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diegusting · 4 months ago

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Current mood.

#I was supposed to post gardening Jose today but the file just disappeared from my pc so sucks to suck i guess #save me emotional support pathetic hispanic man save me #he'll peacefully garden another day i just don't feel in a happy gardening mood yet #anyways birthday boy in 3 days can't wait to stare at his new portrait furniture in my overcrowded room #he's just standing in it like his default sprite but at least they didn't forget him #okay I’m done ranting now don’t worry I’m going to therapy in a few days so I won’t need to vent in the tags anymore #identity v #idv #jose baden #idv first officer #idv jose baden

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clowningcrows · 5 months ago

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it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.

#i came out to my fav professor/mentor today #it was kind of impulsive but idk #she’s just made me feel so safe and supported and cared ab #that honestly all i wanted to do was tell her #and hear what my new chosen name sounds like when she says it. idk.#anyway she was So incredibly receptive and understanding and supportive #like she said things i needed to hear that i didn’t even know i needed to hear #at one point she essentially reassured me that she doesn’t and won’t ever love me any less as a boy #and she immediately wanted to call me by my chosen name and use my preferred pronouns #and she kept telling me too that there’s no pressure or need to stress and that if i ever wanna adjust the name or pronouns i can #and that gender isn’t a fixed thing ofc #she told me that she’s proud of me too #god i’m so luckyyyy dude #i feel so loved and cared about #also i said in an email recently that i was looking for a part time job (like totally as a separate thing i mentioned bc of scheduling stuff #and totally unprompted today #she started talking to me about getting a paid position for me set up with some grant money ig??#which we were already tentatively planning on doing next semester #but bc she saw me say that she’s trying to get it set up now 🥺🥺#AGH i kinda love my life rn #but i’m so terrified to and im even more afraid to admit that #anyway so sorry this is an excessive amount of tags #silas speaks #vent #trans #transmasc #trans masc #transgender #queer #lgbtq+

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itzscribz · 4 months ago

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Hey everyone !! Haven’t exactly been online lately because I have school things to catch up on, sorry !

…but to be honest, the whole bug army “drama” sort of got to me too ? It’s become stressful to get on here and see what people say about our community again. Which sucks, because this is supposed to be fun !! It’s a little hobby !! I don’t come on here to worry about how people perceive me damn !

I mean the bug army is so small. It’s a subcategory of a subcategory of a very niche fandom. There’s like 50 people tops. I just don’t understand how things seem to have soured so quickly ?? We’re just in our little corner talking about our bugs and things just. Went to shit I guess ?

It’s really disheartening to put so much energy into something that you love and seeing it turn out this way. Especially when I see how much effort goes into making the community a welcoming place ! We want to be friends ! We want to discuss the series ! We don’t care if you don’t like it you do you !

But come on, some of these confessions are ruthless. And about such petty things too ? It’s not that serious ! It’s never that serious ! We’re all just partaking in a hobby, don’t build your whole life around getting noticed in a fandom ! It’s not healthy !

ANYWAYS !

I’m going to slow down my upload schedule because 1. School is coming up and 2. I was on sort of a drawing spree for the last month and things have slowed down a bit ! That’s just how things are ! I still really want to interact with the whole audio rp fandom but I’m not sure I’m going to pick back up on Gator boys things right away, at least until things settle down for a bit. I’ll still be lurking around the discord tho so worry not bug army 😌

#ramblez #bug army #the bug army #not going to tag the series as a whole I don’t want to flood the tag with a vent #also just because I won’t draw stuff about my bug doesn’t mean I’m not looking at yours #nobody is safe from me fawning over their bugs /j

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yourinaudiblename · 8 months ago

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ughhhh why is gender so hard to figure out. my body is like boom gender dsyorphia but won’t tell me noone about my identity

(I accidentally made an entire vent in the tags lmao)

