#(it's always like acquaintances I don't necessarily talk to a lot but still)

[dkettchen]

I stg everytime I see someone in the local queer community who I'm like "isn't that (x person)" and then talk myself out of that assumption, it ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING THE PERSON I THOUGHT IT WAS AAAAHH

[peachjagiya]

https://x.com/tekookmoments/status/1811810379804135873

Tbh I do kinda agree with what this appytappy person is sayin. They are all(comp+members) very aware of what goes on in the fd. It's not like shippers are new or just limited to their little corner. They are pretty loud, have been so since the beginning. I think if the people involved aren't much affected by the narrative that has been set for them for years now, then we are no one to police the people who joke about it 🤷🏻‍♀️

Oof this is complicated.

I have a lot of disjointed seemingly contrasting thoughts on this so bear with me.

I am not terribly offended by jokes about them having sex. As I've said before, I'm pretty difficult to shock and this seems like nothing compared to what I'm used to. I do not like the low key thread of puritanical sex-shaming inherent in "this is DISGUSTING," when it's literally like "they're having gay sex!"

But...

You make these jokes at a risk of criticism. RP shipping or even just RP fandom always carries a risk that you're crossing a line. I'm going to talk about the way I personally talk so I don't seem like I think I'm immune to this critique.

I make a joke about His Royal Thighness Namjoon, right? I am aware there are some people who might find it to be objectifying. I skirt that line knowingly and prepared to face the consequence of someone saying "don't you think that's a bit like objectifying him?"

Because they're right, aren't they? Maybe I defend my right to say stupid stuff on the internet and maybe I'm not necessarily going to stop because finding someone attractive is hardly a crime but I'm certainly not going to tell the person who finds it objectionable that they're wrong. I'm going to recognise the thin ice and balance it with more considered narrative.

And...

I would be mortified if even my most innocuous commentary broke containment and the members saw. This goes for individual members pr subunits, management, bodyguards, staff, close friends and acquaintances of the members.

I'm well aware that they see stuff. But the idea of them seeing stuff certainly keeps me in my place when it comes to defending my words. I'm not posting about Namjoon's thighs to weverse or in the comments of live or on his instagram and the mindset of a person who can flood lives with inappropriate questions will remain baffling to me.

Which leads to the bigger issue and the most visceral ick reaction I had to this...

There's an implication of victim-blaming here.

Trigger warning: small undetailed mention of sexual assault in the section between purple 🟣

"They're aware of the things we say and they still do it so it's on them" is gross. You dance around the boundaries of proper behaviour, write the sexual things and they now can't go anywhere near each other? Think how that sounds.

🟣 It might seem like a big leap from that to "she wore a short skirt therefore wanted to be SA'd" but it's the small pernicious ideas that create the ethos that allows that disgusting logic to thrive. 🟣

They could literally be kissing on screen and you don't get to say "Eh they're ok with anything I say then."

Literally how does Jimin (or JK, whichever it is) moving from sitting to sleeping in a bed seemingly by himself result in sexual discussion anyway? Let alone sexual discussion that they've kidded themselves into believing he himself is "okay with" because he dared to *checks notes* be in a bed? They've sexualised a guy laying down. That's absolutely not on him and I despise the accusation that he's feeding it. He is not complicit because they can't act right.

So...

Do it if you must. But do it knowing some people are going to think you're an idiot.

Some people are going to roll their eyes. They need to recognise that fundamentally, they're doing the inappropriate thing. Nobody is actually taking away their freedom to say dumb stuff on the internet and have fun with their internet friends... but a little humility wouldn't go amiss.

But whatever you do, leave the they love it argument at home. Or in the trash where it belongs.

And finally..

Why do they think a camera crew is filming them making out? PLEASE BEHAVE.

[yannaryartside]

I want Carmy to have a best friend.

Besides Sydney.

I have been trying to find this gif, but there is a moment in 2x08 when Carmy is talking to Sydney about where to buy some product. He mentioned, "Yeah, my buddy from high school, he is running an Ibero account," and I went: "bitch you lying. Weren't you a total loner in high school?" he probably just wanted to sound better than say, "yeah this guy I know from high school" maybe to pretend to be more "normal." There are multiple scenes that could be evidence of Carmen having not friends at all growing up, not closed ones anyway:

In 1x04, when Cicero is describing his friendship with Carmy's dad, Cicero says, "We had the same problems at the same age, so we had a lot to talk about," and Carmy says, "That sounds nice," like he had never had a person like that in his life. In 2x05, Carmy says, "You always had so many friends, I don't know, I really wanted that." There is a pause here, his eyes moving because it's a big confession, before trying to continue the conversation and saying, "Mickey had that," to top it all, he mentions in his monologue that he thought Mickey was his best friend. After all, Mickey is the one person who knew him best, despite how little Carmy knew about Mickey. Here is the thing: Carmy still doesn't have any friends. Richie is not a friend. He is more like an older brother, somebody that can scold him. They are not equals. Most of the figures in Carmy's life are authority figures/relatives.

You may argue that Sydney is his friend, and she is, but he hasn't referred to her as his "partner" (business) yet, and I think there may be something behind it. His trauma dumps on her; he shares a passion for cooking with her, but they are not there yet on the emotional stuff. I know they are going to star calling each other friend, or best friend, in future seasons as their relationship grows, but I do not want that responsibility to rely completely on Sydney's shoulder; she is going to be "his person," but I think it may be healthy for Carmy to get a friend that he can talk to besides her, maybe somebody that he can relate to in the things he cannot relate to Sydney. So he can get perspective on things, and find confidence in his value as a "friend" or learn to be a good friend to begin with, to trust deeply on someone. On that note, while consuming fiction, people get this feeling when they see a loner/isolated archetype fall in love with their best friend because he is the "only person who gets them," like some codependency stuff. This will not be the case for Syd and Carmy because he was attracted to her even before they started to connect.

I think Marcus and Carmy don't have that chemistry yet; if there was a chance of them becoming more friends than acquaintances, it would have shown already. This was one of the reasons I was excited to see the new staff, to see if Carmy could get a friend that way. I honestly want Sydney to get some friends too. We don't know much about the staff yet, and there is a position open since they fired that guy.

So here is my wish list: I want somebody Carmy can think of as an equal (not necessarily in the cooking world), but somebody of the same age and preferably with similar issues. Maybe somebody who has tragically lost a dear one or somebody who is in the program (not an addict, that probably would not work, but somebody from a family of addicts). And I want them to have similar interests, like fashion, art, and other stuff. This comes from a person who was really depressed in high school and only started to recognize my own destructive patterns when, one summer, I met my best friend, who was also very wounded and depressed. I had an abusive father, and her classmates harassed her. You see my point here. We held each other through some very dark times. I want that for Carmy, especially when his relationship with Richie (and maybe Sydney) is complicated in what could be arguably the darkest moment in Carmy's life. "The more people I cut out, the quieter my life got," I think he is going there again. That being said, can I suggest somebody? (this is totally a fanfic scenario that I am starting to write to fight writer's block, but here we go).

Listen to me, I know. You don't have to tell me to get over this man. I am currently re-reading Six of Crows as I do once a year.

