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darkgunslinger · 5 years ago

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Adamantine Shield short (from Saving Zim)

Just a little taste @luckyrabbit1927 of what I promised - taken from a section of deleted chapter way waaaay back - of more Zim/Prof.M scenes. Why am I always so shy to post these? XD

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He held his hands out. He wasn’t sure what else to do.

This wasn’t exactly in his repertoire of experiences.

Membrane had only turned away to grab some printed schematics and brood over them a moment, and there hadn’t been a single sound to draw his attention.

Perhaps Zim had seen an opportunity, or imagined one, and before he’d realized how erroneous it was, he’d crashed to the floor – his departure from the bed a regretful fall – and the thin line of IV tubing had crisscrossed over one arm and around his foot. The telemetry leads, having been stretched unceremoniously, pinged off one by one, causing the ECG to protest with alarms.

Zim struggled, tightening the tubing, and furthering his panic. Membrane, seeing the situation develop, paused for just a millisecond before approaching, and when he did, the creature’s panic intensified. In just one moment Zim had become a wild, terrified animal.

“Everything’s all right. You’ve got yourself tangled up.” But that one extra step seemed to trigger an even stronger reaction.

Zim rolled onto his side, unable to steer himself vertically, the twisted tubes snagging against his arm and ankle. “Stay! Stay a-away!”

The professor watched the Irken’s tiring struggles. He acted as though he was in a snare.

What signals remained from the Irken’s vitals escalated into the dangerous zone. Warnings on the professor’s wristplate flared in response.

He didn’t understand why Zim was so terrified.

“I need to free you little one, if you just let me approach.” He took another step and stopped. Zim’s claws blindly jerked around to slash at the tubing. Goaded by the fear the tubes inspired, his aim was appalling. Long scratches of deeper green began to appear from slit skin. Unable to breathe above the barbs of panic, Zim tried to prop his right arm beneath him, but his hand slid, shiny with blood, and he went back down again.

The professor could not endure it. He closed the gap between them and was not dissuaded when Zim spent all of his breath to release a bone-chilling scream.

“There there now, I’m freeing you. It’s all right, hush, hush.” Quickly he loosened the tubing around his shivery leg and arm in the hopes that this would dissolve the Irken’s undue terror. His vitals were in the red, his blood pressure falling fast despite the aggressive speed of his heart rate.

He held his littleness to his chest, feeling every shake and shudder bully the frailness that remained. “Let’s do our breathing exercises, hmm? I think now is a good time as any. You remember what to do? Breathe in, deeply now, and feel how my chest moves. Hold it in a moment, and then let it out.”

He exaggerated his chest movements so that Zim would feel them in turn. His tiny body was ice cold, skin clammy with sick-sweat. Though his eyelids were open partway, the pink pupils were extremely dilated. Barely visible nostrils flared somewhat, but it seemed unlikely he’d even ‘switch on’ enough to remember to breathe.

“Everything’s okay.” The professor said, keeping the cadence of his voice soft and steady.

Zim’s claws clutched insensibly on his arm as if it were a ledge he meant to cling to. His eyes slowly began to focus, the deep magenta almost warming up. As much as the professor saw him coming back to himself, he did not rush or hurry him.

When he seemed better able to comprehend the situation, he looked about him, blinking. He watched the little creature’s antenna unfurl until it gradually straightened. For much of his panic, the one antenna had dangled from his head like a velvet shoelace.

Those large eyes, shimmery with undisclosed emotions, blinked again, and his pink pupils coasted around as if he was looking for a target: something that had triggered the antagonism. The only ghoul was the fear, shelved deeply inside. It was the same adulterated fear most animals showed when faced with something beyond their control and comparative safety.

The professor had once tried to treat a deer he’d encountered on the road late one June summer’s day when Dib had been attending school. It had clearly been hit by a car or truck, and had been left for dead. Its hind quarters had taken the main brunt of the collision, and its back legs were broken. Prof. Membrane coaxed it into the backseat of his car where it bleated and struggled. He wasn’t sure why he’d chosen to take responsibility for it. He supposed it was simply because he couldn’t just drive off and leave it there. He’d always taken the mantle of the world’s problems as his own, knowing he’d been gifted with foresight and intellect. What was the point of the gift if he didn’t apply it?

But alas, the deer did not survive. Like Zim’s wild nature, fear itself seemed to devour its mind along with its vestiges of life, and before he’d even managed to haul it onto a table with the help of his two co-workers, it had died, not of its injuries, but of terror.

It was why he had curtly let Zim go without argument after the ‘baloney’ incident. Quite recovered and eager to move on, Zim had hurried away without much afterthought or conversation, as if lingering any longer might trigger some trap or plot beset by the wiles of man. He had wanted Zim to choose his next step, but sadly, he had intervened when that next step was never chosen.

At least, unlike the deer, Zim could understand human language. He would watch the professor’s expressions, as if trying to guess the deeper intentions beneath the words.

One day he hoped Zim would come to trust him.

“It’s okay now. Nothing’s here to harm you.”

Claws ran frantically along the brittle bones of his legs and arms, as if he half believed the tubing to still be there. A caged beast, used to being bound, may have had similar reactions.

His troubled eyes tirelessly checking and rechecking everything, Zim assertively pushed himself from the man’s gentle hold and stood precariously on stick-like legs, his left leg failing to bend as if the joints had locked up.

“You need a break from this room, don’t you?” He knelt close and took his hand before the Irken had a chance to get dizzy and topple over. Without any telemetry leads, his vitals were now closed to him. He had to now rely on Zim’s body language alone. “You are not trapped here, little one.” He wanted to affirm, in case that was what was on the Irken’s mind, and why wouldn’t it be? He was largely under their control; it had to be this way in order to keep him on the road to recovery. Even so, being mostly confined to one room allowed one’s imagination to fill in the blanks.

Membrane wondered if all members of Zim’s race were this highly strung, and prone to stress.

The Irken’s worried eyes swept upwards to look at him, again trying to determine the lies or the truths.

He had not given the former soldier his prognosis yet. He’d been holding back on it, fearful that Zim may take it very hard, or shelve it, like he did with things he’d rather ignore. Dib himself was still trying come to terms with it. Once he was onboard, the professor would inform the patient as gently as he possibly could. But not telling him was making Zim wary. He knew his continual existence here, in one corner of the lab, weak and disseminated, spread wide his suspicions. It was very likely that Zim already knew. But admitting it was something else entirely and therein lay the problem.

The Irken’s continued quiet was abnormal in every sense. When he’d sat on a chair years before, recovering from his sausage deformation, he had posed every question, yelled every suspicion, and demanded and shook until he was able to work his brain and limbs enough to flee. Even then, he’d been much more vivid and brighter a character. This creature before him was full of fear, lungs lugging heavily through his chest wall, greyer skin slathered in sweat, eyes rimmed and wide, limbs and hands shaking constantly.

“Recuperation is vital. But! I can take you wherever you’d like to go. I’m here to look after you. It’s my sworn oath.” He looked for signs of recognition, of understanding.

The Irken took a loud swallow, his eyes dull with drugs and exhaustion. He stood there, head bowed, looking brittle and ancient. Every night spent here seemed to enlarge those wrinkles under his eyes. His skin wasn’t as grey as it had been since his circulation had improved, but the professor couldn’t seem able to get the skin as green as it used to be. What vital ingredient was missing? What did the poorly thing lack?

Maybe it wasn’t medicine at all.

Maybe it was just care and warmth that the little bug needed.

“Let me show you my favourite room.” He said, squeezing gently on Zim’s arm. “No tubes. No wires. How about it?” The Elite’s eyes, hazy and unfocused, as if he was unfastening himself from the world a little at a time, started to shimmer, and the tension inside softened beneath his touch. “Let’s lift you up.”

He felt those bird bones as he picked him up, and then he sat him on the crook of his arm.

The invention room was tidy and spacious, with tables assembled down one side. A great ponderous machine stood at the back on a round podium beside several test dummies. The machine was oval in shape, with gadgets bristling down its sides like hedgehog spines. “I call it the Adamantine Shield.” He said proudly when he watched Zim turn his head towards it. He was clued up on technology and the intelligence behind it. He would have made a very good co-worker. “It’s just the prototype at the moment. It’s designed to withstand blasts from an outside energy source, be they physical projectiles or energy pulses. Let me demonstrate!”

Like a kid in a toyshop, he put Zim down on one of the chairs and approached the monolithic object. He tapped on a button, and it deposited a capsule. The capsule opened, revealing a pulsing blue strap. He extended it in his hands, revealing a thin metallic strip. This strip he placed along a wooden dummy’s shoulder. “It adheres to anything. Fabric. Skin. Armour. It automatically configures the body of whoever is wearing it, and once activated, it envelops them in a nigh-indestructible shield.”

Zim cocked his head, one eye slowly narrowing.

“I do apologize! I get my best ideas from you!” The professor was saying, instantly seeing the recognition form in the Irken’s dark reflective eyes and from the slant of his antenna. “Your PAK produces absorbent shielding upon activation! Taking from your life energy in order to maintain it! I have created one that feeds on the energy it absorbs! Making it infinitely better! Here, let me show you just how it works!”

He took a device from a drawer, one of those surgical lasers that only worked for short distances. He walked close to the dummy wearing the metallic strip, and hit the button on the surgical laser. At once a shield of rushing azure appeared, and the weak laser beam fizzled as if the bubble shield’s surface was corrosive. The dummy remained protected.

“Hey. Th-that’s pretty cool.” Zim croaked, antenna docking forwards. “Have you tried sh-shooting some m-missiles at it?”

“Everything! Nothing gets through. But it’s top secret. I do not want the government using this technology. They’d exploit it for nefarious purposes.”

“What do you need it f-for?” Zim’s voice was a thin weedy rasp.

“I want it for my son in case he takes space exploration seriously. It’s completely harmless, only serving to protect the user. I do not endorse weapons, or anything that will encourage violence. My gift is to help others: the world, if necessary, even when humanity is set to destroy it.”

“W-Why?” He rasped.

“Because Earth is my home, as it is yours, little one. You may try to disagree with me, but you know it to be true. I hope that you’ll see the good here, and in every living thing. For a heart is a heavy burden.”

#sorry for the delay I feel like this is just more useless scrap #Saving Zim extras again lol #From the deepest darkest barrels of my insane pitiful writing

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bemused-writer · 5 years ago

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VNC Chapter 43 Analysis

Wow, for chapter designed to segue between one arc to the next, this one sure had a lot packed into it! The political intrigue is through the roof and our main characters take a backseat while we finally get to see Dominique and her family once more. Before that, though, a few last thoughts on Gévaudan. We learned both Chloé's and Jean-Jacques's names and they, indeed, suit them well. Chloé's was "Canorus," or "she who plays with snow crystals." She'd isolated herself in a snowy castle and she played the piano to exert her power, which has white keys. It also implies a more lighthearted nature to Chloé than we really got to see, which seems accurate to me. Jean-Jacques's is "Aprix" or "he who nestles close to the last snows." His is especially overt in its meaning: he loves the snow (Chloé) and stays close to her side. Jean-Jacques is also the easiest vampire to cure we've seen to date and the reason is simple: he only gave his name to Naenia to protect Chloé. If he doesn't need to do so to protect her, then why bother?

He will now protect her as himself, his true self, without any outside help. I can't help but wonder how soon he will have to live up to that promise. We also finally get something of an update on Johann and Dante.

Okay, so we already knew these two were hired by Marquis Machina, we just didn't know what it was they were looking for. Turns out, the whole reason they were there was for Chloé's alteration device. This actually makes perfect sense: it contains information and that's precisely what dhampirs collect. Furthermore, it seems information is what Marquis Machina is most interested in as well, so things are adding up nicely.

Unfortunately, (or thankfully?) Marquis Machina doesn't get whatever information this device has because of the chasseurs and Ruthven. I think it's safe to say at this point that there are certain members of the Church that are allied with Ruthven. Furthermore, they are almost certainly trying to reignite a war between humans and vampires.

Having these two groups working together is nothing short of a disaster because it's a very effective team up and no one even suspects what's going on, save for possibly Marquis Machina who is familiar with both Ruthven and Chloé, but I'll talk a bit more about that in a bit. Also, I think we now know why Astolfo was sent to Gévaudan:

Now this is just sinister. Astolfo was purposefully sent because they know he has no restraint. They know he's angry, looking for purpose, and they're manipulating those emotions into something beneficial for them. It also means they know Roland is questioning the Church; they had to make sure he was sufficiently distracted in order to get what they came for. And who was in charge of all this? None other than Gano, the mysterious chasseur that was supposed to come as backup a couple chapters ago. I guess now we know what the holdup was about.

There is not a lot of love lost here, is there? Olivier is looking at Gano with overt mistrust and disdain. Roland has his relaxed grin firmly in place, but I think we know enough about him at this point not to blindly believe it: he knows there's something up with Gano and he knows that whatever happened in Carcassonne shouldn't have taken that long. I think we now have a physical representation of why Olivier is so worried about Roland's behavior. He knows people like Gano are aware of his treasonous thoughts and he knows Roland is in danger. I think it's also safe to say that Olivier isn't a big fan of a lot of people in the Church, which fits in with the leeway he's given Roland and his extreme opinions (in the Church's eyes at least). As for this Gano...

That is one of the most suspicious individuals I've ever seen. 8D My goodness, Mochizuki isn't doing much to give him the benefit of the doubt, is she? XD He's all but leering at them; he knows something they don't. No wonder Olivier looks so irritated. I wouldn't be surprised if Gano is an extremely powerful chasseur. All the more reason for Roland to be careful in his investigation of things. Another major thing before we jump into the de Sade drama:

I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT, BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, I-- *ahem* So, Murr is a shady cat. :D Either Teacher is the cat or, more likely, he's watching everything through the cat, which is still pretty disturbing. Think about it: Noé has been put through the wringer repeatedly, and Teacher hasn't lifted a finger to help him. Noé was nearly killed by Ruthven on two separate occasions, nearly died in the catacombs, lost a limb most recently, and I'm sure it's only going to get worse. The only time Teacher offered any help was when Noé was asleep and even then he wasn't so much helping as he was listening to Noé's troubles, no doubt because he was curious what Noé would do. It's Louis all over again, just with some adjustments for Noé's personality. Anyway, that wraps up the Gévaudan arc pretty neatly. I doubt this is the last we'll see of Chloé and Jean-Jacques, though. You don't spend this much time developing two characters simply to drop them by the wayside for the next arc. I have two guesses on how this could go: Chloé and Jean-Jacques will show up later in the series to support Noé or to offer some knowledge on Ruthven. Alternatively, they will be sacrificed in the near future to prevent that information from getting out. Either way, for the moment, Vanitas and Noé are allowed to bask in their victory and feel as if they've accomplished something, which they have, but there is so much manipulation in this series I'm feeling uncertain about how long they'll get to enjoy it. And at long last, we get to see Dominique again! None of our questions about Misha are answered, though, and if anything, I'm more worried about what happened to her than ever. She thinks all of that was a dream? What did he do to her?

