#(tho i might do that tomorrow bc i do need to sleep now)

[orcelito]

Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.

SO......

I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.

[phagodyke]

ah shit only just realised its september now.... lets hope the rest of this month isn't like this.....

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[the-acid-pear]

I'm sooo frustrated with my dad atm. I'm exhausted in general as previously mentioned but my dad's refusal to solve anything which directly affects me because I depend on him. Like I'm fucking disabled that's the thing and the more I'll stay the same if I'm not given the tools and help and etc I need.

[norrisainz33]

European getaway || cs55

☆ summary: y/n goes on a vacation to spain and ends up meeting carlos sainz by chance. tho she has no idea her european fling is actually a very successful f1 driver

☆ pairing: carlos sainz x nonfamous!reader

☆ fc & warnings: none

☆ requested: yes! thank you sm for this wonderful request

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ynuser: i could get used to this! me encanta espana

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yourbff: petition for us to stay in spain forever

ynuser: time to find our spanish husbands so we never have to leave!

yoursibling: europe looks good on u

ynuser: thanks b 💅🏻

friend3: always serving fits girl

ynuser: half of my clothes are stolen from you

friend2: obsessed with you

ynuser: obsessed with you bb

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[1. girls night out ahead. 2. guys i met a hot man at this club. 3. hehe he’s taking me home. we stayed out so late it’s almost light again]

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yourbff: we look cute

yourbff: wait he’s hotter than i originally thought hold up 🤤🤤

yourbff: did you even get his name???? how am i supposed to make sure ur safe if i don’t know his name

ynuser: dude he’s so hot it’s insane and his name is carlos

ynuser: i’m with him at his hotel rn and this man has to be loaded this is the nicest hotel i’ve ever stepped foot in.

yourbff: hot AND rich AND sweet AND a gentleman???????? what is in the water here in spain

ynuser: i just googled his watch that he’s wearing and it’s $300k

yourbff: ok tea……y/n/n i’m so serious you are living every girls dream rn including mine

ynuser: i think i love him

yourbff: ok , maybe it’s time for you to come back to the hotel and get some sleep

ynuser: ugh you’re so right.

ynuser: he called me a driver , i’ll be back soon

yourbff: PLEASE TELL ME TOU GOT HIS NUMBER

ynuser: more than that 🤭 him and his friend are going to take us out for dinner tomorrow and show us around town 😫😍🫶🏻

yourbff: OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

yoursibling: girl you wildin and i love it. stay safe pls

ynuser: yes of course bb

friend3: why that man kinda look familiar

ynuser: if u figure it out lmk

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[1. sightseeing courtesy of our new friend carlos. 3. looks like we found ourselves some dates 😉]

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friend2: y/n are you sharing churros con chocolate with a MAN

ynuser: YES

ynuser: i’ve been caught

friend2: you sneak.. i need every single detail

yourbff: i feel like we are in a movie for real

ynuser: i think we might be

yoursibling: how is it that you and y/bff/n always end up in these sorts of romance novel type situations

ynuser: it’s bc we are the it girls 💅🏻

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user1: what are you doing in madrid carlos

user2: OMG WHO IS THAT IN THE SECOND SLIDE CARLOSSSSS

landonorris: and what do we have here 👀

carlossainz55: just some travels in spain!

landonorris: with a girl??

carlossainz55: good catch 😉

landonorris: DETAILS?!

carlossainz55: if you must know and you promise to keep it secret

landonorris: of course mate

carlossainz55: i met this gorgeous girl in a club in barcelona and we hit it off. she doesn’t know im a driver she just thinks im a guy on holiday and its been rather refreshing so now im showing her around spain

landonorris: i support you in this brother but you know you’re gonna have to explain the whole famous thing at some point

carlossainz55: i know i know

user3: just fell to my knees is this a soft launch

charlesleclerc: enjoying break i see 😏

carlossainz55: yes i am 😏

user4: everyone stay calm!!!! stay CALM

user5: so little info here how am i supposed to find this girl by her shoes 🫣

user6: can’t wait till f1gossip sees this

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yoursibling: hold up did HE COME WITJ YOU GUYS

ynuser: yes 🤭

ynuser: when i tell you i think i met the love of my life

yoursibling: ugh i’m so jealous but also so happy for you!! you deserve this

friend2: bruh he’s fine as heck what is going on here

ynuser: no i know

yourbff: wait send me the pic of carlos and teto carrying our luggage pls im begging

ynuser: done and done

friend3: y/n y/m/n y/l/n have you ever seen a formula 1 race before

ynuser: you mean like the race cars?

friend3: yes the race cars!!!! i’m 99.9% sure that man in your photos drives for the FERRARI F1 TEAM. THAT IS THE CARLOS SAINZ

ynuser: oh my god… you’re right …….. he’s a FAMOUS FERRARI DRIVER?!

ynuser: oh my god he has 10 million followers

friend3: how did you NOT know this!!!!!!!!

ynuser: idk!!! i don’t follow f1!!!

friend3: well now you legally have to

ynuser: clearly omg

friend3: YOURE THE GIRL IN HIS STORY OFNEKGN

ynuser: OMG I AM

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f1gossip: carlos sainz has been spotted getting cozy with a mystery girl in madrid! we think this has got to be the girl who was in the story carlos posted a few days ago. they’ve also been spotted out at dinner with another woman and who we believe to be teto!! no information on who they are just yet but seem by all accounts to not be anyone we know

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user1: when will it be my turn!!!!

user2: that should be me 😭😭😭 happy for her i guess 😭😭😫😫

user3: so he was soft launching someone

user4: happy for him ig

friend3: ynuser girl

ynuser: oh my god

friend2: girl oh my god

yourbff: omg stop ???? is this movie about us???

