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no I am not okay, I have Li Lianhua howling, "I searched for your body for ten years!" with reddened eyes over and over again stuck in my brain
#I think about their relationship often. Breaks my heart. Incoherent screeching is the only way I can express this#li lianhua#li xiangyi#shan gudao#mysterious lotus casebook#mlc#kk's rambles tag#the reveal of their ancestry.....LLH silent throughout......man.#''i never competed with you''
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Think about Harrow's AU Bubbles
Thinking about Harrow's AU bubbles, not as fanfic references, but as expressions of her subconscious fears and desires, is so fascinating.
The Harrow Nova one is pretty obvious. Harrow's parents were obsessed with her being a necromancer, were willing to kill for it. It's only natural she'd wonder, "What if I hadn't been?"
And the answer Harrow gives herself is: Your parents and everyone would reject you (except, wildly, for Crux). Also they'd be alive cuz you'd never opened the tomb, and you'd be an unpopular orphan they'd abuse (Just Like Gideon). And you'd still be just as devoted to serving the Ninth with a blade. There's a lot there. But the other really telling bit is her relationship with Gideon. Harrow Nova professes to hate the reverend daughter even as she seeks to (re) create the necro-cav bond with her. But that hatred doesn't seem to be mutual. And the bit about the daughter intervening when Harrow was whippedā¦
That's Harrow's subconscious saying if their roles had been reversed, "Gideon would have treated me better than I treated her. Gideon would have protected me."
The Ball AU also seems like a reasonable extension of Gideon's childhood query: "What if my other parent is the most important guy in the universe?" Answer: Emperor Dad would throw a big party.
But alsoā¦ it's a bride-finding ball! That's so very telling. It could have been anything, but Harrow invents another scenario where she's fighting, competing to get to Gideon, to be awarded the role of her sworn partner (first cav, now bride), while outwardly claiming not to want it.
Now The BARI Star AU often gets described as a "coffee shop" one, but it's actually set in a cohort cafeteria. And normally I wouldn't split hairs over that, but I think the cohort setting is actually really significant. The Cohort was Gideon's dream, and also Harrow's rival for Gideon's attention. It's what she kept trying to leave Harrow for.
So now Harrow dreams that she's left Drearburh to join the cohort and will meet Gideon there. Not fight or compete for a role where they're bound to each other, but just meet her there. That feels like yielding. Like compromise. It makes me think Harrow's subconscious has matured past trying to keep Gideon with her always and is instead looking for ways that SHE can be with Gideon. Meet Gideon where she is.
(Also this may be a stretch, but I always find it low-key funny that Harrow imagines Gideon in the cafeteriaā¦ I like to think her brain is skimming lists of hypothetical military jobs like... what sees the least action... ah, coffee-adept, she'll be perfectly safe there...)
#the locked tomb#griddlehark#htn spoilers#gideon the ninth#harrow the ninth#tlt#tlt spoilers#harrowhark nonagesimus#gideon nav#Harrow Nova is like I don't want to protect her I want see violence done against her so bad I'd buy tickets#but also I'll kill you for the right to protect her#I don't intend to compete but if I did it would never be with my face but also I am going to spend months practicing my makeup just in case
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mockley time it's mockley time will you have some mockleys of mine
#my art#oc#mockley#anthro#furry#dinosaur#i think i like this mockley i think i'm guiding her to where she needs to be design-wise to fit in with her human cohorts#and the lines were fun as hell to render. mockley has so many textures#been in an art rut recently. feel like i'm guiding my art where i don't want it to go. and also feel limited in what i can do#big pity party basically lol but it's good to recognise that and be like well whatever. just do some studies and get back on track#less throwing myself against the same wall and more finding a ladder to get over it. which will involve more studies and less oc drawings#and also less comparing myself to other people and especially people younger than me who have amazing art it's BAD for you#compete with YOURSELF and you can neverrr lose. you can never lose if you have fun LOSING#learn to LOVE losing#my favourite vinny vinesauce quote and one of my favourite motivational quotes ever. he said it as a joke while salty at mario kart#but it's resonated positively in my life ever since hearing it#fall in love with failing.....learn to love losing....(said to myself)
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DCxDP AU: The Ultimate Enemy + The Flash
One of the speedsters (doesn't matter which really) is one of the few survivors of the apocalypse and he just figured out who Phantom is. He can save the world, all he has to do is go back in time and kill Danny Fenton.
