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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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christmas eve ramble tags and some pictures of me and nice things from this year that i have randomly at 2:47am on christmas eve decided to post on tumblr. like why am I posting my face idek but I just felt reflective and i always just dump my rambles on whichever blog I'm using the most 🙈 i have not thought very hard about picking these. my motivation is that i want to force myself into acknowledging that for the majority of this year i felt good. I did good things for my health, and at work, and for my friends and family (even though I am desperate always to tell myself that i have never done anything good for anyone ever.) I found a new fun thing & lovely kind fun people to help me explore it. i got to sleep with my hand on/in Henry (cat not popstar) belly fur. yes i started having panic attacks about stuff to do w my dad, and money is tight (i mean i live in syd..) and i miss my mum and sara and i maybeee spent far too much time speaking to my ex fiance until he went on some rant about family law and I got the ick for once and for all lmao - but i was happy on many occasions.
#so we're doing Christmas tomorrow on Christmas Eve#well its 2.30am so we're doing Christmas today on Christmas Eve#ive been up late making Cypriot Grain Salad and freezing packs of scallops#no not a strange chrissie tradition just the fish place i ordered from listed them as $3.50 each so i ordered 12 just as a little two bite#mouthful each along w the oysters#and they sent 12 packs of 6#which do NOT cost 3.50 each#i actually feel a bit bad#anyway i froze most of them#we didn't do a tree this year#i think last year i did the tree and needed to needed the connection to mum#but this year when i mentioned it to Imi she sighed. and its no fun on your own#so i bought a lovely Christmas Bush and ive twisted those wire fairy lights around it and some little icicle tinsel#i need to sleep for a few hours and then get up and tidy the balcony and vacuum and clean the toilet and wrap presents#can you imagine if i had been able to have kids i am so last minute its awful#oh and a friwnd who had a horrid miscarriage#sorry they are all horrid#but shes pregnant and thats really great news#and my dad was nice to me today when we talked#also i took an extra week of leave off so now im having a month#which is so nice#im going to finish two fics#send cards and parcels to ao many people#i have replies from when my mum died ive still not done#im going to clean out the grarage#im going to swim everyday and try my harsest not to get burnt#okay maybe every second day#summer!#iveet stuff w my dad take away my happiness i had for the first half of the year - also mourning Sara#but i feel a bit more in control and im going to lean in to being proud of what i achieved this year and in finding new joy
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"beautiful and tender romances" babe did you forget vexatious vixen
what is more 💞 tender and beautiful 💞 than hunting someone and chasing them thru ur house then dicking them down while u say v naughty things. romance at its finest 🥰🥰🥰
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for sonic battle i have to track down my ds charger (or buy a new one if i cant find it) and for the others i have to get off my ass and set the wii back up. so i have to suffer either way
#also if you want to you can argue your case for why i should pick a certain one in the replies. may or may not take those into account#i have a few other unfinished sonic games other than these but ive narrowed it down to Just these for now#also ive played all of these at least a little bit but with battle and colors ive barely touched them#to the point where i might as well be playing from the start on those#i think i did try to finish riders a few months ago but i got stuck on a hard level and gave up . family guy death pose
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Also in the replies of the Steph concept art on twitter announcing she was gonna be in a new project at DC (posted by Travis Mercer), there were at least 3 comments saying "will Tim be there?" I don't care how hard you ship timsteph I'm exploding you with my eyeballs if you do that on my girls post again
#ramblings of a lunatic#taking a step back to acknowledge that my stanning may be getting overzealous#but then again I'm not in ppls quotes or replies I'm vagueing on an entirely different website with no relevant tags. it could be worse#anyway I know tims had it rough these past couple of months ever since zdarsky shifted focus of the batman title to have less tim#but it still feels. idk. just a wee bit uninspired to act like steph can't go two steps without tim being behind her#im ngl i like timsteph when they're cute but timsteph twitter has been. pissing me off a tad lately#the refusal to acknowledge the sexism in dixons robin run and how it impacts stephs writing and their relationships writing#the refusal to acknowledge tims occasional condescension and hypocrisy when it comes to stephs vigilantism#seemingly only wanting her to be spoiler when he wants her around and telling her to give it up most of the time#also the constant disrespect of stephs batgirl era on there weirdly enough?