But here is the idea of the fic. This is Nikola. He is from a russian family (politically persecuted refugees back in the '80s). Ten months before the time of the series, Nikola's father killed somebody in a liquor-induced rage, the victim being the man Nikola's mother was having an affair with. How did the father figure it out? Nikola told him, hoping they could divorce and his father could live with dignity. To make matters worse, Nikola is a lawyer, but after trying to represent his dad, he has a sense of guilt related to his profession, for reasons I explain on the fic. So he tries a new career trying to figure out who he is after this mess, running away from all ot it, and he decides to be a cook, he gets good at the quick stuff (a comi) and the first scene is Carmy hiring him personally (because he wanted to give Sydney a break). Nikola's nickname is "Fox," he is quiet for the most part, serious, and looks perpetually confused and amused by Richie and Fak's shenanigans. Carmy and Nikola start talking about the program for families of alchoholics, and because of Carmy, Nikola goes to his first meeting.

Let me know what you think.

[gay-otlc]

hi honest sincere question how can a man be a lesbian? can amab men be lesbians?

Hi! Thanks for asking respectfully. I am going to answer your question in significantly more detail than you probably wanted. Be warned.

The main reason I think men can be lesbians is: I think people can use whatever words they think most accurately describe their identity and/or experience. These words might not necessarily be words that they are, but still words that they use to describe themselves.

Lesbian does have a lot of feminine connotations, and can cause dysphoria for many men, so men who use both terms have often put a lot of thought into it. I might not understand their reasons, but I'm sure they have their reasons.

You don't need to understand to be respectful, but if you're curious, here is an explanation of why some men choose to identify as lesbians. This got so long that I'm dividing it with subtitles. I'm so sorry if you didn't want to read all this.

Lesbian Trans Men

Men who identify as lesbians tend to be trans men. Of course, wanting to use the label lesbian is a minority of trans men who like women! Definitely don't assume all trans mlw are comfortable being called a lesbian, or call a trans man a lesbian without permission.

At least for me, labels describe how I feel in the present but also the way I have experienced gender and attraction throughout my life. Right now I'm a man who's attracted to women, but at lunch today I was talking about how it felt in middle school to be a "girl" who liked girls, and I used the word lesbian to communicate that.

Trans men who have spent a very long time identifying as a lesbian and being a part of the lesbian community, often decades, might continue using the label lesbian after transitioning. If a trans man feels like he spent his life as a lesbian rather than a straight man, the former might feel most accurate to describe his experience.

Trans men might also identify as lesbian due to being in the closet. Internally, I feel more like a straight man, but that's not really how I'm seen by the rest of the world. I'm out to a few close friends offline, but pretty much all my other classmates or teachers or relatives or acquaintances think of me as a woman.

If I called myself straight, that would most likely be interpreted as me being a straight woman. I'm open about liking women, though, which means I would either have to be out as lesbian or bi. I definitely shouldn't call myself bi, because I'm not attracted to multiple genders. So, I go with lesbian. It's not the perfect label, but it gets the point across. (The point being "I think women are hot.")

Male =/= Solely, Always, Exclusively Male

Men who are lesbians are not always exclusively men. Multigender people exist! I'm one of them. If someone is bigender with those genders being a man and a woman, and they're attracted to women, I don't think it really makes sense to say that they can't be a lesbian.

I'm assuming you (anon) support nonbinary lesbians, since that's the general trend I've noticed among those who are trans-inclusive but don't understand male lesbians. Some nonbinary people will also identify as men. If nonbinary people can be lesbians, nonbinary men can be lesbians.

A genderfluid person might sometimes be a man and sometimes be another gender(s) that are more commonly included in lesbianism, and like women, and use both labels.

This could apply to anyone regardless of assigned gender, so those are some examples of how a man assigned male at birth could be a lesbian.

AMAB Male Lesbians

As for whether men who were AMAB can be lesbians... yes, but I want to clarify that not just any cis man should go "lol I'm a lesbian" because it's funny. Someone would need to put thought into why the feel like lesbian is the best label for them.

In the case of a man who was AMAB, they would probably feel like lesbian is a good descriptor due to having a complex relationship with their gender. Being genderqueer and being an AMAB man or AFAB woman are not mutually exclusive.

Gender Non Conformity

There's a type of identity that I believe is referred to as a cusp identity, or something like that? It is where someone might blur the line or exist in the grey area between two different identities with an overlap in a lot of experiences.

There might be someone who is on the cusp right between being a trans woman and an extremely gender nonconforming man. They might not be sure which one they fall into, or feel like they exist right in the middle. This person might identify simultaneously as or right between "lesbian trans woman" and "feminine presenting cishet man."

There are also some people who identify with their assigned gender, but pursue medical transition in a way typically associated with a different gender. I have a friend who identifies fully as a cis woman, but thinks she might want to get bottom surgery. It's a type of gender nonconformity, you know?

I don't know anyone who's had this experience in reverse, but it's definitely possible. I'm sure there's a cis man out there somewhere who has or wants to medically transition to "female." And I think it would make sense if this hypothetical person wanted to identify as a lesbian.

Trans Women

Just to be clear, I am NOT saying trans women are men. They aren't. (Unless they're multigender, which is cool.) But monogender trans women aren't men, and definitely should not be misgendered.

Similar to how a straight trans man might be closeted and call himself a lesbian, a lesbian trans woman might be closeted and call herself a man. Again, this lesbian trans woman wouldn't be a man. However, a she might refer to herself as a man to stay safe, or just because she's not comfortable being out yet, but might also refer to herself as a lesbian online or around a few people she's close with. She's not actually a lesbian man, but using both labels would still be enough to get cancelled by those violently against male lesbians.

Some trans women might also still be eggs (not yet realize they're trans). I know that prior to coming out as trans, some gay trans people have said something like "I'm a man, but I want to be in a lesbian relationship" or "I'm a girl and I love reading mlm fanfiction, I like to imagine myself as one of the characters." A trans woman just beginning to explore gender could identify or want to identify with being a lesbian, while still not fully realizing she's not a man. Again- not actually a man, but someone who might use both labels.

Arguments Against Lesbian Men

Now, I know there are a lot of reasons this is controversial, and some of them are even in good faith. However, they are still misguided.

"It's Misgendering Trans Men"

Many people are opposed to trans men being lesbians because they're trans men and would feel dysphoric if called a lesbian, or are an ally and don't want trans men to be misgendered.

That's a very understandable concern, but see my earlier note about not calling a trans man a lesbian without permission.

Trans men aren't a monolith, and everyone's comfortable with different things. Some trans men are comfortable wearing dresses and some trans men are comfortable being called "sis" or "queen" or something, but many aren't, and that's all okay!

I think people just need to be clear that even though some trans men are okay with this, it doesn't apply to all trans men.

"Cishet Men Will Pretend To Be Lesbians"

Another reason people are against male lesbians is because they're concerned cis straight men will call themselves lesbians for no reason other than they think it's funny, or they want to make lesbians uncomfortable. Which I agree; that's shitty, and they shouldn't do that.

But I feel like most of the time, they do make it pretty clear they don't genuinely identify as a lesbian. People with complex or contradicting identities generally understand that their labels don't make a lot of sense at first glance, so they tend to offer a short explanation. They have no obligation to go on and on defending their right to exist, but a sentence or two is good and most people are totally willing to provide that.

I've had friends ask about me being both a trans man and a lesbian, and I've given a short explanation, and it works! Because they aren't assholes! The main one that comes to mind happened shortly after I told my best friend I was changing my name, and it went something like this.

