im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed
my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.
and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.
anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,
I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me
im going by metro which is quite safe
im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18
she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)
anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm
so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?
anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".
and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.
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friends to lovers heart fluttering moments:
(feel free to use<3 i miss being active :') TAG ME WHEN YALL WRITE PLSSS WOULD LOVE TO READD )
running into their arms after being away for too long !!!!
leaning into each other when laughing.
casually linking arms, holding-hands, sharing hugs that lasts a teensy tiny bit longer. AHHHHH
them watching you do ur own thing with so much admiration [I've one want in life-]
"why?" "because it's you." (like them doing smthng espeviallyyforu)
"I'll do anything, as long as it's with you." n they nonchalantly say it.??? ( MA SONGG OMG)
spending more time together than usual
having your parents tease you and ship you together > ~ <
teasing them and they actually blush???
getting physically close during the denial phase. IMAGINE KISSING AND FREAKING OUT SAYING, "friends... kiss. right?"
getting ur breath hitched whenever they're too close.
imagine lingering with ur mouth slightly parted while both of ur noses brush, eyes fluttering just wondering---where this is going.
^ AND WHEN THEY SAY, "fuck it. may i kiss u?" but their voice is so low, yearning so hard.
getting noticeably shy after going a lil too hard on the kissing--"it's ok, we're still friends, right?"
a third person NOTICING IT AND going, "oh SO yall are the type to kiss and nOT TELL?" "WhAT NO, WE DIDNT-" "YEAH WE DIDN'T."
^ but one if one of them is an idiot n they go, "HOW DID U NOTICE?" "ha, so i was correct. yall mfs-!!!"
and the realising phase of how much you like them
and not being able to wait until u see them. so u can confess, get it out and about.
or what if? they end up ur house at 4 am in pouring rain and say, "i know we're best friends, but i want to be more. Let me be yours forever please, and not just as friends this time." AAAAAAAH.
SCREAMING N FIGHTING KISSING IN THE RAIN, ITS 2 AM N UR LOVIN THEIR NAME SO IN LOVE BUT U ACT INSANEEE N THATS THE WAY U LOVE THEMMM
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The horrors have returned D: I hope you get better soon!
Anyway if you're up to it I'd love to hear about the pint sized pillars "kid modes" that they have. It's so cute :( I just want them to have happy childhoods
hi anon! im so sorry i took so long to respond to this ask— this ended up in my drafts with how often i was going back to edit it haha ;u; i had to brainstorm a bit!
in order of eldest to youngest—
gyomei
sweetest soft spoken sensitive teenager ever
he really doesn’t change all that much— he’s definitely less “leadery” and “old” though. he acts like any other kid
very gentle and humble. he gets easily flustered
amane gave him a kiss on the head and gyomei had to excuse himself
sanemi and tengen found him knelt down and trying to hold back tears. he was not expecting such affection since he’s used to always being the caretaker
one day he was deep in kid mode while everyone else was fine. and him being so naturally kind and loving caused several of them to drop down with him
tengen
he’s 10x more silly and playful
however it’s also obvious he has some self confidence issues
tengen doesn’t go kid mode a lot but when he does he gets really embarrassed and upset about being seen like that
he’s like those disney channel cartoons where the little kid thinks someone is really beautiful so he constantly gives them flowers and gifts. thats him with suma, makio, and hinatsuru
“honey you don’t need to do that… we’re all married to you in the future!”
“WE’RE MARRIED?”
when tengen recovers from kid mode he is as red as a tomato while his wives fawn over him and reassure him its okay
kid mode tengen loves playing with the little ones, and rough-housing with sanemi and rengoku
giyuu
ohhhhh he’s a happy little thing. it freaks everyone out at first
very friendly and compassionate, though he mostly keeps to himself
kid mode giyuu is a little more talkative, but only after he comes out of his shell
usually it’s one of the older boys or shinobu who can get him to engage with everyone
if one of the other kids struggles he will awkwardly shuffle over and give them a hug
kid mode giyuu is fairly close with rengoku, kid mode or not
he also really likes being around sanemi and obanai, since they are his age
if all three of them , or if just sanemi and obanai , are in kid mode, they’re a trio of best friends
sanemi
he is so god damn helpful
sanemi is pretty sweet and smiley, and he always leaps at the opportunity to help one of the other kids
kid mode sanemi tends to constantly wander up to kagaya (or whoever is babysitting) and ask what he can do
but every time they just reassure him its ok, and he should go be a kid and play with the other ones
he’s disappointed but then he gets really excited when tengen and rengoku invite him to play and he’s the happiest little thing
kid mode sanemi likes hanging out with the big kids, especially tengen. tengen (and kid mode tengen) think its sweet, and make a point of including him whenever they can
he’s weirded out by genya being older and taller than him but genya makes up for it via piggy back rides
obanai
shy and jittery little thing. he doesn’t drop his guard until a bit into the transformation, even in kid mode
usually the telltale sign of obanai being in kid mode is how small he looks. he curls in on himself and his eyebrows furrow with anxiety
he’s also way more flustered around mitsuri. he has a big crush on her. kid mode mitsuri and mitsuri both find it adorable— though she doesn’t recognize the “crush” aspect. mitsuri just finds obanai very sweet and open
he is also really sensitive. you break a rule in a game? he’s upset. you take someone’s spot? he’s upset. you try to steal food from mitsuri? run
he always needs to be warm … if obanai is the only one in kid mode, you better believe everyone is offering him a warm hug or snuggles
obanai has a hard time choosing who to go to, so then half of them/all of them have a group hug
he whispers a lot. it can be hard to hear him sometimes
