#'i can't see much of a future. unless we find out what's to blame what a shame' - will

[genericpuff]

So there's this account I follow on Tiktok that critiques some webtoons and LO was one of them. They're discussing the finale and my god the comments are glorious. Lots of the people commenting either fell off the comic or were once die hard fans who hated what happened. Some of them even were fans of the series who recently started hating it after the hiatus. From what I saw this was what their concerns were.

Apollo not being punished harshly enough

Last minute queer rep with Hera

Certain plots being thrown in and old ones being tossed out

The ending feeling rushed.

Some of them are blaming Webtoons for 'axing the series' so Rachel had no choice but to rush it. Others are questioning why was there a hiatus at all if this was the pay off?

So now even some of the fans are starting to feel like we former fans do.

Yeeah you know it's not good when even the fans were left going "... huh?" And frankly I do feel bad, as much as I've talked shit about the stans in the past, so many of them hung on with the genuine good faith that it was all "building up to something". There are also people who are still praising it as the best thing ever which, okay, that's them, and people who didn't love the finale but are leaving it be like reasonable non-obsessed people.

I'm not entirely convinced that Rachel ended it willingly, I've seen Webtoons cut series short during their midseason hiatuses by telling the creators "okay once you come back you have this many episodes to wrap it up", so while it is shocking to see it happen with WT's golden goose, maybe they saw the decline over the past several months and realized it was time to cut it loose. But ultimately I can't ever know if it was Rachel calling it quits or Webtoons, not unless one (or both) of them come forward and say anything regarding that. I can only wonder, and in reality, none of what I wonder really matters because it's over.

Again, I do feel bad. I remember when the trial arc was going on and the whole Eris reveal happened and I had that sinking feeling in my stomach that maybe the comic wasn't all it was cracked up to be, that maybe it wasn't going where I had been hoping and assuming it would go. I imagine there are a lot of people feeling that exact same thing right now. I do hope, at the very least, they find their closure through whatever future projects Rachel does or through other comics that fill the void left by LO. I'm definitely hoping the same for myself, tbh, now that the comic is actually over for good I feel like I can finally put my obsession with it to rest, even just a little. Although tbf I'm really just refocusing that obsession onto Rekindled, which I have a much more positive relationship with LMAO but I'm very thankful to have it and I owe that to LO, in all its perks and quirks and flaws.

[kityana]

i was going to add this to this post, but it got very long and a little off the topic and i didn't think it was fair so here goes.

i think there's a very good chance octavia isn't really aware of the situation between her parents.

in "loo loo land", octavia talks about her parents not loving each other as a new development.

when we know for a fact stolas and stella never got along, and seemed to dislike each other from the moment they became betrothed.

but in the trailer, she says "you never loved mother", so it seems like she recently realized that was the case. further more, she seems to put it in the same category of disappointment as the idea of stolas not loving her, too.

i think it's unfair to blame octavia for not noticing the dynamic between her parents sooner. for one thing, abusers are notoriously good at hiding their actions, and abuse victims very often hide their situation out of shame. this is doubly true for male victims of abuse, and even more so if the abuser is a woman. stolas himself says he put up with stella's behavior because he wanted to give octavia "a normal life", and i imagine that "normal life" did not entail knowing just how much her parents can't stand each other and how cruel her mother is to her father.

also, as @ceaselessims noted- octavia is rich and privileged. we base what we think is normal on our environment, and octavia's normal is not our normal. try putting yourself in her shoes- most of the people she knew her entire life were other royals. most of the relationship she saw were relationship between royals, probably the kind that is either arranged like her parents or made for other politically or monetarily advantageous reasons. that means most of the adult relationships around her weren't what we would consider loving, healthy adult romantic relationships. so the fact her parents were rarely if ever affectionate toward each other? to her that probably seemed normal. the fact they rarely seemed to spend time together unless they had to? again, normal. the tensions between them? stella's occasional snide remarks about stolas that stolas probably doesn't even address? normal, normal, normal.

i'd like to think that maybe at some point in the future, octavia willll spend some time with fizz and ozzie, or m&m, or any other actually healthy couple, and then the penny will drop that this is what an actually healthy, romantic adult relationship is supposed to look like.

but for now i'm thinking that for 17 years, as far as she could tell, her parents had a really ordinary, stable marriage of the kind she sees all around her. and then, one day, completely out of the blue, her father shatters it all with an affair. of course she's pissed at him. of course she mostly blames him for everything that's happening and seems more sympathetic to her mother. and of course that shakes the foundation of her trust in him, because as far as she can tell, he betrayed one person that was close to him, so who's to say he won't betray her, too?

and stolas isn't exactly helping things by seemingly not even attempting to explain the situation to octavia. i understand he's struggling with a lot, but keeping her completely in the dark is just letting her jump to her skewed conclusions, and it also gives stella a way to control the narrative, which i'm sure stella is going to take.

i think octavia will find out the truth eventually, and then i'm sure she won't take stella's side anymore after that happens. but i also think she's going to be very sad to know just how much stolas hid from her. that also seems like a betrayal of trust- that he couldn't trust her. their road to healing is going to be long and interesting, i think. and i can't wait to see it.

[bookie-bookdust]

Sebastian Sallow Headcanons

Shitty attempt at headcanons for my morally gray, stubborn Sebby boy in Sebastian Sallow Fucking Sucks. It's long for literally no reason besides I don't know how to shut up.

My Seb has gone through it. He suffers - but he also deserves it for that whole "ignorant" outburst days after what happened in the Restricted Section on the night of the Yule Ball. So yeah, he's begging for forgiveness by the end when he realizes how torn he and MC's relationship has become - not without stubbornly trying to get under her skin first.

This idiot constantly wears tight clothes - not because he knows it drives MC insane, though if he noticed, it would get much much worse for her lol- but it's because he's so damn messy he grabs the first clean thing he can find in the morning (slutty little vests, tight sweaters, button downs with stressing buttons - RIP MC).

Reading glasses - enough said.

He's an extremely adept magic wielder. Not only can he cast multiple Unforgivables with shorter cooldowns, but his spells are obscenely strong. MC has not been able to beat him in a duel since that very first time.

That being said, he can't cast a patronus because he's a sad emo boy.

Fav spell: Confringo. Secret fav spell: Imperio.

It's not with the times, but he would definitely listen to metal music. You can't convince me otherwise.

The morally gray/dark wizard line is sooooo veryyyyyy thinnnnnnnn and will get worse.

He doesn't trust aurors and would NEVER BECOME ONE!!!!!!!! Why do ya’ll want him to be a cop so bad??? (Unless he's a dirty cop lol)

Career-wise, he'd be a curse breaker, healer, or a dark wizard 😌

Irrevocably dedicated to the ones he loves, and if he feels its dire enough, he will hurt them to protect them. Trust me on this - for no reason in particular😇

Not opposed to getting on his knees and begging hehehehe...

A skilled healer due to countless hours in the library studying up on a cure for Anne.

