#-some flavor of transmasc as well

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Dipcifica yuri is good but I need more Dipcifica yaoi. Give that rich girl some testosterone.

[comradebestie]

hm. well. there’s been a development. my mom found my gofundme for top surgery (i expected her to at some point, i’m prepared) and knows i’m transmasc now. she’s very upset that by covering my rent while i’m in school she’s “enabled” me to save up for something she sees as like, “ungodly mutilation” :/

we had a whole text conversation, i tried to reassure her it’s a future thing and the money i’m saving is just a general cushion like anyone else’s savings, but i don’t think that matters to her.

we’ll see how things progress as we both cool down ig

[transramblings]

Oh so people tell me they have a good experience in fandom more than in more general/shitposting spaces on tumblr so let's check out fandom spaces.

So I thought

(dysphoria inducing shit coming)

Holy shit what a fucking cesspool of dysphoria that is. If it ain't mpreg or a/b/o it's the strange fethisizing of trans (?) bodies by cis people. Hey hey why does this man have balloon tits?? Why are we treating transmasc bodies as sex objects??

[sabertoothwalrus]

I probably missed it, but what IS your favourite Dungeon Meshi ship?

WELL SINCE YOU ASKED, I have a chart already hdhshdh

1) Farcille is my number one!!! I wish I’ve drawn more of them, but most of my ideas for them are longggg and angsty and take a lot more mental bandwith. I’ve said before, I approach comics like I’m pitching an idea, and I mostly* agree with people’s depictions of them, so I have less to say.

*I say mostly because I cannot stand when people depict Falin as possessive, or disregard her characterization to give her generic dommy alpha monster traits hdhshdjs NOT THAT IT’S BAD it just doesn’t feel true to her character. I find myself bored by it.

I’m also put off by some of the folks I’ve seen in the farcille tags. They’re like,,, cliquey?? There was a point where people were dunking on mlm ships that came off borderline terfy, as if most of the dungeon meshi mlm shippers aren’t transmascs and lesbians?? I wasn’t a fan of the hostility like lmao it’s cartoons man

2) labru……… I love them….. mostly just post-canon. I really love Kabru (I think he’s my favorite character overall) and I loveeee the poetry of their individual character arcs and how well they play together. Guy who struggles to be honest, even with his own feelings vs Guy who doesn’t even consider being anything except honest. Kabru needing to carefully, painstakingly craft a mask tailored to each individual he interacts with, vs Laios, who is the only one to make all of Kabru’s masks fall apart. Also I think they’re kinda aro about it. They’re really good t4t flavored too.

The main appeal is post-canon. The King and his advisor. His right hand man. But it’s also the way like,,, Laios is DEFINITELY not the one in charge in their relationship dhshshsh (and this is what peeves me about how @myszkaa’s labru comic got memed to hell and back…. they don’t understand the later of comedy is from the KING asking for PRAISE from his SUBORDINATE!!!)

I will say!! This ship has a lot of folks with good takes on it, but it’s not immune to flanderization and boring yaoification. It’s popular enough that there’s enough of the good stuff.

3) chilshi!! I’ll admit this one has less canon validation hdhshsh but I think they have a lot of post-canon potential, and I think their difference in lifespans + the contrast in their lifestyle habits is really interesting and directly addresses a lot of the Dungeon Meshi’s core themes.

Part of the reason I like hanging out with chilshi shippers is cause most of em are chill, more nuanced in discussions, and are actually willing to draw fat & hairy people. And middle aged people.

special mention Kabumisu. I WISH I LIKED THIS ONE MORE!! I’ve tried,,,, I see the potential but I’m so picky about it and most of the content for it does absolutely nothing for me 🙈

Another thing is I HAVE to be able to like a pairing platonically to ship them romantically. Obviously shipping isn’t the only thing that matters to be about dungeon meshi.

I could say a lot more. Feel free to ask about my thoughts 👍

[yanderemommabean]

Can we get some yandere Geto going down on a transmasc reader? Pretty please 🙏

((Hi I hope this is ok! Im not too confident but here goes nothing!))

You were so sensitive, head pressing back against the pillow, thighs shaking against your will as you were put on full display. Sugurus calloused fingers made you feel a fluttering pressure as you closed your eyes and try to process anything this gorgeous psycho was saying. 

“You’ve been mine since I laid eyes on you, yet you refuse to let me service you the way you deserve. Tsk tsk tsk”  Geto clicks his tongue in disapproval, dragging his fingers up and down your folds as he wears a rather lascivious smile. “My good boy deserves praise, worship, to be given nothing but devotion, yet you starve us of that. You know I can’t let this continue, don’t you?” 

