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First of all, you’re amazing BUT GIIIIRL I’m going out of my mind. Is the first kiss still far away? I can’t take it anymore 😩😩😩😩 I love them and hate them at the same time🥹🥹🥹
ajdjsnd thank you sm and i totally understand lmao 🫶🏼
you probably won’t like my answer tho 🤣 i mean i can’t say for sure but their first kiss probably won’t happen until the very end.
4 reasons for that:
1. it’s a slow burn series. i know technically (if we take the in-series-time in consideration) only a week has passed in their time so let’s kinda ignore that fact 🤣
2. both agreed on wanting to spend time with one another as friends. and both like where things are atm, so both won’t risk losing their current dynamic by initiating sth that could threaten it. i mean reader’s very hesitant anyway 💀 and i feel like rafe’s scared of scaring her off with any physical move after her crazy spiral in the car. flirting? absolutely fine. but other than that i guess he’s also more cautious now.
plus neither of them is aware of their crush on each other. reader knows he wants her sexually but that doesn’t necessarily mean he’s into her as a whole. and rafe doesn’t even consider her crushing on him. he just thinks she’s weird and that’s why she’s weird around him 🤣 (also let’s ignore the fact that this poor boy doesn’t even consider someone could fall for him as a person and not just his looks 😃🔫)
3. it’s just so much more fun to write the tension before the first kiss. like the dancing around one another, the teasing and jokes and everyone knows how it’ll end except them and GOSH. of course a kiss doesn’t immediately have to mean anything or lead to anything but it def would let out some pressured air. (that’s just my opinion of course)
4. the kiss has to be perfect. for rafe it would mean he’d kiss a girl not just out of pure lust but affection and for reader it would mean EVERYTHING. so i hope you understand that i don’t wanna throw that special moment away just so they kissed.
but of course, i don’t want you guys to feel like i’m playing you as readers. so despite what i just said, there’ll be lots of moments in which they get closer. sweet and fluffy scenes like the bracelet or balcony scene (LIKE IF YOU ONLY KNEW WHAT I’VE PLANNED FOR A CERTAIN CHAPTER AHHHHHHH), lots of giggles and smiles and AGAIN BE READY FOR SOME CRAZY FLUFF IN ONE OF THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS.
you can also expect some smut soon BUT a little heads up: it’s gonna be a dream, not an actual irl scene (sorry 😅)
so all i can do is ask you to trust me, have a little patience and try to enjoy the remaining chapters nonetheless <3
thank you for sticking around, i hope i didn’t discourage anyone now. trust me, i’m well aware you guys just want them to get together, hold hands and cuddle, (and do some unholy things), and believe me, i feel so bad and anxious that i can’t give you that (yet).
i’m just trying to make things perfect and lead the plot toward the perfect moment in which things reach their climax and then it’ll feel all the more satisfying.
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Monthly Progress Update #11
Hey everyone! First off, sorry for vanishing (again 😅) - life decided to throw work, university, and general chaos at me all at once. But I'm back now, and I've got updates (both good and…well, a little less good).
The Good News:
The Chapter 2 revision is almost done! Despite the silence, I've been steadily chipping away at it, and I'm confident it'll be ready next week. That means I can finally dive into Chapter 3 - something I've been itching to do for some time.
The Not So Good News:
To get here, I had to make some cuts, the biggest one being the new Zenon relationship/opinion options. For now, that part is shelved.
In short, those scenes ended up being more complex than I expected. Rewriting them would've basically meant creating entirely new scenes with their own set of choices and branching paths, and honestly? I hit a wall. Between a looming burnout and my eagerness to just finally move forward, I decided it's better to add them in a future update (likely after Chapter 3).
I know it's not ideal, but I'd rather deliver a solid revision now than keep everyone waiting even longer while I drag my feet with those Zenon scenes. I hope you all understand - and don't worry, Zenon's new content will happen! Just…not this update.