Has burned his fingerprints off with too many fire spells. And speaking of his fingers, it's common to spot him with ink staining his skin from all his note taking.

While he's charming and cocky, he sees himself as lesser, dispensable, and directly blames himself for all of his life tragedies.

Anger issues - duh.

Not sure if I'll even get into this in SSFS, but my Seb comes from a family of the Dark Arts - whether he's aware of it or not. We already know Solomon used them. I'd like to think his parents did as well, which is what led to their deaths. The Sallow line is cursed as fuck. Will be exploring this more in a future Dark Seb project where he has to break this curse.

Will make dick jokes. No one is safe.

While he'd make a great beater in Quidditch, his life just doesn't have space for trivial things. He's too busy with murder.

Speaking of body count LOL, he's charmed quite a few witches, but no one has shorted his brain quite like MC. He's intently studied some interesting books in the Restricted Section fantasizing testing out some things.

Idk when his birthday is lol. I'm just agreeing with everyone else.

Seb's relationship with Ominis is interesting....I'll be perfectly honest, I'm not sure if their friendship is going to survive in my world. Seb crosses too many lines. Obliviating your best friend really drives a wedge between you.

THE manipulator. We don't get to see too much of this in SSFS because we're in MC's pov. Particularly because he uses his wiles differently on her. But one of my favorite examples is even as he's mocking her for her poor attempt at lying in the broom closet, he's actively making her anxious (and hot and bothered lol) with that little thread on her sweater. And eventually she slips up. He's such a mother fucker lol.

Okay this post is way too long. I'm gonna leave now lol. BYEEEEE.

[mc-critical]

It's interesting to see how Mahidevran, Hatice and Gülfem's different yet overlapping relationships with outside forces (soothsayers, the superstitious/the "magical" and the "divine" in particular) form and feed into their core mindsets and views of their experiences.

Gülfem starts off rather as a background figure, so we learn more about her experiences and what exact role the outside forces have played in her processing later on. She's seen their harm, but she's also embraced the good they bring. They've caused all the bad in her life but that's why it's almost like they are the only ones aware of the full extent of her pain, hence joining in her hardships (E43: "Only Allah and I know how much I've suffered") - they're all she's left when even what small things she's established for herself in the harem are taken away, thus, unlike either Mahidevran or Hatice, she separates the outside forces from her pain altogether, pinning the blame only on herself (as seen by her scene with SS in E15). How can they be a part of her pain when she can confide in them so much? She's gained the support of others, sure, but her past isn't really brought up by anyone except herself unless push comes to shove. It only stays inside her and within all those outside forces that dictate everyone's fates' grasp, the grasp of one force in particular: Allah. Gülfem goes with fate's flow, with Allah's flow (fate and Allah are constant here, but Allah is put at the most personal), only he can really console her and make everything better. What's done is done and even seeking justice is pointless, as only Allah will decide what will happen next to each and every one of them.

But what gets all the more interesting is Gülfem's persistent advocacy in one's own capability to step up and improve their own life, albeit with outside help. In Hatice, Gülfem doesn't see a mere mirror of herself, but someone who has the agency she doesn't have, the position and resources she can't have, so she, unlike Gülfem, shouldn't just stand there and wait for the outside forces to dictate her life and take away what was taken away from Gülfem herself. She should lean on Allah for help, she'll always have Gülfem's own support as well, but she should act and only if there's nothing more that can be done, then she can wait and hope for the best, but not do something drastic the way Gülfem tried to once. It has clearly taken a lot of strength out of Gülfem to keep going, a strength she perhaps didn't think she had (and that was probably due to Allah too as a presumed sharer of her suffering), so she advocates for others too to find their inner strength and believe in the best, always (even if Gülfem doesn't find herself capable to do so, she can find her solace in others doing it; until of course, all these others, all her loved ones disappear in their failed rebellions which causes Gülfem to finally rebel herself, ceasing to rely on any outside force). Or else they would just be more miserable. That is the theme in her relationship with seers and the superstitious: she didn't want Hatice to go to Yakup Efendi again in E37 because she doesn't need him, whatever he says shouldn't stop her efforts to get better (and besides, the future isn't entirely in his hands, either) but it may worsen things for her if she actually goes, bringing her only worry and disappointment (as it happened). She wants for Hatice not to take all the bad omens she gets to heart, to brush them off completely as they can't fully control her life, they can't be that final say; for a while she merely advices though, if she actively does something against them, it's to prevent Hatice from becoming more miserable. But the more desperate the people around Gülfem get and the more she loses them, the wearier she becomes of what they're doing and she tries to stop them in some way (this includes Hatice's dealings with Saliha Hatun). This is why Gülfem is the most down-to-earth and the least tied to seers, the superstitious and the "magical" out of the three. She actively strives to avoid them.

Mahidevran's reliance on outside forces, her faith in Allah is established as a major part of her character right from the start, this is how she's learned to survive in a place she otherwise feels helpless and alone in; such a major part, in fact, that it's there even at one of the closest peaks we get of her past: her E55 monologue ("I prayed to Allah to help me"), perhaps clearly signifying that she's already too ingrained in this environment, that she's already adopted this culture as her own (Süleiman, Hafsa, Hatice, all of them are already her family that has likely completely overtaken any trace of the past). Her faith in the supreme justice (unlike her relationship with fate) always remains strong and consistent, only growing more and more with every experience. But what about her relationship with soothsayers, perhaps her most changing (as in foundational) relationship with an outside force??? S02 presents an interesting nonsequential throughline: in E26, when Yakup Efendi is first mentioned and appears, we learn that he was kicked out from the palace namely because of Mahidevran. We see her having rejected him, and perhaps having rejected soothsayers in general due to bad, terrifying prophesies. She was never associated with soothsayers at all before then anyway (unlike, say, Hafsa) and there we find out why. But she's apparently accepted/embraced soothsayers once - in her E55 monologue she also mentions that she had her fortunes told and they were good fortunes, pointing at the fulfillment of her desire to be with SS then ("...That I would go through a golden road and earn my desire.") and that incited her, assured her future happiness, making it almost a given. In spite of the monologue itself too pointing at all of Mahidevran's mixed feelings at the moment (that include the soothsaying, as she had then what she's long lost now and with SS's illness she gets to grapple with that for yet another time), the soothsaying clearly remains a part of the good memory to her, maybe even a cause for it, as her tone still recounts the yearning and excitement of that day, as fresh as they've ever been. It's still unclear whether Mahidevran sought the soothsayer herself or her fortunes were told in an official visit of the soothsayer (how she says it all indicates the latter more), or whether this was prophecied by another soothsayer or Yakup Efendi himself (the latter is far more likely again as Yakup was mentioned to have been the palace seer in E26), but it's palpable how that prophecy moved Mahidevran and shaped her going forward - it seems like she's really clung to it as a mark of her feelings and her prosperous future and has started to take seers and their prophesies more into account. And when she hears that one haunting prophecy which says of her not having anymore children, she can't take it. It's way too devastating to be true, so it has to be immediately discarded. Yakup has to be immediately removed of his position in order to stop saying things that make people mad, that make them tremble and shake them and the lives they've secured to their very cores. This is another reason why losing her child in E03, losing Süleiman, him not touching her even when he calls her again afterwards and Gülşah daring to even suggest that she might be pregnant in spite of all these odds aches so. She's experiencing in real time the effects of a faraway prophecy she's tried so hard to move past.

