#A Memory in Time.
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my grandpa was a good man. and it really wasnt his fault - recreationally lying to kids is a proud family tradition - but he told me, once, that cutting a worm in half resulted in two worms.
i think he said it so i'd be more morally okay with fishing? i actually dont remember the context.
point was, he told me this, and he understimated (by a very large margin) how much i liked worms. i was a worm boy. very wormy. and after hearing that, i went home, and i dug through the garden, flipped over every rock, did everything i could to gather as many worms as i could, and then i uh.
i cut them all in half. every worm i could find. all of them. with scissors.
i then took this pile of split worms, and i put them in a box with a bit of lettuce and some water and stuff and went to bed expecting to double my worms overnight. i have math autism, so i had a vague understanding that if i did this just a few times in a row, i would eventually have a completely unreasonable amount of worms.
i was very excited to become this plane's worm emperor.
(i think i was...six?)
anyway, i did not become the inheritor of the worm crown. i instead woke up to a box of dead worms and cried. a lot. i got diagnosed with panic attacks as a teenager, but i think i had them as a kid, i just had no idea what they were. i was kind of processing that a.) i had killed what i had assumed was every single worm in my yard, and thus would have no more worms, and b). i was going to like, worm hell.
(six year babylon spent a lot of time worrying about god.)
so i kind of freaked out, and i climbed a tree, because god can only smite you if you're touching the ground (?) and i sat up there mostly inconsolable until my mom came out and asked, hey, what's up? what happened?
so i explained to her that i had killed all of the worms, forever, and was also Damned, and she took me to the compost pile, and we dug for all of five seconds and found like twenty more worms.
the compost pile was full of worms.
she then told me that a). there were more worms, and we could put them back under rocks and stuff and recolonize our yard and b). that one day, i would die, and go to heaven, and be able to talk to the worms face to face. that i'd be able to tell them all that i was very sorry, and that i killed them on accident, driven only by excessive Love, and that she was positive they would forgive me because worms have six hearts and no malice.
at that point, i think i was sixty percent tear-snot by weight, and i had no choice but to gather enough worms that i could hug them. which my mom helped with. and then after that she helped me put some worms back under each rock.
and for my epilogue: i spent a significant portion of my childhood in trees. and for many years after, even when my mom didnt know i was watching, i would catch her giving the space under the rocks a light spritz with the hose. not because she loved worms.
but because she loved me.
#anecdotes#memories#worms#moms#the hazards of recreationally lying to children#dont treat my grandpa too harsh#story time#stories#babylon#animal death#religion
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✦ Fashionably late ✦
#own art#own characters#CanisAlbus#art#artists on tumblr#Machete#Vasco#anthro#sighthound#scenthound#dogs#canine#animals#modern au#I wanted to finish this for halloween but in the end couldn't quite manage#I hope you had nice time :>#I started thinking about what costumes they would choose months ago and changed my mind several times for both of them#I had this false visual memory about Jack Skellington's ribs being visible like that#but when I went looking for references it doesn't seem to be the case#I could've sworn#I adore Howl's jacket#I added little stars to it#no particular reason#Howl is somewhat star coded isn't he and Vasco has this sun motif going on#I thought it suited them both
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Ok to be clear, this whole time what Daniel Molloy thought happened was:
He hooked up with Louis in 1973
Then listened to him rant about his ex for 8 hours
After which Louis tried to kill him
He woke up in a second location and was like wow my craziest trip yet!
He didn't hear from Louis for 50 years
Until he gets an email like hey bb sorry about the murder attempt do u wanna come to Dubai? u can interview me again i probably won't kill you :)
And he's like yeah sure
And then he still spent the whole time bullying him
Self-preservation skills at a 0. That imaginary dick must have been something else
#iwtv#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#daniel molloy#one of the characters of all time#dick so good it makes you actively seek death#and he didn't even get any#do we think armand implanted that memory specifically and if so why?