Thank you all for sticking with me, and get ready for an update very soon! 😊
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Hey! :) i have this idea for a fic request in mind ever since I listened to the werewolf Seth audios, so I’ve been thinking, Werewolf Seth vs vampire Alphonse! >:3 i also got plot ideas,
Alphonse, having been traveling the world for like 20-some years (he got that vampire cash-money) eventually tires of his travels and decides to settle down in his home town for a few years, and that just so happens to be the same town his werewolf ex lover haunts (ha), after he’s settled in to his new home, al decides to pop in for a visit at a certain werewolf’s place of work, but…when he walks in, he doesn’t see anyone he would expect too instead he sees a beautiful/handsome/aesthetically-pleasing human working the front desk
I could see the plot going two ways from there
1) basically just reverse bittersweet (ie Reader is in a committed relationship with seth)
Or
2) basically the original plan for bittersweet (Seth and Alphonse as rivals) (ie Reader sometimes has casual sex w/ Seth so alphonse and seth would both have a pretty even chance of getting with Reader)
Also if the general idea of vamp! Al vs wwolf Seth is interesting to you but my plot ideas aren’t, feel free to go hog wild! I’m sure you could probs think of a better plot than me lol!
(Also I would appreciate Reader being gender neutral)
Mirrors & Moonlight
Chapter One: The Return of The Nightwalker
Summary: You’re dating the werewolf mechanic when his vampire ex comes back to town, and he doesn’t come back pleased. . .
Notes:
Hello! Thank you so much for your request! I went with the vampire and werewolf ex-lovers and will be doing route one! This is going to be multi chapter but here’s chapter one! Sorry about the title! 😅
This is taking me back to the OLD fanfiction days. My friend, I thank you for the request and I’m sorry that it took so long. I would give an explanation as to why, but it would be three pages long and you came here to read fanfiction so let’s get to that.
Wordcount: 1999
It was a warm day at the repair shop, the heat setting off every mechanic in there. The growls and snarky remarks were starting to get to you once the afternoon had hit, as you had been using a handheld fan to keep yourself cool to no avail. Sweat beaded down your brown as you rubbed it off with the sleeve of your flannel.
Seth was working not far from you, his jacket hanging off the hood of one of the cars as he slicked back his hair the seventh time in a half an hour. At some point after tightening something you didn’t know the name of, he placed down the tool and let out a sigh, nabbing his jacket and closing the hood of the car.
He walked over to you, his eyes dead set on yours as he threw the jacket over his shoulder. You smiled at him as he walked over. He leaned over the desk, elbow hanging off as he glanced at you.
He gave you a look from eye to eye, a seductive smile creeping up on his face.
“Fan feels nice over here,” he said, the smile on his face. You smiled, rolling your eyes and he laughed in response. He draped his jacket around the desk, over to you, giving you a momentary fond look before spinning on his heel and getting back to work.
The sun was finally starting to set, and the other mechanics were finally beginning to finish up their jobs for the day and clock out. Seth was still working on a job, as he was closing that night. And you were still there, as he was driving you home after closing.
The warmth of the day was cooling off, the coolness feeling like a blessing on your skin from the sweat that bead down your brow as you watched mechanic after mechanic clock out and bid you farewell for the day. The only one who remained was Seth, hands covered in grease and slicked-back hair full of sweat with strands falling down his face.
“You can finish the job tomorrow, Seth,” You insisted. “It’s not going to be due for at least another week.”
“I know,” he responded, wiping beads of sweat from his brown with a yellow towel stained with grease. “But you know I can’t help it.”
“And you won’t be able to help anyone if you stay up all night working on that thing!” You exclaim in a joking tone of voice.
“Oh ha ha,” he mocked, a joking smile on his face. He threw his jacket over his shoulder and walked over to you, who had walked around the front desk and was locking up the cashbox. He pressed a kiss into your hair, placing a hand around your waist.
Seth walked over to the garage door, beckoning you to him as you collected your things as he prepared to lock up.
