an enemies to lovers sort of situation , well, tbh it’s more annoyances to lovers, my obx dr is quite diff from the show (at least for now it’s diff) and my “friendship” with rafe was just us putting up with each other because i’m one of sarah’s best friends and wheezie’s tutor. i’m like 92% sure rafe knew about my feelings for him, and, actually, i’m pretty sure he knew before i knew . i was in a Lot of denial about it, simply because i didn’t want it to be true? first of all, i’m a pogue, my dad was disowned from his kook heritage because he fell in love with my mum who’s a pogue, so i have a very bad taste in my mouth when it comes to kooks that parade their wealth , like rafe. even after i became friends with sarah and i met some more decent kooks, i still didn’t really like admitting my attraction to rafe. now, from my perspective, it was obvs rafe found me hot, like . physically. but in all honesty i thought it stopped there. miscommunication trope goes Hard with this dr . like , it’s laughable..

🌻 : SWEET SUNFLOWER . . . how do your friends describe you and your significant other(s) relationship? do you and your significant other(s) share a lot about your relationship or do you keep a lot of it secret?

for my BETTER CR — my relationship was a secret for a Long time. only my best friends and his best friends knew about it, because , and as archaic as this sounds , we weren’t allowed to date. Ok Ok it’s Normal in indians families to have a tight grip on their children, my parents would be So disappointed if i got myself a bf and i know i can script that it’s different in this reality but part of me likes the adrenaline rush of sneaking around and hiding in closets and pantries during a gathering just to steal a few minutes with each other before we need to go back out and interact with everyone and pretend like we’re just casual friends. my friends really like my bf, they started referring to him as my husband bcs they’re so convinced we’ll get married (and they would be right) it was only a little hard to convince my high school bsf bcs she’d seen me go through tough relationships and get my heart broken and have panic attacks and she really pulled me through those times so .. it took her a while to trust my bf but thankfully it all works out (and maybe i’m being too y/n with this but my bf’s best friend is Such a compatible partner for MY best friend?? i feel like i should script them but i just wanna see how it goes ajshdjsjs).

my bf’s friend group were lowkey intimidating (bcs they’re all older than me by like 2-3 years) but i’m so very very glad that they ended up liking me. he’s in a group with another guy and two other girls, a group of four. the girls were immediately accepting which kinda shot off some red flags in my head but after i got to know them i realised it was just my insecurity i needed to work through and they were genuinely just happy that their friend had found someone. and after that, it’s so nice to have a couple of older girls in my contacts who i can turn to if i need some advice about uni or life or something or other. now, similarly my bf’s best friend was someone who i needed to impress. and the funny thing is i didn’t even realise. i was just being myself thinking his bsf was chill with me and then one day, randomly, my bf was like “yeh he likes you now, he thinks you’re cool :) “ i was like “Huh . ? so . so he didn’t like me before????”

if our friends were to describe us, they’d say we were for each other. and maybe i’m being too love sick when i script this but i want people to see the two is if and think that we were meant to be in each others lives, that this relationship that we share isn’t something new or different, it’s been a love that has been shared through every life we take, no matter how we show up in the world, we end up finding each other, it’s the kind of relationship that transcends time and space, because there’s no way you lock eyes with a person and just know . in that very moment, that they’re The One for you, unless we’ve danced this same dance before

for my OBX DR — this one’s a bit odd bcs i don’t even know, i haven’t scripted it at all. i would assume that my friends would initially be confused but sort of vindicated?? they’d know that rafe and i don’t exactly get along and wouldn’t understand why i was dating him, But at the same time, they’d have to be shoupe-levels of oblivious in order to ignore the clear sexual tension between the two of us so, in their minds, it was a very “bound to happen” sorta deal. the people that are more confused are rafe’s friends, or rather his old friends, they get the appeal of going for a pogue just for a joke but when they realise rafe’s actually serious about it .. yeh let’s just say i foresee a lot of rafe holding me back from punching a cunt in the face and then him turning around and punching the mf himself .. my prediction has a very good chance of happening i just know it

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[catboybiologist]

I'm trans! Here's a way-too-long ramble on my internal thoughts on that!

My other posts on this:

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725852054829023232/im-going-to-document-some-things-about-my?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725851397783011328/the-short-answer-is-no-but-im-gonna-have-a?source=share

So yay I’m trans! Which like, is neither unexpected nor abnormal for the community I’ve fostered here, so I’m guessing most of y’all’s reactions is just a “hey cool”. But, you see the online side of me, not the irl side, so there’s still a lot of thoughts to sort out on my end. So I’m dumping a lot of thoughts here to sort all that out. And hoooly shit, it got very long, and I still feel like I have more to say… but yeah. If you wanna hear some perspectives on my relation to gender, transness, and femboy culture, read on!

I guess the best way I can think to style this is as an interview with an imaginary third person, sooo…. Bold text is questions I can imagine people having LOL

So what’s my own personal relationship with the term femboy, catboy, and gendered terminology in general? Is the name of your accounts gonna change?

Short answer, no. I like the name CatboyBiologist. “Catboy” itself is a term that is completely untethered from gender at this point to me. Tbqh, the “cat” part feels more wrong than the boy part- as time goes on, I’ve generally ditched the cat ears for most of my outfits as I take them a bit more seriously. Maybe that’ll change when my transition actually starts, but for now, CatboyBiologist stays, and the femboy related language stays in all of my own past posts (keyword, past- more on that in a bit).

I’m not gonna be updating my approach to pronouns. Any pronouns do just fine, I’m sending a vibe into the world and pronouns are my feedback as to what other people interpret that vibe is. Default to they/them if you don’t know what to do with that.

I will be updating my pinned post to link all of these posts, but mostly copy/paste the information from before. That might take a moment cuz I’m lazy, tbh.

And let’s get something else out of the way.

I’m not socially transitioning yet, and probably won’t for a while.

Which, I think leads to a lot of follow up:

Well, why not?

I present fully male and masculine on a day to day basis, and look the part too. Part of it is just this looks insecurity. The mask stays on in my pictures for a reason. Beyond just facial hair (which grows aggressively on me and always shows some shadow), my face looks pretty masculine overall. It takes time to look the way I do in my posts. I wanna give my face and body some time to change so I can look more femme in more casual ways before I present it to the world.

Beyond that, I’m also just worried about being “accepted” as femme straight off the bat. Implicitly, I know this will be easier if I already have some small amounts of physical feminization down my belt.

There’s two main environments that worry me: family, and professionally. Family is a weird hot mess grey area that is too personal to talk about here, but the professional atmosphere is certainly going to be a bit… weird. I live in an accepting geographic region, and around people who are very outspokenly trans supportive…. But most of whom are cishet and simply don’t have a lot of experience seeing or working around trans people. I’m more afraid of being seen as “trans first, biologist second” as far as my career is concerned, than I am about outright transphobia. I know this will never fully go away, and given that I’m 6’2”, I’ll probably never “fully” pass- but I’d at least like people to implicitly read my as femme on a gut level before I start changing how I present that way. One thing my irl femboy experience has shown me is that, even if people can “clock” you intellectually, the way their gut instinct reads you affects whether they treat you as masc or femme. I hope that makes sense on some level. Of course its always going to be an awkward shift, but I hope some time on HRT will make it less awkward.