Which seems like a great idea, right up to the point where he finds Danny and realizes he is just a 14 year old kid......
#kill your greatest enemy? No no ADOPT your greatest enemy.#Which Flash? Idk the plot works no matter who honestly#And if you are thinking 'he would never plan to kill Danny!'#Well sure under normal circumstances but quite literally the WHOLE WORLD ended. No one is thinking straight after that.#He changes his mind quickly enough.#And yeah the speedsters know better than anyone how dangerous time travel is but desperate times and all that!#dc comics#dc#the flash#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp#dpxdc#dc x dp#dp x dc crossover#dc x dp crossover#dp x dc#barry allen#wally west#my post#if this already exists i am begging you to send me the link#and yes this is more or less boxed lunch's plan but the flash would be way more competent about it#clockwork in the background like 'ahhhh yes all according to plan'
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I find the way that BBC Merlin set up Merlin's powers in the first episode to be quite funny. I mean, we see this sort of lanky guy and it is established that he is Merlin and (according to our own common knowledge) therefore he is the most powerful warlock ever. Okay, cool. One might assume that he has come to Gaius to develop his powers, that maybe he's only in the beginning of his magical journey. But instead the exposition shows Merlin, in the pilot episode of this 5 series show, stop time and employ levitation to save someone's life with magic, and then it is announced that prince Arthur is essentially his soulmate, and their joint power will create the most glorious age Camelot has ever seen. Quite an exciting set-up. And then for the rest of the entire show this man who we know possesses TIME-ALTERING POWERS mostly uses them on-screen to do common chores and annoy and prank THAT SAME Arthur. Like that one post said, "All of it's destiny and all of it's his fault." :p
#i also think something tragic comes out of this#he thought things would go as destiny said they would so he did not really try to contradict arthur at all#also poor morgana - but that's a whole other topic#perpetuating repressed queerphobia metaphor? never#he is set up as an almost-god almighty and loving and kind#and both merlin and us imagine this beautiful kingdom#but then even when arthur is king nothing really changes#and it's for many factors one of which is that nothing changes without a fight (queer metaphor? never)#and another is just the heartbreaking fact that merlin is too compassionate for radical action#merlin loves arthur in one way or another#but still his love doesn't compete with his kindness#so at least firstly he can't bring himself to sacrifice someone in the present for an abstract future arthur#a god cannot afford to be too kind#especially not when it comes to time#and even in the pilot his godly powers are attached to a kindness#an obvious one like saving a life#but still a kindness that perhaps not everyone would have employed#bbc merlin#merthur#i'm sorry merlin - you deserved more
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yall probanly dont even know my fav petekey livejournal post ā¹ļøā¹ļø new mexico sunset has NOTHING on this shit
#petekey#rpf#'how else can you have a monster fall in love with a boy with no heart?#actually im pretty sure you have a heart but im just as certain itll never be mine'#SORRY?????#'he said 'i should have stayed with her' and i should have stayed away'#WTF#nothing competes to this angsty bs#pete wentz#pete wentz livejournal
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this year as a lando fan while itās had its highs (it been great to witness everything heās achieved) itās been an absolute struggle more so than any other year, iāve feel myself becoming less and less attached to the sport and to do so in the year he got his maiden win and was āfightingā for wdc feels so shitty. and the fact is itās got absolutely nothing to do with lando himself, i will continue to support him no matter what, but the discourse surrounding him, people trying to minimise every achievement he got, the bombardment of hate towards him has been nothing less than disgusting, psychotic and heartbreaking. i used to come on this site and go through landos tag to see if id missed anything heād been up to and it was something that brought joy to my day, however now i canāt scroll through the lando tag without seeing hate directed his way by people, (who are not only losing a few braincells with their inability to correctly anti tag), who just think itās fun to wish injury and death on people and dont seem to understand the irony in a lot of their posts. not forgetting the insane lando hate anon, while yes i enjoyed laughing at, would flood lando fans inboxās with hate anytime he so much as breathed. anytime i go on twitter i see more hate for lando from other drivers fan accounts than i see positive things about their drivers. the anti lando hate train that some people think is cool to be on isnāt. and it just shows how rotten of a person you are if no matter what your supposed favourite driver does the first words out of your mouth are about lando norris and reason 626174 of why you hate him. itās very telling when people who claim they arenāt fans are more obsessed with talking about him than those who are, i beg you all seek help and get a hobby because this type of behaviour isnāt healthy both for yourself and for others around you to witness.
