yannaryartside

[yannaryartside]

Let me be clear, even if I think I may be repeating myself at this point…

If clairexcarmy is endgame, the show will become trash in my memory forever.

Not even for my disappointment in the waste of sydcarmy and the atrocious use of Sydney Adamu on all the Clairexcarmy narrative.

I would consider the show trash because the clairexcarmy ship is the most sickening romance I have resisted in a while. I do say that with my whole chest.

I recently finished the book “whole again” by Jackson McKenzie, that explains (among other amazing psychological subjects) the relationship between codependent people and their “rescuers”. I may do a post detailing this but I think some people already caught this vibe. This shit is toxic, I may make Carmy stay in his unhealthy mental state forever.

I cannot believe, in one neuron of my brain, how someone can write one of the most realistic and humanizing portrayals of mental illness, treat the subject of addiction and toxic patterns with respect and realism of how to treat them, and then go “yeah it all will be fixed by being loved by someone that really doesn’t know you (only the past version of you) and has no interest in helping you grow” while also that love character being the most empty of your whole cast. I am not inventing any of that is literally what they showed us.

If it happens, I will just assume this people got possessed or were unaware of the toxic narratives they carried themselves.

[yannaryartside]

And we spent a whole season doing basically NOTHING! Like no plot resolutions, no character growth, nothing. A whole season of extending toxic patterns and obsessing over your ex.

They could have cramped that shit in 4 episodes instead of ten. The rest was Fal filler (that nobody asked for) and bottle episodes (that were amazing but also kind of filler)

Girl, it's a tv show it's not that deep...... plus Jeremy is great, don't wanna see him stuck on the same show again for a million years. Let my man cook else where, you know!

The whole tv show is deep though like wdym 😭

And no I agree I don’t want him stuck on another show however the commitment to a show for 11 years is a lot different than wanting the bear to end with season 5 instead of 4, especially since most of the episodes are only 30 minutes

[yannaryartside]

Omg there are so many of my favorites here.

sydcarmy fics recs (i love-love this)

hi! hello! so, i was thinking that i read most of the fics on the tag of sydcarmy on ao3 and i need to share my favorites ones (and bc i keep forgetting to add to bookmark, so maybe is better here)

(not specific order, i just love to read and everything in the sydcarmy tag is perfect; if you know the tumblres or twitter dm me I'll put here)

pink for the au's

purple for the canon-divergence

orange for multiworks

quick note: most of this are the very first fics i read when the hiperfixation with sydcarmy entered to my life, enjoy!!!!!!!!!

You Were Bigger Than The Whole Sky by @sofaroffbway

A conversation with her father forces Sydney to confess the only thing she is still hiding from Carmy. He needs to know. They are getting married after all. | #finish

Hands Full of Plates by @Thesuncameout

The first year of The Bear, through the eyes of its Chef de Cuisine and Executive Chef. | #finish

Normal People by @cryobabyy

What is he to her anyway? He feels like her boss when he tells her what to do. When he doesn’t break eye contact as he asks for her input on the new menu, he feels like a business partner. When his hand ghosts against her lower back and his thumb slips under her sweatshirt, it’s an accident. He was just trying to get by; just a polite nudge, right? (Little blurbs of Carmy and Syd falling in love and being idiots about it) | #ongoing(please, come back)

Oyster Knife by @purposechef

Sydney Adamu seeks answers. / note: and every fic written by purposechef, but this have a special place in my heart, is everything that i love of sydney and carmy. | #finish

Take Care by @purposechef

Ingredients: - 1 culinary school dropout - 1 recently fired CDC - 48 hours in New York City

Steps: 1. Have a panic attack; drop out of culinary school. 2. Accidentally become the head food critic of the New York Times. 3. Write a review that gets the CDC of Eleven Madison Park fired. 4. Let sit until you have an emotionally unwieldy mess. | #finish

The Wild, Wild Berry by @Blissymbolics

The elderberries were undercooked, rendering them toxic. She finds Carmen helpless on the bathroom floor. Her fingertips tingle with the desire to comb his sweat-drenched hair. It’s embarrassing; it’s beneath her. But still, there’s something sweet in his weakness. He trusts her to keep the world running in his absence, and feed him when his appetite returns. | #finish

