#dysfunctionality

[battling-my-demons]

I feel like I was set up from the moment I was born. I was made to fail. I have nothing. Nothing good about me. No brains and not good looking and incredibly bad luck. I hate myself. Everything about me is worthless. I am worthless.

[emergencylifeadvice]

Everything and Nothing. All at once.

[relatably-depressed-n-anxious]

[mychildhoodtraumablog]

My body and soul were so tired of hating my parents. The unending song of outrage, disappointment, disgust, and self hatred grew to be too loud. And I was so afraid that letting go of my hate would make me weak. Would I become an easier target? Did I give them a free pass?

No, I chose forgiveness for me. I did it for me.

It is not in my nature to carry hatred with me. I am not that person anymore because I choose to be better. I choose to be free of that burden. I am a victim of childhood abuse, both physical and psychological. The triangulation to isolate sisters and gaslighting to the point of complete loss of self will not work anymore.

I say no and draw a line in the sand. No more.

The people who were supposed to love and protect me were my abusers. They don’t even fully understand what they did or why it was wrong. The semantics don't matter.

I am here. I am safe. I choose to heal.

[shvdow999]

[rosered-schneeweisschens-sis]

“Indeed, the more you study dysfunctional behaviors, the more convinced you become that most of us have weird brains, and those who appear not to just haven’t exposed their own brains to the kinds of stress, relatives, or Japanese animation that will reveal their mental dysfunction.”

— Michael I. Bennett MD and Sarah Bennett, F*ck Feelings

as an anime lover I think I should be feeling attacked, why did I burst out laughing instead?

[wronggalaxy]

Giving up a mom is so much harder than a dad.

My father is just some guy that had sex on Halloween a decade and a half ago. But, my mama?

She grew me. She held me IN HER BODY for nearly a year, at 18, until I was strong enough to survive on my own. She spent 40 hellish weeks of cravings and bladder problems and gaining a hundred pounds just to end it by being cut open then stapled back together by a traveling doctor she had never seen before and never would again.

And after all that torture, what did she do? Did she run as soon as she could walk, leaving me in the hospital nursery? Did she drop me off at my papaws for him to raise? Did she leave me in one of the numerous woods where anything could kill me?

No. She fed me, clothed me, cleaned me. Maybe I was emotionally neglected by her, and completely neglected and abused by my father, but she physically cared for me. Reconnected with her dad so I could have a papaw, ignored the fact that my father was married so I could grow up with my half siblings, eventually went to college to give me a sliver of a chance of survival.

She is so smart and beautiful and kind and sweet. I love her more than anything on this planet.

But she would despise me if she knew the truth.

And she still emotionally neglected/abused me.

And let my father physically neglect/abuse me.

I'm not sure if it's true, but I heard somewhere once that babies don't learn they're separate beings from their birthing parent until they're 6 months. I'm not sure I ever did.

I can feel her in me—in my skin and veins and stomach and ears. She flows through me.

I just want my mommy to love me again.

[immaculatasknight]

Canada gone crazy

[daimonpriestess]

Do Angels and Demons get along?

Not in My case...though I'm sure some do.

So I did a reading with Asmodeus today about last night, which I regret doing a reading with the Angels now especially Gabriel...😅

In a nutshell I haven't "worked with" Gabriel (or Jesus/God) for 2 years, I didn't even know I was back then tbh I just thought I had watched too much Supernatural 😂

Then I had a feeling that he wanted to communicate via a friend so I reached out and...did not like what I heard, I don't like being coerced let's just leave it at that.

Maybe it was an imposter? But given Asmodeus response I think not. So aside from telling me I can let go of the past and past lives concerning them and religion, he also gave me The Karmic and Soul ties cards...I doubt it's good karma either (or if it is it's the safe coddling kind) then after other personal messages. I drew My Unstable Unicorns cards.😂

Basically Gabriel was being annoying, "Spewing Poison" and Asmodeus had to swiftly come in to fix what was broken. On a fertile baby making note, The Angels want to "shake things up and create a damn Narwhal" which the Demons (especially Az) would rather reset to a "Dark Unicorn." 😆 Of course I get a say but since I would rather have a black unicorn then a narwhal (even though they're cute) we're in agreement 🤣😉

Also to Asmodeus personally, I know I have choice but I would never willing choose to be with an Angel over you not now (unless It's Lucifer jk) we have too much history 😊🧡💋

[gayjay8tey]

Story of My Life, always striving to numb the pain, turn off the emotions, become the robot. So much easier than to deal with the fact that I'm 42 and 1/2 years old, alone in this world, having driven all my friends and family away from me with my addictions, bad decisions, and poor judgment. Can't deal with the fact that I'm alone and lonely, so much easier to numb the pain! So much easier to make it go away than to deal with the fact or the feeling that I'm a failure in this life!

[battling-my-demons]

Tell me how dysfunctional and unhealthy your family is. I'll start:

My parents called me useless because I got their sandwich order wrong. My dad said I no longer had food stamps so I was no longer valuable to him and I should leave. My mom said that the house wasn't my home no more and kicked me out. Yay! I've been at the park for the past 4 hours just staring at the sky. Just how the cookie crumbles 😖.

[melynafoxclaw]

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[victoriajamessl]

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Featuring Serenity Style and {What Next} So I think I may have said this last year, but saving my little build of my winter/Christmas home was one of the best things I have done in Second Life. I think this is the 4th year that I have just been able to rez it all out on a platform and have an instant winter wonderland. I spent a good bit of time decorating it originally so it is filled with my…

[connieaaa]

I didn't realize at the time, that some times adults don't cope either. - Tosin Cole as Ryan Sinclair (Dr. Who)

[the-renaissancelady]

"Dad was ready to give anything but freedom. You snatch everything from me, in promise of freedom"

[scott-m-spangenberg-its-showtime]