#I've harped on about this on main and in drafts but despite it's flaws it's a good turn for stephs character#she's the focus she gets development (an upward trajectory! which had previously been unheard of for her! bc she did have flaws as spoiler-#-its just that both writers and characters alike seemed to arbitrarily decide she didn't have the capacity to grow past them! but she did!)#hell i saw a BIZARRE take today i just have to bitch about#which was them saying that Batgirl was a ''heteronormative mask'' steph put on#with spoiler being her more authentic self (and this being paralleled to gender expression with stephs isolation from the batfam as spoiler-#-showing how she ''wasnt like them'')#which. I'm not denying you the view that spoiler has a certain genderific swag to her but the needless dragging of her batgirl persona#steph got treated badly as spoiler bc she was A Girl. it's genuinely that simple dixon felt batman and robin would never stand for a girl-#-running around doing the things they did and would need to chivalrously stop her. he's gone on record saying this#she's constantly getting belittled by mostly men (cass also dismisses her but it feels distinctly less gendered)#and in the end it's barbara who learns to give steph a second chance despite her mistakes and they have a positive relationship#something ppl are quick to dismiss as being in and of itself sexist bc they're pairing the two girls off together#as if batgirl isn't a legacy and as if babs and steph don't have parallels in their resilience and refusal to accept when ppl tell them no#for better and for worse!!#like. idk how you took the strongest feminist element in that comic (bc there are elements of sexism here and there! 2009 n all)#and somehow turn it into ''heteronormativity'' YOU PPL ARE JUST SAYING WORDS AT THIS POINT!!!#anyway. someone take away my internet access
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Hi Mr. majorbaby.... I know you like the early years but can you share your top 10 from season 4 to season 11? I'm curious 👀🤔
idk if you're around still because this ask is pretty old, sorry about that. i was procrastinating because i was writing out some explanations but I think those might be better suited to individual posts at some point.
tbh i consider season 4 early years because i separate "early" from "later" based on larry gelbart's tenure, not the cast shakeup. season 5 half-qualifies because gene reynolds was still around, but the gelbart-reynolds writing and producing partnership is what really defines the "early years" era for me. if i responded to your question as phrased, a good half of the episodes would be season 4 eps lol, so 5-11 it is:
s05e08: Dear Sigmund s05e14: Hawk's Nightmare s06e05: War of Nerves s06e08: In Love and War s07e02: Peace on Us s08e03: Guerilla My Dreams s09e01: The Best of Enemies s09e12: Depressing News s10e05: Give em Hell Hawkeye s10e20: Sons and Bowlers
#looking at it now it's really the top 10 later years eps of an early years guy lol#sons and bowlers very nearly did not make the cut but i'll leave it...#if you've sent me an ask in the last... oh god one month now i'm sorry if i haven't gotten to it#i'm around but p busy and it takes longer to write thoughtful posts and i try to be a bit thoughtful when responding to asks#re: mash#replies
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On one thing, I'm low-key annoyed that my gifs get better engagement on Twitter where they were reposted by someone else.
On another thing... Twitter totally butchers their quality and they look like shit.
So... enjoy the shitty, watered-down versions of my gifs I guess. 🤷♀️
#personal#i did notify the person about it. that it's my gif from tumblr#without being rude about it or asking to take it down. it's useless#they liked me reply. so did two other people#so at least i've notified them#but seeing as i posted it two months ago on my sideblog and it's got 176 notes in total#64 which are reblogs#and on twitter it's already got 111 retweets and 483 likes after a few hours#so... sighs#why do i bother honestly
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Image Aaravos can shape-shifting into whatever animal he wants and one time he turns into a cat just to mess with Callum ,you know the meme with the women pointing angrily at the cat ,image it but with the whole world vs Aaravos
There are 2 - things (?) being said in this questions so I'll answer this in parts---
I don't really think Aaravos enjoy morphing himself into something else due to what we have seen of him (minus ss4 I will talk abt this later, in another post probably--) He seems to prefer to create an entirely separate animal/entity to act in place of him. I do feel like he would turn into a cat if Callum ever asked, but he himself might not go out of his way to do this...especially when he's been travelling with Callum for a while -he DEFINITELY would have seen the way this boy talks to animals...
