#(1) & (4) & (6) ocean vuong

[plusultraetc]

"death" (死 shi), "handle, grip" (柄 gara), "tree" (木 ki)

[claymotif]

orpheus but he's sisyphus

Ovid’s The Story of Orpheus and Eurydice (tr. Rolfe Humphries) / Spirited Away dir. Hayao Miyazaki / @mag200 / Jenny Diski, “Housewife” / Franz Wright, God's Silence / Adrianne Kalfopoulou, “Poem in Pieces, a Log” / Jon Ware, I am in Eskew / Kazimierz Wierzyński, “A Word of Orphists” (tr. Czeslaw Milosz) / @prisonhannibal / Aeschylus, The Oresteia / Ocean Vuong, Eurydice

image ids under cut:

image 1: a quote from Ovid that reads: "And Orpheus received her, but one term was set: he must not, till he passed Avernus, turn back his gaze, or the gift would be in vain."

image 2: excerpt from the script of the film Spirited Away that reads: "Haku: But I can't go any farther. Just go back the way you came, you'll be fine. [highlighted] But you have to promise not to look back, not until you've passed through the tunnel."

image 3: a drawing, labeled in all-caps handwriting "a venn diagram of love vs. grief:". the drawing is a single circle.

image 4: an excerpt, highlighted and italicized, from Jenny Diski that reads: "People don't understand about repetition, do they? How it is at the heart (thump, thump, thump) of obsession; at the erotic centre (drip, drip, drip) of desire. You do, of course. Repetition is insatiability spelt sideways."

image 5: a quote from Franz Wright reading, "And let me ask you this: the dead, where aren't they?"

image 6: a quote from Adrianne Kalfopoulou in red text, reading, "Grief will keep you reaching back / for what is not there"

image 7: an excerpt from Jon Ware that reads, "Here's my question. If the ghost wants nothing more than to be witnessed, why would it appear behind you, not in front of you? The only answer I can think of is this: [underlined] it appears behind you because it already knows, to an absolute certainty, that you will have no choice but to look back."

image 8: a quote from Kazimierz Wierzyński that reads: "I understood the true fate of Orpheus, that [highlighted] love is a constant terror of loss."

image 9: a screenshot of a tumblr ask from an anonymous user who says, "What's the point?" user prisonhannibal responds, "of what? it's love though".

image 10: two lines from aeschylus reading, "Orestes: This was always going to happen. She's been dead since the beginning."

image 11: an excerpt from Ocean Vuong that reads, "Your absence has gone through me // Like thread through a needle. / Everything I do is stitched with its color."

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[creacherkeeper]

is this old religion, are we calling it love?

{sweet movie, alisha dietzman / @gaphic / tiktok / @iamalivenow / on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong / @manywinged / these violent delights, micah nemerever / the reader, bernhard schlink (trans. carol brown janeway) / hestitations outside the door, margaret atwood / a self-portrait in letters, anne sexton}

[ID: ten images of text together in a litstack

1: Confession: I will think of you forever

2: a post by gaphic: It’s only tragedy if you convince yourself, for even just a moment, that everything could be ok, despite knowing it won’t be. Tragedy lies in ‘so close, yet so far.’ It’s avoidable because it would only take a tiny alteration to prevent disaster, but human nature is in the way- not maliciously, not knowingly, despite trying so hard.

3: a tiktok comment and answer: Are they lovers? / Worse

4: a post by iamalivenow: gay sex won't fix this. it'll probably make this worse. that being said don't you want to see how much worse it can get?

5: Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined.

6: tags from manywinged: #technically they know and understand each other better than anyone else alive #but they communicate that in the most fucked up insane unnecessarily complicated way and think thats normal

7: I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?

8: "I'm not used to being loved. I wouldn't know what to do."

9: Should we go into it together / If I go into it with you I will never come out

10: of course the love is there. / still, / still, / still.

end ID]

[fumifooms]

Dad always said I was like him

Meijack and Chilchuck Tims Dungeon Meshi, Ryoko Kui

^ 1: Moony moonless sky, Fatima Aamer Bilal / 2: Bug like an angel, Mitski / 3: Woodtangle, Mary Ruefle / 4: The Third Hour of the Night, Frank Bidart / 5 & 6: FROM THE MAKERS OF "TWO-MOM ENERGY DRINK," IT'S "LET YOUR FATHER DIE ENERGY DRINK,", Daniel Lavery & Cecilia Corrigan / 7: Batman: Year Three (1989) / 8 & 9 : FROM THE MAKERS OF […], Daniel Lavery & Cecilia Corrigan / 10: Wilt, CJ the X / 11: How Do We Forgive Our Fathers, Dick Lourie / 12: Milk and honey, Rupi Kaur / 13: And My Father's Love Was Nothing Next To God's Will, Amatullah Bourdon / 14: Moony moonless sky, Fatima Aamer Bilal / 15: Someday I’ll Love Ocean Vuong, Ocean Vuong / 16: untitled, Joan Tierney v 17: Drunk, The Living Tombstone / 18: unknown