His voice dropped an octave, deep and angered “You’re slutty hole is quivering for me already. Aching and wanting. Why? Why deny yourself the pleasure we want to give you? It’s angering to think that you’ve been starved of my touch, -my love-  for so long” 

He flicks at your sensitive bud, groaning as he listens to you gasp and struggle to make a sentence. A small bubble of pleasure was forming in his stomach as he drags his thumb up and down your dewy folds, your cute dick begging to be sucked and toyed with as he made you who you were meant to be- 

His and his alone. His to toy with and take apart and to put back together. 

You whimper, barely able to form words as he cruelly begins to flick at your cock again, more wetness dripping from you as Geto presses his face into your wiry hairs and inhales, deep and guttural. Oh how dare you keep this from him? You’ll have to be properly punished once the blood flow is back into his brain and not currently making his cock a precum drooling mess. 

“W-wait no! I-I’m sorry!” You managed to garble out, but it wasn’t really any use, was it? You know Geto is a powerful man, he takes what he wants no questions asked. If he wants to toy with you…

Your body goes taught, his tongue dragging up your skin and swirling around your cock before giving it a gentle suck, making your hips raise and your voice strained. Oh holy fuck his mouth is dangerous- 

He indulges himself, tongue tracing up and down all of your folds as he watches your cock twitch and beg for attention, sliding his wet muscle inside of you as his fingers stroke you up and down, methodical and precise, as if he knew exactly how you liked it. 

Which he should. He’s had his eyes on you for a while. He’s seen you in more ways than you could ever be aware, and he’s been driven nuts by every denial you give to his proposals and offers. 

Well, no more. Geto will have you worshiped and praised, even if he has to chain you down and let the people…have a taste themselves. And who could blame him? How you felt on his tongue, your flavor, a godly nectar he couldn’t get enough of, oh he’s going to drink his fill and then some!

You practically howled, feeling Geto hold your thighs down to get his tongue in deeper, face pressed as close as it could get as his fingers continue to stroke you, hungry and starved like he couldn't get enough. 

You go to try and bite your sleeve to silence yourself, but a harsh bite to your thigh stops you in your tracks, Getos eyes furious and feral as he catches his breath. “If you hide your heavenly melodies from me, I can assure you, you’re going to regret it. Be louder for me. Let me hear you cry as you fall apart”. 

You swallow, eyes watery as Geto continues to lap away at your cock, fingers now curling inside of you and fluttering to hit that specific ridge, causing you to yelp and tense your legs. 

You were helpless, riding the man's face and fingers desperately, unable to push away the instinct to cum, to cover his face in your mess and give the man what he wants. Fruitlessly you yank at his hair, his lips coming to suck on your cock as his fingers crook just right, causing your vision to turn white and your knuckles to clench in his hair. 

The explosion of pleasure has you panting and gasping, words failing to leave your lips as Geto slurps, sucks, and curls his fingers again and again, brutally like he’s punishing you. And in a way, he was. You have turned down every kind offer He’s given you to join his “group”. To be one of the enlightened. No more. He’ll have you with him, and he’s going to ravish you until you simply can’t leave. 

It’s hard to walk when one's legs can’t work, after all. And you’re so sensitive, it should be fun watching you come apart again and again, until you’re crying those pretty tears and can’t push him (or his love) away anymore. 

“Fuck fuck FUCK- “ you cry, that cord in your core finally snapping after a few more rough sucks, his fingers not stopping as you rock against his face and go still, shaking and gasping as the pleasure shoots through you and your eyes can’t help but roll back. 

Oh what a sight to behold. You, sweat covered and disheveled, panting and hiccuping little pleas as Geto continues to toy with you. You aren’t being fair here you know? Being this precious is dangerous with a man like him. 

You wince, a pitiful noise being made as Geto kisses up your stomach, but only moves to hold your legs open again, making sure he left another bite to your other thigh as he feels you quiver and tremble beneath him. “Atta boy. See? That wasn’t so bad now was it?” he asks, his skilled fingers coming to rub up and down your still twitching cock. “Now keep behaving. We have a long night ahead of us, I’d rather it be easy on you”

-Mommabean (I hope you like!)

[muzsmocsing]

MHA headcanons bcuz the show brings me a lot of joy

If you don't agree with them or they clash with canon that's ok just scroll on, peace and love on the planet earth and whatnot.

⭐Iida is straight but is openly into BL. He's up to date on new releases, mostly pg shoujo stuff. Except for one fantasy comic that is hella explicit at some points but he is VERY passionate about the lore and characters.

⭐Bakugo has Inosuke levels of androgyny going on. He would give Shouto a run for his money in the "class 1-A's resident prettyboy" vote that was held if he 1. wasn't too scary for people to vote for him. and 2. if he stopped scowling for like two seconds.