I’ve come out to one person that doesn’t know about this online persona, or the depths of my queerness. They straight up told me they were shocked. They were incredibly supportive, but they told me they didn’t see it coming at all. And they already knew that I “crossdressed occasionally”. So that’s kinda what I’m working with here.

Essentially, I’m not actually truly “transitioning” in a real sense yet. More than that, I feel like I’m getting the ball rolling. If there’s anything I learned in my research, it’s that HRT takes a while, much longer than anyone expects (suppressing my rant about how the media cherrypicks people in early transition for trans representation and the effect that has on public perception). Two years is often cited as the “end” point, but based on both scientific and anecdotal accounts, that is wildly untrue and variable. I also know that the first changes onset quickly (skin and mood, most notably), but that overall body shape changes sometimes take a VERY long time to start and progress. So to be quite honest, I barely feel like I’m transitioning yet, I’m just laying groundwork for the future.

So yeah. I’m gonna be boymoding for a bit. Possibly a year or more. Even for the people who know, I’ve still asked them to address me as he/him or they/them, and use my masculine name for now (haven’t even really decided on a femme name yet, although I have ideas [open to suggestions as well]).

Wait, so why address it online at all?

Put simply, honesty. I’m displaying a lot of selfies and experimentation with my look here, and I want to make it abundantly clear what I’m doing to have an effect on that. People have asked me if I’m on HRT in comments before, and like, I’m not gonna lie about that. Might as well also make a shitpost, a data gathering post, and a too-long ramble about it as well (which you’re reading now!).

There are a LOT of body image issues in femboy spaces (and trans spaces too!), often among very young people. While I have no issue with people on HRT continuing to call themselves a femboy (more on that in a bit), I do think transparency on that matter is helpful for those body image issues.

So to make it abundantly clear: all of my selfies and pictures that I’m labeling and tagging as “femboy” are pre-HRT. In the future, everything I tag with “trans” is post-HRT. I still got 1-2 weeks before actually starting, and I’m still going to use the femboy tag for any outfits I post during that time. The moment an estradiol pill hits my mouth, though, new pics will use trans tags.

Posts that relate to discussion of the interplay of the communities, and how I view myself within them, I’ll tag with both.

Which leads to another follow up question. This one isn’t about me specifically, but it’s my hot take about a certain brand of trans discourse I’ve seen around (mostly on reddit tbh):

Why would someone who knows they’re mtf trans willingly call themselves a femboy and/or request people to “misgender” them?

So this is actually gonna be striking a nerve with me, and I know I’m gonna kinda be strawmanning here by arguing against the ghost of reddit comments past. I’m not gonna try to dig any of them up in the internet archive, but they are sentiments I’ve seen multiple times.

I’ve seen this question almost word for word in the comments of trans subreddits multiple times. Imma be blunt, and it’s maybe gonna sound a little mean. If this thought is going through your head, you’re likely way more sensitive and particular about labels than most people. And that’s okay! Ask people to address you how you want, you deserve that respect! But the real answer to this question is that many people simply don’t mind being called whatever label is most useful or familiar to themselves in various contexts.

The moment that it becomes completely unacceptable is when someone does actually change their pronouns, name, presentation, etc, and people still address them as “male” or “femboy”. That is completely the fuck out of line, and if you don’t agree, fuck off.

Why does this strike a little bit of a nerve with me? Well, the “conclusion” I saw reached in these trans spaces multiple times when the subject was brought up was annoying as hell. That conclusion was that the only or primary reason that people labeled themselves a femboy, even while on HRT… was to sell their onlyfans. My fucking god, seriously? This is just conservative rhetoric. Luckily, on tumblr, it seems that people are a lot more accepting towards people using whatever language they like to describe themselves, which I’ve enjoyed a lot.

I’ve also had a lot of hate towards “fencesitting” directed at me on reddit, from trans people, for calling myself a femboy. I can’t remember it verbatim, but I very distinctly recall getting a DM that went something like “I fucking hate femboys, just transition already. You’re making us (transfemmes) look bad.” So yeah. Bit of a sore spot.

Yadda yadda yadda the personal journey shit

If I can be real for a moment…. In an ideal world, I would still want to be a part time femboy. Even moreso than the sheer utility of it all (eg, enjoy cis male privilege when I want, but still get treated more femme in certain contexts), it feels almost more profound to fuck with gender norms without sitting on one side of the gender line or another. But I can’t really ignore what I’ve described as my “mental resting state”- a baseline crackle of dysphoria that fills the space in my head when there’s nothing else to fill it. It’s easily distracted, but its always there, and I can’t imagine living my life that way anymore.

I’ve pretty much known I was trans since I was about 12, and had a realization that puberty was just starting to hit me, and I hated it. I suppressed it deeply, for many, many reasons that I don’t think I want to share here. But it made a lot of other mental health struggles in my life a lot worse, even if I didn’t consciously acknowledge that’s what was happening. By the time I was willing to consciously acknowledge it, I realized that my dysphoria wasn’t so bad as to dive in right away. But, I made moves to stabilize my life overall, which have been massively beneficial to me in other ways as well.

During the pandemic, I found myself living alone for the first time ever. So during the pandemic, in one last ditch effort to try to convince myself I wasn’t trans, I delved into femboy aesthetics to try and “just be a feminine man”.

That failed.

So yeah, here I am. I have a wonderful queer community both irl and online, a meagre but stable income, health insurance that has great coverage for trans care, and accepting people around me in my life. It’s long overdue. Maybe I’ll beat myself up for waiting so long and masculinizing so much as a result, but I don’t think I really could have done it any other way.

This all said, I don’t actually really consider myself a woman yet. I’m sure many of you are aware of two different ways transfemmes view themselves(and trans people in general, but using a transfemme perspective here):

-Some view themselves as having always been girls or women, but took some time to realize it and make their body more comfortable for themselves with that information.

-Others view themselves as boys or men who made efforts to become women later.

I fall strongly in the second line of thinking for myself. For my own personal experiences, even though I have felt dysphoria for a long time, I don’t really think I’m “actually” a woman yet. I don’t know what my identity as a woman looks like yet. But I deeply want to discover and create who that person is, and there’s no way to do that without transitioning.

B but… BASIC BIOLOGY!!!!!

How many biology degrees do you have? I got a BS and an MS, and I’m working on my PhD. I’m sure you’ve brought a similar level of expertise to this discussion.

But seriously, I could genuinely write an entire fucking essay about how studying biology has influenced my views on this subject, but honestly, that’s an entirely different topic. But tl;dr is that bioessentialism is brainrot, and if someone tries to use essentialist language to “justify” someone’s transness (or gender in general)… well, I think they’re wrong. Plain and simple. We don’t say someone isn’t “really able to see” if they put glasses in front of their eyes.

I’m stopping myself before I write more here, because this warrants another post or even a fucking video essay, to be quite honest. But yeah. Biology based.

Conclusion?