So when she sees that this particular outside force has rebuffed her, she renounces it, moving towards an outside force above it instead: just like she enlisted Ibrahim to kick Yakup out (he can't object an order), she leans on Allah (is there anyone above Allah?) for that prophecy to be avoided, for the good to come and overcome everything instead, all of this thus fueling her belief in divine justice even more. No one, not even seers, can foresee or interfere with the will of Allah. The good is there and it has to come from somewhere. And each time one force fails, Mahidevran moves to another, testing them all, from the tangible (her supporters) to the more and more intangible (seers, fate), but in the end, she always returns to Allah as the only fully reliable force as all the others still follow their own "agenda" regardless (when she loses her supporters and loved ones, she starts leaning on Allah entirely, but finding the kind of inner strength fully within herself she didn't believe she really had before as well, through letting her remaining loved ones go as well; the reverse of Gülfem's arc). Nothing can ease Mahidevran more than Allah and his supreme justice coming in eventually. But seers have hurt her especially and she doubts them even more due to the wound they've inflicted, labeling them and abhoring their practices, especially the ones applying magic: she distrusted the seer Hatice called in E86 ("...I don't hear good things about this woman. They say she's a witch. (...) What use will she be to you?"), wanting to send her off even during her "ritual' and disapproving of her arrival in Topkapi in E87. Those who come with bad omens, upset people and mess with their lives have to be involved with something bad, with these incomprehensible powers, they have to be bad themselves (is this why Mahidevran calls Hürrem a "witch" too?). This also plays part in Mahidevran's belief in the superstitious - she might have believed in it too previously, but she pays attention to it even more given the bad stuff likely to happen that always lies in her mind deep down, and will do so even more with each loss. She almost commodifies herself with the superstitious, because it immediately tells her what exactly to avoid in order for the bad stuff not to happen; it's a distant yet reachable enough force that's also part of who she is in this harem (it's no wonder she's the character who introduces superstitions the most - the impact of broken mirror(s), the snake as bad luck etc.). This is the only way she can be more laid-back towards a soothsayer too (along with her prophesies not being entirely about her), with her what recounting Remmal Elmas is known for to Aybige in E46.

Unlike both Gülfem and Mahidevran, Hatice is established as quite wary of outside forces right from the start, albeit going with their flow in the first episodes (similarly to Gülfem). She is met with their finality and their inescapability early on; she's experienced enough in the past to believe that she can't avoid them at all when they come, especially if they are dictated namely by her closest. How can she defy her fate? How can she disappoint her loved ones? How can she stand against what she believes in even if it breaks her? Well, that is right until she reaches happiness against all odds. For once, she can see the outside environment in a suprisingly more favorable light, with her getting the chance to be with Ibrahim and her closest approving of it. This doesn't last for long, though, as they're quickly separated and she goes through a great misfortune that brings back her distrust in outside forces, amplifying it. But there's one outside force she starts leaning on more and more as time goes by: the soothsayers, Yakup Efendi in particular. She is clearly reluctant to call him at all at first namely due to his reputation (she generally seems to get even more uncertain and concerned if her closest have a bad view of what she's uncertain and concerned about as well), but her own worries, along with Hürrem's, push her to go for it anyway - both her E26 and E37/8 calls of him are hesitant, but she always chooses certainty over inaction. Because she's lived in the unknown for too long, she's aware more than anyone that the misfortune can come unexpectedly and from any place, she's terrified of one particular tragedy happening all over again (her losing her children), so she seeks guidance, any guidance she can get to know how to proceed next. She has to be absolutely sure that she and her family are going to be safe. For she wants to have someone to tell her for certain that it'll all be alright for once. That their happiness is secure for once. That there'll be nothing to prevent it for once. And the only one who can do all that is the seer, because he goes beyond empty reassurances that can't calm anyone down, he's in touch with all the outside forces beyond anyone's reach (so he's safe and can be counted on in that regard). And Hatice trusts the outside forces as much as she can control them. Even if the seer tells her something bad, she'll know what to look out for, she'll try to control it. At the end of the day, she just searches for the truth. Will everything really be okay? Will they really have peace or will a member of her family be gone for good (E38)? She feels powerless when everything points at Yakup's second prophecy becoming true: it becomes the center of all the bad outside forces for quite some time (it all leads to this, doesn't it?), so she waits for it to be fulfilled any second now (SS elevating Ibrahim in E39, Ibrahim's poisoned arrow and absense in E43-4 etc). The more bad things happen, the more Hatice ultimately leans on the outside forces she feared so much, directing them herself.

Hatice's belief in the superstitious (i.e. the statues) is similar: she's already so accustomed to bad things happening due to external forces (and her bad feelings ending up correct, on top of it!; btw, early S01 Hatice is the more stagnant aftermath period, not her norm) that she reads everything as a sign. She's used to looking for signs, she needs signs to prepare for what will await her and caution accordingly. She confronts the unfamiliar, rejecting it entirely, in order for it to go away too. Of course, the way she believes in the superstitious is also influenced by her closest and who she is. But no matter what she does, the signs Hatice desperately searches for won't leave her and she can't help but sink deeper and deeper into them and what they mean; the more she feels she loses her agency and the more people disappoint her, the most unreachable, intangible outside forces she gets into, nearly embracing them. If she can't stop them, she has to work with them, in spite of how uncertain or scary it might be. That is at its peak in S03 when she starts dealing with black magic in order to eliminate Hürrem and she searches for the whereabouts of Ibrahim's grave through unusual means. Magic is fundamentally about making things happen and Hatice wants to seek accountability and gain closure all by herself as there's no one else left to completely trust anymore. If they won't help her but only hinder her, if they don't give her what she asks of them (they can't because they don't want her to have it for one reason or another, because they've taken it away themselves!), she'll make it happen through these other ways. It's her only option now. From being wary of a seer (a "witch" in this case) due to their fame and abilities, to their fame and abilities being the very reasons why she's calling them in the first place. She wants them to do exactly what they're known for in spite of any possible danger, even for herself. She won't stop at anything until they've all fulfilled their purpose. She almost "engulfs herself" in their practices, no matter how wrong it may seem (her regrets in E90 can signal towards this). Hatice has always been most tied with all of it anyway, so why not dig in deeper? What else is there to lose? Hatice's faith in Allah is also fascinating in that it isn't as prominent. She of course prays to him for Ibrahim to come back safe and sound for the campaigns and brings him up sometimes in her fury towards someone ("Allah will punish you" etc.), but not much outside of that. Is it because Allah is the biggest outside force she can't even try to reach? Or is it perhaps because his ways and will turn out reminders of all the undesired paths she has to follow?