when he wants something, he frames it as “kaburamaru wants x” or “kaburamaru says y”
rengoku
think regular rengoku but now a literal child
honestly people cannot tell when he’s in kid mode or not. rengoku is sweet and chaotic no matter what
though kid mode rengoku tends to address everyone in a very polite manner. he calls gyomei “mr. himejima,” despite gyomei telling him he didn’t have to
he does get a little sad when people mention his dad. he will straight up start crying his heart out if he’s reminded of his mom in any way
kid mode rengoku tries to be a big brother to senjuro, and senjuro plays along, but then it cuts to rengoku being fast asleep and senjuro tucking him in, or senjuro having to help his brother get ready for bed
rengoku talks about senjuro whenever he can, kid mode especially. he has no filter at all
he would be a leash kid purely because he has a habit of forgetting small things and getting distracted and wandering off because he saw a cool butterfly and wanted to tell senjuro about it
mitsuri
similar to rengoku she doesn’t change all that much, but she’s even sweeter and more emotional than before
and like rengoku she’s more polite, though she doesn’t really have any problem asking for things or communicating her needs
kid mode mitsuri wanted to rough house too, but the older boys thought she would get hurt. she proceeded to lift sanemi up and hold him above her head
since then she has been invited to play with them every single session
she thinks obanai is super cute and is less filtered about it. same with muichiro, though mitsuri will just walk over and pinch his cheeks or scoop him up into a hug
when they play house, mitsuri is always the mama, and muichiro is always her baby
she and shinobu regularly team up to do the boy’s hair and makeup
shinobu
mischievous little beast
scary smart, but way more obvious about it
this four year old will casually list all the elements on the periodic table then pretend nothing happened , as to intimidate the others
everyone fears her
LOTS of batting her eyelashes and an extended “pleeeeaaaaassssseeee”
she has her rage and can be a grumpy kid. she’s usually well behaved, but if she didn’t get a nap, or if she’s hungry, that’s when she gets more bristly and sensitive
shinobu tends to be more open too. there’s multiple instances where she started getting really sad out of nowhere, and when pulled aside by gyomei, she would start crying about how much she misses her big sister
she and kanao are still extremely close. kanao loves having a little sister, and does her hair and plays dress up with her
she still pesters giyuu. though when giyuu is also in kid mode, the two can usually be found giggling and chatting, and giyuu will give her piggy back rides and what not
muichiro
literally a one year old baby
the sweetest and happiest little baby. he is usually seen smiling and his giggles will fill up the room
he loves being around the others. he especially loves “play time” because he’ll crawl around on the ground and go right up to people
mostly gyomei. he mostly approaches gyomei
but as happy as he is, he cries pretty easily. can’t find his stuffed bunny? cries. cant fall asleep? cries
everyone spoils the hell out of him. they love when he goes baby mode. he is the cutest little thing
lots of idle babbles and muichiro making one-worded sentences that mostly consist of him saying someone’s name or pointing out something
amane and kagaya are extremely paternal to the point baby mode muichiro refers to them as his mama and papa
it breaks everyone’s heart
the baby always wants someone’s attention. even if its as simple as being in their arms. he especially loves being with gyomei
there have been several instances where he noticed obanai wasn’t eating, and would try to feed him his baby food so “obi” could get a full belly
tengen and sanemi started laughing and it resulted in the two getting a face full of mushed up veggies and rice
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astro appreciation
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☆ my undying love for virgo moons is so intense, you guys are such good listeners and have the perfect advice... you're also so freaking talented!!
★ I once dated a 0 degree aries venus and yes it was short but I have never felt more loved than those 2 months
☆ you gemini placements especially gemini suns always know how to make people connect w each other without even trying too hard, it just happens
★ I'd like to make a quick moment to appreciate all the aquarius moons out there, I've noticed how you can make anyone laugh even during the hardest times
☆ also omg leo risings!! you hype people up and I love u for it!!
★ to all the 12H people out there: your questions are not weird or strange. they're interesting and original. don't let others stop you from asking intriguing questions
☆ also aquarius suns have so much rizz and y'all don't even notice it
★ I will never get tired of listening to a fire/9H mercury. you speak with so much passion about certain topics
☆ all the people I know who have libra sun/moon are so trustworthy during fights. like they will not break your trust, and if they are, they'll 100% receive their karma for it. and they know this. and they're smart so chances are very high that they'll be trustworthy
★ IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS BUT GOSSIPING W GEMINI VENUS IS SO FUN BRO WHAT
☆ if you ever see someone w pisces placements, don't look into their eyes. you'll literally get lost in them.
★ every single taurus I know is so cozy, like they will legit treat you like a royal if you set foot into their house I'm so serious
☆ the people who have the best rational advice in my opinion, are capricorn mercuries. they come off as an authority figure but I really like that energy. they're just really wise idrk how to explain it...
★ if you have scorpio placements you deal with jealousy SO MUCH bc you're literally so attractive. like the energy you radiate intimidates others in a way that they get jealous of you
☆ I'm telling you sags are the best travel buddies EVERRR me and my sag friends go to different countries or cities everytime we hangout and it's so much fun like???
★ ok but cancer moons. like that's it that's everything THEYRE everything.
☆ something ab 10H placements and being the literal human embodiment of the devil wears prada
★ ok biased but virgo placements >>> something ab them is just so hot like
↳ a/n : I'm definitely not done yet bc MAN I LOVE SO MANY PLACEMENTS!!! but now your girl has to study for her ecology, biology and chemistry exams </3 wish me luck y'all I'm ALMOST DONE!!! have a wonderful day or night 𖹭
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