“It’s been a while,” a voice called out against the set sun, the moon appearing behind them on the horizon. You turned to face the voice, and saw a dark-haired man, red eyes that gleamed like rubies and pale skin that contrasted his hair. His clothing seemed odd to you, wearing a dress shirt and vest in the middle of a raging summer heatwave already seemed obscene to you, but the fact he wore what appeared to be a floor-length cape over it disturbed you slightly. “Hello Seth.”
You turned to Seth, who was frozen where he stood, his face drained of color briefly, shock echoing, before his expression turned to one of rage and loathing. He pushed you behind him, his left arm wrapping protectively around you as he stood in front of you. “Why are you here?”
“I can’t visit an old friend now?” the person queried, his tone of voice mocking before he chuckled. Seth narrowed his eyes, his eyebrows furrowing at the sight of the mysterious person. You stood behind him, peering around him to view the figure.
That’s when the person noticed you, their eyes lighting up in arousement as their tongue slid between their teeth. Their head tilted while they observed you, interest practically sparkling in their eyes. They smiled and hummed, eyes rolling over you. “Who’s the little one cowering behind you?” they asked, clicking their tongue.
“Now that isn’t any of your concern,” Seth practically growled at the figure. The figure just smiled and chuckled, taking a dramatic inhale before sighing and tilting his head.
“But I do believe we haven’t met yet,” the figure directed towards you, ignoring Seth’s careful and vicious words. They held out their hand to you, taking your hand from behind Seth and bringing it to their lips to press a gentle kiss. “The name is Alphonse, charmed to meet such a lovely figure.”
His lips were cold as they pressed against your hand, before releasing. You stood there, astonished at Alphonse’s actions as he let go of your hand, brushing himself off. You yanked it back to yourself as Seth pulled you back behind him protectively.
“Why are you here, Alphonse?” Seth reiterated through gritted teeth. You could tell the wolf inside of him was rising with his anger, his hands balled into fists shaking in rage by his side. You undid one of the hands and slipped yours in, squeezing it reassuringly.
“I have some business back in town, you see,” he began, his tone almost seeming bored. “Dealings with the family business, you would know, wouldn’t you, whelp?”
Seth seemed to get angrier at the name, exhaling with rage burning through his nostrils. “Then why come and pay a visit to little ‘ol me?” Seth asked, his rage barely contained behind his wild eyes.
“I thought a little visit to an old friend wouldn’t hurt,” Alphonse responded nonchalantly, almost mockingly. “And what a surprise it was to see my old flame with a pretty thing like that dangling off his arm.” He continued, motioning to you with his pale hand.
Old flame? You wondered. Your thoughts were running at a million miles a minute, attempting to keep up with the situation that you had seemingly found yourself in.
“So what? It ain’t any of your damn concern,” Seth spat with malice towards the taller man.
“No,” Alphonse frowned slightly, before it was replaced with a monotone expression. “I suppose it isn’t.” He sighed, pushing back his dark hair with a pale hand. He turned away, taking a few paces before craning his head back to face Seth. “I’ll be in town for quite some time longer, so I suppose I’ll be seeing you around, my dear hound.”
With that, the man turned on his heel and left, walking into the distance and seemingly disappearing into the shadows.
Seth stood there beside you, rage burning inside him, blood boiling as you held his hand. You yourself utterly confused about what had just occurred and concerned about whatever was to come next.
Seth’s hand practically clung to yours as he shakily led you to his car, the moon high in the sky, crescent and bright while the two of you left the shop for the night.
Taglist(ask to be added!): @ryder-writes
#yuurivoice#yuurivoice alphonse#yuurivoice bittersweet#yuurivoice seth#Yuurivoice werewolf seth#Yuurivoice vampire Alphonse#Mirrors and Moonlight#Well I finished the first chapter finally lmao#Sorry it took so long
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Cant Stay Mad
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Nick Sturniolo X Markus Rhodes
Wc:1000+
Genre:Angst
Warnings:swearing
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The door slammed shut behind Nick, the echo sharp and final. The room was quiet, the kind of silence that weighs down on your chest and makes your ears ring. Nick tossed his keys onto the counter, jaw clenched so tight it hurt.
Markus stood across the room, arms folded, eyes already locked onto him like he’d been waiting.