And personally I can not see someone like Aaravos enjoyed being talked to that way...at all...
However~ I do think he can just mess with Callum by being himself just fine, for example:
Callum listens to him most of the time because he's a good boy who loves and respect his master . . . I feel like this already opened up endless windows of entertainment for Aaravos lol.
2. As for the woman yelling at cat meme... I feel like this
has been done SO . MANY TIMES. BEFORE with various of characters from the show and also- I do not have the time or effort to photoshop a decent one.
BUT
may I offer you (and anyone else who's probably reading) a different experience :
is that bowl of rice floating? yes. yes it is.
I feel like this would have been hilarious to witness.
Bonus if you really want to see him as a cat I made a sketch for it during my lunar new year post right >> here << It is a sketch nonetheless so please forgive the ugliness 🤜🤛✊👊🙏
#decent asks takes me longer to answer#because I wanna put a little something something into it#I like people who are nice#so I work hard to reply to them#anyways#enjoy#it's been a long month#god#i did not expect april to hit me so hard#tdp#ask jamie#aaravos#callum#the dragon prince#tdp callum#tdp aaravos#yes yes the usual tagging procedure#this has been in my drafts for wayy too long#like 3 days i think#doodle#my art#sketches
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Okay after freaking out about alhaitham it’s time to be neurotic again that girl is freaking me out sm :D
#like bro I don’t understand wallah I don’t#I’m so confused and it’s literally ruining everything#dora daily#AND I NEVER SAY WALLAH ABOUT ANYTHING THIS IS HOW BAD ITS RUINING ME AAAAAAH#on one hand she’s ignoring me on the other she isn’t and she genuinely doesn’t see any of my posts#on the other she just forgot#ALL OF WHICH ARE SHIT OPTIONS#IT ISNT FAIR#i even tried liking her posts to show her yo I’m alive in case she didn’t see#I TRIED SENDING HER AN ASK ABOUT SOMETHING WEEKS AGO AND SHE DIDNT REPLY#I am trying so freaking hard and it is not working#and it’s fucking me up because what the fuck did I even do man#I didn’t do anything different#why do people ALWAYS do this I don’t fucking get it#it would’ve been much kinder if she just dropped me from the beginning when I was so hesitant with her#before I got so attached because what she’s doing right now is literally not only torture but so incredibly cruel#like I was getting obsessed with this one girl at work once but she ghosted me relatively early on in the very beginning stages of my#obsession coming into fruition and guess what IM TOTALLY FINE WITH IT NOW#BUT SHE LET THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOP FOR MONTHS#then introduced a third party then now she doesn’t even acknowledge me#she is making me sewerslidal and it’s literally ruining everything#any time I would try to study I think of her and it freaks me out#every time I try to focus I think of her and it freaks me out#even when I go to sleep bro#like 8 ish weeks ago or so it literally was making me so messed up that if I hadn’t gone outside for a necessary out of uni task then my dad#taking me sight seeing in said area I genuinely don’t know what would have happened#because the level of rage I felt or whatever it was#was the most insane form of genuine torture ever#THIS WHOLE POST SEEMS NEUROTIC AND I’m just like I don’t even know anymore man#but what do I even do atp like bro
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it is worth posting this tho so just a real quick note on activity & general housekeeping -
my grandmother is 88 years old and struggling with dementia (possibly alzheimer's - there's a family history, but she's never been diagnosed). two days a week i'm her primary caretaker; four days a week i work between six and eight hours a day; i am additionally constantly applying to jobs, working on taking care of a house on my own, and trying to generally help out wherever else i can.
basically this just means that i'll be here when i'm here and i won't when i'm not. i'm doing my best but there is so much potential source of stress in my life that i simply cannot be fucked to add another. this is here for joy and it is not worth doing if there isn't joy. i'll reply to things when i can & it's totally cool if that's not your speed! there's no judgment for how you choose to engage with this hobby & if you prefer lightning-fast partners i don't blame you in the slightest. this is just a general statement of what to expect here; curate your dash & your experience on this website based on your own needs.
since i've taken tumblr off my phone, your best bet, if you want to plot or talk ooc, is to get my disco; i'm happy to share it w any & all mutuals!
