#.....i-i don't *want* to be this useless
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#feel so fucking pathetic right now#so so so fucking pathetic#its just food. it's so easy. so why the fuck can't i do it#why am i having fantasies about someone cooking for me not for romantic reasons but for#the simple fact that i can't fucking do it myself#......its so humiliating#it just... it hurts!! It hurts so much and i can only force through the pain so much#i don't *want* to keep ordering fucking delivery but i#i-i don't have my food stamps and. and.... GOD#i hate this. I hate this so much. i hate it!#............im trying so fucking hard. i... I promise i am. i promise....#.....i-i don't *want* to be this useless#i hate being so pathetic. i hate this.fuck i hate this so much#..................near tears sobbing because my hands don't work and i can't boil water to make goddamn pasta.#.......................i-i hate this so much#i hate it i hate it i hate it#fuck. fuck. i don't even think i COULD kill myself if i tried i don't have the fucking arm strength to do shit with a knife or whatever#......even in this i. im fantasizing of being helped#.............what level of hell am i in when all i want is for someone *else* to kill me?#.........please#please......
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what if i broke all the bones in your legs actually
#ramble#please let this be a fucking joke#i cannot imagine being this out of touch#YEAH IT'S ALMOST LIKE ART TAKES FUCKING EFFORT AND THE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE DO ENJOY IT ACTUALLY#the phrase 'labour of love' exists for a reason#i sat and watched my grad film on repeat for days when it was done bc i was so proud that my hundreds of hours paid off#I DON'T MAKE ART TO SIT AND LOOK AT IT#I MAKE IT BECAUSE I PUT TIME AND LOVE INTO IT AND I GET TO LOOK AT IT AND BE LIKE I MADE THAT WITH MY HANDS!!! AND MY BRAIN#GOD FORBID YOU PUT A SECOND OF WORK INTO ANYTHING IN YOUR FUCKING LIFE ANYMORE YOU USELESS FUCK????#i'm so sorry i'm unreasonably mad about this#is it crazy for me to say that you should have to do some things in your life?????? god forbid you read your own emails#what are you DOING how fucking LAZY can you be????#and that is NOT a word i ever want to use but this is the DEFINITION of lazy#kids with adhd aren't lazy. tech bros wanting the exact same things that people have worked years for at the push of a button are lazy#i actually need to go and put my face in grass i'm so upset#thankfully. basically every musician who saw this shut it the fuck down and told him he was an idiot so that's nice
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Size/Height difference poses
I love height differences aesthetically, but posing them can sometimes be a pain! So to cater to those that also struggle with posing smols and tols, I have a few options-
Meant for art of any type and ask memes, for drawing, writing, photography (like gpose!), ect. Gender nonspecific and for any sort of relationship type, romantic, platonic, and antagonistic!
#art meme#pose meme#height difference#drawing meme#ask meme#this is less about sending me things and more i wanna see other people use it#i have things i need to draw you people need to reblog so i can send things#idk why people don't use pose memes for gpose its not just about drawing#also i wanted obvious options for the smol being something other than soft uwu delicate sort#let smols be gremlins#i just need to feel like ive done something because i currently feel like a useless pos
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got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?
webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.
it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere
#i thought it was made by the creator of 'O Human Star' for some reason but apparently not?#goddammit goddammit goddammit#'i don't have to write down the title of this piece of media i encountered in my formative years bc i'll always remember it'#*cut to ten years later frantic googling*#fun fact 'a.i.' is now a completely useless search term#google in general is useless#and stuff i read 3+ years ago regularly vanishes from the internet#bookmarks are not enough! if you like indie media--download that shit! buy digital/physical copies while you can#save it to the cloud back it up and organize that shit!!!#keep a list of the stuff you read (organized by date/media type and possibly with keywords if you want it to be useful longterm)#(or a spreadsheet even if you're like me and rabidly consume short stories/comics like a pack of amnesiac piranhas on a feeding frenzy)#(that stuff PILES UP over the years ok. if you wanna make sure you'll be able to find it again a decade later--curation is key)#because art WILL touch your soul and then vanish into the void leaving naught but a 404 Error in its wake#i am an old man shaking my fist at the kids on my lawn but the kids on my lawn are me and my longterm digital planning skills circa 2012
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kainess x rope (1948)
#blue lock#michael kaiser#alexis ness#kainess#ブルーロック#blue lock fanart#blue lock manga#art#fanart#my art#kainess enjoyers do i have a movie for you#i consider the play it was based on a foundational text of toxic yaoi i'm dead serious#ESPECIALLY after 261 this fits them so well if u like kainess go watch rope now NOWWW#(also read the play i'm a useless theatre kid so ofc i'll rec that i directed it last year)#i don't have anything particularly devastating to say in the tags today sorry guys#if u want devastating go read never the sinner it's another play that covers the true story that inspired rope#now THAT one will fuck you up for a good 5-7 business days#happy reading!