“So you weren’t gonna answer any of my texts?” Markus’s voice was low, edged with that dangerous calm before the storm.
Nick didn’t look at him. “Didn’t think there was anything to say.”
Markus scoffed. “Seriously? After the shit you pulled today?”
Nick turned sharply. “What shit, Markus? That I was working? That I didn’t have time to baby you through another one of your insecure episodes?”
“Oh my god—fuck you,” Markus snapped, stepping forward. “You ignored me all day. You bailed on lunch without a word. And then I see you laughing it up in a video like everything’s fine?”
“I was fine until this!” Nick shot back. “You act like I’m your emotional support dog. I have shit going on too, Markus!”
“Yeah, but you don’t talk about it. You just shut me out and expect me to wait around like I’m supposed to guess what’s wrong.”
Nick’s hands were shaking. He didn’t know if it was anger or guilt anymore. Maybe both. “I’m tired, okay? I’m tired of having to perform all day, be okay for everyone else, and then come home and feel like I’m still not enough for you.”
Markus blinked, that sentence landing like a punch. “Not enough?” he whispered. “Nick, I’ve only ever wanted you. I don’t give a shit if you’re tired or messy or quiet—I just want you to talk to me. I want to matter.”
“You do,” Nick said quickly, breath hitching. “You do matter. But sometimes you make it so hard to breathe, Markus. You ask and ask and I give and give and suddenly I’m empty and it’s still not enough for you.”
A silence fell between them, tense and raw.
“I’m not trying to drain you,” Markus said softly, voice cracking. “I just… I get scared. That you’ll stop needing me. That I’m just background noise in your world of cameras and chaos.”
Nick looked away, jaw clenched. His voice was barely above a whisper. “And I’m scared that one day I’m gonna open up and it still won’t be enough. That I’ll tell you everything, and you’ll just… walk away.”
Markus stepped closer, his eyes glossy now. “Do you think I’d really leave you like that?”
Nick didn’t answer. His silence said enough.
Markus swallowed thickly, trying to steady his voice. “I’m not going anywhere. Even when it’s ugly. Even when it’s this. I want all of you, Nick. Not just the pieces you think are okay to show.”
Nick blinked rapidly, eyes stinging. “I don’t know how to do that without ruining everything.”
Markus reached for his hand—hesitantly, like Nick might flinch away—but Nick didn’t.
“Then let’s ruin it together,” Markus whispered. “Because I’d rather fight with you than be okay with anyone else.”
Nick looked up finally, really looked. At the boy who knew how to push every button and still knew when to soften. At the person who stayed, even when Nick made it hard.
He exhaled shakily and let the wall he’d built all day begin to crumble.
“I’m sorry,” Nick said, barely audible.
“Me too,” Markus replied.
They stood there, surrounded by silence again, but this time it didn’t feel so heavy.
It felt like a start.
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A nicksno1simp original
A/N: First time writing angst, what y’all think? Should I make a part 2? 😅
#nick sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#sturniolo#the sturniolo triplets#sturniolo triplets#chris sturniolo#gay#matt sturniolo#mlm#angst#fanfiction#fanfic
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Mulan and Legend!! This one was so much fun! I definitely challenged myself with the background, but my favorite scene from the original Disney cartoon was the scene where Mulan's father sits with her on the stone bench beneath the cherry blossoms and encourages her. So, I kinda wanted to honor that in this one!!
I think that Legend would really respect Mulan; not only is she caring, smart, and kind, but she is also super tough and strong and a brave warrior!! She definitely could hold her own as Hero of Courage. So I think that Legend would really listen to her advice and her words of wisdom.
Sooooo I know the LU fandom loves to torture poor Legend, but I wanted to give him a break here 😂 He deserves it for sure!! Also, the pink flowers would perhaps remind him of... someone else, which would be a bittersweet moment for him.
I imagine that in this scene he kinda opens up to her about his own troubles and she encourages him with her own stories of her trials and successes, and how it all worked out in the end!
