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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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"beautiful and tender romances" babe did you forget vexatious vixen
what is more 💞 tender and beautiful 💞 than hunting someone and chasing them thru ur house then dicking them down while u say v naughty things. romance at its finest 🥰🥰🥰
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having social anxiety on tumblr dot com is so fucking frustrating cause like. i'll see a post i like and want to reblog but i do it with so so so much embarrassment because my brain's just thinking "oh god oh fuck im being so stupid right now what if op sees it and thinks im annoying" but like. they realistically would either not care at all or be happy about someone reblogging their post so like what the actual fuck am i afraid of??? but here's the kicker. the reason i have social anxiety in the first place is because i HAVE experienced these comically horrible social experiences of being judged and insulted for no reason before. multiple times. recently. the possibility of this happening is not a 0 chance. i have legitimate reasons to be afraid. and that is. actually horrific
#even on tumblr dot com (the neurodivergent website) i'm not safe from being ridiculed like my anxiety prophesises#the worst part is that the reason this has happened is because i'm autistic or i misinterpreted something. and i can't just-#-stop being autistic because that is impossible. so the ridicule could actually strike me at any time for no reason at all and that is-#-really scary.#i remember this one specific time i misinterpreted a post months ago and a couple people left sorta sarcastic snide replies on it-#-atting me and i literally did not know what i did wrong and was like ''hey wait i think i might have misinterpreted this. someone explain'#and luckily someone did and it was fine. but like. that was actually horrifying for me.#i was relatively new to tumblr at the time and i legitimately thought people were going to like dogpile me or something. i was that afraid.#and that sounds really stupid but you need to understand that 1. these people did not bother to say what i did wrong and were really vague-#-so that left no room for me to actually like. know what i did. and 2. being mocked and made fun of for not knowing something is something-#-i have gone through many MANY times and people dogpiling others for miniscule reasons is very common online. so like.#it was really fucking scary for me because my brain takes a light shower and turns it into a raging thunderstorm and i literally cannot-#-control that.#also slightly off topic but i hate when there's a misunderstanding or argument online and people are just snide and sarcastic about it-#-and won't bother to explain for no reason. stop being vague and just tell me already!! i don't want to play mental charades with you!!#anyway. yeah i hate having social anxiety it sucks.#social anxiety#vent#this is also the reason i rarely reblog or reply to others in my fandom. i promise i'm not being rude or cold! i literally-#-physically cannot bring myself to reply a lot of the time because i'm absolutely petrified to. i'm frozen with unimaginable fear.#so liking posts is my way of showing i appreciate everyone :)
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for sonic battle i have to track down my ds charger (or buy a new one if i cant find it) and for the others i have to get off my ass and set the wii back up. so i have to suffer either way
#also if you want to you can argue your case for why i should pick a certain one in the replies. may or may not take those into account#i have a few other unfinished sonic games other than these but ive narrowed it down to Just these for now#also ive played all of these at least a little bit but with battle and colors ive barely touched them#to the point where i might as well be playing from the start on those#i think i did try to finish riders a few months ago but i got stuck on a hard level and gave up . family guy death pose
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@rockheadcd asked : Roark is sweating bullets, mildly miserable out in the heat like this. This mountain boy still hasn't quite acclimated to the heat and humidity of Sunyshore's coastline. No amount of labor makes him feel like literal goop. "Dude, how did you live in this every year? I'm seconds from jumping into the ocean and we've only been out for like half an hour—with your jacket no less!"
"... It's... not that bad?" And he genuinely means that, used to the weather as he is after having lived by the sea like this his whole life. Sure, Volkner also remembers Oreburgh getting cold enough that he refused to even just open the door without several layers to shield him from the cold, but surely the difference is not so drastic that Roark can't handle the heat on this side of the region, right...?
... Ah, he's sweating. A lot. Maybe he really is not, in fact, prepared to handle this heat, after all. Huh.
"I... I'm just used to it after growing up here..." Not exactly the answer Roark needs when he's desperate for a way to not, in fact, die in the sun. At least he's not having a heat stroke, right? Right??? ( that's volkner's hopeful thinking and a small bit of fear for good measure. they should get some water, probably. )
What to do to help the poor man not suffer the consequences of just existing in this city... well, he could jump into the water, all things considered.