Everything seems to be in order. Her bedroom is clean, there's no sign of struggle, she isn't missing anything... It makes everything that much more alarming. How long has she been sleeping? What happened after she met Misha? Quite a bit of time has passed, so that seems to indicate, to me, that if she's still dreaming about Misha, something bad happened that she can't remember. There seem to be a lot of memory issues in this series. After all, if you can't remember something, you can't very well exercise your will over a situation, can you? Dominique is desperate to get outside, but she's immediately confronted by her sister, Veronica.

There's a familiarity between these two that shows they were probably raised together, but there isn't any closeness, which means they weren't raised to have especially strong bonds with one another. It's an interesting dynamic and feels both sinister and aristocratic. Now, Veronica says she's covered in blood because she was having an intimate moment with Marquis Machina. However, I feel the need to point out, there's no reason we should believe her. We didn't see the marquis anywhere, after all. However, she has information on the senate meeting that she could only have gotten from someone in the senate, so there's probably some truth to what she's saying. Personally, I find this a curious change of attitude for Veronica. I thought she was a bit of a misandrist if I'm completely honest. This is the woman who said, "What is a human doing here? Not only that, but a man. What a stench. The stink of humans is so strong I think my nose may drop off." I suppose her biggest issue was that he was a human (so, she's a xenophobe and/or racist), but his being a man didn't seem to help. Still, people who are bigoted often get together with the very people they have issues with. In that regard, Veronica and Vanitas are kind of similar. 8D Vanitas definitely has misogynistic tendencies and he's trying to have a relationship with a woman. Likewise, Veronica may have issues with men, but she's having a fling with one. All right, then. It is true that she and the marquis interacted with one another in volume two:

It's extremely subtle, but the fact she didn't just go ballistic on the marquis when he didn't handle the problem could indicate a certain fondness for the guy. Anyway, the important bit for now is Dominique's reaction to this revelation: she seems a whole lot like Noé all of a sudden. Dominique: Marquis Machina got you all bloody, Veronica? Why...? This is kind of odd for Dominique. She normally seems way more worldly than this, not to mention way more on top of things. This seems more like the Dominique we saw in flashbacks, and I suppose that makes sense. She just woke from a nightmare, she's feeling disoriented, and her sister is messing with her. Not a great time of things. Furthermore, her sister says this:

"You're as dull as ever, child." This is in direct reference to Dominique being uncomfortable hearing about Veronica's sexual conquests. This strongly implies Dominique isn't having her own sexual conquests, despite her being so flirtatious in previous chapters. Put that together with Veronica referring to Noé and Jeanne as Dominique's "favorites" and I think it's safe to say that at the moment, Dominique is harboring unrequited romantic feelings for both of these individuals and Veronica find the whole thing contemptible. As an aside, this means Dominique and Vanitas are kind of similar, too. 8D In fact, both of them are having more luck with Jeanne than they are with Noé. Jeanne seemed quite taken with Dominique and their dance going so far as to keep pursuing her afterwards, and she has become much more fond of Vanitas. Meanwhile, Vanitas's almost-pursuit of Noé at the beginning of the series* has gotten exactly nowhere, much like Dominique's. I'm not sure what that says, exactly, except that Jeanne might be more romantically inclined than Noé. Or, perhaps, Noé is even more oblivious than Jeanne to this stuff. Still, both Vanitas and Dominique are very close to Noé, so maybe it's a matter of time. Anyway, we then get into the political spectrum of things, and this is no doubt what a lot of the next arc will be dealing with. We're introduced to several senate members, and none of them seem trustworthy.

From right-to-left we have: Lord Bellator (the Fuming), Unnamed Lord (the Nervous), Lord Paldence (the Sly), Lord Ruthven (the Liar), Antoine (probably a lord? I'll call him "the Diplomat" and in this instance that's not necessarily a good thing), and Master Luca (heir to the throne AKA "the Prince"). I think it's interesting that in the overhead shot, we're shown there are eight senate members, but in this closeup we're only shown five, not counting Luca. We know Marquis Machina was there (though notably his face wasn't shown), that raises the number to six. That means there were two members there we still know nothing about, not to mention The Nervous, who was never given a name. It seems Bellator and Ruthven are not each other's biggest fans. In fact, most of the meeting that we are shown is of these two going at each other's throats.

Ruthven's comment here makes it pretty obvious that vampires live for a ridiculously long amount of time, but even vampires agree that acting like you can do whatever you want because of a conversation from a century ago is kind of pushing it. It also implies that the people on the senate have been on the senate for a ridiculously long amount of time. In other words, they are set in their ways; there's been no new fresh blood. The political side to vampiric society is probably insanely outdated compared to humanity's and that's saying something for a series taking place in the 19th century--it's not just that certain families stay in power for years and years; literally the exact same people maintain that power. No change. No advances. They are stuck. Anyway. Dominique doesn't want Jeanne to be executed, understandably, and she reveals this weakness to Veronica.

Veronica berates her for trying to drag the family name through the mud; apparently, no one likes a bourreau. But what I find interesting is that Dominique says "Father's territory." Um... what? So, they live in this giant mansion and the father has his own territory? What about the mother? Do they mean territory as in he invaded and took over some spot or do they mean he just really needs his space? Either way, this is further evidence that this family is not very close; they are some kind of political enterprise. I really feel bad for Dominique, though. She's kind of out of it, but she immediately goes to Jeanne's rescue. Gotta admire that. Anyway, Antoine finally shows up and all of that is taken care of.

Antoine's sudden appearance is jarring, to say the least. Also, his fangs are out. Now, who was hanging out in the hallway with blood on her? Veronica. Who just showed up with his fangs bared? Antoine. Who seems incredibly shady? Both of them. There's probably nothing to this, but if there's going to be some kind of bizarre, incestuous affair going on, I wouldn't be shocked to discover it was with the de Sades. Regardless of potential crack theories, Antoine gives us even more information on what happened at the senate meeting. This makes it pretty clear to me that Antoine is kind of the head of the house. Why didn't their father go? Apparently because he has an entire territory to himself, I don't know. Thus, the responsibility falls to Antoine. Luckily for the de Sade family, he seems remarkably good at this job. He easily maneuvered Bellator into doing what he wanted and got the senate to cool down as well.

Even Veronica is impressed. He says he just wanted to move on from the topic, and I almost believe him, but there's no doubt he benefited from the whole thing as well. But he continues on, and it raises some questions.

What does he mean by "comrades?" It could be the other senate members, but Dominique thinks she shouldn't be hearing about this, which she didn't say previously. It makes me think that the de Sades are involved in something a little more nefarious than mere politics. If they're aligned with Ruthven, then I suppose it's the Church and they want a war. If not, then I have no idea; there are quite a few possibilities there. Perhaps loyalists to the queen? Either way, he isn't sure the queen's reappearance is a good thing, understandably, too. It would change the power dynamics for certain. We then get to see Marquis Machina speak with Ruthven, and, boy, are there some layers in that conversation.

In other words, Machina knows something was afoot, and he's letting Ruthven know he knows he had something to do with it. It also means that literally every single person involved in the Gévaudan incident was a pawn.

Ahh, now this raises the question: who is the chess master? At first, it's easy to think it's Ruthven. But now we see that Machina was manipulating quite a few things: the dhampirs, Noé, and Vanitas. A section of the chasseurs were squarely in Ruthven's control, however, so what we're seeing here is a power struggle between Ruthven and Machina. Who knows which of them will win that particular battle? For the moment, Ruthven is ahead simply because he got the device from Gévaudan, but who knows how long he'll be able to keep the edge.

I'm almost certain Machina is referring to Ruthven here. He's certainly been causing a lot of trouble in secret. On the other hand, "lion" has noble associations, so it could be Luca's rise to power. He beared his fangs at this meeting and saved Jeanne. Perhaps Machina is curious to see whether he can maintain the throne. Ruthven is still the more likely choice judging by the panel that follows:

Machina knows Ruthven is teetering on the edge, and he wants to see the man fall. This next arc is going to be something. There are so many threads in this introductory chapter alone that I think it's safe to say we're in for a wild ride. After all that, we get a brief glimpse of Noé and Vanitas back at the hotel.

We have a bit of a time skip; they've been back in Paris for ten days, and Noé is only now growing concerned that Vanitas has been sleeping solidly for all of them. Um, Noé, you probably should have checked after the first day.... We can also see that Noé is wearing a brace and that it looks like they're trying to reattach his hand. I am ... so curious about whether that works. Just let me know, Mochizuki, please.... Noé also gets to see Vanitas's sleeping face at long last! XD

What even, Vanitas. XD I can't tell if he's actually sick or if he's completely drained from how emotionally vulnerable he was for the entire Gévaudan arc. He was literally worrying about Noé for the entire arc, then he was worrying about his promise to Jeanne, then he was panicking about how fond Jeanne was of him suddenly and his own reaction to it. Yeah, I don't think he was prepared for literally anything in that arc. XD Guess we'll see how that continues later this month! I really need to see it.... *I've talked about that in previous installments, so I opted not to bog things down further by getting into it here, but if it seems unclear feel free to ask about it. :)

#vanitas no carte #vnc meta #long post #Bemused's post #vnc spoilers

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larissaloki · 5 years ago

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man this chapter was just me self indulging in the little moments , that this got dragged on for over 6 pages XD hope everyone enjoys! @schwergaeneuser @msmynx @im-tops-bottom @jacksonfrost24 @seven-oomen @el-rezet @thoughtfulbreadpolice @cwar1864 @radiant-gift @tonakings @starsofyggdrasil

“Found anything yet General?”

T’Challa approached Okoye slowly, hands clasped behind his back as he surveys the wreck of Stark’s craft. Besides him, Okoye calls out instructions to those investigating the craft; trying to work out just how exactly things went wrong. What caused it to crash the way it did?

The plane is completely destroyed. The beautifully crafted and sleek craft now a pile of metal sheets and sparking wires. The front of the plane is still relatively intact but crumpled from the force of the crash. The pilot that they had pulled free was thankfully still just alive and taken away for intensive care. Not long after they had found Tony. Most of the damage is from the rear of the plane, making it the most likely spot where whatever caused the accident is.

Surrounding the plane is serval groups of a mixture of scientists and the Dora Milaje. Smoothing down his jacket, T’Challa makes his way closer to a group near the back of the wreck who are becoming a bit more animated. Okoye shadowing right behind him.

“Looks like we just did sir”

Taking the lead just in-case, Okoye joins the group that are carefully removing rubble from what was once a storage part of the plane possibly. Using scanners and other various tech that T’Challa hasn’t a clue how to use, and no doubt recent inventions of his brilliant sister; the group scan a smoking black object they found.

Even T’Challa can see that this box must have been the cause of the explosion, the top of whatever this was meant to of been, was blown off. Jagged, black metal warped and split by the force of the explosion that came from it and the intense heat the explosion caused at the time. As it is, there is currently no way to tell what exactly this was.

After a few moments, the team determined that whatever this was, is no longer a danger. With great care, two scientists don some thick gloves incase the metal is still too hot; they carefully pick up and turn the object around. Examining and recording each observation they find.

“Your Majesty, we found something. It’s a logo we think,”

Frowning, T’Challa makes his way to stand by the scientists to see what it is they have found on the item.

Hammer Industries.

T’Challa recongises this logo, it’s the logo of industrialist: Justin Hammer. A man that has been trying to out do Tony’s tech since the very beginning of Tony’s career if he recalls correctly. T’Challa’s not stupid either, he’s read the tabloids and papers, he knows that Tony openly despises Hammer, especially after the whole Vanko incident a while back.

So why was something with Hammer’s logo, be on Tony’s plane?

“Do you think the explosion was intended?”

Recongising the logo herself, Okoye glances up at him with a frown, both know that Hammer’s tech was faulty at best and downright dysfunctional at worst. They have seen the videos; they saw the reports that were kept out of public eyes. They found all this from research after Hammer had reached out to them, not long after they decided to open their borders to the world. To share their resources.

Hammer had not been happy when they had turned him down in favour of working with Stark, the alpha had made a few jokes, but they could clearly see that the man had felt slighted.

“Perhaps, but for Mr. Stark or us I cannot be sure. It could have been something innocent that just happened to malfunction. I’m not sure which idea would be the better option…” T’Challa nods at the scientist that found it. “Please take this to the lab, find out as much as you can about this thing. I must go and Talk to Stark about this, see if he can shred any light on this,”

Confident that everything is in good hands, a few quick words with Okoye to look out for anything more from Hammer that may have been snuck onto the plane.

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When T’Challa reached the lab, he expected to see many things to be happening in there. Many odd and curious things that his sister had cooked up or wanted him to try out. Yet despite this expectation, he was still not prepared to see what greeted him.

Shuri was stood to one side of the room, her beads activated to record the scene before her, a massive grin spread across her face as she watches the others with pure joy.

The others in question where trying to unlock some sort of Vibranium ball that was shut tight around Bucky’s leg. The ball in question has a series of purple lines over it and looks like a overly complicated puzzle, similar to the Japanese puzzles. Only more Vibranium and made by his delightful sister.

Trying to work out the Puzzle is Tony and M’Baku who are both trying to yank the ball off and hitting it with a club. However, that approach seems to only yield the result of them being flung away from Bucky. Who at this point was starting to look a bit alarmed. Swearing and cursing in his native tongue, M’Baku tossed aside the club he picked up; glaring at Shuri all the while as she laughs at them. “You! the hell kind of puzzle is this?”

“Work it out!” Grinning without restraint, Shuri moves to get a better view to film them. Tony had picked himself up already and was examining the ball closely, his face drawn into a contemplative scowl as he nudges the ball this way and that. While an anxious Bucky looks on.

Shaking his head bemusedly, T’Challa makes his way over to his sister. Seemingly unable to keep his eyes off of the trio, a grin forming on his own face; watching M’Baku trying to pry the edges open. Seeming determined to use brute force to solve this issue.

“What is that sister?”

“It’s a toy, I came up with the idea for it last week while trying to solve that puzzle Nakia got me. Who better to test it than our guests?”