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Joan Didion, from Blue Nights
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i feel like we dont talk enough about how distressing and disturbing memory loss issues are. forgetting what you were talking about halfway through a sentence, putting something down and instantly forgetting where you put it. having to reread one paragraph over and over again because by the time youve moved onto the next sentence you dont remember what the one before it said. always doubting if your memories of things are real, not being able to remember important life events.
its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.
“i forgot” is treated like a lazy excuse when it’s genuinely such a big issue for so many people.
#this has been building up in me for a bit#i was talking to my mom and she brought up a concert we went to and i have zero memory of ever going#huge chunks of my life are just. gone.#every time i sew i put the needle down and spend fifteen minutes trying to find it#memory loss#memory issues#cognitive issues#cognitive decline#cognitive dysfunction
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I think the new memories that are being made come to the future stans in their dreams
#they can sort of communicate through them too#but it’s hit or miss what sticks like real memories or dreams#I have had people theorise that the little stans aren’t from the past but from a different dimension that’s only very slightly different#which I also love I think that’s so cool#my art#gravity falls#twins in time au#Stanford pines#ford pines#Stan pines#Stanley pines
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not as much memory loss timeline fiddleford you're so cool
#i am having a good time with this#to be specific he was still addicted to using the memory gun but quit before it got really bad#now he's helping stan rebuild the portal#because gay or something#gravity falls#gravity falls au#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#stan pines#stanley pines#tate mcgucket#myart#character design#grunkle fidds
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buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#(the origin of halloween huh) (oooh)#why yes i did wake up way too early to watch the stream and will have no memory of drawing this later#anyway THE MAGIC BOOK IS BACK TO EAT US ONCE AGAIN!!!!#this does make things make a lot more sense if it doesn't have to. y'know. actually take place in the established world#like how jack and sally are apparently just gonna be THERE as themselves WHY NOT#i'm certainly not complaining mind you#scully looks like he's gonna be super adorable and i love him already#spooky scary skeleman who just goes :O a lot and is excited for halloween#he seems like he might actually be more of a fusion of jack and sally? or maybe i'm just reading too much into it#still getting jazzy vibes off of him though. is not scully j graves an incredible jazz musician name.#does this open up the possibility that the last time we went into the book there was a sexy anime boy stitch just offscreen the whole time#...maybe some things are best left uncontemplated#god everyone in this event looks fantastic i'm so glad i saved up some keys after all#a little sad that there's no lilia but you know what the fact that a halloweentown malleus exists is still pretty dang good#and sebek's hat is SO tall#the biggest hat for the loudest boy#i hope oogie is here too i need him and jamil to meet#i need jamil to be faced with a guy who's just a bunch of bugs standing on each other's shoulders in a trenchcoat#i am not coherent right now i just needed to get this out before i go pass out again
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dad issues
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(I think they were all fundamentally affected by what they saw and just collectively decided not to share the upsetting details)
#dungeon meshi#aj art#chilchuck#chilchuck backstory stuff#sorta#comic#tw alchoholism#tw death#tw parent death#dont generally tag for death stuff but in this he straight up dies on screen so I thought I should#Uhh I think they all had extremely grim visions bc I think that’s sort of the nature of ghost attacks#I mean Laios’ was basically just him being like “I should’ve died no one would care if i died”#I think Marcille’s would be. Horrifying. Given all her baggage around death.#Tho iirc this would be before Falin’s backfired resurrection#But anyway the mentioning of his father got me thinking#Since at least judging by Laios’ vision#They focus on people who’s death you have baggage around#Especially since Falin wasn’t ever like. Dead dead.#And Chilchuck does mention his father multiple times#Specifically he mentions his death and how he died#Like it seems like that specifically is a notable memory for him#Like you never see him like “my dad taught me to do this”#It seems like he remembers his dad *for* his death#So I anyway I made an extremely grim comic about it#beabell
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im ngl that scene in the lighthouse when hes trying to jerk off to the idea of a hot mermaid but keeps getting distracted by unsightly visions symbolizing his guilty conscience and descent into insanity is so real like. it really is like that sometimes
#piksla.txt#its just like when ur trying to think of smth sexy and ur like 'ooh think. uh. hot vampire ladies uh. think think think'#and ur brain keeps reminding you of like. deadlines and chores and unpleasant memories like shoo! go away!! im trying to have a fun time#its literally that . anyways robpat SLAYED slayedddddd#hall of fame
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Jason Todd’s mother: Addict, single mother, raised the child of a violent henchman, died of an overdose
Jason Todd’s best friend: Recovered addict, single father, raising the child of an assassin, rescued from death by Red Hood
DC: yep. Wild.