#idk iāve been feeling removed for a while now#like yes iāll always watch the race because i want to see him compete and do what he loves#but the discourse around everything is so draining that sometimes i just canāt stand to be around it#anyways happy 2 week break from hell#this also ended up being a lot longer than i originally thought it would be but i just wanted to get it all off my chest#lando norris they will never make me hate you but they will make me hate the sport and the toxicity#anyway lando girlies (gn) i am so happy the majority of us seem to have our heads screwed on and donāt make hatered our entire personality
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it's giving Jyn and Cassian, a happily married power couple, and very much still alive into their 40s š
#like it's two completely unrelated pics but they look soooooo good next to each other#this is brainrot i fear#rebelcaptain#felicity jones#diego luna#shut up sissi#also i will literally never stop asking for that romcom#i'll be on my deathbed and still wanting it#like if we're not thinking rebelcaptain i see this as some wealthy married couple#but plot twist they're hyper-competent con-artists#ready to ruin some lives#DO YOU SEE THE VISION!!!
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Keeley & Rebecca vs Nate & Ted
#tedlassoedit#tvedit#tvgifs#ted lasso#rebecca welton#keeley jones#nathan shelley#my stuff#lots i didnt like about season 2 but i did greatly enjoy these 'parallels'#not exactly parallels but you know#echoes or something like that#nate and keeley both start out intimidated#but keeley quickly establishes herself as an equal#and she and rebecca develop a more mutual relationship#meanwhile nate idolizes ted and never escapes the hierarchical aspect of their relationship#even after he becomes a coach and - technically - ted's equal#and that's despite knowing he is more competent than ted technically speaking#also the fact that mentorship means such different things for nate and keeley#for keeley it's much more aspirational she wants to *be like* rebecca (you know - 'a boss')#nate doesnt really want to be like ted he just wants to *be liked by* ted#it's about approval for him#besides ted was never going to teach nate anything about football which is what nate thinks its all about anyway#so the head pats were his reason to stay when that runs dry he's just angry#and then how all of that ties into their relationships with their parents (keeley with her mum and nate with his dad)#anyway the contrast between nate and keeley's partings is so stark#keeley leaves because she is ready#but the way nate leaves is the very proof he is so not#does that make sense? idk#anyhow 16 DAYS!!!!#ps: im gonna beat anyone who tags this talking about nate in a way that makes it clear theyve never heard of nuance in their lives
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Can't relate to the Astarion lockpicking jokes my Astarion has like +18 on lockpicking or something
#we love a competent king#jk I get it he does critical fail sometimes#rarely though#i'll have you know that I never quicksave when I lockpick š#astarion#bg3
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Hiiiiii for that pre king wish au. Is Loop going to deal with the repercussions of Siffrin always drifting and never finding an anchor? He was just a traveller, moving forward day by day, with nothing new or exciting to live for... until he met the family :3 BUT NOT WITHOUT THE KING-
OK SO. i have Many Thoughts about this, so bare with me here.
Loop, having gone through the Same Two Days for so long they've lost count of time, has a complicated relation with predictability and stagnation. On one hand, if nothing changes, then they can just follow the script, and they'll know what to expect. On the other hand, they'd rather die than be stuck repeating the same lines over and over again, not after finally being freed. And now, by a twist of fate, they're face to face with the past version of the monster they were fighting so hard to defeat.
I think, at first, they stick around as a helpful "guiding figure" while they sort through their own feelings and decide if they're gonna kill this guy or not. After much deliberation and one failed murder attempt, they decide to let him be. Unfortunately for them, in this time they've grown attached to the sobbing wet cat of a man they were stuck with (the King is actually very similar to Siffrin in this AU, so he probably hits a soft spot within Loop, that remembers the horrible feeling of confusion when they first landed in Vaugarde).