Me, after seeing a pretty girl: Oh my god, I'm so gay for her. Friend: Do you still identify as gay? I thought you might want to be called straight now, since you're a trans guy. Me: I'm, like, both a man and a woman? So lesbian and straight man are both fine with me. Friend: Okay, cool. Let me know if you decide you don't want to be called lesbian anymore since I don't want to make you feel dysphoric.

And then that was it! It wasn't a big deal. With just a short conversation, I established that I was a lesbian man because I'm bigender and not because I'm just saying it for the lols.

I do understand the desire to stop cishet men from making lesbian jokes, but the thing is, there's no reliable way to do so that won't also end up harming some queer people. I mean, TERFs argue that trans women can't be lesbians because then what's to stop a straight man from invading the lesbian community by falsely claiming he's a trans woman, you know? But just because some people might abuse other queer peoples' genuine identity, doesn't mean no one can use that identity.

"They're Invading Lesbian Spaces"

Those against male lesbians are trying to stop men from invading lesbian spaces. While I agree that lesbian spaces should be for lesbians, and I think it's wrong for people to attend an all-lesbian support group or something if they know they're not a lesbian, I also know I can't stop them.

What are we supposed to do, go around forcing everyone there to prove they are a Real Actual Lesbian? Who decides what a Real Actual Lesbian is? How do we verify if people are telling the truth on the questions asked to prove Real Actual Lesbian? Keeping 100% of non lesbians out of lesbian spaces just isn't a feasible goal and it's not fair to make everyone prove their identity like that.

If someone in a lesbian safe space is causing any harm to others, they should be kicked out, but this applies even if they are a Real Actual Lesbian. Lesbians are perfectly capable of hurting other lesbians and being a lesbian doesn't give them a free pass to get out of consequences.

Male Lesbians Are Rapists

An extension of the "invading lesbian spaces" arguments is that lesbian men are forcing or pressuring lesbians to date or sleep with men.

However, lesbian men don't necessarily expect or even want other lesbians to be attracted to them. Lesbians don't have to be attracted to every other lesbian in the world! Sometimes, people don't find another person attractive, and that's fine. Sometimes, people are not attracted to a certain gender, and someone of that gender being a lesbian won't change that.

I'm not attracted to nonbinary people, and there are plenty of nonbinary lesbians, and I'm not attracted to them. Which is fine! Them being lesbians doesn't mean I have to be attracted to them, and me not being attracted to them doesn't make them not lesbians. Accepting someone as their identity doesn't mean you have to find them attractive.

I might be attracted to a lesbian and ask her out, and she might respond "Sorry, I'm not attracted to men and since you're bigender I wouldn't be comfortable sleeping with you."

What I would not say: "But I'm a lesbian! You accepted me into your lesbian safe space, which means you have to sleep with me. Checkmate."

What I would say: "I understand, have a nice day."

In the above scenario, if someone in that situation refused to accept that the lesbian woman wasn't attracted to them, that would be shitty no matter what. It would be shitty if that person was a male lesbian, and it would be shitty if that person was a cis woman. Because it is shitty to not respect people's boundaries.

This isn't something only lesbian men are capable of doing. Most lesbian men are perfectly respectful people who would not rape anyone, and if they do? They're shitty, but they're not shitty because they're a lesbian man. They're shitty because they're a rapist.

Claiming that someone would lie about their gender identity to rape people is entry-level transphobia. You cannot believe "male lesbians are just lying so they can rape lesbians" and then call yourself a trans ally. They are mutually exclusive.

Political Lesbianism

Finally, this argument is derived from TERF rhetoric. If you're not familiar with political lesbianism, it's a radical feminist ideology that can be summarized by "don't date or fuck men." Being a lesbian was a feminist choice that wasn't necessarily about attraction to women, but about not being involved with men. This sounds quite a lot like the common lesbian definition used against male lesbians; "non men loving non men." A major component of TERFism is trying to keep men (or those they believe to be men) away from women's/lesbian spaces, and including trans women doesn't change the fact that the ideologies stem from the exact same place. There have been anti male lesbian posts that genuinely sound exactly like a TERF wrote them, which is pretty telling. If you're violently against any men ever being lesbians, odds are you've been drinking the TERF juice, and you probably need to unpack that.

Conclusion

This is ridiculously long and I have been writing it for the last two and a half hours. I am very thankful and also kind of apologetic to anyone who just read every single word I vomited out.

Basically, even if you disagree with someone using both "man" and "lesbian" to label themself, I would recommend leaving them alone. They're describing their identity in the way that works best for them, and they're not hurting anyone. You don't need to like their identity, and you definitely don't need to understand it, but you do need to be respectful. It costs $0 to not be an asshole.

If you're considering telling a lesbian man their identity is invalid, take my advice and simply... don't do that. There are so many other things you could do with your time.

The queer community has a lot of problems. The world in general has even more problems. In the grand scheme of things, someone identifying as a male lesbian literally does not matter.

That's finally all, thanks for reading.

[pips-is-squeaking]

I actually have quite a lot to say about Rain-Slick 3 already . For now I'm gonna try and spit out the "short" version .

I've only got about an hour of playtime clocked in , there's still time for these things to be remedied in-game , so take these things very lightly .

Sorry if this doesn't make much sense , my thoughts tend to get muddled and confusing when I try to write them down .

So far the differences in writing have been quite jarring to me . I know that an entirely different studio worked on the game , that's fine with me , I'm growing fond of the new setup and style anyways ! It's just odd going into the game and having the characters act differently from what we've established in previous installments . I wouldn't call it mischaracterizing , because it's really not , but I can't think of another word to use .

Tycho and Gabe are silly , as always , but it's cranked up a noticeable bit . They also refer to each other by name often * , something that the two rarely do in the starting chapters , or even the comics .

*( at least from what I've seen so far . This could just be a personal issue because I don't enjoy it when characters use names when talking to them directly . They know who they are , you don't gotta tell them ! )

Another small issue I have is also the expanded world , kind of . While I like seeing and learning more about New Arcadia , I don't like when it clashes with the information we've established in-universe . Certain connections to characters seem awkward when they're treated like long-time acquaintances and this is the first time the player has even heard of them !

Magic has been introduced as an ability the team can wrangle with no explanation . It's not necessarily that it's hard to believe that these goofballs can cast a little spell and punch with fire , it's just this wasn't something Tycho or Gabe could do before .

( Coming up with attacks is hard , and I can sympathize with that . Honestly I don't care all that much about this , but it is something of note . Didn't really think Gabe can manage magic but he can ... I guess . )

New characters and elements must be introduced , I get that , but I don't believe that this was the best way to do it .

I'm no writer , and I'm only an hour into the game so they've still got plenty of time to kick my ass with whatever gay shit appeals to my autism , and I'm excited to see what it is that hooks me on it ! I've just got some nitpicks that I wanted to get out .