#my gender dysorphia has been bad the past few weeks. really fucking bad #when I try to learn about my identity I get mad that I’m nowhere near becoming it or mad that I don’t know what the fuck I want to be #but I want to be more neutral and I don’t know if I want to be masculine because I want to look genderless #or if the two aren’t together #I hate this. I pick a label and there’s always something wrong with it.#demiboy is too masculine and implies I look masculine p #agender isn’t masculine enough #I can’t be genderfluid when I only want to be masc and neutral #I can’t be bigender when I don’t want to be a transman #nothing ever fits. and whether I find what fits or not the dysorphia is just gonna get worse #and my mom will think I’m a butch lesbian for years #and once those years finally pass she isn’t gonna let us leave Florida #or by then the transphobia would’ve spread across the county #and then she still wouldn’t let me leave #because I’ll always be too young. I’ll never have enough documented dysorphia.#I’ll never get on t. I’ll never get a binder or surgery.#bevause i look too feminine to be tranmasc.#because I can’t get hormones.#because my mom won’t let me.#because I haven’t had this for enough years.#because I looked too feminine before and thought that feminine things were cute #because I liked girls.#I liked how the outfits looked but never really asked if I wanted to wear them.#and when I finally did it was too late.#the answer was no. but they didn’t believe me #bc for so many years I thought because and outfit was cute or astethic meant you wanted to wear it. but I didn’t want to be seen as a girl.#I want to be masculine. I wish I was born male. but it’s too late for me to realize that.#now nobody cares what I want to be. anyone that does is across the fucking world.#anyways I’m reaching tag limit so I’ll stop this #vent

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crabussy · 1 year ago

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not feeling very whimsyful today guys kind of wishing that I could exist with a life changing disorder without also bearing the brunt of people who for some reason have decided it is their job to try and hurt me and my friends because they don’t like the way my disorder manifests

#I don’t often make posts like this anymore for various reasons but today I just . need to get it out there #ask to tag #I just . holy shit. I’m already trying to cope with the symptoms of the disorder and people decide they’d like to make things more difficult #out of anyone you could have bullied you chose to bully someone who’s permanently dealing with identity confusion and dissociation #caused by fucking childhood trauma mind you #Im just Tired #I just want to have fun and tell my friends I love them and make things I like #but instead I have to read peoples attempts to belittle and harass my headmates because they won’t even try to understand #rant #vent #ableism #<- for people who have these filtered

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osarina · 7 months ago

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wow i’m actually in such a foul mood right now

#ᡣ𐭩 vents #this night has just 😭#my arm is in so much pain and idk what’s wrong with it #i’m cramping #i can’t even tell if my fic is in the tags because on my phone it shows it’s not but on the laptop it shows it is #there’s a fucking fly in the house that won’t stop bothering me #yet again my brother stole my food and lied about it #and there are a few more things but #i don’t feel comfortable bringing those to the dash so #i’ll leave it there #just know that i’m in. a terrible mood #what an awful way to end dazai day :’)

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quietlyblooms · 7 months ago

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we’ll see how the rest of the day plays out, but it’s honestly just not a great mental day for me. the family excursion was fine — nothing went wrong. i just feel very overwhelmed and sensitive, and there’s not been a moment where it’s just quiet. writing might be how i recharge once i’m home, but we’ll just see. i might just lurk and take it easy uvu

#the way people keep talking to me and basically taking over when i’m trying to help is just really getting to me today #and i get it bc i’m the youngest and it’s been that way for ages but today it’s making me feel very negatively #and i love my family and usually i love talking and being around them but today i think i just don’t have it in me #i need to go home and to just be in the quiet #and i feel horrible bc my sister will notice and worry that she’s annoying me and it’s not that!!#i just feel so overwhelmed rn #sorry to rant in the tags i just needed to get it off my chest for a moment #i feel like i can’t talk about mental health stuff with my family bc they either won’t understand or worry and i’m just #having a hard time not talking about it tbh #get ready to ramble | ooc #tw negative #tw rant #tw vent

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seventh-district · 14 days ago

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sighs and collapses and disintegrates into the wind