Anyways, sorry to ramble! I hope you all like it!! Thanks so much for your support!! Have a wonderful day/night! 🩵
#myart#digital art#linkeduniverse#linked universe#lu legend#mulan#mulan 1998#disney princess x lu#yes i know that the quote is actually what the emperor says instead of what her father says#but they are close enough i couldn't think of anything else 😅#i hope this met everyone's expectations!#i was kinda at a loss of ideas for this one so i just decided to honor something that was really impactful to me as a little girl#mulan and legend have a lot of vibe similarities#but their stories are very unique and distinct#so i had to think outside the box a little#thanks for all of your help!! you all are the best!! 🩵#art#disney mulan#legend of zelda#disney
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Hello, my name is NattiKay, and welcome to my blog! Before you follow, there’s a thing you should know about how I do fandom.
Basically, it can take one of two forms. The first is casual fandoms—this includes various media I enjoy and will like/reblog posts about, maybe even doodle for on rare occasions. I can have several of these simultaneously.
But the second—and much more visible—is a “main” fandom, which you can also call hyperfixation or special interest if you wish. I only have one of these at a time, it lasts for years, and it pretty much takes over my life and blog during that time. Once every few years or so my brain will latch on to a new “main” fandom—I don’t know what triggers it to switch, and I have zero control over when it happens or to what.
My current special-interest fandom is Avatar (James Cameron/blue people), with a bonus mini-fixation on the Na'vi language. My favorite characters are the Sully family and much of my art focuses on them right now.
Previous special-interest fandoms that I’ve had during my time on tumblr are, in descending order of recency:
Trollhunters/Tales of Arcadia Miraculous Ladybug Inuyasha
I make this distinction to say that if you recently found this blog through fanart of one of these previous fixations and followed hoping for more, I’m sorry to say you’re going to be disappointed.
When my fixation switches, I loose interest in actively creating content for the previous fandom because all my energy gets dedicated to the new one. This does not at all mean that I no longer like the previous ones—I may still reblog posts about them here and there—just that I no longer have the inspiration to be producing a bunch of art/comics/etc for them the way I used to. They’ve essentially moved from main fandom to casual fandoms. Yes, this will happen one day for my current fixation too, though I have no way of predicting when.
I will not be offended if you follow me during one fixation and then unfollow when it switches. I will also not be offended if you recently found this blog through my old content from previous fandoms and then choose not to follow because of this post: like I said, if you follow hoping for new art from those, you’re gonna be let down 😅
#(figured I should have a new pinned post that isn’t ML-specific like the old one 😅)#still feel free to follow if you still want to of course!#just don’t be expecting new art from previous fixations#shoutout to the folks who have stuck with me through multiple fixations y’all are great; sorry for doing this to your dash lol#(to anyone who might being saying “but wait didn’t you say atla was one of your previous fixations? why isn’t that on the list?”)#(the answer is yes yes it was! but that was pre-tumblr so I doubt anyone’s gonna be finding this blog through that lol)
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not sure this post reaches the right target audience
#don't think many austrians are following me here but#well i watched a bit of austrian bundesliga as well today#and like dortmund is my club but the club i'm kinda supporting in austria is sturm graz#i mean i literally live in the city of graz now while studying so it's the obvious choice#well anyways they won so that's great#but our league is literally so weak tf 😅#i mean i was hoping for a draw in the salzburg fak match as it would have been the best result for sturm graz#or i guess a win also would have been great bc i don't like rb salzburg#but how did they loose against salzburg?? even now#this is the weakest salzburg in years they have been so bad this season and fak still didn't get any points out of it#how are they 2nd despite having one of the worst seasons ever? i was really hoping others teams could take advantage but no#i mean punkteteilung did help salzburg 😅 - which i think is stupid anyway and i would get rid of it btw#and also rapid loosing like that against wac 😵💫 i would have hoped for a win would have been better for the table from my perspective#they were actually kinda good at the start of the season no idea what happened then ... they are falling apart now#such a weird season altogether ... never would have expected fak to climb up that high in the table#and almost every club was really struggling so much at one point ... hope sturm doesn't blow it now but so far so good#not many matches to go#but well yeah if someone wants share their opinion... i do not follow the austrian league that closely but it'd be nice to chat#well anyways what i was trying to say is that our league is still poor in my opinion and i hope it gets stronger one day#you can also really see that on the international stage ... i mean the austrian clubs did badly in ucl this year (not just this year)#nice to see salzburg dominance has ended tho :)))