When your father tried his best to provide for you but he worked all the time and even when he was home he was either tired or stressed and he’s always liked to get drunk to relax and cheer up. When you know he values work ethics and respectability so you grew up to be capable and quiet. And when he says you’re like him you’re sort of puzzled, does he really know you so little, or does he know himself so little? But you like the feeling of your father ruffling your hair so you accept it, and still you stand next to your mother just as silent and just as stoic as her during family gatherings. He leaves again and again and when your mother leaves him nothing changes, really. You wonder if it’s more telling that you know him better than he seems to himself or that you don’t know him as much as you wish you did, or that you don’t think about him all that much these days. Out of sight, out of mind. And he’s never really been there, even when he was there, after all.

[ragesingoddess]

1. Us Against You by Fredrick Backmam| 2. It Chapter 2 (2019)| 3. Stand by me (1986)| 4. tumblr text post| 5. The Kids From Yesterday by My Chemical Romance| 6. It by Stephen King| 7. A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara| 8. Oscar Wilde 9. Thanksgiving 2006 by Ocean Vuong

[kimdokjas]

on looking back & repetition as metaphors for grief

1. a grief observed - c.s. lewis // 2. spirited away - dir. hayao miyazaki // 3. orpheus tries to hold on to eurydice (c. 1791) - françois gérard // 4. omniscient reader's viewpoint - singshong // 5. gilgamesh a verse narrative - tr. herbert mason // 6. omniscient reader's viewpoint - singshong // 7. on the other side of grief with ocean vuong - aaron schwartz // 8. time travel told in five parts - judas h. // 9. omniscient reader's viewpoint - blackbox art // 10. housewife, the vanishing princess - jenny diski // 11. poem in pieces, a log; a history of too much - adrianne kalfopoulou // 12. the butterfly's burden; cadence chooses me - mahmoud darwish // 13. metamorphoses - ovid

image ids under the cut:

1. A quote by C.S. Lewis. I look up at the night sky. Is there anything more certain than that in all those vast times and spaces, if I were allowed to search them, I should nowhere find her face, her voice, her touch? She died. She is dead. Is the word so difficult to learn?

2. Dialogue from the Spirited Away screenplay. Haku says: But I can't go any farther. Just go back the way you came, you'll be fine. But you have to promise not to look back, not until you've passed through the tunnel.

3. A painting by François Gérard. Orpheus tries to hold on to Eurydice as she lies prone in his arms. Orpheus has a desperate expression on his face.

4. An extract from Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint. A tale of this new world continued to flow on. But then, just as the subway's doors closed, Han Sooyoung looked behind her with a slightly unsure, hard-to-read face of someone that left something behind. Even Yoo Joonghyuk looked back, too. The only person who didn't was Kim Dokja.

5. An extract from The Epic of Gilgamesh. If you are Gilgamesh and did those things, why / Are you so emaciated and your face half-crazed? / I have grieved! Is it so impossible / To believe? he pleaded. / My friend who went through everything with me / Is dead! / No one grieves that much, she said. / Your friend is gone. Forget him. / No one remembers him. He is dead. / Enkidu. Enkidu. Gilgamesh called out: / Help me. They do not know you / As I know you.

6. An extract from Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint. None of them could understand. They couldn't understand that there was someone in this world who could never live in the present.

7. A quote by Aaron Schwartz. In a way, grief is a marker of time. There was this and then there wasn't this, but you're still here,

8. A stanza by Judas H. so in the dream you find a way to go back / back to the days of sunshine on her not-yet grey hair / back to the hummingbird that came / when she called / back to when she still had a voice / to call them at all / time travel and grief are really not so different / it is all about looking back

9. Official art of Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint by Blackbox. Yoo Joonghyuk and Han Sooyung turn to look back at the viewer. Kim Dokja in the background walks ahead without looking back.

10. A quote by Jenny Diski: People don't understand about repetition, do they? How it is at the heart (thump, thump, thump) of obsession; at the erotic centre (drip, drip drip) of desire. You do, of course. Repetition is insatiability spelt sideways.