[sorakabu]

my predictions (bingo?) for drdt, chapter 2 culprit and also everything beyond, because i'm hyped, and why not!!

the original version of this post was too long and i was yapping. it felt like i was saying everything there is to say, but also nothing of real importance, so i decided to throw everything here, without all my overcomplicated rambling (some stayed though), and hope for the best that this will satisfy the fixated monster in me that needs to get my thoughts out there. also it will be fun to see in the future what was right or wrong.

so, for all of these predictions, please assume that my reasoning is either:

theorists made such well put together points that i checked the evidence on my own while also overanalysing the heck out of it and now i'm convinced

there's not much concrete proof but i think it would make narrative sense, or it would be a great direction for some character's development from what we've already seen of them

i don't even know but sometimes we just vibe and sometimes things are real in our hearts

funny thing is that i find drdt so interesting with how it handles its themes, how it foreshadows, establishes, and resolves, that i'm not actually certain about any of these. my mind wants to analyse it like it's a standard danganronpa game, like it's easy to predict smaller plot points because of the obvious bigger picture, but the special thing about drdt is that i have no idea what the whole bigger picture really is. all i know is that we're focused on trust and distrust, and we will surely follow that path, but i actually have no idea what else is in store. and i'm rambling again but bear with me. point is: i like the writing for drdt and i know i'm not prepared for whatever will be happening later down the line.

so now, for my small predictions bingo:

as most of the community on tumblr thinks, eden and levi are culprit and possible accomplice. that's the part i'm almost sure of, one of them is getting executed. i, however, am not sure who played which role. i'd like to think levi is the one who came up with most of the plan to help eden win the trial, and he's the one with the secret of killing before the killing game (which arei got), but i can't tell why exactly eden would kill arei. eden is not secretly evil. logically there should be some trick here, or it was an accident, but the eden thing to do would be to immediately admit she did it. unless that's where levi comes into play, and he's the one who pulled even more strings, not only setting up the crime scene, but also getting eden to play along. which makes me think eden would still be the one qualified as the blackened, then levi gets to blame himself and gets sick development or whatever. and maybe he lives to try to kill or at least beat the shit out of ace but ace will not die. let's say i'm going with that. eden is the culprit

whit has some special role. he's either the mastermind, or traitor, or key to ending the game, or whatever you want to call it. there's something off about whit with how he seems to know too much

rose sleeps a lot so i think there must be a point in time where someone uses that to accuse or even frame her for murder. although i don't think she will ever get killed when sleeping. i think she's going to be a survivor

ace won't be a victim, and he doesn't seem like a culprit either, so by process of elimination he needs to survive the game

david is not evil or malicious at heart, it's his depression talking. we're dealing with someone burnt out from keeping up his optimistic persona. all this act is self-sabotage and self-deprecation. he cared for arei and now he's spiraling. he will get better though, trust

i know i already talked about chapter 2 culprit but quick hu mention: she is not the culprit simply because i have no idea what her character really is yet. all i know is she is morally grey and she will not die yet because she needs to interact with nico, david, and others some more

arturo is not going to make friends with anyone other than maybe veronica, because everyone hates him, BUT he will not die that soon. i can feel him surviving at least one more chapter just out of spite. if he dies, it's not earlier than chapter four

j will not kill and she will not survive to the end. she will be a victim. my guess is chapter 3, for no particular reason.

contrary to the two points above, there's an alternate scenario i have in mind, with arturo dying next chapter and j being accused, but still innocent. and she would still become a victim later in the game, probably chapter four

veronica is too much of a wild card but if i were to predict something regarding her role... IF she was a blackened (and i can't tell if she will be), she wouldn't be all that happy or excited about it. there would be some reflection on her part. some subtle commentary on how enjoyment of darker media doesn't, or shouldn't, equal supporting or resorting to real violence. also basically everyone in the fandom agrees her secret is the one about harming herself just to feel something. this ties to what i said, i think. maybe she would kill to test herself, but taking a life will not bring her contentment

teruko will trust less before she learns to trust more (especially if eden really will die), but if there's someone she will learn to trust first, it's going to be charles. if she gets a "pep talk" about trust, it's somehow going to be from david. one asshole to another type of conversation where he's trying to help because he does genuinely care for his classmates

nico will not try to kill anyone again, but they also won't survive

this is probably all, i don't know because i wrote this at night and fell asleep. if anyone other than me stayed to read this, thank you for coming to my ted talk

[pynkhues]

You might be the first person I’ve come across who says they love/like Florence! 😂

While I don’t hate Gabrielle I kinda get the appeal of her. I will say, I do find myself wondering about Florence’s background. We don’t know much about Gabrielle except she’s Italian and was forced to marry lestats father and their relationship was abusive. We don’t really get anything from Florence.. unless I’m forgetting…

Anon, I cannot stress this enough, but I 👏 love 👏 terrible 👏 women 👏 haha.

But more than that, one of the things that I really love with female characters is that I love women who survive, and I love when they do that in ugly, unpalatable ways. I love women who tooth and nail it to the bitter, biting end, and I think you see that in both Gabrielle and Florence.

We see so little of Florence, but I think we learn two very specific things about her in the episodes that she's in. The first is that when her husband died, she went and got the son he had institutionalised and brought him home, and the second is that she wasn't so attached to dignity that she wouldn't enable Louis' career as a pimp in order to secure the family's future. In fact, she actively supported it. She knew with money was power was protection, not just for her, but for the vulnerable, unwell child her husband had taken from her and who she had clawed her way back to, and that she - with the money Louis earned - could buy off the church to care for him in a way that kept him at home. Was that a good idea? Probably not - Grace is the only person in that family willing to acknowledge that Paul's needs are beyond what the three of them and the church can provide - but what I think it tells us about her is that she is a traumatised mother in the Jim Crow south who's doing her best to survive, and - I think personally - secure her most vulnerable child's survival too.

Louis didn't kill Paul, of course he didn't, but he was there when he died, and I do think that she blames him for that and weaponises everything about Louis after the fact to justify it. Like, we see it in the first episode - Louis obviously felt he could bring Lestat home, even if nobody (himself included) was comfortable with it, but even Florence let their relationship slide - it wasn't until after Paul's death that it became something Florence loathed in Louis. It's ugly, but I think there's a real woman and a mother broken by circumstance and the loss of a child there, and I actually find her endlessly fascinating and not the one note character I think a lot of people read her as.

She can't confront Louis about it, so they can never actually address it, because Louis' the patriarch of the de Pointe du Lac household, something the show makes clear over and over again, especially through the fact that Louis owns the family house which Grace tries to talk to him about at Florence's wake. Florence is forced into a place of subservience to her son, and that's not Louis' fault! I'm not blaming him - I don't even think he likes or wants it that way (although I do think he reinforces it in ways that are normal for all men of that era), but it is the gender structure at the time, and Florence icing Louis out of his own family is the only power she has when she's completely dependent on him financially.