user6: do you all know something we don’t

user3: no bc your profile pics kinda be similar to the girl in the pics f1 gossip posted 👀

user6: carlos doesn’t follow them yet but maybe that’ll change

user3: WAIT IT SAYS HES FOLLOWING YNUSER NOW

user5: i am so envious

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friend3: ok so the fan girls have found us it seems

ynuser: they really have… i have 2,694 follower requests right now

yourbff: the f1gossip account is trying to contact me,, they’re literally in my dms rn…. you look hot tho 😘😍😫

ynuser: they’re also trying to message me too. never thought our trip to spain would end up like this (i’m not complaining this is just a little overwhelming)

yourbff: me neither but if it had to happen i’m glad you met carlos!! you two seem like genuinely really well matched. i know it’s only been like…. 3 weeks but im stanning and shipping y/ncarlos so hard

ynuser: 😮‍💨😭 y/ncarlos omg stop hahaha

ynuser: i’m planning to put him in my pocket and take him back to the states with us

carlossainz55: ay dios mío hermosa chica 😍😍

ynuser: 🤭 you’re making me blush

carlossainz55: good, it’s cute when you blush

ynuser: you really have 10 million followers and drive for the scuderia ferrari huh

carlossainz55: yes mi amor. im sorry for not telling you sooner… i just really was enjoying getting to know you as just carlos and not as the ferrari driver

ynuser: and that makes sense i just … this is all just a bit intimidating

carlossainz55: no reason to be intimidated, i’m still just carlos 🥺

ynuser: if you say so

carlossainz55: i do say so hermosa🤍

carlossainz55: now that the cat is out of the bag…. do you want to come watch me race?

ynuser: you want me to come to one of your races?

carlossainz55: only if you want to! no pressure at all tho y/n/n

ynuser: i’d love to 😫

carlossainz55: i was hoping you’d say that. i’ll make arrangements for you to come to monza 😉

ynuser: italy?! omg i’ve never been to italy!!!!

carlossainz55: never?! oh boy then i have quite the time planned for us

landonorris: i feel like an elite member of a very exclusive club for being able to follow

ynuser: you are!! only 231 other people have the privilege

friend2: please send lando norris my number i see he’s following you now

ynuser: HAHAHAAH i respect the hustle. i tell him about you when i meet him in person in 2 weeks

friend2: IN PWROSN Y/N WHAT

yoursibling: bestie why are race car fan accounts trying to contact me all the sudden

ynuser: so you know that man i’ve been seeing while in spain with y/bff/n? turns out he’s a very famous formula 1 driver

yoursibling: you’ve got to be kidding me

ynuser: i am being very for real

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ynuser: thank you to spain for literally changing my life

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friend2: omg that’s where my sunglasses went 🙄

ynuser: idk what you’re talking abt 🤭

yourbff: thanks for going on the trip of a lifetime with me y/n/n

ynuser: i love you bestie 🫶🏻

carlossainz55: and thank you to the universe for crossing our paths 🥹

ynuser: thank you universe, i am forever grateful 😫

landonorris: ok cool girl alert

ynuser: you know it

friend3: i’m not sure how to act normal in these comments y/n

ynuser: me neither

yoursibling: you’re never coming home after italy in a few weeks are you

ynuser: nope!

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carlossainz55: happy for the team, charles and the tifosi. it’s a shame i missed the podium but at least i got to spend my birthday with my favorite girl. until next time monza!

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user2: ohhhhhh a hard launch

user3: i wish he got a podium in his last monza in a ferrari

charlesleclerc: ❤️ thank you chili

alexandrasaintmleux: cuties 🤍

user4: this hard launch is distracting me from the immense sadness, thanks carlos

user55: she’s living my dream your honor

ynuser: feliz cumpleaños mi amor

carlossainz55: gracias princessa

ynuser: gracias por una semana perfecta [thank you for a perfect week]

carlossainz55: de nada 🤍

user10: you did all you could carlos

scuderiaferrari: we are proud of you chili

user16: you and your big brain still did amazing

yourbff: you did great carlos!

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a/n: likes and reblogs appreciated!! i quite liked this one and hope you did too

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disclaimer: pictures are not mine and everything i write is fiction

© norrisainz33 || please do not rewrite, translate, or copy any of my works posted here on to any other platform

[bambisnc]

OK! [or, group projects w riize]

pairing : ot7 x reader! genre : fluff with crack delicately lined in cw/tw : food mention + use of caps wc : idk ,,

shotaro ,. ! - the mood maker!! - is the person who Socializes, helps to coordinate between the members, makes the gc, arranges meet-ups; just overall supportive and cheerful even if your team is doing literally nothing and is very likely about to get an F (D:) - shows up w like cut fruits for everyone, goes on coffee runs + writes encouraging lil messages on sticky notes and leaves them around/in notebooks etc etc - also x2 i see him as someone who like,... doodles on your people’s hands :( draws a smol star and writes something adorably cringe like “ur my star ^-^”

eunseok ,. ! - he’s the type of guy who’d take charge and delegate work to everyone; to put it simply : BOSSY AF. dare i say dictator coded even, but hey, he just wants this to get over with yk?? - bit scary to work w at first but when if he warms up to you he might would definitely indulge in a lot of partiality; assign you the easier tasks/the tasks that you prefer + if someone pisses him off he would, w the nicest sweetest smile ever, assign them the worst possible task.. - can be bribed if you offer to help w his work though sooo :) do w that what you will :) 

sungchan ,. ! - trust on me this, he’d be the one who’s always “busy” except in his case he probably fr is bc my guy is just into That Many extra curriculars - you call him up like hey where are you we’re supposed to meet at *insert name* coffee shop rn?? and he’d answer w all seriousness that his “rap music club members have a mandatory team exercise for which they’ve gone fishing and after he needs to prepare an ad for the video game club because he kinda insulted the ad making team and now they’re all on strike . oh and he has football coaching (as in he needs to coach like a bunch of tiny kindergarteners as a favor to some aunt) right in between!” - he’ll send all his work at like 4am tho dw ^^ sleep is for the weak.