DC: anyway!
DC: onto the next Red Hood storyline
DC: (incoherent shrieking)
#red hood#Jason Todd#Roy Harper#red hood and arsenal#red hood and the outlaws#dc#Jesus Christ dc comics#get it together#WHY SEt up these parallels and never use them#do they get memory wiped every time they try to give his character depth
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listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded mfer happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.
#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know#im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie#or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them#snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow!#but then shes gone…. for a while……#and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book#that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss#the hunger games#coriolanus snow#tbosas#lucy gray baird#not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration#but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause#like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not.#snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time#he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets#and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets#he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved#but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall#he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires
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The self-awareness on this guy 😞 someone pls send him an "are you bi?" quiz STAT
#dead plate#rody lamoree#rody x vincent#vincent charbonneau#rodince#rodincent#my art#i saw someone tag one of my drawings with a version of their ship name using their last names and it was nice but i forgot what it was#aksjdhf#also NOO i forgot Rody's lil moles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#thankfully at least tumblr allows edits#anyways#rody looks so wonky to me but I just wanted to stop fidgeting with it and post it since i wasnt getting anywhere anyways aksjdfh#also little story time lol#when i was in 10th grade there was this girl in my chemisty class that i was kinda frienemies with#we just always got into arguments with each other but the vibe ultimately stayed light and friendly between us#kinda like a <<fuck you but anyways what did you get for no. 5>> kind of situation#one day she slammed one of her hands against the door right next to my head 😳😳#i think she was trying to intimidate me but instead it just gave me a core memory LMAOOO#thankfully by then i already knew i wasnt straight lol but it definitely unlocked something in me hahahah
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the chain but on a scale of who says hooray yippee and wahoo
is this anything.
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#in my HEART i believe that legend is a yippee guy but he hides as a hooray or a wahoo perhaps maybe a little woohoo here and there#yays wees yahoos and other similars dont count here on the big scale cause thats not the game!!!#lu time#lu twilight#lu legend#lu wild#lu warriors#lu sky#lu hyrule#lu wind#lu four#my art#HEY ALSO? HOW THE FUCK DOES JOJO REMEMBER TO ADD IN ALL THE EMBROIDERY DETAILS. I HAD TO RESAVE LITERALLY EACH OF THESE MORE THAN ONCE B#BECASUE I FORGOT A THING DETAILS#I STRAIGHT UP FORGOT WINDS LOBSTER. HIS LOBSTER!!!!!#also four's embroidery?? congrats to anyone who can but girl im not drawin all that#im not actually complaining the details are very good my memory is just dogshit
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“Remember when…”
#zelda#legend of zelda#ocarina of time#zelda ocarina of time#zelda oot#link#OoT link#ocarina of time link#zelda fanart#daeyumi art#ocarina of time fanart#something something returning to a place that holds memories but knowing that you can never return to those times#i drew this piece in 4:3 ratio to allude to a similar feeling the viewer may have about memories of older media
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Thank you Splatoon for all the memories, gonna miss you you funky little squid game <3
#didnt have time to make an actual art piece so you get a meme#God I’m gonna miss Splatoon. but I still have my memories :3#Splatoon#splatoon 1#Nintendo#nintendo memes#what the hell do I tag this with 💀
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