She treats Louis terribly, I'll never argue against that, but I also think she's a woman who had been living in order to protect her most vulnerable child, and a part of her treatment of Louis is tied intrinsically to the fact that she feels he let that child die. I think after Paul's death, she's part living out of spite to Louis, in that sense, which I just find so meaty as a character note. And again, I don't agree with her at all (if anything, I suspect Louis was the reason Paul was able to live as long as he did), but I feel I understand Florence as a woman who is surviving circumstances she doesn't want to, and I love her for that.

[gotholdladywithadhd]

Good Omens Song of the Day

we know what's to blame!

I can't see much of a future

Unless we find out what's to blame, what a shame

And we won't be together much longer

Unless we realize that we are the same

this bastard

Lyrics

You spurn my natural emotions

You make me feel like dirt and I'm hurt

And if I start a commotion

I run the risk of losing you and that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

I can't see much of a future

Unless we find out what's to blame, what a shame

And we won't be together much longer

Unless we realize that we are the same

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

You disturb my natural emotions

You make me feel like dirt and I'm hurt

And if I start a commotion

I'll only end up losing you and that's worse

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

Ever fallen in love, in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

Fallen in love with

Ever fallen in love with someone

You shouldn't have fallen in love with

[alexxncl]

‼️NIGHTBRINGER LESSON 23 SPOILERS‼️

‼️OG LESSON 76 SPOILERS‼️

masterlist | more theories

based off of what we saw of simeon in the new lesson, i think that

1. he knows about alternate timelines and possibly altering your future

2. he didn't know if he'd become a demon or a human after his fall, and he didn't know when or how

3. he knew about the celestial war and its outcome to some extent

4. he blames himself for the fall of lucifer and his brothers (duh), and up until he actually lost his wings, he thought he'd avoided the possibility altogether

there's no way simeon can't tell that mc is a human

lucifer knew that mc and little d were strange, and they're powerful enough to be able to tell that their auras aren't angelic in the slightest - especially little d's

unless you count mc's very very very distant blood relation to lilith and luke's blessing, there's probably no trace of anything even remotely related to an angel anywhere on them

there's no way simeon could meet this version of mc that far in the future without some kind of time travel or timeline manipulation

he's too smart not to pick up on that fact

he doesn't seem worried about losing his wings

at all

mammon, on the other hand, is terrified at the thought of someone he's close to losing his wings and probably wouldn't even entertain the thought of losing his own wings

not until the war, at least

simeon didn't go into detail about how he'd meey mc in the future, nor did he go into detail about when or how he's lose his wings

he brought it up almost out of nowhere

mammon was expecting some lighthearted prophecy similar to meeting someone from your past in another time, and finding out that simeon might experience something as jarring as losing his wings made him want to change the subject almost as soon as he heard it

losing his wings was probably the least terrifying thing he read in that prophecy book, especially since whether or not it would happen and whether or not he'd face a fate worse than death were extremely unclear

war is hardly ever unclear, though

and his apparent involvement in it probably made him think that joining lucifer's side would cause him to lose his wings

when the time came for him to pick sides, he was too afraid of disobeying his father and making every prophecy in the book come true, he wanted his future to be his and his alone

he thought he could prevent the war, or at least hold off on it for a little longer - we all know that he knew it was coming whether he wanted it to or not

but when the time came to talk to lucifer, he couldn't bring himself to do it

he knew something was on his brother's mind, and there's no way there wasn't gossip around the celestial realm about tension between one of the most powerful angels, the 6 angels he looked after, and their father

but he wasn't ready to face the fact that war was coming sooner than he anticipated

so he did what most other angels did and sided with the celestial realm

and then, the fall still happened, but he wasn't involved

and he was able to see the way that despite falling from grace and becoming everything they were told to hate, lucifer and his brothers were still thriving

he thought that maybe, just maybe, falling from grace wouldn't be so bad

but he also thought that with the end of the war, his chance of falling was over

that's why he's so accepting and carefree and less stuck-up than the rest of the angels, so much so that he'd forgotten about the part of the prophecy that said he'd meet mc again

not only did he emotionally fall for mc when he met them again, he literally ended his life as an angel for them by stealing lucifer's ring from the celestial realm

but after seeing how unburdened the rest of his brothers were after their fall, he'd follow them without hesitation anyways if it meant feeling the same kind of freedom

[imgayfordennys]

So felix stuff wise whats ur fav version of him? Im personaly trying to find the old crusty 1920's/30's comics bc there often very good to get a whole picture of him but from what i've seen i personaly fancy the twisted Tales ver and early cartoons (mainly with how he really just breaks the 2d dymension i love that) and so far i refuse to watch the movies with him out of fear that got planted into my soul by clips from them and overall opinion of other ppl but yea

Felix opinions? (I can't find the microphone emoji but if I could i would put it here)

INFERNOOOOOOOOOO

IM SO SORRY THIS HAS TAKEN ME SO LONG TO RESPOND TO I'VE BEEN SO BUSY WITH SCHOOL BUT seriously you have no idea how happy this ask has made me, I've waited so long to be asked this, you are truly a blessing and hearing from you always makes me so happy <333 AS FOR FELIX *cracks knuckles* I haven't personally read the 30's comics of him (or comics in general as I find it difficult to make time to read. Big frown) but for me personally I think his 30's design is the cutest, and I wish they stuck more with it rather than tossing it aside.

LIKE HIS PACMAN EYES??????? HIS LITTLE ROUND BODY???? He just feels so much more whimsical here than he does now, which is such a shame I wish he wasn't such a "Vintage old school mascot" but. That is neither here nor there. Personality wise I think my uttermost favorite has to be the Twisted Tales ver of him like you said, just because I feel like it captures a good mixture of the 20's ver and the 50's ver of him- the 50's ver of him, imo, is really sweet but almost too cutesy and innocent to be quite "Felix". But I have to admit that this ver of him is also just a guilty pleasure of mine, just because seeing him act naive and friendly is always a cute bonus we never get to see much (unless you consider the movies but I'll get to that in a sec-)

I know many other Felix fans probably favor Twisted Tales the most and I don't blame them at all, because he really is the most unique Felix imo, but I think the 50's ver of him really does go under the radar too much. He's a sweetheart!! But personally like I said earlier I do prefer Felix to be more mean and snarky with a mixture of sweetness. As for the movies I haven't watched them myself, I gotta admit that I'm scared to death bc I know he's a little more infant-like in those, which is never my cup of tea. Tho I should probably suck it up since I'm trying to be a dedicated fan and consume all of his content. I know Felix got a 2010 comic release, I've read a little bit of that one but it looks like they toned down his snarky personality a bit. If we ever do get more Felix content in the future (big doubt since Universal really doesn't give a fuck abt him) I imagine we'd be getting a lot more of that comic version. Thank you so much again for this ask, you're the sweetest kindest ever and I love hearing from you always!!! I hope you're doing good Inferno!!!