wonbin ,. ! -perfectionist!!! he would be The aesthetic stationery + supplies guy with like pouches and pouches of pretty washi tapes, metallic coloured calligraphy pens, stickers and much more - would definitely call out people if their handwriting was bad.. - also he would totally use the project as an excuse to get to know whoever he’s interested in~ might offer to split the work into like duos and immediately choose you as his partner~ - prepare yourself for a lot of really obvious and goofy flirting..

seunghan ,. ! - ah yes the wise guy (genuine) (no why does he fr know everything about Everything) - puts out the most thought provoking, viewpoint shaking, world stopping arguments then half-slumps over the table and or rests his entire weight to lean on you and mumbles something about wanting to watch shin-chan >< he’s versatile (read : cute) like that - also would quite honestly go along w any idea no matter how bad it is <3 + seems super calm and composed but watch him be the most excited when taro suggests some team bonding at an arcade/festival :( <3

sohee ,. ! - he gives me manages stuff best under high pressure situations - if you’re freaking out about one of your teammates cough cough you can guess who it was having fumbled up and accidentally written down the wrong date and oh no your project is due tomorrow?! don’t worry! he’s got this :D - procrastinator at heart but for the right persuasion tactics done by ahem a certain someone (it’s you) he’d probably give it his all <;3 - also he’s an enabler at heart.. supports the ideas which he knows are going to be a trainwreck just for funsies

anton ,. ! - :(( he is Doing His Best okay - gets a bit overwhelmed due to the rising panic and chaos + leads to people being very partial to him but honestly yk he deserves it <3 - also a rich guy tm, would definitely ahem ahem pull some strings to get some extra fine quality materials~ - feel like he’d be good at research work + another 4am worker would definitely pester you to join zoom calls or ft you and be like hey!! look at this!! i did this!! is it good!! - as an excuse to show off to yuo splurges a lot for an end of the project celebration for sure

notes : inspired by very very real life events (wrote this in a zoom meet w my current group proj members ehe)! if you know me irl and feel like these are based off of you.. they're not!! you're simply hallucinating!!!! <333 + [m.list]

[acrylic-anxiety]

might be too niche to talk about, but i hc clovis (son of hypnos) fighting in either wars and really trying his best. like, it's against his nature to be fighting and not, ya know, sleeping. but ya pissed him off. oh hell no. he's throwing river lethe water at them like theres no tomorrow, causing some major memories of the war to be wiped. and maybe he gets injured. well, he's now helping out the apollo cabin in the med tent. helping his friends sleep through painful injuries and even helping some of them who were not as fortunate pass away peacefully in deep sleep.

i also like to think he gets a concussion at one point, and maybe ambrosia and nectar doesnt help with that bc it could be brain trauma. anyway, Apollo cabin is like, "please dont go to bed, we need to keep checking on you, you have a concussion bestie," and he understands even tho he's kinda out of it. but maybe Hypnos doesn't. he might come storming down to CHB after the war is at a paint where he's able to. he's throwing people aside, ranting about how his kid, the child of hypnos, should be allowed to sleep. he's this close to giving someone permanent sleep deprivation before it is explained that "your son has a concussion. if he goes to sleep right now, he might not wake up. this is only for a few hours, so we can wake him up every couple of hours to make sure he is doing well." and immediately, he's like, "ohhhh, okay. yea. i get it. why didn't you say so." and maybe even he feels bad enough about the war that he's helping CHB with the med tent. he may not be allowed to interfere in the war, but he sure as hell can help some kiddos pass peacefully

ahh just percy jackson stan-ranting about background characters tings.

[rottentiger-art]

Quogan Drabble:

I said on an ask "I imagine Quinn staying up late working in her quinventions and him coming to pick her up and carry her to bed bc he misses her and wants to snuggle awww."

couldn't stop thinking about it so I ended up writing it, dedicated to that anon <3

Edit: Posted on Ao3

Settled a few years before the movie, you can imagine whatever time period you wish tho:

Logan tiptoed into Quinn's lab, a smile already on his face as he watched his girlfriend hunched over a the mess on her desk. Her hair was tousled, her eyes tired, and Logan could tell she'd been at it for hours. No doubt working on her new invention. Or Quinnvention as she still called, much to his delight.

"Hey there, beautiful," he whispered, walking up to her and hunching over her to hug her. "How's it going?"

Quinn turned around, grinning at Logan's arrival. "Hey, you!" she exclaimed, giving him a quick kiss on the lips. "I'm actually making some serious progress tonight. I think this invention might be the one that finally works!"

Logan chuckled, looking around at the piles of sketches and gadgets strewn across the desk. It was something she always said, Quinn had been feeling blocked lately when it came to her inventions. No matter how hard she tried, she just couldn't seem to make any progress. It was frustrating, to say the least. She had been spending most of her days locked away in her lab, determined to make it work, even if it meant working until the early hours of the morning. Logan had noticed how hard she was pushing herself, and it made him feel helpless. He wished he could do something to help her, but he knew Quinn was stubborn, and while he usually just tell her to take a break, she's been sensible about it, so he didn't want to pressure her. He just wanted her to know that he was there for her, no matter what.

"I'm sure you're right, babe" he said, not wanting to dampen her enthusiasm.

Quinn went back to work, and Logan stayed quiet, watching as she focused intently on her work. After a few more minutes, he stood up and walked to her side.

"You know what's more important than this invention, though?" he said, crouching down beside her.

Quinn looked up, her eyes questioning.

"You. You need to remember to take care of yourself, Quinn. You're working too hard. Come on, let's go get some sleep," he said, holding out his hand.

Quinn was about to refute, but all that came out was a long and exhausted yawn. She couldn't resist the gesture, so she took his hand and let him pull her up. As they walked towards the door, Logan suddenly swept her into his arms, making her laugh.

"What are you doing?" she giggled, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"I'm carrying you to bed, of course," he replied, grinning mischievously. "You need your rest, can't revolutionize the world with no energy."

Quinn snuggled into him, feeling supremely content in his arms. She nuzzled her face into his neck and breathed in his scent, feeling him slowly walk them towards their bedroom.