⭐Aoyama is some flavor of nonbinary but doesn't use any labels because he HATES them. He is an ✨experience✨, a piece of art up for interpretation.

⭐Pro hero Red Riot has a line of menstrual hygiene products with cool and manly packaging because he's very popular with transmasc people and wanted to give back something helpful and validating to them.

⭐Kirishima once called Bakugo his "brofriend" and he just about had an aneurysm.

⭐ Before they got together, Kirishima wrote half the valentine's cards Bakugou recieved anonymously because he "just had so many feelings it couldn't fit just on one card!!"

⭐Bakugou is a secret romantic. He hates talking about it because it's "bad for his image" but he has a big collection of shoujo manga and internally melts whenever Kiri does something soft for him like buying flowers or holding his hand in public.

⭐Aizawa regularly gets intrusive thoughts of becoming a househusband whenever he has a particulaly annoying time. Like after his 7th parent teacher conference of the day or after a full week of falling asleep in uncomfortable beds in seedy hostels he stares at the ceiling like "Hizashi is a celebrity. He has three jobs. What am I doing here? I love him. I can't cook but I could learn ��"

⭐Kaminari hits on Bakugo's mom every chance he gets. Bakugo's tries to blow him up, Mitsuki thinks it's fucking hilarious.

⭐Allmight has a crush on Midoriya Inko but is scared to do anything about it because A. it might upset Izuku and B. he thinks he's too old and ugly for her.

⭐You'd think Midnight would be a bad teacher based on her general sexy nature but actually she's well loved because she's the only teacher who the kids trust with advice on relationships and intimacy, especially after the dorm system set in. She has time set aside each week where she's available for anyone to pop into her office and chat about whatever they're worried about. Aizawa is endlessly thankful for this because one time Todoroki asked him what a backshot is because he heard Sero make a joke about it and he's still healing from that conversation.

⭐Since both of their quirks are food based Sato and Momo often bake together. Sato's the master decorator, Momo buys good quality ingredients and is a beast at chiffon cakes.

⭐Denki can't swim. After The Incident in primary school where he almost electrocuted a whole swimming pool of people he's been scared to try.

⭐Kirishima has two moms. His birth mom had him at like 18 and his biological father wasn't ready for that yet. Her best friend immediately stepped up to help with the baby, and that's Kiri's mama now.

Thank you for reading!! I am incredibly late to this fandom but hey I'm having fun now so. Sick.

If you liked this, you can find part 2 here :)

[honey-minded-hivemind]

Idk why but lately I've been thinking a lot about a reader who is some flavor of trans/didn't vibe with their assigned gender at birth. Maybe in a scenario where they were kinda neglected with the X-men they were worried being different like that would only make them more isolated/get reader in trouble. So in a scenario like in fallen snow au where they are separated from the yans for an extended period of time and find themselves free and living on their own, reader just goes all out with dressing and presenting themselves in a way that they feel like they couldn't before. Like, they look completely different from when they left/ran away from the mansion.

When the yans do find reader? Reader has gone all out, they realized theyre transfem? Reader is wearing all the girly clothes she always wanted to but was too scared to try. Reader realized theyre transmasc? He's cut his hair, has a binder and models his look after like- Ryan Reynolds or something. Reader realized theyre nonbinary? They be rocking the most slaying fit that reassures them of their androgenous identity.

Idk just- the x-men finally finding reader after a long time only to realize just how little they all really knew reader. The yans realizing just how badly they messed up bc only when reader was alone and away from the mansion did reader feel confident/comfortable enough to come out. Heck, maybe reader DID try to come out but the yans were just that neglectful.

The real question is if the yans overcorrect themselves and slather trans!reader with affection or just act like reader always presented as their preferred gender and the yans try to pretend they didnt mess up as badly as they did.

I was thinking about this as well-

If Creed Reader (or any Reader) was trans (transfem/transmasc/transenby), they'd feel like they could breath, could just be, foe the first time they're alone amd on their own. They have no one to please, no reason to pretend, nothing to hide or standards to reach or anything holding them back. So they get creative. Go all out.

They're transfem? Good bye nether region, hello lipstick and sleek dresses and skirts and appearing more feminine! They adore feeling this way, and enjoy becoming more of themself each day!

They're transmasc? Good bye chest, and welcome extra hair everywhere and wearing only shorts and trying different suits on and appearing more masculine! They appreciate the warmth they feel, and accept their new changes with open arms!

They're transenby? Well, they're doing whatever they want! Don't want a chest? It's gone! Don't like their lower regions? They're changing them! They want to wear tank tops and shorts and not be too curvy or muscular? Ha! It's no problem! They like being them, not necessarily a male or female, just them, scars and flesh and soul and all!

The platonic yans, upon seeing Reader for the first time in awhile, are shocked.

Reader is... a guy/woman/envy?