The cheeky, shit eating grin Shuri has speaks volumes as to how much joy this is bringing her. Watching one of the smartest people on the earth, try and solve something she made. And from the looks of it, Tony seems to be enjoying solving it.

The Omega is grinning as another idea of M’Baku’s fails, meaning that the large alpha will have to bend to the balls will and try and solve it. Already Tony is making suggestions as he converses quietly with the two alphas. T’Challa smiles as he watches before remembering why he came here in the first place.

“I must speak with Tony soon as you guys are finished here Shuri, we found something on the plane.”

“What did you find brother?”

“Trouble I fear, Hammer tech was on board…”

Frowning at that, Shuri looks up at her brother confused.

“Hammer tech? On Tony’s plane?”

Nodding, T’Challa watches as Tony starts to move sections of the ball, lining up the purple lines and pressing grooves to move other parts within. The genius seemed to be doing well at first, confidently moving the ball around. Until Suddenly Tony comes to a stop and looks a bit stumped. His hands hovering but hesitating. Humming lightly, Tony converses with the other two who now seem more focused, all three looking closely as they can at the puzzle.

Watching the trio was giving T’Challa ideas for team building exercise; also, a way to prank Okoye for her antelope in headlights comment.

After a further 20 minutes of watching the trio try and solve the ball; Tony knows he’s close to solving it, he was just struggling to work out the last bit to finally free Bucky from the wretched thing! Shuri finally takes pity and gives them a hint, a gentle nudge in the right direction. “You idiots” Shuri laughs as she walks over to them, “try turning that part the other way and press that symbol…there see! Not that hard!”

Grinning down at the three grown men with wicked delight, Shuri carefully picks up the ball and way from Bucky’s poor legs.

“That is some genius engineering there kiddo,” Pulling himself to his feet, Tony smiles at the teen, he genuinely means what he say and he cannot wait to see what this kid will bring into the future. Dusting off his clothes while M’Baku helps Bucky to his feet behind him, Tony spots T’Challa nearby finally.

“Tony, I would like to speak with you if you are well enough to?”

Nodding in acknowledgement, Tony makes his way over. Unaware of twin looks of concern that follow him out of the room.

Leading Tony to another, more private room, T’Challa gestures for Tony to take a seat at a sleek glass table. Taking a seat next to Tony T’Challa offers the omega some water and food that he had sent to this room before hand for them.

“How are you feeling Stark?”

Puffing out his cheeks as he leans back into the stupidly comfortable chair, Tony takes some sort of sweet bread and takes a nibble. Humming his approval as he swallows.

“These are great! What is it called? Pep would love these,” Taking another bite Tony turns his attention fully onto T’Challa. “I’m not to bad actually, which is nothing short of a miracle if I recall I was in a hell of a lot of pain earlier. When you found me that is. While I’m impressed by the medical care, I really wish I hadn’t been on the receiving end of it”

Chuckling a bit in agreement, T’Challa nods at that, “agreed, we had planned on showing you that stuff but well, I do often hear you like to try things yourself”

Snorting, Tony stuffs another bite down his throat, he likes T’Challa. The guy is down to earth and relatable, not at all stuck up like you would expect from someone from a high standing in life. Like how Tony was in his youth.

Pulling on a more serious face now, T’Challa leans forwards a bit. “Stark-“ “Tony”

“Tony” T’Challa smiles briefly at the correction but continues, “we found something on your plane that we believe shouldn’t have been onboard. I would like to confirm it with you.”

Pausing in his eating, Tony gestures for T’Challa to carry on as he drinks some water. T’Challa fortunately, waits till Tony has put his drink down before explaining what he found. Describing the charred object as best as he can and even brings up a picture that Okoye sent him. Humming contemplatively, Tony regards the object with interest.

“We found something else on this object, a lead.” T’Challa switches the picture to show the logo that they had found.

Hands closing into tight fists on the table where his arms were resting, Tony glares at the image, the all to familiar logo making his jaw clench in anger.

“Hammer…how the fuck did Justin get that on bored?” seething internally, Tony practically spits out Justin’s name as if it was bile in his mouth. “I’m going to need a phone to contact Jarvis or a computer, need to get Jarvis to retrieve some footage so I can find out how exactly that weasel pulled this off,”

“of course,” T’Challa soothes as he gets rids of the images, his voice soft and comforting as he speaks to the upset omega. “Shuri should be able to help you in the lab, if you would like I can have my people review the footages for you? You still need rest Tony, despite how well you may feel. It took a lot of energy to heal you”

Rubbing a hand over his face, its true that despite the amazing healing he had received, Tony was still very tired and starting to get a bit shaky on his feet. His stomach rumbling loudly for food even though food was the last thing on his mind right then.

While Tony so wanted to go through it all himself, he knew that what T’Challa was offering made more sense. Tony needs to rest and heal properly.

Damn, it seems that Tony was finally growing up and accepting help.

Huffing in tired amusement at his thoughts, Pepper would probably have a heart attack if she was here. Tony nods at T’Challa.

“I’ll tell Jarvis to send them to Shuri then, thankyou T’Challa,”

Inclining his head at Tony, T’Challa stands and helps Tony stand, leading him back to the lab where M’Baku and Bucky were still hanging around near Shuri. Both quickly standing to attention when Tony came back and both taking note of how tired Tony suddenly seemed again.

“I shell ask for more food to be sent,” M’Baku murmurs quietly before walking quickly away to the door. Shuri shouting after him to send it to the guest room that has been prepared for Tony.

“You ok Doll?”

Tony peeks up at Bucky, his face drawn up in concern as he takes a few hesitant steps towards Tony. Flashing Bucky a tired grin, Tony nods at him.

“Just need some food and rest Buckaroo, saving your ass from the Vibranium ball was hard work,”

Relaxing a bit at that, a shy grin on his own face, Bucky chuckles at that. “I make a good Damsel though, you gotta admit”

“Eh 6/10”

“As amusing as this is, Tony should rest,” Shuri grins at them, a mischievous glint flashing in her eyes. “Tony, your room is right next to Bucky’s. I hope that’s ok? It’s in a private wing of the palace”

Hesitantly Tony seems to mull over something in his mind before quietly speaking, “Are the others in that wing as well?”

The others he’s referring to of course being the rouge Avengers. Steve, Natasha, Sam and Clint and Wanda. The fights of what was dubbed the ‘Civil War’ were still to fresh for Tony, His anger at Steve still to raw.

Tony’s come to understand their view, in fact he pretty much always did, but he could also understand the public’s view. Tony had also had enough time since the fights, to calm down and think more rationally about the Winter Soldier being the one to kill his parents. Not an accident like he had thought.

The anger that was once the forefront emotion whenever he thought about it, had turned to pity and sadness for Bucky. Tony was not proud of how he reacted, being usually so clear headed in battles and able to keep a distance from the situation to not allow his emotions to rule him.

Tony was hoping to bend that bridge with Bucky, if the poor guy was willing to of course.

Understanding Tony’s fears T’Challa shook his head, “The former Avengers have rooms elsewhere. We gave Bucky the area your rooms are in because he asked for a room away from everyone while he still had active triggers. They are, thankfully, gone now. It will just be you two”

Shoulders relaxing minutely, Tony nods at that.

“Care to show me the way Metallica?”

Confused at that reference but deciding not to ask for now, Bucky agrees to show Tony the way. Keeping his strides short and slow for Tony so that the omega isn’t rushing after the Bucky, they leave the room. Leaving the Wakandan siblings and a few working lab techies behind.

#Sharing is Caring #omega tony stark #tony stark #alpha bucky #alpha bucky barnes #alpha M'baku #m'baku #m'buckony #james bucky barnes #T'Challa #Shuri

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thelonelyrainbowguy · 7 years ago

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My ASD Testing Experience

I promised that I would write up a post about my autism testing, so here goes. (And yes, I am SO counting this toward NaNoWriMo!)

When I arrived at the practice, the psychiatrist who I’d seen for my initial intake appointment took me back to her office and told me to pull a chair up to the desk.

The first task she had me do, after attempting to make small talk with me (which I am TERRIBLE at and crashed and burned, lol), was to arrange foam puzzle pieces to fit a pre-drawn puzzle. She gave me three pieces (it clearly called for like 9) and I placed them, then expected her to hand me more, but she didn’t until I asked her for them. I guess that kind of confused me. I saw notes in her file for me that mentioned a “confused expression”, and I think it was in reference to that.

Afterward, she took out a book and informed me that it had no words, that we were going to make up the story. I’m a good writer, but making up stories on the spot and telling them aloud is incredibly difficult for me.

The book was about these frogs whose lilypads suddenly started floating, and pretty soon these freaking frogs were zooming all over creation. Instead of telling a story like a story, I just pointed out things that I saw. “Those fish are like WHAT THE HECK and that turtle looks pretty pissed, and the frogs are still flying.” Yeah, it was a weird story.

Then she brought out a bag of very random objects, and informed me that we were each going to pick five of them and use them to tell a story, which was even more foreboding than the idea of turning the story of the wordless picture book into English.

She went first, with a sponge, a cocktail umbrella, a feather, a shoelace, and... I forget what else. Her story was about Mama Umbrella, her kid Spongebob, and Baby Feather. They went to the beach, and the mama told SpongeBob to watch Baby Feather. But he was annoyed with watching her and went off and did his own thing. Then Baby Feather crawled into the ocean and SpongeBob threw a rope (shoelace) in to save her. Mama Umbrella was really mad but she was glad her baby was okay.

I had no idea what to do so I stared at the items in the bag for a good while, until a morbid story came into my head and it was the only thing that I could think of. I used the car, a paper circle, the feather, a wooden block, and a toy dollhouse candle.

“Okay,” I said, “so there's people driving down the road in this car, and then the wife goes “I think I’m gonna light your birthday candles on the cake now, because that sounds like a great idea,” so she did, and then a bird (represented by the feather) distracted the driver and made him run over a pothole (the paper circle) and slam into a wall (the wooden block).” Cue lots of spitty explosion noises (jk I just said they exploded). So yeah, I’m sure that heightened her image of me a good bit. XD

We talked then about the trouble I’m having at work, how I keep getting told off for not being empathetic when truly, I am (usually- I mean there are LOTS of people I deal with who are just plain annoying/dumb). My tone does not sound kind enough, even though I’ve been trying.

She asked me about my dating life and I updated her on the nonexistence of any type of relationship prospects and how the last girl I dated ghosted me (she hasn’t texted me since November 1, if anyone's wondering).

She asked me what a friend was, and then she asked me what the difference was between a friend, and a co-worker. Well, that was tough. I told her I guessed co-workers I thought were my friends were just my favorite coworkers, because I never saw them outside of work?

She then asked me how emotions felt, and how I knew I was happy, or angry, or anxious, or sad, and made me explain examples of times when I had felt these things, and asked whether I thought other people felt the same things. She asked me if I had ever been picked on or bullied, and sadly, I had to tell her that my family were my worst bullies growing up. I told her how there were certain noises my siblings would make that really bothered and hurt me, and how they’d deliberately make those noises over and over just to watch me and laugh as I’d get tenser and tenser and finally run from the room, usually crying, to have a meltdown in my bedroom.

After all this, she was done with me, and I went back to the waiting room to wait for the IQ test guy. I’d never met him before, so it was hard to look at his face, but I don’t think he ever smiled. And when I’d try to make a joke he’d just stare at me in this analyzing way. I didn’t like him.

His office was tiny and plain and felt dingy, and he had some sort of white noise sound machine going, which bothered me but I couldn’t figure out how to say so. He said he hoped it didn’t bother me, but in a way that made me feel like it would be a huge inconvenience if I told him that it did.

The first thing he had me do was to take these blocks that had two red sides and two white sides, and the remaining two sides were divided into half red and half white, split into triangles. First he gave me four and showed me a pattern, and I had to recreate that pattern. I guess he thought I was capable after that because he gave me the rest of the nine total blocks and show me more and more complicated patterns that I had to recreate. I’m ashamed to say that there was one I almost didn’t get, because I legitimately forgot that I could turn the cubes. I was looking at them and thinking that they were all half red and half white, but I needed solid red and solid white. I told him I couldn’t do it, that it was actually impossible. I thought it was a trick. He asked if I wanted to skip it, but at the last second I remembered, oh, these things have different sides. :P so obviously I recreated it pretty quickly from there.

After that exercise, he asked me some math word problem questions, which I had to figure out in my head, without paper and pencil. At first they were easy, but then the questions got into asking basically what 15 percent of 60 is, and I almost said it was 15, but caught myself and guessed 10 (probably still wrong; I don’t even know how to do that with a calculator).

Then he had me repeat sequences of numbers. It started out simple: 2, 4. He gradually added one number art a time until he reached... I think the highest any of these went was 8 numbers. 5, 9, 2, 4, 3, 2, 6, 1. I’d repeat the numbers in order. After that, he had me repeat his sequences backward- so 3, 7, 8, 5 would be 5, 8, 7, 3. This was more difficult, especially when he got up to the 8- digit ones. And finally, he made me put the number sequences in order, but there were often multiples of the same number, which was Super Confusing. It wasn’t too hard up until the 7 or 8 digit ones, but then it started getting really impossible to remember all of the numbers: 4, 7, 9, 2, 6, 2, 7, 8 for example. I’m pretty sure I only said 7 digits for at least one 8 digit one, and I had to start over on several of them.

Finally, we were done with that awful task, and we moved on to the fresh hell of a book of shapes. The top half of the paper showed a shape, and the bottom half had 6 different shapes that I had to put together to make the top shape. The catch was, it always had to be 3 of the shapes- i couldn’t pick 2 that also made the same shape. It had to be 3, and they could never overlap. At first it was pretty easy- a square, a house shape, etc. Then they got more complicated - like one had a blue octagon inside a yellow triangle inside a red square. And they got more complicated from there on out, in the ways the shapes were divided. For example, there was an oval and the pieces were cut in such a way that the middle piece resembled a butt with crooked arms. And in many of the advanced ones, all or many of the options were similar, so you really had to be able to pay attention and visualize it, which was difficult, especially after my brain was wasted from all the other stuff.

At last, we finished that, and he gave me a self- assessment test for autism. The possible answers were 1 (Never True), 2 (Sometimes True), 3 (Often True), and 4 (Almost Always True). It was one of those fill- in- the- dot things. The questions were things such as I feel most comfortable when I am alone, I behave in ways that seem strange or bizarre to others, I get upset when there are a lot of things going on, When stressed I show rigid and inflexible patterns of behavior, I have good personal hygiene, I think of other people the same way that I think of objects, I am extremely sensitive to certain sounds, textures, or smells, I have a narrow range of interests, I talk or think about the same thing over and over.

