#ALSO OF COURSE
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Thinking more about Akechi's rank 3, and about its flow into rank 4 at the jazz club—where Akechi begins to open up to Ren, by taking him somewhere special to him that he hasn't shared with anyone else.
Don't you think it seems off, on a first glance? Like it doesn't work? Because Akechi does not seem to entirely appreciate Ren's intervention. If you look at their phone call afterwards, it seems like Akechi lost control in the café, and is trying to take that back from Ren. He threatens him with what Ren "took" from him!—"I'll be dictating everything, from hair to accessories". Ren dictated the hair and accessories in rank 3, and now Akechi needs to do the same!
Make no mistake, this exchange, while cute as a button, is also Akechi struggling to regain some control that he feels he lost. He needs payback; he needs to meet Ren's challenge; he needs more.
So what's going on?
always in chains
As Akechi mentions in the engine room:
This line, of course, suffers in translation, so let's take a closer look:
Akechi 君は、今までの自分とか、人間関係とか⋯そういうものに囚われない。 kimi wa, ima made no jibun to ka, ningen kankei to ka… sou iu mono ni torawarenai You don't allow yourself to be enslaved by such things as human relations or past selves…
Did you understand this line on its first pass? Or at all? "Past selves"? What is this, Akechi, are we bringing in reincarnation now? What do you even mean by "human relations", is this a biology class?
Let's rework it a little. ima made no jibun—that's "the you until now". We might say "who you've always been". And ningen kankei—well, that is "human relations", translated very literally. But nobody would ever say that—it just means "relationships"! When you talk about your ningen kankei, you're often talking about your skills with relationships—how you get on with people. And Akechi gets on with people very well.
So what is he actually saying?
You don't allow yourself to be enslaved by such things as human relations or past selves… You're not a slave to expectations, or to how others see you.
Akechi will later tell us that these chains have bound him since his earliest days:
Those chains are the core of the resentment and envy he feels for Ren. More than anything Shido could potentially do to him, the expectations of others are what bind and torment Akechi. And this difference in how Akechi and Ren respond to outside pressure is one of the most important contrasts between them.
back to rank 3
So what does all of this tell us about rank 3, when Akechi is spotted by celebrity hunters?
In this situation, Akechi can't do anything but leave. He has to be the good boy everyone expects. He can't just sit there soaking up the adulation, and it seems clear that he isn't so inclined—look at the way he cringes away in his seat, and more to the point, look at his face:
Before he's accosted, his sprite and model match—he is probably genuinely pleased! But afterwards, though the sprite is sad, the model looks angry. Akechi can't confront his fans and ask them to leave him in peace. He can't dare to be angry with them, even though he's spitting tacks. He is chained—he can only ever do what people expect "Goro Akechi" to do.
Not just as a celebrity, but in every sphere of his life, even when he's carping to Sae or showing off for Shido, he is a slave to his public image—to the expectations others have of him. He cannot act outside that box. Society put Akechi in chains from babyhood—and his response was to own them, to build a bigger, better cell for himself. That he understands—he tells us how it works repeatedly!—and that he recognises, but can never escape.
So what is it that Akechi learns about Ren, in rank 3? It's that if you dare put Ren Amamiya in a cell, he'll tear it down.
Akechi could only dream of acting the way Ren does in this moment. Ren takes a huge risk here—on how Akechi will react, on how the crowd will react—and it pays off. Rather than submitting to the chains others place on him, Ren refuses to be bound. Ren is ungovernable.
Of course that's catnip to Akechi. Of course, even though it unnerves him, he wants more. He's drawn to Ren like a moth to flame—and this is the genesis of the bitter envy that will become so toxic by rank 8.
revision history
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v1.1 (2024/10/06)—clarified some pronouns.
v1.0 (2024/10/06)—first posted.
#persona 5#p5 meta#shuake#goro akechi#ren amamiya#ALSO OF COURSE#this is akechi's first indication of how far ren will go *for his friends*#something else that will be so significant to him by rank 7
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Gonna disclose my income as a freelance artist because I feel like it might give some perspective. And mostly bc I'm feeling a bit burnout and I want pity points ok? Lol.
Context 1: For sake of simplicity, all figures are net income (minused all fees, charges, insurance, benefits, etc)
Context 2: I live in a big city in Việt Nam and the cost of living is relatively low. A salary of 1000$/month is considered really good for someone living alone with one pet, no family or children, no debt or other liabilities. Entry level jobs usually start at around 200-300$/month.