11. A quote by Adrianne Kalfopoulou. Grief will keep you reaching back / for what is not there

12. Poetry by Mahmoud Darwish. I am still here / but you won't return as you were when I left you / you won't return, and I won't return

13. A quote from Ovid's Metamorphoses. Eurydice, dying now a second time, uttered no complaint against her husband. What was there to complain of, but that she had been loved?

[tubborucho]

Tubbo and Badboyhalo – When someone immortal dies

taglist: @pastelvangelion @smallz-o @salineroses @dynamicworms @cindersnows @deadfishisyeq @snyland @missstrawberry @frubbotoxicyuri @haloberry @thecardboardbutterfly @avianchorus @qtubbo-is-not-fine @an-egghead @codaattheend @mikaikaika @radio-zephyr @routeriver @luminouslotuses @lionheartedmusings

dm me if you want in or out of taglist

credits:

1. https://www.quora.com/Is-it-true-that-angels-are-more-robotic-and-can-t-feel-emotions-rather-than-warm-with-loving-energy

2. https://www.researchgate.net/figure/Concept-of-robot-as-opposed-to-angel-a-and-within-dehumanisation-b-Based-on-Haslams_fig1_332918259

3. https://forum.unity.com/register/genesis?state=iZPbbln2xXCTrPJfeRMDS3ZgCBn4y5e5hG8oyZCJ%3B%2Fthreads%2Fmissing-purpose-string-in-info-plist-file-with-unity-2018-3-11f1.653251%2F&error=login_required

4. “Reborn. Early Diaries” Susan Sontag

5. “The long and short of it” Richard Siken

6. N/A

7. “The Oresteia” Aeschylus

8. https://pin.it/UwaztHCx9

9. “Courtney Love Prays To Oregon” Clementine von Radics

10. “After Frank O’Hara / After Roger Reeves” Ocean Vuong

11. “Anecdote of the Pig” Tory Adkisson

12. N/A

13. N/A

14. https://pin.it/5WwkfBDhb

15. N/A

16. @.cemeterything

17. https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-definition-of-a-father-s-love-Is-it-different-than-a-mother-s-love

18. https://www.infinitheism.com/mahatria-wisdom/love/about-fathers-love1

19. https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/blogs/voices/father-love-is-like-an-unending-trip-of-joy-and-happiness/?frmapp=yes

20. N/A

21. Hozier – Work Song

22. N/A

23. “A Self-Portrait in Letters” Anne Sexton

[sweetmorninglamb]

i don’t forgive you (but please don’t hold me to it)

1. the front bottoms; father 2. shameless; the american dream 3. phoebe bridgers; kyoto 4. unknown 5. ocean vuong; someday i’ll love ocean vuong 6. domenico ghirlandaio; francesco sassetti and his son teodoro 7. mitski; a burning hill 8. unknown 9. halsey; i would leave me if i could 10. euphoria; the theater and its double

[fizzyorange-v2]

q!slime on grieving and raging and grieving:

"It wasn’t even on purpose. I know that… I know it was an accident but… that doesn’t make it better. It doesn’t make me forgive it."

1 - Anonymous, Diary of an Oxygen Thief // 2 - Pablo Neruda, The Song of Despair & art  by @propheticscrewup // 3 - Renton, Trainspotting // 4 - Pierce The Veil, A Match into Water & Han Kang, Human Acts // 5 - art by @stoicmike //  6 - Japanese Breakfast, Boyish & twinnedpeaks & art by @fridgrave // 7 - Anonymous, Diary of an Oxygen Thief // 8 - @/traumatizeddfox // 9 - @/rbhvelo // 10 - @/traumathoughts & Lucille Clifton, leukemia as white rabbits // 11 - The Mountain Goats, Training Montage // 12 - Natasha Trethewey, Waterborne // 13 - Trista Mateer, The Dogs I Have Kissed // 14 - @/comelywords on instagram // 15 - Max, Mad Max: Fury Road // 16 - David Mitchell, Slade House // 17 - @/stigmatawife // 18 - Fortesa Latifi, The Truth About Grief // 19 - Carole Maso, The Art Lover // 20 - Mahmoud Darwish, Memory for Forgetfulness: August, Beirut, 1982 (tr. Ibrahim Muhawi) // 21 - Mitski, A Burning Hill // 22 - Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous // 23 - ojibwa // 24 - Kate Bush, Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God) // 25 - Anaïs Nin, "A Journal of Love": The Unexpurgated Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1934-1937 // 26 - Nikki Giovanni, Mirrors // 27 - Virginia Woolf, A Passionate Apprentice: The Early Journals, 1897-1909 // 28 - Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar // 29 - Rudy Francisco, Scars / To the new Boyfriend & Amie Kaufman, Illuminae // 30 - ojibwa & ??? & art by @lemonsilly

special thanks to @propheticscrewup @fridgrave @lemonsilly for the art :D !!!!