Uhhhh… in conclusion, I’m not particular about language or pronouns you use for me, I’m making posts about it anyways to ensure honesty associated with my selfies, if you’re transphobic jump of the tallest bridge you can find. I think that about covers it.

[junhanndee]

losing your virginity to : gaon ~!

a series ! 2/6

find junhans here!

warnings : first time!!! , semi experienced gaon x virgin reader, afab, pretty soft nothing crazy, mentions of oral / fingering

generally speaking gaon gives me a kind of experienced vibe but nothing further than just kinda doing it yk?

like i can see maybe messing around with some people here and there but nothing ever really that serious

once he finds out that it’s your first time, honestly, i think he would be just a tiny bit nervous? but also! he would be like ‘omg she wants me to take her virginity?’ type thing because he knows the first time is a pretty big deal

i think he would honestly just let it happen whenever you’re ready! if it’s 3pm and you’re feeling it, well! he’s ready to go

he would 100% take his time and make sure that you were nothing less of comfortable

making sure you ate that day, making sure you’re 100% about this, and tbh i think just having you reassure him that you’re ready would make him just a tad less nervous

once actually getting into the good parts i think all that nervousness would melt away and gaon would become a cocky mess

saying things like ‘do i make you feel this good?’ or ‘who’s hands are fucking you like this huh?’

he would probably go nice and slow while fingering you before actually going all the way

he would definitely get off on the way that he’s making you feel as well

just by seeing your reactions and seeing the way you’re feeling so good :( and :( it’s all at his hands

gaon might even want to make it all about you as well

^ why i mentioned he’s taking his time!! he wants to make it special for you

also side note i don’t think gaon would take sex as something crazy serious yk? it’s like yeah! woooo! fun!!! but nothing awkward or embarrassing with you yk?

once you tell him you’re ready, he would align with your hole and probably put just the tip in just to make sure you’re okay to keep going!

once he’s fully inside you and bottoms out i’m sure he would love to have you in missionary

while fucking you he would bend down to give you kisses and even hold your hands to guide you through it all

a/n : it is completely normal not to cum the first time!! so note to all my readers, don’t be embarrassed or upset!! make sure to healthy communicate to your partners about what might help and what might not!! be safe pls :)

anyways !

like said before, if you don’t cum, gaon would offer to go down on you and try everything in his power to get you off as well!

at the end of the night, he would help you get all cleaned up and even offer one of his sweaters or hoodies to wear to bed

he would probably think about everything while you rest soundly in his arms and he wouldn’t want it any other way :)

i think as your sex life evolves a bit more, gaon would open up more about things he might be into as well!!

a/n : i am having serious writers block and i’m so sorry if this sucked 😭😭 hopefully i’ll get over this soon :////

- if you liked this, don’t forget to like and leave a reblog if you want!! 🩷

- ask box is always open!! i love new anons <3

[zahri-melitor]

New Comics (the actual spoilers edition)

DC's Lex and the City #1:

Honestly this has been a pretty ordinary anthology. I did hiss quietly to myself that the percentage of Bat stories in this was higher than at least half the issues of Brave and the Bold, but it is what it is.

I thought on top of the stories themselves I’d talk about who got to write them, as I’ve got another post percolating about that.

Lex and the City (by Sina Grace): I swear I've seen versions of this story before (think one had Cat Grant instead of Trish Q). Can't remember where, would have to dig, it's probably in an anthology around Rebirth.

I also can think of at least one episode of Lois & Clark with approximate this plot (Lois is doing the interview), and presumably it's happened in other tv versions of the Superman franchise.

It's...fine. It's the sort of Sex and the City joke story that you'd presume from the title.

Grace's other work includes the Claire Clover backups from the end of Tamaki's 'Tec run, a Hartley story from the first Pride anthology, and the opening story of Beast World Tour Atlantis, among others. I think the best piece I’ve read from him is the Atlantis story, which balanced a fair amount of plot and characters simultaneously. He’s also the guy getting that Shazam fill next month about Jon Kent (after working with Nicole Maines on Absolute Power: Super Son).

A Valentine’s Day Gift For Poison Ivy (by Maggie Tokuda-Hall): this felt very informed by BTAS characterisation rather than main continuity, and set *handwave* some time when they both were still villains (Alfred is alive too, as another data point).

It’s exactly the sort of puff Harley/Ivy story that inevitably ends up in at least 2 anthologies a year.

In terms of characterisation – I don’t read Harley focused stuff, but I can definitely say it’s not written by someone who feels like they read Wilson’s Poison Ivy. This is because the characterisation of both Harley and Ivy feels like it’s from the general osmosis vibes: Ivy is ‘a die-hard environmentalist’ and so might have ethical objections to an ‘infant leopard sealskin’ coat, but Harley’s just fine wearing it and running off with it. Which: Ivy cares about PLANTS. Her environmentalism strains have always revolved around the plant kingdom, not animals, while Harley’s the one who keeps animals as pets. It’s a weird villainous Cruella DeVille sort of note to add to the story for Harley, while these sort of fluff shorts are usually going out of their way to excuse both Harley and Ivy as ethical criminals only committing victimless crimes against big business.

I also rolled my eyes at what seemed to be a period piece taking a wide swipe at Cybertrucks. When do you want this to be set? (Part of me wanted to give the story props for playing up the ‘using Lex as a Musk insert’ tendency that’s happened in the last handful of years, part of me is mourning the loss of the ‘Lex as Trump insert’ of earlier years, part of me is unsure that Tokuda-Hall knows that Lex has a ‘Lexla’ brand in comics)

I will give the hat tip to it being a lesbian love story in this anthology, because I’ve dinged DC in previous years for managing to avoid showing a single openly queer relationship in the Valentines anthology.

This is Tokuda-Hall’s first DC work, and she only has two other credits on LOCG (both for independent YA graphic novels). And I have to say, that background shows. Good on her for pitching, but I would like to see more evidence she’s read recent main continuity works. They should talk to her about the teen graphic novels line where it matters less.

Beautiful Lies (by Jon Rivera): Victor Fries has been getting a bunch of solid stories recently, and this one joins the pack. I don’t think I’ve seen him used as a joke to dunk on for AGES. On the other hand, this is written in reaction to contemporary economic problems, but Victor’s got Nora in a tube here. So we are very much running with background default ‘what people know about Freeze’ for the story.

I thought the commentary on Batman v Bruce Wayne’s work in Gotham for ordinary people was fairly straightforward in this, but it definitely hewed straight to the classic tropes of whenever it’s brought up (Batman with the ‘call this number, they’ll help you find a job’ business card!) The tragedy at the centre of this felt very in conversation with various economic downtimes, as it raised ‘what will you do for economic security’.

I also need to get around to writing about my feelings about the way various writers use the concept of gentrification in comics, particularly in regards to Gotham, but that’s a bigger project than just this so I’ll just stick a pin in it here that this is another example I need to come back to.

Jon Rivera did a bunch of work in the Young Animal line with Cave Carson. This is the first story he’s had with DC for almost 7 years. I feel it’s pretty obvious, reading the anthology, that he’s one of the writers with the most comics experience in here.