#(it's ! a little draining taking care of her not bc it's really hard work? but she did raise me as much as my mother did)#(this is an italian catholic family on that side & there is a lot of pride that makes it difficult to accept being cared for)#(and seeing her struggle isn't easy! she was a titan in my eyes all through my childhood and seeing her fragile is difficult)#(it's a privilege to get to take care of her (and the family i have undergoing cancer treatment) but it does drain me sometimes)#(i make no apologies for it but i do think it's worth being upfront abt what you can expect here. i might be super super active!)#(it might take me three weeks to three months to reply to things. there's no way of knowing.)#iv. tilting pretty sharply bitchward. ( marianning )
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I know it takes time and may never happen but it is like, a bit disheartening to not receive feedback when you've done a fill for someone. Like it's petty but there's some fills I would do, but knowing that when I filled for that ship before/that character I didn't get a response makes it so I'm not compelled to fill it.
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#i'm just so tired and angry about everything#i'm late on my period#that could explain why i'm feeling like that#i'm just hurt and annoyed by my irl friends#lately i'm always the one that reaches out to them#except for 2 people#and even of they reach out to me ots just because they wanna know something that would benefit them#i know they are not doing that on purpose#shit still hurts#i'm just so tired of saying “oh dont worry its fine”#its not fine if you take 2-4 weeks to reply to something#especially if you asked me something and i gave you an answer immediately#its not fine when you havent messaged me in a month just to ask where you can buy something specific#i'm tired of people asking me how i am and when i tell them that i'm fucking depressive#they just go “oh sorry to hear that. i'm here for you. anyway did you know.”#or “anyway look at these tiktoks”#i'm just angry and tired today#i dont want to talk to anyone#i'm also very upset that havent found a new job yet#the unemployment center hasnt paid me my money yet either#i'm losing it
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(Jacobsbadwig) with all due respect, when the fuck did you get back! I missed you!
never left, only reincarnated :)
#i missed you too!!!!!! how's the fanfic going???? well i hope :)#it has been a Time#my burnout & mental illness got the better of me. i intended on divorcing myself from fandom & deleting my blog#i wanted to make myself as small as possible so i could spend whatever energy i had on work and drugs#i was afraid my presence was negatively affecting the fandom at best & contributing nothing at worst#it didn't feel like there was any place for me anymore - not because of anything anyone said or did but bc#many posts i made i no longer agreed w/ & bc i was too burnt out to write new theories i figured no one would notice or care i was gone#so i got super drunk and deleted everything#people contacted me about my blog but i was too anxious to reply#bc i didn't want to admit i had made a mistake#i kept the handle in case i ever wanted to post#but for a long time i had nothing to say about twilight outside of what my fanfiction had to say about it#i lurked for a while & at the end of the day i missed the community that came with participating in fandom#really tho - what helped was quitting my crushing job and taking several months to travel around the pacific northwest#(burnout is REAL!!!!!!)#and the admin of the twilight Discord server recognizing my handle & taking the time to talk to me - which was very sweet of them#plus - i am rereading Eclipse for the fanfic rewrite and began to have Thoughts#tbh i've been finding it amazing that anyone ever noticed i left or remembered my handle! im kinda blown away#anyway here's all the information you never asked for LMAO#i am happy to be back in the circle :)#cheers to you#<3
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#putting this in the tags bc I need to get this out but also feel kinda guilty about it so I don’t wanna scream it in a post#but I feel soo irrationally pissed at my friend#bc she’s one of my best friends and I love her but I haven’t heard from her all summer except for the like four times she answered my#messages only to immediately ask me something in return#it took her two weeks to reply to a meme I send her only to immediately follow up with ‘het remember how you said your parents wanted to#hire my band’#‘ahaha summer is so busy I’ve read all my books anyway you told me I could borrow this one book?’