When I finished that, we were done and I got to go home. I have a feedback session scheduled for the 11th, where I’ll actually get my diagnosis.

Overall, the experience was weird and tiring. I felt analyzed, which was obviously what was happening, and it made me kind of squirmy. And I felt patronized, which was just plain annoying. I went along with everything though, and I think I proved my autism, so now I’m just waiting on my official diagnosis so I can tell the world and actually have it as a reason why I can’t do or handle certain things (not an excuse; that is a different thing altogether, just saying).

Anyway, I’m sorry this was so long. If you made it to the end, here, have a virtual... I don’t know, brownie, cookie, hug, pickle, whatever you’d like to have a virtual version of. XD

If you have any questions about any part of the process, please feel free to ask me! ❤️

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momorabu · 7 years ago

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20.10.2017

Ensemble Stars! Event Story - Kiseki☆The Preliminary Match of the Summer Live / Summer Live (Part 1)

One of the main highlights for the Ensemble Stars series is here! The continuation of the main story to the route of SS! Finally we get to see some opponents from the other schools in this one, mainly the mysterious Hiyori from ex-Fine that we’ve been hearing about~

As this story was a long one (over 20+ chapters TWT), I decided to split it into two parts~ This is Part 1 of the story, Part 2 should be up pretty soon when I finished writing it~ ^^

Anyway as always, the summary of the story can be found below. Translation may not be 100% accurate due to my poor Japanese skills~

Prologue

The story starts off with Makoto unexpectedly meeting “me” one day during the summer. “I” was out in the streets for a work related task, as the student council had asked “me” to purchase some items for them. As it was a rest day for “me” actually, Makoto worried that “I” might overwork myself and collapse at this rate.

Since “I” was busy with work, Makoto guessed that “I” won’t be able to take out time to take a look at them during the Summer Live practice later on. He knew that ‘I” had received high ratings for “my” producing skills and had even more work now that “I” had to be the producer for other units as well. Even though Makoto said that he’s happy for “me”, he too felt abit lonely knowing that we seems to have gradually drifted apart now. (Aww~ Makoto TWT TWT)

(Makoto knew that “I’m” not their personal producer and was “everyone’s” producer now, but looking at that face T///T I want to be just your producer Makoto. *cough* sorry my fangirling side for Makoto seems to be showing here *cough*)

“I” took out the support fan for Trickstar and started waving “it” furiously. Even though Makoto found that action to be weird, he knew that “I” wanted to express that no matter what happens, “I” would always be Trickstar’s fan. This pleased Makoto as he told “me” that he would rely on “me’ and valued “me” very much~ (as a producer I guess ^^;)

Since Makoto was quite free currently (before his practice in the afternoon), he asked “me” whether he could assist “me” in “my” work, since “I” might be able to have time to look at them practising if “I” managed to finish “my” work earlier. Makoto was all proud when he said that he had gotten stronger after getting training from Koga, and confident that he would be able to aid “me” in carrying stuff for “my” shopping. He hoped that “I” could rely on him more since he was a guy afterall, since he doesn’t want “me” to force on “myself” too much even if “I’m” in trouble. (Is it me or suddenly Makoto seems like a very reliable boyfriend now? OwO)

“I” agreed to let Makoto come and help “me”, and just at this moment, we met Tsumugi at the train station, who was looking for “Hiyori” and “Jun” who had came from Reimei Academy. The Summer Live which was planned to be held next week was a collaboration event with students from another school, and today was the day where Tsumugi was tasked to welcome them and showed them around the the school. However, he had not seen them at all at the designated pick up spot and thus asked us if we had seen them around.

Speaking about Reimei Academy, Makoto mentioned that it was a newly built school, and had gained fame really fast recently and thus widely talked about on the social media. Trickstar would be participating in the Summer Live event as the representation from Yumenosaki Gakuen, and asked Tsumugi whether he was here because Switch would be participating in the event as well. However, Tsumugi answered that he was just here today because he was acquaintances with the students from Reimei Academy (and so won’t be snatching the representation seat from Trickstar XD)

Just then, a phone call arrived for Tsumugi, and it was from the students from Reimei Academy. Hiyori was the person who was on the phone, and apparently he had saw some nice shops around here and decided to go shopping instead OWO” He told Tsumugi that he would head towards Yumenosaki Gakuen later on when he was satisfied with his shopping trip. This reminded Tsumugi of the times where Hiyori would break his promise in the past and randomly head out in the middle of the night to do some shopping. (Hiyori... sounds abit like he’s a shopaholic OWO”) In the end, Tsumugi told Hiyori that he would be heading over to the shop to pick him up personally instead and asked him for the shop name. (I think this was the few rare times that Tsumugi actually seems kind of frustrated with someone. Usually he seems like someone who could take in all kind of abuse and still smile, but not towards Hiyori I guess? ^^”)

After the phone conversation, Tsumugi had to excuse himself as he had to head over to the shop to find Hiyori instead. Makoto asked if he’s alright, but Tsumugi answered that he’s already used to it since these sort of stuff already happened during his days in Fine. Tsumugi remarked that Hiyori was quite an annoying and “disastrous” person, and warned Makoto that Trickstar had to beware of him, since if they had let their guard down around him, they would ended up being twirled and led around by him as he pleased.

Indication / 予兆 : Chapter 1 - 2

Hokuto was at the fountain area of the school when he was shocked by Subaru suddenly appearing before him. He lectured Subaru about telling him not to appear so suddenly, and also told him not to touch him since Subaru had rolled on the ground just now and had dirt on him.

Subaru remarked that rather than greeting him first, Hokuto was lecturing him instead and he seems to be in an agitated mode. Hokuto asked Subaru whether he was smiling confidently now, but rather than smiling, Subaru replied that Hokuto’s expression seems really forced and laughed at him for showing such an unnatural smile when he was part of the drama club. Hokuto asked Subaru to show him some gag (probably to cheer himself up on something), and the latter responded by saying that him and his dog Daikichi together would be “Omikuji Combo”. However, Hokuto did not get the gag at all and told Subaru that he’s not an Omikuji. (I had no idea why they’re suddenly talking about this topic though ><”)

Subaru explained why he was here, and that was because this area was part of his route where he would walk with Daikichi. Subaru mentioned that even Daikichi’s father had also walk this path frequently in the past, though it had already passed away now. Hokuto was strict as he told Subaru that this was not the place to walk his dog, and told him to head towards the seaside instead. Subaru tried to rebut but Hokuto stopped him once he had used the words “but”, and said Subaru had always used words like that to force his opinion on others, and remarked that he’s really quite stubborn. Subaru rebutted that Hokuto was the same too, and since they’re so similar together, Subaru hoped that they would always remain friends with each other ^^ Hokuto felt that they’re complete opposites though, as he doesn’t understand how Subaru views the world around him.

Subaru wondered what was Hokuto doing here in the school this morning, since the practice for Summer Live was scheduled to be in the afternoon. He was worried that he had remembered the schedule wrongly, but Hokuto assured him that he’s not wrong and instead praised Subaru instead, since it was a rare chance that he had actually remembered the schedule.

Continuing back on the topic of Subaru’s walk with Daikichi, Subaru said that he had to do that because due to them being busy with preparing lives recently, Subaru didn’t have much chance to let Daikichi do some exercise, and that ended up with Daikichi getting fat. Hokuto felt that Daikichi looks cute when he was all round like this, and hearing what Hokuto had said, Subaru offered Daikichi to Hokuto to pat it, since Daikichi was a dog which likes to be pat. However, Hokuto declined and told Subaru that he had to leave now as he had a meeting of the Summer Live to attend to as the leader of Trickstar. This was why Hokuto was so strict to Subaru and didn’t his clothes to be dirtied earlier on.

As the students from both school will be meeting each other in the afternoon to start practising for the Summer Live together, the meeting in the morning was a preparation towards that, where the leaders from both units would meet each other as the leader from the other unit had something that he wanted to relay to him. Subaru offered to go along with Hokuto, since he worried that Hokuto might ended up quarreling with the other party, claiming that if Hokuto gave him a notice that he’s in trouble and need help, Subaru would ignore the atmosphere and barged into the conversation to help Hokuto out. (Are you sure that’s not just causing disturbance Subaru? ^^:)

Subaru still didn’t really understand what was the Summer Live was about and asked Hokuto whether he had knew anything about it. But Hokuto didn’t knew about the details either, since Hokuto was just called to the student council room yesterday via the PA system to notify that Trickstar would be participating in the Summer Live. Subaru remarked that when Hokuto was called to the student council room, it gave him flashback of the nightmare that had happened before DDD. Hokuto talked that it was because Trickstar had just been created and not stable at that time, so the members were easily swayed when the student council tried to disband the group, but things were different now, as Hokuto planned for them to gain a territory of their own in this school, grow as much as they can within the next few months, and head towards the SS at the end of the year. As their opponents would be people from other schools in the SS, the student council are their comrades now. Since they’re all idols in the same school, and and with student council showing support for them, Hokuto wanted to believe in the student council.

Since they’re going to interact with students from the other schools, their logic of thinking might be different from them as students from Yumenosaki Gakuen. Hokuto warned Subaru to be careful not to embarrass himself when interacting with them XD With that, Hokuto bid good bye to Subaru and make his way towards the student council room.

Indication / 予兆 : Chapter 2 - 3

Eichi greeted Hokuto when he stepped into the student council room, remarking that he seems to be in a good mood. Eichi himself was smiling from ear to ear, as he was pleased with how things were moving along smoothly currently, and remarked that matters were easier to be carried out when they’re being done in the dark, and that made Hokuto suspect whether Eichi was planning something evil in secret. Eichi claimed that he was not doing anything that’s evil, but trying to fulfill his dreams instead. He mentioned that the other party would be late to the meeting, and told Hokuto to sit down and wait for him in the meantime.

Eichi offered some tea for Hokuto, but he declined it. Seeing that Hokuto seems to be quite nervous, Eichi asked him not to be so cautious of him as he wasn’t their enemy this time. Even though Eichi had not planned to spoil the Trickstar members as little children, but since Trickstar was representing their school in SS, Eichi had planned to give them back up as the student council as when required. This was why the Summer Live was planned, as Eichi had planned for it to be a practice for Trickstar before the SS, as they would be able to compete with their opponents before then. Eichi told Hokuto that he planned to give them more jobs in the future that suits them as the representation of their school and there would be further opportunities of them competing against other schools. If possible, they maybe even offered the chance to travel abroad for work related opportunities too.

However, Hokuto revealed he had planned for Trickstar to participate more in dreamfes organised in the school. He mentioned because this was a collaboration event with other schools, even if they win or lose in this event, it won’t be reflected in their grades as they’re not under the dreamfes system. If Trickstar followed what the student council had planned and went onto participating other events not related to the school, he knew that their position in school would get shaky again as their reputation in school might get weaker and weaker. Eichi rebutted that this was all Hokuto’s imagination that Eichi is targeting Trickstar as their victims, and was surprised that Hokuto actually cares about school grades. Hokuto answered that this was because his parents love numbers, and had given him a scolding when they realised that his grades had dropped recently. Eichi told him that what’s important was the results as this school was one that decides one’s position by results and numbers, though partly it was due to Eichi’s work in the past.

Eichi tried to offer tea to Hokuto, but he declined it again, making Eichi sighed as he told him that he really needs to relax (and that Hokuto should really speak in a formal tone towards Eichi, seeing that he’s his senior ^^;) Eichi started talking about the tea was a herbal tea, which was made by herbs grown at Eichi’s house since his junior at the tea club - Hajime loves herbs recently. However, Eichi found that the tea were of a lower quality than what he had bought from the shops, and thus told Hokuto that he could have it to help him get rid of it XD (Don’t use people as a dustbin, Eichi~!! ><”)

Eichi relaised that they’ve been waiting for a long time, and yet Hiyori had not shown himself. He signed and remarked that Hiyori was someone who had always not abide to the time that they were supposed to meet. He continued on and told Hokuto that “Hiyori” was one of their opponents that Trickstar would be performing with at the Summer Live. As Hokuto might not remember who he is, Eichi reminded him by telling him that Hiyori used to be one of the students in Yumenosaki Gauken, but had transferred at the end of last year. His full name was Tomoe Hiyori and he used to be part of Fine, so Hokuto shouldn’t have forgotten about him, as Eichi teased Hokuto as “Hockey-mask-kun”. (Wait, Hokuto was Hockey Mask? I think I came across this name somewhere but I don’t remember it ><”)

Hokuto remembered that Hiyori was one of the two most popular members in Fine, and didn’t know that he had transferred since Hokuto only realised that he seems to have not heard any news regarding him for a long time. Eichi signed and advised Hokuto that rather than just focusing on himself, he should look around more of his surroundings as a leader. Back on the topic regarding Hiyori, Eichi explained that he was one of the main person behind Fine’s power at that time, and was probably as powerful, if not even more powerful than Eichi now as an idol. If Hokuto and the rest of Trickstar were not aware of him, they may ended up getting “eaten” up by him.

Moving on from Hiyori, Eichi mentioned about an idol group which he guessed that Hokuto must have heard about - Eden. Eden was a group that had the highest ratings among their era, the idol unit that was unbeatable. Eden was predicted to be the overall champion of SS, and thus Eichi felt that they would be Trickstar’s biggest opponent during the competition. Hiyori currently resided in “Eve”, which was greatly related to “Eden”, so Eichi felt that his unit “Eve” would be great opponent for Trickstar to practise against before the SS.

Hokuto was curious about the relationship between “Eve” and “Eden” as the current link that he could think of currently was how their unit names were all related to saint literature. Eichi decided to reveal what Eden was about, it was actually made up of “Eve” and another unit “Adam” to form “Eden”. Saying that this resembles a robot, Eichi told Hokuto that they’re still researching on more information about them at the moment. What he had known so far was that the two units had came from two different schools, but both schools had came from the same idol management company. The two schools were “Reimei Academy” and “Shuetsu Academy”, with the two units “Eve” and “Adam” operating differently most of the time. However, when required, both units would team up to form “Eden” and carry out idol activities together.

Even Eichi felt that the “Fine” now won’t be able to match against Eden since that unit was really powerful with each individual having high skills being on their own. This is why Eichi hoped that they’re able to find out a way they can go against Eden by being the opponent of “Eve” and “Adam” separately first.