Together Again (by Charles Skaggs): finally, a piece in this anthology that feels like it’s written specifically in reaction to real, published comics. This is a World’s Finest: Teen Titans based story reflecting on their first mission as a team. It’s not based off their original Silver Age original team up as far as I can tell, but it is very much in the updated vibe of Silver Age stories that the World’s Finest stories use. It’s also using old post-Crisis factoids, like the fact that Dick and Wally used to have standing guy’s camping trip arrangements (we end up feeling like this is riffing several issues from Titans 1999).

I enjoyed it! The way Dick, Wally, Roy and Garth were bouncing off each other felt very similar to the diner scene in Titans #1 1999 (obvious parallels are obvious). You can tell they’re friends.

Charles Skaggs’ other DC piece that I can find is a period-set JSA story from DC’s Terrors Through Time in 2022. He’s clearly a DC fan who actually reads comics and understands how to fit things into continuity, and the person top of my list in this for DC to offer more work to.

To Live and Date in Gotham (by Brendan Hay): Is this generally kinda meh fanonish characterisation? Yes. Does everyone need to chill? Also yes. Look, I knew this one was going to be controversial from when the anthology was solicited. And now that I’ve read it, it’s just generally the sort of light fluff you see in anthologies, where everyone feels a bit skewed from their main writers.

Personally what I think everyone should be up in arms about is the ‘Teen-Bats’ line, because while you might THINK on first glance this might be the glorious return of Becky and Aaron Langstrom to canon, I strongly suspect this is actually referencing Tristan Grey, given the various age differences (Aaron should by any standard still be a kid; Becky if she’d aged consistently might have reached her early teens by now, though I think preteen is more likely). Anyway, Man-Bats and Tim are a flavour that go great together with plenty of backstory, why are you faking me out on suggesting I might have got my Langstrom kids back?!? How dare you Brendan Hay!!!! (Tongue firmly in cheek for all of this)

Yes, Brendan Hay wrote that Tim and Damian story in Brave and the Bold that everyone already whinged about, but what I personally want to note is that he also wrote “Say Yes To the Mess” in last year’s Valentine’s anthology, which was that story about Diana getting propositioned by a random assortment of characters, Diana explaining why people didn’t really want to date her, they just wanted connection with another person, and then declaring ‘actually what’s Galantine’s Day?!?’ in what felt like the most awkward out on having Diana go on an actual date with a woman.

And I think that’s probably worth looking at in context of the ho ho ho Steph and Cass aren’t dating, they’re just anti-Valentines Day together! stuff in this story. Will write Tim/Bernard. Will also just stick two female characters together and go wink wink wink. Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (This is not a trend I’m fond of)

I don’t think Hay’s views on characterisation match this section of tumblr’s, and I think from some of the commentary dug up that this is another example of ‘writer has spent noticeable amounts of time in fandom and been influenced by it’ plus he’s explicitly said he just wrote parts of the story in his head and excused not explaining things because he decided they happened off panel. Which…look. I’ve certainly noted that various writers before him have done that (Devin Grayson’s approach to Dick, Megan Fitzmartin’s approach to Bernard) but generally you don’t ADMIT IT straight out, especially as he clearly worked through ways it could have been told better, yet failed to use them.

Riddle Me Kiss (by Sabrina Futch): look, the oddest thing about this is that this doesn’t really track with any of the common lines on Eddie as a character that have been written over the last several decades. It’s definitely not the Snyder version of Ridder, which was adopted by Tom King, which is probably the most prominent that’s not Eddie just having a fun time being a criminal or busy doing high level work. It’s treating his riddles as more like Baffler levels of jokes rather than actual challenges. It’s really framing him as a pathetic villain, rather than a high level Rogue. (Also as has been mentioned by others, Ram V. did a far better Riddler Valentine’s Day story a couple of years back).

Sabrina Futch is currently working as an editor on a bunch of DC books; mostly as an associate editor, so pretty junior. This is her second writing credit for DC – she got to write the text for Batman Uncovered. Honestly I just think she’s a developing writer.

Roses are Red…Blood Is, Too (by Callie C. Miller): I think this is supposed to be set during the 2003 Teen Titans run (apparently the version of Brother Blood in this is specifically from that run and Outsiders at the time), especially as it’s set in San Francisco. Both characters feel pretty young. But fundamentally, I don’t really care about Gar and Raven’s relationship, so I can’t analyse how well it’s drawn as I don’t read much about them.

It’s…fine. This ship has been everywhere for a few years now, which is probably got a lot to do with people who were kids when the Teen Titans 2003 cartoon came out now getting work at DC.

This is Callie Miller’s first credit anywhere, and it’s exactly the sort of first credit you see that may or may not translate into further work. I don’t think it’s got the spark that’s going to have people clamouring to see more.

Heartbreak Lake (by Dave Wielgosz): you know when you’re reading a story that feels like it’s setting up a bunch of explanations to fit various sections of canon together or retcon a few things? That’s what this is. I haven’t read a lot of Hawkman stuff, but this is obviously doing some work with the present situation with the Hawks and their older stories, and look, is it really a Hawk story if some sort of massive confusing retcon isn’t being navigated?

It’s the very loved-and-lost story of the set and refocusing Carter on the present.

Dave Wielgosz is a mainstay DC editor. His writing credits include Man-Bat 2021 (which I thought was a really well considered Kirk Langstorm story compared to a lot of other uses of the character since Rebirth outside of JLD) and a bunch of anthology shorts. He’s a ‘can get a story in an anthology any time he asks’ sort of guy, and works with a wide range of characters.

[topconfessions]

SO I was scrolling through some random opinions on TOP’s relationship with fans (and, like, the general public), and it got me thinking WHY NOT break down his birth chart to figure it out? Does it make sense?!? Who knows, but here we go:

Scorpio Sun ➡️ Oh, yeah!! He’s got that natural magnetism and intense presence that just pulls people in like moths to a flame. The public probably sees him as mysterious, fascinating, and DEEP (or at least he wants them to)

Aries Moon ➡️ Ohhh, THIS explains those emotional outbursts or impulsive reactions when the pressure’s on. Big act now, regret later energy baby!!!

Mercury in Libra (Retrograde) ➡️ Yup, here we have it: introspective and maybe a little indecisive in how he communicates. His words are calculated, maybe even cryptic. Libra hates awkward situations, so he’s definitely not out here trying to rock the boat… unless it’s, you know, a stylish yacht

Venus in Sagittarius ➡️ This one threw me for a loop. It screams “friendly, warm, let’s all hang out,” buuuut mmm nahhh he’s not handing out backstage passes to EVERYONE. I think this Venus wants to inspire people through life, art, beauty, and a touch of “deep, artistic philosophy.” Like, look but don’t touch. You get it

Mars in Libra ➡️ Oh boy. Oh poor boy…..Same deal as Mercury in Libra, but now we’re talking FRUSTRATION CENTRAL. Passive aggressive king? Probably. Sensitive to public opinion?? Absolutely. There’s definitely a tug of war between what he wants and what he thinks the public expects. Exhausting…

Jupiter in Aries ➡️ Boosts his charisma and drive to inspire others, no doubt. But since it’s retrograde, he’s all about that inner reflection on his role in society. Think: speeches on how art, self expression, and, uh, wine culture can save the world !