Fundamentals for the Fun and Mental by @bioloyg

It's been weeks since Carmen Berzatto found himself locked in the walk-in on the opening night of The Bear, but if you asked him, he'd tell you it felt like it happened yesterday. If you asked anyone else... well, they'd tell you these past few weeks have felt like a lifetime. Which is exactly why Sydney and Natalie decide to send Carmen on vacation. | #finish

The Million Little Things by @peachybunnybabie

The relationship of Carmen and Sydney. | #multiworks

Don't leave me now, you might love me back by @adogwithabirdatyour_door

for you i am a child, believing: It’s been a while since something like this happened.

snow is outside but i'm by your fire (i feel all the love you bring): they're always staring.

faithful friends who are dear to us (will be near to us once more): Or, the first time Sydney really felt like part of the family.

it's a lot to ask of me (to believe in you): In the midst of an early-relationship fight, Carmy gets sick. Sydney has a lot to think about.

kill the doubt that strangles my self worth (paint the picture that i swore i heard): Hosting a dinner party stirs up old memories for Carmy

you change all the lead, sleeping in my head: The question slips out without her permission, spoken with the same candor she’d used to ask him if he wanted a dog.

you say you wanna stand by my side (darlin' your head's not right): Sydney is a supporting gf.

To be continued...(like Storer playing with me at the final of s3)

[yannaryartside]

So there is this quote floating around (collider website) that apparently comes from a producer in The Bear, talking about how s3 and s4 where filmed simultaneously:

“Out of 20 episodes, they filmed 16 and 1/2 and they will continue to film in February”

So I guess that goes with the hopes of a longer season, but I have to admit filming only half of s4 may indicate location and cast logistics that where impossible to achieve at the time. Jeremy is filming a movie right now…is he coming to film in February?

Mi biggest note is I think what was filmed may be to make sure certain (you know who I mean) members of the cast don’t have to come back to film the latter parts of the season…regardless of their involvement on the plot. Is not like they have to film consequentially.

Also, if I was dating my costar, I would make sure we have no more work to do together, to avoid risk.

[yannaryartside]

Words to Use Instead of "Said"

whispered

shouted

exclaimed

murmured

muttered

yelled

cried

screamed

stammered

declared

replied

answered

commented

remarked

suggested

hinted

announced

observed

mentioned

noted

[yannaryartside]

this was such a lovely series, coming back to read it!

♡ DOWN IN THE HEART ♡ ↝ SydCarmy | Rated: E mdni | Complete | Word Count: 170K+ | [READ HERE]

Summary: Post S3 Finale. After almost losing Sydney to Shapiro, Carmy is determined to make a change. Eager to rebuild their friendship, they decide to spend the day together at Carmy's doing some recipe development but an accidental peek inside Carmy's notebook changes everything for them. In the midst of navigating trauma, therapy, grief, and their new relationship, they try to keep their thing a secret from everyone else at The Bear for six months.

♡ any reblogs/kudos/comments are all so appreciated!! ♡

[yannaryartside]

The show is great filmmaking and writing, but for me, if Sydney doesn’t win the most of out this narrative I am gonna resent the show forever. You literally created the most endearing real young woman of your show, write her to treat everybody with the kindness, grace and support that she never received herself, and then the narrative (and some of the characters) pay her with shit.

worst thing about being an editor is watching the “sad syd” scene pack get longer with every season

[yannaryartside]

The importance of SydLuca for Sydcarmy

"This is what you wanted"

This may be a controversial one, I originally shipped MarcusxLuca more, but that may still be my OTP alongside Sydcarmy (both ships will happen at the show's end). This may be shipper delusions, but I have a narrative-based argument.

Let me explain why I think Luca and Sydney's dating, cooking, and working together, as well as their falling in love, are essential to the show's themes.

Character development for Carmy

Guys, the reason it would be so significant for Carmy’s character development (reality check) that Sydney develops feelings for Luca is because Luca has admitted Carmy is better than him in the kitchen.

Carmy made the menu, the restaurant, all about himself. He wants to be the hero to compensate his emotional absence and issues. It gives him validation, the toxic narrative that all abuse is worth if you become the best.