They know even less about them then they thought!

The platonic yans are bending over backwards to try and get their pronouns right, trying to appeal to their preferred wants and likes, calling them pretty or beautiful or handsome or gorgeous or cute or stunning, whatever makes them smile or feels good, they'll do it, just tell them! Reader likes skirts or shorts or pants? Oh, look, a whole closet full, each in varying lengths and styles and colors! Reader likes certain body sprays or perfumes or scents? Here's a new one to try each day of the year, in enough scents that any body or beauty store woukd be jealous! Reader wants to appear a certain way? Let them help! Be it braiding their hair or trimming it or shaving it off or growing it out or whatever they want, let them know, amd they'll accommodate it!

They're all so, so eager, and very, very overzealous in their efforts. They will NOT fail this time. And if anyone gets Reader's gender wrong?

That person will find a very p*ssed-off Sabretooth, Wolverine, Charles Xavier, Morph, and a whole herd of unhappy teens about to beat their *ss.

Reader is THEIR little sunshine, so they better treat them with respect!!!

[boreal-sea]

Radfem Trans People

I want to talk about the different flavors of radical feminist trans people I have personally encountered, because the ways radical feminist / terf / gender critical rhetoric bleeds into trans discourse is fascinating to me. There are very few trans radfems, but they do exist, and how they internalize radical feminism varies.

At the core of radical feminism is bioessentialism: this needs to exist for radfem philosophy to make sense. Males have to be biologically stronger, females have to be biologically inferior, these differences must affect your personality, and they must be immutable differences that carry on even if the person is trans.

Radfem transfemmes believe that men/males are inherently bad, but that most of the badness of males/men is attached to the "man" part and socialization, and that if you are not a man, you're fine. BUT, they aren't totally divorced from the bioessentialism of radfems, because they do still believe that a transmasc who starts taking testosterone "becomes" dangerous and predatory. They also believe transmascs are "inherently transmisogynistic" and for some reason more "prone" to transmisogyny than literally anyone else on the planet.

There is a group of radfem transmascs who are the transmasc equivalent of radfem transfemmes. They believe most of what the radfem transfemmes believe, with with some minor tweaks. They believe men, regardless of birth sex, are always two seconds away from turning into monsters and must thus constantly be kept in check. They also believe that as transmascs, they are exempt from misogyny of all forms and have privilege over women of all kinds.

But, there is another flavor of radfem transmasc. This second group of radfem transmascs are basically indistinguishable from cis women radfems. They are full-blown male-haters and transmisogynists. They hate males and transfemmes so much. They believe transfemmes were "socialized male" and are still "male", that transfemmes are "predatory" and "dominate" trans spaces, etc. Every negative stereotype associated with men/males, these radfem transmascs attach to transfemmes.

Oh and nonbinary trans folks can fit into any of these groups, as well. Being nonbinary doesn't exclude you from turning into a bigot nor does it exempt you from being targeted by bigots!

Some trans radfems (of all varieties) also believe that trans men didn't experience misogyny or sexism as children - even if we didn't know we were trans at the time, even if we fully viewed ourselves as cis girls. And in some cases, these radfem trans people claim that even if transmascs weren't out and didn't know we were trans, we still somehow experienced "male socialization". Apparently all the misogyny and sexism we experienced retroactively disappears when we come out.

[wiltkingart]

What queer books do you recommend?

oh honey i have a whole rec page here if you're up for anything, but i mostly read adult m/m fiction. lots of weird and old stuff with dark tones more often than not. if you want some specific titles as a flavor list, here's a few favorites! i'll link their storygraph pages so you can read their synopses too:

Fantasy: The Rifter by Ginn Hale (dark fantasy featuring a romance that spans years and time and space in decaying world with a destroyer god, and bones. so many bones. has one of the most interesting and well written story structures i've encountered. very moody and dark, hits just right).

Scifi: Body after Body by Briar Ripley Page (erotic adult scifi novella with transmasc and transfem MCs. dreamlike and grotesque, delicate and stomach churning, it's about a group of mind-wiped laborers tending genetically engineered mutant bodies.)

Historical: The Still by David Feintuch (my book series of all tiiiiiiime. it's fantasy too but mostly medieval military fiction. don't even talk to me about Rodrigo if you're not ready to be hit with a twelve page verbal essay i'm not joking, that is a threat. not a typical romance, expect heartbreak and plenty of it and to never recover.)

Horror: Hexslinger series by Gemma Files (planning a reread of this one soon to see if it still holds up but this series has stuck with me like a fly to molasses. it's a fucked up time full of desperation, Mayan gods and godessess, faggotry, blasphemy, and witchery) go with the Bound in Flesh anthology instead if you want good trans body horror, or Down by Ally Blue for deepsea suspense horror.