After the emotional tumult settles, I think that King intends to go to Corbeaux as per cannon, and Loop (without any better things to do), follows. On the way there, though, they pass by Bambouche, and Loop is hit by the Dread as they watch a slightly younger Bonnie with their sister run by them without giving them a second glance (well, they do look their way, but with confusion and curiosity instead of recognition). That's when it hits Loop that no one in their family is ever going to meet each other because the disaster they bonded over never happens.
I'm still mulling over how I'm gonna make this happen, but I want Loop to put the gang back together with the King's help (maybe on the pretense of finding more about the forgotten nation?). Loop clings to this purpose like a goddamn lifeline, because otherwise, as you mentioned, they would just go back to wandering aimlessly, stumbling around in a land that is not theirs. They want their happy ending because, after All of This? They deserve it.
(On an addendum, there is also a Siffrin in this AU, back when they still kept his hair dyed black.)
(On a second note, I'm currently making those in-game character profiles for the ones who don't have them yet - Loop, King and Nille - so. Uh. There is more to come š)
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#two hats spoilers#isat au#it never happens au#oh ye btw#you know those art advice posts#that say that the best way to get better at art quickly is to get obsessed with one (1) character?#yeah i have to agree with them#drawing the sillies has made me surprisingly competent at copying the game's artstyle#and a lot better at working with a limited color palette#ANYWAYS! character portraits Soon (in like a few days maybe)
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i've been so fucked up for months i haven't been able to go downtown to pick up my work from last spring from my school's textile studio and they always have a cutoff date like if you don't pick up your old work by x date they toss it and they're pretty strict about that unless you arrange with the studio tech beforehand, and the studio tech doesn't like most people she's pretty curt with most students. not rude but just keeps things professional and a bit distant, a very serious person. but i know she grew to like me over the past few years/warmed up to me a lot and we'd chat a lot about different textile things and she would say really kind things to me a lot which felt rare and special, and she let me have special treatment with some of the equipment because she trusted me to use it properly. and i haven't seen her in nearly a year and i expected her to have tossed my work out when i didn't come to pick it up last fall and emailed her to explain why and dropped off the face of the earth, i made my peace with losing that work and accepted it, it is what it is, i will survive, etc.
but she emailed me earlier this week and said she didn't have the heart to toss my work and has kept it safe in her office for me if i'm ever able to come pick it up and if not she's going to keep it as an example piece to show other students when teaching weaving because it's too lovely to get rid of and my heart swelled like 10 times its size bc she didn't have to do that and it meant so much to me that even a year from seeing her last she was still thinking about me and being kind to me. and i emailed her back and picked it up today and saw her and we chatted for a bit and it was so nice. I love her I miss my school's textile studio and weaving in there and talking craft with her... sigh
#ill never able to finish that program because i cant afford tuition anymore & am ineligible for student loans now#so ill never get to weave in that studio or work with her again and i didnt have the heart to tell her its just too sad#but we exchanged personal emails and instagrams so i know we'll keep in touch#being sick at home 95% of the time makes it easy to forget how nice it feels to interact with other people#who see you as like. an independent competent adult they respect as a colleague of sorts... its really really nice
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Zim, Dib, Gaz, and Tak are actually all horribly vindictive spiteful people to more or less equal degrees, but the interesting thing is that Zim and Gaz both exact vengeance in very specific, premeditated ways, which are often wildly out of proportion but once they feel like they've evened the score they will pretty much immediately forget about whatever pissed them off in the first placeāwhereas Dib and Tak are both ostensibly above being ruled by petty grudges, but very obviously boiling over with a constant resentment that sends them pouncing like rabid dogs at even the slightest opportunity or excuse to make the object of their ire suffer (and if they're both working towards their own self-serving end game that just HAPPENS to involve every terrible thing imaginable befalling their enemies, well... that'll just be a happy by-product of their personal success).
