#(blame the adhd on that one)

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

[drawing-way-outside-the-lines]

I just backed up all my character bios in case Tumblr goes boom boom. And I currently have 130 characters, and here I am only counting the ones who has a bio, there's still kids I need to make😅

[brennacedria]

If this vacation bit falls thru completely (it's an absolute rollercoaster of hope/crushed hope/hope again rn) then I really need to get a new phone. It works fine for weekday usage, because my stand at work is its charger, but days off where I'm using it then either pocketing it or setting it next to me just drains the battery SO FAST. And if I try to use the camera, or watch videos, or hell even listen to music with the screen off? It dies even faster. And since I have to use wired buds at work now (I can't hear thru wireless ones for some reason, so I miss if my desk phone rings, etc) that just means the battery dies before it's time to drive home.

if the vacation DOES happen, then whatever, I don't need to take pics at Disney world, except for Galaxy's Edge, because it'll be my fourth trip overall AND my second trip at Christmas, so there won't be anything else I NEED pics of. And yeah, I'll still be on Tumblr throughout the day even at Disney world, but it wouldn't be like how it is when I'm home so the battery should be mostly idle and a non-issue. Plus I could keep the charger in my bag and plug it into a wall while I eat if I had to.

Whether a phone replacement is in the future or not, tho, I'm going to start comparison shopping so that when the decision to replace does come down I can immediately order whatever I've researched or its current equivalent at that time. My guess upfront is that it'll be whatever "a" series version of the pixels is current at the time, because I'm adamant about having Google's android and not an OEM (I've never met an OEM I liked). And while I like having the regular (not xl) version of each model, I recognize that price is going to be a factor so I'll probably downgrade the series.

Also, if no vacation, I'm not only getting the phone but I'm getting more art and continuing my loaded teas even at their ridiculous pricing. I'll give stuff like that up for vacation saving, but if I'm not getting a trip out of it then I'm going to at least get all of my small luxuries.

[a-concert-just-for-me]

QB ADHD test is crazy for autists bc tell me why you’re gonna strap this super uncomfortable headband to my head and also have the lights bright in the room bright af and then have the laptop flash images at me too

Like????????

[rorydrawsandwrites]

I just saw your Doey art, and while it's SO cute in and of itself, your following skill deserves its own message:

Holy HECK, you're amazing at drawing hands!

Keep up the great work! :^)

M

Moi??

Oh well- thank you so much!!

[myownwholewildworld]

i was tagged by a couple of people on the Xmas tree thingy a couple of weeks or so ago and my sorry ass brain had forgotten till now?! 💀😭 and now i feel like it's too late to post it? asdfghjklñ might as well call me the grinch.

[eggbertith]

it always takes me so long to answer asks because i'm a yapper but my brain is also a pile of incoherent mush so trying to get anything remotely meaningful on the page is a full task

[thegreatyin]

Hey so you know Sunless Skies. Are you aware of the secret fourth Ambition? If so, there's something about it which haunts my dreams and has for years, and I need to spread the brainrot. If not, disregard this message, I don't want to give unsolicited spoilers. Sorry if the nature of the ask is in and of itself a spoiler.

i am indeed aware of it!!! i'm planning on pursuing it once i finish my current ambition in my current (and first) playthrough (the truth. i'm doing the truth as my very first ambition. because i apparently love to suffer and simply cannot do things by halves.)

[petercushingscheekbones]

idk this is probably a very personal experience but I find it so annoying that every therapist, counsellor I talk to just seems to go ‘oh looks like you can deal with it’. Like I know enough tricks to be productive, I fucking understand why I’m failing and I intellectually know if I don’t procrastinate I’ll get so much more done. I get it’s probably meant as empowerment but it feels dismissive I don’t keep going to appointments for fun.

like this is not even blaming them idk if there is anything they can do other that encourage me but with study related stuff specifically they give the impression of not caring if you’re doing okay academically. Like I know my grades indicate I’m doing decently but I’m not even doing as half as well as I could and it’s killing me

[seyvia]

Why don't you link the cc you use on your downloads?

Because that would begin my villain origin story.

[courtjesterrr]

brain: ok, you need to start working on the taocc episode animatic.

me: yeah yeah, dw, i got it 😎

also me: *spends all day coming up with a character for a comic series i came up with*

[lika2]

Are you "lazy" or are you just taking a break?

Are you "lazy" or do you just need to relax and unwind?

Are you "lazy" or are you just so overworked in other areas of your life that you cants expend the energy to do another task right now?

Are you "lazy" or do you just have executive dysfunction?

Are you "lazy" or do you just have a healthy work-life balance?

Are you "lazy" or do you have an unseen chronic condition that saps your energy until basic tasks are a burden?

Are you "lazy" or is that just a thing you've been told you are for reasons outside your control, to the point that you've internalised it?

Is there a single person in this world who enjoys feeling like a burden?

Has anyone actually felt motivated to improve themselves after they got called "lazy"?

Or did it just worsen their condition?

Is the concept of laziness just abelist/classist garbage?

[borf-borfs]

the thing about tumblr is someone will make a post like ‘autistic/adhd people are stupid and use their disability as an excuse’ and you’re meant to find that funny and not be offended

[faunandfloraas]

Hey, remember to get a new black paint pen 👍🏻✨

Thank u 💕💞💕💞

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[rervraiilstew]

flipping people off tic they could never make me like you.