#last was ‘heyy sorry for not replying haha anyway im bored next week wanna go on a trip’#to which I replied ‘yeah I would love to but I have my internship starting next week remember’#and its like I don’t mind that she doesn’t answer my texts like god knows I hate texting#but its really starting to feel like our relationship is fully based on her needing me for something#which I have felt before but I kinda dismissed it as me thinking it was always me who had to take initiative which was disproved when she#asked me to meet up a few times but thinking back it was always like ‘hey let’s meet up for coffee’ and then when I arrive having literally#left the library where I’d been studying for only ten minutes bc otherwise i wouldn’t see her.#she’s like ‘oh I don’t want coffee anymore but I need to go to the supermarket wanna join me?’#which I always did bc I wanna spend time together and it’s cheaper for me than getting overpriced coffee but!!!!#anyway I’m feeling this now bc while she hadn’t answered my ‘sorry can’t go on a trip’ text I did just see that she’s currently in portugal#with another friend#which is like??? so she just found someone else to relieve her of her boredom and so she didn’t need me anymore so why answer me right??#anyway it’s probably not that bad and I will talk to her about it when I see her again which will probably be in a month I guess but for now#I don’t wanna ruin her trip
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Urogi with his no thoughts for personal space brought his body close to the Upper Two. He hovered right behind him, his body afloat by the power of his wings, that sent a light breeze against Douma. "I have always wondered what all this is about." Urogi's hands reached forward to Douma's hair, scaled fingers lifted some of the red parts. "It's like someone tossed a bucket of blood on top of your head, hahah!" He liked it, but with the way he said it, was playful, and full of small cackles of joy.
Many things are whispered among demons of Upper Two's capricious nature. Where some have benefited from his fickle bouts of generosity, others have had to face a more cruel side — and who Dōma gives his blessing to is often subject to who he favors.
So, Urogi should feel honored, that the only repercussion to his transgression would be to witness his own arm falling to the floor. The fan's swipe is faster than the eye could catch; one moment, the second moon had been standing completely still and the next there's only a lingering chill and the tengu is missing a replacable arm. The grin plastered on Dōma's face never falters, though. It almost comes across as disconnected.
❝ Mm— I don't think that's your job, buddy. To wonder about things. I mean, between you and Karaku, you guys barely have a full brain capacity. ❞ And he says it sweetly, of course, as if it's not meant to be an insult. ❝ But I'll tell you! This bloodstain crown is a gift from Master. So I'm always careful not to wash it off, by accident. ❞ Of course, that's only half the story. Water wouldn't make it go away as the indents of Muzan's claws are still there in his scalp.
❝ I guess it's kind of like the stuff around your eyes? And on your head. ❞ Which, he proceeds to poke. They're not the same, after all. Dōma can touch him as he likes, because that's how the ladder goes. ❝ It kind of looks like that wart on Hantengu's head. ❞
#(( haha i am so!! fast at replying!! did not take me 2 months no- ))#viciousbite#♛ ¦ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴛʀᴏᴜʙʟᴇꜱ༺ answered.
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was abt to go out to the gym but the adhd referral service finally emailed me to say they need me to call them to book an appointment and it says in the email they don't make appts via email but I'm DEAF I Know they know that bc its on my fucking patient form UGHHHHH
#emailing back to ask if they can make an exception in these circumstances.. ive waited SEVEN MONTHS for them to contact me#im not falling at the first hurdle.#if that fails I'll have to rly nicely ask my flatmate to call them for me and I can sit there with her to pass on any information 🥹#but health services fucking hate it when someone else makes a call on ur behalf so they might not allow that either#why are these systems so inaccessible#I cant even go anywhere in perspn bc its completely online smhsmh#its fine. its fine im going to.the climbing gym and theyll probably reply to me tomorrow im not going to cry thinking abt it#AHHHHHHHHHHH im rly glad they did get back to me.tho i got rly scared when i saw theyd indefinitely stopped accepting applications#even tho i submitted mine ages ago.. i was worried it would take over a year to get through the queue at this rate#i rly rly rly hope its not too painful a process i just want a diagnosis so i can try medication for this shit man#and i hope the med waiting time isnt as long as they say it is bc. another seven months. 🥹🥹🥹🥹#uaaaaughh ok im out of here#.diaries
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