Contemporary: All for the Game by Nora Sakavic (you probably know about this classic but for me it still tops most everything else i've read. it's got sports, mafia drama, and trauma). for something a little different (but still traumatic) try Mo Du / Silent Reading by Priest (dark mystery set in China that follows several disturbing cases and the psychology behind them + romance between a detective and a rich pretty boy)

but yeah i talk about books a lot on my personal/main blog @wiltking (in lieu of updating my actual rec pages these days, it seems) if you ever want more real time recs! i'm a book guy. i like books a normal amount :)

[darthpastry]

Time for me to make my own pinned post, I do believe! First of all, screenshot of my pinned post for the past year

About me: Christian, lesbian, ace, some flavor of genderqueer idk, any pronouns are fine but I mainly use she/they/it

Onto the most important part, my AUs! Please please please do not hesitate to send any questions at all about them

FNaF AUs

Charlizabeth (AUs featuring Charlie Emily x Elizabeth Afton)

Someone New: A work in progress chaptered fic on Ao3, the Aftons are vampires and Henry and Charlie just moved into Hurricane. It is known by the citizens that the Aftons are vampires and Elizabeth is the youngest, though she’s 16 in this one

Slay the Princess AU: a work in progress series of one shots on Ao3 that follows the storyline of the video game Slay the Princess

Heathers AU: Loose concept based on the musical Heathers

Wicked AU: Another concept AU, based on the movie Wicked

General everyone lives AU: Primarily domestic charlizabeth fluff, but I definitely have loads of headcanons for if everyone got to grow up. Most of the time William is dead in these

Other FNaF AUs

Of Aftons and Emilys: After failing to murder Charlie Emily, William flees Hurricane and comes back years later to reclaim his children, but he’s adopted another as well. Unfinished series of works on Ao3 (Cassidy, Jeremy, Gregory, and Vanessa are also in this one!)

Puppet Girl: Lots of platonic Michael Afton and Charlie Emily! After Elizabeth’s death, Michael runs away from home (aided by the fact he’s transmasc and doesn’t transition until after running away), and ends up staying with Charlie (who survived due to him stopping her from going out into the alley the night she was supposed to die) and not much later they move into an apartment with Jeremy Fitzgerald and Charlie ends up getting scooped instead of Michael (unfinished chapter fic on Ao3)

A Beginners’s Guide to Surviving the Average Apocalypse: Vanessa rescues Cassie from the Pizzaplex, but it’s not long before the two of them start acting strange… after Cassie attacks Gregory, he flees to the Pizzaplex. In the basement, he discovers what remains of Michael Afton. Unfinished chapter fic on Ao3

Into the Pit: Elizabeth falls into the time travel ball pit right before the Bite of 83, ends up around Fazbear Frights and meets up with Michael. Unfinished chapter fic on Ao3

Crossovers

The Owl Behind the Slaughter: The Aftons have been kidnapped by Duolingo, their capture aided by Henry Emily, Cassidy, and Gregory. Crack fic. Unfinished chapter fic on Ao3

Ink and Animatronics: Vanessa Afton x Audrey Drew (from Bendy and the Dark Revival) that also includes Ness as Audrey’s brother. Unfinished and loosely connected series of one shots on Ao3

Elizabeth and Asriel: Elizabeth fell into the Underground (Undertale), after making it through a pacifist route, she convinced Asriel to join her on the surface, sneaking him past the other monsters. Technically I have a single one shot on Ao3 but it’s more of a concept

So, Your Parents Fucked You Up To?: Platonic Azula and Michael Afton! A portal appears in Azula’s cell, naturally she climbs through and finds pre-scooped Michael who’s living by himself. They end up rooming together and perhaps even healing together. Unfinished series of one shots on Ao3

The Time Lord of Hurricane: William Afton is a time lord that crashes into Hurricane and then the TARDIS he was using leaves without him. Same boat as Elizabeth and Asriel so basically concept

Well, that’d be all of them for now. Once again please send questions. If you want to roleplay with any of the characters from these fics I would be happy to do so!

Link to Ao3 works

[tea-and-secrets]

I’m a trans man but I really struggle to connect with other trans people. I so easily feel like trans positivity is fetishizing and it induces dysphoria and general discomfort. Which isn’t anyone else’s problem to deal with and is my own issue! But it sucks when trans spaces exist solely on Boy Tits and Tdick and T4T and art with exaggerated top surgery scars and things that make me feel irrationally gross and unsafe! Because there’s literally no issue with any of those things! And I know this logically but my shit brain can’t chill about it!