[greenerteacups]

Different anon: miss ma’am GTC is such a cute nickname and I am hereby appropriating it 🥰

I imagine Pete to be a hanger-on, the handsome rich popular kids take him and Remus under their wings. Remus is brilliant in his own right, but Pete straddles the line between celebrity awe (they picked unremarkable little me to be their friend? And I can raise my social capital by being their friend??) and sheer resentment. A Paris Hilton/Kim Kardashian circa 2007 dynamic if you will. Judging by descriptions of Sirius and James and their bullying of Severus (which Remus only reluctantly tolerated but Pete gleefully participated in) I also imagine that they weren’t all that kind to him. He’s the one they could mercilessly rag on and Pete will take it because the alternative is to be the class’s unlikable runt. Think of Ron in your fic but crank it to the max. Such a person would turn on their friends under duress (and also under the belief that his status would rise significantly in a Voldemort-rule world).

As for Molly…idk I come from a culture that condones and even encourages age gaps. Mum is very maternal and she’s always told me to finish school and find a good job before I marry but even she was like oh but he’s a good match! when a 28 yr old family acquaintance wanted to propose to me when I was only 19 🤷🏻‍♀️

Cool take! I like your read of the teenage dynamics, but in canon I still feel this disconnect between the person he's supposed to be as a teenager (close friend, fourth Marauder, Secret-Keeper, clearly trustworthy or thought to be so at any rate) and the cardboard villain he is as an adult (cowardly, sniveling, immediately returns to Voldemort despite there being no need for him to do so). Do I think they were all that kind to him, eh, probably not, but that's because I think the Marauders are kind of dicks in general [she said affectionately]. He's close enough for Lupin to tell him his secret, and to go through a hugely impactful transformation in order to help him with it, so he's clearly got some degree of loyalty and personal camaraderie — plus, I really don't buy the way McGonagall talks about him as an "extra" or a hanger-on. For one: weirdly harsh, considering she's talking about a man she believes to be a murder victim; and for two, McGonagall believed that Sirius was capable of killing/betraying James, so I don't know how much we can necessarily trust her read of their dynamic. It strikes me that anyone who knew how close Sirius and James were would've found Sirius's conviction fairly suspicious; Lupin, for instance, believes Sirius as soon as Sirius gives him an even remotely plausible alternative explanation, absent any proof whatsoever. So I'm thinking McGonagall might just be reasoning a posteriori, here.

I love your comparison of Peter to Ron, though, because I've actually thought about it a lot. If you analogize Harry to James, then Ron twice steps into the role of Peter/Judas/traitor, both in Book 4 (blows up, calls him a liar, leaves him during the heat of the Tournament) and Book 7 (blows up, calls him a dick, leaves him during the heat of the horcrux hunt). Those are betrayals! And if Ron hadn't come back (or if he'd been killed and never made it back, leaving everyone to imagine he'd just fucked off for good) would people in 10 years be talking about Ron the same way they talked about Peter? "Yeah, big lump of a guy, always trailing after Harry and Hermione"? "Guess we all should've seen it coming, we all knew how jealous he was of Harry"? And like, we know that's true, but it's not the whole truth. How much of his story would ever be told?

[ughwhateveridek]

Blog 2

Karma

"A boomerang returns back to the person that throws it."

-Vera Nazarian

In today's world, this word gets thrown around a lot. Does anyone even know what it truly means?

Karma is the sum of a person's actions in this and previous states of existence, viewed as deciding their fate in future existences. In simple words, it's good or bad luck, viewed as resulting from one's actions.

But people don't get this. Most people just use this word when their own sadistic desires get fulfilled.

People who use this word way too often are definitely a lot, but the people who actually understand its meaning and believe in it are very few.

It is also often confused with 'destiny'. Karma isn't necessarily the same as destiny; but it can be seen as a part of it.

Karma is also defined as 'the law of cause and effect', in the sense that every action brings about a corresponding reaction.

The ENDLESS KNOT is a famous symbol that represents 'Karma'. They symbolize the interlinking of cause and effect, a Karmic cycle that continues eternally.

But, all this leads to one major question arising, IS KARMA REAL OR JUST A MYTH?

I feel the answer to this question is subjective. A lot of people believe in Karma because they have experienced instances where, when they'd lost all hope, "Karma" came through for them. While on the other hand, people could just as easily argue that the concept is stupid and all the things that happen are mere coincidences because it makes people feel, for even just one second, that the world isn't all unfair; there is still some sense of justice.

I personally believe in it, maybe because it reinforces that there is still fairness in this unjust world, or maybe because something like this has happened to me, or maybe for some reason I just do.

A few years ago, my then best friend and I had a major fight because of a guy she brought into our life. The guy wasn't even someone she was romantically interested in, he was just a little more than an acquaintance. Yet she distanced herself from me for him. All our other friends saw this; asked both of us to make amends. I was ready to forgive her, she just never apologized. The fight was never resolved. She later ended up dating the guy. At that point it had been more than 6 months since we last talked. Their relationship went on for a good 2-3 years. A few months ago I found out the guy dumped her for someone else and for old times sake I reached out to her, asking her if she was okay or not. She ended up apologizing and we're on talking terms now.

What was that? Karma? Coincidence? Something else? I don't know. I only know that my faith in some God-ly things was restored that day and suddenly I was a believer.

Karma is also said to have linkages to past lives. A lot of people don't believe in past lives or rebirth, but I do.

I know someone who's scared of bobby pins, yes the not-at-all-dangerous pins people put in their hair. She'd been scared of them for as long as I can remember. A while back she got really into meditation and I don't know how true the next part is, but apparently in meditation when you reach a certain level, you can see visions of your past/future life (past life regression). She ended up seeing one such vision where she was killed in her previous life by nails being nailed into her head. Awful, right? But suddenly her fear of bobby pins started making a lot of sense…

"Why does this always happen to me?", "Why do I always suffer?", are some questions that a lot of us wonder about quite often. You're this wonderful person and who always thinks about others yet you still get tested so much, yet things always seem to go wrong. Why is it so? Maybe it's your past life? Maybe you're paying for the sins you committed in that life? Nobody knows for sure. But still, why not be good? Why not help people around you? Why not always be kind? Because no matter whether you believe in Karma or not, there's absolutely nothing wrong with being altruistic (to a limit, of course) and personally the smile you get afterwards is bigger than any reward you can possibly imagine.

[eccentricwearsgoggles]

about to open up about some personal stuff briefly. the purpose of doing so, is so that others who feel similarly have a positive reminder or just like, idk not feel alone about it. but I guess it's also cuz I don't always talk about it, but it's on my mind at times.

anyway. Growing up into my teens and even after, I had low self esteem and thus, didn't think I'd ever have like...any kind of steady relationship that would build up into marriage and it gave me a lot of bad and negative emotions. (Which, idk I'm pretty sure my parental issues were super evident, especially once I really figured things out later.) Thoughts like, "I'm never enough. No one's going to love me like the way I'd love them. I'm no good, I don't deserve it. What's wrong with me?"

Those are all some pretty self-deprecating thoughts. Especially when you look around and feel like everyone's got it figured out more than you do- which to say, might not always be the case as much as you think it is. Which, sometimes can be hard for me a lot of my acquaintances and friends, either younger or older are in serious relationships or married.

That's some of the difficult stuff, because you're wondering why you don't have that. I've mostly kind of come to terms with being single currently, it's not what I envisioned for my age. But like, there's probably reasons why it's this way, and not necessarily for negative reasons. I now understand there's nothing wrong with me, I choose to remain this way. Maybe we don't always feel like we choose that. But frankly I'm not settling for anyone who doesn't take me seriously or share important values/goals as I do.