Once they were there, Logan gently laid Quinn down and pulled the blankets up over her. "I'll let you finish your work tomorrow," he whispered, kissing her forehead.

Quinn smiled up at him, feeling thankful for his care and love. "I love you" she whispered back.

"I love you too, Quinn. Now get some sleep," he said, turning off the light and crawling into bed beside her.

As Quinn drifted off to sleep, she couldn't help but feel grateful for having someone like Logan in her life. He always knew exactly what she needed, whether it was a shoulder to cry on or a gentle push to slow down. She knew that no matter how much they bickered and argued, they'd always have each other's backs.

[serendipitous-girl]

okay so my plan for today was kinda off and i dont appreciate that but it was also because the rain and humitidity which i didnt plan for

so heres to tomorrow (its hair washy day tmrw and i night as well shower too)

ill wake up (actually get up) at a decent time bc i usually wake up around 8-10 and get up at 1-3...

(waking up at 08:00-10:00 getting up at 13:00 to 15:00)

do everything id need to do upstairs before heading downstairs (thats when my day actually starts)

eat watermelon

i dont wanna plan to workout at a certain time even tho ik ill attempt to but thats actually gonna throw me off and i might not do it so im gonna do that when i feel like it as much as i wish it was part of the plan.

id hope to shower after i lift because that makes sense but the times i usually feel good enough to workout vs the times i shower are complete opposites (if i had it my way id shower before heading downstairs)

i have to keep in mind my mom has work tmrw i think shes done at 1 so i need to get stuff done before then (ik i wont tho) because i reckon shes gonna tell me to get the clothes from the dryer and fold

we're gonna go with me showering after i lift so i do that get my hair situated change to the outfit i actually want (i will not be happy with my fit before then) and go downstairs again

i suppose at that time ill have to eat so now i have to do that

oh shit i didnt drink water these past few days i js remembered okay after i eat ill have water probably

after that im going upstairs and im not gonna interact with anyone for the rest of the day(excludes discord, and tumblr, and most likely snapchat)

id have to go to bed at some point round 23:00 (11pm) so id brush my teeth use the bathroom and get my laptop out

in this specific order i will:

get comfortable-ish and open my laptop n sign in

connect my airpods and put the LEFT one in

open the google acc i use for tumblr spotify and discord

make three new tabs

the first tab ill put in tumblr to the google search bar

the second tab ill open spotify

the third tab will be discord

ill sign into spotify then discord

then ill sign into tumblr

put on my music

if i feel like using c ai ill open that one too but AFTER i check my activity for tumblr

at this point i might choose to open kick and ill see if sapnap is live or smth

if he is ill stay on his tab for a bit and pause my music before i send u asks

I JUST REALIZED I HAVENT REACHED OUT TO MY MOOTS ON TUMBLR IN A WHILE-

after i get bored ill keep his tab open but do other things

if he's not live (which is the more likely one lately) ill stay between my tabs

at some point i like to open youtube and close out all of my other tabs and i do that until i want to try and sleep

hehe after im done doin wtv i close out everything and clear my activity (my mom does not know about tumblr kick twitch or c ai.)

i close my laptop plug my airpods into the first charger slot on my laptop then its actual charger on the second

plug in my airpods to that charger and put them in and put my laptop on my desk in the same position its always in and i try to sleep

i think i have a problem

but its so satifsying to type it out im sorry

love you!!

preppy i am okay with being your planner lol

Love you too :D

[strongheartneteyam]

💌 A messy open letter/life update to my moots, readers and followers (?)

MY LOVES MY ANGELS HI!!!

IM SO SORRY FOR NEGLECTING Y'ALL FOR SO LONG my kitten is just now healed enough (not fully healed yet. she still has sutures) for me to be able to let her walk around the room and play by herself without being too dangerous for her health and I FINALLY was able to sleep more these last 4 days (I didn't talk to ANY of my friends for 3 days bc all I could do was sleep - even during the day, like, a lot - watch movies n read a bit (books, not fanfiction)/study neuroscience and anatomy a bit) so, now, I'm only like 70% recovered from so much sleep deprivation (being an amateur nurse for a spayed kitten and also doing house chores, mostly by yourself, ain't easy) and I've been logging in here for like only 30 minutes up to a maximum of like 1 hour or so, and not even everyday, just editing some stuff on my posted fanfiction/checking my notifications, messages, asks and OMG you guys are AMAZING!!! So much love that I'm receiving, from moots, readers, followers or even people who I don't think follow me but they support my works somehow, even after me being gone for this long while... IM SO THANKFUL AND MOVED!!! I love this fandom SO MUCH! I have no words!! I've been in many fandoms in my life and the Avatar one is by far the most supportive, peaceful - to a certain extent - and full of good energy and love! I PROMISE I will get to answer y'all soon enough!

And about the talk that's been going on about the fandom dying, DONT U WORRY MY BABIES, MOMMA VICTÓRIA AINT GOING NOWHERE! Speaking for me, at least, this tall blue aliens obsession is NOT something temporary! I'll be writing my lil stories for y'all forever, if I'm able to (lol) 🤍 I've loved Avatar since the first time I watched the 2009 movie, back when it was released and I was a child, and now that I'm a grown woman in her 20s, I still feel such a big connection to this fictional universe, in a literal spiritual level. I was a pagan/had a witchy/nature based spirituality for years of my life, tho I'm not pagan anymore, since I slowly realized I never truly believed in the pagan gods and magick, but, instead, I just see God in nature and see it as sacred and something that should be respected and taken care of, instead of destroyed. I also have indigenous heritage from my great grandmother, love my indigenous culture, live in a small town, next to the countryside, always felt crazily connected to nature and the Universe and been deeply fascinated by space, aliens, sci-fi, fantasy, always been called a "hippie" by people, either to tease me playfully or to try to make me feel bad for being a bit too much like Kiri Sully (istg me and Kiri are one and the same) so, this fandom serves me JUST RIGHT 😅🫀✨🌱👽💕 I'm here to stay and I WILL help keep this wonderful fandom alive!!! 💖

Anyways... I feel like I already "talked" way too much lol I'm wordy, sorry 🥲 but that's one of the reasons I can write well, so... it's got its bad and its good side ahaha

Speaking of writing, I have like 6 to 7 chapters of Realize where you belong saved (only need to edit and fill in some gaps) bc, even in the middle of so much physical and mental working, I'VE BEEN SO BLESSED with inspiration and been able to write A LOT lately, in the wee free time I've been having, so... if you're reading this fanfiction, I might be updating it later today or tomorrow!