"Um, if that's gonna actually help you I do know a good spot to just chill in the water for a while...?" Volkner's just hoping that will be enough to keep him alive until the sun starts to go down, at least. It's the best he can do short of bringing Rotom and the fridge along, and he's not too keen on that solution—
#〔 ask . 〕 ϟ i will not fall ; i will not fade ; i will take your breath away .#〔 ic . 〕 ϟ i will shut the world away .#rockheadcd#// i did have another reply in me#is this the secret beach spot lore. idk this ask has been there for a few months
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Also in the replies of the Steph concept art on twitter announcing she was gonna be in a new project at DC (posted by Travis Mercer), there were at least 3 comments saying "will Tim be there?" I don't care how hard you ship timsteph I'm exploding you with my eyeballs if you do that on my girls post again
#ramblings of a lunatic#taking a step back to acknowledge that my stanning may be getting overzealous#but then again I'm not in ppls quotes or replies I'm vagueing on an entirely different website with no relevant tags. it could be worse#anyway I know tims had it rough these past couple of months ever since zdarsky shifted focus of the batman title to have less tim#but it still feels. idk. just a wee bit uninspired to act like steph can't go two steps without tim being behind her#im ngl i like timsteph when they're cute but timsteph twitter has been. pissing me off a tad lately#the refusal to acknowledge the sexism in dixons robin run and how it impacts stephs writing and their relationships writing#the refusal to acknowledge tims occasional condescension and hypocrisy when it comes to stephs vigilantism#seemingly only wanting her to be spoiler when he wants her around and telling her to give it up most of the time#also the constant disrespect of stephs batgirl era on there weirdly enough?#I've harped on about this on main and in drafts but despite it's flaws it's a good turn for stephs character#she's the focus she gets development (an upward trajectory! which had previously been unheard of for her! bc she did have flaws as spoiler-#-its just that both writers and characters alike seemed to arbitrarily decide she didn't have the capacity to grow past them! but she did!)#hell i saw a BIZARRE take today i just have to bitch about#which was them saying that Batgirl was a ''heteronormative mask'' steph put on#with spoiler being her more authentic self (and this being paralleled to gender expression with stephs isolation from the batfam as spoiler-#-showing how she ''wasnt like them'')#which. I'm not denying you the view that spoiler has a certain genderific swag to her but the needless dragging of her batgirl persona#steph got treated badly as spoiler bc she was A Girl. it's genuinely that simple dixon felt batman and robin would never stand for a girl-#-running around doing the things they did and would need to chivalrously stop her. he's gone on record saying this#she's constantly getting belittled by mostly men (cass also dismisses her but it feels distinctly less gendered)#and in the end it's barbara who learns to give steph a second chance despite her mistakes and they have a positive relationship#something ppl are quick to dismiss as being in and of itself sexist bc they're pairing the two girls off together#as if batgirl isn't a legacy and as if babs and steph don't have parallels in their resilience and refusal to accept when ppl tell them no#for better and for worse!!#like. idk how you took the strongest feminist element in that comic (bc there are elements of sexism here and there! 2009 n all)#and somehow turn it into ''heteronormativity'' YOU PPL ARE JUST SAYING WORDS AT THIS POINT!!!#anyway. someone take away my internet access
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Hi Mr. majorbaby.... I know you like the early years but can you share your top 10 from season 4 to season 11? I'm curious 👀🤔
idk if you're around still because this ask is pretty old, sorry about that. i was procrastinating because i was writing out some explanations but I think those might be better suited to individual posts at some point.
tbh i consider season 4 early years because i separate "early" from "later" based on larry gelbart's tenure, not the cast shakeup. season 5 half-qualifies because gene reynolds was still around, but the gelbart-reynolds writing and producing partnership is what really defines the "early years" era for me. if i responded to your question as phrased, a good half of the episodes would be season 4 eps lol, so 5-11 it is:
s05e08: Dear Sigmund s05e14: Hawk's Nightmare s06e05: War of Nerves s06e08: In Love and War s07e02: Peace on Us s08e03: Guerilla My Dreams s09e01: The Best of Enemies s09e12: Depressing News s10e05: Give em Hell Hawkeye s10e20: Sons and Bowlers
#looking at it now it's really the top 10 later years eps of an early years guy lol#sons and bowlers very nearly did not make the cut but i'll leave it...#if you've sent me an ask in the last... oh god one month now i'm sorry if i haven't gotten to it#i'm around but p busy and it takes longer to write thoughtful posts and i try to be a bit thoughtful when responding to asks#re: mash#replies
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i hope people know that i'm not, like, actively avoiding writing action scenes so to speak. i am genuinely just shit at writing them so they intimidate me and i get all weird, haha.
i genuinely just look like this meme for days on end.