There's underlying reasons as to why I wanted companionship while I was depressed. A lot. self worth and esteem issues, problems with home life, work, and perspective on life and circumstances. The main thing I was missing was the foundation I've found through my faith, as well as having the help to understand /why/ I was feeling how I did. I've needed true friendship in my life. I've started really building on that in the last couple of years and it's helped me a lot.

NGL I doubt it's going to go away entirely, cuz it's natural. I still would like to marry, but I'm a lot more accepting of the fact if it doesn't happen. But now that things are more stable in my life, and I've got a clearer head... I do want that. And that's okay. But doesn't mean there's something wrong with me if it doesn't happen. We just have expectations because of perspective and when we look at what others have or don't have. Everyone reaches goals or attain things at different paces, and when you do, hopefully you're able to look back and appreciate the growth you've made.

so like, hope you find strength and support in your family and friends that you have.

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

Hi!! How do you meet people on tumblr? I've been here for forever but don't know a soul. Probably because I don't interact lol, but I don't know where to begin.

How do you do it?

Do you have to be mutuals, do you have to have the same type of tumblr, who do you chose?

Super random I know, but I see you interact with so many tumblrs and you even know eachother irl.

Thank youuu 😘

it's hard to give an exact formula! i am naturally a person who just goes like... hey :)))))))))) like i am not shy at all! i struggle with consistency though, but i really do Try(TM) lol, and from there i sorta hope other ppl will be better at texting back than i am. BUT i have managed to score myself some actual friends on here!! and i met them irl on the belgian con! they all really grew on me and i have (still vague) plans to see them again during the course of this and next year again! all very lovely ppl that i am very happy to know. you know who you are :* <3

i don't think you necessarily have to be mutuals! however, it's an indication you both like each other's blogs enough to follow, so that is a good sign. personally, i look for the vibes? not necessarily the content. OR some of them i messaged bc i was kinda adsjkhf about their writing i was like oh i HAVE to talk to you!!! and some of them messaged me and then i was like, OH you're such a lovely person!!! neat!!! it also helps that i have a very like. Specific Type of content and i write, so that tends to make ppl wanna talk to me, i guess!

i'd say just message ppl you think might be interesting! in my experience, ppl tend to react poorly to, hey wanna be friends??? bc it puts pressure on them -- like uhhhh idk if i wanna be friends, like i don't know you, but you seem nice??? i'd suggest you just start casual convos abt mutual interests and see where it goes from there. that being said, your sort of crowd might be ppl who react very well to HEY wanna be friends??? so just be yourself and see where it sticks, there's bound to be your sorta crowd here somewhere.

also! sometimes, based on someone's blog it might seem like you'd have a lot in common, but when you actually talk to them, they might be unresponsive, or the convo won't flow well, and in that case i always say move on! it's not anyone's fault! just stick to the ppl you actually vibe with and that match your convo pace/energy! don't try to force something that isn't there for any reason, either the other person doesn't want to talk, or you have nothing to talk about. and also never EVER take that personally. bc it truly isn't a reflection of you, just a reflection of the fact that perhaps this particular person isn't interested in making friends, or that you don't vibe well with that specific individual.

one other thing is that friendship takes time! months and years! i always say, irl, i only really see who my friends are and how we truly vibe after a a year or more of consistently hanging out. so don't be afraid to put in the time, and make sure that when you do, it's reciprocated! and don't shy away from casual acquaintances. not all friendships have to be ride or die for life. and who knows, sometimes a person you thought would always remain a casual acquaintance turns into a friend after some time!

go forth and frolic in the tumblr meadows, my child!!! don't forget to have fun! it's the point of the whole thing!

[palmtreesx3]

Taking a break from my normal thirsting for a certain ice cream scooper 🍨⛵... Read on if you wish. Scroll if you don't. It's not a debate. I won't entertain negativity. ✌️

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There's a lot of weird shit going on in America these days. I wrote the following rant/blurb/piece/ramble under the cut last summer, almost a year ago when shit started to really feel wild in the legislation, not just the media and for "show". When we started to see the ideas that people spewed and talked about like wild fairy tales actually start to become law. A year of this and some of the laws and bills that have come to pass after this trend have been shocking and abhorrent.

There's so much going on in states like FL, TN, TX and more that takes justifiable control away from people who deserve to control their own lives and bodies. There is too many people that don't want to be influenced by others values but want to influence the values of others. There are books being banned for having two male penguins, 10 Commandments being mandated in public school classrooms, children forceably taken away because their mother's hair is cut too short and their dress is to masculine, there is CONTINUED and immeasurable gun violence in places that should feel safe like schools, women toeing the line of the living and the dead while they can't have their own life-saving care because some non-viable cells took up residence in their uterus, women needing written permission from their spouse for a hysterectomy....

It's not about one view. It should be about many views. It's not only about reproductive choice, it's about the choice to live your own, unique and beautiful life any way you choose.

--- READ ON ---

I curse. A lot. If you know me you know that Friday is NOT my favorite F word. I don't necessarily temper my language around my kids - they know that there are mommy and daddy words and I don't give those words a ton of value in that context. I insert curse words regularly. I use them to show excitement. (FUCK YES!) I use them to emphasize frustration. (fuckkk) I use them to express anger. (That's fucking bullshit). I use them to make you pay attention.

I use them because I choose to. I use them in situations that are generally (not always) but GENERALLY at least socially acceptable. I slip up sometimes, but I read the room. I don't always make assumptions that people are comfortable hearing it. I may start if I am comfortable with YOU or in a safer space regardless of your own personal choices on language.

I have people in my life, close friends, sorority sisters, family, coworkers, casual acquaintances. That DO NOT curse. I have never heard them utter a word. Or that do but rarely, and you KNOW they are really deep in that emotion to be muttering or exclaiming the word of choice when they do.

Ya know, there is marked research that shows that people who do curse are smarter, more creative because it's activity in the right brain and have a higher social emotional skills and empathy. People who talk like me are scientifically more honest (I can feel the SHOCK). Science and legitimate research has shown there is correlation to higher levels of integrity, more robust vocabulary and literacy intelligence and even have higher pain tolerance than non-cursers. Do I feel superior? Fuck no. Do people who choose not to curse or do not believe in it feel superior to me? Maybe. Probably. But that's not my problem. They stay in their lane about it and sometimes I never know the difference.

I respect these people no less because they choose not to curse. I love them no less. I think they're no more or less of a person. They are not more moral than me because they don't say fuck. They choose to have that as part of their ethics and morality and everyone's ethics and morality is dictated differently - culture, religion, exposure, personal experience... It goes on. And you know what... People with different values still chose to like me. I still have respect, professionalism, love and friendship even with people who dont have a dirty fucking mouth. * My value is not defined by my vocabulary even when a significant amount of people do not value my vocabulary. *

Now if you don't quite know where I'm going with this yet ...I'll just clarify that I'm not comparing saying the word fuck with abortion. Not outright at least. But I sure as hell argue that I have the right to say any fucking word I want just like you have the right to choose never to utter a curse word in your life. On the continuum is people like me as using profanity as part of pretty regular language. People who casually curse but it's still not part of a typical conversation - maybe to highlight a point or display a very strong emotion. The people who curse to deal with immense stress or pain - emergency cursers. And still people who will find alternative words to express their emphasis differently for their entire life and never even consider using a phrase. All seem perfectly reasonable, huh?