[dabihawksluvr]

Aizawa Is A Bad Teacher

[ NOTE: The questions I screenshot are from another account, I just couldn't find a way to get them all into one post without it being messy. So this is just me answering each one, to give my own perspective. ]

I think it's because Shinsou is a LOT like him, but yeah it's still very shitty for him to do. He should've been the class 1B teacher instead.

This is why I never really liked Aizawa, he reminds me of my abusers way too much and I didn't like how strict/careless he truly is.

I hope that, if he did ever have a kid, it would be the biggest wakeup call of his life. And we do see him treat Eri fairly, but that could be because of her quirk and how she's literally only 4/5 years old. Kinda can't treat a kid the same way he treats his students without being seen as a villain.

From what I've seen, that was supposed to be the case. But Shouta feels like a lesser version of Batman, at least the latter actually cared about his Robins (depends on the canon but majority of Batmans do). With Aizawa, we do not need that same care unless it's with Shinsou.

I think it was even canon that Aizawa just hates All Might for being 'too forgiving' on his enemies. But I've also never seen him favor Endeavor either, I think he just hates people in general.

All Might is a decent teacher, at least he considers everyone's thoughts/feelings and dynamics with one another. Aizawa has not once done that, unless it deals with the troublemakers (Bakugou and Izuku) or that one time when Ochako blamed herself for that one time (though I bet it was just his own trauma and being like 'hey I understand this so let me go fix a mistake I made with myself years ago' kind of thing). The ONLY good point Aizawa has is when he says 'live for the students' to All Might when it was clear the old man had given up on living. But that is ONE point, out of so many others where Aizawa fucked up.

YES. Aizawa is a liar, if he believes these are all a 'logical ruse' then he is really fucked up in the head. I am glad that he made some (very minimal) progress when it was found out that Oboro was Kurogiri, I think the guy just has a ton of trauma he needs to work through and that was the first step. I do think how he is now is better than before, at least now he seems to actually care about his students and he realizes he fucked up badly. Just wish it was before he got his leg and eye taken away, essentially making his quirk trash.

Ugh, having Aizawa as a teacher would be the worst. I did get along with teachers that were like All Might and the rest, but Aizawa would be my 13th reason for finally dropping out. Especially if it was young/teen me? Yeah, he'd be on for 2nd degree murder with my suicidal ass.

THIS. I understand they are training to be heroes, and in this specific circumstance it worked. But ONLY because they were all going to war, which btw Aizawa didn't even stop from happening at all (he did have a heel-face turn during the 1st war which was nice to see as we saw him start to care for his students but it was ONLY thanks to Deku saying losing him would be the worst thing ever). Maybe it's because he held himself to that same standard, so he thinks all future heroes should be the same...but he is damn lucky none of them became a villain, though that was because Deku brought them all together simply by being himself. Aizawa was NOT needed, aside from his quirk he was essentially useless as a person. An maybe he knew that, it wasn't until Deku that he saw some value in living on (which is why he cut off his leg - normally he wouldn't have done that).

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tl;dr - Aizawa is a bad teacher. He is too strict with his teachings, makes assumptions that he rarely ever changes, outright LIES to his own students, puts his students in danger all the time, and cares more about a student from 1B (Shinsou) more than teaching his own class. But, we have to keep in mind that the man was traumatized by losing his friend Oboro (and then Midnight...and now possibly Mic) so he probably feels like his life isn't even worth it. And it wasn't him that wanted to be a teacher, it was actually Oboro. So he only took the job to fulfill his (dead) friend's dream, and it makes it clear why Aizawa is such a bad teacher. He didn't even want this, but feels obligated to regardless of what he truly wants. And yes, he did finally realize he cares for his students...but only when he finally lost the ability to use his quirk, meaning he has to rely on others now instead of just himself.

[loverboyjamespotter]

wait 'ever fallen in love (with someone you shouldn't've)' by the buzzcocks is like the ultimate prongsfoot song from sirius' perspective about james oh my god like sirius in the hogwarts years thinking he should NOT have fallen in love with james not at ALL because he's lily's. james isnt his to have. (or so he thinks) .... 'And if I start a commotion/ I run the risk of losing you and that's worse' .... SIRIUS NOT EVER CONFESSING TO JAMES THAT HE LOVES HIM BECAUSE WHAT IF THAT RUINS EVERYTHING OF COURSE IT WOULDNT JAMES WOULDNT LET IT BUT WHAT IF JAMES PITIES HIM NOW OR IS CAREFUL WITH HIM OR LOOKS AT HIM SADLY AND ITS NOT THE SAME ANYMORE!!!!!! 'I can't see much of a future/ Unless we find out what's to blame, what a shame/ And we won't be together much longer/ Unless we realize that we are the same' sirius literally not even picturing any future bc the sum total of his dreams and hopes is ... just james. THEY WONT BE TOGETHER MUCH LONGER BC THEIR SCHOOLDAYS ARE COMING TO AN END!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!! THEY HAVE TO GROW UP NOW!!!!!!!!! unless unless unless ... james realises theyre the same ....

[eartheats]

status: part 1 of 3

[a video seems to be posted. care to click?]

[the video starts a bit unintentionally; one can hear somebody fumbling around what appears to be a backpack before there's a sudden, bright light of the backpack being opened, before the rotomphone is unceremoniously dumped out with what appears to be quite a few things. some pencils, notebooks, pokemon treats, and lots of other stuff; it all gets cleared as ren seems to be setting up their room in the blueberry academy. they're full of giggles and bright laughter, and one can see madison (out of nurse uniform for once) in the background as they both help get the room set up]

🔆: Hey, Mads! Should I start puttin' these books up on this shelf we got here, or do you think they'd be better off in the bookshelf?

[madison looks over for a moment, contemplating before pointing to something off in the background]

👩‍⚕️: I'd probably say the bookshelf. Unless you think there's going to be a lot of books you'll need?

🔆: Well, ya never know. I've been gettin' by at Uva through Completely Legal Downloads [ren airquotes this, to the amusement of themself and madison, who chuckles] of the books I need. But I like this place so far! If they ain't super expensive I'll probs buy 'em to support the place, y'know?

👩‍⚕️: Sounds like someone's developing a bias.

[that gets ren to laugh a bit as they start putting some of their notebooks on the bookshelf]

🔆: Can ya blame me? I mean, I like Uva as it is now--Mr. Clavell definitely hasn't been lyin' when he said he's trying to improve the school. But...there's somethin' about an experience that doesn't have any shitty memories attached that's appealin', you know?

[madison seems to pause at that, as she gets to work on organizing some of the other stuff ren brought with them--clothes new and old, for starters.]

👩‍⚕️: I guess I can't. Not entirely, at least. You do seem infinitely happier than I've seen you in a bit, though.

🔆: Eh, ya think so?