[laurelwen]

Home Is the First Grave Web Weave

[Like Minds Aesthetic Masterpost]]

SOURCES 1: thoughts of a stray iii, @dvoyd // 2: unknown // 3: unknown // 4: What I Could Never Confess Without Some Bravado, Emily Palermo // The Pianist, Valeriya Lakrisenko // 6: Untitled, Franz Wright // 7: Poplar Street, Chen Chen // 8: On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous, Ocean Vuong // 9: Artificial Condition, Martha Wells // 10: Celebrating Childhood, Adonis // 11: How to Cure a Ghost, Fariha Roisin // 12: Mouthful of Forevers, Clementine von Radics // 13: it lingers for your whole life, katie maria //The Chaos Within detail, Seanen Middleton // 15: Origin Story, Desireé Dallagiacomo // 16: Girl Made of Glass, Shelby Leigh // 17: Stop Me, Natalia Kills // The Hours, Michael Cunningham // 18: unknown // 19: The Goldfinch, Donna Tartt // 20: Anna Kamienska // 21: If They Come For Us, Fatimah Asghar

[magicinavalon]

for @merlinrarepairfest and @merlinbingo

1. lies about sea creatures, ada limon 2. scheherazade, richard siken 3 and 4. I used to be a hole in the ground, katie maria 5. calling a wolf a wolf, kaveh akbar 6. portrait of fryderyk in shifting light, richard siken 7. you with the crack running through you, kim addonizio 8. because it's summer, ocean vuong 9. scheherazade, richard siken 10. sweet movie, alisha ditzman 11. the greatest lovers in hell, l.h.z. 12. the worm king's lullaby, richard siken

[sillypenguinwitch]

isaac's books in heartstopper s2

episode 1:

Tillie Walden: I Love This Part

Faridah Àbíké-Íyímídé: Ace of Spades

episode 2:

Nina LaCour: We Are Okay

Oscar Wilde: The Importance of Being Earnest

episode 3:

Ocean Vuong: Night Sky with Exit Wounds (the one he is carrying under his arm, I'm assuming that's his and not for the display?)

has read: Ritch C. Savin-Williams: Bi: Bisexual, Pansexual, Fluid, and Nonbinary Youth

Emily Henry: Book Lovers

episode 4:

Victor Hugo: Les Misérables

Antoine De Saint-Exupéry: The Little Prince

Kate Chopin: The Awakening

Nina LaCour: We Are Okay (again)

episode 5:

Albert Camus: The Outsider

episode 6:

Martin Handford: Where's Wally? The Great Picture Hunt

Meredith Russo: Birthday

Jules Verne: Around the World in Eighty Days

Sara Pennypacker: Pax Anne Berest, Audrey Diwan, Caroline de Maigret, Sophie Mas: How to Be Parisian Wherever You Are ? ? ? Damian Dibben: The Color Storm Alice Oseman: Loveless Susan Stokes-Chapman: Pandora Katy Hessel: The Story of Art Without Men ? Evelyn Waugh: Rossetti Arthur Conan Doyle: The Hound of the Baskervilles A.O. Scott: Better Living Through Criticism ?: Then We Came to an End (?) Ruth Millington: Muse Dr. Jaqui Lewis: Fierce Love Charlotte Van Den Broek: Bold Ventures - Thirteen Tales of Architectural Tragedy ?

Richard Siken: Crush

episode 7:

Garrard Conley: Boy Erased

George Matthew Johnson: All Boys Aren't Blue

Samra Habib: We Have Always Been Here

episode 8:

Akemi Dawn Bowman: Summer Bird Blue

Angela Chen: Ace

bonus:

Truham school library pride display (seen in ep. 3 and 8):

top to bottom, left to right: Angela Chen: Ace Andrew Holleran: The Kingdom of Sand Mary Jean Chan and Andrew McMillan: 100 Queer Poems Scott Stuart: My Shadow Is Pink Lotte Jeffs: My Magic Family Tucker Shaw: When You Call My Name Ritch C. Savin-Williams: Bi - Pansexual, Fluid, Nonbinary and Fluid Youth Alok Vaid-Menon: Beyond the Gender Binary George M. Johnson: All Boys Aren’t Blue Mason Deaver: I Wish You All the Best Alex Gino: George Melissa

on top of shelves (left to right): Kevin Van Whye: Nate Plus One Xixi Tian: This Place is Still Beautiful Becky Albertalli: Leah on the Offbeat Mya-Rose Craig: Birdgirl Bernardine Evaristo: Girl, Woman, Other Connie Glynn: Princess Ever After Saundra Mitchell: The Prom

Charlie's choice at Shakespeare and Co (ep. 6): Allan Hollinghurst: The Swimming Pool Library

That's it for now.