Hope you're all doing good and taking care of yourselves! I've been trying to! I LOVE Y'ALL TO THE MOON AND BACK 💘

With love, your messy and a bit crazy but honest and caring fanfiction writer,

Victória ♡

[fourstarsoutofnine]

Hello Star!

Congrats, you've been visited by your LU Self Care Anon!

I hope you had a great day, and if not, don't worry, you did your best, and tomorrow's full of new possibilities!

Have you drank enough water? It can really help, and since I've bought this really neat canteen with included straw I've been drinking a lot more (I think for me it acts as a stim too) Also, remember to get enough sleep, I might be an hypocrite now that i haven't slept at all this night, but it's only one night and I knew it would come, I'll sleep a lot the next. Did you know sleeping on your side may reduce snore or sleep apnea?

What have you been working on lately? Would you like to show me a wip, or describe it? I'm sure it'll turn out amazing, even if you now think it's nowhere near good!

You can do this! Believe in yourself, you're awesome!

*frantically googling how to hug an entire community at once* bless y’all, seriously, you’ve been so nice..

1.)my day was alright! Went to the little pre-semester thing for my school where it kind of explains everything we’ll be doing and how to get into certain things we need

2.) I haven’t drank enough at all considering it’s supposed to be like 7 bottles a day? 8? And I’ve only drank like 2 but I struggle with drinking enough bc I can never really tell when I’m thirsty unless my mouth is dry :/ I’m getting there tho!

3.)yea I’m getting my sleep schedule fixed—been staying up way too late but I’m working on that too. And I did know that yea!!! I sleep on my side most of the time bc when I end up on my back I have nightmares—which is another fact! Sleeping on your back can increase the risk of nightmares! I had one last night actually.

4.) really the only thing I’ve been working on is stuff for school. I didn’t make exactly what I wanted to last semester so now I think I know what to do this time so I’m trying to stay caught up by studying and doing things ahead on the weekends and throughout the week(which is why updates are slow—sorry!) but as far as fics I think the next one I’ll work on and post is probably the part 2 of sick reader, and then a Hyrule x reader after that :D

[unfilteredrealities]

Random sign of life

I’m so eepy , my body has already enough with Christmas.

My throat hurts 😢 I hope this won’t spiral into a full blown cold or that currently going around virosis. That would suck. Some of my work colleagues had that and were sick for 3 weeks due to it 💀

Pray for me that I won’t get sick.

Besides of that I’m probably over exerting myself these days. It’s such chaos. So much family in the same place is overwhelming.

I was at church tonight with family and was nice but I think it might have been a bit too cold inside the church. I could see my own breath while singing carols.

At some point I was stimming and rocking myself left to right in church not really caring if people are judging bcs idk I needed that to soothe myself.

My work schedule is so weird. I had to work on the 23rd. 24th/25th/26th I have free. 27th I have to work again. Then 30th I have to work. 31st and 1st is free. 2nd/3rd I have to work. 6th is free again.

The thing is tho that Fam is here so idk if I’ll get some days to myself where I can just not do anything and just hide in my room and sleep or do stuff to relax and unwind.

I feel my fight or flight is constantly active now where family is around bcs what if something goes wrong or there is idk shit happening, fights , arguments. This year it’s very patchwork family dynamics happening. Still stressing myself out if everyone has a good time or not. Even if it’s not my responsibility.

Oh yeah I accidentally ate fish and it was a horrible experience. I thought the red beet salad was red beet salad but after I had 2 bites I was like hm this tastes fishy until the 3rd bite where it was pungent obvious fish taste and I asked my mom is there fish in it and she said yes. I jumped up ran to the toilet spit out the bite I had in my mouth , had to try my best to not end up gagging and puking, brushed my teeth and irrigated my teeth and mouth with the water thingy to get rid of taste of fish.

After I came back I saw my mom removed the red beet salad from my plate already 😂 Ahahah.

I’m not gonna do anything tomorrow until the family event we have. I’ll sleep in to heal my body to avoid to get sick.

Who decided to give me this broken body? I am having a difficult time with it. Everything hurts 😩

Walking is so exhausting and at this point I’m scared if I need an aid but I’m not fully accepting yet that I need aid for support and rather end up in a p.e.m even if that’s super not okay and brain rot move.

Some days I’m scared to fall asleep bcs I think I will die in my sleep 😭 that’s how horrible I’m feeling and I think this is how old people feel before they die.

I’m missing my cat so much 😭 it’s the first Christmas without him :(( he was only 3 years old and died 122 days/4months ago 💔

But a globe fell from the lowest part of the Christmas Tree and I think that was him saying hi 🥹❤️

[fantasticcloudcreation]

Dec 4

Low-key starting to panic about this drive to Miami even tho I've done it 8000 times and it's fine every time lol I just feel like I gotta get my shit organized and I was supposed to do that today but I didn't ,,,, it's fine I'll do it all tomorrow ✨

New goal is to lose a thousand pounds over the next couple weeks so I'm ridiculously skinny if I go visit L in January 😇 of course I've been getting high and binging every night that I've been at my mom's house (haven't actually "binged" in a while but now it's been like a week straight... Guess they weren't lying about that restrict/binge cycle)

Everything is fine and at this point I just need to get organized and do laundry and everything else will just unfold along the way.