👩‍⚕️: ...Maybe not as much as when you got to go and see your friends in Unova, but it's still pretty noticeable. [madison laughs a bit, getting all of ren's clothes on hangers] I'm glad that hasn't been taken from you. I was worried after...you know...

[madison gestures at the air a bit, and ren doesn't respond for a bit. their face goes...notably more blank, than anything, and they just keep putting notebooks away for a bit until they're done; madison's done hanging their clothes by the time they are.]

🔆: I'm not gonna let her take anymore happiness from me. [ren's tone is surprisingly determined] I've...I've worked so damn hard to find an arcdamned bright side in life, and my own happiness. Somethin' I can be proud of, and share with everyone I know. And fuck, I actually wanna get to know people! I wanna learn all about this school, and more about battle that I'd have never gotten the chance to. Me an' Lulu especially love it, and Bouton and Soba have been showin' a lotta promise too. I just don't want it all to be for nothin', y'know? And that's why I ain't gonna let her take it. I'm--

[there's a pause, and eagle eyed watchers might have noticed madison moving in the background beforehand--what stops ren's words is a soft hug from madison. one she has to lean down for, admittedly, because she does have a foot or so on ren's tiny ass, but it causes them to start for a moment.

it isn't long before they lean in and wrap their arms around madison in kind; mads' hand goes up to run through their hair]

👩‍⚕️: ...Good. I was hoping you'd say that, kid. [madison sounds genuinely proud of them, and though it's barely able to be seen, her expression is warm] You deserve all of the good things in life. And I want you to be able to experience them, too. Without worrying about the future, or what's to come, or anything like that. You go out there and enjoy every bit of what the Academy has to offer, alright?

[madison lets go of ren--or at least tries to. they cling tighter for a moment, startling madison before bringing themself up and wiping their eyes.

they were clearly crying, but the smile on their face is extremely bright]

🔆: I'm...I'm gonna, Mads! You better watch--by the time I'm done learnin' all I can here, Paldea's gonna have to crown a new Champion! Maybe even a new Top Champion, heehee!

[that gets madison to laugh]

👩‍⚕️: Well, look at you starting to dream big! You're gonna have a lot of responsibilities if you take the Top Champion position, though. Are you really prepared for that?

🔆: Nope! Not yet at least! But I'm gonna learn, and I'm gonna become the best damned trainer! Just watch me, Mads!

[madison laughs again, ruffling ren's hair a bit before separating; this time, ren obliges]

👩‍⚕️: Alright, kid! You get out there and enjoy all this Academy has to offer! But you better promise to keep us all updated, you hear me?

🔆: Heehee, crystal, Mads! Ahh, I should probs get going--there's probs some kinda orientation, right? But I still have...

[madison starts to gently shoo ren out the door, smiling a bit]

👩‍⚕️: Don't you worry about unpacking everything else; you leave that to me, kiddo. You get out there and start your school life!

🔆: Heehee, I will! Thank you bunches, Mads, I'll pay you back for the help!

[ren darts off after a wave goodbye, prompting a bit of laughing from madison]

👩‍⚕️: You try, and I'll repay it tenfold, kid. Focus on class!

[it goes quiet for a bit as madison seems to go back to getting everything organized for them. it last for a few minutes, and the recording almost shuts itself down, but...

madison's phone rings, and she picks it up without missing a beat.]

👩‍⚕️: Hello? ...I'm not sure if you have--oh! Oh. Hello, Detective. Yes, you've reached the right number, this is my burner phone. --Yes, this is Madison. Can I help you with something...?

[...]

👩‍⚕️: Discussing the case and gathering information, huh...well, I'm at about the safest place both of us can be, so sure. I'll bite. What do you want to know?

[to be continued]

[groovytrait]

I can't see much of a future unless we find out what's to blame; what a shame And we won't be together much longer unless we realize that we are the same

[random-gay-writer]

The Flash Thoughts #1

I started watching The Flash and don't want to keep bothering my girlfriend with my commentary so I'm putting it here since no one will care anyway lol

I have seen clips and compilations before I decided to actually watch it so I know some stuff that happens.

A compendium of what I've already sent them, I will clarify nothing:

I don't want to watch The Flash TV show, but for the second time I keep getting clips on youtube for it and... I might watch The Flash TV show

The main thing I know is I fucking love Killer Frost lol

I started watching The Flash

It's fun so far I do know a lot of what happens in the future, so it's fun seeing the beginning lol I do wish Flash was funnier though, but I knew going in that he was more stoic

Yeah, and I get that but like... maybe choose a different hero if that's the hero type you want??? lol, Barry definitely has a reason to be a little emo boy, I'm not denying it, just kind of wish we had some more of the funniness

I do like the casual homosexuality in the show

Yeah, the captain says his boyfriend wants him to eat healthy so he could only eat burgers at the office And then Hartley, episode 111, he lost his family money because he came out to them It's just so casual and I love it. Like having queer couples front and center is nice, but having just gay people living around them without a big to-do is amazing

They are really loosey goosey with who knows about Barry's identity

Honestly, good on Eddie for pointing out something that feels off and making a boundary

Oh come on! The captain just got engaged, he can't die!

Barry and Iris finally kissed, honestly thought she was going to get with The Flash first and find out, but then he accidentally reversed time and now they never got together and I'm guessing he forgot that part

It's pretty good, I just personally am annoyed by the "changing an entire day for the worse with time travel" trope that happens sometimes

At this point, half of Central City is going to know about Barry's identity

The timeline is weird. Reverse Flash says he is born 136 years from now, when Barry is around 25, and says that they are rivals How old does Barry live to be? How old can he be? I fear I will get no answers

I look forward to it because this is confusing

I'm not surprised, shows that have nine seasons usually do lol

Barry should not save his mother. I know it sucks, but this is not smart, man. But I know his mom comes back somehow and I think she's called Speed Force

Ronnie is so sweet, but I know he doesn't last, so I'm trying not to get attached

There was a tiny flash of Killer Frost in the last episode of season 1! I love foreshadowing like that

Damn, girl lost her man twice Poor Caitlin

I also like that Cisco has something too, I didn't know that from the things I watched before, but I like that he can see into alternate realities or something

I don't blame Henry, I would also not like to stay in a city that convicted me of murder and thought I was guilty for fifteen years

"I thought you hated him." "Not as much as I hate you."