The meaning of “this is what you wanted”

He kept telling Syd: “this is what you wanted,” because that’s what he learned from his toxic chef. He may not be intentionally abusing Sydney as his boss abused him, but he is still prolonging the toxic dynamics he learned to survive in the Empire, thinking that if he can get a star, it will all be worth it in the end. The pain, the guilt, feeling lost. It would prove there is nothing wrong with him.

But it would also let him keep Sydney’s admiration (and her affection) he does what to be the best also because she came to his life saying “you are the best cdc in the best restaurant in the world” he thinks he needs to be the best in order for Sydney to ever want him in any way (friend/partner/romantic interest)

Which is obviously not true because Syd has stayed with Carmy while he has been anything but emotionally absent, a bad friend and ultimately a bad boss and even a bad chef, if we believe that last review calling him “uninspiring and chaotic”

Enters Luca

But then Luca will come in and steal his girl. A man with less awards, less known. Inferior in the culinary world. But Luca is (as far as we can see, specially in Forever) emotionally intelligent, present and kind. All the things Carmy could be if he deployed himself from his toxic narratives.

To be honest, the fact that Luca is physically everything that Carmy is insecure about himself (his height, face, being funny and intelligent) is kind of the cherry on top.

You can almost see his Pikachu face. "So you are telling me that I could have Syd if I was willing to be emotionally vulnerable and do the work?" (Carmy represents the whole male species right there.)

SYDNEY SIDE OF THE STREET.

The line "is scary to rely on someone" she told Marcus could be telling us two things:

1.Syd doesn't know how to be truly emotionally vulnerable, maybe because of previous (recent) heartbreak (the 3 swords tattoo).

2. Syd is scared to rely on Carmy

And next season, this man will probably be even less reliable; he spent this whole season fantasizing and thinking Claire was the solution to all his problems. And I don't have any reason to believe that pursuing her will not be his goal next season, either. Some people even speculate that the next season will end in a fake ending, with Claire and Carmy leaving for Copenhagen and all that. Then we could have a surprise 5th season to entail all the lies. (this show has bo be put on trial)

So, if Sydney is scared of being emotionally vulnerable, sadly, she cannot learn that with Carmy. Not with the present one.

She should go on her own and stop relying emotionally and financially on Carmy for a while to get to know herself and what she wants, build a career that doesn't depend on him, trust in her own strength, grow and be confident, learn to love and be loved, and live a love that is not based 50% on struggle and 50% on hope.

So, when they decide to be together, both can start from a healthy place. The connection is there, and they still have a date with destiny.

[yannaryartside]

Sydcarmy: the proof that even soulmates cannot be saved from fate's trials.

I will throw a narrative at you, more about my feelings on the themes shown regarding these two; bear with me. I want justice for Sydney Adamu. I also want Sydcarmy to work, but justice has to come first. All this comes from the line that Syd said to Marcus:

It is scary to rely on somebody.

Carmy has cornered Sydney

Now, all this sounds like shipper desires, and it is partially true, but I would like to add something about a point that concerns me a lot about Sydcarmy.

Since the beginning of the show, Sydney has put her fate in the culinary industry, her dreams, on the success of the enterprise, The Bear. But Carmy’s issues constantly sabotage this enterprise, and a part of Sydney believes it is her responsibility to make things work around her.

Now, let me be clear, she has boundaries and clear expectations of what can be done and has let Carmy know of everything he has done wrong. It is not like she is trying to be the hero; it is that everything Sydney had a chance to create, Carmy (or rather Carmy’s issues) has actively sabotaged to the point the restaurant may close next season.

Her financial security. Her opportunity to create her own recipes and discover her own artistic potential. Her reputation. Her capacity to support her last living parent. All of these things depended on Carmy’s project, and he has failed at every measure regarding her. He failed at helping her navigate the toxic environment of his family, constructing the restaurant and conceptualizing the menu, and he has been an awful leader when every detail can be the defining factor in their future. The fact that he is struggling doesn't take away his fault on the effects his actions may have on Sydney's career.

The restaurant closing may be damaging for Carmy but it could be fatal for Syd. She even said she may quit after this one is done.