Pluto in Scorpio ➡️ Intense. ICONIC. People are drawn to his personality or his art like it’s some kind of dark, transformative force. He’s leaving a mark, whether you like it or not

Saturn in Sagittarius ➡️ Wise moral guide vibes. He probably sees himself as a teacher or someone who’s ABOVE the nonsense (pair this with Jupiter in Aries, and you’ve got Mr. “Let Me Drop Some Life Lessons on You yeahhh”)

Uranus in Sagittarius ➡️ Less chaotic than Uranus in Aquarius, but still it gives me SCATTERBRAIN energy. Like, he’s got big ideas, but follow through might be… inconsistent

Neptune in Capricorn ➡️ This is what gives him that drive to turn dreams into reality. He’s chasing passions, sure, but it also makes him come off a little cold and detached. Like, are we connecting, or is this just a business transaction?!!??

Ascendant ➡️ Okay, we don’t actually know his rising sign, but it’s SO OBVIOUSLY Aquarius. Come on!! Controversial decisions??? Contradictory statements????? Keeping people at arm’s length because he’s TOO free and independent for emotional ties? Classic. This rising sign really highlights the shadier Scorpio traits, too aloof, misunderstood, unreachable. He’s just out there in his own world, being solo and special

I’m Gemini rising Leo, and honestly? The compatibility here is, like, not happening. Sorry, I need someone who can keep up with my shiny, chaotic energy and not brood in the corner about how misunderstood they are. I love GD 😻😻😻 he’s totally my type!!!

You know I LOVE your blog? I might have even written to you in the past, but honestly… I can’t remember?? It must have been forever ago!!

Btw, I’m not completely heartless or insensitive… I do feel bad for what TOP’s going through, even though his Mars and Ascendant really don’t sit right with me. Things will get better though, let’s stay positive! 🫶🏻

Omg! I hope you did write in before before but either way? Welcome back / welcome.

Oooooh... these placements...are...well... allover the place lmfao. Suits him very well, but ugh yeah I would never be compatible with him just in the sag and aries placements alone. Astrotheme had put our compability at 0% across the board and I was GAGGED rotfl. I'm not really compatible with any of bigbang. Somewhat GD and Taeyang. GD has some venus or moon in cancer and I guess thats why sometimes I used to just have a big soft spot for hin but he's too wild for me too lmfao. Yall can have that. But why tf did I have perfect compability with 2NE1?! and shinee lmao. Life is so unfair.

He shouldn't be a celebrity long term with all of that going on! I'm sorry but you can't be a celebrity for real if you're unreachable, hard to get a hold of, aloof, standoffish and have all of these eccentricities going on. Its all too complicated. He would be better off being an artist or producing content without being in the court of public opinion all the time and not having a fanbase he has to appeal to.

[angelmichelangelo]

hello!!! happy new year :D just wanted to say i really did adore the glass turtles fic (i left a long rambly comment abt it lol sorry if i'm just restating things rn) and it still sticks with me, even after a few months. i still think about it sometimes when doing mundane chores or something- it's a work that really, really resonated with me, and something i hold very dear to my heart, if that makes sense. the reason i read the fic was just because it was an 2k3 fic and i love Those Boys in particular but by the time i was a quarter way through with it i had to get up and pace around my room. it just induced a very physical, visceral reaction- in the best way possible. i think i'd never expected to see such a close representation and exploration of the childhood i had and (oversharing here, i think lmao) it was also something i pushed to the back of my mind until i read your fic. i love it's themes so much, i can't express it but fics and media in *general* struggle with the premise of this plot but you've written it wonderfully and it ended up being *my* farmhouse-retreat-therapy for a while. it also helped me look up what being a glass child meant and talk to others about it, and i dont think i would've done that without reading it. this is a bit silly, but raph and mikey are my favourite turtles and always have been, ive been obsessed with tmnt since early childhood and they're characters i hold practically in my heart- and seeing me and a person i love very very much in those turtles in this fic... aaagh. it was very comforting, as terminally online as that sounds T-TTT.

anyways!!! just saying all of this word vomit because i saw that you mentioned it was the only fic you got hate on was the glass turtles fic (which, fuck that commentor fr and kudos to the other user who replied to them) and i hope you understand how much that piece of writing is loved. so. just letting you know that one dude mightve completely misread its themes but also, that fic helped someone a thousand miles away reconcile with some of thier family.

i love all of your fics, including the brothers au! the themes and plots you deal with in glass turtles + that au is, again, done super well and are topics i'd like to write about too, especially addiction, which is shown in your main fic in a cathartically realistic way (still need to catch up and comment though. AAGH sorry!!) and all of your mikey-centric fics too, but "glass turtles" is a fic that i think i'll remember forever.

thank you for sharing your wonderful writing <3

oh wow. i don’t think i actually have big enough words to fully express how much this ask made me feel. i genuinely cannot thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart. thank you thank you thank you 💗

first of all before i start blubbering: happy new year to you, my friend! i hope 2025 is beautiful and healing and full of love in every way you need! sending so much love and good vibes your way for an amazing year ahead:)

now onto me just gushing about how much this ask made me feel HSJSHDH

glass turtles i think will always be my kind of magnum opus in a sense, not only is it a fic that im just proud of for finishing, but it’s a fic that kind of keeps giving whenever i get such amazing comments and messages such as these.

it took me seven months to get that fic done, seven months where i had a lot of time to really reflect on my own feelings and experiences and i think i can safely say (without sounding like im blowing too much smoke up my ass lol) it does show, because to know that it resonates with other people who have gone through something similar, it helps me know that what i went through does actually matter, even if that’s shown through the form as something as silly as ninja turtles fanfiction, if it’s able to bring together people who have been struggling through the same thing, then it’s absolutely worth it to me.

i didn’t actually know about the term ‘glass child’ until i started writing the fic itself. and ive seen a few people either comment or message me to say they were unaware of the term also, and that in itself is pretty incredible because if my story is able to bring some sort of awareness to people then that just really blows my mind.

it’s always so daunting to me at least, posting fanfic. you have no idea if anyone will read it or care about something you’ve poured your heart and soul into. it can be a really weird thing, but i will forever be so so grateful for all the amazing feedback i have gotten from posting it. every time i either get a comment or i see the kudos numbers tick upwards or when i get such lovely, heartwarming messages from amazing people like yourself, it just honestly fills my heart with the most joy ever. i genuinely cannot be more thankful for everyone that has been so kind.

so posting a fic with some more “out there” themes is very scary sometimes. i even really hesitated on even publishing ‘brothers’ for the longest time because i believed that nobody would want to read something so far from the canon but again! so many kind wonderful people continue to prove me wrong with my doubts!

i’m so glad that a little bit of my brain baby was able to help you in some way. that’s more than i could ever ask for when i hit post on ao3 — thank you for sharing all of this with me, it just genuinely warms my heart to a degree i didn’t think possible :’) thank you again!!

and ough the 2003 boys. i don’t remember when i picked for them to be the centre turtles for this story but i just always adored their individual and collective relationships in the show. all of the versions of turtles work well as brothers but there was just something about these particular boys that scratched my brain and just felt so right :) im glad you enjoyed that aspect too, i don’t think i would have written them with any other version in mind :)

at the risk of just repeating myself by keep saying thank you (lmao) i’ll just cap this ramble off with saying how much i appreciate you for this ask as well as your support. it is so so felt and so welcomed and this is exactly why i love writing fic and being part of such an incredible fandom.

i don’t know if glass turtles is the last of where we will see this version of the boys but until then, im happy enough knowing it’s out there in the world, helping someone that may need it like you said. all of that seriously outshines one nasty hate comment by the force of like a million suns lol

treasuring this comment forever i think 🫶 thank you again so much, and have an amazing start to the new year !! take care my friend :)

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"If you're too short to stare down your nose at someone, keep your chin down, your eyes up, and don't blink. It's not as threatening, but it will show you are not afraid." -Mai (probably)

...