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✧*:・゚Art summary 2024
2014-2017 | 2018 | 2019 | 2020 | 2021
#art summary#art summary 2024#art summary meme#my art#I know two years are missing but I wanted to get back to doing this summary#no art in November apart from that little mushroom so I didn't separate Aster and Kornelia (I like that drawing lol)#I draw significantly less and even less for myself but I don't mind for some reason#idk maybe my hyperfixation is now writing#I used to draw and learn about art and consume it in every way#and then I think Al came in and started to slowly destroy that obsession bringing doubts about my skills and the whole sense of creating#I don't look for new art that much because the constant suspicion spoils the joy of exploration#I don't feel like posting drawings in low res blurry with added artefacts knowing they will be ground into mush anyway#all so the rich dudes become richer and the spiteful dudes drown in their own venom#I know writing is treated the same way as visual art#it's art after all so something useless and pointless#but at least I don't have to post my chapters every month and watch as they disappear in the everyday slop#though I'm sure the big bosses will take my words and feed them to the machines as well because why not#sorry about the tags xD#HAPPY NEW YEAR! (soon)#I hope 2025 is the year the Al bros choke ;)
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hey in ur peri animatic: (https://youtu.be/OCqlRuDaXYU?si=K52WDu_vw9rg7chz) that I have been permanently obsessed over since today and have watched about 20 times by now so much that I have drawn & posted stuff based on it what was that partial bug form peri had?
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I haven’t watched either of the show btw so if it’s explained in the show please tell me plsssss
OK, SO the bug thing is not technically canon to the series. It's based on my own headcanons for fairy biology, but i do have justifications for it!! Fairies have very strong shape-shifting abilities, so it would make sense that the form they show to humans isn't necessarily their true form(not to mention extreme that mimicry is very common in insects). And you want to know the visible traits almost every fairy has in common? Being very small with Insect-like wings.
The fact that their humanoid form isn't their true form in actually confirmed in the show! Cosmo and Wanda are revealed to look like biblically accurate pseudo-angels in the museum episode. (I say pseudo angels because the Flaming Sword of Eden is only debatably sentient and I don't think is considered an angel. Ophanim are also debatably not angels because they don't have wings (sorry for the angel tangent I like angels))
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So wouldn't their true forms be angelic then? Well, yes. But I like bugs so. Also I have more headcanons to justify myself. I like to think that they have both a true-true form (incomprehensible to the human brain, probably exists mostly in a dimension invisible to us, that looks how we imagine biblically accurate angels), and a fairy form (which is visible to humans but is naturally very insect like and tends to scare people). So, in order to interact with humans, they have to learn to shapeshift into a humanoid form but will occasionally slip if they get too relaxed/aren't careful, hence the mandibles coming out when he yawns!
The reason they struggle so much more with human forms than the animals or objects they typically turn into is that, well, they aren't trying to convince those animals or objects. The more human they try to look, the harder it is to keep up convincingly. If you turn into a really uncanny squirrel, only other squirrels will notice. If you turn into a really uncanny human, they form a lynch mob and burn you at the stake.