So, on top of all that, she has developed feelings for him. This person she barely knows and has been emotionally distant from her 80% of the runtime of the show. She keeps hearing that all of Carmy’s problems could be solved by Claire and only her (I swear if the Faks, god forbid, try to make Sydney talk to Carmy about Claire and they tell her that “Claire is Carmy’s peace�� you may see me manifest in the screen and strangle these clowns, they can make their cases to God).

Three strikes

This scene made me so sad for so many reasons. When Carmy says, “You look nice,” you can see the absence in his face, and then Syd removes the bow, almost as if she is embarrassed by trying to look nice (for him). For her, this man has rejected her as a business partner, as a chef (not being good enough to contribute to the menu), as a friend (not being there for her), and romantically (sexually).

So, it is not that I won’t rather skip jealous plotlines and whatnot. It is the fact that the show has used 3/4 of its (presume) runtime to tell Sydney all of this, to make her live all this rejection in all the areas she is the most concerned about, all her dreams, all her feelings.

It is very unhealthy to put your dreams on the shoulders of your loved one (not that this is her fault; Carmy invited her and even made a contract to solidify her dependence on his project). I also think there is a part of Sydney that believes that if she was good enough for Carmy to fall for her, all of these other pieces in her life would be better. She would collaborate intimately with her boyfriend and be a permanent part of the people she has learned to love and who love her.

But right now, she is putting all of her hopes in a person who is too mentally ill to know what even a healthy relationship is. Carmy is too traumatized, too codependent, with no guidance, and not even knowledgeable of his self-destructive tendencies.

This was doomed from the beginning. And both will inevitably lose themselves in the process. Carmy is trapped in ice but forces Sydney to walk on thin ice. Nobody can exist like that. No relationship or person can grow.

Again, none of this is Sydney’s fault, she has put her faith in a friend and a group of people she wanted to make a difference for. The fact that she has developed feelings for the most unreliable person in her life right now, is just a whim of fate. Talking about hardship for the strongest soldiers.

But there is hope.

If they start from a good place. If each one keeps their side of the street clean.

She deserves to leave this place and make a career on her own, blood, sweat, and tears. Let Carmy grow on his own, more so, she can finally understand that she could be her literal soulmate (that she is) and have the actual peace in him effect that he thought Claire gave him. And still, it would be enough.

That’s the lesson; that’s how the real world works. No cosmic arrangements, deep love, or emotional intelligence can help a person who refuses to request help.

A relationship is only created by two willing individuals.

[yannaryartside]

WHY THE FUCK WE NEVER SAW SYDCARMY AT THE FARMERS MARKET?!?!

IT’S BEEN 3 SEASONS AND THEY ARE 2 CHEFS WHO OWN A RESTAURANT FFS! WTF WERE YOU THINKING, STORER?! IT'S NOT EVEN REALISTIC!!!

WERE YOU TOO BUSY WRITING THESE PIECE-OF-SHIT SCENES? WAS THAT IT?! WAS THAT IT?!

I can’t emphasize this enough: FUCK YOU!

[yannaryartside]

Let me tell you something…if you are gonna watch “We live in time”…

The bear related spoilers for the movie

They are very PetexNatalie coded. And I am not complaining at all. Actually I love it so much.

[yannaryartside]

EXCUSE THE FUCK OUT OF ME WHILE I PICK MY JAW FROM THE FLOOR

Ayo Edebiri at the Fourth Annual Academy Museum Gala.

[yannaryartside]

How did Richie do the math?

You don't think I can do it made a 💡 in Richie's head.

He already spent the morning psychoanalyzing Carmy. Now, he has another clue about why Carmy is acting the way he is.

When Carmy asks, "You dont think i can do it?" did Richie remember the conversation Carmy had with Sydney in 2x01?

Richie is thinking- all this because Sydney wants a star?

Who gives a fuck about stars...

Sydney does and Carmy wants to get one.

Interesting

Then richie remembers Carmy is like Donna.

Like Donna, Carmy doesn't know how to show and be loved in a healthy way. Like Donna Carmy will martydom-build resentment - have inappropriate outbursts- make sure they don't enjoy things or people they love.