Since Hiyori was also part of Fine in the past. Hokuto asked Eichi whether he had an idea of how good he is as idol. Even though Eichi did knew how good Hiyori was in the past, there was a possibility that Hiyori had improved after he had transferred and gaining even more experience outside. He told Hokuto that compared to “Nagisa”, Hiyori was a much simpler person to understand, since he would just do things just as he pleased. Hiyori was also an easier opponent compared to Nagisa (who was hard to undestand and grab a hold of according to Eichi ^^;), since Hiyori was someone who was kind as a person from the royalty, and even if Trickstar landed themselves in the worst scenario... they won’t get “killed”.

Just then, Hokuto heard footsteps approaching the room and started to get nervous, thinking that Hiyori had arrived. But it turned out to be just Mao, since he was just here to deliver some documents as requested by Eichi. Hokuto isn’t pleased that Eichi was making use of his comrades, but Eichi claimed that it was Mao himself who had requested some work to be done, even Mao spoke up for Eichi saying that he would feel better if he was abit busier and that this was the norm for him as he was part of the student council.

Eichi asked Mao whether he would like to stay for the meeting, but Mao said that such an important task should be left to Hokuto since Mao felt that this would be bad for his heart, as he mentioned that he was just a small civilian here. (Oh no, Mao you are definitely not a small civilian ^^;) Eichi sighed as he mentioned again that Hiyori was really late, and wondered if he had returned home instead of coming here. (Hiyori was someone Eichi had found it troubling to deal with since from the past, as Hiyori had never did anything according to what Eichi had planned ^^;)

Indication / 予兆 : Chapter 4 - 5

On the other hand, Makoto and “me” had finished our shopping and were at the game center. “I” teasingly put a cold drink at Makoto’s neck just to see his reaction, and offered him the drink as it was a hot day in the summer. Makoto had helped “me” by checking on the net on the stuff to be bought, and that helped to improve our efficiency to finish our shopping trip earlier than expected. Makoto was initially worried about the amount of items to be bought, but thankfully there was a delivery service being offered, and thus we decided to use that to deliver all the items that were bought to the school.

Since “I’m” done with “my” tasks and doesn’t have anything “I” have to do later on, Makoto asked “me” whether “I’m” free, as he wanted to invite “me” to join him at the game center. He was worried whether that would be troubling for “me”, since “I” might want to head a cafe instead to pass the time before Trickstar’s practice in the afternoon.

(Nono, that won’t be a trouble for me Makoto! I’ll go anywhere you want with you ^^)

“I” agreed to accompany Makoto to the game center, and thus he explained his reason for wanting to head there. There used to be a very famous senpai at the game club, which Makoto had belonged to for awhile. (This was stated in “Rocket Start”.) However, the senpai had quit school to become a game designer, and was now in charge of producing a game finally. The game was a continuation of a very popular game series, and there was news that this game was now available at the game center. As Makoto had loved this game series, knowing that the continuation was even made by this senpai that he used to know, he was very interested about it and thus wanted to come here and try playing the game.

Makoto was very excited when he reached the game center, pointing out at various franchise. As the game center was near to Yumenosaki Gakuen, which specialise in producing idols, there were many crane games that has idols goods available at the game center. He tried to find if there were any crane game machines that has Trickstar goods available, but couldn’t find any of them unfortunately, and thus wondered perhaps Trickstar was not yet as popular as he had hoped so.

However, suddenly a guy called out to him, calling Makoto a “kuso megane”. (New character! Actually this guy was trying to talk to him moments ago but Makoto had not realised it at all ^^;) Makoto was shocked and... pretty much seems unhappy that this guy was interrupting his happy date with “me”. (Wait.. when did it became a date Makoto? Not that I dislike it... but I guess this pretty much confirms that Makoto does sort of was attracted / has a crush on “me”? O////O)

Makoto had found the guy to be quite fierce looking and thus afraid that he was going to cause trouble for him. He was pondering whether he should hand over some money to the guy and apologised to him before running off for his life, but thought that that would make him look like a wimp in front of “me”. As being involved in a fight would be damaging to an idol’s image, Makoto was caution not to get himself involved in any conflict. In the end, Makoto was more worried about getting “me’ involved with this “delinquent” (so when did the new guy became a delinquent ^^”?), and decided that he shall just use money to pay him off. To his horror though, he realised that his wallet wasn’t with him when he reached for it. (Bad luck Makoto =w=“)

Turns out that the guy had approached Makoto because he had saw Makoto dropped his wallet, and had picked it up to return it to him. He noticed that Makoto seems afraid of him and knew that it was mostly because of his own looks that looked scary for others. The guy had also knew Makoto’s full name, which surprised Makoto as he wondered that perhaps they’re that popular after all. However, the guy quickly dashed Makoto’s hopes by answering him that he’s not that popular actually in the whole country, as in fact the guy had not known Makoto’s name at all before he had researched about him. Makoto felt scared when he heard that the guy had researched about him XDD (Hmm? Had he thought why someone will research about him?)

This was then the guy realised that Makoto doesn’t seems to know about him at all, and decided to give him a little hint - He was a newcomer who had just become part of “Eden” recently, and thus guessed that he might have been buried by other more popular members. This was then Makoto realised that the guy was someone who would be collaborating with Trickstar for the Summer Live, and was worried about competing against “Eden”. The guy tried to assure him that they’re working together for a live event instead of competing, and he would be representing as “Eve” instead of “Eden” this time.

As it seems that Makoto had not researched about him at all, the guy introduced himself as “Sazanami Jun”, and wasn’t pleased that Makoto does not seems to take him seriously as an opponent at all when he had taken out time from his schedule specially to come down here to Yumenosaki Gakuen. He told Makoto that he had hoped that he would do his research to find out more about who he would be performing at the live event, instead of waiting around for information like a little bird waiting for food. For Jun, the competition between “Eve” and “Tickstar” had already started even though there was still half a year more till the start of SS. He felt that it won’t be good to be in a close relationship with Makoto actually, and since he still had matters to attend to, Jun bowed as he began to take his leave. Makoto was confused and remarked that Jun was a “kid” that he doesn’t understand at all, since he could be all fierce and angry one moment, and suddenly being polite next ^^;

(Somehow Makoto pissed Jun when he remarked that he’s a “kid”, as Jun clarified that they’re of the same age. I guess Jun doesn’t like being treated as a little kid ^^:)

Makoto was still confused about the whole situation even after Jun had left, and also realised that “I” wasn’t with him the entire when he was talking to Jun. He was angry when he finally found “me”, and said that “I” should have inform him before going off by “myself”, since he had felt troubled and scared earlier on thinking that he was being pestered by a delinquent. (Sorry Makoto ^^: But you look cute when you're angry >///<)

Makoto decided to get back into the mood of playing and made his way to the game machine which he wanted to try out with “me”. However, he was shocked to see that Jun was also there and playing the same game that he had wanted to play. (Talk about coincidence ^^;) “I” was oblivious to what had happened between him and Jun earlier on, and thus went onto putting the coins in for a new game at a machine near to Jun. Thus somehow it had became a VS game battle against Jun for Makoto, which terrified him since he doesn’t know how to use the controls for this game yet and Jun was scary to him too ^^;

Foreign Enemy / 外敵: Chapter 1 - 2

Mao had enjoyed his lunch after leaving the student council room, and while remarking that he had a great meal, Rei suddenly appeared and told him not to make such a comment like an old man XD This gave Mao a shock as he scolded that Ritsu should not appear at his foot like this as usual (he had thought that it was Ritsu was the one who had talked to him), and get an even bigger shock when he realised that it was actually Rei. Rei remarked that he felt lonely hearing that Mao had called Ritsu by his name, but decided to call Rei by his surname as “Sakuma Senpai”.

As he knew that Mao would be attending practices in the afternoon, he asked him whether it was alright for him to eat that full, but guessed that since Mao was quite young, he might be able to digest his lunch quickly before practice. Mao noticed that Rei seems quite tired, and realised that he should be sleeping at this time in the afternoon. Rei sighed and commented that though he was sleepy, it was too hot to sleep in the coffin in the summer. He wanted to look a place which has shade and was cooling, and before he realised it, he had wandered into the cafe terrace.

Mao knew that an air-conditioner was installed into the coffin to defend against the warm weather, and asked Rei what happened to it. Turns out that the air-conditioner was out of order and had even ended up making the coffin flooded with water one time ^^; In the end, Rei had asked Madara for help to repair the air-conditioner currently. Rei commented that Madara was good at this area, whether it was repairing anything that’s mechanical, or making music instruments. (Madara, the guy with many talents +W+) Mao remarked that one should not judge someone by their appearance, since even though Madara looks huge and clumsy, he’s quite good with his hands ^^

Rei commented that the tea club usually carries out their club activities in the cafe terrace, and thus there were times where Eichi (being part of the tea club) would actually approach Rei to have a conversation with him. He remarked that there were times where Eichi would actually have a serious expression on his face as he was thinking about something, and would even seek advice from Rei, to which Rei found it surprising and wonder perhaps it would rain XD He found that it was amazing that there would actually be a day where Eichi and him would actually work together (for the Summer Live I supposed?), and thus hope that their efforts would not come to waste. Mao agreed that he had found it hard to believe that it was the reality that he, together with the rest of Tricktar would be representing the school to particpate the SS. Rei told him that it was the reality that they’re living in now, and warned him that if they’re not serious about it, they might ended up get swarmed in by the hurricane of events during SS and being battered by it. He encouraged them to work hard and told him that he would be offering his support for them. (Aww~ Rei feels like a really good senpai ^^)

Mao admitted that it was true that they still lacks popularity and skills currently, and that they might not be able to stand on their own without the help from others. Rei tried to encourage Mao that they might be able to compete with “Eve”, since they had more members than them, and the Summer Live event was held at Yumenosaki Gakuen’s turf so there would be more fans of Trickstar at the event. Rei wished that they would do well at the event, and remarked that if they’ve done a good job, he’ll reward them with a pat on the head ^^

Mao wondered that perhaps Eichi ahd worried and afraid if he doesn’t know much about their opponents, and thus requested him to find out more information about them. Even though Mao had managed to accumulate a huge amount of information, there was still details that were missing regarding them, since they still lack information of what skills they were good at or what kind of songs they were good at singing etc. Even if Mao had went through the whole data room, those information were hard to be found, and he guessed that perhaps it was because of Hiyori’s family who were rich and powerful had managed to protect those information from leaking. Mao now regretted that he had not keep a close watch at Fine’s performance during his first year to see how good the old Fine was at that time.

Rei felt nostalgic as he remembered that era. Fine were the heroes at that era, being the ones who had defeated the five oddballs, and the Trickstar members were still audience who had watched such an event taking place. However, things were different now, with Trickstar being created and even able to break the curse by defeating Fine and Eichi once.

Providing a hint to help Mao, Rei mentioned that even if the information were destroyed officially, there might still be another copy available in the secret underground library by Natsume. Rei told Mao that he could try asking for Natsume’s help if there were any information that he wished to obtain, and even gave him the permission to use his name if it helps to get Natsume to help them ^^

Rei also knew that Makoto was good at collecting information, and thus told Mao that if he had requested for Makoto’s help too, he would be able to get more information for Mao. However, Mao worried that this might distract Makoto from preparing and practising from the Summer Live, but Rei advised him that he should try to rely on his comrades more, since for Mao who was a normal human, this was something to be expected and normal for him to do.

Just then they met Subaru, who had went out for a run now as this was the only time he was able to go for a run, seeing that they would be practise indoors in the practise room later on. Subaru asked Mao to join him for the run, but Mao replied that he was really full after a meal, and it would hurt his stomach if he pushed himself to run ^^; Even though Mao knew that Subaru was really energetic and the heat in the summer would not affect his spirit, he was still worried about him and told him to rehydrate himself by providing a drink to him~ (Hehe glad to see Mao taking care of Subaru here ^^)

It was then Subaru noticed Rei, who had apparently made himself comfortable at the cafe terrace by lying on a bed. (Wait... Why is there a bed over there? ^^:) He was surprised to find Rei there, and asked whether Mao and Rei were in a good relationship to even have lunch together, since even though he knew that Mao and Ritsu were really close, he’s not sure whether Mao and Rei were considered childhood friends or not. Rei answered that because Ritsu doesn’t like him being too close to Mao (perhaps being afraid that Mao might get taken away from him by Rei?), Rei himself had to distance himself from Mao usually. He remarked that Ritsu doesn’t have to be so wary of him, as Rei would not steal Mao away XDD (Poor Rei ^^;)

However, Mao thanked Rei for the information and even called him Rei-chan, which surprised and confused Rei greatly, and he remarked that he really doesn’t understand how youngsters were thinking nowadays XD Mao laughed and replied that he just wanted to do that suddenly, and even offered to carry Rei indoors as it seems that Rei was quite weak being shone by the sunlight at an angle.

As Rei was quite weak in the sun and it was the summer season, he said that he would need to see how the weather would be like on the event day itself to determine whether or not he would be able to make an appearance at the Summer Live. On the event that he might not be able to make it, Rei mentioned that he would support them in his heart instead.

As Rei was leaving, Subaru noticed that Rei had taken a tomato that was planted along the path and eaten it. He mentioned that the tomatoes were planted by Koga for Rei’s sake. (This is an unexpected side of Koga... Koga actually does gardening? OWO)

Mao offered to run along with Subaru now that he doesn’t felt that bloated anymore, as he wanted to be in the best physical condition for the practice later on. He wanted to run at a slow pace and asked Subaru to cool down, but Subaru got heated up instead when he knew that Mao was joining him for a run XD Mao was worried and told Subaru to cool down and think about the pace he was running, but Subaru said that Trickstar was a group who would only thinks things later on after they’ve charged ahead and do it, and even started running off first before Mao. Mao remarked that Subaru was indeed energetic to a point that he would worry about him, but it was also due to Subaru that had gotten his tension up again, and thus he ran to catch up with Subaru.