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Let's start in 2021 because that's when it can be considered when I started doing art professionally.
In 2021 and 2022, I was juggling between art school, a part-time online side gig, building social media for my art, and of course try to get commissions. But coms were few and far between, mainly because I didn't have an online present before and I only hang in relatively small fandoms. So all I earn through side gig and art were only some change, in total avarage to about 40$/ month. Some months made up for no income months.
In 2023, things starts to be a bit better as I get more confident in my skill, but coms are still few and far between and months with no income is still common. Side gig was few and far between too and pay less. Overall I'd say it goes up to about 80$/month.
This year 2024, art school is done, I can finally do art full time. But I was severely burnout because all the accumulated stress since waaaaay before catch up with me and i couldn't cope anymore. I have to spend a lot of time resting instead. Fortunately, I received a decent amount of coms each month, and the new patreon surprisingly got a few supporters (I fully realistically expected it to sit at 0 for at least a year). Overall, I have an 8 hours 4 days work week: 4 hours a day on com and managing social media and other stuff that actually makes money; 4 hours a day on my own projects and personal indulgence that doesn't directly make money. As of now, my income is about 180$/month.
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You are probably wondering how the fuck do one live like this in this economy.
It's because my family is middle class and can afford a freeloader like me in their house, receive their pocket money and tuition fee. I'm privileged.
But of course my family isn't rich and if just one catastrophic event happens to us, we'd be in bad shit. I'm constantly in anxiety of money, work, and the future. It doesn't help that I'm late 20s and many people around keep reminding of how I'm not making money yet still leeching off parents. It doesn't help that, for years all i hear about art is it will just lead to failure and no money.
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But still, I am thankful of my family for letting me stay here. And all my friends and supporters for giving me money oc lol, but more importantly, believing in me more than I ever do in myself. I read all of your little tags, your keysmash and compliments, and I keep them all dear to my heart, and I went back to them everytime I need motivation. I can't see where my future as an artist will be, but I cling to your support and love as the will to keep going. Thank you all so, so fucking much. I'd have been literally dead in a ditch somewhere without you guys.
Anyway, idk, I've always been adamant about wage transparency (especially in a corporate setting) but I rarely see this in freelance artists. except to flex, to promote the hustle culture, or to sell some courses they made. Most of us don't want/can't subscribe to the grind and have nothing to flex either. All we have is this shit economy. I'd wish we could have been more open about this and many of us wouldn't have to feel so lonely and despair all the time.
#my income isnt exactly secret tho you can see my price list#and my waitlist with com infos#and my patreon income is public#so this is just a confirmation ig lol#also of course#rant#lol#cryptic na posting
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Relationship where two characters from opposing sides worked to dismantle the other yet have their respective narrative being so deeply intertwined with each other that the feeling of hate and love begins to blur or vice versa are my favourite tbh. Y'know the silly complexities of human and all that
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Oh 11037 i’ll be with you still, you are the angel that I couldn’t kill.
#danganronpa#leon kuwata#sayaka maizono#dr1#danganronpa trigger happy havoc#you know what.#leosaya#because im insane#midnight draws#also of course#mini makoto cameo#chapter 1#decided to shade an older sketch and got hit over the head by Oh Ana with these two#oh ana mother mother...please listen to it and think of chap 1#no i couldnt kill ana....#love love how it works for both of their povs#get it cause sayaka wasnt able to kill leon but also leon was never able to properly kill sayaka. she lives on after death and it is her#message that gets HIM killed#you are the angel that i couldnt kill!!!!!!!
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Hi, I hope this isn't rude but if someone wants their poll reblogged would you rather they send you an ask or tag you? Also thanks for reblogging the polls, it's really fun seeing other people's favorites!
Not rude at all! I’m fine with any method; people have sent asks, tagged me in the post or in comments, sent the post over message, all sorts of ways.