I’m also Extremely Binary in my gender so I just can’t relate to most other trans people I come across, since 95% of the ones I meet are multigender or some flavor of nb. Even the term transmasc makes me uncomfortable now because I feel like it’s erasing that I’m fully a man if that makes sense? I don’t want a term applied to me that some lesbians also use! But there’s also lesbians that identify either entirely or partially as men as well so it literally isn’t even a valid complaint for me to have dysphoria over the term transmasc!!

I just hate feeling like I can’t connect with my own community because my asshole brain is transphobic as hell. I used to love being trans and love the community!! And now I can only tolerate the most truscum type expressions of transness, which sucks because I’m not down with that gatekeeping BS! I’m also GNC irl, with long hair and painted nails and pink strawberry print cardigans, so truscum ESPECIALLY aren’t my allies.

Anyways idk. Thanks for letting me vent. If you don’t publish this due to transphobia I get it, but I promise that I say all of this from the perspective of it being on ME and being completely unreasonable. I know the answer is probably just going to therapy, but I’m too poor for that rn lmao

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[themodethecitythesoul]

Southern Sweet Tea(hold the bigotry)

I'm trying to keep my sanity through the mother of all migraine hangovers, so here, have a recipe that I'm making real-time.

Aquire:

Tea, 10 tea bags of. I recommend 9 bags of generic black tea and one of something flavored. this batch is mint. Last one was vanilla rooibos. Great way to use samples from fancy tea places

Water.

Granulated sugar. Anywhere between 1/2 cup and 1 cup. I use about 3/4 cup

2 quart pitcher. I like my koolaid looking glass one but whatever you have thats approx. 2 quarts

4 cup microwavable container. I use a Pyrex 4 cup measure

Microwave. I'm not sure how to time this stovetop, but I have pictures so you can see how dark the tea has to steep and work from there

You only need to remember two numbers: 10; 5 and 5

10 tea bags

Microwave for 5 minutes

Steep for 5 minutes

Now. Instructions.

1. Peel tea bags

Don't worry about the staples in the tea bags, I've done this in like 6 different microwaves and none of them had problems

2. Add Cold Water

Just fill'er up, don't bother measuring

3. Heat and steep

Microwave on your normal setting for 5 minutes. Let sit and steep in the microwave for 5 minutes. When you're done it should look like that ^^

If you're short a microwave, boil your 10 tea bags in 4ish cups of water until it looks like the above.

3.5. Prep sugar

While your tea is heating and steeping, put your sugar into your pitcher. This is so you don't accidentally cool off your hot tea before adding the sugar.

Trust me, learn it this way so brain fog doesn't rob you of delicious sweet tea one day.

4. Disolve sugar

Pour your hot tea straight from your measure into your pitcher with the sugar. Stir with preferred stirring implement UNTIL ALL THE SUGAR IS DISSOLVED.

This step is what differentiates yankee iced tea from southern iced tea. It's literally why I have to make it myself rather than get it from any restaurant around here.

5. Fill the pitcher

With your tea bags still in, use your brewing container to add cold water to your sweetened tea concentrate. If you like really strong tea, squish the tea bags with your spoon as you decant fresh water into the pitcher.

Fill all the way to the top of your pitcher

6. Taste test

Do a quick taste to check the strength and sweetness of your tea.

Too strong? Dump a bit out and replace it with water.

Not strong enough? Make a little more tea with your tea bags and replace some, maybe adding some sugar

Not sweet enough? Disolve more sugar in hot water before adding

Too sweet? Same thing as not strong enough just don't add any sugar.

OR. as I do when I fuck it up, drink it anyway and adjust my process for next pitcher.

7. Chill

Chuck that sucker in the fridge for a few hours.

If you're in a huge hurry, you can dilute the pitcher with ice cubes instead of cold water. Just know the tea won't be as strong.

8. Serve

[no pictures mine is still chilling]

Serve over ice.

Will take multiple kinds of liquor well as a mixer if that's your thing, but since booze gives me a headache more often than not, I only have second-hand accounts of this.

So yeah. Go forth with your knowledge. And fellow yankees who just want a fuckin decent iced tea without road tripping to below the mason-dixon line, you're welcome.

I learned this from my mom who's the staunchest queer ally I know, but SHE learned it from her mom, who thinks my transmasc ass is her poor sweet confused granddaughter. So queer it the fuck up.

[velvetvexations]

The main reason I don't connect at all with having been younger is because my personality shifts are especially extreme and my autism was not well managed and I had no helpful adults in my life for a long time so I was in a really bad place for a really bad time. The only part of my life I feel anything but intense cringe or regret for starts in 2020.

I feel like I didn't experience manhood mostly because of that autism. I had zero friends and did nothing offline until high school, when I had one who was also kinna an outcast. He had a bunch of friends who weren't me but were mostly girls, idk if that reflects anything about him. The people I spent the most time with were my cousins who never treated me in an especially gendered way. I feel like my most masculine experiences were not getting to keep my hair long or play with Barbies.