In exploring various avenues to go about a Ghost Hunt/My Hero crossover, one of the more entertaining dynamics I think would be the interactions between Mai and Endeavor.

To put it bluntly, there is a strength behind Mai’s character that I don’t think we in the Ghost Hunt fandom give her near enough credit for, and that is the fact that on a fundamental level, Mai is fearless.

As per general anime protagonist behavior, she is almost exactly like Deku when it comes to doing what she perceives to be the right thing.  Reckless, yes, and she is often running headlong into danger, but it’s important to remember Mai has also never been afraid to call anyone out on their bad behavior.

Within minutes of meeting Ayako, she called her out for talking down to her classmate, a classmate she was not even particularly close to.

She often calls out Masako and Naru both for their condescension and attitudes.

Takigawa was physically holding her back from going after the faculty at Rokuryou.

She called out Lin pretty quickly for his bullshit.

And she straight up yells at everyone in the very first case for their bickering and posturing even though she barely knew any of them.

In canon, Mai jumps at ghosts and she is easily unsettled/frightened, but even against Urado, she still has the inherent resolve to think, ‘Okay, you need to go.’

Also recall the fact that she has not hesitated to out Naru twice on minor secrets solely because he pissed her off.  That whole bit in the Labyrinth case where she demands to know why he didn’t tell them the full reason why they were there and he just answers with how ‘some people don’t know when to keep their mouth shut.’  Yeah, he didn’t say that because he didn’t think she could keep the secret.  Homeboy straight up knew she would weaponize that information if given the chance.

For all her compassion and the ‘good girl’ vibes we remember her for, Mai is petty af.

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This is why I like writing Mai as an adult.  Canonically as a teenager, she’s already formidable in her own way.  As a young adult who’s dealt with Naru and company for a few years and has subsequently gotten used to the constant razzing and sass the whole group brings to the table (and let's be real, nobody in My Hero Academia would be prepared for the full force of SPR's combined sass,) adult Mai would be a force of nature.

So as intimidating as Endeavor is, I legitimately think Mai’s reaction to him would be a resolute,  “I don’t care if he’s three times my size and on fire, nobody speaks that way in my presence and gets away with it.  Hold my purse, hold my beer, time for a verbal ass-whooping.”

And then there’s Yasuhara saying, “Go off, sis,” and filming for posterity.

Speaking of SPR's favorite bespectacled fiend, Yasuhara has definitely hit on everyone in the top ten.

Yasuhara and Mai both have probably ended up in this situation, possibly at the same time and the end result is always the same:

Naru stepping in.

"What exactly is your plan here? Putting them down or harming them are your only two options right now, only one of which is the smart option. Unhand them. You're embarrassing everyone."

...

SPR really be the Animaniacs sibs to every Pro with an ego. Which is, like, 90% of Pros. And villains.

...

But yeah, general cattiness between Mai and Endeavor:

"I didn't see you there, Taniyama. Perhaps your lackluster and unremarkable costume was to blame."

"Not all of us are trying to signal that Gondor calls for aid."

[thesweetestdevotion]

Hi Stella, I hope you are doing good. May I request you a reading on BTS Kim Taehyung's upcoming songs?

Winter Ahead is releasing on 29 Nov 2024 and White Christmas on 6 Dec 2024.

But more curious about "Winter Ahead" song, like general reading of this song and what would be people's reaction. Will they able to understand the song or meaning of song?

Thank u.

Taehyung Upcoming Music General Reading:

His overall energy:

Dice: 11th House, Scorpio, Moon

Tarot: Seven of Swords Reversed, Three of Wands Reversed, Knight of Cups Reversed, The Hanged Man, King of Pentacles

Just looking at his dice, there is a definite air of introspection and self reflection here. Scorpio and Moon together gives a depth and secretiveness to the realm of the mind and our emotions. There may be some deep emotional themes, maybe a bit somber and deep, or at least the meaning of the music will be. Im not so sure of the sound haha, but its definitely a possibility. The 11th house is the house of our community, friendships and our dreams and higher ambitions. maybe he will reflect on people’s support of him, or on his relationship to the public. Could also be his relationships to his friends and community. Or maybe it’s about general collective themes, like things commonly spoken about during winter time, just the general vibe of the season I guess? But it’s definitely gonna have a deeper meaning, im not sure if even the public will be privy to the actual real intention behind the music, it might be secret to only him/ the people involved, but we may get the hint of what he will be addressing in the songs. I think he also wants to open up?? I just heard that. Maybe he wants to be more vulnerable in a way, but im still getting protective energy so we’ll have to see what he comes up with lol.

Now that tarot… who broke his heart y’all lmaooo. I see he is in an energy of sadness, sacrifice, and disappointment. I think he feels restricted in some way, emotionally. He’s also healing form some sort of betrayal but I can’t be sure of what that entails and I don’t want to ask :p I think he’s also in a more self assured energy because of it, maybe he feels comfortable materially but emotionally he is lacking. He may be leaning on his more earthly side in order to compensate for the loss and sadness, working very hard, investing, making career moves. This energy is sorta sad, i feel that he is in some sort of emotional limbo waiting to let things out. Maybe this artistic pursuit will be the beginning of a healing journey for him.

His intentions vs. Public reactions:

His: The Tower, Justice, Ten of Wands Reversed, Ace of Wands

Okay so maybe he wants to create chaos in a way, I think by letting his emotions out and clearing the air he is hoping to get some sort of revenge (aligns with Scorpio energy of the dice) It’s very Martian, Saturnian, cold, calculated in some way. He’s hurt and this will be him showing that he is hurt. He wants to cause a stir in whoever/whatever hurt him, get his lick back, and move on. I think this is a way for him to unload the many burdens he has been dealing with, he’s letting things out, creatively! It’s inspired a spark of creativity and action in him, maybe this was a swift artistic process, or maybe the decision to do so was swift. Im not sure, but his intentions are definitely to sort of destroy things, in a way. We’ll see what that looks like hehe.