Sorry about the ones i couldn't identify and sorry if i missed any! Might try and do some of the ones in Isaac's room later but that'll take a minute

[twitchtips]

(Hamnet + Mareth)

1. Suzanne Collins, The Curse of the Warmbloods / 2. Ocean Vuong, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous / 3. Luca Guadagnino, Call Me by Your Name / 4. Azra Tabassum, My Heart is Full of Open Windows / 5. Jason Lancaster, Missing You Comes In Waves (Tonight I'm Drowning) / 6. Unknown / 7. Tumblr user longliveuslove / 8. Langston Hughes, Poem

[punkbarbarian]

a family reunion, from fistfight to cigarette

up the wolves, the mountain goats // the elektra complex, joan tierney // all about love, bell hooks // on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong // the wee free men, terry pratchett // you're gonna go far, noah kahan // brother of mine, jun miresa // wild geese, mary oliver // lost in my mind, the head and the heart

[image id: 9 screenshots of text on white backgrounds. 1: "[chorus] our mother has been absent ever since we founded rome / but there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home" 2: "ORESTES: how could you recognize me after all these years? / ELEKTRA: what a stupid question. i was born knowing you." 3: "we can never go back. i know that now. we can go forward. we can find the love our hearts long for, but not until we go grief about the love we lost long ago, when we were little and had no voice to speak the heart's longing." 4: "you realize, at last, that you can change without disappearing, that all you had to do was wait until the storm passes over you and you find that--yes--your name is still attached to a living thing." 5: "he said it was better to belong where you don't belong than not to belong where you used to belong, remembering when you used to belong there." 6: "we ain't angry at you, love / you're the greatest thing we've lost / the birds will still sing / your folks will still fight / the boards will still creak / the leaves will still die" 7: "oh brother of mine, we're no longer alike / though you're still the same dear brother of mine" 8: "you do not have to walk on your knees / for a hundred miles in the desert repenting. / you only have to let the soft animal of your body / love what it loves. / tell me about despair, yours, and i will tell you mine. / meanwhile the world goes on." 9: "won't you tell me, my brother? / 'cause there are stars up above / we can start moving forward." /end ID]

[metamagic-adept]

idris, holding on too tight

[ID: 11 screenshots of quotes or text. They read:

I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break.

Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined.

I’m hypnotized by this anomaly / Such strange uncharted territory / A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart / My armor falls apart / As if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known / Like I was already brave enough to let go

To have spent my life holding my hands in tightly hidden fists. To try to understand what it would mean, now, to hold them open. [highlighted] I have always felt ashamed at being witnessed in the act of wanting something I could not have.

“I don’t know what’s going to come out of me,” I told her. “It has to be perfect. It has to be irreproachable in every way.” // “Why?” she said. // “To make up for it,” I said. “To make up for the fact that it’s me.”

Everything I've ever let go of has claw marks on it.

time loop where i keep dying to save you but clearly the loop just wants me to accept your death. im not going to but i can tell that's what it wants

[unchecked box] remember that you can't save everyone // [checked box] Remember that you have to try.

I can do this, I thought. Then: And even if I can't, I have to.

Time solves most things. And what time can't solve, you have to solve yourself.

Ring the bells that can still ring / Forget your perfect offering / There is a crack, a crack in everything / That's how the light gets in.

End ID.]

quote sources: 1. Marya Hornbacher, Wasted 2. Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous 3. "Five," Sleeping at Last 4. Jennifer S. Chang, So We Must Meet Apart; “August 24, 2018” 5. Suzanne Rivecca, ugly, bitter, and true 6. David Foster Wallace 7. tumblr user @ ayotofu 8. unknown 9. David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories 10. Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance 11. Leonard Cohen, "Anthem."

[morepeachyogurt]

studies of light

1. richard siken | 2. anne carson | 3. giovanni antonio galli | 4. wale ayinla | 5. ada limón | 6. zarina situmorang | 7. ocean vuong | 8. alexander harding | 9. sun yung shin | 10. erin slaughter |