Of course, logically speaking, I did probably benefit over an AFAB child at some point because I was thought to be a boy, but being thought to be a boy was itself damaging, so it overall was an L for both of us. Lotta damage to a lotta people in a lotta ways in this society.

Yet even still, I have so many masculine interests. Shonen anime shaped not just my life, but my personality. That's another way I feel a kinship with transmasc fujoshis, who look at men in anime and say "I want that for myself." I'm not a man but I understand being a girl and seeing that appeal. One might say that in my case it's just hitting it's target audience, it's normal for boys to model themselves after boys media, but idk! I'm not a boy! I, however, unlike other AMAB trans women who should never have to describe themselves this way if they don't want, am male. I am a male woman. I think a lot of transmasc people, who see themselves as female men or are non-binary,* can understand finding how a sense of "maleness" and womanhood can both fit together.

And it is specifically anime. Lately I've been more down with having a lot of body hair because I think it's hot for me as a male woman to have body hair, but I still hate facial hair aesthetically and think it's immensely uncomfortable to have for reasons that don't even have anything to do with gender. If I hadn't ever been into Dragon Ball specifically I probably wouldn't want to be buff, either. But how can I not, with this being the very peak of childish coolness to me?

Broly is transfem, btw. Akira Toriyama told me in a séance.

Most of the non-Dragon Ball men I wanted to model myself after still got called fags by philistines. Even Toriyama's style wasn't quite like Araki's early stuff, where men were huge hulking bricks of solid testosterone, because Toriyama's faces always had a soft cartoonishness to them. Now when people want to draw me I specify I want to be visibly AMAB but the two examples I use are a really clocky cis woman and icon of raw masculinity Chris Motionless.

So that's my experience growing up with a socially reinforced gender assignment.

*I don't consider myself non-binary because I see male as a flavor of girl in my case and not something separate

[insanekirby]

Watch me decide all the robots in the Megas’ best album (History Repeating: Red) are transfem.

Mega Man (“Fly on a Dog,” “Make Your Choice,” “I Refuse (to Believe)”)

Depressed living weapon is a trope that automatically feels at least a little transfeminine. And despite being a living weapon, he refuses to kill Dr. Wily in the end, choosing not to be the killer he was born/built to be.

Some notable lyrics:

“Though you stand beside me, I feel alone” - No matter how many people (or robot dogs who are jets) you surround yourself with, it feels very isolating to have no other trans woman friends.

“Father hides the truth, in fear / Maybe if he ignores it, we'll disappear. / Why did he give me voice? / And still choose not to hear me, just white noise”

“And now you want to know / What you're supposed to be / Stop pretending you don't have a choice / Only that can set you free” - Start HRT now

Hard Man (“Harder Than Steel”)

“The Hard Man’s gotten soft” - Yeah. Spironolactone will do that to you.

Shadow Man (“Afraid of the Dark”)

Another sad living weapon although the interesting thing with Shadow Man is that his programming instead of his hardware is what’s making him a weapon. There’s an interesting (unintended) reading you could create that his murder programming is akin to conversion therapy. You could also look at the slow erosion of Shadow Man’s original mind as being like the fear that puberty will turn you into something that actively disgusts you.

"I can feel the good in me is dying slow" - Literally how it feels to grow facial hair

Admittedly, no specific lyric makes Shadow Man sound particularly trans. It's more about the concept of the song than any one particular line he says.

Needle Man (“The Haystack Principle”)

The third a final living weapon. This one is more straightforward than Shadow Man or Mega Man. “The Haystack Principle” is all about Needle Man despising that his body is designed for combat while his thoughts/circuitry want something else. It’s kinda…literally about dysphoria.

There’s also an implication that Needle Man wants Mega Man to kill him, and, unfortunately, suicide is common for trans people who aren’t given anything to deal with their dysphoria.

“It's in my design / It's not my circuitry" - Needle Man establishes a distinction between physiology and what he actually wants to be.

“You'll never see me / behind this killer's face / These aren't my hands / These needles take their place”

“Would you believe this isn't me / That what you get isn't what you see”

“It's hard to blame them / I even scare myself / Built to kill seems to / be detrimental to my health” - Not me blaming myself for being unwelcome in women’s spaces😭

I really had to be selective about quotes. This song is really transfem.

Gemini Man (“GeminEye”)

This one is literally plural, which - based on the women I follow - seems to be unusually common for trans women. One alter repeatedly addresses the other but only ever refers to him as “Gemineye” instead of Gemini Man. Seems that someone has a preferred name that happens to be less specifically male. That alter also claims that someone wants him dead, which is…sadly a very real concern for trans women.