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so I'm doing the final round of editing and this chapter is over 8500 words and I'm like 85% sure I can get it published tomorrow, if not on Sunday for sure
#for me this is a monster of a chapter#I don't even have one shot fics that are this long 😅#but I don't expect the following chapters to be nearly this long maybe half#the good thing though is I've also started writing ch 2 and 3 already so I'm a little bit ahead yay!#ngl I'm legit really nervous about posting it bc it's such a huge (and quite personal) project#Winnie.txt
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Guys; i made my first bracelet 🤭
@formulalakana I dont manage to get other made by monday then this one is for you 🤗
#i didnt have any guidance just went with what i had in the two of three sets of beads i had#(i have no idea where i put my letter beads 😭#so these two are from a bracelet that broke 😅#also the wire i got in one of the bead sets is not elastic so closing it was way more stressful than expected 😱#so i hope it wont break 😅)#despite all this i think it is quite alright for a first bracelet 😄#let me see if i can find some elastic wire#(and maybe a tutorial? xD)#then try again :3#i prob cannot make a lot before finland but if i am lucky one or two more we'll see xD#(should i be fooling around with making bracelets at this hour? prob not#but i needed something different from drawing damnit xD)#micahs foolery#creative kääryleet
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summary of art 2023! here are some of my fave (non-zine) pieces from every month this year :) i'm most happy with the way my digital colouring process has improved from last year 🎉 it's easier now to make things look less flat after some tricks i picked up and practiced throughout the year ✨️✨️
thank you for all your support! it's always a pleasure and a delight to see your tags and comments in my notes. it really picked me up this year when i needed it. :')💖 let's all have a great 2024!
pieces: jan / feb / mar / apr / may / jun / jul / aug / sep / oct / nov / dec
#art summary#summary of art#demon slayer#batfamily#one piece#newsies#stranger things#kny#spot me going through my phases haha :') batfamily > renkaza > mishanks#fr tho this year's kinda scared me and im still dealing but it was always nice to open the app and see the enthusiasm for my art#thanks yall 💖💖💖#i wish i could add my zine pieces to this cuz im really proud of them :')#i couldve added the six au batfamily one but i also realized i have no idea what month id put it in lol#i finished it in apr but i posted it in dec 😅#so i decided to just. not. lol. but im proud of it!!!#the figure skating mihawk one was a surprise for me. i didnt expect it to turn out so good.#it was a rough sketch i only coloured cuz i coloured shanks's and then it felt like i was being unfair to mihawk hahaha#but the shading + the bg turned out really nice
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So. Sonic 3 hit streaming and I finally had a day off. So I finally finally got to watch all the Sonic movies. Finally. 😂
Ofc they were lots of fun, but what surprised me the most was how…immediate, stobotnik was. 😂 idk why but I had this idea that he was assigned to be the mad scientist wrangler in the first movie and slowly fell for him. But nope! Immediately introduced as #1 henchman and simp extraordinaire. 😂😂 also just how….blatant, it is. Like that’s not subtext, that’s just text. Even before I watched the movies I knew I liked Stone, but holy heck I absolutely NEED him to be a series mainstay from now on. 😭💗
#other things that caught me off guard: somehow didn’t know super sonic was in 2 😅#absolutely did not know chao were included at all :o#and Ben Schwartz just…going full Jean Ralphio for a second. the whiplash. 😂😂😂#I also tried watching knuckles. got one episode in and immediately googled if it’s necessary to watch before 3.#listen. I was hyped for Shadow. 😔 he’s literally the reason I resolved to watch these movies. I very specifically waited until 3 was#available so I wouldn’t have to wait to see my baby boy.#also. there were some things specifically with Tails’ and Shadow’s backstories that I expected to be flushed out further. like waiting for#idk. a twist? an extra gut punch? that never came and it’s not that I think it’s *bad* that it wasn’t just that deep#but I would at least like a little more info on why very suddenly the govt was going to ‘take shadow away’#it just felt….abrupt? unearned? also wish we got to see how grampa eggman and shadow interacted 50 years ago…#apple talks#to the tune of spam