If I’m sent the post any way that isn’t tagged, I’ll also try to tell you about how long it’ll be in the queue for ^^
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im inactive as all hell on this site, but, hey! i saw across the spiderverse and of course i had to make a new spidersona
#apollos art#spidersona#across the spiderverse#spiderverse#art#sona#still having thoughts of the venom movies#are they goofy as hell?#of course#will they still influence me to give every spidersona ever a symbiote?#also of course
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reverse elsa anon lets have a freak off in dippys asks and have it end with us kissing. lets slowburn enemies to lovers. also dippy thank you for enabling my freak im honoured to share the freakiest anon spot with freaky elsa
- pondering anon
Oh my god the anons are gettijg 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓎...reverse elsa anon, 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓇𝒾𝓈ℯ 𝓉ℴ 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓁𝓁ℯ𝓃𝑔ℯ?
#dippys asks#pondering anon#reverse elsa anon#anon 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀 off#TAKE COVER YALL#THEYRE GETTING 𝒻𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝓉𝒶𝓈𝓉𝒾𝒸#also of course#i will enable everything ever all the time
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I read KonChat and really enjoyed it holy shit! very visceral stuff about their family and also really really sweet. siscon love lives forever even if it's in the form of discord conversations
One million years siscon forever !!!!
#also of course#I'm so happy you enjoyed it enough to throw me an anon#I'm glad to have made someone else happy aith my writing!
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yaz Looks normal and opaque in regular daily life but if you put her in front of a light source you'll see shes actually mostly seethrough and you can see all of her insane insides
#i make justifications for myself when i insaneify her bc#i like my girlies a litttle bit wrong in the head#shes talking to the doctor btw#of course#abt missy btw#also of course
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soooo normal about mike ross and succession characters parallels btw
#mike and roman both being referred to as ‘weak’ or ‘the weak one’#kendall saying ‘if dad didn’t need me right now idk what i’d be for’#and mike quitting bc he doesn’t think theres a place for him at ph without harvey#kenstewy and miketrevor <3#mike is like a poor version of a roy sibling#😭😭#mike ross#suits#also of course#the roman and mike dog motifs
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I just like how the first line is like "this is a visual novel I have been waiting to play" and then includes the fact that it is a VN as one of its cons lol
*non-vn gaming journalists constantly foaming at the mouth to assert how much they hate visual novels*
(this is for a review of tsukihime)
#that's me whenever I play a JRPG#like sure the game is great and all#but the downside is its a JRPG#did I know that going in?#of course#is it still a downside to me?#also of course
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I hate how people will look at popular indie artists who had one or two songs go viral on TikTok and start making fun of anybody who listens to them. "Oh you listen to Lemon Demon, Will Wood, Jack Stauber, Glass Animals, and Mother Mother? Tsk, don't you know that is stupid TikTok neurodivergent white transmasc preteen music? It's so mid and bad you should listen to real music–" you are a pit of misery
#will wood#sp-rambles#For people wondering this is entirely about people being mean to the only music artist ever (Will Wood) on Twitter#Like obviously of course it's also about how people will degrade and twist jokes into being homophobic and ableist#by generalizing and making it out like people who listen to stuff they don't like are autistic and gay and whatever other slur applicable#Twitter is a cesspool though idk what's any different#Anywho still listen to Will Wood my beloved please please pleaseeee
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“these characters should be mentally healthy before they get together 😌” ummm no I actually think we should smash their mental illnesses together like clumps of play-doh and see what colors it makes
#they should live under each other’s skin in a way that’s weird to everyone else. actually.#also on a more serious note since this is getting notes mental illness does not preclude people from deserving love#or the ability to give and receive it#it also does not make you inherently toxic#sometimes people are just toxic anyways of course#and a lot of people enjoy a toxic ship and are relating that to this and that’s cool!#but like#if you believe that’s the only option you’re wrong buddy#people can be worse together but they can also be better#acting like a character or a person has to ‘fix’ their trauma or what have you to be worthy is. a fucking weird mindset.#but anyways!
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Just thought to myself "can't women have a bad time in fiction without rape being involved" which really shows you how much you're in the fucking trenches if you are both a horror fan and women fan
#rape mention cw#LIKE VERY LIGHTLY BUT STILL#im playing i have no mouth and i must scream#and it was mostly handled well#but i also went. sigh. of course
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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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th unsettling knights r kissing in the dungeon, m'lord.
#my art#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi#laios touden#kabru of utaya#labru#th smorch is based on tht one brokeback mountain scene. oh the desperstion of it all#mostly unserious but. a little bit serious also they are so touch starved#that laios is so dinky it is th first one i drew. he has no clothes on. of course. obviously.
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