“Gemineye / I forget my name / So I'm taking yours” - Even the alter that isn't already named Gemineye decides to choose a new name.

Proto Man (“I’m Not the Breakman,” “Make Your Choice,” “Melody from the Past”)

Proto Man doesn’t actually lean specifically transfem and more just generally trans. A lot of his lines sound super transmasc because he’s a male character, but he works equally well as a transfem allegory. His story is about feeling rejected by a parent and choosing to make his own path - that can work for any flavor of trans.

Anyways, Proto Man gets some trans-ass lyrics. Like, the entire bridge of “I’m Not the Breakman” is about Proto Man choosing a new name (and asserting that he isn’t broken).

“If you’re The One / My father’s son / Then what am I supposed to be?”

“I’ve met my maker and the man’s a liar”

“An apology so sorry for the man he was / For the father he couldn't be / That I would not be what I was built to be”

“Though my fate is broken my path I cannot see / Though you are the chosen / I'll make my own history”

Was there a point to any of this? Not particularly.

[swifty-fox]

Hi! It's me again.

I was about to start reading your Little Beast fic, because, God, I wait a whole week to read the new chapter of kfak and just end up reading it all in one go 'cause I just can't stop once I start. But as I was saying, I just began Little Beast and realized you seem to read a lot, judging by all the beautiful quotes you put in the opening of every new chapter of kfak. I read the whole Richard Siken book just because of you (got blown away by the quote on chapter 16 and realized I had to read it all).

All this just to ask: do you have any recommendations of books that you love? Specially ones that somehow relate to your writing. I'd be delighted to get recommendations from you!

Hello!!! oh I hope you enjoy Little Beasts it is a very different flavor to kfak LOL

I actually read far less than you think I'm just very good at themes. Richard Siken is always a good choice but often what I am doing is googling quotes about a certain theme or feeling of the chapter! or for some of them a book or poem is features in the chapter so I try to steal a quote from that.

Always always always Richard Siken, but Poppy Z Brite is a HUGE style influence for me. Drawing Blood and Exquisite Corpse are some of my favorite books ever. Evening Crowd at Kirmsers by Richard Brown has been a great read while writing KfaK. While not very quotable it was a HUGE point of reference for perceptions of gender and sexuality during the 40's especially when it came to what was considered acceptable or not in terms of masculinity and heterosexuality.

books I've enjoyed recently:

The Haar by David Sodergren (horror)

Wilder Girls by Rory Power (horror)

Evening Crowd At Kirmsers by Ricardo Brown (autobiography)

Peter Darling by Austin Chant (Transmasc retelling of the Peter pan tale)

The End of Billy Knight by Ty Jacob (Fiction book following a gay porn star in the 80's. A tough read at times but has a happy ending)

Teeth by Hannah Moskowitz (sort of?? a horror. tw for themes of sexual assault and child abuse)

Haven't read it recently but this is my all time favorite comfort book:

An Olive Grove at the Edge of the World By Jared Gulian (autobiography)

the author is such a sweet man who I email with from time to time

My dear friend @katy-l-wood is a deeply talented queer author who just released a book Camp Daze! can't recommend her stuff enough

Fealty of Monsters by Ladz another author friend of mine you should be checking out!

@stereobone always has some good book recommendations as well

[livegastrodonreaction]

kohaneeeee

KOHAMU!!!!

-some flavor of nb. maybe a little transmasc as a treat. she Realized (haha get it) after the events of Awakening Beat.

-has started experimenting recently by getting more masculine with her dress and they've eventually settled on a more alt-ish flavor. She asks Akito for advice and to borrow his old clothes. An goes absolutely crazy for the "cool" side of Kohane, which then gets Kohane incredibly flustered and breaks the "cool" image she was trying to keep up in the moment. Haruka never passes up an opportunity to tease the lovebirds about this vicious cycle when they visit Weekend Garage.

-REPTILE SPECIAL INTEREST!! and arthropods special interest as well!!!!! she's always wanted to own a tarantula!!

-her anxiety used to be leagues worse when she was younger (especially combined with the hell that is autism sensitivities), to the point where she was homeschooled for a few years, so she's had a long-time therapist since late elementary school. she usually sees the therapist bimonthly nowadays. She is heavily considering dragging the rest of VBS by the scruff of their necks to book appointments with her therapist.

-minori got them into magical girl anime!!! she also introduced kohane to mizuki through nightcord servers for magical girl fandoms.

-kohane has a bunch of moles, freckles on her arms and cheeks, and naturally curly hair. she used to straighten her hair but An convinced them to let their gorgeous curls free

-minori and kohane often can be found making animal noises at each other, especially during study sessions. rodent squeaks are their favorite. shiho tries sooooo hard to resist the call of the Animal Noise Stims but she always gives in eventually and joins in.