Foreign Enemy / 外敵 : Chapter 3 - 5

As Hiyori was really late in arriving at the student council room, Eichi felt that it became a lucky chance for him to tell lots of stuff about “Eve” and “Eden” to Hokuto. However, if Hiyori did not appear in the end, it symbolised that “Eve” would not participate in the Summer Live, which might ended up in the whole event being cancelled. Eichi would not let that happen of course, as he planned to select another unit to replace “Eve” instead. He was pondering whether to choose either Valkyrie or Switch, since they would be good opponents for Trickstar as Eichi wanted the members of Trickstar to perform seriously (like in a war...? ^^;) Even though Hokuto knew that Eichi was praising them, somehow he felt that his words were like poison to him, and assured Eichi that Trickstar would always do their best no matter which opponents they’re facing again. (That’s the spirit Hokuto! +W+)

Even though the Summer Live was only a one day event, Hokuto felt that the preparations for it seems to be quite a long one, since he had expected that it would not take that long to set up the stage and promote about the event. Eichi answered that though partly it was because that he cared about the live event (and thus willing to spend a longer time to prepare for it perfectly), the other reason was that he wanted Trickstar to spend more time in contact with students from the other school, since this was the first time they would be meeting students from other school and might have different school culture which they would need to get used to. Eichi mentioned that he won’t be hoping that they’ll get along really well together, since in the end they would be opponents who might ended up having to “kill” one another. (That sound scary Eichi TWT) Besides, Eichi felt that it wasn’t that long for the preparations, since they only have one week for it. (Welp, Hokuto, I’ll say that was short instead of long actually =w=“)

Eichi told Hokuto not to care if the other party was someone who was older than him or part of the strongest unit, since he wanted them (Trickstar) to bark, bite and “kill” them with what they got. (Why did I feel that Eichi was describing them like a dog... =w=“) He was confident that after this week, they might be able to find some way which they could use to fight against “Eden” in the future. Eichi described that once they’re on the warzone, the true colours of people would show, and thus he hoped that Hokuto and the others would get into quarrels, anger the other party to make them show their true selves, adding on this was something that Hokuto is good at. (... Really?) Hokuto wondered whether he was really someone who would get into conflict with anybody easily, since Subaru actually mentioned the same thing about him earlier. (Ah, now I get why Subaru ask Hokuto not to get into quarrel with the other party in the meeting ^^;...)

Finally Eichi got a message from Tsumugi, who relayed the message that Hiyori would be arriving soon. He gave Hokuto one last warning, telling him that if he just stay quiet and accept everything that comes his way later on, he would get swept off by the other party’s talk and get gobbled up... OWO (Yikes)

And here comes the appearance of what they’ve been waiting for a long time for - Tomoe Hiyori~! He was glad that Eichi and Hokuto were actually talking about him, thinking about him, and actually spending their lifetime over him XD (That’s a weird way to describe it but I guess it’s true ^^;)

Eichi lectured him about being late, but remarked that it was to be expected of Hiyori. He also mentioned that Hiyori has a loud voice, and seems that his appearance and words had given Hokuto such a shock that he had just froze in place... Hiyori felt that one should live for himself and as he pleased when he’s living in this place, and thus felt that speaking a loud voice is making full use of his lungs while he’s breathing and living ^^; He remarked that it was unexpected that Eichi was still living, to which the latter sarcastically rebutted him, asking him whether he was displeased to see him still living well. (Welp, these two... doesn’t seems that they like each other that much D:) Hiyori said that since he had now left Fine, he was not Eichi’s pawn anymore and thus even if anything were to happen to Eichi won’t affect Hiyori’s life anymore since Eichi was now not related to him. (Totally sounds like Hiyori wanted nothing to do with Eichi ^^;)

Hokuto introduced himself as the leader of Trickstar, and would be working together Hiyori and “Eve” for the Summer Live event. Hiyori greeted him as well, remarking that he hoped that Trickstar would work hard this time to make Eve shine this time, which pissed Hokuto off. (As it totally seems to mean that Trickstar would be like back dancers of Eve in the performance, no wonder Hokuto was pissed off.) Eichi urged Hokuto to calm down and bear with in, as him being angry right from the start won’t help the conversation to continue on. However, he asked Hiyori whether he was indeed that confident of himself that what he was saying would not be different from the actual performance of his unit. Hiyori laughed back at Eichi, remarking that Eichi was still talking to him like he was high above him, reminding him that it was all Eichi’s imagination and things were different now. Even Hokuto could sense the sparks flying between them, and wondered how on earth were the two of them be in the same unit Fine in the past. (I guess it would be a miracle that they did not ended up killing each other =w=“)

Even though Eich had arranged for Tsumugi to pick up Hiyori, Tsumugi himself were nowhere to be seen. Eichi asked Hiyori whether he had left Tsumugi behind, but Tsumugi answered that he had actually arranged for Tsumugi to bring the stuff that he had bought back to his hotel instead, since he had bought too much stuff and it was troublesome for him to bring all these stuff with him. (Then you should not bought so much Hiyori... =w=“)

Back on track to the topic regarding the Summer Live event, Hiyori proposed that he had a plan for it, and wished that the others would follow exactly according to his instructions. Hokuto immediately objected to it, since he thought that would be too one-sided as he had hoped that both schools were discuss over it to plan together. However, Hiyori rebutted that since this event was one that he, Tomoe Hiyori was tasked to participate in, he would not tolerate if the event turned out to be a normal and boring event. He revealed that he had only participated in this event as per the instructions from the idol agency (from the school), and truthfully speaking, he didn’t want to perform with them actually. He requested Trickstar not to be an obstruction to his performance, since if he found Trickstar to be an eyesore later, he would definitely kick them off the stage. (Hiyori’s threat!? How could he say that while smiling... *shivers*)

Hokuto exchanged a look with Eichi, but the latter could only sigh and replied that he had already warn Hokuto earlier on that Hiyori was such a person. He felt an experience would work better for Hokuto and thus asked him to figure out what to do about this situation himself. (Eichi is not going to offer any help here ^^;) He gave a word of advice to Hokuto though, telling him that if he didn’t say anything to rebutt against Hiyori, Hiyori would just continue on with the conversation and does what he wants later on. He wished that Hokuto would try his best to negotiate with Hiyori, and fought hard for Trickstar’s sake. Eichi smiled and remarked that the war had already started, and if Trickstar let their guard down, their bones would be picked and they would be squeezed dry in the end. In order to protect his comrades in Trickstar, Eichi would need Hokuto to shine even more and break himself to protect the others. This was the task of what a leader should do. (I guess being a leader is definitely not an easy job...)

Hiyori was impressed with what Eichi had said, remarking that Eichi actually sound like a senior and had grown like a human. However, while noticing that Eichi had changed and become a much kinder and gentle person, he realised that he was not as shiny as he used to in the past, like how Nagisa is like now. Hiyori revealed that he really likes Nagisa, though he admit that it’s probably a one-sided feeling from him towards Nagisa, as Nagisa seems to be someone who lacked the ability to love someone. Even though becoming a part of “Eden” was the agency’s instructions, Hiyori admitted that the other reason was that he wanted to spend more time with Nagisa, and thus he doesn’t object to such an arrangement. (Hiyori was someone who won’t even want to spend one second with a person he doesn’t like, which Eichi dissed him that the other party must have felt the same way about him too. I think they’re just talking about each other XD) (And... Hiyori sounds like he really likes Nagisa alot OWO)

Eichi urged Hokuto to speak up, as since Hiyori was being arranged by the agency to participate in the event, he might not get a second chance to talk to him the next time as Hiyori would not bother to talk to anyone he’s not interested in, and thus it was best that Hokuto reveal everything that he had wanted to say in this meeting. However, Hokuto felt that what he says now would be useless against Hiyori, as he could feel that Hiyori was just viewing him from high above. He wanted Hiyori to first acknowledge Trickstar’s abilities and thus planned to show their skills and abilities to Hiyori during the practice in the afternoon. This surprised Hiyori, as he mentioned that most of his opponents would shrunk after meeting him once. Hokuto calmly replied that he was already used to people with high tension. (I bet he’s referring to Wataru as the one with high tension XD)

Just then, Hiyori realised that Hokuto’s surname (Hidaka) was very familiar, and also realised that his looks were familiar too. He then realised that Hokuto was actually his teacher’s son. Turns out that even Hokuto’s father was still active as an idol, there were times that he would be a lecturer at Reimei Academy. Hokuto didn’t seems surprised about this news, mentioning that his father was someone who doesn’t reject work very often. However, what he found puzzling was that his father would rather become a lecturer at another school rather than the school he had graduated from - Yumenosaki Gakuen.

Hiyori mentioned that the school had tried to ask him several times, but it seems that something had happen during spring which made him changed his mind and agreed to become a lecturer over at Reimei Academy. Hokuto remembered that it was during spring that it was decided that Trickstar would make an appearance at SS, and wondered that perhaps this was the reason why his dad had made this decision. He wondered why his father would rather help to train his opponents, yet didn’t even praise his son of his achievement instead. (Hokuto’s father sound like a strict man...?)

Hiyori sighed and told Hokuto that he hoped that he would not bring his family problems on stage. He mentioned that Mr Hidaka (Hokuto’s father) was really good at teaching, and hope that he would come to Reimei Academy to become a full-time teacher if he retired from being an idol. Hiyori started to feel interested in the Summer Live event, seeing that he would be able to perform with the son of Mr Hidaka. Hokuto doesn’t get why this gets Hiyori’s interest, but requested Hiyori to change his plans for Summer Live event. Unfortunately, Hiyori rejected it straight away with a smile XD (since it was too troublesome for him ^^;) However, Hokuto doesn’t listen to Hiyori’s reply either, and continued on that he would amend this plan to make sure that it fits Trickstar too. That pissed Hiyori off as he complained to Eich instead XD (Haha,Hiyori how does it feels when the same thing you’ve done to others bounce back to you? ^^:)

Eichi just smiled instead to Hiyori and warned him to watch out for Hokuto, since Eichi himself was defeated by them (Trickstar) once afterall~ (Poor Hiyori went from being really hyper to being sad and disappoined since this was not how he had planned to be~ He looks cute like this though~)

However, Hiyori quickly bucked up and announced that he’s going to take what he got for the Summer Live event then. For a moment, Hokuto could sense that Hiyori’s aura had changed and was impressed by him, thinking that there was no doubt that he used to be part of the heroes which changed the school... He knew that he shouldn’t let down his guard easily, since he would get “killed” anytime if that happens.

As it was already noon, Hiyori’s stomach was growling with hunger, and suddenly proposed that they eat the quiche which he had bought just now while he was shopping. He started taking out a variety of flavours and urged Hokuto and Eichi to help themselves to it, even demanding Eichi to make some tea for him to go with the quiche. Hokuto sighed and remarked that it was easier fighting against the student council at that time since it was obvious that they’re their opponent, but against Eve and Hiyori, Hokuto doesn’t really know how to deal with them as it’s hard to decide how to fight against them. Besides they were supposed to work together for the Summer Live event this time.

Hiyori was oblivious to Hokuto’s trouble as he was enjoying his quiche, remarking that this was a great day~ (with a word pun on his name ^^)

Even though it was just the morning meeting with Hiyori, Hokuto was already exhausted as it felt like he was dealing with two student council leader / two Eichi ^^; He could sense Hiyori’s strength as someone who used to be part of Fine, and somehow got fired up instead in the end ^^

Communication / 交流: Chapter 1

Back to Makoto’s side, he had enjoyed himself at the game center in the end, remarking that it had been a long time he had been able to play these games without worries. He had bought some ice pops from the convenient shop nearby, and offered some to Jun and “me”. As Makoto had bought a variety of flavours and these ice pops could be split into two, he suggested that we share the ice pops that way so that everyone could taste each of the flavours.

(Ahhh Makoto was so cute when he offered “me” the ice pop, saying that this was the repayment gift for the drink earlier on ^^)

Even though Makoto said that it was his treat or the ice pop, Jun insisted on paying for it. Makoto doesn’t listen to Jun and urged him to take the ice pop before it melts, so in the end, Jun accepted it with a thanks to Makoto. (The start of a beautiful friendship between these two guys? ^^)

Makoto remarked that Jun was actually really polite, to which he answered that since he was mostly in an environment where it was very strict to behave according to one’s position and rank, Jun had no choice but to be polite most of the time. But since Jun’s eyes were really fierce, he ended up scaring people most of the time even though he’s polite ^^;

(Jun was also glad that he was able to have fun together with Makoto, and apologised for bothering him earlier on. Ah~ Jun really seems like such a nice kid ^/////^ He looks so cute when he smiles like this ^^)

As Makoto was the one who had won all the rounds, he was relieved to know that Jun had enjoyed himself, since he thought it would be boring for him since he kept on losing. Jun thanked him instead for trying his best to beat him in the game, since his goal in coming to the game center was to test play this game at the game center actually. As Jun was not used to playing games usually, he doesn’t really know the game’s weakness and guessed that his review for the game would be a normal passerby who had never play games ^^;

After knowing the reason why Makoto had went to play that game, Jun noticed that Makoto had not realised that the theme song of that game was actually sang by Eden. Because the producer team of the game had requested Eden to play the game and provide some feedback about it, and since Jun felt that it would be rude to comment about the game without playing it, this was why he had came to the game center today to specifically play test this game. Makoto remarked that Jun was really amazing to be that committed to his work, and felt that Jun’s work to provide a theme song as an idol unit was really “like an idol”. (Well, they’re idols after all ^^;) Jun replied that unlike the idols in Yumenosaki Gakuen which specialised and focused on live performance, their school had a different style of work planned out for their idols (which I guess is related to providing theme songs for games, collaboration etc?)

As Jun doesn’t know the way to the school, he really appreciates that Makoto and “me” were bringing him along. Makoto had even planned to give him a gift actually, but Jun said that this was not needed since it would just add onto another item to his luggage ^^; He remarked that he had heard a rumor that the school was gradually decaying on the inside out, but Makoto assured him that the rumor was referring to something in the past, and things were different in Yumenosaki Gakuen now.

Jun smiled in secret as he thought to himself that it was still too early for him to accept Makoto and the others to be of the same level to work with him. (That sounds abit scary Jun ^^;)

Communication / 交流 : Chapter 2

Back at school, Makoto rushed to the practice room in a hurry as he was late. He had thought that he had alot more time, and thus spent it having lunch at the cafe terrace. He wondered whether he had made things awkward between him and Jun and started to feel depressed whether he had messed things up in human relationships, and thought that perhaps it was all just his imagination thinking that he had gotten better in communicating with people recently. (Aww... Poor Makoto T///T Don’t worry, everything would be alright! *pats pats*)

Realising that it’s not good to have such dark thoughts like this, Makoto encouraged himself to buck up, and thought that Jun should be feeling even more worried and scared than him being in a place which he was not used to.

Just at this time, he spotted Jun who was looking around curiously. Turns out that Jun was looking out for Sagami Sensei, and that reminded Makoto once again that Sagami Sensei used to be a very popular idol (though he now behaves.... unlike one ^^:). He offered to call for him for Jun, telling him that it would be easy for him to find Sagami Sensei as he was his teacher and he could always use his position as the broadcast committee member. (Are you supposed to use your broadcasting rights this way...? O.o) However, Jun denied the offer and clarified that he had instead felt better if he had not seen Sagami Sensei at all (Sounds like he’s on the lookout to avoid him instead), and told Makoto that they should head for the practice room soon instead.