Public’s: King of Swords, Strength Reversed, Three of Swords Reversed, Seven of Cups

I think the public will catch onto this vibe of his, but mostly they will be aware of the healing going on. People may be projecting things onto the music as well, its like they will be overwhelmed and not see it super clearly, they may be swayed by conflicting opinions and theories of the intention/themes of the releases. I think there is also a separation between them and the artist, they really will not clearly understand what is going on, which is good i guess hehe, i don’t think they are meant to. They may feel Taehyung is being vulnerable with them, showing them his soft underbelly. We might see a bunch of people throwing around theories of reasons of why/what the releases are about. I do see a positive perception of the art, but also it will inspire people’s analytical side, they want to figure him out though i don’t think they will.

With that being said i don’t think this release is for the fans to be honest, whatever his true intentions are its between him and the people who he truly wants to impact, whoever those people are, I wont to delve into it and honestly i don’t really care to either, his privacy is important (don’t ask me about it, i will disregard you). I think the release will be fun, a cool refreshing vibe, maybe a little messy hehe. I hope we all enjoy it and i wish him the best!

Hope y’all like this one! Xxx

[afandommultiverse]

General HC’s for Simon "GHOST" Riley

♱ A/n: don’t get me wrong, I love some good Ghost fluff, but it just feels too OOC for me, so here are my personal head cannons for my hundredth baby daddy🫶 p.s I would just like to mention I still ain’t play the game so my lore isn’t the best but that ain’t stopping me🕺

♱ Warnings: 18+, some nsfw hcs towards the bottom, there is a warning before hand!

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♱ this man is fucking mean. He WILL hurt your feelings on occasion, both on purpose and not. He. Does. Not. Give. A. Fuck. Either way.

♱ matter of fact, this mf thinks he is right despite being very VERY in the wrong, and it takes a LOT to get him to admit to being wrong.

♱ STUBBORN AS A OX BRO, his motto is literally “My way or the fucking high way.” No ifs, buts, or in-betweens!!

♱ be prepared to make many, many arguments and still get nowhere on a specific topic. your opinion does not matter for a long time for this man, and takes months of getting around to even thinking about your side of anything.

♱ it would take a long time to get close to this man, like sure he might be down to fuck quite early on, but to be emotionally available in any way other than angrily fucking your brains out is going to take YEARS.

♱ probably isn’t interested in keeping relationships with citizens because he doesn’t want to get wrapped up in his life, lovers, or friends, his position in special forces keeps them all vulnerable

♱ not until recently (being on this new team) does he actually have friends, ghost kept to himself and still does, but after recovering from his betrayal, he would bond with no other teammates and refused to cross any lines with anyone

♱ anger fucking issues- this man has. Like yes, he can control himself in the moment and continue to lead on with the mission, almost acting like your disobedience didn’t even phase him, but OH you better be expecting a whoop-ass reprimanding that will leave you doubting your entire worth and existence

♱ or if a particular enemy is pissing him off, he won’t let his frustrations affect his movements, in fact, it only fuels them, and when he finally gets a hold of em’ there’s nothing left but a bloody pulp of a person

♱ the highest possibility of becoming a friend is being on the team or meeting in a bar when he had been drinking a little bit - both of which you will have to be highly persistent to evoke a reaction

♱ he likes it when people talk to him, which makes him feel less scared and intimidating in public areas. Of course, he likes to keep that vibe when on missions or dealing with interrogations and such, but still out in public. he wants to make people as least uncomfortable as possible, even if his skull baklava is a little intimidating

♱ SPEAKING ON INTERROGATIONS, I know for a fact that this man has committed WAR CRIMES on other men for information, like he totally has it in him to do so, ESPECIALLY, when it’s a a horrible war criminal or sum

♱ he is a metal, heavy metal, grunge, hard rock, kinda guy - don’t deny it. He’s got way too much trauma to not want to blast out his eardrums at every possible chance. He also likes to explore all genres too, like alternative metal, black metal, alternative, alternative rock, etc.

♱ lowkey likes to bond over music, like trading music with the team and talking about it and what they thought when meeting up later.

♱ he likes to sit down and have a cigar with Price every now and then, ofc drinking with him too. They have their own “superiors” moments and talk about how the team is doing and what training could help them for the next mission.

♱ almost always does extra reading and research on the mission itself and/or where it takes place to avoid and map out any possible problems that could arise that no one else would foresee, especially regarding his own benefit nowadays.

♱ ghost likes his job, as much as it has been a lot on him and the people around him, he couldn’t see himself anywhere else than right here, fighting for the rights of people he’d never meet but know are free because of him.

♱ it gives him some peace of mind, and he needs it because the poor baby has been through a LOT

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♱ come on, you know I had to, but speaking of him going through a lot, he has definitely picked up a few kinks along the way, most of which are from his occupation

♱ coming in at number one, a pretty vanilla thing now I guess, but choking. he loves that shit, both on himself and his partners, he likes the feeling, his senses overwhelmed and everything throbbing, bringing a little oxygen deprivation, and he's all there.

♱ but of course, he also loves the sight of someone underneath him, fucked out and panting, but they can't catch that breath they so desperately need to ground themselves, and while they keep trying to find it, he keeps fucking it out of reach.

♱ second, bondage duh. again something he both enjoys on himself and others. he liked the feeling of the bruises after the deed. It's one hell of a reminder that gets some weird looks, but he doesn't mind, just keeps reminding him of you

♱ thiiiird, knife AND gunplay. now, this takes some serious trust between him and the partner, and truth be told, he usually only did this with male partners he had met through work originally. he loves it, and honestly, nothing gets him going faster, but he has some serious trust issues and can't just go giving everyone he fucks a loaded gun pointed at him

♱ yes, loaded. ‘it ain't fun if it ain't.’ that's what he always says

♱ if it is a one-night stand, he is likely to not put much into aftercare, but if he will see you around a lot, in bed or otherwise, he’ll put more effort into it. This could be cleaning you gently with a wet rag, or softly rubbing your back while you try to catch your breath after he has taken you from behind. He does not cuddle tho, though he ain't a cuddly man the first few sessions, sooner or later that wall comes down and you’ll find yourself tucked into his side when you come too, and he’s just blankly staring out, not trying to think about how well you feel there and how badly he wanted to stay the

♱ but he won’t ever stay the night, again not for a while, and the first time he ever did- it would be an accident. He was simply too tired and rested his eyes for a second, only to wake up the next morning to you rubbing his back as he laid his head on your chest. he acted like he hated it, grunting and pulling away from your touch to rush and get ready to leave. deep down though, he can’t get rid of the feeling of your fingers softly grazing him awake off of his back for the rest of the day.

[giggly-toybox]

now that you're writing for One Piece, if you don't mind, u could share some general tickling thoughts/headcanons on the series? (hcs of characters, scenarios between them etc) if this is too broad u can feel free to ignore, thanks!

HI OKAY SO!!!! I was literally so excited to make this bc this show has absolutely taken over my brain AAAAA

But here we go! For now, we’ll only be doing MY personal favorite characters! If you want a character that isn’t on here, let me know when requests open up again!

Also note: I am in the middle of the Marineford arc (and might have cried a little bit) meaning I am nowhere near up to date with some of the newer stuff!