I always get stressed at these transition points but I know I'll feel better once I'm on the road. Nice to know that I have the same roommate and she's chill and non judgemental. Nice to know we'll be in Miami and I lived there for a couple years so I won't feel pressured to like go out and do things lol but also if coworkers invite me to go out it'll be less stressful, also slightly more stressful bc people in Miami are so fancy all the time and I look like a hobo from the woods no matter how nice I try to dress up lmfao but conveniently my friends are also wild hooligans so it's less stressful than it was when I was living there, I hated going out when I lived there.

Feeling real tired and mushy right now, I've had a weird pressure headache for the past couple days. I might not get high tonight and just go to sleep early. Gotta finish a couple craft projects so I can wrap them up and leave them here, gotta get all my work stuff sorted out , etc etc. Most of this can be done tomorrow. I need a good sleep tonight and reset my sleep schedule bc I've been staying up til like 5am and sleeping in past noon... Just feeling real tired rn.

[badgirlhungry]

December Diary ⛄️🧦🍁🎄🎅🏼🎁🎉🎂🎈🍾🎆❄️

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My goal is to add to this everyday of December to help keep me accountable to my goal.

My boyfriend’s family always does a huge New Year’s party and last year I didn’t go because I was embarrassed of how fäț I was.

This year I want to show tf up and amaze everyone w how good I look.

My birthday is this Saturday (24🥳) so I want to get to 155lb by then, and then I have the rest of the month to lock in and hopefully get to a MAINTAINABLE 150. I’ve never gone below 155 (yes I know that’s embarrassing).

I always make progress and then mess it all up when I get emotional because of my bipolar disorder. My sugar cravings get so so so bad and then I give in because I get depressed and miss my boyfriend.

But I want this month to be different. I’m holding myself accountable. I want to amaze everyone. If I look super good I might go get a piercing or tattoo or dye my hair so that I can post on IG and woo everyone lol. So self-centered!

So anyways, here we go,

Sunday 12/1/24: walked 4.5 miles today while on 24 hour fast! Lifted at the gym for an hour. Then came home to eat around 5pm.

Had an Oikos Triple Zero 15g protein greek yogurt (90kcal) mixed berry flavor. So delicious.

Added 2 tablespoons of flax/chia seeds (70kcal)

Then, I snacked on half of a 16oz bag of baby carrots (90kcal). Dipped some of them in dijon mustard before I read the label (so stupid—I threw the bottle away immediately after) (100kcal😞).

total intake: 350kcal || calories burned: 300

not bad. weight after my walk: 164.4

let’s hope tomorrow I go #2 lol. But I am planning to see a movie w my boyfriend… so hopefully we don’t get any food 😳😳

Monday 12/2/24: just woke up, went #2!!! lol weighed myself before drinking water and now I’m 162.8!! Yay not bad!!! 5 days to lose 7 lbs I think I can do it…? Will update later

update 12/2/24: well my bf got hïğh and slept all day, so we didn’t end up going to the movies. we did other stuff instead ;-) but then he order mcdonald’s and i was so uncomfortable bc he wanted me to eat some. i refused but he stuck one (1) french fry in my mouth and made me take 1 (one) tiny bite of his sandwich (so gross). but other than that i fasted. not mad.

when i got back, I went on the treadmill and did 4 miles in 68 mins (ik im slow). I also lifted earlier. so I just weighed myself rn and im 161.0!!!! almost back to my pre-thanksgiving weight!! very happy w this number but really hoping for more by the end of the week. kinda worried of how drastic im taking it (even tho ik to some this ain’t sħïť lol). butttt hopefully no bad consequences. now im gonan drink some tea and sleep 8 hours :-) excited for tmrw it’s a big day. im turning in my grad school app! yay <3 burned 400 cals and today i bought a vâpè (don’t tell me bf lol)

12/3/24: GRAD SCHOOL APP SUBMITTED!!!! HUGE DAY!!!! Berkeley Fall 2025 here I comeeee!!!!!! lol but because I was grinding out my application today I did not have time for any movement. Didn’t get any steps today :(

But, I’m not too mad. I didn’t eat today again so we’ll see if I lost any weight in the morning. I doubt it but it’s fine because today was a needed work day. All the stress lifted off my shoulders! Thankful to be alive and healthy rn. Let’s make tmrw a good day 💕

12/4/24: just woke up and weighed myself and omg! 158.8!! 3.8 more pounds to go in 3 days!! I think I can do it ! I haven’t ate since Sunday! Hopefully i’ll spend some serious time at the gym and doing cardio today. Gonna try to drink a lot of water today bc yesterday I didn’t. But, I have bad news. I have a doctor appt today for a check up and Im nervous. I don’t know if they’re gonna notice the disorder or if I’m gonna slip up and accidentally hint at it. We’ll see. I’ll update soon.

doctor appt was fine. scale at dr office said 159 (clothes on duh). blood pressure was good. came home and ate 6 egg whites: 6g protein each equals 36g. 30 kcal each equals 180 cal. omad done. 72 hour fast complete. honestly i got full off of the first one and it hurt my tummy, but it’s okay bc i feel like it was healthy. whatever. tmrw my prof said they are bringing snacks to class so im gonna try really hard to be mindful of what i eat. hoping to stay disciplined. happy w my progress so far. only walked 2 miles today tho that’s lame :/

12/5/24: holy crap I had such bad anxiety going to school today after 3 weeks off. But I went and for both my classes my professor brought cuties. So I had two in my first class, and then two in my second class. I wasn’t sure if I could eat them but I googled the nutrition facts and they’re mainly water and high in potassium and vitamin C of course so I decided it was okay. 40 kcals each so 160 kcal total. I think that’s okay. Now I just got home and I’m kinda hungry so I decided I’m going to boil two eggs. 70 kcal each with 6.5 grams protein so about 17ish grams protein today and 300kcal total. not bad. Later I went to the gym and lifted and walked 3.5 miles on treadmill. Probably burned 150kcal.

12/6/24: Well, my bday is tmrw and the goal was to be 155. I weighed myself this morning and I’m still 158.6. That’s okay though I knew 155 was a lofty goal. Hopefully my boyfriend thinks I’m attractive. At least I still have until Dec 31 to get skinnier.