As they were making their way to the practice room, Makoto mentioned that it can be difficult navigating around the school as it was still expanding, and there were times that he ended up being lost in the school. Jun commented that this school was unlike theirs, which only had students in the idol course, and thus he felt that it was refreshing and interesting to him to see students from the normal courses. Even though part of the school seems old, Jun realised that they had very new and advanced facilities unexpectedly. He invited Makoto to visit his school next time to get “beaten up”, and Makoto replied that Jun must have felt really confident about himself seeing that Eden was the strongest unit in their era. He expressed his envy for Jun, admitting that most of the time he was always worried and feeling weak about himself. Jun revealed that he was just acting strong most of the time though, since if one shows signs of weakness in Reimei Academy, they might ended up being defeated by others really easily. Since he wasn’t a “special” student, Jun mentioned that he was actually someone who belongs to the lower rank in the school. (Sounds like a warzone over there D:) (Is it me or Jun and Makoto can be kind of similar seeing that both have their own weak sides?)

On the other hand, Subaru was elated to have spotted “me” on the corridor and immediately flew over and grabbed onto “me”. Mao who was with him, gave him a lecture not to do it, as it worried him that we might both ended up falling off the stairs together. Mao also mentioned that since Subaru and “I” were of opposite genders, it might look like sexual harassment and thus warned him not to do that even though he knew that Subaru had not meant it in that way.

Makoto noticed Mao and Subaru standing in the corridor and asked them why were they outside the practice room instead of heading into it. He thought that the key to the practice room was in someone else’s hands (deja vu moment for Makoto), but Mao answered that they had heard someone singing in the room, and felt bad for intruding the practice. Thus they decided to hang outside while waiting for the person to finish singing the song.

Just then Mao noticed Jun who was standing next to Makoto and was able to recognise him, since he had already seen his photo from the information that he had gathered regarding “Eve”. Subaru was really curious to take a look at Jun when he realised that he was a student from the other school. Realising that Subaru’s surname was “Akehoshi”, Jun asked whether he was the son of “that” Akehoshi. (He’s referring to Subaru’s father.) Subaru asked Jun whether he would feel worried performing with someone with the name “Akehoshi”, but Jun replied that he was just surprised to know that he’s his son. He revealed that he felt that he was in a similar situation as Subaru, both being in trouble due to their “parents”. (Did Jun went through a similar family scenario as Subaru?)

And that’s all for Part 1 of the story~ I do have many thoughts regarding this story, but shall leave them for the end of the story in Part 2~

#ensemble stars #event story #trickstar #eve #summary #translation #hokuto #makoto #mao #subaru #hiyori #jun #eichi #rei #otome game #es:event #es:translation

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r95irth · 7 years ago

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How the two classes interact? Any friends, enemies, love interests? I don't wanna force you to show us some spoilers but daaamn i'm curious XD Also i love yout ocs you are like the godness of bnha ocs

Hiii Thank you so much for your message as always X) I don’t know if i’m the godness of bnha ocs but i sure have fun making some so at leats there is that. i’m happy they’re loved too

As for your question, i can answer only with the little i have about them because as i said for now there is no plot and not every oc is 100% finished. So here are the things i’m sure of :

Both classes are quite close, there is no specific rivalry like in BNHA since Mahô and Satoru are always at each other’s place and bring their friends along. It’s very common for Aizawa to kick off Mahô from the common area of class A and vice-versa for All Might.

Beside Mahô and Satoru will probably make a “club” of their own with the help of Kirishima, where students from all years/classes/section can join and try to work learn how to work together in RP activities. (Because Mahô and Satoru plan to work as a duo and since they’re not in the same class they were disappointed to never learn to actually work together)

As for others...I think it’s better if you ask about one student at the time but i will try to answer you with everything i can think of in a global point of view. I might forget things though X-x They are so many...!

SATORU

Satoru has a crush on Goro, that is obvious to anyone. Except probably Goro himself who is very uninteressed in love stories.

Satoru is a lot with Tsubaki since the boy is shy and has trouble talking.

Satoru gets really friend with Yuu, whose maternal instinct and Mahô’s like energy won his heart. Together they form the Mahô’s protection squad.

MAHÔ

Mahô is a lot closer to Tsubaki than Max, she likes to sing with Tsubaki and always helps him when he asks her to enchant his earphones.

Mahô finds a great friends in Yuu, who is motherly and as energic as her.

Mahô is also a bit friend with the girl named Yules, since she always ask to jog with her and sometimes come along to do her exercises as well. They’re sport buddies.

Mahô will try to be friend with Reika, since their power are similar, and will probably fail.

TAKASHI

Takashi and Hana are “brothers and sisters” they have no blood bond but they were raised together like sibling for years until Hana took a decision and left her father’s home. Since then Takashi and Hana are not in good terms. Hana is very eager to prove him that she was right about her decision and Takashi will never forgive her for her “betrayal”. So not great between them. Takashi tend to avoid Hana and to speak very little when she’s talking. Hana seeks Takashi’s presence and approval but she’s not doing it the right way.

Takashi does not like Mahô one bit, if he considers her a bit as a rival. The feeling of hate is mutual, but she doesn’t consider him as a rival at all. She’s very eager to act as if she likes him though and always invite her to lunch with them. Satoru doesn’t know if she does that to piss him on purpose of if she really believes that they will end up getting along if they train as friends.

Takashi is close to Tsubaki, Kahei and Ryota, who are quiet people. He plays a lot of video games with them.

Takashi’s childhood friend is named Hibiki. They had planned to become heroes together as a duo, much like Mahô and Satoru. But Hibiki failed the entrance exam and got into managers section. He get into heroes course during second year so it’s better, but for a long time Takashi is very bitter about it and always goes to eat with Hibiki at lunch when he could.

He may has a little bit of a crush on Kahei since she destroyed him on his favorite video game.

MAX

Max is friend with Kyouji, Sei, Hide and Lazare. They are “horror movies buddies” and likes to make pranks with their quirks to people. (Especially Mahô who faints everytime that Max’s head falls on the ground or that Sei loses a limb)

Max has a crush on Yuu since day one. He’s very shy about it but he melts every time she smiles at him. But he’s very ashamed when she catches him doing thing that are not very attractive...Like tryint to add Sei’s eyes in his wax.

Other facts

Sei and Makoto can��t get along because Sei lies a lot and Makoto is a living lie detector.

Kenya and Kohaku are always with eachother, Kohaku has the tendency to hide stuff in Kenya’s hair and wait for him to notice it. Or she forgets she hide it in his hair and get scolded for it. They’re pretty close and people like to call them the fluffy couple which piss them off.

Kohaku has a crush on Yule.

Yosuke has a sweet heart in manager course, they promised to get married after they become hero and manager respectively. He got friend with Hibiki that way, thank to his sweetheart who was in his class.

There are probably a lot of fact i forget about them...but i think it’s better if you ask me about one character specifically, i will then proceed to make you one big presentation of them. Do you mind if we work that way ?

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inkognito97 · 7 years ago

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Hey!! :) can we get some interactions between Ahsoka and Obi-Wan? Like he's teaching her Jar'Kai or something ^^ or they're just spending grandmaster-grandpadawan quality time (eating at Dex's, taking a day off, idk...) And Obi could have wings since you love weird prompts :D

Hey there. ^^ I DO love weird prompts and I have a things for wingfics too. XD So, thank you very much for this lovely prompt. I hope you enjoy it.

“What seems to be the matter young one?” an accented voice brought the young Togruta out of her musing. Though it actually been sulking rather than musing, if the female Padawan was completely honest with herself.

“I don’t really know Master Kenobi,” she answered truthfully, she really did not know. She had tried to meditate, but she had simply not been able to find her center and it had left her even more frustrated than before.

Obi-Wan hummed, his intelligent eyes resting on his Grandpadawan, who was sitting by one of the ponds in the Room of a thousand Fountains. Sometimes Ahsoka felt like her Grandmaster could see right through her and into her soul. Sometimes that thought frightened her more, than the war did.

“Have you tried meditation?” it was a standard question, but from the way he had said it, she knew that he already knew the answer.

“I did, but it did not help.”

Another hum. “Well, we cannot have that now, can we?”

“Master?” she looked up at him startled and with wide eyes. The ginger haired man offered the Togruta his hand, which she took after only a moment of hesitation. She could trust Obi-Wan Kenobi, there was no doubt in that.

“Patience,” he just said and gently led her out of the room and while he walked, the feathers of his wings rustled. It was a soothing tone, one Ahsoka had liked as soon as she had heard it.

As a Youngling she had wanted to touch them, but she had always been afraid to ask the Master. Now, the thought embarrassed her and she still did not dare to ask. Though she found that thought to be quite stupid. This was her Grandmaster, he would not scream at her or something like that. The worst he could and WOULD to, was say, “No.” But she would be able to live with that.

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“The training hall, Master?”

A mysterious smile appeared on the older Jedi’s features and he pulled off his robe. One of these days, Ahsoka would figure out, how he dressed himself with those beautiful blue-green wings of his.

“Since meditation does not work, I thought about a physical exercise. Whenever Anakin would not be able to settle, I would bring him here and teach him something new, to get his mind away from his troubling thoughts.” The female looked in awe at the explanation. It was rare to hear from her own Master’s apprenticeship, Anakin did not like to talk much about himself. Neither did Obi-Wan for that matter.

“Sounds good,” she took her lightsaber in her hand and expectantly waited for the older male to continue.

Obi-Wan was regarding his Grandpadawan for a few moments. There was not much he could teach her about her chosen form, although it would not be his place to do so. Anakin was her Master and he was teaching and guiding her in her form. Unconsciously did he stretch his wing. He noticed how her eyes followed their movements, darting between the two wings, not able to decide on which to settle. An idea sprung to the front of his mind and a smile appeared on his bearded features.

“How about I teach you Jar’Kai?”

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Had Ahsoka known how hard the training would be, she would have hesitated with agreeing. Then again, it HAD distracted her from her earlier imbalance and she had found her inner peace again. Also, she had liked to spent her free time with her Grandmaster. She knew that the male human did not have much time between missions and Council meetings and it filled her heart with affection and perhaps even love, to know that he cared so much about her. Obi-Wan was truly like a Grandfather to her. And he was a great teacher too.

Then again, she should not be surprised that he knew so much about Jar’Kai. This form, the use of two lightsaber instead of one, reminded her so much of his wings. The too were both pieces of one whole. They both belonged to Obi-Wan and even though he could move them separately from each other, they belonged together. It was similar with the two lightsabers. They moved apart from each other, but still belonged together.

“You did very well young one,” he praised and there was a warm gleam in his eyes.

“Thank you Master,” she handed him her borrowed training saber. Should Ahsoka really decide to continue this field of study, then she would need to build a second lightsaber.

“I have no doubt that you will surpass me, with a little bit more training.”

She gave him a smile, but in truth, the young Togruta doubted it. The way Obi-Wan had moved, had flied, over the training ground spoke of years of practice and experience.

The Padawan decided not to dwell on it too much though. Not with the Jedi Master sitting so relaxed next to her. For a moment she believed that he was going to meditate, but then he stretched his left wing and guided it so that it was before him and he could easily reach it. The young Togruta watched in fascination, how her elder pulled some feathers out of his limp.

“Why are you doing this… does it hurt?” could not stop herself from asking.

Blue-green eyes briefly glanced her way. “I remove the lose feathers to make place for new ones,” he answered and continued to take care of his wings. He saw how her eyes followed his every move and every feather that he pulled out and put on the ground before him. It were not many feathers, he did take care of his wings very well after all. His own Master had made sure that he did.

“Come here,” he beckoned her over and Ahsoka obediently seated herself in front of him,gazing over her shoulder in curiosity.

Obi-Wan gave her a comforting smile, which she returned and took the first light blue-green feather between his finger, before attaching it with the aid of the Force to her braid. Obi-Wan made sure that he did not add too much, it was not supposed to look overstuffed. He added just enough of his feathers to create a beautiful picture and Ahsoka seemed to be delighted as well.

“Thank you Master,” she said and when he noticed that her eyes were glistening suspiciously, then he did not mention it….

#star wars #obi wan kenobi #ahsoka tano #bonding #grandmaster - grandpadawan time #wingfic #wingAU #wing obi-wan #teaching #prompt #anonymous #my fics

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ayame-dreamer-blog · 7 years ago

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Diary Entry || 6/23/17

It’s a good time of year for a swim, isn’t it? I still can’t fit that bikini, though. I’m starting to think it must be my age. My mother always said sitting around doing my studies would lead to my age turning on me someday. I guess my late night shift isn’t exercise either, but I can’t ask mom that.

Maybe I should start some kind of routine. But that would need free time, wouldn’t it? Sorry mom and sorry bikini, this girl has money to make. And a diet to find.

#pi:diary #pi:closed #((when I was working I had similar trouble with exercise time XD))#((my school has a really nice gym so it feels good to exercise :D))

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coal-the-shiba · 7 years ago

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Rehab Update 10

It seems like every week, we get an inch closer and closer to bring things back under control with our four-legged tyrant XD But in all seriousness, today was an extremely lucky day. Since it is the first weekend of summer vacation, we were the only ones in class which meant: sudden private lesson! Naturally, we took full advantage of it and asked all the questions that we had stored up over this week. Most of the questions were, of course, for my husband. He got a lot of good advice and some indepth explanations about why this ir that is not working.

My husband has a lot to work on. The trainer emphasized that until we could establish at least a reasonable bond with Coal, doing social work with other dogs would be very difficult. Socialization, she said, is as much about the relationship between us as it is about interacting with others.

She also explained to my husband why he shouldn't *stare* at Coal during watch exercises and seemed fairly confident that his intense watch exercises were contributing to Coal's slight regression. Basically, he saw my husband as challenging him, but would only respond to the challenge when he was in the safety of his own territory (IE the pen). She explained that find a spot on the dog's face, such as the mouth, or just over the head is more than enough, and that Coal can look at our chest or chin and be sufficient, especially for my husband.

What it comes down to is that everything my husband does with Coal is at preschool level. He is starting to understand that on his own, too, and trying to accommodate those levels of learning. I think it helps that our trainers have personally had similar situations with their own dogs, so they can relate to my husband on his frustrations and experiences. They are currently also trying to figure out how to help my husband with walking Coal because, no matter what he does or what treat he has, Coal just pulls. Even with the limited slip collar. They adviced him to give Coal more freedom/sniff time and only short bouts of heel walking, and when it is sniff time, let him sniff (unless he tries to eat what he sniffs lol).