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent post #cw vent post #ah yes. another restless nights sleep in a cold room bc i was too upset and sick to eat enough yesterday and my nightmares won’t let up and #my heater isn’t enough to warm the room when it’s this fucking cold outside. but it’s fine bc i don’t think i deserve to be warmer anyway #i should get water but i’ve been stuck laying here for an hour wondering if im racist and feeling like i should just. leave. or smthn. idk #i need a caregiver so there’s someone here to stop me from doomscrolling tumblr and reddit discourse for two hours before bed. lol #but ig no matter how careful i try to be there’ll always be part of me thats. unconsciously? racist? bc im white so its just part of me #idk im not educated enough to talk about it so i guess the real lesson to learn here is to keep my fucking mouth shut. which i can do!#i don’t. know how to apologize correctly. bc no one wants to hear me piss and moan abt my white guilt. if that’s what it even is #im too stupid to understand what to do or say and the more i type the worse it sounds so im just. sorry. i apologize for anything i’ve said #or done. that wasn’t right or was insensitive or thoughtless or uneducated or. whatever else it is i rlly don’t know #i didn’t mean to use AAVE. i really didn’t know. so i’ll go edit the tag where i used it but. that’s only one example. how many more am i #unaware of? how often do i put my foot in my mouth and not know it? im sorry. i’ll try to do better #but there’s so much to be mindful of that i can’t keep track of it all and it’s overwhelming me so i think i should just. be quiet.#‘always a fanfic writer at the scene of the crime’ i. didn’t know there was a connection between racism and fanfic. now im worried #was that just an easy jab to make bc it’s cringe or is it actually problematic. why does it seem like theres smthn wrong w everything i do #anyways. i have to stop thinking abt it or im gonna anxiety vomit. i could go lay on the couch #it in the only warm room of the house but it’s covered in dog hair and i hate the smell from the stupid fucking propane heater #it gives me a headache and makes me paranoid. why did he install gas heat when he could’ve gone with a heat pump. all he did was make #everything harder on everybody. so now we have dangerous gas heat in the winter and shitty mold-filled window ac units in the summer #when he could’ve installed a heat pump/ac unit combo thingy and we would’ve been good to go. why is he like this.#YOURE A GODDAMN ELECTRICIAN. HAVE BEEN YOUR WHOLE LIFE. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. SO ACT LIKE IT.#im staying in bed. the rest of the house reeks of burnt plastic bc SOMEONE decided to take FOUR sedatives and drink a couple beers before #trying to use the stove to cook dinner :))) so now i have to figure out how to clean that up. i take back everything i said about winter #being my favorite season. this shit fucking sucks. there’s so much more to stress over and it’s all so much more expensive and exhausting #i never want another dog or cat ever again after these two pass. im not the person i once was and i cannot care for them like i used to.#i can’t even care for myself. couldn’t if i Wanted to right now bc everything is frozen solid. can’t shower. can’t do any laundry.#just get to sit here filthy cold and miserable in the one clean-ish sweater i have left for ? days until temps get back above freezing #anyways thats enough bitching abt my first world problems. time to shut up and be grateful for what i Do have bc it could be a Lot worse

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supergraphicultramoderngirl · 2 months ago

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aaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#brain is being weird again. i miss the person i thought you were before i found out how truly truly horrible you are #but that person doesn’t exist! i never met them because they aren’t real!#i just wanna meet my person yk. like yeah i don’t want to be in a relationship bc that sounds exhausting but also #it wouldn’t be exhausting if it was my person. i wanna know someone. i wanna learn how someone works.#i wanna take care of someone and be taken care of without asking.#and like the thing is is i definitely have my people in my friends like i already have them in this way #and i appreciate that so so much which is why i won’t settle for anything less ever again and why i’m no longer actively seeking something #but i really do just miss clicking that well with someone right off the bat. and i know most of it was probably 1) me being lied to and 2)#me trying to make myself palatable for him #but i haven’t felt that truly blatantly appreciated in a long time #i just wish that fate would work a little faster at putting my person into my lap is all #i’m not even gonna say that it doesn’t have to be The Person i’ll end up with and can just be One Of the people along the way #because now that feels like settling and if the universe doesn’t want me to settle then i won’t #and i’m not trying to be impatient because i know that it’ll happen when it’s supposed to and i can’t force anything #i just want it to happen so badly. i want to have my cute love story. i want to have it last longer than a week. in a good way this time.#and i know i vent a lot about this in my tags but this time feels different #i just want what is supposed to happen to happen. and i want to feel comforted knowing that it will.#i just need a sign that it’s gonna happen someday so i don’t lose my mind waiting for it #that i’m in the right place. and i’m right where i’m supposed to be #idk. i just know i don’t deserve to feel alone anymore. especially when i know i’m not.#this feels like a prayer. maybe it is. whatever.#mari is irrelevant

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killuaisaprincess · 11 months ago

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Everyone always whines and cries how everyone ignores G//on

AND IF YOU DARE TO BRING UP KIS TRAMUA THEY ARE LIKE BUT WHAT ABOUT G

What about g KIS FANS ARE ANNOYING THEY SAY

Omg WHAT ABOUT G

MEANWHILE BACK WHEN I WAS ON A BLOCKING SPREE ALL I EVER SEE IS ANALYSIS POSTS ECT ABOUT G G AND HIM AND HIS TRAMUA AND THE BOTH TOGETHER MAYBE BUT KI ALONE MAYBE 1

SO I DO NOT EVEN WANNA HEAR IT

AND LET KI FANS CARE ABOUT KI

JUST LIKE U CARE ABOUT G

Stg these people wanna act like Ki’s life is so easy and CAA wasn’t hard on Ki CUZ WHAT ABOUT G