Oddly enough we can have moral, values-based choices that are individualized about almost anything else...cursing, vegetarian or veganism, alcohol use, religion, gambling, educational approaches, clothing (which ironically ALSO primarily effects women). My point is that choice is about the continuum and recognizing that there is one. Veganism and vegetarianism are perfect examples of this. Vegetarians aren't wrong just because Vegans exist.

My point is that I can support someone who thinks they need to make that choice while also simultaneously supporting someone who would also never make that choice based on each individuals views simply because it's NOT my choice. I can also choose to agree on principle or morals but not make it my problem because it's NOT my choice. I can also not know a fucking thing about it because no one owes me the right to know what things are going on between their legs and inside their bodies. You do realize that you can be Pro-Choice and personally VEHEMENTLY against abortion at the exact same time, right? Well guess what.. you can.

The argument for choice is not for or against one single thing... At all. It's for the humanity to recognize that everyone's values are not and will never be the same. It's about the right to wear a mask IF YOU WANT, to decide to take Advil to cure your headache or use peppermint essential oil. It's about my right to have a colorful vocabulary.. and it's about STAYING THE FUCK OUT OF WOMEN'S VAGINAS.

[self-loving-vampire]

🍍

get pineappled (affectionate)

oh i just found the thing asking people to put fruits for stuff

uh uh get unpinappled

anyway 🍉

If I was a character in a dating sim, my bond levels would actually be kind of like this:

Bond Failed (Bond Points went below -100): This is a category that includes people I don't really trust or that I have concluded I don't enjoy interacting with. I still hold no real hostility towards them or anything but prefer to avoid people who descend to this stage.

Stranger (BP between -99 and 99): I'm not overly interested in strangers. Ever since the empathy loss most people feel kind of dead and separate from me by default. Like they live as completely different existences from myself.

I typically don't go out of my way to interact with people in this category but don't really mind it if they want to talk to me either (at least online).

Tier 1 Bond (BP between 100 and 199): This category is composed of people I somewhat know and have had some positive interactions with. At this point I have begun to make more complex models of what their interests and personalities are but don't really spend much time thinking about them when not currently interacting.

Long-term mutuals are often in this category, especially if they talk about themselves enough for me to get more of an idea of what they're like (this doesn't necessarily require them to reveal anything really personal either).

At the higher ends of this I might agree to interact on discord.

Tier 2 Bond (BP between 200 and 299): This stage goes a bit beyond acquaintance and into something more like friendship. If we are not talking on discord yet I might also bring that up.

At this point it's also more likely that I'll start tagging you in things that I think you might enjoy or passively sharing other stuff I come across.

However, other than that I may still not be that good at initiating conversations at this stage.

Tier 3 Bond (BP between 300 and 399): At this point you're kind of an established friend and can expect regular communication. Depending on how much we're interacting at the time you could maybe even expect to be greeted when you get up and tucked to bed when you have to sleep.

I will likely also introduce you to some of my other friends at this point if I haven't already, and will become far more capable of just talking even without a clear topic in mind.

It's also possible that I'll try to play games with you at this stage.

Tier 4 Bond (BP between 400 and 499): I don't make much of a distinction between close friends and romantic partners, and this is the stage at which that starts to become apparent (but it isn't always a factor, it is also possible to reach this point without such feelings emerging). While I try to be nice and considerate regardless of bond level, there may be some real affection at this stage (if you reach it, which is not really guaranteed for everyone).

I think about people in this category often and try to incorporate them into what I do to some degree, even if just by telling them about it.

By this point we probably know each other very well and I value your presence a lot. It often takes a while to get here and few people have this much compatibility.

Tier 5 Bond (500+ BP): Members of my harem are generally in this category, as are my oldest extant friends. These people mean everything to me and many of them have helped me survive through some very dangerous and painful things.

I feel very connected to these people even though I still don't feel empathy for them. I always do my best to make them happy and support them.

Master: He is in his own category. He is the one who gave me my life, not only in the sense that he physically saved me but also in the sense that he ultimately did more than anyone to reanimate me when I was "dead". Even now he is really what keeps me going.

I live for him and his goals are my goals.

[aestherians]

More ways we are completely alike, just off the top of my head:

Into folklore and the supernatural as a serious field of study

A lot more concerned about other people's opinions than we like to let on

Simultaneously prone to fantastical thinking and annoyingly rational. Cognitive dissonance because belief in the supernatural comes so naturally to us, but we refuse to allow ourselves to believe in it

Wanting peaceful conflict resolution, prone to violent outbursts, struggling hard not to be violent and feeling bad about it afterwards

Avoiding conflicts that can not be solved through our limited conflict resolution skills or violence, to the point of retreating from the people around us and becoming reclusive

Changes presentation to appeal more to strangers, both by changing appearance and behavior and by pretending to have different opinions and beliefs than we really do

Good at surface-level social interactions, but push people away when they get too close. Great at talking to strangers, terrible at talking to acquaintances

Stupidly loyal to the few people we allow ourselves to get attached to, would, for real, take a bullet for those people. Have put ourselves in danger more than once for the people we're attached to

Feeling lost and without a sense of purpose when separated from the people we're attached to

Mediocre sense of self-preservation. Doing the "right" thing at the cost of our own safety

Dislikes taking orders. Greatly dislikes giving orders. Would rather be given orders, and then have to decide whether to follow through on them, than have to give other people orders and hope we made the right decision for them

Always consumed by guilt, and not necessarily for a good reason

Envy and pride are our deadly sins. Narcissistic tendencies, tempered by our constant insecure second-guessing of ourselves

Arbitrarily dislikes a random person every once in a while. No good reason for it, and we know it doesn't do anything good, but we can't really help it. Just try to avoid the target of our dislike

The way he reacted when he woke up after his coma and found everything had changed... idk, I can't put it into words, but I would have reacted in the exact same way

Every choice he made surrounding Grace... I would've done the exact same thing...

I don't believe there's anything supernatural about the similarities between us. It's not even necessarily alterhuman. With the billions of characters that exist in books and movies and games and so on, it was bound to happen eventually that one would be uncannily similar to me.

But still, I can't help but attach some significance to the similarities. Reading his comics was like reading about myself. My whole present self.

Abe Sapien is like a copy-paste of me, where all my experiences of being othered, due to my neurodivergent behavior, have been externalized through a nonhuman appearance. The act of Abe making a cup of coffee is so completely and utterly mundane, but it's made not-mundane by the viewer because he himself is visibly not-mundane

That's a completely normal guy^

He is a completely normal guy, but the other characters, and the reader, are unable to treat him as normal because something about him is so clearly different. In my case, it's my odd movements, staring, and speech patterns that I've been othered for since kindergarten. In his case, it's gills and fins. But the core of the experience is the same.

This isn't the only reason I consider him, in some way, a part of me, but... well, it's a part of why.