We also got to talk to the vet about Coal and his meds and progress. Of course, there is no real way we can ever know what Coal is thinking, but the vet suspects that Coal is basically being a bully because the pattern is only recurring with my husband. There is a good chance that, since Coal could get a reaction before, he was trying it again: either trying to demand something, or just control the environment/resources. My husband is doing really good at ignoring Coal during these "tantrums", if you will, and they are definitely not as bad as they used to be. We are going to halve the dosage and see if there are any changes in his demeanor, and then go from there.

One thing my husband admits: the training classes and going to this VTB have really helped. The difference between before and now are like night and day, and even my husband says he can tolerate the occasional jump now and then. Personally, I want to eliminate that behavior entirely, but I can really only sit and wait as my husband works through it. we have come to realize that if we want to go out on a small trip, we will have to board Coal at a pet hotel (if it is one we want without him for a day or two---even pet parents need a break!). Coal is pushy but also a coward, so that means that he most likely would do the same behavior (or worse!) with his family if they were the ones to watch him. He sees them as neck scratchers and treat givers, not on any level of disciplinary or authority. A little disappointed in that because it would have been nice to save the dollars, but ah well.

We may never know 100% why Coal started doing and continues to exhibit the behavior. I realize that there are too many possibilities, and without being able to read his mind, we will never know for sure which it is. All we can do is try to address the behavior and give him different tools to cope. What we can see and understand is that he has improved, and he has a chance to continue to do so as long as we are consistent and strong. We are even discussing doing more classes after he passes (if he can) this one. If he can't pass this one, we may take a break and work on the material on our own, then come back and see if we can get into the next level. Honestly, the issue with passing is not the things he needs to do. It is the audience. If he can just learn to focus in spite of the dogs present, he will have no trouble at all. Even the trainers are impressed with how quickly he catches on to new things (turning left while in heel, for example). He isn't stupid--just really rude XD

Oh, and we found out that the three month package is for different skills each month. Next month is "stay" and...I forget XD But we have several skills to learn between now and September, when the test is. We will continue to work hard with him every day (or almost every day, depending on weather and health, etc). We will avoid running into dogs as best we can and focus on our relationship and bond with him first and foremost, especially between Coal and my husband.

Hopefully, things will smooth out in the next couple of months. I don't take many pics or vids recently because I am so focused on this now, and it is too hot to do much. None of the dog runs have any shade where we are! Not even a doggy swimming pool! Coal seems more content to sleep in the afternoon anyway, though that might be the meds. Who knows. I want to get him more puzzle toys to help keep him a little occupied, but most of them we can't leave alone with him as he will probably eat and destroy it. So far, only Kong survives him so those are the only toys we let him have during the day. We only give him the fun puzzle toys when one of us can be there to interact with him and remove it when it is finished.

#coal #shiba inu #shiba #inu #rehab #behavior #modification #aggression #agonistic #display

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sanguinesprout · 7 years ago

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Uhhh welp... *derps x2* (Update and some past therapy and college/uni talk)

I really wanted to write a post but at the same time I’m not feeling very well and feel like the effort to do so might drain me even more. Maybe I’ll try write it more brief, since all my previous posts end up so hella long lol.

Anyways, on monday was what I thought would be a therapy session but it was in fact another referral consultation, but I still poured all my truthful feelings and fears out. I feel kinda proud I didn’t kind of hold back or soften the things I said as much as I usually would (though I still stumbled over some words and blanked a little, but it’s okay!). Also I wasn’t as nervous as I thought I’d be, I was just so focused on trying to give the consultant all the relevant information possible and almost went overtime in my super fired up blabby confession moment lol. She noted it all down and said she’d speak with her supervisor and decide where or who best to refer me to and be in contact by the end of the week.

I literally told her so many things that I would have a hard time telling anyone or even writing here. I began with the avoidant stuff and then kinda veered off into my super paranoid-ness troubles and a little on dependent-ness, it was... ugh... real difficult to talk about it without feeling like a fool but I also mentioned how I’ve been trying really hard to rationalise things and be more positive and stuff and for someone to acknowledge and sort of praise that felt nice. I also pulled out some of the most random and uncomfortable situations from my past to give as examples for things and it was uh... I struggled a bit and felt awkward a little but she was very sympathetic and nice! :>

When she asked what my perception of myself was, as I mentioned I have a low view of myself, I said what I thought (and it was only a few adjectives of the negative kind, but they were strong words... I guess I am being too hard on myself, but I can’t help it when it’s all I can see of myself :c) and she was a little surprised and said not many people would be able to say it so bluntly *laughs nervously and burrows head in the sand*. I made sure to get across that I’m very sensible about my actions and have been trying my best to improve and that I have a lot of hope to get better and she said this was good too ^^ There was a lot of other stuff but it’s too much effort to write down and remember lol. I’m not sure what she makes of all the stuff I said and what the supervisor will say about it, I just hope it goes in the right direction and stuff ahhh >< (Also that they don’t ask to see my blog because I did happen to mention it... they wouldn’t though right...? Like to make me conquer my fears or something ;w; ...Even if they did (unlikely) I could say no, don’t worry silly self!)

No obligations! My new mantra XD (Idek know if I’m using the right word but oh well, it works for me so imma use it! lololol~) Getting stuff off the chest and having your problems acknowledged really does feel like a weight has been lifted slightly hoo~ I feel a little bit more motivated and willing to disclose my fears and keep pushing to improve too ^^

I went to the supermarket after that with my sis who drove me to and from the appointment and I browsed around at a super leisurely pace. Maybe it was the sort of motivation boost from letting off the steam at the consultation that allowed me to roam around feeling less conscious of the other shoppers than I usually do, it was nice. I did still feel awk sometimes squeezing past people and sort of hovering around them cause I wanted to look at something but I persisted and I got to peruse as much as I wanted >:D

I said I didn’t want the post to get long but I thought why not write a little about my past therapy experiences since this post is about therapy, so here I go~! :U

In college I went to see a therapist lady about my ‘social anxiety’. I don’t remember the details before that, it was probably me finally acknowledging I was genuinely having a hard time with socialising or fitting in wherever I am and constantly being anxious around others that prompted me to get help. It’s likely I read some shizz off the internet then too lol. I think in school before that I would converse and confide in a friend who also had similar feelings but when it got to college I hardly saw them because their schedule was like the opposite of mine. The line between friends and classmates, it kinda becomes clear once you stop being together out of convenience (of the same class times and such).

The friendships I had and were grateful for just gradually faded and I guess my lack of initiative (or fear) to continue communication outside just made it even more inevitable. It’s okay though, people move on and people change, especially in the case of when people move to far away locations too. They have their life to live however and with whoever they want, and I have mine (which is terrible but... maybe it won’t be later on). I do miss them and I miss the time I spent in school with them, but what I hope most is that they are all happy and doing well c: There’s a lot more I’d want to write, but this post isn’t about that. There’s plenty of time to reminisce, remedy and maybe even reconnect with them someday later on.

Anyways, I can’t remember anything too detailed with the therapy there except we talked some and she game some sort of worksheets with some tasks to help me acknowledge my feelings and fears and to try expose myself to them little by little. I don’t think I got that far with that or maybe it’s because I chose to start seeing her so close to the end of my time at college that well the sessions obviously didn’t continue for long, I don’t think I went more than a small handful of times.

Something else I remember from probably one of my first talks with her, is that she asked me what I would wish for (or where I’d wish to live?? idk too long ago to remember) if I could, and I said something like to live in a normal house like everyone else lol. Idk I was envious of the cosy homes my friends, relatives and families on tv have that were so different from my own, more modern and homely unlike mine which is so old, unconventional and constantly noisy because my parents workplace is aside it. (Maybe the work place and home being so close makes it hard for my parents to sort of separate their work mindset and leisure time and that’s why they can never sort of relax and why I can never be comfortable idk.) Uh well anyways, she replied that it was such a humble(?) modest(??) wish... uh I’m really not sure of the right word to use to describe it or what she said exactly but basically it was indicating my wish was not like the extravagant sort of things other people would probably wish for. My wish (though I can’t remember the exact context leading up to asking about it) was in essence to be normal and have a normal environment and I guess that still stands, though I do have bigger dreams now too, but still not the overly extravagant kind haha. Idek what I was trying to say in this paragraph lol *goldfish memory*.

Also something else during college time, is that I went to this breathing exercise help thing which was supposedly supposed to help people who are anxious in exams or something but I just went in hope it might help me in general. It literally was just listening to some relaxing nature sounds and seeing some matching imagery while having your pulse tracked at the same time and I sucked at it and didn’t really improve much lol XD It was supposed to help you regulate your breathing and stuff but I just probably got more anxious about it. I wonder if it is anxiety that has been causing me all sorts of worrisome chest related problems, as they have persisted till now more than a decade later unresolved and still causing me bother. This is one of the health problems out of many which I have been trying to get to the bottom of and fix in the recent years, it’s really unsettling not knowing what’s really wrong or how to fix it ugh. Maybe I’ll write about it in a separate post another time (always putting off stuff ahhh, but I guess it makes sense to here), I’ve actually been trying real hard and gone through quite a lot of things in effort to resolve things, I’m kind of proud of myself for doing so but I need to continue to persevere.

Hmm... okay now for the therapist I went to in university. I can’t remember the exact thing that prompted me to start going or how I came to know of it, but it was probably the similar feelings of struggling and needing guidance and idk reading posters or some info booklets maybe. I know I started going later than I could have again and stopped going completely because... well, I ended up dropping out of Uni altogether :c I was struggling so badly, the anxiety, the depression etc. just made it so difficult to sleep, concentrate or understand anything and just being there unnerved me so much. I still regret it and feel like such a failure, but university isn’t for everyone anyways, I just chose to go because it is the typical thing to do after college (but a degree doesn’t guarantee work or anything so bleeeh~)

The therapist I was appointed was a guy and he was nice and this will sound really ridiculous and I feel real bad thinking this, but something about the way he looked reminded me of an army sergeant and it made me extra uncomfortable and intimidated. It was just so hard to unsee and also the fact he is a guy like I mentioned earlier make me unsettled (I’m even more insecure around guys) Dx Also I remember talking about some of my female related physical problems as I was going to doctors trying to sort stuff back then too (still partially unresolved now ugh) and well uh... it was so awks but he said he could understand and relate because his daughter had the same problem, he would share some stories about her other times too and I guess it was kind of nice, it helped me to see him more as a softer father type person rather than an army sergeant I guess lol.

Anyways that’s not important! One of the things I distinctly remember about my sessions there, is that one of his earlier sort of tasks was to write down what I thought of myself on a paper. I took the paper and I drew a simple scrawl of myself with an unhappy face and next to it (or in a speech bubble) I wrote ‘I hate myself’ and without looking up, I cried onto it... :< (I wonder how many times therapists have to see people cry a week or even a day ><) He gave me a sympathetic look and I don’t remember what else happened that session, probably just talked about some more basic stuff about myself and some positive thinking advice.

Another thing I found memorable is that he told me ‘you are the one that knows yourself best’ and it really stuck with me. There was also a kind of ‘you are the only one that can change yourself/you are the one that can help yourself most’ kind of phrase (but I can’t remember the exact wording) and before that he would use a sort of metaphorical situation and ask me what I would do. The one for this phrase was something about being out at sea/or a pool and needing help... *blank blank something something* ...uh I can’t remember the rest of the details and I don’t think I should guess because I made a whole lotta nonsense in the other paragraph before lol. Again it feels kind of unreal, like I was a different person then or that I’m seeing it from a different perspective... I wonder if it’s dissociation or something, it just feels so strange ><

Oh also this is semi-irrelevant but I went to have Dyslexia tests at both college and uni also (my friend that already went recommended me to go). I just wanted to know why I was struggling so bad, why I had so much trouble with concentrating, taking in info and all that stuff. Maybe I’ll write about the outcome of these and where they lead me another time (ugh) when I write about all my other health focused posts. I’ll just mention again that so many things in mental health and function overlap and that it’s so difficult to discern the definitive reasons for things, the diagnosis I got was...eh... and I took it with a grain of salt pretty much (and btw my family/relatives weren’t all that convinced or supportive of this or when I had a diagnosis of depression which was... well it wasn’t great). I’m glad I had the courage to go to these too because it did help me to understand myself and work a tiny bit more efficiently, but I guess my avpd-ness prevented me from wanting to use the stuff and advice they gave me in class and well, it was already kind of too late to sort of salvage what little motivation I had then and try continue.

Uh... that was hella negative. But I guess that’s basically all I remember about those things. I started writing this post on monday but well I guess I had more to write about than I thought and I didn’t have enough time alone to think about it and write it lol. I’ll finish this post by mentioning some of my more positive things from yesterday ^^ I phoned the mobile provider of this phone I bought recently and returned to get some details on my return. I’ve put this off for a few days already and wasn’t going to try, but I pushed myself to and yay I got the answer I wanted (though I could have said my question a bit more straight forward in the beginning instead but in the end I got there, so it’s okay xD). The past year or so I’ve called the doctors and my phone provider the most probably lol. About why I returned the phone... I just really wanted a new phone because mine is so old and frustratingly dysfunctional, but I changed my mind about the one I got and decided to wait to get another one. Indecision and impulse buying at it’s best yo~~~

Also I emailed an enquiry to a seller about some problem I had with some product bought from Amazon (which I’ve also been putting off). In general I feel I’ve been trying harder to not let that ‘oh no someone’s gonna judge me’ feeling from stopping me do some small things I wanted to do, like listen to this derpy old cd I found on my living room stereo just before and commenting on some things online (with my cheesy jokes and over enthusiastic complimenting as usual lol *facepalm*). Also thinking more positively about things like, when you feel you weren’t successful, it’s best not to beat yourself up about it, at least you tried and you can try again and it might be even better than previously. Like with this post, I didn’t finish it on monday or yesterday like I wanted, but there’s no point feeling down or mad at myself for it (I mean it was my own choice really and my fear stopping me, but it’s not gonna help to be overly harsh to myself about it) and since I’m continuing it now anyways, it’s no big deal. It wasn’t mandatory for me to finish it, I shouldn’t worry about it, no obligations! ^^ I hope I can keep it up and keep pushing out of my comfort zone too!

Ze end~! Must go do something more productive! Let’s go~! :3

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