#∘ ◦ ✩ NATURALLY i’m just a bit of a dumbass. | kai (ooc.)#pokemon battles#or writing sparring things#idk maybe it's the showing and not telling things#i get so worked up and trying to describe#what i see in my head without going overboard#it's why it always takes me months to reply to syd :(#but then i look at my muses and i'm like#most of them are from battle-heavy media???#like i did this to myself lmao#tbd.
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On one thing, I'm low-key annoyed that my gifs get better engagement on Twitter where they were reposted by someone else.
On another thing... Twitter totally butchers their quality and they look like shit.
So... enjoy the shitty, watered-down versions of my gifs I guess. 🤷♀️
#personal#i did notify the person about it. that it's my gif from tumblr#without being rude about it or asking to take it down. it's useless#they liked me reply. so did two other people#so at least i've notified them#but seeing as i posted it two months ago on my sideblog and it's got 176 notes in total#64 which are reblogs#and on twitter it's already got 111 retweets and 483 likes after a few hours#so... sighs#why do i bother honestly
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Image Aaravos can shape-shifting into whatever animal he wants and one time he turns into a cat just to mess with Callum ,you know the meme with the women pointing angrily at the cat ,image it but with the whole world vs Aaravos
There are 2 - things (?) being said in this questions so I'll answer this in parts---
I don't really think Aaravos enjoy morphing himself into something else due to what we have seen of him (minus ss4 I will talk abt this later, in another post probably--) He seems to prefer to create an entirely separate animal/entity to act in place of him. I do feel like he would turn into a cat if Callum ever asked, but he himself might not go out of his way to do this...especially when he's been travelling with Callum for a while -he DEFINITELY would have seen the way this boy talks to animals...
And personally I can not see someone like Aaravos enjoyed being talked to that way...at all...
However~ I do think he can just mess with Callum by being himself just fine, for example:
Callum listens to him most of the time because he's a good boy who loves and respect his master . . . I feel like this already opened up endless windows of entertainment for Aaravos lol.
2. As for the woman yelling at cat meme... I feel like this
has been done SO . MANY TIMES. BEFORE with various of characters from the show and also- I do not have the time or effort to photoshop a decent one.
BUT
may I offer you (and anyone else who's probably reading) a different experience :
is that bowl of rice floating? yes. yes it is.
I feel like this would have been hilarious to witness.
Bonus if you really want to see him as a cat I made a sketch for it during my lunar new year post right >> here << It is a sketch nonetheless so please forgive the ugliness 🤜🤛✊👊🙏
#decent asks takes me longer to answer#because I wanna put a little something something into it#I like people who are nice#so I work hard to reply to them#anyways#enjoy#it's been a long month#god#i did not expect april to hit me so hard#tdp#ask jamie#aaravos#callum#the dragon prince#tdp callum#tdp aaravos#yes yes the usual tagging procedure#this has been in my drafts for wayy too long#like 3 days i think#doodle#my art#sketches
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Okay after freaking out about alhaitham it’s time to be neurotic again that girl is freaking me out sm :D
#like bro I don’t understand wallah I don’t#I’m so confused and it’s literally ruining everything#dora daily#AND I NEVER SAY WALLAH ABOUT ANYTHING THIS IS HOW BAD ITS RUINING ME AAAAAAH#on one hand she’s ignoring me on the other she isn’t and she genuinely doesn’t see any of my posts#on the other she just forgot#ALL OF WHICH ARE SHIT OPTIONS#IT ISNT FAIR#i even tried liking her posts to show her yo I’m alive in case she didn’t see#I TRIED SENDING HER AN ASK ABOUT SOMETHING WEEKS AGO AND SHE DIDNT REPLY#I am trying so freaking hard and it is not working#and it’s fucking me up because what the fuck did I even do man#I didn’t do anything different#why do people ALWAYS do this I don’t fucking get it#it would’ve been much kinder if she just dropped me from the beginning when I was so hesitant with her#before I got so attached because what she’s doing right now is literally not only torture but so incredibly cruel#like I was getting obsessed with this one girl at work once but she ghosted me relatively early on in the very beginning stages of my#obsession coming into fruition and guess what IM TOTALLY FINE WITH IT NOW#BUT SHE LET THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOP FOR MONTHS#then introduced a third party then now she doesn’t even acknowledge me#she is making me sewerslidal and it’s literally ruining everything#any time I would try to study I think of her and it freaks me out#every time I try to focus I think of her and it freaks me out#even when I go to sleep bro#like 8 ish weeks ago or so it literally was making me so messed up that if I hadn’t gone outside for a necessary out of uni task then my dad#taking me sight seeing in said area I genuinely don’t know what would have happened#because the level of rage I felt or whatever it was#was the most insane form of genuine torture ever#THIS WHOLE POST SEEMS NEUROTIC AND I’m just like I don’t even know anymore man#but what do I even do atp like bro
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it is worth posting this tho so just a real quick note on activity & general housekeeping -
my grandmother is 88 years old and struggling with dementia (possibly alzheimer's - there's a family history, but she's never been diagnosed). two days a week i'm her primary caretaker; four days a week i work between six and eight hours a day; i am additionally constantly applying to jobs, working on taking care of a house on my own, and trying to generally help out wherever else i can.
