#(I won’t it’s just my vent tag)

[diegusting]

Current mood.

[clowningcrows]

it’s crazy how much having a safe place to be yourself and express your identity and personality and interests, both online and irl, can change your will to live. honestly.

[itzscribz]

Hey everyone !! Haven’t exactly been online lately because I have school things to catch up on, sorry !

…but to be honest, the whole bug army “drama” sort of got to me too ? It’s become stressful to get on here and see what people say about our community again. Which sucks, because this is supposed to be fun !! It’s a little hobby !! I don’t come on here to worry about how people perceive me damn !

I mean the bug army is so small. It’s a subcategory of a subcategory of a very niche fandom. There’s like 50 people tops. I just don’t understand how things seem to have soured so quickly ?? We’re just in our little corner talking about our bugs and things just. Went to shit I guess ?

It’s really disheartening to put so much energy into something that you love and seeing it turn out this way. Especially when I see how much effort goes into making the community a welcoming place ! We want to be friends ! We want to discuss the series ! We don’t care if you don’t like it you do you !

But come on, some of these confessions are ruthless. And about such petty things too ? It’s not that serious ! It’s never that serious ! We’re all just partaking in a hobby, don’t build your whole life around getting noticed in a fandom ! It’s not healthy !

ANYWAYS !

I’m going to slow down my upload schedule because 1. School is coming up and 2. I was on sort of a drawing spree for the last month and things have slowed down a bit ! That’s just how things are ! I still really want to interact with the whole audio rp fandom but I’m not sure I’m going to pick back up on Gator boys things right away, at least until things settle down for a bit. I’ll still be lurking around the discord tho so worry not bug army 😌

[yourinaudiblename]

ughhhh why is gender so hard to figure out. my body is like boom gender dsyorphia but won’t tell me noone about my identity

(I accidentally made an entire vent in the tags lmao)

[kiwisandpearls]

gonna be honest, genuinely hate when people here (or anywhere on the internet honestly) say “do better” because:

How am I supposed “do better”? What is enough to be considered “better”? What even is “doing better?”

i just…I could explain this in a less cranky way, and maybe if this post gains any sort of traction (it won’t probably)* but I genuinely hate the phrase “do better”

[crabussy]

not feeling very whimsyful today guys kind of wishing that I could exist with a life changing disorder without also bearing the brunt of people who for some reason have decided it is their job to try and hurt me and my friends because they don’t like the way my disorder manifests

[osarina]

wow i’m actually in such a foul mood right now

[quietlyblooms]

we’ll see how the rest of the day plays out, but it’s honestly just not a great mental day for me. the family excursion was fine — nothing went wrong. i just feel very overwhelmed and sensitive, and there’s not been a moment where it’s just quiet. writing might be how i recharge once i’m home, but we’ll just see. i might just lurk and take it easy uvu

[killuaisaprincess]

Everyone always whines and cries how everyone ignores G//on

AND IF YOU DARE TO BRING UP KIS TRAMUA THEY ARE LIKE BUT WHAT ABOUT G

What about g KIS FANS ARE ANNOYING THEY SAY

Omg WHAT ABOUT G

MEANWHILE BACK WHEN I WAS ON A BLOCKING SPREE ALL I EVER SEE IS ANALYSIS POSTS ECT ABOUT G G AND HIM AND HIS TRAMUA AND THE BOTH TOGETHER MAYBE BUT KI ALONE MAYBE 1

SO I DO NOT EVEN WANNA HEAR IT

AND LET KI FANS CARE ABOUT KI

JUST LIKE U CARE ABOUT G

Stg these people wanna act like Ki’s life is so easy and CAA wasn’t hard on Ki CUZ WHAT ABOUT G

[skhardwarevers1]

my life may be fucking falling apart but at least I have him

[casualhedonists]

DATING IS SO HARD WTF

[trash-bin-ary]

I can go on that ramble about the future and housing and aromanticism though now. It’s like man, the future is already something that is so inconceivable to me. To then have the sexuality that does not allow me to slot in the cookie cutter you find a romantic partner that you end up moving in with is terrible. And like In this economy I sure can’t live alone, and I know at least when I’m sick I desperately want someone to be there. And then there’s I’m likely to move around a bunch how do you deal with that housing, other than the work having paid housing. like constantly having to find somewhere that’s looking for roommates and it isn’t terrible? And then long term, when I find a job I stay at for a while (that’s remote so I’d love to live in a remote place) is it like I find a place to stay and then I’m stuck there forever and I just have to hope that I make good friends at this new place. (Friends that don’t want to live exclusively with a romantic partner no less.) I want to live with close friends so bad and I’m not sure if that’s a feasible thing for my future. I’m a person that has so much hope so I have to assume that yes it will work out, I do believe that. But man just hearing someone mention it, sparks that hope.

[cybervamp1re]

should i start the new school year with a relapse 🤔hmmm hmmmmmmm

[anderperries]

okay. yeah. whatever.

[beckybarnes]

Who up feeling like an outcast and a pathetic worm

[comradekarin]

maybe this is just ,, a knee jerk reaction to not having nice things centered predominantly on people of color, but whenever i see writers include white characters as the main focuses in their fics or have a white person be the love interest for a black panther character (and it’ll be that classic white girl that defies their authority and is “sassy” and “passionate”) im not gasping in surprise im just like