#08052021

[dubmill]

Cranford Park, Hillingdon, London; 8.5.2021

[marialagidyne]

drawn 08052021

another gwen meme lets GOOOOOOOO

[hammersmithnudemurders]

View towards Heron Trading Estate from Western Avenue, London; 8.5.2021

[theunstuffedpepper]

“Cat in the square, is peeking out of there, meow meow meow meow, cat in the square!”

Guys, I’ve had this dumb song from one of pep’s toys stuck in my head for what seems like forever now. These toys must drive all parents nuts, no? 🤪

I’ve been riding the struggle bus a bit more lately.. after stopping breastfeeding (which happened recently), of course my calorie burn dipped as a result. I continued eating more or less the same I had been, and I gained about 10 lbs back. Big bummer, big wake-up call. This week I’m getting my momentum and motivation back a little more and it feels good, but it’s annoying to still see 210 on the scale. I was so close to onederland, but I’ll get there again. I will. On the breastfeeding front in general, I feel at peace with my decision to transition him off breast milk and I just about made it to my goal of six months. For exclusive pumping, I feel like that’s a job well done, and I’m happy and grateful I could provide that for him as long as I did.

We've got a couple family things going on that are looming in my mind, a bit like a dark cloud. Brendan's uncle passed away yesterday and we'll be having a memorial service for him this weekend. He was very ill for a very long time. My grandfather was also back in the hospital recently after being diagnosed with cancer not too long ago. He's doing alright, for now. I'm struggling personally with not having had a closer relationship to him since I became an autonomous person, and from what his girlfriend tells me, he feels the same way. Why is it not easier to just pick up the phone and call someone important to you, and to change that relationship? Even though it's never been something we've done, I'm trying to work up the nerve to start now.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the experiential self vs. the narrative self. If you're curious to learn more from the source, check out Daniel Kahneman and his TED Talk on it. For me, I've been living more in my experiential self - the self that wants the immediate happiness or pleasure right away, in the moment - rather than the narrative self - my "remembering" self, the narrative I tell myself about who I am and who I've been. I'm actively trying to focus on getting out of the experiential self so much and getting into my narrative self much more.. I want the narrative I tell myself each night when I'm laying in bed to be positive and reflective of the person I actually want to be. Easier said than done, I suppose, but.. baby steps. Eh?

[nootherlovegj]

Die besten Glückwünsche zum Geburtstag sende ich Dir aus der Ferne, du weißt gar nicht wie gerne ich jetzt bei dir wäre. 

Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag meine Süße! Ich liebe dich ❤️🌻🎂🐼❤️

OMG, what a beautiful text❣️

[highpriestess]

Dreamed of swimming in the ocean with E and a little girl. The water is frozen and slushy, the girl keeps encouraging me to get in and I say it's cold, but I go into the water anyway. I can taste the sea salt and the water has large shards of ice that fold out of the waves and scrape across the sand. It's very cold but not unpleasant. We're all laughing.

[ph4nt0mbr1d3]

𝕽𝖔𝖆𝖉 𝖙𝖔 𝟓𝟐 𝕶𝖌 - 𝟎𝟖/𝟎𝟓/𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟏

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☆ intake: probably near 2000/1000

☆ steps: 7424/5000

☆ fast: 19/18hrs

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im so fucking upset with myself, everything was going perfectly and i even managed to resist pizza TWICE this evening but as soon as i got home from musical i just started eating. i feel so full and gross atm why the fuck did i let that happen

[solwritesfor]

I've loved you since the day you left

I know it may not be you

But it felt like it was you for some time

Because ashes and scars and blood

Don't have a face

You cannot love them

You cannot thank them

And maybe that's for the best

[lakriimal]

Yaptığıyla söylediğiii nedense farklıııı 

[dubmill]

Subway under the M4, Cranford, London; 8.5.2021

[unimpassioned]

Things will hopefully be really different by this time next year.

[avenirdelight]

MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN ANSWERED!!!!!!!!!!!

✨DELESON GOAL✨

manifesting for a deleson goal...or maybe two.

[stefanxhunga]

Sales Centre - The highest infinity pool in the world. Beach Resort, Dubai.

Sales Centre – The highest infinity pool in the world. Beach Resort, Dubai.

Sales Centre – The highest infinity pool in the world. Beach Resort, Dubai. There are few feelings as liberating as swimming in the open air, below blue skies that stretch all the way to horizon — and now in Dubai you can do it nearly 1,000 feet above sea level. Named in March as the world’s tallest infinity pool inside a building, the rooftop bathing spot at the newly opened Address Beach…

[alotusstory]

08052021. Okay, I reduced the amount of things I want to track so let’s see how this goes for August! Some things I’m tracking this month:

Morning walks

Insanity workouts

No spending

Sugar free meals

Duolingo

Journaling

Posting on Tik Tok

Posting in IG

Let’s see how this goes, I’ll show you guys the finished spread at the end of the month 😊

[snapthistiger]

exercise 08052021

bike ride to the gym

3 x 10 incline press

8 x 10 incline sit ups

3 x 10 pec machine

30 minutes on the step mill

3 x 10 seated press

bike ride home

the gym workers received Hershey kisses

ok day at work / fairly routine stuff and some project stuff / we are back to wearing masks in the hallway and all common areas and also must mask when going to the guard gate in the morning for our temperature check

bottom right = gym now requires masks for entry but not in the exercise room which doesn’t make much sense.  i did see a couple of people not wearing masks.  they have shut down the basketball courts.  the water park is still open because it is outside

the local hospital has about half of the patient rooms set up for COVID.  i can tell because each room has vent out the window

bottom left = nice red rose

hamburger and hot dog and lima beans for supper

hope you have a peaceful evening

[decembergirlloverain]

Your voice, it just feels like home.

I miss it.

I miss all of you

so much...

@decembergirlloverain

FR 08052021