basically this just means that i'll be here when i'm here and i won't when i'm not. i'm doing my best but there is so much potential source of stress in my life that i simply cannot be fucked to add another. this is here for joy and it is not worth doing if there isn't joy. i'll reply to things when i can & it's totally cool if that's not your speed! there's no judgment for how you choose to engage with this hobby & if you prefer lightning-fast partners i don't blame you in the slightest. this is just a general statement of what to expect here; curate your dash & your experience on this website based on your own needs.
since i've taken tumblr off my phone, your best bet, if you want to plot or talk ooc, is to get my disco; i'm happy to share it w any & all mutuals!
#(it's ! a little draining taking care of her not bc it's really hard work? but she did raise me as much as my mother did)#(this is an italian catholic family on that side & there is a lot of pride that makes it difficult to accept being cared for)#(and seeing her struggle isn't easy! she was a titan in my eyes all through my childhood and seeing her fragile is difficult)#(it's a privilege to get to take care of her (and the family i have undergoing cancer treatment) but it does drain me sometimes)#(i make no apologies for it but i do think it's worth being upfront abt what you can expect here. i might be super super active!)#(it might take me three weeks to three months to reply to things. there's no way of knowing.)#iv. tilting pretty sharply bitchward. ( marianning )
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the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it
#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet#I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through#idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :(#like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself#& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy#I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem#I had 4 social plans this month. that's it#that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!!#is this the norm for adulthood? :(#& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy#but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too#the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021#but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all#I'm not going anywhere w this. idk#just one of those days#everything so fuck everybody suck :(#boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake#now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend#assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((:#I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake#& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx'#OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks#but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together!#'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc#'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!!#every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores#they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go#& I'm like any time!! I love u!!#& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired#like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(
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everyone please Consider🩸
#Harold Finch#Person of Interest#told you i'd do it#it looks a bit silly but if it makes people think of vampire!Harold it's worth it to me#also. EVERYONE LOOK AT MY HALLOWEEN LAYOUT I'M NOT SURE IT LOOKS GOOD LMAO (there's no desktop theme i'm sorry that's just too much work 😭)#i just couldn't let Halloween pass without changing my layout. like. that's one of my favorite things to do here </3#do you see that godforsaken Room 23 gif? that's the first gif i make in Years. and i downloaded 3 programs before figuring out how to do it#i love the Room 23 video so much i'll probably use it again on a regular layout though :-]c#oh and the reason the title is missing its last few letters is because the Zalgo effect i wanted to use takes up all the space fcxsgfcxhgsx#(but i think it looks funny / adds to the creepy factor so i'll keep it)#also: OOMFS i've seen all your tagged posts and replies yes even the ones that are months old i DID NOT forget i SWEAR. i'll answer them#when i have free time!!!!!#and in case anyone wanted to know: the last ep of POI i watched was 3x18. i have posts from S2 drafted to comment on so yeah i still care#ok i need to go. b y e *turns into dust*#luaPost=true
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I know it takes time and may never happen but it is like, a bit disheartening to not receive feedback when you've done a fill for someone. Like it's petty but there's some fills I would do, but knowing that when I filled for that ship before/that character I didn't get a response makes it so I'm not compelled to fill it.
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#i'm just so tired and angry about everything#i'm late on my period#that could explain why i'm feeling like that#i'm just hurt and annoyed by my irl friends#lately i'm always the one that reaches out to them#except for 2 people#and even of they reach out to me ots just because they wanna know something that would benefit them#i know they are not doing that on purpose#shit still hurts#i'm just so tired of saying “oh dont worry its fine”#its not fine if you take 2-4 weeks to reply to something#especially if you asked me something and i gave you an answer immediately#its not fine when you havent messaged me in a month just to ask where you can buy something specific#i'm tired of people asking me how i am and when i tell them that i'm fucking depressive#they just go “oh sorry to hear that. i'm here for you. anyway did you know.”#or “anyway look at these tiktoks”#i'm just angry and tired today#i dont want to talk to anyone#i'm also very upset that havent found a new job yet#the unemployment center hasnt paid me my money yet either#i'm losing it
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