Anyways, rn I just had a Oikos triple zero yogurt strawberry flavor which is 90kcal 15g protein. Now I need to go workout and get some steps in. Check in later. Update I did only 1.5 miles lol

12/7/24:!!!! it’s my birthday!!!!!! my boyfriend came over last night and we had so much fun 🥰🥰 now we’re going out today and I’m gonna have crumbl cookie and my favorite italian restaurant !! im not gonna worry about the calories but i am gonna watch my portion. im gonna eat super slow and chew my food intentionally. im gonan take home most of it so i don’t eat a lot. then my boyfriend can eat it all later. so excited for this challenge. i wanna show myself i can be strong around food. also!! just weighed myself and…. drumroll… im 156.6!!!! the goal was 155 but im still really happy with that!!! i lost nearly 10 lbs this week so i think i did a great job!! im almost to my lowest weight. it’s okay that im gonna eat a lot today bc what’s the worst i can do? gain 3 lbs? im not mad!!! yayyyyyyy birthday!!! cheers to good health and more blessings 🥰🥰🥰

okay update for 12/7: i ate hellllla. i had starbs and crumbl cookie and fettuccine alfredo. but im NOT UPSET about it. it was an amazing birthday w the loml. not weighing myself until after my next fast.

12/8/24: so I had to babysit all day today and I always eat hella when I do bc the ppl I babysit for have sm good fresh organic healthy food. So yes, I binged, but it was all healthy food like grapes, strawberries, low sodium sausage, etc etc. not mad about how much I ate because it made me happy.

12/9/24: so today I went way overboard. I had a hot chocolate that a friend got me. then my boyfriend got me pancakes from ihop. I know I didn’t have to eat them but I did. so now I feel like a huge fatty. three days in a row of eating is crazy. but I’m starting my fast now and im not eating for the rest of the week. I will weigh myself tmew after my fast.

12/10/24: haven’t ate since yesterday at about 4pm so im already at the 24 hour mark. I still don’t want to weigh myself bc I haven’t gotten in any cardio. i’ve been doing finals all day. I’ll weigh tmrw bc im scared.

12/11/24: finally went to the gym today. still haven’t eaten so i passed the 48 hour fast mark. still haven’t done any cardio but that’s bc i wanted to use the extra food i ate to build muscle so i trained legs and booty hard. I weighed this morning after going pee and im ashamed but im 162. so I gained 5 lbs. that’s not horrible tho. ik i can lose it if i keep fasting. im going to weigh myself again tmrw morning and see if it changes which i think it will. im seeing my boyfriend again this weekend so i need to get back to 160 at the very least. even tho he doesn’t care but whatever. i love him. at least i feel strong rn. tmrw im gonna try to wake up early to go work out before class. wish me luck.

update 12/11: fuck i broke my fast after 54 hours :/ i ate 3/4 can of tuna (140 kcal) (28g protein) with some lite mayo (40kcal) and half a bag of baby carrots (80kcal). so ima round up to like 280kcal. not bad but damn i was doing so good.

12/12/24: in-class final today and i ate a lot. had 3 slices of pizza, and like a handful of cookies man. but that’s okay it was well deserved. but then I smoked after and doordashed ben n jerrys. fumbled. ate the whole pint. so def over 2thousand kcal today. pain. painnnn.

12/13/24: first day of work today. fasted. boyfriend coming over so i has to buy some groceries for him and me. got us healthy foods. we got high and i ate the other ben n jerrys pint. fuck. fucked up. def over 2thousand kcal again. fuck. least i had a good ass workout before he came over.

12/14/24: boyfriend and i went to the movies and got popcorn but it tasted like shit. we also got sonic drive thru bc i had a gift card and i ate more ice cream. then bc i was uncontrollable binge, i doordashed more ice cream and cake and chocolate once he left. i didn’t eat it all but i did eat a shit tone. prolly over 5thousand kcal fr. kms whatever.

12/15/24: i hate my life but whatever. fasted all day. i miss my boyfriend so bad i keep crying. wanted to dǐě today. wish he loved me more. then i finally got dressed and did my makeup to go to the gym only to find out my university gym is closed for 5 weeks until next semester. devastated. kms. so now i need to figure out what ima do without it bro. ihml. i just wish he loved me. time to starve another week away. work tmrw. man :( i’ll weigh myself maybe tmrw. we’ll see

12/16/24: didn’t eat at work. came home ate salmon fillet cooked in olive oil but. ate it w nori and an avocado. not even gonna measure that shit but it can’t be more than 1thousand kcal. i’m tired asf.

12/17/24: ate 3 pears at work and other random shit. not more than 1thou kcal. too tired to gaf. idk why i’m depressed.

12/18/24: alright today was a good day. finally fucking weighed myself. walked 2 miles at work, then got home and went for a mf 5 mile walk biiiiiiiiiťch. 16k steps. at work i ate like 3 chicken nuggets, 2 handfuls of cranberries. a few spoonfuls of mashed potatoes. prolly like 600kcal tbh. then i went straight to the gym and lifted heavy. then my walk and i weighed myself and i was 162 again which is good considering i was 167 again after my weekend binge. so i’m not mad. i can get back under 160 by the weekend as long as i don’t fuck up. still so far from my december goal tho :(

but then i got amazing news. my bf told me his mom asked me to come over for their new year’s party (i already assumed i was invited, but it still feels nice to hear her say it). so that DEFFFFF motivated me to lock in more bc ik she’s gonna wanna see if i’ve lost/gained weight. so now i’m super locked in. for dinner i ate 2 of the oikos triple zero with some raspberries and blackberries. so 250kcal we’ll say. but i’m just excited for tmrw bc it’s gonna be a busy ass day and i’m hoping that i burn hella calories. might snack thooooo. we’ll see. it’s okay bc i’m locked in. and ima try so hard to go to the gym after work. ily guys. pray for me to get to 155 for new years please omg.