Patty's cute, but like... we know he ends up with Iris lol It's cute seeing him with other people, but we know the end game

They got pretty experimental with the shots in season 2, good for them

Also, I'm guessing metas can only be detected after they've been activated because Earth 2 Wells used his meta detection app to show Barry and Cisco were metas but it said nothing about Caitlin Unless there's some kind experiment gone wrong later on that makes it happen, but I hope not because it'd be cooler, plus we saw already that meta abilities can lay dormant until they're activated

It just alerted the wearer to meta humans It buzzed and went red around Barry and Cisco but was blue and still with Caitlin

It's not a man, it's HawkGirl! Cisco is so dumb

I do feel really bad for Grodd, he's just a lil' guy trying to live in a world not made for him

Things really change so fast lol, in season 1, Felicity goes from being single, to being with Ray, and now in season 2, she's with Oliver I know time is different on Arrow versus Flash, but still

And I just got confirmation that Kat McNamara is in a couple episodes of The Flash! I love her and knew she was in Arrow but I just thought to wonder if she made an appearance in The Flash

I did not know John Barrowman was in Arrow

I like Patty but it's not a good look to break into a building and then shoot someone with really no probable cause

There is, one thing I do hate is when there's a crossover and one episode is on each show and the "last time" doesn't give you the recap of the other show I just had to Google what happens with a plot line since I'm not going to Arrow just to watch one episode

I just love Snart, he's so complex!

The Flash secret identity is literally the worst kept secret in Central City

Like, I get Wally's mad, but he just sounds soooo whiny, like your mother hid you from your father and you're... mad at him for... not being psychic? You're an adult (maybe), grow up dude

Probably unpopular opinion, but I don't give a fuck about Reverse Flash anymore, I don't need Eobard here. Like I'm sure it'll tie into the timeline and stuff but just, we already have fucking Zoom to contend with, why is this banana motherfucker back? Get a life, homie

[the-firebird69]

FALLOUT SEASON 2 Teaser 2026 Announcement and New Vegas Easter Eggs

The girl is his wife and can't stand them and tries to hit him and they look like they're working together not really. The guy is an idiot and as a radiated badly and yeah he leaves his body and doesn't come back so it's a clone body by now piece by piece he was dismantled and he won't go to Concord sleepy hollow where his body sits his too afraid to obviously it's a Mac headquarters but he doesn't want to bring his people back because he is is schizophrenic thier his people. He tried to make our son sick and delusional it didn't work but it's working on himself and that's trump. He's nuts. This is about New Vegas too and you can see the city and they put up a barrier that's makeshift and it didn't work and too many rating parties went there and they couldn't keep them out and their huge fights they started using nukes on people but yeah they were grabbing stuff and it gets ruined but you see an image of a city getting blown up and his son is trying to figure out if it's old or new and in a way you can't really tell you can't tell where it is it looks like the Griffith it observatory but we know it's not it's like what they show LA blowing up in The Terminator people don't think that it's la but he thinks it might be and trying to force themselves to run their plan and the max are too and if they want to play Mass they want to blame us and they're blowing each other up so I'm not sure how that's going to go but we understand the thinking and what they go through to get there sometimes and it's a problem for them so it's kind of weird but that's why it happens and in Los Angeles upset a little bit because it's topside and it's not really huge reasons to do it usually unless they have things are hiding and they can't get you can't get to it and he doesn't think so in Los Angeles anyone can go in and out he's kind of upset a little bit we are too those places are historical especially Los Angeles he was there so and you guys blow it up parts of it and other cities too but mostly Los Angeles saying that it's the City of Angels and such and it does have an effect they do try to attack and they suck and then find Max and attack them and Non-Stop and they do go until they're gone but that's what they did and it's something chose to do in the future we believe. This is a huge huge huge event and an important part of the war and to know why it's really important because it's a tragedy and to make a New Vegas and that fails it's rather small with small casinos that's what Megan said and it really is there and it felt really good and they're happy about it it looks like westborough and they don't look that bad don't like to talk about these people are awful and the check and they look fine but really the back proper of God a little overboard and these guys suck it's just such assholes and they haven't gotten anywhere that'll bring us to the current day we're going to the right amount and I'm pleased to put this up this is important

Thor Freya

And my husband says I am doing it it's hard to look at his face but it's hard to prove the series he doesn't care about it that much and is mad at Los Angeles but he knows about the symbology they also knows that they're a waste of damn time and they're ruining things from history because they don't have them you're kind of means they don't believe what you're doing but they just keep doing it it's gross and then it is what it really is

Hera

Zues

[keefiswhoiam]

March 28 - 2024 Thursday

11:01pm

6/10

This morning I cleaned the center area of my desk and wiped everything down. I also cleaned the top of the microwave and hotplate real good. For breakfast I made a grilled cheese out of the loaf's end pieces and some bean soup. Already I had not planned for today to have a normal schedule. I worked on AE's avatar for about 45 minutes in call with one of BR's friends. Then I went down to the store for some water, coke, and drinks for the weekend. I briefly met the mechanic that works in the shop next door to the store and I was trying to make conversation with the cashier and my mom. The cashier is a girl about a year younger than me and mom told me she plays DnD in Seeley every Saturday and that she lives down here. I don't know about anyone else around my age in the area so that was interesting to find out. When I got back home I worked on the avatar for another hour before lunch. I got most of it done and am going to try to finish tomorrow. I also saw that BD was in VR so I hopped in to chat with her in desktop and we had a nice little conversation.

Lunch was stir fry using these green beans and red potatoes in garlic sauce. It was good but too much food, I was stuffed and had snacked on salt and vinegar chips an hour before. I also got a headache for some reason and blew off my work for the rest of the day. I spent my afternoon watching someone stream challenged in various Mario games while I let my body settle. At some point I took a desk nap with my eye resting on my wrist. Then I played some Stardew on the side and waited for TK to be free since we planned to hang out. When she was about to get in VR, I got on and found a very pleasant jigsaw puzzle world that lets you use custom images. BD also joined us and her guy friend and we did the puzzle in about 40 minutes. TK was talking about her trip to see her family the past week and then her friends joined. BD left to join others so I chatted with TK for a little before joining those other friends. Those people were interesting, it was a few furries chilling in a hot tub and it was a decent time. They were pretty welcoming and liked what I did to achieve my otter model. I felt very out of place though because everyone was part of a couple besides me, I was the only one sitting alone. I don't think it's something I would have cared about if it wasn't so visually obvious and downright comedic. GT joined and left pretty quick, he was high. I got off to eat dinner and get ready for bed.

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Today was about presence so I tried to catch myself when I was either thinking about the past or predicting the future. My go to method to disengage was to intently focus on whatever sounds I was currently hearing and that worked pretty well.

I was thinking about love again today and how like my friend, I also tend to question if I'm worthy of being loved or if I'll ever find what I'm looking for. It's easy to think the outlook isn't good. I've been close to dating but never really "dated" and I'm 27 years old. It feels downright pathetic sometimes. I feel like I've lagged behind and simply cannot fit with anyone anymore unless they've also lagged behind which must be extremely rare. I'm very tempted to push all these feelings down and resign myself to being single for the rest of my life again. But thats not what I want, I'd be miserable if I did that. Thats part of why I've BEEN miserable, denying how much I want to love and be loved. Another thing I've noticed is how no one has ever seemed to be as dedicated and obsessed with me as I have been with anyone. I dream about how good it'll feel someday for someone to be crazy about me for once. But then I think, what is there to be crazy about? At least right now, I'm a shell of a person. I can't blame anyone for not wanting to invest in that.