I don't I have any point to make here, I just like it when these freaks are all an overwhelming danger to society (and each other)
#invader zim#zim#dib#gaz#tak#meta#my meta#natterings#iz posting#the universe was never supposed to accommodate this many lunatics gathering in one place#let alone coming into direct conflict with each other#anyway i think tak is probably the scariest of the four not just due to her competence#but because she shares dibs deeply insidious insatiable anger AND whatever irken brainworm it is that makes zim so creatively awful#also i made this joke on twitter once already but dib must be so desensitized to the OTT retribution at this point#got it from gaz his whole life and then when zim showed up it NEVER occurs to him#that if he maybe stopped throwing things at zim for no reason then zim might stop wildly overreacting#its just a given to him that sometimes your life gets ruined over stupid bullshit#you cant let that hold you back
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About the accents: if someone has a very "proper" Italian they are either foreigners or politicians/dignitaries/etc. So that fits perfectly for Machete, but I think it would be so funny if he sometimes slipped up and used a Nepalese word bc he forgot one in "proper" Italian lol
(Funny to me cause Naples has its own language in addition to accent, and most people don't actually know those words)
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#ah that's good to hear!#glad it fits him#there's no way he gets it perfect every time#especially in the absence of widely used standardized Italian in the original canon era#there's bound to be a mix up every now and then#I don't know how likely it would be that he absorbed much Venetian at the time he lived there#I remember reading that lectures in medieval and early premodern universities were held in Latin but I could be wrong#even though his original native language is Sicilian I think he has probably lost a lot if not most of it due to lack of use#but it would be kind of funny if the Neapolitan and/or Sicilian influences resurfaced occasionally in private casual conversations#and Vasco who to my knowledge has never been to the south would be left guessing what he was even trying to say#I'm taking the easy way out and lowering their language barriers a bit out of convenience bear with me#I'm not competent enough to deal with all the different languages and dialects and the communication issues that would come with them#answered#anonymous#sorry to point out an obvious typo but I think you must've gotten Neapolitan/Napolese autocorrected to Nepalese by accident or something#unless Machete has secret ties to Nepali that I'm not aware of#which would be quite a twist
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Panel of all time
#atsushi nakajima#ryÅ«nosuke akutagawa#sskk#shin soukoku#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd dead apple#mine#q.#23/02/23#27/02/23#They are. They are so so cute actually this panel makes me melt ajchvlucbakjyhvcsajhvc#It's the... Vague feeling of domestic tbh. Something that's so familiar and usual between them that can be used to light up the mood#The saying āEverything surrounding us right now is strange and confusing and scary but this. Our abilities competing.#This is familirar. This is reassuring. Your existence alone is soothing for me.ā#And it's just š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ GOD I love them#I feel like it's in this kind of panels that you can really see that Akutagawa loves Atsushi.#Of that kind of love he keeps deep hidden in him and he knows he will never voice and it will never be#But it's also there deep and hidden to keep it safe you know?#Akutagawa is already used to suffer anyways; unrequited love isn't going to hurt him more than other things did. He can handle it.#But it's also that thing that may have him say āI'm human. This is the proof of my humanity.ā#No matter that others don't see him as human and never will#It also uses to ground him. To look at Byakko and Rashomon fight with an amused look on his face.#So yeah THEM!!!!!!!!!!
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my brain, 7 times a day: you mean... you're... quirkless again?
#yup but... i never had a quirk in the first place... so i can't be too broken up about it. besides i couldn't have transferred it without#wanting to. my time with it... gave me a glimpse of the most amazing dream.#flashback what dirty tricks did you use to do it you quirkless twerp?#flashback then i'm gonna rise even higher than that. i've gotta keep growing too!#flashback don't you dare let me surpass you izuku!#huh? w... waahcchan?!#no... no no no... ugh... i mean...#what the hell... did i do to you?#i guess i thought... we'd be competing... and i'd be on your heels... for the rest... of our... lives......#the brainrot is strong guys#bkdk#bakudeku#dkbk#dekubaku#ktdk#katsudeku#bnha#boku no hero academia#mha#my hero acedamia#bnha 424#mha 424#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#katsuki bakugo#katsuki bakugou#bakugo katsuki#bakugou katsuki#izuku midoriya#midoriya izuku
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