[111raismess]

23/11 （´＿｀）

shitty ass day

notes: imma add a mentally/emotionally uhh title? idk youll know what im talking about once you see it wtv. everything i do is a cry for help

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selfcare:

i did my morning skincare, i think, i dont really remember lol.

ate like crap today, ate too little at lunch, merendé like shit aswell, atleast i had a full dinner, kinda, im still a little hungry but i dont feel like cooking any longer. i didnt really have much apetite today, could be the fact that i woke up feeling like shit or my body simply didnt want to eat so much today, who knowss.

didnt shower, lotioned or drank water, maybe tomorrow.

also i havent exercised in two days, might do it tonight if i dont fall asleep soon. makes me feel bad if i dont, i noticed.

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daylife (imma keep it like that) :

fell asleep at like 4 am and woke up at 11-12. not soo bad like yesterday but still, i need to fix my sleep schedule..

i deepcleaned my room, the floor in my room hasnt seen a mop in like a year, kinda yucky but idc. my back hurts now ˙◠˙

played the guitar today for a few minutes!! i havent picked it up in months, im trying to learn bulls in the bronx with my guy stuart.

after that i took a nap, then i wonder why im not sleepy at this hour.

didnt leave the house today but since i kept myself busy i didnt feel like i was missing out on life or whatever.

despite having the worst motivation today, i didnt rot in bed and i also cooked dinner for me today, guess i feel happy about that. i really didnt feel like doing anything today, im proud (˶◜ᵕ◝˶)

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emotionally/mentally:

woke up feeling like shit for no reason, if i didnt have the will to not go back into the depression hole i would have stayed all day in bed and asleep. still, i distracted myself most of the day but right now that im not doing anything, i feel like shit again, i want to cry but i cant, time to watch a silent voice again hehe. i feel like im distancing myself from my friends lately even tho i know thats not true, everything is literally the same and fine. i also feel anxious abt next year, i dont know if ill be with my friends at school, i really dont want to go back to being alone, i really really dont, i dont know what to do abt that, guess ill just have to wait and see, maybe i get some new friends or something, i dont know, dont want to think abt it that much, feels horrible. its really funny because yesterday i felt fine, felt happy, normal idk, i dont get why i feel like this today.. whatever, itll pass and whatever happens next year ill be alright, it wont be the end of the world, i still have things to look up for ig.

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wtv this is:

i dont really feel like writing or making this thing look pretty today. im currently rewatching mha, i really want to see season 5 bc its where i left it a few years back, im at the end of season 4 but i really REALLY dislike the episodes with gentle and.. endeavor.. (≖_≖), and kinda the whole season altogether, cant believe its taking me weeks to finish it.. i just want to see katsuki in his winter costume fufufu (๑•́ -•̀)

song of the day or wtv idk:

this is seriously a cry for help atp

[mindself]

Mind did not want to focus. Super tired even tho i slept like 7 hrs or more (felt like i didnt sleep that grear tho-- light sleeping rather than good rest) Didn't feel like waking up but my mind started waking up. So i might as well have gotten up. I don't have to go anywhere today. I should get some things done. But i think my mind is just tired from not resting last weekend. I did rest.... but not enough apparently. Driving wears me out no matter what else i do, even tho I've been driving for over 20 years. I think irregular schedule wears me out too, along with getting up in the morning even tho it's not that early and driving right away. Also if i have to go somewhere in the morning i often wake up earlier than i need to bc my mind is telling me i have to get up in the morning! Not that early tho! If i don't get 8 hours of sleep my mind is not at optimum which i hate. 7 is ok but not enough and gradually adds up negatively. And if i slept weird like waking up a lot it's even worse than not getting those hours at all. Plus it's even harder to get up now with sleeping pills and forcing myself to wake up even with coffee is draining (rather than easing into the day by 11 when my mind begins to work.... I used to be a morning person before my arm injury messed up my sleep schedule!!!). Perhaps trying to figure out things and not having them figured out for 15 years is also stressful-- and pressure building yearly ... even more this y bc i have to move out by October lol... And stress is stressful like i was driving in a storm last weekend and car went thru a puddle and stalled. Panicked. This happened last year and car battery died amd i had to get it towed. And im terrrified of car accidents... even more bc my car insurance shot up this y after scraping another car just a little in a parking lot... over $100 just to tow the car last year for a block and find nothing wrong w it.... It takes me a long time to recover from any kind of stress (why i avoid people... interaction takes too much out of me and i lose time and panic and have to rest)

I also have a slight headache today. And have vacation next week so im probably like why work just today. My sister is coming tomorrow and if im not rested i might do sth i regret. Need to charge energy for being with people (even tho i like my sister it all adds up) -- including a baby shower for my cousin on Sunday-- and driving on Saturday like 23 miles... packing.... switching gears...

May be from last weekend/needing to rest... maybe i am sick tho bc i haven't felt normal for a while. A sort of brain fog. This morning i heard my bagel pop up in the toaster and i . Opened the microwave. Brain glitches like that plus spacing out and not remembering things. Hard to think.

Maybe its built up stress since i can't handle trying to figure things out/pressure of not having it figured out yet. Why. Why can't i handke actual normal things

Maybe i need a vacation (but i need a vacation like. Every other week if the week + weekend is full .. Can't get anything done like that!!!). Maybe something is seriously wrong w me.

I was going to look up things on my phone this morning but as usual i checked my tumblr but this time i totally forgot what i was doing and was scrolling tumblr for a while without realizing it. Like i needed to actually do something (or SHOULD). I even forgot i needed to take a shower this morning. Suddenly i remembered. Well if I'm not getting anything else done i might as well take a shower...

Then i went to get dressed but even got diverted from that lol and started rearrranging the magnets on the magnet board on my dresser (one of those calendar ones-- mom gave me it for organizing but i just used it for magnets and putting cards, pictures etc on).

Maybe my mind is telling me i need to take a break. The one day i dont neeed to do anything. Even tho i SHOULDNT NEED TO TAKE A BREAK AFTER SO LITTLE