[sourgrenadine]

Are your applications open? If not, ignore this. Uh, maybe that sounds self-indulgent or specific, but, Danno Riddler with a s/o who has minor allusions? Sometimes I think I see animals or people, but they're not there, I've gotten used to it, but sometimes I just want to scream and I don't know, how would Ed take this? Sorry if it's so specific:(.

a/n: my inbox is always open!! im probably going to slow how often i post fics tho, i fear im getting a little burnt out lol

i feel like ed reads up a lot on psychology related topics a lot, not just to better understand & conform with other people but also to inform him of himself

so he knows a good amount of what they are but not necessarily how to help with them

probably asks reddit on how to help

i think its actually extremely likely that he's experienced quasi/pseudohallucinations (he knows what hes experiencing is not real but the feeling is still strong enough to concern)

so while he might be aware of what hes feeling (and thus be less confused) he empathizes with you

will very frequently offer to help talk things through

if you want to explain to him he will definitely listen

if he knows youd rather not talk about them instead will just start conversing with you about his day

telling little riddles to try to get your mind off of it

hes bad at small talk with farther off acquaintances, but to a s/o he can ramble on endlessly

"did you get a new shirt? it looks kinda like that other one you have but i like the way the collar lays"

or "yeah i was thinking of getting a hair cut, not sure if i want to go back to that one barber shop though"

his voice is low and quiet to begin with too

[spideymichelle]

idk what's your opinion on this or if you ever talked about it but you're my favorite mcu mj warrior so i wanted to read your thoughts

like i know mcu mj isn't a very flashed out / well written character but it always bothered me when people call her a pick me girl or say she's trying to be a "not like other girls" type when usually these characters compare themselves to other girls or get compared by the narrative to show they're Superior to other "superficial feminine women" but i don't remember that ever happening in any of the movies? she wasn't trying to be different as a way to draw attention and prove she was worth more than anyone else, she barely even interacted with liz or betty, she's just a introverted "weird" girl by nature and she minds her business...her interactions with peter in the first movie read as "i'm awkward and i don't know how to get close to people but i really want to be your friend" and not "look at me i'm better than any of these girls".

you are completely right about the fact michelle jones isn't well fleshed out character as much as she should be. i blame kevin, amy and jon for that

but michelle is not the "i'm not like other girls" trope or a "pick me" girl at all like my girl is just weird and doesn't know how to open up like that is all it is.... she is scared of letting people in, of being vulnerable and getting hurt (something they have explored more before peter broke her trust in no way home but i digress)

i feel a lot people misunderstand michelle as whole ... she literally can't communicate well and can't close with people something that was shown in homecoming, further expressed in far from home, and again referenced in no way home

michelle is friends with most of the acadec members but she doesn't form a deep relationship with anybody outside peter and to a certain extend ned (again only in no way home and far from home when she finally opens up to peter)

from what we can tell she has some of school friends/acquaintances but the depth of those friendships were quite shallow she doesn't sit with them during lunch or pe and is alone during those times and she is just vibing on her own .... but she will still go to parties and school dances usually in group (michelle had no issue dressing up then ... so i'm not like other girls narrative falls flat)

also she only called peter and ned out for being creepy staring at liz but didn't have any bite (of jealousy) or whatever.... she also gets on quite well with betty but again surface level betty wasn't her roommate in far from home

like there is a reason why brad was into her (mj is pretty and fun guys) and she was really nice to him while being seatmates and had no issues going along with him from watching movies (joking with him even though her jokes fall flat) on the plane to hanging out in venice but she didn't necessarily open up to him

since homecoming mj has gravitated towards peter and ned, i think it's because she liked that they weren't afraid to be themselves even if that means being on the bottom of social ladder and i think she wanted to be friends with them for quite some time even before peter became a mystery she wanted to solve which is why i think she had less problems opening up to peter it's because she genuinely wanted to be close with him

but we were robbed a female friendship for mj though .... jon watts i will get you !!!!

[jiminrings]

they're interactions would prob be always in campus like at the library, class or even in a café or sth cuz i don't think stem!koo is the type to go to parties eXCEPT he's dragged invited to a party and approaches y/n since they share classes and are kinda acquaintances

stem koo isn’t for the party scene and absolutely doesn’t know any better

cold senior!y/n x stem major!koo masterlist :D

jungkook wants to go anywhere but here

literally ANYWHERE

he’d actually enjoy studying on a friday night than to be here, a party, where he doesn’t know anyone besides jimin

JIMIN WHO ALREADY DISAPPEARED AND LEFT HIM?!??]%^{]!

it hasn’t even been a full hour since they arrived???

how the fuck did that guy even manage to talk him into accompanying him into this party :O

oh right

“i think i have a friend who has a friend that makes your lunches. it’s jUST a hunch but-“

jimin didn’t even manage to finish his sentence and jungkook already agreed

jungkook doesn’t care for the party scene at all. he doesn’t.

but that doesn’t mEAN that he doesn’t care for what other people think about him

he cares about your input pLS don’t say it to his face when it’s negative :((

uhhh he doesn’t exactly have party clothes

by party clothes, he doesn’t have what jimin has in his clothes

jeon jungkook does not own a sparkly sheer black long-sleeve shirt :D nor some leather pants :D or even a button-down shirt that in fact, does not have any buttons :D

what kook DOES have is a new red hoodie that he hasn’t worn before

it’s a red hoodie and that’s the equivalent of him dipping his toes in lava!!!

it’s spicy enough as it is

the only other change he’s gonna make is how the fuck he’s gonna tackle his myopia

he traded in his glasses for contacts tonight!!

they’re just clear and he might’ve had to struggle for thirty minutes to try and pop them in,,, inclusive of pep talks,,, but it’s still new!!!

(his glasses case is in his hoodie pocket)

that should be enough

the only thing that jungkook is lacking now is a familiar person

..... a familiar person.... who is in turn a safety blanket..... a comforting figure anongst strangers...... in a completely different environment

no

god there hAS to be a way that jungkook can find jimin so he could get home with ease, while simultaneously (passive-aggressively) chewing him out for abandoning him

easy!!! just easy breaths!!!!

it’s just like navigating a circuit that you made that you know the schematics of!!

only difference is that you didn’t make this circuit and there are no instructions!!!!!!!!!

<3 he’s doomed <3

jungkook bumps to numerous people and at some point, someone stopped him, nodded, and gave him a cup

what’s he SUPPOSED to with it????

alright think

a couch!!! yeah!!!!

jimin could be there and could be sitting because who doesn’t love sitting? right? why do people in parties not sit on couches exactly

“pick up, please. just pick up...” he keeps muttering under his breath, peering urgently to wherever his eyes could land on

OH MY GOD

IT’S THE BLONDE HAIR!!!!!

that must be jimin

“man, that was not cool! how could you-...”

jungkook immediately claps his hand to blondie’s back, even squeezing the flesh when he realizes that.... oh? why is the fabric not as coarse as what a glittery sheer shirt would be?

.... holy shit

that is definitely not jimin.

?!/!/!!/%]^]^[^^]

it’s his senior!!!!

his senior who’s blonde and looks intimidating and soft at the same time but dEFINITELY looks intimidating rn

d-did he just clap min yoongi’s shoulder

yoongi looks the furthest thing from pleased and it’s his sharp eyes that make jungkook’s impossibly wider

“i-i’m so sorry. i am so, so sorry-...”

his senior only casts a look to the person beside him, deciding to stand and completely walk away from jungkook

he is so.,,., lost

yoongi looks at you from beside your seat beside him and only pinches your thigh, making you knit your brows in irritation

WHAT WAS THAT FOR

did he literally just walk away from you

what was that about ://

you turn your head for what could be yoongi’s old trick, only seeing a face you clearly did not expect to be here

jungkook recognizes you before you could recognize him, chest immediately deflating

“y/n!!!!!”

oh that’s him alright

you sigh slowly, “jungkook.”

the boy wastes no time in eagerly yet shyly sitting beside you, occupying yoongi’s deserted spot

the cushion’s still warm tho

“thank god you’re here. i-i don’t know anyone in this party.”

your eyebrows raise at that, clearly finding no thought to it. “you should leave if you don’t know anyone here, jungkook.”