#fop#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish#headcanons#ok I think I said everything I wanted to#my brain has so many useless thoughts bouncing around in there#their bright colors would also imply that they are poisonous to eat#my personal theory is that Jorgen is half human idk how else to explain whatever he is. tall. no wings. that or he's something else entirel#maybe he's a higher rank of angel#fairies are definitely a type of angel in this world#but they don't seem to line up with any specific rank as far as I can tell#they behave most like I'd expect a Guardian angel to which could make Jorgen an Archangel or Principality#but Ophanims are in the first sphere of heaven which. uh I don't think it's right#to be clear I'm not even religious im just way too into angels#Uhhhh anyway I guess the moral of the story is that I did that just because I wanted to an because nobody could stop me#Actually Im just thinking about this now#I mostly drew baby poof without bug features to keep his design uncluttered visually#but fairies having naturally very human looking larva would explain how changelings happen#something something evolution. mutualism. those parasite birds. idk#ok im out of thoughts now seriously this time youre free now#speculative biology
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Sometimes I think about Aventurine in the moment he first discovered his Pathstrider abilities. The moment he first realized he could shield not only himself but also others. The very first moment he realized he could be a source of safety, rather than a burden--than a curse.
Sometimes I think about the hatred he must have felt for himself in that instant.
Where was this power when their camps were burned to the ground with every last one of their meager possessions? Where was this power when his mother died begging as he cowered, playing dead in a bath of the blood of everyone he knew?
Where was this power when his sister stood tall, a silhouette against the lightning, and used her body as the shield? Where was this power in the maze, when it could have spared the screaming child who was the first to die?
You could have saved them. You could have saved them. You could have saved them.
#honkai star rail#aventurine#it's Aventurine angst hour!!!#come get your pain!#sometimes my thoughts on Aventurine are just#“Try not to cry.” “Cry a lot.”#but in particular I think about Aventurine unlocking Preservation powers a lot#canon doesn't tell us whether it happened before or after becoming a Stoneheart#and either way I think could be great#like if it happened right when he first got free#how useless and late it must have felt#if it happened after he became a Stoneheart#how much would he question it#is he a true Pathstrider or just piggy-backing on Diamond's gift#will he lose that protection if he leaves the Stonehearts?#then he can never leave because that's the best tool he has for saving people he loves#don't mind me#sometimes I too want to torment the best boy
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Adami and Crawly
#my art#baoko's art#fanart#homicipher#mr crawling x adami#mr crawling#adami adashino#homicipher mc#homicipher mr crawling#originally i didnt want to add much text but then changed ny mind lolol#however just some useless facts cuz i thought those are funny to write them out so;P#OH AND i consider Adami as a separated character more#i don't entirely see her as a representation of ourselves (myself included lol) so i decided to add my headcanons and stuff on her tho:^]#....And i made Crawling's hair longer [intentionally lol]#but that was for an upcoming comic idea👁👁
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sad to see jon fans and dany fans fighting again :( game of thrones did them both dirty. they turned her into a villain and him into a traitor. they killed her and they made him useless. they were both ooc so I don't blame them for their actions, but I see some parts of the fandom still do. I'm very happy to see hotd vindicating dany and I hope some kind of retcon is coming, but I don't want to see this become a new reason to shit on jon. let's not pretend his ending didn't suck. he, too, deserved better than killing the woman he loved after barely contributing to the war that was central to his storyline from day one. I would like to see him acknowledged as a targaryen too and a vital part of the war for the dawn, as he should have been. ofc this show is about a targaryen queen and dany is THE targaryen queen so it makes sense they want to do right by her first and foremost, but... yeah. would be nice to get something about both of them someday.
#jonerys#house of the dragon#hotd spoilers#jon snow#game of thrones#i don't want to spund like i want to make it all about jon#but i feel like for some people being team dany means being anti jon or viceversa#as if got was anti dany and pro jon#when in fact it was very anti jon#they took everything from him#made him dumb useless and boring#and miserable#him being a targaryen didn't matter#his resurrection didn't matter#if hotd wants to fix got's mistakes i'd like them to fix that too#but i fear he's not targaryen enough for them#sigh
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It's way too hot and I am way too tired to do any more efforts, so excuse the critical lack of quality here.
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If you didn't know, Cole is my favourite Power Ranger :D
And while I was binge watching Ninjago I had the pleasant surprise to see him physically and mentally traumatized in season 5 😈
And since I'm a huge sucker for angst, my brain immediately thought of developing that idea in order to hurt my beautiful baby boy some more. That and also the fact that my brain immediately looks for logic in the laws of cartoon physics (I really shouldn't do that...)