And Carmy loving someone has him acting out in the only loving way he knows. It's not the way he was acting with Claire - I think Richie realized this. It's how he's acting with Sydney that Richie observes throughout season 3, which makes him see more of Donna in Carmy and what's holding him back.

I'm sure he also remembered that Carmy knows he loves someone and something, but he doesn't know how to have fun with what he loves because of Donna. So, Richie sees the person he loves (Sydney) and Carmy sucking the joy out of The Bear and he wants to help Carmy but knows he has to do the self discovery himself.

This is why Richie, although he is against the star system, is still letting Carmy do what he needs to do. But he's also trying to show him you love her and it doesn't mean you can't have fun doing this with Sydney. It's why he makes suggestions of the razzle dazzle, Open hearts, and the dream weave.

If I'm betting on anything, I hope Richie is the one Carmy talks to once he sorts out his feelings.

[yannaryartside]

Of course, one it’s intent, like being touched softly.

There is plenty of ways to make a whispering sound menacing. As Kaz Brekker would know.

I know adverbs are controversial, but "said softly" means something different than "whispered" and this is the hill I will die on.

[yannaryartside]

You guys have no idea how much Florence character being a chef is gonna DESTROY me.

Sydcarmy AU “we live in time” when?!!!!

“i can’t bear the thought of being forgotten”

so you really want me to be dehydrated because of my uncontrollable tears??? 😭

[yannaryartside]

The “the man who created a Syd fancam in his head to calm himself down during a panic attack, doesn’t have feelings for the subject of said fancam” takes the 🥇

But yeah, so true. It honestly fascinates me (as much as it saddens me) that he may be suppressing his feelings for Syd in favor of the c person. That’s why the scrunchie theory took so much power, because it would mean Syd is still in a corner of his mind, bringin order in the middle of all this illusions created by c and his mental illness.

i feel like i see a lot of takes about Syd having feelings for Carmy as if those feelings are one sided. but those feelings are very much mutual, very much reciprocated. you’ll never be able to convince me that the man who created a Syd fancam in his head to calm himself down during a panic attack, doesn’t have feelings for the subject of said fancam. you won’t convince me that the man who followed Syd outside with a plate of food despite it being obvious that she wanted to be alone, doesn’t have feelings for the person who he brought said plate of food for. Not to mention:

“What’s goin on with you”

“Nothing”

“Sydney…”

like he doesn’t know her well enough to be doing all that and yet still. what gets me about that scene is that they really don’t know each other that well to be acting like that towards one another. yet they were comfortable enough to be vulnerable with each other.

[yannaryartside]

Claire and her patients

And why I think she may harm Carmen

It’s incredible how many stories told by Claire about her interactions with injured people are disturbing in close up. I honestly need someone to put a name to it (like clinical one) because so far, it's just disturbing.

In S3, I thought the show was doing a number that made me see her process the pain after the breakup and work helping others through it. I cared about that; I did. It is difficult not to root for someone in pain. But then it got bizarre the more medical scenes we had. Mainly the one where she committed malpractice

The lacking

When she was telling the story about the girl with a million cuts, you know, a kid she almost killed because of a medical error (one that was actually totally preventable) there are so many things wrong with it. Some audience members have stated that scene was to show that “Claire is not perfect,” but that shit didn’t have that effect on me at all. It was a relief to see other people felt this way, some in this fandom even said it was so unnatural it made them laugh. And I am curious about why that is.

From the beginning, the lack of guilt surrounding the incident has been glaring for me. It's not like we see her break down crying or be afraid of what Carmy is going to think of her as a doctor. She committed malpractice, mistake or not. Doctors go out of business for things that they cannot prevent. They are not ashamed of their work; they are ashamed of the result. That harmed somebody.

I watched a lot of medical-related shit (as I assume most people do). The character Joan Watson in Elementary stopped working as a doctor thoroughly after losing one (1) patient over something she could not predict or prevent. A medical board gave her permission to work, but it was still not enough. She was so afraid of hurting someone else and was so ashamed that she was manipulated by the son of his deceased patient to give him money. In “The West Wing,” Abbey Bartlett was a doctor before being the First Lady, and she had an incident in an operation that resulted in the death of her patient (an infection that got complicated). She defended her work, she is possitive she didn’t make a mistake and we are inclined to believe that because we have seen her character admit to her faults before.