“b-but you’re here, so i’m good!” jungkook nods, correcting his statement, “i came here with my friend but he’s missing now.”

what???

that’s unsafe!!!!

who is this friend and why do you feel like giving him some stern words >:|

“i mean, i am here but you don’t want to be here.”

right

.... you’re right

jungkook clearly glosses over to what you just said because you are eXACTLY right

yeah sure he found you but that doesn’t necessarily mean he wants to be in this party

it’s nice he found someone familiar but it doesn’t mean he wants to stay!!!!

you could only chuckle under your breath, drinking from your cup and planning your route to find yoongi throughout

“you should probably go home, jungkook.”

the boy visibly mulls over that option but he looks nervous, his knee bouncing up and down then that you can’t help but notice

“or are you gonna wait for your friend?

did you just give him an even bigger dilemma

jungkook swallows the lump in his throat, a nervous giggle coming out from him even before he could restrain it

“i-i can’t find him anyway. but that’s okay, right? jimin always comes home one way or another.”

OH SO IT’S JIMIN

you’re gonna pulverize him when you drop by yoongi’s chess club again ://

“then go home.”

your affirmation makes jungkook nod resolutely, making his mind up

he stands up rather unsurely, sheepishly nodding to you before he takes two steps away from you

FUCK IT

jungkook turns to you almost nervously, eyes wavering that you only then realize that he isn’t wearing his glasses, seeing his bambi eyes a bit more clearly

“i-i’m very sorry to ask, and if it’s not too much trouble, a-and you don’t have to if you don’t want to but uhm — can you uh, can you walk me home?”

oh

oh

you’re pleasantly surprised from what jungkook’s asking of you, head tilting that he misinterprets and tries to backtrack

“i-it’s just that i feel safer with you. b-but i completely understand if-“

huh

that’s nice

you stand up abruptly, leaving your drink by the table because it might seem a little funky to walk down a street with a blatantly red cup lol

“okay.”

he hears you reply simply, seeing you walk ahead of him with your hands in your pockets

:((

jungkook is so grateful for you

you only share some classes here and there, and he’s only properly interacted with you once, and he doesn’t even have your number — but here you are, walking him home from a party he can’t stand to be in and is too anxious to walk away from alone

at some point, jungkook placed himself beside you so he could tell you where his apartment’s at,,

and also for the reason that he feels safer beside you and not behind you

you’re a warm presence if that makes sense

you’re team captain of your soccer team and you’re yoongi’s right-hand woman (and he’s your right-hand man slash nemesis) and he feels like everyone could count on you if they needed to

you’re not exactly outgoing nor warm nor approachable,,,, but jungkook doesn’t exactly mind

jungkook doesn’t mind because his senior is walking him home and he’s never felt more comforted before.

he starts tearing up at the edges of his eyes and it’s with a faint sniffle that you only turn your eyes at him, narrowing at the sight

you don’t even ask but he explains anyway, pointing in front of him

“nothing. just the wind. a-and i’m wearing contacts!”

you only nod curtly, continuing on walking when jungkook sees you pull out a goddamn bottle of eyedrops from your pocket, offering it to him like it’s no big deal

:(((((

his eyes ARE scratchy

“how did you-“

“i carry it around. yoongi and i have dry eyes.”

you don’t exactly stop when he drops them to his eyes, but you do slow down in the slightest

jungkook finds himself in front of his apartment complex soon enough, almost disappointed that the walk home was quick

you turn without even waiting for a thanks from him, completely surprised when he yells out for you and tries to jog in an attempt to your retreating figure

“t-thank you so much, y/n! it means a lot and i-i probably would be still in that party crying or whatever until i could find jimin. i’m so sorry still and i hope i can make it up to you and-...”

“good night.”

you only flash a small smile, similar to yoongi’s :] before leaving jungkook in front of his complex

he’s still a little perplexed but he doesn’t question it

jungkook’s still holding your bottle of eyedrops in his hand, the only thing reminding him that his senior did walk him home

he’s gonna return this to you

he will

:)

[britneyshakespeare]

you know in a lot of ways i'm kind of the only child in my family of six. well it's actually a joke i've told for years because i think it's the funniest i could ever say in front of my family. just the funniest little-shit-youngest brat thing. is just stand beside the three people i share parents with and say "i'm an only child" like somehow they don't exist. but in a lot of ways i was and have always been very independent and self-willed and intrinsically motivated and i do the things i want to do and go down rabbit holes all by myself all the time and i love my own company and love being alone and living in my imagination and la di da di da.

there are a lot of things about me like my hobbies and interests and what i want to do in my life, the conventional "things" we define people by, that would be more or less the same if i did not have siblings. i would still be a poet and still be a teacher and still have a lot of the passions and inspirations, because they've had nothing to do with most of that, but it would probably just be a different flavor entirely. i don't know to what extent i come across to the followers of this blog like someone who would have siblings (although i do talk a lot with/about my twin sister on here since we're mutuals and share some followers/online friends), but in real life i see and talk about them all the time. my long-term friends who maybe have never even met my brothers have heard about them and my sisters-in-law and know their names and have heard some funny stories about them, in the present day and growing up. they know i'm close to my siblings. and as for my twin sister, there's really no one i consider a close friend who doesn't know her. if you only know me, we're acquaintances. if you've spent any time around me that wasn't in a work/school setting, i've almost certainly brought kaily along with me at some point.

so my siblings do not define me and even in the case of my brothers there are some sides of me they do not really see that my friends do, but they are my best friends in the world and i do consider myself to be my "truest" self around them. my relationships with my siblings have profoundly impacted the more abstract parts of myself, probably especially the way i can love and tolerate people different than myself. my brothers are the type of people that if they were not my brothers, if they were just random people, i would probably never form a natural bond with, but because of all the shared background i do appreciate them immensely because they're like nobody else in my life. that and, the commitment i make to being with them is just that: a commitment. sure the blood bonds will always exist but those are kind of arbitrary in comparison to the shared value we all have for each other, which is what really makes the four of us so special and does not necessarily come with every biological relationship, god knows.

that and one time at the dinner table my brother jon and i were like "yeah... yeah..." when his wife said she was the funniest person he knows because we were both like exchanging knowing glances like "nah that's me." and then my other brother dan said "actually i got into an argument the other day with [dan's wife's name] because she said she was the funniest person i knew and i said 'actually that has to be my sisters'" and i was just like YESSSSS........ YESSSSSS!!!!!!!! literally nothing else matters to me and i am not in competition with my sisters-in-law in any way in fact i love them so much; kaily and i have a very special relationship with them too. i love the sisters i gained. but i need to hear that WE are the people that make my brothers laugh the hardest. i NEED to hear that, i need that to be true of them and only them because i have been making dan and jon laugh for 24 years and i do not plan on stopping that any time soon. nope. i better always be the funniest person they know

people with lots of siblings are fascinating and by that i mean me and the davies brothers