So I bring you the "Cole is a Ghost Kind-of-Saga". I still have a few more ideas to exploit, notably adressing the ways the other ninjas will help him cope with his new condition :3
And maaaaybeeeee a small comic too 😇
Anyways, I will let my brain rest a bit for now and sleep.
#I really want to rant about the things I wrote but my brain is melting#but basically ghosts are part of another plane of existence or smt#which explains for me why they can't really interact with anything from the living world#and also why Cole has visions#and why he has a different perception of time and can randomly space out#and I thought Cole was a bit different from other ghosts because he left the temple at the same second the sun arrived#and it is the reason why he isn't forced to stay in the temple#but also why he can interact with objects more easily#again these are just conjectures and headcanons from me#don't take this seriously#and also YES I'm gonna LOVE to write about his friends reactions#and how they can help him go through this#Because I still think that it is a lot#And Cole must suffer about it#But I also think that he is not the kind to express his feelings so he would suffer in silence#so his friends will have to be supportive without being too invasive#I think that there will also be a phase where they will prevent him from fighting/going out at all to protect him#because he would risk his life when they fight against other ghosts and he can't touch water and still has problem controlling his abilities#so even more angst because he would feel useless and the others would fear for him nonstop#my art#ninjago fanart#ninjago season 5#ninjago cole#ninjago#cole is a ghost
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I keep seeing posts by people trying to sell or buy tit tickets, and it made me wonder if there is a tumblr blog dedicated to collating all of them and maybe even hooking people up? I know there's a twitter account like that, but do you all think it would make sense to make one here? Or is it too late for that now that the eu leg is already over
edit for those lurking in the tag: the blog is here and she's called @terribleinfluence-tickets!
#i also posted this in the community but i don't actually know if it's more visible here?#please let me know if we already have a blog for that but i couldn't find one#and with tumblr search being useless i figured people probably have a hard time finding ticket offers#idk do you want this? i would make one but. honest feedback please#dan and phil#phan#tit tour#terrible influence tour#bookmark
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SKZ as DND CLASSES: SORCERER HYUNJIN
sorcerers carry a magical birthright conferred upon them by an exotic bloodline, some otherworldly influence, or exposure to unknown cosmic forces. one can’t study sorcery as one learns a language, any more than one can learn to live a legendary life. no one chooses sorcery; the power chooses the sorcerer.
#hwang hyunjin#hyunjin#stray kids#skz#createskz#bystay#a9gifs#*ccarly#*gfx#*series:dnd#*hyunjin#*carly:hyunjin#carrying half a sunmelon instead of a healing potion hashtag just8wisdomthings#i'm jk he has way more items than six. took a long time to pick the most important ones#gave him cool items in exchange for him being useless (having less skills than the others)#hyunjin is 100% the guy that carries so much shit w him and is constantly on the verge of encumbered bc he never wants to part w anything#and he never uses anything and forgets it's there. like damn that fight was hard [two days later] i had a potion of psychic resistance???#also i don't rly like this one LKJSDFKLSD but it used to be Worse. and i don't have any other ideas. so <3
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why can't it be december third like. today
#“november third” oh okay. fuck you#november is such a useless month anyway. i want it to be december already#kotlc#kotlc unraveled#unraveled#i'm sooooo excited guys you don't even understand
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I feel like I was set up from the moment I was born. I was made to fail. I have nothing. Nothing good about me. No brains and not good looking and incredibly bad luck. I hate myself. Everything about me is worthless. I am worthless.
#i hate everything#tired#emotional#dysfunctionality#tw selfhate#Selfhate#Self hate#worthless#stupid#i'm stupid#ugly#not worth it#useless#I'm so worthless#I'm not worth anything#i don't want to feel like this anymore#i don't want to be here#i want to go away#i wish i was joking#i wish i was pretty#i wish i was dead#i want to disappear#why was i born#why am i here#why am i like this#why am i alive#why am i the way that i am#i will survive#I'm barely here
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2x05 / 6x06
#varrow#tdp viren#king harrow#tdp harrow#tdp#the dragon prince#like it was always going to be this that destroyed them huh#s2#s6#2x05#6x06#mine#parallels#viren always internalizing 'i have nothing' with 'i Am nothing' aah#'but without this i'm nothing' 'nothing? oh you're powerless useless' 'i just don't want to be useless'#'and i intend to use them both'
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