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I made it to America, apparently needing to know geography would've been helpful
#summer camp tag#travel tag#ace is a mess#i cant even tell how long ive been awake with timezones now#they kept asking where i was going and i didnt know which bit they wanted#there were like 3 different answers and i didnt know which was the relevant one 😭😅#shoulda been able to rule out state but thats just the bit thats most easy for me to remember#my flight was actually quicker than scheduled to be but took forever to take off and thats the bit i hate most so i kept psyching myself out#but honestly the flight itself? nicer than i was expecting waaay more food than i anticipated so im happy#now just waiting for my connecting flight in 2 hours but i made it stateside and through immigration without fcking it#i did almost cry after all the security stuff though i was stressing
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i'm back on tumblr (again)
#exams are over mostly#for now at least until may altough i might have one next week let's see#but so far so good#i did postpone a few unfortunately thought but it is what it is i'll still have to do them this semester#it's gonna be tough but i'll pull through and i want to prepare even better i can do this#the one's i did though i die exceptionally well on which makes me kinda proud ig#i got an a on two really difficult one's as the only person :oo lol ig i did something here#feels like i cracked some code for studying and ngl it feels so good i want more results like these#not sure it will work on all exams though but i feel like my studying techniques were pretty spot on and i actually studied more than usual#i feel like i'm getting addicted to this lol like actually being good at uni feels so good so rewarding#i mean i always wanted it and i have been good at uni for some time now but like i did even better this semester - i finished with no c#and lots of a's#but then also i wish i could just study for the enjoyment of it 🥹#don't get me wrong i love learning and being at uni most of the time is actually enjoyable :)#and i like learning the materials because it's interesting to but actually sitting down to study - the anxiety takes so much away from that#when i sit down and study it's usually with so much anxiety ... how do you study without those negative thoughts in your head constantly#i'm always convinced i'm gonna fail anyway and also when i don't meet my study goals on a day i get stressed because i'm behind schedule#and disappointed whenever i don't study as much as i planned or even not at all#like i tell you before i wrote that exam i got an a on i thought oh i might fail i'm gonna need a bit of luck to get a d#altough i thought i could also get a better grade but i have no judgment#part of me still thinks i got a bit lucky with the questions and i still cannot fathom how i did that ngl#i'm trying to stop these thoughts to make studying more enjoyable and i try to tell myself it's not a linear process#and sometimes it takes longer than expected but then your knowledge increases exponentially at one point#or i also feel like i set myself such unattainable study goals i'm bound to not meet them#and i should really prioritize my sleep more and not study in terribly sleep deprived states sometimes#i did get better with that but still it's so bad how i'd sacrifize my mental health for my grades 🥲#but if i'd fail an exam or do badly on it i'm also always so disapointed in myself so it's like i can't win 😅#i just want better balance with good grades and having a life and being in a better mental state#i do have some internal motivation like i want this for my future still i wish i could be more internally motivated#i also don't want my parents to worry and want to make them proud altough that's not a bad one
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fic talk in the tags 💝