There was no shame in Claire. You can process your emotions however you want, but it would make more sense even if you were defensive. Why did she tell that story…as she was also the victim? Maybe the fact that the story relates to malpractice makes it difficult to say it without sounding bad, but there were better ways to make her empathetic than suspicious.

“I was slammed,” as she could ever justify a mistake as stupid as the one she made. I know understaffing hospitals is a serious issue, and overworked doctors can make stupid mistakes, but she didn’t say things like “I should have seen it” or “I have nightmares about it.” And she told it in a way that seemed like she was expecting Carmy to understand it wasn’t her fault. Even if it wasn’t, doctors would carry guilt about malpractice and the harm they were accomplices of, even if literally no divine intervention could have made a difference. By not allowing Claire this very normal emotion, you are setting her apart to the audience members who are paying attention.

The warning

And then, somehow, the story is more about how young and beautiful her patient was…I am sorry, but that almost felt… fetishizing? It reminded me of those poems people made online about having a story of self-harming: “She was so beautiful in her scars.” Maybe that’s me stretching it.

She also keeps telling the stories of what caused the injuries in the first place, and not ironically, is always people doing something risky/stupid in the first place. She is never seen taking care of a bullet wound or a severe illness suddenly worsening. It’s always people putting their lives at risk.

And that’s an element that terrifies me, thinking of who Carmy is and his gif above. He has self-harming hallucinations, sometimes in the middle of dangerous situations, and his mental condition prevents him from reacting accordingly. He is absent as if he was hight/drunk, but it is his mental illness. It may even be tied to a suicidal underline.

And then you hear this story about a girl that got almost killed by Claire’s negligence; in that moment, she needed help getting better because she had an accident. She was not able to prevent her injury. She was also drunk when it happened, so she had no equipment to react accordingly. She is the equivalent of Carmen.

I need help thinking it is supposed to be a coincidence. These writers are not stupid, even if you could justify how Claire is written as saying, “Carmy is supposed to be in love with the simple” (which is such a lame excuse. People can be simple and interesting).

Wouldn’t it be cruel in hindsight to make Carmy’s true love the one person who also has a story of harming people in similar conditions of danger that he had?

I would like to quote something I read about the scene that introduces us to Claire, the story of “why” she wanted to be a doctor. In most medical-related media, these events tend to be very traumatic to the character, “I lost my mother to cancer and wanted to prevent other people from feeling that pain” “I had to watch my friend dying because she was bleeding and I couldn’t do nothing” is always about preventing someone’s harm, because of empathy. Then you have Claire’s story, quoting This fucking excellent post by

@habaritess

“The graphic injury made her want to understand it. Let that sink in. The other kids were disturbed by the injury and, no doubt, also by the cries of the injured girl. Claire wasn’t. She was mentally disconnected from the scene because her empathy wasn't activated.”(...) She looks at people as a thing to analyze, and she does so in order to get what she wants from them"

I firmly believe this. Shout out to this post by @gingergofastboatsmojito talking about Claire being a benign narcissist. She has created a narrative about herself, and that's why she seems too eager to help people who cannot fend for themselves, people who are sad, lost, and hurt, because she feels her value in it. Heartbreak doesn't make it look cute. That's just another magic trick.

And the worst part, she may be a good doctor 80% of the time, but if you have this incident, there is the possibility that it has happened more than once. Like wtf, she said she was good at “taking care of sad drunk people,” but the moment she had a drunk patient, she actually was unable to provide good care for her. She actively made the situation worse. Her mistake could have been fatal. And she related the whole thing, mentioning how beautiful she was before her accident and how it was so amusing she laughed after because she couldn’t feel the pain. She told that shit like it was amusing. Idk, I have never heard a doctor talking like that.

And now we have a whole season of Carmy thinking Claire is the solution for his happiness, the missing piece, and whatnot. This is unnerving. He will run for her at full speed, call her in a time of need/crisis, and then what? Would Claire's interest/lack of empathy would be finally revealed? Will she steer Carmy in an ever worse direction?