Basil Hawkins:

EASILY my favorite character. Me and my mutual have been rambling about him for days. So far he’s only had like eight minutes of screen time so don’t know why I like him so much, I just do. My silly babygirl. My borblo Right off the bat, he’s feather ticklish

Like, really. Feathers affect him more than actual fingers

I think he has a very gentle and soft laugh most of the time, but it can get loud if you hit a bad spot

I think his worst spots are his belly, neck, and chin

If you use a feather on any of those spots he will die

EXTREMELY squirmy. He will buck, kick, shove, squirm, whatever he has to do to get away

He’s a really gentle ler most of the time

He’ll just hold you close with an arm while he mindlessly traces his finger on your belly, reading his cards like nothings happening

If you want to get away he’ll let you

But if you tickle him first, that gentleness is thrown out the window and he immediately targets your death spots, scribbling his gloved fingers all over your squirming figure

He doesn’t do it for long tho, and he’s nice enough to get you some water afterwards :)

Perona:

MY GIRLLLL! I love her so so much she’s easily my favorite female character! I just love her style sm, I need her outfit! I love her little ghosts and her aesthetic as a whole, she’s just so pretty!

Persona just oozes sister vibes, both big and little. So I would say she’s an even 50/50 switch

She’s probably ticklish all over, but I would say her worst spot is her belly, specifically her belly button

She doesn’t shut up when being tickled. She’ll scream, beg, plead, complain, or try to distract you

Either that or she’ll send her ghosts to make you depressed

She would be such a brat after being tickled tbh 😭

She would pout and scold you before eventually moving on and floating away

She only tickles things she deems cute, so if you’re not cute in her book, you’re safe

But once she has you in her sights, she’ll playfully tackle you and absolutely wreck you

She likes your cute laugher :3

Crocodile:

My boy Crocodile! Gosh he’s just so cool. I didn’t like him too much in the Alabasta arc, but he got a lot better in Impel Down and Marineford! I just really love the way he looks, and his sand powers :3

Yeah…In all honesty I don’t think this guys really ticklish at all

As much as it pains me to admit

The only spot that could really make him laugh is his neck

Even then all you would get are a few chuckles

He’s not sensitive enough to wreck sorry 😔

He doesn’t really participate in tickling either

He thinks it’s childish

Nico Robin:

The best Strawhat. I do not take criticism. She is my girl and I love her so much. Her “I want to live” made my heart ache! And she easily has my favorite devil fruit

We love a canon ler

Gosh her ability is so well for tickling as we’ve seen in the show twice!

Like she can summon two arms to hold yours and then two to tickle you silly

She’s a nice ler most of the time tho, she won’t torture you for too long

As a lee I think she’s one of those people that are ticklish on most of their body, but not too ticklish

Like no matter where you tickle her, tummy, neck, feet, she’ll giggle but that’s about it

As I’ve said before I think her worst spot are her sides so that’s where you’ll get the most reaction

She’s a bit louder but other than that there’s not really a lot of difference

She had a lovely laugh though <3

Jewelry Bonney:

Another supernova! I really like Bonney, I find her devil fruit really interesting! I can’t wait to see more of her Ticklish thighs. I don’t take criticism she’s definitely weak there

She also has pretty sensitive armpits, but her thighs are a bit worse

Her laugher is kinda rough, and she definitely snorts

If you’re really close to her, she doesn’t mind being ticked by you

But if not you’re getting kicked in the face

Since she’s a big foodie, I see her favorite tickling methods to be things like nibbling or raspberries

I would say licking too but I’m super uncomfortable with licking tickles

X Drake:

X Drake! I love him so much, my dinosaur boy. He easily has the best animal devil fruit so far (I forget what the type is called)

While I do think he’s ticklish, I think he has a lot of tolerance for those kind of things

I mean he used to be a rear admiral he definitely has some endurance

He doesn’t actually squirm around that much. He’ll flinch and shove a bit, maybe kick his legs a few times, but for the most part he just takes it

But he does have one weakness: raspberries

If you blow one right on his belly, like on the middle of the bottom of the huge X on his torso, he’ll laugh louder then the sea

He’s definitely more of a ler. I see him tickling people in his dinosaur form

Like he’s carrying them like a doll and tickling them all over

Or holding them by the ankles and wrecking their soles

Human or dinosaur form, if he’s tickling you you’re not escaping until he lets you go

[soaringwide]

Hey :p

Another post of the dive deeper series, where i try to explore techniques you can use to improve the way you read tarot cards.

The big issue when you start reading tarot, is that you're going to have a tendency to read each card separately, which makes the reading clunky and prevents you from gaining insights from the card's interactions.

And I really think that tarot, with its characters, symbols, colors and correspondences, is perfectly suited to this method.

Putting the meanings together is the tricky part, and I really like using my story-telling brain in order to solve the problem. It helps me take a step back from the pressure of getting the message right, and adds a bit of fun, which again makes me more relaxed and thus allows me to read more accurately. I read with my logic mostly, but my intuition does play some part, and I find that it needs space to roam, which is hard when my brain is overheating trying to decipher the imagery of the cards.

So here are some points I keep in mind when reading for myself or for others:

Personify the Cards

Think of each tarot card as characters. What are they experiencing? Are they thriving or struggling? What vibe do they give off? At ease of tense? Can you think of a situation you’ve lived that triggered that reaction and what did it make you think or feel?

It’s also useful to let the cards interact with each other by looking at their placement and at what direction they point or gaze. Two characters facing each other don't signify the same thing than if they are facing away. Just like in real life, people act in ways that convey meaning, even without words.

Read Symbols

Symbols are like condensed little pockets of meaning. Use the historical or traditional definitions, but don’t shy away from intuitively coming up with your own, and connect that with the context of the card. Symbols are tied to culture and time period and they change over time.

When you think about it, tarot was created at a time where technology was vastly different. So you're going to have to get creative with symbols to translate that to our modern life.

Spot Repetitions

Having multiple cards of the same suit (cups, swords, wands and pentacles), of a few cards talking about a similar theme is called a pattern and indicates the importance of that topic in your reading. Is your reading packed with Kings, or full of 3's? It can signify as focal point and can be useful to research that if you are not sure what that might mean, but you can, again, also use your own logic or intuition and get a little crazy.

The absence of something can also be very telling, for example, a lack of wands when it comes to looking for a job which might indicate a lack of actions or initiatives from the querent.

Scan your Emotions

Emotions are a powerful way your intuition can speaks to you. Scan your body and/or the way you feel and analyze it. Do you feel giddy, lighthearted, or on the contrary constricted or confused? This is a sign you’re tapping into the answer and you shouldn’t discard it.

It's quite hard for me to do because I have a more rational way to interpret the cards, but I'm slowly integrating that way of welcoming messages as well. For example, I might feel very sluggish during a reading when it talks about someone struggling to do something, or on the contrary really speedy when someone is eager to say something to someone.

This adds a color to the story your trying to tell.

Connect the dots

The hardest part is to connect the dots, but it’s also what will bring your reading together and stop you from reading cards separately. When I read the cards, there is always a corner of my mind that is daydreaming the querent's life, like a little movie.

It helps me generate messages that pops up in my mind in addition to what I see in the cards. Get creative and remember that there is no right or wrong way to do it, if you’re seeing something it’s probably meaningful, so learn to trust your judgement and know that it will get better over time with practice.

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