#aaaaaaaa i have only 4 stores left to write for the advent calendar and then i'm done?! 😭#i can't believe it guys i might actually be able to pull this off 👀#i've literally just winged it day after day with minimal planning#and i haven't even had a breakdown once? gonna knock on wood here real quick lol#i've had so much fun writing all these little stories too 🥺 and i'm fairly satisfied with them as well! yes!! me!! my biggest critic!!#i'm not gonna be writing anything for a while after i get these last ones done though lol i've written SO MUCH during these past weeks#however i did write down a short piece of dialogue in finnish the other day 👀#like. literally 11 words and idk if i'm ever gonna write more but those words just...came to me so i had to write them down somewhere#(it has been peer-reviewed as 'perfect' (thanks eetu <3) and you can totally slide in my DMs if you're curious)#and the college/uni au i've been playing with practically all autumn is something i definitely want to give a try#(so far i only have some random notes and moodboards 😅)#but whatever i'll end up writing i'll do it because i want to and that's what's important 🤍#thank you so much everyone who has been reading these stories or any of my fics this year#i really am not expecting anyone to read my stories and i'm happy if even just one person does 🥺#okay sappy talk over now back to writing byeeeeee#*stories
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I have so many photos I need to post. 15 years worth!!! I started posting them on my old tumblr's side blog but never finished and then I abandoned tumblr for years. but tbh I feel like posting my work doesn't benefit me and it's just more pointless work for me 😭 especially instagram and twitter where my posts get maybe 1 like from a follower if i'm lucky and that's it. why do I even bother 😭 no one is excited to see my work so it'd hard to motivate myself to actually share anything when it doesn't benefit me and when no one else is excited for or looking forward to it. sometimes I lose that "I made a thing I want to share it like a kid hanging their finger painting on the fridge" mentality 😅 even kids can get discouraged and give up sharing if you don't ooo and ahhh over their work. does that make sense?
#also can we talk about how horrible social media is?#i was told instagram is so easy. you get many quick likes and followers. ive SEEN new accounts get thousands kf followers and hundreds#of likes in a couple weeks. ive been on there for years and have 20 followers and get 1 like sometimes#new accounts with one post will get 1k followers and 300 likes in a week. i just dont get it lmao im so confused 🤣#and twitter is now pay to win. i only got maybe 5 likes per post before. now i get none at all. which is expected...#so why am i bothering!#at least on tumblr my art will get maybe 20 notes and my photography maybe 10. so it doesnt feel as pointless to share 😅#i really want to open a shop for my art and photography and stuff but with the lack of attention im afraid to#because its A LOT OF WORK and i hate wasting my time and energy and money for no reason 😭#my last shop i opened got a grand total of 0 sales in the 2 years i had it open LOL it took me months to set it up and print everything#artist struggles#is there anywhere actually good to post your work online? (besides tiktok. i refuse) most social media has become useless!!!#lee text#sorry for whining 😅 just questioning my entire existence and why i even bother to do anything
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Do A’vi and Rael have favorite foods/comfort dishes they like? Or drinks? (Also no pressure to answer right away/at all ‘v’ I just thought it would be interesting to know :0)
Thank you! That’s a very nice question! 💖
In Rael’s case I wrote a little birthday story last december that actually included them being homesick and trying to remember the smell of the carrot cake their mother always used to make for them. She also used to make excellent herbal teas and Rael hasn’t found any other place yet that serves something comparable.
Other than that Rael is not particularly picky or prone to get emotional over something so normal as food. But something that will always remind them of their happy childhood days in the Golmore Jungle is the taste of blackberries and wild strawberries.
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For A‘viloh the situation is a little different. He likes sweets a lot and is very likely to eat an unhealthy amount of chocolate when he’s feeling unhappy or a big bowl of ice cream (but only on days that are warm enough for that!). The sweeter the better!
There is no particular taste that reminds him of his real family or home, he was too young when he lost both. The food at the Forgotten Springs had always been great but sweets had been a very rare occurrence. A‘vi remembers fondly how Laqa and the other boys often tried to steal dates from their mother‘s food supplies and sometimes - when they hadn’t gotten caught - Laqa would share his loot with him. So you could absolutely say dates are his favourite treat.
#that turned out longer than I expected again…#Looks like I just can’t be brief about anything 😅#thank you so much for the question!#Everybody is allowed to send any question for one or both of them my way! It makes me very happy when people show interest in my OCs!#ffxiv#ff14#final fantasy xiv#final fantasy 14#Aviloh Tia#Rael Hyskaris#answered asks#Quizzes&Questions
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